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This is my first time requesting for a Kdrama character. So I want some Lee rang x human reader in the modern time from 1st season. Where reader is a highschool or a uni student. Shes a bit introverted but she can be quite fun too.So how'd they meet and all?
UNDERSTAND - LEE RANG
Ofc! That'd be great! It's like 1 am in the morning right now but I stayed awake hoping someone would request a fic-đ¤§
Okay so my creative juices are working really good right now! So let's get started!
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Genre: Fluff, romance, strangers to friends to lovers trope, fantasy au, humor.
Pairings: Lee Rang x Human!reader (named)
Warnings: Swearing, violence, mentions of death, blood and Rang just being a misunderstood half demon who just wants to be loved.
Crap.
That's what you felt like as a second year uni student trying to survive the harsh summer heat with two assignments due in two days and continuous tests for the next 4 days. On top of that you were two months behind on paying your rent and one last warning away before you're eventually kicked out of your apartment. But what did you expect?
As an orphan who had no financial or emotional support, you had to support yourself but even after working three jobs a day it still barely covered your tuition fees for a year. Life was hard but you didn't have a choice. These days people looked for employees with excellent social skills and unfortunately being an introvert, speaking and conversing with clients was not your forte.
Which brings us to your second job of the day at a skincare boutique.
Noeul's
"Thank you for you're purchase ma'am, please come again." I said politely as my customer left, smile falling to a frown almost immediately.
"No amount of skincare products will fix that prideful ugly hag's face." I muttered under my breath as I took a deep breath in and looked at my reflection in the mirror.
"Gosh my face looks so tired and exhausted...don't tell me I've been tending to customers like this..." I mumbled as I took a break to freshen myself up.
As I fixed my makeup in the wash room I couldn't help but eavesdrop at my colleagues conversation.
"I heard that your boyfriend proposed!"
"Yes, he did! See!" she exclaimed flaunting her engagement ring.
I let out a sigh internally as their voices started fading away and my thoughts took my attention.
Everyone I know have their lives all figured out and here I am a broke uni student who could get evicted by next week.
I sighed as I felt my emotions skyrocket through the roof and finally crack as I felt my tears pour out after keeping everything bottled up inside me for a month. Fortunately there was no one in the wash room at that moment but I was sure that my colleagues were out gosipping about my melt down. But nonetheless I cried my heart out and by the time I came out my shift had already ended so I went towards the changing room to get out of my uncomfortable uniform.
As I made my way towards the changing room I couldn't help but stop and look at the commotion that was happening in the perfume aisle. I came infront to see a man in a red suit holding another man up in the air with his hands wrapped around his neck as the victim suffocated.
"Aish, people can't mind their own business these days can they?" he said as his eyes connected with mine and he scanned me from top to bottom.
"You work here?" he asked me as I nodded and he threw two perfume bottles towards me. Luckily I caught it and cleared my throat.
"Should I pack it for you, sir?" I asked as he nodded.
"Pack them separately while you're at it yeah?" he asked as I nodded and bowed lightly.
After I was done packing the perfumes he payed for it and took the bags but instead of leaving he leaned at the counter and brought his lips to my ears making me flustered as his warm breath fanned my skin.
"Switch the power off and get under the table when I tell you to...alright? Cause it'd be a shame if you die." he whispered, catching me off guard as I nodded.
He then turned towards the entrance door and locked it, turning around with a menacing smirk as he closed the blinds and put the perfumes in a corner.
"On the count of three." he said and looked at me with a smirk as I grazed my fingers over the switch.
"Three" he said and walked towards the sample section.
"Two....one." he said and I switched off the power and quickly got under the table. And just as I did a string of gunshots and screams began, all I could hear other than those noises were the sounds of furniture breaking and bodies being thrown around. Out of fear I covered my ears and screamed as a body suddenly collided to the table next to the one I was taking shelter in.
"There you are, come on." the man from before said and propped me up on my feet almost immediately and pulled me out of the store with the perfume in his hand.
"W-What are you?" I asked after I saw many bodies splayed across the destroyed boutique.
"Your knight in shining armour." he said and turned to look at me with a smirk as I gasped at the sight of his golden eye.
"W-Wait-" he cut me off my pulling me into an alleyway.
"Keep yourself out of trouble, let's meet again. But until then, try not to die." he said and handed me one of the perfume bottle and a bag.
"They have a really strong sense of smell so I suggest you change your clothes and spritz on a lot of this " he said and smirked at me and walked away.
"What just-wait!" I ran out of the alleyway towards the way he walked to only to see an empty street making me gasp as I quickly ran to the nearest public washroom and did as he said.
"Are these his clothes?" I asked myself as I wore the oversized sweater and shorts that were in the bag. After that I spritz a large amount of the perfume on myself and made my way home.
Two days later I found myself at the park eating a watermelon popsicle, watching as the kids played in the water sprinklers. I smiled and chuckled as I watched them intently wishing I could go back to my younger years at the orphanage I grew up in. Even though I wasn't adopted, my life in the orphanage was quite nice...we had a nice headmistress, good food, loving care takers and a comfortable and safe place to live in. I sighed as I finished up my popsicle, grinning when it read two free popsicles.
"Ah, you're alive." I looked up to see the guy from monday causing me to shriek and flinch.
"Y-You!" I exclaimed as he smirked and sat next to me on the bench.
"Oh, you won." he said looking at my popsicle stick.
As we ate our popsicle, I couldn't help but stare at him.
He was definitely handsome, without a doubt and strong...really strong which brought me to the conclusion that he probably was either not a human or an incredibly strong human, my bet was on the first choice as the grandma who would make our meals when I was little told me that spirits and demons of sorts existed among us.
"If you keep staring at me you're popsicle will melt." he said making me turn a dark shade of red as I quickly chewed my popsicle causing me to have extreme brain freeze.
"Ahhh-" I groaned and clutched my head as he looked at me with amused eyes.
"I've met a lot of humans but you must be the most interesting and amusing one yet." he said as I froze and looked at him with wide eyes.
"Humans? Does that mean..." I trailed as he looked at the bed of roses.
"You like flowers?" he asked me and before I could even respond he already had a bouquet of roses in his hand.
"Take these as a gift for helping me out that day." he said as I looked at the roses.
"I don't take flowers from a stranger." I mumbled as he chuckled.
"I like your personality, the name's Lee Rang but just call me Rang." he said as I looked at him and smiled softly.
"I'm Kang Noeul." I said and accepted the flowers as he stood up.
"Nice name, it suits you." he said as he put on his shades and brought his hand forward.
"Friends?" he asked as I nodded and shook his hand and once again in the blink of an eye he propped me up to my feet.
"A fox always repays kindness, so tell me what you want...anything you wish for I'll get it for you." He said as I thought for a while.
"I don't have friends so...can you be my friend ? Like, a real friend not just for the sake of repaying my kindness but my real friend?" I asked as he chuckled and ruffled my hair.
"I'm not one for befriending humans seriously, but you're an exception." he said and walked in front of me and stopped.
"Are you just gonna stand there? Come on, we have places to be." he said as I furrowed my brows.
"Where?" I asked not realising that the next few months would be filled with me regretting my decisions.
"Who's car was that?!" I exclaimed referring to the car we just trashed as we ran away.
"My elder brother's." he said completely chill as I gasped.
"The one who abandoned you?!" I exclaimed as I picked up my speed.
"Why are you running so fast?" he asked as I continued sprinting.
"I don't want to die in the hands of a pure Gumiho...if you, a half gumiho are that strong I can't imagine how strong he'll be." I said as he held my hand and stopped me.
"Who said I'd let him kill you hm?" he said as he started walking us in a slow pace.
I've been friends with Rang who is not only a Gumiho but also my roommate for about 2 and a half months now...and everyday is filled with us getting in bizarre adventures or causing mischief. Being friends with him somehow unlocked a new version of my self that I wasn't aware I had while still being myself.
Having him in my life not only changed my life but also my feelings for him compared to when we had first met. Sure he was bad, he did bad things and had a long standing grudge on his elder brother who he was currently planning on getting revenge from but nonetheless he made me feel safe, protected and loved...something I haven't felt in years.
"You'd be willing to protect me?" I asked, completely surprised as he scoffed.
"We've been living with each other for than two months and that was enough for me to know that you can't live without me." he said with a smug expression, he isn't completely wrong though.
"Yeah, yeah." I said as he suddenly sat down in a bench and left me standing as he made me stand between his legs and wrapped his arms around my waist and burried his face in my waist.
"You won't...abandon me too will you?" he asked through the fabric of my sweater, catching me off guard.
"Why would you think that?" I asked as he held me tighter.
"My intentions aren't good...I only want revenge and bloodshed." he said as I sighed and ran my fingers through his hair.
"Maybe you're not as good as most people but for me it doesn't matter...I won't make fun of you for that...nor will I judge. But I just want you to know that I won't abandon you and I hope that you won't abandon me too." I said as he chuckled.
"Never, you have my word." he said as I took a deep breath.
"Rang?...can I tell you something?" I asked as he smiled and kissed my forehead.
"I love you too idiot...I can assure you that cause a fox always stays loyal to his mate." he said catching me off guard.
"How did you know?" I asked as he pulled me into a real hug.
"You weren't good at hiding your feelings, I saw and felt the love you have for me enough to entrust you with my heart, I love You Kang Noeul." he said and leaned in making me close my eyes as he pressed a soft yet loving kiss to my lips under the orange skies created by the sun's rays as it set.
"I love you too, Rang-ah."
"Never thought that I'd find
That the one in my life would be so near
And now you're here
I got you, you got me
When it's us, babe, you make me feel complete
You're all I need."
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I am so sorry if the story doesn't reach your expectations but I hope you enjoyed reading it as much as I enjoyed writing it âĄâĄâĄ
Thank you for readingâĄ
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Masterlist
~RangHee scenes in chronological order*~
*some edits will appear more than once under different episode numbers if they include scenes from more than one episode
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â.á The coaches daughter -Â Lee Heeseung A car accident has turned your life upside down, leaving you with a knee and ankle that ache like they belong to someone three times your age. Navigating college with these setbacks is hard enough, but when your overprotective dad insists you take an internship with the menâs hockey team, youâre thrust back into the world youâve spent years avoiding. The rink represents everything youâve lostâand then thereâs Heeseung, the captain whom you somehow cannot stop thinking about.
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á° genre. College sports aus, angst, hurt/comfort, slow burn, fluff, a lot of falling asleep in the same bed, some good old family drama .áâ âš á° warnings. Swearing, car crash, Y/N just had surgery and is using crutches, partying, some making out .áâ âš á° word count. 30.k .áâ âš Â á° an.I haven't written or published anything in like 8 years i think! And back then everything i wrote was in German so this was my first time propperly writing in English! I am not 100% pleased with this but i kinda also wanted to finally post this
The sound of crunching metal and the violent jolt of impact were the last things you remembered clearly from that day six years ago.
You had been sitting in the front seat, your legs tucked comfortably into the seat as your dad drove through the light rain on a Saturday morning. âSoobinâs got nothing on me once I perfect my wrist shot,â you told your father excitedly, looking at him in the driver's seat. He nodded and briefly glanced at his phone in the cub holder, frowning when he saw a new message. He shifted in his seat, his focus divided.
You noticed the change in his expression but tried to keep the conversation light: âI was thinking... maybe you could watch the scrimmage today? Iâve been dying to show you how much better Iâve gotten.â Your voice held that hopeful edge, the one you always used when you wanted his approval.
âIâll try, kiddo,â he said, though his tone was distracted. Before you could respond, your fatherâs eyes flicked back to the roadâand froze. Ahead of the two of you, a truck skidded wildly through the intersection, its tires screeching on the wet pavement. Time seemed to slow as your fatherâs hands gripped the wheel, his mouth opening in a shout of warning that came too late.
The impact was deafening.
In the split second before the collision, you felt your fatherâs arm shoot out in front of you in a reflexive, futile attempt to shield your body from impact. Then, all at once, the world turned upside down. The sound of metal smashing against metal rang in your ears, so loud it felt like your head was splitting. Your body was thrown violently against the side of the car, your head slamming into the window with brutal force. You heard the crack of glass, the sharp crunch of bones, and then... pain. Blinding, searing pain exploded through your body, radiating from your foot up into your chest. It stole the air from your lungs, leaving you gasping, choking on your own breath.
Everything was chaos. The car spun, tipping slightly before jerking to a stop. For a moment, everything was stillâthen the world came rushing back in a torrent of pain and noise.
Your vision blurred as you tried to move, but your body wouldnât respond. Your leg was pinned beneath the crumpled car door, and every tiny shift sent fresh waves of agony through your body. You could barely register the sound of your fatherâs frantic yelling, the way the rain tapped softly on the cracked windshield, the music that was still playing. You blinked, your vision swimming as your father freed himself from the wreckage. You saw him stagger out of the car, blood dripping from a gash on his forehead, his expression panicked, desperate. He tried to open your door, but it was crushed inward, trapping you in place. You heard him shout your name, but the sound felt distant, muffled, as though you were underwater. Seconds later everything went dark.
You sat between Soobin and Minji, the faint hum of your mother bustling in the background. The whole room smelled of the kimchi stew your mom cooked for dinner. She placed the final dish down, her apron still tied loosely around her waist. âSoobin,â she said, smoothing a stray hair from her forehead and handing him a bowl of rice. âHow was class today?â Â
Soobin scooped a generous spoonful from the bowl, a smile spreading as he dug in. âIt was fine. Professor Kimâs still trying to crush our souls with assignments, though. Iâll probably have to pull another all-nighter.â Â
Minji snorted, leaning across the table with a teasing grin. âWhen do you not pull all-nighters?â Soobin shot her a mock glare but didnât argue. âThe grind doesnât stop,â he quipped.
You laughed, the sound light and genuine. âWhat grind?â you teased, nudging his shoulder with your own. Â
The light banter bounced around the table, filling the room with laughter. Minji had just launched into a story about her teacher tripping during class when your father cleared his throat. The sound sliced through the warmth like a blade, dragging all attention toward him.
His focus was zeroed on you. You felt the weight of his question before he even opened his mouth.Â
âHowâs physio going?â he asked, his tone more like an accusation than a question. Â
You kept your eyes on your plate, your fork idly pushing your food around. âItâs fine,â you said, trying to sound neutral. âI had a good session yesterday. Iâm starting to put some weight on my foot.â Â
Your fatherâs fork froze mid-air, his expression darkening: âYouâre already putting weight on it?â he asked, his voice tightening with disapproval. Â
âYes, Dad,â you replied, bracing yourself. âThatâs how rehab works. I donât just stay on crutches forever.â Â
His hand gripped the edge of the table, his knuckles whitening. âYouâre rushing it. Iâve been around injuries my whole career. Just because the therapist said you can doesnât mean you should.â Â
The fork in your hand trembled, and you set it down with a clink. The heat of frustration prickled at the back of your neck. âIâm following the plan they gave me. They know what theyâre doing.â Â
Your father leaned forward, his voice rising. âNo, they donât. They donât care about your long-term recovery. They just want you off their caseload so they can move on to the next patient.â Â
Anger surged in your chest, hot and sharp. âYouâre not a doctor,â you snapped, your voice cutting through the tension like shattered glass. âI trust them more than I trust you when it comes to my body.â Â
The room fell into a suffocating silence. Minjiâs hand hovered over her bowl, frozen mid-bite, while Soobin stared at his plate, his jaw clenched. You met your fatherâs gaze, refusing to look away.
His voice dropped to an icy calm, each word deliberate and cutting. âIâm just trying to keep you from making a mistake. But if you think you know better, fine. Just donât come crying to me when youâre back in surgery.â Â
His words struck like a slap, but you swallowed the hurt, refusing to let it show. You clenched your fists under the table and took a big breath. Soobin glanced at you and nudged your foot with his in a silent sign of support.
âActually, I was thinking about something that might help you,â your father continued in a casual tone, as if the argument moments ago hadnât happened. Â
You blinked, caught off guard by the abrupt pivot. âWhat?â âThe athletic department needs someone for PR for the menâs hockey team,â he said, his voice laced with an almost forced enthusiasm. âItâs a great opportunity for you to earn the credits you missed last semester.â Â
Your stomach churned at the suggestion, the tension in the room amplifying tenfold. âNo,â you said firmly. âDad, I really donât want to do that. Iâm not into hockey anymore. You know that.â âWhy not? Itâs a great way to get back into it. You did love it before the accident.â he pressed.
âYou just answered your own question, Dad. Before the accident, I did love it.â You felt the frustration bubbling inside, fighting against the facade of calm you tried to maintain.Â
Your mother interjected, her voice firm but caring. âWoosung, you need to ease off. Pushing her into this isnât the answer. We talked about this before.âÂ
âPushing? Iâm just offering her a way back into something she once loved!â he snapped, his frustration mirroring your own.Â
You felt the heat rise in your cheeks, a mix of anger and hurt. âMom, I appreciate you sticking up for me, but I can handle this. I do not want to do it, Dad.âÂ
Your father leaned back, crossing his arms. âI thought you might appreciate having something to focus on, a way to ease back in.âÂ
âItâs not about easing back in. Itâs about not wanting to be part of that world anymore. I donât want to help with hockey PR. I just want to focus on my studies and figure things out on my own,â you asserted, frustration edging your voice.Â
Your fatherâs expression hardened, but you could see the concern behind it. âI just wanted to see you succeed. I thought this could help.â âItâs not what I need!â you exclaimed. âIâm tired of everyone expecting me to dive back into hockey just because I had so much potential. I don't have it anymore, okay? I need to figure out who I am without all of that. Helping with the team won't help me at all.â
âFine,â he said curtly. âDo whatever you want.â Â
The rest of dinner passed in an unbearable silence, the warmth and laughter from earlier now a distant memory. The clink of dishes and the faint hum of the kitchen fan were the only sounds as you counted the seconds until you could leave. Â
When you finally stood to go to your room, your father called out from the living room, his voice gruff. âY/N, just⌠donât overdo it, okay? I donât want to see you hurt again.â Â
You paused in the doorway, the faint light from the hallway casting shadows across the room. âI know,â you muttered, the words hollow. Â
As you made your way upstairs, the tightness in your chest refused to ease. In the sanctuary of your room, the air felt no lighter. You leaned back against your pillow, the familiar ceiling staring back at you.Â
The sound of skates scraping against the ice echoed faintly through the arena as Heeseung leaned against the boards, catching his breath. Practice had just wrapped up, and the team was filtering out of the rink, chattering about drills and weekend plans. Coach Choi stood near the bench, his clipboard tucked under his arm, his sharp gaze following the last few stragglers off the ice. âHeeseung, got a minute?â the Coach called, his deep voice carrying easily over the ambient hum of the arena. Heeseung turned, brushing a gloved hand over his damp hair. âSure!â He stepped off the ice, his blades clinking against the rubber flooring as he approached. His Coach gestured for him to sit down.
âI have been thinking about the teamâs image,â the Coach began, his tone casual but deliberate. Â
Heeseung raised an eyebrow. âImage?â Â
Coach nodded, tucking the clipboard under his arm. âYeah. You boys are doing great on the ice, but youâre not just playersâyouâre prospects. Scouts, sponsors, even alumni donorsâthey pay attention to more than just your games. They want to see personalities, professionalism, something marketable for their teams.â Â
Heeseung crossed his arms, leaning slightly against the boards. âI am aware, sir. But what does that have to do with me?â The Coach gave a small smile, the kind that hinted at plans already set in motion. âIâve been in touch with the athletic department. They agreed we need someone to handle the teamâs social mediaâbuild a strong public image, keep things polished.â Â
Heeseung tilted his head, curious. âA PR manager?â. He wasnât aware that the team had the funds to hire a person to post a few pics of them on instagram to appease the sponsors. As the captain he was included in quite a few organizational meetings and has had to endure endless lectures about how the boys are not supposed to go overboard when partying because it shines a bad light on the whole team and how it could compromise the career of everyone there. But never had he heard anything about a PR manager.Â
âExactly. I was thinking of Y/N,â Coach said, nodding, âshe is missing a few credits and this would be an easy and quick solution. That way we dont have to do interviews, since I do know my daughter quite well.âÂ
Heeseung blinked, caught off guard. He knew you, if only vaguely. You have met at a few team events over the last year and at a few parties. Soobin introduced you as his sister and warned everyone that you were off-limits. He knew that Beomgyu was quite close to you, so he assumed you werenât off limits for everyone. The few conversations you had with him gave him the impression that you were quite fun. He also knew that you were hot. He respectfully checked you out a few times and then mentally bleached his eyes, when he realized whom he was looking at.
âYour daughter?â he asked your father, his coach. Â
The Coach nodded, his expression softening slightly. âShe knows hockey inside and out. And sheâs good with this kind of stuffâsocial media, PR, that kind of thing. Itâll be good for her, and itâll help the team.â Â
Heeseung hesitated. He didnât know you well enough to have an opinion, but he could guess that working alongside the teamâespecially under your fatherâs watchful eyeâwouldnât be simple. Soobin had told him that his father was quite overbearing with his sister after a car accident and how it's annoying the whole family. âAre you sure she wants to do this?â Heeseung asked carefully. Â
Coachâs expression shifted, a flicker of something unreadable passing across his face. âSheâll do fine. Sheâs been looking for something to focus on, and this is a good opportunity for her. Plus, itâs not like sheâs starting from scratchâshe grew up around this sport.â Â
Heeseung nodded slowly, still uncertain. âOkay. What do you need from me?â Â
âI need you to help make this transition smooth,â Coach said, his tone firm. âSheâs going to be around a lot, and I donât want her feeling like sheâs an outsider. Make sure the guys treat her with respect, and if she needs anything, you help her out.â Â
Heeseung frowned slightly. âYouâre not asking me to babysit her, right?â Â
Coach let out a low chuckle. âNo, she doesnât need babysitting. But youâre the captain. Itâs part of your job to make sure the team stays cohesive. Sheâs here to help, not to be a distraction or a target.â Â
Heeseung considered this for a moment, then nodded. âGot it. When does she start?â Â
âNext week,â Coach said, his tone decisive. âThe athletic departmentâs finalizing the details, but sheâll be here soon enough.â Â
As he walked away, his thoughts lingered on the unexpected news. He knew having you around would be an adjustment for the teamâand maybe for you, too. But if Coach trusted you to take on this role, then heâd make sure to give you a fair shot. Â
âY/N! Over here!â Chaeryoung exclaimed when you entered the small cafĂŠ on campus the next day. The cafĂŠ had been closed for a few weeks after the original owner passed away, and his son had taken over. Many students visited the old barista more than once a week, and everyone had been distraught by the news of his passing. When his son reopened the cafĂŠ, getting a seat had become quite a challenge.
You slid into the booth opposite Chaeryoung and carefully set down your crutches, making sure they were out of the way of the bustling cafĂŠ. The warm aroma of coffee and fresh pastries enveloped you as you took a moment to soak in the familiar atmosphere. âHi, guys! It's so nice to be back here. How was Kinesiology today? Did your presentation go well?â
âUgh,â Yeji groaned, dramatically resting her head on your shoulder. âI don't even want to think about it. I thought I was okay until Sunghoon and EJ presented. Now I feel utterly incompetent.â
Chaeryoung chuckled, shaking her head with a teasing smirk. âYouâre being dramatic! What did you expect? Theyâve got that whole jock thing going for them.â
âNot to feel like an idiot because some utterly pretty hockey players have the time to create a more or less perfect presentation even though they donât have time for anything but training and partying?â Yeji retorted, her voice rising in exasperation. She turned to you, her expression softening. âWe already ordered for you. I hope youâre alright with hot chocolate?â
âSure! Thank you, love. Also, Sunghoon isnât a hockey jock, heâs an ice skater,â you reminded your friends with a knowing grin.
âHockey, skating, yada yada, itâs all the same. They spend a lot of time on the ice,â Ryujin shrugged.
Lia leaned in, her eyes sparkling with mischief. âSpeaking of ice hockey players, I had international law with Jay today. He looked like he was going to slam his head into the table when Professor Binns started handing out the grading sheets for the exams. Did their game not go well last week?â
You shrugged, the corners of your mouth twitching up as you recalled the conversation with Soobin. âConsidering my dad told Soobin relatively harshly heâs supposed to get his head back in the game, I assume it didnât go well"
âOh, bummer. Thatâs probably why they didnât go to the swimming teamâs party last weekend. It was wild!" Chaeryoung nodded, her enthusiasm infectious.
âWhat party?â you asked, genuinely curious, since youâd been out of town visiting your aunt in Riverfield.
âFelix invited us to a party at their house. Well, it started as a small meetup, but suddenly it wasnât small anymore,â Chaeryoung explained, her eyes widening at the memory.
Yeji waved her hand dismissively. âYou didnât miss out on anything, though. We ended up leaving early because it got a little too crazy for my taste,â she said, accepting the steaming drinks from the waitress.Â
You opened the door to your families house. The aroma of the reheated Samgyetang from the day before wafted through the air, instantly making your stomach growl.
âHey, youâre back!â Soobin called from the living room, where he was sprawled on the couch, game controller in hand. He glanced up, pausing his game. âDid you bring me anything?â
You shook your head, laughing. âIf you wanted something from Corner's Creek, you should have told me when we saw each other in the cafeteria.â
âPfft, why should I even have to ask? If I were you, Iâd bring my precious brother some cake without him having to ask,â he replied, flashing a cheeky grin. âHow was the cafĂŠ? Still as good as when Mr. Yoon was there?â
âYeah. His son changed a few of the drinks on the menu, but they sounded nice! And they now do those cookie croissant waffle thingies? Amazing, honestly.â You plopped down on the sofa next to your older brother, carefully lifting up your leg into a more comfortable position. Soobin made an interesting noise at the thought of eating one of those.
âDid you think about the internship offer Dad gave you? I heard him talking to Heeseung about it. How youâre missing credits and how he wants you to take it,â your brother asked, tone careful.
âDonât get me started on it. Heâs been pushing this internship with the hockey team on me like itâs life or death,â you said, stirring your chili absentmindedly.
âMaybe he just wants to connect with you.â Soobinâs tone softened. âHe might think this internship is a way to bridge the gap. You know itâs his worldâand it was yours too, before the accident.â
You sighed, leaning against the counter. âYouâre starting to sound like him. Honestly, Soobin, thatâs not supposed to happen until Iâm an aunt to your kids. I just donât care about hockey anymore. It feels like every time I turn around, itâs all about hockey, hockey, hockey.â
âLook, Y/N, I get it. But if you need those credits to graduate, maybe itâs worth considering.â He crossed his arms, looking at you earnestly. âIf anyone gives you trouble, Iâll have your back. Iâll just remind them that Iâm still the older brother and boss around here.â
You couldnât help but laugh dryly. âRight, youâll just walk in and be like, âWatch out, boys! Y/Nâs brother is here!ââ âExactly!â He chuckled, and for a moment, the tension eased. âBut seriously, youâre stronger than you give yourself credit for. If you can handle what youâve been through, this internship is nothing.â
âMaybe. I just wish it didnât feel so⌠forced,â you replied, blowing on the steaming food on your spoon. âI want to find something Iâm passionate about. Also, it feels unfair to others who actually care about it. Iâd be something of a nepo baby.â
âItâs just one semester. If you hate it, you can quit. But at least youâll know you tried. Plus, who knows? You might end up being the best hockey PR person out there. I mean, what do you think I hear? Coachâs son playing in his team, the co-captain? Nepo baby runs in our blood."
You rolled your eyes again, but this time, there was a hint of a smile. âIâll think about it, okay? But Iâm not making any promises.â âFair enough.â Soobin shrugged, raising his hands in mock surrender. âJust promise me youâll at least consider it. Besides, itâs not like you have any better options right now.â You nodded slowly, knowing he was right. âYeah, I guess.â After a night brooding over what Soobin said, you decided to go with it and accept the offer. He was rightâif anything, it was just one semester, right? Youâd get your credits, your dad would get off your back, and youâd have Soobin and your father, the literal coach, as backup if you needed it.
So after your last class the day after, you went to the ice rink and carefully knocked on the door to your fatherâs office. âCome in,â your father called through the closed door. You opened the door and pressed your lips into a tight smile when you saw him hunched over some documents
âY/N,â he stood up, âhow can I help you?â
You walked closer to his table and sat down in the chair across from his desk. âI talked to Soobin yesterday. About the internship.â
A moment of silence stretched on as your father waited for you to continue. âDid you decide to take up my offer?â he asked.
You took a deep breath. âYeah, I decided to give it a shot. Just for one semester, though. Iâm not promising anything beyond that.â
Your fatherâs expression shifted from anticipation to a mixture of relief and disappointment. âThatâs great, Y/N! I really think this could be a good opportunity for you. Youâll learn a lot about PR and social media, and you might even discover a new passion.â
You rolled your eyes, already feeling the frustration bubbling up inside you. âDad, itâs not about discovering a passion for hockey or PR. I just need the credits to graduate. Iâm not expecting some life-changing revelation from this.â
âThen why even bother?â he retorted, crossing his arms defensively. âIf youâre going into it with that attitude, you wonât get anything out of it.â
âBecause I donât want to keep disappointing you,â you shot back, your voice rising. âYouâve made it pretty clear that you think I should be involved in hockey somehow. This is just a way to keep the peace, right?â
Your father clenched his jaw, visibly frustrated. âIâm not trying to force you into anything, Y/N. I just thought youâd want to be part of something that means so much to our family. This isnât just about hockey; itâs about being part of a team, a community.â
You leaned forward, your palms pressing against the cool surface of his desk. âBut I donât want to be part of that community, Dad! Not anymore! All I ever hear from you is hockey, hockey, hockey. I care about things other than hockey.â
He stood up abruptly, pushing his chair back with a loud scrape. âI didnât mean to put that pressure on you. But you need to understand that Iâm proud of what I do, and I thought youâd want to be a part of it. I thought maybe being around the team would help you feel less isolated."
You stood too, feeling a mixture of anger and hurt. âItâs not about your pride, Dad! Itâs about my life and my choices. I donât want to feel obligated to fulfill your expectations. I just want to be me. And for the record, I am not isolated. I have friends and a life! Itâs just not hockey.â
He softened for a moment, and you could see the conflict in his eyes. âI know, Y/N. But you have to understand that Iâm coming from a place of love. I want the best for you. I thought this would help you find your way, especially with how difficult things have been for you.â
âMaybe you need to let me find my own way instead of trying to steer me down the path youâve laid out,â you said, your voice steady despite the storm of emotions inside you. For a moment, silence hung between you, the air thick with unspoken words and unresolved tension.
âOkay,â he finally said, his voice quieter. âIâll back off. But I hope you give this a real chance, for both our sakes.â
You nodded, feeling a mixture of relief and uncertainty. âIâll try, Dad. But just know Iâm doing this for me, not for you.â
He offered a tight smile, one that didnât quite reach his eyes.
You arrived at the rink an hour earlier than scheduled, more out of nervousness than necessity. The familiar smell of the ice, mixed with the faint hum of the arenaâs machinery, makes you stop for a second. Standing near the glass, you watched a few players skate laps. The sounds of blades cutting into the ice reverberate in the empty rink, and for a moment, you feel a pull in your chest. You press your crutches into the ground, standing straighter as you try to shake off the creeping frustration. You've gotten good at suppressing it over the years, convincing yourself that youâve moved on.
âAre you lost or something?â You blink and turn to see Heeseung, standing a few feet away, looking amused. Lost in thought, you didnât hear him approach until his voice interrupted your moment of self pity. You turned around and caught the moment where he recognized you.
âY/N? Didnât expect to see you here this early.â He settled his bag down next to you.
âI could say the same to you,â you replied, raising an eyebrow. âBut I guess the captain needs to be the first one on the ice, right?â
Heeseung grinned and shrugged. âPart of the job,â he said, then nodded towards the rink. âAre you already trying to figure out how to make those losers good on Tiktok?â
You shifted your weight slightly, gripping your crutches a little tighter. âSomething like that,â you muttered, glancing back at the ice.
He looked at you. âYou sound thrilled.â
âYeah, I am absolutely thrilled,â you said, your voice cool.
âDid your dad convince you to do this?â, his eyes softened a bit.
You didnât know how much Heeseung already knew about your situation, how much Soobin or his friends that you were also close to have told him so you just shrugged: âHonestly? Kinda. But what can I say, I am here now so there is no turning back, right?â
âGod wait until you get to know the others. You will regret your decision. I donât think we have a lot of potential to be the Tiktok star your dad wants us to be.â, he chuckled
âGod Hee, donât remind me.â, you lean your head onto the glass that separated you and the rink, cringing at the cold sensation. He laughed out loud and patted your back. Someone shouted his name and he grabbed his gear from the floor, while you leaned back again.
âAlright,â he said, watching you with a curious gleam in his eyes. âIâll leave you to do your very important PR duties. But, uh, if you ever need anything, donât be afraid to ask.â He pushed his hair out of his face and winked at you. You just rolled your eyes and bid him goodbye.Â
Your office was a small, window-lit room with one side dominated by clutter. On the messy side, stacks of papers, unopened mail, and scattered office supplies covered multiple surfaces, including an old wooden filing cabinet. A half-empty bookshelf leaned under the weight of folders, some piled haphazardly on top of one another. Boxes of miscellaneous items were stacked in a corner, threatening to topple. In one corner stood a seemingly clean desk, which you assumed to be the one you would be working from. You settled in, trying to ignore the mess on the other side of the room, while pulling out your laptop to take a look at the teamâs social media accounts.Â
A few hours later, you found yourself sitting in front of a flipchart, surrounded by notes and scribbles of ideas for content. Your research had turned up dozens of trends and challenges that could work for the hockey teamâs social accounts, but your enthusiasm was running low. The chair you were sitting on felt like it was designed for maximum discomfort, and you were seriously considering bringing your wheelchair the next time. You sighed, shifting your weight in a futile attempt to find a more comfortable position. Your hip started aching about 20 minutes ago.
Just then, the door creaked open slightly, and Heeseungâs head popped in. âYou surviving in here?"
Without looking up, you muttered, âBarely. What do you want, Heeseung?â
He chuckled and stepped fully into the room, leaning casually against the wall. âNothing much,â he said, flashing his trademark grin. âJust thought Iâd check in. You know, make sure the new PR girl isnât drowning in spreadsheets or choking on influencer jargon.â
You rolled your eyes, âIâm not drowning. Yet.â
âWell, thatâs good,â he replied, pushing himself off the wall and taking a step closer to the desk. âThough you kinda look like youâre this close from walking out of here and never coming back.â
You snorted despite yourself, leaning back and stretching your arms. âTrust me. This chair? Torture. It makes me want to get out of here asap.â
As he moved closer, you noticed a faint, fresh scentâlike soap and something woody, maybe a hint of citrus. He must have just showered. His hair was still damp, a little messy. He looked very attractive in the annoyingly bright light of your office.
Heeseung pulled up a chair for himself and sat down across from you, resting his arms on the table. âSo, whatâs the plan? Are you trying to turn us into TikTok stars?â
You shrugged, gesturing to the flipchart. âThat, or Iâll at least try to make sure you guys donât look like total idiots online. Thereâs a fine line. A good start would be acceptable Instagram accounts. Tell me why some of you post random pictures of food with 20 filters slapped onto them.â You shifted in your seat, trying to ignore how nice he smelled, but it was hard not to notice. You weren't sure why, but it was definitely a little distracting. Get a grip, Y/N.
âAh, come on,â he said, leaning forward with a grin. âWeâre already halfway to âtotal idiots.â Youâll just make us look... what? Funny idiots? Also my Instagram is pretty and aesthetic!â
âSomething like that,â you muttered, unable to suppress a small smile. âI found some trends, figured we could hop on a few of them. Iâve got ideas for locker room Q&As, pre-game routines, that kind of thing.â
âSounds like youâve got a plan,â Heeseung said, nodding as he scanned the notes. âSo, when do we start?â
âWe?â you scoffed, raising an eyebrow. âLast I checked, Iâm the PR person. Youâre just the guy with a stick trying to hit a rubber thingy.â
He laughed, shaking his head. âCome on, Y/N. Youâll need my charming face to pull off half of these ideas.â
You couldnât help but roll your eyes again, though it was becoming less from irritation and more out of habit. âOh yeah, because thatâs exactly whatâs going to save this campaignâyour charm.â
âAdmit it,â he teased, leaning back in his chair, crossing his arms. âYou know Iâm right.â
âAdmit what? That youâve got an ego the size of this rink?â you shot back, shaking your head. âYeah, no thanks.â
Heeseung grinned, clearly unfazed by your sarcasm. âHey, canât blame a guy for knowing his strengths.â You let out a soft chuckle. âWhatever helps you sleep at night, Heeseung."
He stood up, stretching lazily, and you noticed how his shirt pulled just slightly across his chest. You quickly averted your eyes, but not before catching the way his muscles shifted beneath the fabric. Okay, yeah. Definitely kind of hot.Â
âAlright, alright. Iâll leave you to your spreadsheets and dance challenges. But seriously, if you need anythingâor, you know, some extra âcharmââyou know where to find me.â
You smirked, shooing him toward the door. âIâll keep that in mind. Now go away, Iâve got real work to do.â
He threw you a mock salute as he backed out of the room. âYes, maâam. Just donât forget to give me a heads-up when you need me to be the face of your operation.â âDonât hold your breath,â you called after him, shaking your head as the door closed behind him.
The next day, you were sitting at a round table in the student library, your textbooks spread out in front of you, trying to focus on the notes for your upcoming exam. Chaeryong sat next to you, furiously typing something into her laptop, while Beomgyu, who had already given up on studying, leaned back in his chair with his phone in hand, holding your injured leg on his lap. You sighed and leaned back in your chair, finally breaking the silence. "I took that internship, by the way."
Ryujin looked up from her screen, raising an eyebrow. "The hockey one?"
You nodded. "Yeah, the PR thing for the menâs team. Dad convinced me, and Soobin kind of guilted me into it too. Itâs only for a semester, so I figured I might as well."
Beomgyu snorted, glancing up from his phone. "Oh boy, youâre going to be stuck with us now. Weâll have to treat you like royalty, Coachâs daughter."
You rolled your eyes. "Please donât. The last thing I need is people treating me any differently."
"Donât worry," Beomgyu grinned, his eyes playful. "Iâll make sure the team knows to mess with you as much as possible. No special treatment."
Before you could continue, the conversation was interrupted by the sound of a familiar voice.
âHey, there you are!â Soobinâs tall frame came into view, followed closely by Yeonjun, who stopped behind Chaeryoung to press a kiss onto her head: âHi baby.â
She glanced at them, unimpressed. âWhatâs this about?"
âWeâre kidnapping them,â Yeonjun said with a smirk, gesturing at you and Beomgyu. âCoach needs everyone at practice, and Y/N here has a meeting with the team.â
Beomgyu groaned, half-joking as he packed up his things. âAnd here I was, hoping to spend my afternoon in peace. Guess not.â
You, however, were a little more reluctant. âWait, I thought I didnât have to do anything with the team until later this week? I havenât finished on collecting my thoughts? I am starting from 0 and i am not investing my free time into research?â
Soobin shook his head, grinning. âNope, the sooner you meet everyone, the better.â
Chaeryoung leaned back in her chair, laughing. âGood luck with that, Y/N. Youâre going to need it.â
You shot her a look before standing up, grabbing your crutches, and letting Soobin lead the way.
The locker room door swung open and the noise (and borderline disgusting smell) hit you all at onceâ talking, laughing, skates clinking. Yeonjun clapped his hands together and announced dramatically, âAlright, listen up! We have a very important guest today.â
Beomgyu chimed in, âTry not to scare her off, okay? Sheâs family. Like in a literal and theoretical way.â
You rolled your eyes at their antics but couldnât help smiling. These two were practically brothers to youâthey spent so much time at your house growing up that your mom would always joke that she had three sons instead of one. When all three of them got accepted into the sports scholarship Delicis offered your parents threw a party for their sons, which ended in all of you crashing over at Yeonjuns place after you all drank a bit too much of the sparkling wine. Just the thought of the day after made your stomach upset.Â
Heeseung, sitting on a bench tying his skates, looked up and spotted you. He grinned at you as he stood up, leaning casually against the lockers. âHey, if it isnât our new PR expert. Early again. You sure youâre not secretly excited to be here?â
You scoffed, leaning into your crutches a bit. âNo, Heeseung, Iâm not excited to be here. I was kidnapped and should be studying econ right now.â
Jay, who was in the same economy course as you, groaned. "Please don't remind me. I feel like I am at least 10 weeks behind and the semester started four weeks ago."
A few of the guys laughed, but Soobin interrupted them: âAlright, listen up,â he said, his voice carrying authority. âY/Nâs going to be helping us with PR this season. Treat her with respect and do what she says, got it?â
Trying to ease your own discomfort, you forced a smile and crossed your arms. âLook, Iâm just here to do my job. I wonât annoy you all too much!â
One of the players, EJ?, leaned back against the lockers with a smirk. âDoes that mean we are going to be the next Charlie Dâamilio?â
You laughed, unable to help yourself. âThat depends. Can you dance?â
Jake, still sitting with his skates half-done, quipped, âIâd pay to see EJ try to pull off one of those TikTok dances.â The room erupted in laughter and you felt some of the tension in your shoulders release at the sound.
A few days later, you opted to skip class after an especially grueling session of physiotherapy. You lay sprawled on the worn sofa in Ryujinâs appartment, breathing in the comforting aroma of spaghetti carbonara simmering in the kitchen.
You called out over the sizzling bacon, âI swear to God. I can feel the bruises coming. My legs and my left ass cheek are going to be black and blue tomorrow. I wonât be able to properly sit down!â
âNobody is seeing your legs or your ass, girl. Just wear a pair of pants, and the problem is solved,â Ryujin shot back, stirring the pan with a wooden spoon. The warm, buttery smell mingled with the salty scent of bacon, making your stomach growl in anticipation.
âUnless you want to show someone your ass?â she teased, glancing back at you with a playful smirk.
âNot really. Who would want to see my blue and black scarred arse unprompted? Do you want to see? Iâll undress just for you, baby. Magic Mike style. Magic Y/N!â You wiggled your eyebrows, shifting the frozen chickpeas from your ankle to heave yourself into your wheelchair.
Ryujin rolled her eyes, laughing as she scooped the cooked pasta into the pan. âI love you, and I have seen plenty of your naked ass already, but I donât need you to erotically strip for me, Y/N. You are not really my type, Iâm sorry.â
You clutched your chest in mock offense. âYou wound me, Ryujin!â
âHa ha! Iâm sure we can find someone who would like to see your ass. There are plenty of hot guys on campus that are horny 24/7,â she shot back, glancing over her shoulder as she added a sprinkle of cheese to the mix.
âSure. And 25 of them are on the hockey team,â you deadpanned, your mind wandering to the group of boys you were now working with. The thought of the players made you chuckle to yourself.
âI mean, sure. But all 25? Soobin is part of that horny group as well?â Ryujin handed your cutlery.
âHonestly? Yeah. I mean, Dad is pretty strict with him and Minji about dating since he thinks they would get distracted, but Soobin definitely appreciates some good-looking arses. Not mine, though. That would be disgusting.â You shuddered at the thought.
âGirl. Ew,â Ryujin replied flatly, shaking her head, and you both burst into laughter.
A few hours later, you rolled into the rink, greeted by the sound of skates scraping against ice and the faint scent of sweat. The boysâ training session was already in full swing, punctuated by grunts and your dadâs authoritative voice barking out encouragement and critiques. Navigating your way through the rink was fairly manageable in your wheelchair. You opted to maneuver around the rink rather than suffer through sitting on that demonic seat in your office for a few hours, especially after gaining a few bruises on your behind and legs. Seriously, your physiotherapist could have not put her entire body weight on her elbow. You didnât care that it would help your muscles relax? About every muscle in your body was tensed while she tried to relax one in your arse?
You had asked your dad for a few items from home to make the room feel a bit more inviting. You made him buy some more plants and a floor lamp for a more comfortable light source. A cherry and a pink dinosaur sonny angel were sitting on your desk alongside the greenery. You brought printed pictures of your friends and various art prints, but without your crutches, you decided to leave the task of hanging them up for another day. If you were to work here for the next six months you could definitely personalize the room a bit.Â
You were mid-scroll through your R&B playlist when you heard a light knock on your office door. Without looking up, you called out, âCome in!â
Yeonjun poked his head in, flashing his usual grin. âHello my dearest Y/N!â
Behind him, Soobin and Beomgyu strolled in, still in their sweaty practice gear, looking completely worn out. Beomgyu flopped dramatically into the chair near your desk that Heeseung never put back. âYeah, sure, come in and just take over my whole workspace with your stinky gear,â you teased, though you didnât mind the company.
Beomgyu groaned, stretching his legs out like he owned the place. âThis break isnât long enough. Coach is killing us out there. I swear Iâm going to die.â
Soobin rolled his eyes, perching on the edge of your desk while Yeonjun leaned against the wall. âYouâll survive. Weâve had worse drills.â
Yeonjun smirked. âSpeak for yourself. Iâm not built for this much cardio.â
You laughed. âMaybe you should stick to dancing for TikTok, Yeonjun. You know, where you can actually breathe.â
He wiggled his eyebrows. âThatâs where my talents really shine. Wait until you see the TikToks Iâll be making for the team.â
When it was time for the boys to go back into the rink all three of them groaned. Beomgyu let out an exaggerated sigh. âIâm not moving from this chair. I donât care that its uncomfortable.â
Yeonjun glanced around the room, raising an eyebrow at the mismatched furniture. âSpeaking of uncomfortable... this office is seriously lacking. We need to get Coach to clear out the second half of the room so we can put in a sofa or something.â
You glanced at the cluttered back half of the office, filled with old sports equipment, boxes, and random items. âYouâre not wrong. This place could use some serious cleaning.â
Beomgyu perked up. âOh, a sofa would be amazing. We could take naps during breaks.â
You grinned, but gave Soobin a playful push toward the door. âOkay, okay, design committee. Go back to practice before Dad drags you out of here himself.â
As they shuffled out, Beomgyu gave you a lazy salute. âWeâll be back with a proposal for the Coach!â You laughed, shaking your head as they left the room, leaving you in the quiet once again
Heeseung had been at the rink longer than usual tonight. After practice had officially ended, he stayed behind for some extra drills, working on his shots while his mind wandered.
He was standing in the shower after, letting the hot water wash away the tension from his muscles. The clean scent of soap and his woodsy cologne clung to him as he dressed, ready to finally head home. He was on his way out, thinking about his bed, when he saw the light still on in your office room.
He peered through the open door and saw you still at your desk, your face illuminated by the glow of your laptop. He hadnât expected to see you there so late. Most of the team had left, and the rink was practically deserted. What were you still doing here?
He knocked lightly on the doorframe. âYouâre still here?â You glanced up, looking more exhausted than surprised.
âYou too?â you shot back, though there was a flicker of warmth in your tired eyes. âI thought everyone had gone home by now.â
âI did some extra laps,â he said with a lazy smirk as he stepped inside, making his way over to your desk, his damp hair falling slightly into his eyes. His eyes drifted across the various decorations you had brought into the office. He picked up one of the tiny figurines from your desk and turned it over in his hand with a grin. âWhatâs with these little guys? A personal touch?â
You gave him a mock glare, clearly more amused than offended. âTheyâre called sonny angels, and yes, this office was depressing. I needed to liven it up.â
Heeseung laughed softly, putting the figurine back down carefully. âWhy would you bring naked angles.â
You rolled your eyes again. âDonât make fun of my babies. Besides, Iâm pretty sure a pink dinosaur would look amazing in your locker. Might even give you a few extra goals on the ice.â
Heeseung laughed, setting the figure down gently. âOh, for sure. Nothing screams âfearless hockey captainâ like a pink dinosaur mascot.â, he sat down on the edge of your desk, âSo, whatâs keeping you here so late?â
You sighed, rubbing your forehead. âJust finishing up a presentation for the team. Itâs taking longer than I thought.â
Heeseung glanced over at the cluttered desk, noting the piles of papers and sticky notes you were using. âAnd you couldnât wait until tomorrow?â
âNope. I like torturing myself,â you said dryly, then raised an eyebrow as he continued to toy with one of the angels. âAre you done judging my office decor now?â
Heeseung twirled the figurine in his fingers, then squinted at it. They did look cute, somehow. âI mean, Iâve got questions. First off, whatâs up with this one?â He held up a small pink angel wearing a dinosaur costume. âDid you really choose this? And why is the other one naked?â
You groaned, rolling your eyes. âNo! I wanted the red dinosaur one but kept getting the pink one instead. Three times! So, this is what Iâm stuck with. And honestly I am not sure but they are cute.â
Heeseung laughed, genuinely amused by the annoyance in your voice. âSo youâre telling me this cute little thing is the result of failure? Thatâs tragic.â He shook his head, mock-sympathetic, before placing the pink dinosaur angel thing back on your desk with exaggerated care
âTragic doesnât even cover it,â you replied with a deadpan expression. âI have one in my room, one in my car, and now this sad thing is stuck here, reminding me of my poor luck every day.â
Heeseung chuckled. âWell, pink dinosaur or not, itâs got character.â You just laughed at that. He watched you for a moment, noticing how your shoulders were slightly hunched. His gaze dropped to the wheelchair you were sitting in. He hadnât seen you in it much before today. You usually relied on crutches when you were out and about. His curiosity got the better of him: âYou alright today?â he asked, his voice softer now. âSaw you using the chair earlier. Tough day?â
You hesitated, and for a moment, he thought you wouldnât answer. But then you sighed, leaning back in your chair. âPhysio was brutal. Sometimes itâs just easier to use the chair instead of crutches. Less strain, you know?â
Heeseung nodded slowly, processing your words. His chest tightened a little at how nonchalantly you explained it. Like it was just another part of your day, no big deal. He wished he could ask moreâabout what happened, how you went from being an athlete to sitting in this chairâbut he couldnât bring himself to do it. It wasnât his place, and he wasnât about to make you relive something painful just to satisfy his curiosity. He couldnât imagine having to adjust to something like that, especially after living a life as active as yours. Soobin claimed you were goodâlike, really good, that you had a future in hockey, but... He shook the thought away, not wanting to dwell on what you had lost. It didnât seem fair, and it wasnât something he could fix.
âYou know,â he said, looking around in the room. âThis office still feels so crammed and uninviting. You need a couch or something.â
You raised an eyebrow, your playful smirk returning. âA couch, huh? You are the second person to tell me that today?â
He grinned, setting the picture back down. âActually, Yeonjun and I were thinking about it even before you had the office. We need to get Coach to clear out the junk on the other side of the room so we can move in a couch. Youâd have a nice place to chill while pretending to work.â
You laughed, shaking your head. âAnd by âchill,â you mean take naps, right?â
âExactly. Iâd probably use it more than you.â He made a mental note to talk to the Coach and Yeonjun about it. The two of them almost had the Coach to approve of their idea before it was decided you would move into this room. Honestly it was probably better for them to not have a sofa here. He got a headache when he thought of the prospect of finding people doing something unholy here.
Heeseung glanced at the clock. It was lateâtoo late for you to still be working and for him to still be in the rink. He frowned, leaning back on the desk. âYouâre not staying here alone, right?â he asked, his voice a little more serious.
You looked up. âIâm almost done. Iâll leave soon.
âYeah, no,â Heeseung said, shaking his head. âIâm not leaving you here by yourself. Itâs dark, and the rink is practically empty.â
You gave him a half-amused, half-exasperated look. âYouâre not seriously going to babysit me, are you?â
He crossed his arms, standing firm. âPretty much. Iâm not letting you argue your way out of this.â
You sighed, clearly not in the mood to fight him on it. âFine,â you relented, though he could tell you werenât really annoyed. âBut Iâll be here a while. I still have some things to finish.â
He grinned, leaning back on your desk like he had all the time in the world. âIâm great company, remember? Besides, someoneâs gotta make sure your pink angel dinosaur thingy doesnât run away.â
You laughed, shaking your head in mock disbelief. âI think I can handle my own angels, but... thanks.â He plopped himself down in your empty office chair, watching as you worked, occasionally teasing you about the presentation or critiquing the dĂŠcor youâd added to the room.
When you stepped into the rink after your classes on Thursday, the first thing you noticed was Jay, EJ, and Beomgyu hauling the old wooden filing cabinet that had been collecting dust in your office. They were making quite the effort, each one grunting as they maneuvered the bulky piece of furniture toward the exit. All three were struggling, shouting different variations of "Hey!" as they saw you walk in.
âHi! What's going on here?â you called out, laughing a little at the sight.
Beomgyu glanced back at you, a proud grin on his face. âWeâre upgrading your office!â he shouted, nearly dropping his end of the cabinet as they stumbled toward the exit.
âOh?â you scrunched your nose in confusion.
On your way to your office, you passed a couple more of the boysâTaehyun, Jake, and even Sunghoonâall carrying random bits of old furniture and equipment that mustâve been living in your office forever. The rink seemed unusually lively for an off day.
When you finally stepped into your office, you were met with the sight of Soobin, Heeseung, and Yeonjun cleaning the floor of the cluttered side of the small room. While Jay was reading the instructions to the frame of a ikea sofa, which was still in its parcells leaned next to the door.
You crossed your arms, raising an eyebrow. âOkay, seriously⌠Whatâs going on?â
Soobin shot you a sheepish grin. âWell, I figured that after Dad basically forced you and I guilt tripped you into accepting the internship, the least we could do is make this place less awful.â
âSo we talked to Coach Lee,â Heeseung added, clearly amused by the situation. âAnd your dad.â He grinned, standing with his arms crossed, looking far too pleased with himself. âAnd guess what? Youâre getting a sofa. A nice one too.â
Your eyebrows shot up.
âYeah, well,â Soobin jumped in, âCoach Lee kind of convinced him. Said you needed a place to rest. And since Dadâs all for you being extra careful, he gave in. Reluctantly. He wasnât thrilled, but he said yes.â
Yeonjun smirked from his spot against the desk. âSo, congratulations on your sofa.â
You blinked, still trying to process. âYou really convinced him to get you your sofa? For the record, that was fully your idea, I did not wish for one.â You looked around, almost not believing it.
Yeonjun, who had been lounging on the cleared desk, leaned forward. âHey, weâre doing this for you, alright? You deserve a place to chill. But, you know... if a nap happens here or there...â
âYeah, I figured,â you teased, rolling your eyes, âof course. Youâre all just so thoughtful.â But despite your playful tone, you really were touched. Theyâd gone through the trouble of getting permission from your dad, which was no easy task, and now they were basically transforming your workspace into something a lot more comfortable.
Soobin shrugged, feigning indifference. âHey, at least now you wonât be stuck in this depressing office.â
âYeah,â Heeseung chimed in, his grin growing wider. âAnd now youâll have even more space for your red dinosaur angel collection.â
Yeonjun gasped theatrically, hand over his heart like youâd just broken some unspoken rule. âWait, wait, waitâyou pulled the red one and didnât tell me? What kind of betrayal is this?â
You groaned, already regretting letting them see your desk decorations,âTheyâre Sonny Angels!" You sighed, shaking your head. âI didnât pull the red one, Yeonjun.â
Heeseung chuckled, walking over to your desk, picking up one of your Sonny Angels. âWell, when you do, make sure to put it right here. It can be the centerpiece of the whole office.â
You narrowed your eyes at him, but the teasing was making it hard to stay serious. âIâm not turning this office into a shrine for my Angels, but thanks for the suggestion.â Jay snickered from where he was now heaving one parcel towards Heeseung.
Soobin knocked his shoulder into yours, âHonestly, Y/N. Your office was lacking big time. We gave it some character!â
âYeah,â Yeonjun added with a grin, âand when weâre not napping in here, you can totally use it too.â
You couldnât help but laugh at that. âGee, thanks. Iâll make sure to reserve my own office for whenever youâre not busy.â
Despite all the teasing, you felt your chest warm with appreciation. The fact that they went out of their way to make sure youâd be comfortable, going as far as convincing both the coach and your dadâmeant a lot.
âSeriously though,â you said, looking between them, âthank you. I really appreciate it.â
Heeseung waved you off, but his smile was genuine. âHey, anything for the teamâs PR girl. You are able to ruin everyone's reputation in here.â
âAnd we canât let you suffer in this sad office,â Soobin added with a smirk.
Jay stretched dramatically, shooting you a wink. âNow you can suffer in comfort.â
Heeseung wiped the sweat from his brow after the grueling training session, his legs heavy and tired from the extra drills. It was as if your dad had dialed up the intensity after seeing the boys have a bit of fun with you earlier. Heeseung chuckled at the memory of EJâs goofy dance moves, knowing full well that your father had caught wind of their little behind-the-scenes moment. "No fun allowed," he thought wryly, shaking his head. Heeseung wasnât the Coachâs biggest fan. He was too strict, especially when they lost, and lately, his overprotectiveness toward you had only made things tenser. Heeseung got it, though. It couldnât be easy to see his daughter in a wheelchair after being an athlete herself, but still, the coachâs comments were always a little too pointed, a little too controlling.
Pushing those thoughts aside, Heeseung found himself walking toward your office, knowing that even though the rest of the rink was quiet and nearly empty, youâd probably still be there, editing videos or catching up on schoolwork. It had become a familiar routine over the last few weeksâafter most of the team had left, Heeseung would often wander up to find you, usually hunched over your laptop, absorbed in your work. Sure enough, when he knocked lightly and poked his head in, there you were. Your wheelchair was parked near the desk, and you had your laptop open with a few TikTok videos youâd been editing playing on repeat.
"Hey," Heeseung greeted, stepping inside without waiting for an invitation. âStill working?â
You glanced up from your screen, a smile tugging at the corners of your lips. âYeah, just editing some stuff for the âGet to Know the Playerâ series. I canât believe I got EJ to do that dance.â
Heeseung laughed at the memory, throwing himself onto the sofa that had recently appeared in your office.
"I am just trying to make sure I donât accidentally make EJ look too good at dancing.â, you shrugged and replayed the video.
Heeseung snorted, pulling up a show heâd been watching lately. âYou couldnât make him look good at dancing even if you tried. Heâs a lost cause.â.
You laughed out loud, shaking your head as you saved your work. âI think itâs charming. And itâs getting views, soâŚâ
âOf course it is,â Heeseung said, grinning. âThe teamâs already loving the content. Theyâll do anything for their fifteen seconds of fame.â
He stretched out on your sofa, letting out a loud, exaggerated groan as he sunk into the cushions. You smiled but kept your focus on the screen. Heeseung clicked on the latest episode of the new season of The Walking dead heâd been binge-watching, fully knowing he should probably be writing his essay on whatever topic his professor had picked out instead. But the idea of opening his laptop right now made him feel even more exhausted.
As the show played, Heeseung made occasional comments under his breath, reacting to the twists and turns of the plot. You were typing away, seemingly ignoring him, until he let out a surprised âNo way he died!â
You glanced up, narrowing your eyes. âHeeseung, donât spoil anything! Iâm not caught up yet.â
He looked at you with mock innocence. âI didnât spoil anything! I just⌠reacted.â
âUh-huh, sure,â you muttered, trying to focus on your work. But Heeseung did not want to keep quiet. He quite enjoyed your attention on him so he occasionally gasped and muttered exclamations, making you groan in exasperation. âHeeseung, seriously! Shut up! If you spoil anything for me, Iâm never letting you nap in here before training.â
Heeseung laughed, holding up his hands in surrender. âAlright, alright! No spoilers, I promise.â
You fell into a comfortable silence again, with Heeseung watching his show and you finishing your work. He was trying to pay attention, but his eyes kept gazing over and he was about to fall asleep. It wouldn't be the first time that he actually took advantage of the sofa to take a nap. Last week he had a free period before his training session and decided to go to the rink to train on his own a bit. Instead of training you lured him into your office with the offer of cupcakes you baked and after talking for a bit you continued working on an essay and he took the chance to take a quick nap.
âYou good?â you asked, saving your work and closing your laptop.
Heeseung sighed, running a hand through his hair. âYeah⌠I mean, I guess. Iâm just tired. Like, really tired.â
You looked at him sympathetically. âLong day?â âYeah, and schoolâs just... killing me right now. Iâve got so much work to do, and Iâm so behind. But I canât seem to get motivated to do anything. I was supposed to write an essay tonight, but Iâve been lying here watching Netflix instead.â
You nodded. âYeah, I get that. Sometimes it feels like thereâs just too much going on all at once.â
Heeseung rubbed his face with both hands, feeling the weight of everything he hadnât done start to press down on him again. âItâs just... I donât know. Between hockey and school, and trying to keep up with everything else, itâs exhausting. And I know I should be doing more, but sometimes I just want to do nothing.â
You tilted your head, giving him a soft smile. âYouâve been doing a lot, though. You donât have to be perfect all the time, Heeseung. Itâs okay to take a break.â
He gave you a grateful smile but didnât say anything for a moment. Then, after a pause, he spoke again, his voice quieter this time. âI just⌠donât want to let anyone down, you know? The team, my professors, the coach, everyone expects me to be perfect.â
âWell, for what itâs worth,â you said gently maneuvering your wheelchair to the sofa, âI don't think youâre letting anyone down. Youâre doing your best, and thatâs more than enough.â
Heeseung let out a long breath, nodding slightly as he made space for you to sit down next to him. âThanks,â he muttered.
âIt's been a rough day for you too? If you are sitting in the wheelchair?â Heeseung asked, steering the conversation away from himself for a moment.
You hesitated for a moment before shrugging. âIâm just tired. Physioâs been rough lately, and I guess itâs catching up to me. My dadâs been extra⌠you know, âDadâ about it all.â
Heeseung hummed, understanding what you meant. The coach could be intense. You smiled faintly, though it didnât quite reach your eyes. You were quiet for a moment before speaking again, your tone a little more subdued. âItâs been rough. I try not to complain too much, but⌠todayâs just one of those days.â
He nodded, feeling a small pang in his chest. He wanted to ask more, to understand what exactly you were going through, but he didnât want to pry too much. Instead, he carefully asked a question that had been lingering in his mind since Soobin had mentioned it in passing. âI know this might be a bit personal, but... Soobin told me you used to play before the accident.â he said carefully, gauging your reaction. âI mean, with your family, it makes sense, but⌠I donât know. It mustâve been hard, having to stop.â
Your eyes flicked toward him, and for a moment, Heeseung wondered if heâd crossed a line. But then, to his surprise, you nodded. âYeah, it was,â you said quietly, your voice a little strained. âI did. I was on the ice all the time. It was my life, honestly. And then⌠well, then the accident happened.â You paused, seeming to gather your thoughts. Heeseung stayed silent, letting you continue at your own pace. âIt was a car accident. We were hit by a drunk driver,â you said, your voice tightening slightly, as you pull your uninjured leg towards your chest. âI-most of my left leg was jammed up and stuck in the wreck. And that was it. No more ice hockey. No more running around. Everything changed after that.â
âIâm so sorry,â Heeseung said softly, not really knowing what else to say. His heart clenched at your words. He could only imagine how hard it mustâve been for you, growing up in a family so deeply rooted in hockey, only to have that taken away after the accident. Heâd seen firsthand how strict and overprotective your dad could be.
You gave him a small, sad smile. âItâs okay. Iâve had a lot of time to come to terms with it. Doesnât mean itâs easy, though. I mean I was pretty lucky.â
Heeseung nodded, wanting to say something that would make it better, but knowing there were no magic words that could fix something like this.
You shrugged: "Itâs tough sometimes, but Iâm finding new things to love. Like, I never thought Iâd enjoy editing TikToks and running the teamâs social media, but itâs been fun.â
Heeseung smiled back at you, âWell, for what itâs worth, weâre all really glad youâre here,â he said sincerely. He was glad you were there but he wanted to kick himself for saying something as cringe as that.
You blinked, a small smile playing on your lips. âThanks, Heeseung.â
The two of you sat in silence for a moment, the weight of the conversation hanging between you, but it was a comfortable silenceâone that came from understanding, from knowing they didnât have to say everything all at once.
Finally, Heeseung broke the quiet. âAlright, Iâm gonna shut up and stop spoiling.â
You laughed softly, shaking your head. âThanks. But seriously, donât you dare spoil anything. Iâll never forgive you.â
Heeseung grinned, leaning back on the sofa, feeling a little lighter. âDeal."
"Coffee? Or hot chocolate?â
Heeseung looked up from his textbook, startled as you stood in front of him, holding out two cups. His brows furrowed, clearly confused. âI didnât ask forââ
âI know,â you cut him off quickly, setting the cups down beside him. âBut you looked like you needed it.â
He blinked at you, processing for a moment. âThanks,â Heeseung finally said, the corners of his mouth twitching into a small, relieved smile. âBut⌠why?â
You let out a breathy laugh, feeling a little more at ease now that he wasnât brushing you off. âLast night,â you said, shifting on your feet, âI figured I owed you something after you waited for me and drove me home even tho you were dead tired.â
Heeseung raised an eyebrow, taking the coffee cup from the table, but his expression softened. âYou didnât have to do that. I wasnât even that bothered.â
âI know,â you mumbled, âbut it felt like I should do something. To, you know, thank you.â
He took a sip, then paused, a playful look flashing across his face. âCoffeeâs fine.â He took a sip.â What would you have done if Iâd taken the hot chocolate?â He gave you a knowing smile. âI know you donât drink coffee.â
Your stomach dropped for a moment, and you tried not to look as flustered as you felt. How did he even know that? âWaitâhow did you...?â
Heeseungâs smile widened, leaning back in his chair like heâd just won something. âYou didnât think Iâd notice? You tend to bring tea or hot chocolate to the office. No matter how late.â
Your heart skipped a beat at that, and you looked away, feeling heat rise to your cheeks. You hadnât realized heâd paid that much attention. âIâwell, I wouldâve managed,â you replied, shrugging a little too nonchalantly. âBut Iâm glad you took the coffee because, yeah, I donât like it.â
Heeseung chuckled, his gaze lingering on you a little longer than usual. âWhat, you were really going to choke it down just to make me feel better?â
You gave him a half-hearted glare. âI was trying to be nice, okay?â
His laughter softened, his expression turning more gentle. âSure, the brave Y/N drinking coffee just for me.â
âHey!â, you hit him softly and tried to ignore how warm your cheeks felt. You were praying that your foundation did its job properly today.
Heeseung grinned, and the atmosphere between you shifted slightly, the playful teasing replaced with something more sincere. âWell, thanks for the coffee,â he said, his voice softer now.
You glanced at Heeseungâs open book, his pages cluttered with scribbled notes and highlighted passages. âYouâve been here a while, huh?â you asked, leaning forward to peek at his notes, feeling guilty for distracting him.
Heeseung sighed dramatically, rubbing the back of his neck. âYeah, midterms are killing me. Iâve been staring at this stuff for hours, but I swear, none of itâs sticking.â
You tilted your head, sympathizing. âI feel that. Econ made me want to throw my laptop out of my window yesterday and i had to resign to finish a episode of TWD. Are you done with the season?â
At that, Heeseungâs face brightened. âOh, I finished the last episode last night. I swear i didnât thinkââ
âIf you spoil it, I will fight you,â you interrupted, narrowing your eyes at him.
Heeseung burst into laughter, raising his hands in mock surrender. âOkay, okay, no spoilers! But seriously, you need to catch up soon. I want to know your reaction.â
You bit your lip, debating for a moment before offering, âWell... do you want to rewatch the last like 5 episodes? You could see my reactions in real time then?"
His eyes lit up at your suggestion, and you felt a flutter of excitement in your chest. âIâd love that! How about we do it tonight? I could whip up some snacks, and we can binge-watch the last few episodes.â
You hesitated, suddenly aware of how casual he was making it sound. âUh, yeah, but only if we actually study before we watch. I have a few things I want to get done today.â
âAbsolutely,â he agreed, nodding seriously, though a smile tugged at his lips.
The idea of going over to his place made your heart race a little faster. âAlright. Then Iâll see you later,â you said, glancing over at him once more, trying to ignore the warmth rising in your cheeks.
What was he thinking? Heeseung couldnât believe himself. He had invited you over and casually mentioned he could whip up some snacks?
After his last class of the day, he raced into his dorm, the realization hitting him like two hours too late. Jake and Jay were sprawled across the dinner table with their books and laptops, completely oblivious to the chaos about to unfold. Heeseung nearly slammed the entrance door against the wall as he burst in. âGuys, I might have messed up!â
Jake blinked a few times, confusion etched across his face. âWhat happened?â
âI invited Y/N over to watch The Walking Dead,â he said, sliding off his coat. âAnd I told her Iâd whip up some snacks. But our dorm is a disaster, and my room is even worse! She canât come over!â Panic surged through him.
Jay stifled a laugh, clearly enjoying the drama. âSo you want us to speed clean so you can impress the coachâs daughter?â
âYes!â Heeseung exclaimed, already kneeling down to pick up the shoes littering the entrance. âPlease, help a guy out. I canât let her see this place!â
âSure,â Jake said with a chuckle, standing up and grabbing the takeout boxes scattered around him. âOur dorm needs a cleaning session anyway. And honestly, Iâm so done with thermodynamics right now. If I see another heat transfer mode, I might bang my head into a wall hard enough to skip out the next semester. I am suffering.â
Jay joined in, a mischievous glint in his eyes. âIâll take the living room and vacuum. Hyung, just focus on your room. I think we have chips in the pantry, so just use that as a snack.â
âJay, youâre a genius. Thank you,â Heeseung said, practically sprinting to his room.
Once inside, he was greeted by the mess that was his room: clothes sprawled across the floor, bed, and desk, a collection of empty water bottles. On top of that, his hockey gear is spread all haphazardly around the room - gloves, sticks, and bags. He immediately began tackling the mess, grabbing clothes, checking which ones were clean which needed to be folded and put away. He picked up a discarded hockey glove and tossed it into a corner before realizing heâd have to deal with the smell somehow.
By the time he emerged from his room, he felt a sense of accomplishment. Sure, it wasnât perfect, but it was a hell of a lot better than what it had been. He glanced over at Jay, who was in the living room, vacuuming with an exaggerated flourish. Just that second the shrill noise of their doorbell pierced through the air.Â
You stood in front of Heeseungâs dorm building, your gaze drifting up toward the tall, sleek structure. The place looked expensiveânot surprising, given what you knew about his background. Heeseungâs parents were wealthy, and while you came from a comfortable home as well, this dorm definitely seemed a cut above.
As you approached the entrance, you felt a slight flutter of nerves you hadnât expected. Pressing the elevator button for the twelfth floor, you shifted your weight onto your good leg, adjusting your crutches slightly. You didnât really need your crutches anymore. Enough time has passed since your surgery for you to be able to walk only on your cast but you decided that going about your day and actually walking quite a bit was too much of a risk and took them with you anyway.
The ride up seemed to stretch on, giving you too much time to think. Over the past few weeks, you had grown used to Heeseung hanging out in your office, almost like it was his second home. Some days, he was already there when you finished your last class, quietly studying or taking notes. His presence had become a strange comfort, one that didnât bother you. If anything, it helped you stay focused. But thisâbeing invited into his spaceâfelt like a new step, one that made your heart race a little. When you reached his door, you hesitated for a second, taking a deep breath. You could hear muffled voices and the sound of something being moved around inside. Whatever nervousness you felt, you quickly pushed it aside before ringing the doorbell.
The door swung open almost immediately, and there stood Heeseung, his warm, easy smile greeting you. Behind him, you could see Jake lounging in the kitchen and Jay standing nearby, holding a vacuum cleaner.
âHi, Y/N!â Heeseung said, stepping aside to let you in, the others offering casual waves.
âHey,â you replied, carefully stepping inside with your crutches. The moment you entered, your eyes quickly took in the spaceâit was neat. Really neat. Surprisingly neat for a guyâs dorm.
Heeseung must have noticed the slight lift of your eyebrows because he scratched the back of his neck, chuckling softly. âYeah, uh⌠we did a little tidying up.â
âA little?â you echoed, amused as you glanced around again. âIâm impressed. I didnât think your dorm would be this... organized.â
Before Heeseung could respond, Jake snorted from across the room, biting into a chip. âYeah, sure. We always live this clean,â he said, his voice dripping with sarcasm, earning a pointed side-eye from Heeseung.
You laughed, the sound easing the last bit of tension in the room. âI didnât mean to make it sound like a dig. Itâs justâwell, Iâve seen my brotherâs room?â
âYouâre giving us too much credit,â Jay chimed in, leaning the vacuum against the wall.
Once you were in his room, you sat on the edge of the bed, noticing how tidy even his space was. The bed was made, his hockey gear wasnât strewn everywhere like Sobbing usually is, and the usual hockey player smell was faint, replaced with something cleaner. You caught a subtle hint of Heeseungâs familiar cologne, woody but fresh.
You moved to sit on the bed but hesitated, leaning on your good leg. âUh, mind if I sit? I donât want to mess up your bed with my outside clothes.â
Heeseung waved it off with a casual shrug. âI donât care about that. But if youâre worried about it, I can give you a pair of my joggers?â
You blinked, not really expecting that offer. âOh... uh, are you sure?â
âYeah, no big deal,â he said, already moving to his closet. He pulled out a pair of gray joggers and handed them to you with a smile. âHere, these should be comfy.â
You threw the joggers over your shoulder, feeling a bit strange but also kind of grateful. âThanks. Iâll be right back.â
After changing in the bathroom, you returned, feeling a little more at ease wearing his clothes, knowing you wouldn't mess his bed up with your outside clothing. You did care about that. The joggers hung low on your hips, the waistband slightly too big, but they were warm and comfortable. When you sat down on the bed, leaning back against the headboard, Heeseung flopped down next to you, pulling out his iPad. âAlright, letâs get some studying done before we watch anything, or Iâll never hear the end of it.â You laughed, pulling out your own notes, though your focus was already wandering. The smell of his freshly laundered sheets, mixed with his subtle cologne and aftershave, was distracting you almost as much as his presence next to you.
For the next hour, you both settled into study mode. Heeseung was focused on his music theory notes, occasionally mumbling something about chord progressions or sound mixing, while you triedâreally triedâto get through corporate governance. But after what felt like an eternity, your brain was officially fried. With a frustrated sigh, you tossed your notebook aside. âThis is impossible. I need help with this. Do you think Jayâs busy?â
Heeseung raised an eyebrow and chuckled. âHeâs probably still studying in the living room.â
You huffed and slid off the bed and made your way into the living room, where Jay was still hunched over his books. Jake had his headphones on, seemingly lost in his own world of equations.
âHey, Jay, can you help me with something? Corporate governance is killing me,â you asked, sliding into the seat beside him.
Jay looked up, grinning. âSure thing. What part are you stuck on?â
What was supposed to be a quick five-minute explanation stretched into ten, then fifteen. You had the gift to ask the right question to make everyone insecure in their explanations and answers and now Jay and you were confused. Great.
Eventually, you noticed Heeseung joining you. âYou guys still going at it?â he asked, pulling up a chair next to you. âWeâre just about done,â Jay said, pushing his notes aside.
Heeseung laughed. He settled in, flipping through his book, and soon enough, all four of you were studying together at the dinner table. It was surprisingly productive.
After a while, though, you leaned back in your chair, stretching your arms. âOkay, Iâm officially done. My brain canât take any more.â
Heeseung set his book aside, looking just as exhausted. âSame here. Ready for some TWD?â
You nodded eagerly, feeling that familiar excitement bubble up again. As much as you tried to play it cool, youâd been looking forward to this part all day. Annoying Lia during your shared class and Beomguy during your break about how excited you were.
Back in his room, you climbed onto the bed again, this time letting yourself sink fully into the pillows and pulling the blanket over yourself. As you did, you caught that same scent of Heeseungâs cologne again. The coolness of the evening was creeping in, and without thinking, you shifted closer to Heeseung, stealing a little more of the blanket. He glanced at you with a small smile but didnât say anything, his focus returning to the screen.
Heeseung shifted slightly on the bed, stretching his legs as the second episode ended. He turned his head to ask you if you wanted to start another one, but when he glanced over, his breath hitched.
You were fast asleep.
For a moment, Heeseung just stared, not quite sure what to do. You had curled up against the pillows, still wrapped in his blanket, one arm tucked under your head. His heart skipped a beat.
You looked so peaceful. He didnât want to move or make any noise that might wake you. Heeseung swallowed nervously and tugged at his own shirt collar, feeling a little too aware of everything suddenlyâhis breathing, the quiet hum of the room, the weight of the blanket. What was he supposed to do? Wake you up? Ask if you wanted to go back home? In a flash of pure panic, he grabbed his phone and opened up a text to Soobin.
Heeseung Hey man, Y/N fell asleep at my place. Is it cool if she stays over? I donât want to wake her up.
Heeseung bit his lip, waiting for a reply, his eyes darting between the screen and your sleeping form. You looked so calm, your breathing steady, you looked so soft. It made his chest tighten in a way he didnât quite understand. He wasnât used to this, if he had girls over it wasnât for watching TV Shows, nor did they just fall asleep.Â
A soft buzz broke his thoughts as Soobin replied.
Soobin Hyung (New) Sheâs an adult, dude. Iâll let my parents know sheâs sleeping over, though. Just tell her she owes me for covering for her.
Heeseung exhaled a sigh of relief, slumping back against the headboard. At least he didnât have to deal with the wrath of an angry captain tonight. He stared at your peaceful face again, and a small smile tugged at his lips. You really were out cold. Carefully, he shifted closer, trying to tuck the blanket more securely around you without disturbing your sleep. He sent a quick thank you text to Soobin.
Heeseung tried to get comfortable, though he couldnât ignore the fact that his heart was beating a little faster than usual. He was overthinking every tiny movement, wondering if shifting just a little might accidentally wake you up. Glancing over at you, the rise and fall of your chest was slow and steady, and he felt that strange, unfamiliar warmth in his chest again. He had no idea what to do with it. You were just there, peacefully sleeping, wrapped in his blanket, wearing his joggers, and somehow that made the moment feel more significant than it should. It wasnât supposed to feel like this. You were off limits. He shifted a little closer to the edge of the bed, carefully trying to give you more space without disturbing you. His phone buzzed on the nightstand. He reached for it, worried that it might be your brother again, but when he checked, it was just a message from Jake into their groupchat.
Puckin' Legends and Sunghoon Jakey Jakey So? Howâs the TV date going hyung Jeongsongie You owe us for cleaning the dorm in record speed. I dont think i ever vacuumed so quickly? Heeseung She fell asleep?? She is so cute tho But thanks for the help. Dorm looks way better now. And donât call it a TV date?? We were literally studying before this.
He didnât really mind the teasingânot anymore. At first, when theyâd made comments about him spending a bit too much time with the coaches daughter, heâd felt awkward. But now, with you lying beside him, snuggled up under his blanket, he couldnât bring himself to care. His phone buzzed again.
Hoon I still cannot believe you try to bag your coaches daughter. Jakey Jakey I donât think the coach can believe it either Jeongsongie I cant believe how gone he is for her??? Did anyone read the she is so cute????
Heeseung rolled his eyes but smiled anyway, setting his phone down without replying. He wasnât about to engage in that conversation right now. The soft light from the TV illuminated your face just enough for him to see. The way youâd tucked your hand under your cheek, your hair falling slightly over your faceâit was⌠cute. His mind wandered back to earlier, to the way youâd laughed at his teasing or the look of concentration on your face while studying. You had a way of being fully in the moment, and it made him want to stay in those moments with you for as long as possible.
Heeseung closed his eyes, knowing that sleep wasnât going to come easy, not when his brain was buzzing with thoughts of you. He took one more look at you, tucked under his blanket, your crutches leaning against the wall in the corner of his room.Â
You stirred awake, the room dark except for the dim glow of the TV screen that had long since gone idle, casting soft shadows around you. It took a second to remember where you were: Heeseungâs room. His bed. The blanket wrapped around you wasnât yours. For a split second, panic roseâshit. You fell asleep in Heeseungâs bed? What time was it? How long had you been out? You turned slightly, glancing at Heeseung. He was still sitting next to you, back against the headboard, his eyes closed. You wondered if he had fallen asleep too. Rubbing your face in exhaustion, you felt a rush of embarrassment. This was the first time you were ever over at his place, and you had fallen asleep? Well done, Y/N. Truly.
Glancing at his dimly glowing alarm clock, you realized it was way past midnight. You tried shifting slightly, hoping to find a more comfortable position, but your leg wasnât cooperating. Every attempt to adjust it left you either more uncomfortable or closer to waking Heeseung. Eventually, you gave in, trying to reposition your injured leg one last time. However, the slight rustling of the blanket stirred Heeseung beside you, his eyes fluttering open. For a moment, he looked confused, as if heâd forgotten where he was too.
âY/N?â His voice was low and heavy with sleep, but still warm. He blinked a few times, trying to focus on you. âYou okay?â
You bit your lip, feeling a little guilty for waking him. âYeah, sorry. My leg just⌠wonât get comfortable.â
He shifted beside you, rubbing his eyes. His hair was messier now, and his face carried the remnants of sleep. âWant me to help? Or⌠do you need a pillow or something?â
You shook your head, adjusting the blanket around you. âNo, itâs fine.â
His expression softened, a small smile tugging at his lips. âNow I know why you need half an eternity to finish the season. You knocked out pretty hard after just two episodes,â he said softly, his voice slightly hoarse from sleep.
You laughed quietly, feeling a little embarrassed. âYeah, I guess I did. Sorry about that.â
âNo, donât apologize,â he said quickly, his voice warm. âI didnât want to wake you. You seemed really comfortable.â Comfortable. You were. Too comfortable, honestly. You glanced down at the blanket wrapped tightly around you, feeling a strange warmth in your chest.
âDid I miss much?â you asked, your voice still quiet.
âNah, just the end of the episode,â Heeseung replied, glancing at the TV. âYou didnât miss anything important. I was going to ask if you wanted to watch another one, but, uhâŚâ
âBut I was out cold,â you finished for him, chuckling.
âExactly.â
There was a pause, a soft, almost peaceful silence hanging between you. You didnât want to move. You didnât want to leave the comfort of his bed, his blanket, or this moment. You could feel his presence next to you, his arm brushing yours slightly as you both sat there. âSoâŚâ you began, hesitating for a moment. âI should probably get going.â
Heeseung didnât say anything right away. He shifted slightly, and you thought you caught a flicker of something in his expression, but it was gone too quickly to tell.
âYou donât have to,â he said, his voice careful. âI mean, if youâre comfortable here, itâs late⌠Also, Soobinâs got you covered. He said your parents will survive you crashing here for the night.â
You raised an eyebrow at him. âYou texted Soobin?â
Heeseungâs smile was sheepish. âI didnât want your parents to freak out when you didnât show up. So yeah, I let him know. He said youâre an adult but added that heâd let them know youâre safe.â
You sighed, a mix of gratitude and amusement rising in your chest. âThanks, Heeseung. Really.â
He shrugged, his easy smile still in place. âAnytime. I just figured I should let someone know.â
You began to move out of your blanket burrito,âIâll migrate to the sofa then! I donât want to hog your bed. You have training tomorrow and you should get some proper sleep before then!â
His gaze shifted to you, a little more serious now. âHell no. If youâre gonna stay, you are going to sleep here. If you feel uncomfortable I can go to the sofa.â
You blinked at him, surprised by his casual offer. âIâm not kicking you out of your own bed,â you protested, even as part of you was tempted.
Heeseung tilted his head, his eyes soft and teasing. âThen Iâm not going anywhere, Y/N. Just scoot over, and Iâll lie down too. We can both be comfortable.â
A beat of silence passed as you considered it, but then you nodded, scooting over to give him room. Your heart pounded just a little harder as you adjusted yourself, settling more comfortably against the pillows. Heeseung shifted too, lying down on his side, facing you. The bed suddenly felt smaller than it had moments ago, the space between you somehow feeling both large and almost nonexistent.
âBetter?â he asked, his voice soft as he looked at you.
You nodded. âYeah. Much better.â
For a moment, neither of you said anything. You found yourself more aware of everythingâthe blanket, the smell of Heeseungâs cologne lingering in the air, and the soft, even rhythm of his breathing.
âGood,â Heeseung murmured, his eyes closing again.âJust⌠wake me up if you need anything, okay?â
You smiled softly, watching as his breathing slowed, his expression relaxed as sleep pulled him back under. It was strange, this feeling of being so comfortable, of having someone care enough to make sure you were okay. You could not believe what was happening right now but you were also too tired to think about it right now. So you just closed your eyes again, the weight of the day and the warmth of the moment making it easier to drift off. And as sleep began to claim you once more, you felt a quiet contentment settle in your chest.Â
The sun was barely beginning to rise as Heeseung wiped the sweat off his brow, the air in the rink still heavy with the lingering chill of the early morning. Their training session had just wrapped up, and the team was scattered around the locker room, chatting and peeling off their gear. Heeseung sat on a bench, untying his skates when he felt someone approach.
âSoobin.â Heeseung looked up, surprised to see your older brother standing in front of him with a serious expression.
âWe need to talk,â Soobin said, his tone calm but firm. Heeseung immediately sensed that something was up and he straightened up, suddenly more alert. Soobin didnât usually pull him aside like this, and the shift in his demeanor was hard to miss. Heeseungâs heart rate quickened, but he kept his face neutral, unsure of where this conversation was going. He stood, following Soobin outside to a quieter part of the rink, away from the rest of the team.
Once they were alone, Soobin crossed his arms, his eyes narrowing slightly as he met Heeseungâs gaze. âYou're gonna tell me whatâs going on between you and Y/N?â Soobin asked, voice stern but not hostile.
The question hit Heeseung like a puck to the chest (pun intended), and for a moment, he didnât know what to say. Scratch that he knew what he wanted to say but saying it out loud made it too real.
He thought about the evenings spent in your office, long after practice had ended, when the rink was quiet, and it was just the two of you. Most nights, it started with something simpleâyou finishing up work while he lingered, not really wanting to go back to the dorm. You would end up on the sofa in your office, talking about everything and nothing at the same time.
He could picture how you would sit, your back nestled into the corner of the sofa, one knee pulled up to your chest while the other, still recovering, rested comfortably across his lap. You were so casual about it, as if it was the most natural thing in the world to drape your leg over him like that. And somehow, it was. You would chat for hours sometimes, and he found himself looking forward to those nights more than he ever admitted. Seeing the way your eyes lit up when you got excited about something, or the way your lips quirked into a small smile when you said something you thought was clever. There was a comfort between the two of you that made everything else fade into the background.
On days where your physiotherapist, whom you claim to love with all of your heart, went a bit harder on you leaving you exhausted and in pain he would be trying his best to cheer you up a bit. You never complained but he could tell. Your leg would stiffen up, and you would move with a slight limp, your jaw tight as you tried to brush it off like it was nothing. He remembered the first time he noticed itâhow you had tried to hide the discomfort, laughing off his concern with some joke about how you have âhad worse.â Without thinking, he had reached out and placed his hand on your leg, gently massaging the tense muscles. You hadnât said anything at first, but you didnât pull away either. Instead, you had leaned back into the cushions, closing your eyes for a brief moment, as if allowing yourself to relax in his presence.
That morning, when he got up for training, you had still been there, your hair spilling over the pillow in soft waves. He had whispered for you to stay, to sleep in and leave whenever you wanted, and a small part of him had hoped that when he returned, youâd still be in his bed.
Soobin waited, his eyes narrowing slightly. âHeeseung, donât make me ask twice.â
But what was he supposed to say to Soobin? You were his sister. He couldnât risk saying the wrong thing, especially not when he was still trying to figure it all out himself.
âNothingâs going on,â Heeseung replied, though even as he said it, he knew it sounded weak. âI mean, weâre friends.â
Soobinâs jaw clenched, clearly unsatisfied. "Friends, huh? Because from where Iâm standing, it seems like thereâs more to it than just being friends. And donât give me that ânothingâs going onâ line. Iâm not stupid, Heeseung."
Heeseung swallowed. Soobin wasnât the kind of guy to be brushed off easily. He shifted uncomfortably, running a hand through his damp hair. âIâŚâ He started, his voice a little shaky, but he forced himself to meet Soobinâs eyes. âI think I like her. A lot, actually.â
Soobinâs eyes narrowed, and Heeseung felt his heart rate spiking. âYou think? Or you know?â
âI know,â Heeseung admitted, his voice more certain now. âI like her more than just a friend, Soobin. Iâve liked her for a while. Itâs not justâŚâ He paused, searching for the right words, trying to explain how he felt about you. âItâs not just some fling or whatever. Itâs⌠more. Or at least for me it is.â
There. Heâd said it. It wasnât like he hadnât thought about it beforeâhow his feelings for you had slowly shifted, deepening with each shared moment, every lingering glance, every time he found himself thinking about you when he wasnât supposed to. But saying it out loud and not just gushing to his friends about you made it real in a way that he wasnât fully prepared for.
Soobin stayed silent for a long moment, his gaze hard but thoughtful. Heeseungâs stomach twisted. But when Soobin spoke again, his voice was calmer, though still edged with that protective tone.
âLook, I get it,â Soobin said slowly, his gaze locked on Heeseungâs. âY/N⌠sheâs been through a lot. You know that. The last thing she needs is someone messing with her heart. So if youâre not serious about her, if youâre just playing around or youâre not sure what you want, you need to back off. Because if you hurt her, Heeseung⌠I swearââ
âIâm not going to hurt her,â Heeseung interrupted, his voice firm, surprising even himself with the certainty of his own words. âI would never do that, Soobin.â, his chest tightening at the thought of hurting you. âI wouldnât. I wonât. I just⌠I donât want to complicate things for her. But I canât help how I feel.â
Soobin stared at him for a long moment, as if weighing the truth of his words. Finally, he let out a small sigh, the tension easing slightly from his shoulders. âI believe you,â he said, though there was still a note of caution in his tone. âBut Iâm warning youâif you break her heart, youâll answer to me.â
Heeseung nodded, knowing that Soobin meant every word. And honestly, he couldnât blame him. If the roles were reversed, if he were in Soobinâs shoes, he wouldâve done the same thing.
As Soobin walked back toward the locker room, Heeseung let out a breath he didnât realize heâd been holding.Â
With a sigh, Heeseung headed back inside, his skates dangling loosely from his fingers. As he stepped into the locker room, his mind wandered back to his dorm. He wondered if you were still there, still curled up in his bed like you had been when he left. You were probably already gone, but a small part of him hoped you were still there.
âA little bird told me you didnât return home last night,â Beomgyu teased as he plopped down into the empty seat next to you in the library, dropping his hockey gear with a soft thud. He had no trouble finding you among the maze of bookshelves and antique paintings - you were in your usual spot, struggling through an international law essay. You looked up and sighed, already bracing yourself for his relentless teasing.
âI didnât,â you admitted, rolling your eyes. âDid that little bird also tell you I fell asleep after studying and watching, like, one and a half episodes of The Walking Dead? Or did he conveniently forget to mention that part?â You knew exactly who the âlittle birdâ wasâyour brother.
âHe did mention that, actually,â Beomgyu smirked, shaking his damp hair free from his hat. âBut I have to say, Iâm a little disappointed.â He leaned in closer, lowering his voice dramatically. âYou had the perfect opportunity to get something going with,â he paused for effect, âa hot guy that Yeonjun hyung, Soobin hyung, and I fully approve ofâand you did nothing? And donât give me the âIâm not interested in Heeseungâ excuse. I know all about your little evening sessions in your office.â
Your face heated up at the mention of Heeseung, but you quickly dismissed it. âWeâre just friends, Gyu. Friends,â you emphasized. âWhen he comes to my office, weâre actually studying. Itâs peaceful there, no one interrupts us.â You crossed your arms, trying to hide the sudden, unwelcome flutter in your chest.
âSure, sure,â Beomgyu grinned, clearly not buying it. âBut you slept over. Thatâs new.â
You sighed, glancing back at your laptop. âI slept over because I fell asleep. He had to get up early for practice, so he let me sleep in. When I woke up, he was already gone. It was no big deal.â You said it like you were reminding yourself more than Beomgyuâbecause it wasnât a big deal, right? You were just comfortable around Heeseung. Thatâs all.
âUh-huh. Sure, it wasnât a big deal,â Beomgyu leaned back, clearly enjoying himself. âJake and Jay werenât exactly quiet about it during practice this morning. And now the entire team, including your dad, knows about your âsleepover.â Your dad wasnât thrilled, by the way. Might want to prepare for an awkward conversation later.â
You groaned, letting your head fall onto the old wooden desk with a soft thud. âOf course heâd freak out. How is he so worried about me being lonely but still loses his shit whenever Iâm near a guy?â You turned your head to the side, pouting.
Beomgyu patted your head sympathetically. âYour dadâs a scary guy. I canât help you there. But seriously, are you sure youâre not into Heeseung?â
You straightened up, an annoyed huff escaping your lips. âIâm not interested in Heeseung like that,â you insisted, though your mind betrayed you with memories of how youâd felt waking up in his bed this morning. The way the sheets still held his warmth, how his cologne lingered faintly in the air... But no. It wasnât like that. You had just fallen asleep while watching TV, thatâs all. It wasnât a date. Just two friends watching a show, nothing more.
Beomgyu wasnât buying it. âIâm just saying, you spend a lot of time with him. Almost every other night, actually. And donât even get me started on the way he naps in your office all the time. That sofa is supposed to be my personal napping spot.â
âI mean, first come, first serve,â you shot back, forcing a lighthearted tone. âYeonjunâs slept on that couch plenty of times too.â
âYeah, but I donât see you staying over at Yeonjunâs place,â Beomgyu countered with a sly grin. âFace it, youâre into Heeseung.â
You narrowed your eyes at him, but inside, his words echoed. You and Heeseung had gotten close, yes. Maybe closer than youâd expected. But that didnât mean anything, right? You were just... comfortable around him. There was nothing more to it.
âGyu, Iâm really not interested in dating right now,â you said, turning back to your laptop in an attempt to end the conversation. âI just want to get this essay done. Jay and Lia asked me to proofread theirs, and I wonât have time if I donât finish today.â
Beomgyu rolled his eyes, leaning back in his chair dramatically. âSure, keep telling yourself that. But Iâm keeping an eye on you two.â
âOh no, Iâm so scared,â you laughed, shaking your head. âNow, can I please focus on this essay?â
He raised his hands in mock surrender. âFine, fine. But donât think this conversation is over. Iâm just getting started.â You managed to ignore Beomgyuâs incessant teasing for a while, but the fluttering thoughts about Heeseung kept creeping back in, much to your annoyance. It was like a small nagging voice in the back of your mind, whispering things you didnât want to hear. Things like how nice it was that he let you stay in his bed, how considerate it was of him to slip out quietly in the morning so you could sleep in, and how warm his side of the bed had felt when you rolled over into it. Stop it, you mentally scolded yourself.
It didnât mean anything.
Right?
Nope. No. Stop. You shook your head slightly, forcing yourself to focus. You had way too much going on to be distracted by feelingsâor whatever this was. The coming weeks were packed with deadlines, presentations, and a social media campaign for the team that was eating up all your free time. Not to mention the upcoming games, which meant more PR work for you. You didnât have time to analyze whatever was happening between you and Heeseung. Not that there was anything to analyze.
The final whistle echoed through the arena, and you were still trying to process what had just happened. Heeseung had scored the winning goal - on his birthday, no less. The crowd roared, players rushed onto the ice, and you could barely keep your camera steady as you captured the celebrations for the teamâs social media. But your thoughts were still stuck on the way Heeseung had glanced up into the stands after scoring. Pointing at you. Dedicating the goal to technically the teams fans. Heâd joked with you before the game that it would be perfect PR if the âbirthday boyâ scored the winning goal.Â
You stood in front of the changing rooms, waiting for the boys to finish up after the game. The arena was still buzzing from the victoryâHeeseungâs last-second, game-winning goal had the whole place on fire. You could hear the muffled celebrations from behind the door, the playersâ laughter and shouts of excitement as they reveled in their win.
You leaned against the wall, absentmindedly scrolling through your phone as you waited for them to emerge. But before you could even think about your next move, the door to the changing room swung open, and Beomgyu poked his head out.
âY/N!â he exclaimed, his grin as mischievous as ever. âCome on, get in here!â
Before you could protest, he gently pushed you into the locker room. The smell of sweat hit you all at once, and the noise of the playersâ post-game celebrations was deafening. The boys were in various stages of undressâsome half-naked, some wrapped in towels, others already pulling on their post-game clothes. You hesitated at the entrance, suddenly feeling a little out of place.
âUh, Iâm not really supposed to be in here -â you started, but Beomgyu waved you off.
âNonsense! Youâre part of the team too,â he said, nudging you further inside. âBesides, someoneâs gotta document Heeseungâs birthday win for the fans, right?â
You smiled at his enthusiasm, but your attention was quickly diverted to Heeseung himself, who was standing by his locker, shirtless, toweling off his hair. Your eyes involuntarily scanned over him, taking in the toned muscles of his chest, the curve of his collarbones, the way the light from the overhead lamps cast soft shadows across his skin. He was talking to one of the other players, a relaxed smile on his face, but you couldnât help but be distracted by the way his shoulders flexed as he moved, the muscles in his back rippling as he dried off. Fuck. You caught yourself staring and quickly averted your gaze, your face growing warm. Get a grip, you scolded yourself.
âWatch out Y/N. You are about to drool.â Beomgyu teased, suddenly reappearing at your side. His grin was knowing, and you could tell he hadnât missed the way your eyes had lingered on Heeseung.
âShut up,â you muttered, elbowing him lightly in the ribs. Beomgyu just chuckled. âDonât worry, your secretâs safe with me.â
You rolled your eyes, but your heart was still racing. You glanced back at Heeseung, only to find that he was already looking at you. His dark eyes locked onto yours, and for a moment, the world around you seemed to fade away. The noise of the locker room, the boysâ laughter, even Beomgyuâs teasing all became background noise as you held his gaze. There was something in the way he was looking at you, something warm and intense that made your breath catch.
A slow, almost shy smile tugged at the corner of Heeseungâs lips, and you felt your stomach flip again. You suddenly felt like you couldnât stand still, like you needed to move, do something to break the intensity of the moment. But before you could, Heeseung looked away, returning to his conversation with a teammate, breaking eye contact.
After a while, the players finished up and started getting dressed, and you slipped out of the changing room, glad to have a moment to collect yourself. The victory high carried on as the team headed to a nearby bar to celebrate. You tagged alongâPR duties and all. Your original plan was to go back to your and Soobins Hotel room to study a bit but Yeonjun threatened to spoil the end of Prison Break if you wouldnât tag along. That and the fact that Heeseung had his arms around your shoulder in such an aggravating casual way as soon as he came out of the locker and was pouting when you told him about your study plans was pretty convincing. Heeseung kept finding excuses to be near you even after you left the rink. Every time you looked up, he was thereâhanding you a drink, making a joke, his arm bushing yours as he leaned in to talk.
You found yourself glancing at him more often, watching the way his lips curved when he laughed, the way his eyes crinkled at the corners when he smiled. But every time you tried to be subtle about it, youâd catch him already looking at you, making your pulse quicken and your cheeks rosy red. He would lower his head slightly, his eyes being hidden behind his hair and smirking at you until you couldn't take it any longer and the intense broke eye contact, blushing like a little school girl.Â
You were sitting at a booth with some of the players when Beomgyu sidled up to you, a mischievous grin already in place.
âSo⌠birthday boy scores the winning goal and dedicates it to you? Thatâs a bit more than a coincidence, donât you think?â His eyes twinkled with amusement.
You rolled your eyes, trying to play it off. âIt was just a joke, Beomgyu. Heeseung was dedicating it to the fans, not me.â You were praying that the noise around you was loud enough for Soobin, Yeonjun and Jay to not hear what the two of you were talking about.
Beomgyu leaned in closer, his voice dropping to a conspiratorial whisper. âCome on, Y/N. Weâve all seen the way he looks at you. Itâs not just a joke.â
Your face flushed, warmth creeping up your neck. âYouâre ridiculous.â
âAnd youâre in denial,â he shot back, leaning back in his seat and giving you a smug look. âIâm just saying - maybe itâs time to stop pretending.â
You tried to brush it off, but his words lingered. You have been telling yourself that you were imagining things and that you were a bit delusional when thinking about Heeseung - not talking, hell your friends cannot know about your little crush - but maybe just maybe did Beomgyu have a point. Â
Heeseung slid in next to you, and immediately, you felt the heat of his body radiating toward you. He was so close, not closer than usual, but you could smell the faint hint of his cologneâsomething warm and woodsy that made your head swim a little. You liked it a little too much, and you had to fight the urge to lean in closer, to let yourself get lost in the warmth of his presence. Like you have done on his bed plenty of times in the last weeks during your strictly friendly studying-and-binge-watching-not-dates-dates that sometimes turn into sleepovers. (Yes, you have your own toothbrush at his place and a designated set of PJs. And yes, in hindsight you are a lost causes and Beomgyu has been right about everything but you would never tell him that.)
As you sipped your drink, trying to keep your thoughts in check, Soobinâs gaze was on you, watchful and a little too knowing. You could feel his eyes darting between you and Heeseung. It made you even more self-conscious, and you prayed Heeseung didnât notice. When Heeseung put one of his hands on your thigh while talking, Soobin looked like he was ready to punch his captain in the face. Yeonjun shot Soobin a look and discreetly elbowed him in the ribs.
âRelax, man,â he muttered under his breath, though you heard it clearly.
You silently thanked Yeonjun for the intervention, but you still couldnât shake the nervous energy building up inside you. You kept your focus on the conversation, laughing along with the others, but the whole time, all you could think about was the way Heeseungâs leg was pressed against yours under the table, the steady heat of his body next to you, his hand on your thigh and his thumb that started caressing it slightly. The skin under his hand was tingling.
The way back to your hotel felt significantly longer than the way there. You were busy giggling together with Jake about a dumb joke Jay made while walking rather slowly towards your hotel. Having had one or two drinks while relying on crutches may have not been the best idea.
âI donât want to go to sleep yet,â you pouted as you squeezed into the elevator with the others, leaning your head against Jayâs shoulder. Heeseung and Jake swayed as they stepped into the cramped space, followed by a few of the other players and their girlfriends.
âI swear I am out as soon as my head hits the pillowâ, Jay yawned and patted your head causing you to giggle.
You giggled. âOhhh,â you teased, fake pouting, âyou didnât get your nap today! Poor Jay must be exhausted.â
âHa, ha,â Jay replied dryly, grabbing Jakeâs arm as the latter swayed dangerously. âMight I remind you that I played a phenomenal game today? Thatâs exhausting, you know.â
âSure, Park,â you said with mock seriousness, lips pursed as you nodded.
At your floor, you bid the boys a quick goodnight and shuffled toward your room. Inside, Soobin was standing in the middle of the room clad in nothing but boxer shorts, toothbrush in hand, his mouth full of foam. He turned to you with a confused expression.
âWhaf are you doinâ hewe?â he mumbled around his toothbrush, his words muffled as foam threatened to dribble from the corner of his lips.
âWhat do you mean?â you asked, flopping onto your bed and ignoring the fact that you were still wearing your outside clothing âWeâre sharing this room, remember?â
Soobin rolled his eyes and ducked into the bathroom, his voice muffled as he spit into the sink. âYeah, but I thought you were going to give Hee his present?â
You blinked, sitting up. âOh. I was thinking Iâd do it tomorrow or maybe next week. Didnât want to give it to him in front of everyone.â
Soobin emerged from the bathroom, drying his face with a towel, water droplets scattered across his chest and shoulders. âNo. Do it today. Itâs his birthday. Iâm sure heâd appreciate some one-on-one time with you.â
You froze for a second. You werenât entirely sure how Soobin was thinking about whatever was going on between you and his friend and captain, but you hadnât expected him to ask about Heesung. Especially after the glare he had sent Heeseungâs way at the bar. âI mean, I already talked to him and said happy birthdayâŚâ you muttered, trying to brush it off.
âY/N.â Soobin said flatly, crossing his arms, âGo downstairs and give him your present and spend some time with him. You have my official blessing. Just be careful.â
âI-You-What?â, you gawked at him,, feeling your face flush.
âDo you really think i am that stupid?â, Soobin asked with a shake of his head, grinning at you, âYou look at him the same way you did look at your Taemin poster. All heart eyes. It's almost embarrassing.â
Your jaw dropped as his words sank in, your face now fully flushed. âSoobin, thatâs notââ
âY/N,â he interrupted, tossing the towel onto a chair, âjust go.â
Ten minutes later you found yourself standing in front of Heeseungs hotel room door, your heart pounding in your chest as you worked up the nerve to knock. When he opened the door, already clad in his pyjama pants only, his hair messy, his eyes widened in surprise, but a slow smile spread across his face.
âY/N,â he said, stepping aside to let you in. âWhatâs up?â You held out the small box in your hands, feeling a bit shy and honestly still a bit embarrassed. You did not give Heeseung herat eyes. Those were for Taemin and Taemin only. âI, uh, got you something. For your birthday.â You were looking into his face and tried to ignore that he was standing there half naked.
Heeseung raised an eyebrow, clearly intrigued. âYou didnât have to do that,â he said softly, but he was already reaching for the gift.
âJust open it,â you insisted, your heart beating faster as you watched him unwrap the small package.
âCome in first.â, he ushered you inside and closed the door behind you.
Heeseungâs fingers carefully peeled away the colorful wrapper, his eyes flickering between you and the small box in his hands. He laughed slightly when he saw the packaging and you couldnât help but smile. He was holding a Sonny Angel dinosaur special edition box you had Soobin buy a few days earlier when he went to the mall. When Heeseung finally opened up the small plastic bag and revealed the figurine inside, his eyes widened in disbelief. It was the red dinosaur.
âNo way,â he breathed, turning the figure over in his hands, a wide grin breaking across his face. âIs this the one you wanted?â
âYeah,â you replied, your voice soft. âIâve been trying to get it forever, but I guess it was meant for you.â Heeseungâs eyes lit up, but he didnât say anything for a moment, just staring at the small figure, his smile never fading. Then, his gaze lifted to meet yours. The way he looked at you had your heart racing in a concerning way.
âI offer one red dinosaur for a pink one. This one fits you better anyway. And the pink one would have a cozy home in my locker.â he said, his voice low.
You just laughed softly and nodded, âSure scary captain. It will be honored to live in your stinky locker.â The soft glow of the bedside lamp cast shadows across his face, highlighting the curve of his jaw, the warmth in his eyes.
Over the past two months, youâd come to realize that yes, Heeseung was undeniably hot and effortlessly charming, but there was something about him with messy hair and a sleepy smile that completely stole your heart.
âThank you,â he said, breaking the silence, his voice still soft. âReally, this is... it means a lot.â
You smiled, trying to steady your heartbeat. âYouâre welcome,â you breathed out.
Heeseung set the figure on the nightstand beside his bed, then turned back to you, his gaze lingering on your face. âI still canât believe you got me the dinosaur,â he said, his voice a little lighter now, though his eyes were still on you, unreadable but intense.
You chuckled, trying to shake off the nerves fluttering in your stomach. âI had no idea it was in there,â you admitted, glancing at the little red figure on his nightstand. âBut Iâm glad it was. Birthday luck, I guess.â
Heeseung nodded, his smile softening. âYeah, I guess so.â He hesitated for a moment, then shifted on the bed, patting the space next to him. âWanna sit? Iâll put on Prison Break.â
You blinked, feeling your heartbeat pick up again, but you nodded, moving to sit beside him on the bed. The mattress dipped slightly under your weight, and you could feel the warmth of his body close to yours as he grabbed the remote and queued up an episode.
As the show began to play, you tried to focus on the screen, but it was hard with Heeseung so close. His arm brushed against yours as he settled in, and the faint scent of his cologne lingered in the air between you. You tried to keep your breathing steady, but the heat radiating from him was impossible to ignore, your skin tingling wherever you felt his presence.
Your heart thudded in your chest, and as the minutes passed, you felt yourself relax just slightly, letting the comforting hum of the TV and the warmth of Heeseung beside you lull you into a calm state. You tried to focus on the show, but your mind kept drifting back to him. The longer you sat there, the more aware you became of just how close he was, has been the whole evening. His thigh and arm was touching yours, you could feel the subtle rise and fall of his chest with every breath. You glanced at him out of the corner of your eye, catching the way his features softened in the dim light, his attention half on the screen and half... somewhere else.
Just then, he turned his head, his eyes meeting yours, and the intensity in his gaze made your breath catch. For a moment, neither of you moved.
Your pulse quickened as his gaze flickered down to your lips for just a second, then back up to your eyes again. You swallow, your throat suddenly dry, your heart pounding in your chest. Heeseungâs lips parted as if he was about to say something, but the words never came. Instead, he just stared at you, his expression unreadable. The only sound in the room was the faint murmur of the TV in the background, but even that felt distant now, drowned out by the pounding of your heartbeat in your ears. Your breath hitched in your throat as Heeseung shifted again, just slightly, his knee brushing against yours under the blanket to reach up and tuck one of your hair strands that fell out of your braid behind your ear. His hand grazed your cheek slightly and you were sure he could not only see but also feel how warm your face grew under his intense gaze.
The moment stretched on, the air thick with tension, and for a second, you were sure he would lean down and kiss you. But instead of closing the distance, he just smiledâsoft, almost teasingâand turned his attention back to the screen.
You blinked, trying to calm yourself, not sure if you were just imagining things or not. You nodded slightly, attempting to focus on the show again, but your thoughts still whirled, your heartbeat loud in your ears. Minutes passed, and slowly, you began to feel tired. The weight of the dayâwatching the game, the excitement of the win, the celebration afterwardâbegan to settle in. You could feel your eyelids growing heavier by the second. Your head involuntarily tilted toward Heeseung, resting lightly against his shoulder. You froze for a moment, worried youâd overstepped, but he didnât move or say anything. Instead, he shifted around a bit. His arm was now fully pressed against yours, and the quiet rise and fall of his chest was soothing.
You let out a small breath, letting your body relax, the exhaustion of the day catching up with you. The steady sound of the TV mixed with the warmth of Heeseung beside you, lulling you into a daze. You could hear the faint murmur of the characters on screen, but your focus was completely on the steady rhythm of his breathing, the comforting thrum of his presence beside you.
Just as your eyes fluttered shut, you felt Heeseung shift again, his arm lifting slightly, as if hesitating. Then, gently, his arm rested behind you on the bed, his hand barely brushing your shoulder. And as you drifted further into sleep, your head nestled against his chest, the last thing you felt was Heeseungâs fingers gently brushing the edge of your arm. Yeah. Beomgyu was definitely right. This might be more than just a little crush.
The night had already been one big adrenaline rush. It was the final day of the midterms week and Heeseung and his teammates had just won another game earlier in the evening, so the hockey team came into the swimming teamâs Halloween party riding the high of their victory.
Heeseung wasnât usually the frat party type, but after a win, he didnât mind letting loose a little. He had already knocked back a couple of drinks with his teammates, and the tipsy warmth was settling in his body. He mingled with the crowd, greeting friends and teammates, celebrating their victory. Jeongin had been bragging about his game-winning goal to anyone who would listen, while Jake and Jay were deep in conversation with some girls dressed as cats. Heeseung had been enjoying himself too, wandering around, chatting here and there.
But then he saw you.
You werenât hard to spotâhow could you be when you were dressed like that? Heeseung blinked, not sure if it was the alcohol, the lighting, or maybe a mix of both, but you looked... really good. No, scratch that, you looked hot. You were wearing a vampire costume that hugged your curves in ways heâd never quite allowed him to notice before. The dark lipstick and fake fangs were surprisingly fitting, and the way the red fabric of your dress shimmered under the lights made it hard not to stare.
The crowd shifted, and suddenly you were right in front of him, your face lighting up in drunken enthusiasm as soon as you recognized him. "Heeseung!" you called out, stumbling a little as you reached him.
He grabbed your elbow instinctively, steadying you. His hand lingered a moment longer than necessary. âHey, careful.â, he laughed and then realized something, âYouâre not using your crutches?â
You grinned, tipsy and a little wobbly. âMy physio human,â you slurred, âsaid I could start walking a few days ago! Isnât that awesome?â
Heeseung blinked, feeling a little hurt that you hadnât mentioned this to him. âYou didnât tell me.â
âI didnât wanna jinx it!â you said, giggling like it was no big deal. âIâve been walking at home but didnât wanna try it in public until I was more confident. And look! Iâm walking! No crutches, baby!â
Heeseung couldnât help the way his heart clenched. He shouldâve been excited for you, but a part of him was bothered. Why hadnât you shared this with him? You spent so much time together lately, and yet, this felt like something important he shouldâve known. You were practically glowing with excitement, your face flushed from the alcohol, and the way you kept swaying made him nervous.
âJust⌠be careful, okay?â Heeseung said, his voice softer than he intended, the sting in his chest dissipating when he saw how genuinely happy you were.
You leaned closer your face dangerously close to his, the warmth of your breath brushing his cheek, âI promise! Look, Iâm a vampire now! Iâm unstoppable!â You twirled, your dress swirling around you, and Heeseung couldnât help but smile despite the growing tension in his chest. His gaze followed your every movement. The red dress clung to your body in ways that felt unfair, making his thoughts wander into a dangerous direction. But he quickly pushed the thought away.
âYeah, but even vampires need to be careful,â he replied, teasingly.
Before he could say anything more, a rowdy group called for a beer pong game, and you were swept away in the chaos, your laughter trailing behind you. Heeseung watched as you joined the game, the way you threw your head back in laughter. It was impossible for him to look away, but Jay came up to him holding a bottle of Malibu, saying something about needing alcohol for a confidence boost.
After the two of them finished the bottle and won a game of beerpong against some cheerleaders, Heeseung stepped away from the crowd to get some air, letting the noise fade into the background as he sat down next to Mark Lee onto one of the many chairs in the yard. He needed a moment to breathe and gather his thoughts and was glad that Mark was apparently sleeping. He did check if he was breathing, just in case. He couldnât stop thinking about how good you looked, how much he wanted to kiss you. The way you layed there, eyes big, lips slightly parted and looking so so soft. It hasnât left his thoughts all week. Every time you came close to him today, you cupped his face in your hands to speak into his ear, your proximity sending his emotions spiraling. His hand would instinctively settle on your hip or the back of your neck. One wrong move and he knew heâd lose all control, closing the small distance and kissing you.
Eventually, he felt a little more sober and not like he was about to run inside to ruin your lipstick. He returned to the main area. Thatâs when he caught sight of you again. You were perched on a sofa, laughing animatedly with some guy from the swimming team while sipping on a colorful drink. A weird feeling flared up in him, and as he watched you lean in closer to the guy. Heeseungâs jaw clenched as he watched the guy lean closer as well.
His feet moved before his brain could catch up, and the next thing he knew, he was walking toward you. As he approached, you spotted him, and your entire face lit up. "Hee!" you called out excitedly, as you reached for his hand and practically pulled him down onto the couch next to you. The closeness sent a spark through him, his skin tingling where your skin touched his.
Heeseung shot the guy a look that clearly said back off, and thankfully, he took the hint and left.
âHee! I havenât seen you in days!â you whined, your words slightly more slurred from alcohol than it was the last time he talked to you but bright with excitement. âI missed you! Youâre not hanging out in the office anymore. Whatâs that about?â Your body was warm, and you smelled sweet, like vanilla with a hint of alcohol.
Heeseung chuckled, putting his arm on the backrest behind you. âYou havenât been there either! I thought you were avoiding me.â
Since that morning in the hotel room last week, Heeseung hadnât seen much of you. Youâd been busy working during the day and noticeably absent from the rink during your usual hours. He couldnât shake the nagging worry that he might have overstepped, that something he did had made you uncomfortable. Instead of reaching out, he chose to give you space.
You shook your head dramatically, fake fangs peeking out as you grinned. âNoooo! I was just doing physio. You know, walking practice. But my therapist only had evening sessions!â You wiggled your foot with the cast and looked down at it. âThe bathrooms are all messed up tonight,â you said, your cheeks flushed.
âBathrooms?â Heeseung raised an eyebrow, surprised by the sudden change in topic, reaching out to tuck a stand of hair behind your ear. Slightly caressing your face.
âI tried to pee earlier, but every bathroom was closed when I went the first time,â you explained, giggling at the absurdity of it all, leaning your head into his hand. âThen I tried again, and this very disheveled couple came out. I meanâ, a hiccup interrupted you, âthey looked like they just had a wild night.â
Heeseung chuckled, shaking his head. âSounds like you had quite the adventure.â He was tempted to ask how many drinks youâd had and reached for your cup, his brows knitting together. âCan I have a sip of that?â
âSure!â you said, handing it over with a smile.Â
As the night wore on you slowed down on the drinks, after Heeseung refused to get you another one when you asked him to but you still accepted nearly every shot offered to you. He couldâve spent the rest of the night just watching you laugh, but as the crowd grew louder and wilder, he realized you were a bit drunker than he had originally thought.
You were now fully leaning into him. The proximity made his pulse quicken. His hand rested next to your head and he was occasionally smoothing over your hair. His mind kept drifting back to how you looked tonight. How youâd pulled him onto the couch with such excitement as if he was the best thing you have seen all day. How much he still wanted to ruin your stupid lipstick. He couldn't stop staring at your lips.
âIâm so tired,â you mumbled, and before he could react, you nesteled your face onto his chest, moving your body while doing so and lifting your legs to hand over his thights.
He watched as your eyelids grew heavy. âYou should stop drinking,â he said gently, gliding his hand along your back. You shuttered slightly and he was loving the effect he had on you. How reactive you were even though we was barely doing anything.
âI know,â you sighed, looking up at him. The sight made his heart race, and he fought to keep his expression neutral despite the way his pulse quickened at your gaze. Soobin and Yeonjun were sitting next to the two of you. âBut itâs just so much fun!â
âI can take you home,â Heeseung offered, the protective side of him kicking in.
You shook your head. âNo, I am staying at Lia and Ryujinâs. But theyâre not answering their phones. My dad would freak if he saw me without my crutches. Heâd lose his mind.â
Heeseung paused, running a hand through his hair, a soft sigh escaping his lips. âOkay, then come to my dorm.â
âYour dorm?â you repeated, eyes brightening slightly. âIs that really okay? I donât want to crash your night.â
âItâs fine. I mean, Jake and Jay probably wonât be back until morning, anyway,â he reassured you, trying to keep his tone light.
You contemplated it for a moment, and Heeseung held his breath, hoping youâd say yes. You nodded, a small smile creeping across your face. âOkay, letâs go.â
âLetâs get you out of here,â Heeseung replied, helping you up, saying bye to your brother and his friend.Â
The walk back to Heeseungâs dorm was slow and a bit wobbly, as you swayed gently on your feet. The chill in the night air didnât seem to bother you. He offered you his jacket, but you denied claiming that you were so warm and you didnât want to sweat into his jacket.
âHey, can we take a quick pit stop?â you asked after a while, stopping mid-step and glancing around. âMy foot is hurting, and I just need to sit for a second.â
âAlright,â Heeseung replied, his brows knitting together slightly with concern. He really did not want to let you sit down on the cold and slightly wet concrete floor in the middle of the campus. âYou want me to give you a piggyback ride?â
âWhat? You want me to ride on your back?â you said, your eyes wide.
âItâs either that or a bladder infection for you,â he said, lifting his arms in mock surrender. âYour call.â
After a moment of hesitation, you grinned and climbed onto his back. When you wrapped your arms around his neck, the warmth of your body pressed against his back, Heeseungâs heart raced. The feel of your breath on his neck, the softness of your body against hisâit was intoxicating.
He took steady strides, feeling your laughter vibrate against his back.
âYouâre really strong!â you said, your voice muffled slightly against him. âI could get used to this!â
âDonât get any ideas,â he replied, trying to sound serious but failing miserably.
Once inside, he gently set you down on his bed. You flopped back onto the mattress dramatically, letting out an exaggerated sigh. âThis is amazing. I donât wanna move anymore.â
Heeseung chuckled, running a hand through his hair as he leaned against the doorframe. âDon't you want to get out of that dress? It looks tight, and youâll be uncomfortable if you sleep in it.â
You pouted, staring up at him with those stupidly adorable doe eyes. âBut itâs so comfy here.â
Heeseung rolled his eyes playfully. âCome on, Iâll help you. We canât have you sleeping in that.You donât even like sleeping in leggings and I don't want you to complain all day tomorrow.â
With a little more coaxing, you reluctantly sat up, the slight sway in your movements reminding him how tipsy you still were.
âOkay, I might need help,â you admitted sheepishly.
He just laughed and took your cheek onto one hand and caressed it softly, âAlright. Just let me know what to do.â
As you turned your back to him, he helped you unzip the dress. âJust a little more,â he whispered, and he pulled the fabric down gently, letting it fall to the floor.
The sight of the scars on your back caught him off guard for a second. He knew they were there but you were keen on not letting anyone see any of your scars, wearing high waisted pants or skirts all the time. You have told him before, that you were quite insecure over them. The last thing he wanted to do right now was to make you uncomfortable. Instead, he focused on peeling the dress off of your body, feeling the warmth of your skin beneath his fingers.
âThere you go,â he said, reaching for your set of pajamas in his closet. âMuch better, right?â
âMhmâ, you nodded. Heeseung felt a warmth spread through him, watching as you nestled into his bed, claiming your space. He took a deep breath, trying to ease his sudden flustered state.
âGood, we need to hydrate,â he said, already moving toward the small fridge he kept in the corner. He rummaged through it and grabbed a bottle of water before heading back to the bed. âDrink up.â
You took the bottle eagerly, gulping down the water like it was the most refreshing thing in the world and flopped down onto his bed again, shielding your eyes with your arms. Heeseung chuckled at your actions and changed into his own pajamas. He coaxed you to go to the bathroom to finish getting ready for bed.
As you brushed your teeth, you stumbled a little while rinsing, giggling as Heeseung steadied you.
When you finally returned to the bed, you carefully adjusted yourself into a position that wouldnât hurt your leg and snuggled into him. He felt your warmth seep into him, and he couldnât help but wrap his arms around you.
âI feel so sleepy,â you murmured, your voice slightly muffled as you nestled closer.
âThen close your eyes and sleep, Y/N,â he replied quietly, resting his chin on top of your head, feeling your breathing slow down.
You put your hand onto his waist and squished your face into his chest. He was praying you didnât notice his racing heart. He started tracing up and down your naked arm and just as he closed his eyes, he felt you sigh contentedly, your breath warm against his skin. âHeeseung?â you murmured, half-asleep already.
âYeah?â he answered softly, glancing down at you.
âIâm really glad youâre here,â you mumbled, and within moments, he could tell youâd already drifted off into sleep.
Your eyes fluttered open, immediately assaulted by the glaring sunlight streaming into the room. You winced, instinctively trying to turn away from the light, but you couldn't move. Something was holding you down. Or, more precisely, someone. A familiar warmth, a scent youâd recognize anywhere - Heeseung. His chest rose and fell beneath you, steady and rhythmic, the sound of his slow breathing soothing against your ear. You were completely wrapped around him, using him like a full-body pillowâyour head on his chest, arms draped over his torso, and your leg casually resting on top of his. His other arm was curled around you, holding you close. His head rested lightly on yours, his messy hair brushing against your forehead.
It wasnât the first time youâd woken up like this. In fact, it had happened more times than you cared to admit. But each time felt like a new wave of confusion crashing over you. Friends didnât wake up like this, right? Yet here you were again, tangled up in Heeseungâs arms, as if it were the most natural thing in the world.
You sighed deeply, letting the warmth of his body seep into you as you tried to ignore the slow, dull pounding in your head. The light was making it worse, far too bright for your sensitive eyes. Carefully, you slid out of his arms, lifting his arm from your waist with a soft, reluctant tug. The cool air hit your skin, and you immediately missed Heeseungs warmth.
You winced slightly as you stood, your recovering leg was hurting more than it usually did after waking up. Maybe going all out with the cast on wasnât the brightest idea. You pulled the curtains shut, dimming the room and giving your poor head some relief.
A quick glance back at the bed confirmed that Heeseung hadnât moved an inch. He was laying there, still peacefully asleep, his hair tousled and his lips slightly parted. You hated how good he looked, even now, first thing in the morning. Last night at the party, when he had shown up in his stupidly perfect Greek god costume, you hadnât been able to take your eyes off him. And it wasnât just how he looked. It was everything. The way he was always so caring, so thoughtful. Despite being surrounded by people, he kept checking in on youâmaking sure you were okay, that you werenât overdoing it with your cast. In Rihanna's words: he did make you feel like you were the only girl in the world.
After a quick stop in the bathroom to freshen up, you made your way back to Heeseungâs bed, your heart giving an involuntary flutter at the sight of him still sprawled out, completely at ease. He hadnât moved since you left, still lost in sleep, his chest rising and falling gently.
As you slid back into the bed, careful not to disturb him, Heeseung stirred. Without hesitation, his arm found you again, pulling you right back against his chest. A sleepy groan rumbled through him as he snuggled closer, his nose brushing against your hair. The warmth of his body and the steady rhythm of his breathing were comforting, almost enough to make you forget the pounding in your head and the dull ache in your leg.
You let your eyes wander over his face, taking in the soft curve of his lips, the faint shadow of stubble on his jaw, and the way his lashes fluttered slightly as he dreamed. He looked so peaceful, so relaxed, and so ridiculously hot, even now, sprawled out in his bed probably not nursing a hangover but still. It was unfair, really.
You buried your face against his chest, breathing him inâthe familiar scent of his cologne mixed with something distinctly Heeseung. It was comforting. Addicting, even. And for a moment, you allowed yourself to get lost in it, to pretend that this was normal, that waking up with him like this could be your reality. But even as those thoughts tugged at you, the real reality remained the same: you and Heeseung were still just friends. Friends who somehow found themselves waking up tangled together, friends who shared the kind of closeness that made your heart race.
As you lay there, snuggled against Heeseungâs chest, you felt him stir beneath you. His breath hitched slightly before his body shifted, his hand gently trailing down your back as he woke up. You tried not to move, eyes still closed, but you could feel his sleepy gaze on you.
âMorninâ,â he mumbled softly, voice low and husky from sleep.
You tilted your head up to meet his eyes, a smile tugging at the corners of your lips. "Morning."
He blinked lazily, his warm brown eyes still heavy with sleep, but a soft smile spread across his face as he looked down at you. His hand brushed through your hair, his fingers grazing the nape of your neck in a way that sent little shivers down your spine. You were hyper-aware of how close you were to him, of the way his chest pressed against yours.
âYou hungry?â he asked, his voice still quiet, almost a whisper as if not to disturb the moment.
Your stomach growled at that very second, earning a soft chuckle from him.
âIâll take that as a yes,â he teased, his eyes crinkling with amusement.
You groaned, burying your face into his chest out of embarrassment. âStarving,â you admitted, muffled against his shirt.
Heeseung shifted underneath you, slowly sitting up and gently moving you off his chest. âAlright, Iâll see what weâve got.â He stretched, running a hand through his messy hair, and threw you a playful look before getting up and heading for the kitchen.
As he left the room, you took a moment to compose yourself, sitting up in his bed with a soft sigh. The warmth of the bed still lingered on your skin, and you couldnât help but feel a little empty now that he was no longer lying next to you. You shook your head, trying to shake off the butterflies that seemed to be fluttering in your stomach, and made your way to the kitchen.
When you got there, Heeseung was already at the counter, holding up a box of Froot Loops with a playful grin. âItâs not much, but breakfast is served.â
You laughed, shaking your head. âPerfect.â
The two of you sat down at the kitchen island, munching on the cereal together in comfortable silence. Every now and then, your eyes would meet across the table, a small smile shared between you.
As you finished your bowl, the sound of shuffling footsteps caught your attention. Jake stumbled out of his room, his hair a complete mess and his eyes half-shut. He grumbled something unintelligible, making a beeline for the coffee machine.
You watched, amused, as Jake poured himself a cup, taking one long sip before practically collapsing onto the couch. He barely made a dent in his coffee before lying down and pulling a blanket over his head.
âGood morning to you, too,â you called over to him, stifling a laugh.
Jake groaned in response, clearly not in the mood to be social. "Too loud," he mumbled, pulling the blanket tighter over his head.
You and Heeseung exchanged a look, sharing a quiet chuckle. Heeseung finished his cereal and stood up, stretching. âIâm gonna wash up. You good here?â
âYeah,â you replied, stifling a yawn of your own. "I think Iâll head back to bed for a bit. Itâs too early to be awake.â
Heeseung smirked, tossing his bowl into the sink. âGood idea.â He ruffled your hair lightly before disappearing into the bathroom.
Curling up in his bed felt like sinking into a cloud. His scent lingered on the pillows and sheets, a mix of clean soap and something distinctly him, and it was so comforting that you didnât bother trying to fight the pull of sleep.
Heeseung returned to the room, fresh and looking even better after his quick wash-up. He smiled when he saw you curled up in his bed and slid in beside you, careful not to disturb you too much.
âWanna watch Prison Break?â he asked softly, picking up the remote.
You nodded sleepily, cuddling closer to him as he pressed play. The intro music started, but your focus drifted more toward him than the screen. The warmth of his body, the way his scent surrounded youâit was impossible to focus on anything else. One of your hands was resting on his chest. You were carefully tracing the design that was printed on his shirt, trying to distract yourself enough to not fall asleep.
You froze as Heeseungâs fingers wrapped around yours, his hand warm and steady against your own.
âY/N,â he said softly, his voice rough and low, sending shivers up your spine. His fingers left yours, only to trail upward, brushing against your arm before settling gently on your face.
âY/N,â he said again, his voice softer now, laced with something you couldnât quite place. His palm cupped your cheek with a tenderness that made your heart stutter, his thumb grazing your skin in slow, soothing circles. The intimacy of the gesture sent your senses into overdrive. His hand was warm, his touch light, but the closeness between you was almost too much to handle.
You dared to glance up, meeting his eyes. His gaze flickered downward, lingering on your lips for a beat too long before returning to yours. The proximity was dizzying. You could feel the faint brush of his breath against your face and it made your head spin.
âYouâre making it really hard to focus,â he murmured, his thumb continuing its gentle path along your cheekbone.
âIâm not doing anything,â you whispered, but your voice was unsteady.
Heeseungâs lips tilted into a small, knowing smile. His other hand came up, cradling your face fully now, his fingers curling lightly around the edges of your jaw. He tilted your face up slightly, his thumb brushing over your chin in a way that left you breathless.
âYou are,â he said softly, his tone leaving no room for argument. He leaned closer, his forehead brushing against yours as his voice dropped even lower. âYou always do.â
âHeeseungâŚâ you tried, your voice barely audible, but whatever you wanted to say evaporated as his fingers shifted, tilting your head just enough that his eyes could lock on yours completely. You were pretty sure that his expression was comparable to the one you gave your Taemin poster back in highschool.
âTell me to stop,â he whispered, the words so quiet they almost didnât register.
You didnât want to stop. The thought of pulling away was laughable. Instead, you gripped the front of his shirt. âI wonât,â you breathed, the words barely leaving your lips.
That was all he needed. He closed the gap between you, his lips hesitantly brushing against yours. It was soft at first, almost testing, but the moment you leaned into him, the kiss deepened.
You melted into him, your hand sliding up to tangle in his hair, and he groaned softly against your lips, the sound sending a thrill through you. His fingers danced across your skin, leaving a trail of fire in their wake. Every brush of his lips, every touch, sent electricity through your veins. His hand slid to the back of your neck, his fingers threading through your hair as he tilted your head slightly, deepening the kiss even more. A soft sound escaped you, and you could feel him smile against your lips..
You responded instinctively, your hand brushing against his chest, then sliding down to the hem of his shirt. The sensation of his warm skin under your fingertips made your breath hitch, but before you could let yourself get lost in the moment, he pulled back slightly, his forehead resting against yours.
âYou okay?â His voice was low, a little strained, his eyes searching yours for any sign of hesitation.
You nodded, still breathing a little heavier than normal. âYeah. Please donât stop.â
You gave his hair a small tug again, bringing his lips back to yours. Heeseungâs lips never left yours as he slowly, almost reverently, moved you so that you were straddling him. His hands rested on your waist, his thumbs brushing softly against the exposed skin just above your hips, sending a shiver up your spine. His fingers gently graced the angry red scars along your hip.
âIâSorry,â you muttered against his lips, your voice barely above a whisper. You turned your face away, feeling your cheeks heat up. âI didnât mean for you to see those.â
Heeseungâs gaze softened, his fingers stopping at the hem of your shirt. He gently cupped your face with one hand, tilting it upward again so you had no choice but to look into his eyes. âDonât apologize,â he said quietly, his voice sincere.
You opened your mouth to say something, but before you could, Heeseungâs fingers gently brushed over your scars again, this time intentionally. âYouâre beautiful,â he murmured, his eyes never leaving yours. âAll of you.â
âHeeseungâŚâ you whispered, your voice barely audible as your gaze flickered down to his lips and then back up to meet his eyes again.
He leaned in again, capturing your lips. He deepened the kiss, his lips moving with a slow urgency. His hand, now fully under your shirt, splayed across your stomach, fingers tracing your skin in a way that made your breath hitch. You could feel his warmth radiating against you, every touch, every movement, setting your skin on fire. His lips left yours, trailing along your jawline, down to your neck, kissing, nipping at the skin there. You could feel the heat of his breath against your throat, each kiss igniting a fire that spread throughout your body.
âCan I take your shirt off Y/Nâ, he breathed out.
You just nodded and he carefully lifted you shirt up, revealing your upper body. He threw your (his) shirt off the bed and gently shifted the two of you, laying you back against the pillows. His lips hovered over yours, his breath warm against your skin as his eyes searched yours. âFuck, Y/N,â he murmured, his voice deep and rough with emotion. âYouâre so hot.â
You couldnât help but laugh softly, the unexpected comment catching you off guard, but the sound was quickly swallowed by him pressing his lips to yours with a fervor that left you breathless.
His hands began to explore your body again. His fingers grazed the curve of your waist, drifting higher, brushing the edge of your bra. The sensation drew a soft gasp from your lips, and the sound seemed to spur him on. His lips left yours to trail kisses along your jawline, down your neck, and lower. You felt the warm press of his lips against the scars along your hip. He kissed each mark with care, as if they were something to be cherished. Your breath hitched as his gaze flicked upward, meeting yours. You felt the heat rise to your cheeks, overwhelmed by the intensity in his eyes. Unable to find the right words, you carefully reached down, your fingers brushing against his jaw as you guided his face closer to yours. Before you could speak, a sudden, sharp pounding on the door shattered the moment.
âHeeseung! I hate to break up whateverâs going on in there, but the coach wants us at the rink in, like, 30 minutes,â Jakeâs voice rang out through the closed door.
Heeseung groaned, his forehead falling against yours as his lips curved into a reluctant smirk. âOf course,â he muttered, the warmth of his breath ghosting over your skin. âThe worldâs worst timing award goes to your father.â
You couldnât help but laugh softly.
As Heeseung and Jake arrived at the rink, a heavy tension hung in the air. The team was scattered around the locker room, each member in a different state of exhaustion.
âDude, yesterday got crazy after you left,â EJ muttered beside him, still rubbing his temples.
Nicolas, nursing a bruised cheek and offering a wry grin, added, âNot exactly our fault though. Kim Yeoso started it.â
Before Heeseung could ask for more details, the Coachâs voice echoed sharply across the room. âLine up. Now.â
The room fell silent, and a collective weight seemed to settle on everyone as the Coachâs gaze traveled down the line of players. His pacing was slow and deliberate. âLast night was a disgrace. I donât care who threw the first punch or how it startedâthis is my team, and I donât want this kind of attention.â
His glare seared through the team, and though he moved down the line, his eyes rested on Heeseung a beat longer than the others, his silent accusation unmistakable. Heeseung felt the full weight of the words, as if they were directed solely at him. His chest tightened, but he kept his face neutral, silently bracing himself as the Coach continued. Finally, your fathers eyes flickered back to the team with an almost weary finality. âMeetingâs over,â he said, dismissing the rest of the team. âNot you, Heeseung. Stay a minute.â
The players exchanged wary glances as they filed out, each one offering him silent nods of support. Heeseung turned to see the Coach shut the door, his expression shifting from professional disappointment to something far more personal.
His voice was colder than ever when he started speaking: âIâll ask you once, Heeseung, and I expect a straight answer. Whatâs going on between you and Y/N?â
His jaw clenched as he quickly composed himself, being caught off guard by the question. âWith all due respect, Coach,â he started, his voice calm but firm, âmy personal life and Y/Nâs are private. I donât feel itâs appropriate to discuss this with you.â
The Coachâs face darkened, his patience clearly wearing thin. âYou think Iâm just some overprotective dad, Heeseung?â he bit out, his tone cutting. âSheâs barely recovered, and getting involved with you is a distraction she doesnât need. If you care about her as much as you seem to, youâd understand that.â
Heeseung felt his hands clench at his sides, the anger simmering beneath his calm exterior. He took a deep breath, forcing himself to keep his voice steady. âI understand what sheâs been through, Coach. But Y/N is stronger than youâre giving her credit for. And Iâm not backing off because it makes you uncomfortable.â
The air between them turned icy. Your fathers expression hardened. âThen youâre making a mistake,â he warned, his voice low, barely contained. âBecause if you donât back off, Iâll make sure there are consequences. And thatâs not a threat, Heeseungâthatâs a promise.â
Heeseungâs pulse pounded as the gravity of Coachâs words settled in, but he stood firm, his voice unwavering.
âIâm sorry, Coach Choi. But with all due respect, Iâm not going anywhere.â
No matter what Coach threatened, Heeseung knew he wouldnât step back. He was already drafted and chose to go back to college hockey, so the Coach had nothing on him.
Your father held his gaze a moment longer, his expression unreadable but filled with a disappointed resolve. âFine,â he said curtly. âThen donât expect me to go easy on you.â Without another word, he turned and walked out, leaving Heeseung standing alone in the empty locker room.
âItâs not about whether or not you think youâre fine!â Your fathrs voice is sharper than ever, frustration bubbling over as he paces in front of you. âYouâre ignoring your own recovery. The doctors said you could walk without crutches, but they didnât say to push yourself to the point of needing another surgery. What are you thinking?â
The accusation stinged, sharp and unexpected. You blinked, willing yourself not to let him see how much that hurt. Another surgery. He knew, maybe better than anyone, how terrified you were of that possibility. And here he was, throwing it in your face as if itâs something youâd chooseâlike youâd ever risk it on purpose.
A mix of disbelief and anger rose within you, and you stood up, meeting his intense gaze. âYou know I donât want that. You know better than anyone what Iâve been through, and you think Iâd risk more just for one night? Iâm not being reckless, Iâm just⌠living my life.â
âLiving your life?â he snapped back, his tone filled with frustration. âLiving your life means ignoring everything youâve fought to rebuild, just for a night of fun? Iâm trying to keep you from setting yourself back.â
âYouâre acting like I donât take this seriously! Like I havenât been doing everything I can to heal. I know my body better than anyone, Dad. I can take care of myself. I donât need you treating me like Iâm made of glass.â, your voice was shaking in anger. When your father and Soobin returned from the rink you werenât even able to properly greet them, before your father started berating you.
Soobinâs voice cut through the tension, calm but unwavering. âSheâs an adult, Dad. Y/N knows her limits. You canât keep controlling everything.â
Your dad turned sharply to face Soobin, his gaze hard. âThis isnât about what she thinks she can handle, Soobin. Itâs about being realistic, about protecting her from making choices sheâll regret later.â
Soobin didnt back down. âBut youâre treating her like sheâs fragile when sheâs proven over and over that sheâs not.â
âI just donât want her making reckless decisions,â your dad insited, but his eyes slide back to you. Your dadâs tone was sharp as he moved past your injuries.
âAnd then thereâs Heeseung.â The way he says his name makes you flinch. âHeâs a distraction, Y/N. Youâre already pushing yourself too hard, and now youâre getting involved with someone who wonât be there when things get difficult. If youâre not careful, youâll lose focus on everything that matters. And in addition to that you are distracting my captain from his duties.â
Before you could respond, Soobin stepped forward, his voice firm. âDad, youâre being unfair.â
Your dad turned, surprised, but Soobin stood his ground. âYou know Heeseung. You were the one who made him captain because you trusted him to lead. Heâs responsible, heâs focused, and he cares about Y/N, more than youâre giving him credit for.â
Your dadâs expression hardened, and he crossed his arms. âHeâs a good player, Soobin. But heâs young, and he doesnât understand what Y/N needs right now.â
âAnd you think you do?â You countered, voice tight with frustration. âI am an adult. I know what I'm doing. And Heeseungâs been there for me, supporting me, making sure I am taking care of myself. Heâs never pushed me into anything that would risk me recovery.â
Your father hesitated, his gaze moving between you and Soobin, a flicker of doubt finally creeping into his expression. But he quickly brushed it off, his jaw set in a familiar look of stubbornness. âYouâre not seeing the big picture. Iâm trying to protect you, to keep you from making choices you'll regret later.â
You couldnât hold back anymore. âThe only thing Iâm going to regret is not standing up for what I want and what I know I can handle. Heeseung isnât the problem here, Dad. And if you would actually talk to me, youâd know that heâs been nothing but respectful and supportive.â
Soobin looked at your father, his tone more measured. âI trust Heeseung, Dad. You should, too. And more than that, you need to trust Y/N. She knows her limits better than anyone else here.â
Your fatherâs silence spoke volumes. Finally, he lets out a slow breath, his gaze softening just slightly. âI just⌠I donât want to see you get hurt, Y/N.â
âI know,â you said, your voice steadier now. âBut Iâm not going to let fear control me.â
For once, he didnât argue, and though the silence remains strained, thereâs a glimmer of something that felt like reluctant acceptance. Soobin squeezed your shoulder in quiet reassurance.
You and Soobin sat cross-legged on Yeonjun's living room floor, surrounded by discarded pizza boxes and half-empty soda cans. You let out a frustrated groan and leaned back, resting your head against the couch right next to Beomgyu's thigh, who patted your head in solidarity.
âMaybe you should just⌠move out? Like properly," Beomgyu suggested, his voice gentle but with a hint of urgency. "If he sees youâre capable on your own, maybe heâd finally get that youâre an independent adult who knows what sheâs doing.â
You sighed. âIâd love to, honestly. But how am I even supposed to manage that?â You groaned, rubbing your temples. âItâs not like I have a jobâheâs always insisted that I focus on school, hockey, or ârecovery.â Everythingâs paid for by him. So if I tried to move out, Iâd probably have to ask him for rent money anyway. Iâm not really independent.â
Soobin, sitting cross-legged beside you, crossed his arms. âMom would definitely cover your rent if you asked. Sheâs offered to help me plenty of times.â
Yeonjun, lounging on the other side of the room with a slice of pizza in hand, smirked. âYeah, and Soobin, you should really take her up on that sometime. Youâve crashed on my couch way too many nights,â he teased, nudging Soobinâs leg with his foot. âMaybe I could ask her.â You shrugged, the thought of moving out felt a bit daunting.
âTrust me, weâll find you a place that works,â Yeonjun assured, with his usual casual confidence. He reached over and tousled your hair, smiling as he added, âAnd hey, if nothing else, my couch will always be happy to host any Choi family member.â
âThanks, Yeonjun,â you laughed, feeling a little lighter.
In the end, you decided to stay at Yejiâs and Ryujinâs dorm for a few days. You werenât ready for the full commitment of moving out just yet, but the space away from home was a welcome relief. Their couch became your temporary refuge, a safe distance from the constant arguments and suffocating expectations.Â
And it seemed your dad got the hint after a few days of you not coming home and keeping conversations strictly professional at work. You noticed his glances lingering a bit longer than usual whenever heâd pass you at the rink, sometimes with a sigh or a hesitant pause, as if he wanted to say something but held back. Each time he tried, though, Soobin, your (now official) boyfriend, or one of their friends would step in, steering you away from him, often under the guise of needing help with some âurgent task.âÂ
Heeseung was sprawled out on the couch, fingers deftly moving over the controller as he focused intently on the game playing out on the screen. The familiar sounds of COD echoed through the apartment. You had just returned from physiotherapy, and the session had left you exhausted. You rested your head in Heeseungâs lap, the soft fabric of his sweatpants cushy against your cheek.
âGotcha!â Heeseung exclaimed suddenly, his excitement pulling you out of your sleepy haze. Just as you began to relax back into the soothing rhythm of him playing, the ringing of Heeseung's phone cut through the peaceful atmosphere. He frowned, glancing down at the screen.
âItâs Jay,â he said, rolling his eyes playfully. He answered the call, holding the phone to his ear. âWhatâs up?â
You shifted slightly in his lap, burying your face into his stomach, seeking more comfort. Heeseung chuckled, brushing your hair back gently. âYeah, Iâm here. Whatâs going on?â
As Jay spoke on the other end, Heeseungâs face lit up with a smile. âOh, curry sounds good!â
At the mention of curry, you stirred, raising your head to look at him. âOh yes curry.â you mumbled sleepily, your voice muffled against his shirt. Heeseung raised an eyebrow at you, amusement dancing in his eyes.
âWant curry?â he asked, repeating your question back to you. You nodded slowly, still feeling heavy with tiredness, and you buried your face deeper into his stomach as if hiding from the world. You nodded sleepily, and he relayed the message to Jay. âY/Nâs here, and sheâs definitely in for some curry,â he said, laughing at how cozy you looked all curled up against him.
After hanging up, Heeseung glanced down at you, his expression softening. âJay is bringing over curry, is that fine with you?â
You nodded, still half-asleep. âYeah.â
He chuckled softly, running his fingers through your hair. You shifted again, resting your cheek against his stomach, your eyes fluttering shut for just a moment longer.
âYouâre warm,â you murmured, feeling the vibrations of his laughter through your body.
Heeseungâs hand continued to play with your hair, a peaceful silence settling over the room again. âYou know, if you keep this up, we might miss dinner and just sleep until tomorrow,â he teased, and you just nodded, not responding anymore.
As sleep began to take hold, Heeseung gently scooped you up in his arms and carried you to his bedroom, tucking you under the blankets. The last thing you felt was his warmth beside you, and then you were out like a light.
You awoke to the sound of animated voices and the smell of food. Blinking against the light, you felt slightly disoriented. As you stepped into the kitchen area, you latched onto Heeseungâs back, burying your face into his shoulder. He chuckled softly, clearly amused.
âWell good evening, nice of you to join us,â he said, leaning back into you.
Jay and Jake turned, both bursting into laughter at the sight. âLook at you two! So cute,â Jake teased, leaning against the counter with a smug grin.
âHeeseungâs gotten so soft, itâs actually embarrassing.â Jay added, shaking his head in mock disbelief.Â
As you took a seat at the table, Jay served up generous portions of steaming curry, filling the kitchen with a delicious warmth. You nestled into the chair beside Heeseung, pulling his hoodie sleeves over your hands to keep cozy.
Jake leaned back in his chair, digging into his food. âNot gonna lie, this curry tastes like heaven after todayâs practice,â he said, letting out a small groan of appreciation.
Heeseung nodded, laughing. âTell me about it. Coach was on us the whole time, especially after the last game. I can still feel the bruises from blocking shots in the scrimmage.â
Jake joined in with a laugh. âY/N, you shouldâve seen him. Dude was practically diving in front of pucks like it was a championship game.â
You chuckled, shaking your head. âAbsolutely no chill.â
âHey, that âno chillâ gets results,â Heeseung shot back, grinning before glancing at you a little more seriously.
âActually⌠speaking of practice. Your dad stopped me today. He asked about you.â
You paused mid-bite, meeting Heeseungâs gaze. â What did he say?â
âNothing pushy,â Heeseung said, clearly choosing his words carefully. âHe just asked if Iâd seen you and if you were doing alright.â
You took a moment to process it, unsure how to feel. âI mean, he has been calling. And he has been asking Soobin and Minji where I am. Soobin just told to guess where I am.â
Jay gave a thoughtful nod. âWell, maybe he is trying to fix things?.â
Heeseung gave your hand a gentle squeeze, his thumb tracing slow circles over your knuckles. âI think Jay has a point. Maybe itâs worth giving him a chance to apologize.â
You sighed, your eyes drifting down to your half-finished plate. âItâs just⌠every time we have a conversation, he manages to make it feel like Iâm doing something wrong. Like Iâm throwing away his idea of the perfect future, or like my decisions donât matter. I donât know if I want to go through all that again.â
Jake, who had been quietly stirring his drink, chimed in with a thoughtful look. âMaybe this time you donât have to go through all of it. Talk to him on your terms. You donât owe him anything more than what youâre comfortable with.â
Heeseung nodded. âExactly. You can set boundaries. Iâll even be there if you wantâor, you know, Soobin could tag along for backup moral support.â
Jake chuckled, giving you a reassuring smile. âJust let him do all the talking. Sometimes people need to hear themselves to realize how ridiculous they sound.â
You exhaled slowly,âIâll think about it.â
You entered the rink together with Jays girl (space) friend, ready to capture the dayâs events. The hockey team had organized a special event where they would teach local kids the basics of hockey, and you were there to film some PR content. Heeseung crouched down, demonstrating how to hold a stick while surrounded by a group of eager kids. You couldnât help but smile as you filmed, completely enchanted by how cute he looked in his hockey gear, patiently explaining everything while the kids watched with wide eyes.
After a while, Heeseung noticed you filming from the sidelines and excused himself from the kids. He made his way over to you.
âHi baby.â he greeted you, gently taking your face in his hands, tilting it up toward him. His eyes searched yours for a moment, and then he leaned in, pressing a soft kiss to your lips. It was sweet and tender, and you melted into him, completely forgetting about the cameras and the kids for a few blissful seconds.
âEw. Boo! Get a room!â Beomgyu called out from the sidelines, pretending to gag dramatically, his face scrunched up in mock disgust. You rolled your eyes playfully, trying to suppress a smile.
âSorry, Beomgyu. Didnât know you were such a romantic,â you shot back.
Heeseung chuckled. âDonât be jealous, Gyu. Just appreciate the love in the air.â Heeseung pecked your lips again and went back onto the ice, regrouping the kids for another round of activities.Â
Heeseung made his way up to your office when the event ended. He knocked at your door and peaked his face into the room: âLetâs go home babe. The kids are all gone.â
âGive me ten minutes. Iâll be done with the Tiktok recap for today.â, you said, softly smiling at him.
âSure thing.â, he plopped down onto the sofa in your office and pulled his phone out of his pocket.
As you wrapped up the editing, you couldnât help but glance over at him. Heeseung was focused, his brow slightly furrowed in concentration, and you felt a rush of affection. When you finished, you got up and sat down on his lap, surprising him.
âHey there,â he said, a smile breaking through his concentration. His hands found their way to your sides, his touch warm.
âHi Love.â You leaned in closer, caressing his cheek gently. âI gotta say seeing you with kids? Might be one of the best things ever.â you teased, inching your lips closer to his.
Heeseungâs eyes sparkled, his grip on your waist tightening slightly. âOh yeah? I guess Iâll have to volunteer more often, then.â
âYou just might have to,â you replied, leaning in closer, letting your hand drift to his cheek, your thumb brushing his skin.
He closed the gap between you. The kiss was soft at first, just a gentle brushing of lips, but it quickly deepened as he pulled you closer, his hands resting firmly on your waist. You melted against him, your fingers tangling in his hair as you lost yourself in the moment. You tilted your head to the side and gasped when Heeseung traced your lips with his tongue. His hands started caressing your thighs as you broke the kiss to breathe for a second. He directed his focus onto your neck, kissing it softly.
You closed your eyes and whispered his name, when a sharp knock on your door made you jump apart. âY/N? Do you have a minute for me?â, your fathers deep voice came from the other side of the door.
You threw a panicked glance at Heeseung, who was frantically trying to smooth his hair and pull his sweatshirt into a more composed position. If your ears were even half as red as his, your father would definitely know what heâd just interrupted. With a quick attempt to brush your own hair back, you got up, meeting Heeseungâs sheepish smile with a reassuring one of your own.
Finally, you took a steadying breath and walked to open the door. âSure, Dad. Come in.â
Your father stepped inside, taking in the two of you with an expression that looked almost nervous? âY/N,â he began, his voice hesitant, âcan I talk to you for a minute? Both of you, actually.â
You exchanged a quick, curious look with Heeseung before nodding. Heeseung sat up straighter, and your dad took a deep breath before sinking into the office chair opposite you.
âIâve been thinking a lot lately,â your dad started, his hands clasped tightly together. âAbout everything⌠about how Iâve treated you since the accident.â His voice cracked slightly, and you felt your chest tighten.
âIâve been so hard on you, Y/N. Pushing, hovering, nagging⌠Itâs like Iâve been trying to fix something I canât undo.â
You blinked, caught off guard by his vulnerability. âDadâŚâ
âNo, let me finish,â he interrupted gently, his gaze dropping to the floor. âI canât forgive myself for what happened. I feel like I failed you. Youâre so young, and youâve had to deal with so muchâtoo much. And instead of helping you heal, I made things worse by trying to control everything. I just⌠I couldnât stand the thought of you hurting, and I thought that if I stayed on top of everything, it might somehow fix things.â
The raw emotion in his voice left you speechless.
âI was wrong,â he continued, looking up at you now, his eyes glassy. âIâm so sorry, Y/N. You didnât deserve that. You deserved someone who could help you without suffocating you.â
You swallowed hard, your throat tight. âDad, Iââ
âAnd Heeseung,â your dad continued, turning his attention to the boy at your side. The tension in the room seemed to double.
Heeseung straightened, his jaw tightening as if bracing for a blow.
âI was hard on you. I know that,â your dad admitted.
âWhen I found out about you and Y/N, I wasnt exactly happy.â
You winced at the memory, glancing at Heeseung, who gave a small, humorless smile.
âI didnât want her getting hurt,â your dad said, his voice softer now. âBut I realize now that I was wrong about you.â He paused, running a hand over his face before meeting Heeseungâs gaze again. âYouâre not just a great captain. Youâre a good man. And I couldnât ask for anyone better to be with my daughter.â
Heeseung looked stunned, his mouth opening and closing as he tried to process the words. Finally, he managed a quiet, âThank you, sir.â
Your dad gave a small, rueful smile. âYouâve earned it. Both of you have. And I hope youâll forgive me for the way Iâve handled things. I know itâll take time to rebuild some of the trust Iâve broken, but I just wanted you both to know how sorry I am.â
For a long moment, silence hung in the air. You felt Heeseungâs hand brush against yours, grounding you, and you reached out to take your dadâs hand.
âThank you, Dad,â you said softly, your voice thick with emotion. âIâm still mad at you, a little. But⌠Iâm glad you said this. It means a lot.â
Heeseung nodded beside you, his own expression softening. âWe appreciate it,â he said sincerely. âReally.â Your dad gave a small, watery smile.
The hotel room was softly lit, the glow from the bedside lamp casting a golden hue. You were at the small vanity, adjusting your earrings. Behind you, Heeseung was sprawled out on the bed, still in his undershirt and slacks, scrolling absentmindedly on his phone.
âYouâre not even close to being ready,â you teased, catching his reflection in the mirror.
Heeseung smirked, locking his phone and stretching out lazily. âIâm waiting for you to come help me with this dumb tie. You know I suck at it.â
âYou could have learned by now,â you chided, turning to face him. âBut no, you just like making me do it for you.â
âMaybe,â he said, sitting up. âBut itâs also an excuse to keep you close.â
You rolled your eyes but crossed the room anyway. âYouâre lucky I love you.â
âI knew you couldnât resist me,â he teased, sitting up and letting his knees part slightly so you could stand between them.
Heeseung grinned, holding the tie up like a peace offering. You took it from him, carefully looping and pulling it into a neat knot. He watched you the entire time, his eyes soft and unwavering.
âYouâre staring,â you mumbled, focusing on his tie.
âBecause youâre beautiful,â he said simply.
Your fingers faltered for a second before continuing, looping the tie around his neck and starting to knot it.
âYouâre so cheesy.â
âAnd you love it,â he quipped, echoing your usual response.
Heeseung tilted his head slightly, watching you with that warm, unrelenting gaze that always made your heart skip. As you finished the tie, your fingers brushing against his chest, he reached out to grab your hand, stopping you before you could step back. âAre you sure I look good enough to be seen with you?â
You arched a brow, feigning consideration. âHmm. Maybe. You clean up okay.â
âJust okay?â he asked, tugging gently on your hand to pull you closer. His other hand slid to your waist, his thumb tracing slow circles against the fabric of your dress.
âBetter than okay,â you admitted softly, feeling his warmth seep through the fabric.
âThatâs more like it.â Heeseungâs voice dropped an octave. His free hand reached up, brushing a strand of hair behind your ear before his fingers traced lightly down the side of your neck.
âYouâre staring again,â you murmured, your voice unsteady under his gaze.
âCan you blame me?â he said, his lips quirking into a grin. âYouâre stunning.â
âFlatterer,â you mumbled, though your cheeks flushed at his words.
âYouâre blushing,â he teased, leaning in until your noses were almost touching.
âStop it,â you whispered, half laughing, but you didnât pull away.
âMake me.âÂ
He didnât give you a chance to respond before his lips were on yours, soft at first, just a gentle brush. But the moment you leaned into him, he made a low sound deep in his throat, and the kiss shiftedâgrowing hungrier, more urgent. His hand slid around your waist, pulling you flush against him, while the other cradled your face. One of his hands came up to cradle your face, his thumb brushing lightly over your cheek, the simple gesture making your heart race even faster.
You couldnât help the small gasp that escaped you when he deepened the kiss, his tongue tentatively exploring as though he was savoring every second. Your hands instinctively flew to his hair, tangling in the soft strands as you pulled him closer. He groaned at the sensation, his fingers tightening slightly against your back. A soft whimper escaped your throat when he tilted his head, adjusting the angle to kiss you even deeper. His lips were warm and insistent, moving against yours with a mixture of passion and care that made your heart race. The hand on your back shifted, his fingers tracing slow, deliberate circles that made your skin tingle even through the fabric of your dress.
He pulled back just slightly, enough to draw in a breath, but his forehead stayed pressed to yours. His eyes were hooded, his pupils dark with something that made your stomach flip. His thumb grazed your lower lip.
âYouâre going to drive me crazy,â he murmured, his voice low and rough.
âRight back at you,â you whispered, but before you could catch your breath, he leaned back in, capturing your lips again.
This time, the kiss was slower but no less intense, his lips lingering as though memorizing the taste of you. His hand drifted upward, tangling lightly in the hair at the nape of your neck, while yours tightened their grip in his. The small tug you gave his hair made him groan again, the sound vibrating against your lips and sending a delicious thrill down your spine. His free hand slid along your waist, his fingers curling slightly against the fabric of your dress as though he couldnât decide whether to hold you closer or take his time exploring. A small, breathless sound escaped you, and he pulled back just enough to look at you.
âYou taste like vanilla,â he murmured, his voice husky and low.
âIs that a complaint?â you asked, your voice breathless, your fingers still tangled in his hair.
âNot even close,â he whispered before diving back in, his lips capturing yours with a renewed fervor.
When he finally pulled away, his lips hovered just above yours, a self-satisfied smirk spreading across his face.âStill think weâre going to be late?â
You laughed, brushing a hand through his hair to smooth it. âDefinitely.â
âAnd I donât even feel bad about it,â he said, leaning in to steal one more kiss before letting you go.
âCome on,â you said, grabbing your clutch from the nightstand. âGet your jacket. Weâre already pushing it.â
He hopped up, grabbing his jacket from the back of the chair. As you turned toward the door, he caught your hand and pulled you back to him. âFor the record,â he murmured, his lips brushing your ear, âI donât care if we miss the gala entirely. Iâve already got everything I want right here.â
You rolled your eyes but couldnât stop the smile spreading across your face. âYouâre impossible.â
âI am just lucky you love me.â he said, flashing you that boyish grin as he opened the door for you.
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Fool, Hopelessly in Love
Minho x Reader (fem.) Genre: Brotherâs Bestfriend au!, Angst, Romance, unrequited love, slow-burn, slightly NSFW (mdni) Warnings: mentions of cheating, drinking, cursing, blood, physical violence, somewhat proofread WC: 12.7k A/N: raise your hand if you needed a pining lee know fic đââď¸ Feedback is always welcome, enjoy! ââ MASTERLIST
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Lee Minho was an ordinary man. Minus the occasional dangers of his profession, he thought of himself as just an average guy leading a typical life. He was quiet and composed, enjoying his solitude, yet loved goofing off and letting loose with his closest friends. Again, despite the challenges of his job as a cop that he found fulfillment in, Minho was perfectly ordinary.
But hidden deep inside was a secret he had kept locked away for what seemed like forever.
Lee Minho was a fool, hopelessly in love.
He hadnât anticipated falling for her.Â
No.Â
Never in a million years.
He wasnât aware heâd fall this hard. The aching feeling in his heart intensified just at her presence, drawn to her like a moth to a flame, unknown to anyone but himself.
Yet all he could do was pretend.
After all, she was his best friendâs little sister.
It hadnât always been like this. Despite knowing her for more than a decade, he had never felt such an overwhelming pull to her before.
How was it possible that now, after all this time, he was painfully aware of these newfound feelings?
Her brother, was his first and only friend in high school. The then-sixteen year old had transferred in the middle of the semester, recently losing his mother, and had come to live with his uncle and aunt. He was a loner for the most part, yet by the second week of school he had gained a reputation for being blunt and rude, a cold demeanor displayed by a teenager who was still mourning. Still, the class mood maker, who was absent for the two weeks Minho had been there, due to a sports injury, smiled brightly in front of him. Knocking on the desk Minho had laid on with head buried in his arms.Â
  âSo youâre Lee Minho huh? Hey, Iâm Seo Changbin!â
His voice was loud, yet Minho never understood why he had smiled at him. Even approached him, when he was hobbling around the school and had lots of school work he had to catch up on.
But slowly they became close. Changbin would persistently stay next to him, well aware that Minho didnât want him there. The sound of Changbinâs lunch tray clattering across from him would become something he became used to. And suddenly he found himself laughing, opening up to something he didnât know he needed. A friend.Â
By the time the semester ended they were best friends. The notorious reputation he earned, long gone. They played basketball, went on trips, hung out at each otherâs places for hours, fingers working against game controllers in frenzy.Â
Thatâs how Minho met her. His best friendâs sister.
Y/N was only two years younger than they were. The siblings were always bickering. Their teasing and pranks were things that stretched even into their adulthood. But still, anyone could tell they were close. Even at fourteen, Y/Nâs voice rang out loudly, matching her brotherâs, if not even louder.
When Minho introduced himself, she quipped, âAh, so youâre Grumpy Minho from Binâs class,â earning a nudge from her flustered mother.
Their mother, a warm and kind woman, who had been acquainted with Minhoâs aunt, understood the tragedy he had endured before living in this town. Initially uncomfortable with the sad look in her gaze, Minho gradually grew accustomed to her kindness. She welcomed him into their family, treating him like a second son and providing the love and support he had lost.
As the years passed, Minhoâs bond with the Seo siblings deepened through shared experiences and countless hours spent together. By the time they graduated from high school, Minho had become a protective figure in Y/Nâs life, someone she could rely on when her brother couldnât be there.
And a few years later, once Minho graduated from the police academy, Y/N proudly declared she would marry him someday, eliciting chuckles and teasing from those around them. He was too good for her, they scoffed. Her mother, though, secretly wished it would come true, hoping Minho would become a permanent part of their family.
They all laughed.
Only a handful of years ago, Minho, who laughed at such a ridiculous thing, was now at a loss for words.
What changed so drastically that she became someone who occupied his thoughts day and night? He found solace in her smile, joy in her laughter, and pain in her tears.Â
Probably that night.Â
The day before his promotion. The week after Changbin secured a full time position at the company he had been interning at.
It was also the day Y/N planned to officially introduce her boyfriend to them.
Her birthday.
It was her first attempt at bringing a romantic partner in front of her protective older brother and his equally overwhelming best friend. One was a gym enthusiast, the other a cop, easily intimidating for any suitor.
They made reservations for dinner and drinks at an upscale venue later that evening to meet the man who supposedly made her feel special. But with so much to celebrate, the siblings decided to hit a club first. Though Minhoâs promotion was not yet official, the occasion demanded dancing, laughter, and drinks. The birthday girl, initially beaming with joy, danced gracefully to the music. However, her mood shifted upon receiving a text from her boyfriend. He was busy at work and couldnât step out, couldnât make it to her birthday celebration. She returned to find the two older guys at the bar, masking her disappointment, though they could see right through her facade.
So they decided to distract her.
They continued drinking, dancing, and trying to lift Y/Nâs spirits. Minho found himself back at the bar, navigating through the crowd when he accidentally collided with someone who looked eerily familiar. He squinted in disbelief, heâd only seen that face in pictures that Y/N shoved in his face, but he was sure it was that person. Minhoâs face had contorted, and he tried to convince himself that it wasnât who he thought it was. Perhaps the shots he downed were playing tricks on his mind. Changbin intervened, pulling him away, something about getting some fresh air. Minho nodded absently, stealing one last glance over his shoulder, but the familiar face had vanished from the bar.Â
The familiar face was outside, and Minhoâs initial hunch proved correct.
All three of them stood in stunned silence as they witnessed Y/Nâs boyfriend passionately kissing another girl by the clubâs entrance. Changbin hesitated momentarily, glancing back and forth between Y/N, frozen in disbelief, and the scene unfolding before them. Like Minho, it took a moment for the realization to sink in for him as well. Y/Nâs soft voice, barely audible over the bass of the loud club music, booming even outside, and the chatter around them, was enough to confirm their doubts.
  âHe wasnât at work after all.â Her voice carried a mix of hurt and resignation.
Her boyfriend finally noticed them, his face going pale as he hastily pushed away the girl he was with. Who turned out to be a mutual friend, looking awkward and guilty. He stumbled over his words, attempting feeble excuses that neither Minho nor Changbin found convincing. His eyes darted nervously between them, fully aware that the two men were probably going to kick his ass.
Minho let out a heavy sigh, rubbing his temples as he stepped forward to restrain Changbin, whose fists were clenched and ready to strike. Y/N remained silent, her gaze fixed on her boyfriend, processing.
  âHey, Iâm a copâŚâ Minho started, his tone cool and controlled, fully aware of the consequences of any altercation, especially the day before his promotion. And this loser was not worth it.
He glanced briefly at Changbin, silently urging him not to attack.
But before Changbin could respond, Y/N cut in sharply, her voice firm and decisive.
  âLetâs go.â She said, her tone leaving no room for argument.
She turned on her heels and walked away, leaving her boyfriend standing there, stunned and calling after her futilely. But the boyfriendâs calls cut short, seeing the deathly glare Changbin had shot his way.
Minho sighed heavily, his frustration evident as he glanced back at the cheating man, who was now taking cautious steps backward, still shielding his cheating partner.Â
  âPathetic.â Minho muttered under his breath, shaking his head in disbelief at the situation.
The Seo siblings found themselves seated in a humble hole-in-the-wall bar, far from the upscale place they had originally planned to celebrate Y/Nâs birthday. Despite its lack of glamour, the dimly lit bar became the perfect place where they could gather their thoughts.
Changbin struggled to find words that could provide comfort or solace, as he sat in the stool next to his quiet sister. His initial attempts were drowned out by the bitter taste of anger and disappointment. But each time he began to speak out in a string of curses, Minhoâs subtle gestures urged him to hold back, a silent reminder to tread carefully.
  âUgh, letâs just drink.â Changbin finally muttered, breaking the heavy silence that hung over them.
The brother-sister duo began drinking. Minho observed them quietly from his seat, knowing he would eventually need to ensure they got home safely. His gaze shifted between Changbin, visibly letting off steam with each drink, and Y/N, surprising him with her capacity to match her brotherâs pace despite her usually lightweight tolerance.
Changbin had fallen first, his head landing with a dull thud against his folded arms on the bar counter. His shoulders rose and fell rhythmically with each breath. Meanwhile, Y/N swayed slightly in her seat, her elbows propped on the counter as she cupped her flushed face in her hands. Her eyes struggled to remain open, the effects of alcohol painting her cheeks with a noticeable tinge of red. When she spoke, her words slurred together in whispers that caught Minhoâs attention. Frowning slightly, he leaned in closer, trying to decipher her drunken murmurs.
  âWhy canât I find anyone decent?â She began questioning, turning towards Minho, who truly did not have any answers for her.
Minho listened intently as Y/N poured out her frustrations, her voice wavering with a mix of disappointment and vulnerability.
  âI just want a good man who will treat me well.â She lamented, her glistening gaze searched his face for understanding.
  âBefore this cheating dog, there was the jerk who just wanted a fling. Before him was the thief. Even you laughed at the idea of marrying me.âÂ
Minho had blinked back, suddenly caught off guard by her last sentence.Â
  âHave you never seen me like that?â Her question hung in the air, heavy with implications that Minho suddenly struggled to process.
He continued to blink, big eyes taken aback by the unexpected turn of the conversation.
For a moment, silence enveloped them, broken only by the soft murmur of the bar and Changbinâs occasional sleepy shuffle on the other side of her. Y/Nâs eyes bore into Minhoâs, waiting for a response that he didnât have.
  âYou are a good guy then.â She whispered finally, a fragile smile playing on her lips.
And she leaned in, her lips meeting his.
The man next to her stiffened. Wide eyes bore into the air behind her. His mind raced as Y/Nâs lips brushed against his, a gentle press that sent a jolt through his entire being. Her warmth lingered on his lips even as she pulled back, her sheepish smile breaking the spell of their fleeting moment.Â
Before he could process what had just happened, Y/N slumped forward onto the bar counter with a heavy thud, the sound echoing in the quiet bar. Changbin stirred beside her, groggily lifting his head and scanning the scene with furrowed brows of confusion. Minho could feel his heart pounding in his chest, entire body igniting with a burning sensation.
  âWhatâs wrong?â His best friend muttered, still a little drunk, a little sleep hazed.Â
Minho snapped out of his daze, still utterly at a loss for words.
The siblings had shown up hungover at his promotion ceremony, they had gotten so drunk to the point that Changbin only remembered bits and pieces of the previous night, while Y/N didnât remember anything at all. Her genuinely puzzled expression left Minho feeling conflicted, uncertain of how to process the situation.Â
He couldnât help but wonder if he should be relieved that she couldnât remember, sparing her from embarrassment. Yet, another part of him wondered if he should have felt worried that she did something like that? What if it had been someone else?
Or maybe he shouldâve been mad that he had to be the only one who knows what happened between them?Â
But ultimately, Minho did not want to confront it.
Instead he lied. Nothing stupid had happened.
Minho brushed off the incident as a drunken mistake, burying it deep within and keeping it hidden from everyone. Even her.
But then his mind wandered beyond his control, bringing up questions he never anticipated.
What did Y/N mean when she included him in the list of guys who hurt her?
Did she truly want to marry him back then?Â
Why did she kiss him?Â
The detective wracked his brains. The unanswered questions gnawed at Minhoâs thoughts like an unsolved case. It replayed in his mind, each detail scrutinized for clues. Surely, part of her had to be aware she was kissing him and not someone else.
Her words, âYou are a good guy,â echoed in his mind.
His eyes tracked her movements with a new intensity, questions at the tip of his tongue but never said aloud.
Thatâs probably how it started.
A slow time-lapse of his resolve breaking down, a gradual shift in his perception of her, something that seemed to have easily slipped under his radar.
He found himself looking for her, his eyes wandering until they landed on her. Each time he saw her, his mind replayed the moment. The soft of her lips, plush against his, the warmth of her smile afterward, and the sheepish glance she had given him before succumbing to unconsciousness.
He had smacked himself, shuddering for even remembering such details. Despite his efforts to push aside those memories, they persisted stubbornly, haunting him.
Then he woke up one night, stunned. Eyes darted from one end of his room to the other, his chest heaved with each panicked breath.Â
He had dreamt of her. Â
He had dreamt of kissing her.Â
And he had liked every second of it.
The sensation was so vivid, so real, that it lingered even in the darkness of his bedroom.
It doesnât take much for a woman to get a man to notice her, even if itâs just from a drunken encounter.
Minho wrestled with himself, debating whether he should have just told her the truth when she asked the next day if she had done anything foolish.Â
But it was too late he concluded. He had already lied.
Instead, he made himself busy.
The new detective was commended for taking on so many new cases. To the outside world, he appeared focused and driven, but deep down, only Minho knew the real reason behind his relentless workload. It was his defense against thoughts of Y/N.
Against the memories of that kiss, the confusing emotions that followed, and the vivid dreams.
And for a while, his strategy seemed to work. He managed to avoid seeing Y/N frequently, although he had little energy left for socializing with anyone else at all.
Minho was becoming a fool, falling hopelessly in love.
There was a particular instance when she dropped by unexpectedly with coffee, and his new teammates couldnât resist teasing him about whether she was his girlfriend. His response was unexpectedly sharp and loud, heavy with denial.Â
  âOf course not! Never!âÂ
It made her flinch, visibly taken aback.
  âGeez, you donât have to deny it that eagerly.â She retorted, rolling her eyes at him before turning to his team and introducing herself with a lighthearted smile.
If only she had known how much of his thoughts she had taken up.Â
Minho tried to convince himself out of those forbidden feelings til the very end.
But then he found himself smiling at her while she did something she always does. In that fleeting instance, he found her utterly endearing, cute even.
The realization hit him like a sudden wave, his smile fading as he stood frozen, eyes cast downward. It was as if his heart had sent a clear message to his entire being.
 Accept it, you like her.
Everyone always talks about the five stages of grief, but what about the stages of secretly crushing on your best friendâs sister?
Then came anger.
His emotions finally boiled over one day when Y/N visited him unexpectedly on New Yearâs Eve, insisting that he take a break from his relentless work schedule and join their celebrations. His outburst wasnât just about her interrupting him, he knew it stemmed from the frustration and confusion he felt about his growing feelings for her. The emotions he shouldnât have even felt to begin with.
Why was he the only one tormented by that damn kiss?
Why was he the only one dreaming of doing things to her that made him shudder just thinking about?
Was it even fair to blame her?
These questions gnawed at him, stirring up a storm of conflicting emotions that he struggled to contain.
In a moment of raw vulnerability, he lashed out, slamming his hands against her and the wall, unintentionally caging her between them. Y/N was stunned at his outburst, confused as to why he acted that way, worried even. Her concerned eyes darted between his shining gaze.
  âIâm not supposed to feel like this.â It was a panicked mutter to himself.
The intensity of his emotions surprised him, and he quickly recoiled, realizing his eyes had lingered on her lips.Â
Afraid that heâd be the one to kiss her this time. Fully sober.Â
He pulled back abruptly, his fear palpable. The thought of doing something and crossing a line that he had been desperately trying to avoid, terrified him.
Y/N thought Minhoâs outburst was because of stress from work, concerned that he was dealing with a particularly challenging or disturbing case.
She misunderstood. And he let her misunderstand.Â
Then he disappeared.Â
Well, attempted to disappear. Believing that some time away would help him sort out his feelings and make them fade, much like Y/Nâs apparent teenage crush on him.Â
He was confident at one point that he would be able to overcome whatever disease he believed it to be. If he believed hard enough that he would convince himself that it wasnât so.
But the dreams.
The damn dreams that often woke him up in the middle of the night, sweaty, ears and cheeks red and flushed, the painful tent in his pants. All make him groan, rubbing his face in his palms.
He had transferred to another city for a year to get away from the source that made him feel those emotions heâs never felt before, but once there and away from her, he did nothing but pine for her.Â
Alone in a city over, Minho had constantly prayed for those forbidden feelings to fade as quickly as they surfaced. But after crying to himself countless nights, feeling overwhelmed by the turmoil within him, the tug at his chest whenever he thought about her, the detectiveâs prayers changed.
He prayed she would be his.
Thatâs how this game of pretend began.Â
After returning back, Minho slipped back into his routine. As if the year apart hadnât stirred and set his feelings for Y/N in stone. As if he hadnât been pushed over the edge. Pretending that he hadnât fully accepted the fact that he was probably in love with her.
He smiled and laughed as he always did. Changbin and him would hang out, catching up on everything heâs missed over the last year. He lied he had been well, that the city he was working in kept him so busy he didnât have time to think.
Of course his thoughts were full of his best friendâs sister, but the detective would never admit that.
Throughout this charade, Minho often found himself searching for Y/N in crowded rooms or during quiet moments. In hopes he could simply observe her and take in his fill of her for the day.
Then one day, when he asked about her, Changbin casually mentioned that she was on a date with her boyfriend. Unlike the fleeting relationships Y/N had described before, this one seemed different.
This one stayed.
This one was a good man. ââââââââââââââââââââââââ Y/N had known almost instantly that she saw him as something more than just a brother figure. From the moment she met Minho, she teased him. A familiar sense of comfort lay over her whenever she was with him. At fourteen she didnât know what that feeling was, concluding it was because he was someone she looked up to in some sense, much like she did with her own brother.
But when she began maturing, going from a fourteen-year-old who was busy fangirling over her favorite boy band, her eyes began opening up to the beautiful chapter of teenage love.
It started out as a crush. Her heart raced at the sight of her brotherâs best friend, her cheeks flushed whenever Minho spoke to her. At seventeen, she convinced herself it was love, it had to be love. So when she realized that she would never be able to cross that line and get out of his blatant sister-zone, she was heartbroken. He was, after all, her first love.
First loves, however, often end up as stories scribbled in diaries or reminisced about in old age. The chapter of secretly loving Lee Minho closed by her college years. Or so she thought, because exactly on her twenty-second birthday she had kissed him. But the only problem was that the memory of it was all fuzzy.
If only Minho hadnât abruptly chosen to leave and transfer, perhaps things would have unfolded differently. But that all remained unknown, probably in another storyline, another universe.
Y/N had a knack for falling for the wrong type of guys, the ones who effortlessly wielded charm and knew the right words to say.
A magnet for heartbreak, her friends would tease.
But everything changed when she met Han Jisung.
Han Jisung, a good man.Â
Their paths crossed at the cosmetics company where Jisung was in finances while Y/N worked in the marketing department. Initially, they didnât cross paths, beyond sharing the same workplace. However, when Y/Nâs team leader, responsible for a critical product launch, went into early labor, she was suddenly thrust into the role of temporary team leader. Finding herself collaborating with the finance department frequently.
Their relationship unfolded like a classic enemies-to-lovers tale. The ambitious temporary team leader, determined to ensure a flawless campaign, clashed with the detail-oriented man who managed budgets and processes. Despite the initial dislike, they found themselves drawn to each other, their feelings blossoming into a deep romance.
A year had passed since Minho left, a year of change. Suddenly, when Minho decided it was time to confront his feelings he had a painful realization.
It would remain a dream, a reality that that was unreachable and impossible.Â
Minho felt his heart race, cheeks flushed with a mixture of emotions he surprisingly managed to mask. Extending his hand, his smile concealed the turmoil within him, meeting Jisungâs steady gaze.
  âNice to meet you. Iâm Han Jisung, Y/Nâs boyfriend.â
Glancing at Y/N, Minho caught the nervous anticipation in her eyes, a silent plea for his acceptance. He realized how much his opinion mattered to her, how dear he was to her. Though not in the way he yearned for. Her eyes sparkled with admiration as she looked at Jisung, a gleam of affection shining through.
Returning the handshake, Minho nodded graciously, his voice smooth, even though he tasted bitterness with every word.
  âNice to meet you too.â He smiled, lying straight through his teeth.
Her brotherâs best friend found himself hoping this new man was just another in the string of disappointments Y/N met. Like every other asshole she thought made her feel special. Minho wished she would discover him cheating, or catch him stealing from her. Anything that would rid him from her.
He wished she would cry because of this other man.
How selfish of him.
But he couldnât help it.Â
Like he couldnât help loving her no matter how much distance he put between them.
His yearning for her so painful that sometimes he found himself clutching at his chest. Sometimes crying in the solitude of his bedroom.
Minho had never thought he would love secretly.
No, an unrequited love story was something he had never imagined for himself. Especially with his best friendâs little sister.
Lee Minho was an attractive man. He had dated his fair share of women, was successful as a detective with a good income. It was obvious heâd be able to protect his woman. And no matter how much of a cold front he put up in public, he could love his woman madly.
He would love his woman madly, doing exactly that, with his walls of pretend built up so high no one was able to catch even a glimpse of it.
Except he didnât think when he tucked that photo into his favorite book.
A captured moment of Y/Nâs radiant smile, standing beside him with a bouquet of flowers held between them. He was sharply dressed in his police uniform, a proud symbol of his graduation from the academy. It was the photo that brought him solace during his time away. The one he couldnât help but stare at every time he missed her that year he was away.
He was a cop, yet he had done a terrible job of hiding the picture.
So when he was caught, he was utterly surprised. His eyes widened as he froze at the entrance of his bedroom door, seeing his best friend holding up the photo in his hand, the open book it had been in, flat against the desk.
Changbin glanced at him, his furrowed brows relaxing, and in an instant, the detective understood exactly what that look meant.
Realization.
Changbin wasnât the brightest in the box growing up, yet he was sharp enough to become an accountant at a very big company.
Only a handful of minutes ago, the accountantâs ocd got the best of him as he stared at the clutter on Minhoâs desk. He rifled through to somewhat organize, instantly his eyes caught sight of a familiar paperback novel. Its spine bent at a particular page, the book hovered open slightly. Changbin had opened it, eyes immediately seeing the photo, fingers automatically picking it up. At first he smiled, thinking back to the day it was taken. He was probably the one who took it. He glanced down at the half open novel, eyes narrowing, wondering why the photo was in there in the first place. His free hand flipped through the pages to see if there were other photos in there from that day, or even of Minhoâs other friends.
But there wasnât.
So the best friend stared intently at the photo of his sister and Minho. At the creases at the corner, clearly there from constant holding. And then his mind went back to that one time right after Minhoâs return. The night the two of them drank by the river.Â
Changbin had asked if Minho wanted to be set up on a date. Some of his female colleagues were constantly asking him if he had any single friends, so he thought of Minho. Weirdly, the detective was single even with that handsome face. Weirdly, he chose to be single. For a long time.Â
Changbin had poured some liquor into his glass, asking why he didnât want to go on a blind date. Minho smiled and leaned back into his seat.Â
  âI have someone I like.â
His alcohol induced confession, surprised his best friend, who blinked back a couple times, leaning in. With both elbows on the table, his brows raised.
  âWhen? WhoâWhy didnât you tell me?âÂ
Minho let out a faint chuckle.
  âShe doesnât know.â
Changbin frowned. There was a clear look of confusion in his eyes.
  âWhy? Are you not going to tell herâah, dummy what are you waiting for?â His mind racked, awaiting for a valid excuse.
  âShe has a boyfriend. Sheâs happy.â It was evident that the smile on Minhoâs face was a sad one, eyes staring at the bottle of alcohol set in the center.Â
Changbin silently sighed, quickly catching on. This was something he wasnât able to help out with. Instead he cleared his throat, waving it off, attempting to quickly changing the topic.Â
  âWaitâjust tell me. Is she someone I know?â
Minho looked up. He blinked at the man across from him, before he sat up in his chair. Slowly he shook his head and he smiled.Â
  âNo.â
Even if it was for a second. He hesitated.
Of course once sober, Minho had cursed himself for confessing such a thing to his best friend. But neither of them had ever brought it up.
Until now.
Maybe a part of him wanted to get caught. Maybe he wanted someone to uncover this harbored secret and rid him of some of his suffering.
  âShe has a boyfriend. Sheâs happy⌠It was Y/N?â
Changbinâs voice broke the tense silence that hung heavily between them, his tone a mix of disbelief and shock.
With a resigned nod, Minho finally acknowledged the truth. There was no use in denying it anymore. Changbin had already pieced it together.
The two men fell silent, the room almost seemed as if it froze in time. Minho kept his eyes fixed on the ground, the weight of his unrequited love heavier than ever in that moment, while the best friend grappled with Minhoâs hidden feelings out in the open.
Changbin, usually quick-witted, was unsure how to react. He suddenly wrestled with conflicting emotions. He wasnât exactly thrilled that his best friend had romantic feelings for his sister, but at the same time he couldnât bring himself to be angry either.
Should he feel betrayed? Upset or curious?
Should he ask âsince when?âÂ
Questions swirled in Changbinâs mind, yet he didnât ask any of them. Instead a wave of sympathy washed over him and he stared at his silent friend with concern. Aware that Y/N was the woman who didnât know, the one that had a boyfriend.
The one that was happy.Â
His friend was simply a fool, hopelessly in love.
Finally breaking the silence, Changbin suggested quietly, âLetâs get a drink.â
Minho looked up, surprise flickering across his features at the unexpected invitation. Changbin turned away from him, returning the photo to its place between the bookâs pages. With deliberate movements, he placed the closed book back to the place he found it. After his best friend had learned of Minhoâs well kept secret, the detective hoped a weight would lift from his shoulders, that he would no longer need to wear a constant mask of smiles. Yet, he found himself more conflicted than ever.
Y/N had gushed about her boyfriend. The one that made her laugh, beam with joy.
The one that made her happy.
The detective would nod along as she told him about something funny her boyfriend did, as if his knuckles hadnât grown white from the extremely tight ball of his fists he made. He would reach over with a smile and ruffle her hair. Pretending that he wasnât just thinking about enveloping her pretty lips in his so he didnât need to hear her talk about another man.
But instead he sighed.
  âEnough.â He murmured softly, his eyes were dark with emotions she couldnât quite grasp.
He turned away, attempting to busy himself, while she pouted, unaware of the turmoil within him.Â
And just like that another season had passed. Her brotherâs best friend continued to bury his secret deep inside.
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The summer air hung heavy as Minho clicked away at his desk, ignoring his teamâs complaints about the heat. It was only before leaving that he was summoned to an emergency meeting about a suspect.
Minho was assigned to apprehend the man. But suddenly the youngest detective on the team found himself in the middle of a chase. And although Minho and his partner had eventually managed to tackle the suspect to the ground, the young detective groaned after the heated altercation they had. The sudden scuffle that had ensued before he managed to pin the suspect to the ground, hands cuffed behind the flailing and cursing manâs back.
  âYouâre bleeding.â His partner pointed out, concern etched in his eyes as he gestured to Minhoâs forehead.
  âHuh?â Minho touched the stinging wound, feeling the wetness of blood on his fingertips. He shrugged saying it was nothing.
  âYou sure youâre okay?â
The detective shakes it off as he nodded.
  âIâm good.â
Except he wasnât, and his legs buckled under him, his vision grew hazy as he fell to the ground.
Y/N smoothed her lipstick, preparing for a date she had spent too long getting ready for. Sighing at the mess around her she mentally groaned. A problem future Y/N would have to deal with, she concluded.
As she stepped outside, her phone buzzed with Changbinâs name. The younger sister narrowed her eyes wondering what he wanted. He was at a conference in the next town over, surely there wasnât anything he would have needed her for. But immediately after picking up she was taken aback by her brotherâs urgent voice.
  âWhere are you!âÂ
  âIâm on my way out. Why?â Locking the door, she started walking out.
  âGet to the hospital now! Minho is hurt.âÂ
Her brotherâs words made her falter, eyes staring into the night.
  âH-Hospital?â She repeated in a shout, looking around to halt a taxi.
  âYeah, he got hurt on duty. They called me as his emergency contact.â Changbinâs voice is laced with worry.
Y/N begins to freak out, thoughts conjuring up the worst scenarios. With fear and worry coursing through her, she managed to hail a taxi. Her heart raced as the cab sped through the night. When she arrived breathlessly, she began running through the hospital corridors until she found the front desk.
  âL-Lee Minho. Where is he?âÂ
It isnât until sheâs drawing the curtains back to reveal a wide awake Minho, that she almost melts with her sigh of relief. Heâs sitting on the hospital bed with his feet on the ground, a look of annoyance etched across his face. But upon seeing her sudden figure staring at him with concern, heâs stunned.
He had swore he was okay, the nurses had said he only had a concussion, yet they wouldnât allow him to leave on his own. He insisted he was fine, that heâs been hurt even worse before, that it was nothing. But still, they didnât sign off on his discharge. His teammates were too busy with the suspect, his emergency contacts either not picking up or out of town. He had fully expected to spend the night here, or at least be kept here until they thought he was fine to leave on his own. But seeing Y/Nâs distraught form sliding into the open chair as she caught her breath, almost had his own breath hitch.
  âWhat are you doing here?â He finally asked, puzzled.
Glaring at him, Y/N finally stood and approached, eyes scanning his injuries. There was a wound on his forehead covered by the dressing of bandages, a red gash on his jaw, blood on his shirt and bandaids on his forearm. Clear signs of a scuffle he didnât want her to know about. He stiffened under her hot gaze, his next words stuck in his throat.
  âI heard you were fighting the nurses to leave. How can a grown man not listen to the professionals?â Her voice is stern.
  âIâm finââ
  âNo youâre not.â She cuts him off.
Her finger pushed back the hair that fell over his bandaged forehead, trying to take a closer look. He grips at the sheet of the bed, sucking in a breath.
  âDoes it hurt?â Worry tinged in her words.
Minho canât help but break into a smile at the softness of her tone, as if seconds ago she wasnât scolding him. He brushed away her hand.
  âIt doesnât anymore. Iâm actually more embarrassed that I passed out on the streets.â He laughed, trying to dismiss her concern.
  âIâm fine, I promise.â He stated, as he looked back up at her.
But, once again, he stumbles as he takes a stand. This time she caught him, grabbing his torso to steady him before shooting him another glare.
  âJust a little light-headed.â He grinned sheepishly, slowly allowing her to throw his arm around her shoulder for support.
Minho felt exhaustion wash over him as they settled into the back seat of the cab. Despite waking up in the hospital bed not too long ago, he now felt the urge to sleep again. His head swayed momentarily before he leaned against Y/Nâs shoulder.
Just for now. He told himself, his eyes closing.
Y/N glanced down at him, though his eyes were closed, he was still awake, his slightly furrowed brows revealing his discomfort. She swallowed, wondering whose heart was beating so fast, hers or his?
Helping him back to his apartment was easier than she expected. Inside, she gently settled him on the couch and placed her belongings on the coffee table.
  âIâm fine now. You can head back.â Minho insisted, noticing her taking off her jacket and rolling up her sleeves.
Ignoring his protests, she proceeded with her plan. Through tired eyes, the older man watched as she moved effortlessly around his apartment, reheating a pot of soup on the stove before bringing him a glass of water, which he gulped down quickly. And then sheâs swiftly taking it back. The injured man observed her from his spot, soft gaze taking in the sight of her doing something so simple, yet his heart clenched. His watching gaze is interrupted by the soft vibrating sound of her phone. His eyes flickered to the device on the coffee table, his throat suddenly feeling dry as her boyfriendâs name flashed across the screen with another missed call.
The boyfriend she had forgotten all about.
Once again, Minho tried to convince her to leave, but she persisted. She helped him out of his jacket, placing it neatly on a nearby chair, then handed him an ice pack wrapped in a towel for his bruising jaw.Â
  âPress.â She instructed firmly, and he complied.
A comfortable silence settled between them. And sometime after he felt his eyelids getting heavy.
Minho wasnât sure when he had drifted off to sleep again, but when he woke up in the early hours of the morning, he was still dressed in last nightâs clothes, feeling his head still ache faintly. The coffee table was clean of last nightâs contents, her belongings, the bowl of soup, and the make-shift ice pack were gone. Just like she was.
Heading to the kitchen for another glass of water, his eyes caught sight of a note on the fridge.
Medicine on the counter. Bin should be visiting this afternoon. Take it easy and DO NOT WORK!
He couldnât help but smile at the familiar messy handwriting, sticking the note back onto the fridge before pouring himself a glass of water.
Han Jisung had come to realize, sometime into their relationship, that Y/Nâs eyes didnât light up for him the way they did when she spoke about Minho.
Initially, he thought Minho was just a brotherly figure to her, but he started noticing subtle gestures. The way the so-called brother figure would hold his hand over the corner of a table when she bent down to pick up whatever she dropped. The way his gaze would follow her across the room, full of emotions he would mask as quick as they emerged, were far from brotherly.
She blew off their date. And this wasnât the first time.Â
Jisung wanted to ask her to move in with him last night, to replace the small corner of her heart where Minho unknowingly seemed to reside, with himself. He wanted to end this one-sided battle with the detective. But she had stood him up.
She was sitting across from him, yet her mind was on Minho, glancing back at her phone to see if the injured detective had gotten up, had read her messages. Any word from him that wouldâve calmed her mind.
There was always a reasonable excuse. Just like this excuse she gave him. Minho was injured, and there wasnât anyone else to help besides herself. She apologized profusely. But her boyfriend couldnât shake the memory of his unanswered calls, and then the message she sent after finally leaving Minhoâs place at dawn. He thought back to the lingering gazes his girlfriend had.
  âYou love him.â Jisung finally said, the conclusion painfully obvious to him.
It was such an easy connection to make, yet she stared back at him slightly taken aback by the directness of his statement.
He watched as her expression contorted to a frown.
  âWhat are you talking about?â Y/Nâs fingers tug at his arm across the table.
He sighed, dropping his head briefly before meeting her eyes, holding back the words he wanted to say. Instead, he withdrew his arm.
  âYou love Detective Lee. Your brotherâs best friend.âÂ
The accusation seemed absurd to her, and her brows furrowed into a deeper frown. How could she love Minho.
How could she still love Minho?
There was no way. She cared for him, certainly⌠but love? However, when she tried to speak, the words of refusal didnât come out. The denial she wanted to voice remained stuck on her tongue.
She couldnât say anything against it. And her eyes widened in realization.
The boyfriend watched as the truth dawned on her, the emotions she thought she had locked up and thrown away the key to long ago, flooding her. Shock and a lingering fearfulness filled her gaze.
Jisung attempted to smile, but of course he couldnât bring himself to be happy, heâd be crazy if he did. He gently grasps her hands, guiding her out of her thoughts, noticing the tears that had welled up unknowingly, shimmering under the lights.
  âNo. I-I donât. Jisung-IâŚâ Y/N attempted to deny it, to shake off this unsettling feeling, but she failed.
She couldnât even lie.
  âItâs okay.â He muttered gently.
Jisung didnât expect to have gotten in the way of something that ran so deep, even though she herself wasnât aware of it. He felt quite foolish, but surprisingly he didnât regret it, falling for Y/N.
And another beautiful chapter of her life had ended just like that. ââââââââââââââââââââââââ Changbin watched his sister sigh once again, her fingers absently stirring the creamer into her coffee. Her mind seemed far away, lost in her thoughts.
Y/N had been like this for most of the past couple of weeks, though it wasnât until recently that Changbin, usually not very observant, began to take notice. Their mother would ask her a question, snapping her out of her worries momentarily, her frown smoothing into a smile that didnât reach her eyes.
The older brother sensed that something was amiss with her. Her behavior had been unusual, especially when it came to her boyfriend. Whenever he tried to ask probing questions, she deflected or shut down the conversation entirely. He couldnât shake the feeling that her boyfriend was somehow involved. Changbin convinced himself that the asshole had done something.
His suspicions were confirmed a month later when Changbin spotted Jisung out with another person, clearly on a date. Normally composed, Changbin found himself reacting in a way that he probably shouldnât have, resulting in a trip to the police station.
Sure, the brother was the type to use his fists first, and his typically level-headed best friend wasnât there to restrain him either. But Minho did not see Y/Nâs boyfriend leaning over to press a small kiss onto whoever he was with. The confrontation left both Changbin and Jisung bruised and battered.Â
So there Seo Changbin sat, surrounded by an officer, who glanced back and forth between him and the other man, both marked with bruises and cuts from their altercation. At one point, Changbin had even been on the other side of those bars, though Jisung had steadfastly refused to press any charges.Â
Minho practically sprinted up the stairs, alerted by a call from an officer who recognized Changbin as his best friend. When he arrived at the holding area, Minho took in the scene before him with a sharp inhale, surprised by what he saw. But before he could even begin to ask what the hell had happened, Y/Nâs voice cut through the tension.
  âWhat did you do?â Her voice crackled with anger as she strode towards the now group of four men.Â
Changbin sighed inwardly, shooting a glare at Jisung. He was certain Jisung had been the one to call her.
  âYou didnât tell them?â Jisung raised an eyebrow, a red bruise marring his cheek, causing Y/N to grimace in a mix of guilt and embarrassment.
  âI didnât. Iâm sorry.â She shook her head apologetically.
Changbin frowned deeply, casting a bewildered look between the two of them.
  âYou two actually broke up?!â His exclamation made Minho clench his fists at his sides, his eyes widening even more as another piece of the puzzle fell into place.
The ex boyfriend had admitted to the breakup when Changbin had grabbed his collar earlier, but at the time, Changbin hadnât believed him. âCheating bastards will say anything to make excusesâ, he had spat out then.
Now, though, the older brother found himself grappling with the reality of it all, followed by a heavy dose of embarrassment.
The officer finally cleared his throat, directing a pointed look at the detective, bringing Minho out of his thoughts.
  âThis appears to be a personal matter. Since Mr. Han has decided not to press charges, I suggest you resolve this among yourselves.â The officer sighed, returning to the paperwork that awaited him.
  âThank you, Officer Kim.â Minho finally spoke up, nodding gratefully at his colleague, who responded with a thumbs-up before refocusing on his duties.
For the past three months, Y/N had wrestled with her thoughts. In the solitude of her bedroom, she would give herself a pep talk. Each night, she lay beneath her sheets, urging herself to muster the courage to confess to Minho. Yet, every morning, as the sun rose, she found herself backing away, consumed by doubt.
It was an endless cycle that wouldâve continued if she hadnât received the stressful call from Jisung, the ex boyfriend sighing into the phone as he informed her of what had happened. There was only one reason she hadnât disclosed the breakup to her brother or his best friend.
It was pretty obvious, she had no excuse.
Jisung was a good guy. He was always going to be a good guy. Even the way he broke up with her was the coolest way she had ever heard.
What would she say when Changbin inevitably asked about their split?
She feared she might confess everything. Her emotions, her thoughts, her lingering gazes, everything that tied back to Lee Minho, his best friend.
So she hid it, hoping to pass it off as lovers drifting apart or becoming too busy for each other. But as she watched her swollen-lipped brother and bruising ex boyfriend exit the station, regret washed over her. She realized she should have come clean sooner. At least to her older brother who had always been protective of her in his own way.
The weight of it all suddenly felt heavier than ever before.
Changbin might have been one to always jump to conclusions before hearing any side of any story, but he wasnât shameless to not accept his mistakes. He bowed his head in apology, guilt plain on his face as he surveyed Jisungâs injuries. Jisung, the good guy, smiled reassuringly, shaking his head as he comforted the older brother.
  âIt was all a misunderstanding, donât worry about it.â
Minho remained silent, catching the meaningful glance Jisung shot his way before bidding farewell.
The three of them sat in tense silence in Minhoâs car, heading towards the detectiveâs place where they knew Changbin could find refuge because they knew his mother would have a heart attack if he went home looking like that. Once inside, Changbin wasted no time, directing an accusatory glare at his sister.
  âWe need to talk!â His voice was strained with anger, his words cutting through the quiet.
Changbin headed inside, pacing restlessly in Minhoâs bedroom, trying to calm his nerves.
Minho tugged at Y/Nâs hand, halting her before she could follow behind.Â
  âAre you sure everything is okay?â His voice was gentle, eyes filled with concern.
She fought the urge to not jump into his embrace, as she slowly shook off his gentle grip, nodding.
  âEverything is okay. He was just trying to protect me. I understand why heâs upset.â Y/N nodded again, mustering a reassuring smile before retreating into the bedroom, the door closing softly behind her.
Changbinâs questions came immediately, causing Y/N to unintentionally flinch as she leaned against the door.
  âWhen did you break up?â His tone was urgent, probing.
  âNo, why did you break up? I thought you really liked him?â The questions poured out in a torrent, exactly as she had anticipated since arriving at Minhoâs apartment.
Y/N felt her nerves intensify, her lips trembling slightly as she prepared to answer. It felt like all the emotions she had bottled up were now on the brink of spilling out, her brotherâs steady gaze bearing down on her.
  âWe broke up three months ago.â She whispered, her voice barely audible.
She watched as Changbin took a deep breath, his expression tightening as he processed her words. She felt overwhelmed, the heavy feeling from earlier washing over her with more intensity.
The brother had been about to barrage her with more questions, but the sight of tears streaming down Y/Nâs face left him speechless and bewildered. Panic surged through him as he rushed to her side, unsure of how to comfort her, his eyes darting around in confusion and worry.
  âW-why are you crying?â He didnât know what to do, his voice quivered with concern as he gently reached out towards her.
She wasnât entirely sure why the tears were flowing so freely either. But deep down, she knew her heart was in turmoil. She could feel her heart clenching, the alternate paths she had taken to forget Lee Minho had ultimately led her in a circle, back to him. Her brotherâs best friend, unaware in the other room, stood oblivious to her feelings.
The words poured out with ease, much to her surprise.
  âI just love Lee Minho so much.â Y/Nâs voice squeaked out between sobs, her palms pressed against her eyes in a futile attempt to stop the downpour of tears.
Changbin froze, his hands dropping limply to his sides as he struggled to process what he had just heard.
She wasnât talking about his best friend Lee Minho right?
He blinked, processing her words.
  âW-what?â His voice came out in a calm yet incredulous tone, his eyes blinking in disbelief as he locked gazes with his sisterâs pained expression.
  âIâve always loved him. I-I was just too scared to admit it.â Y/N confessed, her voice wavering with emotion.
Dumbfounded didnât even begin to describe how Changbin felt at that moment. Shocked and stunned, he stood rooted to the spot, unable to comprehend whatever was happening right now.
His sister loved his best friend.Â
His best friend loved his sister.
Were these two playing a game he wasnât aware of?Â
For some reason the brother felt anger bubbling within him.
He had been patient enough.
But after taking a beating from his sisterâs apparent ex boyfriend, who was trying to defend himself, and then staring at his best friend flash sad smiles ever since he found out about his one-sided love, Changbin had finally lost it.
  âYou two are going to drive me fucking insane.â His muttered words shattered the uneasy silence that had settled in the room.
Frustrated and visibly upset, Changbin flung open the bedroom door and strode into the living room where Minho sat. The detective stood up immediately, concern etched on his face as he noticed Y/N trailing behind her brother, her confused eyes, red and teary.
  âWhat happened?â Minhoâs voice was laced with worry as he glanced between the siblings, searching for answers.
Changbinâs frustration boiled over. He scoffed before he shot a pointed glare first at his sister, then at his best friend
Though right now, that title was very close to being revoked.
  âYou!â Changbin snapped, jabbing his finger accusingly at Minho, who blinked, startled.
  âTell her everything, or I swear to god Iâll end up in jail again.âÂ
He turned swiftly to face his stunned sister.
  âIf you donât tell him today Iâm gonna shave your head.â He threatened, his frustrated anger, palpable.
Minho and Y/N watched in surprised astonishment as Changbin grabbed his jacket he had thrown on the stool upon their arrival and stomped towards the door.
  âBut your faceââ Minho began.
  âIâll live!â Changbin yelled back over his shoulder.
The door slammed shut with a resounding echo, the automatic lock beeping a few moments later. In the sudden aftermath of Changbinâs outburst, Minho and Y/N stood frozen, trying to process what had just happened.
After a long, tense silence, Minho studied Y/Nâs tear-streaked face, his mind racing with questions. What had her brother said to upset her so much? Or was it about Jisung? The mere thought of her ex boyfriend tightened his jaw with unresolved emotions.
  âWhy did you break up with him?â Minho finally broke the silence, his voice gentle yet probing, his gaze soft as he waited for her answer.
Another few seconds of silence after, Y/N seemed to finally find her voice.
  âI-I donât love him.â She whispered, the admission slipping out easier now that she had opened up to Changbin.
She watched as his brows relaxed, taking in her words. Minho felt a wave of relief wash over him, her words sinking in, but his brows furrowed slightly again as he processed this new revelation.
  âSince when?â He took a step closer.
  âSince I realized a few months ago.â She confessed, a small sniffle escaping before she wiped away the remaining tears that had mostly dried on her cheeks.
Minho took another step forward, now only an armâs reach away from her.
  âWhy didnât you tell anyone? Why did Changbin have to end up at the police station before he found out?â
His questions mirrored those her brother had asked. But how could she explain it to him? She couldnât say that she was a fool, hopelessly in love with him. Even though she had practically admitted as much back in the room to Changbin.
She was terrified. Afraid that once she acknowledged the feelings that she had tried to suppress for so long, she would end up in the same place she was all those years ago.
She did end up in the same place, loving her brotherâs best friend.
  âI was scared.â Y/N breathed out, her eyes darting nervously between Minhoâs.
His gaze softened, his fingers reaching out to gently wipe away the tear stains on her skin, unaware of the goosebumps his touch gave her.
  âScared of what?â His voice was barely a whisper now, his head tilting slightly as he searched her eyes.
Y/N felt his touch like a burning imprint on her skin, her heart racing so fast and hard that she was certain he could hear it.
She swallowed.
  âThat Iâd have to tell everyone about my feelings for you. About how infatuated I am with you.â
Silence enveloped them as Minhoâs gaze widened slowly, his fingers freezing at her jaw before falling to his side. His expression was a mixture of surprise, and something deeper, unspoken emotions flickering in his eyes. He seemed to be processing her words, his mind racing with thoughts.
It wasnât what he was thinking right?
Surely not.
He was imagining it, his crazy mind making up stuff, stretching and connecting her words into what he wanted to hear.
But Y/Nâs heart sank as Minho stunned stare, his expression a mix of shock and confusion. His silence weighed heavily on her, confirming her worst fears.
She had gotten too bold.
Let her feelings slip too easily.
She let out a self-deprecating laugh, trying to mask her sadness. Unable to meet his gaze, she dropped her eyes to the ground.
Finally confessing her feelings, words she had carried since her teenage years, had only led to this moment of painful realization that she had expected, but wasnât prepared for.
Of course he didnât see her that way. He never had, and likely never would.
  âI know you donât feel the same way. I know youâll always see me as justââ
  âI love you.â His voice cut through her self-doubt and resignation, stopping her mid-sentence.
Y/Nâs head snapped up, her eyes widening as she searched his face for any sign of deceit or misunderstanding. But Minhoâs expression was sincere, his earnest gaze, unwavering.
This time, it was Y/Nâs turn to feel at a loss for words, her eyes reflecting a mix of disbelief, excitement, and a touch of fear at Minhoâs sudden confession.
His words hung in the air, sinking in slowly. Her heart raced so loud, so quickly, it scared her.Â
Minho dropped his head slightly, the weight of his confession finally released into the open. Thereâs a sudden sense of relief that washed through him, making him break into a soft smile.
  âI love you Y/N. So damn much.â He repeated, his voice soft and sincere. A tinge desperate.
Her mouth parted in surprise, a silent gasp.
  âS-since when?â Y/N managed to ask, her voice barely above a whisper.
She hadnât realized she had been holding her breath, the chaos of emotions swirling inside her, threatening to overwhelm her.
Minho took a final step forward, closing the distance between them until he was standing so close that his presence seemed to tower over her. Her back brushed against the wall, leaving them in an intimate space where the air between lingered with unspoken feelings.
  âIâm not sure. All I know is that you have always plagued my mind, driving me mad with thoughts of you and only you.â
Y/Nâs heart raced as he spoke, her cheeks tingling with heat. The man she had just confessed to was now pouring his heart out in return, with words she had never expected to hear.
  âMinhoâŚâ Her voice was barely a whisper, but it caused Minho to shut his eyes tightly for a moment, overwhelmed by the delicate call of his name coming from her lips.
He leaned in, closing the gap between them until her figure was pressed flush against the wall.
This moment between them was something neither had ever dared to imagine, yet here they stood, their deepest feelings laid bare in the open.
It brought Minho back to the last time he had trapped her against this same wall. The last time he had almost kissed her but had pulled back, in denial. Out of the fear of crossing a line he believed was forbidden.
But in truth, Minho had been wandering in that forbidden territory for a long time, his feelings for Y/N gnawing away at him with each passing day.
He opened his eyes, locking onto hers with intensity, his hand reaching up to gently cup her cheek. The warmth of his touch sent another shiver through her, a fluttering feeling erupted in the pit of her stomach.
  âDo you know how crazy youâve driven me?â Minhoâs voice held a growl, his jaw tightening as he struggled to contain the emotions surging within him.
His intent gaze makes her stiffen, fully reminding her of the position they were in all over again. Her heart drummed against her chest.
  âHow crazy you still drive me?â His tone softened to a whisper, eyes searching hers with a mix of tenderness and desperation.
Y/N felt her breath catch in her throat as she tried to decipher the emotions swirling in his gaze. The words he had spoken, her heart continuing to pound with anticipation. She wanted to hear more.
  âHow?...â The response comes out automatically, a genuine curiosity laced in her words.
But her response to his rhetorical question faltered the intensity in his gaze. Minho chuckled softly, a brief, welcome break in the tense atmosphere that had enveloped them.
His head dipped momentarily before he lifted it again, his eyes darkening with a look that sent another shiver down Y/Nâs spine. His fingers trailed down to gently grasp her hand at her side, daringly lifting them to his mouth and pressing a soft kiss against her fingers.
She stared in fascination almost, feeling the warmth of his lips against her skin, the touch erupting a searingly hot sensation that surged through her. She shuddered slightly, her throat drier than it already was as she struggled to find her voice amidst the whirlwind of emotions.
  âI dream of you every night. I have for god knows how long.â Minhoâs confession hung in the air, Y/N stared with her mouth slightly agape, stunned all over again.
Every word he had uttered was making her feel warm and fuzzy. Curious, yet the want to pull him into her arms tugged at her.
He continued, his lips pressing another tender kiss, this time on the palm of her hand.
  âIâve dreamt of holding you close.â His voice was a gentle murmur against her skin, filled with longing and sincerity.
Her heart raced erratically, its beats thundering in her ears amidst the silence of the room she was sure it was going to explode.
  âIâve dreamt of kissing you.â Minhoâs other hand grazed her cheek, his knuckles trailing down the soft skin before fingers settled on the point of her chin.
He lifted her head gently, his touch searing and intimate. Y/Nâs arms were littered with goosebumps, her eyes fluttered closed briefly to calm herself, then opened to meet his intense gaze.
  âI prayed you could be mine.â
She swallowed hard, her eyes dropping momentarily to his lips before meeting his eyes once more.Â
Y/N can hear the thread snapping. His heartfelt words both biting and heart wrenching, has her peeling herself off the wall, closing the gap between them to finally, finally press her lips against his.
For a split second, Minho stiffened, just like he had done the first time she had kissed him years back.
But this time his eyes fluttered close, lips instantly parted to kiss her deeper. Returning it with a desperation he had suppressed for far too long. His arms encircle her, pulling her into him as if heâs afraid she would disappear if he let go.Â
The kiss was full of desire, a feverishly hot kiss that has them melting into each otherâs mouths. The sounds of sucking are loud in the air, tongues swirling, exploring, was breathtaking almost. And when they finally part, theyâre panting for air.
Minho doesnât let her go. His eyes remained closed, afraid that this moment was just another figment of his imagination. That he was going to wake up in his bed and mourn this fleeting dream.Â
But it wasnât a dream.
Y/N pressed her forehead against his, their breaths mingling in the intimate space between them.
  âThis was a better kiss than the last one.â She stated quietly after a long silence.
Minhoâs eyes shot open, his heart skipping a beat at her words.
Shock, surprise, and finally, a profound realization washed over him.
She had never forgotten that night.
The night of her birthday.Â
The night she had impulsively kissed him because that voice in her head told her to do so. The voice that belonged to a part of her that still pined for her brotherâs best friend.
The night he could never forget.
And apparently she hadnât either.
He pulled back slightly, trying to find the right words to say. His words spluttered almost.
  âY-you remember?âÂ
Her lips were still swollen and wet from their kiss, shining under the dim light of his apartment. She softened them into a gentle smile and nodded slowly.
  âWhen I had asked you the next day if I did anything stupidâŚâ Her voice trailed off, and suddenly Minho was transported back to the day after her birthday. After his promotion ceremony when she had pulled him aside.
He had lied. Reassuring her that the only foolish thing she had done was accidentally slam into a trash can while he chased after her brother.
Minho had chosen to pretend it didnât happen.
And Y/N had accepted his lie.
The detective in her arms was rendered speechless at this turn of events. How was he never able to tell that she pretended not to remember? That she had been pretending this whole time. He wished he could strangle himself from back then. There were a lot of things he wished he could redo.
Her gentle fingers grazed his skin, a soothing touch that brought him out of his thoughts.
And he decides itâs not important anymore.
Minho had spent so many years stuck in his thoughts, stuck yearning, pining, when right now all he should be focusing on is the woman he had been waiting forever for. His eyes returned to Y/N, drinking in the sight of her in his arms, waiting for him. He pulls her close again, head ducking in for another kiss.
  âDonât forget about this one.â He whispered against her, his hot breath gently fanning against her parted lips.
Her hands crossed into a tangle behind his neck, a smile spreading across her face as she pulled him in closer.
  âI wonât.âÂ
And heâs kissing her again, almost slamming her against the wall. Yet there was also something gentle about his touch, fingers intertwined with hers as he lifted their arms over head, tangled hands pressed against the cold wall. Minhoâs lips traced kisses down the expanse of her neck, wet, lingering, needy. The warmth of his body flush against hers, fingers groping at parts of her he only eyed shamelessly. Lips sucking softly at any part they come in contact with, elicited a whimper from her. A sound that makes Minho growl into the crook of her neck, repeating the suckles that had her make such a pretty noise.
  âS-show me.â She finally breathes sharply, âh-how crazy I drive you.â
In an instant Minhoâs lips left her throat, pulling out to look into her hooded eyes, her fingers grasped at the collar of his shirt, a urgency in her actions.
Minhoâs patience had long left the room. His eyes darken with an intensity that made her feel tingly.
In a swift motion the man that had been longing for this moment, lifted her off of her feet, hands gripping at her legs to tightly secure them around his waist, his lips met hers hungrily once again, taking their tangled bodies into his bedroom.
The same bed that Minho would wake up on, drenched in sweat after dreaming another painstakingly hot dream of the woman he could only describe as being madly in love with, was now filled with the scent of her.Â
Their clothes have long been discarded, laying in a forgotten trail on his floor, at the foot of the bed, remnants thrown across the room in desperation.
He wanted to do things to her that he had only dreamt about, his deepest fantasies he had never thought would come true. He had conjured up scenarios, imaginations of her welcoming arms laying on his bed, but now he could stare with a fascination that made him inhale sharply. A real moment that his dreams could never compare to.
He had already etched her naked figure, in his brain, his thoughts, taking in the beautiful sight of her under him. Splotches of bites, trails of wet from his tongue and his kisses running down her body, was suddenly something he would never be able to live without, he concluded.
Fuck, he was a ruined man.
And finally when he feels her clenched around him, filling her enough to earn a sweet moan of his name, he could only melt into her.
Minho grunts into the air, his body working against hers in a soft rhythmic pace, forehead gleaming in sweat. A pull and slam that leaves her clinging to him, to his sheets. His fingers graze over her warm skin, lingering here, tracing there. Her whimpers are music to his ears, his name escaping her swollen lips in heightened whispers whenever he moves a certain way, already memorizing it, already diving in to swallow her moans.
  âPleasepleasepleaseâ Her cries are full of desperation, a need for him to be closer, deeper.
Y/Nâs fingers traced his tightened jaw, guiding him back to her lips, kissing the man that had always been her first love and probably the only man she would ever truly love. She never thought there would come a moment where Lee Minho was completely hers. That he would see her in such a light.
That he would make her feel him, his fingers, his lips, his tongue. Him.
He took his time with her. Testing, feeling, gauging what made her inhale sharply, what made her roll her eyes back as she was thrown off her edge. Everything made her squirm under him, ecstasy coursing through her. He made her see stars. The sight of his sweating and disheveled figure, kissing, nipping, grabbing at parts and places of her that make her moan and cry nothing but his name, had her writhe under his grinding figure with nothing but blissful pleasure. And finally when she came down from a high Minho drew out from her, when he dove into bury his face in her arms, she spoke out the words she had once attempted to bury.
  âI love you.âÂ
The confession came out in a low whisper, she was sure he hadnât heard them, his mouth too busy latching onto the skin of her collarbone, creating more flourishes of red, that would darken to purple and blue. But his body stilled at her words, lifting his gaze up to meet hers. His eyes search hers, a glimmering shine in them. Tears that she could only look at with both astonishment and a fluttering emotion, made her stomach tingle. She wiped away the ones that pricked his eyes, threatening to fall, while Minho could only hold her hand to his lips, muffling his face into her palms, inhaling deeply before quickening his pace, his hips rocking against hers roughly, quickly. Filling her as much as he could before ultimately crashing his lips against hers.
  âI love you too.âÂ
There was a comfortable silence that settled in Minhoâs bedroom. His fingers traced random patterns on the skin of her arms, making her giggle the few times he got too close to her armpit. The two of them broke into hushed laughter as she attempted to tickle him back.
  âI donât always cry during sex, you know.â He finally voiced.
Y/Nâs head shot up to meet his nonchalant expression, though his ears were bright red from embarrassment.
She broke into another low giggle, lifting herself out of his embrace to hover over him. Her fingers pushing away the strands of hair in his eyes.
  âThat mustâve really been lingering on your mind this whole time huh?â She raised a brow, a teasing smile played on her lips.
The way her head cocks to a side cutely had Minho erupt into a hearty laughter Y/N hadnât heard in a very long time. Reminding her just how much they had truly hidden during the years trying to forget one another.
She leaned in and kissed him, smiling into his slightly caught off-guard expression before pulling away.
  âCan you prove it then?â
This time he raised a brow, a challenge he would never turn down.
  âCome here.âÂ
Heâs already tugging at her, making her crash into his embrace, his lips already finding hers easily. ââââââââââââââââââââââââ
Changbin stared at his best friend and his sister, their fingers intertwined as they giggled and whispered into each otherâs ears.
Usually, weekends were his time to relax and goof off with Minho, but now his best friend seemed to be in another world. He suddenly regretted leaving them unattended that evening.
Those idiots.
  âYou know, usually in these kinds of scenarios I should be kicking your ass.â Changbin interrupted whatever intimate conversation they were having.
Minho blinked up at the third wheel, while Y/N scoffed at her brotherâs remark, laughing as she gracefully exited the sofa and headed towards the dining table. Minhoâs eyes followed her, but Changbin slapped his hand against the coffee table to get his friendâs attention.
  âYou jerk. How can you date my little sister? Letâs fight right now.â Changbinâs tone was theatrical, almost like something out of a cartoon, but Minho sighed, not amused.
  âHow many times do you want to end up behind bars?â Minho shot back.
The detectiveâs question shut him up, and Changbin muttered under his breath.
  âDammit, I shouldâve become a cop instead.â
The tension eased with a shared chuckle, and Minho shook his head fondly at his friendâs antics. They might tease each other, but deep down, they both knew that Minho would protect Y/N with his life.
And though Changbin had begrudgingly accepted it, he didnât have a single worry.
It was clear the best friend could no longer laze around in Minhoâs apartment. Though it was thanks to him that the two had finally poured out their feelings.
Minhoâs place, which was often empty because of how much Minho stayed out due to the nature of his job, had turned into a love abode. The detective, who was rarely home before, began rushing out the door as soon as his shift ended, much to the surprise of his captain and teammates.
Heâd often come back to find Y/N passed out on his couch or in his bed, exhausted after her own demanding day at work. Sometimes, heâd collapse into her arms with a blissful sigh, inhaling her sweet scent as they embraced.
Heâd often come home and pin her against the wall, push her against the couch, into the bed, as his lips kissed her hungrily, hips drilling against hers. Fingers raking into each otherâs hairs.
Minho could love his woman madly, and he was doing just that.
He was a fool, hopelessly in love. ââââââââââââââââââââââââ end.
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Scientist Chan part 2 of â
Read Part 1 here
SMUT WARNING // MDNI â ď¸ scientist!Chan (Chris) x test subject fem!reader (feat. Video call with Minho)
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Scientist Christopher is doing experiments on making pussies come. He has a range of devices that he has been using on his subject each night. In part 1, Chris introduced sexual intercourse into the experiment, which was a success. In this installment, he explores your reaction to various sexual positions, and introduces anal penetration while on a video call with Professor Lee Minho Approx 5 minute read Unhinged level đ¤Ąđ¤Ąđ¤Ąđ¤Ą
CW: master/dom x sub // unprotected vaginal and anal sex // videoing sex // livestream sex to colleague // anal penetration with devices // squirting // faux scientific observations // clitoral stimulation // potential masturbation
âYour pussy takes cock so well no matter what the position.â States Scientist Chris, for the benefit of his voice recorder.
Itâs the fourth sexual position he has you in for the night. Starting with missionary on his desk with your legs over his shoulders, then on all fours where his cock seemed to reach even deeper parts of you, followed by you riding him facing him while he laid on the examination bed.
Now heâs got you reverse cowgirl, him sitting on his leather couch, you with a foot planted on the cushions either side of him while he lifts and drops your hips on his cock. Youâve been instructed to hold your vibrator against your clit, and under no circumstances are you allowed to remove it.
âSir! CanâtâŚ. Canât take any more⌠pussyâs soreâŚâ you cry out.
âShh⌠I know you can give me one more. Thereâs⌠so much cream still leaking out of you.â He pants. âYouâre my best test subject, yeah?â
âMmm hmm⌠Iâm a good girl⌠I wanna be good.â
âThen one more and Iâll stop.â He pulls you down hard onto his cock, and leans you back so your laying flush against his chest.
âCome for me.â He takes hold of the vibrator and rubs it hard against you while he grinds into your cunt.
You sob as you climax once more. You donât know this, but one of Chrisâ secret goals is to train you to come on demand.
You go limp against him, but he doesnât let you rest.
âQuick. Up on the examination bed. I must inspect you.â He says, pulling up his trousers and putting his white coat back on.
âYes. On your back. Open your legsâŚ. Good girl.â
Youâre naked, sweaty, still trembling from god knows how many orgasms. You close your eyes, happy to finally rest.
Snap. Snap. Click
You lift your head to see Chris taking photos of your swollen pussy.
âIâm just collecting evidence to show my colleagues.â He states. âSpread your lips for me. Thatâs it.â
Click. Snap. Click.
âSpeaking of colleagues.â He pops his camera down and picks up his phone. âRemember how I told you about Professor Lee Minho?â
You nod.
âHe wanted me to video call him and show him what heâll be working with if he collaborates with me. Can we do that for him?â He asks.
Of course he can. Your Chrisâ test subject and you want to help him with any experiment or project.
âChris. Update me. How did she do tonight?â Professor Lee says through the phone.
âShe did well. Her pussy adapted wonderfully to the positions. Although, it became fatigued and overstimulated by the end of it.â Chris gives his update.
âShow me.â Demands the professor, his voice laced with lust.
Chris moves the phone close to your pussy so the professor could see. He sucks in a breath. âHer labia is still engorged. Lovely.â He approves. âSpread her open.â
You use your fingers to spread your lips. âHer lubrication is of a creamy consistency.â The professor notes as Chris focuses on the camera on your hole. âAnd her clitoris looks agitated. How many orgasms?â
Chan checks his notes. âSix.â
âIs your test subject experienced with anal stimulation?â
Chris chuckles. âWell, friend. My plan was to begin that experiment tonight on our call. If you have time.â
âIâve nothing on my schedule. Itâd be my pleasure to witness this. Plus itâll give me a good idea of what she can take when Iâm visiting.â
Chris puts on his head strap that has a camera attached, and reconfigures his tech so Professor Lee can get a virtual front row seat of what heâs about to do.
He flicks the main lights off, and turns on the bright lamp, directing it on you so your holes are illuminated. Then he brings over a rolled up bag, placing it on his little table next to him, and settles himself on his stool at the end of the bed.
Unrolling the bag, he spreads its contents out carefully. Six anal plugs and vibrators of various sizes, and a bottle of lubrication.
âLetâs get you as comfortable as possible.â He says as he props your legs into straps that hold your knees up and open, essentially folding you in half.
âFuck! Her little ass⌠ahem⌠anus is perfect isnât it?â Professor Lee observes.
âIt is. Ready to begin?â Chris checks in with you.
âYes, Sir.â You gulp. Youâre nervous but terribly excited.
Chris begins by dribbling some lube directly on your hole and onto his index finger. You gasp at the coldness, and then again when his finger presses against you. He uses the palm of one hand to hold you nice and wide while he massages your asshole with the pad of his finger. After a short moment, he reaches over to his little table and selects the smallest vibrating plug.
Neither of the men say a word as he lubricates the device and switches it on.
âLook how she reacts to just the sound of the vibrator.â Observes Professor Lee.
Chris has you so trained up that just the sound of a vibrator has your cunt gushing.
You moan low when itâs placed against your anus.
âMmm⌠I think sheâs going to like this. Chris. Where did you find such a receptive subject?â Professor Lee muses.
Chris simply chuckles to himself and pushes the tip into your ass, drawing another moan from you.
He slowly stretches you open, building up through his range of plugs, adding lubrication as needed. It feels agonisingly torturous, with his slow and careful ministrations. Your empty cunt clenches around nothing in frustration.
As he withdraws the fourth plug from your ass, the two men watch in awe as it settles back into its natural position.
âItâs a beautiful sight.â Sighs Professor Lee.
âIt is.â Chris hums, sliding two fingers into your hole.
âOh⌠god⌠fuckâŚâ you cry as he finger fucks your ass. âPlease⌠please⌠need to come.â You sob loudly.
âSheâs close.â Professor Lee states. âMaybe we should skip the next two devices entirely?â
âHmm. I feel you may be right.â Chris agrees, pulling his fingers from you and standing up.
âDo it. I need to see.â He says with a strained voice.
You hear Chris unzip his trousers and the squirting of more lube. He pushes his tip of his cock against your opening.
âRelax for me. Thatâs it⌠just like that. Letâs show Professor Lee how good you can take cock, yeah?â
The tip slides in with little resistance, but the stretch is much bigger than with the devices.
âJust a little bit at a time, you can take it. Look at you. Youâre doing so well.â Chris encourages.
âShe looks tight. Is she choking you? Is there much resistance?â Lee demands.
âFuck. So tight.â He pants and stops still for a moment.
âPleaseâŚmore⌠fill me.â You plead. Youâre close to having your seventh orgasm of the night.
âSheâs extremely aroused, Chris. Note the arousal leaking from her cunt.â
Chris applies more lube to his cock and around your rim. He might like testing your limits, but hurting you might cause you to be less receptive in the future, and that would set his experiments back.
Once he has you well lubricated, he withdraws his cock slightly and then presses himself in until he is three quarters of the way in. He pauses again to let you adjust, and then squeezes in the remainder of his length.
Professor Lee swears under his breath. You sob at how full you feel, your hand clinging to the thin sheet underneath you.
Chris starts to fuck you. Long, languid thrusts. Not too hard. But deep. You reach down to rub your sensitive clit. Itâs still swollen from earlier, but you need to touch yourself. The combination of stimulating your clit while Chris fucks your ass has you crying with a desperation youâve never felt before.
âLook at her taking it in the ass like that! I canât wait to feel it around my cock.â Lee growls.
âHear that, babygirl? You gonna let Professor Lee fuck your ass like this when he visits?â
âY-yes⌠yes⌠want him him to have a turn.â You whimper.
âGood. Girl.â He pants and starts to fuck you harder. He grabs one of the unused vibrating plugs and pushes your fingers away so he can apply it to your clit.
You squeeze your eyes tight as you feel yourself about to burst.
âLook at you. Perfect little specimen. Come. Come for your master, little slut.â Professor Leeâs demanding words make you snap and you cry out as you come, squirting all over yourself.
Chris follows, trying his best not to throw his head back so Minho doesnât miss a second, and coming deep inside your ass.
He stills, catching his breath.
âFemale ejaculation. Interesting.â The professor purrs to himself.
Chris eventually pulls out of you and releases your legs, pulls his pants up, then picks up his phone to address the professor. âSo Lee. What do you say? Want to work with me on the next phase?â
âChris. letâs talk about scheduling me in for a visit.â
Taglist is open.
Next time, Professor Lee visits⌠then in another instalment we meet Dr Kim Seungmin.
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Oh how about: Reader loving Azula throughout her mental health crisis and still visiting her in the asylum. So, as she heals, she realizes how much she loves the Reader⌠and maybe through the story, you could see her reactions to certain things like if R talked about another girl like Ty Lee or something, Azula would feel jelly but doesnât understand why or if R talks about Zuko she may think sheâd like Zuko more like their motherâŚ
idk but itâs sounds fun and I know you are awesome at writing so I bet itâll be good!
Healing - Azula x reader
[Masterlist]
Azula x gn reader, no warnings
1.897 words, I hope you like it! :)
The metal door closed audibly, its movement making the torches close to it flicker. They barely spent enough light to make things visible in the cell. Now you two were alone.
Azula sat in front of you, tied to a metal chair in a straitjacket. It was a humiliating treatment for a princess, you thought. Still, your heart felt great relief from seeing her again after several months of waiting. It had been difficult to convince the new fire lord Zuko and his comrades to let you visit Azula, as you were considered dangerous due to your loyalty to princess Azula that you had maintained even during the last days of the war. But here you were, finally seeing her, the one your heart ached for, again.
âHello Azula. I am happy to see you again.â, you said truthfully but very quietly. You did not dare asking her how she felt. Seeing Azula, who had always been so confident and strong in a weak and broken state like this intimidated you.
You could not make out what Azula was thinking. You had been told that she had for some time behaved like a raving maniac, screaming and trying to attack anyone who came close to her. But that phase seemed to be over now. It was obvious Azula was mentally still in a very precarious situation, but right now she was rather calm. At least it seemed like she was.
âWhat are you doing here, y/n.â, she asked. Your heart jumped at hearing her voice, even if it sounded differently than before. What she said did not sound like a question, but you still answered: âI wanted to see you.â Quieter, you added: âMaybe you need someone to talk to.â
A small silence followed. You could tell that Azula was, even if it had been months, still very stressed and angry about her defeat against Zuko. Still, with a heartwarming effort, Azula tried to initiate a peaceful conversation by asking you about the current situation of the fire nation and other wide-ranging topics. You happily answered all her questions. The conversation got more concrete when she asked about her old friends. Ty Lee, Mai, Iroh and even her brother Zuko. All the ones that had betrayed her. You told about their new positions and how they behaved. You also told her that, as you had remained in your position in the royal palace even after the changing of the fire lord, you were somehow reconnecting with some of them, even if it went slowly.
While listening to you, Azula increasingly looked lost. You would have expected her to be angry at the traitors taking her place in the hierarchy of the fire nation, but she seemed to worry about something entirely different. Nevertheless you talked with eachother until the visiting time was over and the guards ordered you to leave. You also realised your eyes hurt because of the dim light in the cell - it must be painful for Azula to stay here all day.
Having left her cell, a guard told you that they had feared for the worst and were surprised at how calm Azula had been with you. You couldnât imagine why that was either.
< ⢠â ⢠>
A few weeks passed until your next visit. In that time Azula had changed much; you were told she was still a bit unpredictable, but her violent outbursts had ended completely and she was overall more stable. That had led to the guards daring to attach extra torches to the walls of her cell, finally making the room brighter so your eyes didnât hurt anymore. The whole atmosphere was different this visit, it was less depressing.
This time you greeted her a bit more confidently and with a smile. It would have been hard not to smile when seeing your loved one feel better. She also looked better than last time - her hair looked less messy and she did not have bags under her eyes. You were genuinely happy it went uphill with her, and you didnât hide it:
âHello Azula, you look beautiful today!â
Your warm greeting seemed to have catched Azula off guard; you could see she hesitated a bit before answering, and you even saw her blush a bit, but surely it was only the warm light of the torches combined with your own feelings that made you imagine it. Azula wouldnât blush. Once Azula answered though, she did so with her old attitude: âOf course I look good, y/n. Did you expect me not to?â
That might not have been the most welcoming and thankful answer she could have given, but at least it proved she really felt better, more like back when she wasnât here. Ah, you couldnât wait for when she would boss you around and insult anyone else again like in the good olâ days.
But enough of the dreaming, back to reality! Azula simply made you tell her anything that you thought might interest her. She said she TRUSTED you on choosing the right topics. That was obviously a very unusual thing for her to say but you took it as a compliment and started speaking, mostly about how things changed under the rule of her brother and how the people she knew behaved. Every time you spoke about Ty Lee or Mai you could see her eyebrows furrow and she did not comment again until you changed topics. When you mentioned that Mai and Zuko were a couple, her whole face lit up and she interrupted you, exclaiming: âHa! Thatâs fantastic! Isnât it great, y/n?â You agreed but Azula suddenly feeling happy for her brother genuinely confused you.
Anyhow, Azula soon seemed to become annoyed by the things you told her about the people she knew. After some time she simply cut you off and said: âYes yes uncle Irohâs new tea shop is interesting and I should care but I want you to tell me more about yourself.â At first, you were dumbfounded, but since she seemed to really be interested (and also since it was impossible not to fulfill any request of hers anyways), you talked about yourself for the rest of your visit.
Some time later, the guards opened the door and told you to leave. You had already said good-bye to Azula and turned to go away, but she suddenly made a harsh move with her head, loosening a few strands of her hair that now dangled down. âOh y/n, before you leave, would you be so kind and fix this?â, she purred with unusual kindness, inevitably making you feel butterflies.
Hesitantly, you turned around and lifted your hand to her beautiful hair, gently brushing it back into place. She just smirked triumphantly and let you leave. You couldnât put into words how heavenly you had felt that moment, despite the stares of the guards.
After you were gone, Azula thought about what had happened. Why had she done this. Making her hair messy on purpose to ask you to fix it. Not that it hadnât felt good, feeling human touch after months of deprivation had actually felt awesome, she just genuinely did not know why she had suddenly felt the need to get your attention. And why did she feel so hurt when you talked about Ty Lee or Mai? She did not like not knowing the answer to something, so she was determined to get it the next time you visited.
< ⢠â ⢠>
You did not let Azula wait for long. As quickly as the harsh regulations of the Asylum allowed, you returned. According to the guards, who prepared you for the visit, Azula had been behaving much better: there had been no angry outbursts or attempts to harm anyone at all since your last visit.
Luckily for Azula, her good behaviour had led to an even greater improvement in the furnishing of her cell: the torches had been replaced with lanterns who emitted a brightness that somewhat resembled daylight, making it much more bearable to stay in her cell.
âHow do you feel, Azula?â
âIâm well, y/n. Actually, it is very relieving that you are here now, because I can finally ask you some very important questions.â
Naturally, Azula saying your name made you feel butterflies. She sounded almost like her old self again. âIâm happy to answer anything you ask me.â, you assured, excited about what questions she could have for you. You looked at her expectantly.
She also only looked at you instead of asking questions. Well, she did not just âlookâ, she seemed to have⌠found something on you that interested her very much. More than any question she could ask you.
âYour eyes look very happy, y/n.â, she suddenly said.
You had not been prepared for that. Your eyes widened, making Azula grin. It was not her usual grin, though. It seemed like this grin was not fueled by self-absorption and superiority as it had been until now, but rather Azula seemed to be genuinely happy, feeling real joy. You had never seen that on her before, so naturally you were very happy for her! And for yourself, for being able to witness such a beautiful moment and being part of it.
âOh I wish the visits werenât this short.â, Azula said, her gaze still venturing in the depth of your eyes. You were a bit confused. âAzula, the visit has just started - we have plenty of time. Also, I will come back soon! As soon as possible!â, you quickly assured.
Azula tried getting closer to you, but she was restrained by her chains. You had both almost forgotten about them. âY/n, I do not only want to be with you during visits.â
You were speechless. All your blood was gathering in your head and your voice decided this would be a good moment to give up. âA-azula ⌠I want to see you more often tooâŚâ you mustered up all the courage you had. âIn factâ, you gulped, âI feel pained in every moment we are separated from eachother.â
Azula smirked and lifted her nose up, making her look as powerful as before; she was clearly enjoying you being flustered. But there was something different, something new in her eyes. Something that had not been there a few months ago, and that had grown each time you visited her.
âYou like me, y/n, donât you?â
Azula lowered her head, and it seemed like there even was a bit of worry or insecurity in her voice when she asked again: âYou do, right?â
âYes Azula, I do.â
You wanted to hug her, caress her and hold her close, but knowing that the guards would rush in and restrain you, it was better to remain sitting. You did not hold back expressing your affection verbally, though.
Azula was, like always, the first one to regain her composure, and you tried to do so as well, although it was not easy.
âWell, itâs settled then.", Azula said.
â... Whatâs settled?â, you asked, unsure of what she meant.
âWhen I get out of here,'' Azula answered, âI will arrange that we see eachother much more often than we currently do and that the royal family welcomes a new member. And now tell me again how much you love me, y/n.â
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â°â⤠â lee know x afab!reader | smut nsfw 18+ mdni | kinktober '24: voice kink
tags : pwp (without plot), voice kink, established relationship, birthday shenanigans, kitchen setting (but no food involved in what actually⌠goes on), teasing, lee know being a little shit, as in he literally does not let you live down your voice kink, heavy petting, fingering, dirty talk (a lot), praise, use of pet names "honey" "baby". lmk if i missed any tags!
wc : 1.6k
an : ur girl finally has electricity so im MAKING IT BEFORE THE NIGHT ENDS HERE just a little something before the end of the day bc i wouldn't have wanted to miss lee know's birthday for the world <3
taglist : @love-and-deepstrays
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He would use his birthday privileges to the fullest, and you'd realize, sometimes the voice of an angel did not belong to an angel. Not that you were complaining.
"Mhm, just like that. That's it, baby, keep goingâŚ"
His voice rang through, nearly snaking all over your body, goosebumps raising on the surfact of your skin. It was smooth, and delicate, andâ
And sweet.
That was how you would describe it.
His voice was like honey in your ears as he leaned against the counter beside you, looking over your shoulder the tiniest bit just to see what you were doing. If you were actually following his instructions, if the dish was turning out right⌠The two of you had crowded over the pot in front of you as you stirred, a recipe you'd tried out from him, under his guidance.
Apparently, you'd been successful so far.
Yet it wasn't the praise that had you drawing a breath, but the way that he said it.
"Mmm⌠It smells good, don't you think, honey?"
The only thought in your head was that it was simply unfair for him to call you by the name, when you thought such a word could only be used to describe him.
Glancing over at him, you could see his eyes widen with pleasant anticipation. He wasn't focusing on your reaction, that much you were sure of. And part of you felt grateful for it.
It had been like this for most of the day. True, you had always had a special sort of adoration for his voice, and yet, today of all days, it was sincerely doing a number on you.
You couldn't have known if it was because it was his birthday, or something else entirely.
He had one request for his birthday this year: nothing fancy, nothing extreme, just⌠time spent with you. It had been busy for him and the boys, and today was one day he was allowed to kick back and relax without having to worry about his obligations for a momentâyou knew that. So you'd respected his wish, and the two of you had agreed for there to be no surprises, none of the fancy things, and you'd learn to cook a new dish together for lunch.
It was going well.
It should have been⌠aside from the fact that, on your end, you felt as if your body had been lit on fire.
Each time he spoke, each time he would give you an instruction, or a little bit of praise⌠It felt like being doused in the smoothness of it; slick, and heavy, and all-consuming. Your body felt wrapped around in his voice in all its entirety. Every word felt like a caress, and your mind would wander.
The things he could make you do with that voice⌠the things he could make you feel.
With how your knees would feel weak, it was purely a wonder how you'd managed to get through this much of the day at all.
"Sweetheart? Hiiii? Helloooo?"
Eyes wide, you jumped back with a start, seeing his fingers snapping in front of you. Your head turned to look at him in surprise, and there was a cute little frown of concern on his faceânot that it would make you feel any less sheepish.
"Spacing out?" he leaned in to peer at you, and there was a light tone to his voice this time that almost lead you to believe he was teasing. "I was saying, we can put the foil over it now and let it slow cook."
"Oh, um⌠right⌠yeahâŚ"
Gaze shifting, you nearly stumbled as you move to get the foil, and you could practically feel his amused stare burning holes into the back of his head.
You should have known.
There was very little you could do to throw him off, even if you truly tried.
Before you could do anything else, he reached over to turn the stove off, and promptly moved to corner you against the counter. The roll of foil you'd been holding dropped to the floor, and you looked at him, eyes wide.
"Baby," he drawled, his voice laced with pure, unobstructed mirth. "What's gotten into you?"
Your back was tightly pressed against the counter. His arms were on either side of you.
You were caged.
And, well, you could try, if you wanted to.
You could try to lie.
But that was it: try. And that trial would be unsuccessful. Every fiber in your body was telling you that it would be.
You wondered if there had ever been anyone who was successful with it when it came to him.
"M-MinhoâŚ" you breathe out his name, swallowing thickly.
"Yes, baby?"
He was unfair.
His breath ghosted over your skin as he leaned in closer, closer, just so you could hear him right next to your ear.
He knew.
"M-Minhâ"
"You're soooooo obvious, you know."
When he spoke again, his voice dropped an octave lower, and you could practically hear the grin in his voice. Your only response was a helpless squeak. Your eyes shut closed. There was absolutely no way you'd be escaping this.
He continued to speak.
"I can't believe you're getting turned on by this⌠It's my voice, right, honey?" he laughed softly. "Ahh⌠what've you been thinking about?"
Your cheeks heated up, and shook your head. "Th-that's⌠I'm not going to say it!"
"No?"
"No!"
A lick at your earlobe, and he did it againâlower. "Are you sure, baby? It's my birthday, you know⌠I thought I get to do what I want?"
An involuntary shiver shot up through your spine, and you couldn't help it anymore. The soft moan that left your lips was barely there, but it was there.
And he heard it.
"Tsk, tsk. Guess I'll have to speak your thoughts for you, then."
You truly, truly wouldn't have needed to look at him to see his eyes crinkled up in amusement, the corner of his lips turned up into a slight smirk.
"How aboutâŚ"
His lips moved to your neck, placing a trail of kisses down to your collarbone.
"My hands all over you⌠grazing over your skin, aaalll the places I know you loveâŚ" As if intending to follow through with his words, his hands snaked under your shirtâhis shirtâto trail over your body.
The whimper you let out earned you a hum of satisfaction.
He continued.
"No? Not enough?" he smiled. "Hmm, then⌠Were you also thinking aboutâŚ" His hands moved lower, lower. Moving with his words, they found the waistband of your panties and slowly began to pull them down. "This, maybe? My fingers teasing your pretty little pussy?"
Your breathing became shallow.
Your eyes glazed over as you met his gaze, and he had the audacity to chuckle.
The truth was that he was barely touching you. Even as the pads of his fingers traced every outline of your body, even if they squeezed at your thighs, even as they moved tantalizingly closer to where you needed them the mostâ
That wasn't it.
He knew that.
It was why he stood grinning at you, teasing you with his touches, and⌠speaking.
"Ohh⌠Or, maybe that's not it. Maybe my baby was thinking about being fucked by me." His voice took on a melifluous tone, low, and sweet, and perfect, and it was enough to coax a moan from your body. "Yeah? Having me bend you over the counter, slide my cock into that perfect pussy of yours⌠Is that it?"
He leaned in again, this time focusing his attention to your other ear, as he brought his voice to a whisper.
"And that's not all I'd do. 'Cause I'd have my lips pressed against your ear just like this, giving you slooww, teasing thrusts while I tell you how much I need youâŚ"
Without much of a warning, his fingers slid into your hole, the sensation of being filled combining with the pure sense of euphoria his voice was drenching you in, and you moaned. Louder this time, with nothing to hold you backâyour head threw back in pleasure, and his laugh⌠his fucking laugh.
You couldn't even begin to understand how worked up he had gotten you by simply hearing him speak, and as he lifted your legs onto the counter to spread you more clearly for him, there was little in you to refuse.
Instead, you caved.
"Y-yes!" you cried out, hips bucking into his hand. "Y-you and your goddamn voice⌠s'not fair, Minho!"
He grinned. "It's not fair? But you look so pretty like this, honey. It makes me so happy I can reduce you to⌠this⌠with just⌠my⌠voiceâŚ"
As he spoke, he once again lowered into a breathy whisper, air hitting the shell of your ear as he thrustâunfairlyâin time with his words.
"Hnnâ M-Minho-!"
"Mhm, just like that. That's it, baby, keep goingâŚ"
The same words.
The same exact words.
They rang clear in your head, the added sultriness to the way he said it now only making you keen with pleasure.
"Ahâ I-I'mâŚ! I'mâ"
"Close, baby? Yeah? Wanna cum?"
Sweet.
That was how you could describe it.
Like honey to your ears, smooth, and alluring, andâ
And perfect.
With a cry of his name, your hips stuttered, orgasm crashing through your body like waves on a shore.
All the while, he whispered soothing, sweet, sweet nothings into your ear, before he pulled out his fingers to suck them clean.
"MmmâŚ" He grinned at you. "Like icing on a cake."
You were in his arms in barely a minute, squealing as he lifted you up from the counter:
"Not done yet, honey. I gotta claim my birthday present properly."
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walk the line | jongseong
summary: park jongseong has one regret and he's spent his entire life atoning for the pain he caused you. when you walk into office under the premise of working together, he's only got one shot to make things right before it's too late.
notes: HAPPY BIRTHDAY, PARK JONGSEONG <3 33.7k words worth of things i want to say to him. also i'm mad that tumblr caps off at 1000 blocks and i had to change the ending...forgive me.
genre: lawyer au
warnings: nsfw and typos, probably. also the surname "kim" has importance. :)
p.s. this banner was made by the lovely and talented @alvojake, love u!!
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When Jay was eleven years old, his father brought him a souvenir back from New York City when he traveled abroad for a week-long business trip. Jay has always been a big dreamer, too lost in his own reality to acknowledge the everyday life of grade school and all that came with it. Itâs a tendency that his parents fostered and nurtured, instilling the belief that Jay could achieve anything he wanted in life if he dreamt hard enough.Â
The âI Heart NYâ pin sits in the first drawer to the right of his desk. Besides his quick wit and intelligence, Jay would love to believe that pin is the reason why his desk on the fiftieth floor overlooks the city of Seoul.Â
Jay doesnât make mistakes. Heâs calculated and smart with his decisions based on cold, hard facts. He trusts his gut and prides himself in taking the high road when things get tough, letting losses go and holding his wins close to his heart. Practicing law isnât for the weak, and Jay is not weak.Â
Yet walking into his office feels bleak on some days. The castle he serves doesnât seem as golden as it once did in the early stages of his career. The gifts given to him by clients and admirers that sit around his office feel undeserved, no matter how many hours he put into making them happy. His only sense of comfort is the large vinyl collection he has that sits between shelf upon shelf for no one to touch but him.Â
Jay is meticulous in his work, rarely letting anyone into his inner circle without proving themselves first. Itâs what makes him a great lawyer and what gave him a respectable name to his firm and others alikeâJay takes calculated risks and trusts no one, other than himself, completely.
Still, his days wane between fulfilling and empty.Â
Heâs one of the first people to arrive at the office with a briefcase in hand and hair slicked back with expensive gel, wearing suits tailored at a few grand apiece. Jay doesnât leave early either. He watches associates under him file out of the office one by one as the hour goes by until thereâs no one left but him. Itâs only then will Jay cap his pen or queue an email to send in the morning to make it appear as if he hadnât spent all night in his office.Â
Jay loves his job. It gives him a sense of self fulfillment and it brings him joy to win cases for his clients, who range from high-paid celebrities to private equity firms. While the high salary and other liquid assets are perks of his profession, Jay puts his entire faith into his work and lets his winning streak do the talking for him.Â
He has to, or else law school wouldnât have been worth it.Â
For three years, Jay studied from dusk until dawn for the chance to work in the career heâs been dreaming about since he received that âI Heart NYâ pin from his father all those years ago. Opening a particularly long chapter that was difficult to analyze never felt like a burden to Jay, not when his life would eventually amount to working at one of the big three law firms in Korea as Senior Partner.Â
Jay holds more ownership than he once did and manages his own associate now. Heâs no longer at the entrance phase of his career. Jayâs responsible for more finances and harder cases the firm encounters, and he knows his boss and the Managing Partner, Lee Heeseung, expects the best from him.Â
Perhaps itâs why he feels compelled to put on his best smile and work until he feels exhausted because he knows heâll be proud of it down the line. Itâs what Jay assumes; all of the early mornings and late nights will prove to be worth it once heâs able to sit back and look down his long, successful career. People donât admire him for nothing.Â
Nothing beats watching the sunset over the horizon as he ends his workday. The golden hues on the sun cascading down the city skyline fills the atmosphere of the office, signaling the end of the day. Itâs when Jay feels his happiness. Heâll let the associates go home to catch up on rest and see their friends and families before it approaches a late hour.Â
Jay, however, stays behind to finish up on projects before his eyes grow weak and when he canât keep his yawns at bay anymore. Heâs already had his moments to leave at an appropriate time when he was a mere associate. Now, Jay has more responsibilities that he needs to maintain in order to feel like he really earned the title of Senior Partner. So he stays an hour after everybody goes home.Â
Jay is pulled out of his thoughts when he hears the sound of knuckles on his glass door.
âKnock knock.â Jake Simâs voice echoes through the large office, bringing Jay back to reality. He clears his throat and turns around to see the younger man standing before him with a blue manila folder in his hands. âI come bearing gifts.âÂ
âYouâre a bit too late. Christmas was four months ago.âÂ
âHa-ha,â Jake laughs dryly. âConsider this an early birthday present, then.âÂ
Jake presents the folder to his colleague, who opens the file and sifts through the papers at his fingertips. Jayâs eyebrow quirks with interest as he looks between the documents and the man standing before him. Itâs something heâs been waiting on for weeks. Something thatâll make or break a case heâs been anxiously thinking about and whatâs been making him stay behind until the clock ticks is the only audible sound on the entire floor.Â
âIâm only going to say this once,â Jay begins. He points at Jake with the folder. âYouâre the man.âÂ
âIâm always the man, you just donât want to admit it.âÂ
The pair smile at each other after a beat. Jay puts the file on his desk and invites Jake to take a seat on the couch by his vinyl collection, one that the man knows not to touch.Â
âI heard youâre almost done with the Yeon-Choi merger,â Jake says. âHeeseung mentioned it this morning.âÂ
âIâm waiting on a fax from them, actually.â Jay takes his specks off of his face and places it nearly on his desk. âSunooâs on the lookout for the document. Speaking of which.âÂ
Jake looks behind him to see Sunoo enter the office space as Jay waves him in. He hands over the stack of documents, freshly printed with the paper still warm to the touch.Â
âMs. Kang just faxed it over,â says Kim Sunoo, a first year associate. âThank you,â Jay says as he receives the document. He looks at Jake. âNow Iâm done with the Yeon-Choi merger.â
âYouâd think two global giants in the world of finance would be at odds with merging given their competitive streak in the past few years, but theyâve just signed a document that lists a communal agreement to share assets.â Jake watches Sunoo leave and waves goodbye before he walks out the door. âManaging this client was an insane move, even for you.âÂ
âChoi Analytics is nothing if not determined,â Jay informs. âSo am I, Sim. You should know that by now.âÂ
âI think you bit off more than you could chew. You only secured that win with two days to spare.âÂ
âI have you, donât I?â Jay teases with the tilt of his head. âWho was it that told you to talk to Yang Nari and convinced her to take that settlement before we could agree to the terms of the merger?âÂ
Jake laughs. âYou, Park Jongseong.âÂ
âItâs all about working smarter, not harder. Remember that.âÂ
âAye, aye, captain,â Jake says with a mock salute.
âPlease donât ever call me that again.â
âWhatever you say, captain.âÂ
Jayâs mouth quirks. âGo back to the bullpen and finish up the reports. Wouldnât want you to pull another all nighter.â Jake leaves with a laugh and disappears around the corner.Â
The large office with glass doors and windows feels like a familiar set up. His workspace, with his name and title underneath it, feels more like a trophy case than a managerial place of work. His walk to his office from the elevator takes him past the associate bullpen, situated right next to Heeseungâs. This space is his sanctuary and heâd like to believe he performs best under pressure. Itâs why he doesnât mind people peering into his office whenever heâs sitting at his desk.Â
The days are long and the work is hard, but itâs the kind of job that makes Jay feel like heâs accomplished something in his life. Coming in as the sun rises and leaving just after it sets doesnât feel like a sacrifice, nor does it feel like heâs losing out on opportunities when heâs got a bank account filled with zeroes and a penthouse apartment with the same view as his office. If anyone were to ask Jay about his life, heâd tell them heâs pretty damn happy.Â
Thatâs what he tells himself, anyway. Every morning is spent repeating mantras in his head about how far heâs come with the hard work and diligence that came with law school. The late nights and busy weeks spent memorizing cases and writing essays led to his employment as Lee & Associates, where he managed to acquire promotion after promotion through diligent work. Â
His newest title itself makes people look at Jay with respect, the kind of attitude he used to strive for when he was a humble law student. His early childhood was spent hearing his father talk about winning in court and the importance of believing in yourself when it comes time to face tough decisions. Jayâs father always advised him to do what he thinks is right, or else heâll live with a regretful consequence for the rest of his life without the chance of rectifying it.Â
Jayâs loyalty and integrity is what makes people revere him. He stands tall and proud, walking into every room like he built the place with his bare hands. Thereâs never a hair out of place and his wardrobe reflects his luxurious tastes, always a suit from abroad and accessories to match.Â
Heâs built a good life for himself. His father is still a practicing lawyer while his mother is considering retiring from her wildly successful jewelry business. Jay comes home for the holidays and visits them a few times a month for dinner when he has the time, and he does his best to keep the people around him happy.Â
After all, thatâs what Jay does best.
*â§ď˝Ľďžâââââââââââ *â§ď˝Ľďž
Itâs Thursday morning and Jayâs week has gone by without a hitch. His clients arenât giving him a hard time and he hasnât had a reason to step into the courthouse at all. In addition, he hasnât heard any of the associates complain about the workload given to them nor has Jake needed help with a problem for Jay to amend.Â
It feels odd to be as calm as he is. Jay wants to welcome it with open arms and sink into his seat until he feels like heâs vulnerable enough to sleep, but he knows thatâs not in his job description. Instead, Jay needs to sleep with one eye open.Â
âPark,â Heeseung says as he pokes his head into Jayâs offices. âCan you spare a few minutes and meet me in my office? I need to call an impromptu meeting.â
âSure,â Jay says as he puts a file in his cabinet. âWhatâs it for?â
âItâs better if we talk behind closed doors. Jake and Sunghoon are already waiting for us.âÂ
Jay anxiously walks behind Heeseung and fixes his tie, patting it to his chest and smoothing it over in an attempt to distract himself from Heeseungâs cryptic words. He sees Sunghoon and Jake in the office and takes a seat on the armrest of Heeseungâs couch.Â
âWhatâs so important that you need to discuss this in your office with the door closed?â Park Sunghoon, a fellow senior partner, asks. âWe didnât lose a billion dollars overnight, did we?â
âNo, but I know you wouldâve caught that before that wouldâve happened,â Heeseung quips back. âYou arenât our financial expert for nothing.âÂ
âDamn straight.âÂ
âWhat did you bring us in for, Heeseung?â Jake asks. Heeseung takes a moment to gather himself, eyes darting around the office before speaking.Â
âItâs about the Hybe Records case.â
âTheyâre holding a tight leash on people they sign on their main label or subsidiaries,â Jay nods. âWon't settle for a penny less than the recoupment.â
âWhich is why a portion of people signed with Hybe came to us to help them rewrite the contracts from here on out,â Sunghoon adds. âHybe came to us with a bullshit settlement offer and we declined. Weâre still working on finding a chink in the armor.â
âRight,â Heeseung says. âWhat else do we know about the case?âÂ
âHybe acts as the bank and their musicians take out a loan to make an album,â Jake says, pacing in Heeseungâs office with his arms outstretched for emphasis. âThe artist can use that money however they like and the sales made go right back to the label before they can make a profit.â
âExactly,â Jay nods, âwhich is why the label has been terminating their contractual agreement before they can produce the agreed amount of records.â
âHybe has more than enough money for a buyout.â Sunghoon shakes his head. âItâs fucked up.â
âThe label keeps the catalog and the money while the musician gets nothing.â Jay frowns.Â
âWe all know itâs why musicians and idols pick up endorsements or pick up acting,â Heeseung mentions. âI mean, the money they get from other ventures supplements their income that they donât get from music. But because thatâs normal practice and it doesnât help our sob story angle, I donât know where else to turn to.â
âWeâve been fighting this day and night for weeks. Youâre not telling me youâre dropping this, are you?â Sunghoon asks.Â
âBetween Jayâs regular clients, Jakeâs assisting, my workload, and your cases, we donât have the bandwidth to fight this. Quite frankly, I donât trust anyone to work on this but you three.âÂ
âIs there something we should know about?â Jay inquires. âDid Hybe threaten us?â
âNo, nothing like that.â Heeseung sighs. âLook, I donât know about you guys, but Iâm burnt out. Hybe isnât making this easy on us and weâre running out of time. What Iâm trying to say is Iâve consulted with another firm and have hired outside help. We need fresh eyes on this case.âÂ
Jay nervously runs his hand through his hair.Â
Heeseungâs right, this lawsuit is eating up most of his hours and consumes his thoughts when heâs off the clock. The people being affected are anywhere between starving artists and people who can afford to pay him his billables without question. But the greater good is what Jay thinks about and realistically, he knows it would hurt him to see so many people lose their avenue to pursue their passions.Â
Hearing stories from clients makes his heart lurch. Each deposition to discuss what happened behind closed doors with label executives makes Jayâs pursuit that much stronger. To know he has the privilege of obtaining a law degree and being able to work in his dream career without much of a hitch makes him feel guilty when he knows the very people sitting in front of him are putting their passions on the line. It makes him work harder.
Heâs no longer the law student that slaved away writing essays and pulling all-nighters to accomplish a task that wouldnât matter in the long run. Now, all of Jayâs efforts matter. His work will be impacted for years to come and he canât afford to misstep when handling clients. Itâs why he feels so strongly about this case and why itâs hard for him to stop thinking about it when he gets home. A penthouse overlooking the city means nothing if he canât help the people who got him there.Â
Jay knows Sunghoon and Jake feel the same way, too. Sunghoon, who came from a similar background to Jay, has always struggled with finding his voice in the business of law. Now as a senior partner with more at stake, he knows his friend will stand his ground if that means his clients walk away with everything they asked for. Jake, a first year associate having graduated law school after taking a few years off from college, is arguably the most sensitive of the three. He loves his work and finds passion in the people he helps represent. Itâs why Jay trusts him and why he chose Jake to be his associate in the first place.Â
To take action on behalf of his clients means to succeed. Jay knows he comes from wealth and privilege, and heâd likely be just fine if he chose a career that wasnât law. But his foot is in the door because his father was able to give him a legacy standard at law school, and it would be a shame to let that go to waste as if he didnât have anything to prove. Jay knows he does.Â
âAs we already know,â Heeseung begins to say, âwe need all the help we can get on the Hybe Records case. Theyâre the most powerful label in all of Asia and theyâve got their teeth sunk in every Asian market.â
âTheyâve got a dozen smaller labels beneath them and theyâre always looking to convince independent labels to give up their ownership,â Jay says. âItâll be hard to reach a settlement for all of them.â
âI know,â Heeseung sighs. He leans on the front of his desk. âI know you guys can handle it. Between the four of us, we can try to win this thing but itâll take more time than theyâre giving us.âÂ
âKid genius could probably read up on their files by tomorrow morning,â Sunghoon snorts as Jake elbows his rib cage.Â
âDonât be silly, Sunghoon. I couldnât possibly do that in a single night.â Jake smirks. âGive me two days.â
âShow off,â Sunghoon mutters with a hidden grin.Â
âEven so, it wonât be enough to fight them. Hybe has hired a plethora of lawyers to back them up and block us out.â Heeseung crosses his arm and is sure to maintain eye contact with the three boys in front of him. âItâs important to keep our clientele, but imagine how much business this would bring if we won.âÂ
âYou think that many musicians would hire us?â Jake asks.Â
âI think that many musicians care about owning their own music and not having to pay back a recoupment.âÂ
âThe amount an artist has to pay back before they keep their earnings,â Jake says with pursed lips. âRight. Thatâs really unfair.â
âThatâs the music industry for you.âÂ
âLabels are greedy as shit,â Sunghoon says with bitterness in his tone. âThey make a promise to up and coming musicians and swear theyâll be successful by the end of the year, but they donât really care about that. Theyâll give money to make albums but wonât care if these people live or die if they donât see a late profit.âÂ
âItâs sickening,â Jake adds. âIt should be illegal for musicians having to take endorsements and sponsorships just to pay the bills. They look like sellouts.â
âI donât like it any less than you guys do,â Heeseung responds. âBut thatâs the way it works. We just need to find a good enough reason for them to settle with us. We arenât budging on the recoupment.â
âWell, Iâm glad we all agree that musicians shouldnât have to pay back their loan.âÂ
âIâm confident in you all,â Heeseung tells them. âJay, youâre one of my best guys. You close deals and negotiate settlements like no one Iâve ever seen before. Sunghoon, youâve been an incredible lawyer since the moment we hired you and youâre the only person I donât have to keep my eye on.â Heeseung turns to take. âAnd Jake, youâre a gifted associate with a knack for getting people to tell you the truth. Iâve never met anyone quite like you either.âÂ
âHe makes depositions seem like fun,â Sunghoon laughs.Â
Jake smiles dramatically. âNobody can lie to this beautiful face.âÂ
âWhat Iâm trying to say is,â Heeseung interjects, âis that youâre all incredible lawyers and Iâve never regretted hiring you.â
âThereâs always a but,â Jay comments. Heeseung nods.
âBut, our best isnât enough. Our best doesnât account for the numerous legal and financial attacks Hybe Records will bestow on us. Weâve been thinking big but we need to think bigger. We need to think outside the box.â
âWhat do you propose?â Jay asks. âWeâve already gotten a first meeting with Hybe and God knows theyâll pressure us to give them an answer soon. I know that they know we wonât budge and are probably working with a counter move as we speak.âÂ
âWeâre bringing in someone from an outside firm.â
âWhat?â Sunghoon says. âWhich one?âÂ
âTang-Young,â replies Heeseung. âTheyâre a powerful firm, as we know, and were one of the few who declined to represent Hybe.â
âWe trust them, right?â Jake asks.Â
âWe do, yes,â Heeseung confirms with a single nod. âTang-Young have been kind to us and Iâd like to believe weâve been the same to them. Weâve been invited to consult on cases before and theyâve helped us out in the past, albeit itâs been a while. But we need all the help we can get and they were enthusiastic about assisting us.âÂ
âI donât know,â Jay says. âCatching someone else up to speed while weâre this far down the line? That seems like busy work. Unless we have another Jake who can read and memorize documents as quickly as he can, I donât know how much help theyâll be.âÂ
âOh, I think youâll be pleased with our colleague,â Heeseung says cryptically. Jay looks at him with confusion. âYou guys trust me, donât you?â
âOf course,â says Sunghoon. âI wouldnât be working here if I didnât.âÂ
âThen Iâll need you to trust me when I say the partner working with us is the best in the business. Sheâs an old friend and someone I confide in, which if you know me, is hard to do unless you work at this firm.âÂ
âWhy are you telling us this?â Jake asks.Â
Heeseung sighs. âIâm saying this now because I didnât have time to discuss the partnership prior to today because of deadlines and we need all the help we can get. A friend from law school, Kazuha, was willing to help us out since we assisted on that auto lawsuit a few months back.âÂ
âWe donât need to worry,â Sunghoon says. âThis is the best law firm in Korea and we have a history of having the highest rate in cases closed successfully. Youâre our leader, Heeseung. We know you wouldnât go behind our backs unless it was important.âÂ
âWe need a miracle for this one,â says Heeseung. âJayâs already running point on this case but he alone canât handle the burden.âÂ
A sinking feeling festers in Jayâs chest. He knows that nameâKazuhaâfrom when he was in law school and knew her family to have built Asiaâs largest corporate law firm from the ground up. Theyâre respectable, highly profitable, and a company Jay would rather not think about because hearing that name reminds him of his deepest regrets.Â
His week is offset by Heeseungâs sudden news. Jay has never doubted his elder, especially since Heeseung was a mentor to Jay in his early years of his career, but the hairs on the back of his neck perk up at the sight of Heeseung periodically looking at Jay. He doesnât think Sunghoon or Jake notices the awkward tension in the room either, too engrossed with talking strategy plans on how to make sure the new, mysterious partner is up-to-date.Â
Jay fiddles with the rings adorned on his fingers. The expensive jewelry, some of which are presents to himself and others gifts from his parents, provide a temporary distraction for him. Theyâre warm to the touch with how often he twists them for every word Heeseung speaks. Jayâs throat suddenly feels too dry.Â
âWeâll be fine,â Sunghoon tells Jake, forcing Jay to tune back into the conversation. âI think weâre all on edge because this is by far the biggest case weâve handled in the past few years.âÂ
âThere are dozens of clients who are filing a lawsuit against Hybe but it isnât considered class action yet,â Heeseung replies. âWe could very well set a precedent if we manage to win this thing.â
âThat would put the firm on the map!â Jake exclaims. âJust think about it. If we manage to settle in our favor so that these musicians donât have to pay the label back, we could set an example so other major labels follow through with no recoupment.âÂ
âThis is why everythingâs been kept under wraps and why Iâve had to act before consulting you three.â Heeseung finds a pen from his desk and twirls it in between his fingers. âI love this company. I became managing partner not too long ago and my predecessor took his name off of the door and added mine because he thought I could do something with the firm. You three are people I trust more than anyone else and I wouldnât have agreed to let you work on it if I didnât believe we could succeed.âÂ
Jay can sense the nervousness and anxiety in Heeseungâs tone. In all of his years working with him, he doesnât think heâs ever seen the man as on edge as he is now. Heeseung cannot manage to sit still and the pen his fingers are distracting him almost like Jayâs rings are. Itâs no wonder they work so well together.Â
âWe can do it, Heeseung,â Sunghoon says in an attempt to quell the atmosphere. âItâs hard and tedious, but what case isnât?â
âBesides, we have Jay. He is the best closer in Seoul,â Jake vouches, a coy smirk sitting on the edge of his lips as Heeseung merely smiles and shrugs in casual agreement.
The sounds of knuckles rapping on Heeseungâs glass door interrupts their conversation. The image of you standing before him knocks the air out of his lungs.
Heâs brought back to when he was a second year law student, struggling in his criminal law class before meeting you for the first time. Your timid and quiet demeanor is nothing compared to the confidence you exude in the present day. Right now, you look put together with your all-black attire and red bottom heels to match. The way youâve styled your hair allows your face to be seen instead of using it as a tool to hide yourself. Even with all of your perceived shortcomings, Jay remembers you as timid but headstrong. Now, it looks like heâs staring at someone he doesnât recognize.Â
Jay feels innocent again, traveling back to a time before work became the sole focus of his life and before the guilt of what he did to you ate him alive. It feels almost unnatural for him to see you in a professional setting. Sitting in the campus library with opened books or looking at you from across the table of a cheap ramen restaurant is where Jayâs used to seeing you.Â
Heeseungâs office is the last place heâd ever expect to run into you.Â
The last Jay heard, you were off practicing law in Busan before heading to New York for a few years to consult on Korean-American affairs until your visa expired. He never had the opportunity to see you in court before, not since law school.
There was a time when Jay couldnât step into a courthouse without wondering if you were inside with him. With every corner turned and every door opened, Jay would anticipate seeing that same beautiful and innocent face locking eyes with him as he stepped into the room. Jay would picture you in those long floral dresses you loved so much staring at him with anger in your eyes, wearing an expression caused by actions heâd never be able to atone for.
Guilt used to eat him from the inside out. The moment his alarm clock woke him up was when the guilt would settle deep within his chest. For a while, this feeling towards the way things ended with you was the reason why he pushed himself to stay in the office after everybody else left, back when he was a first year associate. Guilt led Jay to work three times as hard as everyone else and why he will never leave a stone unturned.Â
While that culpability subdued with the time that has passed, none of that matters now. Seeing you in Heeseungâs office with a friendly smile on your face makes that sense of wrongdoing resurface all at once.Â
The woman he sees before him is not the woman he remembers. Jay still has the same overly confident, hardworking attitude he exhibited when he knew you back in law school. Heâs still the same person who gets tongue-tied when he looks at you and heâs still the same person who regrets never calling you after you both graduated.Â
Unlike the disheveled mess Jay remembers from when he last saw you, youâve become polished. He sees that youâve grown into yourself with your shoulders held back and head looking straight in front of you instead of casting your gaze to the floor. Your eyes meet everyone in the room, his included. You wear a big smile on your face and take a step forward before bowing towards him and his colleagues.Â
Jay doesnât think he deserves that respect from you.
âJayâs the second best,â you comment. Even your speech has matured. âI happen to be the first.â
âEveryone, meet Kim Y/N.â Heeseung takes a step forward to return your bow and shake your hand, welcoming you into his office.Â
âY-Y/N?â Jay stutters, eyes widened in shock when he spots you next to Heeseung.Â
The reaction is unwarranted and even he canât believe his words came out like that. Jay pays no attention to Sunghoon and Jake, who look at him with quizzical expressions. Jay can only focus on you, with the way your pantsuit hugs your body and the way your high heels make you stand taller than he remembers you. Youâre very confident. Jay wonders what must have changed in the time he last saw you until now.
âIn the flesh, Park. Itâs nice to see you again.â
âY/Nâs the best chance we got to win this against the biggest record label in Korea,â Heeseung interrupts, forcing Jay to push his thoughts aside. âI donât need to remind you that our clients are high profile names trying to make a case for musicians who canât afford to pay back the recoupment. If we lose this, we lose their business. It wonât look good for the company if we donât secure a public win.â
âA public win means a public loss,â you chime in. âHybeâs settlement deal is bullshit and we all know it.âÂ
âExactly.â Heeseung points at everyone in the room before landing on you. âI know we donât ask for outside help but we need Y/N. I trust everyone to make her feel welcomed and to give her anything she needs.âÂ
âIt would be an honor,â Jake says before stepping in front of you to bow with his body perpendicular to the floor below him. âSim Jayeun, but feel free to call me Jake. Itâs a pleasure to meet you.â He outstretches his hand to you for good measure and is pleased when you reciprocate. His kindness brings a smile to your face.
âItâs lovely to meet you, Jake. I look forward to working together.â The aforementioned nearly falters in his movements as he takes a step back, hearing Sunghoon snickering behind him before you turn your attention to him. âYou must be Park Sunghoon. Iâve kept up with your work for a while now. Your work with Kim Mingyu against General Motors was impressive.âÂ
âAll in a dayâs work,â Sunghoon says as he brushes his shoulders for dramatic effect. âIâm honored that you know about it.âÂ
âYou saved Mingyuâs reputation for being a whistleblower and forced the companyâs hand to not only change their flawed design, but to pay out the victims. You bled that company dry in the process to compensate for the casualties. Thatâs something worth talking about,â you tell him. âItâs impressive to me.âÂ
Jay swears he sees Sunghoon blush.Â
âThank you,â says the latter, clearing his throat. âIt means a lot that you said that.âÂ
âI canât imagine how hard that must have been either.â
Your eyes move towards Jay and he expects to see nothing short of a scowl painted on your lips because the last time he saw you, he remembers Jung Iseul asked him if he loved you in front of thirty of your classmates.Â
Jay said no.Â
He regrets how he handled it. He wishes he could turn back time and tell Iseul and her friends to leave you alone, and tell her the way she acted was nothing short of childish. Jay would like to believe heâd pull you away from wandering eyes and hold you until your eyes were dry if he was able to turn back time and relive that awful moment, but he canât. The memory of you looking at him with betrayal in your eyes is what keeps him up at night.Â
Jay thought of his own needs before yours, selfishly acting to protect himself from the embarrassment of a public confession instead of thinking about how humiliating it mustâve been for you. Your classmates were never the nicest and often commented on your quiet and shy demeanor. Jay always tried to do his best to encourage you to be the best version of yourself, growing silently frustrated that youâd allow people to say harsh things about your skill sets instead of proving them wrong. What he failed to realize is that youâd grow into yourself at your own time.Â
You're not the timid girl you used to be. Jay sees the fruits of your labor standing in front of him.Â
When you look at him, Jayâs breath catches in his throat. Itâs been years since he last saw you in person and he can only imagine what you must be thinking. Are you seething? Are you angry? Are you here for revenge? Do you still think about that night as frequently as he does?Â
Any thoughts of you being spiteful are thrown out the window when he hears you speak in that same, soft tone you always reserved for him.Â
âHi, Jay.âÂ
Heâs quiet for a second too long because he sees Heeseung glaring at him from the corner of his eye.
âHey.â Jay says pathetically, shifting from one foot to another. âLong time no see.â
âWoah, wait. Do you two know each other?â Jake asks, pointing between the two of you.Â
âWe shared a few classes in law school,â you explain. âWe even graduated in the same year.âÂ
âOh, wow.âÂ
You tilt your head as you look at him. âYou seem surprised.â âIâm just shocked that you two know each other,â Jake says. âYou have the highest closing rate in all of Seoul and youâre telling me you went to law school with my boss?â
âIâm trying not to take offense to that,â says Jay, who furrows his eyebrows. The atmosphere is too much for his liking and suddenly he feels as if his tie is too tight around his neck.Â
âWe knew each other a long time ago, but itâs always nice to see a familiar face.â You smile at Jay before turning to Heeseung. âWhen do I start?â
âWhenever youâd like, but knowing you, youâve already begun drafting strategies.âÂ
You grin. âYou know me very well, Heeseung.â
âY/N will be working from our office a few times a week for the next few months to make things easier. Sheâll still be handling cases from her firm with an emphasis on the Hybe lawsuit.âÂ
âThank you for welcoming me,â you tell everyone before looking at Heeseung. âCare to show me to my temporary office?âÂ
He smiles. âRight this way.âÂ
âIt was lovely meeting you all,â you say before turning to leave. You pause and turn to face Jay. âIt really is nice to see you again.âÂ
He stands in his spot at a loss for words. It feels as if his feet are planted on the ground with no way to make him move. His mouth might as well be hung open with the way he stares at you and merely nods. Speaking makes him feel like heâs going to choke and say the wrong thing, so he opts to say nothing.Â
You exit behind Heeseung without sparing him a second glance and he watches as your figure disappears around the corner, listening until he canât hear the sound of your voice speaking with Heeseung. His hands are planted firmly in his pocket, the fabric of his suit providing a distraction from the sudden notion of seeing you after all these years.Â
He feels Jake and Sunghoon looking at him from the side. Sunghoon merely walks past Jay and offers a pat on the shoulder while Jake enthusiastically stands from his seat and bounces with excitement.Â
âYou know Kim Y/N? The Kim Y/N?â
âIt was a long time ago,â Jay says with a small voice. âWe used to be study partners.â
âNo fucking way,â Jake swears with his hands on his hips. âHow come you never told me? Sheâs like, one of the most respected lawyers in all of Asia. Did you hear about her work on that Cheong-Smith case back in New York? God knows how tedious working between America and Korea mustâve been. Sheâs so fucking cool, Jongseong. A badass is what she is. I want to be her one day.â
Jayâs mouth quirks in a half smile. He knows youâve built a reputation but refuses to read about you in the newspaper or listen to conversation where your name has been brought up. It brings painful memories and no matter how much he chastises himself for being in the wrong, part of him canât help but hurt and yearn for you.Â
If Jake notices Jayâs quiet demeanor, he doesnât acknowledge it. The former is pacing in Heeeungâs office with his hands rubbing his face as if heâs won the lottery. Jayâs envious of Jakeâs ignorance, in a way. He wishes he could forget that night and re-do his friendship with you. Jay wishes he could meet the person you are now if that means rejecting you in front of your classmates never happened.Â
âY/Nâs a great lawyer,â Jay finally says. âIâm glad sheâll be working with us.â
âSo fucking cool,â Jake whispers in disbelief. He turns to Jay. âI can show her around the office and, you know, show her the ropes.â
âDonât try anything.âÂ
Jake puts his arms up in mock surrender. âHey man, I wonât. Y/Nâs someone I view as a mentor. I donât have weird, unresolved romantic feelings like you do.âÂ
Jay opens his mouth in disbelief as Jake winks at him before walking out of Heeseungâs office. He sits with his thoughts and wonders if this meeting was a figment of his imagination and if heâd wake up with you halfway across the world and his life being as normal as it can be.Â
But he sees you enter your own private space when he walks to the break room and tries not to stare at you too long. It wouldn't be good for his health.
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âThis office is pretty nice.âÂ
Your jaw nearly drops at the sight before you. The tall windows overlooking the city boasts a beautiful skyline with pedestrians barely visible from where you stand. The carpeted floor is plush against the click of your heels and the temperature in the room is just warm enough for you to set your suit jacket atop the armrest of the brown leather couch.Â
âIt used to be mine before I became the managing partner,â Heeseung tells you.Â
âI see. That must be why I like the interior design.âÂ
Coming back to Seoul six months ago wasnât your idea. But your visa in America had expired and there was no legitimate reason for you to extend your time abroad. With a heavy heart, you packed your bags and returned to the city with unfavorable memories you hoped to put behind you.Â
However, it seems that life finds a way to throw you a curveball and make you face your fears. Returning to Seoul wasnât for the faint of heart. The familiar sounds of people walking and talking in the street and the scent of street food vendors warmed your heart as best as it could. The memories of your childhood summers spent frolicking in the city because your parents were too busy pursuing their dreams to entertain yours will forever remain a tasteless memory. The sound of squeaky wheels on vendor carts is bittersweet.Â
Upon returning, youâd taken a couple of weeks to settle into a new apartment just a few towns outside of the city. The modest apartment is nothing like the penthouse you rented in New York. The amenities were appealing at first, with the tall ceilings and marble statues adorning each room. The affluent neighborhood you lived in felt familiar from your childhood days, although feeling at home wasnât something you think you could ever do if you lived in a house made of glass.Â
The mental images of running inside your parentsâ gargantuan household with them nowhere to be seen is imprinted in your mind when you close your eyes. Your motherâs office door that always remained closed and uninviting to anyone but your father and older brother felt demoralizing, as did your fatherâs study, which was never to be entered. The large house felt more like a fortress than a home. The empty hallways with no one to converse with felt like a prison with your bedroom being your only sanctuary.Â
The two bedroom apartment in a modest neighborhood outside of Seoul feels like home to you. The neighbors who garden when itâs warm out and retreat on rainy days feel like friends rather than people you live next to. The children on their way to school wave at you before work and make you promise not to work too late, which is likely why you leave your office at a reasonable hour. If you bring your work home with you and hide behind your curtains as you pretend to watch TV, thatâs nobodyâs business but your own.
You jumped at the idea of leaving Seoul as you approached your second year in your law career. The idea of exploring a new country in a language you half-spoke felt more exciting than horrifying. Knowing your mentor had recommended you for the apprenticeship served as the encouragement you needed to pack your belongings and say goodbye to your friends, family, and life as you knew it.Â
If youâre being honest with yourself, you were running away from your childhood and the wound Jay had opened when he left you alone in front of your classmates.Â
That hurtful memory reopened itself when Kazuha pitched the idea of working with Lee & Associates on this case. The both of you know youâre her top choice to fight this battle given your brotherâs notable status and area of expertise. Your relation to your sibling is a secret you keep close to yourself with only a select few people in your life knowing, preferring to keep yourself out of the limelight as best as you can.Â
Yet the idea of working with Jay made these unresolved feelings bloom at the surface when you thought you had locked them in a box and threw the key away. The sleepless nights were just shy of affecting your work. Day after day, youâd stare at the Hybe Records file to see what information had been gathered, glossing over Jayâs name on each document and each email that was forwarded to your inbox. It hurt over and over again, just like it did when he left you standing alone, never to return.Â
But life never works out the way you want it to. Coming back to Seoul was for the best and facing old enemies and seeing old friends is part of your path. Having the grace to prepare yourself makes you reflect on how much youâve grown in the years you spent away from Korea and that youâre ready to move past the hurdle thatâs been keeping you tied down for so long. Or so you tell yourself.Â
Heeseung knocks his shoulders with yours. âYou donât seem as shocked to see Jay as I thought youâd be.âÂ
âI had a few weeks to prepare,â you tell him as the two of you face the scenery in front. âWhen Kazuha told me I was her first choice to work this lawsuit, I saw Jayâs name sitting at the top of the file.â
âItâs his case, technically. But we all know youâll outshine him in one way or another.âÂ
You shake your head. âIâm not here to step on anyoneâs toes, Heeseung. Iâm just here to do my job.âÂ
âAnd see an old friend, Iâd assume.â This time, you knock your shoulders against his.Â
âOh, you know itâs always good to see you when Iâm on this side of town.â
Heeseung smiles, pleased. âI know itâs been a while since the two of you have seen each other and I hope you know that you werenât picked for any dubious reasons.â
âI know, Hee.â The man looks at you, tilting his head to assess the true intentions behind your words. âSeriously, Iâm fine.âÂ
âThis company would have benefitted from your work,â he replies. âStill, Iâm sorry for how things worked out.âÂ
âThat was ages ago,â you wave off. âYou really donât need to apologize for it. I appreciate you fighting to hire me, but Jay has done a wonderful job and you canât deny that.â
Heeseung shakes his head. âNo, I really canât. Heâs one of my best. One of the best lawyers in Korea, Iâd argue.âÂ
âWhat does that make me?â you joke.
âIt makes you the best in the universe.âÂ
You throw a fond smile Heeseungâs way. âIt really is nice to see you again.â
âI meant it when I said you could reach out for anything.Â
âMost days, I just need a friend.â
Heeseung quirks an eyebrow. âIs that why you text me photos of you baking at three in the morning?âÂ
âPrecisely. What else would I text you about?âÂ
The man laughs. âI love the ones where your cat sits on the counter to watch. I love Gerry.â
âFor the love of God, Heeseung. Her name is Miso.â
âYeah, but your cat is orange like a tangerine and in my head, Gerry, is a cute nickname for tangerine.â
âYou need to re-evaluate your definition of cute.âÂ
Heeseung smiles at you fondly and tilts his head. He knows heâs looking at a version of you no one in Seoul has seen before. The new person standing before him is confident in herself and her capabilities, no longer shying away from the spotlight. The person you are now could look him in the eye and call him an equal, unlike when you were an emerging teenager dealing with peer pressure and hormonal acne.Â
âYour mom calls mine from time to time, you know,â Heeseung says after a short pause.Â
You snort. âOh God. Please donât tell me Lee Jiwoo cares about what my mother, of all people, has to say.âÂ
He shrugs. âShe doesnât, but they were neighbors for forty years before my parents moved. I think your mom has some weird attachment to the past.âÂ
âYouâre telling me,â you say as you roll your eyes. âI remember as kids, sheâd force me to go over to your house with the hopes that weâd fall in love and get married someday.âÂ
Heeseung laughs. âGod, you were so hung up on Lee Seokmin that you barely paid attention to me.âÂ
âIf I recall correctly, you were head over heels with Kang Ara and that made you a lovesick fool. Who knew you were into older women?â
âShe was nice enough to help me with my homework, okay?â Heeseung defends himself as he laughs.Â
Recounting childhood memories with you feels warm. When youâd left Seoul in pursuit of a career in America, Heeseung knew you were running away from your problems rather than facing them. He grew up seeing the harsh reality that was strict parents who placed too high of a standard on you whereas your older brother remained unharmed by their lashings and expectations.Â
Heeseung always chided the way his friends would tease him when he walked you home from school or offered to make room for you in his house when your parents were home. Heâd witnessed the volatile relationship between the three of you and offered his household as a sanctuary for as long as he could. Heeseungâs parents offered the kind of hospitality he wished you could receive from your own parents.Â
Still, it feels warm to know you chose to return. Seeing you in your element makes Heeseung think he mustâve done something right all those years ago, even if you briefly lost touch when you moved overseas.Â
âIâm really grateful for you, Hee.â You lean your head on his shoulder and cross your arms in front of your chest. âI donât think Iâve ever thanked you for being so nice to me when we were kids. You were always so popular with the girls and every guy wanted to be you. I know people made fun of me when weâd walk home from school together. Knowing you defended me and made me feel like a normal person despite my relationship with my parents makes me feel happy.âÂ
âIâd do anything for you. You know that, right?â Heeseung asks. He feels you nod against him. âIt killed me to see you fight with your parents and I didnât care that Han Bora got jealous of you or that Choi Youngchul made fun of me for having a girl around. You were more than that to me.âÂ
âI love my brother, I really do.â You bite your lip to keep a sigh at bay. âBut heâll never understand how my parents treated me. I know he loves me and I know he did everything he could to protect me when we were younger, but he still reaped the benefits from our parents.âÂ
âNo apology from them can outdo everything you went through,â Heeseung says. He leans his head on top of yours. âYou were my best friend, even if I didnât say that to you. Everyone at school wanted to be my friend because I went puberty faster than everyone else but you always treated me as the same kid who got a bloody nose after falling face first on the pavement.â
Heeseung smiles when he hears you laugh. âI told you to tie your shoe laces.â
âSInce when do I listen to what you say?âÂ
You pull yourself from him. âThanks for always being there for me, Hee. I hope you know Iâll work my hardest to win this case.âÂ
A knock at the door brings both of your attention behind you. Jake stands politely and bows his head as he enters when Heeseung beckons him inside.Â
âI hope Iâm not interrupting,â Jake says carefully.Â
âNot at all,â Heeseung assures. âIs there something you need?â
âActually, I was wondering if I could give Y/N a tour of the office. Iâd love to show her around so she feels more comfortable and familiar.âÂ
âThatâs a great idea, Jake.â Heeseung turns to you. âWhy donât you settle in and make yourself at home for an hour, yeah? Let Jake take you to the cafe thatâs across the street and use my company card to pay for it.âÂ
âIâll never say no to you paying.â Heeseung rolls his eyes at your playful banter but hands you his credit card regardless. Seeing you this open with him warms his heart.Â
âWe wonât be long,â Jake assures.Â
Jay approaches where the three of you are standing and busies himself in the bullpen when he notices you and Jake walking out of the office. Pretending to be intensely reading a document about finance, Jay prays you donât see him and waits until the two of you are out of sight to walk towards Heeseung.Â
His footsteps feel heavy as he enters what is to be assumed, your office.Â
âI already know what youâre thinking,â says Heeseung with his hands in his pockets.Â
âThen you know Iâm going to ask you what the hell is going on.âÂ
Jay has seen his fair share of hard moments from the man standing in front of him, whether in court or behind closed doors. He knows Heeseung to be someone that mentors by giving tough love and credit where itâs due, playing the role of a fair judge in the name of building a strong career. Jay is no stranger to people being upset with him, least of all Heeseung.Â
âDo I need to remind you that I'm the managing partner and that I donât need to consult you on my decisions?âÂ
âYou donât,â Jay begins, âbut you know the history I have with Y/N. A little heads up wouldâve been nice.âÂ
âWe donât always get a heads up when the stakes are high, Jay. You know that. I tried to be as forthcoming as best as I could but we only heard confirmation a few days ago and you were out of the office preparing for your briefing.âÂ
Jay breathes deeply. âYou of all people know we left on bad terms.âÂ
âSo you should know that Y/N is like my sister,â Heeseung retorts. Jay can hear the slight venom in his elderâs tone. âIâm able to set aside my differences because itâs my job to do so and because I like you.âÂ
âHeeseungââ
âHave you ever stopped to consider that youâre the only person making this awkward?â Heeseung asks, looking at Jay directly into his eyes. âNobody else seems to be having any problems with Y/N joining this lawsuit.
âYou are one of the best lawyers Korea has ever had the privilege of seeing, Jay. Hell, this company owes you a lot. But you canât tell me that Y/N being here has affected you this much to the point of coming to talk to me about it in my office.â
Jay remains silent knowing Heeseungâs right, even if his pride refuses to quell.Â
âYou made your choice all those years ago and from the looks of it, Y/N seems to have moved on.â Jay nearly chokes at Heeseungâs words. âYou need to move on as well, Jay. Do whatever it is you have to do to get your head straight.â
Jay shuts his eyes for a brief second. âItâs really hard, Heeseung. Itâs hard to forget.âÂ
Heeseungâs expression softens. âSheâs not seeing anyone.â
Jay abruptly opens his eyes.Â
âThat is not what I meant.â
Heeseung smirks. âSure it wasnât.â
âIâm serious, Lee. I just regret how it all went down and I regret not reaching out after graduation. My parents took me abroad for the summer to celebrate. I was so caught up that I didnât make time for Y/N.â
âYou can still make time for her now.âÂ
Jay shakes his head. âItâs too late. Iâd bet anything to know she hates me.â
âWell, I know for a fact that she doesnât. If weâre talking about the same Y/N you and I both knew all of those years ago, then you know she doesnât hold grudges.âÂ
âBut we know she can.â Jay sighs. âYou know about her parents.â
âTwo people bringing her into this world just to treat her like nothing is far different than a boy not calling her back.â Jay tries to not take his comment to heart no matter how much it stings. âThe difference between you and them is that you have the chance to make this right and correct your wrongs.
âBut let me make myself clear. You are to work with Y/N and make her feel welcomed during her time on this case. I donât care how you do it as long as your head is clear and you can work beside her without letting your feelings get in the way.âÂ
âUnderstood.âÂ
Heeseungâs expression softens. âYou know I care about you, man. I wouldnât have agreed to be your mentor if I didnât think you were worth it.âÂ
Jay nods. âI know. I just forgot that you two knew each other as well.âÂ
âYou shouldâve seen Y/N back when she was in middle school. Still as timid as she was in law school but still the kindhearted person we know.âÂ
Jay tries to picture what you were like as a child. Heâs seen photos of you from preschool until the day you graduated college and wonders if you were the same shy, timid girl he knew you to be before the two of you parted ways. Would you two have been friends in elementary school? What kind of foods did you like to eat? Did you have a happy childhood?Â
He knows the answer is complicated. Jayâs assumption is that your parents, who happen to manage the biggest law firm in Korea through defending oil companies, did not value you as much as they valued your older brother. He, who was their prized possession, often tried to pull you into the spotlight with him. Jay remembers you talking about him fondly like he hung the moon in your night sky. It brought him a sense of peace to know there was someone always looking out for you when you were younger.Â
After all, your brother was the only form of family who came to your graduation during law school.Â
Jay remembers him standing tall, clad in a mask and clothing that made him unrecognizable. He blended in with the crowd and made himself seem smaller than he actually was in order to remain undetectable by people who werenât you. Jay always wondered why you were hellbent on keeping your brotherâs identity a secret and why you refused to share photos of him despite having shown him other pictures of you in your youth, but it made sense once Jay saw him pull the mask down and smile for a picture.Â
He knows he doesnât deserve to ask you how your brother has been or what youâve been up to since he last saw you all those years ago. Jay feels a lump grow in his throat when he thinks about working with you and having to talk to you about the case against Hybe. He wants to, and he wants to build a relationship with you that doesnât result in him panicking when you look into his eyes, but he doesnât know where to start.
âDonât think too hard about it,â Heeseung advises when he notices Jay growing quiet. âYouâll know what to do when the time comes.â
âEasy for you to say,â Jay says with a sigh. âYou werenât the one who broke her heart.âÂ
âY/Nâs resilient. You and I both know the lengths she went through as a kid and how successful she is now. She wouldnât have taken this case if she wasnât willing to work with you. That should be a sign in itself.âÂ
Jay takes Heeseungâs words into consideration, but it goes through one ear and then out the other. His heart wonât stop beating at a rapid pace and he canât help but feel like thereâs no hope for him at all.
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Heeseung seems to know you too well.Â
The cafe across the street speaks to your soul with their delicious drinks and delectable pastry menu. You buy something for Jake on Heeseungâs card too. He merely looks at you with wide eyes and stutters over his words when he asks if youâre allowed to do that, to which you wave him off and say youâve known Heeseung far too long for him to care about another fifteen dollars missing from the company funds.Â
âHow long have you known Heeseung?â Jake asks as he takes a sip of his drink. The two of you sit cross from one another, basking in the atmosphere of the lunch rush hour.Â
âOur whole lives, practically. I think his parents moved next to mine way before either of us were born. They always joked that weâd get married and have that fairytale ending.âÂ
Jake raises his eyebrows. âIs that still happening?â
âGod no,â you say, shaking your head. âHeeseung is like a brother to me. Heâd walk me to and from school when we were younger and hung out with me, back when I was a timid mess.âÂ
âI donât think I could ever imagine you as shy.â Jake blushes when he realizes heâs speaking candidly. âIâm sorry, I didnât mean to say that.âÂ
âPray tell.âÂ
âW-Well,â Jake stutters, âitâs just that, people talk and I know you know that. Iâve heard people brag about what an amazing attorney you are and how you dominate the courtroom. Or, you know, even the opposite, when people would tell me sob stories about losing to you.âÂ
You stifle a laugh. âIâd like to think Iâve come a long way since law school. I donât know if Jayâs ever told you, but I used to be very quiet. I kept to myself a lot. I didnât have enough confidence to talk in class and panicked every time I was picked for a cold answer.âÂ
Jake shudders. âI hated that. I was somebody who always came prepared to class but being put on the spot made me feel like I didnât read the material at all.âÂ
âConfidence comes with practice,â you tell him. âThis job has built my self esteem, especially when I moved to New York for a few years. I didnât speak English very well, just bits and pieces from music I grew up listening to and because my brother is fluent as well.âÂ
âDo your parents speak English?â
You shake your head. âBroken English. My brotherâs a special case. He listened to a lot of rap music behind our parentsâ backs and dedicated so much time into learning how to rap in English that he became fluent. He was obsessed with the show Friends, too. I picked up after him.â
âYour brother seems like a cool guy.â
You smile into your cup. âYeah, he is. Heâs part of the reason why I took this case against Hybe Records. It feels right to fight for the underdog, you know?â
âJay says the same thing,â Jake tells you. It makes your heart twinge. âHeâs been my mentor for the past year and I donât think I could ever thank him for taking me under his wing. Iâm sure you knowâheâs the type of guy to be fair and just. I never feel like heâs looking down on me, even when I royally screw up and he has to fix my messes.âÂ
âHe used to be really good at talking me down a ledge in law school,â you laugh. âI used to get so hot headed and frustrated every time I couldn't understand a brief or when Iâd read for too long. Jay was always the calmer one between the two of us. Heâd tell me to take a breathââ
ââand take it easy,â Jake finishes with you. You smile.Â
âYeah, that. I still think about him saying that to me when times get tough. Jay was a big reason why I even graduated law school in the first place.âÂ
âI thought you graduated at the top of your class?â
âHe and I held equal rank,â you explain. âBut mostly, he helped me see the bigger picture, you know? Jay always put my goals into perspective and reminded me why I wanted to become a lawyer in the first place.âÂ
âWhy did you?âÂ
You set your cup down. âIt feels right to help other people in ways that canât be seen. No one talks about financial burden or responsibility. I had more than enough privilege growing up and itâs unfair that the rest of the world will never experience that kind of safety. If I can provide some kind of comfort for people going through tough times, who am I to deny them that?âÂ
Jake nods. âI understand. I didnât grow up in a legacy family myself and it makes me feel better knowing there are good people like you who pursued law. I guess thatâs also why I wanted to become an attorney. I want to help people and this is the best way I know how.â
âDoes Heeseung still make you guys take on two pro bono cases every year?âÂ
âThree now,â Jake corrects. âBut I donât mind it that much. I love meeting new people and it makes me happy when we secure a win for them.âÂ
âThis job has brought me out of my comfort zone and has made me feel more confident while doing it. I owe a lot of that to Jay and Heeseung.â
âIâd love to learn from you,â Jake says honestly. âEven if itâs watching you in depositions or preparing case files. I feel like I could learn a thing or two.âÂ
âIâd love that, Jake.âÂ
He smiles. âI still canât believe you knew Jay in law school. What was he like? Iâll bet he still had the same, brooding glare when heâs focused.âÂ
âI think that was part of his charm,â you say with a fond smile. âGirls loved him. I mean sure, he came from a powerful family, but I think people were digging the whole âI-Donât-Want-To-Talk-To-Youâ vibe.â
âSo how did you two end up becoming friends?âÂ
âWe sat next to each other in our criminal law class and he was struggling with a few cases,â you explain. âI excelled in criminal law while he excelled in intellectual property, which was a subject I needed help in, and we formed a study partnership in our second year.
âI couldnât really tell you how we got as close as we did, though. We met in the library a few times a week before realizing being in a quiet environment made us too tired to read. Weâd find coffee shops all over town and would end our study sessions with a late night dinner before parting ways.âÂ
âThat does sound like the Jay I know,â Jake laughs. âI donât think Iâve seen him go home before the sun goes down.â
âEveryone knew how diligent he was with his work. He was always so confident in class when answering questions from our professor. Iâm pretty sure everyone was intrigued by him. Jay mostly kept to himself until he and I became friends.âÂ
âI can totally imagine Jay being a lone wolf.â
You laugh. âHe was, kind of. We started hanging out without the premise of studying shortly after. He was probably my closest friend at the time.âÂ
Jake can see a lingering thought behind your eyes but chooses not to comment, instead checking his watch for the time.Â
âOh, we should probably be getting back soon. Iâll show you around the floor so you can get situated before you work.âÂ
âThat would be great, Jake. Thank you for volunteering to do so.âÂ
On the walk back to the office, your steps become heavier as the reality of your present sets in. Jay, a former crush and confidant, sits just out of armâs reach.Â
You replay the night in your head when Iseul had cornered the two of you at the local dive bar with the rest of your classmates upon celebrating the last final days of law school before graduation. At that time, everyone had received final offers from recruiters and were placed in law firms across Korea, yourself included.Â
It hurt to know that there was competition with Jay to join Lee & Associates, and that he was the chosen candidate. It hurt more to know that Jay couldnât bring himself to reject you in private.Â
Iseulâs smile burns in your memory when you recall the way Jay walked away from you. Her wicked grin has etched itself into your mind, especially when you close your eyes. Time and distance has been kind to you, especially knowing she had moved from firm to firm because of negligence on her part, but you reckon there will always be a part of you that will remain standing in that dive bar feeling like no one would be willing to catch you as you fell.Â
That sadness planted deep seeds of distrust within you. That melancholy feeling followed you throughout the summertime, especially when Jay didnât make the effort to call you during the summer that followed graduation.Â
It felt beautiful to be wanted by someone as kind and generous as Jay. It felt just as wonderful to be wanted by someone who you considered to be sought after. The brooding, quiet boy everyone thought to be mysterious had an energetic, talkative personality if you got to know him well enough. It was no wonder that you developed a crush on him towards the end of your second year in law school together.Â
When you think about it now, it mustâve been sickening to watch you follow Jay around like a lost puppy. You certainly felt like it from time to time. The two of you only shared one class in your final year together but stuck by each other for study sessions nonetheless. Jay was always more popular out of the two of you, always knowing people who passed him by and waving at other law students. It made you feel like you had to live up to a certain expectation and to branch out in order to be seen with Jay, but he always made it a point to tell you that it didnât matter how many friends you had. You were always going to be his favorite.
Youâd always considered yourself as an awkward, stuttering mess when it came to making friends. Something about Jay quelled your fears about socializing and playing the part of an extrovert with his calm tone and soothing demeanor. On most days, Jay was the person who encouraged you to relax and let your thoughts run wild before making brash decisions. He was the first person to listen to you talk about the burdens your parents placed on your shoulders without insinuating you had to be grateful for the life that you were born into.Â
You were. You are. But you arenât grateful for being neglected and being made to feel like being born was a mistake and a burden.Â
Jay has seen you at your worst, whether it be tearing up over a low test score or coming back from winter break after a couple of weeks with your family. Youâd argue that youâve been with him at his worst too, having seen Jay cry a few times throughout your friendship from frustration and stress. There was something about your bond that made you believe he trusted you with his heart and soul, and something that made you believe you could trust him too.Â
The weight of your parentsâ actions, coupled in with Jayâs selfishness, made you numb for a while.Â
His silence and the lack of an apology felt like the ultimate betrayal. You deleted his phone number out of anger when you began your position as a first year associate. You kept your head down and used work to distract yourself from the hollow feeling inside of you, often wondering how Jay was doing at Lee & Associates. It hurt to know you didnât have a relationship with him where you could tell him about your day and discuss the stress of cases within legal limits. It stung to know he likely didnât care about you enough to repair the bond after not having called you all summer. Deleting his number, as well as all of the pictures and videos you had of him from your phone, felt like the last straw. Jay was no longer going to be in your life.Â
It was why choosing to relocate to New York was so easy for you. Physically leaving Jay behind meant running away from everyone who had ever hurt you to start anew in a city where no one knew your name; this was a fresh opportunity to become the confident, carefree person you always yearned to be, the type of person you knew you could be. Having to navigate a new environment in a language you barely spoke strengthened your self confidence and demonstrated your resilience. If you could overcome this, you could overcome anything.Â
Seeing Jayâs name in the original Hybe Records case file startled you, but it wasnât as jarring as you thought it would be. You imagined what you would say to him if you ever got the chance to see him in person again. Would there be screaming? Would you cry? Would your throat close and feel like you were choking on your words if Jay were to have acknowledged you in any way?Â
Would Jay apologize for the night he left you?Â
The answer, you later found out, was none of the above. Instead, seeing the name âPark Jongseongâ caused a flurry of evocative memories to replay in your mind. After years of dealing with the torment of not feeling good enough to keep your loved ones around, the struggle to find who you were in an industry unkind to timid people like you dissipated with every hour spent working. The more you worked, the more you strategized about winning cases. The more cases you won, the more confident you got.Â
Taking on the case against Hybe records was already a no-brainer for you. Your brother is far too passionate about music to ever forgive you for passing up a case you know so much about. Not even Jay could have deterred you from working on it. Even so, youâre eternally grateful that seeing his name doesnât bring up unpleasant feelings like it did once before.Â
Jake brings you out of your thoughts when he opens the front door for you. With a bright smile and your guest badge in your hand, you walk past security without a hitch and take a deep breath before following Jake into the elevator and back to the main floor.Â
âI think youâll really like the associates and paralegals,â Jake says to make conversation on the long trip to the fiftieth floor. âSunoo, Jungwon, and Riki are my favorites, though.â
âWhyâs that?â
âSunooâs a first year associate and heâs brilliant,â Jake explains. âHeâs quick on his feet and heâs quite bubbly. I donât think Iâve ever seen someone so excited to be awake at eight in the morning like he is. Jungwonâs our best parasocial as well. Heâs incredibly smart and quick-thinking, and heâs thinking of studying to take the entrance exam to enter law school, actually.â
âOh wow,â you say with a nod. âThatâs incredible. His experience as a paralegal will definitely prepare him for that.âÂ
âI think so too,â Jake agrees. âRikiâs our legal intern for the summer. Heâs passionate about his work and really funny. Heâs got a natural charm to him, even if his resting face makes him look unapproachable. Youâll like him.âÂ
âIf Heeseung trusts you, then I trust you,â you tell Jake, stepping out of the elevator.Â
âSpeaking of Sunoo,â Jake mumbles as he expedites his pace to catch up with the brunette. âSunoo, thereâs someone I want you to meet.â
âKim Y/N,â Sunoo says with a perpendicular bow. âAn honor to meet you, truly. Iâm Kim SunooâÂ
You reciprocate. âI appreciate your kindness, Sunoo.âÂ
âHeâll probably scream about you bowing to him in the break room,â Jake laughs. Sunoo swats his arm.Â
âYah. Maybe if you were half as cool as Y/N, Iâd scream about you in the break room.â
Jake pouts before smiling. âI was just telling Y/N how youâre one of my favorite first year associates.â
âHe spoke quite highly of you. I heard that youâll be assisting on the Hybe case with us?â
âIf at all possible!â Sunoo exclaims. âI wouldnât want to overstep.âÂ
âNonsense,â you say as you wave him off. âIâm sure Heeseung will talk to you about this sooner or later. I saw your name on the file when he and I spoke earlier. I have a feeling weâll be working together quite often, Kim Sunoo.â
The aforementioned blushes. âThat would be amazing.âÂ
âWeâll see you later,â Jake says as the two of you wave goodbye. âSee what I mean? Heâs a ball of sunshine but his bite is definitely worse than his bark. Sunooâs incredible when it comes to reading clients to absolute filth.â
âHe seems sweet,â you say with a pout. âWho else am I meeting again?âÂ
âJungwon!â Jake shouts as he knocks on the glass door with the title âYANG JUNGWON | PARALEGAL.âÂ
The boy looks up and rolls his eyes before registering you standing behind Jake. You hear him clear his throat and fix his posture before standing, beckoning the two of you into his office.Â
âSorry,â Jungwon apologizes with a bow. âIâm sure that, by now, you know how loud Jake can be.âÂ
Jake merely laughs. âItâs because I like you, Wonie.âÂ
Jungwon faces you. âItâs nice to meet you. Iâm Jungwon, your resident paralegal. Let me know if you ever need anything and Iâd be happy to help!âÂ
âJungwonâs the best paralegal Lee & Associates,â Jake tells you. âItâs why heâs the only paralegal that has his own office.âÂ
âAnyway,â Jungwon says, hiding a blush from Jakeâs compliments, âthis is my second year with the company and I know it like the back of my hand. Please donât hesitate to reach out if you ever need anything.â
âThatâs really sweet of you to say, Jungwon, thank you.âÂ
âAnything for a friend of Jay and Heeseung!âÂ
âWeâll probably come back to you before the day ends,â Jake says to the younger boy. âIs Riki still on his lunch break or is he in the bullpen?â
âHe got back a few minutes ago.â
âSweet,â Jake says. âLetâs go meet the rascal.âÂ
Riki and Jake have a closer bond than you expected, with the younger boy greeting his elder with a bright smile and a handshake they seem to have perfected. He turns to you and listens as Jake introduces the two of you before he bows politely.Â
âRikiâs from Japan but chose to study here in Korea. He and Jungwon want to take the LSAT together,â says Jake.
âăăŞăăŻćĽćŹčŞă芹ăăŚăăă¨ćăăžăďźâ you ask him. I assume you speak Japanese?Â
Rikiâs face beams.
âăŻăăăăă§ă,â he says. Yes, thatâs right. ?ăŠăă§ăăă芹ăăăăăŤăŞăŁăăŽă§ăăâ Where did you learn to speak it?Â
âç§ăŻéŤć Ąă§ĺŚăłăžăăă ăăăăăăŁă¨çˇ´çżăĺż
čŚă§ă.â I learned back in high school. I need a more practice, though.
Riki smiles and shakes his head. âYour Japanese is perfect.â
âAh, you flatter me too much.â âThat was so fucking cool,â Jake says. âYou speak Korean, English, and Japanese?â
âAdd in a little bit of Spanish and weâre golden.âÂ
âYouâre officially the coolest person in this goddamn office.âÂ
âI hope our paths cross before your work here is done,â Riki says with another bow. âI need to get back to work, unfortunately.âÂ
âPlease, donât let me keep you!â Riki smiles at you once again before disappearing into another office. âYou're right, I really do like him.â
Jake smiles and points across the room. âThe break room is just around the corner and is always filled with coffee, tea, and other snacks. The secretaries at the front of the floor make sure itâs stocked to the brim but if anything is missing, just ask. Theyâre usually happy to replenish.âÂ
âGood to know.âÂ
âDo you need anything else from me or are you ready to win this goddamn case?âÂ
You smile.Â
âLetâs win this goddamn case.â
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In the two weeks that have passed by, Jay still hasn't mustered up the courage to speak to you.Â
Beyond a polite greeting when the two of you cross paths in the morning, Jay can barely smile at you without his heartbeat betraying him. His chest starts to tighten and his tie feels too tight around his neck when you look into his eyes. If you look deep enough, Jay is sure you see all of the regret heâs harbored for so many years.Â
Heeseung has had to tell him to get a grip twice already. Jay isnât slacking at his job as much as he thought he would. But if his mentor and dear friend could notice how awkward he was acting around you, Jay was sure you could sense it too.Â
In truth, Jay doesnât know how to talk to you. Heâs never felt pain like this before. He yearns to hear your voice speaking to him and to converse like once before, but he doesnât know how to. This obstacle causes pain within Jay, and he wonders if heâll ever get the chance to say more than a sentence to you before your time with him is over.Â
Watching you talk freely with his colleagues is foreign to him. Jay canât wrap his head around the fact that youâre much more confident than you were back when he knew you. The same girl who couldnât go a few sentences without looking at her shoes is holding eye contact and smiling after she speaks. You donât cower over your body in an attempt to make yourself look like youâre hiding in your shell. Now, you speak with assertion and hold your chin level with the floor as you hold conversation.Â
Itâs jarring, but a large part of Jay canât help but feel proud of you. If thereâs one thing he knew you wished for back in law school, it was to grow your self esteem. Having parents who belittle your dreams and spoke pathetically about your life choices didnât leave room for you to understand what liking yourself looked like. The accolades and achievements your parents were bestowed with felt unnatural when you knew it was only a matter of time before they had something negative to say. As attorneys themselves, defending oil companies who donât care about oil spills in the ocean or bribing employees to keep a quiet mouth about misfortunes never felt like confidence to you. It was cowardice. Â
Seeing your parents in magazines with a perfect picture smile never made you want to emulate them in any capacity. They look like dolls, playing the role of hardworking attorneys and devoted parents until they cross the threshold of your home, letting the mask fall to the floor. Their confidence felt brazen. They didnât deserve to be your role models.Â
Yet, here you are.Â
Jay doesnât notice that heâs been staring at you from his office door until Sunghoon knocks his shoulder with his own.Â
âQuit staring unless you want to look like a creep.âÂ
Jay clears his throat. âI wasnât staring.âÂ
âSure,â Sunghoon smirks. âAnd I donât handle the majority of our finances.â Jay rolls his eyes.Â
âI know what youâre gonna say and you donât need to say it. I know I need to talk to Y/N.âÂ
âYouâll regret it if you donât.âÂ
âI know, Hoon,â Jay says. He spares one more glance at you before looking away. âBut itâs hard to try when I donât think I deserve any respect or forgiveness.âÂ
âLook, I donât know what happened between you two, but itâs obvious that something did happen by how tense you are when sheâs around.â
âAm I really that bad?â
Sunghoon nods. âY/N can tell. She keeps looking at you when you walk away.â
âShit,â Jay curses.Â
âWhatever happened back then was a long time ago. I obviously donât know her as well as you do, but sheâs been a great asset to the team since she joined. She blends well with everybody and leaves her office door open most of the time. Y/N talks to the associates and interns when sheâs taking breaks. She wouldnât do all of that if she wasnât willing to talk to you.âÂ
Deep down, Jay knows his friend is right. But itâs hard to convince himself to talk to you when he pictured the agony on your face before he turned around and left you by yourself with the wolves. It makes his heart lurch from left to right. This feeling only quells when youâre out of sight and when heâs distracted with his work.Â
âTry,â Sunghoon says. âI know itâs scary, but the universe put her right back in your life for a season.âÂ
âI know,â Jay says quietly. âThanks, Sunghoon.âÂ
âAnytime.âÂ
Sunghoon leaves and Jay fixes his posture, pushing his shoulders back twice in a row. Jay still thinks you are the most beautiful and selfless person heâs ever seen. Looking at you makes him feel like a small volcano has ruptured within his heart and the cage that once kept his adoration for you hostage no longer keeps him in the dark. Jay isnât the insecure young adult he was when he knew you. Even he is more sure of himself.Â
Jay thinks you look gorgeous now that youâre smiling more. He remembers all the times he used to take candid photos of you during impromptu moments and the squeals of discomfort you echoed when he would try to take a picture. You used to cover your mouth or shy away from the camera as if you were too embarrassed to be caught. But the way youâre smiling to his colleagues and how animated your conversations are seem to make his heart swell to see how far youâve come.Â
Working alongside you in the time that he has makes Jay observant. Heâs been in a room with you plenty of times, whether it be for an internal meeting or sessions where each attorney looks through files of documents. Youâre still the diligent and hardworking person you were all those years ago. You still tap your pen quietly over the stack of papers and you still like to eat sweets when youâre in the thick of it. When he sees you like this, Jay begins to recall all of the nights spent in the library studying for an exam or rushing to finish an essay before the submit date. Seeing you harbor the same habits you did in law school makes his heart warm.Â
For as awkward as it is, Jay is glad that he gets to see you as successful as you are. He always pictured the two of you as lifelong friends back when he knew you for six months. You were reliable and honest, loyal to your core, and passionate about your work and hobbies. He loved to hear you talk because it demonstrated your confidence when the two of you were together. Jay would reckong that heâd fly a great distance if you asked him to have a conversation with him.Â
He loved seeing you switch on for him. One look at you and you were smiling with your eyes closed. Jay adored the way youâd laugh every time he said something mildly embarrassing or the way you would subtly blush whenever he got up early enough to buy you something from the cafe near his apartment. Jay knew he made you flustered from time to time and it brought him great joy to see you look at him like you didnât know what to do with yourself.Â
When he made the executive decision not to call you three months after graduating, Jay wondered if it was cruel of him to revel in the way you reacted to him. His heart felt lighter when you smiled at him while making eye contact. He didn't mind carrying your purse when the two of you hung out or remaining the more sober of the two whenever he drank with you. It felt so natural to look after you like that despite not having many people in his life to do that for. It gave Jay a sense of purpose to do so, going as far as to seek for you when you werenât with him.Â
He always felt selfish for teasing you with the purpose of seeing that shy smile and seeing you look away from him in an attempt to stop laughing. You looked so beautiful when you were bashful, so humble too. Jay prayed for borrowed time because seeing you between classes wasnât enough. He always thought you were too cool to hang out with him no matter what other people said because you had a million passions and could talk his ear off about everything and nothing at the same time.Â
Realistically, Jay knows he can talk to you whenever he wants to. Youâve been mad at him before and have done days without talking to him, but when he took the time to reflect and apologize to you the way you deserved, you always let him back into your hold. Jay knows he has the opportunity to strike up a conversation since you both have been working together for a couple of weeks. He knows you wonât dismiss him.Â
But when he sees you laughing with Sunoo and Jungwon in the bullpen from his office, he canât help but think about just how little he knows about you and how much you donât know about him. Jay knows itâs his fault since he put the distance between the two of you. Yet here you are, talking to people heâs known for years like youâve known them all your life.Â
Jay can talk to you, but it wonât be today.
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Luck is (or isnât) on his side when the two of you jump into each other while trying to open the door to the cafe across the street from the law office.Â
Regretfully, Jay wasnât paying attention to where he was walking, as his nose was buried deep in an email he was reading as he motioned to pull the door open. It was then he realized heâd bumped into someone. It took him a few seconds to register he had humped into you.Â
âOh,â you say, startled.Â
âShit,â Jay curses. âIâm sorry. I, uh, wasnât watching where I was going.â He pockets his phone. âI should really start doing that.â
âYouâre lucky I donât have coffee in my hands,â you say with a laugh. âItâs fine, Jay.âÂ
You let him pull the door open for you after he corrects himself. With his head, he gestures for you to enter first and you give a polite smile as a silent thank you. Jay forces himself not to audibly sigh behind you, instead choosing to glance at the ceiling and pray he doesnât say anything stupid.Â
He meets you at the cashier line and notices what youâre wearing. Your forest green dress hugs you in a respectable way, contouring to the ridges of your body. The color looks gorgeous against your skin tone, as does the color of your jewelry. Your coat is dangling from your arms and your hair is styled in a way that makes you look almost glamorous.Â
âYou look stunning.â
To his horror, you look back and catch him looking at you.Â
âThank you,â he hears you say after a long pause. Jay feels his cheeks reddening.Â
âSorry,â he apologizes. âThat was weird, wasnât it?âÂ
Heâs surprised when you shake your head.
âNot weird at all. I bought this dress and took the tag off prematurely. I wore it today so I could get use out of it since Iâd spent so much money on it, so Iâm glad someone likes it.âÂ
That same, shy smile adorns your face. But this time, you arenât looking away from him. That makes Jayâs heart flutter and for once, he feels like heâs got a shot at making things right with you.Â
âYou really do look stunning,â Jay tells you as he looks you directly in the eye. He doesnât dare let his gaze wander.Â
Before either of you can say anything, the cashier is waving you towards the counter. He doesnât think twice about pulling his wallet out and hanging it to the employee behind the counter when you finish ordering, quickly saying his own order before smiling at you.Â
âYou donât have to pay for me,â you tell him.Â
âI know,â he says with a meek smile. âBut let me, yeah?âÂ
You donât fight him on it, namely because the employee has already used his card by the time you could even think about pulling your own out. Jay ushers you to the side where the waiting area is and puts his hands deep in his pockets.Â
The two of you are quiet for a while. Itâs semi busy and the sound of chatter and steaming milk reverberates around the room. Jay looks at you through the corner of his eyes and sees you looking at your watch for the time. If he's to say anything, he needs to say it now.Â
âItâs good to see you again,â is what Jay settles with. You turn to look at him. âI didnât realize you were the borrowed partner. Itâs good to see that you achieved your dreams.âÂ
You donât know how to respond. You choose to respond honestly.Â
âIt makes me happy knowing that we both made it,â you tell him. âHeeseung told me he promoted you to senior partner a few months ago. Thatâs incredible.â
âNot as incredible as being the youngest person to be named senior partner at Tang-Young.â Jay smiles at you. âThatâs incredible.âÂ
âIt feels that way,â you tell him earnestly. âI used to think days like these were far-fetched, like Iâd never be named senior partner or have my foot in the door. It feels crazy to feel put together for once.âÂ
âI know the feeling,â Jay agrees. âI have my own place and havenât had any help from my parents since I graduated law school. Iâve been on my own for a while now.âÂ
The barista calls out your orders. Jay lets you pick up your beverage before he takes his.Â
âDo you ever think about when you were a first year associate? I think about sitting in the bullpen all the time. Sometimes it feels wrong to have my own office.â Jay opens the door for you and lets you walk outside first before he follows.Â
âI picture myself out there when I first joined the firm,â Jay confesses. âI was so young and naiveâŚI didnât have a clear picture of what I wanted to do with my career yet.âÂ
âItâs insane how much time has passed,â you comment, looking both ways before crossing the street. Jay doesnât think you say it as you do on purpose, but emotions tug on his heart strings. âI feel like I was just a first year associate only a few days ago.â
Jay swallows harshly. âA lot has changed. Some for the betterâŚsome for the worst.âÂ
You finally look at him when the two of you reach the other side of the road. He doesnât like talking in tongues or minding your language when he speaks to you because he wants to apologize. Jay has spent the last few weeks dreaming about what heâd say to you or what heâd do to make up for his shortcoming years prior but he doesnât know how to start. He doesnât know what he should do first or if youâd consider hearing him out.Â
Today is an indication that you might be, is the conclusion Jay comes to.Â
The cliches of time slowing down is what he feels when you stop to look at him. He feels like youâre staring through his soul, almost as if youâre inspecting him from head to toe. Jay doesnât know what youâre thinking and heâs too afraid to ask. He canât tell whatâs going on in your head with your emotionless expression, rocking back and forth to keep his balance.Â
Did he say the wrong thing? Jay bites his tongue and wishes he could wake up from whatever dream heâs having. This doesnât even feel real. He can barely hear the sound of taxis and people around him through the thumping of his own heart. Jay canât see anyone else but you, so he reckons he could open his eyes and still be in his bed.Â
But he blinks and youâre still standing in front of him.Â
âThings mightâve changed and so do people. Donât be too hard on yourself.âÂ
He watches you walk towards the entrance of the building and forces himself to jog until heâs walking next to you. Jay catches himself and tries not to bump into the people walking in the opposite direction as him. When the two of you are back on the fiftieth floor, you bow to the secretaries and greet Heeseung and Jake, who are standing next to one another.Â
âOh good,â Heesueng says, âY/N, youâre here. I know you have to appear in court in a few hours and I was wondering if youâd be willing to stop by Attorney Ahnâs office.â
âAhn?â you ask him quizzically. âWhat for?âÂ
âWe secured an agreement for them to hand over the Hybeâs contracts. They didnât want to disclose and Ahn tried hard to block this from being filed, but I think Judge Han allowed it to pass. Do you think you could grab the box from his office?âÂ
âSure thing,â you tell him with a nod. âI should be leaving in about an hour. No idea when Iâll be back, but I planned to put in some extra hours. Might as well get a head start by looking at those files.âÂ
âYouâre a lifesaver,â Heeseung praises before walking back into his office.Â
âIâm kind of offended neither of you invited me to get coffee,â Jake says as he hands Jay a manila folder.Â
âMaybe if this file was on my desk yesterday, I would have,â Jay says with the quirk of his mouth.Â
Jake shakes his head dramatically. âDo you see what I have to deal with, Y/N? Itâs like he wants to punish me.âÂ
âPunishing you would be making you go to housing court three times a week, but I donât,â Jay retorts. âInstead, you get to work with the big kids.â
âAtta boy,â Jake says as he elbows Jayâs side. âBut seriously, I want an invite next time.â
âWe ran into each other this morning but how about you and I go together tomorrow morning, say around eight?âÂ
âI think youâre my favorite attorney!â Jake exclaims.Â
You turn to Jay. âYouâre welcome to join us.âÂ
âYes,â Jay accepts immediately. âYeah, uh, Iâd love to join.âÂ
âGreat.â You look between them with a pleasant smile. âWell if youâll excuse me, Iâve got to prepare for trial. See you this afternoon?âÂ
âCount on it,â Jake says with a mock salute.Â
You leave the two of them and Jake watches as his mentor forces himself to pry his eyes off of you. In the duration that heâs gotten to see you and Jay work alongside one another, Jake has never seen his mentor at a loss for words before you started to work in the same office. The younger boy looks between the two of you before slipping back into Jayâs, waiting for him to follow suit.Â
Jake joined Lee & Associates as a first year associate. His designated spot in the bullpen felt scared to him, like it was the one place in the entire office that didnât make him feel like a belittled mess. Law school was over and Jake couldnât help but feel nervous about practicing law in the real world where the consequences would be more fatal than a bad test score.Â
Jay was in need of an associate at the time and there didnât seem to be anybody who could step up to the plate and deal with Jayâs on-and-off personality, along with the fast pace he kept when working. Before getting to know him, Jay was someone unreadable to Jake. He felt untouchable even though his desk was right in front of the bullpen with the glass doors separating the two of them, mimicking something as dramatic as The Great Wall.Â
Yet he finds himself seeing Jay like a brother after the time spent together. Jake knows his mentor is anything but a stone cold, hardened attorney people make him out to be. Jay prefers to keep his emotions closer to himself rather than on his sleeve for people to notice at first glance. He loves loyalty and honesty, and will go to great lengths to award people who stand beside him through tough times.Â
Itâs why Jake can see the conflict in Jayâs eyes when he sees him looking at you. Jayâs stare is far away, almost as if heâs looking at the spot you stood in to yearn for what he once had. It takes him a moment or two to collect himself and continue with his day.Â
Jay clears his throat when he realizes heâs been quiet.Â
âDo you have the briefing for the damage collection case?âÂ
Jake stares at his friend. âIâll give it to you if you tell me whatâs going on between you and Y/N.â
âI donât think thatâs any of your business,â Jay sputters in an attempt to seem calm. His heart is beating twice as fast. Jake merely shakes his head.Â
âNah, man. You look at Y/N like youâre seconds away from telling her youâre in love with her.â
âI am not in love with her,â Jay defends immediately. He sees Jake raise his eyebrow and disconnects eye contact. âWe used to know each other in law school and now we arenât as close anymore.â
âSee, thatâs the thing. I know that. Everyone else knows that too. But thereâs something neither you nor Y/N are acknowledging and thereâs tension in the air whenever you two are in the same room.â
âThereâs no tension.âÂ
Jake deadpans. âThereâs so much tension. Even Riki can sense it.âÂ
âDonât bring interns into this.âÂ
âIâm not bringing anyone into anything,â Jake replies. âItâs you and your weird mojo that needs to be fixed.â
âMy mojo?â
âYouâve been off kilter for the past month,â says Jake. âIâm your right hand, you know? Iâm with you for ninety percent of the week. I can tell when somethingâs bothering you.âÂ
Jay sighs. âItâs complicated, Jake. IâŚdid some things in the past that I wasnât proud of and I canât bring myself to talk to Y/N, especially knowing how it all went down.â
âYou donât have to be so cryptic about it,â Jake says sarcastically.Â
Take a seat,â Jay instructs. âYouâll want to sit down.âÂ
Recounting the story to Jake makes Jay feel like heâs telling a juvenile story about two lovestruck teenagers who were too immature to know any better. He feels the guilt rising to the surface all over again, as if he were shaming his younger self for acting so selfishly.Â
Truthfully, Jay knew you didnât deserve to be treated the way he treated you. He viewed you as the epitome of sunshine even if you didnât believe him on most days. Your quiet demeanor hid a blooming flower. You deserved more than a coward who couldnât own up to his feelings.Â
They stay in Jayâs office, foregoing the workday to discuss what happened the night he left you and what transpired in the summer that followed. Jay tells Jake that he and his parents hopped on a flight abroad a few days after graduation. He tells him how you were always at the forefront of his mind and how that sad look in your eye imprinted in his mind every time he closed his eyes.Â
âShit,â Jake says, leaning back to clutch against Jayâs chair.Â
âIndeed.â Jay averts his attention to the city below his office from his window. âI donât know how to act around her. She walks around like nothing happened between us but when I look at her, all I can picture is that look on her face when I walked away.â
âHave you ever considered that Y/N has moved on?â
Jay shakes his head. âHeeseung said the same thing but this isnât something you get over, Jake.â
âYou said it yourself, though. Y/N is a resilient person. You just told me what you admired about her most was that she could see the bigger picture and react accordingly.â
âI used to think she never had the guts to stand up for herself when people were meant to her,â Jay confesses. âIâd get so frustrated and weâd get into arguments because Iâd tell her she doesnât deserve to be treated like that. But Y/N would always tell me that some battles arenât worth fighting. I never understood it then.âÂ
âAnd now?âÂ
Jay sighs. âSeeing her here, making friends with all of the associates and walking into Heeseungâs office like she owns the place, makes me realize she always knew what she was talking about. I mentioned she didn't have a great relationship with her parents, right? Well, I think part of me always forgot that since I had a great relationship with mine. I was more vocal than she was. I didnât have a problem telling people off if they deserved it.Â
âBut she was quieter. Maybe it was by nature or maybe it was because she didnât like talking unless she had a reason to. I donât know. But when I look at her now, I donât see that angry, frustrated person anymore. I canât begin to describe it. Itâs like she broke out of her shell and became a completely different person. More confident, Iâd say.â
Jake nods. âYou know, she told me and Sunoo that she has a tattoo of a butterfly on her hip.âÂ
âA butterfly?âÂ
âA butterfly. A monarch, I think. Anyway, the type doesnât matter. Itâs just funny that you think sheâs come out of her shell when butterflies start out as caterpillars and have to go through their metamorphosis period before becoming a butterfly.âÂ
Jay bites his lip in contemplation. Jake continues.Â
âMonarch butterflies migrate to warm weather once a year because they canât survive the cold. They fly in groups, hundreds of thousands at a time and build communities. Y/N did the same thing, if you think about it. She left Korea to find herself in New York and returned when she was ready.âÂ
âI never thought about it like that,â Jay says. âI knew she was working from New York but I always thought it was to get away from me.âÂ
âMaybe in the beginning,â Jake adds. âMaybe Y/N needed to get away from you, her parents, and her life as she knew it to find the person she was always supposed to be.â
âI will never forgive myself for not calling her after we graduated.âÂ
âYou donât have to, but I think Y/N has.â Jake leans his elbows on Jayâs desk and looks the man in the eye. âLook, I know I havenât known her for as long as you have, but in the month weâve worked together, Iâve learned a lot from her. Iâve seen her talk to the opposing counsel in depositions and learned that she can get to the point without saying much. Sheâs really confident in herself and is almost always willing to help associates when they approach her.
âWhat Iâm trying to say is, you need to let go of the person you once knew and the person you were back then. You and I both know how far youâve come in your career and Iâm sure Heeseung knows how much youâve changed as a person since you graduated. But you canât keep living in the past if you want to move forward.â
Jakeâs right and Jay knows it. Every day, he wakes up and his first thought is the memory of you averting your eyes from him at the graduation ceremony. He thinks about his wrongdoings more often than heâd like to admit and canât seem to move past this feeling of inadequacy when it comes to you. Jay contemplates on whether or not he deserves your respect or forgiveness, the unknown being the obstacle that prevented him from apologizing to you in the first place.Â
But he needs to let that go. Heâs not the person who decides whether or not he deserves forgiveness. You are.Â
You are the person who dictates how you feel. Not Jay, not anyone else. For the past month, Jay has been overthinking about how to talk to you if itâs not related to the litigation. He can talk to you when itâs in conjunction about the Hyb case, but he canât talk to you about anything else.
Jay needs to start trusting you and your judgment in a way he couldnât before. But unlike now, Jay wasnât in your crossfires all those years ago. The version of him during law school never gave you a reason to overcome the loss of a friendship. In order to understand you better, he needs to stop thinking about you the way you were back then. For right now, youâre a stranger he knows everything about.Â
âYouâre right,â Jay nods. âIâve been so caught up in dealing with this shock that I forgot Y/Nâs had to deal with it longer. It makes sense that she isnât as shaken up as I am.â
âSheâs smart and way more perceptive than you give her credit for. I think Rikiâs about to ask Y/N to adopt him because she keeps talking to him in Japanese.â Jake smiles. âSpeaking of which.âÂ
Jay quirks his eyebrow. âSpeaking of what?âÂ
âYou so clearly still have feelings for Y/N.â Jay opens his mouth and immediately closes it.Â
âLying to you would be useless, wouldnât it?âÂ
âIâm also more perceptive than you think. That, and you talk about her like she saved your cat from a tree, or something.â
âI canât help it,â Jay sighs as he rubs his face. âBeing around Y/N makes me feel the way I did all those years ago. I donât think I ever got over her. She had this ability to keep people in her grasp, you know? Once you peeled back her layers and looked past her shy personality, there she was. Now, itâs like watching everyone else meet the Y/N i knew she always was, just more openly. Itâs weird to see her talking to everyone but in a good way, you know? Sheâs not apologizing for who she is anymore.â
âLike I said,â Jake says, âY/Nâs a butterfly.â
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Later in the afternoon, Jay stops responding to emails when he feels his eyes getting tired from looking at his laptop. The conversation he had with Jake weighs on his mind with every passing hour and his leg bounces with anticipation for your arrival back to the office.Â
Throughout the entire day, heâs been reminding himself that he has also grown and matured since the last time you saw him. Heâs no longer somebody who hates conflict and speaking his mind. His job has taught him the value of saying what you mean and sticking to an argument until the very end. Jayâs tendency to falter in himself has diminished over the years, especially since working at a legacy company such as Lee & Associates.Â
His success as an attorney plays a factor in his confidence, too. Seeing his father in the courtroom inspired him as a child to pursue a career in law so that he may one day fight on behalf of people who donât have a voice themselves. Never in his wildest dreams did Jay ever think he alone could make a big difference in the lives of others but he sits behind his desk with a promotion just shy of having his own surname on the door in the main office.Â
Jayâs job means everything to him. It means working hard after spending countless days and nights stressing over cases and essays in law school. It means working with his colleagues to bring out the best in people and take down companies who value profit over people. It means making a difference in the lives of those who arenât as fortunate as him. If Lee & Associates wasnât as philanthropic and as morally-good as Jay wouldâve hoped, he doesnât know if he wouldâve said yes to their offer when it was offered to him.Â
He decides to take a break and head over to the break room when he bumps into Sunghoon, who has a scowl etched on his face.Â
âHoon,â Jay says, tugging on Sunghoonâs arm to force him to stop walking. âAre you alright?âÂ
âNo,â he mumbles.Â
Jayâs eyebrows contort in confusion. âWhatâs happening? Is there anything I can do? Talk to me.âÂ
Sunghoon sighs. âItâs nothing you can fix, unfortunately. Remember when Heeseung asked Y/N to get the Hybe contract files from Ahn?â
âWhat about it?âÂ
âY/N met with him in his office and he sent her home with one box.âÂ
âI donât understand why thatâs a bad thing.âÂ
Sunghoon points behind Jay, who sees a room filled to the brim with boxes.Â
âHe sent the rest here.âÂ
The two men walk over to the office and see you standing next to Heeseung with both hands on your hips. You look just short of enraged. Jay swears he can see steam coming out of your ears.Â
âYouâve got to be fucking kidding me,â Jay says as his eyes scan the boxes piled on top of one another. âHow could we possibly get through all of this?âÂ
âHybeâs burying us in paperwork so we look unprepared in our next meeting,â you say in disbelief. âI wish I couldâve slapped that smug look off of his face when he gave me only one of the damn boxes.âÂ
âWe might have to fight about who gets to do that.â Heeseung curses under his breath. âWeâve got two weeks before our next hearing to determine the next step in the settlement.âÂ
âIt looks like theyâre gonna win,â Sunghoon grains from beside Jay. âTheyâre not giving up the recoupment clause.âÂ
âThe answer is in here somewhere,â Jay adds. âWe just have to find it.âÂ
âWeâll be up all night.â You look somewhere between defeated and determined, although Jay isnât sure which is which.Â
âNot if we work together,â says Jungwon, who has Sunoo and Riki standing behind him. The five of you look behind you to see them standing in the doorway. âWe want to help.âÂ
âWe canât possibly ask you to do that,â Heeseung says. âI know the expectation is that you stay later than six in the evening, but this is too much to ask of you guys.â
âYou arenât asking,â Sunoo insists as he sits down in front of Heeseung. âJay and Jake already have me working on a few of the case files. It makes sense to have another set of eyes that knows this case well.âÂ
âI want the practice as well,â Riki agrees, taking a seat next to Sunoo. âJungwon and Sunoo have been teaching me how to read these types of documents and pull relevant information out of them. Iâd really appreciate the experience.âÂ
âYouâre sure about this?â Jay asks.Â
âWeâre positive,â Sunoo confirms.Â
âWell, you guys can go home at any point,â Heeseung says. âThis goes for everyone in the room. God only knows how much bullshit weâll have to dig through.â
The sun starts to wane over the blue sky when Jay decides he needs a change of scenery. Heâs been sitting in the same chair for a few hours at this point and desperately craves the sweet melodies of soft jazz from his vinyl collection. He excuses himself and lets everyone know heâll be in his office if anybody needs anything.Â
You watch him stand up from where youâre seated and as he walks out of the room. You must admit, Jay still looks criminally handsome. That tendency to cower into yourself whenever he looks at you is still present today, especially when he makes room for you to speak during depositions and internal meetings.Â
For a while, you were hellbent on making an enemy out of Jay for what he did to you. The person you were before leaving Seoul was somebody who would likely paint Jay as a target and a villain for life. The friends you made in New York would entertain you in conversations about boys who have a tendency to break hearts and you always had a story to share.Â
Even so, time has been kind to you. The years spent focusing on your career and your loved ones has molded you into the kind of person who can see people for who they are, not what theyâve done and have atoned for. Jay has worked all his life to prove himself worthy of being somebody who can take care of himself and stand on his own two feet. In a way, youâve done the same thing.Â
Half an hour goes by before you decide you need to stretch your legs. You make the bold decision to take your work with you and pay no mind to Heeseung, who winks at you on the way out.Â
Approaching Jay feels like a mix between normal and anxiety inducing. Seeing him hunched over his desk with a scowl on his face as he concentrates is nostalgic to you, and it makes you remember all the times youâd search for him after your classes ended just to find him in the library with a gargantuan book beneath his focus. His hair still falls as perfectly as you remember it and he still twirls his pen in his fingers like he used to.Â
It brings a set of uneasiness to your stomach. Youâve spent years trying to forget Jay before coming to the conclusion that you could never forget someone who once meant so much to you. All of the hatred you harbored for the man you held deep feelings for dissipated when you remembered that he too was growing and trying to find out who he was aside from all he once knew.Â
Gathering the courage to knock on his door, you force yourself to do it before you convince yourself to back out.Â
Jay looks up at you like youâre the last person he expected to see. It makes your stomach drop.Â
âSorry,â you mutter when he doesnât motion for you to enter. âIâll go.âÂ
âNo!â Jay says immediately. He clears his throat and puts his pen down, waving you into his office. âCome in, please.â You walk inside and close the door behind you, the sound of soft jazz is reminiscent of the times you used to study with him in his apartment.Â
âI needed a break from sitting in the same spot,â you tell him, standing before his desk and looking at the decor around the room. âI see you still love collecting vinyls.â
âMy collection has definitely grown,â he laughs. You feel his eyes watching you explore his office before you find your way to sit in the chair in front of him.Â
When the air settles around you, a sense of nervousness washes over your body. Suddenly, you can feel your entire weight on the chair youâre on top of. You can hear the clock that resides from just outside of his office and your mouth becomes too dry to handle.Â
Youâre not sure why youâve come to see Jay. You donât know what youâd say to him. All of those nights you imagined a great big showdown where Jay would fall to his knees and apologize to you, just for you to refute his attempts, donât matter anymore. You look back at yourself and think of it as silly even though thatâs what you needed at a time. But part of growing up and learning about who you are is realizing your capabilities and strengths. Being able to reconcile with the past that hurt you without feeling pure anger towards the cause was arguably the hardest thing youâve done.Â
You two are grown versions of your unsure, unconfident selves. The wall you spent your teenage years building has fallen down with time, knowledge, and grace. Two beings achieving a high clarity of peace is whatâs left in this room.Â
It isnât that you forgive and forget. Rather, taking the time to heal and forgive Jay for embarrassing you has made you realize there are worse things than a memory filled with people you arenât in contact with anymore. Nobody in your life knew about what had happened because you hadnât bothered to keep in touch with anyone, and no one did the same with you. The shame and burden you carried and blamed on everyone else was misdirected. It was your own insecure nature and unconfident persona that prevented you from healing.Â
Separating oneself from the pair of people who stripped away your confidence was the lowest you ever felt. The violent words echoing through your ears after a particularly bad test in high school broke your heart for the last time. You would no longer hold any room in your heart for another chance. The pieces of you that shattered onto the floor were swept away, never to be seen again.Â
You kept your head down for the years of the time you lived with them. There was no use to talk back and fight to be seen by them, even if it was to glare at you for misbehaving. It came to a point where even unloving attention from your parents was enough, settling with the notion that you wouldnât get what you asked for as you wanted it.Â
But having realized sweet ignorance was bliss made you sick to your stomach. It made you ashamed to know you had spent so long wishing the people who brought you unto this Earth would look at you. The realization that changing everything about yourself would do nothing but damage in the end, taught you more than you could ever sum into words. It didn't matter if you were loud or quiet. They would never look at you the way they looked at your older brother.Â
It was hard to come to terms with it. Everyday was a battle against immense frustration and turmoil as you tried to navigate your way as a young adult without the opinions of your parents shoved down your throat. Theyâd already expected the best out of you, so perhaps being interested in law was the only thing youâve ever done that made your parents feel as though you were worth celebrating.Â
Separating yourself post-high school and college was easier than ever before, especially when they hadnât shown up to your law school graduation.Â
That final nail in the coffin is what solidifies what remained of the relationship. You wouldnât see them save for holiday parties to save face, especially when your colleagues and mentors were good friends of theirs. The posed smiles and awkward conversations were part of your way to make connections and play the game before you ended up crying on your bathroom floor. Playing the part of an obedient daughter only to turn into a stranger to your parents was a role you were likely born to play.
âI was wondering if I could look through the paperwork with you.âÂ
Jayâs eyes widen. âWith me?âÂ
âOnly if you want to! I mean, it was always nice to work with you in the library all those years ago. I thought it might be a nice change of pace.âÂ
Jay looks at you through his lashes and canât believe the grace heâs been given to have you approach him before he got the chance to. The unexpected load of files put a dent in his plans. It seems, however, that somebody is looking out for him,Â
âIâŚIâve been wanting to talk to you,â Jay says. Itâs as if the filter on his mouth has disappeared because he canât stop talking about what heâs thinking about. âI didnât know you were the person who was going to help us out on this case and seeing you for the first time in years made me think about when we were kids. I probably donât have the right to say this, so forgive me, but I really missed you.âÂ
That shy smile he always knew you to have adorned your lips.Â
âI missed you too,â you tell him. âThere are a lot of things Iâve done that I wish I could have shared with you. Although I admit I had a few weeks to prepare seeing you before I officially said yes to helping with this case.âÂ
âI used to think about what would happen if I ever saw you in court,â Jay confesses. âIâd like to believe Iâd say hi, or something.âÂ
âI probably wouldâve done the same thing. Do you still play guitar?âÂ
âEvery chance I get,â Jay smiles. âIâve added a few electric and acoustics editions to my collection. I have an entire music room back at home.âÂ
âI always remembered you being so musically gifted. If you didnât become a lawyer, you probably wouldâve been a successful musician.âÂ
âYou always flattered me too much.âÂ
âWhy stop now?
Jay smiles at you. âDo you still want cats?âÂ
âI have a cat called Miso. Iâve had her for a few months. Sheâs still such a small baby. Is it bad that Iâm considering getting another one?âÂ
âNot at all,â Jay agrees. âBut three might make you a cat lady.âÂ
You pretend to weigh your options. âIâll think about it.âÂ
âI canât believe you lived in New York for a few years. I remember you loving the big city.âÂ
âI think Iâve changed a bit,â you tell him. âI love the hustle and bustle, but living in Manhattan made me realize I miss living away from the noise. I like traveling into town and having the option to leave it, you know?â
âDefinitely,â Jay nods. âMy place is in a high rise so I donât hear construction noises or birds chirping when I want it to be quiet. I got the chance to move in a few years after I started my job here.âÂ
âI live just on the outskirts of Seoul. Itâs a good sized neighborhood in a family town. I like that itâs so quiet. I usually hear children who live in the houses play on the streets on weekend mornings.âÂ
âThat sounds like quite a peaceful life.âÂ
You smile at him like you know something he doesnât.
âYeah, it really is.âÂ
âDo you ever think about how long ago law school was?â you ask. âSometimes I pinch myself when Iâm given big responsibilities. I pinched myself over and over again when I was named senior partner and nearly gave myself a bruise.âÂ
âI see the associates in the bullpen everyday and think about how that was me ages ago,â Jay responds. By now, heâs turned his attention from the document to you. âI used to be an insecure prick who pretended to have everything under control. I was so desperate to prove myself. Iâm sure you know how that feels. I donât think I got a wink of sleep in the first four years of my career.âÂ
âYou and I both. I think my life got more stressful when I started my career. Law school did not prepare me mentally for what it was gonna be like.Â
âBut itâs rewarding, right? I feel like Iâm doing something good with my life. And you know Heeseung, you know he wouldn't sign off on clients who are morally corrupt.âÂ
âIt feels incredible, honestly. Being able to help people makes me feel like Iâve served a good purpose. I used to think about texting you all the dumb mistakes people made when I was a first year. Itâs hilarious to know how many professionals canât remain professional.âÂ
Jayâs smile weakens as his guilt creeps back into his mind.Â
âIâm sorry,â he says quietly yet firmly.
You look at him. âI know. Letâs focus on the case, yeah?â
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Arriving at the office as the sun is peeking from the horizon is not a new phenomenon for you. Despite the crust that formed around your eye last night, indicating a good rest, you feel somewhat sluggish as you wait for Jake to finish ordering his coffee.Â
âJay woke up late again,â he snickers as he pockets his phone. âHe probably wonât be at the office until eight.âÂ
âItâs fine,â you tell him. âWe all need beauty sleep after yesterday.âÂ
âAhn can kiss my ass. I felt like I was knee deep in paperwork. My eyes were gonna fall out of their sockets.âÂ
âYou and me both,â you sigh, retrieving your beverage and pastry. The warmth lifts your mood. âIâve seen my fair share of paperwork and dirty moves, but they never cease to surprise me.âÂ
âThe audacity of him to give you one box to leave with, too,â Jake says with venom in his tone. âIâll punch him for you.â
âHow about you hold him down while I do the punching?â
âI like your style.âÂ
The office itself is still relatively quiet, save for the few first year associates milling around the bullpen and the break room. The coffee and espresso machine have seen better days, and you make a mental note to tell Heeseung to invest in new ones.Â
Jake raises his hand in a mock salute as you walk towards your office. The pretty skyline will always remain a marvel to you. To live a life of privilege and to neglect the beauty around you would be a disservice to all that has raised you and all what will be awarded to you. The streets below you begin to fill with people commuting to work. It feels much like New York, where the city never sleeps and the people never lose their dreams.Â
Working with Jay in his office felt normal. Sitting in front of him and getting to know his life as he built it wasnât as hurtful as you once thought it would be. With each quip, it felt as if the two of you fell into old habits like there was never a time where the two of you spent any time apart.Â
You could tell Jay had more to say than he led on. But hearing a full confession or an apology in the office didnât feel right. Itâs why you shut him down. Hearing the sincerity in his voice when he came to apologize, but having a short conversation between looking through piles upon piles of documents, felt too colloquial. Youâre owed the decency of no distractions, at least, even if youâve done the work to grow and heal.Â
There was once a time you swore youâd never give Jay a second chance and that actions, at face value, mean more than any rectification. Back when you were blindsided by hurt and emotion, the realization that the person you cared about the most leaving you felt like a punch to the gut. If Jay had the audacity to leave you as you were, what good were you to anyone else?Â
The answer isnât simple. It wasnât until you realized running away from Korea and relocation to New York didnât make you as happy as you thought it did.Â
You were lying to yourself when youâd smile and tell your friends that it was the best decision you ever made. You had fooled yourself into believing it as you said it, sipping on whatever alcoholic beverage was at hand at the time. But coming home to an empty loft made those unsavory thoughts ruminate in your mind until you fell asleep. Even so, you dreamt about what your life would be like if Jay had chosen to stay.Â
Years of running resulted in a sudden crash. It was like your life wasnât as perfect as you made it out to be. You loved the part of you that made a life in New York and you loved the people and the work that was established, but a larger part of you missed your life in Seoul. You missed your friends, your old haunts, and the places you swore youâd never go but found yourself visiting when you came back home. You missed your family too, or whatever was left of it. In the years you spent overseas, you learned to come to terms with the notion that who you are is not a product of people who do not know you. Rather, who you are is an accumulation of your experiences and passions, and nothing else.Â
That realization made it easier to forgive Jay. Truthfully, you didnât know if youâd ever see him again and the thought of what you would say if you came face-to-face with him, or what apologies you wouldâve wanted to hear from him, didnât matter. It became something you tossed at the bottom of your priority list because relying on the actions of other people became a dangerous habit of yours. Youâd look at yourself in the mirror and slowly begin to like what you saw looking back at you. Â
To let go of the past feels like freedom. You could dwell on everyone who wronged you and remain spiteful at all of the times you were left to feel like an embarrassment and a burden, but none of that could have ever helped you arrive in the present day as tranquil as you are. Every happenstance, good and bad, happened for a reason, and it isnât up to you to figure out why.Â
Youâre brought out of your thoughts when Jungwon knocks on your door.Â
âY/N?â he asks timidly.Â
âWhatâs up?âÂ
âDo you have the time to go over these case files with me?â Jungwon asks. âI know you have a lunch meeting you need to prepare for, but none of the other attorneys are in the office right now and Heeseung needs these as soon as possible.âÂ
You smile at him. âIâll make time.âÂ
The two of you sit in relative silence for the next twenty minutes, hearing the sounds of paper turning and pens scribbling in the margins. The cityâs waking up and people are filing into the office one by one as the two of you remain in the vacated copy room just around the main office. Jungwon suggested relocating to the small corner for concentration purposes and you start to understand why heâs everybodyâs favorite paralegal.Â
âThis stuff is insane,â Jungwon comments. You look up at him to see a scowl etched on his face. âHow can people willingly take advantage of people trying to pursue their dreams?âÂ
âI donât know,â you tell him honestly. âIt kills me to see greedy corporations treat people like they donât matter.âÂ
âItâs unfair,â Jungwon says. âIf I had my way, Iâd stick it to these music executives. Screw Ahn for burying us in paperwork.â
âMaking the musician pay back a certain fee feels almost impossible, doesnât it?â you ask Jungwon rhetorically. âIt almost feels like the label is stealing talent and profiting off of it wherever and whenever they can.âÂ
âThese poor people are trying to make a living doing what they love. None of this is fair. Itâs stupid for labels to require a certain number of albums to be made under contract.âÂ
âEven more stupid when labels cut them loose because they canât pay back the recoupment quickly.âÂ
âIf I had time in the courtroom with Attorney Ahn, I think Iâd rip him a new one.âÂ
You laugh. âHow long have you been a paralegal, Jungwon?â
âA couple of years,â he tells you. âIâm thinking about other career options in the meantime, but I love my job and I love helping the associates when they ask me.â
âWhy would you think of different career paths if this is what you love to do?â
He sighs. âIâm not good at testing. I mean, I took the bar and failed. It feels like itâs too late for me, you know?â
âWell, you could always take it again.â
He shakes his head. âItâs no use. Iâm not good at practice tests but I could tell you about any case. Iâve been at this job long enough to discuss concepts and have them make sense, but itâs testing that gets me. I just get so anxious, you know? I second guess myself all the time and I hate that I do that.âÂ
âTesting used to be my greatest enemy.â
âWhat changed?âÂ
âJay, honestly. He was always the better student when it came to that kind of stuff. I had really bad testing anxiety but he managed to help me study enough to the point where I knew I would ace them.â
âWow, I didnât realize you guys used to be so close.âÂ
âIâd say he was my closest friend in law school. Itâs nice to see him again after all these years.âÂ
Jungwon doesnât press further, instead returning his attention to the documents below him.
âEnding the recoupment expectation means the artist can keep the profit from the moment itâs been released, right?âÂ
âTheyâll have to split their earnings with people who worked on the project based on copyright laws, but yes, essentially.âÂ
Jungwon sits with his thoughts and stares at the documents before him. His hands sift through the folders as his eyes dart from page to page.Â
âThis is what I love about my job,â he begins. âI love helping people because itâs what I feel like I was meant to do. I love solving problems and I love fixing them.âÂ
âYou owe it to yourself to try, you know,â you encourage. âGoing to law school isnât easy, but not many people can say they have your experience. Youâve got a few years of working with associates and partners under your belt. Thereâs no reason to be afraid of taking the LSAT.â
âI guess Iâm just nervous that I wonât be good enough,â Jungwon confesses. âEvery day, Iâm surrounded by the smartest people I know who all graduated from the best law school in Korea. How could I ever compete with that?â
His doubt speaks to your younger self, the one who cowered in fear when your parents neglected to praise you for a job well done or turned a blind eye when you asked for advice. Jungwonâs worries speak to the part of you that wished for external validation when it came to your capabilities and strengths, because doing it yourself could only go so far.Â
His words remind you of moments when you felt small, like the world was too big and youâd never have enough time to discover all the wonders it could bring. You were meek back then, thriving off of whatever little validation they gave you just to have them knock it down. You donât know why you spent so many years yearning for their approval, but never getting it felt too familiar.Â
Your acceptance at the most prestigious law school in Korea was met with apprehension. You recall the sinking feeling in your stomach the moment the idea about your worth was proposed; having your parents question your capabilities or how youâd fit in with your peers had you second guessing your career path, leaving you wondering if following your passion was worth the struggle and pain of convincing them to let you pursue it.Â
They agreed to let you go under the condition that they pay for the first year before youâd need to pay for the remaining two. It felt unfair and it still feels unfair. But whatâs done is done and you managed to gain the courage to chase after that dream of yours that always seemed just too far out of reach, and it has paid off.
Now, you look at Jungwon as if he were a ghost of your former self.Â
âYou say youâre worried about committing to a career path, but it seems like youâve got your heart set on becoming a lawyer,â you tell him. âDonât you think you should explore that?âÂ
Jungwon smiles at you.
âI think I will.â
*â§ď˝Ľďžâââââââââââ *â§ď˝Ľďž
Jay finds you in the break room laughing with Jungwon when heâs able to pull himself away from meetings. You look gorgeous when you laugh as freely as you are, like you arenât shy about showing people what you look like when you smile. It warms his heart to hear that fluttering laugh of yours.Â
âYouâre serious about helping me study for the LSAT?â he hears Jungwon ask you.Â
âDead serious. Itâll take some time but the test comes around a few times a year. Take it easy, okay? Thereâs no need to rush.âÂ
The younger boy sees Jay approach and nods his head. âI should get going. See you later, Y/N!âÂ
âJungwonâs taking the LSAT?â Jay asks when the former disappears.Â
âIâm trying to convince him. He told me earlier about why heâs hesitant to go to law school but I think Jungwon can do it if he really tries.âÂ
âI think so too,â Jay agrees. âHeâs the only person in this office who knows whatâs going on. Might as well promote him to first year associate. Weâll definitely miss him around the office, though.âÂ
âAll the more reason to hire him when he graduates.âÂ
Jay smiles. This kind of generosity is something he always thought of you.Â
âAnyway, I have a meeting in thirty minutes and Iâm considering canceling if not for the free lunch.â
âHot young finance wannabe taking you out to an expensive steakhouse?â he jokes.Â
âTry a sixty-year old former housewife afraid that her assets are in shambles when they havenât been touched in years,â you laugh. âThe restaurant is a dim sum place by my apartment and I will never say no to dim sum.âÂ
âBummer,â Jay says, biting back a smile. âI was wondering if you wanted to get coffee before the afternoon rush.âÂ
âCan we rain check?â you ask eagerly. âIâd love to get coffee with you again.âÂ
âI would love that. Are you going to be back in the office this afternoon, though? Iâll keep my door open for you.âÂ
âIâll be back around three,â you tell him with a shy smile. âIâll be sure to knock.âÂ
Jay shakes his head. âYou can walk in. Iâll make an exception for you.âÂ
The atmosphere around the office has changed when you come back and sit with him to work. Itâs like the distance and wrongdoings have been erased when itâs just the two of you sitting in front of one another, almost as if time has transported the both of you back to law school.Â
You find that youâre able to get work done much faster without the impending doom of awkwardness lingering around the two of you. Jayâs tendency to skirt around you created a strange atmosphere during the first few weeks of you working in his domain, but sitting with him now makes you feel like things are going to be okay.Â
For Jay, it feels the same. His guilt has subsided, not because he feels absolved, but because he feels like heâs working towards a better version of himself with you back in his life. Jay has always sworn to rectify his mistakes if he was given the chance to and the universe granting him one last chance by allowing you back in his life feels like a second chance. He doesn't want to mess it up and make you feel the way you did once upon a time.Â
It isnât until the sun goes down and you yawn that he registers just how late the two of you have been working. Conversations flow easily and it feels like time has moved too fast.Â
âLetâs get noodles before going home? For old timeâs sake,â Jay asks you.Â
âItâs like you read my mind.âÂ
He knows of a place not too far from away, a small hole-in-the-wall joint that boasts an array of soups that immediately smell like comfort in a bowl. The waitress leaves the two of you alone after putting your meal in front of you, and you waste no time before digging in.
âWoah, slow down before you choke on the soup,â Jay teases.Â
âCut me some slack,â you whine. âThis is definitely not the first time youâve watched me inhale my food.â
Jay laughs. âI remember when you couldnât stop eating the shumai from across my apartment. You mustâve thrown up twice? I think?âÂ
âThat night single handedly made me watch how much I ate in one sitting.â You recoil at the memory. âBut I still love shumai. Just not as much.âÂ
âOr that time you went through a phase where you couldnât stop drinking fruit-flavored punch and got so nauseous that you almost skipped the last exam before winter break.â
âI made it, though! I think I got a ninety-one on that test? But who cares. Law school was forever ago.âÂ
Jayâs eyes soften.Â
âI really am sorry,â he begins. âIâve been thinking about when the best time to talk to you is, but everyday thereâs something new between the Hybe case and other things that need our attention. So, Iâm sorry if right now it seems like itâs coming out of the blue.
âItâs selfish of me to say it when youâre eating, I know. I just want you to know how sorry I am for being a coward and for leaving you standing.â Jayâs eyes falter and he looks back at his bowl of soup before forcing himself to look you in the eye. âI couldnât tell you what my younger self was thinking back then. Every single day I think about how awful and selfish I was to put my emotions above yours.âÂ
âJayââ
âI donât know if this counts for much, Iâd like to think Iâve grown since then. Iâve learned to be empathetic and that I canât run away from things just because it was too much or because I was scared about how I felt about you.â He swallows harshly. âI really, really liked you back then.âÂ
You bite your lip. âI really liked you too.âÂ
âWorking with you for the past few months has made me realize how much of a fucking idiot I was to walk away like that. I shouldâve told Iseul to shove it down her throat and walk out with you instead of leaving you alone. Iâm sorry, Y/N. Iâm so fucking sorry.â
In your years imagining what this moment would look like, it wasnât like this. It wasnât in a small noodle stop sitting in an expensive dress. It wasnât at the end of a long workday where your thoughts are all over the place. It certainly wasnât with Jay sounding as honest and as sincere as he is now.Â
You prepared to leave in astonishment or throw a drink at him for his audacity. You envisioned yourself laughing in his face and walking away with your hair brushed behind your shoulders, only to peek over and see him fall to his knees in despair. You imagined Jay looking disheveled and helpless, catching his insincerity with a smug grin before telling him to leave you alone forever.Â
But the man in front of you looks like heâs waited a long time to apologize. He drops his eye contact with you in favor of moving his chopsticks around the bowl, moving the noodles as a way to fill the awkward silence from your lack of response. In truth, your heart is beating three times as fast as it normally does. It doesnât help that your feelings for Jay never went away. It certainly doesnât help that his apology feels like one crafted by a mature adult as opposed to throwaway words someone strings together to absolve themselves of guilt.Â
Jayâs guilty and he knows it. Heâs willing to live with the consequences, but your silence is killing him.Â
Instead of speaking, you push your hand to reach for his and pry his fingers off of his chopsticks. Jayâs eyes snap to your hands touching his, afraid that if he moves, youâll be gone quicker than he can register.Â
âYou were never one for words,â you begin to say. Jayâs heart sinks to the bottom of his chest. âI remember you having the hardest time carrying a conversation because you were thinking too hard about what to say. I always thought I was the shy one, but getting to know you was a little hard when you said so little.Â
âI donât know what changed, honestly. It was like you had a million and one different things you wanted to talk about. I learned that you trusted few people and I knew I was one of them the second you talked my ear off about how you probably would have pursued a career in music instead of law.âÂ
Jayâs mouth quirks. âI remember that.âÂ
âWhat Iâm trying to say is, I know youâre being honest with me now. The fact that you said all of that in a noodle shop tells me more than you know.âÂ
He chuckles. âItâs a little poetic, isnât it?âÂ
âConsidering we spent maybe half of our time together eating ramen, Iâd say so.âÂ
He squeezes your hand. âThe last thing I want you is for you to feel like Iâm forcing you to say something you donât want to, or even forgive me. I donât want to make you feel like you have to do something you arenât ready to do.â
âOne thing you should know about me is that I always do as I please.â You squeeze his hand back. âYouâll know how I feel, Jay. Right now, I feel very strongly about you.âÂ
The two of you look at each other before the doorbell chimes. You two pull your hands apart as if youâre two teenagers caught holding hands. Jay laughs once he sees your mouth forming that same bashful smile he fell for all those years ago before clearing his throat and enjoying the rest of his dinner.Â
As for you, the warmth of the broth is almost as warm as your cheeks.
*â§ď˝Ľďžâââââââââââ *â§ď˝Ľďž
Nothing is going according to plan.Â
The Hybe case has taken all of your effort and resources, as well as your mental sanity. As the date for the next settlement hearing, and likely the final one, draws nearer, you feel the walls closing within you with no way to stop it.Â
Itâs taken a toll on you. Youâre sure everyone in the office can see it. Sunoo creeps quietly into your office with a polite bow every time he delivers what you ask for, ceasing to make small conversation when he can see how little sleep youâve gotten. Riki and Jungwon are the same, waving to you from outside of your office because youâve spent a majority of your time there.Â
Jayâs noticed it as well. He remembers the moments when youâd hole yourself in your apartment due to exam stress and when things with your family affected you. Back then he would try everything in his power to get you to come out of the cave you created, whether it be staying in his car until you were ready to see him or dropping off meals for you.Â
Itâs not so different now, except this is occurring in the workplace. He sees the dark circles under your eyes and the way your shoulders slump when youâre working at your desk. Jay sees the way you shake your head to fight to stay awake and how unfocused youâve become during meetings.Â
Everyone in the office is losing their hope about winning this case. Hybe has drained all of the resources every attorney has put into fighting it. Heeseung feels the pressure from the clients, which in turn has everyone else worrying about if this was a case they were going to lose. The hope everybody exhibited from the beginning of the case until now has dimmed. Nobody knows what went wrong or why team morale has changed for the worse. Â
Itâs late on a Friday night when Jay catches you still in your office. Your coat is still hanging behind your chair and he can see the tissues around your garbage can. His heart lurches when he puts two and two together, and races all over the office until he finds you walking out of the bathroom.Â
You look at him with bloodshot eyes and tears at the brim. Jayâs tie feels tight against his collar and his suit jacket suddenly feels too warm on his body. Your nimble fingers tremble beside you as you catch your breath, halfway between embarrassed for being caught crying and fighting the urge to jump into Jayâs arms. He hates seeing you cry and he hates knowing that thereâs nothing he can do to make you feel better. Â
Jay makes the decision for you. He wastes no time and tugs you closer to his chest.
He doesnât pay any mind to your tears soaking his dress shirt, opting to put one hand behind your head. He strokes your hair and wraps his other arm around you to hold you securely within him, using what little momentum he has to rock your bodies from side to side. It feels right to have you in his arms like this. Jay has fantasized about the day youâd let him touch you like this, so intimately woven together as if the two of you were always meant to be together.Â
Your face feels hot against his chest. Jay feels you rest your cheek on his shoulder and he fights the urge to press a kiss to your head. The office is eerily quiet, with everyone else having left hours earlier. Jay was stuck in a late night meeting before heading back to the office to pick up his belongings for the night. Heâs glad he came back.Â
âSorry,â you croak, voice sore from holding your tears at bay. Jay lifts his hand to wipe the tears off of your cheek with this thumb.Â
âDonât be,â he tells you. âGod knows how many times Iâve cried in this bathroom.âÂ
You smile. âYouâve cried in the womenâs restroom?âÂ
Jay pinches your arm. âYou know what I mean.âÂ
The two of you stay like that for another minute and bask in the silence. Half of the lights have turned off due to lack of movement and it feels liminal to be holding one another without the judgment or prying eyes of others. Jay coaxes you to your office and gently holds your hand, intertwining his fingers with yours as he pulls you down on the couch. You donât fight him, letting him pull your body down next to his until your feet are tucked underneath you with your head resting on his shoulder.Â
Jay doesnât want to push his luck. Heâs sure you can feel his heart beating from where you sit. But your head is within reach and experimentally places his cheek on top of you. When you wonât move away, he closes his eyes for a brief moment and thanks whoever is watching him for the opportunity to be this close to you again.Â
âLife is so hard,â you say, grabbing his hand and toying with the rings on his fingers. âI feel like nothing Iâm doing is amounting to anything.â
âThatâs not true,â Jay says to you. He fights the urge to smile when he sees you pick a ring off of his finger and place it on your own hand. âYouâve done a lot of good, you know that? You wouldnât be here today if you didnât.â
You return the ring back to Jayâs hand. âI know. This case is keeping me up at night. I get nightmares about Ahnâs stupid, smug grin after telling us we wasted our time trying to fight Hybe.âÂ
âYou and I both. Sometimes, our efforts feel futile when all we do is stare at paperwork and hold empty promises to our clients.âÂ
You nod in agreement. âI just want to be at a place where I donât feel like Iâm fucking things up all the time. I spent so long trying to run away from everything but I got tired of doing that before I moved back to Korea. I want to rest.âÂ
The two of you remain silent for a few peaceful moments. It doesnât feel awkward and neither of you feel pressed to say anything. The comfort that you feel with Jay is something heâs been praying for. Heâd reckon that the person he was when you first joined the office would almost doubt the fact that you're comfortable resting in his arms. To him, this is a sign that youâre starting to trust him again.
âWhy donât you go home and get some sleep?â He tries not to smile when you shake your head.Â
âCan you stay here with me?âÂ
Eventually, he convinces you to go home after a tiring day. Jay calls a taxi for you and waits with you until it arrives. The smile you give him makes him feel like thereâs nothing he canât achieve, and it isnât until you kiss his cheek that Jay feels as though he might melt into a puddle.Â
âGet home safe, okay?â you ask of him.Â
âAnything for you.âÂ
He closes the door behind you and watches the taxi drive away until itâs out of sight. Jay pulls his phone out and begins to hover this thumb over a certain phone number he hasnât called in a while, arguing back and forth with himself until he hastily presses the âcallâ button and puts the phone to his ear.Â
One, two. Click.
âHello?â comes the voice from the other line.Â
âHey,â Jay says. He clears his throat. âIâm sorry to call you out of the blue. I know Iâm probably the last person you want to hear from right now, but Iâm calling about Y/N.â
âIs she okay?âÂ
âRelatively speaking.â Jay takes a deep breath before continuing. âWeâre working on this case together. Iâm sure sheâs told you about it and I think itâs taking a toll on her. You know how she gets. She closes herself off because she doesn't want other people to worry about her or feel like a burden.â
âSounds like classic Y/N if you ask me.â
Jay laughs. âI found her crying in the office tonight and we talked a little. I just sent her home in a cab. I know I donât have the right to ask anything of you, but this is Y/N. Can you give her a call and make sure sheâs alright?âÂ
The voice on the other end is silent for a brief moment. Jay holds his breath and he swears he can feel his lungs constrict within him. If anything, heâs prepared to have his heart broken in two and for everything he knows to fall apart around him.Â
It doesnât.Â
âIâm in Seoul, actually. Donât tell anyone, though. Iâll visit Y/N.â
âThank you,â Jay breathes.Â
âOf course. We both know she would have kept to herself until itâs too late.âÂ
âThat we do.â Jay swallows harshly. âI also just wanted to sayâŚIâm sorry. For everything. I wasnât the greatest friend, havenât been the greatest friend, but I want to do everything I can to make things right. Iâve already apologized to Y/N but apologizing to you feels right.â
He hears a small chuckle from the other side. âYouâre a good person, Jay, even if you make bad decisions every once in a while. The fact that youâre calling me after everything youâve done tells me how much youâve changed.âÂ
âIâŚthank you. I donât know what Iâm looking for. But apologizing feels right.âÂ
âItâs a good start. Thanks for calling, man.âÂ
âTake care.âÂ
The line ends and Jay walks back into the office with a happy heart.
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A knock comes at your apartment door and your heart starts to spike. Itâs nine in the evening and youâre sitting on your couch in pajamas with an empty bag of chips on the coffee table. Your ears perk up at the sound and you clutch your phone in your hands until you see a notification come though.Â
Dearest Brother (Korean cell): Open up!
You lift the blanket off of you with record speed with Miso tailing behind you and open the front door without a second thought.Â
âNamjoon,â you breathe.Â
âIn the flesh,â he says with that same boyish smile he gives you when he sees you after coming home from overseas. âAre you gonna let me in or are you gonna let me freeze to death?âÂ
âWith that attitude, you can starve too,â you say, angling your body away from the door for him to walk in. Namjoon takes his shoes off and slips his feet into the slippers you always keep for him. Miso nips at his ankles until he bends down to pick her up, cradling your beloved in his arms. âWhat the hell are you doing in Seoul?âÂ
âThe boys and I got back earlier this morning,â Namjoon tells you. âPromotions are over and we get two weeks to rest before we start preparing for the next tour.âÂ
âGod, I canât believe you guys are going on tour again,â you say, patting the spot next to you on the couch for Namjoon to sit on. âIt feels like you guys just started working on the album.âÂ
âSeokjin said the same thing,â says Namjoon, who puts his feet on the coffee table before you chide him with a playful slap to the bicep. âThe guys and I decided we werenât gonna see each other until tour rehearsals. God knows weâve spent too much time together in the past few months.âÂ
âHow are they?â you ask him. âIâve only seen updates on those fan accounts that update your every move, which is somewhat creepy but every wholesome at the same time.âÂ
Namjoon laughs. âThe guys are fine. Taehyung and Hobi spent most of the promotions shopping and came home with two duffel bags each. Yoongiâs probably gonna sleep for the next two weeks. Jungkook got ripped, and I mean ripped.â
âI saw that, Jesus. He sent me a progress photo and all I could think about was how small he used to be before you guys debuted.â
âJiminâs justâŚJimin. He says he misses you and that the two of you should get together before it gets busy.â
âI would love that.â You lean your head on his shoulder. âI missed you guys a lot. More than I care to admit, probably.âÂ
âSee, I told you all our sibling rivalry would disappear when we got older.â
âYah. Whatever you say. Weâre still enemies at heart.â Miso purrs against Namjoonâs lap. âI think she likes you more than me.â
Namjoon smiles down at Miso. âJay called me earlier tonight. He says you havenât been feeling very well.â
âJay is a tattletale.âÂ
âDid he lie?âÂ
You sigh. âNo, he didnât.âÂ
âWhatâs on your mind?âÂ
âSo many things that I donât even know where to begin. Thereâs the Hybe case, which has made me want to blow my brains out.âÂ
Namjoon nods. âAh, the Hybe case. Itâs funny what a small label could do in ten years.âÂ
âSeems as though your underground rapper dreams came true. Now youâre touring the world and forgetting to bring me back expensive gifts from abroad.â Namjoon chooses not to comment. âYou know attorney Ahn, right? Well, he sent us dozens upon dozens of legal files for us to sort through before our next hearing. Weâve gone through eighty percent of them but it feels like weâre going nowhere. It feels uselessâ
âYouâre doing more good than you know,â he tells you. âI know it doesnât feel like it, but youâre giving a lot of hope to a lot of young musicians.âÂ
You sigh. âI hope so. And then thereâs the whole thing with JayâŚI canât remember what I last told you. I know I said that my feelings towards him have changed and that Iâve forgiven him, but spending as much time as I have has made me rethink a lot of things.âÂ
âLike what?â
âLike whether or not itâs stupid of me to give him a second chance or if I should feel ashamed for liking him in the first place.â Namjoon watches you frown. âAll those years and my feelings for him never went away.âÂ
âWell, we canât control how we feel.âÂ
âHe hurt me, Joon.âÂ
âI know,â says Namjoon, âbut that was years ago. In the months youâve worked with him, has Jay given you any reason to doubt his sincerity?âÂ
You think about it. âNo, he hasnât.âÂ
âHas he apologized for what he did and is he being respectful of you?â
âYes,â you say without hesitating.Â
âThereâs your answer. You canât let the past dictate people. Iâm sure there are parts of you that have outgrown your younger self.âÂ
âYou know, I can hear the voices of people I met back in New York telling me not to give Jay the time of day and that I should block his number when we finish working this case.â
âYour New York friends knew the person that was angry at him, though. You stopped talking about Jay two years before you moved.âÂ
âI know. I donât know whatâs stopping me from going for it.âÂ
âHave you ever considered that youâre afraid things will turn out the same way it did all those years ago?â
You roll your eyes. âAll the time, Joon.â
âOkay, fair point. Have you considered that youâre the one in control of how you react to things?â You purse your lips and Namjoon takes it as a sign to keep talking. âYou can think of a million different ways this plays out. Maybe you guys break up after a week. Maybe you get old and live together until youâre ninety. But all of those scenarios are just what-ifs. Youâll never know until you make a decision and stick with it, otherwise your fears hold you back from reaching your true potential.âÂ
âBut what if it fails? Iâm scared of becoming the person I was back then.âÂ
âWell I, for one, know youâre much stronger than that. Working in corporate law makes you tougher, not weaker. But to speak on your concern, youâre the only person who can control how you react to things. If the timing isnât right and you feel it coming, then you let go.âÂ
His words sit with you as the soft sounds of the television plays in the back of your mind. For a few months, youâd been worried that you jumped the gun and forgiven Jay in ways the you of the past would never understand. The deep seeded fears of being rejected and left behind creep into the forefront of your mind every so often, leaving you a paralyzed mess.Â
But Namjoonâs right. You can only control your reaction to what cards youâre dealt with. Any wrongdoing by the hands of others isnât your fault nor are they your responsibilities.Â
âAs for the Hybe case,â Namjoon says as he brings you out of your thoughts, âI think I have a solution.â
âOh yeah?âÂ
He nods once. âThe guys and I have been talking about this for a while. Weâve known about other musicians suing Hybe longer than youâve known about this case and we didnât know how we could help. On one hand, Hybe gave us everything we have now, you know? They gave us the opportunity to become musicians. I donât know what got lost in translation, but it seems that fewer and fewer artists are able to experience what we did.â
âWhere are you going with this?â Â
âWeâre going to make a statement. With your approval, of course.â Namjoon tells you. âI was going to call Heeseung on Monday to set up a meeting with you and surprise you at the office, but tonight seemed like a better time to drop by.âÂ
âWait.â You use the remote to pause the TV. âYou guys are going to speak at the hearing?âÂ
âAll seven of us,â he confirms. âItâs not fair that everyone else has to work twice as hard because of Hybeâs standards. Weâve been given this platform and itâs only fair that we use it to help other people.âÂ
âGod, I could cry right now.â Namjoon chuckles at the tears that have formed at the corner of your eyes and picks up a tissue before handing it to you. âYou donât know what this means to me, Joon.âÂ
âI always told you Iâd be here for you, didnât I?â
âYeah, but I thought that meant buying me gifts paying for my takeout,â you joke, swatting his arm, ânot saving the biggest case of my career.âÂ
âIâm really proud of you, Y/N. Not a lot of people are as resilient as you.â He smiles down at you. âOh, and you should also know about Jay.â
âWhat about him?âÂ
âHe apologized to me too,â Namjoon says. âI know what people sound like when they want something from me or say things because they know itâs what I want to hear. But Jay didnât sound like that. He didnât have to say anything since he was calling about you, but that in itself lets me know how sorry he is.âÂ
âI donât know what to say.âÂ
âYou donât have to know. Besides, itâs a Friday night and you have the entire weekend before you see him. Letâs watch cartoons like old times, yeah?âÂ
âYeah, but you better not sleep in the middle of the second episode.âÂ
Namjoon laughs. âYou wound me.â
*â§ď˝Ľďžâââââââââââ *â§ď˝Ľďž
For the first time in a while, you donât feel imminent doom as Monday approaches.Â
The sky is as sunny as you feel when you walk into the office. Sunoo and Jungwon seem rather pleased that youâre spending more time outside of your office and Heeseung makes several comments about how your mood has shifted from how it was last week.Â
âYouâre telling me Namjoon stopped by and you didnât tell me?â Heeseung chides. âI feel like chopped liver.âÂ
âThatâs because you are,â you tease. âThe guys are resting for the next two weeks before tour preparations. Namjoon, Jimin, and I are going to get dinner one of these days if youâd like to join.â
âIâm taking you up on this invite, thank you very much. Did you know Joon was gonna be back in town?âÂ
âI didnât, actually.â A knock comes from behind you and the man of the hour appears. âJay called him.âÂ
âAm I in trouble?â Jay asks. You smile and shake your head.Â
âJust the opposite. Thanks for calling my brother. It meant a lot to me.â
âYou looked like you needed him and Iâm glad youâre feeling better,â he tells you sincerely.Â
âItâs great that youâre both here, actually.â You close the door behind your office. âNamjoon and I talked about a lot of things, one of them being the case. He told me how he and the guys have felt helpless in the past few months to see their labelmates suffer through corporate greed. He told me that theyâre willing to testify and speak on our behalf against Hybe.âÂ
âWhat?âÂ
You nod. âI think theyâre starting to understand how unfair the new recording contracts are and want to make a difference. I know Judge Hanâs granddaughters are fans of Bangtan, so I think their presence could sway the decision.â
âYou fight dirty,â Heeseung says, bumping his hip with yours. âI love it. Are they ready to go up against Ahn?âÂ
You shake your head. âTheyâre gonna schedule a meeting with us sometime in the next week to prepare. Itâs going to be a tight fit with their tour preparations and our hearing, but if all goes according to plan, Ahn should be willing to move the hearing date earlier.â
âThis is fucking incredible,â Jay swears. âWe owe you one.âÂ
âYou owe me nothing,â you tell him. âI love working with you two, honestly. Namjoon howeverâŚyou might owe him a few.âÂ
âIâll pay for dinner under the company card and say it was a client business,â Heeseung says. âItâs a done deal. Iâm gonna let the others know, if thatâs okay?âÂ
Heeseung leaves when you give in the greenlight, leaving you and Jay standing alone in your office.Â
âI meant what I said earlier,â Jay says. âI owe you one.âÂ
âSeriously, Jay. You owe me nothing. It comes with the job.â He laughs and shakes his head.Â
âIâm bad at this.âÂ
Jay bites his lip and reaches his hand out for yours, holding a loose grip in case you want to pull back. When you donât, he takes the opportunity to push his fingers through yours.Â
âIâd love to take you out on a date,â he says. âAs a thank you. But more so because I really like you and want to take you out like you deserve.âÂ
You squeeze his hand. âIf I said I wanted to stay indoors because this week will likely kick my ass, what would you do?â
Jay pretends to think. âIn that case, I think Iâll cook us dinner while you watch with a glass of wine. If I recall correctly, thatâs how most of our Friday nights looked like.âÂ
You bite your lip. âYou make a mean steak.âÂ
âWhatever you want is what you'll get. Although, I have a sneaking suspicion that this was your way of asking me to cook for you.âÂ
You look at him in faux surprise. âWhatever do you mean, Park Jongseong?â Jay chuckles and takes a step closer towards you.
âSilly girl. I'll cook for us once this case is over, yeah? How does that sound?âÂ
âSounds like youâre after my own heart.âÂ
Jay learns until you feel his lips land on your cheek.
âThat I am.âÂ
He leaves your office without another word and you fight the heat creeping up your neck as you bite your lip. When you turn around, youâre met with Jake and Jungwonâs prying eyes from the bullpen, and watch as they high-five each other whilst giving you an array of thumbs ups and silent applause.Â
You struggle to get back to work.
*â§ď˝Ľďžâââââââââââ *â§ď˝Ľďž
In an unsurprising turn of events, Ahn folds when Namjoon takes the stands. When all is said and done, you find yourself at an all too familiar position with Jay in the kitchen and you sitting behind the counter with a glass of wine in your hands.Â
Heâs grown up, for one. Jayâs back muscles are more defined in his t-shirt as opposed to the dress shirts he wears everyday, giving you something else to look at as he cooks dinner for the both of you. The week wasnât as bad as you anticipated it to be, but youâre sitting in his penthouse and patting yourself on the back for making the suggestion to stay indoors.Â
Itâs oddly comforting to feel as relaxed as you are in his space, sans wine. The buzz hit you after he gave you a tour of his place and the Jay of the present is definitely not the Jay you used to know. His tastes are elevated and his collection of instruments has nearly tripled. The artwork adorning his walls speaks for his maturity, as does the furniture in his living room. It reminds you just how much the two of you have grown up since law school and how eager you are to explore sides of him you have yet to discover.Â
The steak is almost done cooking and Jay has spoon-fed you mashed potatoes until theyâre to your liking, and you laugh when he celebrates your approval. The seasoned asparagus sits underneath warming lights while the rest of the meal is done cooking, and it wouldnât feel right to have dinner with Jay without commenting about how much of a professional he looks from where youâre sitting.Â
You know itâs the wine in your system intensifying your emotions, but you canât help but stare at Jayâs muscles as he moves throughout the kitchen. He works effortlessly and seamlessly, never neglecting any part of the meal heâs prepared for you. The level of care and precision heâs exemplifying through his cooking, while simultaneously entertaining you, has rendered you a blushing, giggling mess. Youâre sure Jay can tell that youâre already buzzed after two glasses, but he promised to drive you home so you donât have anything to worry about.Â
Jay looks criminally good in dark clothes. His laid back attire makes him look more attractive to you compared to the suit and tie he wears everyday. Something about seeing Jay like he used to be all those years ago stirs something within you. It makes you cross your legs in your seat and perch forward with your elbows on the counter below you as he puts the finishing touches to the meal.Â
You requested nothing fancy for tonight upon knowing Jay would drop everything for you to secure a date at the most expensive restaurant and pay the bill to back it up. That could be saved for another today. Tonight is less about wanting Jay to prove himself than wanting to feel comfortable around him, as this would be your first time hanging out with him in his space since law school.Â
When heâs finished cooking, Jay pulls the smaller dining table towards the tall window overlooking the city below and seats you in your chair opposite his. He tops you off with another glass of wine when you nod, pouring himself a glass as well.Â
Conversation flows like the two of you are out on a first date. You are, in a sense, but youâre also two long lost best friends who happen to have deep feelings for each other, finding yourselves once again. Perhaps itâs the alcohol thatâs settled in your system with the headstart you had compared to Jay, or maybe itâs the soft look of adoration in Jayâs eyes when you laugh at his jokes, but tonight you feel as though youâre the only woman in his life who matters to him.Â
âI really missed you,â you tell him. Jay looks back at you from the kitchen as he clears the finished dinner plates. Too full to entertain dessert, he leaves it in the fridge until youâre ready to eat again. âI missed this too, you know? Coming over and doing nothing but talking to you, I mean.âÂ
âIâm here if youâll have me,â Jay says. Youâve followed him to the kitchen, albeit wobbling because of the wine. Jay reaches out and steadies you with his arms until youâre pushing yourself to hug his body with your arms around his middle.Â
âYouâre so warm.â You turn your head to peck at his chest before letting your cheek rest against him. Jay closes his eyes and wraps his arms around your body too, his own lips finding the crown of your head.Â
âYouâre even warmer, but Iâll bet itâs because you had half a bottle of wine.âÂ
You playfully smack his arm. âHey. You said youâd drive me home so I took that as a sign to get tipsy.âÂ
Jay laughs. âI thought you might say something like that. Good thing I have a higher tolerance, isnât it?âÂ
You nod against him. âItâs the best.âÂ
âDo you want to go home now?â Jay asks carefully when the two of you have stood in silence for a good minute or two. When you shake your head, he bites back a smile. âDo you want to watch a movie? You can pick something off of Netflix and we can watch it until youâre ready to go home.â
âSounds like a perfect idea,â you say, sighing out of content.Â
Jay lets you change into one of his oversized shirts that covers you just enough and you walk out of the bathroom looking like sin. It takes everything in him not to comment because he doesnât want to scare you away. Jay comes to the realization that you likely arenât wearing shirts underneath because of how the fabric rode up your thigh as you sat on the couch beside him. He desperately tries not to pay any mind to it for the sake of your comfortability.Â
Truthfully, Jay wants to wrap you up in his arms and put the blanket he got from his closet over the both of you. But heâs letting you take the lead when it comes to physical contact, unsure of just how comfortable you are with him yet. Heâs only just gotten you back in his life. He doesnât want to scare you away any time soon.Â
The movie you picked is somewhat interesting, although Jay canât say heâs too keen on paying attention. In the first ten minutes, youâve shifted to rest your head on his shoulder and his arm is now resting behind you to accommodate your body. He feels you dip yourself lower as the movie progresses until youâre fully leaning on his chest, and Jay has a sneaking suspicion youâve been slowly edging your way into this spot to not make him feel uncomfortable either.Â
He puts his free hand on your hip and squeezes your body to let you know heâs right with you. Jay watches you smile and try to hide it. He thinks it makes you look even more attractive than you already are.Â
Jay doesnât know what happens next. Another thirty minutes pass by with easy conversation between the two of you. One thing leads to another and he feels you shifting in front of him, and his mind thinks youâre getting up to tell him you want to leave.Â
But you donât. You shift to face him and push your body up until your face is right in front of his.Â
He can feel your breath on his lips. The scent of wine is long gone but your eyes look like theyâre searching for something. Jay sees the way your throat constricts and he tries not to look down past where it isnât appropriate.Â
âIs it bad that I want to kiss you?â you ask him just above a whisper.Â
Jay doesnât say anything. He doesn't need to. Instead, he leans forward to push his lips against yours.Â
His lips touch your plush ones as his hands encircle your waist to hold you steady, like heâs afraid youâll topple over on the couch. Your own hands immediately touch his chest and scrape the fabric like an experimental touch. Your lips feel so soft against his and the sounds of your lips smacking against one another become more audible than the soft volume of the television in the background.Â
Jay pulls back to see you suppress a grin, but he pinches your side to get you to smile for him.Â
âYouâre a really good kisser,â you say. âHad any practice?âÂ
âJust my pillow and a few posters,â he jokes. âI needed to practice so I could kiss you like you deserve.âÂ
He watches you blush. âDonât say that. I feel like Iâm sixteen again.âÂ
Jay pecks your lips and lingers for a few seconds. âGood. You make me feel like a teenager too.âÂ
âOh yeah?â you ask, shifting yourself until youâre perched on his lap. Jay watches from beneath you as you steady your body by placing both hands on his shoulders and swinging your leg across his lap.Â
âYeah,â he whispers just before you lean down to kiss him again.Â
Jay feels your hands wrap around his neck to hold him in front of you like youâre afraid heâs going to push you away again. To quell your fears, his own hands take hold of your wrists before he holds your fingers in his own and gives you a gentle squeeze. You seem to loosen up as you smile into the kiss, prompting Jay to do the same.Â
Holding you feels familiar. It feels like coming home after a long, tiring day at the office to the person he loves the most. Having you in his arms after all this time has Jay rethinking his future and where you fit in it. If heâs being honest with himself, heâs ready to risk all that he has if that means seeing you as happy as you are in this very moment.Â
You whine when Jayâs lips detach from yours but he smirks into your skin when he hears a soft moan coming from your own upon placing his just below your ear. He thinks how his younger self wouldâve killed to hear the sounds youâre making right now and how lucky he is that this opportunity is being granted towards him. You sound like youâre enjoying yourself and thatâs all Jay could ever ask of you.Â
Your hand creeps below his shirt until your nails are raking his abdomen and you moan when you feel the ridges on his body. He sighs against your neck and youâre left speechless at how his physique has changed since the last time you saw Jay shirtless. The ache in your belly leaves you wanting more and you arch your body until it feels as though youâre completely giving into him before pressing your palms against his body.Â
You two kiss with fervor as the minutes go by. Suddenly, Jay feels your body beginning to rock yourself on his lap as your lips find his own. He feels you tug on his shirt until you push it up his neck, breaking contact with him so that he can pull his shirt off completely.Â
Your lips feel like heaven against his own skin as you begin to explore every inch of him. He feels you peppering kisses along his jawline and closes his eyes to bask in the feeling of your body so close to his. Jay lets his hands roam around your waist and when you donât move to push his hands off as his fingers dip beneath the shirt youâre wearing, he smiles to himself and lets his fingertips push the fabric upwards just slightly. The feeling of his hands on your body has you rocking forward until your chest is in front of Jayâs face. You gasp when you realize how hard heâs become underneath you.
âIâm sorry,â Jay begins to apologize. âYouâre very attractive.âÂ
You look down and tilt your head, experimentally pressing your lower half on his crotch. Jay emits a low moan, making your mouth quirk in excitement.Â
âYouâre very attractive,â you tell him, slowly rocking your body backwards and forwards.
You move to push Jayâs hands closer to your body and he gets the hint. He uses the momentum to push and pull you into him at the pace you set, watching as your mouth opens in euphoria. Jay finds it incredibly attractive the way your eyebrows pinch in arousal every time the tip of his clothed cock bumps your covered core, and if what youâre wearing is anything to go by, he was correct in assuming you werenât wearing shorts underneath his shirt.Â
Your pace quickens with every pass of his cock beneath you. He gets harder and harder, and you get wetter and wetter. Your own slick is rubbing against you from the fabric of your panties and it becomes almost too much to bear. Jayâs hands have found their way to your back as your own body pushes against his. He feels your tits pressing against his chest and the desperation in your hips as you gain momentum while he begins to take control from beneath you.Â
Jay bucks into you until you let out a particularly loud gasp. His strength surprises you, as does the force with which he thrusts into you. His clothed cock hits you at the most delicious angle while youâre fighting to stand upright against his lap, fighting to grip the couch and his body at the same time. Jay doesnât let you breathe, however, until youâre pushing him away so that you can access his lips once again.
The kiss is wet and messy. Itâs hot in the room and youâre pushing Jayâs hands until they cup your breasts. He pinches your nipples and watches in pleasure as you throw your head back.Â
âMy baby likes that, doesn't she?â He pinches them again when you nod and it sends a shock straight down your spine and where you need him the most.Â
Jay lifts the shirt just enough to uncover your chest and brings your right bud into his mouth. He licks it with his tongue in an effort to tease you until youâre squirming in his lap. He does the same with the other nipple until youâre pushing yourself against his cock that he grunts and nips at the bud before sucking it with his mouth.Â
The pleasure is almost too good to form words. Your mouth stays at a permanent âOâ with every swipe of Jayâs tongue and he pushes your shirt until you take it off for him. He places his hands on your breasts and squeezes them in his palms as if getting to know your body better, almost like he wants to commit you to his memory.Â
But youâre impatient. After the long years of daydreaming about Jay, you want nothing more than to have him inside of you.
âPlease let me have it,â you whisper against his lips, pushing your body down onto his. âI need it so bad, Jay.âÂ
âWe canât,â he chokes. He doesnât want to push his luck. âI-I need to drive you home.âÂ
Not even he believes this pathetic excuse. Â
âI donât care. Drive me home tomorrow.âÂ
Jay doesnât know what to do with his hands. He flexes his fingers to distract himself before giving in, placing his grip on your waist and pushing you down onto him. He hears you gasp at the sudden movement and chides himself for being so turned on by you when mere moments ago he was thinking logically.Â
âJust the tip,â you mutter against his mouth to convince him. âPlease.âÂ
âJust the tip,â Jay agrees, pushing his trousers just enough to free his cock. To the best of your ability, you take your panties off without moving from his lap and throw it behind him. He finally feels your pussy glide over him and throws his head back, feeling pure euphoria.Â
Jayâs cock is thick and long, and you feel it throbbing between your legs. The friction is too delicious to ignore, as is the wet sounds consisting of your arousal covering him. He lifts his head up to watch you bite your lip and look at him with desperation in your eyes. Itâs the kind of expression heâs wanted to see from you for so long. Jay can only hope you know that this is how he looks at you.Â
Itâs quiet in the room, save for wanton breaths and the sound of your own arousal mixing with his precum. Itâs so erotic to see you as desperate for him as he is for you because heâs yearned for this moment for so long. Jay bites his lip with every pass as you hover above his tip and he tries his hardest not to buck his hips, instead allowing you to move at your own pace.Â
When you catch the tip of his cock inside of your pussy, the two of you let out an audible gasp at the sudden intrusion. His thick head breaches your fluttering hole as he grabs your waist to prevent you from moving when his tip is fully sheathed inside of you.Â
âHoly fuck,â you moan, balancing yourself on his hot tip. âFeels so fucking good.â
âYeah?â Jay asks. âIt does, doesnât it?â You nod rapidly and Jay kisses the side of your mouth before moving to your neck.Â
You keep yourself steady by gripping his shoulders that are hot to the touch. He flexes when your nails dig into him, causing you to moan at the sight. Jay feels the movement of your throat as he kisses your neck and grunts when he feels your pussy clench around him.Â
The two of you stay like that for a few minutes until your legs give out and youâre holding onto Jayâs neck as a silent plea for him to take over. He gets the hint, wrapping his arms around your body until youâve fallen limp against his chest. Jay uses his leverage to slowly pull himself out of you before pushing the head of his cock back in.Â
The moan you emit against his ear makes him feel like the two of you are starring in your very own sextape. It causes Jay to jerk his hips unexpectedly and push another inch of himself into your pussy by accident. Heâs about to apologize until he feels your pussy clenching around him at the sudden intrusion.Â
âYouâre so big,â you whisper to him. âS-So big. So good.â
âYou feel fucking amazing,â Jay praises. âSuch a wet pussy and Iâve barely done anything to you.âÂ
You whimper at his words while closing your eyes shut and move your head until your cheek rests comfortably on his shoulder. The angle allows you to press kisses to Jayâs jawline and you do so until you feel him begging to thrust into you once again.Â
The tempo he sets is slow and delicious. He feels every drag as your mixed arousal coats the rest of his cock and Jay feels as though heâs found pure euphoria on earth, the kind that men search for but never seem to find. The shallow thrusts cause his mouth to hang open and his fingers itching to touch your clit, but he doesnât want to move unless you tell him to.Â
It isnât until youâre pushing yourself down onto his length that he speaks again.
âBaby,â he warns. âI thoughtââ
âChanged my mind,â you tell him desperately. âUnless you donât want to.â
Jay nods. âI want to. Fuck, I want to.âÂ
You kiss him hard before pushing down on him. âI just want you.âÂ
Jayâs body falls limp when he feels your body glide up and down his cock like youâve trained your entire life for this very moment. He sees the sweat building between your brows and licks his lips at the way your tits bounce against your chest. Itâs sensual the way you look on top of him. Jay brings one of your nipples in his mouth and makes a home there as your hips begin to work his own. Â
His body feels like it was made for you to use. The desperation at which his own hips chase yours should make him feel embarrassed, but he feels like a lovesick fool. In this moment, everything heâs ever wanted to say to you lies in the power of his thrusts and the way his lips move with yours. It makes him feel like thereâs nothing in this world that could take you away from him.Â
He pushes himself up until youâre clinging onto his body for dear life. The sounds you make push him even harder against your body, drilling his hard cock within you until youâre moaning like somebodyâs filming you. Itâs all too much for Jay to handle, and heâs glad he feels you come undone before him.
âIâm cumming, Iâm cumming!â you moan out, clenching against his cock as it works your body until completion.Â
Jay pulls out and finishes on your ass just after youâve come down from your own high. You jolt when you feel his come on your skin but move to kiss him as the two of you come down from your respective highs and he feels your heartbeat against his chest, smiling into the kiss.Â
âYouâre amazing,â he tells you between kisses. He tries to speak but you silence him with more pecks. âLet me clean you up, yeah?âÂ
Your heart feels warm. You nod and let him pry your body off of his, carefully laying on your stomach so that the couch doesnât see the mess Jay created. He comes back a moment later with a warm washcloth and his trousers zipped up before wiping you clean. The rag is tossed onto the floor as he pulls your body towards him, wrapping your legs around his torso, and pulling your lips to his once more.Â
âStay the night?â he asks you.Â
âThat was my plan, but Iâm glad you brought it up before I did.âÂ
Jay pinches your thigh and hears you laugh. He could die like this.Â
âSince itâs a weekend, I think you and I have a lot of catching up to do.â Jay kisses down your neck and between the valley of your breasts, gliding his lips along your stomach until theyâve reached just below your belly button.Â
âOh? And what is it youâre promising, Park Jongseong?âÂ
Jay smirks up at you from where heâs positioned.Â
âI have an idea in mind,â he says coyly, moving his mouth to press a chast kiss on your slit. âIt has a lot to do with my mouth and my fingers.â Your body arches when Jayâs tongue licks a bold stripe up your slit.Â
âI like the sound of that. Would you let me return the favor?âÂ
âOnly if you cum on my tongue twice.âÂ
You push his face into your core.
âBetter get a head start.â
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ABO AU - Alpha! Lee Minho/Omega Gender Neutral! Reader
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"Hyung, did you see the new omega next door?" Felix asked, wrapping his arms around Minho's waist. Minho flipped the pancake and plated it up, "I didn't have the time, you know the routine," he said, ruffling his hair. Felix pursed his lips, "Morning time is for breakfast and cats. I know it well," he grumbled, letting go of Minho to grab the syrup. Minho chuckled, "Don't pour too much, I already added sugar to the batter," he said, switching off the stove. Felix chuckled lowly, holding up the syrup bottle when the doorbell rang. Minho furrowed his eye brows, "Routine disruptor," he murmured, going towards the door.
You rang the bell once more when he swung open the door, "Oh! Hi, hey. I made thin mints. It's not the best but I just wanted to hand you some," you said, handing him a gift box. Minho stared at you then the gift box then back at you, "Thank you," he said, slightly bowing as he took. You beamed, "Any time," you said, walking back to your place. Minho closed the door in front of him and stared at the knob, "Lix, they're gorgeous," he whispered, taking a deep inhale of your lingering scent. Felix smirked, "Does hyung have a crush?" he teased, expecting Minho to brush him off. Minho turned around, his face flushed, "I think I do," he said, his voice breathy. Felix felt his jaw drop, "Really?" he exclaimed, looking at him. Minho sighed, burrowing his face against the gift box, "Fuck," he growled, gripping it close.
You knocked on their door the next day, holding a tupperware in your arms. Minho opened the door and stared at you again, "You're back," he said, looking at the tupperware. You handed it out to him, "I made extra lunch, it's nothing too fancy," you said, beaming when he took it. "Wait here," Minho said, leaving the front door open. You did as told and rocked on your heels. Minho cleared his throat, "Here. My brother made some brownies," he smiled, passing them to you. "Thanks, I'll enjoy them," you smiled back, walking home.
Day after day, the both of you exchanged desserts and foods alike. It didn't take long for Minho to invite you inside, "I'm making omurice, today," he said, cracking the eggs. You purred softly at his warmth bergamot like scent, "Looking forward to it," you said, stretching over the counter. Minho chuckled, "You're becoming one with the kitties," he teased, flipping the egg. You patted your lap, letting Dori lay across, "Aren't you glad, Alpha?" you teased, scratching under his ear. Minho scoffed and poked your forehead, "Little Omega's like you shouldn't be provoking me," he said, plating up lunch. You stuck your tongue out, "Make me," you said, thinking he'd play along. Minho clenched his jaw and stared at you with an icy glare, "Let's go then, pup. I'll show put you back in place," he smirked, towering over your body. You nervously giggled and hugged his waist, "I'll behave I promise," you pleaded, looking up at him. Minho chuckled and brushed back your hair, "I'll let it slide for now. But when you decide to act up like this again. Alpha's not going to care even if you're carrying my pup, Omega. Don't heed my warning, hm?" he teased, tugging your hair firmly.
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"Baby, I'm doing this for your own good, hm?" he chuckled, lightly bruising your waist with his grip. You sobbed into the pillow, your legs hooked over his shoulder as he bucked his hips deeper and deeper up your womb. "Alpha, hic, too big!" you cried, clawing his chest. He hissed and kissed your calves, "Shh, shh. Good omega. I know Alpha's cock is fat and heavy bubs but you can take it," he smirked, rolling his hips. Your eyes rolls back as his leaky throbbing cockhead pressed against your swollen bundle of nerves. He cooed, thrusting at a relentless pace, "That's it omega. You're mine. That pup in your fucking womb is mine," he growled, forcing you into a mating press. "Hah, ah! Yours, we're yours," you sniffled, tears running down your cheeks. He felt his the base of his cock swell at your tears, "Don't cry, omega," he whispered, thrusting his growing knot in and out of your fluttering hole. You mewled at the stretch, pleasure burning in your veins. "Fuck. You're perfect. My perfect little mate," he praised, picking up the pace.
You hiccuped, making grabby hands at him, "Hhgh, no more. Hic. No more!" you sniffled, thrashing under his firm grip. He pampered kisses on your face, "Alpha's knows you can take his knot. Your little hole is meant for me. Only me," he hummed, thrusting his hips with one deep buck. You arched your back, whimpering as his heavy load pumped into you. He hissed, kissing down to your swollen belly, "Mate, my mate," he rasped, growling lowly. You stroked his hair, your hole filling up by the second, "So full," you slurred, feeling your pup press against your bladder on one end and his hot searing load fill up the other. He rubbed your urethra, "Scent me, omega. Don't you want to piss on your Alpha," he teased, rubbing figure eights on your hole. You clenched hard around his hard, trying not to give into his possessive primal desires but when the first trickle leaked past your slit, you couldn't hold back. He growled as warm piss squirted against his v-line and torso, "Good omega. So fucking obedient," he hummed, making sure your bladder emptied till the last drop. You sniffled, throwing a small pillow at him, "I hate you," you sulked, embarrassed and aroused. He chuckled, kissing your palm, "Alpha loves you too," he said, his voice husky with affection.
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Follow Me
Luke Castellan x daughterofares!Reader
Summary: Luke's girlfriend is excited to finally become a year-round camper so she can spend it with him. But Luke has other plans for them.
Warning: Major spoilers if you haven't finished the first book(/season depending on when you read this), canon-level violence, weapons, injuries, angst
Word Count: 5.5K
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A/N I haven't watched the show because I don't have Disney+ so I'm working from (memory of) the books. No characters are specifically book or show so descriptions are left vague. Imagine whatever you want.
I stumbled my way up Half-Blood Hill, determined to get to Thaliaâs tree. This was my last year being a summer camper. After I graduated high school Iâd decided to become a year round camper seeing as the real world was getting more and more dangerous for me. And I'd be damned if I let myself be killed right before I was in the safety of camp for good.
I was in so much pain, there was blood pouring out of my abdomen caused by the crocottaâs razor sharp claws slicing at me. My short break gave it enough time to catch up to me so rather than continuing to flee, I was forced to turn and face it. I pulled out my fatherâs gift to me, a sword made of celestial bronze that grew from a steel knife that could harm mortals. When he claimed and gifted it to me I found the steel useless. Why would I ever need to harm a mortal? The reasoning behind the dual blade still eluded me. The only reason I could think of was just that Ares had a penchant for violence.
As the crocotta bounded closer to me, all I could do was stand and wait for it to get within range. But upon reaching me, it just swiped the sword from my grasp, pouncing on me. I felt a tear slip down my face as I realized Iâd failed to reach safety one final time. As it growled in my face and opened its jaw, I sent a silent prayer to my father and a goodbye to Luke. But before itâs jaws could clamp down on me, the weight lifted and a shimmery cloud of ichor rained down on me.
As the golden dust settled, I could see my boyfriendâs face above mine, standing over me, clutching his dagger. âLuke,â I practically sobbed in relief.
âOh my gods,â he exclaimed, kneeling down next to me. His hands went to my stomach, pressing against the open wound, trying to stop the bleeding. âCan you walk?â he asked, fear in his eyes.
âYeah,â I nodded, letting him take my hand as he stood. Truthfully I probably couldnât really walk but it was either walk 10 feet to the tree or lie here waiting for someone else to help Luke carry me in and potentially getting attacked by another monster.
I let out a groan as Luke slung my arm over his shoulder, pulling me up from the ground. âCâmon,â he urged, âjust get to the tree and then weâll get some more people to help you.â I nodded, not bothering with a verbal agreement as I let my boyfriend practically carry me just past Thaliaâs tree. âThere we go,â he said gently as he eased me to the ground.
âGo. Go get Lee or Michael,â I urged him as he kneeled by my side again.
âNo,â Luke immediately shot down. âIâm not leaving you like this and so close to the edge of the barrier.â I glanced to my left. We were about three feet from the edge of the campâs protective barrier. âHelp!â I heard him yell towards camp.
âWhat? Do you think I'm accidentally gonna roll down the hill?â I tried to joke. But my chuckle made my wounds hurt even more.
Seeing my pain made Luke even more unamused. Soon enough a few other campers ran up to us, having heard Lukeâs call.
âY/N, oh my god.â
âWhat happened?â
âAnother one?!â
I heard the various reactions from other campers. Another one? What did they mean another one? But I didnât dwell on my questions for long because Lee Fletcher and Michael Yew were running towards me. A few of my siblings followed them carrying a stretcher. As the Apollo boys started to try to stop the bleeding, I was moved onto the stretcher. But the pain of being lifted was so bad I blacked out.
~
When I came to in the sickroom of the Big House all I could feel was pain. I let out a soft groan, snapping Luke to attention. He was slumped over on my bedside, seemingly sleeping. He immediately grabbed a piece of ambrosia off the nightstand next to the cot, bringing it to my lips. I immediately rejected it, not feeling like eating anything.
âCâmon, itâs ambrosia. Itâll make you feel better,â Luke pleaded. Reluctantly I let him coax the food into my mouth and ate it. The comforting taste of my motherâs chocolate cake filled my mouth. Despite the fact that it tasted good, it felt heavy in my stomach and I pushed the food away. âYou gotta eat more than that,â he tried again.
âLetâs start with water or nectar,â I suggested, my throat sore.
Luke looked at the floor angrily. He sighed. âWeâre out of nectar for a while. Ambrosia is all we have.â
âWhat?â I asked in shock, sitting up in surprise. Luke was quick to coax me back down.
âGrover and the kid he was helping got attacked by the Minotaur on their way here. Just like the crocotta attacked you.â
âOh my god,â I murmured. âIs that why someone said âAnother one?â as they were bringing me here?â
He nodded once again. âHis name was Percy. He showed up the night before you did.â He suddenly stopped talking. Like he had something more to say. I urged him to continue and he did so reluctantly. âPoseidon claimed him the second night he was awake⌠and now heâs on a quest.â
I looked at him sympathetically. I knew all about Lukeâs anger about going unclaimed for so long. And then when he finally was claimed and had trained to be a great hero, all Hermes could give him to do was steal some golden apples. But after countless rants about this I knew he wouldnât want sympathy. âYou said heâs on a quest already? How long have I been out?â
âA couple days. Chiron and Lee kicked me out for a while.â
âWhatâd you do?â
âWell, we already need new practice dummies for combat training,â he admitted sheepishly. I laughed and fortunately Luke did too.
By now, Chiron had sensed I was awake and entering the sickroom. As he ducked his way through the door he shrunk down back into his wheelchair so as to not overwhelm me. âIâm glad to see youâre awake. You gave us quite a scare for a few days,â he smiled.
âSo I've heard.â
âHow are you feeling?â
âLike my guts were ripped out by a crocotta,â I answered.
âWell the ambrosia should help the pain and scarring. Lee stopped the bleeding and stitched you up but he said youâd be out for a few days.â
âCan you get her some nectar?â Luke interrupted. âSheâs not exactly in a place to be eating solid foods.â
âMr. D is trying to get into contact with Apollo. Apparently heâs concerned that Dionysus is overindulging.â
âThatâs crap!â Luke suddenly burst out.
âLuke!â Chiron immediately cut him off. âI know youâre concerned for Ms. L/N, here but the food of the gods is in of itself a privilege.â He then turned his attention back to me. âIâm sorry youâre not feeling well but ambrosia will have to do until weâre able to get more nectar.â
âThanks, Chiron,â I tried to dismiss him, giving him a tight lipped smile. Sensing my disappointment he took his leave, wheeling out of the room.
Luke was back by my bedside with more pieces of ambrosia that I reluctantly took.
~
Thanks to the godly food I was up and walking within two days much to cabin 5âs relief. So many of my younger siblings were saying that Clarisse had been a terror in my absence. Something about a bathroom exploding and then she apparently tried to electrocute the new camper. I made a note to talk to her later but for now I was focused on getting my cabin back in order. They responded best to authority and a routine so I quickly had them out in training, telling them that I wouldnât tolerate us losing capture the flag again.
We made our way down to the arena for sword fighting lessons. Luke and I were both instructors seeing as we were the oldest two campers and the best with blades. Our childhood competitiveness had eventually grown into love but for a while, we hated each other. We used to spend hours trying to get the upper hand over one another.
But now that we were dating, the younger campers always tried to goad us into sparring with one another. We always said that weâd save our sparring match for our own training or a reward for the others doing well but usually a few teasing comments had our swords pointed at one another.
I was correcting a Hermes camperâs form when he asked me to try fighting Luke. âNot today,â I laughed.
âWhy? Is it because youâre scared?â he asked, knowing exactly what he was doing.
âNo,â I corrected him. âItâs because once we fight, none of you will care about what we teach you.â
âSound like youâre scared,â the boy just repeated.
I just rolled my eyes, prepared to dismiss him when Lukeâs voice interrupted. âYeah, Y/N. It sounds like youâre scared.â I rolled my eyes again as he approached. âI wouldnât want to fight the capture the flag champion either.â
âYou only won because I was recovering from being chased across the country by a monster. Just wait until the next game, Iâll show you how Cabin 5 does it.â That elicited a few cries of encouragement from my cabin, eager to win their flag back.
âYou need a bit more time to train, I get it,â he mockingly offered. A few of his siblings joined in on the taunting with their exaggerated reactions.
âI donât need time. Iâd just rather not cut you up this early into the summer,â I smiled. A few âoohâs came from our audience.
Luke bristled a little at that. âCâmon,â he gestured to the arena, âletâs settle this once and for all.â
I picked up one of the practice swords that resembled the size and weight of my real sword, stepping into the middle of the arena. âYou say that every time.â Luke smiled, taking his spot in front of me with his practice sword as the other campers backed up.
I barely gave him a chance to settle before I was moving. I had the advantage of my fatherâs knack for fighting and aggression but I wasnât as strong as Luke. Unfortunately, he knew all my moves and tricks so he was able to block me. But that also meant I knew all of his moves and tricks because I could anticipate his subsequent moves.
We continued on, trying to outmaneuver each other. He kept forcing me out of range, protecting his body, whilst I tried to find an opening to get close to him. The other campers had been within the walls of the arena but we moved around so much they were forced to jump out.
The only reason we stopped was because our little âlessonâ had gone on too long and Chiron was wondering where his students were. Neither of us noticed him until he yelled our names. âY/N L/N! Luke Castellan! What are you doing?â We both immediately stopped, facing the centaur like guilty children.
âWe were just introducing them to technique,â Luke offered. I could tell Chiron saw right through his excuse but it was good enough reasoning.
âYou both know youâre supposed to hold off on sparring one another. Children,â he turned to the other campers, âwhat did your instructors teach you?â
âStance!â
âWhat to do if your opponent has a longer sword!â
Those were the answers our siblings offered but one Aphrodite camperâs answer ruined the whole thing. âHow to waste time.â Luke and I both sent her stares.
Fortunately Chiron didnât take it too seriously. âSave the sparring for your own sessions,â he warned us. âEveryone move on to your next activities. Iâm sure your instructors are waiting.â
As everyone else filed off, Luke and I looked at each other. âYouâre disgusting,â I laughed, observing his sweaty shirt.
He looked baffled at that. âWow. I was gonna ask if youâre okay but clearly you donât value me that much,â he answered in mocking offense.
âNo, no, no,â I corrected through laughs, going to him. But as soon as he tried to hug me, I pulled away with a wrinkled nose. Seeing my disgust, he forcefully hugged me, drowning me in his B.O. When I finally wrestled my way out of his arms I was disgusting. âUgh we both need showers.â
He smiled. âIâll see you at dinner,â he promised. He stepped closer to me, kissing me quickly before heading off towards the showers. I watched him leave for a moment before heading to my cabin.
Later that night at dinner, I was talking to my cabin-mates when Luke came over, crouching by me. âHey,â he smiled up at me as if this was the most normal thing in the world.
âHi,â I laughed. âWhat are you doing here?â
âBeing a good boyfriend. Iâm just giving you a heads up that our spar from earlier isnât over yet.â
âWhat?â
Chiron stood up and so did Luke. âGotta go, bye,â he said, pressing a kiss to my temple before scurrying off.
Bewildered, I looked up at Chiron. âWe have a special activity tonight per the request of the reigning capture the flag champions. Weâll be playing again tonight seeing as some claimed our last games were unfair due to a missing counselor.â Cabin 5 erupted into cheers, eager to win the flag back. âLuke Castellan and Y/N L/N are captains. Same rules as the prior games.â
Not willing to let my cabin lose again, I jumped into action. âCabin 5, armor on, get to the creek in 5!â They all quickly scrambled off. Our allies for this game, Dionysus, Aphrodite, Demeter, and Hephaestus followed their lead.
I followed after them to get my armor as well and soon enough I was stood by the creek, discussing strategy with my teammates. Once our discussion time drew to a close, I faced my opposing captain. âYouâre going down, feather feet,â I sneered.
âWeâll see, hot head,â Luke taunted.
I laughed. âOh yeah, one more thing,â I told my teammates. âBring me Lukeâs sword and helmet.â
âIn your dreams,â he taunted back. He looked at his team. âBring me Y/N.â
âOkay,â Chiron interrupted us. âBefore we begin I think we need a reminder that killing is not permitted. Are we clear?â A few unenthusiastic agreements came from the crowd. Nodding, Chiron blew into the horn, signaling that the games had begun. Some of my campers who hadnât already been stationed bolted into the trees, doubling back so they could hopefully sneak through Hermesâ cabinâs defenses. The others stayed with me to defend the most obvious point.
One Hermes kid immediately jumped at me but I slashed him in the chest, (his armor protected him so he just got the wind knocked out of him) knocking him back into the water.
He got back up, running at one of my campers but he was immediately disarmed and taken prisoner. By the time I looked back, the other campers and Luke were gone. I realized with a frustrated scream that this kid was a distraction. âFind them!â I yelled at the others.
âTheir territory or ours?â I observed the 5 campers in front of me. âYou three, stay on our side. Fan across the creek, look for signs they crossed into our territory. The rest of you, weâre gonna either hunt them down in their territory or take their flag.â
My group leapt over the creek, running into the forest.
As we searched, we picked up a few of our own teammates, running through the woods and strangely finding no opposing campers. We continued on nonetheless until Athena and Apollo campers all of a sudden started darting through the trees.
Eventually they stopped moving enough for us to have a proper fight. I faced Malcom Pace, easily disarming him. But suddenly his older brothers were on me. As I was busy fighting twins, Leo and Cato, another one of the boys found an opening. Quinn wrapped his arms around me, a dagger at my throat. âDrop the sword,â they told me.
Seeing as I wasnât getting out of this but my teammates were gone while many of the Athena and Apollo campers were still here, I dropped the sword. Most of my campers got away and were likely hunting down the flag.
Before they could decide where to stash their prisoner, the horn blew again, signaling the end of the games. But as I tried to leave, the others stopped me. âWoah, Luke said he wanted you so weâre taking you.â
I rolled my eyes, letting them lead me to the creek. âYeah, well when my cabin gives me his stuff and the flag, you can apologize to me.â
âYeah, yeah,â Quinn dismissed. âYouâre just mad I beat you.â
âYou only âbeat meâ because there were three of you. And you guys still lost the rest of my team.â
âWe still got you!â Leo taunted in a sing-songy voice. By now we had reached the creek and I saw Clarisse holding the flag, a helmet, and a sword. Luke was kneeled beside her looking humiliated, clearly a captive.
Both sides let us go and I went to Clarisse. âYour spoils,â she presented me the flag, helmet, and sword. I smiled, wrapping the flag around her shoulders and taking Lukeâs stuff.
âThank you!â I said emphatically, pointing a look of victory at Luke.
He just shook his head, standing up. As he approached me I figured he was grabbing his belongings but instead he wrapped an arm around my waist, pulling me in for a kiss. When he pulled away he explained. âYouâre my spoil.â
~
Camp life continued on as normal for a while. I finally met the newest hero who had returned Zeusâ masterboltâ he did not like my father. He seemed surprised that Luke and I were dating and I learned that Luke had become a sort of mentor to Percy over the days that I had been asleep. That also surprised me, given how resentful Luke had seemed towards him when I first woke up. Regardless, everything seemed normal as we continued our routines throughout the summer until I was woken up one night.
âY/N,â a voice whispered, shaking me. âY/N.â I reluctantly opened my eyes, finding one of my younger brothers, Aiden, shaking me. âLukeâs asking for you.â
âWhat?â I asked, sitting up.
âLuke wants to talk to you. He gave me a coke if I woke you up.â The boy excitedly held up a shiny red can as if to persuade me to go.
I rubbed his messy hair as I sat up. âDonât let Clarisse see that,â I advised, throwing on a hoodie. He nodded, going back to his bunk as I headed outside. âLuke!â I whispered into the night upon exiting the cabin. I didnât notice him sneaking up towards me until his hands were around my waist. âLuke!â I exclaimed in surprise.
He quickly hushed me. âDo you want the harpies to find us?â
âWell we wouldnât have to worry about that if you werenât trying to talk to me in the middle of the night. Whatâs wrong?â I asked, knowing itâd be serious. He let his playful facade drop as he urged me to follow him, taking my hand. I went with him, silently trusting him until I realized we were heading to the woods. I stopped, letting my hand fall out of his grasp. âWhat? Are you gonna kill me in there?â I laughed shallowly, trying to lighten the mood and quell the alarms in my brain.
Luke returned my shallow laugh, clearly nervous. âOf course not. Look, I have to talk to you. Itâs serious.â I could see the genuineness in his expression so I let him retake my hand. âIâd never hurt you,â he promised. So I followed him further into the woods until he deemed us far enough. âThe nymphs may hear us but itâs kind of impossible to avoid them,â he chuckled.
âHear what?â I asked.
He took a breath, seemingly composing himself. âYou know how I went on that quest? For my dad?â
âYeah. What? You want to go out into the world again?â I asked, a little relieved.
âSort of,â he offered. âBut on that âquest,ââ he mocked the word, âI realized something: the gods are useless.â
âLuke!â I immediately reprimanded him.
âNo,â he cut me off. âYou donât have to pretend like not fawning over the gods is a crime. We shouldnât be blindly worshipping them. Y/N,â his hands were clasping my shoulders as if begging me to believe him, âyour father waited for the last day of summer your first year to claim you. Why? Just to mess with you? Because he just couldnât be bothered to do it until he remembered at the last second? Thatâs messed up. The gods arenât fit to rule. The West is going to hades. My quest? To repeat Heraclesâ quest? All the gods know how to do is repeat the past. Their glory days.â
âLuke, youâre scaring me.â I was practically begging him to stop talking so we could go back to the way it was. This was the first year Iâd be staying year round. We were supposed to be celebrating Christmas together for the first time in a few months. Yet here he was, spouting off heresy.
âOpen your eyes,â he insisted. âThe gods are poisoning the world and theyâve been using us as pawns to do it. The only way to fix it is to destroy it and start over with something more honest.â
âWhat do you mean?â
âIâve been having dreams sent by the Titan Lord.â
A shiver ran down my spine and I stepped out of his grasp. âNo,â I heard myself whisper. âLuke, heâs using you. You remember what Chiron taught us. We are not better off, no one was better off when the Titans ruled. We didnât even have fire. He will kill all the humans. Heâll kill us.â
âNot if we join him willingly,â Luke promised, trying to take my hand again but I pulled away. âHe said when I bring down the gods heâll reward me. Heâll make me immortal. He promised youâd become like me too.â He quickly grasped my wrist tight enough so I couldnât escape, pulling me closer. âWe can rule together, forever.â He was pleading with me to take his offer, his hands finding a stray lock of hair to tuck behind my ear.
âLuke⌠this isnât- you canâtâŚâ I was at a loss for words.
âPlease, Y/N,â his voice was cracking.
âI canât. Iâm sorry. This isnât right. This is dangerous, canât you see that?â
âThis isnât me just trying to get back at my dad. Iâve thought about this.â He stiffened, still tightly grasping my wrist. âY/N, I need you with me.â
âThen donât go,â I begged him. âI wonât even tell anyone. We can just go back to how things were.â
âNo, we canât,â he shook his head. âBecause youâre gonna try to help me by telling Chiron and heâs gonna turn me in.â
âNo he wonât! Luke, he trained you. Heâll want to help you.â
âCamp isnât safe for us anymore. We have to go.â
This was the first time I actually started fearing for my safety. I tried to pull out of his grasp but he held firm. âGo where?â
âOur Titan Lord got us a ship. Weâll be safe there until I get my next orders. The monsters on it wonât harm us.â
âWhat?!â With a hard wrench I pulled my wrist out of his grasp. I immediately started running, hoping a nymph would find me before a monster did but Luke was on me in seconds. He knocked me to the ground and after a little struggling he had me pinned. âLuke, please donât do this,â I begged as I saw him reach into his pocket. When I saw the milk of the poppy I began to thrash underneath him but I couldnât manage to throw him off of me. He forced my mouth open, dropping the liquid onto my tongue and forcing me to swallow. Before I blacked out, I could vaguely hear him speak.
âYouâll be okay in a few days and then we can talk.â A few days???
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The next morning Luke was woken by frantic cries of his girlfriendâs name heard throughout camp. He immediately rushed out of bed, putting on a concerned boyfriend facade. Finding one of his brothers, he asked what was going on. âWhat? Did you just wake up?â Luke nodded frantically. âOh, Iâm sorry man. Uh, Y/N wasnât in bed this morning. No one can find her. One of her little brothers said you asked to talk to her last night.â
âYeah to talk about potentially allying for capture the flag but she went right back in,â he insisted frantically. He ran a hand through his hair, acting stressed. He kind of whished heâd be gone by now but he needed to get rid of Percy before he could go.
He ran out of the cabin, immediately going up to Cabin 5. Clarisse spotted him, her expression becoming sour. âWhatâd you do Castellan? Aiden said you wanted to talk to her last night.â
âYeah, we were talking about capture the flag but she went right back in 10 minutes later. You sleep 20 feet from her, whereâs my girlfriend?â he challenged. Clarisse sent him a scowl but otherwise stormed off, the other Cabin 5 campers following her with similar expressions.
âLuke, I'm so sorry,â a young voice called. He turned, finding Annabeth running towards him. As she hugged him, Luke couldnât help but think about how much heâd miss her. She was too smart for her own good but he still couldnât help but think of the seven year old he had found hiding from monsters. âShe could just be out somewhere?â she offered, trying to console him.
âI hope so,â he smiled down at her. He then spotted Mr. D and ran over to him. âMr. D, can you find where she is?â
The god gave him a tired expression. âIâm not omniscient in this state. All I know is sheâs not in camp.â
âWell canât you get a god who is? Surely her father wants to know where she is,â he insisted. But Ares had plenty of demigod children and most of them went missing in action or died tragic deaths. Y/N would be just another hero child that fought in his name.
âLord Ares has other concerns,â Mr. D at least tried to soften the blow. âIf she hasnât returned by the end of the summer then we must assume she is dead. Even if she left of her own volition.â
âBut summer is ends tomorrow. You canât do this. She could still be out there. She could need our help. Let me go out and search,â he pleaded. By now, Chiron, Clarisse, and a few others had joined them.
âNo one is leaving,â Chiron declared. âIâm not letting anyone else go missing. Luke, I understand your concern but her blade was found in Cabin 5. If sheâs not in camp she is likely already dead.â
âNo,â Luke insisted, putting on the performance of a lifetime, âyouâre wrong.â
After nearly two whole days of searching camp and the closest borders, (that was the furthest Chiron would let anyone go) Y/N L/N was declared dead. Her siblings reluctantly built a funeral pyre, decorating it with some of her things. Luke did his best to look devastated and it seemed to be working because no one looked at him twice other than to offer their sympathies. That at least made it easy to lure Percy off into the woods just before he left.
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When I woke up I was in a strange room. It looked like a hotel room except for the fact that the floor to ceiling windows showed that I was on the ocean. That triggered all the memories of Luke. A sense of hopelessness came over me and I was immediately breaking down in sobs. I didnât want to believe that he had joined Kronos and turned his back on everything he knew or that he was determined to drag me with him.
Once I finally managed to compose myself I went to the door, hoping to find a radio so someone could get me. Or maybe even find Luke so I could talk him into letting me go. But once I opened the door I was met with the massive jaws of a hellhound. I immediately shut the door and locked it.
Still feeling unsafe I went to grab the dresser to block the door but either it was too heavy or bolted down. I tried the desk next resulting in nothing. I was running out of time as the monster was probably just trying to process what it saw. Soon itâd smell me and start trying to break down the door. So I resorted to the chair, dragging it across the floor and jamming it under the door handle. I then went to the massive windows, realizing there was a hidden door. I wrenched it open, stepping out into the fresh air. I looked around, seeing no land Iâd be able to swim to. But just as I was considering my chances, I noticed the body of a massive whale-like creature. I was willing to bet that whales werenât just swimming around a cruise ship, this was a cetus.
Seeing as I had nowhere else to go, I went back into the room. I went to the attached bathroom, searching for something to defend myself. There wasnât really anything in there except bar soap and toilet paper. Luke must have removed everything, even the towels, so I couldnât hurt him or anyone else. Frustrated, I went to the closet, finding it completely empty. Not even a hangar to pull apart and stab someone with. So I reluctantly grabbed the soap seeing as it was literally the only thing remotely resembling a weapon, and sat on the bed, watching the door.
I donât know how long I sat there but eventually I heard the door shake, like something was trying to get in. As I was preparing to clobber the monster with my bar of soap, a voice I recognized called through the door. âCâmon, Y/N! Open the door,â Luke said. I didnât dare move. I didnât want to see him. âOpen the door or I break it down!â he demanded.
It was either open the door or have absolutely no protection from the monsters so I reluctantly got up. âOkay, okay!â I answered. âJust give me a second.â I climbed off the bed, removing the chair. I only twisted the handle, letting the door open slightly before going back to the bed to put some distance between us.
As Luke was locking the door again, I took my chance. Jumping, I tried to bring the bar of soap down on him but he turned, grabbing my wrist. âCome on, you had to have known that wouldnât work,â he smiled.
I only gave him a burning stare. âIt was worth a shot,â I said, trying to pull my hand away. But his grip held fast, not letting me pull away.
âSo I guess you still hate me?â
âYeah,â I answered. âYou kidnapped me and are now holding me hostage on a monster infested ship.â
âYouâll understand soon enough,â he dismissed, once again brushing a piece of hair behind my ear. âThen weâll be together forever.â
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#percy jackson#percy jackson and the olympians#pjo#pjo x reader#the lightning thief#luke castellan#luke castellan x reader#percy jackson and the olympians x reader#ares#daughter of ares#x reader
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Puppy Tales ft. Lee Rang
A/n: This is related to the Lee Rang x samjoko!reader fics I did last year sooo here it is!
Genre: Fantasy au, fluff, romance, cracked au
Pairings: Lee Rang x Samjoko!reader (fem oc)
Warnings: none, pure fluff!
Noeul's
"Wasn't he home the whole day?" Yeon asked as I shook my head.
"Everyone went out...it was just me and Miho the whole day..." I said as I grew fearful.
"He wasn't with us either..." Shinjoo trailed adding onto my worry.
"Yah..." I trailed as Yeon ran out.
"I'll go find him! You stay with Miho!" He exclaimed and ran as I widened my eyes.
"YAH-"
"Noeul, I'll go search for him as well...you stay with Miho incase he comes back home!" Shinjoo exclaimed before leaving as well.
Rang...where are you?
I made a fireball and threw it up in the air making my crow appear.
"Rang is missing, go find him right now!" I commanded as it made a sound and flew away.
I decided to hold Miho who was awake and wait for the guys and hopefully Rang to comeback. I felt my eyes water as I looked at Miho.
"I lost my Rang...I can't bear to lose the Rang of this timeline as well..." I looked up and widened my eyes when I saw the familiar glow of my crow. I stood up and put my right hand out for it to land.
"Rang's tie!" I exclaimed holding the tie my crow retrieved. I looked at it before looking at my crow.
"Take me there right now."
After we left the house and ran towards Rang's last sightings, my crow landed and disappeared.
"Rang's clothes...Rang-ah! Rang-ah...where are you?" I called out in desperation when I heard a whimper. I slowly followed it towards a bush.
"Rang-ah...is that you?" I said softly only to find a puppy.
"You're not Rang..." I mumbled at the black puppy and petted under it's neck when I felt a necklace of some sort. I picked up the puppy to have a closer look at its necklace. My eyes widened as I kept the puppy down and ran far away from it.
"The puppy is wearing the same necklace I gave Rang-did it perhaps steal it? No, Rang would never let it get lost....let alone stol-what if that puppy is...no...nooo...no, no, no. It couldn't be...right?" I looked at Miho who just giggled. I slowly walked towards the puppy who sat and whimpered.
"Rang-ah....is that you?" I said softly as it quickly looked up to face me. I gasped as I came closer.
"Rang-ah?... how am I supposed to understand oh-bark two times if you're Rang!" I said as it barked two times making me gasp and pick it up to hug it.
"Oh my gosh-what happened?!" I exclaimed as I picked him up to my face level. I frowed as his voice only came out as a bark.
"Oh my gosh, oh my gosh....let's go back!"
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"I don't believe it." Yeon said making me whine as Rang barked angrily.
"Noo! He is Rang!" I insisted as he sighed when Shinjoo finally returned.
"I couldn't find him." He said when he saw the puppy in my arms.
"RANG?!" He exclaimed as I went and hugged him.
"It's him right?!" I exclaimed as he nodded and took Rang from my arms.
"Lord Rang?! Are you okay?! How did this happen??" He asked as Rang barked.
"What did he say?" I asked as Yeon who now believed it was his little brother also came closer to see.
"He says that a little kid came in front of him while he was foraging the forest for a flower. He told the kid to scram amdshe turned him into a puppy." Shinjoo said making me and Yeon widen our eyes.
"She must've been a witch. You're not even the type to like flowers...why did you even go out?" Yeon scolded him making Rang bark at him.
"Rang-ah...don't worry...we'll find a way to turn you back into a human. " I said and petted him as Shinjoo spoke up.
"But until then...you're gonna have to adjust in this form." He said making Rang bark. I smiled and took him in my arms.
"Be nice, Rang-ah." I said in a soft but stern voice before kissing his head.
Rang's
Being a dog doesn't seem too bad as long as Noeul takes care of me. But then again...I can't stay a dog forever. If only I hadn't gone out to find a tulip.
Tulips are ideal to give to someone who you have deep and unconditional love for.
Ever since Noeul told me that...Tulips are all that I've been wanting to find. She drew it so I kind of have an image of it in my mind but not the time for that.
Noeul's
"Rang-ah let's go for a walk!" I chirped in hopes of cheering him up. Shinjoo and Yeon went out to search for the child while I was put on babysitting duty.
He happily wagged his tail making me smile as I petted him.
As we walked through the town my mind couldn't help but drift off to Yeon's words.
We only have 2 weeks until we have to return back to our timeline.
A bark brought me back to reality as I saw Rang running off.
"Rang-ah!" I called out to him and ran after him.
After a while he stopped and motioned towards the bridge with his head.
"What's wrong? Huh?" I looked to where he was motioning and I soon saw a little girl. Confused, I looked at Rang and for amoment I thought I heard his voice in my mind.
That's the girl!
I gasped and looked at him.
"That's her?" I asked as he nodded. I quickly picked him up and ran towards the child. I put my hand on her shoulder making her turn towards me.
"Fix him now." I said and she widened her eyes.
She can clearly know what I am.
"I can't reverse my spell." She said after bringing us to the forest making Rang bark aggressively in a puppy manner.
"Then is he going to remain as a puppy forever?!" I exclaimed as she winced and joined her hands in forgiveness.
"I'm sorry! But there is one way...if a person admits their love for him he can turn back." She said making me widen my eyes.
"Yeon! Yeon does!" I say as she's shakes her head.
"Noo, I meant true love...romantic love!" She said making me freeze as I turned towards him.
"We kissed...does that count?" I said making her sigh.
"He would've been a person by now then." She said as I shook my head.
"It was before that." I said making her face palm.
"Then it won't work...are you two lovers?" She asked making me look at Rang.
"I don't...know..." I said as she stood up.
"If it's not true love it won't work..." She said making me look at Rang who now looked at the ground in sadness.
"Will he remember any of this when he returns to his original form?" I asked the child as she shook her head.
"His time as a puppy will all be forgotten when he turns back." She said making me nod as I smiled.
"Thank you for your help...you can go now." I said softly making her smile as she bowed and disappeared.
"Rang-ah....we'll find a way-" I cut my own words the momentI heard his voice in my mind again.
You don't love me do you...
I looked at him in shock as I picked him up.
"I don't know if it's you communicating to me or my own mind tricking me but...I can't love you. Even if I wanted to...it's not possible...Rang-ah. " I said when his voice entered my mind again.
Why not?
I cleared my throat and started walking around the forest.
"I hope...you won't remember this. I'm not...from this timeline. You might think it's just Yeon and Shinjoo who aren't from here but they lied. I'm with them..." I said softly, petting his head.
"I tried so hard not to fall but I did...I know it's gonna end in a heartbreak anyway but...it doesn't change the fact that you are my Rang...just from a different timeline." After reaching a meadow I put Rang down and sat on the grass.
So...you love your Rang more than this Rang?
I chuckled as my eyes went teary.
"The only difference between you and my Rang is that you're from the past and my Rang is from the future...well...you're both from my past now." I said and hugged Rang's puppy form.
"But there's no doubt that I love you Rang. Whether you're a dog, whether you're from my timeline or not...I love every version of you." I said and closed my eyes as my tears fell.
I opened my eyes the moment I felt hands wrap around my waist, I broke the hug to see Rang in his true form. He smiled softly at me making a new wave of tears fill my eyes as I hugged him.
Rang's
I smiled as Noeul hugged me tightly while crying.
"Stop pretending like I disappeared." I said softly as she shook her head.
"It felt like it." She sobbed making me chuckle as I rested my head on hers.
"I love you...more than you think I do." I confessed making her break the hug to look at me. I brought my hand forward to give her the tulip I got the other day.
"It's a little wilted but-" She cut me off with a hug.
"It's perfect....I love you too." She confessed making me widen my eyes as she smiled and kissed my forehead.
As we made our way home I couldn't help but remember what she said.
I'm not...from this timeline
Ik it's weird! But I think it needs a part 2 but I hope it was good enough!
Likes and rebloggs are appreciated đâ¨ď¸
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fallen angel
stray kids x ninth member!reader (platonic)
genre: hurt/comfort, some fluff at the end
content warnings: injury, hyunjin hiatus (but he still makes an appearance)
word count: 3k
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the stray kids members have two maknaes to comfort at the end of their 'I'll Be Your Man' cover. One upset because he thought he wasn't good enough, and the other an injured, fallen angel, left hurt because MNET hadn't done enough safety checks on their equipment.
pt 2
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Practising the vocals for 'I'll Be Your Man' was difficult enough, trying to learn the choreography alongside it was hard too. But performing said choreography whilst being lifted in a harness too was even more difficult.
Y/N would be lying if she said she wasn't nervous. No, it wasn't to do with the heights, she could cope with that, but it was more the precision of her dance, and the fact that she would be hitting a high note in the air at the same time, having her own solo moment to shine. Maybe it would be different if they had multiple takes to make sure they got the right one. But with Kingdom, they didn't. She only had so many practices to ensure it looked perfect in front of her sunbaenims and friends. Yeosang and Wooyoung from ATEEZ had kept reminding her they were excited to see her performance. In the normal way, this would be encouraging, this time round, it only felt more daunting.
So when it came to the day of the performance, Y/N was unable to hide her nerves shining through.
"Y/Nnie, you good?" Han appeared in front of her, big brown eyes shining in concern as he watched the younger member zoned out in her own world.
"Huh? Oh yeah..." Y/N said dismissively, not really entirely sure how she felt right now, but her emotions showed more on the outside than on the inside right now.
"You've practiced this a billion times, you've got this," Han encouraged her, his hand resting on her shoulder whilst stylists were around the two making last minute adjustments to their outfits before they went on stage.
"Okay okay, I can do this," Y/N nodded, trying to hype herself up for the performance, breathing away her worries.
"Hannie! Y/Nnie!" Changbin loudly called them over to their group huddle where the rest of the members were gathered.
Y/N gave Han a thankful smile before they joined the others in the circle, Y/N slotting herself between Felix and Seungmin.
"Right, let's do our best, stay safe, and deliver what Stray Kids do best! Let's go! Hwaiting!" Chan led the small talk before they all cheered each other on and got into position on stage.
Y/N didn't have a part until the first group choreography part of the performance, where Han and Lee Know sang the chorus and led them through the gates. Felix, Han and Changbin then had their rap parts in a more hellish scene, where a dance break ensued, Y/N running off halfway through it like she was meant to, to get into position.
She was quickly harnessed by their supporting dancers and got ready for her solo part. As soon as she heard Lee Know sing out 'baby I just pray', she was slowly lifted into the air. Instrumental music played as she rose upward, stretching out her arms and legs and creating beautiful moments with them. And when her arms swooped across her long black hair, the other groups who were watching backstage were shocked to see it was a wig that was knocked off, revealing long white hair instead. As she rose higher, some large wings appeared on the screen behind her.
"Oh my god her hair!"
"Wow she's an angel!"
"That's my best friend! Let's go Y/Nnie!"
"So pretty..."
Now risen at the highest point in the air, Y/N began singing too, beautiful vocal runs flowing along with the violin in the background. Her moves ranged from static to more elegant moves too, and she feigned an expression as part of the performance like her soul had been taken away from her, sacrificed for the young boy to align with the storyline of the performance. She was then lowered as her movements became more frantic and dramatic, showing the desperate need to have saved a soul. At the same time, her wings dissolved behind her, the screen turning darker behind her.
"She's a fallen angel! Wow!"
"Oh wow..."
She continued to be lowered, and Y/N was beginning to feel a bit nervous now because she swore she heard a slight ripping sound from the cord she was attached to, yet she continued performing. It was until she was still 6ft in the air, that the cord actually did snap, and Y/N was forced to act quickly despite her shock to try and land. Despite the impact going straight through her left ankle, Y/N continued dancing until the camera panned away again, panting before realising she'd have to dance some more at the end of their performance too. She tried her best to keep her tears at bay, moving across the stage the best she could as she limped over to the rest of the boys. None of them noticed however, as they were in performance mode and hadn't seen her part of the stage from getting ready themselves for the next. And even the groups backstage had seemed to think the drop from the harness was planned, like it was part of her fallen angel character.
Her left foot was in agony, yet she kept going, her body twisting and turning whilst Han and Seungmin sung their hearts out, and Changbin rapped incredibly fast. She was relieved once it came to the end, and they were able to collapse to the ground, because ever since she fell that was all she wanted to do.
Once the lights came up, she cried out, hands over her face. It was then that she noticed she was finding it hard to breathe too, and she didn't know if it was another injury or if she was in so much pain from her ankle.
"Y/N what's happened?" Lee Know crouched down next to Y/N, thinking she was upset and tried to help her up but then she cried out in pain again.
"What's happened? Are you hurt?" Felix panicked, seeing the tears coming from the younger member.
Staff members from MNET rushed over, catching the attention of the other members.
"What's going on?" Changbin asked confused and worried.
A higher up crew member approached the group and began to explain what happened.
"There was a fault with the harness, the cord snapped as she was being lowered and so she suffered a slight fall. Good news is she landed it well so it still looked good on camera," they hurriedly tried to reassure the rest of the group, but their words did anything but that.
"She fell?!" Seungmin looked across at Y/N who was being comforted by a now angry looking Lee Know and a more worried Felix. Jeongin, who wasn't feeling too good about his own performance, looked worried for his fellow maknae.
"The harness broke?!? Why didn't you check it was safe?!" Chan exploded in anger at the MNET staff, because now one of his members was injured.
Whilst he continued to rant angrily at the staff, Han trying to calm him down, the rest of the boys gathered around Y/N.
"Ah it hurts," she cried through stuttered breaths, top half leant against Changbin as he had lifted her slightly into his arms. He rubbed soothing circles into her hands which gripped onto his so tightly.
"Where, Y/N? Can you tell us where it hurts, love?" Felix rushed out his words concerned for her, seeing the tears roll down her face.
"Landed on my ankle," Y/N whimpered, her breaths coming out short.
"Y/N you need to calm down, okay?" Seungmin patted her arm, thinking that she was working herself up even more, and not wanting her to feel even worse.
"Get a doctor here then!" Chan was heard shouting, which only made Y/N more upset.
"Hey, hey, hey, it's going to be okay, yeah?" Changbin reassured her gently, squeezing her hands tighter.
"W-what if I can't join the next performance?" Y/N shakily asked, eyes flitting back and forth between the boys who were her real comfort right now.
"We'll worry about that later. We're more concerned about you right now, Y/Nnie. Just breathe sweetheart, can you do that, hmm?" Lee Know spoke calmly, slowly taking off her shoe to reveal a swollen and bruised ankle.
"I'm trying to b-but it hurts to," Y/N says through stuttered breaths, tears still falling down her face.
"There's not a doctor here yet?" Jeongin questioned, wondering why someone on set hadn't arrived quicker.
"They should be coming over now," Chan informed them, before grabbing one of Y/N's hands, "we're going to get you some help, yeah? Just take some nice deep breaths, Y/Nnie."
Chan gave her the same advice as the others yet it wasn't working. Y/N knew it wasn't her panicking, but something worse.
"We keep trying to calm her down but she says it hurts when she breathes," Felix looks up Chan worriedly, and sees Han to the left of him with his clasped together nervously.
Some medical staff finally came over and lifted her onto a small bed to move her backstage and look at her properly. Y/N couldn't help but let out more whimpers of pain and the members tried to reassure her as they followed along.
"Only one person in here please," the standby doctor informed the boys, and that was when they decided Seungmin should go in with her. He was the most grounded at the moment, the other members either being too angry, worried or upset to remain calm like Y/N needed.
Seungmin gently held Y/N's hand as the doctors checked over her. With a slight press into her ribs, Y/N let out a loud yell of pain, Seungmin immediately whispering reassuring words to her and gently petting her hair.
"It's okay, it's okay, they're just making sure you're okay, Y/Nnie," he stumbled over his words, now wishing someone else was in his position instead because he feared he wasn't doing enough to comfort the younger girl and he hated seeing her like this.
"We fear you may have a bruised rib, Miss Y/N, you're going to have to seek medical help from a hospital," the doctor shook his head, regretfully informing them.
"No, no, I can't, what about the next performance, can't let the team down," Y/N cried, which was making her ribs hurt even more from the slight jolting of her body.
"Y/Nnie, it's okay, we'll figure out, but you need to calm down, jagi, because you'll hurt yourself more," Seungmin made sure she was looking at him as he said this, wiping her tears away with his thumbs, stroking her face gently.
"B-but-"
"Ssshh, please don't cry Y/Nnie, we'll get you to a hospital and then we worry about the future, okay, come on now, that's it, well done," Seungmin helped her to relax, an arm gently wrapped around her shoulders as he stroked her hair to calm her down.
Whilst Y/N's examination was happening, Chan had noticed Jeongin's upset.
"Hey Innie, it's okay, Y/N will be okay," he patted his younger member's back, thinking that's why he was crying to himself.
"It's not that, I mean, I'm worried about Y/N, but I messed up in the performance and then seeing her hurt too was just," Jeongin couldn't finish his words, crying into the shoulder of his leader.
"Ah, Innie, you did good, which part?" Chan patted his back gently.
"I just did a terrible job as a whole," Jeongin sniffled, his voice thick from trying to hold back his cries.
"Hey, it's okay man," Chan hugged him again.
Felix came and hugged Jeongin too.
"Ah what are we going to do with our maknaes?" Han sighed fondly, patting Jeongin on the head, and it was then they saw Y/N getting wheeled out of the medical room and heading down the corridor past their room.
"Hey, hey! What's going on?" Chan called after some staff of their own who were with Y/N.
"They're taking her to hospital, think she's got a bruised rib," the JYP staff shook their head angrily.
"A bruised rib?!" Changbin said with wide eyes, trying to peer round at Y/N who was sat up straight, trying to remain calm with Seungmin who was stood beside her, looking stressed himself.
"Lee Know and I will go with her, Seungmin, you go home with the others, yeah? We'll update you," Chan instructs everyone.
Seungmin nodded and was immediately embraced into a hug by Felix, feeling guilty for relaxing but he couldn't deal with seeing his member hurt.
And off they went. Changbin stayed behind with the 00 liners and Jeongin, making sure they weren't too shaken up by what happened. Chan and Lee Know stuck to Y/N like glue, one of them always holding her hand or stroking her hair, even when she had been given some drugs for the pain and was unconscious.
"I can't believe this happened..." Chan sighed, brushing back stray hairs from Y/N's face. They were sat beside her hospital bed.
"Typical MNET," Lee Know sighed angrily, looking at the boot now on Y/N's foot.
Y/N then started waking up.
"Hey, sweetheart, how you feeling?" Chan was quick to check in on her.
"Feel, funny," Y/N giggled trying to sit up but then wincing in pain.
"Oh gosh, she's gone loopy," Lee Know playfully sighed, but he couldn't hide his worry for her as he gently leaned her back.
"Wow I have such handsome members," Y/N suddenly said, the drugs she was given making her delirious and spouting whatever was on her mind.
"What? Y/N?" Chan laughed at the girl who staring at the two eldest members.
"Did so well today. Good performance. All 9 of us," Y/N carried on, seeming like she had forgotten about her injuries for now considering she thought all 9 of them was there, when really it was 8 because of the stupid hiatus Hyunjin had to be on.
"It was only 8 of us, Y/Nnie, remember?" Lee Know warily reminded her, and it was then she teared up.
"Call Hyunjin, I miss him. Want to talk to him," Y/N pouted sadly, and they couldn't deny their maknae.
"He might be busy though, Y/N," Chan said gently, calling his fellow member anyways.
Fortunately he answered.
"Hi Channie hyung!" Hyunjin said brightly upon seeing Chan's face, which soon changed to Y/N holding the phone closely to her face, making Hyunjin cackle.
"Woah, Y/N, all of a sudden?" he laughed over the phone.
"Hyunjin!" Y/N yelled into the phone, causing Chan and Lee Know to shush her due to being in a hospital.
"Y/Nnie!" Hyunjin joyfully said back.
"I miss you!" she said into the phone, holding the phone higher up where Hyunjin could see she was in a hospital gown and had an IV in.
"Miss you too- huh? Are you in hospital?" Hyunjin sounded very concerned, and Lee Know and Chan could hear it in his voice that he longed to be with them right now to comfort her and reassure himself.
"Yeah. Because MNET are all dickheads who can s-" Y/N spoke her mind, until Chan covered her mouth so she'd stop speaking and Lee Know took the phone.
"Hyung is Y/N okay?" Hyunjin frowned.
"We were filming and you know she had that harness part? MNET didn't do enough safety checks and so the cord snapped," Lee Know shook his head angrily
"What? That's ridiculous! How could they just let that happen?" Hyunjin rambled from the other side of the phone, but Y/N in her more delirious state thought he was talking about her.
"You angry at me Jinnie?" she asked sadly, bottom lip wobbling.
"No no no, not at you, jagi, at MNET, because they're all dickheads, remember?" Hyunjin quickly calmed Y/N, trying to make her laugh by using her words, and he was successful in doing so.
"Hyunjin!" Chan scolded, yet their was a smile as he spoke and Hyunjin could hear Lee Know's laughter in the background.
"Please update me if she's ok, yeah?" Hyunjin bit his lip worriedly, wishing he could be with his memners right now.
"Of course of course, that goes without question. Talk to you soon, yeah?" Chan promised Hyunjin.
"Bye hyungs! Bye Y/Nnie!" Hyunjin waved them goodbye as the phone hung up.
"Y/N you can't shout like that," Chan facepalms and laughs, scolding her for her shouting earlier on in the call.
"You sounded like a parrot," Lee Know said bluntly, causing Y/N to smirk.
"You sounded like a parrot."
"Y/N-"
"Y/N."
A sigh.
And another, Y/N copying Lee Know once again.
"Hyung make her stop," Lee Know whined, Y/N copying once again before he covered her mouth.
Chan managed to capture this on video and sent it to the groupchat to let them know how Y/N was doing.
Chan:
[vid. attachment]
Y/N is up and doing better
Han:
haha Lee Know hyung is annoyed
Chan:
well he did call her a parrot
Changbin:
ah Y/N is so clever like that haha
Seungmin:
she learnt it from me
Felix:
hahaha
what did the doctors say?
Lee Know:
she's got a bruised rib, broken ankle, don't know how we're going to let her down gently about if she can join the next performance or not
Jeongin:
I hope she can :(
Chan:
she spoke to Hyunjin and that made her feel better
Hyunjin:
what can I say? I'm a natural healer
Felix:
we miss you jinnie
Hyunjin:
I miss you guys too
but it's not long now, that makes me feel better
Y/N:
you know what is long?
Han:
which one of you let Y/N have her phone?
Y/N:
my d-dkfkfkfmfkfdkdkrkrkttt
Lee Know:
Chan did, but I've got it now. this one has gone crazy...
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- [ ] What about a Dino x reader in reference to when Dino says âthey [his hyungs] take away his hope? The hyungs somehow managed to convince Dino that reader broke up with him as a prank. Maybe by removing every trace of her in his room and when he tries to contact her it wonât go through? But have it end on a happy ending, maybe where reader comes back to the dorm to find Dino crying like a baby and reassures him this is a prank
oops, all love! - lee chan
warnings: none! just the boys pranking our baby dino!
pairings: lee chan x reader
genre: not so silly pranks
wc: 1.2k
a/n: thank you for this req! I genuinely enjoyed writing this, such an interesting idea, I didn't think of it haha, hope you enjoyed it! đĽ°
check out my masterlist! // chan's m.list
âchan-ah, what did you do this time?â jeonghan's faux worried voice rang in chan's ears from behind. vernon side eyes jeonghan because even he thinks this is, in his words, âgoing too far, you know how obsessed chan is with her, he's going to freak out.â jeonghan can only secretly smirk behind chan's back as he tries to stifle his bubbling laugh, he can only imagine chanâs face right now.
âhyungâŚI didn't do anythingâŚwas the dinner I made last night not to her liking? did I forget to clean the house? but the house is spotless-â
âyeah, spotless like how there's not a trace of her in here.â this time, jeonghan couldn't hide his laugh, which only cause chan to whip his head around in anger.
âseriously? you're choosing to laugh now?â
vernon lightly tugs at the back of jeonghan's shirt, hoping this would somehow hint at jeonghan to reel it back and ease on the teasing. it was a prank afterall, not that chan is aware of course. jeonghan cleared his throat, trying to keep his composure calm, âhow about you try calling her? it's better to talk it out with her than to assume the worst. maybe she went on a sudden trip to her parent's or something.â
âwhere's my phone?â chan asked hurriedly in a panicked voice. he could only hope you'd pick up as soon as the phone rang. âI think you left it with soonyoung earlier. he's in the living room.â jeonghan said calmly, he watched as chan left the bedroom in hurried steps before he turned his head to vernon, laughing, âthis prank is going so much better than expected, I think we underestimated his love for her.â
âwhy is it not going through?â chan whisper-shouted as the panic started to bubble tenfold now. he tried again, dialing your number, but all he got was the same frustrating sound. the line was dead. he could feel his heart racing, anxiety coursing through his blood like ice water.
âhyung!â he called out, his eyes glassy with tears threatening to spill, his face pale yet red. âi can't get through! it's..it's not working, why is it not working?!â
unbeknownst to chan, soonyoung had changed your contact number to his own number & then proceeded to block chan, making sure none of his texts or calls went through.
joshua who was loving how this prank was unfolding way too much added, âor maybe she finally broke up with you?â he knew how hard this would hit chan, the boys has been telling chan jokingly, teasingly, lovingly, how you're way too good for him, that they cant understand why you would pick him out of all people.
âshut up!â chan shot back, panic turning into frustration. he could feel his heart drop. âyou guys canât seriously be doing this! not to me! why would you even say that!â
âyouâll never know unless you ask her,â jeonghan replied, still teasing, somehow trying to rile him up even more.
âhow am i supposed to do that if i canât even call her?!â chan threw his phone onto the couch, his emotions bubbling to the surface, the tears finally freefalling.
âcalm down,â vernon chimed in. âjust wait for her to come home. maybe she went out or something.â what a party-pooper joshua thought.
but as the minutes passed, chanâs anxiety only grew. he couldnât shake the feeling that something was wrong.
finally, 45 minutes into the ordeal, the door swung open, and you stepped into the apartment, your arms full of grocery bags. but the sight that greeted you stopped you in your tracks: chan was sitting on the floor, surrounded by his hyungs, who were pretending to comfort him, but their faces betrayed their amusement which only added to your confusion.
âchan?â you called out, dropping the grocery bags as you rushed towards him.
he looked up, his eyes red and puffy from crying, his face etched with despair. âoh godâŚ.i thought you left me! i thought⌠i thoughtâŚ.!â he sputtered, tears streaming down his cheeks.
âwhatâs going on?â you demanded, your heart racing as you glanced at the boys, who were trying their hardest to stifle their laughter.
âplease dont leave me..just tell me what i did wrong and i'll change!â chan cried, looking genuinely heartbroken. âwhatever i did wrong or said wrong, if i hurt youâŚ.i didnât mean it! please donât leave me! iâll do better! i promise!â
your heart sank at the sight of him so broken, confusion flooding your mind. âwhat are you talking about? i just got home! i didnât break up with you!â
the boys exchanged glances, their grins barely concealed as they continued to pretend to console chan.
âchan, please donât cry! itâs okay!â seungkwan chimed in, putting a hand on his shoulder, but it only made chan wail louder, he seemingly did not hear your words as he continued, âiâm begging you! donât leave me!â he cried, his voice cracking as he fell to his knees, hands clutching both your ankles as he desperately looks up at you. âiâm so sorry! iâll fix everything! just give me another chance!â
âchan, what are you talking about?!â you repeated, kneeling down to face him, your heart breaking at his display of emotion. your hands come up to cup his face tenderly as your thumbs work to wipe his tears away. his blur vision turning clearer.
just then, soonyoung could no longer hold back his laughter and burst out, âweâre just messing with you! she didnât break up with you!â
the room erupted into laughter as chan suddenly halts his crying as he muttered âwait⌠what?â he looks at you bewildered, but you were already looking at the boys and then back at chan, who was still on his knees, now wearing a confused and shock expression, though the relief on his face was clear.
âwe thought it would be funny to see how far youâd freak out!â jeonghan added, unable to contain his amusement, âwe really did underestimate your love for her.â
chan blinked at you, then at the boys, his face a mixture of confusion and disbelief. âso⌠this was all a prank?â he said slowly, still trying to process what just happened as he hands still stayed wrapped around your ankles firmly.
you couldnât help but laugh even though your heart swelled at how much chan cared for having you in his life, finally seeing the humor in the situation. âchan-ah, iâm not going anywhere. stop crying, hm?â you said, your lips find his forehead as you continued wiping his tears away. seeing his crying slowly coming to an end, you leaned in and pressed a soft kiss to his lips, chan finally let out a shaky laugh, relief flooding his features. âyou guys are the worst, truly taking my hope away from meâŚâ he muttered, shaking his head as he pulled you into a tight embrace.
âmaybe next time, donât take it so seriously,â vernon teased, and you rolled your eyes at the boys, knowing this wouldnât be the last of their antics.
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Ęིᾠâ MY ALCOHOL DIARY ࣪ ! Ë ŕą¨ŕ§ ŕŁŞË âââ now playingâŚ
[ENG SUB] Lunaâs Drunken Truths?đ A New Side Youâve Never Seen Before â¨đť [Nothing Much Prepared]
synopsis: Luna is here! Luna joins Youngji for some laughs, deep talks, and a few fun surprises on this episode of My Alcohol Diary.
Ⱐ๨ৠLUNA-VERSE MASTERLIST Ⱐ๨ৠmore interviews
bold dialogues are spoken in english áŚ
Lee Youngji, in her typical lively fashion, was seen darting around her cozy apartment, her slippers barely keeping up with her hurried steps. The camera followed her movements closely as she rushed from one corner of the room to the other, adjusting chairs, straightening the table, and arranging food and drinks with a touch of anxious energy.
Plates of snacks, ranging from fried chicken to Korean side dishes, lined the table, all meticulously laid out. Bottles of soju, beer, and soda stood ready in perfect rowsâ except today, there was something a little extra on display.
Youngji glanced back at the neatly arranged bottles of red and white wine with a look that was half-pride, half-nervousness. âYa, seriously, look at me. Expensive wine! Since when do I buy expensive wine?â She muttered to herself with a dramatic flair as her small crew, seated off at the front, watched her, biting back smiles.
âShe looks like someone who drinks the good stuff, okay? Sheâs got that vibe. Like⌠luxury.â Her hand fluttered nervously over the bottles again, repositioning them for the third time.
One of the writers snickered, causing Youngji to spin around, her face an exaggerated mix of panic and excitement. âIâm not kidding! You all donât understand. Sheâs⌠sheâs intimidating! She hasnât even arrived yet, and Iâm already shaking. Hoshi warned me! He was here a few months ago, and I messaged him and asked him about her. You know what he said?â She paused dramatically, eyes wide, as though she were telling a ghost story.
The crew leaned in, intrigued by the suspense she was building.
âHe told me,â she whispered, eyes darting to the camera as if someone might overhear her secret, âthat she doesnât drink beer because she doesnât like the taste.â
This revelation was met with a burst of laughter from her crew. Youngji threw her hands up, pacing in front of the table. âCan you imagine?! I only had beer! What am I going to do? Should I just⌠drink by myself?â She exaggeratedly reached for one of the wine bottles and opened it, pouring herself a glass of white. She sipped, her brows furrowing slightly as she tasted the drink. "That's why I got this."
âI bought the expensive kind,â she said, swirling the glass. âYou know why? Because she gives off that expensive vibe. Like⌠a black credit card kind of energy.â She raised her eyebrows as if to say, You know what I mean, before taking another sip.
âAh, this is why I dressed up today! Look at me.â She gestured to her outfitâ an unusually stylish ensemble compared to her usual casual attire. âI had to. I want her to like me! I mean, I usually just wear whatever I find first in my closet, but today? No way. I had to step it up.â
The staff erupted in laughter again, knowing full well that Youngji was half-joking but also genuinely nervous. She glanced at the camera again, then sighed dramatically, collapsing onto the couch, wine glass in hand. âIâm doomed. What if she doesnât laugh at my jokes? What if she just stares at me with those intimidating eyes, and I crumble?â She covered her face with her hands for a moment, peeking out from between her fingers before groaning and sitting up.
âI swear, if she doesnât like me, Iâll blame you guys,â she said, pointing accusingly at the staff. âYouâre supposed to make me look good, and here I am looking like a nervous wreck.â She waved her arms dramatically, showcasing the haphazardly arranged table and the slightly cluttered apartment.
Her crew laughed again, and Youngji couldnât help but laugh along with them. âOkay, okay, enough with the nerves. Iâve got this. Right?â She gave the camera a confident look, only to immediately second-guess herself. âNo? You donât think Iâve got this? Well, weâll see.â
âNo, I can do this,â she said, trying to hype herself up. âI just need to relax, right? Right. I mean, Iâm Lee Youngji, damn it. I can make anyone laugh.â
The camera cut to a shot of her crew trying not to laugh too loudly as Youngji stared dramatically at her glass, muttering to herself once more, âYeah⌠even LunaâŚâ
With one last glance at the table, Youngji nodded to herself and turned back to the camera, her smile wide and her energy high.
âAlright, guys. Stay tuned. Because today⌠a princess is coming.â
Youngji, still buzzing with nervous energy, paced back and forth across the small living room as she adjusted the two large boxes of pizza on the table. She glanced at the red and white wine bottles once more, nodding to herself. "Okay, so we've got options," she muttered under her breath, pushing her hair back as she opened a drawer beneath the table.
With a swift motion, she pulled out a bottle of soju andâ after a bit of rummagingâ a bottle of gin.
"Just in case," she told herself as she placed them both down. She then turned to her crew, who had been quietly laughing at her antics from the sidelines. âI mean, what if sheâs like, âOh, I don't want to drink wine today,â and then I look like a bad host? Canât have that. So, variety!" She tapped the gin bottle with a grin. "This oneâs a wildcard. Iâve never even had gin before.â
One of the writers laughed. âAre you gonna try it before she gets here?â
Youngji widened her eyes. "I mean⌠yeah, why not? Letâs see what weâre working with." She grabbed the gin bottle, twisting the cap open. The strong, herbal smell hit her instantly, making her reel back with an exaggerated grimace. âWoah! Okay! Wow, it smells like⌠it smells like it's gonna end me. This stuff smells dangerous.â
Her crew chuckled, egging her on as she poured a shot. With a deep breath, she threw back the shot, and her entire face contorted in an instant. She physically recoiled, her shoulders pulling in tight as she squeezed her eyes shut, barely suppressing a full-body shiver.
"Yeah, nope. Thatâs definitely strong," she gasped, blinking rapidly as she set the shot glass down on the table with more force than intended. âSheâs definitely not going to like this. I mean, if she doesnât like the taste of beer, this is gonna be a hard no.â
Just as she continued joking with the director about their drink options, the doorbell suddenly rang, cutting through the chatter.
Everyone froze.
There was a collective intake of breath from the crew as they turned toward the door, eyes wide.
Youngjiâs eyes darted around the room before landing on the intercom on the wall. "Oh my god, sheâs here! Guys, she's here!" she whispered, her hands flailing. In her excitement, she tripped over her own feet, catching herself on the back of the chair with a laugh. "Why am I like this?!"
Still panicking, she scrambled to the intercom, pressing the button to reveal a small screen showing a grainy video of Luna standing outside, waiting patiently at the door.
The camera zoomed in on Lunaâs soft, bright features framed by her stylishly casual pink top, which showed off a glimpse of her effortless, chic vibe.
âWho is it?â Youngji asked, her voice playful, but she couldnât hide the excitement.
âItâs Luna,â came the soft, melodic response from the other side, followed by a smile from the girl on screen. Lunaâs face lit up with warmth as her voice echoed through the small apartment.
âOh my god!â Youngji squealed before she dramatically slid down the wall in slow motion, as though the weight of meeting Luna in person had become too much to bear. Her crew burst into laughter, the room filling with their amusement as Youngji sat crumpled on the floor. âWhy is she so pretty?! Itâs not fair!â she wailed, covering her face with both hands.
Suddenly, as if struck by a lightning bolt of energy, Youngji shot to her feet and sprinted toward another room. âI need to put on perfume!â she yelled, disappearing into the hallway, her crew doubling over with laughter.
After a moment, Youngji reappeared, the perfume forgotten, trying to catch her breath. She took a deep breath, trying to center herself, and began to hum the chorus of âHOTâ by SEVENTEEN as if to hype herself up. âAlright, letâs go!â she muttered, pacing back and forth again. âIâm fine⌠I can do thisâŚâ
She grabbed the gin bottle one more time, pouring another shot, and before she could second-guess herself, she downed it with a wince. âNope. Still gross,â she whispered to no one in particular, her face scrunched up as she cringed once more. Shaking off the burn, she rushed toward the door.
âWho is it?â she asked again, a grin pulling at the corners of her mouth.
There was a soft laugh from the other side. âItâs Luna. Itâs me.â
Youngji, dramatic as ever, slid down the door this time, her body slowly crumpling to the floor in a display of exaggerated defeat as her crew lost it, their laughter echoing throughout the room.
After a moment, she finally gathered herself, stood up with a playful determination, and opened the door. "Hello!"
There, in the doorway, stood Luna, her radiant smile soft and welcoming. She was dressed in a pastel pink top, casually draped over a cropped white tube top, paired with light-washed jeans that hugged her figure effortlessly. Her hair fell in gentle waves, her expression relaxed yet excited as if sheâd just stepped out of a fashion shoot without trying too hard.
Youngji blinked, her jaw dropping slightly as she took in the sight before her. âOh, wow,â she whispered, not quite realizing sheâd said it out loud.
As Youngji opened the door, her eyes quickly darted to the box Luna was holding, wrapped in simple, elegant paper with a delicate ribbon tied around it. Without a second thought, she reached out and gently fussed over the box.
âOh, no, no, noâ give that to me. You shouldn't be holding that!â Youngji exclaimed, reaching for the box, her tone full of concern. She took it from Lunaâs hands, cradling it carefully, as if it were something fragile.
Luna chuckled softly, bowing slightly to the crew and waving at the camera with a warm, easy smile. "Hello, everyone!" she greeted, her voice lilting and sweet as she gave the camera a quick wave. She looked genuinely pleased to be there, her smile growing wider as the crew responded with a collective greeting.
While Luna faced the camera, Youngji couldn't help but admire her from the back. The way Luna carried herself was effortless yet gracefulâ her top hanging perfectly over her shoulders, the soft, pink fabric catching the light. Youngji's eyes traced the loose waves of Lunaâs hair and how they cascaded down her back.
She sighed under her breath. "How is she this pretty, though?"
After Luna finished greeting the crew, she turned her attention back to Youngji, her smile never faltering. âYoungji, itâs so good to finally see you in person,â she exclaimed.
Youngji, caught off guard by her own admiring thoughts, blinked and smiled back. âI know, right? It feels like weâve been trying to schedule this for forever! Come in, sit, sit!â she urged, motioning to the table. She gently placed the box she had taken from Luna on the table as Luna took a seat across from her.
Youngjiâs curiosity piqued, she glanced at the box again and asked, "So, what's in here? Is it for me?" Her eyes sparkled with genuine excitement.
Luna nodded, her lips curling into a small smile. âYes, itâs a gift. I wanted to bring something special since Iâve known Iâd be coming on your show for a while now.â
With wide eyes, Youngji carefully opened the box, peeling back the ribbon and lifting the lid with anticipation. Inside, nestled carefully in soft tissue paper, was a stunningly beautiful set of plates, cups, spoons, and forksâ each piece looked intricately designed, with delicate patterns running along the edges. The set had an unmistakable elegance, the kind that screamed of fine craftsmanship. The plates and cups shimmered subtly under the lights, the porcelain pristine and polished, accented by gold and silver trimming.
Youngji gasped loudly, her mouth falling open as she froze for a moment, simply staring. âNo way!â she finally breathed out. âThis isâ this is beautiful!â She turned the box towards her crew, showing them the set, and instantly, the room erupted into murmurs of amazement.
One of the staff members leaned in to get a closer look, and their director let out a low whistle. "Wow, that looks expensive," one of them commented.
âIt is!â Youngji exclaimed, her eyes still wide. âLuna, why would you give me something this pretty? I donât deserve this!â She looked up at Luna, completely stunned.
Luna laughed softly, shaking her head. âI was in Paris for a schedule a few weeks ago, and I thought of you. I know you like hosting and cooking on your show, so I figured you might appreciate something like this. Plus, I love pretty cutlery and tableware myself,â she added with a grin, âso I thought you might enjoy it too.â
Youngji blinked, processing Lunaâs words as she gently ran her fingers over the smooth surface of one of the plates. âWait, so youâve been planning this? You thought of me while you were in Paris?â She sounded both flattered and bewildered, her voice growing a little softer as she spoke.
Luna nodded earnestly. âYes. I wanted to get you something meaningful, and I knew Iâd be coming here, so I wanted it to be special.â
Suddenly, Youngji stood up from her chair, bowing deeply on the ground in a dramatic fashion. "Thank you so much. I feel so honored! I donât think Iâve ever received something this thoughtful in my life!â She remained bent at the waist, her voice filled with gratitude.
Lunaâs laughter filled the room, the sound light and full of warmth. âYoungji, you donât have to bow like that!â she said between giggles, waving her hands. âItâs just a gift. Iâm happy you like it.â
As Youngji straightened up, she grinned from ear to ear. âLike it? I love it! Iâm never going to let anyone else touch theseâ ever. Theyâre going into a glass case!â She cradled the box as if it were a precious relic.
The room was filled with laughter as the two women continued to gush over the gift.
Youngji leaned back in her chair, her eyes glinting with playful curiosity. âOkay, okay, letâs start this thing right,â she said, clasping her hands together dramatically. âSo, I heard from HoshiâŚâ she paused for effect, glancing at Luna as if to prepare her for the big reveal, ââŚthat you donât drink beer?â
Luna laughed, a little sheepish as she nodded. âYeah, beerâs really not my thing. I donât like the taste.â
With an exaggerated nod, Youngji clapped her hands together. âI knew it! Thatâs why,â she gestured toward the small bar set up next to them, âI prepared an assortment of drinks for you. I thought, you know, options! Since youâre not a beer girl.â She stood up, making a grand gesture as she presented the collection of spirits and mixers she had lined up.
Luna raised her eyebrows in surprise, genuinely impressed. âWow, this is⌠a lot. You didnât have to do all that.â
âI know, but you deserve it,â Youngji said with a wink. âSo, letâs see what weâve got here. Thereâs soju, white wine, red wine, even some gin.â She paused, her expression suddenly serious as she pointed at one of the bottles. âI tried the gin earlier, and, to be honest, Iâm not sure youâre gonna like it.â
Luna, instead of shying away as Youngji had expected, tilted her head and smiled. âI think Iâll try the gin, actually.â
The room fell into a brief silence.
âWait, really?â Youngji blinked in disbelief, holding the bottle like it might bite. âYouâre sure? Ginâs pretty strong, you knowâŚâ
Luna nodded confidently, her calm demeanor unwavering. âYeah, Iâm sure. Itâs fine.â
Youngji eyed her suspiciously, but with a shrug, she began to pour two shots into small glasses. âOkay, okay,â she muttered, âbut donât say I didnât warn you.â
As the gin splashed into the glasses, Luna leaned back casually in her chair. âThe only alcohol I donât drink is beer,â she deadpanned, her voice so even and serious that it took a second for the joke to register. âAnd rubbing alcohol,â she added after a beat.
The room burst into laughter, including Youngji, who was nearly doubling over as she placed the gin bottle back on the table. âOh my God, Luna, please!â she cackled, her voice high-pitched with mock of amusement. âYouâre a comedian!â
Luna grinned, taking the glass from Youngjiâs hand and raising it. âCheers?â
Youngji straightened up and mirrored her, though her expression was still one of doubt. âCheers!â They clinked their glasses together before tilting their heads back and downing the shots.
What shocked everyone in the room wasnât Youngji, who immediately cringed and shuddered as if she had just been electrocutedâ her whole body recoiling from the harsh bite of the gin.
It was Luna, who didnât even flinch. She set her glass back down on the table without as much as a twitch, her face a picture of calm serenity, as if she had just taken a sip of water rather than a strong gin.
Youngji, still recovering, blinked at her in awe. âWhat theââ she stammered, her voice almost a whisper. âYou didnât even move!â
The crew let out murmurs of admiration, their eyes wide as they continued to marvel at Lunaâs steely composure.
Luna laughed softly, raising her shoulders in a playful shrug. âWhat can I say? Iâm just built differently.â
Youngji stared at her for a moment longer, completely shocked, before shaking her head in disbelief. âYouâre scary, Luna,â she finally declared, making the crew chuckle. âLike, seriously.â
Lunaâs laughter filled the room again, light and warm. âOh, come on, Iâm not scary!â
Youngji raised her hands, gesturing dramatically toward Lunaâs cool composure. âThis is exactly what I mean! Who takes gin like that? Scary.â
Luna shook her head, still smiling. âYouâre too much.â
Wiping away an imaginary tear, Youngji straightened up in her chair and cleared her throat. âAlright, alright,â she began, transitioning the conversation with a more serious tone, âI just have to get this out of the wayâ because itâs been on my mind for a while.â
Luna raised an eyebrow, curious but smiling. âOh? What is it?â
Youngji leaned forward, eyes narrowing playfully. âYou⌠intimidate me,â she confessed with a laugh, though there was a slight hint of truth in her tone. âLike, seriously. I donât know why, but I was so nervous before meeting you!â
Lunaâs lips curled into a knowing smirk, her eyebrow lifting in amusement. âYouâre not the first to say that,â she replied, her voice light and almost teasing. âI get that a lot, actually.â
Youngjiâs eyes widened slightly as she sat back, looking genuinely surprised. âReally?â
Luna nodded, her expression softening. âYeah. Ever since I was younger, people would always tell me I gave off that vibe,â she explained with a shrug. âEven during my trainee years, people thought I was kind of⌠scary, I guess.â
Youngji tilted her head, clearly intrigued. âBut, like, youâre so chill. Did that ever bother you? People thinking youâre intimidating?â
For a moment, Luna hesitated, her gaze dropping to the table as she considered the question. Then, she shook her head. âIt used to when I was younger. It kind of got to me because I thought, âWhy do people think that about me? Iâm not like that at all.ââ She paused, her voice soft but steady. âBut I realized, you know, people are gonna believe what they want to believe. And usually, once they get to know me, that impression changes.â
Youngji nodded thoughtfully, absorbing Lunaâs words. âSo it doesnât offend you anymore?â
Luna shook her head again, more firmly this time. âNo, not really. I mean, itâs a part of life, right? First impressions arenât always accurate.â She chuckled softly before glancing toward the cameras where the director and staff were sitting, her eyes twinkling with humor. âIâm not a scary person, I promise,â she called out to them, making everyone laugh. âMy face just looks like this! Itâs my resting face.â
Youngji burst out laughing, nodding in agreement. âSee, this is why youâre dangerous! The duality!â
Luna couldnât help but join in, her laughter filling the room as Youngji playfully fanned herself, pretending to recover from the âshockâ of Lunaâs words.
Youngji clinked her glass lightly against Luna's before refilling both their glasses with gin, the clear liquid sloshing in the light. She squinted at Luna mischievously, a playful grin pulling at the corner of her lips.
âAlright, Luna-ssi,â she said, leaning forward a little, eyebrows raised in faux suspicion, âI wanna hear some things about your drinking habits. Whatâs the deal? You donât like drinking beer, but... for some reason like gin. Whatâs your alcohol tolerance, hm?â Her words came out with that infectious energy she was known for, her curiosity a mix of casual but always playful.
Luna, who had been comfortably sitting, looked amused at the question. She let out a light laugh, glancing down at the gin-filled glass in front of her. âWell,â she began, her voice thoughtful, âI donât really like drinking that much. I guess you could say Iâm more of a social drinker. I mean... I drink when itâs for occasions like thisââ she gestured around to Youngji and the cameras. ââbut I donât usually go out of my way for it.â
Youngji leaned in closer, her eyes wide with exaggerated disbelief. âOh come on, you have to give me more than that! What about your tolerance? You seem like you could hold your own.â
Luna chuckled, shaking her head. âActually, I do have a pretty high alcohol tolerance.â She paused, taking the glass and swirling the gin around as if she were contemplating it deeply. âBut... Iâm going to be honest, I think this gin is going to end me tonight.â
That comment got a chorus of laughter from the crew, and Youngji burst into giggles, almost spilling her own drink in the process. âThatâs what I thought!â Youngji exclaimed, slapping her knee. âGin is no joke! Itâs like... itâs like a slap in the face.â
Luna grinned, raising the glass to her lips but pausing to add, âBut donât get me wrongâ Iâm not saying I canât handle it. Itâs just... you know⌠Itâs strong.â
Youngji dramatically recoiled back into her chair, waving her hands. âNo, no. Youâre too calm about this. If youâve got a high tolerance, Iâm scared for my own life now.â Her voice dropped in mock fear, and she glanced towards the crew with an exaggerated wide-eyed expression.
Luna deadpanned, looking Youngji squarely in the eye. âYoungji-ah... youâre not normal.â
Youngji cackled so hard she nearly fell out of her chair, grabbing the edge of the table for support as she doubled over in laughter. Her laughter was infectious, and soon, everyone in the room was laughing along with her, the absurdity of the situation settling over them like a warm blanket.
Still recovering, Youngji wiped a tear from her eye, shaking her head. âIââ she began, gasping for breath. âIâm sorry! Iâm sorry!â She held her hands up in surrender but was still chuckling. âIâll tone it down.â
Luna just shook her head, smiling warmly. âDonât worry about it,â she replied smoothly, her calm demeanor only adding to the comedic contrast of the situation. âIâm used to it. Besides, I work with thirteen guys. Crazy is... pretty much my normal.â
That comment earned another round of laughter from the crew, and even Youngji was back to cackling, clapping her hands. âTouchĂŠ! Oh my God, youâve definitely been through it.â
Luna gave a knowing nod, a twinkle of amusement in her eyes. âYou have no idea.â
As the laughter died down, Youngji straightened herself in her chair, taking her glass of gin again. âAlright, alright,â she said, breathing deeply as if preparing for battle. âHere we go, another shot of ginâ because Iâm trying to be brave in front of Luna.â
Luna gave her a mock-serious nod like she was some kind of alcohol sensei. âGood luck,â she said solemnly, lifting her own glass. They clinked glasses once more and threw back their drinks, Youngji immediately cringing as the gin hit her throat.
âAghhh!â Youngji exclaimed, shaking her head violently as the strong alcohol sent a wave of heat through her chest. âIâm... alive... but barely.â
Luna, on the other hand, took her shot like a pro, setting the glass down with a cool, calm expression. âNot bad,â she said casually.
Youngji stared at her, completely dumbfounded. âHow are you so calm?! Do you not have taste buds or something? That was like drinking fire!â
Luna chuckled, but her expression remained almost too composed. âYou just need practice,â she said, her voice light and teasing. The crew burst into laughter once again at her nonchalant attitude, while Youngji just pointed at Luna in mock accusation.
âYou are terrifying. Absolutely terrifying,â Youngji declared, pretending to back away from her guest as if she were dangerous.
Luna finally let out a real laugh, shaking her head. âI promise, Iâm not that scary,â she reassured her, though the grin on her face said otherwise.
âWell, Luna,â Youngji sighed, leaning back in her chair dramatically. âI think Iâve learned something todayâ never challenge Luna to a drinking contest.â She pointed at the camera as if issuing a public service announcement. âDonât do it. You will lose.â
The two shared another laugh, the playful energy between them making the room feel alive.
Youngji leaned back in her chair, eyes sparkling with the mischievous curiosity that made her such a great host. âSoâŚâ she started, a playful tone creeping into her voice as she transitioned to English, âI heard youâre from London.â
Luna raised her eyebrows and let out a small chuckle. âOh, you heard?â she teased. She knew this topic would come up eventuallyâ it always did.
âYeah!â Youngji exclaimed, practically bouncing in her seat as she grabbed her glass for another sip. âIâve been dying to ask you about that. So, you grew up in Kensington, right?â
Luna smiled warmly, nodding. âYeah, I was born and raised there.â
Youngjiâs eyes widened as if she had just been handed some earth-shattering news. âKensington! That sounds so fancy! Isnât that where all the rich people live?â Her tone was exaggerated, causing Luna to burst out laughing.
âItâs not that fancy,â Luna tried to downplay it, still giggling. âBut yeah, itâs a nice area.â
Youngji leaned in dramatically, narrowing her eyes. âSo, do you have that proper British accent? Like the ones in movies? Can you say something likeââ she thought for a second, then added in the most over-the-top British accent she could manage, âWould you like a cup of tea, madam?â
Luna doubled over laughing, holding up her hand. âNo, no, noâ oh my God, that accent!â she exclaimed, barely able to get the words out. âThatâs like⌠a parody of what people think British people sound like!â
Youngji grinned, not backing down. âOh, come on! You gotta give me something! Is your accent like that?â
Luna shook her head, still laughing. âMy accentâs softer now,â she explained. âIt used to be a lot deeper when I was younger. Very English. But Iâve lived abroad so long now, itâs kind of⌠faded. Plus, Iâve been in Korea for years, so itâs not as strong as it used to be.â
Youngjiâs eyes lit up with intrigue. âOoooh, so you were, like, super British when you were little?â
Luna nodded, a fond smile crossing her lips. âYeah, I was very much the stereotypical British kidâ mummy can I have some more cake,â she said in a perfect British accent, throwing her hand up in an exaggerated way that made Youngji cackle in delight. âMy mom loved to bake, so I would say that a lot.â
âThere it is!â Youngji pointed at her, laughing. âThatâs the accent I wanted to hear! You sounded like you just walked out of a Harry Potter!â
Luna rolled her eyes playfully. âI mean, itâs still there⌠when Iâm really tired, frustrated, or angry, it comes out more.â
Youngji leaned forward, eyes gleaming. âOkay, I have to hear you speak when tired then.â
Luna smirked, raising her glass. âMaybe after a few more drinks. Weâll see.â
Youngji grinned at the challenge. âIâll hold you to that!â
They both clinked their glasses, and the atmosphere between them relaxed and filled with a playful energy.
âSo, whatâs it like growing up there?â Youngji asked, refilling Lunaâs glass. âIt sounds so glamorous.â
Luna shrugged casually, swirling the gin in her glass. âI mean, it was⌠nice, but it wasnât all that different from growing up anywhere else, I guess. Except maybe the weatherâ itâs London, mostly gloomy. It rains a lot.â
Youngji scrunched her nose in mock disgust. âOh no, Iâd hate that. I need sunshine to survive.â
Luna laughed. âYeah, me too! Gloomy weather makes me feel like Iâm sick but I do miss it sometimes.â
Youngji tapped her chin, her eyes narrowing again as if something had just dawned on her. âWait, does that mean you drank tea all the time? Isnât that, like, a thing in the UK?â
Luna deadpanned, her voice dropping to a flat, mock-serious tone. âYes. Tea is basically our water.â
Youngji burst out laughing again, clutching her stomach. âI knew it! I knew it was real!â
Luna grinned, shaking her head. âNo, but seriouslyâeveryone drinks tea. Itâs a big deal.â
âDid you ever go to those fancy tea parties?â Youngji asked, still giggling.
Luna snorted. âWhat do you think, we all sit around in gowns drinking tea out of gold cups? Itâs not like that!â
Youngji threw her head back laughing. âI was imagining you in one of those big hats and everything!â
âYeah, no,â Luna chuckled. âIt was mostly just normal attire with a cup of tea.â
Youngji wiped away a tear from laughing so hard, shaking her head. âOh my God, youâre destroying all my British fantasies.â
âGood,â Luna said, raising her glass again. âSomeone needed to.â
The two of them burst into laughter once more, the conversation flowing seamlessly between playful banter and genuine curiosity. Every now and then, Lunaâs British accent would slip out, only to send Youngji into another fit of giggles as she begged her to keep talking like that.
Youngji, still giggling from their last exchange about tea parties, reached for the bottle of gin and poured them both another shot. âOkay, one more,â she said with a playful grin, raising her glass. Luna winced but smiled, nodding in agreement. They clinked their glasses together, and with a quick breath, they downed the shots.
Lunaâs face immediately scrunched up as the gin burned its way down her throat. âOh my God,â she groaned, setting her glass down as if it had personally offended her. âIâm starting to feel it.â
Youngji, equally as dramatic, smacked her lips, shaking her head in mock disbelief. âHow do people drink this for fun?!â she exclaimed, fanning her face.
Luna laughed, âI donât know⌠we are doing it right now though.â
Youngji burst out laughing again, slumping back into her chair. âGirlâ youâre right, girl!â
Still recovering from the shot, Youngji tapped her fingers on the table, curiosity creeping into her expression. âSo,â she began, âIâve always wondered⌠Why did you want to become an idol? And how was it adjusting to moving to Korea?â
Luna took a deep breath, leaning back in her chair as she smiled a little to herself. âHonestly, it shocked me as much as anyone else,â she started. âI was a ballerina back in London, you know.â
Youngjiâs eyes lit up, and she pointed at Luna with exaggerated confidence. âI know! You were!â
Luna couldnât help but chuckle at how proud Youngji sounded, but she continued her story. âYeah, so I was pretty set on becoming a professional ballet dancer. That was my world. But⌠when I was about thirteen, something weird happened.â
Youngji leaned forward, intrigued. âWeird how?â
Lunaâs eyes sparkled with the memory, her voice becoming more animated. âI was doing a ballet recital, right? Performing in front of a big crowd like I usually do. And I was always laser-focused when I performed balletâ always. But that night⌠for some reason, as I was dancing, this⌠this urge came over me.â
Youngjiâs eyebrows furrowed in confusion. âAn urge?â
âTo sing,â Luna said, almost dramatically, her eyes wide with disbelief, even as she remembered it. âIn the middle of my ballet routine, I had this sudden urge to just start singing. Like, right then and there on stage. I had never felt anything like that before.â
Youngjiâs mouth fell open in shock. âWhat?! You wanted to just burst out into song during a ballet performance?â
Luna nodded, laughing softly at the absurdity of it. âExactly. I remember thinking, âWhat is going on with me? Iâm supposed to be focused on this performance, and all I can think about is singing.â Thatâs when I knew something was shifting.â
Youngji stared at her, mouth still agape before finally pointing at Luna again. âYouâre insane,â she said, but with the utmost affection. âIn the best way, though.â
Luna grinned, shaking her head. âI guess so. Thatâs when I started thinking seriously about singing and performing on stage in a different way.â
Youngji was still processing Lunaâs unexpected revelation, but then her expression shifted, curiosity spiking again. âSo⌠how did your parents react to all of this? Were they, like, cool with you just dropping ballet?â
Luna leaned back, taking a moment to think. âWell, at first, they were pretty hesitantâ my mom especially since sheâs a retired ballerina and she trained me. Ballet had been my life for so long, and they had supported me all the way. So when I told them I wanted to move to Korea and become an idolâŚâ
Youngji gasped dramatically, leaning in with a hand to her chest. âWait, you told them that straight up?! You didnât slowly plant the idea in their head?â
âYeah,â Luna laughed. âI was dead serious. They were pretty surprised, but once they saw how committed I was, they agreed. It wasnât easy, though.â
Youngji nodded, still hanging on every word. âSo when did you move to Korea?â
âWhen I was about fourteen,â Luna replied. âI stayed with my aunt for a while before I started training.â
âFourteen?!â Youngji exclaimed. âThatâs so young! Was it hard adjusting?â
Luna nodded thoughtfully. âIt was really tough at first. Being away from home, mastering Koreanâ I knew a little Korean before moving here but it wasnât perfect, so naturally I had to study. I had to balance school and training⌠it was a lot.â
Youngjiâs expression softened. âBut you had your members, right?â
Luna smiled warmly. âYeah, Iâm really grateful for them. They helped me adjust, especially Jeonghannie oppa.â
Youngji perked up at the mention of Jeonghanâs name. âJeonghan-ssi? Really? Why?â
Luna nodded. âHe was my first real friend when I got here. He kind of looked out for me and took care of me, made sure I wasnât too homesick.â
Youngjiâs eyes softened, a rare moment of calm on her usually excitable face. âThatâs sweet.â
Luna chuckled. âYeah, heâs pretty sweet.â
Youngji, not missing a beat, clapped her hands together and leaned in again, her usual energy returning. âOkay, but waitâ did he help you learn Korean, or did he just make fun of you the whole time?â
Luna burst out laughing at the thought. âA bit of both, honestly. He definitely teased me a lot.â
âOf course he did. Teenage boys are like that.â Youngji deadpanned, shaking her head knowingly.
The two of them dissolved into laughter once again, the conversation shifting back to their usual playful banter.
Youngji, still smiling after Lunaâs sweet mention of Jeonghan, leaned forward and asked, curiosity lighting up her face. âOkay, so whatâs it like having thirteen guys around you all the time? It must be insane, unnie!â
She grabbed another piece of food from the table and popped it into her mouth, chewing thoughtfully as she waited for Lunaâs answer. Luna, mirroring Youngjiâs actions, took a bite herself, pausing for a second to gather her thoughts.
âItâs⌠honestly, itâs the best,â Luna said with a soft smile. âI feel really blessed to have them. Theyâre like⌠my family.â
Youngjiâs eyebrows shot up dramatically, and she wiped her mouth with the back of her hand. âThirteen brothers? Thatâs, like, a sitcom waiting to happen!â she exclaimed, waving her chopsticks in the air.
Luna awkwardly laughed before nodding in agreement. âYou could say that. But really, Iâm so grateful that I met them.â
Youngji pointed her chopsticks at Luna, her eyes wide with exaggerated amazement. âGirl, you better be grateful! Youâve got a whole squad.â
Luna chuckled, leaning back in her seat as she reminisced. âIâm an only child, so growing up, I was used to being on my own. I loved it in a lot of ways, but⌠it was kind of lonely sometimes.â
Youngji raised her eyebrows and nodded. âYeah, I bet. No siblings to steal your clothes or your food or fight over toys with?â
âExactly!â Luna replied, laughing. âBut it also meant I didnât have that built-in friend growing up. I didnât really have that many close friends in school either. I was⌠a little bit shy, I guess.â
Youngji gasped dramatically. âYou? Shy?â
Luna nodded, her laughter more sheepish now. âYeah, I was. I remember wishing I could have a lot of friends, people I could really trust, you know? And now⌠well, now I have thirteen best friends.â
Youngjiâs jaw dropped again as if she had just heard the most unbelievable thing in the world. âThirteen best friends⌠Thatâs so unfair,â she groaned, leaning forward and resting her chin on her hand. âIâm so jealous.â
Luna smiled softly, her eyes shining as she continued, âHonestly, I donât know what I would do without them. Sometimes I think about it, you know? In another universe, maybe I didnât audition, or maybe I didnât end up in the final lineup⌠but I still feel like, somehow, I would have found my way to them. Even if it was just as a fan.â
Youngji let out a dramatic wail, sliding off her chair onto the floor as if Lunaâs words had physically overwhelmed her. âNoooo! Why are you so sweet?â she whined, lying face-down on the ground, her hands covering her head as if she couldnât handle the emotions.
Luna burst out laughing, pointing at Youngji flopped on the floor like a starfish. âWhat are you doing?â she giggled, her laughter echoing through the room.
Youngji peeked up from the ground, her face scrunched up in mock agony. âYouâre so lucky! I want thirteen best friends too! Why donât I have that?!â
Luna, still laughing, shook her head. âWell, you can start with me. Iâll be your first best friend.â
Youngjiâs eyes widened like a child who had just been told they could have unlimited candy. âReally?!â she squealed, and then suddenly, she started wiggling on the ground, sliding up and down like a worm. âYes! Yes! Yes!â she chanted, her excitement bubbling over, making the camera crew in the room burst into laughter as well.
Luna was laughing so hard her stomach hurt, and between giggles, she pointed at Youngji. âOkay, stop! Get off the floor!â she said playfully, shaking her head in disbelief.
Youngji, still wiggling dramatically, finally let out a sigh of contentment and flopped onto her back, staring up at the ceiling. âIâm jealous, but like, in the best way,â she declared with a dramatic wave of her hand. âYouâre so lucky. Thirteen best friends⌠Iâm still gonna say itâs unfair.â
Luna chuckled, combing her fingers through her hair. âWell, now you have me, so weâre off to a good start.â
Youngji sat up with a determined look in her eyes. âIâm starting my own best friend group. Itâs gonna be epic.â
The crew continued to laugh as Youngji sat cross-legged on the floor, her hands on her hips as if she had just made the most important decision of her life.
As Youngji clambered back onto her seat, she dusted off her pants with exaggerated flair, earning a few chuckles from the crew. Settling into her chair, she reached for her drink, only for Luna to suddenly deadpan, âI must be getting tipsy⌠I donât usually pour my feelings out like this.â
Her tone was so unexpectedly dry and serious that the entire room erupted in laughter. Even Youngji slapped the table, her shoulders shaking as she tried to catch her breath.
Luna blinked innocently, bringing her hand up to check her own cheeks for warmth. âYeah, definitely getting warmâŚâ
Youngji, wiping a tear from the corner of her eye, snickered, âOh no, if youâre getting tipsy, then Iâm in serious trouble.â She leaned in closer, almost as if she was about to share a secret, âYou know what this means? Itâs time for a drinking game.â
Luna raised an eyebrow, watching curiously as Youngji turned towards the front of the set, where one of the crew members handed her something. Youngji grabbed it with a grin, bringing it back to the table like a prize she couldnât wait to show off.
From behind her back, she revealed a toy: the Pop-Up Pirate game, except instead of the usual pirate figure in the barrel, it was a tiny Hello Kitty, and the entire barrel was painted pink with adorable little hearts.
Lunaâs eyes lit up, a mixture of amusement and surprise flickering across her face. âThatâs so cute!â she exclaimed, pointing at the Hello Kitty figure. Her attention was half on the game and half on the food still on her plate, absentmindedly eating as Youngji prepared the game.
Youngji was in her element now, the gin starting to take full effect as she chaotically began explaining the rules, her words coming out in a rapid, excited slur. âOkay, okay, hereâs how it works. You stick the swords in the barrelââ she made a dramatic poking motion, ââand when Hello Kitty pops up? Boom, you gotta take a shot.â
Luna nodded slowly, processing the instructions as she chewed on her food, her cheeks puffed out like a chipmunk. Still mid-bite, she asked, âWhat does the winner get?â
There was a pause.
Everyone turned to look at her, including the crew, and they couldnât hold back their laughter at how adorable she looked, her face stuffed with food, eyes wide with curiosity. âSheâs so cute,â one of the staff whispered to another, and Youngji pointed at Luna, grinning like sheâd found her new favorite thing.
âBragging rights, obviously!â Youngji declared triumphantly, waving her hand as if that was the ultimate prize.
Luna simply nodded, her cheeks still full as she swallowed her bite. âGot it,â she said, her voice muffled but satisfied.
Youngji, still laughing under her breath, scooted some glasses out of the way, creating space in the middle of the table. With an overly dramatic flourish, she placed the pink barrel in the center, the little Hello Kitty bobbing slightly in its spot.
Youngji, with her trademark tipsy grin, raised her arms in the air like she was signaling a race. âAlright, letâs start!â she slurred excitedly.
Luna, still chewing quietly, gave a little âOkâ hand sign, her cheeks slightly puffed out with food, causing more chuckles from the crew.
Youngji wobbled a little in her chair before turning her attention to Luna, who was still chewing. âSince youâre the guestâŚâ Youngji waved her hand dramatically toward the Hello Kitty barrel. âYou go first!â
Luna, still in her quiet, focused state, swallowed her last bite and calmly reached over to the tiny pink sword resting on the table. She picked it up, inspecting it for a second before leaning in toward the barrel. She found an empty slot and gingerly inserted the sword into the opening.
The crew watched closely, but Hello Kitty remained safely inside.
âAhhh, close one,â Youngji teased, her voice slurred as she pointed at Luna. âSee? Beginnerâs luck⌠but donât worry, it wonât last.â
Luna simply smiled, staying quiet as she reached for another bite of food. It was now Youngjiâs turn, and she stood up, suddenly all fired up. âAlright, alright. Watch this!â she boasted, picking up her mini sword with exaggerated importance. âIâm, like, really good at this game. Havenât lost once.â
The crew exchanged knowing glances, stifling their laughter, but Youngji didnât notice. She rambled on, standing over the pink barrel. âSee, the key is toââ But before she could finish her sentence, she slid her sword into the slot, and with a loud pop, Hello Kitty flew out of the barrel.
The entire crew burst into laughter, clapping and pointing at Youngjiâs misfortune as she stood there frozen in shock, mouth open in disbelief.
Luna, meanwhile, glanced up at Youngji with her big doe eyes, still chewing quietly, almost like she was mentally asking, What was that?
The silence was broken when the crew started chanting, âShot! Shot! Shot!â Luna bopped her head lightly to the chant, finding the whole situation far too amusing.
Youngji snapped back to reality, letting out a playful groan as she reached for the bottle to pour herself a shot. âAlright, alright, I get it. I lost,â she mockingly declared, waving off the crowd with fake defeat as she poured the drink. âIâll drink, Iâll drinkâŚâ
Luna, having swallowed her bite by now, deadpanned, âWah, Youngji, you really have bad luck.â
The crew erupted into even louder laughter, and Youngji scoffed, shaking her head as if she couldnât believe the shade being thrown at her. âYah! Itâs not that! I told you, youâre just too lucky!â
Luna, with her perfect comedic timing, tilted her head slightly and responded, âIt could be both.â
Youngji had barely raised the shot glass to her lips when Lunaâs words hit, causing her to almost spit out her drink as she laughed. The sight of Youngji trying to keep it together only made the crew laugh harder.
Luna chuckled at the chaos sheâd just created, clearly entertained by how easily her words had thrown Youngji off balance.
Youngji, still giggling from her last defeat, slapped her hands on the table and leaned toward Luna, her words slightly slurring. âAlright, round two. Weâre doing another one!â She pointed dramatically at the barrel, her drunken determination shining through.
Luna smirked and nodded calmly, her coolness an amusing contrast to Youngjiâs energetic chaos. âSure,â she said, her voice even. âLetâs do it.â
They reset the barrel, and Youngji, with exaggerated concentration, handed Luna another pink sword. âYou first,â she slurred, pretending to be gracious.
Luna inserted her sword into the barrel with ease, Hello Kitty remained still.
Youngji shot her a suspicious look, leaning in toward the toy. âThis time for sure,â she muttered under her breath as she selected her own sword. She raised it above her head like it was a lightsaber. âWatch and learn,â she bragged, but her hand wobbled as she inserted the swordâ nothing happened.
Luna, still calm, chose her next sword without much fuss, slipping it in.
Again, nothing.
Youngji was clearly trying to psyche herself up. âYou know,â she said, slurring slightly, âI have a theory. I think this Hello Kitty likes me. Thatâs why sheâs staying in, she doesnât want to leave me.â She poked at the toyâs head playfully.
Luna bit back a smile. âMaybe youâre too nice. You should try being more firm with her.â
Youngji shook her head, picking up another sword. âOh, no, no, no. Itâs all about finesse.â She placed her sword into the barrel, her fingers barely grazing the surface as she bragged, âSee, Iââ But her sentence was cut off by the sudden pop of the toy, and Hello Kitty flew out, shocking them both.
The crew erupted in laughter again as Youngji froze in disbelief, her hands raised in surrender. âNoooo!â she cried, her voice dramatically slurred as she pointed accusingly at the barrel. âI swear this game is rigged.â
Luna calmly looked at her, then tilted her head slightly, a mischievous glint in her eyes. âI donât think Hello Kitty likes you that much,â she deadpanned.
The crew lost it, laughing even harder at Lunaâs cool and dry delivery. Youngjiâs jaw dropped, her hands flailing toward Luna as she exclaimed, âYouâ Luna⌠youâre too much.â She poured herself a shot as the crew continued to chant, âShot! Shot! Shot!â
Luna sat back, watching the scene unfold, her smile subtle but growing as Youngji dramatically poured her drink. âYouâre too lucky!â Youngji whined, shooting Luna a side-eye.
Luna leaned in slightly. âOr maybe,â she quipped, âyouâre just that unlucky.â
Youngji snorted and almost choked on her drink. âItâs both,â she said between coughs, while Luna chuckled under her breath, clearly entertained.
Youngji, wiping her eyes from the laughter, looked at Luna with a sly grin. âAlright, alright, you won fair and square, but now⌠since youâre on a winning streak, you have to do something special for the viewers.â She leaned in conspiratorially, her tone dripping with mischief. âHow about a little dance from SEVENTEENâs new comeback song, â_WORLDâ? Give the people what they want!â
Luna, mid-chuckle, raised an eyebrow in amusement, âYou want me to dance now? Here?â
âYes!â Youngji pointed at her dramatically, her words slurred with excitement. âYou gotta show off for the audience. Itâs what the fans want! Plus, youâre on a roll.â
Luna rolled her eyes playfully, âYou just want to see me dance.â
Youngji waved her hands dismissively. âNoooo!â Then, leaning in, she added with a wink, âOkay, maybe a little. But you always look amazing, I swear!â
With a small laugh, Luna reached for her phone, scrolling quickly to find the song, and joked. âFine, fine, but donât blame me if this goes viral.â
As Luna pulled up the track, Youngji suddenly snatched an empty glass cup from the table. âWait, wait, wait! Put your phone in here!â she exclaimed, slurring the words as she held the cup out.
Lunaâs laughter bubbled up as she realized what Youngji was suggesting. âYou want to make a makeshift speaker?â
âExactly!â Youngji nodded vigorously. âTrust me, itâll make it sound soooo much better.â
Giggling, Luna placed her phone in the glass, and the music immediately amplified, filling the room with the upbeat rhythm of â_WORLD.â Youngji clapped her hands with delight. âSee? Iâm a genius!â
Luna shook her head in amusement, standing up from her seat. âOkay, genius. Letâs see if I can pull this off tipsy.â
With the song blasting from the cup-turned-speaker, Luna waddled over to the small open space next to the table. Her movements were playful and exaggerated as she shuffled, her hands spread slightly for balance, eliciting laughter from Youngji and the crew.
Youngji, eyes wide and cheeks flushed from the alcohol clapped loudly. âLuna! Luna!â she cheered, her slurred voice barely keeping up with the rhythm.
As the chorus hit, Lunaâs body naturally found the beat. Though the space was small and her head was a bit light from the drinks, she danced with an effortless grace, keeping her movements lively but controlled. She twirled lightly, then shot smiles and winks toward the camera, her face lighting up with the same charisma she showed on stage during performances.
Youngji, her enthusiasm spilling over, hollered, âOh! Yesss! Thatâs it! Kill it, girl!â Her hands flailed in the air as she danced along with the song, albeit off-key and with a few mumbled words spilling out of her mouth.
The crew joined in, cheering and clapping, egging Luna on. Luna made eye contact with one of the cameras and winked, her expression flipping into full performance mode as she hit the final moves of the snippet. Her smile never wavered, and her eyes gleamed with playful confidence as if she were on stage at a massive concert rather than in a cozy room with tipsy friends.
As the chorus ended, Luna slowed her movements, bowing with a flourish as the music continued softly in the background. The room erupted into applause, Youngji leading the charge with a loud, âWoooo!â She slumped back into her seat, still clapping like an overenthusiastic fan.
âYouâre too good! Too good!â Youngji exclaimed between claps, her words slurring even more now. âI donât know how you do it. If I were you, Iâd have fallen on my face by now!â
Luna giggled, brushing a loose strand of hair behind her ear. âThank you, thank you,â she said dramatically, bowing again. âBut that was just me joking around.â
Youngji threw her hands up in mock disbelief. âJoking around?! Girl, that was perfection. Iâm so jealous right now. I have a list nowâ I need thirteen best friends and your talent.â
Luna shook her head, laughing softly as she made her way back to the table. âYou can have the best friends part, but the dancing? Thatâs all hard work.â
âHard work and a little magic,â Youngji slurred, pouring herself another drink. She raised the glass toward Luna, still basking in the afterglow of the impromptu performance.
The crew chuckled at the toast, and Luna, a bit bashful, held up her glass in return. âIâll take that,â she said with a grin. âThank you, Youngji.â
They clinked glasses, Youngji still humming the melody of â_WORLDâ under her breath, completely content as Luna sat back down, feeling a little more lighthearted and relaxed.
Youngji, still buzzing from Lunaâs impromptu performance, leaned forward with a playful grin. Her words came out slurred but full of curiosity. âOkay, okay, I gotta know,â she said, waving her hand dramatically in the air. âHow do you do those killer facial expressions? Like⌠when you perform, youâre so good at it! Do you⌠like⌠practice in front of the mirror or something?â
Luna, who was nibbling on her pizza, chuckled softly and shook her head. âItâs not something I practice on purpose, really. I think itâs a talent I didnât know I had, but it actually comes from ballet.â
âYou do facial expressions in ballet?â Youngji repeated, eyes wide in drunken fascination. âLike⌠swan stuff?â
Luna nodded, a small smile tugging at her lips. âYeah, exactly. Facial expressions are really important in ballet. You have to convey a lot of emotion with your face because thereâs no speaking. I think I just got used to emphasizing that, and when I perform with SEVENTEEN, itâs kind of second nature.â
Youngji stared at her, processing the information through her tipsy haze. âSo⌠when youâre dancing, all those expressions⌠itâs like, fun for you? Like you enjoy making those faces?â
Luna nodded. âYeah, itâs actually really fun. I think it helps relay the message of the song better. Itâs one thing to dance, but if your face tells the story too, itâs more impactful.â
Youngji nodded vigorously. âTotally. Totally. So, like⌠whatâs your favorite kind of expression? Like, do you like the cute stuff, orâŚ?â
Luna laughed, glancing at her hands for a moment before answering. âIâm actually not that good at cute expressions,â she admitted, her voice a little shy. âI prefer the sexy, more mature, and cool looks.â
Youngji gasped in mock outrage. âNot good at cute?! Are you kidding? Youâre, like, naturally cute! You literally proved that earlier when you danced!â
Luna couldnât help but laugh again, nodding her head as she humored Youngji. âThank you, I guess,â she said, her voice dripping with playful sarcasm.
âNo, seriously,â Youngji insisted, her eyes wide with sincerity. âIâm telling the truth! Youâre cute and sexyâ itâs unfair!â She slapped the table lightly, the alcohol clearly fueling her exaggerated emotions.
Luna shook her head, still chuckling. âOkay, okay, Iâll take your word for it.â
But Youngji wasnât done. With a sudden burst of energy, she clapped her hands. âShow us again! Show us those cute facial expressions while you dance. Come on, just one more time!â
Luna rolled her eyes playfully, though she was clearly enjoying the teasing. âWhat song should I play, then?â she asked, pulling out her phone and scrolling through her playlist.
Youngji thought for a moment, her face scrunched up in concentration. Then, as if a lightbulb had gone off, she shot up from her seat, clapping her hands together. âOh! âPretty Uâ! âPretty Uâ! You have to do that one!â she shouted, pointing at Luna with wild excitement.
Luna raised an eyebrow, but she couldnât suppress the smile creeping up on her lips. ââPretty Uâ? Really?â
âYes!â Youngji slurred, nearly tripping over her own enthusiasm. âItâs perfect!â
With a cool nod, Luna found the song, played it, and once again placed her phone in the glass cup. As the music started, she stood up and stretched slightly, her movements slow and exaggerated as she prepared herself. âIâm really not good at cute expressions, you know,â she murmured under her breath as she walked back to the small open space.
Youngji, already swaying to the melody, slurred in disagreement. âLies! Lies, I tell you! You perform this song so well! Youâre gonna be adorable!â
Before Luna could start, Youngji held up a hand. âWait, wait! You need a shot for more confidence!â She grabbed the bottle and poured a generous shot, handing it to Luna with a wide grin.
Luna burst out laughing, but she took the shot, downed it, and nodded at Youngji. âAlright, fine. Letâs see how this goes.â
As the bright, bubbly chorus of âPretty Uâ began to play, Luna shifted her demeanor. Her expression softened, a bright smile breaking across her face as she danced along to the chorus, the usual choreography mixed with over-the-top cute facial expressions. She batted her eyelashes toward the camera, made exaggerated heart signs, and even puffed her cheeks as she twirled lightly in the tiny space.
Youngji and her crew erupted into cheers and laughter, clapping wildly as Luna continued to dance. âYouâre so cute!â Youngji shouted, her voice cracking from the sheer enthusiasm. âYes, Luna, yes!â
As the chorus ended, Luna spun around and faced Youngji, raising an eyebrow in mock challenge. âHappy now?â
Youngji, now standing on her seat, clapping like an excited seal, nodded furiously. âBravo! Bravo!â she shouted, her hands slapping together in rapid succession. âYou nailed it, girl! I knew it!â
Luna, unable to contain her amusement, doubled over in laughter at the sight of Youngji standing on her chair, her face red with intoxicated excitement. âThis is⌠youâre too much,â Luna giggled, shaking her head as the crew continued to cheer her on.
Youngji, still clapping and bouncing slightly on her chair, repeated, âBravo!â in a slurred voice, clearly having the time of her life as Luna continued to laugh at the ridiculous scene unfolding before her.
Youngji, still high from the energy of Lunaâs previous performance, wasnât ready to let her off the hook. âOkay, okay, but now,â she slurred, eyes gleaming with excitement, âyou gotta do your smirking, flirty face. You know the one Iâm talking about!â She attempted a seductive smirk herself but ended up giggling at her own drunken attempt.
Luna was still laughing from Youngjiâs dramatic cheering, but she played along. âAm I here to perform for you?â she teased, raising an eyebrow. âShould I play âHOTâ then? I feel like thatâs the right vibe.â
Youngjiâs reaction was immediate. She threw her hands up in the air, nearly tipping over on her chair. âYes! âHOTâ! Play it! Thatâs perfect!â she slurred with an exaggerated nod, her eyes wide with excitement.
With a cool, playful grin, Luna nodded and began scrolling through her playlist again, quickly finding the song. She placed her phone back into the makeshift glass speaker, the familiar intro of their song âHOTâ filling the room.
As the beat thumped through the small space, Luna shuffled back to the tiny open area, preparing herself. She glanced at Youngji, who was practically bouncing on top of her seat with anticipation. The chorus was nearing, and Lunaâs demeanor shifted. Her playful expression turned more intense, eyes narrowing slightly as a slow, confident smirk spread across her lips.
Then, the chorus hit, and Luna moved effortlessly into the choreography of âHOTâ, her body swaying with purpose. This time, instead of the playful cuteness, she exuded pure confidence, every movement sharp and deliberate. Her eyes locked with the camera, and there it wasâ that signature smirk that had fans going wild during SEVENTEENâs performances. It was flirtatious and cool as if she knew exactly the effect she was having on anyone watching.
Youngjiâs cheers grew louder. âYes, Luna! Thatâs it! Work it! Girl crush, girl crush!â she yelled, practically shaking the chair as she stood on it, barely keeping her balance.
The crew joined in, clapping along and hyping Luna up as she danced, her expression never faltering from that seductive smirk.
Luna gave it her all, despite the limited space, the teasing expressions adding to the sultry energy of the song. Her hands moved in sync with the choreography, her movements fluid, and her eyes held that playful glint throughout the performance. It was as if she was commanding the entire room with just a look.
As the chorus came to a close, Luna slowed her movements, landing in a final pose with a flick of her hair and a wink at the camera, her smirk still intact. She let the last beat of the chorus fade out before straightening up, her cool expression breaking into a wide grin.
The room exploded in applause. Youngji, completely losing it, began clapping like a seal again, still standing on her chair, swaying dangerously. âGirl crush! Youâre my girl crush!â she screamed, her voice cracking but filled with affection. âYouâre so cool! How are you so cool? Iâm in love!â
Luna, laughing at Youngjiâs loud declaration, waved her hands in mock modesty. âAlright, alright, calm down!â she teased, unable to stop grinning at Youngjiâs over-the-top reaction.
Youngji wasnât having it though. She threw her hands up again, this time almost losing her balance. âNo, seriously! Youâre my girl crush! That was so hot!â
Luna could only laugh harder, holding her stomach as the crew joined in on the fun, clapping and cheering in agreement with Youngji. It was clear that the mood in the room was infectious, the playful energy carrying them through the rest of the night.
Luna slumped back into her seat, dramatically wiping her forehead with the back of her hand. âOkay, enough dancing,â she mock-panted, shooting Youngji a playful look. âI swear, one more move and I might black out.â
Youngji was still laughing and clapping like an overexcited fan, her voice slurring as she said, âNooo, I canât help it! I have a crush on you!â She repeated it, slurring the words, âI have a crush on Luna!â with the goofiest grin.
Luna giggled at her new friendâs antics before deadpanning, âYoungji⌠are you okay?â She raised an eyebrow, watching Youngji as she struggled to pour them another shot without spilling the soju. âYou need to stop drinking,â Luna teased but held out her glass anyway, accepting the next round.
They clinked their glasses together with a loud clank, and both of them downed the shot. Youngji, eyes now heavy but still bright with mischief, turned to her and slurred, âAre you still okay, my crush?â
Luna tilted her head and took the shot with no reaction, her face entirely calm. âIâm almost there,â she said smoothly. âTipsy, but still here.â She couldnât help but laugh afterward, leaning forward slightly, âSo, âmy crush,â huh? Is that what youâre calling me now?â
Youngji nodded furiously, her words tumbling out incoherently. âYes, yes! My crush! Youâre so cool, likeâ so cool.â Her eyes sparkled with admiration, the alcohol amplifying every bit of sincerity in her voice.
Luna chuckled, shaking her head at the adorable mess in front of her. âOkay, okay, your crush,â she played along, her tone light and teasing.
But Youngji wasnât done. She wiped at her eyes dramatically, looking as serious as she could muster under her drunken haze. âI like people with duality, you know? People who can be both cute and sexy. Do youâ do you have a celebrity crush?â She leaned in, her interest suddenly piqued.
Luna shook her head, still smiling. âNot really into real people like that. Honestly,â she answered, âmost of my crushes have been on fictional characters from movies, shows, or books.â She laughed softly, remembering her own obsessions.
Youngjiâs eyes widened, and then, as if she had just recalled something groundbreaking, she clapped her hands together loudly, nearly knocking her shot glass over. âWait! I heard you have the biggest crush on Loki from Marvel!â
Luna couldnât help but burst into laughter, clapping her hands in sync with Youngjiâs excitement. She leaned back into her seat, covering her mouth as her shoulders shook with laughter. âOh my god, yes,â she admitted through giggles. âLoki is⌠well, who doesnât have a crush on him?â
Youngji, clearly invested now, leaned forward, eyes wide with curiosity. âWait, wait, hold on,â she bombarded Luna, her words slightly slurred but enthusiastic. âWhat do you like about him? Heâs handsome, sure, but heâs the bad guy, right? Is that your type?â Her voice rose playfully, her brows wiggling mischievously as if sheâd uncovered something scandalous.
Luna chuckled, shaking her head at the accusation, her smile widening as the conversation shifted into familiar territory. âI mean I donât have a specific type. Yeah, heâs handsome, and yeah, heâs the bad guyâ kind of.â She began slowly, her voice steady but carrying more energy than it had earlier, an unmistakable sign that the alcohol was loosening her up more than she realized. âBut thatâs not why I like him.â
She straightened in her seat, her hands animated now as she started explaining, the words pouring out faster as she became more passionate about her topic. âItâs not just about him being a bad guy, you know? Itâs his personalityâ he has this⌠this charm,â she said, her eyes lighting up. âHeâs got this dry sense of humor that makes you laugh even when you donât expect it. And the way heâs confident, but not in an obnoxious way. Itâs more subtle like he knows heâs smart and capable, but he doesnât need to prove it all the time.â
Youngji, who had been hanging onto every word, nodded in agreement, though clearly a little lost in the rapid-fire speech. âHmm, that makes sense⌠but he still likes to cause trouble, right? Mischief? Isnât that a big part of it?â
Luna grinned, leaning in a little as if sharing a secret. âExactly! Heâs mischievous,â she repeated with emphasis, her eyes glinting with something more. âBut itâs not just for the sake of itâ thereâs always something deeper, something clever behind it. Heâs always ten steps ahead, and thatâs what makes him so interesting.â She paused for a beat, her mind briefly wandering, before she added with a softer, almost playful smile, âI guess Iâve always been drawn to that kind of personality⌠intelligent and calculated guys are very attractive to me.â
As Luna spoke, she unconsciously revealed more than she intended. Her words, though directed at Loki, seemed to resonate with somethingâ or rather, someoneâ else entirely.
The qualities she was describing werenât just about a fictional character; they mirrored those of her boyfriend, Jeonghan, with startling accuracy. He, too, had that sly, playful nature, that effortless confidence that both infuriated and charmed everyone around him.
Youngji, perhaps too tipsy to pick up on the underlying hints, nodded along, her chin resting on her hand as she gazed at Luna with fascination. âYouâre really passionate about this,â she slurred, blinking slowly. âI get it, though. Mischievous guys⌠they keep things exciting, huh?â
Luna laughed softly, her cheeks slightly flushed from both the alcohol and the direction of the conversation. âYeah, they do,â she admitted, a knowing glint in her eye. âItâs fun. You never quite know whatâs coming, but itâs always worth it in the end.â
Youngji slapped her hand on the table suddenly, making Luna jump a little. âI knew it!â she declared, pointing at Luna dramatically. âYou do have a type! Mischievous, funny, smartâ Loki-type!â She was laughing now, clearly enjoying her discovery, even though she wasnât aware of just how on-the-nose her comment really was.
Luna, unable to hold back her laughter, nodded in playful surrender. âOkay, maybe I do,â she said, her voice light, though there was a warmth behind it that hinted at something deeperâ something personal.
Youngji, still clearly invested in Lunaâs rant about Loki, tilted her head in thought, a playful glint in her eye. âWait, so⌠do you like guys with long hair too? You know, since Lokiâs rocking that,â she asked, her voice teasing as her words slurred slightly. She wiggled her fingers dramatically in the air, mimicking Lokiâs flowing locks as if sheâd stumbled onto another part of Lunaâs type.
Luna, catching on to where Youngji was going with this, chuckled and shook her head, but there was a playful gleam in her eyes. âI donât really have a preference when it comes to looks,â she replied thoughtfully, her words slower as if she was choosing them carefully, though the slight smile on her lips suggested otherwise. âLong hair, short hairâ it doesnât really matter to me.â
There was a brief pause as Luna took another bite of her food, but then she added, âBut⌠if he can pull off both, then thatâs even better.â She let out a quiet laugh, raising an eyebrow as if she were sharing a secret. âThough, I might be biased toward long hair. Just a little.â
Youngjiâs eyes widened dramatically, and she shot up from her seat, clapping loudly as if she had just uncovered the greatest revelation. âAha! I knew it!â she slurred, pointing at Luna as if she had caught her red-handed. âYou say you donât have a type, but you do! Mischievous, smart guys with long hair!â Her voice was loud and excited, the alcohol clearly making her voice louder than she intended.
Luna threw herself back in her chair, laughing uncontrollably at Youngjiâs dramatic outburst. âWhat are you talking about?â she managed to say between fits of laughter, waving her hands as if to defend herself. âI never said that!â
But Youngji wasnât having it.
âYa! Luna you canât fool me,â Youngji slurred then she turned toward the camera, still pointing at Luna with a wobbly finger. âYou heard it here first, everyone!â she announced, her words slurring even more. âLuna likes mischievous, intelligent guys who can rock both short and long hair⌠but especially long!â
Luna, still cackling in the background, waved her hands in surrender. âI didnât say that!â she protested, though her laughter betrayed her.
It was obvious to both of them and probably everyone watching, that she wasnât exactly disagreeing with the assessment.
Youngji, proud of her deduction, grinned ear to ear and sat back down, clearly satisfied with herself. âI knew it,â she repeated, nodding sagely as if she had just solved a mystery.
Just as Youngji settled back, still grinning from her triumphant deduction, Lunaâs phone dinged from its place in the glass, the sound echoing in the small room. The noise caught their attention immediately, both sets of eyes snapping toward the device as if fate itself had decided to weigh in on the conversation.
Lunaâs phone screen lit up, casting a soft glow through the glass. Only she and Youngji could see the notification, and as Luna lifted her phone slightly to check, she froze for a second.
The screen displayed a single messageâ from Jeonghan. And there, beneath his name, was the very same Jeonghanâs face grinning lazily back at them, clear as day on her wallpaper.
Youngjiâs tipsy eyes widened at the sight, and though her speech was still slurred from the alcohol, her voice carried a teasing lilt as she blurted, âSee? I knew it.â
Luna burst into laughter, throwing herself against Youngjiâs shoulder as if to beg her to stop from being too obvious, her whole body shaking with mirth. But the playful exchange only fueled Youngji more. She raised her hands in mock innocence, trying to cover for Luna in the most transparent way possible.
âI knew it!â Youngji repeated, but then quickly amended herself, glancing mischievously around the room. âI mean, come on, one of your members was bound to check in on you at some point, right?â She added a little wink, though her teasing tone couldnât have been more blatant.
Luna, still caught in a fit of giggles, sat up a bit, trying to compose herself. She could only shake her head as she looked down at the message, her cheeks flushed both from laughter and the alcohol.
The moment was filled with shared glances and inside jokes, one of those times when words werenât necessary to convey understanding. Even though Luna and Jeonghanâs relationship was a secret from the public, Youngjiâs playful cover was enough to keep things lighthearted, avoiding too much attention while still teasing Luna about the not-so-hidden truth.
Youngji, still half-smirking, decided to play innocent as she leaned in closer, feigning curiosity. âSo⌠who texted you?â she asked, dragging out the question as if she hadnât seen the name flash across the screen just moments before.
Luna was still recovering from her laughing fit, her entire body shaking as she clutched her stomach with one hand, the other wiping away the tears that had pooled in her eyes. Every time she tried to speak, another wave of giggles overtook her, leaving her gasping for air. The crew watched on with amusement, chuckling softly as they witnessed Lunaâs complete surrender to the hilarity of the situation.
Youngji, however, put on her best serious face, her brow furrowing in exaggerated concern. âLuna are you okay?â she asked, her tone mockingly stern. She leaned forward slightly, her eyes widening as she studied Lunaâs uncontrollable laughter. âYou wonât stop laughing⌠I think you need to go home.â
The crew erupted into laughter at Youngjiâs deadpan delivery, but Luna, still giggling, managed to shake her head, clutching her tummy as if trying to rein herself in. âI donât want to go home!â she protested, taking a deep breath to calm down.
After a brief pause, she finally managed to answer Youngjiâs earlier question, wiping the last of her tears from her eyes. âItâs Jeonghannie oppa,â she said, her voice still a little breathless from laughing so hard.
Youngji raised an eyebrow, her playful expression returning. âHe knows youâre here filming, right?â she teased, still pretending to be oblivious. Then, with a mischievous grin, she added, âDo you want to share with the class what he said, or not?â
Luna, now calmer, picked up her phone from the glass. She opened the message and quickly scanned it before reading aloud, her tone light and casual. âHe said, âCall me when youâre done and on the way here.ââ She locked her phone again and set it aside, still smiling.
Youngji, slurring slightly from the alcohol, leaned in with mock curiosity. âWhere are you going after this?â she asked, her head tilting slightly as if trying to unravel some great mystery.
Luna chuckled at her exaggerated tone. âI have practice after this,â she explained, still amused by Youngjiâs playful interrogation. The casual exchange, despite its lightheartedness, held the warmth of friendship, each teasing comment laced with genuine affection.
Youngji suddenly perked up, her eyes gleaming with a mischievous spark. âI have an idea!â she exclaimed, a little louder than she intended, which made Luna jump slightly in her seat. âText Jeonghan-ssi. Letâs prank him.â
Luna, clearly enjoying where this was headed, giggled in anticipation, her fingers already moving toward her phone. âWhat should I say?â she asked, the excitement in her voice palpable as she unlocked her phone. The atmosphere felt lighter now, the earlier tension of the drinks and deeper conversation melting into a more playful vibe.
âTell him,â Youngji leaned closer as if they were conspiring, âthat you canât do this anymore.â
Lunaâs eyes widened before she broke into another fit of laughter, covering her mouth as if trying to stifle it. âHeâs not going to fall for that,â she said, though her hands were already typing out the exact message Youngji had suggested:
âI canât do this anymore.â
As she pressed send, Luna glanced at Youngji and said with a smirk, âHannie oppa is too sharp for this. He wonât be easily fooled, hââ
But her playful assurance was cut short when, mid-sentence, the familiar ringtone of her phone echoed in the room, cutting through the conversation like a hot knife.
The room went still for a moment.
The crew gasped, some even giggling at the sudden shift, while Youngji, now fully invested in the chaos sheâd started, shot up in her seat. âOh my god! Girl, answer the phone!â she gasped, her eyes wild with amusement, leaning even closer toward Luna.
Luna blinked at her phone in disbelief, the name âmy angel boyđŞ˝â lighting up her screen, the ringtone growing louder in the otherwise silent space. She looked at Youngji with wide eyes, her voice now a whisper, âWhat should I say?â
There was a tiny hint of panic behind her words, her excitement starting to mix with nervous energy.
Youngji, half-slurring, was all for the drama. âTell himâŚâ she paused for effect, her words dripping with amusement, ââŚtell him you couldnât do this anymore because I was asking you weird questions!â
Luna hesitated, biting her lip in mild panic. âYoungji⌠youâre really⌠crazy,â she muttered, but before she could back out, she quickly hit the answer button, her voice coming out steadier than she felt.
Luna placed her phone on speaker, her fingers trembling slightly from the mixture of excitement and nerves. Before she could even get a word out, Jeonghanâs deep, yet soft voice filled the room, echoing through the small space.
âWhat are you talking about?â he asked, his tone gentle but with a hint of concern.
Luna, knowing Jeonghan so well after all these years, immediately understood the shift.
His voice was usually so bright and sing-song, always answering the phone with an upbeat tone that instantly lifted her spirits. But now, his seriousness threw her off, and she winced, shooting Youngji and the crew a pained look.
Youngji, though, was undeterred, grinning like the devil on her shoulder and silently urging her to keep going.
âO-oppaâŚâ Luna started, trying her best to sound sad, though her voice trembled with the urge to burst into laughter.
Jeonghan hummed on the other end of the line, a soft noise that nudged her to continue.
âI just finished the interview,â she added, her tone still shaky.
Another hum from Jeonghan, quiet and calm.
âShe was asking weird questions,â Luna said, attempting a sad sigh but immediately covering her mouth to stop herself from laughing.
There was a beat of silence from Jeonghanâs side.
The kind of silence that made everyone in the room freeze for a moment.
Luna could feel the intensity of it, like he was trying to process her words while keeping his composure.
Then, finally, his voice came through again, still soft but now with an underlying sharpness that made both Luna and Youngji cringe.
âWhat questions?â he asked, his voice careful, as though he was trying not to jump to conclusions too quickly, but the edge was unmistakable.
Youngji, who had been grinning from ear to ear, suddenly stood up from her seat, backing herself playfully against the wall as if trying to escape Jeonghanâs indirect scolding.
Luna, on the other hand, was struggling, tears forming in her eyes as she stretched her arm out, holding the phone away from her mouth in a desperate attempt to hold back her laughter.
âJiyeon-ah,â Jeonghanâs voice came again, firmer this time. âWhat questions?â
Luna smiled through the fear knowing how rare Jeonghan called her by her real name, but she stopped herself just before answering, her acting skills being tested more than ever. She sighed dramatically, leaning into the role. âJustâŚâ
Before she could even finish, Jeonghanâs voice cut her off, his words making Luna cringe hard.
âDo you want me to tell Seungcheol?â he asked, the mention of their leaderâs name hitting like a warning shot.
Lunaâs entire body tensed at that.
She knew Seungcheol, would absolutely flip if he thought Luna was upset about something serious.
Youngji, still up against the wall, shook her head frantically at Luna, playfully waving goodbye at the camera as if she was terrified of the situation sheâd created. Luna gestured for her to come back, laughing even as she tried to keep up the charade.
âNo!â Luna quickly blurted out, cringing at the thought of Seungcheol getting involved. âNo, Iâm on the way back anywayâ Iâll talk to Coupsie.â
There was another long pause.
Luna could practically hear Jeonghan processing her words.
Then, finally, his voice echoed through the phone again, calmer, but still holding that careful tone.
âYouâre on the way back?â he asked.
âYes, I just finished,â Luna answered, keeping her voice steady, though she could feel the tension building.
Another pause.
âYou finished the interview and youâre on your way back?â Jeonghan repeated as if summarizing everything sheâd said.
Luna blinked, her smile twitching. âYes, why?â
There was a longer silence this time.
Everyone in the room was holding their breath, waiting for his next words.
Then, in a tone that was now playfully amused, Jeonghan finally spoke again.
âOut of all the people you could prank, you decided to prank me?â
Luna burst out laughing, the tension finally breaking as the entire room seemed to release a collective gasp.
Youngji was staring at her in disbelief, her mouth slightly open as she looked around at the crew. âHow did he find out?â she asked, more to herself than anyone else.
âIâm sorry, Iâm so sorry!â Luna giggled, covering her face with her hands as she tried to apologize. âYoungji made me do it!â
From the phone, Jeonghan simply went, âAh.â His voice, now fully relaxed, was teasingly amused.
Youngji, still shocked, stuttered shyly, âJ-Jeonghan-ssi, hello.â
âOh, hello, Youngji-ssi,â Jeonghan replied smoothly, his voice as polite and soft as ever.
Luna, still laughing, finally asked the question on everyoneâs mind. âHow did you know I was joking?â
Jeonghan chuckled softly, then explained, âI didnât know at first. But when you said you finished the interview, something felt off.â He paused, then continued, âYouâre the type of person who would just end the interview yourself if you were uncomfortable or disrespected by the questions. You wouldnât wait to finish.â
Luna smiled, understanding exactly what he meant.
She had always been one to speak her mind and walk away from anything she wasnât comfortable with.
âAnd,â Jeonghan added, his voice even more teasing now, âI could hear you smiling while you spoke.â
Luna shook her head, chuckling again. âI told you he wouldnât fall for it,â she said, turning to Youngji, who just sat there, still in disbelief at how quickly Jeonghan had caught on.
Youngji slumped back into her seat, still stunned, as Lunaâs laughter echoed in the room.
Luna, her laughter finally dying down, looked at her phone and said, âWell, since youâre here, oppa, you should say hi to everyone!â She grinned, turning her phone slightly toward the camera, giving Jeonghan a moment to address the viewers.
On cue, Jeonghanâs deep but soothing voice echoed through the room again, still as smooth and soft as ever. âHello, everyone,â he greeted, his tone polite but with a touch of playful charm. âI hope youâre all doing well. Please continue to take care of Luna while sheâs with you today.â
The staff, who had been quietly watching the whole thing unfold, burst into a chorus of hellos and some gave friendly waves toward the phone as if Jeonghan could see them.
Before he could say anything more, Luna, clearly not wanting to give him another second of control over the conversation, interrupted him with a sudden outburst. âHan! Itâs so much fun here with Youngji!â she began, her voice rising with excitement, âYou should be here too!â
Jeonghan let out a low chuckle on the other end, but before he could respond, Youngji leaned into the frame with a wide grin. âHe really should come next time! Weâll do a special episodeâ Luna and Jeonghan together!â
âAlright, Iâll keep that in mind,â Jeonghan replied, his voice smooth but with a hint of amusement.
Luna straightened in her seat, her enthusiasm bubbling over. âNo, really! Youâd love it! Youngji keeps making me laugh, and weâve been talking about everythingâ drinks, games, she even made me dance!â She started listing everything off with the same excitement, her voice taking on a childlike tone as she gushed. âAnd the crew here is so nice! Weâve been playing games, and Youngji asked me so many fun questionsâ sheâs so funny!â
Jeonghan hummed softly in response, the sound was warm and full of affection. âMm, that sounds like a lot of fun,â he cooed in his signature lazy drawl. âIâm glad youâre having a good time, Nana-ya.â
Luna, encouraged by his response, continued to ramble on, her words spilling out faster now. âAndâand you shouldâve seen when we startedâ Youngji made me drink gin and she gave me a lot of food, and we evenââ She paused, catching herself, then giggled, clearly realizing she was talking a mile a minute.
Youngji, who had been watching with amusement, leaned toward the camera and whispered to the crew, âThis is the most Lunaâs spoken today.â The crew chuckled along, nodding in agreement.
Jeonghan, ever the doting boyfriend, was patient and gentle, humming softly every now and then to let her know he was listening. âAh, really?â he said, his voice carrying that familiar, affectionate tone he used with her. âSounds like youâre having a blast, hmm?â
Luna, her face glowing with excitement, nodded eagerly, even though he couldnât see her. âI am! I wish you were here! Itâs so much fun! And Youngji said next time you can come, and maybe weâllââ
Jeonghan let out a small, amused laugh, cutting her off gently, âYou drank a lot, huh?â
Luna immediately pouted, shaking her head even though Jeonghan couldnât see her expression. âNo, I didnât! I didnât drink that much! Only a littleâŚâ
Jeonghan chuckled again, this time more indulgently, his tone almost teasing. âMm, alright. You just spoke a thousand words in one breath, Nana-ya. I think you definitely drank more than a little.â
Luna gasped, mock offended, before laughing again, unable to keep up the act. Youngji and the crew, meanwhile, were in stitches, watching the entire exchange unfold like something out of a rom-com.
Youngji, still giggling, waved toward the camera again. âJeonghan-ssi, I promise we didnât force her to drink that much!â
âOh, I believe you,â Jeonghan replied smoothly, his voice still light with humor. âBut Jiyeonieâs not exactly the best at hiding when sheâs had a few, is she?â
Luna pouted once more, slumping in her seat. âOppa!â she whined softly, her tone almost playful as she drew out the syllables.
Jeonghan hummed again, his voice turning soft and doting once more. âItâs okay, Iâm just teasing you,â he cooed, that familiar sing-song lilt back in his voice. âIâm glad youâre having fun, really.â
Luna smiled, her heart fluttering at the sound of his voice. No matter how often he teased her, she knew it was always out of love.
Youngji, catching her soft expression, leaned toward the camera with a knowing grin. âSee? This is why I said you should prank him. Look how sweet he is.â
Luna nodded, biting her lip to keep from giggling again. She knew Jeonghan wouldnât stay mad for long, especially when he could tell she was having a good time.
Luna smiled as the laughter in the room finally died down, her fingers fiddling with the edge of her phone. âOkay, Hannie, Iâm gonna go now,â she said softly, her voice still carrying traces of the playful energy from moments before.
Jeonghan hummed on the other end, his tone gentle and affectionate. âMm, okay. Take care, See you later, Jiyeonie.â
Lunaâs heart swelled at the warmth in his voice. âYou too, oppa. Practice well, okay?â
âI will. Iâll see you soon,â he replied, his voice a low murmur, almost like a promise.
With a soft smile, Luna nodded to herself. âBye-bye.â
âBye, Nana-ya.â
She ended the call, placing the phone gently on the table, but before she could even relax into her seat, her phone lit up again.
A notification popped up at the top of the screenâ a text from Jeonghan: âDrink water and eat more.â
Luna chuckled, already feeling the warmth of his concern, but before she could even react, Youngji jumped up from her seat, immediately fussing over her. âAigoo, see! You better listen to him!â she slurred, her movements exaggerated as she grabbed the nearby pitcher of water and began pouring it into Lunaâs glass. âYou need to eat more too!â she added, piling more food onto Lunaâs plate, her eyes wide as if the message from Jeonghan had ignited some maternal instinct in her.
Luna giggled, watching Youngji in amusement as she responded to Jeonghanâs message with a quick, âYes, Iâll eat. Donât worry đ¤â
Then, she obediently picked up her fork and took a bite of the food, earning a satisfied nod from Youngji, who had taken on the role of Lunaâs makeshift caretaker.
Youngji, a bit tipsy and swaying slightly, leaned closer, her words slightly slurred but full of sincerity. âYouâre so lucky⌠Heâs really worried about you, huh?â
Luna smiled as she chewed, swallowing before replying. âWell⌠itâs not just him. The members, especially Jeonghannie and Coupsie oppa, always make sure Iâm okay when weâre drinkingâ especially today.â
Youngji raised a curious eyebrow at that, her tipsy brain trying to keep up with Lunaâs words. âWhy? What happened?â
Luna let out a soft laugh, realizing Youngji might not remember the story. âItâs because they donât want another Hoshi incident.â
Youngji blinked, clearly confused. âHoshi incident?â
Luna nodded, already knowing the moment she mentioned it, the memory would click. âYou know, when Hoshi-oppa was here, he got really drunk, right? Well, that same day, we had practice. So, Hoshi showed up to the practice room completely wasted but was still trying to practice like it was nothing.â
Youngjiâs mouth fell open in disbelief, and she let out a surprised laugh. âNo way!â
Luna grinned, nodding. âYep. And Jeonghannie oppa filmed the whole thing! Thereâs a video of drunk Hoshi oppa still trying to do the choreo.â Luna tilted her head and asked, âDid you see the video?â
Youngjiâs eyes widened in sudden realization, and she nodded vigorously. âOhhh! I remember now! I saw that video! Poor guy â I felt so bad but he looked cool, he can dance better drunk than I do sober!â
Luna laughed at Youngjiâs dramatic retelling, but before she could say anything else, Youngji waved her hand in front of her, acting like a strict mother. âSee, this is why you should go home now,â she said, her voice half-serious, half-teasing, as if she was trying to play both roles of the concerned friend and the playful show host.
Luna couldnât help but laugh at her antics, the warmth of the moment filling her chest. The combination of Youngjiâs tipsy fussing and Jeonghanâs constant concern made her feel wrapped in a bubble of affectionâ a place where she was cared for in every little way.
With a playful sigh, Luna shook her head. âI donât want to leave. Iâll eat, I promise.â
âGo home, Luna,â Youngji groaned dramatically, her voice dripping with exaggerated exhaustion, making Luna giggle. The crew burst into laughter at the ongoing playful banter between the two of them, while Luna took another bite of food, ignoring the command.
Luna, cheeks flushed from the alcohol, pouted cutely. âBut I donât want to go!â she whined, her voice slurred slightly as she waved her chopsticks in the air. âIâm having so much fun!â
Youngji, not one to back down, leaned forward and pointed at Luna with mock sternness. âYou still have dance practice, Jiyeon-ah! Your members will get mad at me if I let you drink more.â
Lunaâs pout deepened as she huffed, rolling her eyes. âThey wonât get mad. Iâll just⌠be a little late,â she slurred, her words drawing out lazily as she reached for more food.
Youngji smirked, shaking her head. âA little late? Girl, do you want me to get in trouble with SEVENTEEN?â She pointed a finger at herself before adding with a mock-terrified look, âThatâs two out of fourteen members showing up drunk at their dance practice because of me. S.Coups-ssi might hunt me down.â
The crew burst into laughter again, and Luna, in her slightly tipsy state, let out a high-pitched giggle. âCoupsie oppa would never!â she laughed, covering her mouth with her hand, eyes sparkling with amusement.
âOh, wouldnât he?â Youngji teased, her face pulling into a playful grimace as she imitated Seungcheolâs authoritative tone. âI can already hear himâ âYoungji-ssi, what did you do to Luna?!ââ
Luna burst out laughing, swaying slightly as she covered her face with her hands. âStop, stop!â she giggled, cheeks turning even redder. âHeâs not like that⌠Well, not all the time.â
Youngji shook her head knowingly. âYeah, right. Heâs the leader for a reason. Do you really think heâs going to let this slide?â She crossed her arms, giving Luna a playful yet stern look.
Luna slumped in her seat, her pout returning. âI donât want to go back,â she mumbled under her breath, acting like a child avoiding bedtime. âItâs too much fun here.â
Youngji let out a deep, exaggerated sigh, shaking her head as if defeated. âAigoo, this girl,â she muttered. âYour members are going to come for me, I just know it.â
Luna giggled softly after finishing her last bite, wiping her lips with the napkin. She looked at Youngji with a small smile, almost sheepishly. âAlright, alright, Iâll go,â she said with a laugh, realizing that, if she didnât leave soon, sheâd be late for practice for sure.
One of the crew members approached Luna with a grin, holding out a marker and a blank piece of paper. âLuna, can you sign this for us? Itâs for the wallâ we have all of Youngjiâs guests sign it.â
Luna beamed, taking the marker and paper eagerly. âOf course!â She placed the paper on the table, leaning over as she started writing her message. She spoke out loud as she scrawled her words in neat, bold handwriting. âYoungji, youâre the best⌠from your best friend Luna.â
Youngji, watching over her shoulder, cackled at the message. âYour best friend, huh? Iâve officially been promoted. Iâll take it!â
Luna chuckled, finishing her signature with a small flourish. She handed the paper to Youngji, who took it with a grin. âAww, look at that!â Youngji teased, waving the paper for the camera. âEveryone, look! Luna thinks Iâm the best.â
Luna laughed again, watching as Youngji stood up from her seat, making her way to the wall of signatures. She carefully stuck Lunaâs paper up alongside the others, smoothing it out to make sure it was centered. âThere you go, youâre officially a part of the wall now,â Youngji said, taking a step back to admire the wall.
âWe should take a picture to commemorate this,â Youngji added, turning toward Luna with a playful grin.
Luna nodded, feeling a bit lighter from the drinks but still excited. âYes, letâs do it.â
One of the staff members quickly grabbed a phone, and Luna and Youngji struck a pose, arms wrapped around each otherâs shoulders. Youngji held up a peace sign, while Luna tilted her head to rest against Youngjiâs with a bright, tipsy smile. The camera clicked, capturing the moment, and the staff clapped in appreciation of the scene.
As they pulled away from the photo, Luna turned to Youngji with a soft smile. âI had so much fun today,â she said sincerely, her eyes crinkling in the corners.
Youngji grinned, her tone just as warm. âMe too. We should do this again sometime. Maybe next time, Iâll drink more and you can take care of me.â
Luna laughed, nodding. âDeal! Iâm looking forward to it.â
With that, they shared a tight hug, Youngji squeezing Luna with a fond chuckle. Luna pulled back slightly, her expression playful as she planted a quick kiss on Youngjiâs cheek. âThank you for having me,â Luna said, bowing her head in gratitude.
Youngji deadpanned, touching her cheek dramatically. âYou better go before I steal you from your members and keep you to myself,â she joked, making the staff and crew burst out laughing.
Luna laughed along, turning towards the door, waving and bowing at the crew. âThank you, everyone! Bye-bye!â she called out, flashing a smile to the camera before making her way out.
The door closed behind her softly, leaving the room filled with the lingering energy of her presence.
In the last moments, the staff and Youngji exchanged looks, a warm laughter spreading around the room. âThat was amazing,â Youngji mused, shaking her head with an affectionate smile.
The camera panned out, capturing the wall of signatures as it faded to black, Lunaâs note standing proudly among the others, a lasting memory of her fun and lively presence.
commentsâŚ
@/lunababybae ⢠2 years ago â° their chemistry is perfect! I would love to see more of these two together đ
@/rinarieee ⢠2 years ago ⰠJiyeon came in so quiet and composed and then left a loud, giggling mess.
@/gyusshadow ⢠2 years ago â° I gotta hand it to Luna she can drink đ¤
@/moonbae17 ⢠2 years ago ⰠYoungji calling Luna her girl crush at 19:30 is an actual mood.
@/saythename ⢠2 years ago â° Lunaâs deadpan humor is so fucking attractive for some reason đŤ
@/mad-lineeee ⢠2 years ago â° sheâs a princess fr fr đ
@/mrsbaebae ⢠2 years ago â° Luna is so sweet to gift Youngji that set and from Paris too đ¤đ
@/alyy1625 ⢠2 years ago ⰠOnly Bae Jiyeon would not like the taste of beer but would down gin like that with a straight face
@/jeongnanana ⢠2 years ago â° Luna explaining that she just has resting bitch face and that sheâs not actually scary is so funny to me cause same đ¤Ł
@/gyuuuuudaily⢠2 years ago. â° GOD I JUST LOVE HER BRITISH ACCENT SO MUCH đŤ ITS LIKE BUTTER.
@/sallluuuteee17 ⢠2 years ago â° 15:16 âHonestly, I donât know what I would do without them. Sometimes I think about it, you know? In another universe, maybe I didnât audition, or maybe I didnât end up in the final lineup⌠but I still feel like, somehow, I would have found my way to them. Even if it was just as a fan.â Brb Iâll just dry my eyes đĽš
@/lulu-nana17⢠2 years ago â° 16:30 Lunaâs face when Youngji lost the game at the first try đ
@/gyugyugyugyu_ ⢠2 years ago ⰠLuna saying she mostly has crushes on fictional characters is such a mood cause same
@/sebongrighthere ⢠2 years ago â° THANK YOU LEE YOUNGJI FOR ASKING LUNA TO DANCE HOT!! IT WAS INDEED HOT đĽľ
@/user836837373863 ⢠2 years ago â° âBut⌠if he can pull off both, then thatâs even better.â WHO ARE YOU FOOLING, MISS THING?! WE KNOW DAMN WELL WHO YOU ARE TALKING ABOUT!!
@/missbitchhhh ⢠2 years ago ⰠJiyeon geeking out about Loki is adorable!!
@/shadowmyshadow⢠2 years ago â° 20:55 is she even still talking about Loki at this point? Because I swear itâs sound like sheâs talking about someone else entirely⌠iykyk đ
@/angel7266 ⢠2 years ago â° âHeâs got this dry sense of humor that makes you laugh even when you donât expect it. And the way heâs confident, but not in an obnoxious way. Itâs more subtle, like he knows heâs smart and capable, but he doesnât need to prove it all the time.â ONLY ONE PERSON POPPED IN MY HEAD WHEN SHE SAID THIS AND HIS NAME RHYMES WITH BOON BEONGHAN đ
@/hannnieeeee7251 ⢠2 years ago ⰠTELL ME I AM INSANE!? SHE WAS LITERALLY DESCRIBING JEONGHAN THE ENTIRE TIME SHE WAS TALKING ABOUT LOKI!? THE CHARM, THE WIT, THE HUMOR, THE BRAIN, THE MISCHIEVOUSNESS, THE LONG FUCKING HAIR?! EXCUSE ME?!
@/user763816262 ⢠2 years ago â° Jeonghanâs voice during that call đŤ
@/ashonashonash_ ⢠2 years ago Ⱐ25:55 Jiyeon got scared when Jeonghan sounded serious for a second.
@/jijijiyeonienie ⢠2 years ago â° Hannie clocking Lunaâs prank so fast. He knows her from the inside out fr.
@/kpopfan17 ⢠2 years ago â° who would have thought i would get to see Luna gushing about Yoon Jeonghan *ahem* I mean Loki for a solid minute and a half đ
@/belleeeee_ ⢠2 years ago â° Youngji knows something we donât cause look at her reaction when Jeonghan texted đ¤
@/diamondlifeu ⢠1 year ago â° YOON JEONGHAN THE MAN THAT YOU ARE đĽş
@/gyuminggooo ⢠1 year ago ⰠHannie called Luna real quick⌠so quick that I had a fucking whiplash.
@/dailynanana ⢠1 year ago â° She texted him âI canât do this anymoreâ I bet Jeonghan was scared shitless.
@/chuuuuchhuu17 ⢠1 year ago â° Jeonghan is so patient with Luna, the way he listened and waited for her to finish her rant was so endearing to see đĽš
@/lalunanova ⢠1 year ago â° âwhat are you talking about?â Daddy?! đĽľ
@/17-carat ⢠3 weeks ago â° 26:22 Youngji backing up the second she heard Jeonghanâs serious voice and at the mention of Cheol đ¤Ł
@/myg145 ⢠2 weeks ago â° Drunk dancing Hoshi really got these guys stressing for Lunaâs turn in this show đ
@/bjy_lover ⢠1 week ago â° I need a man like Yoon Jeonghan. He is the standard! Like, that entire conversation was so cute đĽşđ
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All in | Chapter 13
pairing: Lee Felix x f!reader (mafia au)
summary: You didn't know what you were getting yourself into when you started dating Yang Jungwon, notorious mafia boss. Your life gets flipped upside down when you're found beaten and bloody by SKZ, the rival mafia group, and you're quickly integrated into their lives. What will happen when you try to leave your old life behind and start anew?
chapter summary: you notice a familiar pattern of how things tend to go in your life.
warnings: please see series masterlist for all warnings.
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Felix isnât there when you wake up.Â
You arenât exactly surprised but you canât say it doesnât sting a little bit. You were hoping to wake up in his arms, staring dreamily at his inhuman delicate features before you had to face reality.Â
He did, however, leave you a note.Â
âDear sunshine,
Thank you for last night. Iâm sorry I had early morning business to attend to. I would keep you in my arms all day if I could. You are my everything.
LF.âÂ
You suppose that makes things a little better. With a stretch, you get out of bed and take a shower. Your body feels surprisingly good, only a little sore from yesterdayâs activities but overall pretty content. Your heartbeat flutters in your chest. In just the past 24 hours, you have gotten a chance to see your sister and explain yourself as well as get with the man that has been tempting you with his tantalizing sex appeal for weeks. Life is pretty good.Â
Things around the house are surprisingly domestic. You see yourself fitting in a little bit too comfortably. You watch more reality TV and romcoms than you probably should. You train with Changbin and Felix, and sometimes Jisung will take you outside to practice shooting in the makeshift-range. You sit and read in Hyunjinâs room while he paints, sitting in comfortable silence. You help Jeongin sort through his closet and try to deny when he wants to give you hand-me-down jewelry much more expensive than youâre worth. You deny Bang Chanâs proposal for another date, feigning sickness under his careful eye.Â
You and Felix sneak touches when nobody is watching. Some nights he sneaks into your room after dark, when youâre on the verge of sleep. You only register the scent he leaves behind on your pillow and careful kisses pressed to your forehead when he leaves before dawn, silent as a whisper. Other nights he pounds you into the mattress hard enough to make you forget your own name, drawing countless orgasms out of you until your body is spent. He knows your body as well as his own.Â
Today, you play uno.Â
You arenât mad when Jisung comes barreling down the hall with alcohol in hand, fist rapping against the door and pleading at you with large eyes to come and play. You canât deny, wouldnât want to even if you could.Â
You, Felix, Jisung, Changbin, Minho and Jeongin play the most chaotic game of uno you have ever played. Hyunjin and Chan are in his office, discussing matters far too dreary for you to want to comprehend. You wouldnât want Chan to play anyway, as you think he would make the activity far too tense for all; you do find yourself missing Hyunjinâs presence, though. Youâre not sure where Seungmin is, as he didnât answer his door when you knocked. You sway back and forth lightly, alcohol drumming through your veins. Though you didnât have much to drink, you can feel the buzz that makes it slightly easier to smile, especially when Jeongin picks up twelve cards.Â
Minho targets Changbin, constantly skipping his turn which makes him groan louder and louder each time. A series of giggles escape your throat and you find that youâre truly, pleasantly enjoying yourself.Â
Until shit hits the fan, of course, like it always does.Â
You can tell something is wrong before anybody confirms. A tick of silence that sits unnaturally at the table before you hear the screaming. Â
âWhere is she!?â you hear a strangled cry.Â
You find out after the fact: Nobody has ever seen Kim Seungmin lose his composure quite like he had on this night. He had always been stoic, reserved, calculating. Not one to allow himself to become overrun by emotions. This is not something that you would have inferred after seeing him in the state of disarray that he arrived in.Â
In fact, it reminded you of the way you looked on the day that you arrived.Â
Bruises, tears, blood. Seungmin is the whole trifecta when he limps into the kitchen soon after slamming the front door behind him hard enough to shatter the glass. You jump in your seat. The alcohol that once caused a warm, pleasurable feeling now causes you to feel nervous, unalert. You could throw it up in an instant now that it sits uneasy in your stomach, threatening to burn your esophagus.
âSeungmin?â Itâs Jeongin that speaks up, standing slowly with his hands raised as if ready to calm a wild animal. Chan and Hyunjin have now joined in on the rapid development.Â
âYou,â he stares, a pointed gaze in his eyes as he looks you up and down. âThis is all your fault.â Everybody else is in various stages of standing and grabbing various objects, probably to stop the blood that pours out of his leg. You canât bring yourself to stand; in fact, youâre the only one remaining seated, rooted in place at the table and frozen to the point that you canât bring yourself to speak. The words are on the tip of your tongue, tears on the brink of falling when all you want to do is ask, âwhat have I done?â It feels undeserving, selfish for you to cry when Seungmin is standing there, tears pouring out of his eyes as a heavy sob racks over his body.Â
You realize then the nature of his injury. Seungmin has been shot, the fabric of his pants rolled up on one side to expose the skin on his calf. Itâs deep, a mixed and irritated red/purple color thatâs unsettling to look at, and suddenly itâs as if youâre back in that warehouse with Jungwon, trying not to stare at the wound that sat right between his eyes killing him dead. This scene is almost more gruesome, Seungminâs own hands soaked in the substance as if he tried to put a stop to the bleeding with just his hands. The blood is everywhere, on his face as he makes to wipe away his tears, smeared on the wall that he leans against, all over the floors trailing to the kitchen.Â
You do throw up this time, unabashedly. You make it to the trash can at least and you vaguely recognize a hand on your back rubbing small circles to comfort you. Itâs Lee Know that holds back your hair as you retch a second time, overwhelmed by the sounds of shouting and pushing and things falling over as Seungmin goes on a rampage.Â
âHeeseung shot me and itâs your fault!â you hear him cry. âI wish you never came to live with us.â Your blood runs cold as you slump to the ground, watching as Seungmin gets dragged away in order to get medical attention.Â
âHeeseungâŚâ his name escapes your lips. You want to make some sort of argument that heâs the one whoâs keeping you here, that heâs the reason youâre still in this house⌠but thatâs not true. Itâs Chan. Realistically you could be halfway across the world by now with your sister and Lee Heeseung probably would never find you.
The room has since cleared out but its remnants serve as a reminder of what has just happened. You recognize Felix looping his hands under your arms, helping you up and walking with you to your room. You try not to look at the blood on your way out.Â
You sway back and forth outside of your door, trying to ground yourself. Felixâs worried expression does nothing to help, though his gentle hand on your shoulder is more than welcome.Â
âFelixââÂ
âSeungmin used to play baseball,â he tells you, staring up at the ceiling. âHe wouldâve gone pro, too. When he was a senior in college he tore his ACL. It was pretty nasty, the way he described it. When things started going downhill, he found Chan. Or, rather, Chan found him. After he joined SKZ, Chan promised to pay for his surgery to repair it. Itâs been years but I think heâs always been hanging onto that promise.âÂ
You hug Felix tight as the tears flow out of your eyes, sobbing vehemently into his arms. His hand comes to stroke the back of your head, to comfort you.Â
âItâs my fault,â you whisper. âHeâs right.âÂ
âThese things happen,â Felix says as he tries to console you. âItâs part of the job description and Seungmin knew that. Heâs upset but his anger is displaced. Itâs not you, itâs Chan heâs really upset with. He knew that surgery was just Chanâs way of trying to get him to stay, a bargaining chip.âÂ
You pull Felix into your room at that moment after looking both ways, noticing that nobody is occupying the hallway.Â
You practically shove him against the wall just so you can rest your head against his shoulder.Â
âFelix, thereâs something seriously messed up going on in this house,â you sigh.Â
He doesnât respond at first. You notice the sad, faraway gaze in his eyes and you choose to kiss it away, pushing your lips against him in a way that is soft but heavy, heavy in all that lies beneath it and what is left unspoken. His lips are pillowy against yours and you can feel every breath he takes, every soft inhale against your lips.Â
The two of you walk backwards until youâre in the bathroom, your back pressed against the countertop. He lifts you up effortlessly, never removing his lips from yours. He lifts your shirt over your head, discarding his own at some point in the process. You realize his plan as he turns the faucet, turning on the shower before checking the water to make sure itâs warm.Â
Gentle caresses, as if his fingertips are trying to memorize the exact way your skin feels against them. He traces every curve, presses chaste kisses against your neck before helping you up. You finish undressing and allow him to guide you into the shower.Â
The warm water against your skin feels amazing, immediately washing away any traces of the scene you just witnessed. Felix falls to his knees before you and you watch as rivulets of water stream down his face. He pushes you until you lean against the shower wall for support and he grabs your leg, hooking it around his head until he has access to the thing he had been looking for.Â
When Felix eats you out this time itâs gentle, exploring, and he coaxes an orgasm out of your body like itâs his second nature. His tongue against your clit, his fingers crooked inside you, you find it easy to fall apart for him.Â
He stands, pressing a kiss against your head. He scrubs your body for you, washes your hair, kisses every inch of exposed skin until youâre a giggling mess. Even when the laughs turn to cries, he wipes each tear away, drying your body off with a towel and helping you get into bed.Â
You realize that without him, with all the time that has passed and trauma that has racked through your body, you wouldnât have made it this far. That you wouldnât be this alright with the circumstances youâve been presented with. In just a few weeks he has helped you to become stronger, to realize that you are worthy of being loved and capable of laughing even when all things go to shit. You realize at this moment that you love him.Â
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