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Finished :D
#Let me know if you want to learn about the process for this one#full disclosure: I roughly traced my reference image#because I didn't want to hold myself back with anatomy and proportions when all I wanted to do for this was studying colour#and trying to find the right colour balance#studying texture and how to render things...#I really like how this turned out!#I have a few more leyendecker studies planned but this is finished for now#malevolent podcast#digital art#artists on tumblr#malevolent#arthur lester#arthur lester malevolent
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Novice sewing pattern: Cut out shapes. Line up the little triangles on the edges. Stitch edges together. We've also included step-by-step assembly instructions with illustrations.
Novice knitting pattern: yOU MUSt uNDerstANd thE SECret cOdE CO67 (73, 87, 93) BO44 (63, 76, 90) 28 (32, 34) slip first pw repeat 7x K to end *kl (pl) 42 * until 13" (13, 13, 15) join new at 30 pl for 17 rows ssk 27 k2tog mattress lengthwise BO and sacrifice a goat to the knitting gods. WHAT DO YOU MEAN YOU WANT "INSTRUCTIONS," I JUST GAVE THEM TO YOU
#knitting#no it's not a real pattern but I can't write one that makes sense because I have no freaking clue what any of that means#How do you make things that aren't basic rectangles#Why has every knitter I've asked for help just said 'patterns are easy; you just have to know how to read them' & then refused to teach me#Where do I even find a goat to sacrifice#How do I join the pattern cult#I am so confused#I've been knitting for almost a decade but I can only make scarves and potholders#I learned one (1) stitch by watching a YouTube video and none of my friends or family knit so I have no IRL resources#And nobody I meet seems to want to take the time to explain the rest to me#I taught myself to sew through trial and error but that doesn't really work with knitting because error is pretty much just... Unraveling?#Anyway sorry for the tag rant I'm just frustrated that I see pretty things I want to make but the instructions are in an alien language#And the gap between 'absolute novice' and 'intermediate' seems to be about 20 years of experience and formal instruction
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Know what’s best for you
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Happy 20th Anniversary!
#happy dannypocalypse!!! I did not prepare#bought a new tablet (huge moves)#downloaded opentoonz (rough)#trying to teach myself how to animate too late in my life (it's never too late!)#but hey just a little hair practice to try to learn the program and the tablet#jazz fenton#danny phantom#myart#animation#yippee!!!! I love making stuff#and idk what the scenario is here#something something jazz finding danny after he went on a rampage or before going to the final battle#I made it with angst in my heart so whatever you want#dannypocalypse
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GET DUN(meshi)
#i am once again learning editing for evil#kept waiting for someone to put this music to this scene but i couldn't find it#have to do everything myself#i know people have 'get downed' chilchuck before so i'm honor bound to add to it#dungeon meshi#dunmeshi#chilchuck#get down meme#geddan#delicious in dungeon is still a stupid name for it#thank you to all the people compiling clips of the episode on yt#as that is the only place i know how to rip vids from#because i am uncultured#makenna made a video#volume warning#video#chilchuck tims
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I know damn well I misunderstood the assignment but we roll, I'll understand it some day
It's killer and dust btw. If you couldn't tell. Which you probably couldn't.. forgor to say but shhh 🤫 Killers having a convo with himself..
..I kinda wanna change my url but idk to what
#I got this compliment once and I was like :3 bc I like compliments. then 4 days later I recognise the name and pfp on#on a tumblr I rlly rlly like bc they're super cool make super cool art and has super cool ideas and I'm just like woah they complement me s#so I search my notifications to find which post they complimented me on and I find out. they're following me. ummm IJWEHFOIWJ#i just can't get over this bc they're literally so cool what#anyways#I got two whole documents of canon dust things and one ao3 of canon things about killer#so I'm learning a way to do justice to the creators image while still putting my own twist on it bc I love fanon and that's how I grew up#I'm literally so passionate about fanon. specifically Gacha fanon bc it's literally so fun and no one else know that#like. literally everyone just like had terrible experience apparently idk how I didn't experience that#am I the only one who knows these characters still had lore Ben though unrelated to anything canon at all#anyways I'm rambling too much whoops#sans au#utmv#undertale au#sanscest#if u want#killer sans#dust sans#kist#if u want...#LOVE affair#teaching myself to use this tag too but eh#did you know Horror is more likely to be a part of the bad Sanses than Dust#Jesus fuck I rambled these tags to hell
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Grabbed a couple templates and drew my touchstarved mc again heehee
Relationship chart template that I used is here <3
Intro and flower templates are from the official rss site
#touchstarved#touchstarved mc#touchstarved game#touchstarved template#that was a great style study tbh#stressed myself out tho jfjfjcjjc I mean the style study itself was already a challenge but then#I decided to redesign her outfit halfway through#and ended up having to redo almost the entire thing jdjfkckjc 🫠#I've had the wips for this sitting in my folders since last week#but I'm done w it I'm DONE I'm moving on#I've learned some good stuff tho. especially abt linework#oc.emma#also the chibi version of her is based on that image. yk the one#the little. mspaint drawing#of the little guy doing that pose#I need to find it again at some point#for now I'm gonna 💤 gnight <3#sleepyscribble
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mockley time it's mockley time will you have some mockleys of mine
#my art#oc#mockley#anthro#furry#dinosaur#i think i like this mockley i think i'm guiding her to where she needs to be design-wise to fit in with her human cohorts#and the lines were fun as hell to render. mockley has so many textures#been in an art rut recently. feel like i'm guiding my art where i don't want it to go. and also feel limited in what i can do#big pity party basically lol but it's good to recognise that and be like well whatever. just do some studies and get back on track#less throwing myself against the same wall and more finding a ladder to get over it. which will involve more studies and less oc drawings#and also less comparing myself to other people and especially people younger than me who have amazing art it's BAD for you#compete with YOURSELF and you can neverrr lose. you can never lose if you have fun LOSING#learn to LOVE losing#my favourite vinny vinesauce quote and one of my favourite motivational quotes ever. he said it as a joke while salty at mario kart#but it's resonated positively in my life ever since hearing it#fall in love with failing.....learn to love losing....(said to myself)
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really cringe but i wanted to test out how to do an animatic again and the only clip i had was this one from pearl
i have not . touched anything moving in so long oh god
#this took like 30 mins dfjkdffd#the other 30 was searching up how the hell the animation timeline worked in csp again#this is definitely way more chibi...stylized than i would like but i also draw way too slow and im not going to do all that just for a test#sighhh#i need to learn how to animate for real this time#it was my promise to myself now that i bought a display tablet lmao#everyone here will be forced to come along the ride of me learning how to animate#yay!!!! totally not embarrassing whatsoever#my art#eydimvs#<- temporary tag until i find a better sounding one
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I HATE tiktok and the Internet in general rn for the obsession with "oh this person's smellyyy" "Brother it STINKS over here" "BOO 💧🧼🧽🚿" and stuff like that. I wish I could put into words how demeaning and patronising that whole idea is and people implying anyone they don't like doesn't wash.
For one there's something grating about being insulted in a manner like we're in nursery again. But also WHY is that the go to insult. Why do you associate these things? Especially to those you deem "chronically online". Like I don't want to sound pathetic but it feels so nasty to me.
is it extreme to say this feels tied to ableism? And classism too?
#“take a shower” me sitting here with depression and no will to even move rn. That doesnt make me feel worse or anything#dry to wet change is also evil. and i get decision paralysis a lot and just struggle to motivate myself to do basic human tasks#and thats just me#what about the people with physical disabilities that struggle to find the energy and strength to do these things#And also like environmental factors too?#like kids can be unhygienic cause they arent being cared for and learning properly#people with learning disabilities and neurodiversity too may struggle with not being taught properly as its a “basic thing everyone knows”#people are homeless karen.#people cant afford to wash regularly#people grow up or are forced to live in unhygienic places and surrounded by smokers and alcoholics#people who are smokers and alcoholics and generally people with addiction can smell#people with health issues that cause them to sweat more#Like the list goes on#but idk maybe I'm just sensitive#anti anti#profiction#proship#neurodivergent#cringe culture#ableism#classism
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RULES OF BEING OTHERKIN #1
Being authentic and true to yourself is the only way you are 'supposed to be/act like' (insert entity). If anyone else disagrees it only tells you about them.
#going to start a small 'series' where I document stuff I learn that is otherkin specific. This is for myself as well as anyone who might#be struggling with things I used to/am working on(otherkin specific). hopefully this will reduce any mental pitfalls other otherkin may#fall into as they explore their identity and help out someone.#this 'rule' took a LONG time to fully understand and grasp. for the longest time I would consciously or subconsciously#think I was less Loki if I did or was something 'Loki would never do. until i realized I do exactly and experience exactly what Loki does#and experiences because...Im literally Loki. (talking about incarnations here). I felt pressured to be a certain way because 'Loki would#never (insert). being aroace is on of them. i tried to convince myself I wasn't aroace#and when I finally ran out of reasons i felt i was 'less Loki' because mythologically hes like the opposite. but Loki IS aroace. because#Im Loki. and Im aroace. so loki is SUPPOSED to be aroace because Im loki and im being exactly how loki is being. because im loki. being#myself. therefore being exactly like Loki. again - incarnation.#anyway....if anyone else struggles with this I hope this helps someone. its a really sucky place to be in honestly.#godkin#deitykin#alterhuman#otherkin#divinekin#nonhuman#alterbeing#therian#I think I will be learning a LOT more as I keep exploring and I will note down any 'rules' I learn - more like lessons but rules personally#sound more right for me. rules i will live by (yknow unless i find out im wrong but...im going to trust myself more and right now i feel#like this rule is true. so im using it as such unless i find out im wrong in future.
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Sure, anyone can say aromantic people are broken but I can absolutely pull an uno reverse card and point out just how fucking broken you have to be that you don't feel complete or whole unless you have a significant other. People will say shit like "my other half" and how two people "complete eachother" and I'M the one who's broken. Brother I am whole. Skill issue on your part
#aro#aromantic#arospec#if you feel as though you require another person to make you feel fulfilled i don't think you're very happy#even alloromantic people need to learn to be content in their own company and be Okay with being single#finding the right person isn't gonna complete you no matter how good they might be. you have to be able to live with yourself first#not saying you gotta love yourself cause i sure as hell don't love myself but you gotta get rid of your self loathing
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I have a new uquiz for you, go on a pilgrimage with me. discover who you are.
#don't you want to go on a nice medieval pilgrimage?#don't you want to rest a little? answer some questions? learn something about yourself?#this was originally a pentiment medieval quiz and now it's this#it's pretty good imo though. i had a lot of fun researching it#yes there really is a biblio. ill write it up soon but its parts of the pentiment biblio plus some stuff i found myself#really thank you to everyone who made pentiment. you know how sometimes you find a piece of art at exactly the right time?#well i discovered pentiment just as my interests perfectly intersected with it. (those interests being history historiography and grief)#have fun etc. tag your results#that's always great#quiz#uquiz#pentiment#medieval#mine#sorry for being absent for a bit. holidays kind of suck#sorry abbie i couldnt fit the saw bathroom in thisone. i couldn't think of a way to do it naturally#i listened to SAVED! and SINNER GET READY the entire time i was writing this so yeah there's a ref. sue me
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Slightly enamoured by the idea that Bruce leaves Clark secret, romantic messages microscopically encoded in the punctuation of reports he gives him, under the pretense of Clark checking them over.
#I can not at the moment tell you what comic this was. Or even if this is something that I maybe hallucinated (lol tragic)#But. Superman once read microdots that looked like punctuation but contained other text#If I ever find what that was about so will you but until then#I thought this was just as cute as learning Kryptonian/another element of their ways of knowing each other#made myself gag a little at that (warning: immature)#shrugs#batman#superman#superbat#bruce wayne#clark kent#superman comics#superbat headcanons#my headcanons
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And here's all of the converted Centibytes together! I had to chop the big image I had into pieces because otherwise it gets compressed to hell, lol
#centibytes#my art#i don't have anything meaningful to say really... i'm very happy to have finished all of these#i'm not done with them altogether though- i've got a couple different things i still want to do now that all the colors are done#thanks to everyone who followed along!!#i've been mostly doing these for myself- i find it really satisfying to learn how to match the style and push myself#but it makes me super happy that other people like them too!!!
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MDZS x Warrior Cats AU (part 1): That boy can meow!
Names and a huge inspiration credits to @clintbeefwoods!
(part 2)
#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#mdzs au#mdzs warrior cats au#wei wuxian#mo xuanyu#little apple#lan wangji#lan wunian#If you thought for a second I wouldn't find a way to keep littlewang in this au#then you have severely underestimated my horse yuri powers.#The start of the Warrior cats AU begins! Yes the clans are somewhat the same but the lore *has* shifted to better suit mdzs canon.#For one: Cross clan apprentice training is an option. Gusu school arc is still a school arc.#wwx would have a blast pouncing on lwj's Too Long Tail He Has Yet To Grow Into.#(Its very important to me that lwj/bluepaw has those kittenish big ears).#I will probably circle back to drawing teenxian apprentice antics after I get through the cast.#I had to put myself into a cat drawing boot camp for this AU (despite my sona being a cat I...actually don't really know how to draw one).#and I feel like I learned a lot + need a lot more practice...however this *is* the practice! It's for fun!#I'll be alternating comics and AU stuff this month! happy chatember!#Clintbeefwoods has put a ton of work into this AU and I am so excited to show it off!
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