#leave peoople alone!!!!!!!

[lilaccatholic]

Everyone who posts about unrelated current events under someone's innocuous posts, you owe me $20

[karrotvantas]

Welcome.

KARROT: HELLO, people OF tumblr. POOKIE: ew wjy are u saying it liek that KARROT: I don't KNOW?? POOKIE: js say like wsg bitches or som stupid lik that KARROT: they AREN'T bitches, DON'T say THAT. POOKIE: oh my fgod POOKIE: tjen what are tehy KARROT: the PEOPLE of TUMBLR. KARROT: ...anyways. KARROT: WELCOME to POOKIE and I'S blog! POOKIE: i wish i had freedom of speech POOKIE: GOD BREASt AMERICA POOKIE: LAND OF TH FREE POOKIE: I DWMAND JUSTICE!!!!!!! KARROT: SHUT u UP. POOKIE: JUUUSTICEEE@@@@@!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! KARROT: q QUIET. KARROT: they PROBABLY aren't READING anymore BY now. POOKIE: tjey prolly stoped aftwr you sasid "peoople OF tumblr" KARROT: ............................ KARROT: WELCOME to OUR blog! KARROT: *I* and ONLY me BECAUSE apparently POOKIE can't BEHAVE will BE posting HERE. KARROT: i DON'T know WHAT i'll BE- POOKIE: we KARROT: what *I'LL* be POSTING here BUT i'm SURE it'll BE cool. POOKIE: meh MEH meh MEH meh MEH meh KARROT: ... POOKIE: hav u guys red or comic POOKIE: reed it KARROT: NOTICE how IT'S called ADVENTURES of *KARROT vantas.* KARROT: I don't HAVE to SHARE this BLOG with YOU, pookie. KARROT: I w *WON'T* be SHARING this BLOG with YOU. POOKIE: petiten to chanf it to the assventures of pookie and carrot KARROT: n NO. KARROT: pook THIS is A mess WHAT is YOUR problem. POOKIE: follow us ;p im cool KARROT: WE'RE. POOKIE: i thot it wasnt we KARROT: . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . KARROT: we're DONE here. THIS is STUPID. i QUIT. POOKIE: dont be all pouty like that KARROT: leave ME alone. KARROT: THIS is POINTLESS. POOKIE: im posting it KARROT: n NO.

[ussjellyfish]

We got 6in/15cm then 14in/35 cm of snow right after each other, which is a lot, and it took some digging out, so there hasn't been school since Tuesday. We had online school, but that's exhausting and pointless. Felix can't go to daycare if I can't drive there, so he's been home, which he doesn't really mind. I think he misses his friends and activities, but...he's a sweetie. He likes google meets.

It's been a lot. I've had a headache since Wednesday too, which is annyoing. I'm pretty sure it's a migraine, it was worse for two days, it's different today, so it might be more of a ending kind of thing? it's a lot. I will ask my GP when I go in, but my appoitnment was supposed to be Thrusday and...that didn't happen. Thanks snow. I'll try again. I'm not sure how much they can even do for migraines. Other peoople I know who have them just...have them, and meds. MAybe the meds are good.

On a normal workday I really just have to make dinner, but we're home so it's breakfast lunch and dinner and entertain Felix and my dad is a lot and it's just...constant.

Like I got to be alone long enough to shovel out the car, drive the car to the big parking structure downtown, take transit back to the house. I'll have to go get it after breakfast tomorrow. Then grovery shopping and standard weekend and...

I can't even take a nap when he's home because he doesn't nap and he has to be entertained and he will snuggle up and watch part of a movie but he wants me to be awake. He has opinions and he likes to act it out and run around, which is adorable, but it's really hard when my head hurts.

I aalso don't parent well when this happens. I don't read to him enough or come up with enough ideas, and I have to start things before he'll do it. He's too little to decide "oh I want to color" so I have to start coloring and color with him, and he's too little to want to paint, so if I want him to paint, I have to start it. There are too many toys and some I should get rid of because he really doesn't play with them. He likes scaarbes and running around. Again, this is great, he's great. I'm not doing the best job.

It's the out of spoons wall again. On the upside, it's not a "oh I'm out of spoons for fic, because I did get some of that done, but it's a definite out of spoons for my life. (great).

But it'll be all right. We caan go places and I'll figure out something it's just so much starting and responsibility. Like... dad doesn't do chores unless I start them. He'll load and unload the dishwasher, but I have to feed him and Felix and decide what we're going to do, and balance if Felix is annoying him and try to come up with food both of them will eat.

and I don't want to. Feeding Felix is fine, and I love him, and he's honestly a pretty easy kid. I fail him so much more than he does anything. He's going through a "oh I'm not hungry" phase which leads to losing it, because not eating is bad for tiny humans but he doesn't get why.

and it's one thing if he's having a tantrum and I have to deal with it, and I usually do okay. It's weird when we're being watched, or dad wants to be involved, because it's not...it's not helpful. I'm not sure what would be helpful, but having this other parasitic adult around isn't it.

I expect the constant caring for Felix, he's 4. It's hard when it's another adult. There's no reciprocation. It's just... "your coffee is on the counter" "you haven't showered" "I thought you were going too..."

I'll get it. I'll do it. stop needing things from me. (even input, because I have to constantly do...things and say things and comment on things and I already am at my maximum of giving.

I think it would be less if some things were different. Snow days witout work or no migraine or like...dad went somewhere. He doesn't leave the apartment unless it's a medical appointment, and he really doesn't have enough of those. I don't think he realizes how nice it would be just to sit in silence.

I can kind of get it at 3am, but I pay for it the next day.

[gladiolidiaries]

i must be hella blind, if i stare at that photo too much i’m gonna see my sleep paralysis demons

LMAO i barely looked at it tbh i just trust peoople that say they see something. i mean we know they were there i don't need a blurry pic from someone's story.

sapnap leaving alone makes things more spicy though.

[dahlia-molinas]

anyways as heartstopper gains popularity and more interviews of joe locke and kit connor are released please remember to not ship them because not only is it none of your business, but it's also really weird and awkward. they're 18 year olds, they act as a couple on screen and speculating on their relationship might make them very self conscious about how they act. regardless of what their relationship status may be, it is none of your business so keep your thoughts to yourself.

[markets]

my friend just said she’d go to the party but she’d just stay in the corner the whole time liike . hot take but why fucking go to a party if you’re not gonna mingle . if you’re gonna be a brat about it “ohhh i don’t like people ohhh” go home !! go enjoy yourself somewhere else and don’t bring me down 😭

— apwh

THATS LITERALLY THIS ANNOYNG KID I KNOW idk why my friends are friends with him but when my friends and i were planning our party a while ago he was there for some reason and he was like "oh if my phone runs out of battery can i leave" like... and he was also like oh what r ppl going to do at the party and everyone was like um hang oout idk and he was like "yeah but i feel like peoople would get bored" MF THAT IS JUST YOU😒 the funniest part is before he got to the party itself we joked that he would get there say hi to like two people then go out onto my friends balcony alone and stare out of it like some sort of anime protag AND THATS EXACTLY WHAT HE DID😭

[simply-cowjestic]

IN THE FUTURE:

The human life span will be 200 years, but the last 150 will be spent in unremitting pain and sadness.

No one will take drugs, but people will still buy them and conceal them from police.

All people will speak the same language, but no one will speak it well.

All farming will cease and the land will b used for loitering.

A race of people will be discovered living in the center of the earth, when one of them comes up to buy a sunlamp.

A team of astronauts attempt, to harness an asteroid and never be seen again.

Man will learn to control the weather with a large hammer

At birth religions will charge someone $50,000 and then pretty much leave them alone,

All the knowledge in the world will be put on a single tiny silicon chip which someone will misplace.

The speed of the earth's rotation will increase and everyone less than 110 pounds will be thrown into space.

Every part of the human body will be replaceable, but all parts will be on backorder.

Chickens will operate on gasoline and surprisingly many will get good mileage.

The insane will no longer be housed in asylums instead they will be displayed in department store windows.

The oceans will dry up and peoople will find things they dropped in the toilet many years ago

[skull001]

Some unpopular opinions about the Sonic franchise:

* Shadow did not stole Knuckles role as rival. This is because the franchise has different story arcs and often they introduce a new character for Sonic to fight. Likewise these characters reason for fighting the protagonist is mostly a result of circumstances like being tricked or there being a misunderstanding rather than a personal one and once said story arcs reach a conclussion, they really don't have further reason to antagonize Sonic nor compete with him.

* Despite Tails being a character who has a huge demand for becoming playable in Genesis styled games, I find him to be extremely overrated and one of the weakest offerings due to him being basically a 1/1 copy of Sonic with just a single ability that on top is the worst possible skill you can have on a platformer: flight.

* Knuckles being part of the so-called "classic trio" never made any bot of sense. The character not only lacks any real reason or motivation to go follow Sonic on his adventures like Tails and Amy do, but also has never, ever shown to care for him, which is odd considering how almost everyone in the fanbase simply accept him as "Sonic's second best friend".

* Despite Tails lacking in confidence while Amy is the plucky one, I never felt that Tails ever was an underdog simply for how much the narrative (if not even the franchise itself) benefits Tails while in contrast Amy's road through the franchise has placed obstacle after obstacle: she actually had to earn a place as a friend of Sonic, became a heroine as result of character development rather than a convenient gameplay design choice, has overcome attempts at being replaced (just imagine if Tiara Boobowski had actually been a thing), etc. She even got eclipsed on her own debut game by the fox during Sonic CD's re-release.

* Sonamy teasing in my opinion is rather innoffensive as not only is it a very minor thing, but also does not affect any other character. In contrast, the Sonic-Tails dynamic as of lately has not only been promoted as a major thing that works as an actual plot/subplot in games, but many times in order to sell Tails as the better friend, others (often Amy and Knuckles) have to be undermined.

* While I've warmed up to Blaze's character, I don't think that her character development was the greates things as all it boils down was to her learning to chill.

* I don't think that Cream was a very good addition to the cast. Her visual design is spot on with what I think the support cast should be like (not a fan of the edgy, shonen-esque badasses that everyone seem to praise), however the way her role as Amy's BFF was executed left a lot to desire because there simply is no conttrast in their personalities, let alone do they add something to complement each other: Cream's (exaggerated) politeness makes Amy look selfish and demanding while Amy's energetic and vibrant personality makes Cream look pretty bland. The only character I think that can fill this role in a way that both characters benefit is Blaze.

* I'm not a fan of people saying that a character would improve if they were to mature, as often not this suggestion only leads to the character in question being stripped of it's peersonality quirks, leaving behind a bland shell of a character.

* I think there is more depth on some of the "lesser" and sillier characters (Amy, Vector,  etc) than on the epic super hero types (Shadow, Sillver). Maybe this is because the first are much more relatable, have a more adjusted sense of morality and watching them try to achieve their goals makes me feel genuine sympathy. In contrast the later come off mmore as tools, product of lazy writers were in a very anime-like way of trying to be "depthful", they hilariously struggle to grasp basic concepts like why certain things are bad.

* You can perfectly have a Genesis-styled game without having to rely on the classic character's aesthetics or having the cast limited to just Sonic, Tails and Knuckles, though considering certain portions of the fanbase, I'm sure there's people that actually believe this.

* I laugh when people suggest that Tails should install a security system to guard the ME to "free" Knuckles because it always misses the point of why Knuckles exists in the first place, as well as showing how these people want Knuckles only for some shallow fanservice ("muh classic trio") rather than for the character itself. It's even more bugging how it's this very peoople that complain about why Knuckles' character degraded so bad over time.

* Rouge the bat was the best character introduced in SA2.

* The Chaos Emeralds should had been phased out of existance a long time ago. One of the things why Colors felt fresh (along with making Eggman the last boss once again) was to not use the candy-colored rocks to provide Sonic with a convenient Deus Ex to score an easy win.

* I think the reason why Sonic and Tails did not show up in Knuckles Chaotix was because when compared to the other playable characters, their abilities where kind of lame.

[idksheepthoughts]

Conversations Me: you actually soft blocked me....                                   any reason why?

Her: lol the fact that you noticed this late   but it happened on accident actually and i went and unblocked               but at that point i was like lmao like she'll notice so i never mentioned it              

Me: If you hate me just say so. No need to lie.... I don't check shit like that every day but it's not that many days since I know it was maybe a week or less ... Whatever. I'm so splitting atm. So I'll shut up before I say something else             

Her: hate? when the fck did i mention that?         yes, better shut up before you stick your foot in your mouth as usual                 since i've done nothing hostile to you as if me feeling like i matter to no one and have the smallest amt of friends possible is somehow how an Attack on You.

Me: you blocked me... on "accident" how does that even happen.... i've told you tons of times that the amount of friends depends solely on yourself. and your willingness to talk to people and work past the anxiety and fear that talking to people causes. . . otherwise I wouldn't even have friends. because if i isolated and neveer talked to anyone ever first that nobody would talk to me in the first place. . . ugh whatever. i've said too much im just going to sober up and talk later i guess.... I can't always be here I try to be but like we said previously, i didn't know what to do between give you loads of attention and give you nothing at all...

Her: tumblr mobile? lol. if you can't believe me when i say that then i don't really want to talk to you since everytime i feel bad or have like, negative feelings regarding my own situations you always take it so personally (1) and then i have to dread these fcking conversations so when we've been talking normally on twitter                 it all goes to fcking shit because you can't accept that i get to feel bad and feel upset about stuff regardless of whether or not im taking actions to help myself in my own way at my own pace...doesn't mean you get to think that i hate you so i blocked you      because what the fuck how does it work when we've been chatting like everyday on twitter?                   and it was (what i thought) fine? good? (2) if it really was the case i wouldve blocked you here or just flat out deleted since then i'd only have one fucking follower :) so just. let me have emotions. and don't assume things. this is so funny because i remember you getting mad at me months ago for the same exact thing   and here we are, situations reversed  

Me: BECAUSE i have a huge fear of abandonment.... it was fine but this stuff even if its an accident just idk .... i guess you never saw how much abandonment even if its an accident sends me into depressive spirals??? have i ever left you no. i've been distant yes but i've never full on unfollowed or left... idk you block me a lot and delete and it hurts every time.                                    

Her: "even if" can you believe me????? first off???? (3) and no you havent god if it was such a problem just follow me and then ask me about it because why would i lie lol (4) i don't like friendships built on lies i'll never talk to someone like that genuinely   i have insecurities too. i have enough

Me: ok it was an accident.

Her: i didn't even think it was a problem first off considering all those people you put on your thanksgiving post. and then you never noticed/messaged me about so i was like k, so that's that! and just talked w/ you normally here  (5)           so let's just accept the fact that we've got our problems and there's better ways to handle this than assuming motives

Me: so you did change url because of that post??? like my paranoid ass thought???? i was right on that???? cause i noticed that and was like... maybe its not related but was it????? cause I just want to know... im not mad at that at all just... i want to not assume things atm.    and i notice stuff slowly because I try not to fall into obsessive traits. its not healthy to check who im following or who is greyed out or blocked every single day. . . I try to just let things be but when I do notice stuff i can't help but explode. I tried to be calm by just asking why.... but i clearly failed at that. its whatever. I followed back. if it happens again just like.. tell me please??? this stuff makes me so close to slitting my wrist                                    

Her: no, i changed my url because i was sitting on that url for a while and i wanted to use it              

Me: okay, it was just a paranoid thought.                             

Her: well, i really, really, really, don't like when you start assuming things even after i tell you or not believing me. we've been friends for how long? does it mean nothing? you'd think i'd lie at this point? x____x       (6) .those thoughts make me want to die      

Me: i'm sorry for thinking irrationally, but with how many people just up and leave, all the time even with being friends for long periods its hard not to jump to conclusions. I am in the wrong for falling into my own paranoid thoughts. You explained things and I don't believe that you are lying so its fine.                        

Her: oh, now you believe me                     after i have to hold your hand when i'm upset (7) whatever i'm probably not going to follow back because i hate that i have no friends and my mutuals ignore all my posts when i try to put myself out there     it's gotten to a point where i can't post stuff on tumblr anymore because i know no one gives a shit             like even as happy as i am about my commission i know if i post that on my tumblr i'll make the artist seem bad when no one likes my post  idc. i'm bitter and alone and probably always will be because i don't have any friends aside from you o/                           like, be grateful you even have that many people to be grateful for   (8)      i'd kill for it i feel like dying when i think about this and i think about it a lot     but ofc i don't moan about it anywhere except on this stupid fucking twitter account                   where you seem ot think i live a dandy life   (9)                                    it fcking sucks bc im trying my best!                                           anyways im done lol           oh and then you post shit like *Edit* (Screenshot of some tags where I said I always listen to people but nobody likes listening to me so I talk to my cats a lot which is true because I’m a burden and i hate bothering people with my problems so much)                    that when you damn well no i have no one else to listen to except you online      and we've been civil lately                         but ok! i guess i don't care!  because im living it up!       #sarcasm    (10)

Me: you havent followed me in probably over 10 or so months, whenever i remade, cause i don't think you followed me when i delteed either,  i didn't expect a follow back at all. i just expect us to be not mutuals but still friends? THEN TALK TO PEOPLE TALK TO PEOPLE AND TALK TO PEOOPLE thats all i did was work past my fears and talk to people and some stuck around some didn't. i dont know what else to say. some of those people haven't actually spoken to me in months either but im still grateful for them. I have nothing else to really advise on that other than you gotta put the talking in first. thats all i've done and its somehow managed to not fuck it up for this long??? i dont think i've had any friend longer than whenever we started being friends... so around 2 years...    

Her: no offense but just talking to people doesn't do shit :) but seriously, thanks :)       (Phone lagged) So I repeated my previous message by accident)                           

Her: yeah probably the only reason you havent fucked it up is because i dont want to be fucking alone and i dont give up easily so ive stayed with this even fi you make me feel like fucking shit when this happens   & since you said nothing to everything else i just said i guess im right :)             god im over this i dont want to fight and i dont want to talk to you becaus eim always explaining my problems and you just like. tell me the same shit each time as if it'll magically do stuff   liek the fact that im trying doesnt mean anything                 i dont wanna talk to you if its always going to be like this ill take the goddamn loss and be lonely while youve got your fucking harem of friends idc if its an exaggeration the point is everyone i considered a friend has just stopped talking to me completely and the only thing i get here is you telling me what to do like i need cold hard instructions for making a friend  

ME: Harem??? You know nothing about anything. Ya know what..... forget it. If it's better I don't say anything because nothing I says helps and  I'm a broken record. You want to assume because I tagged a lot of people doesn't mean I wasn't just fishing for validation. Me trying to help is just being a dumb mistake. I can't help anyone and why I try is also confusing because I am pointless. I'm keeping you in my note regardless you have been here and listened and that hadn't changed.  But if this is just going to explode it's going to explode. All I do is ruin everything and I don't even care anymore I'm going to buy a gun soon anyways. So what's the point in trying to make something work. I've always been a shit friend and it's just not worth it to you at this point. So okay.                   

Her: HERE let me qutoe for you something    "idc if its an exaggeration"                                      ^^^^^^^             unlike you im aware when im being irrational lmao    (11)     apparnetly you get to be and i dont                             thats how it always is            did you ever think about it feels for me   when my only friend does shit like this constantly    like lmao                                ofc not bc why would you consider anything from my point of view  this conversation is over until you want to stop fucking assuming i dont care       LOL     and acting as if me letting you go is the best thing that could happen to me       like we couldnt j ust talk on twitter and let it fucking be but you have todrag it all in at least i get to get stuff off my chest thats the only fucking good that comes out of this  like you dont get that you telling me the same thing hurts because it doesnt fucking work and i dont have any fucking friends  i have college to deal with and studies and that pressure but you dont know the half of it?    but you just want to assume, assume, assume   (12) i cried already out of anger    

Me: I didn't have friends in college either                                 

Her: big offense but i dont want to continue this conversation

ME: Okay

Her: unles syoure willing to admit to your bullshit       because ima lways doing that and im always getting the end of your shit      

Me: I am made of nothing but bullshit I'm nothing but a huge fucking shit storm and I always will be. You should have left a long time ago because I don't know how to not be toxic   It's not That I won't be upset by you leaving far from it but you deserved better people and maybe if you had left and kept trying as you have been things will turn around. Because literally everyone that has ever done that with me ended up fine and in a good spot. I hold people back. And that's all I can think of. I ruin other people's lives by being in it. And I've certainly made your life worse. And I'm just better off dead because I am a selfish fucking loser.     I'll shut up now.