#lee woojin oneshot

[lexsssu]

Master (Kim Woo Jin)

TAGS: Woojin/F!reader, yandere, obsession, possessive behavior, dirty thoughts, blowjobs, pet names, breeding kink, oneshot Ao3 ver.

Woo-Jin sighed contentedly as he stared down at you with a heated yet lovestruck gaze, dark orbs darkening with every moment that passed as your small mouth tried to fit in every inch of his pulsing cock. It was adorably obscene how your cheeks puffed up like a chipmunk stuffing nuts in its mouth, though in this case you weren’t too unlike the said animal…

If any of the other people he normally interacted with saw his expression right now, they’d be flabbergasted at the gentleness he was capable of when the only side of him everyone else got to see was the ruthless Woo-Jin. In truth, he wasn’t incapable of kindness, but rather no one really deserved it.

Except for you.

Despite being Lee Se Jun’s little sister, you were unlike him in every way. From the genuine smiles you would bestow upon a stray mutt like him during his first life, to the gentle hands that you would place upon his body as you healed him from even the tiniest of cuts or bruises. While your older brother simply hid behind a mask, you were a true beacon of light that drew him away from the darkness and bathed him in your warmth despite how unworthy he was.

He is an attack dog meant only to serve as his Master’s blade and yet within the shriveled and blackened heart of his, he craved you.

Countless nights spent rubbing his stiff length as he imagined your soft and unblemished hands wrapping around him and helping him reach completion as adrenaline pumped through his veins in between missions. Visions of your heavenly form sprawled beneath him, your normally impeccable appearance roughened up by his ravenous mouth and wandering hands plagued his mind. Woo-Jin could practically taste your sweet, delectable slick on his tongue while his nose is drowned in your heady scent as he feasts upon your core like the untamed beast that he is.

Sometimes he even imagines rutting into you inside your brother’s very own office. You bent over the large desk as he stuffs your quivering little pussy up with so much cum until there’s no way you wouldn’t be pregnant. Tits heavy and leaking with milk, your belly rounded and the glow of motherhood surrounding you as you carried his seed.

Imagining the looks on everyone’s faces, especially all those worthless pieces of shit who had their eye on you both from within and outside the guild at the sight of your condition is a sight that he will engrave in his mind.

It is he who gets the last laugh.

He cackles at the mere thought of Lee Se Jun’s final words and expression when he expressed his heartfelt intent to love and cherish his little sister now that her dearest older brother had passed.  

For all the restraint he had, there is no denying that he was and still is nothing more than a feral beast.

And the beast wanted to feast on you.

That is why when given a second chance at life, he wastes no time in achieving his mission: Destroy the Messiah Guild and expose Lee Se Jun’s true self.

“Mmmm…W-Woo-Jin am I…doing it right?”

Staring up at him so innocently while holding his cock in your hands only sent more blood straight down, something you take notice of as the organ seems to grow hotter in your hold. 

You’d never done anything like this before, a fact that both you and Woo-Jin were aware of considering how overprotective Lee Se Jun was over you. The returner could at least thank the blonde for that, as that meant you were entirely his to taint teach.

“You did perfectly, baby. Look, you made me even harder than I already am. I think I’m gonna burst at this rate,” he cooed, rough hands cradling your face to press a kiss to your forehead.

While some would curse him for sinking his claws upon such a pure soul such as yourself, Kim Woo-Jin didn’t give a rat’s ass. The fake savior was never his true master, but rather it is you that has given a stray like him a home to return to.

And your home is rather lonely with just the two of you, so filling it with the pitter-patter of little ones would make it just right.  

[imagineproduce101]

Lee Woojin//Best Friends AU

for anon who requested lee woojin as your best friend <3

you and lee woojin sat next to each other during your high school placement exams, and that’s how you became best friend

you have friends in your grade, but you’re woojins only friend in your grade, since the rest of his friends are all significantly older than him for some reason

and so the two of you end up becoming super close

he’s the more serious ‘good’ kid, while you tend to cause trouble, so the two of you pair well together

he’s always bugging you to do your homework, while you encourage him to try new things

you make fun of him for always having his earbuds tangled

your parents essentially treat him as their son, and he’s so sweet and such a good friend that they don’t worry about the two of you dating or anything

movie nights are common

and while his hyungs might make fun of him for being a ‘baby’, nothing will top the two of you sitting on your floor in front of the tv watching finding nemo wrapped in ten blankets

speaking of hyungs, being best friends with woojin also meant meeting all of his older friends

the first time you met them, you went to an amusement park with them

and you instantly won their favor by making fun of woojin’s hair on a huge roller coaster

woojin complains that his hyungs treat you better than they treat him

which is kind of true

kenta brings you a lot of cute keychains and accessories whenever he visits japan

and donghan has a habit of buying you milk tea if he stops by

“they’re your friends more than they are mine,” he’d whine, pouting at you to give him a sip of milk tea

“dude, you’re lactose intolerant.”

but its ok bc your parents dote on him more than they dote on you

“why are you giving him the best meat? i’m your child!”

“woojin behaves more”

“yeah (y/n), I behave more”

“wow, betrayal”

one time, someone made fun of woojin for being a nerd and wearing this sweater vest to school

and you got suspended for beating the crap out of them

“that was an incredibly stupid thing to do”

“what? at least i got back at them!”

“yeah, you also could have, you know, just walked away”

you both stick up for each other in your own way

and just have a really cute, wholesome friendship that lasts into old age

tbh i had a hard time writing this bc the only kind of development woojin EVER gets is as the maknae/baby of the group, so i don’t really get the chance to see how he is with same-age ppl rip rip rip

[minniewoos]

The Morning After, Lee Felix

Genre: brothers best friend au, slice of life, fluff

Pairing: felix x reader

Word Count: 1,172

Summary: Where after Felix sneaks into your room the previous night, you have to shove him into your closet to hide him from your brother finding out about your relationship. 

"Y/n…hun." You felt a warm hand on your cheek, gently brushing some hair out of your face and tucking it behind your ear.

"Y/n, wake up." The hand began shaking you slightly, the voice had a bit more urgency to it. But you only groaned in response and rolled over.

You heard an exasperated sigh and then the disapproving click of a tongue before the blankets were ripped off of you. You cringed and curled up into a ball immediately as the cold air hit your skin, looking spitefully at the perpetrator. And there you saw Lee Felix, already out of bed and his shirt in hand. His bed head was all over the place, and he seemed all frazzled. Your eyebrows scrunched in confusion.

Felix snuck in last night, and he has been for a couple months at this point. And, while his late-night hangouts didn't start out so promiscuous, they slowly progressed your relationship further. The first night he came over, you were crying, and in your upset state, you called your him. And you know what this sweet boy did? He rushed his way to your house, throwing rocks at your window like a dork. You let him in of course, and he comforted you all night until you fell asleep. And he came back the next weekend, and the weekend after, and so on. Some weekends he'd spend the night, and after some early morning time spent together, he'd leave so he wouldn't get caught. Back out the window he came through. But now you were confused, as Felix urged you to get out of bed.

"So quick to leave? We usually cuddle a bit babe." You pouted, slowly pulling the covers up to you once more. But Felix looked like he was in a rush, urging you to be alert as he pulled his shirt over his head.

Felix looked over his shoulder at your bedroom door before turning back to you and whispering loudly, "Chans calling for you. He has been for the past few minutes. He's coming up soon. I need to leave. Now."

You stared at him, doe-eyed before the reality of the situation really hit you. "Shit."

You jumped out of bed and tried to gather your clothes that were strewn across the floor. Stumbling around and pulling your pajamas on. Chan was your brother, your very overprotective brother. So your relationship with Felix was hidden due to not wanting any conflict and weird brotherly talks. And well, Felix was a friend of Chan's, so it made it even more awkward. Just as you pulled your shirt over your head, you saw that Felix was looking out your window to see if anybody was watching. The same window where he snuck in from. He was about to pull it open when you heard annoyed footsteps quickly approaching your room, an annoyed Chan was not a good one.

"Ahhh, no time for that!" You whisper shouted and grabbed Felix's arm to yank him away from the window. Then you threw your closet door open and promptly shoved him inside. You slammed your closet door shut right as Chan opened your bedroom door.

"Geeze, ever heard of knocking?" You looked at Chan, slightly annoyed. You tried to slow your beating heart and act casually, but in reality, you were really really nervous. "I was coming, you just had to wait a minute."

"It takes you ten minutes to get out of bed?" Chan retorted, an eyebrow raised. "Seriously you're such a pain."

"Says the guy who literally never sleeps then wakes up at noon." You placed a hand on your hip and leaned your back to your closet.

Chan waved your comment off before leaning against your doorframe, he looked annoyed. With crossed arms he stared at you.

"So? What did you want to tell me?" You crossed your arms as well, mirroring his pose.

"Breakfast is ready."

Your eyebrows perked up, "What? That's all?"

"No."

There was tension in the air, it was thick and you shifted from foot to foot. Your back was against your closet door, and your eyes slowly moved to look at your feet. You were this close to telling him to just leave.

"You look like you're hiding something. You look guilty." Chan stated, and stayed, unmoving.

You looked up and rolled your eyes, "You're ridiculous, just go eat breakfast. I'll be down in a minute."

"...fine fine." Chan held his hands up in surrender and wasn't convinced at all. But finally he left the room and you let out an audible sigh of relief.

"Close the door!"

"No."

You grumbled to yourself as you made your way to the door to swing it shut, and making sure it clicked and stayed shut. After, you opened your closet door to let your poor boyfriend out only to see him rubbing his head.

"Sorry...did that hurt?" You said softly.

Felix shook his head, "It's nothing, I'm just glad he didn't say anything else."

You shrugged, "Definitely knows something is up."

Felix shrugged as well, but he had a dorky little smile on his face. His arms wrapped around you and pulled you close, effectively warming you up and making you just melt inside. "Whatever happens, happens."

You wrapped your arms around his waist, clinging onto his shirt. You smiled as you rested your head on him, enjoying the moment of relief. Someday you would tell Chan, but that's not today.

"Do you want to risk me coming over next week?" Felix asked, rubbing your back comfortingly.

"Hmm...I'll get back to you on that."

"Okay love, I should get going now." Felix said, disappointment lacing his voice as he pulled away. But not before giving you a sweet kiss, which always made you smile. "Remember, I love you."

"I love you too baby." Your grin was big, just like it always seemed to be around Felix. You were about to open the window for Felix, but Chan called from the hallway again.

"Hey y/n!!" He sounded less annoyed, and you and Felix looked at each other with the same confused expression.

"Yea? What is it?" You yelled back, unsure of what he wanted now.

"Tell Felix he can have breakfast too!"

You shared the same jaw-dropped expression as Felix. Slight panic settled into the pit of your stomach at the thought of Chan knowing. But as soon as you saw Felix smile, the unsettling feeling went away, and you knew everything would be okay. You tilted your head, silently asking why he looked so happy.

"I guess we won't have to hide it anymore. Plus I smell sausage cooking down there, I'm hungry bub, let's go." Felix quickly kissed your forehead before leaving your room to greet Chan loudly. You laughed as you heard him down the hall bantering with your brother, then shook your head at his antics. But you knew in that moment there would always be a smile on your face with Felix.

a/n: minimal editing, also, my first post in monthssss bless up

hope you enjoy, wrote this at 1am cause I got into the Felix feels

[mrs-i-have-too-many-biases]

Stray Kids’ reaction to you stealing their snacks

Scenario: You steal their sweets/snacks (late at night). Genre: Fluff/ Humour Pairing: Stray Kids members X Reader Word count: 2,3K Requested: Yes Author’s note: I hope you don’t mind me changing the request a little, I had more ideas for scenes this way, hehe.

Bang Chan:

You were home alone, waiting for your boyfriend to come home from work. He had been at the studio all day and due the bad weather outside you weren’t in the mood to visit him. The rain had calmed down hours ago, but it was also cold and already late at night. So, you were stuck in your apartment and left hungry. You had been roaming around the house, looking for something to snack on, only to pass past Chan’s hidden stock. He always had some food laying around in his home office for times where he was working late.

You felt like after a while that your stomach was shouting along to a song, since it started to make noise like crazy. You made your way to the office at one AM to finally satisfy your poor stomach. You grabbed the best and biggest bag of chips you could find. Whilst taking a seat in Chan’s leather office chair you devoured the back of crisps, you didn’t notice your boyfriend coming home. Chan was surprised when he saw the lights were still turned on in the living room. He called out for your name as he made his way through your shared apartment as he looked for you, only to find you in his office eating his food.

“Baby?” He started, startling you and almost letting the bag slipping out of your hands. “You’re home?” You stuttered on your words in embarrassment, knowing fully well that you’re caught. “Why are you eating my crisps?” He asked whilst laughing before he inspected the now-almost empty bag. “You ate it all?” He laughed as he looked at you in disbelief with a playful smile. “I’m sorry, I was hungry and you had the only food at home-“ “Instead of eating mine, you could’ve called me and I would’ve brought you something even better.” Chan said with a sudden smirk. “Like what?” You questioned him curiously. “These lips-“ “BOI-“

Woojin:

You and Woojin were having a movie night, but Woojin had such a hard and long day at work, he ended up falling asleep on you. You kept on watching the movie on your own as your boyfriend slept on your lap with your fingers softly brushing his hair. After a while you started to crave for something sweet, so you carefully moved your boyfriend out of the way so you were able to make your way to the kitchen. You opened all of the cabinets to find something to eat. You almost stopped searching until you found the jackpot. Woojin had bought some 호떡 (‘Hotteok’ - Korean Sweet Dessert Pancake) and you had been wanting to eat them all day, but your boyfriend had told you to wait since he was going to make something with it.

You couldn’t wait any longer and put it in a pan to heat it up. Suddenly you felt a pair of arms wrap around your waist, making you jump in process and hide your face in embarrassment, because you were caught by your boyfriend. “Honey, what are you doing?” He asked with his deep I-just-woke-up voice as he nuzzled his nose into your hair. “Nothing.” You stuttered. “I told you to wait.” He sighed with a chuckle. “I know, but they were calling me.” You argued back with a high-pitched tone, to try and let your cute side help you out. “You know who’s also calling you?” “No?” “You tickle punishment.” He laughed before he turned out the stove and picked you up to the couch as you kept giggling.

Minho:

You were with your boyfriend at the dance studio where you were watching him rehears for a new project he was working on. You were typing away on your laptop as you sat on a couch that was placed in the room as you boyfriend was blasting his music and dancing away. You were a little hungry, but also too lazy to get out and go somewhere to eat, since you aren’t allowed to eat at the studios. You dug into your bag to look for something to eat, but you weren’t surprised when you couldn’t find anything.

In the corner of your eye, you had spotted Minho’s bag. And you just happened to know that he had been carrying around a large bag of skittles all day. The reason? You had no idea, all you knew is that they were going into your stomach. You looked at your boyfriend as you moved slowly towards the backpack, as Minho kept dancing. He didn’t notice you sneaking his sweets out of his bag, until your clumsy ass made way much more noise opening the darn thing, making Minho shot around and look at you unsurprised. “Seriously?” He asked in disbelief as you started to laugh your ass off. “I was hungry!” You whined whilst still laughing. Your boyfriend couldn’t help but laugh as well and walked up to you soon after. He grabbed some of the skittles and popped them into his mouth, looking you in the eye as he smirked out of nowhere. “I’ve got skittles in my mouth, want to taste the rainbow?” He said with his mouth still full with the sweets as you wheezed. “I hate you.” “Love you too, my little sweet thief.”

Changbin:

You were at the boys’ dorm. Your boyfriend was gone to the bathroom to take a shower since they had only just returned from the company building, after working for hours. You were left in the kitchen with Felix and Hyunjin. They were talking about their day, until you got hungry. “Isn’t there something to eat?” You asked whilst searching through the refrigerator as if you live at their dorm yourself. “Nah, just some snacks from Changbin.” Felix responded. You spotted a paper bag and opened it, you gasped when you saw the French fries and the chicken breast he had left over. You looked at Hyunjin and Felix with a smirk as they stared at you in shock. “Y/n, no.” “Y/N YES!” You yelled as you popped the bag into the microwave.

Before you knew it, your boyfriend had returned from his shower and walked into kitchen where you (and Hyunjin) were eating his food. Changbin dramatically dropped whatever he was holding and just looked at the two of you in disbelief. “How could you do this to me?” Changbin mutters, making the other three of you in the kitchen laugh loudly. Changbin buckled his knees, pretending as if his legs were giving up on him. Felix ran up to him to hug his friend as he kept on laughing. “I thought I could trust you.” “Baby I’ve saved some for you, it’s in the microwave-“ “Oh, thanks babe.” He said whilst smiling before kissing your hair, making you laugh once again.

Hyunjin:

You and Hyunjin were on the couch, both still stuffed from your Italian dinner that Hyunjin had taken you out to. There were candle lights and the food was excellent. The two of you were now in your sweatpants, still your chic tops on since the both of you were too tired and too lazy to take it off. You were laying on his chest as the two of you laid with your eyes closed on your couch in your shared apartment.

“Baby, I’m stuffed.” Hyunjin moaned as he tried to lay comfortably on your big couch. “Do you still have that cannoli?” You asked him softly whilst looking up to him. “Yes but they’re mine.” Hyunjin pouted as he looked at you. With wiggling eyebrows, you smirked at him before getting up and rushing to the kitchen to get the doggy bag with the Italian goods. “Y/n-“ “Oh, they’re so good Jinnie!” You mumble with a mouthful after you took a bite whilst doing a happy dance to mess with him. “I was going to say you can have them.” Hyunjin laughed as he sat himself up straight. “Why? I thought you loved these.” “I do, but I cannoli have eyes for you.” Hyunjin wheezed at his own joke and quickly went to hug you as you looked at him, being done with his crap. “I love you!” He sung as he pressed kisses all over your face. “I guess I cannoli love these.” You joked as you eyed the Italian goods. “No baby love me.”

Jisung:

Jisung had taken you out on a cute date. He had brought you to a little chateau and had made a small ‘campfire’, which was more like two torches set in front of the both of you. He had made you a nice picnic and brought multiple blankets and pillows to keep the two of you warm. Right now he had some s’mores in the make. “You know that I’m gone a lot, and I would love to see you s’more.” Jisung grinned as he looked back from you to the sweet treat he had in his hands.

“Unbelievable.” You chuckled as you took the treat out of his hand and ate it whilst smiling brightly. “I can’t believe you stole that. You know what, it’s okay. I love you so I will make us s’more.” “Why am I dating you?” “Because you love me s’mor-much. That didn’t work, did it?” He laughed. “Nope, but I indeed love you.” You giggled before you kissed him. “I love you too baby.”

Felix:

You were relaxing with Jeongin and your boyfriend Felix at their hotel room, playing video games and eating whatever you could find. Eventually Felix would go to the bathroom with a pout on his face, whilst whining to you how you had beat him and Jeongin at a game. “I thought you loved me.” He whined. “I do love you, now go pee.” You laughed, kissing his cheek before you went up to get something to drink.

“Innie, do you want something to drink?” You asked your friend who was still playing his game. “No thank you.” “Alright, I’m hungry. Whose rice cakes are these?” You ask. “Yongbokkie’s- Y/n, no.” Jeongin responded before he saw you eating Felix’s food. “What’s the fuss all about-“ Felix stopped his tracks when he caught you red-handed as you had the fork hallway into your mouth, looking your boyfriend in the eye as the two of you just awkwardly stared at each other. “First you kill me, and now you betray me.” “When did I kill you-“ “I guess Innie is the only one I can trust-“ “Felix, you’re so dramatic.” You laughed as your boyfriend dramatically let himself fall onto the bed where Jeongin was sitting. “Jeongin, I thought she was the one, it turned out to be all a lie.” Felix cried playfully as he hugged his friend. “Y/n help.” “He’s all yours now Innie.” You laughed as you kept on eating.

Seungmin:

Seungmin was very excited to take you out on a date after working for so long. He had prepared a lovely spot for the two of you. You were in the lead of the food and since your boyfriend loves strawberries so much, you made him some chocolate covered ones. Unfortunately, it was pouring rain, so the plan on going outside wasn’t it that day.

So instead, he had made the two of you a fort out of blankets and pillows. He put on the tv and streamed a video of a campfire. The two of you snuggled together under a blanket. Seungmin was moved by the gesture of you preparing his favourites. He was until you started to steal his strawberries. “Honey, I love you berry much, but I thought that the strawberries were for me.” “I love you berry much too, but just like you they are just so sweet. I love them.” “Y/n, this can’t go on any longer, let’s taco about this. I should be the only one you love.” Seungmin joked as he smiled proudly of his self-thought pun, whilst holding a mini taco. “Well, I’m sorry Minnie, but I love a lot of things and people. But don’t you worry. You will always have a pizza my heart.” You smiled back holding up a slice of pizza yourself.

Jeongin:

Jeongin and you were having a movie night at the dorm in his shared room. You were both cuddled up together under a blanket as you watched a movie on one of the older member’s iPad. Jeongin was a little sleepy, the light of the screen wasn’t keeping him up and he had eventually snuggled his face into the crook of your neck. You would caress his cheek with your hand, until you heard your stomach grumble.

Fortunately for you were you laying on the outer side of the bed, making it easier for you to get out. You knew that your boyfriend had hidden a stock of snack under the bed, that not even his members knew of and since you were hungry you felt like your boyfriend would probably not mind you having some. You stuck your hand under the bed and successfully took a bag of chips out. You opened the bag as quietly as you could, feeling like you were on some asmr show or something. You were so immerged into eating that you didn’t notice your boyfriend waking up to you not being in his arms. “I’m dating a little thief.” He groaned in a sleepy voice, making you jump in surprise. “Did my eating wake you?” “No the coldness of you not being in my arms did, now get here you little thief or else I will tickle you to death for messing up my stock.” Jeongin joked as he did grabby hands towards you, making you laugh before crawling back into bed to warm up your boyfriend.

Gifs aren’t mine.

I hope you liked it <3

[lixiescheesestick]

"D-daddy please…" you whined as you were denied your orgasm for the third time that night.

"Don't worry baby, one more time. Can you do that for me?" Chan whispered softly from between your thighs. You whined out lightly, but nodded your head.

Chan chuckled at you obedience, calling you adorable before digging in again, fingers slow and tongue lightly flicking at your clit sending jolts of pleasure through your body.

It was moments like these that made you realize how wrong the fandom was about him, mostly fantasizing of a hard dom that would have his way with your body, but he was in fact the complete opposite.

From the first time you and Chan had slept together he had always been a soft dom, preferring to show you how much he loves you, and cherishes you. If he ever seriously hurt you he would beat himself up over it, making sure to shower you in aftercare.

Chan also loved how obedient you were when it came to orders and set punishments (that he hated giving). He had had a relationship with a bratty sub in the past and it was hard for him to handle, making it perfect that he had found you after nearly two years after and your relationship running for a good three and a half years so far.

Suddenly you felt the warmth coil in your lower abdomen. The pain of denial adding to the pleasure.

"Fuck, daddy, please please…" you whined out.

"Please what, sweetie? You know I prefer it when you use words." Chan mumbled against your clit.

You looked down at him, seeing that he was staring up at you from between your legs. The sight pushing you further toward the edge.

"Can I Cum? Please, I've been such a good girl!" you moaned out, and with that Chan finally said the four words you have been wanting to hear since earlier that night.

"Cum for me, baby."

A loud scream ripped through you as you came, Chan working you through it as he sucked at your clit harshly and scissored into your entrance. You moaned out a string of thank yous as you hit your orgasm.

Chan pulled his fingers out as you began to whine from slight overstimulation.

He crawled up your body and pulled you into a loving kiss, adoration pushing through as he stroked your side's soothingly.

"Think you can Cum one more time for daddy, hm?" Chan said, showing you the bulge in this boxers.

You nodded, sighing out a short "Yes, daddy." as you got ready for the next round.

[nextchae]

stray kids reaction — you’re sick

Your boyfriend was insanely busy and you knew that. Which is one of the reasons you didn’t immediately tell him when you began feeling ill. He had things to do and places to be, and he barely even had time to see you normally. He couldn’t afford to spend time helping you get better or even worse, get sick himself. So, in your efforts to be a thoughtful significant other, you didn’t tell him you were sick; however, it wasn’t long before he found out. Being friends with all the boys did, sometimes, have its drawbacks.

woojin

He wasn’t one to be overly dramatic with much, like ever really. So when he entered your home to see you sprawled out on your bed looking quite uncomfortable, he handled it very maturely. Maybe just a little whiny because you didn’t tell him.

Without speaking a word, he sat down his stuff and checked your forehead temperature with the back of his hand. Then, without hesitation, began pulling out loads of medicines and treatments for you. Honestly, you were speechless.

“How did you- who- I’m okay!” You stumbled all over your words before finally spluttering out nonsense.

He turned his head to give you a look, raising an eyebrow at your flustered figure.

“You’re okay? You’re burning up. Have you even taken anything?..” he continued on, as if he were your mother scolding you.

You shook your head, looking down at the bed like a sad puppy. He sighed, handing you a couple of pills and opening a bottle of water for you.

A pleased look etching itself onto his face after watching you take the medicine, he got into the bed beside you.

“No! You’ll get sick!” You exclaimed, attempting to squirm away from him.

“That’s okay. Then you can just be my nurse too” he grinned smugly, pulling you into his chest.

bang chan

As soon as he received the news that you weren’t feeling well from one of the boys he rushed over to your place like a madman. He threw together a bag of, mostly random and useless, things and was entering your place within minutes honestly.

You jumped as he busted through the front door, quite unexpectedly of course. Draped over the couch in very minimal clothing, your cheeks grew hot at your boyfriend’s presence. He didn’t care though, as he immediately threw down his bag and began rambling and asking you questions.

“So you’re talking medicine every four hours and monitoring your temperature? Have you eaten? Do you feel dizzy or nauseous or-“ he was cutoff, though, as you just had to interrupt him.

“I’m fine Chan, probably just a bad cold” you laughed quietly at his frantic worrying and simply moved over to allow him a space to sit on the couch.

He waited a second then sat beside you, not before asking you if you really were okay at least ten times more.

“Yes I’m really fine!” You laughed, still attempting to distance yourself though. “Don’t get too close though, I’m probably contagious”

“Okayy” he replied, obviously lying as he draped an arm around your shoulders to pull you closer to himself.

lee know

Poor baby had no idea what to do. He debated even coming over because he knew he’d be of no help whatsoever, but he couldn’t just leave you by yourself.

You did had to admit that you were a little confused when he showed up with just an ice pack, though, but you laughed it off.

“Are you, um, like really sick?” He asked, his eyes wide at the sight of your pale skin and slightly sweaty forehead.

“I’ve felt worse” you answered, attempting to reassure your frightened boyfriend. “Here, you can sit” you said, patting the empty bed beside you. “That is, if you’re okay with probably getting sick too”

You took his eager and non hesitant leap into your bed as an okay.

“I’m not good with medicine or remedies or anything like that. Chan usually does that kind of stuff” he snickered, wrapping his arms tightly around you. “But I can try and help you feel better with hugs. Is that okay?”

You smiled, nearly melting at the sweetness of your boyfriend. “Definitely” you replied, kissing his knuckles.

changbin

“That’s gross” Changbin said from the doorframe of your bathroom, watching as you finished heaving up what was left of your last meal.

You rolled you eyes, standing up and flushing the toilet, but immediately feeling quite dizzy.

“Woah, okay” he gasped, leaping to catch your wobbly figure before you were to slip up and fall.

Helping you from the bathroom to your bedroom, he gently sat you on the bed before rushing off to grab a wet towel and some water. He returned in just a few minutes and dabbed your forehead with the towel, worry evident in his eyes.

You whined, looking up at your boyfriend with a pout. “Cuddle with me” you pleaded.

“I don’t want to get sick!” He exclaimed, having to look away from your face to say so.

“You wouldn’t have come if you cared about getting sick” you stated, raising an eyebrow at the male.

He groaned before flopping in the bed beside you, pretending to wince as he wrapped his arms around your waist.

You beamed, quite satisfied with your work of getting him to cuddle. That wasn’t an easy feat.

“I love you way too much, Y/N”

hyunjin

You were completely knocked out from sheer exhaustion, but the cold medicine you had taken probably just added to it as well. So, being completely asleep, you didn’t notice your boyfriend enter your room or much less your home. Not until a series of faint breaths tickled your face and caused you to finally wake up.

You sat there for a second before jumping back, obviously startled at your boyfriend’s face only inches away from your own.

“Hyunjin!” You yelled, trying to calm down yourself.

“Sorry, I was just trying to make sure you were still breathing” he spoke sheepishly, immediately taking a step back.

“I was just sleeping” you said, though you couldn’t help but giggle at his obvious concern. It was cute, and you had to admit that.

“I brought these” he murmured after a second, reaching back to show you a plethora of your favorite candies. More than you could eat for a long time, but you knew he definitely wouldn’t mind taking some off of your hands. “I can stay, right?” he then asked, his eyes big and twinkling with hope.

You smiled, leaning up to peck him on the cheek.

“I’ll, take that as a yes” he laughed and then proceeded to tackle you in a hug.

han

“Oh my gosh!” Jisung screamed upon entering the kitchen and finding you on the ground.

To be fair, it probably did look bad at first. You laid out in the middle of your kitchen, but honestly you weren’t that sick. You had just been in the kitchen looking for a snack, that you could actually keep down, when a dizzy spell hit you and of course that was right before he entered.

Before you could even speak though, Jisung was leaning over you with wide eyes.

“Did you pass out? Did you hit your head? Are you okay? Can you see how many-“ he was cut off by you causally sitting up and looking him in the eyes.

“I’m okay, just a little dizzy” you reassured him.

“So you’re not dying?”

“Why would I- no Jisung I’m not dying”

He nodded then pulled out a stuffed animal from behind his back and placed it in your hands. It was a cute little squirrel holding a red heart that said “feel better!”.

You gasped at the sight of the plushie, you’re eyes sparkling as you beamed up at him.

“It’s you!” You exclaimed, poking at his cheek.

“Mhm” he smiled, helping you up and to the couch.

felix

“Y/N!” Felix yelled as soon as he walked through your front door, eagerly looking around for your whereabouts. He had heard from one of the boys that you weren’t feeling well, but he didn’t know the extent of your illness.

You tried to weakly call out an answer from where you were slumped in your bathroom, but you could barely speak above a whisper. It didn’t take him a few seconds, though, to peer around the corner of the doorframe and find your crumpled figure.

“Oh, jagi” he murmured, kneeling in front of you. “How long have you been here?” He asked, sadness inevitably dripping into his words.

“About an hour” you answered quietly, not wanting to upset him anymore.

He wanted to ask you why you didn’t call him, but truthfully he knew the answer. Still though, he wished sometimes that you would think about yourself more than him. He didn’t say anything more, just simply picked you up gently and brought you to your bed.

“Do you need anything?” He asked, brushing hair away from your warm forehead.

You shook your head, but frowned as he climbed into the bed beside you.

Seeming to read your mind, he said “Don’t worry about me. Let’s get you feeling better first”.

seungmin

You hadn’t been feeling well a lot lately. Not because you were unhealthy or didn’t take care of your body, but you actually had a condition which caused your ears to ring and disrupt your daily life. Typically it was manageable though and Seungmin barely even knew about it, but your recent stress and heavy workload had caused it to start flaring up.

Honestly, there wasn’t much you could to help it either. You just took the day off from school and tried to occupy the time by texting some of the boys. To be noted though, you never actually told any of them that you weren’t feeling well. It was just odd for you to miss school, which is what was a red flag for Seungmin.

Feeling your phone buzzing by your side, you figured it was your boyfriend. So seeing his name pop up was no surprise.

“Hello?” You answered, still sat in your bed.

“Hey I’m uh, coming over” he said after a second.

“What why? I’m fine Seungmin, I just wanted to take the day off”

“I’m at your door” he said immediately. “Can you come open it? I forgot the key”.

You jumped up, your ears still badly ringing as you swung open the front door to reveal a slightly sweaty Seungmin.

“Did you run here?” You asked, almost speechless.

“Maybe” he answered with a shrug, entering before closing the door behind him. After a moment he asked “is it the, um, ear thing?”.

You nodded, but not before trying to convince him you were okay and he didn’t have to stay.

“Let’s just watch a movie and relax or something, okay? I need a break from the dorm too” he said, to which you finally agreed.

in

Seeing you leaned over the sink splashing cool water on your face, he slowly crept up behind you. Which of course you didn’t see until you looked up at the mirror.

You yelled and jumped, instantly turning around to see your grinning boyfriend.

“What are you- why did you- you scared me!” You finally exclaimed, leaning back against the countertop as you tried to steady your breathing.

“I know” he shrugged, raising an eyebrow. “You’re sick?”

“Sort of. I have a fever, but it’s slowly going away”

He nodded, scratching his chin in thought. “So you probably don’t need to go to the hospital?” he asked.

“Probably not” you answered slowly, curiously eyeing the boy.

“Alright good. I hate those places. Also just so you know I don’t really know what to do with sick people so I, uh, brought Woojin hyung” he said after a second, Woojin also stepping out of nowhere and into the doorframe.

Looking at the other male for a minute, you quickly busted out into laughter.

“You’re so cute!” You exclaimed, causing your boyfriend’s cheeks to slight heat up. “Oh yeah, I’m fine Woojin so you don’t have to help”

Woojin leaving after a quick conversation, you looked back to your boyfriend standing in front of you.

“Come on” you laughed, pulling him into your living room.

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[palindrome17]

A Beautiful Nightmare ☾ Bang Chan

Genre: non idol!au, slice of life, angst, fluff

Pairing: Chan x Reader (w/ bestfriend!Changbin)

Word Count: 12.2k

Warnings: mental health issues (implied), swearing/cursing, alcohol use, smoking, physical fighting, blood

Synopsis: They say that when you find true love that it’ll last forever. Though, you never knew that forever would come to an end so soon. Your relationship with Chan was at its last breath when you finally decide what to do.

Disclaimer: I do not endorse the use of alcohol or smoking. The use of either is a serious issue if used in excessive amounts. If you or someone you know is going through this issue, please reach out to someone. I did not put these topics in the story to try and glorify the use of them. These are put in to show the negative effects it can cause not just the user, but also the people around them.

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Fairy tales about knights and horses, princes and princesses, love and hate seemed like a hazy, distant memory to you. Those days seemed numbered as you grew up. Stories were replaced with facts, fantasy with reality, and pleasant memories with harsh moments. They say that time never stops, it never waits for anyone, it is merciless, and it does not care about your feelings. It didn’t take you long to realize that when your father left you and your mother when you were young. That was the day that you shut down the feeling of love and what it stood for. Your heart grew cold and empty. As the years pressed on, there wasn’t too many people who were able to break you from your aloof demeaner. Though, there was only one person who showed you what love really is, and how to feel it again. How to fall in love with love.

 His name, was Bang Chan.

 You met him through your childhood best friend, Changbin. Really, you should be thanking him for everything. You fit in well with the friend group as you started to open up as a person again. You felt like they accepted you and took you into their group with open arms. Being around them made you feel happier and you thought that nothing could change the moments you had with them. To you, they were your everything. Although, you never imagined that one of the members would ask you out. Chan was what every girl would want their boyfriend to be. He was attractive, funny, insanely talented, kind, and so many more things that made him almost seem like a perfect guy. You didn’t understand why he would want to go out with someone like you. Someone who was so broken and unlovable, certainly nobody would want to love you. Chan, however, was perfect and lovely and everything that you weren’t.

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 The sun’s rays poured into your bedroom, giving everything a yellow hue. You held onto your warm cup of your favorite drink as the heat warmed your hands. A large comfortable blanket was placed on your lap as you watched your favorite movie for the thousandth time. The chill of autumn knocked on your window, the trees rustling with the cold air. You took a deep breath as you took in the moment of the perfect autumn feeling. Your phone rang beside you as you looked to see that it was a text from Chan.

 Chan: Hey baby. Do you want to go on a date today? It’s a perfect day for one.

 You smiled to yourself as you replied, thinking, he’s too cute.

 You: Sure! What do you want to do?

 Your brain started to think of ideas of what you two could do, but frankly, anything you do with him made you happy.

 Chan: How about going for a walk outside? I know a beautiful place where we can go. I can pick you up in 15minutes if that’s okay.

 You: That sounds like fun! I’ll be ready in time, I promise :)

 You let out a small laugh, remembering the last time you went on a date. You were very late to the meeting place because you accidently fell asleep and forgot to put on the reminder on your phone.

 Chan: You better be on time, or else I’ll just leave you this time :)

 You: I swear, Channie, you leave me and it’s all over :P

 Chan: I promise I won’t ever leave you, baby. Don’t worry. I’ll see you soon <3

 You quickly turned off the movie and started to get ready. You put on your favorite autumn outfit and looked at yourself in the mirror, straightening everything that looks out of place. You stared at yourself, wondering how lucky you were to find someone who loved you no matter what. Chan was the best thing to happen to you for a long time, and you were so grateful for it. You told him every day how much he meant to you, how he made you feel happy, how he made you feel loved again, how he was simply perfect for you. You soon felt a smile grip at your lips at the thought of him. It was soon interrupted by the sound of a knock on your front door. You quickly grabbed your phone from your bed and turned off the lights in your bedroom and rushed to the front door. You opened it and were presented with a casual looking Chan. You smiled as you rushed to hug him. Your figure engulfed by his bear hug around you. You could hear a laugh from him as he just stood there and hugged you.

 “Nice to see you too, baby.” He said teasingly.

 You looked at him with a pout, “What? Can’t I be excited to see my boyfriend?”

 He let go of you and placed his hands on his hips, “No. Absolutely no affection. No excitement.” He said sarcastically.

 “Oh, says the one who hugged me.” You accusingly said as you pushed him in the arm.

 “Hey, I was just making sure you didn’t fall!” Chan laughed as he motioned for your hand, “Lets go, or we’ll be late.”

 You turned to close and lock your door, then looked to him and placed your hand in his, “So, where is this place that you said you’re taking me?” you asked curiously.

 Chan turned around and pulled you along, “Don’t worry about it. You’ll figure it out.” He casually stated with a slight shrug.

 You gave out an audible sigh. You enjoyed a nice surprise, but you also wanted to know where he was taking you.

 The feeling of autumn reverberated throughout the air as the colors of autumn were placed upon the city. The crisp air blending with the feeling of being invincible.  The surrounding buildings flying past you as the car drove on. Your heart started to beat faster with the beat of the music playing on the radio, being completely lost in the moment of bliss. A smile pulled at your face as you glanced to see Chan peeking over towards you.

 You let out a soft laugh, “What’re you looking at? Pay attention to the road.” You pointed at the road.

 Chan simply flashed a smile at you as his eyes looked back toward the road without a word.

 You soon drove out of the city as the scenery changed. An abundance of trees soon filled the entire land. Red, yellow, orange, and brown shades were decorating the earth. You let down the window, the wind playing with the wisps of your hair. The sound of your phone buzzing made your heart jump. The moment ruined, you looked down to see who it was.

 Changbin: hey, I heard that you and Chan are going on a date.

 You gave a quiet scoff as you replied.

 You: Uh, yeah. Why’re you texting me if you know I’m going on a date?

 Changbin: Just to make sure that you’re ok! You’re my best friend. I want to make sure you’re doing good.

 You gave a small scowl, thinking, you fucking idiot.

 You: Yeah, I’m fine. Next time I see you, I’m going to punch you. You’re such a brat Binnie.

 You paused, then smiled a little as you sent another text.

 You: But thanks for checking up on me. Even if you’re a piece of shit <3

 You placed your phone back on your lap as you laid your head against the door again. Closing your eyes to try and get back into the mood.

 “Who texted you?” you heard Chan ask softly.

 “It was just Changbin. Wanted to check up on me.” You replied, eyes still closed.

 You heard his sweet laugh against the radios soft music, “I told them to not bother us while we were out. Guess I’ll have to talk to them when we get back.”

 “It’s fine, Channie. Changbin always wants to make sure I’m alright. Don’t take it personal.” You reassured him.

 “Okay, okay. I understand~ I’m just teasing you.” You felt his hand rest on your thigh.

 You opened your eyes and placed your hand on his, “I love you, Chan.” You spoke gently, eyes on the road ahead.

 “I love you, too.” Chan replied as you could feel him smiling at you.

 You soon arrived at the place Chan was talking about. You read the sign that said High Trails. You looked at him with a huge smile, you love to go on walks. The car soon came to a stop as Chan parked the car. You immediately jumped out of the car and giggled with excitement. You looked around to see a large building and several trails leading into the forest. A car door slam caught your attention as you motioned for Chan to hurry up.

 “C’mon Channie! Let’s go!” you enthusiastically burst out as you grabbed his hand.

 Chan simply rolled his eyes, “I knew you’d like it.”

 You dragged him to the trail map and looked at all the various trails. You decided to go on the one that seemed to be the most scenic.

 “Does that one look good to you?” you asked before leading the way down the trail.

 Chan didn’t answer, which caught you off guard as you turned to him with confusion, “Chan? Is something wrong?”

 He gave you a beautiful smile, “Nothing is wrong, y/n. You’re just too gorgeous to say anything.” He confessed, slightly bashful.

 You felt your face start to grow hot, “Shut up. You’re embarrassing!” you grabbed his hand and lead him down the path without another word.

 The path was freshly cut as the dead leaves laid on the ground. The trees becoming frozen and bare. You heard the crisp crunch at the bottom of your feet as you walked deeper into the forest. The quietness of the atmosphere was calming, in contrast to the rambunctious city. You smiled to yourself as you held onto Chan’s soft hands, thinking how perfect this moment is with him. You heard his low, soft voice of a tune that seemed to be stuck in his head. God you could listen to his voice forever if you could. You glanced over to see a downhill slope. An idea forming in your head.

 “Wanna roll down the hill?” you asked excitedly to Chan, not breaking eye contact with the hill.

 “What are you, five?” he laughed, but then paused, “only if you want to, cause that honestly sounds really fun.”

 You looked him dead in the eye, “Of course I’m five.” You observed back to the hill, “Ready to rock and roll?”

 “I was practically born ready.” Chan replied as he let go of your hand and turned towards the hill.

 You smiled widely, counting down from three. You fell forward and crumpled into a somersault, feeling the cold hard ground mixed with the sound of leaves flying out from under you. You let out a small scream down the hill, slowly getting quieter once you landed at the bottom of the hill. You sat up and looked over at Chan who was equally as happy. His sun kissed hair complemented the colored leaves. Chan’s eyes were closed as he laughed, arms stretched out with hands opened wide. You smiled at the scene you were witnessing. He soon opened his eyes slowly as you locked eyes with him. The birds chirping echoed through the woods as he propped himself up by his elbows.

 “Wow, that was so much fun. It feels like forever since I’ve done something like that.” Chan gave a toothy grin at you.

 You nodded your head, “Yeah, me too.” You spoke softly.

 You laid down beside him on the ground as you looked up at the blue blanket of sky, tree branches hovering above you. You heard Chan lay back down with the crunch of leaves. The sounds of nature submerging you into a trance as you laid there with him. You let out a sigh, getting lost in your thoughts.

 “Hey, Chan?” you questioned.

 “Yeah, baby?” he replied.

 You took a pause, “What do you envision when you think of the future?”

 “Well,” he started, taking your hand is his, “I imagine you being by my side. I imagine living in a nice house. I imagine our friends being as close as we are right now. I imagine a life where everything is good.”

 You gently rubbed your fingers against his knuckles as you processed his words, “I do too, Channie. Though, I do have another question for you.” You stopped and looked towards him.

 “Go on.” He assured you.

 You looked back towards the sky, “Why have you been so kind to me? When I was at my lowest, you somehow showed me how to love again.”

 There was a long pause after you spoke. The silence almost deafening.

 “The day I first met you,” Chan finally said, “I thought to myself, how can I make this girl mine? You were so beautiful, lovely, charming, just… so many things and I just fell for you.”

 You felt a small drop in your stomach, “But I wasn’t what you needed. I was so messed up and broken. I felt like I was nothing.” You slowly added, “I’m not good for you at all, Chan.”

 You heard Chan sit up and look at you in a serious manner, “Don’t say that. Don’t you dare ever say that, y/n. You’re the best thing to happen to me, you’ve taught me so many things... you make me happy. Don’t ever think that you’re not enough.” He slowly leaned down towards you, “I love you so much.”

 He closed the gap between you two, his soft lips sweet and passionate. You leaned into the kiss, reciprocating the feelings. You felt his hand cup your cheek in a loving embrace. You soon broke the kiss, letting in a small breath of air. You opened your eyes to see Chan gazing at you with starry eyes.

 “I love you, Chan.” You replied with a wide smile.

 Though, that moment seemed like a distant memory to you now.

 ➵

 You slowly opened your eyes to be greeted by the brightness penetrating through your blinds. You squinted your eyes to try and read your alarm clock, hoping that you haven’t slept for too long.

 14:28

 You let out an audible groan as you rolled over to your other side. Fuck… I don’t even want to get up. You pulled your warm covers up over you again as you tried to avoid the sunlight like the plague. An obnoxious loud ringing suddenly emitted from your phone. You let out a loud curse word as you sat up and looked to see who was calling. It was Changbin. You felt a small scowl forming as you picked up the phone.

 “Hey Binnie. What do you want?” you asked, almost stumbling over your words.

 “Did you just get up, y/n? It’s the afternoon, you should’ve been up already.” He questioned, sounding concerned.

 You paused, trying to think of an answer, “No, no. I’ve been up, I promise. I was just up late last night, and I couldn’t fall asleep, that’s all.”

 “Y/n you’ve been doing this to me for a while now. This seems like it’s becoming a regular occurrence now.” Changbin stated, almost in a scolding way, “I’m coming over. We need to talk.”

 The call ended with that and left you with a pit at the bottom of your stomach. Shit, what does he wanna talk about? I don’t want to talk to him right now. What’s he gonna say to me? Dammit, why do I feel so scared? You quickly got out of your bed and got dressed in some lazy clothes. You opened your blinds to see the soft petals of spring falling gracefully to the ground outside. You quickly ran out of your room and grabbed the pack of cigarettes off the kitchen table. Your hands scraping the edges of the box, finding the opening and taking a cigarette out. Your hand then glided across the table to pick up the lighter as you walked out onto your tiny back deck. You slowly lit your cigarette between your lips, and you puffed out the toxic smoke. You set down the lighter on the small table outside as you looked out into the city. You took a deep breath as you tried to slow down your heart. A buzz from your phone alarmed you as you jumped a little. It was a text from Changbin.

 Changbin: Please come open your apartment door. I look like a weird stalker standing here.

 You took a drag as you read the text message. You didn’t like smoking in the apartment because the scent would linger inside. Honestly, you didn’t really remember when you even started smoking in the first place, but you hate that you’re doing it. You glanced down at your cigarette gently placed between your two fingers, then behind you as you tried to decide what to do. You gritted your teeth as you opened your backdoor with cigarette in hand and walked inside. The slight creek in the floorboards echoed your lingering footsteps. You grabbed the doorknob, taking a drag before opening the door. You tried to give a smile to Changbin, but you had trouble doing so. Changbin only stood there and looked at you, running his fingers through his pitch-black hair.

 “Hey. What do you want me to talk about?” you asked as you stepped aside, letting him walk inside.

 He walked in and took a seat at your little kitchen table, “Why don’t you sit down, then I’ll start to talk.” He gave you an odd expression, one you haven’t seen before.

 You closed the door and went to sit across from him, “Why’d you come and see me?” you questioned, almost feeling intimidated by his concentration on you.

 He took a sigh, “Well,” he glanced down at the pack of smokes on the table, “we haven’t seen you for a few days, maybe it’s been a week now, but we all were wondering where you’ve been. Why do you seem to be hiding from us?”

 You placed your lips around the cigarette, then took it out as smoke exuded from your lips.

 “Sorry about that,” You muttered, sounding almost insincere. “but no one is perfect. Why would you ask me that anyway? You know I’m going through some things right now.” you added with bitterness in your voice.

 Changbin crossed his arms and placed them on the table, “I’m aware of what’s been happening, y/n, and I’m sorry that you’re going through this.” He leaned forward and grabbed the pack of cigarettes off the table, “But this? This isn’t who you are. You know these are bad for you, right?”

 You gave him a tired expression as you frowned slightly, “I’m aware its bad for me, but it’s too fucking early for this.” You got up and extinguished your cigarette in the ash tray, then walked away towards your bedroom.

 You could hear Changbin angerly follow as his footsteps pounded on the ground. You sat down on your floor and looked up at Changbin who gave you a disappointed look. He sat down across from you, crossing his legs like a child would.

 “I care about you. I hope you know that.” Changbin said seriously, “I’ve known you for a long time, ever since we were young kids. And I hate to see you this way. You’re my best friend, and I don’t want to see you go down a path that you may regret in the future.”

 You stayed silent, thinking of what to say, “I don’t think I can make it.” You finally said, “Things seem to be going downhill for me. Chan and I are taking a break right now, so that’s fun. I miss him so fucking much it hurts. Whatever, I don’t even care anymore. Fuck everything, am I right?”

 Changbin could only look at you with a saddened expression, “Where is the old you? The one who persevered through tough situations? The one who loves to go out exploring into dangerous territories? The one who would smile and laugh and love living life? Where is the y/n I grew up with?” he grabbed your hand and held it in his.

 You stared at your hands placed in his, “I don’t remember who I use to be. Things have been so fucked up lately. I can’t take it anymore. I don’t know what to do now.” You tried to pull away from Changbin’s grip, but you couldn’t, “What are you doing, Binnie?”

 “You’re not going anywhere, y/n. You need to seriously talk with me, and don’t give me that bullshit of not wanting to burden me with your problems. I hate when you do that because it makes me feel incapable as a friend.” Changbin said as nicely as he could, “The other boys feel that way too lately. Like whatever we try to do, you just seem to keep pushing us away.”

 You felt your heart break as he spoke those words, like a million pieces of glass shattered into your heart. You felt pain and guilt wash over you like a wave in the ocean. You looked down from his gaze at you as you felt ashamed of even being near him. Tears started to form as your thoughts echoed through your head.

 Why don’t you just tell him?

Why can’t you tell him anything?

Why don’t you be honest?

Why’re you so scared?

He’s trying to help.

Why can’t you see that?

He is putting in so much effort and you’re giving him nothing.

You’re a horrible friend.

Why can’t you do anything?

 You felt tears start to fall down your cheeks like a slow and steady rain. Your face getting red from shame. You couldn’t hold it back anymore. You felt your voice hitch as you started crying in front of him. Your mind completely blank but running wildly. You slowly leaned into Changbin’s chest as you felt his strong arms around you for comfort. You let out a cry as he stayed silent, rubbing his hands against your arms. The pale light of the day quietly shined through your window. The floating dust catching the light and drifting along the space of the room.

 “What’s wrong with me?” you muttered with a tear stained face, looking up to see Changbin’s comforting expression.

 “Nothing is wrong with you…” Changbin said softly with a smile, “You just need a little push is all.” he lightly laughed as he shook your body by the shoulders.

 You let out a small laugh, “Thanks Binnie. For everything.” You gave a tired look but managed to show a tiny grin.

 “Here, let’s sit on the couch and watch movies together, huh? We can watch whatever you want. I’m not going to leave you today.” He stood up and dragged you out of your bedroom and into your living room.

 You sat down on the couch as you watched him do all the work. Your mind seemed to be foggy from crying, so you weren’t up to much talking too much.

 He was searching through your DVD drawer to find any movies that you may enjoy, but then looked at you, “What movie do you want to watch?”

 A memory suddenly occurred to you, almost in a flashback kind of sense. You looked at Changbin as you remembered a time where you two were much younger and spent every waking moment together. You and him always watched movies at your house, wasting entire days, but having fun, nevertheless. You felt a small pain in your chest as the memory soon began to fade away. A longingness pulled at your heart almost made you cry again.

 Changbin gave you a confused look, “You okay, y/n? You just kinda spaced out.”

 “Yeah, yeah. I’m okay. I just… remembered something from a long time ago, that’s all.” you confessed with a droopy smile, “but any movie will do.” you gave a shrug, pulling up a blanket over you.

 “Alright.” He replied, lingering his stare at you before pulling out your favorite comedy movie, “How about having a good laugh?”

 He put in the movie and hopped beside you on the couch. He pouted to you, but you just rolled your eyes and invited him to get under the blanket with you. You always knew what he wanted, even by just the way he looks at you. You suppose it was just because you know him so well. He made himself seem small as he curled up beside you, leaning his head on your shoulder. You smiled to yourself, thinking that you don’t deserve someone as caring as Changbin. You watched the movie with him, knowing almost all the lines due to watching it so many times. Laughing made you almost forget about how much shit is going on in your life.

 You fell quiet during the movie, “Hey, Binnie?”

 He leaned up from you as he looked towards you, “Yeah?”

 “My father finally decided to reach out to me and try to talk to me, but I keep declining his offer. I don’t ever remember what he fucking looks like.” You stated, tucking your legs closer to your chest.

 “Your father? How did he even find you?” Changbin gave a strange look.

 You shrugged, “Probably my mother. He used to send holiday cards to me when I still lived with my mother. Though, the letters eventually stopped, and I didn’t know why.” You glanced at him, “He wants me to go out of the country to meet him at his new home.”

 Changbin tilted his head slightly, “I know you weren’t close with your father, but have you considered going to see him?” he said slowly.

 “At first I thought about going, but then I was reminded how much of an asshole he was for leaving me and my mother.” You replied in spite.

 He nodded his head, “That’s understandable. But he seems to be trying to make up for it now.”

 You stayed silent, “I don’t care, Binnie. He hurt me and my mother, so, I don’t care to see him right now.” You looked back at the movie, “Forget I even brought it up. I want to try and have at least a half good day today.”

 Changbin didn’t say a word as he leaned back onto you, focusing on the movie again. You gave out a sigh as you watched the rest of the movie. The soft outside sunlight glistened in the room, hovering midair as it illuminated. A black screen appeared on the tv screen as the credits started to roll. Changbin got up from his position of tiny person beside you as he walked over to the tv to take the DVD out of the DVD player. He placed the disc back into the DVD case and in the drawer. You tossed the blanket aside as you watched him look at you with a goofy smile. You looked at him and gave a laugh.

 “What’re you smiling about?” you asked.

 “It’s just… we haven’t hung out like this for a while. But it was really nice to be with you again.” He replied, not giving up the goofy smile on his face.

 You felt a joyful smile pull at your lips, but a sad feeling pulls at your heart, “Yeah, it feels nice to be with you again like old times.” You paused but then added, “Maybe next time you should invite the rest of the boys here so we can have a movie night.”

 Changbin nodded vigorously at your suggestion, “Yes! That sounds like a great idea.” He got up and tackled you on the couch, laughing, “How’re you so smart?”

 You laughed as you felt a heavy weight topple over you, “I was just born smart!” you teased him, trying to fight back, but knowing damn well you would lose to him.

 He simply laid on top of you to make you stop resisting, “I’m happy to see you smiling again, y/n. Even if you are a brat.” You felt his arms embrace you in a gentle hug.

 You slowly placed your arms around him, “Yeah. I could agree.”

 ➵

 The sound of the loud city cried out against the dead of night. You never noticed how beautiful Seoul was until now. The lights illuminating the surrounding area, giving off so much light it was almost blinding. You sat on a chair on your back deck, taking a smoke break. You put the cigarette to your lips as you saw the small red fire at the end of it. The thought of nothing and everything started racing in your head as you simply sat there. Everything seemed to be in rapid slow motion to you. The feeling of loneliness started to creep in your mind as emptiness started to fill your heart. You looked at your phone to see the group chat with the boys were flooding your notifications. A small smile started to take shape as you read through the long line of messages. You loved to see them talk about whatever. You went to go and type something, but you quickly deleted the message. Shit, what do I even say to them? ‘Hi, what’s up? You haven’t seen me for weeks but I’m doing perfectly fine. Don’t come and try to talk to me because I’ll just end up hurting you, cause that seems like the only thing I can do. Hahaha I’m so very funny. Well, goodnight.’ Yeah cause that’ll go over nicely. Stupid piece of shit. You lifted your cigarette to your lips again. You gazed down into the burning fire at the end of it, hating every part of the cigarette. You extinguished the rolled-up cancer in the ash tray placed on the table. There was about a half dozen in the tray. You frowned, why am I like this? All I do is self-sabotage myself. The ringing of your phone snapped you out of the trance, you saw it was an old friend of yours.

 “Hey, Jihyun! What’s going on with you? It feels like I haven’t seen you in a while.” You asked happily.

 “Oh, nothing much, really. Hey, so… I know you’re not big into parties, but I’m hosting one at my house tonight. I was wondering if you’d like to stop over?” she said loudly, trying to be louder than the background music.

 You thought for a moment, “It sounds like the party already started.” You yelled back, “But I’m free right now to stop by and spend a few hours there.”

 “Oh yes!” Jihyun yelled excitedly, “Alright, I’ll see you soon then?”

 “Yeah. I’ll be over soon.” You replied as you hung up.

 Fuck. Why’d I say I’d go to the party? I don’t really want to go. Maybe I’ll have a few drinks to help me. Knowing her she’ll definitely have alcohol. You got up from your chair and headed back inside. You walked back into your room to change outfits. The closet was filled with various types of clothes, but you weren’t too sure what to wear. You decided on a casual but fancy look as you grabbed your phone and keys and walked out your door. Once you got outside your apartment building, you called for a taxi to come and drive you. You laid your head back on the head rest as you closed your eyes, feeling a sense of tiredness before you even entered the party. You opened your eyes to see that you arrived at her house, you kindly payed the taxi driver and got out. You stood at the entrance of the mansion-like house. You remembered her house to be large, but you didn’t remember it being this big. The loud thumping of the base pounded against the walls, almost completely audible from outside. Thank god she lives away from everyone else, or she would be getting a lot of calls right now. You knocked on the door a few times, waiting for someone to answer it. It soon dawned on you that the people inside probably couldn’t hear the knock.

 “Idiot.” you said out loud to yourself.

 You took your phone out and called Jihyun to come and open the door for you. The quiet waiting was getting annoying as you stood there for what seemed like forever until the door finally opened. You were greeted by the blasting of music coming through the door and your friend with a glass of something in her hand.

 “Oh my god, y/n!” she hugged you tightly, “It’s been forever since I’ve seen you! How have you been?” she yelled against the pounding music.

 You smiled, “I’ve been doing pretty good!” you walked into the mansion, “But have you thought about turning down the music so I can hear you?” you questioned.

 “I guess it is a little loud,” she agreed, “here come follow me. I want to catch up with you!” she walked away, presumably to turn down the music.

 You followed in her footsteps, answering her questions when she asked them. You glanced around at the seemingly hundreds of people inside, all dancing and talking to each other. The decorations around the house gave it almost like a ‘classic teen romance party movie’ vibe. The entire mansion had a deep aroma of alcohol. You could tell there was a dimness to all the rooms you passed, because you could barely make out the faces on people. The loud music almost made it to where you could barely hear conversations as you continued to follow Jihyun. You finally reached a small room down the corridor of hallways, probably where the music was being played from throughout the house. You saw her turn down the music slightly to where it was still loud enough to hear, but able to concentrate on a conversation. Jihyun turned out of the room and back into the hallway, she looked towards you.

 “Wow, it’s so nice to see you again, y/n.” she smiled widely.

 You laughed a little in agreement, “Yeah, it’s nice to come to a party once in a while.”

 “Here, let me get you a drink.” She offered, “What do you like?” she started to walk away towards the kitchen where the beverages are being served.

 “Oh, it doesn’t really matter. I’m not picky.” You assured her.

 The kitchen was large and full of people. Glass and fancy décor were strewn all about the kitchen. The scent of alcohol was overwhelming, but for obvious reasons. The bar area was particularly crowded as you weaved your way through. You placed your hands on the counter as you looked at the bar tender, ordering your go to drink for parties. The glass hit the table, making a noticeable clank. You quickly took it and tried to get away from the crowd.

 “Let’s go sit down somewhere.” She suggested, leading you like always.

 You nodded, “Yeah, that seems nice.”

 She easily snaked through the ocean of people, occasionally asking how the party was to the people you passed. Frankly, you didn’t know anyone there, which made you feel like the odd one out. You took a deep breath and drank some of your drink, hoping it would make you feel a little better. You entered to what seemed like a “VIP” area. The dark luxurious expensive looking couches and daunting glass table was intimidating to you. The large window behind everything gave a distant view of the city’s lights. The room felt huge, but there weren’t as many people in here as other areas in the house. Jihyun found a cozy spot on one of the couches next to her other friends, leaving you in the doorway. Your eyes scanned the room, finding a place to sit. Suddenly your heart stopped mid-beat as you locked eyes with him.

 His name was Park Hajoon and he was the last person you ever wanted to lay eyes on.

 You felt frozen in place as he looked at you with a smile, seemingly forgetting everything he has done to you. Hajoon was surrounded with people but he didn’t dare look away from you. His styled jet-black hair and strong facial features ostensibly haven’t changed since high school. Though, you knew his personality probably hasn’t changed much either. Your knees felt weak and a heavy drop in your stomach. Shit. Oh, fuck why is he here!? God, I wish I never saw him. Damn it all. Fucking shit! Just leave. Right now. Your hand started to slightly shake as your feet were bolted to the ground. Your throat felt dry as you saw him finally get up from his seat and walk towards you.

 “Y/n? Is that you?” he questioned, looking at you with a slightly tilted head, “Wow, I haven’t seen you since graduation. How have you been?” he gave you a hug, which you tried not to freak out.

 You reciprocated the hug, trying to calm down your beating heart, “Yeah. It’s been a while, hasn’t it? I’ve been doing fine, though. Nothing much.” You tried to keep it calm and casual.

 “Here, why don’t you sit down with me.” He offered as he walked to sit back down where he was originally.

 Your feet felt like they became rocks as you dragged them across the hard wood floor. You felt your vision blur and then come back into focus as you sat down beside Hajoon. You tried to become small and unnoticeable as you took a big gulp of your drink, trying to not freak out. Conversations were floating around the room, ranging from various topics. You felt a nudge on your arm, and you looked over.

 “Why so tense? Don’t you trust me?” he questioned, giving you a reassuring smile, “Here, I’ll get you another drink and then we can catch up.” Hajoon took your empty glass and walked out.

 You quickly got up out of your seat and marched over to Jihyun and looked at her in the eyes.

 “Jihyun! You didn’t tell me Hajoon was here!” you scolded, “I haven’t seen him since high school.”

 She looked at you surprised, “I’m sorry, y/n. I honestly didn’t know he was here either. I thought you would’ve gotten over the fact that he was your bully.”

 You frowned, a knot in your stomach forming, “No, Jihyun. I haven’t seen him to even try and make up.” You paused, getting more anxious, “It’s just that now he is here, and every time I see him, I get scared. I get all the memories of all the bad things he’s done to me. I remember every insult and action he did to me.”

 “Well,” she started, “why don’t you try and make up now? While he’s here so you can move on?” she suggested with a small smile.

 You slowly nodded your head, “I’ll try. Thanks.”

 “Just remember, if you need backup or help, just look at me. I’ll understand right away and kick him out.” Jihyun said confidently.

 Not a moment passed once you sat down that Hajoon came back into the room. He sat down and gave you a new drink that you’ve never seen before.

 “Here. It’s one of my personal favorites.” He laughed.

 You took the odd liquid and smelled it, it was a very strong drink, “Oh, thanks.” You took a rather large sip and almost coughed, “What the hell? Its foul, Hajoon!”

 He shook his head, “Probably should’ve gotten you something else, huh? It’s more of an acquired taste.” He peered into the dark liquid in your glass, “So, what have you been doing since high school?”

 “Nothing too major. I’m just doing some temporary work until I can find the job I want to do.” you casually responded, “What about you?” you placed the glass down on the table.

 “Well,” he ran his hand through his hair slowly, “I recently became one of the CEO’s of POSCO.” He leaned closely to your ear, “My father knew a guy to help me get the job. So, it’s not like I should take all the credit.” He whispered with a small smirk.

 You felt spite burn in your soul, “Why’d you tell me that?” you questioned with a hint of attitude.

 “Just being friendly is all.” he shrugged, “We were classmates after all. Besides, sharing secrets is what’s beautiful about life.” He took his drink from the table and took a swig.

 “So, is that why you knew so many things about everyone in the school?” you frowned, hate flowing through your veins.

 He laughed, “Sometimes it’s who you know, not what you know.” His fingers tracing the design of the glass, “It really is survival of the fittest in this world, wouldn’t you agree?”

 You felt a slight headache forming, perhaps from the alcohol, “How come you’re such an asshole, even now?” you spat angerly.

 “What the hell, y/n?!” he gave you a serious look, “I’m just trying to be a better person than who I was before! Why’re you bringing up the past?”

 “Hajoon, do you not remember what you did to me? How you made my life a living hell every day for three years straight?!” you got up quickly, maybe a little too quickly, “Maybe you need a reminder. Do you remember when you and your friends dumped dirty cleaning water on me during lunch? Or maybe when you decided to spread rumors about me and how I was a slut and a whore? That I was sleeping around with all the guys in our school?” you felt the room start to spin when you talked, you always hated drinking too much.

 Hajoon stood up in front of you, you almost forgot how tall he was, “What the fuck, y/n?! You wanna play the victim here!? Go ahead.” His hands formed into fist and he had an angry look to him, “I will admit that I was a bully, and what I did was wrong. Don’t you think for a moment that I was let off the hook for it. My parents were disappointed in me every day for the things I did.”

 “Oh bullshit, Hajoon! Your parents adored you, and you knew it.” You felt a fire burning inside, “You could get away with anything and just pay off the people to let you off the hook. You had everything you ever wanted, so it gave you a free pass to be a complete asshole jerk!”

 You felt the room slowly get quiet from the scene you were making. The music still blasting throughout. You looked towards Jihyun for assistance, but you knew she would be no help. This was a fight you had to go through.

 Hajoon smirked ever so slightly, “Yeah, at least my parents loved me, unlike yours.” He seemingly towered over you, making you feel small, “You were the one who picked this fight with me, but let’s just drop it, darling.”

 You felt sick to your stomach. You knew he got you pegged. His stupid face said it all. You felt your heart start to race as if it was going to explode, your brain pounding against your skull. You felt the room start spinning out of control, your vision starting to blur. You rushed out of the room in a hurry, searching for the nearest bathroom to puke. The loud music rang through your ears, disrupting your panicked thoughts. Fuck this. Fuck this so hard. Dammit it. Dammit it all. I hate him. I hate myself. I hate- you finally found a bathroom and fell into it. There were ambient lights strung up around the room, giving off enough light to barely see everything. You closed and locked the door and knelt to the toilet. You placed your head right at the entrance of the seat, hands on the sides, ready to throw up everything. You felt your stomach pulse up through your body. You felt something come up, finally. It felt like a long time before you finally got everything out. You felt physically tired afterwards. You flushed the toilet and washed your hands. Your eyes gazed up to the mirror and you saw your reflection. You never realized how tired you looked around the eyes. You touched your cheek and that’s when you felt something snap in your head. Tears started to fall down your face. You tried hard to muffle your screams against the music banging against the walls. You slowly slid down one of the empty walls and place your hands over your mouth. You felt so tired. Everything was going wrong in your life. You felt like nothing anymore.

 Why is everything so shit for me now? Why can I not feel better anymore? Why did Chan and I split? Why is my life not going right anymore? Why can’t I become better? Why do I feel like shit? Why can’t I do anything right? I’m done. I can’t anymore. I feel too tired anymore. I hate myself.

 The tears started to stop as you took a few shaky breaths, trying to calm down. You felt physically and emotionally exhausted. Your brain felt fried as you sat on the bathroom floor. You didn’t feel like going back out to the party. It would be too depressing. The music felt distant to you, like you were underwater listening to it. Everything felt null and void.

 “Fuck this shit. Life sucks, and there’s nothing you can do about it.” You muttered to yourself out loud, hoping it would make you feel less alone.

 You slowly got up from the floor and noticed the lavished white bathtub. You climbed into it carefully and sat there for a moment with your thoughts. You took out your phone to call Changbin.

 After a few rings, there was an answer, “Hey, y/n. Is everything alright?” he questioned.

 You took a deep breath, “Honestly, no. Nothing is okay right now. Can you come and pick me up from my friend’s house?”

 “Of course, I’ll come over. What happened?” he sounded concerned.

 “I uh…” you stopped, trying to think of a way to explain the events that happened, “I just met Park Hajoon. You remember him from high school, right? Well, he’s at this party and I just fled to the bathroom. So, that’s where I’m at. It’s just depressing here now, that’s all.”

 “Wait, you saw Park Hajoon at this party? Shit… did he do anything to you?” you could hear a little aggravation in Changbin’s voice.

 “No, nothing happened. But he was just trying to be friendly towards me, that’s all. Though, I snapped on him and uh… he didn’t take it too well.” You explained, “I’ll just tell you more when you get here.”

 You heard a car door being slammed in the background, “Alright, I just got in my car, and I’m on my way to get you. I’ll just use your locations to get to the house, so just sit tight. Maybe we can get something to eat.” He suggested, trying to make you feel better.

 You felt a hint of a smile start to form, “Yeah, maybe.” You said, almost at a whisper.

 “Alright. I’ll see you soon. Just hang tight, y/n.” Changbin said and hung up.

 You placed your phone back and leaned your head back, trying to relax from everything. You soon heard a knock on the door after what seemed like forever. You got out of the bathtub and unlocked the door and opened it to be greeted by a familiar face.

 “You wouldn’t believe how many bathrooms I had to search to find you.” Changbin said as he tried to give you a smile.

 You were in no mood to smile, all you wanted was to go home, “Really? I’m sorry.” You apologized.

 Changbin suddenly wrapped his arms around you in a comforting hug, “It’s okay. Don’t apologize.” He let go and grabbed your hand, “Here, let’s go.”

 You could only nod as you were being dragged throughout the house. The noise almost deafening to your ears. Your vision could only look towards the ground; you didn’t want to speak to anyone, nor did you want to see anyone but Changbin. Your grip tightened as you almost felt yourself on the verge of crying again. You almost ran into Changbin as he suddenly stopped. You looked at him as you snapped out of your daze. You followed his gaze as you saw Hajoon walk towards you. You felt yourself wanting to disappear more and more with each step he took. Changbin stepped in front of you and glared at Hajoon, trying to be more menacing despite the difference in height.

 “Y/n! Your leaving so soon?” Hajoon asked, ignoring Changbin in front of him.

 “Shut up, Hajoon. She’s not going to speak to you.” Changbin spat, getting increasingly agitated.

 Hajoon only gave a small pout, “What? Can’t I say goodbye to y/n?” he spoke, almost teasingly.

 “No. We’re leaving now. I hope you’re happy knowing how much of a piece of shit you are.” Changbin walked away, pulling you along to the front door.

 Before you could exit, you heard Hajoon make one last snark remark, “I bet you fuck that entire group, y/n. Or maybe you suck all their dicks and that’s the only reason why they let you hang out with them.”

 You felt your heart sink from his words, though, in a matter of seconds it was replaced with deep hatred. Fuck Hajoon. Those are my best friends he’s talking about. Dammit, I’m going to kill him. I don’t care anymore. You turned around and walked over to him.

 “The fuck you say to me, Hajoon?” you gritted your teeth, your last straw almost to the breaking point.

 Hajoon only gave you a proud smirk, “Oh, you heard me, y/n. You definitely heard me.”

 You soon felt yourself swing a punch to wipe the proud smirk off his face. Your hand felt slight pain as you made contacted with his face. You saw him stagger back and looked at you with surprise. Without a moment’s hesitation, you leaped towards him as you two landed with a loud thud to the ground. Your heart rate pulsing out of your chest. Punching whatever you could of him, the pain soon increasing but it wasn’t much of a bother. You felt too much hate to care about the pain. Hajoon retaliated and used his stronger body build to throw you off him. You felt pain in your back as you were now the one on the ground. You could faintly hear the crowd in a ruckus from the fighting. A heavy weight was crushing you as you tried to get him away from you. Your vision was blurry, but your senses could tell that with every punch he gave you, it felt like fire being burned on your face. Soon, you felt the weight being lifted off you as you were dragged back up on your feet. You saw Hajoon struggling with two other guys holding him back. You looked over to see Changbin holding you up right. Your gaze shifted back to Hajoon; you noticed the damage you made on him. His lip was swollen, and you could notice where a bruise on his pretty face will form later tonight. You wanted to see him bloodier, though, he looked fucked up from what you saw. You felt proud of yourself as you were being dragged out of the house and to Changbin’s car. Still, you couldn’t look away from the screaming Hajoon, still being held back by the two guys. The door soon closed as you turned your attention to a worried Changbin.

 “Honestly, y/n, do you even think about what you do?” he asked, almost angry as he helped you into his car.

 You kept quiet until he got into the car and stared the engine, “For as long as you’ve known me, Binnie, when have I ever thought about what I was doing?” you scoffed.

 Changbin drove off with his wheels spinning away from the nightmare of a house, “You could’ve gotten seriously hurt. I’m not happy that you chose to fight him, but,” he glanced at you with a small smile, “you did get a good number of punches on him.”

 You couldn’t help but laugh, “Yeah, I guess I did.”

 While you were calming down from the rush of fighting, you felt something flow down your nose. You lifted your hand away from your nose and saw fresh blood on your hand.

 “Shit. I didn’t even realize my nose my bleeding.” You said aloud, pulling down the car’s sun visor and looking in the mirror.

 Your nose didn’t appear broken, but it hurt like a bitch. Your face looked relatively okay, but you knew you would feel it in the morning.

 “Yeah, but you still look fine. I gotta say though, I’m a little surprised that you still managed to look good.” He said with a shrug.

 You flipped the sun visor back up, “I suppose so. But it’ll hurt tomorrow. Can you stay at my apartment for a little and help me look less fucked up?”

 “I guess I could spare you a few hours. I was supposed to hang out with Seungmin, but I guess he can wait.” Changbin complained like a child.

 “Yeah, I think I’m a little more important than them right now.” You teased, trying to wipe the blood off your face.

 He didn’t respond immediately, “Why did you fight Hajoon? I know he said some things about our group, but that wasn’t worth fighting about. I can take an insult.”

 “I couldn’t handle the hateful and wrong remarks he made about you or the other guys. I couldn’t take it from him. He was fucking wrong anyway, which made me so upset that I just, couldn’t hold it in anymore.” You slowly spoke, “I guess I just got too tired of him being an asshole that I wanted him to shut up.”

 “Thank you, y/n.” he said quietly, “For sticking up for us. You know we all still love you, right? We all wish you can come back to us. So, when you’re ready, we’ll be waiting for you, alright?”

 You felt hurt from his words, in your heart you longed to go back to them, though, you didn’t know if you could. You felt a painful smile start to creep on your face.

 “Does Chan still love me? After the big fight and everything that happened afterwards, do you think he still loves me?” you asked, almost not wanting to know the answer.

 Changbin paused, “I’ve never seen Chan love someone more than you, y/n. And that’s the truth.” He responded, “Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new end.”

 You knew he was right, but it still hurt. You took out your phone and called Chan. You never spoke to him since the fight, but you never wanted to talk to him more than at this one moment. The ringing continued, but it soon went to his voicemail.

 Hello! This is Chan. I’m sorry I couldn’t answer your call right now, but I’ll be sure to get back to you as soon as possible.

 The beep rang clear in your ear, ready to take your message. You looked outside of the car’s window, seeing the city lights shine bright.

 You stuttered, “H-hey. This is y/n, but you probably already know that by the sound of my voice. I know this must be weird to hear from me after so long but… I just wanted to say hello. How’re you? I hope you’re doing well. I hope you’re eating good and resting a lot.” You spoke, almost in a wistful sadness, “I just wanted to say… I miss you. I miss the days we use to laugh together. I miss the way you smiled at the dumbest things. I miss the way we made each other better. I know you don’t feel the same way about me. But I just needed to tell you, just in case.” You hung up and almost felt the need to cry.

 “I think your message reached him, y/n.” Changbin spoke after the quietness.

 Your heart broke as the sound of his words as you let it out. Your face becoming tear stained as your voice became numb and raw. You never knew you would miss someone as bad as him. You didn’t even realize that you were at your apartment when Changbin opened the car door. He led you through all the way to your bathroom. He said nothing, but you knew he was comforting you. You cleaned yourself up from the dried blood, looking at the mess you are in the mirror. You simply walked away and went straight to your bed, covering yourself in the warm sheets.

 “Y/n. I’m staying here for the night. Just in case you need me for anything, please wake me up. I’ll just be on the couch. I’ll tell Seungmin that I can’t make it tonight.” Changbin petted your head with a faint smile.

 “Okay. Thank you.” You managed to say as he left.

 A wave of tiredness flowed through you as you felt your eyes slowly close. Your vision becoming cloudy. You wanted nothing more than to sleep away the night.

 ➵

 You felt your body start to wake up, though, the pain in your body said differently. A curse word flew from your mouth as you felt pain course through your face and hands. You sat up and walked out of your bedroom to get a drink to help the feeling of being shitty. As you walked out of your bedroom, you saw a tuft of blonde hair sticking up from your couch. You slowly walked towards your living room and looked at your couch. You were speechless to see that it was Chan on your couch. He looked almost peaceful resting, though, it’s been a while since you’ve seen him.

 “Chan?” you lightly pushed him to try and wake him up.

 He slowly lifted his head and looked up at you, “Y/n!” he suddenly leaned up, “I know this must be weird to see me here. I heard your voicemail last night, and I got a text from Changbin telling me what happened, so I came down to your apartment right away. I told him that I could take over for him, and uh… that’s why I’m here.” Chan spoke quickly.

 You rubbed your head, “Okay, okay. Whatever. It’s early and I don’t know what you said.” You walked away, going to get a drink from the kitchen, “I don’t even remember the voicemail.”

 You heard Chan get up and follow you to the kitchen. The sound of the chair being pulled squeaked across the floor. You got a glass of water and sat down across from Chan. You noticed that he looked more tired than usual, like he wasn’t getting enough sleep.

 “I-I didn’t know you smoked, y/n.” Chan looked down at the pack of cigarettes on the table.

 You took a sip of water, “Yeah, I do now. But I don’t want to anymore. I hate that I started though.” You regretfully said.

 There was silence growing between you with each second that passed. You didn’t want to ask, but you knew that you should.

 “Chan, what did I say to you over the voicemail?” you questioned, “I was too emotional to know what I was doing or saying.”

 Without a word, Chan opened his phone and played the voicemail. Your voice from last night speaking in the quite room. It soon stopped and he put his phone down on the table. You stayed quiet, trying to come up with something to say to him.

 “Chan, I-” you started to speak, but were cut off.

 “No, let me tell you something, y/n. I’ve been doing a lot of thinking since our fight. A lot of self-reflection.” Chan gave you a small smile, “Y/n, I want to make this work. You’ve always known how to show me love and happiness. Being with you, I feel like I can do anything. Please tell me you feel the same way.”

 Seeing his smile made you smile back, “Chan, I want this to work, I really do. It’s just that… I don’t know if I can. Things have been so fucking messed up for me. First it was our breakup, then my work was piling up on me, my mother nagging me constantly, and my father trying to get me to see him out of the country in his new home.” You took another drink, glancing away from his gaze.

 “Wait, your father contacted you?” Chan asked with a surprised tone, “I thought you said you would never want to see him, even if he contacted you.”

 “Yeah, he contacted me recently.” You nodded your head, “But, I think I do want to go see him. I think it would be good for me to change the scenery. Get out of the country for a month or so. Try and figure out some things for myself.”

 Chan looked at you in surprise from your response. His eyes filled with emotion. You got out of your seat and placed the cup in the sink. Chan got up as well and you could tell he wanted you to say something. Though, you had no clue what he wanted. His face carried so much emotion that it was almost unbearable to even look at.

 “Y/n, please give me an answer to what you want. I’m so tired of trying to give you space that I don’t want you to find someone new. Y/n, I’m scared every day that you will leave me or the guys. I’m scared that you might end up in a place you don’t want to because of your bad habits. Y/n, can’t you see that I care for you?” You could hear in Chan’s voice all the pent-up fear and sadness, his desperate cries out to you almost made you look away, “I’m losing sleep over you. I can’t eat as much because I never know what you’re doing. I can’t do anything! Y/n, I love you so much it hurts. Can’t you see that?”

 Hearing his words echo in your head made you dig up all the emotions you tried to bury. You saw that Chan went through so much after the breakup. You knew he could only take so much until he fell apart. Your feet took you to Chan as you slowly wrapped your arms around him. His touch made you remember all the times you spent in his arms. His scent made you remember all the times you stole his sweatshirts. His heartbeat reminded you of the times you fell asleep in his arms. Everything felt more painful in his arms, but it felt so nice to be hugged by him again.

 “Channie,” you whispered in the silence.

 “Yeah?” he responded, not ever wanting to let you go.

 You knew saying these words would hurt you, but you knew it would hurt Chan a lot more.

 “I want this to work out, you know that. But I don’t think right now is a good time.” You hugged him tighter, knowing what was to come.

 ➵

 You found yourself sitting in the Incheon International Airport as you noticed a plane fly out of the airport. A crowd of people walking in every which direction. The noise filled airport wasn’t something you were too fond of, though, you found it interesting to look at all the different people crossing your path. You clung onto your phone a bit tighter as you patiently waited for your flight to be boarding soon. The aroma of food from the food court filled the surrounding gates. You finally hear that your flight is now boarding, you got up and waited in line to board the plane. Suddenly, you heard a loud voice call your name amongst the large crowd. You turned around to see who it was; however, you already knew who it was by the sound of their voice. A heavy pit in your stomach started to form. Palms started to get clammy. Your heart started to race as you met him face to face.

 “Channie, what the hell are you doing here?” you asked in a confused manner.

 “Y/n, I just wanted to tell you goodbye before you left.” Chan said with a small smile, “And I just wanted to see your face again one last time.”

 You chuckled slightly, continuing to follow the line to enter the plane, “Well, here is your chance to say goodbye.” You replied, almost too bluntly.

 Chan took you by the shoulders and dragged you out of the line, “Please don’t give me that attitude when I’m trying to say goodbye.” He paused and let his grip go, “Sorry, I just… can’t believe you’re actually leaving.”

 “Yeah, I can’t believe it either.” You gave a small smile, “Thank you for coming to say goodbye. I mean it.” You looked him in the eyes with a soft expression.

 Chan gave you almost a hurt look to you in return, “All I wanted was for you to be happy.” Chan spoke in a broken tone, placing his hands on your arms.

 “Chan, don’t-” You tried to interject, but he continued.

 He looked you in the eyes, “Y/n, you make every day worth living. Please, I need you here. You believe me, don’t you?” he gave you a pleading appearance.

  You glanced back to see the line becoming shorter, then looked back at him, “Chan, I’m tired of living a life where I’ll never be happy.” You confessed, your emotions spilling over, “I’m not happy here. I’m not happy with who I am. I’m not happy with who I’ve become. Channie, I have to leave to try and fix myself before I try to be in a relationship again. Please, can’t you understand that?” you tried to plead with him.

 “Please don’t forget me and the things we did.” Chan spoke softly, almost woefully.

 “I promise.” You nodded.

 The line was gone as the woman at the desk was waiting for you. You got out of his grasp as handed the woman your flight ticket at the entrance of the gate. You couldn’t stand to see him. It made you too sad to see him like this. But you knew it would hurt him when you would leave. You started to through the tunnel when you heard him call your name again. You stopped and turned around again. You turned to see a crying Chan. His eyes red and puffy. His sobs echoing through your head. His perfect lips now stained of sadness. You felt your heart break with every tear that fell from his eyes.

 “Y/n.” Chan spoke shakily, trying to walk towards you.

 You met him halfway, “Channie.” Speaking softly, your hands brushing through his soft blonde hair comfortingly.

 “I love you, y/n.” He wrapped his arms around you tightly, you felt his emotions cover you like a blanket.

 You hugged back lightly, knowing how it’ll hurt to let him go. You stayed in the moment, trying to remember the way he hugged you. You soon let him go, knowing it hurt him when you ripped apart from him. You turned and walked down the tunnel. Chan’s sobbing started again, watching his only love walk away from him. You turned to see him at the entrance of the tunnel. You gave him your best smile.

 “I know you do.” you spoke gently, your heart breaking with every breath you took.

 Once you knew you were out of sight of Chan, you let yourself be completely destroyed by your emotions. You started to feel a stream of tears run down your face. You tried to keep your cries at a minimum as you attempted to find your seat in the plane. Faces of people looking at you. You felt embarrassed, wanting to become invisible. Finally, you climbed to your window seat and sat down. You looked out of the window as you wiped your eyes. You hated crying in public. You felt a light tap on your shoulder as you looked over to see an elderly woman.

 “Why’re you crying, dear?” she asked politely.

 You stayed silent, trying to figure out how to say it, “I just walked away from the best thing in my life.”

 The elderly woman gave you a smile, “There’s always light, in dark situations.” Her words were simple, but it hurt you to hear it, “Sometimes it’s good to start over.”

 “Why’re you so kind to me?” you felt a tear slip down your face.

 She leaned forward slightly, you saw her eyes were filled with the stars, “We all need someone to kiss us goodbye.” Her words felt like they came from experience.

 The plane started to take off the ground. The view from down below started to become fainter with the rise in elevation. You always loved the city view, but this became almost too depressing to look at.

 It’s been a few months since your departure. You finally got to see your father. He didn’t seem to change that much from what you could faintly remember. Though, it was a little strange to see him again, in all honesty. However, he showed you that he has changed since. You decided to go outside to the park just to relax. You saw that the sun was soon going to set, so you decided that you should make it quick. The walk down was peaceful, there wasn’t many people out, so it was almost perfect. You eventually got to the park and sat down on the bench. The green grass soon changed the tips of the blades to an orange to match the setting sun. You felt your phone buzz and checked to see who it was.

 “Changbin! Oh wow, it’s been a while, hasn’t it? What’s going on?” you asked, completely surprised from his call.

 There was a moment of silence, “Y/n. I have to tell you something.” He seemed off to you, “Chan- airplane-”

 His words seemed to drift away like a boat out into the ocean. Your heart sank to the bottom of the vast sea as you listened to the muffled voice coming from your phone. Your mind drew a blank. You couldn’t come up with any thoughts. A loud ringing in your head started to reverberate in your skull. Your vision became cloudy. Everything was wrong. Nothing could fix this. You felt like time stopped dead and everything hovered motionless.

 ➵

 You opened your eyes to see a bird chirping in the nearby tree. The crisp autumn leaves covered the ground in fire. The wind blew a cold breeze across the land. The sound of dancing leaves soothed your body as you swayed with them. The tall trees orchestrated the wind to tell it which way to go. You breathed out a loud sigh.

 Everything seemed like a hazy distant dream to you, even if it happened two years ago.

 “It’s been a while, huh?” you asked aloud, “I hope you’re doing alright. Eating well and resting a lot.” no response.

 You looked down and kicked the leaves, “Y’know, the stars would be so proud to know their atoms created someone like you.” you felt a smile pull.

 You turned around to see a lonely gray gravestone. The words written on it almost were unbearable to read.

 In Loving Memory

Christopher Bang

A loving son and best friend

May you rest in peace knowing how you impacted those around you

 You felt overwhelmed, even now to see him. You got on your knees and stared at the stone slab, wishing it was never there.

 You tried to give your best smile, “I’m glad we met, Channie. I really do.”

 You longed to see him again, but not like this. Even after two years, it still hurts. You reached out and touched the stone, the cold feeling rushed up your arm. A tear slipped down your face without you noticing. You heard footsteps approaching, but you didn’t even care.

 “Let’s go, y/n.” a familiar voice called to you.

 You looked up to see Changbin stretch his hand out towards you. You took it slowly and got up, keeping eye contact with the stone.

 Changbin noticed, “C’mon. Chan would be sad to see you like this. Let’s try and be happy.” He gave you a reassuring smile.

 You nodded, “Yeah, I suppose.” You smiled at the grave, “I love you.”

 The surrounding gravestones seemed to try and speak to you as you were leaving. As if to say to not leave them. You never knew how sad a graveyard could be. Changbin led you away as the other boys were waiting outside of their cars. You felt at home being with them again. You loved them with all your heart. But it never quite felt the same without him.

[lyjikyu]

PARANOID | 양정인

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"what do I have to do for you to trust me?"

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It has been 4 months since you broke up with Jeongin. And the reason behind it was because he was too afraid, too paranoid that he'll never be enough for you.

The both of you had been a couple for a year and a half but Jeongin being the little scared boy that he was, had trust issues. You see this was Jeongin's first relationship and he didn't know what to do.

And you weren't the right person for this considering you were experienced and he wasn't.

He would always overthink everytime you won't answer his calls, text him back.

He would also be insecure. Jeongin thinks that you need someone better, someone more experienced and more manlier than he was.

But the truth was you never really wanted anyone but him

And he does, aswell.

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[mork-lee-bee]

Chan \\ 𝕊𝕥𝕦𝕕𝕪 𝕓𝕦𝕕𝕕𝕚𝕖𝕤 //

Word count>> 1k

Genre >> Fluff

Pairing>> Tutor!Chan x Student!Reader

Warnings>> none

Summary>> you’re sleep deprived and feel utterly stupid

The sleep deprivation was getting to you and Chan both, he had come over to help you study and now it as turning into an all-nighter as he handed you your third cup of coffee yawning and checking the time it was almost three in the morning.

“Channnnnn can’t I just give up?” You pout trying to balance your pencil on your nose losing concentration on the problems in front of you.

“I wish, but you have to pass this test, now come on and do this problem,” Chan yawns pointing a finger on worksheet at the next problem as you let out a dramatic sigh in defeat.

“I don’t know, three?” You ask furrowing your eyebrows in frustration before crossing your arms and flinging your pencil in Chan’s direction and right into his face.

“Oh… no… it’s uhm 5,232.5” Chan scratches the back of his neck and you start to break down.

“Don’t cry,” he hurries over to you bringing you into his lap and holding you close to him knowing it made you feel better to be comforted.

“But I can’t do this!” You exclaim between sobs your last brain cell fried from the many equations.

“Yes you can, I know you can, you’re incredibly smart,” he assures you turning your face in his direction so you see his kind features as he wipes away your tears.

“No, I’m not!” You bury your face in the crook of his neck you did this a lot to him because it made you feel at rest and protected by him.

“Aw, come on I’ll walk you through the problem,” he offers and you detach yourself nodding your eyes still semi puffy from the tears.

“Okay…” you say and he shows you exactly how to work through the problem.

“Okay, but how do fractions even come into play?” You tilt your head at him scratching your head in confusion.

“Well you gotta divide both sides by the same number and-“ you don’t know what came over you but you leaned over and kissed him. Maybe it was the sleep deprivation or not wanting to hear him talk math anymore, or maybe your emotions finally came to light either way you kissed him and he was shocked at first eyes wide open before melting into the kiss and bring you closer to him deepening the kiss between the two of you.

“Ah I’m sorry,” you suddenly pull away shyly but he shakes his head.

“I wasn’t done yet,” he says pulling you back to him connecting your lips once again as you giggle into the kiss scrunching your nose.

“Channnnn,” you pull away and he smiles.

“That was nice, I’m definitely awake now,” he smiles and you hit his arm playfully at his comment.

“Okay well I don’t think making out is gonna help me pass this math test,” you pout and he shrugs.

“You never know, it could help,” he smirks leaning in once again but and you roll your eyes going back to the problem at hand dodging him.

“So what does this mean for us?” Chan asks and you just give a small hmmm as a response trying to avoid his question because you didn’t really know you had known him since your freshman year but only got close this year and it felt like you didn’t completely know him yet at the same time you did.

“That’s not the question I’m looking for an answer to at the moment,” you point to the paper and he pouts.

“Well I am, I’ve liked you for a while, so I was wondering if you’d go out with me, maybe?” He tilts his head and you contemplate for a moment you would have said yes but you decided to test him a bit to see how dedicated he really was.

“How about if I pass this test we go on a date but if I fail we forget that this ever happened? Deal?” You ask and Chan smirks accepting the deal and immediately getting to work.

It’s six in the morning and you both had dozed off after you successfully figured out what was going on, Chan had you help close to his chest as you cuddled to sleep.

“Channnnn,” You poke him to see if he’s alive and he slowly opened his eyes smiling at you as he placed the smallest softest kiss on your forehead.

“Good morning baby girl,” He says all confidently and you giggle.

“Oi, I haven’t passed the test yet!” you inform him and he nods.

“No, but you will, you’ve got the best teacher in the world right here,” He points to himself and you shake your head.

“You mean Mr.Lee? I don’t know about that,” You joke and he playfully punches your arm.

“Come on Y/n,” He pouts and you smile before sitting up and stretching.

Chan was waiting anxiously for you after your last period of the day, Math. he hoped that all his hard work would benefit you as the bell rings and you walk out of the class. You meet his eyes and immediately break out into a smile running to him and jumping into his arms where he holds you close.

“So does that mean you passed?” He asked as he lets go of you and you nod happily jumping up and down out of happiness.

“So I can do this?” he asks and holds your shoulders so you’d stop jumping and stay still before leaning over and kissing you once again of course now it was in the middle of the hallway where people were just trying to get by and you pulled away as he frowns.

“You can but we’re in the way,” You tell him as he pulls you to the side where the lockers tower and he goes back to kissing you once again not that you were complaining you enjoyed the feeling of his soft lips on your own.

Let me know what you thought and request some stuff if you want

[lunnanunna]

Evanesco

Stray Kids 10th Member AU:

Summary: Ollie, Jisung, Seungmin, and Jeongin go to King’s Cross in London, and they soon realizes the importance of head-counting.

A/N: Don’t get used to these somewhat daily updates, lol. I was just motivated to write this. 

Anywho, as always, requests are open and feedback is greatly appreciated.

The crowd at King’s Cross was crazy. For some reason, Ollie thought that not that many people would be here, but boy was she wrong. 

“It’s cold and rainy. Why are there so many people here?” Ollie whined pulling her Gryffindor robe closer to her body, the chill was starting to seep in. 

“We’re here too, ya know?” Jisung commented rolling his eyes at her. They followed behind Seungmin and Jeongin, who were entering the station and making their way to an employee.

Jeongin stood next to Seungmin as he asked the employee where the line began, the maknae visibly shaking with excitement. Ollie stayed back smiling, as she knew that Seungmin could handle the English, and would ask if he needed help.

A second later, Seungmin came back with a dejected Jeongin.

“What’s wrong?” Ollie asked, looking at the two boys.

“The wait’s over an hour,” Jeongin pouted.

“And the line starts out there,” Seungmin pointed to the crowd of people outside, forming a cluster-looking line.

“Yeah, I’m definitely not waiting that long,” Jisung crossed his arms, effectively looking like an angry squirrel.

“And I don’t think Noona will survive out here that long either,” Seungmin stated, looking at a shivering Ollie.

“I hate the cold,” she grumbled.

“It’s not that cold out! It’s actually really nice. I wish summer was always this temperature,” Jisung said taking a quick spin, arms open wide.

“Yeah, well, anything lower than 75 plus rain, and icicles begin to form under my nose,” Ollie said, giving a sniffle for added effect.

“Gross,” Jisung took two steps away from Ollie, who in turn stuck her tongue out.

“Let’s just do the videos and pictures outside, then we can go to a cafe and get something to drink,” Jeongin said, wrapping an arm around Ollie.

“You make me feel small,” Ollie said looking up at the maknae.

“You are small, Noona,” Seungmin stated and then proceeded to make his way outside. The rest followed him, Ollie grumbling.

“This seems like a good spot,” Jisung said, holding a thumbs up. The others looked around and agreed.

Quickly they began to work. Each of them alternating from holding up the sketch book and filming. Soon, their videos were finished, and they were ready to get going, and just in time, seeing as the rain was beginning to fall harder.

“Okay, let's get going,” Jisung announced, starting to make his way through the crowd, Seungmin and Jeongin by his side.

“Wait! Where’s Noona?” Jeongin asked looking around. The other two boys looked around as well.

“Chan’s gonna kill me,” Jisung grimaced.

“Let’s ask the staff. They might know,” Seungmin said. The boys made their way to the staff that were packing up some of the equipment.

“Hyung, have you seen Ollie Noona?” Jisung asked. Their manager’s eyes widened, and he quickly shook his head, then began to look around the crowd.

“It shouldn’t be that hard to find her. She in a Harry Potter robe and her hair…” Jeongin began to say, but stopped himself.

“Is back to black,” Jisung finished.

“Why did she pick now to dye her hair a normal color? Her crazy hair colors is how we always found her in crowds,” Seungmin said exasperated.

“Try calling her,” their manager said, then started walking around to see if he could spot her.

Seungmin quickly pulled out his phone and dialed her number, the other two boys standing by him.

It rang once. Twice. Three times. Then, “Yah! Where are you?”

Seungmin visibly relaxed, and so did the others at the sound of Ollie’s yell.

“We’re out front, underneath the red awning,” Seungmin answered. He began to look around for an angry Ollie.

“I can’t believe you just left me!” Ollie half shouted. Seungmin could hear that she was walking, she must have found the awning.

“We thought you were with us. If anything, it’s Hyung’s fault,” said boy grabbed the phone from Seungmin’s hands.

“Not true! We’re all at fault,” Jisung said just as Ollie came into view. He hung up the phone and whispered, “So much anger coming from such a small person.”

“Noona, before you say anything,” Jisung was cut off, Ollie holding her hand up to silence him.

“Jeonginnie, call Manager Oppa. Tell him I’m here. I don’t see him, so I’m guessing he’s looking for me.” The maknae quickly nodded, looking at his hyungs then pulling his phone out.

Ollie turned to the other two.

“Would it cost you to do a headcount like Chan? Losing a member if bad, but losing one in a foreign country, oof,” Ollie placed her hands on her hips, looking up at the boys. Both boys looked at their shoes, avoiding eye contact with her.

“I turn to look at a cute 4 year old child dressed like Hermione, and when I went to tell you guys… Poof. Gone. Evanesco,” Ollie throws her hands up in the air, then drops them by her side.

Jisung and Seungmin looked at her confused with the last word.

“Spell for vanishing,” she quickly answered them. They both nodded in understanding.

“We’ll buy you something at the cafe,” Jisung offered.

“She’s gonna want something more than that,” Seungmin stated, rolling his eyes at his hyung.

“You betcha. I’ll think of something, but we’ll start with a coffee and a few cute British pastries.”

“Yes, Noona,” the boys answered.

Jeongin came back with their manager, who looked 10 years older due to the stress that Stray Kids constantly put him under, and the group made their way down the streets looking for a cafe, Ollie preparing to order the most expensive things on the menu. That’ll teach them.

Ollie’s Masterlist

[lenuminous]

Can Chan drop his mixtape n playlist pls. like not the kiddie pg 13 shit jyp makes the drop on spotify but like the actual channie, nsfw grinding playlist cause that man looks like he knows stuff... good stuff 

[kpopaudioedit]

USE HEADPHONES

[minniewoos]

The Morning After, Hwang Hyunjin

Genre: friends to lovers au, slice of life, fluff

Pairing: hyunjin x reader

Word count: 1,457

Summary: You and Hyunjin question what your relationship is after an unexpected night together.

Hwang Hyunjin. You hoped. Oh, boy, did you hope.

You hoped with all your heart that you didn’t get involved with Hwang Hyunjin. Desperately, you wanted to keep your boundaries built around you. You hoped Hwang Hyunjin wouldn’t cross those boundaries and waltz his way into your poor little heart. As good of a friend he was, you didn’t want to become his lover. Not because he would be a bad boyfriend, but because of the aching he would cause to your heart if he left you. You so badly hoped Hwang Hyunjin wouldn’t break through your boundaries.

Unfortunately, hope is not a plan of action.

And as of now, you were laying in bed with Hyunjin. His arm loosely laying over your waist. 

It was approximately seven in the morning and the sun was already shining through the cracks in your curtains. The soft beams of sunlight hit Hyunjins face, just resting over his closed eyes and across his cheek. The pastel gold made him seem ethereal at this moment, it was as if he was glowing.

He was fast asleep, and you were positive he wasn’t going to wake up anytime soon. You knew he slept like a log and got cranky if he was woken up too early. So you let him sleep peacefully, just laying there in the quiet atmosphere and reflected on the previous night. All while snuggled close to his exposed chest.

It was very spontaneous. You were only supposed to go to his place to hang out for the evening before summer break ended. But one thing lead to another and now here you were, lying in bed with Hwang Hyunjin. You were perplexed honestly, not because you didn’t remember anything, but just how easily he climbed over your walls and settled himself down in your heart. It made you feel vulnerable, but as you looked at him in that moment, you couldn’t be mad at him. The warm, fuzzy feeling in your chest was too strong.

You sighed and closed your eyes, snuggling up in the covers and the shirt Hyunjin gave you to wear. It smelled like him, which was very clean with a touch of citrus; it was like his clothes were always fresh out of the wash. It gave you a very homey and down to earth feeling.  And you stayed like that for a little while, just in his arms, wearing his shirt, and resting peacefully. You wanted to stay in that moment forever, and you did for a while.

Some time passed before you felt Hyunjin start to shift a little bit. You assumed Hyunjin was just changing positions to be more comfortable, that is until you felt him press an abrupt yet sweet kiss to your forehead. Your eyes were still closed, but that simple gesture from him caused your heart to skip a beat. It was very unexpected, and you were about to open your eyes to let him know you were awake. But then he wrapped his arm around you tighter to pull you flush against him, you lay your head against his chest comfortably. He hugged you tight and you listened to his heartbeat in his chest; you noticed it was beating faster than a normal heart rate, it was fast and steady and a little frantic. It confused you, why was his heartbeat so abnormal, was he scared or anxious? Was it a good thing?

You were hesitant to open your eyes, since then that you mean you would have to talk to him. You would have to think about what last night meant for your relationship and whether or not it would change anything. Maybe you would just stay friends or become friends with benefits, or just maybe it would turn into something more. But if Hyunjin wanted to just stay friends and go back to being the way you were before, you would comply with his wishes. Yet you knew that after last night, you could never feel the same way about Hyunjin again. He embedded himself into your heart now, and you were scared to confront that. So even if for a few more minutes, you pretended to be asleep and just lay there with him.

Hyunjin sighed before he brought his one hand up and played with your hair, gently twirling it around his finger. His other arm stayed firmly around your waist, you wouldn’t be able to get up even if you wanted. You noticed his heartbeat calmed down since he woke up, you figured waking up next to you surprised him at first. His thumb rubbed gentle circles on your lower back, he nearly lulled you back to sleep like that.

“You have…no idea what you do to me, do you.” Hyunjin murmured. His morning voice still sounded tired, it was husky and hushed. Although his statement caught you off guard, you stayed as you were, wondering if he had more to say. And he did.

“You are the most beautiful person I’ve met, and although you’re my best friend and yet I feel like I can never get close to you… You don’t know just how much I love you…huh.” He wondered and chuckled softly, then pushed a strand of hair out of your face. The hand resting on your cheek affectionately. Your heart began to beat rapidly at his confession and you tried to suppress the blush rising to your cheeks. You weren’t even sure what to think, but you were certain he was speaking truthfully, he didn’t even know you could hear him.

But you had to respond to him, especially since you felt the same way; and especially after he tore down your walls you so desperately put up for him. Your eyes were still closed shut and your head was still rested against his chest. So you mumbled ever so quietly, “I love you too, Hyunjin.”

You physically heard this poor boys heart skip a beat and immediately speed up. Hyunjin began to stutter a response frantically.

“I-I, y/n you heard that?? I thought, well you seemed to be sleeping, I didn’t know. You weren’t supposed to, um, to hear that…” His voice petered off in the end. He was completely caught off guard and the cool appearance he usually put on was stripped away. He was a little bit of a mess.

You finally opened your eyes and lifted your head to look Hyunjin face-to-face. The poor guy was red-faced,  wide-eyed, his bedhead was a mess and just seemed overall dumbfounded. You saw his Adam’s apple bob as he gulped nervously. Hyunjin quickly tried to regain his composure, even if by a little,

“I’ve been awake for a little while.” You admit sheepishly, laying an arm on his chest and then resting your chin on your arm. Hyunjin only stared up at the ceiling with a blank look, then squeezed his eyes shut as if he regretted all his life choices.

“I want to disappear right now.” He moaned in agony, then brought his arm up to cover his face. “Please ignore me.”

You rolled your eyes at his dramatics, “Hey, I said I love you back, you know.”

Hyunjin uncovered his face and just blinked at you confused, “You did?”

“Yea you drama queen.” You giggled at him.

A smile broke out of his face and he squished your cheeks with his palms, “You did!?”

“Um, yea??” You tried to speak through you’re squished cheeks, but it came out slightly muffled.

He chuckled at you as if you were a little puppy, his eyes were basically sparkling at this point. “You’re the cutest, you know that right.”

You smacked his hands off of your cheeks and laughed, “I could say the same for you. You’re basically glowing right now.”

“How can I not be,” Hyunjin wrapped an arm around your waist again and looked you in the eyes, “the person I’m in love with just said they loved me back. I was so worried about what last night might do to our relationship, and I really didn’t want to lose you…I really would’ve hated myself for ruining our friendship.”

“I actually felt the same way…” You admit, “I was too scared to ruin such a good friendship. Even though I’ve liked you for…who knows how long.”

“Well,” Hyunjin began, “does that mean that I can be your boyfriend and your best friend at the same time? And we’ll promise each other to make it work.”

You grinned and nodded enthusiastically, “I’d really like that.”

“Then, y/n, will you be my girlfriend?”

You leaned over to peck him on the lips, your hand pushing against his chest lightly. “Of course, Hwang Hyunjin.”

a/n: very loosley edited, enjoy :) 

[mrs-i-have-too-many-biases]

𝕊𝕥𝕣𝕒𝕪 𝕂𝕚𝕕𝕤 ℂ𝕙𝕣𝕚𝕤𝕥𝕞𝕒𝕤 𝕄𝕒𝕤𝕥𝕖𝕣𝕝𝕚𝕤𝕥 𝟚𝟘𝟙𝟡

Edited on: 10-12-2019

Bang Chan: Lights Flew By

Summary: Being stuck at the airport with an handsome stranger on Christmas eve doesn’t seem so bad after all.

Posted on: December 1st  2019

Kim Woojin: High Notes and Snow

Summary: A Christmas show at college turned out a little different than the both of you thought it would.

Posted on: December 4th 

Lee Minho: How to win over the Ice Prince

Summary: Every year, a big Christmas party was hosted at the palace of the Lee Family. But this year, a special guest seemed to attracted the cold-hearted prince’s eye.

Posted on: December 7th

Seo Changbin: Sugar and Nuts (and a little bit of spice)

Summary: (Inspired by ‘the Nutcracker’) Everybody knows the story about Eric and Clara, yet no one seemed to be talking about Changbin and Y/n who were the ones who put up the real fight against those who try to ruin Christmas for decades. What happens when Y/n gets sucked into the world where the palace walls are made of candy canes and the water is sugar sweet?

Posted on: December 10th

Hwang Hyunjin: Happy Howlidays

Summary: “Parents are gone, but the dogs are still here. Maybe Christmas should be dog-themed this year? “

Date of posting: December 13th

Time: Between 8 and 10 PM (CET) 

Han Jisung: It’s beginning to look a lot like a fail

Summary: You wanted Christmas to be perfect, but it looks like Christmas had different plans for you and your boyfriend Jisung.

Date of posting: December 16th

Time: Between 8 and 10 PM (CET) 

Lee Felix: Lighten up

Summary: A decoration war had been going on for years now, yet never had the two families spoken to one another, what happens when the two ‘rivals’ meet, and maybe fall in love?

Date of posting: December 19th

Time: Between 8 and 10 PM (CET) 

Kim Seungmin: Perfect Storm

Summary: (Inspired by the movie ‘Snowglobe’) His life is hard, people are just plane annoying, but this secret world opened by a perfect storm seems to be Seungmin’s ideal getaway, but was he ready for everything that came along with it?

Date of posting: December 21th

Time: Between 8 and 10 PM (CET)

Yang Jeongin: Santa’s Daughter

Summary: Being Santa’s one and only daughter was hard, but being stranded in a strange city with a cute boy by her side absolutely topped that, or did it?

Date of posting: December 24th

Time: Between 8 and 10 PM (CET)

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[lixiescheesestick]

Fluff Prompt; 04: Member is a Vamp and S/O is willing to be a ‘victim’ for them. Member is always concerned and makes sure S/O is always safe after feeding. Always cuddling together and falling asleep together after.

{19:13}

"Baby, you do understand that I don't want to hurt you." Minho huffed into your face as you filled your eyes yet again.

It had been days since Minho had fed on some normal human blood. The hospital that provided him with hit usual feast of blood bags was running low on supplies because of the international shipments not coming in.

It worried you to see your boyfriend paler than normal, large dark rings around his eyes and his body looking extremely thin.

That's why you were now trying to convince him to drink some of your blood.

"I know Minho, but you have done it before. We both know you can control it."

Minho sighed, he knew you wouldn't give up but decided to keep on fighting back anyway.

"But last time I hadn't starved this long. It was only 2 days… this time it's nearly a full week and-"

"I understand, but…" ,you cut him off, ".. you look like your in pain and we can figure out a method to help me tell you if it's too much. Okay?"

Finally the boy agreed, nodding his head. You instantly laid back on the bed, the position a little more comfortable for the both of you when doing this.

Minho slowly crawled on top of you and give you a soft kiss on the lips.

"Put your hands in my hair and tug if it's too much. You know how sensitive I am when it comes to that." he said in a flirty manner before passing you a wink making you giggle.

Then it began, Minho kissing down your jaw lightly making you whimper at the wonderful feeling of his plush lips pressed against your skin. The sensation felt nice as he ran his lips down between your neck and shoulder.

He looked up at you for consent, and continued as you nodded, one last kiss on the exact spot that he then lightly traced with his tongue before biting down.

Your hands went to his hair as he began sucking the blood out of the small punctures he made in your porcelain skin.

After nearly 2 minutes you were getting drowsy, making you tug at his hair as a sign.

In an instant, his lips were off of your neck. Eyes worried and a bit of blood on the side of his lip.

"Did I hurt you?! Are you Okay?" he asked, taking your upper body in his hands swiftly and observing the marks that were slowly fading away due to Minho helping it heal.

You giggled at his overprotectiveness and smiled up at him, already noticing the color flow back into his face and his eyes light up with happiness as he realized you were completely fine.

"I'm fine, Minnie. I am just tired…" you spoke out.

Then you made grabby hands at Minho who sat by the edge of the bed by now.

"Cuddle me." you whined. Minho chuckled before getting up.

"In a minute, let me get you some water and a little food."

Minho left the room just to come back with stacks of healthy foods in his arms and some water bottles. He sat down next to you, taking the remote and turning the tv on before finally pulling you into him.

"You sure you're alright?" Minho asked again, a little hint of tiredness in his voice.

"Mhm." you nodded, snuggling closer.

It didn't take long before you both fell asleep, limbs tangled and your heartbeat speeding.

[bangtan-gal]

Miroh Stray Kids Powers! AU

None of this expresses my views of Stray Kids. Personalities are created just for this and are completely fictional.

Since so many people have asked, the updating schedule is every other month. It doesn’t matter if I finish the fic early in the month or later. I use the rest of the month and the next month to focus on my other fics and oneshots.

Birth Claim (M) 

Bang Chan “You’ll be a queen and people would be stupid to deny you of your birth claim.

Wet Cement

Yang Jeongin

“I’ve never fallen for others’ smiles.”

Dehyrdrated () ✹

Lee Felix

“It’s gonna get messy if you don’t leave soon darlin.”

Torn Soul (M)

Lee Minho “We think you can mock abilities.”

Nightmares (M)

Seo Changbin “Put your trust in me and all your dreams will disappear.”

Unseen (M) ✹

Hwang Hyunjin “You were my mission and I can’t bring myself to finish it.”

Flickering Lights (M)

Coming March

Han Jisung “I wish I had control over these sparks, but I don’t, and it fucking terrifies me.”

Jump (M)

Coming May

Kim Seungmin “This life just wasn’t for me, that’s why I left.”

Tell me which one you’re most excited for!!