#lay me down slow

[starsarefire824]

“You look—different,” Mike says, his hand motioning around his own jaw.  “Hmm,” Will blushes and brings his shoulders to his ears. “I don’t know—just grown up I guess.”  Mike shakes his head and sets his drink on the table, forgotten. He’s crouched over like he always is, back looking uncomfortably bent and his hands hanging loose in between his spread legs. It doesn’t go unnoticed by Will how close his knees are to Mike’s fingers.  “No,” Mike says, his tone adamant. “Not just grown up—just—I don’t know—more you .” He laughs at himself. “That sounds stupid—”  “No, no!” Will interrupts. “I think I know what you mean.”  “I like this,” Mike states softly and reaches out. Will tries not to wince when his hand comes up to his face and he fiddles with the small, silver earring dangling from his left ear. He hopes his cheeks aren’t purple for how embarrassed he is.  “Oh,” he says, and Mike pulls away when he brings his own hand up to his ear. “My one friend makes jewelry. She works in a tattoo shop and does piercings. I was her guinea pig for a while, so I’ve had a few different ones over the years.”  Mike lifts his eyebrows in surprise. “Oh? Like what?” he asks and the teasing curiosity in his eyes makes Will’s heart pitter-patter wildly in his chest.  He tries to hold his smile in, but can’t help but return his cheeky mood. There’s something that feels so natural about the rhythm they’ve already found and it makes Will think of sleepovers in Mike’s basement and popcorn at the movies and swimming in the lake the summer after Vecna was dead and buried forever. The summer that felt like childhood had given him a second chance after it was ripped from him years before. So Will lets the grin he’s been holding back take over his whole face and sticks his tongue out at Mike playfully, pointing to the tiny scar there, thoroughly enjoying the way Mike’s mouth drops open further and further as his eyes follow where Will silently points: his eyebrow, his lip, his other ear.  “No shit,” he breathes, the corners of his mouth turning up to reveal the infectious smile he remembers so well. The one that had to be earned by most. The one that Mike always gave to him freely. “Do you have any more?”  Will blinks at him, but the flirtatious words come out of his mouth before he can even think. Mike always did have a way of making his walls fall down instantly. “I have another one that I kept besides my earring.”  “Another one?” Mike asks with surprise. He straightens his back and his eyes fall below Will’s neck. “ Where? ”   Will twists his mouth with amusement. “Just— another one .”  “That’s it?!” Mike almost squeaks in abject offense. “You’re not going to tell me!” He frowns jokingly and grumbles, “So much for being best friends.” Will watches his friend take another sip of his drink and tucks his hair behind his ear. The hair he’d let grow out in his naturally wild curls immediately falls back along his cheek and Will isn’t sure what to say to his words. Best Friends.

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[artkaninchenbau]

An AWS comic

[naffeclipse]

Thank you so much for all the kind birthday wishes! I'll try and respond to them soon! You guys are so sweet and I love all of you <3

[drenched-in-sunlight]

i like ghostflower (hell I draw fanarts for them) but I’ve decided I like the version of them in my head more and will just stay away from the fandom in general cuz I’ve seen some discussion and they just make me go “what on earth are y’all on” 💀💀💀💀

[boundtobreakk]

No thoughts, head empty. Only this video playing on loop.

[milkweedman]

going from normal sized socks to socks with half the stitches is crazy...i already feel like im zipping along on normal socks so this is like i blink and im at the next step 0.0

[just-a-confused-pan]

hello yes, i am currently watching e5 s4 of umbrella academy, and yes, I want to cry. not in the good way.

[1moreoffkeyanthem]

I know y’all follow me for South Park Insanity, but I have a personal PCE win to share

(Medical and ED stuff mentioned so below the cut)

I mentioned a while back that for the past few months I’ve been struggling with lack of appetite and inability to keep anything down, steadily devolving into malnutrition and being legitimately scared about it. And try as I had been, I have had no energy to make progress and have only gotten worse. Early in the morning after another sleepless night and after involuntarily throwing up the only food I’d been able to eat for a few days at 1 am, I finally dragged my broke uninsured ass to the emergency room as soon as it opened, shaking and dizzy and scared out of my mind.

Y’all. The doctors and the nurses were so helpful and patient even as I was actively panicking, listening to the root cause of it all, administering zofran and hooking me to what’s apparently called a “banana bag” with every vitamin imaginable bc IT TURNS OUT my ass is deficient in SO MUCH SHIT. I felt the best I have in months after discharge, all day. I even had the energy to spend the day on the couch with my partner instead of lying in bed PLUS THE ENERGY TO GO FOR A FUCKING WALK AFTER EATING A SOLID MEAL (and drinking a shit ton of orange juice ofc) while we waited for my scrip to be filled!!! I genuinely don’t remember the last time I was able to just leisurely enjoy the sun and grass.

And bonus: I got a prescription for an anti nausea medication and apparently a side effect is drowsiness (so I have a few days off work to adjust to that which I got mixed feelings about) so I might actually get some sleep coming up!

I’m a huge hypocrite I know, but listen to your body when you need outside help. It’s scary and hard but I feel worlds better already. 💚

[victorluvsalice]

Welcome back to the Chill Valicer Save, where – after introducing new member Marm L. Iser the Servo to the family last update – we get to see how Marm is fitting in on the farm and helping out at the store! How did things go for him and the rest of the fam this fine Fall Wednesday? Well –

-->I started with Victor and Alice in bed and Smiler and Marm watching romantic TV together (though if this stirred any feelings between creator and creation, they didn't act upon them). I decided to check on Marm’s enhancement status while they were both chilling, and upon learning he could indeed be enhanced, had Smiler upgrade him so he’d charge a bit faster going forward. Nice! Marm then got to recharging on the couch (apparently robots can take naps, who knew?) while Smiler lectured Surprise on scratching the furniture (Surprise, in a typical cat move, pretended to have no idea what they were talking about) before heading out to the porch to ask Shadow, sadly chewing on her ball, what was wrong. Turns out Shadow was feeling down and needed hugs and treats – Smiler was only too happy to provide, along with a brushing. :) I then had them feed Toothy before heading down into the barn basement to make some strawberry nectar – I mean, they were feeling flirty anyway, so why not? I don’t think it had any effect on the final product, of course, but it feels like it should have. :p

-->While that was going on, Victor and Alice both woke up around 3 AM – I immediately put Victor on “upgrading the tub in the black-and-yellow bathroom” duty, since he had a want to increase his Handiness (and in fact was very close to maxing it). Had him give it a water recycler (using eco parts, of course), pulsating jets, soothing jets, and a self-cleaning coating. I mean, he did all that for the shower, might as well do the same for the tub! Alice, for her part, talked to Snappy the Sixam Mosquito Trap for a bit (it was a want), then got back to working on her book. In Smiler’s room, because of course she did – never mind that I clicked on HER computer in HER and Victor’s room. *sigh* I really should lock the various computers to their owners, shouldn’t I?

Anyway, while Victor and Alice were thus occupied, Smiler finished their nectar and put it in storage (the vitality and potato nectar Victor found in the prairie grass the other day also made it in there), then went upstairs to stand by the robotics bench so I could sort out the pictures in their and Alice’s inventories and pick my favorites from the recent family reunion to put up. The best two of Alice’s pictures of the group and Marm himself, along with one of Smiler and Marm’s selfies, went into the free “column of three pictures” frames they got from the reunion and hung up near the robotics station, while another Smiler-and-Marm selfie went up in Smiler’s room, on the side wall between the windows (over their yoga mat). :) So now Marm has a presence on the walls of the house, nice. Though, while I was doing all that, I noticed there was a Potion of the Nimble Mind in the household inventory for some reason –

-->And then looked in the barn basement and realized that Victor’s potion display was missing a cube! >.< Yeah, back when I did the small house renovation and jazzed up the basement, I had trouble getting that top left corner display case to slot in, but I didn’t expect it to just POP OFF THE WALL! (If you’re wondering what happened to the shelf itself, I am pretty sure I recycled it by accident.) Even more annoying, I was actually able to move the display right below it up into that slot no problem, then add in a new case into the vacated spot. *shakehead* These snap-together shelves sometimes, man. At least I was able to fix the display!

-->With pictures sorted and Victor, Alice, and Marm all occupied, I had Smiler head into the greenhouse to clean up some cursed objects there (a slime monster and a creepy doll), then had them clean Moory’s shed (which really needed it) while making the recently-awakened Marm clean the chicken coop instead of watching Politi-Sim (trust me, Marm, you don’t wanna watch politics). Smiler then pulled the recyclable trash out of the bin, before returning to the greenhouse to drop off Elmer and Bugs the gardening bots and put them to work! Because we hadn’t used the little bots in a while, and judging by the state of the greenhouse, Victor was going to need the help. XD

-->Speaking of Victor, by this point he’d finished all the tub upgrades (without maxing out his Handiness, boo) – he went and had a little chat with Alice as she finished off her book, then showed a little love to Shadow before heading downstairs to finish off the last of the banana split waffles while I had Alice clean up some of the dirty plates around the place. And as for Marm – well, having FINALLY gotten around to the front of the house to throw away the chicken poop, he decided he wanted to play with the cowplant. I allowed this, but I first made him turn on hover mode so he’d move quicker. Because a walking Servo walks VERY SLOWLY, I have discovered. *grimace* Like, EA, seriously, what the hell is the deal with THAT?? *sigh* This is why I stick to occults like vampires and spellcasters...

[starsarefire824]

Chapt 3 of Lay Me Down Slow.

Suddenly, he looks up, eyes flashing with something intense. One side of his mouth turns up in a half smile.  “Remember when we were in the Upside Down with Lucas and Dustin and we were hiding in the grocery store after the demogorgon chased us and I patched the cuts on your face?”  “Yes,” Will replies, standing up straight, and liking the way Mike’s eyes follow him upwards. Dying a little bit in the way they are set ablaze with the memory. He isn’t sure how eyes so black can be so alive. So dark, you can barely discern pupils from iris. He knows to most, beauty lies in blue eyes that are clear like glass and green and gold eyes that arouse feelings of summer. But to Will, these eyes, his eyes , are the most beautiful he’s ever seen. Dark like a crow sitting in a winter tree after a snowstorm. In the gauzy light of this white bathroom he’s made up of milky light and the blackest shadows, like a charcoal drawing he might sketch out in one of his notebooks; something stolen away from the Elysian Fields. The closest Will might ever get to a place like that. It seems in his life, hell had been much more taken with him.  “Sometimes I think about it,” Mike continues softly, mouth turning up in a gentle smile. “What?” Will asks, setting the supplies on the counter and rubbing his palms nervously along his thighs. He glances down at Mike with confusion.  “You,” Mike states, his vowels a little rough around their edges and his face pleading with him.   It’s a simple statement. One word. But as Will stares down at his childhood best friend who he barely knows anymore, it feels as if a veil has been lifted from his eyes. It feels as if Mike has said one thousand I love yous. I’ve always loved you. I’m sorry it took me so long. I’m sorry for everything. It’s always been you. Love me. Hold me. Kiss me. So he does. 

[philosophiums]

i love like. wayyyyy at the end of the day sitting down and something happens and it just Clicks why everything was not great all day

[elizabethrobertajones]

I'm actually kind of mad after wearing a knee brace (with patella support!) for 2 days because I just went down for breakfast not wearing it and my kneecap was wobbling loosely in its socket like it's done for years and I could FEEL how wrong it was and just had the biggest "you LIVE like this??!" moment and now i GUESS I am wearing a knee brace every time I go near stairs forever because it turns out it's not ideal if parts of your body have their own plans for every joint movement.

Mobility aids <3

[kaisollisto]

[zaacoy]

being pelted with drawing ideas at a pace so rapid I could not hope to keep up with is both an inspiring blessing and a horrible curse

[stillfruit]

i love not knowing if i'll ever be healthy again i love all of the time i've used to move my body become nothing i love spending my adulthood wasting away year after year for various reasons baby!

[elemental-daddy-neos]

6 ibuprofen wasn't enough to touch the migraine I've had all day and the intrusive thoughts would not stop racing but when I pictured this idiot's smile in my head and did my best to just focus on that my head instantly started hurting less

What does this say about me