#they are my forever doomed gay yaoi and they will stay in my heart

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lawlight angst hc (spoilers)

i started reading the death note manga and there's this one panel talking about light's nightmares and i like to headcanon that those nightmares never go away. even when his memories are gone in the yotsuba arc, he's still having nightmares that he doesn't fully understand but he knows it has something to do with him possibly being kira. he always brushes it to the side though and keeps gaslighting himself into believing it's not true. i especially like to headcanon that the night he gets his memories back, the night before he kills L, he has the worst nightmare he's had since the start of all of this and it completely ruins him. like he just wakes up in a sweat and starts sobbing, to the point where he can't even try to deny himself from anything anymore. i also like to think that on this same night, him and L are sharing the same room together despite not being handcuffed anymore. L probably requests it just because his suspicions are up again, and watching light wake up in a complete panic is the last piece of evidence he needs. but instead of acting on this, he just chooses to ignore it. because despite everything, light is his friend. and he would like to die knowing that the night before his passing, he was beside his friend, not his murderer.

the panel in question btw:

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This Week In BL

Middle of January 2021. (I swear I wasn’t going to another one so soon but then much shizz happened - on screen and off.) 

Being a highly subjective assessment of one tiny corner of the interwebs. 

Ongoing Series Thai 

Manner of Death Ep 8 - Max acted his little heart out but Tan is still in BIG trouble. 

Gen Y Ep 10 - largely confusing and mostly filler. 

TharnType 2 Ep 10 - garbage, the deluxe edition, can’t stop watching, someone save me, ep 11 is next. We doomed. 

Tonhon Chonlatee Ep 9 - fluffy nugget of nonsensical found-family joy.

Cupid Coach Ep 1 - it’s absolute pants but has an out gay main character & queer friendship group so I’ll probably stick with it a few more eps. (I did watch ALL of So Much In Love AND Friend Forever. So clearly I have no taste.) 

Ongoing Series Not Thai 

We Best Love: No. 1 For You Ep 1-2 - unexpected gem out of Taiwan, classic old school yaoi with a stropy uke + pining seme, college set enemies to lovers, worth checking out. 

Color Rush Ep 5-6 - continues to be clever, amazing, and wow the rainbow-colored socks right off me. (Follow this Twitter account for updates.) 

You Are Ma Boy Ep 1-2 - new from Vietnam’s DGTV, idol meets cafe boy of his dreams, hijinks ensue - fast paced, light, cheerful, serious second lead syndrome, terrible subs but at least it’s up on YouTube. 

Breaking News 

Plustor Pronpiphat is leaving GMMTV (Stud in Friend Zone). Very sad to hear about this, since he never got his own BL and he has fantastic chemistry with everyone. Fingers crossed that he goes indie and gets some good rolls, he’s a SUPERB actor. Maybe Wabi Sabi will scoop him up. 

Lazy Subber reported on FB (posting the official statement) that Nadao Bangkok has postponed I Told Sunset About You Part 2 (and fan meeting) indefinitely due to Covid-19. 

Gossip 

It’s likely that most previously announced (but not yet filmed) 2021 Thai BLs will be effected/postponed/cancelled as well due to the current rise in cases, lockdown, and political unrest in Thailand. ITSAY is only the beginning I suspect. 

Since they have already completed filming, I think we can expect 1000 Stars and Lovely Writer to still air. 

When I did my industry insider predictions at the end of 2020 and pinned all my hopes on Taiwan in 2021 I had no idea it would be this quick. 

Stay safe and healthy everyone, and remember be sexy like Yoo Han and wear a mask. Color wheel fan entirely optional. 

2 Moons 3 in danger...  

Ben & Earth (PhaWayo) have left Motive (production house): Earth (officially) Sept 2020 and Ben (unofficially via Twitch) Nov 2020. 

Joong & Nine (MingKit AKA J9) have intimated they aren’t coming back either. 

Pavel & Dome (ForthBeam) are no-comment but no one thinks they’ll renew their contracts. (It’s known that Pavel has serious issues with Motive.) 

If 2M3 films it will likely be with a new cast and certainly with a new director. You can read the doggerel here. Don’t forget the former director is supposed to be bringing out Call It What You Want this year, which is rumored to be partly an exposé on what happened on the set of 2M2. 

Upcoming BL master post here. (I never had 2 Moons 3 down as likely to happen, so no surprise here.) 

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