#lawlight angst

[ondrug5]

I did this at like 3AM so the eyes look a bit off. Although I wanted to draw ghost!L haunting Light. His soulmate haunting him for the rest of his short life.

Noice

[0th3rw0rldl1n3ss]

I can’t decide whether you should live or die

WIP lawlight edit (song credit: I Can’t Decide by Scissor Sisters)

NO REPOSTS WITHOUT CREDIT

Lyrics:

It's a bitch convincing people to like you

If I stop now call me a quitter

If lies were cats you'd be a litter

Pleasing everyone isn't like you

Dancing jigs until I'm crippled

Slug ten drinks I won't get pickled

I've got to hand it to you

You've played by all the same rules

It takes the truth to fool me

And now you've made me angry

I can't decide

Whether you should live or die

Oh, you'll probably go to heaven

Please don't hang your head and cry

No wonder why

My heart feels dead inside

It's cold and hard and petrified

I’m super out of practice at edits but I thought this song was too perfect for them and I wanted to try something! I wish I could do an animatic but I do not have the patience or executive functioning rn, anyway I’m hoping to generally add more to this and extend it to the last verse and chorus later maybe?

[squeeegs]

falling awake; the first scene of @corviiids's fic telltale

1/? (2)

[nezz-cringe-crib]

"nightmares" -- lawlight angst comic

based off that one angst post i made

[starrynightarchive]

fic masterlist

you can find all my fics sorted according to fandom, ships and wordcount here! along with a silly paragraph on why you should read it in every post :p

bungou stray dogs:

achilles come down (soukokou || 6k words)

fleurs du mal (fem!skk || 2.6k words)

i won't let go of your hand (fukufuku || 1k words)

darling, don't you weep (soukokou || 3.8k words)

of heathens too far-gone to save (nikonathan || 10k words)

we are alone (and all we need) (fyolai || 4.5k words) (ft. @feralshadowdemon )

friend, please (don't take your life away from me) (fukuzawa & dazai dynamic study || 15.3k words)

where we're from, there's no sun (yosano & dazai dynamic study || 15.9k words)

he ain't heavy, he's my brother (ranpo & dazai dynamic study || 13.7k words)

navarasam (soukokou || ongoing)

haikyuu!! :

till forever falls apart (iwaoi || 82k words)

do you like or like like me? (sakuatsu || 5.2k words)

the love you gave me remains, that's why i'm still alive (sakuatsu || 13k words)

death note:

dollhouse (light & sayu dynamic study || 8.3k words)

cotton candy (lawlight || ongoing) (ft. @evilkaeya, @minusboy , @ryuvnosuke

[strawberrym1lkkkkk]

𝐀𝐧𝐝 𝐈 𝐬𝐭𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐬𝐞𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮, 𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐮𝐠𝐡 𝐲𝐨𝐮’𝐫𝐞 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐲 𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞

[numbuh424]

shoutout to whatever L and Light had going on in Time Speaks

[craetor]

Limerence🫀❣️

Inspired by Mrs Magic (Strawberry Guy) & Afterdark (Mr Kitty): some actual canon death note. I don't think i've ever made that sort of thing🤙

[hotdog7744]

Lawlight week day 6: gifts | ghosts

I lowkey almost made myself cry with this one, chat

If you can read my hand writing, I added image descriptions (which I should start doing more anyways)

Close-ups under the cut

Maybe I’ll ink and color this…maybe I won’t

[dancing-lex]

The lawlight brainworms have been revived after many days of dormancy, hallelujah!! Have a post-yotsuba WIP :]

[ondrug5]

THIS IS THE RAIN SCENE BTW Dialogue:

Light POV:

I was staring at him, at the man who angered me, the man I hated.

L: “Tell me Light, from the moment you were born, have you ever told the truth?”

His eyes were empty and dull, comparable to one of a doll’s.

His voice sent shivers down my spine.

My expression was unreadable, I’ve always had an incredible poker face.

Light: “People aren’t that perfect. Everyone lies, but even so, I’ve made a point of not telling lies that will hurt others

…that’s my answer.” I lied though my teeth

He stares at me. Then his eyes drop wordlessly to the ground again.

“…I..thought you’d say that.”

His expression surprised me, it was so..blank, void of any emotion. He looked as if he accepted defeat, welcomed death with open arms. That should’ve pleased me.

…But it made me freeze, I hated this man, I hated him so much.

Yet carrying on as if nothing happened was the second hardest thing I’ve ever done in my life.

The first was holding his limp, dead body in my arms.

———

This was inspired by my fic “Bittersweet ending” go check it out if you please.

Anyways this was SAD, and rushed as well, 2 words that should not be put in the same sentence. Am I proud of this? No. Will I delete it? Probably. But with art, there’s good days and there’s bad days, I guess you gotta get used to it lol. Anyways I’m trying to improve and this was rushed and DEFINITELY not my best work but eh I’ll probably delete it Xd.

[darkkbluee]

L sends Light letters in prison/whatever confinement center he's in. He doesn't get an answer. He figures Light isn't replying because of his hurt pride. And after months, maybe an year, L gathers the courage to go and visit Light in person.

Turns out, Light's been dead a few days into his sentence. Maybe someone killed him, maybe it was a heart attack, maybe Light killed himself. He never got any of L's letters.

And no one told L.

[jasondeansgothwife]

lawlight fic rec list

so i’m gonna do a series of these, starting with my favorite death note ship! make sure to pay attention to all warnings on these fics. enjoy! if you have a ship you’d like me to make a rec list for, please just send me an ask! i don’t want to be obnoxious, and i’m not saying they’re good, but i (slackjawbitch on ao3) have some lawlight fics up!

♡ = a favorite of kitty’s

angst

♡ 1. i’m drowning; please save me: L looks at Yagami Light and drowns. There is no other way to put it. As the days pass and blend into weeks, L looks at Yagami Light sitting next to him, the harsh lines of his face creased and determined, and he swallows water.

L looks at Yagami Light and he cannot breathe.

great characterization, always makes me very emo, and is probably a pretty major influence on my writing. one shot. 1,817 words.

2. always waiting for you just to cut to the bone: And then, breaking through the pounding in his head he hears what would be the last words out of that wretched man’s lips.

“I love you.”

fic for teh death note drama (2016) canon! title is unfortunately from a t*ylor sw*ft song (/silly) but this fic is so good and sad.

3. Our Bodies, Possessed By Light: L. Lawliet is a gifted photographer who believes he has understood the light and its secrets. Light Yagami is a young, unstable and slightly crooked model. Together, they kill time.

modeling and photography au. make sure to read all teh tags and warnings for this one; there’s nothing gross, but some potentially triggering subjects for some people are in here. multi chapter. 81,218 words.

4. Hearts and Spades: Which would you choose? Love or death? RaitoL, slight AU.

short but sweet piece featuring that classic fanfiction dot net era vibe, an emo-ass playing card metaphor (/pos), and a recounting of l’s death scene that made me sad over him all over again (also /pos). and also light being obnoxious, but it’s death note, so that’s usually a given, lol. one shot. 1,801 words.

5. Not Quite Drowning: Sometimes Light ponders happiness. L/Light

a short lawlight and light character study. i like it a lot, and i don’t usually like light, so that should tell you something about how well i think it’s written! one shot. 424 words.

♡ 6. Water, water, water: In the bath, they forget they’re a detective and a suspect; they remove these identities along with their clothes, layer by layer until there are only the handcuffs left. And them; facing the other in the eerie calmness of their bathroom.

At least, it’s how Light sees it.

i really love this one! make sure to read teh tags, as eating disorders and drugs are mentioned, for example. angst with a happy ending! one shot. 3,504 words.

fluff

1. Silver Bells: Silver bells...silver bells...

They’ve made it. Everything is okay now, when they’re dancing in the candlelight.

really, really cute! i recommend it as a palate cleanser to make you feel better after reading a sad one, lol. one shot. 1,255 words.

♡ 2. New Year’s Eve: "I've seen fireworks before," he says. "This is... so much... more."

just a cute little new year’s eve lawlight fireworks show! this one is also from 2009 which is kinda cool to me, haha. i like this author’s descriptive language a lot. one shot. 507 words.

♡ 3. Do Gay Penguins Go to Hell?: Too many New Year snacks bring about a family discussion between L, Raito and their daughter about healthy diet, common sayings and nature of good and evil. And gay penguins, of course. AU

a really darling kid fic, based on teh stupid, homophobic controversy over that adorable kids’ book about teh gay penguin couple. one shot. 3,791 words.

4. A Feeling: It's LxLight fluff! This takes place after Light was confined and lost his memories, chained to L. : D SO YUS. SOME FLUFF FOR YAH D: Hope you leik it :D

very cute “l and light cuddle and kiss” fic, written by a scene kid in 2008, which is extra points with me! one shot. 1,006 words.

alright! i will add to this rec list as i find more fics, and i would love it if people would send in their favorite lawlight fics!

[nezz-cringe-crib]

lawlight angst hc (spoilers)

i started reading the death note manga and there's this one panel talking about light's nightmares and i like to headcanon that those nightmares never go away. even when his memories are gone in the yotsuba arc, he's still having nightmares that he doesn't fully understand but he knows it has something to do with him possibly being kira. he always brushes it to the side though and keeps gaslighting himself into believing it's not true. i especially like to headcanon that the night he gets his memories back, the night before he kills L, he has the worst nightmare he's had since the start of all of this and it completely ruins him. like he just wakes up in a sweat and starts sobbing, to the point where he can't even try to deny himself from anything anymore. i also like to think that on this same night, him and L are sharing the same room together despite not being handcuffed anymore. L probably requests it just because his suspicions are up again, and watching light wake up in a complete panic is the last piece of evidence he needs. but instead of acting on this, he just chooses to ignore it. because despite everything, light is his friend. and he would like to die knowing that the night before his passing, he was beside his friend, not his murderer.

the panel in question btw:

[sporkathon-and-mel]

This Feeling

The "I love you" "it'll pass" scene but make it lawlight

Sorry it's a day late!!! We thought today was day 7 :(

"Our game has come to a draw, hasn’t it?” Light asks, he already knows the answer; he always has, but asking the question made it real. He could no longer hide in the quiet comfort of inner doubt that hung in the place of a solidified answer. The flimsy moment of hopeful delusion is over. This is real. This is it. There are no more moves to make. No checkmate to be found. Just two men, sitting on a bench, coming to terms with the reality that their time together is over.

They sit in silence, the question weighing heavily in the air, seeming to crush them both as neither says another word. Seconds go by and feel like years. Water no longer drips from the roof of the bus stop station, and the buzzing neon lights of the route schedule sign seem to pause, leaving the two in the hollow silence of the wind.

“Yeah, it has.” L breathes, wishing the wind could take the sound of his response away in its path and leave them in the peace of their fantasy. But it didn’t. It never seems to.

The answer could change nothing about their knowledge. They both knew it was over. The situation, however, was irreparably changed.

The air sparked with the fate of the moment, with the long pent up confession that would follow the response that doomed them both to reality.

“Do you know what?” Words softly break the quiet moment. Light hesitates to continue, turning to face his partner. “The worst part of all this… the worst part is that I love you. God, I hate it, but I love you.” He knows that he’s wrong, that his love is wrong, that he should be ashamed, but he can’t look away from him. He can’t turn away for fear that if he turned back, his love would be gone to him forever.

He’s not supposed to love the man who is meant to catch him and condemn him for his actions. His love should be reserved for someone who agrees with him, who melds with his opinions and actions, but he can’t choose who to love no matter how hard he tries. He tried to love her, but he couldn’t. Lord knows he tried, and he’s afraid that the lord knows about this too.

L pauses for a moment. He doesn’t know what to say. He should, he knows he should. He’s always so prepared, always one step ahead, always ready for anything. Anything but love. He moves to try to speak, to say something, to find one more move in this impossible draw, but he’s interrupted before he can even begin.

“No, L. Please, just let that sit for a minute.” He knows if he doesn’t say this all now, it’ll be too late. This is his one chance. Not for a happy ending, he knows not to hope for that, but to at least tell someone of his love, to let it be out there, to let it be real.

“I love you.” The two detectives sit in silence as the wind sings in an air of fate. It sings of would-been’s and will-be’s. It sings of love and loss and the way the two dance as an inseparable pair.

The silence is too full for another word, so the two just sit and listen to the water drip, and the lights buzz, and the wind sing. Each sound rings with the words ‘I love you”.

When the silence is quiet again, and the echo of the words dies down, L turns to Light.

“It’ll pass.” Light can only laugh.

He takes Light’s hand in his, mourning a love never to be lived, and intertwining their fingers. Their wind chilled fingers melds into one mass through the field of burning tears in their eyes, and there is nothing left to be done.

They pause for their final, infinite moment before L slowly separates his hand from Light’s before slowly bringing his legs beneath him. He takes a few steps away, each echoing his words as his boots step into shallow puddles on damp concrete.

‘It’ll pass… It’ll pass… It’ll pass…’

“I’m leaving the case. It’s time for me to move on, and I hope you can do the same.” L’s words drip with finality as he begins to walk into the darkness down the street, his shoes still echoing the words.

It’s okay. Light knows those words are a lie anyway. Love never passes, it just changes. It changes into hate, grief, pain, memory, but it’s always there, and it was always love.

L turns back to the bus stop one last time, to face his lover one last time. “I love you too.” He says quietly, only this time, the wind does carry his words. His lover nods and L turns, resigning from their stalemated game, and from Light’s life.

“Checkmate.” Light whispers to himself, knowing exactly what to do next. L may have resigned his king, but by no means did Light have to take it. He wants the game to go on and by God, that game will go on.

He takes the Death Note out of the inner pocket of his coat, its black cover becoming spotted with raindrops as a light rain starts to pick up. Light smiles, tears out one page, and throws the rest of the book in the bus stop trash bin. After all, there’s only one more name he needs to write. He folds the final page into a neat square and tucks it back into his pocket, beginning to walk down the street away from the bus stop, and away from his lover.

Two different paths will always have the same outcome if one is determined enough. It will never end like this. Love will never pass, and even if it would, do you really think Light would let it?

[anime-related]

Hey, does anyone have any Lawlight fic recs in an AU where Light gets his memories back but realises he was being an idiot and instead pins it all on Higuchi so he can continue investigating with L? Thanks.