#lawrencij vasilevskaya

[gracilissart]

IGNORE HOW I POSTED HER ON THE WRONG BLOG 🌝 anyways. lawrencij. everyone congratulate her on the e as previously stated

[graciliss]

guys I swear I'm working on my OC ref sheets 🥲

for now. a WIP of Demise's fullbody ref (I don't want to talk about that hand)

[crebby]

demise belongs to me (@crebby)

[gracilissart]

she's just a girl

[gracilissart]

been recently thinking about my older OCs again. here's a ballpoint drawing of Lawrencij, whom I heavily fixated on a few years back

[gracilissart]

lawrencij mijn coquettekoningin ... ik zal een paperclip tekenen en er een strik op zetten ... 🩷

ze is so kroket....... 🎀

[crebby]

@sanityisforlosers I done it

Adam the Depraved © @sanityisforlosers Demise/Lawrencij © @crebby (me)

[crebby]

"artbreeder Lawrencij isn't real she can't hurt you"

artbreeder Lawrencij:

[crebby]

Rowan, having to witness Toby trying to kill Camelia: please you need to sto- Lawrencij: no no, try harder, Toby. mere injuries won't cut it.

Lawrencij belongs to me Rowan belongs to @dinklebat Camelia belongs to @theweepingdemons

[crebby]

demise: your significant other is a reflection of your poor taste ^_^ jason: sorry but that's kind of rich knowing your partner is the human equivalent of old bong water demise, looking over to see adam eat a day old cookie off the floor: this is not about me.

adam the depraved belongs to @sanityisforlosers demise belongs to me (@crebby)

[crebby]

Lawrencij but he gets caught and instead of going to jail they make him a McDonald’s drive through worker for the rest of his life

I'm not going to lie his demeanor DOES give off customer service energy

[crebby]

demise: fun fact! the barnacle is the most well-endowed creature in the animal kingdom, having the largest penis to body size ratio.

camelia: please never talk again where the fuck was the 'fun' in that fact

adam: is 'the barnacle' another new insulting nickname you're giving me or

(demise belongs to me camelia belongs to @theweepingdemons adam belongs to @sanityisforlosers)

[crebby]

Alright:

Adam x Lawrencij

oh boy. these mfs.

💊 Adam x Demise Headcanons ⛧

base info(?)

💊 these two are very ???????? together ⛧ no really their dynamic is super "what the fuck" 💊 are they healthy? no. ⛧ are they a good representation of queer relationships? no. 💊 do they deserve each other? y. yeah. ⛧ because honestly nobody else should ever have to endure the misfortune of having to deal with these two 💊 the both of them are so deranged, they actually formed some sort of connection ⛧ they don't consider themselves to be in a relationship, even though what they have technically is one 💊 unfortunately they are both so hardwired to be depraved and selfish that if they stayed together for too long, the relationship is basically doomed to fail ⛧ if one gets in the way of another's goals they'll cut each other off without hesitation 💊 because in the end, everything they do is largely in their own interest ⛧ yet they do, somehow, genuinely love each other 💊 as a result they always keep breaking up and getting back together again ⛧ really, it's unclear whether that's a good or bad thing as they consider such feeling to be a weakness

affection?? in my household????

💊 because they literally are not made to love, they have great difficulty expressing such feelings towards one another ⛧ so honestly if they say "I hate you" they really mean "I love you" 💊 compliments are always backhanded because if one displays pure positivity they will literally explode ⛧ which means you get things like "I hate humanity, but you're so disgusting I don't think there's any humanity left in you at all 💖" 💊 they do manage to mutually display their feelings for each other properly sometimes ⛧ keyword: sometimes 💊 it means they're probably in a funny mood for that to happen ⛧ in many cases, it probably also means that one has something on their mind, and as much as they don't want to rely on each other they sometimes really do need to huddle up together

woo feel free to send in more rqs! Adam belongs to @sanityisforlosers Demise (unfortunately) belongs to me

[crebby]

Adam and Lawrencij: love wins! we are gay and we will kill you

Adam the Depraved belongs to @sanityisforlosers

Demise belongs to me (@crebby)

[crebby]

Adam and Lawrencij: > having an exchange in Russian some American: speak English, you're in America now. Lawrencij, with an exaggerated American accent: woooow look at me! I'm American, from the U S of A! my hobbies are shooting children and having McDonald's with Donald Trump!

Lawrencij belongs to me Adam belongs to @sanityisforlosers

[crebby]

normalcy

pairing: adam the depraved/demise characters: adam the depraved / adam vahlryse demise / lawrencij vasilevskaya word count: 1497 warnings: mentions/vague descriptions of murder, they almost fuck so that's fun (keyword, almost) opening: late in the night, in awaiting of lawrencij to finally accompany him, adam realises he has a few things on his mind regarding this relationship. note: I am actively choosing not to use capital letters, lmk if it's greatly bothersome and I can probably add a version with capitalisation also this is kind of sort of bittersweet please know that

it was late. adam’s cold, grey eyes were growing heavy as he stared at the ceiling above him, counting to sixty to mark each minute. fifty-three, fifty-four, fifty-five...

he didn’t let lawrencij know, but really, adam didn’t really have any actual pastimes whenever he wasn’t with the other. he didn’t see any need for it, after all. it didn’t make them feel anything. there was no satisfaction in ripping open a cacodemon in doom. he didn’t particularly feel anything if he tried drawing. maybe they’d chuckle a little if he watched Gordon Ramsay, but deep down they knew nothing could ever replicate the morbid rush of dragging a blade through bleeding flesh, or the delightfully agonising screams such harm produced.

outside of the highs produced by bloodshed and cocaine, there was nothing but lingering numbness. as a result, the most interesting way to waste away his time was to basically watch paint dry.

he couldn’t do that when lawrencij was around, though. they thought being forced to invest any time on things outside of crime would gravely irritate them, yet they found themselves... interested in partaking in activities? even if it was something stupidly nerdy like chess. mind you, adam still couldn’t understand why lawrencij liked it so much, but adam found himself enjoying it because he was doing it with her. with someone they lo-

nah. let’s not get ahead of ourselves. that’s gross.

upon realising he was about to think the world’s cheesiest thought just a few moments ago, the slav shook his head, as if he were trying to rattle the thought out of his mind, similar to how one would try to violently shake the coins out of a piggy bank. some thoughts just weren't meant to be given the time of day.

it’s not like they could keep thinking, since the sound of the door opening made adam snap out of their thoughts.

“are you gonna keep laying around like a lazy fuck?”

typical. adam sighed at the other’s statement, but a smile clearly graced his features. not that half-assed smirk he usually was seen sporting on his face when engaging in banter. just a slight smile. it would’ve almost been dreamy if they didn’t respond by saying “I wouldn’t be laying here if you didn’t go perform a wholeass ritual in the bathroom.”

“I’ll gut you like a trout and use you for an actual ritual, don’t fucking test me.” a sharp threat spoken by adam’s... what was he to adam anyways?

writing her off as a mere hookup would objectively be incorrect. he wasn’t really a side hoe (as they liked to say) either, since, well, he hadn’t really been seeing anyone else since getting this thing going with lawrencij. did that make him adam’s main hoe? that didn’t quite feel like the right thing to call it either, since if anything, adam sometimes felt like they was the hoe in this peculiar… relationship?

he wasn't very sure why he was thinking about this at all, because he was almost certain that lawrencij generally didn't care. it's not like she cared a lot about anything at all, really, just her goal of becoming god.

"lost in thought?" "nah." the taller male sat upright while responding. "thank goodness,” lawrencij hummed. “I was worried you almost developed the capacity to think." "I love you too, I guess." the lavender-eyed slav(?) scoffed at those words.

"sure."

regardless, lawrencij approached adam, his expression giving off an air of mild amusement, as it always did. the way she moved was very deliberate. then again, everything lawrencij did was with some kind of intention. that didn’t nullify the effect it had on adam, though. the light sway of the other’s hips, the intentionally slower-paced steps, the slight twitch in her fingers indicating that she was ready to pretty much lunge at the other. in an almost tantalisingly slow manner, lawrencij sat himself down on the bed, shifting the way he sat and almost half-crawling towards adam under the taller of the two was within his reach.

one hand on the side of his neck, the other tracing across adam's cheekbone using their thumb. two faces close to one another. lips fervently pressing against each other. clothes mindlessly disposed of on the floor, skin on skin creating hot friction.

it was a wonderful night to get intimate.

adam, however, found himself unable to commit this time, abruptly pulling away in the middle of a heated kiss and almost freezing as if his nervous system suddenly failed him.

lawrencij furrowed his brows, and adam wanted to tell the other that they were equally confused, that they too had no idea why they suddenly stopped, why their body froze. instead, he said nothing, unintentionally leaving a tense kind of silence to hang in the air before finally coming to his senses. what the fuck is wrong with him?

"I'm sorry," he mumbled. even when looking straight up at his lover, it was difficult to determine what was going on in the other’s head. lawrencij’s expression softened slightly before she got off of adam, lying on his side, lavender eyes locked on the taller person’s face.

they expected lawrencij to mock them, but instead he said “don’t be.” huh. adam felt his head get pulled towards the brunette’s chest while lawrencij’s slender fingers brushed through adam’s unkempt hair. “you’ve been off since I got here,” lawrencij hummed. “what’s been on your mind?”

lawrencij never asked how he felt. he himself knew how odd this would be in adam’s eyes. the two usually didn’t talk much after sex. they didn’t go on cute little dates. they didn’t chat away and laugh about trivial things. they didn’t seek any sense of normalcy within their relationship and weren’t planning to in the first place.

if you were to ask lawrencij why she was asking such a question she probably wouldn’t be able to answer with a proper reason. he didn’t care about how people felt. however, he did care about the fact that adam had been slightly off all evening, and he knew it was because adam was lingering on something. fuck, so maybe she cared about adam’s feelings of all people, and maybe she cared about making sure adam didn’t go seeking affection and attention from other people. whatever. she didn’t care that much.

there was nothing but silence. it wasn’t because adam was ignoring the question or refusing to answer it, but moreso that he had no idea how to answer the question. what would lawrencij think of them if they said something dumb like “what are we?” or “I care about what we have”?

the taller of the two averted his eyes, even if the position he was in didn’t allow for eye contact, and the belarusian pulled away a little, his eyes intently staring into adam’s. there was something so striking about them, something piercing and intense, yet oddly serene.

“hey, adam.” lawrencij murmured. “talk to me,” she added, her hand still idly playing with the other’s hair.

his soft-spoken words carried a sort of forcefulness that was unique to him. adam knew the other didn’t take no for an answer and would get things her way regardless, and as a result, he simply couldn’t not say anything. especially not when the other stared at him with that look in his eyes…

“are you ever gonna leave me?” the fact that adam asked this as an answer to lawrencij’s question didn’t initially register to them either. they just… blurted it out. when realising he actually said this and didn’t just think it, he froze, and lawrencij seemed equally stunned by this sudden response since these words made her initially moving hand freeze.

while her face remained seemingly unperturbed, it was still clear to the other that she was busy scanning the outcomes of each possible answer and determining what would be the right thing to say. he was always one to strive for the outcome that benefitted himself the most, after all.

after that split second of reflection, lawrencij realised that there was no 'correct' answer to this question.

“I would never,” he spoke.

that was a lie. lawrencij knew fully well that if the other ever became an inconvenience to her, she’d ditch him, or even kill him, and adam knew that she was lying as well.

adam didn’t care enough to comment on it, though. it was nice, lying close to each other like this. the both of them could briefly pretend that they were a normal couple who went on regular dates, who kissed each other goodnight, a couple that’d say “I miss you” over the phone before hanging up.

they could just pretend this would last while the chance presents itself. act like what they have could work out.

“I love you,” adam mumbled. “I love you too,” was what was said in return.

it’s okay to say now. after all, the both of them are just ‘pretending’.

Adam the Depraved belongs to @sanityisforlosers Demise belongs to me (@crebby)