#laurance angst

[cinnamontoastcroonch]

angst for the people:

do you think laurance ever noticed dante’s slight resemblance of gene despite not knowing their relation?

did he ever find himself with his breath stolen from him as he saw gene in his peripheral, only to realize it was actually dante?

did he ever wake from a nightmare, decide to take a breather, and nearly draw his sword when he bumps into dante? (he apologized profusely, how could he have ever made that mistake)

[xerith-42]

I know I said Laurance was a failed Icarus but what if he's also the ship of Theseus?

So many people use different magic and weird relic powers on him, and there's all the realm traveling, losing his eye or something, getting his vision partially replaced. Some healing spells do some things and some fail completely.

So many people have patched him up whenever he's started falling apart. Is he even the same person he once was?

Can he even recognize the reflection staring back at him anymore?

[fruitcakebro]

angst,

angst laur.

What if he was there when his father was assassinated?

What if he was there, the newest member of the guard, a son beside his proud father...

And a moment too late to stop the blow that murdered Joh?

What if he saw the light leave his father's eyes, every moment conscious that he'd failed him?

What if he spent the rest of his life wondering what would have happened if he'd been a moment faster? If he hadn't been weak?

What if he could never look Hayden or Cadenza in the eyes again without feeling like he'd betrayed them?

[cinnamontoastcroonch]

OH MY FUCKING GOD IM ABOUT TO HAVE A HEART ATTACK THIS IS EVERYTHING

DAY SEVEN: IN ANOTHER LIFE

or the world in which laurance succumbs

[lyraofthestarsss]

Imagine being Garroth Ro’Meave, head guard with romantic feelings for the new Lord of your village that have been slowly developing overtime, and said Lord rejects the promise ring symbolizing your love that you hid in the chest full of supplies for her journey

Now imagine being Garroth Ro’Meave being summoned to the Neapolitan Villages because your lord is in jail for being accused of a murder she didn’t commit. You go there to clear her name and when you get there you meet this orange haired twink who calls her “my love~” who she’s never mentioned before and is also there to clear her name

[cinnamontoastcroonch]

he’s pissed & needs to be kissed.

once i saw somebody on a diff platform say that the sk’s hair floats slightly when transformed & i really liked that idea so i tried to emulate it

whoever is on the other end of his lil dagger is in for it

[dryya-doesnt]

Brothers: born from the same roots yet branching out so differently

Trying to get consistent portraits for the brothers I hope they look related… I mean compared to how I draw Laurance. Same face syndrome begone… I have an inconsistent art style.

[cinnamontoastcroonch]

before laurance realizes that he is genes brother, he can’t help but put together how similar they look, despite the difference in hair color. this troubles him. he values dante as a brother once they become familiar. he doesn’t want to associate him with that man, with what he did to laurance in the nether.

when this fact is revealed, laurance does not see dante any differently. he could never be upset with somebody for their relations. dante, though, doesn’t know what to do with himself. he had noticed that odd way in which laurance would look towards him sometimes. how he would look the other way, nearly skittishly if they held eye contact for too long. so odd for his usual confidence. but before then, he hadn’t known of what gene had put him through. he hadn’t known what it was about him that would shake laurance when they crossed paths in their individual bouts of sleeplessness—until now.

he despised himself for a while. he hated that his face resurfaced so many memories that laurance wished to keep at bay. sure, he never knew laurance before he was turned, but he was sure that whatever his brother had done was responsible for that uncharacteristic flicker of terror that infected laurance’s gaze from time to time.

dante looks like gene

just softer

but he looks like gene

thats why he dyes his hair

[laurzvahll]

wanted to post something but Im still busy and haven’t drawn much so here old art of River , my mystreet insert/oc LOL (featuring @ootttteerr ‘s insert Akira)

they’re supposed to look like Sol I think I mentioned before that it’s a fun joke that they’re twins in different universes

[kurithedweeb]

Garrance who are in love but also very aware that they both hold the second place medal of each others' devotion. Their Lord will always come before their lover. She will always hold the greatest parts of their hearts, always carry the greatest pieces of their souls with her, and neither one of them will ever be able to bear asking for them back. She will never love them the way they love her. But they still have each other, even if they can't give the other all their love, and maybe the jagged edges of where the pieces their Lord carries split off from the rest of them can fit together like a puzzle. Maybe together they can be enough.

[xerith-42]

Laurance Minecraft Diaries Headcanons that are canon because I say so

-Laurance doesn't like mirrors. His appearance has changed so much and so drastically over such a short period of time that he doesn't like looking at his own reflection because it just reminds him that he can't go back to the person he used to be, no matter how badly he wants to.

-There's a spot near the center of his back where he carries most of his stress. If anyone puts pressure on that point Laurance collapses because it's so tense all the time there and he just never wants to let anyone worry about him so he tries to never be around others with his armor off.

-This slips into Garroth headcanons but Garroth has a similar spot on his back due to a deviated septum and the two of them noticed these things about one another the first time they had downtime together. Both resolved to try and help ease the stress of one another.

-Laurance's favorite color is green.

-He really loves other people's eyes. There's so much people think they hide but they give away everything with their eyes. Garroth has a frown line between his eyebrows when he makes his serious guard face TM, Katelyn says a lot from just a flick of her eyes in combat, Travis' eyes give away how much of his time is spent admiring others. Nobody realizes Laurance notices these things about them but he does.

-After the whole fiasco on the cat island, cats naturally start to be comfortable around Laurance. Strays walk around his legs and start purring before he even pets them. Even after the curse is reversed, he still faintly smells like a cat, and other cats recognize him as a really really big cat.

-Laurance really loves carrying people. Nobody ever lets him do it enough but he loves picking up his friends, or the kids when they want to climb on him, or any of Aphmau's dogs who will let him, Laurance thinks that the strength to hold someone's entire weight and proudly doing so is a beautiful display of love.

-When they were kids Laurance picked up woodcarving so he could make little dolls that Cadenza could then practice her dress making on. He stopped making them as he got older and more busy with guard work, but there's still a chest hiding in a house in Old Meteli that has a handful of small wooden figures with beautiful dresses and colorful hair.

-Laurance isn't sure if he believes in soulmates anymore. He used to, but then it started to feel like a curse. Now he questions if it's even a concept worth considering as a possibility.

[cinnamontoastcroonch]

oh my god i cannot afford to cry rn

give me more

I kept thinking about making Laurence have some kind of magic like a phoenix where he can come back after dying even if his body is destroyed and just got the idea that after the rebellion he starts to lose his ability to feel anything in relation to death.

You can only die so many times before the concept stops having any meaning to you and it doesn’t help that he feels everything every time. He feels it when his body’s torn apart, he feels it when it puts itself back together. Rising from the ashes isn’t nearly as grand as people make it out to be.

AGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA oh its hurts THATS SO COOL

i have this headcanon that : shadow knights cant die/put their souls at peace until shad/shadow lord is dead and defeated. and when shad falls, zenix and vylad's lives begin to wither away and die after an hour or so and its sooo sad. they become/feel human again in that short time and can feel love and sadness and passion again one last time.

however laurance never truly died nor became immortal, so laurance's body just weakens significantly until he's bedridden and he lives a comfy life w most of his friends around for a few more years </3

at least once shad is dead all the lost shadow knight souls can be passed through judgement and gifted w reincarnation :D

[propertyofrjl]

As someone who is currently rewatching all of Aphmau's series and has major brain rot over the Aphverse, i am desperate to find a fic where some of the mystreet people get somehow transported to the MCD universe. BECAUSE IMAGINE THE ANGST POTENTIAL IF MYSTREET!ZANE WAS IN THIS GROUP OMG.

MCD!Garroth having to see what he could have had with his own brother if things were different is breaking my heart.

OH OH OH BUT ALSO

Right imagine this little mystreet group is also when they're teenagers, smol little Zane being transported to a world where pretty much everyone despises him because MCD!Zane is the embodiment of evil.

Like, maybe little Aphmau and Zane get separated from the others and end up in Phoenix drop, they manage to make it to the town square where Molly is coming back from praying to Irene, and she sees Zane, the man who hurt her precious baby and used dark magic on their town. Molly then runs to alert whichever guard she can find (it just so happens that Laurence, Garroth and Dante are all leaving the guard tower for their respective patrols at that moment)

These men run to the town square, fearing the place they are sworn to protect is under attack by one of the most dangerous tyrants of their time, and they come to find not only Zane (who's looking around with a sour look on his face, and albeit a little smaller than Garroth remembers) but also the woman they spend their lives protecting (and two of said party are definitely, totally, not in love with her...)

And when i say they're teenagers, i mean the first season of PDH vibes, so Zane and Aphmau with these squeaky voices and no social skills, and Aphmau has spent most of her time looking around in awe up until that point because OH MY IRENE ZANE IT'S JUST LIKE MY GAME!!!

Laurence moves first, rushing over he knocks Zane to the ground harshly before yanking Aphmau away, to which she screams because this tall, scar covered, very scary looking version of her friend (or maybe crush depending on when in PHD this happens) has picked her up far too easily for her liking and she's worried about Zane.

Then Garroth and Dante move in, and suddenly Zane is being looked down upon by his big brother with such a look of disgust and hatred that has never happened before. Garroth loves Zane. Sure they disagree and fight every now and then, they're brothers, but Zane knows Garroth loves him and would keep him safe, and even though he wouldn't admit it, Zane loves his brother too. But the scary and hate filled man standing above him does not make Zane feel safe, and a flush of fear runs through him, followed by watery eyes and embarrassment because why is he feeling so weak and despised by one of the only men in his life who's provided a steady stream of love (unlike his dad)

And when Zane pulls his shaking hands up in surrender, with this wounded animal look upon his face, MCD!Garroth almost has to double take, because not even as children has he ever seen Zane look at him with such fear, the only man who'd ever brought fear upon Zane's face was their father, and maybe that gives Garroth his own little internal crisis because he's tried so hard to be nothing like dear old dad.

BUT ALSO, LETS PICTURE THIS

The rest of the group (let's say...Laurence, KC and Garroth) show up, and they try to find a way home without the help of the villagers of Phoenix drop, only to be attacked and have Zane kidnapped by people MCD!Zane has royally pissed off. The little group run back to Phoenix drop for help, and all the MCD lot just can't seem to understand why these little versions of themselves/their friends want to help Zane of all people so badly. It takes the Garroths having a full on row over it and Mystreet!Aph breaking down in tears to get people to help (because how can Laurence and Garroth watch a small version of the woman they love sob and not do something to try and help?) and obvi Lord Aphmau was on board the moment they asked and was going to do it alone before her Guards through out their protests and Little Garroth decided to cuss out MCD!Garroth for "abandoning his baby brother" (which is where the fight started)

...

Maybe I should write this myself...

Anyway, that's where my brain has gotten me today.

[laurancezvahlslefteyebrow]

The real reason Aphmau can’t love them back

Keep in mind this is referring to my rewrite <3

The “them” in question is Garroth and Laurance

Garroth is the descendent and incarnation of Esmund the Protector: an admirer and great friend of Irene/Aphmau’s.

Laurance is the incarnation of Xavier the admirer: guardian, friend, and lover of Irene/Aphmau.

She loved them both dearly, they, along with the rest of the Divine Warriors meant the world to her.

But, in order to seal Shad away for good, she had the use the life forces of the warriors, killing them. And although Xavier was not a Divine Warrior, he was still lost in the final battle.

Esmund and the others were essentially incinerated, there were no bodies to tend to. But Xavier wasn’t.

The blast wounded him, more than Irene herself could heal. All she could do was sit with him, hold him. Until he could hurt no longer.

Some years after, she’s unable to move on. She can’t. It was her fault. She still tries to help people, but she’s so tired. And so, she locks herself away for 900 odd years.

When she returns without memories, it’s a fresh start for her. But each time she encounters a Divine’s incarnation, she can feel it. She doesn’t know what it is exactly that she’s feeling, only an overwhelming sense of trust and love.

And she feels it strongest with Garroth and Laurance. She assumes purely that this is due to them being her guards.

But along with those feelings and trust and love, comes a pit in her stomach. A sense of guilt. A sense of doom.

She can’t help but feel like she’s only hurting them by letting them get so close. She can’t love them, not the way she wants to. The way they want her to.

Because that’s how they get hurt. That’s what gets them killed. Again.

[lyraofthestarsss]

Do you think Laurance saw his Aphmau covered in these black and purple void burns after failing to open the Irene Dimension portal and he remembered the other Aphmau

Do you think since there was no magic in Void Paradox and there was no easy cure, that she would be like this until she died?

Do you think he was scared that she wouldn’t wake up again? That the void burns had already covered too much of her body?

Do you think he was afraid that if she did wake up, she wouldn’t be herself? Like how the other Aphmau woke up with black eyes and inhuman strength, trying to strangle him in his most vulnerable moments?

[cinnamontoastcroonch]

AW the romance books make me smile😭that’s so cute

also the fact that he was inconsolable after the wedding incident. this is what i need. the way it was glossed over in cannon is soooo infuriating. i cannot wait to read it rewritten in one of my favorite glorious rewrites.

Laurance Headcannons?

My favorite-

Anyway!

•He grew up an orphan up until he turned 9, when Cadenza found him and begged her father to take him in.

•The entire village or Meteli was involved with raising him after that.

•He asked Cadenza to dye his hair because he wanted to look more like his "family". She chose the color to make them look like twins.

•Hopeless romantic, has read every romance book in the Meteli library. (He also reads all the ones in Phoenix Drop after he moves there.)

•Castor is responsible for leading him to Meteli.

•Laurance owed Castor (a very small amount of) money because he asked Castor to keep a secret for him and was willing to pay him for it. (He was getting Hayden a birthday present and didn't want to spoil the suprise.)

•Laurance became a guard specifically so he could help people much like the village of Meteli helped him.

•Significant scaring from being turned into a Shadow Knight. He hates looking at the scars because they don't look natural.

• His eyesight hasn't been perfectly restored, he's now nearsighted. This annoys him to no end.

•Wants to be very physically affectionate (and was before being turned) but is so scared because he feels he may hurt someone.

•Sometimes he misses the red hair because it reminds him of home.

•He's always referring to Aph affectionately internally, which is why he slips up so much. He also does this towards Garroth, but he rarely slips up there.

•Malachi has called him dad before.

•Does a lot of the crap talking for the others? Garroth is always trying to be respectful and Aph has to be incredibly careful with what she says in order to avoid conflict. So he says what they're thinking.

•Considers Malachi his son in a way.

•His shadow knight self is horrifically possessive. I know he already was, but it gets worse. He's constantly fighting with himself about it.

•Has a legitimate mental breakdown after the werewolf wedding incident(which I'm keeping in for the trauma), and is inconsolable for at least an hour.

•He doesn't show it, but he is bitter about the Garroth betrayal.

•While he still runs away and starts the rebellion against the Shadow Lord, it's slightly altered. He left after deeming himself a threat, and had sworn to himself that he'd return once he felt he was safe to be around again. In the meantime, he decides to help Phoenix Drop and everyone else by trying to get rid of the Shadow Lord.

•He feels awful about leaving. Absolutely terrible.

As always, this was just what there is now! There will probably be more later on. Thanks!