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āYou lookādifferent,ā Mike says, his hand motioning around his own jaw.Ā āHmm,ā Will blushes and brings his shoulders to his ears. āI donāt knowājust grown up I guess.āĀ Mike shakes his head and sets his drink on the table, forgotten. Heās crouched over like he always is, back looking uncomfortably bent and his hands hanging loose in between his spread legs. It doesnāt go unnoticed by Will how close his knees are to Mikeās fingers.Ā āNo,ā Mike says, his tone adamant. āNot just grown upājustāI donāt knowāmore you .ā He laughs at himself. āThat sounds stupidāāĀ āNo, no!ā Will interrupts. āI think I know what you mean.āĀ āI like this,ā Mike states softly and reaches out. Will tries not to wince when his hand comes up to his face and he fiddles with the small, silver earring dangling from his left ear. He hopes his cheeks arenāt purple for how embarrassed he is.Ā āOh,ā he says, and Mike pulls away when he brings his own hand up to his ear. āMy one friend makes jewelry. She works in a tattoo shop and does piercings. I was her guinea pig for a while, so Iāve had a few different ones over the years.āĀ Mike lifts his eyebrows in surprise. āOh? Like what?ā he asks and the teasing curiosity in his eyes makes Willās heart pitter-patter wildly in his chest.Ā He tries to hold his smile in, but canāt help but return his cheeky mood. Thereās something that feels so natural about the rhythm theyāve already found and it makes Will think of sleepovers in Mikeās basement and popcorn at the movies and swimming in the lake the summer after Vecna was dead and buried forever. The summer that felt like childhood had given him a second chance after it was ripped from him years before. So Will lets the grin heās been holding back take over his whole face and sticks his tongue out at Mike playfully, pointing to the tiny scar there, thoroughly enjoying the way Mikeās mouth drops open further and further as his eyes follow where Will silently points: his eyebrow, his lip, his other ear.Ā āNo shit,ā he breathes, the corners of his mouth turning up to reveal the infectious smile he remembers so well. The one that had to be earned by most. The one that Mike always gave to him freely. āDo you have any more?āĀ Will blinks at him, but the flirtatious words come out of his mouth before he can even think. Mike always did have a way of making his walls fall down instantly. āI have another one that I kept besides my earring.āĀ āAnother one?ā Mike asks with surprise. He straightens his back and his eyes fall below Willās neck. ā Where? āĀ Ā Will twists his mouth with amusement. āJustā another one .āĀ āThatās it?!ā Mike almost squeaks in abject offense. āYouāre not going to tell me!ā He frowns jokingly and grumbles, āSo much for being best friends.ā Will watches his friend take another sip of his drink and tucks his hair behind his ear. The hair heād let grow out in his naturally wild curls immediately falls back along his cheek and Will isnāt sure what to say to his words. Best Friends.
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#byler#byler reunion fic#byler fanfic#justmyname#lay me down slow#will byers#stranger things#mike wheeler#90s byler#i listened to cool about by boygenius it too many times and this is the result#spicy byler
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must a book have āplotā and āstructureā and āprogression.ā is it not enough for characters to be in a place. and for that place to be really fucking weird.
#this post brought to you by. who else. lay me down. one day i will post about things that r not her but that day#is not today i fear#anyways today the concept of pacing knocks me down and kicks me in the ribs over and over and over again more news at 12.#ithink iām having trouble bc the book starts out VERY fast paced for like the first 2-3 chapters (<- Agnes And The Awful Horrible No Good#Very Bad Day) but then REALLY slows down and stays slowed down from then on. idk i just need to find a way to either slow down the beginnin#or make the rest move faster eye think#wip: ghost story
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An AWS comic
#My art#For the record I am not a medical professional and as far as I know AWS isn't even something you can be diagnosed with???#It's so hard to describe what the two sensory hallucinations really *FEEL* like#Like the time one... You know how a dramatic slow motion scene looks like in an anime?#It's like that but if you made it a 60 fps interpolated version of it#It is an absolutely bizarre feeling#Meanwhile the hyper awareness and everything feeling intense feels like how a fisheye lens shot in an anime feels#No I could not be bothered to try to figure out how to draw that for this comic#For the record I haven't actually had those visual hallucinations since I was a small small child#Hell I don't even think I had any hallucinations in my teens at all like#The sensory ones just kinda started happening again in the past 7 years or so?#Also the swelling sensation I've only had once so far. Usually I get the hyper awareness sensation#(Also sometimes I get this intense feeling of swaying when I go to bed but that might not be an AWS thing??)#(Like there's other things that could make you feel like you're rocking on a boat when laying down so I didn't include that)#No I have never talked to anyone about these hallucinations because for the longest time I didn't know what they were#And they are like. Harmless. Like I'm 100% aware they're just strange sensations but not real at all#They last max 15 minutes if even that long and they happen like super rarely#Only once have I had the hyper awareness be SO INTENSE it made me feel distressed#So like. It doesn't really affect my life at all? So why bother with it?#Also IDK if I could even go to a doctor and ask about AWS and have them know what that even is#And even if I could as far as I know there is no treatment for it so like. Whatever#As long as I don't start having distressing hallucinations or visual hallucination's I'll be fiiiiiine
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Thank you so much for all the kind birthday wishes! I'll try and respond to them soon! You guys are so sweet and I love all of you <3
#naff nuh huh#okay so reason why i'll be slow to respond is in the tags so please don't keep reading if you don't want to read about being sick#SICK WARNING READ NO MORE#anyways#went to my favorite Brazilian grill last night for my birthday#loved it everything was great the coconut limeade was delicious#but the second we left i threw up everything in my mom's car#then all through the night#i was throwing up bile and uhhhh not doing so great on the other end#i think i got food poisoning#my stomach cramped so hard that i just wanted to lay down and never get back up#soooo#start of birthday: we're so back#end of brithday: we're so over#no one else who ate with me got sick though#so i'm not sure what did it but my whole body revolted#it was a really nice birthday despite all of that <3
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š hey there! I feel the need to spread some god damn happiness, so PLEASE share with me your OCs. I want to draw as many as I can manage. They can be from any fandom, or just something you made yourself!
#oc#final fantasy xiv#loz#legend of zelda#world of warcraft#guild wars 2#dungeons and dragons#ill probably add tags as days go on#i love drawing races of any kind really#the only thing i have a rough time with is strictly mecha#but im willing to try#lay them on me#(im also kinda a slow artist so pls be patient)#ive seen a lot of just#negativity#tearing others down and such in mutiple platforms#so this is me giving back to kindness that people have shown me
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using my art skillz to force my faves to interact no matter what
#I just keep adding to the WIP pile#this one took about three hours to get from initial sketch to laying down flats which#does sound slow but considering thereās three subjects here thatās crazy fast to me#especially considering I clearly spent more time on Chelsea and Piper than Drew loll#Leighās WIPs#fantasticalleighās art#not tagging this thoroughly bc i'll do that when it's officially polished and finished
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fnsdkfnsjkdfaskdjfaskjdl taash' level 1 bond description (the 'associate'/'contract killer'/'fellow necromancer' sort of blurb under their level on the companion screen) is just 'Here'. taash. you have to understand. I know you don't give a fuck, but to me, you are perfect
#they're literally just here#god forbid enbys do anything: the character. I have known them personally for five minutes and I would lay down my life for them#dragon age: the veilguard#dragon age#dragon age: the veilguard spoilers#dragon age spoilers#taash#this got such a good laugh out of me I've been having a real slow cumbersome morning of it but this brought me back to life#I brought harding with me on this one (as a treat! meet your future spouse and also congrats on them jesus christ)#and i imagine rye running around like '...y'know. I miss lucanis. when he isn't here.' and harding is patiently like 'yeah we know'#and then the note you pick up about the grey warden upset to be parted from their... buddy? unless... at the reassignment#PEAK accidental environmental storytelling going on here. rye automatically assuming they'd go in quietly and stealthily for an ambush#and taash just jumping out. you have been working too much with someone on the same wavelength as you babyboy you forget these things#I'm creating emergent narratives you wouldn't believe out here#the contrast of how rye's whole little goth deal looks in cutscenes in the necropolis vs. under the bright rivaini sun tho fhdskjfsa#out of their element but game to give it a shot. I'm good with sand the necropolis has a lot of sand
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i like ghostflower (hell I draw fanarts for them) but Iāve decided I like the version of them in my head more and will just stay away from the fandom in general cuz Iāve seen some discussion and they just make me go āwhat on earth are yāall onā šššš
#āmiles will immediately forgive gwen when he sees sheās gathered a whole team to save him WHAT#heāll save himself first then befriend Miles G. and Miles G. will start hissing like the cats when that team comes and Miles looks upset#like I firmly believe miles will only talk to Hobie and Margo after all that cuz they r the two that stand by his side thru whole that#like that take is so insane when Hobie is the reason Miles can run away in the first place and Margo risks everything to allow Miles leaving#AND HE KNOWS#u donāt even need a scale to see who Miles will associate with safety and protection more after atsv#also āmiles keep getting up after heās beaten down cuz that what Gwen told him to do in itsv is ALSO insane cuz WHAT#the thing she said when she and others were berating and crowding Miles for not knowing how to be Spider-Man just FEW DAYS after heās bitten#??????#THAT THING????#not his momās words or his uncleās or idk THATāS HOW HE IS???#*walk in the tag* *walk out immediately*#u donāt have to make them the only person in each otherās life to prop the ship up especially in this case cuz it makes no sense š#actually the first point srl piss me off cuz that team was only possible in the first place cuz of Hobie and Margo and Miles laying#the groundwork by just being a sweetheart he is#charming and inspiring ppl so ofc these kids will rally behind him and team up to save him#ykno LIKE IN THE COMIC TOO???#ppl just have to take the only thing I donāt like in the movie (miles suddenly obsessed over Gwen when they didnāt even interact that much#in itsv) and magnify it x100 in fandom#if she aināt a gremlin girl that is trying her best to regain Milesā trust but itās a slow process and Miles needs space and time first then#I donāt want it
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No thoughts, head empty. Only this video playing on loop.
#i felt my stomach literally TURN#this made me so sick#heās so hot???????#and for what!!!!!!!!!!#slow and dirty????? yeah get outta here#i need to go lay down#harry styles is a sick man
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going from normal sized socks to socks with half the stitches is crazy...i already feel like im zipping along on normal socks so this is like i blink and im at the next step 0.0
#would go a lot faster if i could maybe stop injuring myself getting on and off my bed#not sure what i did to my foot but its stiff and kinda painful and noticably swollen. minor sprain ?#fucked up my knee and then continually my wrist which is whats actually slowing me down. bc like. i start getting into/out of bed#and then when im Almost safely laying/standing i fall the rest of the way#i am hoping its just migraine lack of spactial awareness being worse than usual bc the migraine is worse than usual#but you really never know. maybe if i just fall on doctors until i injure of THEM theyll listen#disability#chronic illness#sock knitting
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Chapt 3 of Lay Me Down Slow.
Suddenly, he looks up, eyes flashing with something intense. One side of his mouth turns up in a half smile.Ā āRemember when we were in the Upside Down with Lucas and Dustin and we were hiding in the grocery store after the demogorgon chased us and I patched the cuts on your face?āĀ āYes,ā Will replies, standing up straight, and liking the way Mikeās eyes follow him upwards. Dying a little bit in the way they are set ablaze with the memory. He isnāt sure how eyes so black can be so alive. So dark, you can barely discern pupils from iris. He knows to most, beauty lies in blue eyes that are clear like glass and green and gold eyes that arouse feelings of summer. But to Will, these eyes, his eyes , are the most beautiful heās ever seen. Dark like a crow sitting in a winter tree after a snowstorm. In the gauzy light of this white bathroom heās made up of milky light and the blackest shadows, like a charcoal drawing he might sketch out in one of his notebooks; something stolen away from the Elysian Fields. The closest Will might ever get to a place like that. It seems in his life, hell had been much more taken with him.Ā āSometimes I think about it,ā Mike continues softly, mouth turning up in a gentle smile. āWhat?ā Will asks, setting the supplies on the counter and rubbing his palms nervously along his thighs. He glances down at Mike with confusion.Ā āYou,ā Mike states, his vowels a little rough around their edges and his face pleading with him.Ā Ā Itās a simple statement. One word. But as Will stares down at his childhood best friend who he barely knows anymore, it feels as if a veil has been lifted from his eyes. It feels as if Mike has said one thousand I love yous. Iāve always loved you. Iām sorry it took me so long. Iām sorry for everything. Itās always been you. Love me. Hold me. Kiss me. So he does.Ā
#byler#stranger things#will byers#mike wheeler#lay me down slow#byler fanfic#justmyname#writing snippet
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hello yes, i am currently watching e5 s4 of umbrella academy, and yes, I want to cry. not in the good way.
#tua#tua season 4#tua s4#why#JUST WHY DO YOU HAVE TO SACRIFICE THEIR PERFECTLY GOOD PLATONIC RELATIONSHIP FOR THE SAKE OF MORE DRAMA#It was like a horror movie#but instead of ominous banging at the door it was the slow realization creeping up on me when Five and Lila started starting at each other#please excuse me while i lay myself down in the earth and perish beneath the weight of my fears being confirmed#no actually i'm going to finish the series now#wish me luck#the umbrella academy
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I know yāall follow me for South Park Insanity, but I have a personal PCE win to share
(Medical and ED stuff mentioned so below the cut)
I mentioned a while back that for the past few months Iāve been struggling with lack of appetite and inability to keep anything down, steadily devolving into malnutrition and being legitimately scared about it. And try as I had been, I have had no energy to make progress and have only gotten worse. Early in the morning after another sleepless night and after involuntarily throwing up the only food Iād been able to eat for a few days at 1 am, I finally dragged my broke uninsured ass to the emergency room as soon as it opened, shaking and dizzy and scared out of my mind.
Yāall. The doctors and the nurses were so helpful and patient even as I was actively panicking, listening to the root cause of it all, administering zofran and hooking me to whatās apparently called a ābanana bagā with every vitamin imaginable bc IT TURNS OUT my ass is deficient in SO MUCH SHIT. I felt the best I have in months after discharge, all day. I even had the energy to spend the day on the couch with my partner instead of lying in bed PLUS THE ENERGY TO GO FOR A FUCKING WALK AFTER EATING A SOLID MEAL (and drinking a shit ton of orange juice ofc) while we waited for my scrip to be filled!!! I genuinely donāt remember the last time I was able to just leisurely enjoy the sun and grass.
And bonus: I got a prescription for an anti nausea medication and apparently a side effect is drowsiness (so I have a few days off work to adjust to that which I got mixed feelings about) so I might actually get some sleep coming up!
Iām a huge hypocrite I know, but listen to your body when you need outside help. Itās scary and hard but I feel worlds better already. š
#take care of yourself#not sp#personal#probable ed tw#medical shit#I ate TWO!!! ACTUAL FULL MEALS TODAY and theyāre STAYING DOWN#though Iām so fucking worried about medical bills but hey thatās a problem for when Iām more solidly recovered#and my partner was so stoked that I actually hung out with him instead of laying in bed all day#Iāve put him through so much with my mental and physical health Iām so glad I can stop doing that#he went with me to Walgreens and when I finally got out of that long ass line he had procured a basket of my favorite drinks#and easy on the stomach stuff because he knows Iāll want to start slow#I want to cry bc I genuinely donāt remember feeling this okay since maybe last October#stay winning#all I need now if for my beloved Sickfic Queen to make her triumphant return#RANT gorlie healing arc
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Welcome back to the Chill Valicer Save, where ā after introducing new member Marm L. Iser the Servo to the family last update ā we get to see how Marm is fitting in on the farm and helping out at the store! How did things go for him and the rest of the fam this fine Fall Wednesday? Well ā
-->I started with Victor and Alice in bed and Smiler and Marm watching romantic TV together (though if this stirred any feelings between creator and creation, they didn't act upon them). I decided to check on Marmās enhancement status while they were both chilling, and upon learning he could indeed be enhanced, had Smiler upgrade him so heād charge a bit faster going forward. Nice! Marm then got to recharging on the couch (apparently robots can take naps, who knew?) while Smiler lectured Surprise on scratching the furniture (Surprise, in a typical cat move, pretended to have no idea what they were talking about) before heading out to the porch to ask Shadow, sadly chewing on her ball, what was wrong. Turns out Shadow was feeling down and needed hugs and treats ā Smiler was only too happy to provide, along with a brushing. :) I then had them feed Toothy before heading down into the barn basement to make some strawberry nectar ā I mean, they were feeling flirty anyway, so why not? I donāt think it had any effect on the final product, of course, but it feels like it should have. :p
-->While that was going on, Victor and Alice both woke up around 3 AM ā I immediately put Victor on āupgrading the tub in the black-and-yellow bathroomā duty, since he had a want to increase his Handiness (and in fact was very close to maxing it). Had him give it a water recycler (using eco parts, of course), pulsating jets, soothing jets, and a self-cleaning coating. I mean, he did all that for the shower, might as well do the same for the tub! Alice, for her part, talked to Snappy the Sixam Mosquito Trap for a bit (it was a want), then got back to working on her book. In Smilerās room, because of course she did ā never mind that I clicked on HER computer in HER and Victorās room. *sigh* I really should lock the various computers to their owners, shouldnāt I?
Anyway, while Victor and Alice were thus occupied, Smiler finished their nectar and put it in storage (the vitality and potato nectar Victor found in the prairie grass the other day also made it in there), then went upstairs to stand by the robotics bench so I could sort out the pictures in their and Aliceās inventories and pick my favorites from the recent family reunion to put up. The best two of Aliceās pictures of the group and Marm himself, along with one of Smiler and Marmās selfies, went into the free ācolumn of three picturesā frames they got from the reunion and hung up near the robotics station, while another Smiler-and-Marm selfie went up in Smilerās room, on the side wall between the windows (over their yoga mat). :) So now Marm has a presence on the walls of the house, nice. Though, while I was doing all that, I noticed there was a Potion of the Nimble Mind in the household inventory for some reason ā
-->And then looked in the barn basement and realized that Victorās potion display was missing a cube! >.< Yeah, back when I did the small house renovation and jazzed up the basement, I had trouble getting that top left corner display case to slot in, but I didnāt expect it to just POP OFF THE WALL! (If youāre wondering what happened to the shelf itself, I am pretty sure I recycled it by accident.) Even more annoying, I was actually able to move the display right below it up into that slot no problem, then add in a new case into the vacated spot. *shakehead* These snap-together shelves sometimes, man. At least I was able to fix the display!
-->With pictures sorted and Victor, Alice, and Marm all occupied, I had Smiler head into the greenhouse to clean up some cursed objects there (a slime monster and a creepy doll), then had them clean Mooryās shed (which really needed it) while making the recently-awakened Marm clean the chicken coop instead of watching Politi-Sim (trust me, Marm, you donāt wanna watch politics). Smiler then pulled the recyclable trash out of the bin, before returning to the greenhouse to drop off Elmer and Bugs the gardening bots and put them to work! Because we hadnāt used the little bots in a while, and judging by the state of the greenhouse, Victor was going to need the help. XD
-->Speaking of Victor, by this point heād finished all the tub upgrades (without maxing out his Handiness, boo) ā he went and had a little chat with Alice as she finished off her book, then showed a little love to Shadow before heading downstairs to finish off the last of the banana split waffles while I had Alice clean up some of the dirty plates around the place. And as for Marm ā well, having FINALLY gotten around to the front of the house to throw away the chicken poop, he decided he wanted to play with the cowplant. I allowed this, but I first made him turn on hover mode so heād move quicker. Because a walking Servo walks VERY SLOWLY, I have discovered. *grimace* Like, EA, seriously, what the hell is the deal with THAT?? *sigh* This is why I stick to occults like vampires and spellcasters...
#sims 4#the lazy save#victor van dort#alice liddell#smiler always#marm l iser#I love how I enhanced Marm so he'd charge quicker#and the first thing he did was lay down for a nap#Lazy Sims man#though I suppose this means it's easy to make sure he's not making a nuisance of himself somewhere#while I'm trying to wrangle my other Sims#but yeah fairly typical morning for the trio#with me forcing Victor to upgrade all the plumbing in the house#and Alice to write her books#though I still don't know why she prefers Smiler's computer half the time#then again we all know Sims are extremely weird#and that's why they had to do the 'bathroom vs kitchen' sink update#sooooo#and yeah a Servo's walking speed is almost EMBARRASSINGLY SLOW#like come on EA#at least hover mode is solid#and Marm playing with Toothy is cute :P#queued
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#i dont know what's up with me but these last days (weeks?) have been truly hard#i barely have energy to do stuff besides work. i get up i work and i scroll and scroll and scroll and scroll through social media#i do it at work when it's slow and i do it after work when i don't have anything else to do or when nothing im doing satisfies me#my head hurts and my body hurts and my heart hurts as well and i wish i could just stop hurting for one second and be functional again#i used to wish for a bit of free time where i could just stop and rest but now when i do it i feel even worse#oh well#i dont think a timer on apps would be a solution because i will just lay down and do nothing instead
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I'm actually kind of mad after wearing a knee brace (with patella support!) for 2 days because I just went down for breakfast not wearing it and my kneecap was wobbling loosely in its socket like it's done for years and I could FEEL how wrong it was and just had the biggest "you LIVE like this??!" moment and now i GUESS I am wearing a knee brace every time I go near stairs forever because it turns out it's not ideal if parts of your body have their own plans for every joint movement.
Mobility aids <3
#mad at myself for not even noticing it was weird even though I've known I have the stretchy joints for years now#honestly I need a full like. Scientific observation from behind glass hooked up to machines and doing silly little tasks for science week#please find out what is happening in here#I also got 1 ankle support and out of curiosity slept in it last night#and omg one foot resting upright made me realise how much the other was flat on the bed#when I lay on my back#the same thing that got me diagnosed in the first place#the rheumatologist who'd just told me I don't have cancer because of the bloodwork had me lie down to examine#he took one look at my flat fuck friday feet and like actually yelled in alarm and recoiled#which took some explaining#anyway he poked and prodded me but he already had said 'oh you have hypermobility and it's given you fibro'#this is why specialists also have to keep up with all the other medicines too :P#(i spent a weekend with my medic friend recently and she has Stories oh my god)#(was too busy talking to look at my feet even as I told her I'd dislocated my ankle and knee as we talked XD)#POINT IS I'm very slow to notice things about my condition#I quit chocolate for a year because I worried it was giving me migraines#and was too busy having migraines to notice the chocolate wasn't what gave me migraines
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