#legit have no clue how to tag this I’m just kinda bored

[awkward-potato-504]

There’s a little part of me that wants to find all the epic the musical audition tracks, sing them and post them online just for fun

Also if u have any recommendations of where the least worst place to post it would be please tell me

[thefanficmonster]

You Never Notice

Sykkuno x Reader (Female)

Warnings: None

Genre: Fluff

Summary: The center of someone’s world is never aware of their importance even when everyone else is in the know. People are hard to understand, no denying, but if we all spilled our truth like how Y/N admitted her feelings to Sykkuno, mutual understanding would be achieved a lot more easily. JK, she needed an eternity and maybe a thousand pushes. What’s important is the result though, right?

Requested by Anon. You are my first Sykkuno request and I wish I could thank you with a tag. Instead, I’m gonna thank you with a fic in which I put my all. Thank you for the request, hope the final product doesn’t let you down. 🥰

Here we go again. Sykkuno’s love life is brought up. This time it’s more frustrating cause I can’t shout how wrong he is about himself and the effect he has on the people around him. He has no room to speak, he hasn’t experienced what I have - one of your best friends living in your head rent-free because you’re just that whipped by them. That’s right kids, some of us never grow past the middle school crushes - they are a constant for some. That can be a good or a bad thing, it completely depends on how you view it.

Currently, him and Rae are addressing some dating rumors that started spreading about them earlier this week while Felix, Sean and I are kicking each other’s butts in Party Animals. We’re not all playing together, actually, we were all playing different games when we hopped into the call and just grouped together after playing solo got boring. Rae and Sykkuno are playing Among Us on a random server, her being the only person who’s streaming right now. She said she just wanted to clear up the dating rumors cause they were annoying to see popping up on her feed on every social media platform she’s active on.

“It’s ridiculous, really. People just look for online personalities to put in imaginary relationships. Are they that bored? I know quarantine is getting to everyone, but damn“ Rae says, laughing a bit to take the edge off her words but I know she’s bothered by this ordeal more than she’s letting on. I know how much it bothers her when people ship random youtubers and streamers together, even when she’s not involved. 

And I agree. Ever since I started streaming I’ve been shipped with my friends left and right. First Corpse, then Dave, Joel...you name them. It gets kinda gross cause these people are legit like siblings to me. Unlike Rae, though, I don’t waste my breath trying to clear those ‘talks of the net’ up. I don’t know if it’s for better of for worse that I remain silent on the issue when I’m involved but am willing to stand up for my friends when they find themselves in a similar situation. Some people think the reason I don’t share my thoughts is because the rumors are true, but the hint is most often taken, resulting in the ship ending. Well, that ship ending, there’s always a new one popping up. As Rae said, it’s ridiculous.

“Why does everyone think I am ever dating anyone? I’ve already commented on this: no one would date me.“ Sykkuno says through a sigh-like laugh.

“Why are you so sure?��� I blurt out without as much as a second thought

My eyes widen just a bit, just a bit. I’m not too surprised with myself. I am slowly losing control of my raging emotions and I’m afraid of what I’ll turn into when all my restraints snap. A mess, that’s the most likely answer.

“Well....“ Sykkuno trails off, clearly more than a little nervous, “I don’t have a girlfriend right now, and I haven’t had one in a while...Nor has a girl shown any interest to be more than friends with me in what feels like forever.“

“I’m sure you just don’t notice the hints girls drop. We can be pretty subtle.“ I try to sound as nonchalant as possible while I’m still in my panicked animal mode. And by animal I mean a cub. A scared cub that is now showing confidence but will run and hide right afterwards. I silently thank the universe that I’m not streaming right now. I can feel the heat on my neck and cheeks which is pure embarrassment and would have been more than evident on-camera.

“Yeah Y/N’s right, Sykkuno. Girls can be very subtle, but they will always let you know if they like you, even through the smallest of gestures. You gotta keep your eyes open.“ Rae backs me up reassuringly.

“Guys never notice anything.“ I say, rolling my eyes. I feel the pressure lessen thanks to Rae’s involvement in the conversation.

“That’s not true.“ Sean protests, “We pay close attention, especially to girls we are attracted to.“

“Yeah!“ Sykkuno pipes in again, “I’m pretty sure I would notice if a girl was dropping signals that she likes me.“

Now that stings. That legit makes me wince and cringe as though his voice delivered an actual physical hit to my chest and stomach. It’s really unpleasant, painful even.

“You never notice.“ There’s something about this triple opportunity - proving him wrong that he’d catch onto a girl’s signals; proving him wrong that girls aren’t attracted to him; coming clean about the biggest emotional struggle I’ve experienced in recent years; - that snaps my last emotional restraints. I will totally regret this later, but after the regret comes the relief which is 100% worth it. 

“What?“ He sounds very puzzled. I can just about imagine him frowning as he tries to wrap his brain around something even I can’t wrap mine around.

“You say you’d notice a girl’s hints of attraction. OK.“ I nonchalantly throw Felix off the submarine in Party Animals while I keep talking, “Would you notice if a girl purposely doesn’t kill you in Among Us when she’s impostor? Or would you notice that a girl always sends you links to videos she finds funny? Or that she always shares music and movie recommendations with you and you only?“ 

Dead silence ensues. I feel like they have all glitched, considering Sean didn’t even try to put up a fight when I lifted him and threw him in the ocean as I previously did with Felix’s avatar.

Maybe I was a tad too specific and made the whole situation hit a little too close to home for me. 

Sykkuno and I have become really close friends and we chat and play games regularly. As I mentioned, I give him movie and music recommendations and I only recently started acknowledging the fact that I’ve never killed him in Among Us. Natural instinct I guess. In fact, I feel the need for vengeance when he’s killed. I refuse to even vote for him unless it’s absolutely necessary.

Now that I think about it, it’s not his fault he has no clue. I just don’t know how to properly drop hints.  

“Um...I mean, I guess I would notice but I’d never think they are that type of hints.“ He finally replies.

On point there, dear. On damn point.

“What does it take for you to be convinced that a girl is into you?“ Who cares that a bunch of people are about to witness this outpour? It’ll make it more real, yes, but it will also help me believe that it happened so I don’t try to crawl back to the point where return is an option. No return now. You’ve already passed two thirds of the way. The last one will set you and your mind free. 

“The only way I can be sure is if she tells me, really.“ He sounds so nervous and shy, like he’s trying to draw as little attention as possible.

He doesn’t have to worry. I’m about to pull all the attention on me.

“Well in that case....you leave me no other choice.“ My screen displays me as the winner of this round of Party Animals - an easy one considering my friends are glitched in real life. “I like you, Sykkuno. I like you a lot. And I know you will see it from every context except the one its meant to be in so I’ll be even more head-on - I’ve liked you, as more than a friend for quite some time now, but buddy, you can be sooo oblivious sometimes. Anyway...“ Here’s that regret I was talking about, it’s already creeping in. “Don’t feel the need to say it back. I don’t wanna hear it if you don’t mean it. And Rae,“ I can’t help but laugh at the thought, “Sorry for making your chat go crazy. Peace!“

And I disconnect from the Discord call.

“See? That wasn’t so hard, was it?“ I say out loud, staring at my desktop. “The cat’s out of the bag and you can move on now.“

I push myself to get some work done in order to get my mind off the mess I’ve created. I’m afraid of thinking about it, I know I’ll get too upset to do anything with the rest of my day if I do.

Suddenly, just as I’m about to open my email, my phone chimes. My brain doesn’t bother to stop my arm from automatically reaching out and checking the notification. A message.

From Sykkuno.

~ I knew you didn’t suggest me ‘My Best Friend’s Wedding’ for no reason

Me ~ So...?

~ So, I’m not the only oblivious one here, Y/N

Me ~ Wait WHAT?

~ ‘Nick And Norah’s Infinite Playlist’?

Me ~ Oooohhhh...I see

It takes him a few seconds to reply, the bubble with the three bouncing dots popping up and disappearing a few times now. I just now feel my heart banging against the inside of my ribcage, my pulse echoing in my ears.

He did seem a little too eager for me to watch that movie...

~ So, movie date?

I laugh, wholeheartedly and honestly. Genuine joy running through my veins.

Me ~ So it is.

The grin that is now decorating my features promises to stay there for the rest of the day. I bite my bottom lip at the thought that pops into my head.

Me ~ Phew, I can stop sparing you in Among Us from now on

He sends me three cry-laughing emojis in return, but I don’t need those. I can just imagine him laughing as he usually does with one hand covering his mouth. And here I thought my grin couldn’t grow wider.

 Imagining him happy makes me smile. His happiness makes me happy. He makes me happy.

Even better...

I think the feeling’s mutual.

[atalante241]

A Dream SMP SBI focused AU where all of SBI is related and everybody in the fam know it, except Tommy.

Tommy just assumes that they’re really close friends or some shit, and Wilbur calling Phil dad sometimes is an inside joke between the two.

Like growing up they were a really weird family where all of them had like, their own house/building and they just vibed. Like Tommy was raised by Phil but he doesn’t really remember it (like, can you remember anything from when u were 0-5 yrs old? Cause I sure can’t.) and he was given his own building thing when he was like 5 nearing 6, through that ended up being left alone more. And it was purely by accident, and he started hearing Wil and Techno reffed to Phil as just “Phil”, so he started doing it.

Along time it completely slips his mind that they’re family and not just a very small gated close community, and as I said before they’re a weird ass family Phil leaves on exoditions sometimes. He even might take Wil or Techno along on chance, but not Tommy bc that is a straight up child. Sometimes the trips take months but Tommy isn’t bothered, why should he be bothered that his neighbors leave for months on end sometimes. So the now 7 yr old takes care of himself all alone, and he doesn’t see this as weird bc the rest of SBI doesn’t see it as weird. He just legit thinks that straight up children can live alone and be just fine.

This one time a creeper blows up his house, and because he’s got no clue on how to repair it he just makes a dirt shack. But he thinks it looks ugly (OOC I know) so he carves out this hill and lives in there, and that how he develops a habit of building his homes in hills and mountains. Also when he’s bored he starts mining and accidentally creates these basically ant tunnels that travel underneath the big ass clearing the SBI lives in, there’s also at least one tunnel that goes into/near one of the buildings the SBI have separately.

Tommy doesn’t feel neglected because he doesn’t realize that he should, being left alone for months. He doesn’t feel bad about spending most of his b-days alone because he thinks that he has no friends, and the people around him are just his neighbors and shouldn’t come to the random kids b-day party. He also doesn’t realize that usually ppl have to pay some kind of tax to live in a house somewhere, he jus thinks that u just build a house somewhere and thats it.

He’s kind of is close to Wilbur, but it’s more in the way of saying hi to someone as you pass them but never interacting with them. He gets closer to Wilbur through the drug business.

(Tommy meets Tubbo at the SMP, but they had been pen pals for 6 yrs. They got connected through a magazine that advertised pen pals and how it’d get you one, it worked and they became friends. Tubbo also knows of the fact that Tommy lived alone, and is on the same page as Tommy about the family.)

At 15 (nearing 16) he leaves for the SMP, he waves the rest of the SBI goodbye because for some bizarre reason they all came out to say bye to him based on the one thing he said to Wilbur about leaving. At the SMP things go like normal, except new conflict rises from Tommy simply not paying his taxes. Dream goes to confront him with some other people that tagged along just for the fun of it, only for it to turn into a giant ass street fight because: Dream thinks Tommy’s bullshitting not knowing what taxes are because he knows Tommy didn’t lie to him about living alone before (he believes him bc he knows how to do household chores and up keeping), and Tommy thinks Dream’s just trying to exploit him because he thinks he’s some stupid kid. Said street fight that lasted 2h became know as “The Tax Scrap”, as it was a scrap and in led to taxes being demolished completely so no one had to pay them.......there was a party held for Tommy because of it.

After Tommy turned 16 around the summer months Wilbur comes and they do the whole drug shit and independence, they get way close doing so but not nearly “brother” close. Wilbur’s sad about this because he thinks that Tommy’s mad at him and the rest of SBI for leaving him alone during all of their trips, while Wilbur’s angsting Tommy’s all “I’m so very happy. And I’m getting super close with my old neighbor, this is great! Hey the whole of the SMP looke at the man named Wilbur Soot and know that I’m in no way related to him but we’re just old neighbors!!”. Yeeeh, Tommy unconsciously lets everyone know that they’re just old neighbors. Unknowingly hurting Wilbur because he thinks Tommy doesn’t want anything to do with them and is just acting civil, so he tries to be like 10x friendlier. They become great friends.

Everything happens pretty much the same except Wilbur trusts Tommy less while in the ravine because he still thinks that he hates them, he and Techno also have a angst session while Tommy’s asleep bc they think he hates them. This is before the Vilbur and Festival (the angst session). During the Pit scene Wil says something along the lines of “He hates you, look—look at him. He despises you, look how..—how angry he is!” After the 16th Phil wants to talk to Tommy about everything and make sure he’s alright (Very OOC of him, I know.) but is deterred by Techno telling him how Tommy “hates” them, and that he refuses to acknowledge them as family.

Sometimes Ghostbur slips and calls Tommy his little brother, Tommy’s shocked because did that mean that Alivebur saw him as some kind of little brother figure? He’s very flattered and totally doesn’t hug Ghostbur out of embarrassment. Ghostbur sometimes slips infront of people that aren’t Tommy and that leads to a lot of confused people and a rumor mill (that’s actually true for once) that Tommy and Wilbur were actually brothers, while wisiting or maybe through the msg’s Ranboo asks Tommy about it and receives the anwser that Tommy and Wilbur weren’t brothers but Tommy’s pretty sure that Wilbur saw him as one, at least he assumes from Ghsotbur’s ramblings. Ranboo tells this to people and it leads to a lot of aww’s because adorable, and then those aww’s turn sad bc Ghostbur exists.

Everything goes the same as canon except after Tommy betrays Techno, Techno during the moment he and Tommy are yelling at each other while tnt’s exploding -making it impossibly hard to hear them and messing with the animatic audios- yells something about Tommy being his brother and betraying him. And that leads to Tommy saying something like “Did you really see us as that close...” and now he feels sad bc the friend he betrayed was so attached to him that he saw him as a brother figure, but that sets Techno off more bc Tommy still denounces them as family in his eyes and he’s pissed bc of it. So they start fighting, eventually Phil stops to watch them. He’s also pissed at Tommy for the same reasons, during the fight Tommy gets like super injured or something but neither Techno or Phil want to kill him before they get to know the full reasons as to why he disowned them.

That leads to angsty as hell dialogue that breaks everyone’s hearts, and the whole gang realizing that Tommy didn’t even KNOW that they were family. It’s silent after that (not really there’s like 50 withers still around and explosions are happening left and right, but u get the point), idk how it all ends put it has something like this.

Tommy gets hugged

He’s still bleeding so it hurts and he’s kinda dying

Bc Techno and Phil are sad and kinda want to start over (and let’s be honest no one in that family is fully sane) they figure GhostInnit would be easier to deal with, also they’re still mad at him so they stab him

While also hugging him, it’s real messed up

Some people witness it and are kinda creeped out because to them it looks like two ppl that aren’t particularly close to Tommy are just hugging him after they stabbed him as if they cared

Through some magical power of teamwork and friendship the ppl fighting for L’Manburg (rip) get Tommy away from them, and some other crap happens the two have to flee. Later on Ranboo goes to live with them (fuck yes to that, that boy deserves peace. But fuck Phil adopting him It’ll all go to hell. Have you seen Phil’s other two kids +Tubbo??) but stil travels to the SMP bc I refuse for his friendship to end with Tommy and Tubbo, he kinda carries the news of GhostInnit existing to them unintentionally. So the leads to a game of extreme hide n’ seek where Tommy doesn’t know he’s supposed to hide so people literally just shove him into closets, rooms and houses all willy nilly. The whole servers in on it except Dream who just looks at all of them like that one meme. (No, I do not know what I’m referencing but I know at least 70% your pictures something)

The end vibe: Happy GhostInnit vibing with friends while the whole server is playing hide and seek him as the hider w/out him knowing, if Techno and Phil get him they’re gonna have so much family bonding and consequently make Tommy mad at the server bc he thinks thy were keeping him from his fam on reason, when they’re were just actually trying to keep him away from the two anarchists that were after him for some reason bc they didn’t know about the fam crap. GhostInnit doesn’t know they’re family bc it was kind of a bad memory him dying, he remembers everyone but not the bad things that have happened with them.

(Cross-posted off of Ao3, fics inspired by this one

https://archiveofourown.org/works/28894026

https://archiveofourown.org/works/30526023 )

[inosuketingz]

the sheets are stained with blood [p.3]

PART ONE PART TWO [ PART THREE ] PART FOUR Victor Zsasz x fem!Reader Warning: language, violence, blood and spoilahs 4 Birds of Prey Word Count: 1125 Tag: @itsknife2meetu​  A/N: Aaaand we are back!! I kinda forgot to mention in my previous parts that my fic touches upon an unreqruited romance between Zsasz and Roman bc I am a(n): a) idiot b) pendeja c) dumbass d) all of the above. Again, feel free to ask if you’d like to be tagged in future parts <3 This is legit my first fic I’ve posted online and I’m really loving where this is going

You hold back a gag as Hyunwoo lets out a gut wrenching scream. Your only job today is to keep an eye on Victor, something you thought would be cake. But, it’s turning out to be a bit more difficult than you imagined.

“Answer the fucking question!” Zsasz yells into the man’s face, knife digging deeper into his face. “Where is it?”

“I don’t know! I don’t know, I don’t know!” Hyunwoo cries and you cross your arms.

“Bullshit,” Zsasz insists and his hand begins to etch the knife higher, drawing a red line as it moves. Like he aches to peel the skin off the man’s head. He’s more than willing to ignore Hernando del Rey’s orders to leave Hyunwoo alive.

You get up from leaning against the office desk and clutch the blood silver necklace around your neck.

“Zsasz, stop!” And, like clockwork, he’s motionless. Last night, after you escorted— or forced— the scarred man out of your apartment, you utilized the towels he plugged his wounds with to make a Blood Pendant. That has become your signature ‘weapon’ to the mainstream media. One drop off blood onto the pendant and you can order around the person it belongs to.

You approach Hyunwoo and squat next to Victor who wears an expression of confusion.

“What the hell did you do?” He mutters in a raspy voice.

“Something I should’ve done the moment we got here.”

Hyunwoo winces when you grab onto his dyed blue hair and pull his face closer to yours. “Hernando gave you the keys to his yacht. So, obviously, you know where you put it. And if you lost them, I can’t promise that you’ll be put through any less pain than if we find out you’re lying.”

The man’s eyes dart to a shelf at the right end of the office. “Please, promise you I have no clue where they are. Look, my kids are still in the other room—” You drop his head before he could end his sentence. That’s all you needed to see.

Your reach for the pendant again, this time telling Zsasz to come on. Victor lets out a sigh of relief as his body returns to its normal mobility. You head to the shelf and Zsasz follows, though not before he plants a hard kick to the Korean man’s stomach.

“Don’t ever do that shit again, do you fucking hear me? I don’t get controlled.” He whispers against your ear and you feel a shiver run its slow fingers down your spine.

“Oh, I’m sorry.” You feign cluelessness. “I didn’t know there were statutes of morality between us now.” He grunts in response.

You bring your attention back to the large shelf. You face spines of books and nothing else. The titles not written in Hangul described statistics, business and other boring shit.

“The keys are somewhere here,” you say.

“How do you know?”

You take a quick glimpse over your shoulder to make sure Hyunwoo is still on the floor, tied by his restraints. “He looked over here while I was talking to him, duh. Aren’t you supposed to be super smart?”

“Cum laude, baby girl.” Zsasz winks and you roll your eyes. You couldn’t care less about his Ivy League adventures. “And I was too busy dealing with paralysis to notice.”

“Quit being a baby and look.” You power through hardbacks upon hardbacks, hoping you’d open one and the keys would fall out. Victor watches you do this with a little smile on his face. You turn over and bark “Start looking, asshole!”

He laughs, but does what you say. After last night’s shenanigans, you were ready to get this deal over with. You’ve met with plenty of Wonder Woman’s rogues in the past, but none of them creeped you out the way these Gotham villains do, let alone Victor Zsasz. You could barely get a grasp of what was going on in his head. One second he wants to gut you, the next he’s gripping your thighs and reminding you of the time you two slept together. To top it all off, you still have no clue how he managed to get into your room.

Today has been no better. You’re wearing a tight turtleneck and skinny jeans, and you’ve caught him catching glances at your ass and breasts on plenty occasions.

Victor pulls out a thick mystery novel from the bottom shelf and a shiny silver key slips out, clinking against the marble floor.

His cheeks pull back as he grins, revealing his steel crowns. He picks it up and turns to face Hyunwoo who groans.

“It looks like we got a little liar on our hands,” He mocks.

“Fuck, I’m sorry!” Hyunwoo cries as Zsasz saunters closer to him. “You guys said you couldn’t kill me!”

“I won’t kill you. I’m just gonna fuck you up bad enough that your kids will live with nightmares when they enter and see you.” He kneels closer to him and you shove your hands into your pockets.

“I’m gonna be in the car.”

~ ~ ~

It takes over an hour for Zsasz to finally come out of Hyunwoo’s mansion. His clothes are clean, the white ASOS sweater left unstained, but his hands are tinted pink and give you a clue of what he got done doing.

He opens the car door and slips into the driver seat. Victor drops del Rey’s key onto your lap and starts the car.

“Y’know, if we’re gonna be Gotham’s new dynamic duo, you’re gonna have to stop bossing me around,” he sounds cheerful, giddy, as he speaks. Like a suburban husband talking to his housewife.

You press your forehead against the window. “We’re not a damn team. And don’t you belong to somebody else? What was his name? Roman See-ah-nis, or something?”

Victor freezes.

“Then Harley Quinn blew his ass up, right?” You look at him.

For the first time, you see pain in his eyes. His eyebrows scrunch up and his eyes go big— like a puppy dog. You struck a nerve. Good.

“Don’t say his name,” he orders.

“Don’t break into my apartment,” you counter.

His face shifts into that of anger. Unhinged anger. “I do whatever the fuck I want. Do you hear me? You don’t tell me what to do. If I want to break into your ugly ass apartment, I will. If I want to kill a man, I will. You are not in control. I don’t need you. You need me—”

He’s cut off when the bolt of a crossbow stabs into the front window of his car.

[newlifenewdeath]

tagged by: stolen from @justmachincs tagging: @iimposter @floweringeclipse @disciplinarynovel @diefrcc & everyone else I rp w/ I wanna know stuff about you!

Name: Aesa or Leila Age: 22 Pronouns: she/her Sexuality: a very Big Bi Zodiac sign: Tauru Taken or single: Taken Four Things About This Blog: ✘ I was a bit hesitant to make a Lola blog at all because I’ve rped a woc muse in the past, and an OC at that, and it was pretty discouraging since she rarely got as much attention as the other muses on the same blog.  ✘ I legit had no clue what to make for a URL when creating this blog and I still feel like the url I have now is clunky. But I also don’t tend to change urls once I’m established. ✘ I was also pretty hesitant to make Markus part of this blog at all. I was worried it might come across as me just adding a popular muse for attention with his less than well known partner, and also because I’ve dealt with Duplicate Inferiority Syndrome before as well. ✘ I’ve got four official verses and a handful of minor ones that I dabble in now and then but I still write in Detroit verse most often. Probably a good 80-90% of the time. It’s getting kinda boring :v

Three Mun Facts: ✘ I’m in college to learn animation. I’ve only done basic work up to now, and by that I mean I’ve vaguely modeled the shape of a VW Beetle, but I’m super excited~ ✘ I’m currently writing up a fantasy novel! I’m still waist deep in quite  a bit of worldbuilding since that was the focus of my starting the project, but I’ve got a decent plot skeleton that’s evolving every time I work on it ✘ When I was born my mom sold my soul to the Pokémon gods so I will forever be tied to that franchise, if you couldn’t already tell by my mun fc :v chu~

EXPERIENCE:

How’d you start: on a really old free site that was made for Warriors Cats rp. and I only even found out about it because a google image search led me to one of the character pages. Platforms you’ve used:  tumblr ofc and occasionally discord, I’ve also been coerced into trying it over Skype and AIM but hated both, and I also occasional still rp on Gaia Online and other forums I’m part of Best experience: Oh man, I guess I’d say my best was when I first made the blog I ran before this one. I’d always wanted to rp Auron from FFX but never really had the right opportunity before that point. After XV dropped I figured it was as good a sign as any that I should give it a shot. I never expected to be welcomed in by so many sweet people, and being one of only a few active Aurons at the time versus one of easily a hundred of my previous muses was a breath of fresh air. Worst experience: This is easily the several year when I roleplayed privately with a toxic person I met through FF.N. I won’t go into much detail, but I’ll leave it that I felt like shamed for not knowing things or references to media I’d never heard of, and I often felt like I was being controlled or coerced into doing things I wasn’t comfortable with.

MUSE PREFERENCES:

Original or canon: Why not both??? Favourite face: I’m gonna surprise myself and actually go with Ruth Negga for this? Yeah. She’s beautiful and I’ve loved her in every role I’ve seen her play in and she’s Irish so what’s not to love?? Least favorite face: I don’t remember his name and I can’t find it on google but there’s a particular guy, he’s pale as can be w/ white/platinum hair and he exudes cliché Slytherin vibes, and I’m pretty sure he has like a twin sister who’s also a model and you never see one person w/ him as an fc and not another directly affiliated w/ her for an fc  Multi or single: I certainly prefer the simplicity of single muse blogs, it’s easier to organize. But I feel like both have their merits.

WRITING PREFERENCES:

Plots or memes: I don’t really prefer either? I feel like they each lends themselves towards the other, if I plot stuff out privately I tend to be more likely to send in memes that could be used for those plots, but also sometimes a really interesting ask that was just a random meme can lead to a thread idea you’d never think of otherwise. Best time to write:  Any time after 6pm tbh. bonus: cursed writing time is any time after 12am  Do you like your muse(s):   <3 I do so much How long (months/years?): since like ‘06-’07. So a lil over ten years now. Daaamn

[briteboy]

MORE ASKS I’VE BEEN IGNORING!!!!!!!

GET ‘EM WHILE THEY’RE HOT

P.S. ALL OF U WHO SENT ME THE CHAIN THINGY ILYSOMUCH 

Why is her step-douche such a foken piece of shit? omg i hate him

some mysteries are never meant to be explained tbh. why is he so ugly and evil? who wronged him? but also who cares he’s in jail forever now good riddance ugly

I know this is probably really bad, but after I saw the newest molly posts, I thought of that video where the little girl is yelling "MISS KEISHA, MISS KEISHA, oh my fukin gosh she fukin dead"

OMFGFD I DIDN’T KNOW WHAT THAT VIDEO WAS SO I JUST WATCHED IT AND I’M LAUGHIN

i don’t blame u i bet when it happens i’m gonna be like “u know she ded”

(To the previous anon) i agree with you so, so much! In Poland, these dumbass politicians are letting shooting pregnant bisons (?? Im not sure how they're called) become legal. Like BITCH WHAT. Can you imagine??? A fucking pregnant lil' cow getting shot????? I feel Molly's pain on an emotional level rn (sorry if this is too nsfw, just needed to get that outta my system...)

i think this was in response to someone saying that hurting pregnant women is one of the worst crimes but um WTF shooting animals at all makes me itchy but pregnant ones..............nah that’s......nah

it’s ok get it outta ur system i’m here 4 u

the first thing I check in the morning is your account.... you have me whipped! ;|

OMG WHA LMAO REALLY that’s wild. i feel like i’m the only one who looks at my page which is dumb but like idk i still feel like a little kid that no one cares about lmao. but then you guys exist and amaze me with your responsiveness every day and i just ;____________; ily all

hi Sunny. first of all i'm gonna say i love your story and your editing style so much! your blog is goals like literally. i need an advice if you don't mind. you always find such amazing angles for your pictures while mine are so boring. any tips or tricks you can share?

HI thank you so much ;-; sooooo i’ve been thinking about this question the past couple of times i went in game, trying to figure out how to describe how i take pictures. for one thing i live in tab mode lmao. meaning you press the tab button on your keyboard to go into camera mode and get all these sexy angles and super zoom and stufffff. i almost always zoom in super far idk why. so there’s one tip. i honestly just play around with going up and down with the q and e keys (i think?) until i find angles i like. i take a lottttt of pictures with so many different angles just so i have a lot to choose from. basically i try to focus on different things in each picture in order to get a mix of the most diverse and dynamic shots possible. you just need to experiment and get creative. i know that’s the most vague advice ever but really just try a new angle that you’ve never considered before and i bet you’ll get cool results. an interesting setting is also the biggest factor, because certain objects and their placements will give you interesting results. 

i honestly want to print out your reaction pic to that one post and just hang it on my wall, put it in my heart locket necklace, stamp it on people's faces, start an email thread with it. i love it.

an add on to the last ask i sent about your reaction pic. i've been looking at it religiously since it was posted, and i dont regret a minute of it. LMAO I'LL STOP NOW.

SAKJDLJKGKSDAF STOPPPP LMAOOO i looked so ugly but that was my pure unadulterated reaction to that question and i trust you all to not judge my ugliness and instead share this reaction with me. i’m glad u liked it that much, i just printed it out and i’m cutting it into a small heart to put inside ur locket ok

everytime i hear cigarette daydreams by cage the elephant i think of a serious case of the novembers like its so fitting and then i get all emo when i listen to it lmao rip

OMMMMGGGGGGG YESSSSS how have i never made that connection before honestly. cage the elephant is one of my faves and i’ve seen them perform twice actually!! i’m watching the music vid for that song now and even that reminds me of my story ;-; i cry

thank you for sending this, and also i cry @ the fact that you used the actual title *dies* now this song is gonna make me emo til the end of time thx

i might sound like some crazy stalker fan but i just want to say you are so freakin awesome and nice and funny and cute and (i can go on forever) so caring! i love your blog so much and all the hard work and care you put into all your posts and followers. thanks for making my day and making me smile so much. you have no clue how much i look forward to seeing your posts and your hilarious hashtags and answers from asks and AMAZING story posts. im sorry i just wanted to let you know ur awesome ily

OFMG WHAT!!!!!! I AM ONLY AN EEL!!!!!! but no you don’t sound like a crazy stalker, i actually love this, you’re too sweet, thank you ;-; i’m just blushin so much reading this omg. YOU EVEN LIKE MY TAGS WOW that’s true love. ily ;-; <333

how do you get your sims' facial expressions to line up with your scenes? I feel like my sims' faces are never right :(

tbh i just use a lot of the same neutral poses...my go-to’s are @helgatisha‘s poses lol. they’re the easiest to work with when i do just plain talking scenes, and often i tweak my sims’ eyebrows and mouths with the liquify tool if i want them to look a bit more concerned, sad, mad, happy, etc., it works like a charm!! i also tend to play around with angles, you’d be surprised how much a different angle can enhance a scene.

Hey smol bean, I'm sent you an ask and now I feel bad that it probably made you feel anxious because you didn't answer it. It was the one about you not liking my posts, I have anxiety too so I'm sorry If I made you feel sad. I think I'm just looking for validation from people I look upto you get me? Anyway sorry again, don't worry about it! Love you!

hiya bb, i know you saw my answer to your original post (and i’m sorry it got some negative attention, i didn’t mean for that to happen by any means) anyway don’t sweat it, and i really appreciate this follow-up message. you didn’t make me feel sad, i just wanna know what i can do. it’s just a hard question y’know. i understand what you mean, i think everyone wants validation to some degree. tbh you can just come off anon and message me, i promise it’s not as nerve-wracking as it seems! ily

How did you make Santi's tattoos? I want some like that for my Sims but idk how to do it

boop

I HAVE A FEELING THAT MOLLY IS GOING TO DIE DURING THE BIRTH OF THE BEAN OR IT HAS SOMETHING TO DO WITH HER STEPFATHER FINDING OUT ABOUT THE BEAN

WELP U WERE RIGHT ABOUT ONE THING

how did you make your characters page on your blog like that?

uoohhh like what?? i used this theme (monolog) if that’s what you mean aheh. here’s a guide on how to use custom page themes

okay so THIS IS MY THEORY: they might keep the baby and molly might actually carry it to full term, but then the kid dies in childbirth and either molly also dies or maybe kills herself or gets killed later? or maybe she's still alive but just won't speak to santi anymore cause she like can't look him in the eye after all of that or idk?? since ppl were sending theories i wanted to add mine lmao. another possible theory is that the stepdad finds out and kills her but thats TOO DARK omg

TOO DARK U SAY...WELL!!! it’s not AS dark as you guessed but only marginally

If Molly turns out to be alive and raising their kid alone (though from what I'm seeing in response to most questions I think that may not be the route) am I allowed to slap Santi (unless Molly didn't give him the option to help) because raising a child alone is not easy I've watched my mom do it for years.

YEAH i would give you permission to slap him lmao he would be a grade A piece o’ shit if that were the case. i would never ever write that tho because santi does own up to his actions if they’re that detrimental. his altruistic nature, no matter how backwards, would never allow him to do that.

There will be complication with the abortion so she will not be able to carry a baby anymore and she's going to kill herself OR her step dad is going to find out and he'll beat her to death. And in both situation Santi his blaming himself because he wasn't there at the right time... Okay I really really hope I'm wrong now !

I don't even follow your story very closely but every time I see your posts my heart hurts.

OMFG...that’s how u know the pain is real

but like wow my stuff is really so visceral that even my apathetic followers can feel the hurt...that’s real...that’s real my guy

omg!! you should 100% play or at least watch a playthrough of life is strange! legit the best game ever made, its so beautiful. the storyline kills you a thousand times over (much like your beautiful story) <3333

yaaaa i’ve heard lots of good things about it!! my bf played it actually, maybe he’ll revisit it again someday and i’ll watch him do it (i’m only a fan of video games if i can watch them like a movie lmao) thank you btw <3

I am shook and I worship you and your story and you are amazing WOW BYE

WORSHIP LMAO WHAT!!! PLS I AM UNDESERVING...ily tho don’t worship false gods

Do you let Molly and the younger versions of your characters frolic around your main save or do they have a separate one?

UM YES LMAO because i didn’t even know you could have separate saves until after i started the flashbacks lmao i’m...a noob. i don’t want separate saves anyway because 1) it’s too much of a hassle switching back and forth and 2) it gets too confusing for me and i’d be afraid of overwriting one save with another and NOPE too much anxiety for that soooo yeah there’s three santis in my game: child, teen and adult lmfao (fun fact: teen santi’s name is literally just Lil Santi)

I made it to my senior year with 6 A's and 1 B ... Be proud of me too? 😂 Lmao I told this to people and some of them were just like .. okay cool?! LMAO it's so funny but also kinda sad

I AM PROUD OF YOU TOO!!!!!!!!! my smart childrens

“okay cool” UM PLEASE that’s a feat...at my school if you got an A in a class in senior year you were allowed to be exempt from the final. so yeah that rules. ily

[stylesinthewild]

Rules: Write 92 truths about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged.

I was tagged by @theharrystyleseffect and @harryismywonderwall <3 Also, @cheshirepuddin just tagged me as I posted this <33333

What was your…

Last drink: Venti iced caramel macchiato, with non fat milk. Last phone call: My mom. Last text message: My dad sent me the dates of when my nephew will be playing hockey games.  He’s 6 and he’s adorable. Last song you listened to: Fireproof, One Direction. Last time you cried: Ummm...like 10 seconds ago looking at a photo of Harry.  Not full on crying but I definitely teared up because I’m weak.

Have you ever…

Dated someone twice: What does it mean when you date someone for nearly five years on and off and on and off???? Been cheated on: Yeah. Kissed someone and regretted it: .............yeah, well....yeah. Lost someone special: Yes. Been depressed: heh, sure.

In the past year, have you…

Made a new friend: A few. Fallen out of love: No. Laughed until you cried: Yes.  I do that a lot. Met someone who changed you: I suppose. Found out who your true friends are: I have one true true friend.  I can’t get rid of her.  Going on 20 years. Kissed anyone on your followers/following: Nah. How many people on your tumblr do you know irl: Tumblrs not real life?  I haven’t met any of them in person, no. Do you want to change your name: No. What time did you wake up today: 6:30am. What were you doing at midnight last night: I was watching the mess that was the Oscars and eating chocolate cake. Name something you can’t wait for: Harry’s first single.  Pls soon. What is the one thing you wish you could change about your life: My job. What are you listening to right now: Nothing. What’s getting on your nerves right now: Nothing. Surprisingly.

About me…

Nicknames: Laur, Lu, Laur Dawgz, Lord Dogs...  Relationship: Tegan. Zodiac sign: Scorpio.

Pronouns: she/her Favourite TV shows: The Simpsons, One Tree Hill. School: I have a degree....yay Hair colour: Dark brown. Long or short hair: Long hair. Do you have a crush on someone: yeah, what is face. What do you like about yourself: I think I’m kinda funny.  I like my hair and I like my eyes.  I genuinely don’t care what people think of me.

Firsts…

First surgery ever: Getting my wisdom teeth out. First piercing: My ears. First sport you joined: Ballet. First pair of trainers/sneakers: I....have no clue?

Right now…

Eating: Nothing. Drinking: Venti iced caramel macchiato with non fat milk. Listening to: Nothing. Waiting for: Harry’s solo music. Wanting kids: I don’t know. Career: I mean.....I wouldn’t call it a career, but I’m sitting at the reception desk at my place of work right now.

Romantic stuff…

Lips or eyes: Eyes. Hugs or kisses: Both. Shorter or taller: Tall. Older or younger: Older, but it doesn’t matter too much, as long as they’re not too young. Romantic or spontaneous: How are these at odds?  Both. Sensitive or loud: Again....what is the correlation?  Hook-up or relationship: Ugh.  Relationship I guess.  Troublemaker or hesitant: I’m hesitant....I don’t like breaking the rules.  Maybe I need.................to idk next.

Have you ever…

Kissed a stranger: Not....really?  I mean...I’ve never kissed anyone that I hadn’t spent at least a few hours talking to.  Drank hard liquor: Yes. Lost glasses or contacts: No. Been arrested: No. Turned someone down: Yeah, a horrible moment I hate to think about tbh. Cried when someone died: Yes. Fallen for a friend: Umm.....no.

Do you believe…

In yourself: Ummm......I don’t know. Miracles: Well, Louis did tweet Harry happy birthday so..... Love at first sight: Heh.  Listen....remember that 5 year relationship I mentioned above?  I legit fell in love with him the moment I saw him.  The first day of high school, when he walked into my biology class.  I spent like....3 years crushing so hard....so so hard and then like..........i gotta go.   Santa Claus: I love how Bella just left this blank.  Same. Kiss on the first date: Sure why not.

I’m not gonna tag anyone because I’m boring.  Also this isn’t 92 questions.....

[simplymyswank]

Being a woman

is special, it’s true

There is so much to look at

So much to do

Fashion is passion

I’m always a fan

Mom-life is real tho

So, I do what I can

To stay involved my way

as me-time allows

The things I find special

on Pinterest, I browse

  The new trends with nails

I wish I had time

To go get them done

But alas, all the grime

Of most local salons

Makes me legit-gag

Why pay for that?

A costly price-tag

For sharing the gross

From under her nails

It’s like licking an armpit

Logic Simply fails

to convince me that money

so hard earned, go there

I’d rather drink water

from cup made of hair.

  sick.

  Get what I’m saying?

How grossly accepted?

Swapping the goo

Other’s rejected

Impossible to receive

The stuff that lives there

In that luxury-heated

Massage salon chair.

  Try as they will

As hard as they can

to clean all the goods

It’s isn’t enough, man,

The fact is that now

The fungus still grows

And now lives inside

all of your toes

Generously passed

From every poor soul

Who don’t clip their nails

And one’s in the bowl

Spinning around

in a special new stew

the water’s now ready

Set up, just for you

  Nope, not me.

I’m not going back

Nope, I won’t

My throat makes a gak

That sound that comes out

When you’re really quite sick

I can’t go there again

I’m going to stick

To my new solution

That gives me a way

To have beautiful nail

Every single day

  And while I am at it,

I really won’t lie

The tickly way

That those little girls try

To scrub off the callouses

on each of my feet

I almost kicked one girl

And came out of my seat.

  “Use more pressure!!”

I cry out in dismay

Or is it so funny

Torturing me this way?!

And then you attack me

with tiny-small fists

Pounding away

my relaxing chair bliss

Tiny bombs hit my legs

What did I do to you?

I look and their both covered

With pink salon goo

That smells like aunt Lizzy

from 1962…

  AND, another thing more

How did that girl just hear

The thing you just said

As stealth as a deer

She’s on the other side

Of this noisy room

There’s speakers involved

Is what I presume?!

What did you say?

I don’t have a clue

As I’m sitting here subject

To all of this goo

  Conversation, no option

I get no release

Just accosted in some way

When I was paying for peace

I cannot know

what you seem to say

As you carry on

in your own private way

I guess it is better

That I do not know

’cause I would say worse

If I had to go

to that nail salon

Each and every day

and sit around clipping

For minimum pay

  Now back to solutions

Back to results!

Back to a wonderful,

Positive exult!

  Happily now

I’m telling you, true!

Add your own gel

To your nails like I do

It’s simple, it’s easy

Read what I blast

Listen so closely

The gel, it will last

You’ll buy you a light

That sets it so fast

The list is so simple

I result, it will pass

For professional nails

That, now, you can do

Another solution

Passed from me onto you.

Wouldn’t you rather that,

over infected nail goo?

  I love having pretty nails.  Having been raised by my grandmother during my formative years, and never, ever seeing her without perfectly painted nails every single day of my life – it’s a family tradition that I am happy to carry on.  Pretty nails.

I made the mistake having been completely sucked up by American Culture – nail salons were something I made a habit of.  In 30 minutes or less I’d be filed down by a power tool – erupting disgusting acrylic/gel nail crap into my lungs – soaked in impossible to clean spa bowls with spa jets pounding fungus-filled, infected water into every inch of my feet. The hot water only encourages the fungus to grow faster.

The previously used sponges, files, cutting tools – sometimes disinfected, sometimes not, are forcefully ignored.  All patrons are intently focused on the outcome, beautiful Proud-American nails.  American nail style is the premier focus of female culture and fashion.  On any given moment you are guaranteed to find a women dressed in pajamas and rags, with no money at all, and they still have their nails done.  It’s glam, and they won’t let it go.

I let it go.  After contracting a fungus in my pinky nail that for the life of me I could not kill from a nail salon in Laguna Beach.  Gross.  GAG!  GAK!  I thought I would never get my nails done again.  I gave up.  I tried every solution to get rid of the fungus and nothing worked.  Painful, ugly and embarrassing.  I’d hide my hands in shame.

Now, I have conquered the fungus among-us.  I got this awesome nail pen off Amazon Smile and full of doubt – invested in such a simple solution.  This annoying fungus that I have been trying to hard to kill can’t be irradiated by a simple nail pen.  Scoff.  BUT, surprisingly, it did. It worked really fast!

Now that I’m on the healing route to healthy and strong nails. I am excited to get gel nails back on and have pretty hands again, just like my Gramsie.  But yikes, I’ll never, ever go back to a salon.  Gross me out.

I found out that my sister in Nova Scotia has been doing her own gel nails for a long time.  I love being inspired by her.  I bought the kit and I tried to do it too.  Low and behold it was perfect!  All the gear is mine too so I know that goobers are all my own and I am not sharing in others gross.  Score!

I’m SO pumped to have another solution to share with all of you.  Do your own nails.  And if you can’t, find a friend that does nails and buy your own stuff and pay them to do it at your house!

As an Amazon Associate I earn from qualifying purchases.  YAY!

The nail-set I have includes the following:

A LED gel setting lamp

Gel base coat and top coat

A nail file

Alcohol and Remover

Cotton Wipes

Cuticle pusher-backer

Anti-fungus nail pen

Nail-light fingerless gloves

and that’s it folks.  It’s so easy to do.  Follow these easy steps!

File and shape your nails, you have to file the top so it’s rough, that allows the gel to have the proper surface to stick to.

Then you wipe them clean with alcohol, don’t touch the nail with your skin cause the oils will make the gel not adhere.  If you touch your nail by accident make sure you rub it again with alcohol.

Then use your pusher backer – do not cut your cuticle!  Push back your cuticles so that there is no skin covering your nail.  If you have rough edges, just gently rub them with your nail file until they are soft and disappear.

Then apply very thin layers of the base coat – I apply 2, and each coat goes under the light for three 90 second sessions – my light has a 90 second timer.  Get that light, it’s awesome and so inexpensive.

Then apply 3 very thin layers of the top coat each coat gets 2 sessions of 90 seconds under the light – or more if you have time.  Lastly, wipe off the tops of the nails with a clean alcohol wipe and your done!

Hang on, I didn’t tell you to use a Gel Color!  That just results in clear nails.  Yikes, you wanted sparkle red with white tips.  Have no fear my loves.  The craziest part of gel nails is that you can paint OVER the gel with regular polish and it lasts a million times longer and won’t chip like it does on natural nails!  SCORE!

Who knew, right!  You can just buy the cheap polish, and it works like a charm.  So you can change your color at will and you’re not stuck with the same gel color for 3-4 weeks which can get kinda boring, or might not match with the cute outfit you are wearing that day.  It’s so fun to change color.

This is the lamp I have and I love it!

Think about it, if you are getting your nails done every 3 weeks, and you are spending on average $25 per visit, that’s $495 a year.  That’s a brand new TV if you wanted…or a car payment.  All you have to do is make a small investment off the bat, and bam, you just saved yourself a buncha’ money.

No music today folks, this girl has got the nail salon all wrapped up for us in a super clean comic skit –  and the accent is priceless!

          Nails – Heavenly to be a Woman Being a woman is special, it's true There is so much to look at So much to do…

[celestialallstars]

Episode #3: "Make me look like fucking Doofenshmirtz when I’m trying to be like Maleficent" - Mo

So first off WOOOOO! The vote happened exactly as it was supposed to. I'm hoping that means I'm actually on the pulse of this tribe. I've gradually been getting closer to Jared, and I think he trusts me probably more than I trust him.

Second off, this challenge my god. I hate it, like it's a good challenge but for me... oof. Doing this, it's like I have facial dyslexia or something. Like all of the mouths and eyes start blending together and it just starts to look nuts.

I'm hoping to keep trudging forward, if we somehow pull a win out of this, even better if Cyrena goes to tribal again given it was basically unanimous. Alternatively Orfeo to balance things out. I'm tired though and it's been a long day, so it is now time to sleep.

I’m conflicted because I so badly want to be a bad bitch and create an over the top plan but there’s such a high chance that it will flop and make me look like fucking Doofenshmirtz when I’m trying to be like Maleficent. So I’m going to try to create my own kinda of genius that only applies to me. It sounds stupid but it’ll work. I’m being bold by saying it’ll work cus if I get eliminated I’ll look like a Doofenshmirtz. We’ll see. I’m already making charts to help me see who’s good and who’s not so good at comps. Comparing teammates to eachother and comparing the entire cast to eachother. Wish me luck. (Also I love everyone in this cast.)

So like I have so many mixed feelings about this cast. In terms of talking a lot of them are BORING or LEAVE ME ON READ, and like maybe for some it’s cause I’m not in their tribe but like, some people on my tribe still make me want to hit my head against a rock. So like that’s what I’m feeling.

Also think we’re gonna loose this immunity which I’ve hardly done anything for. So go me.

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Just a small update Mitch and I are chatting so that answers that question

"What's going on?" Well I shall tell you Anna Jane exactly what is going on. I need to get back into therapy that's what.

Apparently everyone is stressed about results and then there is me who does not care cause I want bodhi gone cause he legit doesn't talk to me so meh.

ALSO ALISSA FOUND AN IDOL QUEEEN. so we now have an idol between the 3 of us which could come in handy very much later down the road which we love! I have 100% trust in jack and alyssa now, with mo as my number 3 on this tribe. As much as i love tobi personally (hi tobi reading this post season) but like idk something is still off. he hasn't spoken much game to me at the moment so idk where his head is really at..

god help us its results this challenge was hard woo go cyrena!

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we lost by 1 point. oh my god. 1 point. that makes me wanna cry. dear god let this be a simple vote or i will actually start crying

WHY MUST I ALWAYS BE ON THE SHITTY TRIBE WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY IS THERE SOME SICK SATISFACTION OF ME ALWAYS GOING TO TRIBAL????? FUCK

I am SO pumped! I do feel bad for the people on Cyrena, but where it stands now, them going to tribal I feel is best for my game just relationship-wise for me. Still, I can only hope I am making few bonds over on their end while maintaining the ones I have on my tribe and Tuatha as well. I do really hope Mo at least makes it because he helped me this morning when I was getting bummed about all the winner talk. I'm quite optimistic for right now!

I Wrote Alexis Maxwell But I Erased It

Well we won the challenge (BARELY), a bit annoyed that we submitted before I got another chance to take a crack at the photos. I feel like I could've maybe found 1 or 2 more before we submitted. Granted we'd need to have found either 3 more or beaten Orfeo to the punch if we had wanted the reward.

I think so long as Bodhi doesn't go on Cyrena I'm pretty indifferent about them losing. They're the people I talk to the least relatively. Ideally I'd probably want an Alyssa, or Matt boot, but I have no influence so we'll see what happens.

I'm just trying to be social and relatively unimposing right now. It's Day 8, now's not the time to be doing glaringly bold things.

um so we won wooh but still no 2nd idol im sad i want one. um wanted green tribe to go tribal but blue going again i hope bodhi/jack/alyssa leave cuz they dont talk to me ever um ya thatd be cute or maybe tobi cuz hes a snake but maybe he not a snake this time? my stan list atm is jared > zach = rhys > loris = chloe > everyone else. my unstan list is: sharky jack alyssa mitch <3 um yaa hope i can do sth. chris so good gotta always watch out for him jared asked who i wanted to go to f3 with and i said def not chris and he was like oh i wanted chris in end so like hes def a threat also he likes zach so um that needs to stop real quick.

I think it should be Bodhi or Tobi to go. Am I gonna say anything? Not right now, no. Will I say something later? No clue it depends. But Bodhi isn’t as active as the others and doesn’t participate all that much. Tobi is semi-active but isn’t great at challenges. I remember him being good at challenges so idk if he’s just distracted or not putting that much energy into this. I think a swap is happening after this potentially but if it ain’t it’s still best to vote out the weakest link. It might be me and I might just be super cocky rn but I don’t think it’s me.

hi! yesterday was a monumental day. I tried to mend my social game with those I hadn’t talked much to, which resulted in me having a lengthy conversation with jack, and making me feel a bit more secure in my tribe/in the event of a swap. the people I don’t talk to keep getting voted out which I’m very much a fan of but that’s probably because they were inactive so that trend might not continue :(. also I lied in my last conf I’m now in an alliance with Chris Jared kori and Bryce? I didn’t expect it but i didn’t feel too close with kori so that should help me solidify something there!! :) I’m thriving. don’t call me ANGEL!

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don’t call me ANGEL! (in case of task challenge :p)

So we won the challenge. Again. It’s really nice to be able to just sit back and relax in the game and watch people struggle but I’m really nervous about it because we’re all so kumbaya on the Oreo tribe that I don’t fully know who I can trust just yet. Another piece of tea is the fact that Alyssa has an idol which is great for me because it shows Alyssa trusts me and I can trust her for the time being. However I’m worried about Alyssa because we keep promising each other merge which tells me she won’t want to go to the end with me just yet so I gotta keep her close and we’ll see how much damage we can do but i think I’m thriving bc I actually know where an idol is compared to last time when I had no clue.

so previously on The Adventures of a F*g, i had a small breakdown about the game. i dont know if true, but bryce informed me of an alliance between kori/jared/bryce/loris/chris, and the last two named are super close allies of mine (the closest on my tribe). they like.. didnt tell me shit about it and idk i guess i just feel excluded and it sucks that im in legit 0 (real) alliances. ive been doing good socially i thought and i dont know but i feel like i really sucked.

meanwhile, i sat down with a bag of salt and vinegar lays chips and talked to myself. why was i doing bad? why was i in 0 alliances? why no one like me?

then it hit me... like boom.

i realized that a typical flaw i had this game was caring too much. i pride myself on my ability to read situations (barring paranoia) and i know myself very well. like, i realized that since i was too concerned with doing good and proving myself, i kind of lost the fun of it all and probably come off as fake or forcible to other people. that isn't authentic.

BUT MY EPIPHANY increased even further. how? i dont know!! my brains so fucking big. i just had to be goofy. yes, i want to do good. i really do. but i played once before in this series and got RU pots and 5th. i know i am capable of being a good player and im content with that, and now that im moving into that mindset where this game wont no longer dictate whether im good or bad, im going to start having fun.

i know this isnt about game really but its like... #selfdiscovery

but ya i just wanted to update yalls on that. i won immunity though so im f18 and probs in swap. woo. finna get fucked. anyway, thank u.

and since i want like attention on this post im going to put tags.

#selfdiscovery #justgirlythings #l4l #follow4follow #gay #faggot #0alliances #disney #anime #weeb #lgbt #survivor #bigbrother #celestial

After we won the face morph challenge, it has been pretty slow. I still have a solid group with me Stephen Z and Jared. Kori and Bryce are close, Jared and I are close, Rhys and Jared are close, and Stephen and I are close. Those are the allegiances I know of right now, but things could change. Lucky for the alliance of 5, they all get to stick together. If there is a swap though, I won't hesitate to flip on bryce/rhys/kori if the opportunity presents itself. I am also kind of worried I am not keeping up socially. I have had a busy week, so my availability is limited, but I try to talk to as many people as I can when I am available. If my predicitons are correct, we should expect a swap soon. I'd love to meet up with Michael, Bodhi, Alyssa, Chloe, Drew, and Mo just to name a few. I feel like I have been able to connect well with everyone except Matt H.

So, as per my last confessional we are at tribal. And I'm conflicted. As said before I have an alliance with jack and Alyssa and they are my main 2 at the moment like love them both. We helped Alyssa find the idol and we now have a vote steal which I found. However I am feeling kinda conflicted over this vote. Jack and Alyssa want to get rid of Tobi but I personally want bodhi gone. He doesn't talk to me like at all and like he's not the best at challenges. I wanna keep Tobi as well for like a laugh because I genuinely love him. We all agreed to keep mo thank god but still, a lil conflicted. AGH. I have found a vote steal tho woo. I'm not going to be happy but I'll swallow my pride and just go with the alliance, because I'm not out here trying to make waves and be unloyal at the moment. That's for later LOL

I think there is a relatively high chance that i'm going home here, considering its 1 and a half hours till tribal and people "still haven't heard anything" so i'm assuming that i'm getting the chop here which sucks... I tried pretty hard considering i've been pretty busy and like they're not giving me much to work with here and it feels like im trying to break through a wall. I'm trying to get the target on bodhi but no one is fucking online to even try to talk to about it so i'm at  a lost for what to do here... I want to stay but i just don't know how to do that when no one is talking to me... i could just be extremely paranoid and i sound delusional right now but idk something feels off here... its so annoying when I enjoy talking to other tribes more than my own NNNN like i really wish things were different but they're not so i'm just gonna try my best and see what happens

Woo we win again. Im trying to step up socially with my tribe, although who knows how long it's gonna matter bc we're prob swapping tonight. Apparently people were saying mo's name, let's pray it doesn't happen bc he's a good fucking kid.

Well it's been a slow couple of days for me. In game I can't really speak much to anything that may have happened. I feel like Tuatha has had a bit of a kumbaya casual flow going on. Which isn't necessarily bad but it makes it hard for me to know how I'm really doing.

Tobi was messaging me worried it might be him, which admittedly wouldn't be the worst thing given how we ended our last game. I was kindof an ass which I kindof leaned into after essentially throwing that game, but I still wish I'd found a way to end things better with him. While there are others I'd rather see go, his boot is one I can probably accept.

If it isn't him then oof who knows then. So long as it isn't Bodhi from that tribe. Overall I'm feeling ok, but I don't want to get complacent, it's just so early that I really don't know what to make of things. One world still isn't really helping since I'm still struggling to try and make conversation with EVERYONE. I really should consider just narrowing it down to some instead of all.

I’m sure hoping this works out for me if there is a tribe swap like a suspect, I think I’ve built some strong enough connections but without going to tribal it’s just not possible for me to be 100%

I've never been on a tribe with a winning streak I feel like I'm in the upside down hahaha. I'm having a great time and getting to know everybody and not having the stress of tribal is great. Sucks for the other tribes OOP

Nothing much is happening! I am still set up perfectly on my tribe and Bodhi has informed me that either Mo or Matt might be going. That was at the beginning of the round so it could really be anyone. I just hope it isn't Bodhi Alyssa or Mo.

Ok this past round was ok. I just kind of let us lose immunity and then we voted out Tobi. I didn’t want to vote out Tobi but that fucker voted for me so I don’t really care at all fuck him.

So not very much has changed on Tuatha as far as I can tell. My tribe winning the immunity challenge has helped me delay any confrontation between my 2 alliances which is great, as it should theoretically allow me to maintain relationships with all 6 members of the tribe. Still, it's going to keep being important to win immunity or pray for a swap in order to keep these groups from clashing.

Jared and Rhys are still a ? for me. I don't know why/how Rhys was able to convince Kori to invite Jared to the alliance of 5 instead of Mitch, and it worries me that those 2 may have a stronger bond than I immediately suspected. Hopefully I'll have an opportunity to deal with that when the time comes.

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Tobi is voted out 5-1. We swap!

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Tagged by: @moll-e-mollz​

Rules: Answer these 85 statements about yourself, then tag 20 people as many people as you want

Tagging:  @gayforhaught, @bravenewworld4444, @withsometeaandtoast, @metamorphosesduvampire, @peachy-witha-sideof-keen and any one else who wants to do it (really trying to avoid being annoying and tagging everyone)

last

1. drink - Tea (starting with a stereotype, great!)

2. phone call - Mum (also with no friends, this is going great)

3. text message - Friend from Uni

4. song you listened to - Curious by Hayley Kiyoko

5. time you cried - I watched Marley and Me yesterday. Make your own conclusions...

6. dated someone twice - Yeah

7. kissed someone and regretted it - At the time, no. After, kinda

8. been cheated on - Yeah

9. lost someone special - No

10. been depressed - Oh boy have I 

11. gotten drunk and thrown up - Yup... Definitely not pleasant or that long ago 

fave colours

12.  Red

13. Darker Blue

14. Darker Purple (I’m noticing a theme...)

the last year have you…

15. made new friends - Yes

16. fallen out of love - Yeah

17. laughed until you cried - Probably

18. found out someone was talking about you - Not that I have found out

19. met someone who changed you - No but I have changed a lot the past year so maybe without realising?

20. found out who your friends are - I guess

21. kissed someone on your facebook friends list - Yeah

general

22. how many of your facebook friends do you know irl - All if them (but for tumblr it’d be like 3 or 4?)

23. do you have any pets - My lil’ grown up puppy who I love so much! So yeah, one dog...

24. do you want to change your name - Not really

25. what did you do for your last birthday - It was pretty chill. Went out for lunch with my mum and then chilled for a bit (might be going on holiday with a friend this year though since it’s my 21st)

26. what time did you wake up today - About 9:20 (so basically midnight...) 

27. what were you doing at midnight last night - Pretty sure laying in bed watching The L Word (I still haven’t finished but I’m very close!)

28. what is something you can’t wait for - Probably go home to see my dog and to actually have my grown up life together

30. what are you listening to right now - Just put on my spotify discover weekly thing but generally just my usual songs list or gay playlist

31. have you ever talked to a person named tom - I think so

32. something that’s getting on your nerves - This could be a very long list but I’ll limit it to people who like to shame others for not being as good as them

33. most visited website - Tumblr for sure 

34. hair colour - Brown

35. long or short hair - Medium

36. do you have a crush on someone - Kinda?

37. what do you like about yourself - Now we’re hitting the difficult questions. Probably how I often surprise myself with what I’m capable of

38. want any piercings? - Not right now

39. blood type - I have no clue... I remember it’s a common one but besides that? No idea

40. nicknames - Km or if you’re my family it’s generally completely unrelated to my actual name

41. relationship status- Single (although it’s also very complicated)

42. zodiac - Gemini

43. pronouns - She/her

44. fave tv shows - We could be here all day... To name a few Buffy, Wynonna Earp, Carmilla (it counts), Supergirl, DC Legends of Tomorrow, Doctor Who, Orange is the New Black. Currently also Brooklyn Nine Nine and The Good Place (and Emmerdale but does that count?) 

45. tattoos - No but I think I’ve decided on what I want. Just gotta save up for it

46. right or left handed - Right 

47. ever had surgery - Yup

48. piercings - Just the generic one ear percing (if they haven’t closed up by now)

49. sport - Gross

50. vacation - favorite: I want to travel to so many places but my favourite so far was Spain for Christmas. Wouldn’t mind doing that again

51. trainers -Yeah

more general

52. eating - Nothing now, just had breakfast though

53. drinking - Nothing (also no more milk for mree tea so times are tough)

54. i’m about to watch - Right now, nothing because I have to get ready for Uni. Later will probably be The L Word or more of my Buffy rewatch

55. waiting for - Uni to start (and my food delivery later so I can have more tea...)

56. want - To get better at revising for Uni

57. get married - Maybe. No time soon though

58. career - It’ll probably be something super boring (since that’s my current career path). Something related to accounting or tax maybe

which is better

59. hugs or kisses - Both depends on my mood

60. lips or eyes - Eyes

61. shorter or taller - Either

62. older or younger - Probably a few years older or no more than 2 years younger

63. nice arms or stomach - Either

64. hookup or relationship - Relationship (although currently in a serial hookup kinda thing so screw logic)

65. troublemaker or hesitant - Either but neither too extreme

have you ever

66. kissed a stranger - No

67. drank hard liquor - Not frequently

68. lost glasses - ALL. THE. TIME.

69. turned someone down - Maybe like once or twice

70. sex on the first date - Probably not

71. broken someone’s heart - Not as far as I’m aware

72. had your heart broken - Not really

73. been arrested - Nope

74. cried when someone died - Been lucky to not have people around me die since I was like 7

75. fallen for a friend - Kinda

do you believe in

76. yourself - Rarely (my mum legit moaned at me about it the other day)

77. miracles - Not really

78. love at first sight - Lust at first sight? Definitely. Love? Probably not

79. santa claus - I’m afraid not

80. kiss on a first date - If it feels right then sure

81. angels - Only on TV

other

82. best friend’s name- She doesn’t use Tumblr but she shall be nameless for now

83. eye colour - Brown/Hazel

84. fave movie - There are legit so many they’ve been in categories since I can remember. a few are The Lion King, Marley and Me, Mamma Mia, Carmilla, D.E.B.S, Imagine Me and You, Girltrash: All Night Long.

85. fave actor - I like loads but there are way too many to pick a favourite