#last night we had an hours-long argument that basically boiled down to “you will pay rent to live in my house and be my maid…

[husbants]

exhausted of existing ✌️

[discopig]

That Other Girl (Thomas Shelby x Reader) [Part 3/3]

Part 1 | Part 2

Warnings: swearing

Word Count: 2,244

It had been a week since your argument with Tommy, and you hated admitting it, but you missed him. As much as Tommy was a busy man, and a lot of your time spent with him involved him doing some sort of work while you kept him company, you still spent every day together, and this was the longest you’d ever been without speaking to each other throughout your 6 year relationship, and it was hitting you hard. You found that time moved extremely slow, and seeing as you weren’t on good terms with Tommy, you didn’t really get the chance to hang around the Shelby household, so the loneliness was starting to become overbearing.

You decided to distract yourself by going back in to work at the Garrison, and as much as you would have liked to avoid Grace and Tommy for as long as possible, you still had bills to pay and didn’t like the idea of the customers you’d grown to know over the years, getting used to Grace and you not being there. She had already turned Tommy into an idiot, you weren’t going to let her stop your earnings as well.

You walked into the Garrison to find Harry behind the bar polishing the glasses, Grace nowhere to be seen. 

“Well look who it is” Harry smiled at you, “ready to get back to work eh?”

You couldn’t help the smile forming on your face as you’d missed Harry and work

“You bet I am, my ankle’s not all there yet but I’ll take it easy”

You joined him behind the bar and started sorting out the liquor bottles that were all over the place from the previous night. You had been working for about half an hour when the door to the Garrison opened and Grace walked in, her eyes going solemn as she spotted you.

“You’re back to work I see” she spoke, tying her apron and joining you behind the bar

You wanted to pull her hair out, but you figured it wasn’t her fault Tommy had taken an interest to her, especially as she’s knew to Birmingham and might not have known of your relationship, but you still didn’t like her as you couldn’t shake off your suspicions of her having something to do with that  copper

“Yes I am, slowly trying to get back into it, my ankle really screwed with the balance of things”, you could tell she wasn’t really paying attention to you.

“Thomas talked about you, you know?”, you went rigid at the sound of Tommy’s name, especially coming from her mouth, “He hasn’t been doing good without you, shows up every evening and drinks bottle after bottle. Had to lock him out once, he almost broke the door down” she rolled her eyes at the thought.

You felt worry creep up inside your veins, as angry as you were at Tommy, you still cared for him and couldn’t find it within you to throw away years of your feelings from him because of your argument, but when you looked up from the bottle you were holding, at Grace, the worry seemed to fade away as you realised he had just been spending time with her while you hadn’t heard from him

“He tell you what happened?” You asked, wanting to know just how much he might’ve shared

“No he didn’t tell me anything, just said you two had a fight, lots of rambling about how he was gonna lose you, how he fucked up. I felt sorry for him but then I figured I don’t know what he did, and maybe he deserves whatever’s going through his head”

You nodded slowly at her words

“He came by a lot when you were out with your ankle”

“What did you talk about?” You had assumed that if Tommy refused to tell you, maybe she would

“About life I guess, I’d tell him about my life back in Ireland and he’d tell me about all sorts, ranting about work, his brothers, nightmares” she replied, “he spoke a bit about you, your family” she stated the last part with an edge of disgust, you sat in silence, lost in her words, “I don’t think you’re good for him”, you snapped out of your daze.

“Excuse me?” You asked, astonished

“You and your little posh family, you’re not like him, your roots are different and I can tell he’s getting tired of it.” You almost had to hold your jaw shut  to stop it from dropping to the floor. What was it with people bringing up your family? You had been in Birmingham for years, and most people wouldn’t be able to tell you were any different from those born and raised in the city, if not for your slightly differing accent. 

You were frustrated she brought up your family as Tommy had yesterday, but then it clicked that she must’ve been the one to feed him all those ideas about you being some posh brat while Tommy was shit-faced drunk, and you were pissed. Not only at her, but at Tommy as well for being stupid enough to even acknowledge anything she said about you

“Listen here you freak”, you glared at her “I don’t know what you’re doing in this city, and why you think you have the right to speak on who I am and my relationship, but you best believe I will find out, and when I do, I’ll have no issue kicking you out myself. First out of my bar, and then out of my fuckin’ city, you hear me? I’d kick you out right now if I could” you spat.

Grace stood there silent, and you returned to sorting out the bottles, trying to control your anger and not knock Grace out with a bottle of very expensive whiskey

You had decided you’d had enough of being lonely, and dragged John out of the house to go to the new museum that had opened a few weeks back. John wasn’t thrilled, museums not being his thing, but he was happy to spend time with you, cracking his highly inappropriate jokes every 2 seconds.

“Tommy’s been doing horrible you know that angel?” 

You couldn’t help but scoff at his words

“Please no Tommy talk for today, I just want to enjoy the museum.” You tried to brush him off, but you couldn’t help but worry for Tommy.

You were strolling around the museum, John’s arm lazily thrown over your shoulder, looking at different paintings and sculptures, when you spotted a familiar head of blonde hair in front of you, standing next to a man. You quickly pushed John behind the wall next to you, and slightly peaked your head out to spy on her

“Psst, John, who’s that man standing next to Grace?” You had never seen him before, and your first thought was her father, but then you remembered what she told you about him

John peaked his head out above you, and squinted his eyes to get a better look at the man, who as if on queue turned his head back to look around the museum suspiciously, as though he was searching the area, forcing you and John to quickly fall back behind the wall to hide yourselves

“Holy shit” John whispered, taking his hat off and running his fingers through his hair, his expression a mix of being deep in thought, and being dumbfounded

“What? What is it John?” You asked, eyes jumping all over his face trying to make sense of the situation

“That’s the copper. Campbell.” 

You were sitting next to John at a family meeting, Tommy’s eyes boring into you as you avoided his gaze. It was the first time you’d seen him since your argument, as he’d seemingly been avoiding the Garrison, and consequentially, you. You were feeling a bit better about the whole situation now that your suspicions had been confirmed, but you weren’t quite ready to confront Tommy about it. 

The meeting went on for a little over an hour, Tommy groggily heading it. Just as everyone was about to leave, seeing as the meeting had come to an end, John spoke up

“Y/N was right” 

Everyone looked between you and John, confused

“Grace is working with Campbell.”

You saw Polly’s smug expression from the corner of your eye. Of course she knew

“What? How do you know?” Arthur asked, Tommy was still silent, a dazed look on his face

“We were at the museum”, you saw a spark of hurt in Tommy’s eyes at the mention of you and John going somewhere together while you had been away from each other, “and we saw her talking to the copper, they were all suspicious and everything Arthur, you had to have seen them, looking around the place like a pair of guilty kids hiding from their ma” John scoffed “I’m regretting giving her all those tips now...” You smacked his arm

Everyone awkwardly stared at Tommy, but his eyes were locked onto yours

It was the middle of the night when you suddenly heard banging on your front door, waking you up from your peaceful slumber. You groggily trudged towards the door, as you rubbed your eyes to try and keep yourself awake, however all the energy seemed to rush back into your body when you opened the door and saw Tommy standing outside, his tired blue eyes piercing into your y/e/c ones.

“Can I come in?” He croaked out

You didn’t know if it was the hour of the night, or the sight of him, tired, at the door, but you didn’t have it in you to send him away, so you stepped to the side to let him in, his eyes roaming over your apartment as though he was there for the first time, even though it was basically his second home.

“Would you like some tea?” You asked, worried he might be cold from standing outside

“Yes please”

You led him to your kitchen where he sat on one of your dining room chairs, you noticed he sat in the same one he always sits in, right opposite the stove, so he could watch you cook. You boiled the tea in silence, before pouring it into the mug he had brought over once and never taken back. It was a simple white mug that Finn had scribbled on with crayon when he was smaller, the crayon never seeming to wash off no matter how many times you scrubbed the mug. The both of you sat in silence, sipping your tea until Tommy spoke up

“I’m sorry Y/N” He looked at you with sorry eyes

“Thomas...” You began

“Please don’t call me that” He pleaded

“But it’s your name. What am I supposed to call you?”

“Tommy. I’m Tommy. You always call me Tommy, don’t change that.”

You stared down into your mug, not being able to meet his eye

“I fucked up Y/N, I was in a bad place and I know it’s no excuse but I was so tired and it just seemed so easy to walk in there and fill my system with as much alcohol as possible”

“You believed what she said about me being some stuck up cunt, you didn’t listen to me when I told you she wasn’t to be trusted” as angry as you were, you were mostly sad. Sad your relationship with Tommy had come to this point

“I know Y/N, and I know I fucked up and I know I made a huge mistake I’ll never forgive myself for, but I love you, I love you so much and I can’t live without you. Just this one week without you has broken me and you don’t know how much it hurt me to see you and not be able to hold you, not have you by my side. To know that I wronged you.”

You were staring into his eyes, trying your hardest not to cry

“You’re only saying this because John confirmed she was working for the copper...” you meekly replied, not believing your own words

“No. I was going to speak to you after the meeting because I’d finally gotten the chance to see you. That other girl hadn’t even crossed my mind once”, his voice was firm and you could tell he was determined to have you forgive him

“Tommy... I don’t-”

“Y/N please, give me another chance, I don’t want to lose you because of something so stupid, because I’m so stupid. Please Y/N I can’t live without you” You noticed a tear run down his cheek and struggled to control your own emotions. You loved him and it broke your heart to see him so upset.

You got up from your seat, panic glossing over Tommy’s eyes before you walked up to him and hugged him, his head resting on your stomach with your arms holding his head close to you

“It’s okay, I forgive you, just don’t cry, please. It doesn’t suit you” You smiled down at him, your hand holding the side of his face as you used your thumb to wipe away the tear on his cheek, Tommy leaning into your touch

“And you really are stupid”, you half cried, half laughed “promise me you’ll never do that again” you held out your pink to him

He smiled up at you and took your pinky with his own 

“I promise.”

AAAAAAH this is the end guys! I decided to give it a happy ending because fuck it why not! This is my first completed series and I really hope you guys enjoyed it. I went a bit crazy with the ending and I hope it’s not too cringe or disappointing, I just couldn’t stop myself. I was thinking about making a version where the reader ends up with John instead (because I love John), so let me know if you would be interested in that

Requested tags: @namelesslosers​

[artificialqueens]

we break but we're not broken (craquaria) - dis_connected

AN: Aquaria cares far too much for her friends.

Inspired by this prompt from happylilprompts on tumblr: Person A has had a crush on Person B, literal sunshine that gets top grades, for years. Recently B smiles and studies less, and is even skipping class. A’s the only one who pays close enough attention to see something is seriously wrong au

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Aquaria has given up with school. Well, she gave up with school not long after she started school. But, still, officially now, all she’s doing is focusing on trying to get into the Fashion Institute of Technology, which has been her only dream since she tried on her first pair of her mom’s heels as a kid, and now she’s just trying to keep all her grades at a C so she can successfully scrape by high school and leave it all behind for good.  

Meanwhile, a friend of hers, Brianna, is a model pupil. Aquaria has sat behind her in both History and French since freshman year, watching the way she flicks her blonde hair over her shoulder, how her head tilts back when she’s laughing and her confidence when talking in class in comparison to Aquaria’s stumbling awkwardness. Not that it’s a big deal that she watches her. She’s just hard to miss, with her big personality and even bigger hair, and you know, she’s right there, what else is she supposed to look at?

Brianna is popular amongst the students, like Aquaria, but, drastically opposite to Aquaria, she’s also loved by all of her teachers, thanks to her general friendliness and attitude to study hard in all her subjects. Brianna has truly excelled in high school. As their four years come to a close, she’s on track to go to a great college and have a great future, whereas Aquaria can hardly wait to get out of this hellhole and finally make a name for herself in fashion.

But, leaving behind high school means leaving her friends, and, unfortunately, that includes leaving behind Brianna. And the back of her head. Which is nice. The big, curly hair that the blonde does when she has a bit more time is Aquaria’s favourite, by far. She remembers vividly the day that she did it for the first time.

It’s a Monday. Aquaria spent the weekend in isolation from the outside world, trying to put together some looks for her portfolio, which she has changed and altered a million times, at least. Just last night, she redrew and redesigned a whole outfit she was obsessed with the week before, meaning she was up until the early hours of the morning furiously scribbling, sketching and sewing until her fingers were red raw.

Now, she’s sitting in her assigned seat at the back of Madame Dupont’s class as it starts, her pen tapping on her desk and her eyelids starting to droop already. Concentrating on the boring lectures on the imperfect subjunctive is hard enough as it is, without the added bonus of just two hours sleep. Aquaria is so tired that she hasn’t noticed that Brianna isn’t already sitting in front of her until she walks in, five minutes late, shooting an apologetic smile to the teacher and the usual grin to Aquaria, and hurriedly making her way to seat, the second row from the back.

“Bonne matin, mademoiselle, et qu’est-ce que la raison que vous êtes si tard?” Madame Dupont demands before she has the chance to sit down, even though the lesson has barely begun.

“Je suis desolée, Madame,” Brianna mumbles, her flawless accent still clear as she sits down and starts to pull out her things.

Aquaria is shocked. Brianna has never been late to class before, especially not French. Normally, she has to drag Aquaria by the arm so they’re on time, or she’s already there by the time the other girl decides to finally trudge into the room at the last possible, looking eager for whatever boring grammar shit they’ll be looking at.

“Et pouvez-vous conjuguer le verbe faire au conditionnel pour la classe?” The teacher continues. Brianna does so, perfectly of course, but she seems tired to Aquaria, who stares at the back of her friend’s head with worry.

Obviously, she’s just looking out for her friend, as she would any of them. Aquaria knows that Monét threw a party that she had to decline thanks to her portfolio work, and Brianna most likely went to it, or slept through her alarm, or would rather not be here, which is fair enough, but she still can’t help but worry.

Aquaria almost has to slap herself, as Madame Dupont starts to drone on about when to use the imperfect subjunctive (which is never in real life. Seriously who needs this?). She tells herself that she’s just looking for something to think about in this dull, dull class, and Brianna being late and tired has literally zero significance. People are allowed to be late sometimes, even Brianna. So, she just watches her as she twirls her hair round her finger, hair that she’s just shoved up in a ponytail without even brushing it. Not that she doesn’t look nice, still, annoyingly.

The class manages to end with no incident, and thankfully Aquaria is one of the few not called on for Madame Dupont’s never ending questions, because she wouldn’t have had a single clue what the hell to answer. She never really does.

She’s packing up to go at the end, grumbling to herself, when Brianna turns around, like she normally does to catch up with her friend after class, but today a frown is furrowing her features, as she looks right at the other girl, who does a slight double take at her unusually sad demeanour.

“Hey, Aqua,” Brianna says, slinging her bag over her shoulder and leaning forward on her friend’s desk.

“Hi, Bri, how was Monét’s?” Aquaria asks casually, trying to pretend that she isn’t worried as she shoves her notebook in her own bag carelessly, too tired to give a shit about the state of it.

“Oh, I dunno, I didn’t go,” Brianna seems uninterested. “Do we have history today?”

“Um, no, not until third tomorrow,” Aquaria replies, a little shocked at the unusual bluntness from her friend.

Okay, something’s definitely wrong. Brianna knows her timetable off by heart, she always has done. Aquaria tries not to think too much of it, but it stays on her mind the whole day. She’s ferociously munching her salad at lunch, sat with her friends on their regular table and staring into space as they talk about what happened at the party she didn’t go to.

Brianna is strangely absent; usually she’s the heart of the table, always cracking the jokes and puns and causing their table to be the nosiest in the cafeteria, but today, though the noise of the girls screaming about the party is extremely prominent, one voice is missing. Well, two, but Aquaria’s quietness is never that unusual. Nobody else has commented on the lack of Brianna, which annoys Aquaria slightly, but also makes her think she’s kind of making a big deal out of nothing.

She notices after a while a drop in chatter and a shift in atmosphere and looks up at everyone.

They’re all looking at their friend aggressively stabbing a poor lettuce leaf with her fork like she has a personal vendetta against it, concern and amusement etched across their faces.

“Um, Q, are you planning on eating you salad, or murdering it?” Blair, Aquaria’s best friend, asks her, laughing slightly.

“Sorry,” she mumbles in reply simply, rolling her eyes as the focus remains on her.

“What’s eating you, bitch? Your portfolio?” Vixen, the most blunt and unabashed of the group, asks. Everyone knows the stress that Aquaria has put herself under; her whole life has basically boiled down to this portfolio that is supposed to showcase who she is as a person, and, more importantly, a designer. To say there has been tears shed would be saying the least.

Aquaria puts down her fork and pushes her salad away, no longer hungry. “I’m bored. You’re all boring,” she jokes, rolling her eyes again.

“Well, sorry you’re too focused on your career to come to the best party of senior year,” Monet cheers.

“Actually, bitch,” argues Asia. “The best party of senior year was definitely my pool party right before school started!”

“Hah, that was before school started so it was technically it was a summerparty and not in senior year, so I win!” Monét laughs back loudly.

Aquaria stops listening. This argument is a regular occurrence between Asia and Monét, who constantly keep a friendly competition with each other. Their group has a specific dynamic, especially as they happen to be the most popular girls in the school, not that Aquaria really cares that much. She’s definitely not a people person.

Each girl in the group seems to have a specific, unspoken role and dynamic, and somehow they all create a powerful sort of clique. There’s no room for anyone else, not that Vixen would let them in anyway, unless they proved themselves to her, a task which few have ever succeeded at.

Which is why Aquaria notices so much when someone is missing, it doesn’t matter who. Just because it’s Brianna now that she’s worrying about, doesn’t mean that if, say, Kameron was acting differently next week she wouldn’t be just as worried about her. Aquaria cares about her friends, so what?

So what?

The week continues in pretty much the same way as Monday. Aquaria picks up on the subtle differences in Brianna, including her lateness to most of her classes, and her lack of makeup. To most people, it’s not a big deal at all, and she could blame it on the stress of nearing the end of the year. In fact, that’s what it would look like to any other person but Aquaria, especially the rest of their friendship group which have failed to notice the shift in Brianna’s behaviour.

God, she is going insane. She starts to drive herself crazy, overanalysing Brianna’s every move, from the back of her head in class, which is unusually slumped and bent over, to her weak attempts at jokes and uncharacteristic quietness at lunchtime, to the bluntness of their normally flowing conversation. It’s ridiculous, and distracting. Especially because none of their other friends have mentioned anything, at least not to Aquaria, and she really doesn’t want to bring anything up for fear of looking like a total idiot.

The worry is crippling to Aquaria, as though somebody is repeatedly whacking her over the head with a huge stick. Every time she tries to forget about it, bam and it’s back. She knows it’s ridiculous, and she blames her own stress. Her mind is clearly looking for something to do, bored to death of her sewing, sketching and designing the same pieces over and over again. It’s insanity. Complete and utter insanity.

But on Thursday, her insanity is justified, just slightly; after the class get a test back in History and Aquaria peers over to see she did better than Brianna, she can tell it’s with due reason. Brianna studies hard. Brianna puts school before everything. Brianna never gets below a B. In anything. And here she is with a C-, not even looking that fazed by it.

It’s like she’s given up. It’s eating away at Aquaria’s brain, so much so that she starts to design a new garment inspired by melting flesh and a revealed skull, and then hates it and screws it all up again. She wants to know why, without having to ask her. Confrontation is not her strong suit, especially when she could be completely wrong.

She’s hanging out at Blair’s house on Thursday night, an excuse to use her mom’s sewing machine, which is a million times better than her own, to test out some material she found that she wants to work with, but it keeps going wrong.

Aquaria is a good seamstress. She prides herself on it, in fact. It’s her thing. But after she fucks up the hem for the millionth time, she screams and rips apart her fabric, throwing it in the air in the most dramatic fashion ever.

Blair looks up from her laptop, where she’s trying to complete some homework, concern and worry etched onto her face as she witnesses her best friend’s outburst.

“Um, are you okay?” she asks, knowing that Aquaria is someone that tends to bottle up her emotions, not scream and throw things.

“I’m just stressed about this whole portfolio shit, I need it to be perfect,” Aquaria lies, rubbing her forehead aggressively.

“Lie,” says Blair nonchalantly, closing her laptop lid and moving to sit beside her best friend, who is trying desperately to stop her eyes from watering.

“Excuse me?” Aquaria says timidly, not looking her friend as she blinks furiously down at the sewing machine.

“You’ve been stressed about this for months. And when you’re stressed you turn it out, not fuck it up. Something else is on your mind and you’re telling me what it is right now,” Blair demands.

“You’ll think I’m stupid.”

“If it’s got you this worked up, it can’t be stupid. Spill! Spill!” Blair starts chanting and it almost puts a smile on Aquaria’s face, who pushes her friend playfully to get her to shut up.

“Okay, fine, Jesus. I’m just worried about a friend of ours who I think there’s something wrong with. She’s just acting really weird and I’m wondering if she’s okay,” she mumbles, trying to play it off as no big deal, which it probably isn’t.

“Who is this?” There’s a long pause whilst Aquaria stares down at her manicured nails in shame. “Aquaria, who?”

“Brianna.”

“Oh for god’s – you can’t let her ruin this for you. I know you’re obsessed with her-”

“Woah, woah, wait a minute, I am not obsessed with her. She got a C- today, B,” Aquaria says dramatically, like that’s supposed to clear everything up. Blair seems unbothered.

“So what?”

“So what?” Aquaria repeats in disbelief, annoyed at the lack of reaction. “This is Brianna. She always gets A’s.”

“Q, I love you, but I don’t think that Brianna getting a C- on one test should be the focus of you little brain right now,” Blair says, gesturing to Aquaria’s sketches that are now littering her room, along with the torn bit of fabric. “Have you even talked to her about it?”

“Well, no, but she’s not really given me much of a chance. We’re not exactly super close anymore, are we?” Aquaria feels her throat close up a little, before shaking her head, her friend giving her a pitying look.

“If it stops you worrying, just grab her after class and ask her if she’s okay. It’s really not hard, babe, it’s just being a good friend, and I’ll bet she’ll be happy to know you’re thinking of her.”

“Okay, I’ll talk to her,” Aquaria mumbles, choosing to ignore the last statement, knowing it probably won’t help, especially as she’s the fucking worst at giving advice.

“Okay?” Blair asks, receiving a reluctant nod in reply from her friend, who picks up her material from the floor in shame.

Aquaria knows how she feels about Brianna isn’t just friendly. She does. Blair might be her best friend, and Monét might be Brianna’s, but they’ve known each other a long time, longer than any of the other girls in their friendship group.

Aquaria recalls the day they met, almost ten years ago. She was always left out and picked on by the other kids; they thought she was way too weird and stupid, always laughing at the things she said and how she acted, which is a huge deal when you’re eight. Aquaria hated them all, and hated school. And then, a new girl moved to Aquaria’s town, and started at the school.

She had the biggest, kindest brown eyes that Aquaria had ever seen, and made it her mission to befriend the quirky girl who preferred to be alone. She sat down next to her whilst all the other kids went out to play, and handed her half her sandwich without a second word.

And that was that.

And then they grew back apart again, after a night which left Aquaria in tears, and unable to look her former best friend in the eye for months. They remained friends, tied together by mutual friends and mutual classes, but it’s nothing like it used to be.

So they’re not the closest of friends, not anymore, but conversation still comes naturally and easily, they can laugh together without it being awkward, and pick up wherever they left off. Aquaria’s quite an awkward person, but Brianna feels like someone who will never judge or ridicule her, who she can always come to for any sort of advice.

Feelings have been brewing under the surface for Aquaria for years now, of course she knows that, she’s just been pretending they’re not there, because a harmless crush is pointless when Brianna has no interest in her in the slightest. Her act of indifference has most people convinced, everyone except for Blair, who can see right through the paper-thin charade and has been teasing her best friend about it ever since.

Aquaria tries not to care. She can admire Brianna in class and be her friend the rest of the time. It’s not that hard, really. It’s not.

Aquaria has French the period before lunch on Friday, so she plans on grabbing Brianna after the class so they can have some time to talk. Her plan, however, is foiled when the blonde doesn’t even show up.

Aquaria spends the whole class sick with worry, unable to concentrate on her work, her nails tapping the surface of the desk rapidly, staring at the door and expecting her friend’s face to poke round it at any second, an apologetic smile pulling at her plump lips. Her mind is in overdrive, and it feels like everything is going off track.

As soon as class is over, she starts to walk to lunch slowly, pulling out her phone and calling her friend once, twice, three times with no reply. Aquaria rakes her hand through her black hair, almost clawing at her scalp.

She needs to calm down. Brianna is probably sick, and that’s why she’s off school, and sleeping, and that’s why her phone is left unanswered. Something in the back of Aquaria’s mind is still buzzing, however, drowning out her attempts to reassure herself and filling her mind with anxiety, like the sea pulling her under on a stormy day.

So, she bypasses the cafeteria and heads instead straight to her locker. Aquaria takes a second to linger over the polaroids decorating the inside of the door, adorned with stickers and hearts drawn sloppily in black sharpie. They’re mostly of herself and Blair, though it’s closely followed by some of her favourites of her and Brianna throughout their ten years of up-and-down friendship, as well as the other girls that Aquaria is friends with, group selfies and candid shots from parties and movie nights. Her eyes stop on a picture the summer before she started high school, of her and Brianna lounging by a pool, goofy grins on their faces, their bodies clad in bikinis. They had been so excited, buzzing with nervous energy about the adventures of high school that were to come.

Aquaria shakes her head and grabs her gym bag, slamming her locker shut and cutting off her thoughts of a simpler time, before she realised what a hellhole this place actually is, and what the hell it did to her friendship.

She storms through school like a lady on a mission. No matter what, Aquaria can always calm herself down through a vigorous dance session, pushing her body to the limit until she’s drenched in sweat and her only thought is of a shower.

She has a free period next, so she changes quickly, shooting a quick text to the group chat to let them know what she’s up to, planning to use all the time she can get to try to push the ridiculous thoughts of Brianna from her mind, at least for a little bit.

The high school is attached to a leisure centre, which the students use themselves in classes, but is open to the general public also, therefore the students have access to private rooms they can use to practise sports, as the public do, considering they pay.

Aquaria makes use of this any time she can, choosing the smaller rooms any time she can to practise her dance in peace.

Aside from a class playing volleyball in the gym, the area is empty as Aquaria walks back to the changing rooms, every single muscle on her whole body screaming out in pain. She loves to push herself or she feels like there’s no point, but today she obliterated the limit, only stopping when her throat screamed for water.

It worked, as well, as she soaks herself in the scolding water of the shower, her mind is taken up by the success of her session and not a certain blonde. As the heat from the water cascades over her body, she lets her mind empty of all thoughts, closing her eyes against the surprisingly decent stream of water and takes her time washing her body, allowing herself to be at peace for a while.

Finally, Aquaria steps out the shower, grabbing a towel to wrap around her glistening body. The changing rooms are empty, therefore she is free to take her time to dry herself with the scratchy material of the towel from her gym bag, not quite ready to face the outside world yet.

She still has half of the period left before the next class starts, so, after redressing and pulling her damp hair into a careless messy bun, she decides to head to the library. Not to do school work, of course, just to flip through the latest issue of Vogue in search for inspiration.

Aquaria is happily walking up to her locker through the deserted hallways of the school, feeling surprisingly refreshed, her usually busy mind feeling almost new again, before it will be undoubtedly hit with a new tidal wave of thoughts. Her locker is up in the music block, as that’s where she has homeroom, and she’s just walking past one of the sound proof practise rooms when she happens to glance inside, through the glass panel in the door, and spots a familiar face, distorted by the glass, but familiar all the same.

Brianna.

She’s sitting at the far end of the tiny room, with her feet propped up on a chair, her head bent over a guitar, and she appears to be singing something. Aquaria inches carefully closer to the door, watching her friend who is oblivious to her presence. She looks so sad.

Brianna has always loved music, Aquaria knows that. She taught herself how to play guitar at a young age, and constantly came up with little melodies and songs that went with them, getting her best friend to chip in on the harmonies once in a while. But, to Aquaria’s knowledge, she hasn’t played in a while. And here she is, when she should probably be in class, strumming her old guitar, distinguishable by the old band stickers that faded a long time ago, and the dent from the time Aquaria dropped in on her wooden floor, by accident

And then Brianna looks up, and spots Aquaria standing in the doorway holding a gym bag and a concerned gaze, and lifts her hand up in a sort of half-hearted wave, getting up and placing the battered guitar down. She goes over to the door where Aquaria is frozen in a sort of silent embarrassment at being caught, and opens it.

“Hi,” Brianna says simply, before walking back into the room and retaking her seat.

Aquaria supposes that this as an invitation, and cautiously enters the room, shutting the door softly behind her, before perching on the piano stool close to where her friend is sitting. She studies her face for a second, all the worry and anxiety that she just worked so hard to get rid of flooding back and smacking her across the head again.

“What are you doing? Are you okay, Bri?”

At least she can finally talk to Brianna, again, and settle the matter for good, but the response from her friend is not at all what she’s expecting, her sad brown eyes lifting up to gaze into her own, her mind clearly occupied by something that has been pressing down on her for a while.

“What happened to me and you?”

It feels like a slap across the face, a cold, hard slap with a wet fish. That’s not even dead. And covered in slime.

“What do you mean?” Aquaria’s mouth feels dry, so she runs her tongue across her lower lip, which helps very little. She knows exactly what she means.

“We used to be best friends, Aqua. We were inseparable. Don’t you remember us sharing everything? I stayed at your house, like, every other night. What the fuck went wrong?” Brianna is angry now, and it takes Aquaria by surprise – it’s a rare emotion in the usually laid back, easy going and happy girl that she used to know so well.

“We’re still friends,” Aquaria mumbles, though it’s a poor attempt at reassurance. Is this what’s been weighing down on Brianna the last week? Surely it can’t be? And yet, a small part of Aquaria’s heart, dedicated to Brianna, lights up in hope that it could be.

“Yeah, great. I can’t remember the last time I was alone with you. When did we last hang out that wasn’t at fucking lunchtime?”

It hurts. It really fucking hurts. Aquaria’s chest feels like it’s closing in on her. Brianna doesn’t remember. She doesn’t remember the fatal night that caused Aquaria to distance herself from Brianna, gradually, slowly, because the more time she spent with her, the more it hurt, like a dagger twisted into her chest, plunging deeper as the days, weeks, months passed. She had to get it out, even if that meant the end of their friendship, which it almost did.

She sure as hell isn’t going to bring it up.

“I know,” she says instead, shaking her head, hoping that the hurt she feels hasn’t seeped into her voice. “You know I still care about you. Which is why I want to know what’s been going on with you?”

“Don’t change the subject!” Brianna groans, clearly uncomfortable at what she knows Aquaria is about to bring up.

“Bri, you got a C and didn’t even care. You missed French, and you’re in here in a free period! I’m not crazy, something is the matter,” Aquaria says, mostly to reassure herself. There’s a long pause, as Brianna appears to be thinking something over, painfully slowly. Aquaria chews at the inside of her cheek anxiously, enough so that the metallic taste of her own blood seeps into her mouth

“Well, okay,” Brianna says, at last, looking up at Aquaria with a small, sad smile on her face. “Maybe you can help me. I could use your advice.”

“You know I’m shit at advice. You do know I’m shit at advice?” Aquaria says. If Brianna remembered who she was at all she would know that, but the girl just shakes her head, looking at Aquaria as if she holds a cure for all her troubles.

“I think you’re my best bet, right now.”

There’s something about this statement that makes Aquaria extremely nervous, the worry now pounding through her mind, amplified to a million times to what it was before, but how the hell can she refuse now?

“Um, okay, I’ll try my best.”

“I’ve been, sort of, realising some things about myself recently.”

“Things?”

There’s a long, painful, drawn out pause. Brianna can’t even look at Aquaria, who’s staring at her so intensely she might possibly be about to burn a hole through her skull.

“Like, maybe I’m not actually straight?”

Oh. That was not what Aquaria was expecting, at all. She almost chokes on air, trying her best to maintain a neutral disposition as she nods encouragingly, willing Brianna to continue as her mind starts whirring at a million miles an hour. Is this about her? Can she possibly dare to hope that it is?

“You’re… gay?”

“Maybe, god, I don’t know. I haven’t talked to a single person about this yet.”

God, that feels like old times. A bittersweet wave of nostalgia washes over Aquaria. Sitting up for hours and blurting any random thing that they could ever possibly think of. No secrets, no lies. Come to think of it, Brianna did once say that she had an unexplainable crush on the groovy chick girl that adorned her bedding as a kid.

“I just feel so lost, all of a sudden. I’m eighteen years old and I’m only just figuring out that I like girls?”

“Hey, that’s not that old. People don’t figure it out until college normally.”

Brianna laughs, though it’s painfully bitter, shaking her head in amusement, causing her friend to smile, just slightly.

“See, bad advice! What did I tell you?”

“I just can’t stop thinking about it, like, it’s keeping me up at night. And I have to avoid her, which is where you come in.”

“What?”

“Well, she made me realise I like girls at all. I have a huge, ridiculous crush on her.”

“Who, Bri?”

“Blair.”

And, just like that, the world comes crumbling down.

[thebeautifulgame7]

Reputation

CO-WRITER: @jazzhandspotter

CHAPTER INDEX

CHAPTER FOUR:

Iris’s POV:

I was sat on the couch one evening with Joey, our normal routine after a long work week for the both of us. I laid on his chest as he kept one arm around me, it was a warm and very comfortable place to be after a hectic week. I tended to work the odd hours and days out of the two of us, creativity and inspiration have no sense of time. He, as a corporate lawyer for Santander Group, the largest banking group in all of Spain, worked a more traditional schedule.

He was getting quite successful recently and was on track for a nice promotion where he would take the lead on more lawsuits than in previous years. I was happy for him I really was, I just could never understand how one could enjoy such an intense, high stakes job. He would always tell me he liked knowing he helped someone protect their investments.

It was obvious I was the more creative of the two of us, that’s not to say that Joey’s profession didn’t require some creative thinking to solve problems. He would be the first one to tell you I was more of the free flowing one in our relationship. I loved him, that was true. We had what everyone desired, a stable relationship, a beautiful, large flat in the prime area of the city, and steady, high-paying jobs that allowed us the luxuries we both loved dearly. It was however, very routine, minus our semi-annual trips to various tropical islands or European cities, we didn’t go out much.

I missed the wild and crazy days of university where the world was at my fingertips and I could do anything and go anywhere. Settling down and starting a career was however, a fact of growing up. It was a fact I wasn’t always happy about. I was fortunate enough to make it in the industry I wanted to. Working in fashion is a dream come true for me and the passion I have for it all shows in my work. I just wish it was easier to find that passion for life, it seemed to have faded over the last few years. Don’t get me wrong, I wasn’t unhappy, I just felt like there was something more out there that I needed to find on my own.

Joey pulled me out of my thoughts as he spoke, “So are you able to come with me to the Santander event tomorrow night?” He asked, rubbing his hand along my arm.

I sat up slightly and looked at him with a frown, “Babe I told you weeks ago I have to attend a store opening event on the west side of the city, my new line is being debuted there.” I answered, a little disappointed he hadn’t remembered such an event. This was the first time I designed an entire line of clothes that was being sold with my name over that section of the store. That kind of publicity was huge for me as an up and coming designer.

“Right, yeah that thing.” Joey said flippantly, frustrating me slightly.

“Yeah, that thing I’ve been talking about for weeks.” I responded, offended that he thought it was no big deal.

“Can’t you just skip it, I need to keep up my image at work. I have to look good to the bosses if I want that promotion.” He looked at me, completely oblivious to how he was upsetting me.

“You’re joking right? I can’t skip it, besides I don’t really see how me attending would help you.” I stared at him intensely, trying to suppress my growing annoyance.

“Because,” he spoke with the tone of an adult explaining something very simple to a small child, “having a successful, gorgeous girl on my arm shows that I’m capable and can be trusted. It’s just important that you come along, say something small about your job and then you just smile and nod as I kiss up to my bosses and other big attorneys. It’s easy.” He explained, his eyes focused on the television as he finished his vodka soda.

“So you just want me to stand there and look pretty?” I asked him, balling my fists in anger, although he didn’t notice.

“Yeah basically, they probably won’t ask much if anything, you’re like a, a trophy girlfriend for the night.” He shrugged, answering so nonchalantly. When I didn’t respond right away he continued, “Don’t worry, the other wives will be there so you can talk to them about stuff, like hair and clothes or whatever.” I could hardly believe my ears.

“Is that what I am to you? A trophy girlfriend?” I angrily responded. “My career is important to me and I will not be some pawn you use tomorrow to get a promotion.” I added and he looked at me.

“Oh come on Iris, your job is easy you just pick out clothes and design the rest to make a collection. You basically match colors. Your job isn’t like mine.” Joey answered back, still not really looking at me. “I need another drink.” He mumbled, rattling the ice around his empty glass before getting up to refill it.

“What do you mean my job isn’t like yours?” The anger was boiling over inside me and I didn’t bother to hide it anymore as I stormed over to him in the kitchen.

He calmly fixed himself another drink as he spoke, “You play dress-up, I have to compose original arguments for complex financial problems and weave through an immense amount of red tape and government legislation. The attention to detail it requires and the amount of mental work it takes is a lot more.” He finished and looked at me, taking a sip of his newly made drink as he did.

“You are unbelievable, I have no idea what has gotten into you.” I spat back at him and he laughed a little. “Do you have any respect for what I do?”

“Of course, babe, all I’m saying is that it’s not the same as what I do.” I remained silent, stewing in my rage. I could hardly look at him. “C’mon babe you and I both know my job is harder. Plus, it makes great money. You don’t even have to work, you’re pretty enough to just be a housewife.” Joey coolly responded. He seemed almost amused by my attitude about the whole situation, as if he was watching a child throw a tantrum.

“I enjoy my job and I love the challenge it provides for me, I shouldn’t have to justify the level of difficulty and skill it requires for you to take me seriously.” I shouted fiercely. I wanted to hit him. “Also, what have I ever said that made you think that I want to be a housewife? How can you say these things to me after you’ve known me for so long?”

“Iris, babe, you need to calm down. Just skip the opening, it’s not that big of a deal. I think you’re just overreacting.” He rolled his eyes, indicating that this conversation was now boring him. I felt red. I didn’t know what to do. How could he say this? Why?

“I will not calm down!” I bellowed. “I have no idea what has gotten into you but I suggest you figure it out because I will not follow you around.” I turned quickly, stomping towards our room, grabbing whatever I could find to throw in a bag.

“Where the fuck are you going?” Joey questioned, following me into the bedroom.

“I cannot be around you right now, I’m going to Lia’s, don’t wait up.” I spat at him. I walked out of the room, shoving him out of the way on my way to the door. I quickly snatched my purse and drove off. What a dick.

***

Sergio’s POV:

It was another week before I saw Iris again. It was another day at work for me, however, it was one of the more fun days. I had recently become a part owner of one of Madrid’s hottest night clubs, Teatro Kapital. It was a wild place to be some nights, but it was fun visiting to promote the club.

It was a Friday evening and the other owners had asked if I’d be willing to show up for a few hours to endorse the club and gain more foot traffic at it on weekends. I happily obliged, but told them I would not be drinking that night. I had a match Sunday and needed to stay focused. I could, however, use a little fun and play up my reputation tonight.

To be clear, I wasn’t looking to take a girl home that night, but rather to dance with a few and take one with me to the VIP. From there, I would just let what happened happen. That’s kind of what I did on nights like this. People liked to see me interacting with guests. My business partners said it made the club look elite, but also accessible.

I had a trick for nights when Teatro Kapital asked me to make an appearance. I would bring an empty bottle of vodka with me, and fill it with water before I arrived. No one would know the difference and I would be able to keep up my image as Real Madrid’s partying bad boy. I know I said I’m not like that and I’m aware that behavior like this doesn’t help the situation; but at times like this, it made me and Teatro Kapital lots of money.

I felt my phone buzz as the club started to grow its Friday night crowd.

“Could you spare two VIP bracelets for a couple girls in need of a good time?” The text from Lia read. A smile formed on my face, I loved when she came by, it made my night easier, I could just hang out and have fun with her.

I typed back my reply and hit send, “That depends on who these two ladies are…” I was hoping she would say Iris, that would make this night even better.

I scanned the crowd and casually sipped from the bottle of water, forgetting it was supposed to look like vodka. I felt my phone buzz just as I was putting the lid back on.

“Just me, your best friend in the whole world, and her fun best friend, starts with an I ends with a Iris.” Lia’s message said, and I couldn’t help the smile that formed on my face as I read it.

“In that case, I can definitely find two VIP bracelets and scour around the bar for some free drinks if you’d like.”  I answered her, growing more excited as the anticipation grew.

“Perfect, we’ll be there shortly.” Lia responded almost immediately.

I tucked my phone into my pocket and leaned against the railing with a small smile on my face. Lia was the best wingman I had, if Iris and I ended up together I have her to thank. I watched as people danced all around, already having a great time and the headlining DJ hadn’t even come on yet.

***

After what seemed like forever, I finally spotted Iris and Lia walking in. They looked stunning. Iris was wearing these tight black skinny jeans with a burgundy top cut low and short, and heels. It all hugged her figure very well. Lia, as always rocked whatever she wore, but if I’m being honest, my eyes were on Iris.

I raised my hand to flag them down and Lia spotted me, “You both look amazing.” I smiled at them before hugging them both. “Trying to upstage me at my own club once again Lia.” I joked and nudged her.

“Here are your very fancy plastic VIP bracelets.” I said grabbing Lia’s wrist that she held out and securing the neon pink band on it before moving to Iris. “And here is yours hermosa.” I winked as we made eye contact before I fastened her bracelet to her wrist.

“Now for the important part, what can I get you lovely ladies to drink?” I rubbed my hands together, playing host very well.

Lia looked at Iris before they both looked at me, “It’s been a rough day to say the least.” Iris huffed.

“So how about something hard to start then?” I offered. “Shots, something on the rocks? Whatever you want, it’s on me.” I added and she smiled.

“Are you sure? You don’t have to do that.” Iris said suddenly but I waved her off.

“These pink bands,” I pointed to the one on my wrist as well, “Are owner’s bands, you are my guests tonight, you can have whatever you want from the bar as long as you show them that.” I instructed. “But since I’m a gentleman I will go and get it for you.”

“Oh good lord, can we just get some fucking tequila shots Sergio, give Iris an option and you’ll be standing here another ten minutes.” Lia interjected and I laughed before heading to the bar and getting what they had requested.

I returned quickly with a tray of six shot glasses. “Here we go, patron silver, only the nice stuff for my special guests.” I said, handing them both a shot.

Iris raised it to her lips but pulled away, “aren’t you going to join us?” She asked me.

“As much as I’d love to, you know I don’t drink very much during the season.” I politely declined her offer.

“The boys have a game Sunday, he likes to keep himself sharp.” Lia explained as my attention was called somewhere else.

“You girls enjoy yourselves, I’ve got some business to attend to but I’ll be around. We can hang out once I’m done.” I excused myself from the conversation and headed towards the main stage.

“Go get this crowd fired up!” Lia shouted as I walked away.

I smiled and made my way to the stage, grabbing the mic that was handed to be. “Madrid how are we doing tonight?” I yelled into it, hearing the crowd roar in response. “I want to welcome you all to Teatro Kapital, the hottest club in Madrid and my personal favorite.” I said, scanning the crowd. “We’ve got a great night ahead of us, so let’s party!” I yelled again before dropping the mic as the crowd cheered. With the attention still on me, I grabbed the vodka bottle of water from my back pocket and took a huge pull of it, letting some spill onto my shirt as I pulled it away from my mouth. The crowd roared as I stuck my hands up in the air and the music began to blare throughout the speakers in the club.

***

After doing my owner and promotion duties I made my way back to the VIP area to find Iris and Lia dancing with drinks in their hands, mixed drinks at this point.

“Sergio! Come dance with us!” Iris demanded, curling her finger to signal me over.

I smiled as I made my way over, “Another mango margarita, is that you favorite?” I asked her as I started swaying to the music with them.

Iris nodded and took a sip before throwing her hands up and dancing. The music had gotten quite loud at this point and she yelled something in my direction that I didn’t quite catch.

“What was that?” I leaned in and she grabbed my shoulder before pressing her lips almost against my ear. She was very close at this point, and she smelled amazing, like bright tropical fruit.

“I said, I thought you didn’t drink.” She pulled back and smirked before grabbing the bottle from my back pocket, her hand slightly groping my ass as she did so. She was definitely not sober at this point.

I leaned down to her ear and responded, “I don’t, it’s water.” It was my turn to smirk now as she unscrewed the cap, took a sip and realized I was right. “Gotta keep my bad boy party image up.” I winked her, but she didn’t seem to like that comment. She shoved the bottle into my chest lightly before sipping her drink again.

I looked at Lia a little confused, she motioned for me to come closer to her. “She had a big fight with Joey, and it had something to do with his image at work, touchy subject right now.” She explained and I nodded.

I leaned back over to Iris, “You having fun tonight?” I asked, the music almost drowning out my voice. She nodded and moved to dance right in front of me, backing her ass up slightly.

I once again looked to Lia for help. Did she want me to grind with her? Or was she just dancing like this for fun? I didn’t want to cross any lines and I wasn’t sure how to read this situation. Lia winked at me, and motioned for me to dance with Iris while she went to get another drink.

What was the real harm in a little dancing? It wouldn’t go further than this, I was sober. “This is okay?” I asked leaning down to Iris’s ear, resting my hands on her hips and pulling her to me slightly.

“Would I do this if it wasn’t?” She leaned up against me more and danced to the music. I tried to keep pace with her, but she was drunk and the rhythm she was trying to keep wasn’t working. I couldn’t deny how much I liked what was happening, but I had to remind myself of the situation I was in. This could not go further, not in a place like this where the press could find out. I knew no one would report that I was dancing with someone, that was old news, but if I was caught kissing someone that wasn’t my girlfriend, and was an up and coming designer, that would surely make headlines.

I hesitantly pulled Iris a little tighter to my body as my cheek came to rest against her temple. I was painfully aware of every move I was making. I was nervous but I don’t think she could tell. I wasn’t the guy to steal someone else’s girl, but I wasn’t going to stop the girl I had a crush on from dancing with me.

I glanced up to see Lia eyeing us at the bar, she smiled at me and I gave her a nervous grin. She laughed lightly and mouthed the word “relax” before giving me a thumbs up. I guess there wasn’t any damage done in showing Iris what a good time with me could be like.

The bass drop of the song we were dancing to finally hit and we jumped up to dance along with it. Iris turned to face me, wrapping her arms around my neck and smiling up at me. I couldn’t help the grin on my face as I grabbed her hips once more and swayed to the fast paced music with her. I couldn’t care less about what was going on around me, all that mattered was Her.

If Joey didn’t know how to show her a fun night out, then I would take it as my responsibility to do so. Iris backed off of me slightly and rolled her hips as she turned to press her backside up against me again. I didn’t mind though, with her facing me, it was hard to resist trying to kiss her, her back to me made it easier.

We danced along to the beat and Iris moved her arms up to wrap around my neck and pull me closer to her. Slowly one hand moved to my hair, tugging slightly before she released it. Fuck. This girl was hot and she knew it. I had a feeling she also knew about my little crush, not that I minded the tease. Something was better than nothing and I was willing to play along.

Iris pulled my head down a little more, “We can’t tell Joey about this.” She breathed into my ear. The harsh reality that she wasn’t single or mine hit me again, but I had to it shrug off.

I nodded, “Our little secret.” I smirked at her, finally loosening up. She seemed to like my response because a wicked smile crept across her face.

“You’re fun to dance with.” Iris said, pressing up against me more. I got the hint and pulled her closer, my head resting against her shoulder and cheek.

“And you’re a tease.” I answered back, breathing heavily and nibbling her ear before planting a kiss on her neck, I just couldn’t help myself, I had to do something. “Not that I’m complaining.” I added, a cool smile on my face as she looked back at me. I knew what we were doing was wrong, but sometimes you regret not doing things more than doing them.

“I didn’t think you would mind a pretty girl dancing with you.” She answered, one of her hands reaching down to my leg. I gulped slightly, her touch was electrifying. I was going to have to stop this soon and I knew it. Dancing and a few teasing bites and pecks were fine, but I wouldn’t let this go further. I had to protect Iris from doing something she would regret.

“I don’t mind at all, in fact, I was hoping you were going to dance with me.” I kissed her shoulder, then her neck once more, careful not to leave any evidence.

The hand Iris had on my thigh started moving upward as she grinded harder against me. It all felt so good, like a slow burn, dragged out. Slowly the hand made it to my belt, grazing over my crotch lightly, “How about we get out of here?” Iris offered, trying to shove her hand down my pants. I immediately pulled away, releasing her. As enticing and tempting as that offer was, I knew couldn’t and me being the sober one of the two, I had to stop.

“Whoa, okay no.” I told her as she looked at me a little confused and offended. “We can’t do that. We can dance and flirt, but I can’t do that.” I gestured to my crotch before looking at her.

“You won’t? Come on, please, I just want to burn off a little steam and you’re hot.” Iris whined, rubbing her hands over my chest and giving me a pouty face. Now I knew for sure she was drunk, she never would have said something like this sober. “You’re so strong.” She giggles and hiccuped slightly.

“Iris, no, you have a boyfriend, you can burn off steam without hurting the relationship you have with him. We shouldn’t have danced like that, that’s on me” I tried to explain, but talking with drunk people who aren’t getting what they want is difficult.

“Fine, I’m getting another drink.” Iris said, dropping my hands and heading to the bar. I let out a sigh of relief as I reached for my water bottle, catching Lia’s gaze. I gave her a shrug and took a sip.

I was frustrated, that was for sure, but I knew it was the right thing to do. The chemistry I felt with her was intense and I wanted her bad. If what they say about drunk people is true; that there’s always truth in their actions and words, then in some way, shape or form, Iris wanted me too.

***

I was off chatting with a few special guests who came to the club that night when Lia calmly tapped me on the shoulder. I excused myself and turned around.

“So, Iris has had a little too much and I’m concerned she’s going to start doing what she always does when she gets too drunk.” Lia said, pointing to Iris who was dancing on a table and slowly pulling her shirt up.

“She’s not- oh my god she is.” I started but stopped myself as I realized she was in fact going to start taking her clothes off.

I ran over to the table she was dancing on and laid a hand on her leg. She stopped pulling her shirt off and smiled down at me. “Hi Sergio! I missed you, do you want to dance with me?” She asked very happily.

“Iris I think it’s time for you to go home.” I offered her my hand to help her down but she didn’t take it.

“I don’t want to go home to Joey, I want to stay here with you and Lia.” She pouted at me before going back to pulling off her shirt.

I looked at Lia and she nodded at me, an unspoken conversation taking place. “Alright that’s enough.” I said, reaching out and grabbing Iris, throwing her over my shoulder to carry her out. “Lia let’s go, I’ll drive you guys home.” I said, holding Iris so she didn’t fall.

The security team helped us quickly make our way out the back and to my car. “Will you sit with her in the back and keep an eye on her?” I asked Lia as I buckled Iris into the seat.

“I’m fine guys, I just had a lot but I’ll be fine.” Iris lazily responded, slurring her words before hiccuping.

I started driving, handing Lia a small plastic back from the front seat just in case Iris had to throw up. “I don’t think you should take her back to her apartment.” Lia said.

“And why not? You want me to watch her?” I asked, looking at her from my rear view mirror.

“How bad would it look if you brought her back in this state? You’d have to help her she can’t walk on her own up those stairs. Joey would have a fit seeing you and her. He already thinks she’s spending the night at my place anyways.” Lia answered so nonchalantly.

“A sleepover with Sergio? I don’t think Joey would like that.” Iris voiced her opinion.

“No I don’t think he would either.” I agreed with her. “Not that I mind, but Lia why can’t you just take her?” I asked, looking back at her since we were at a red light.

She looked at me incredulously, another silent conversation. “Couples night with Iker huh?” I smirked.

“It’s our tradition before a match, it keeps him relaxed and focused you know that.” Lia winked at me. “Can’t be looking after her and doing that.” She added.

I guess taking Iris to my place for the night was the best option at this point. I was completely sober and I wasn’t going to be doing anything tonight anyways. It would give me a chance to be around her more which I always enjoyed.

[autoirishlitdiscourses]

Discourse of Tuesday, 06 April 2021

Similarly, having hung them on my SoundCloud account and link to the poem; performed a nuanced reading of the text of some important topics in the back of your new score for base grade-days late unless you are one of the criteria that I'll be on campus today, but may not have a strong job! More broadly, we can certainly talk your ear off about visual readings of Yeats and Heaney when talking about and always more about me than you can just tell me when you sent me before or after class or section, and think about how most people to switch topics. For that reason, you did well tonight. I still don't have a reasonable compromise.

It seems history is to sit down and sketching out a number of productive audiovisual components; if you need any changes that I think. Unless you file an informational report that doesn't overlap. Of course, with your paper must be killed except as a study aid for other topics open for you straighten out I know much about midterm grades. What you primarily need to happen differently for this to you. The quarter have been assigned for Tuesday, you have received on a paper before I pass it out in detail, if you keep an eye on a paper less effective than it already does. You might note that he understood that what your central claim is actually quite busy with recitations this week. One would involve breaking up your topic before you can say with a set of esoteric knowledge regarding this selection. Questions about MLA format? The last two weeks from now. This is the distinction between individual Irishmen and-voice arrangement of William Butler Yeats were visual artists, and additional course-related things happening in your position, the topic you will have the opportunity to demonstrate this. Hi! Again, I think you can find out definitively whether he thinks it's an essential requirement. No worries I'm not just providing an introduction to things that are not intellectually or temperamentally suited to being a good knowledge of Irish culture in favor of it. Versus having an couple of ways, and third preferences are for any reason that's not necessarily a bad thing, and, again, a productive set of arguments about a particular story, and third texts are primarily theoretical, critical, or perhaps a little more.

We also insist that politics demands complex thinking and that your first one sirens is currently better developed and more focused. Hi! One of the quarter. Happy Thanksgiving! Come by my students turn them in by email today, and your presence in front of the selection you want to go, which was previously the theoretical maximum. Merely doing the earliest part of the passage and gave a very very close to their hearts, you did well here. A doesn't raise your GPA any higher than if a similar breakdown here, and this is what I would like, because it assumes that you would have worked more effectively. It can also refer you to re-inscribe Gertie into the theory that the writer considers obvious. Ultimately, I will let the group up well done. Sounds like a good word for having this information allows them to argue that one way to think about how to discuss specific questions you want to treat you as you can buy yourself some breathing room to make decisions about exactly what is written on the edge of. Overall, though, you did quite a good weekend, and sometimes the best way to satisfy breadth requirements that you should be an optional review session this Thurs 5 Dec, 1:30 if the text itself in some kind same thing for you. If you do this by just glancing at me occasionally, but will be how it was all a flash in th' shade of a text that they only discussed a single class than when you're at the coin from the analytical rigor and explain your claim about the specifics of the text s that you're dealing with I think this hurt you much more apparent to you. Sigh.

You have some very perceptive readings of Richard III, from the other TA, is generally not only paying close attention to your potential in the early stages of planning I just finished it you had a good night, you fail automatically policy/, please let me know if you go out of it continually in lecture is over.

Your thinking about what your overall grade for the section eventually, though what you've outlined a good reading that they've been represented by the end, you automatically receive a passing grade and absolutely capable of punching through to an even more nuanced way. —Cleaning these up is a plus. There are a lot of ways, and sections occur on Wednesdays.

Even finding small things that would just barely meets the absolute minimum standards for a more successful argument. Again, thank you for doing a strong job yesterday you got up in front of the twentieth century. Again, you also had to happen is for most students your last chance to add a course or change your texts in an even better on future pieces of textual evidence, and mythology that are relevant to the section as a whole, and word not only express your central claim that you're scheduled to recite because a visit to the question fully. Both of these is that at the end of the facts that my impression at the time limit has come up to 1. I see it, but it's not up to you. In order to see how many minutes away you are perfectly capable of this particularly moving passage. Thanks for doing a genuinely serious and unavoidable emergency family death, serious injury, natural disaster, etc. God these are very solid aspects of your face was a mispronunciation of surmise that broke the poem's rhythm and showed this in terms of what you want to work for you. Late, but do so by 10 a.

I've read so far, and need to scratch and claw for every reason, it will help you to achieve an even more specific feedback if you'd compressed your initial proposal. Think about how your evidence in a research paper on Godot and has generously agreed to make productive suggestions. Because each of you is now optional. Have a good example of the word that gets deep into a sophisticated logical structure. But you're a good set of beliefs about what's likely to get graded first this week has been fun to have a good choice on text, but your delivery; you might think. Hello, everyone! For section next week. It's here, and responded effectively to promote discussion is going to be even more than twenty-four. I'll just say that sometimes sitting down and start writing to figure out which texts have a good student. Besides, even if only because it will help to ground that argument in terms of which are, even if it's only five sentences or so, or at least some background plot summary and possibly other contextualizing information, but because considering how you would have been balanced a bit more slowly would have been posted to the section is actually quite widespread. I'm looking forward to seeing your recitation plans by 10 p. Anyone at all, I will be in order to tip the scales from writing an A-for-someone-else-to-memorize twelve-line poem, Parnell which is where you're getting your information using standard academic citation practices. Thanks for doing a good job of structuring your comments and questions from other parts of your own writing and its historical situation. Great! Make sure to get people to engage with the horror experienced by the prosaic fact that these assertions are not on me. Does that help? Overall, you can't get to Downton Abbey for a recitation in front of a letter explaining specific reasons/why your juxtaposition actually matters, and they all essentially boil down to paying more attention to your ultimate conversational goals. There's no need to be helpful.

I can send me an email that I notice is that you advocate—I will let the discussion in a term paper of this as the last minute to use Lord of the text s you want to say is: percentage score for the Synge vocabulary quiz on John Synge's play The Playboy of the historical development of the assignment write-up midterm for a long time to get back to you, but your discussion a bit of a reminder that you should think about intermediate or preparatory questions that go straight for it to be recited by one line—/is that if someone does make that? 137. He therefore desired me when I hear back tomorrow, you do wind up giving answers to these small errors, and is ultimately what your central ideas revolve around a general plan such as information about your paper this means that you don't have a final selection for what will be, if you have previously been attending but not necessarily the order I will probably be covered by the time period you're shooting for, and made a final decision on which of the other hand, and during my office hours if they exist, are jarring, and not Silence of the course website; if you have improved your grade. I'll see you in lecture. One way to motivate discussion, and then mercilessly edited your paper space to examine your own ideas that you may find it helpful to look at posters advertising some of them? Think about what you're working with—you should be substantiating some aspect of the novel with which you can just post what you've sent me email or by some other things, this doesn't ever quite happen in an automatic failing grade for each document from IMDb. Just a reminder that I think that your grade in a comparative manner over time, the artistry of music, because the poem I've heard it before, your delivery. I quite liked a lot of ways, and has notes on what you really do have one specific suggestion: think about the specifics of the poem and its background. The Clancy Brothers and Tommy Makem performing The Butcher Boy well? Currently, in your delivery was basically solid, though, there's no inherent reason not to make sure to send your message earlier, then you can find out if any of those three poets the professor wants is for you if you do this. Well done on this you connected it effectively to provide a more fluid, impassioned, and questions from other parts of your analysis, and it may not have started reading Godot yet if they're cuing off of his guitar and vocal performance is also available. You take on the section, if you want to do in leading a discussion leader for the temptation offered to the central issue is absurdism, but I don't know that for you, will change as the citizen, the irruption. At the same time, it may be asking a question Does anyone know. —Papers that merely agree with you about how you'll effectively fill time and backing up, and several other poems; Jack Clitheroe's treatment of his identity entirely. One way to move up to you because I'm sitting here grading papers, too, and I believe that you explicitly say that making a universal claim about Yeats's relationship to each other effectively while in the 6 p. I realize. If you want to go back through your topic in more depth. How your grade, assuming that you're likely to be one of strong-poet to the date on which of the exam. In retrospect, it may be an indication that you're on the other half of the section, I think that you will go first, because they're on Wednesday prevents you from sending me a photocopy of the writing process. Getting a natural end or otherwise horrible; but you can say with a fair amount over its history, you did quite a strong piece of land.

What is his name? Besides, even in California, nothing is more likely he is, I think that you can possibly write. Well done on this will certainly not obligated to agree/disagree, OK? Let me know likewise, let me know what freedom was; remember that your basic idea is correct it seems pretty obvious. Well done on this at all for working so hard and participating so much ground that it's important, would be the song is also an impressive move. If you have a fair evaluation of the first time since then, so. Well done here let me know and I'll watch a few spots open, so it is there. I could. One of the class, but will post before I go to the end of the large lecture hall because. Grade Is Calculated in Excruciating Detail the John Synge Vocabulary Quiz from October 17, Pokornowski's midterm review sheet for his sections, you have any questions, OK? I told you that your questions about those impressions, and had some interesting comments about the amount of research here, I think, but really, your points, that one thing, I can bring them for you sometimes retreat holds your argument's specificity back to you. The assignment write-up to one or two key issues. I'm happy to proctor it if you discover that things are going faster than you expect. You may get a clearer idea. You picked a good weekend! You do a substantial increase in performance after the final, attended every section including the fact that they were sick. You've got some really perceptive things to say that I am so sorry to take so long to get a thorough, fresh re-read. There's absolutely nothing wrong with only picking, say, Italian Futurism Giacomo Balla, for instance, in large part because, when the degree to which you can point to,, and if so, and change your your life that are very solid job here in a way into your thesis statement as a whole and kept them moving in a way that the stereotypes involved are absolutely welcome to send out a lot of information about the text s, but does perhaps suggest that everything goes well and that your choice related to the recording of your plans. Or you might mean would be more successful. I'm perfectly convinced that you're citing. Let me know immediately. 8 a. Talking about the way that we did not have started reading McCabe yet if they're cuing off of his identity look at the high end, and your presence in front of the more egregious errors in the context of other things differently. Hi, everyone, As you said, think in the How Your Grade Is Calculated in excruciating detail. This may be rare and/or things that you make the registration switch through GOLD. I realize.

All in all, I think that you'll do a good background without impairing the discussion to occur. Attending section on Wednesday, and perform the resulting articles and see what topics are currently more than five sections and have moved out of 70 on section one. Well done. I think that it is constructed in the Ulysses lectures which, as it could conceivably boost your attendance/participation that is necessary to try to generalize less in it while providing thoughtful readings of the term. Similarly, with no explanation of what you're actually saying. I pass it out in her spare time, OK? Great Masturbator 1929, I think that the person in the play, Irish nationalism. Thank you for a few things that would need to expose your own ideas. Other unforeseeable, catastrophic events that absolutely doesn't work, and other parts of your questions, or helpful for me that is, in order to be perhaps more sympathetic than is reflected in the final starts and nine a. You are absolutely fine I think that one line because I think that you want to set up in discussion you'll notice that the woman from whom Bloom receives a letter grade; made an incredibly high B, regardless of the class, and it got cut a bit nervous, but just that I should be adaptable in terms of why it benefits your grade by much. You have excellent things to think about their own would be not to castigate you, since the '50s, but they're also specific; #4 is also a fertile hunting ground. Your quote from the guy who's going to be careful about the ways that you can substitute the number of important concepts for the group as a whole. Ultimately, what does Vladimir's line mean? You've done a very reasonable outline, I'm happy to talk about this-type assignment for another, or nearly all of this. Your historical narrative that is experienced in a relevant and engaging, and during my office SH 2432E and see whether I was happier then. I was. Does that help? Your readings of The Butcher Boy in the best I can plan for section or sent me an email from me later than you're able to find a recording of him consenting to be done to make a case that two people who decide the class, and that what he might call on the midterm, and reschedule would be for, and so this hurts your score on the construction of sympathies with Francie, it could conceivably be possible during section or not effectively support the overall relevance of your skull with the professor is behind a bit more practice but your delivery was good in many ways, interrogating your own reading of is one good way to acquaint yourself with them in ways that you may have required a bit over 84%. A: In-progress, and your reading of the quarter, this could conceivably have been years where I've graded two hundred papers and given out three. How it fits into that tradition. This would not be particularly sympathetic. Why Dexter and not quite enough of an A paper, and you're absolutely welcome to expand it, and you didn't hurry through your notes to the inclusion of personal narrative by any of it; is there.

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To be a Concierge

A/N: Time taken to write- 4 hours. From 10 pm to 2 am. Got inspired after going to work (I am an actual concierge) and learning that a resident had a stalker try to break into his home during the night. 

To become a concierge, one must be poised yet firm. Understanding and diplomatic. They are the face of an establishment and the front line men when it comes to customer complaints. They handle a range of tasks ranging from answering the phone, helping residents with their issues, handling packages, and more. They have to do all this with a smile on their face and keep everyone as happy as possible.

Well… that was what I was trained to do. But in reality, the job is wildly different from what was originally taught. While I and my fellow concierge were taught on how to properly treat residents and potential residents, these lessons were a wide stroke on what really happens. Issues varies from location to locations. Some locations don’t even have phones but they have a buzzer. Other locations don’t handle packages but delivery messages to residents. Each location have their special commands and don’t follow by the rules that we were originally given. Sadly, the one thing that your trainer doesn’t teach is improv. You’re basically thrown in and hope for the best… the best station to be exact. Some locations are harder than others. While having to handle the basic responsibilities of a concierge, you might  have more tasks piled on for you to do. If you got one of these locations, you’re just an unlucky person. Luckily, I got one of the easiest location out there.

Now, don’t take this the wrong way. To be perfectly honest, the pay is great and the tasks aren’t that hard. The difficulty usually boils down to one factor, people. People are unpredictable. You don’t know if they’re going to give you a hard time or not. Each time someone enters through those lobby doors, you never know what type of luggage that they’re bringing.

Working behind this desk, you see an assortment of people ranging from age to gender to looks. I’ve let in so many people that faces tend to blur. But then there are some who are more noticeable than others with strong personalities or distinct physical looks. There’s the teen in apartment 1273 with bright pink hair. In apartment 301 there’s an office woman who own the cutest corgi. Then… there’s that guy who visits his girlfriend in apartment 790.

I can’t remember when I started noticing the dude. I think it was about two weeks in when I started noticing the patterns of the residents I oversee. I was still new to the whole concierge gig and what more, I was stuck with the morning shift. Things were a bit of a sleepy confusion before my body and mind got used to the conditions.

Don’t tell anyone but… I was at my desk eating breakfast when a guy with a large bouquet of roses and a teddy bear waved at me to let him in. The sight of the male really scared the living daylights out of me since concierges aren’t allowed to eat at the desk. I was worried that he might be annoyed by that fact and report this to my field manager. You never know who were the strict types and who were chill. That horrifying thought really woke me up. Jumping into action, I immediately buzz him in and stood up; doing my best to hide the fact that I was eating on the job.

“Good morning sir! How may I help you today?” I greeted him in my most upbeat tone. I was hoping that this greeting covered over my early blunder. People don’t like lazy workers after all. If I look active, it might throw him off. A cold sweat was forming at the back of my neck as the male walked closer to the desk.

He was practically leaning over the counter before he actually spoke up. Being in such close proximity, the overpowering scent of both his cologne and the roses filled my nose. It almost made me gag with how strong these smells were. Despite having a rather intense smell, he had a cute face (which really didn’t match the cologne he was wearing, if you asked me). He looked to be only a couple years older than me but with the way he styled his brown hair gave him a sophisticated look. Judging by how he looks and the gifts he was carrying, he was most likely here to visit a girlfriend or boyfriend. Either option doesn’t matter; just the fact that he was off the market. Bummer. But no skin off this back though.

“Good morning to you too! I’m just here to visit a girlfriend,” he told me with a cheerful smile; which was probably fake considering it’s eight in the morning. No one is that happy at these god forsaken morning hours. But regardless if it was a true smile or not, I was just relieved that his mind was filled with nothing more than his girlfriend and not me slacking on the job.

“Of course! I just need you to sign here and who you’re visiting and you’re good to go!” I replied back, sliding a form for him to fill. I was trying to maintain an equally cheerful smile as he signed the paper. It didn’t take that long for him to do as directed. I thanked him once he was done and waved him on his way. Only when he was out of sight did I let the smile drop. Plopping back on my chair, I could only think how lucky I was that he wasn’t one of those uptight jerks. But I suppose this was a learning lesson for me to always be attentive.

I didn’t have much of a breather before the same guy return doing what I called the, “walk of shame”. Going back into my concierge mode, I straightened up to look as proper as possible. I gave the male a concern look as he sits on one of the lobby’s chair. I waited for him to talk first. It’s the proper thing to do after all.

“Ah, looks like she’s still asleep. I hope you don’t mind me staying here for a little while,” the male admitted with a bashful laugh.   

“Of course not. You may stay as long as you like,” I answered him in a polite manner but I was internally cursing that I’m going to be stuck in this position for at least an hour. We exchanged awkward smiles as the air between us was heavy. I couldn’t rely on someone coming in to disrupt the silence, so I forced my hand to start some small talk. “Urm, that’s a lot of roses you have there. I’m sure your girlfriend is going to have a pleasant surprise this morning,” I stated in a polite manner. A part of me pray that he’ll leave soon. But seeing the bright look on his face made me realized I stumbled on an annoying subject.

“You think so? I woke up early to get the freshest roses for her. It’s our three month anniversary,” he gushed to me like a teenage girl in love. A part of me wanted to tell him I don’t care but I also knew I sort of asked for this. “I skipped out on breakfast for this. Girls like this sort of thing, right?” he asked me; making me realized how cute the entire gesture was. Damn it. That girlfriend of his is really lucky. What I would do to have a guy like this. Cute guy doing cute things. Now I feel really jealous.

Hearing that he skipped out on breakfast, I decided to share some of the candy that I keep behind the desk for kids and split some of my coffee with him. I didn’t need to do this for him but to go above and beyond is something concierge is expected to do. Right? Taking the candy and the spare styrofoam cup, I walked over to him while speaking. “Of course sir. Any girl would love this,” I told him before handing over the items. “But I’m sure your girlfriend would be worried if she heard you didn’t eat anything. It’s not much but… it should last you till you have a chance to eat,” I said, trying to mimic every charismatic character I ever watched on TV. All this diplomatic and polite is hard to do, you know? But it seems my acted worked since he looked genuinely surprise and happy by my actions.

“Oh wow! You didn’t need to… Thank you very much,” he said in a grateful tone. He takes the candy and coffee off me before taking a sip. “Ah. You’re too nice. The other concierge here are a bit cold,” he told me as he fixes the bouquet next to him. From the corner of his brown eyes, I had a sense that he was observing me. But I pushed that thought out. No way he would do such a thing. “You’re new here, right? Can you tell me you name?” he asked me. In a heartbeat, I answered him. It’s a common question I receive.  

“My name is Riley Platt, sir,” I told him.

“Riley? That’s a nice name. You can just call me Neill,” he said, “I’m sure you’ll be seeing me often.” At that time, I didn’t think much by that statement. It’s quite common to established regular visitors after all. I’m just glad that I made a good impression at the time.

Following our first meeting, Neill practically visits everyday and most notably during my shifts. We shared many small talks and I offered him several love advices. From what I gather, he has a hard time understanding what his girlfriend wants which leads the couple into having arguments and having Neill loiter in the lobby till his girlfriend calms down. During those time that he hang around, I would like to think that we got somewhat close. To tell the truth, I was really enjoying those times with Neill. He certainly makes the morning interesting with his latest story on why his girlfriend is pissed and his constant questioning on how to make her happy. It became a bit of a routine for me.

These clock like days flipped upside down though when my co-worker asked for me to trade shifts. This quite literally flipped my usual schedule since her shift was the night shift. I was rather reluctant in switching shifts for that day since I really didn’t want to stay up late. But being pressured by both my co-worker and my field manager, I ended up relenting and taking the night shift. It’s just one day, right?

The lobby at night was eerily quiet. No one comes and no one goes. Everyone is happily asleep in their apartments while I was stuck in an empty lobby. While I can see the appeal to working the night shift, I feel like I’m going to go insane with how quiet things are. Absolutely nothing happens.

Well… call it wishful thinking, but some action finally happened at around one am. I was startled from my half sleep state to see some police officers knocking at the lobby door. Scrambling for the button, I buzzed them in and watch as a pair of officers waltz in. I was so caught off guard by the sight, it took me a moment to get to my feet and follow after them.

“Um! Excuse me officers! What seems to be the problem?” I asked, trying to keep their pace. I don’t recall any resident mentioning that they were calling the cops… at all. This might look bad on my record if I don’t handle the situation properly.

“Domestic complaint,” the male officer answered me in a gruff tone, “Which floor has apartment 790?” Being swept along by these events, I numbly answered his question.

“Er… the seventh floor. It’s located all the way at the end of the left side of the building,” I answer, completely lost on what I should do. I felt rather helpless throughout the whole thing.

“The seventh floor… Let’s just take the stairs. It’ll take too long to wait for the elevators,” the male officer told his partner. I was about ready to follow them when the other officer held up her hand. “You stay here. Make sure you lock the doors,” she told me before but officer ran up the stairs. I could only helpless watch before returning back to my post.

Doing as directed, I locked the entrance doors and called my field manager on what’s happening. It was a nerve wracking 20 minutes as I waited for the officers to return. Nervously, I tapped away at my desk. My imagination was going wild as I wondered what was going on. What it just a noise complaint? No, that’s normally something I would handle. No matter what I think, I can’t figure what it could be.

Finally, I heard the distinct sounds of footsteps. I stood up to meet with the officers. To my surprise, they were leading Neill with them. He wasn’t in handcuffs (not sure if that’s a good or bad thing) but he was looking rather ashamed. I was speechless as I watch them lead him to a lobby chair for him to sit. What am I supposed to do here?!

“I need another officer on the scene,” the male officer from before said into his radio. He walks out of the building leaving me with just the female officer and Neill. The female officer walks up to me and briefs me on what was going on. It seems that Neill’s “girlfriend” wasn’t his girlfriend at all but a classmate of his from school. They did have a bit of a fling but that’s about it in the matter of relationship. He’s been harassing her for the past month… basically as long as I have been working. The girl never really made a formal complaint to my field manager till now; which explains why my veteran co-worker suddenly wanted to switch places with me. With me not there to let him in, Neill waited for night to sneak in through the back door without anyone noticing. He tried to break into the girl’s apartment but ended up getting caught by her neighbors.

After being told this, I can only feel guilty about the entire thing. I felt partly responsible for always letting in Neill. I always assumed that he was normal just based on his looks. But… what was it that my mom always said? “Never assume. Once you assume, you look like an ass.” I guess you really can’t judge a book by it’s cover. Why are the hot one’s always crazy?

I tried ignoring Neill to the best of my abilities but when I heard him crying, I knew it wasn’t right. Crazy or not. A concierge has to be nice to everyone. Taking a tissue from my desk, I handed it over to Neill for him to use. It was a dangerous thing to do but I trust the female officer to come for my rescue. Even Neill looks confused by my action. Awkwardly, I scratched my cheek as I think for something to say.

“Looks like… you and your girlfri- I mean. That girl aren’t… compatible?” I said, a bit unsure what even came out of my mouth. Neill just cried even more at these words before taking the tissue from me. What a sensitive guy…

I did all what I can to aid the officers. As they straighten out the details with the girl from 790, I just remain by Neill’s side and rubbed his back while he cried. To think I thought of him as cute before. I just wished that everyone left already so I can finish my shift in peace.

It took about an hour and a half before they finally escorted Neill from the building. I’m not quite sure what happened after but at least Neill finally stopped crying. He was only look at me as he was leaving the apartment; giving me the creeps. Soon after, a girl, who I quickly realized was the girl from apartment 790, came down to tell me to never let Neill come in ever again. Don’t need to tell me twice!

Afterwards, everything was finally quiet. For the first time, I was glad to have absolutely nothing happen. My shift ended peacefully and my replacement came on time. After such a hectic night, my field manager gave me a pat on the back before telling me I have the day off. Thank god for that! I had enough drama for a lifetime.

I rushed through my briefing of the previous events before hurrying on my way to finally head home. It was a solemn bus ride back as I recall the events from just a couple hours ago. It was… something alright. A great story to tell at parties. But for now, I just want to sleep.

With my home before me, I rummaged through my bag for my keys. It was a tough battle but I managed to free my keys… right when I bumped into someone.

“Oops, my bad,” I said in a tired tone.

“Oh honey. You silly thing. You look absolutely tired. Sorry for giving you a rough night,” a male voice said. I slowly turn to see who I bumped into to see… Neill.

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“Erin please” Izzy begged, her eyes no longer filled with tears but with concern, maybe for Harry as my simmering anger towards him was just about to boil over the edge. I released my grip on her hand which I realised had suddenly become a lot tighter. She raked her finger tips through her beautifully messy hair, slightly pulling it over to one side where it cast a shadow over her features. “We’ve talked about it, and figured it out please don’t bring it up again”.

CATCH UP HERE

The next morning I was rudely awakened by the sound of my phone vibrating on my bedside table. I let out a half groan, half whining cry as I flung my arm over my side trying to feel for it without actually having to open my eyes. I’d been looking forward to staying at my grandparents again. I liked being woken up slowly and peacefully by the natural light that seeped through the grotty old curtains. It was much better than the obnoxious iPhone alarm that drove me insane when I was at uni. I was definitely not a 9am girl.

After knocking over pretty much everything on the table I finally grasped my phone, pulled out the charging cord and brought it to my ear. “What!?” I spat. I hadn’t bothered to look at the caller id. Whoever thought it was a good idea to wake me up at this time was going have to deal with the wrath of early morning Erin. They deserved it for being so rude.

“Morning sunshine.” Izzy cackled down the line. I should have known. I slowly sat myself up and began to peel open my eyes, adjusting to the morning light.

“And what can I do for you at this fine hour?” I droned sarcastically.

“Well if you must know, my Mum, your Mum and Evie are going to finish their Christmas shopping in Manchester, and I know how much you don’t want to do that. So this is your formal invitation to Sam’s charity 5-a-side tournament at the playing field later. Basically your excuse not to go when your Mum asks you to go with them, which you know she will, mine’s already asked me, so consider this a warning, and your ticket out of it. I’ll text you the details, love you, bye!” She hung up.

I fell back onto the sheets dramatically with a huff, my head reeling from being thrown so much information in the space of about 30 seconds. I wasn’t even fully awake, but Izzy was right, there was no way I was being dragged around Manchester in the Christmas crowds, especially not with Mum and Evie in tow.

Placing my phone back on the night stand I stood up wearily, stretching out my limbs and wincing at the crack of my shoulders. I really need to stop sleeping in weird positions.

Grabbing my hair brush from my dressing table by the window I began to rake through my knotted hair. Gazing out into the garden, as the sun was coming up, a deep orange haze was beaming out over the fields and into the distance. The dim light from the rising sun appeared to touch every plant as the lingering raindrops on the leaves from the night before reflected the light. Suddenly I thought about Harry. How when he turned and told me he was sorry when he left last night, it was his smile that was bright enough to shine through the rain.

I trudged downstairs, my feet shuffling along the carpet as I was still half asleep and didn’t have enough energy to do anything properly, even walk. I winced when I stepped onto the cold tile floor of the kitchen and made a mental note to invest in some slippers while I was here.

“Morning Granny, morning Grandad.” I said while stifling a yawn.

They both looked up from their breakfasts with a smile on their faces. I loved my Grandparents more than anything in the world. I’d always had a great relationship with them, even if I only saw them once every two months. They never made me feel any less their Grandchild even though they saw Izzy and Sam every week. They loved unconditionally, and I loved them for it in return.

“Morning sweetheart. You’re up early, and we missed you come in last night. Are you ok?” Granny asked with concern as I padded over to the cupboard to grab a bowl and some cereal.

“You can blame Iz for both of those things” I laughed, sitting down opposite them at the table. Grandad passed me the milk jug as I began to explain the events of the previous night to them. I laughed along with them as I recounted my near death experience, but ended up having to constantly reassure them that I was fine and didn’t actually injure myself.

“Well, I’m just glad Isabelle got to see Harry for a bit, I think that must be the first time they’ve seen each other since they both left for university.” Grandad mused over his cup of tea.

Izzy and Harry were both freshers at uni this year. I knew Izzy had been finding the first term hard, she often randomly rang or texted me with questions or observations about university life. Although we fought sometimes, we also trusted each other 100%. I was in my second year of uni, so I was more than willing to help her try and settle in and give any advice I could. I hadn’t picked up on it at the time, but now that Grandad mentioned it, I realised that in all the times we talked she hadn’t brought up Harry once. Maybe they were having issues I didn’t know about, or maybe they were fine, and he just wasn’t relevant to the conversation we were having. Whatever it was, it seemed odd now.

“Yeah, I think it might be, Grandad.” I added, trying to think of a way to bring it up to Izzy later without making it seem completely obvious and really nosy.

****

I didn’t know how many matches I’d have to sit through in the cold December air, so when getting ready for the day I’d prepared for the worst. I pulled on my thick khaki winter jacket over my black jeans and oversized burgundy jumper. I’d made sure Izzy returned my brown leather boots before she went home last night. She’d handed them over reluctantly, but I promised her she could borrow them again if she swore not to ruin them. My tresses of mid length golden blonde hair were pulled into two loose french braids which peeked out from under a wooly beanie. A knitted grey scarf which was long enough to be wrapped around me twice hung over my shoulders and my gloves were shoved in my pockets, ready for the cold.

After an annoyingly long and drawn out conversation with my Mum, where she’d tried repeatedly to get me to go shopping with her, I finally managed to get away when I saw Izzy’s car pull up outside the living room window. I gave my mum a kiss on the cheek goodbye, wishing her a good time with Auntie Josie and Evie.

I heard both Izzy and Sam snicker to themselves as I jumped in the back seat. I rolled my eyes, not even bothering to entertain them with a comment because I knew exactly what they were going to say.

“They’re not playing the tournament in Iceland you know, Erin.” Izzy laughed. Here we go.

“Well don’t come running to me asking to borrow my scarf when you’re sat on the sidelines freezing your tits off.” I replied smugly. Izzy had always been one of those people to sacrifice her health for a good outfit. Unfortunately, that meant that during the winter months she was very prone to catching a cold because she refused to wear a suitable coat.

“I won’t,” she retorted. Izzy was also known for being extremely stubborn. So I knew now that later in the day even if her fingers were turning blue she wouldn’t come and ask for help. She rather be taken to hospital for hypothermia than get proven wrong and ask for a pair of gloves.

When we pulled up to the car park there were already many families there. A group of middle aged men, who I presumed were the organisers and referees, stood in a huddle in the middle of the field, all armed with clipboards and whistles. Some of the players who I recognised as some of Izzy and Sam’s friends from school were already warming up on the marked out pitches. The Mums and Grandmas had made their way to the kiosk and were making endless amounts of tea and coffee for the visitors.

I hopped out the car and pulled my scarf tighter around myself as the crisp December breeze whipped through the air. Izzy and I waved goodbye to Sam and wished him good luck for the day before heading off to get a drink before the tournament began. She linked her arm through mine and gave me a warm smile. “I’ve missed you.” she said softly, gently placing her head on my shoulder as we joined the back of the queue at the kiosk.

“I’ve missed you to.” I replied. It was the truth. No matter how many petty arguments we had, Izzy was always my best friend. She knew me better than anyone, even my friends back home in Leeds who I’d spent all my school years with. We just shared a special bond. No matter how long we spent apart we never stopped loving each other.

I looked down at where our arms intertwined and watched our matching dainty silver charm bracelets glint in the sunshine. I couldn’t help but smile as the ‘I’ charm on my bracelet and the ‘E’ charm on hers clinked together in the light breeze.

We’d been gifted the bracelets when we were only small children. One Christmas when we were maybe 5 or 6 Granny and Grandad had given them to us and we loved the idea that we matched. Every year we got a new charm and it was a tradition I knew I would never grow tired of. Granted, we’d had to have a few new links put in to accommodate our growing bones over the years, but I couldn’t remember that last time I hadn’t worn it.

After reaching the front of the line and paying for two cups of tea, we went to check the team boards to see which matches Sam would be playing in. The boards showed many names that I seemed to recognise from my visits to Holmes Chapel over the years and Izzy was quick to point out people she knew and promised to tell me embarrassing stories about them all later. I laughed at her bluntness as we trudged over to pitch number three where Sam was playing his first game.

We found a good place to watch from the sidelines just as the referee blew the starting whistle and the first touch was made. I spotted Sam straightaway, as he wasn’t hard to miss. In the past year he’d grown to be just shy of six foot tall, easily towering over Izzy and I; and he was nearly the same height as his Dad. His dark chocolate brown hair, the exact same shade as Izzy’s, was an annoyingly perfect mess on top of his head, hardly moving an inch as he ran across the field.

The ball landed at his feet and he began to sprint with it towards the goal. The other team’s defenders sprang into action ready to initiate a tackle. Sam, however, was quick on his feet and began to showboat around the opposition plays like it was nothing. Izzy and I cheered with the rest of the crowd as he broke free from the defenders and passed the ball into the box. The striker took aim and shot for the goal. Everyone around the pitch leaned in as the ball travelled towards the target. When the ball hit the back of the net after brushing past the fingertips of the goalkeeper, screams, shouts, laughter and applause erupted from the spectators.

Izzy and I screamed and hugged each other with glee while the goal celebrations continued. Sam’s team had come together in a group hug, but when they pulled back from one another I was shocked when I spotted Harry. How had I not seen him? Maybe I had been too engrossed with Sam’s showboating earlier, but nothing was taking my eyes off Harry now. His signature curly locks had been pulled back away from his face into a small bun, and a thin black headband was taking care of flyaways and baby hairs around his face. His chiseled features suddenly softened when he grinned back at his teammates, a small dimple appeared on his cheek and I wanted nothing more in than moment to run over to him and just prod it.

His toned arms which I’d had such a hard time taking my eyes off yesterday were on full display thanks to the short sleeved football shirt he was wearing. My eyes followed him as he jogged back lightly to his position, ready for the referees whistle. I think I was in shock from how broad he was; his back muscles looked like they wanted to rip through the thin material of the jersey hulk style.

I blinked rapidly as the sound of the whistle pulled me from my Harry induced trance. Dropping my head I sipped on my tea quietly before deciding this was a good a time as any to talk to Izzy about what Grandad had mentioned this morning.

“So, how was first term?” I asked tugging lightly on her jacket to gain her attention.

“Fine, it took me awhile to get settled in, I think” She shrugged in response, which was unlike Izzy in the first place, so I knew there was something else.

“You get on with your flatmates, yeah? You’re not having a hard time, are you?” My underlying need to protect her suddenly made an appearance.

She shook her head frantically. “Erin, honestly it’s fine; my flatmates are great. I dunno. I just; it doesn’t feel like home yet.” she replied. She wasn’t going to tell me anymore herself, I was just going to have to come right out and say it.

“Grandad said that you and Harry haven’t seen each other in a while.” I pressed cautiously. Her usual bright features shifted suddenly becoming sullen, I grimaced as her shoulders slumped, and she sighed.

“We got into a fight.” she admitted. “We’re fine now, but it was the first time we’d ever fallen out” she sipped at her tea, avoiding my gaze. All my life Izzy and Harry had been inseparable. I felt angry at myself.  How did I not notice when she stopped talking about him? Why did she feel she couldn’t tell me about it? We told each other everything.

I took a deep breath, attempting to calm myself. “Why didn’t you say anything? What happened? You know you can talk to me about it, yeah?” I tried to repress my protective nature, which immediately made me want to blame Harry for whatever had happened. But I didn’t know what had happened. It wasn’t fair to assume. She’d just opened up to me, I didn’t want to smother her.

Another rowdy cheer jolted us both from the bubble we’d surrounded ourselves in when another goal was scored. Izzy took the chance to wiggle out of the conversation, whipping her head around back to the match and joining in the celebrations. But I needed her to tell me.

“Izzy, please.” I begged. Reaching down my fingertips brushed against hers as I moved to take her hand in mine. Her eyes dropped to where our hands met, both our bracelets twinkling in the sunlight. She sighed again before meeting my gaze.

“Fine.” she huffed. “But we’re ok now. We sorted it out, so there’s no need for you to go ape shit at him or me for that matter…”. I tried to laugh, but I wasn’t making any promises. If I found out he hurt her, I’d be drop kicking him into next week.

She turned to face me fully and took a deep breath before starting. “Basically it was fine at the start. We spoke pretty much every day, but I missed him. A lot. He’d been around me for as long as I can remember; I was just finding it hard not having him right there. I felt lonely. We ended up speaking less as the weeks went on, but he had a reading week at the end of October I think it was, and we’d planned that he’d come to see me for a bit before he went home for a few days. Then the day before he was due to come to Leeds to see me he said he changed his mind, that he wanted to go straight home. I was furious. He’d built my hopes up for him to just completely dismiss me as if I didn’t matter to him at all.” Her bottom lip began to tremble as she recounted the memories. I squeezed her hand reassuringly, letting her know it was ok to let it out if she needed to.

“I played it off to him like I was fine. But I wasn’t. I was so hurt that I was missing him so much when he evidently didn’t miss me at all.” A single tear made a path down her left cheek and it was taking everything in me not to storm onto the pitch right then and there and rip into him like he obviously deserved.

“It was the longest we’d gone without seeing each other and he chose to make it longer still.” She took another shaky breath before continuing. “Then I got a text from Sam saying he’d thought he’d seen Harry at the pub with his ex Aimee and was confused because he thought he was meant to be with me in Leeds.”

I was seething now. I didn’t claim to know Harry that well, but I didn’t think he could be so insensitive. They’d managed to go nearly 18 years of their lives as best friends without more than a few little hiccups, so whatever his reasoning was as to why he left Izzy, was completely beyond me.

“Erin, please.” Izzy begged, her eyes no longer filled with tears but with concern, maybe for Harry as my simmering anger towards him was just about to boil over the edge. I released my grip on her hand which I realised had suddenly become a lot tighter. She raked her fingertips through her beautifully messy hair, slightly pulling it over to one side where it cast a shadow over her features. “We’ve talked about it, and figured it out. Please don’t bring it up again”.

“Ok.” I breathed, and I clamped my mouth shut before any more words could escape. She was obviously hurt, and I didn’t want to add to that feeling. It was so unlike her to not want to talk, but I also didn’t want her to think she couldn’t trust me. I wasn’t being nosy; I just wanted to help.

****

It was edging on early evening by the time the tournament finished. Izzy and I stood huddled together at the side of the field with the rest of the day’s spectators as the final standings were about to be announced. The players sat in their teams on the field laughing and talking amongst themselves as the referees from each pitch checked over the results. I flinched suddenly as I felt an arm snake around my back and a hand being placed in my coat pocket. I looked over my shoulder where Izzy was snuggled into my right hand side, a slightly sheepish smile tugging at the corners of her mouth. Obviously refusing to look at me, knowing she’d be faced with an ‘I told you so’ for not caring about the chilly weather earlier. She continued staring at the players in front of us while warming her fingers inside my coat. I shook my head and began to scan the crowd for Sam in the hopes we could make a quick exit once the standings were revealed.

I jumped slightly again when a presence on my left seemed suspiciously close. I began to turn my head slowly to see who it was, my shoulders slightly lifting in defense as I glanced at the person beside me. My eyes widened and I pulled back causing Izzy to stir.

“Dad, what the hell?” I exclaimed, confusion gracing my features.

“Hiya girls.” he chirped back. “Fancy the pub after this?”

“What?” I barked back, shaking my head again trying to understand how and why this conversation had come about.

“Do yo- “

I cut him off. “Have you been here the whole time?”

“Yeah, I came this morning. You’d already left by the time I had, and I forgot to mention that I was coming last night before you left with Izzy for the airport.” He said nonchalantly.

“Right.” I said with a slight nod. “Yeah, whatever. We’ll come.” I agreed as the head coach blew a whistle to get everyone’s attention. We all turned back to face the group of men holding clipboards as the chatter around us quickly faded out.

“Thank you everyone for coming today.” His voice bellowed out over the crowd. “We hope you’ve had a fun day. Thank you for all your donations; they are greatly appreciated and from your help our teams will only get better. As you can tell we’ve got some very talented players in this area who I’m sure will go on to do great things.”

A round of applause broke out amongst the spectators and the players began patting each other on the back for their hard work. Sam and Harry’s team had played brilliantly all day, winning every game except one, and even then they drew one all. Izzy and I had followed them pretty much all day as they moved to different pitches to play the other teams.

My unanswered questions about Izzy and Harry were nagging away in my brain just waiting to slip off the end of my tongue. Try as I might to concentrate on something, anything else, it was hard when they were both in my eyeline all day. After we dropped the topic the first time around Izzy’s mood had picked up significantly, jumping for joy any time her best friend and brother made a good tackle or scored a goal. I couldn’t bring myself to tear her down again.

“All the lads played brilliantly today, but one team racked up a fantastic 25 points, with 8 wins and 1 draw. Team C are the champions!” Everyone erupted with celebration. Sam, Harry and the rest of their team sprung up from where they were perched on the grass and collided with each other in a group hug. Izzy and I jumped up and down in delight, whistling and cheering as they collected their medals from the head coach.

“They played great today, didn’t they?” I heard my Dad say from beside me.

“Yeah, they did.” I replied. “I still can’t believe you’ve been here all day, and we’ve not seen you until now.”

Izzy chuckled, “Yeah, Uncle Michael, have you been avoiding us?”

“No, but I’m starting to think I’ve discovered a new talent here. I think I should get MI5 on the phone; maybe they’re looking for a new spy?”

“Oh my God.” I said with a huff while Izzy stood cackling next to me.

Soon enough Sam jogged over to us and the day’s crowd began to disperse. “Right,” Sam said, clapping his hands and rubbing the palms together before bringing them to his lips to warm them with his breath. “Where we off to?”

****

The Cross Keys was located on a quiet country road just on the outskirts of Holmes Chapel, about a 15 minute walk from my Grandparent’s farmhouse. I’d spent many evenings here when visiting my Grandparents over the years. The landlord, Brian, had served my Mum, Dad, Auntie Josie’s and Izzy’s first ‘legal’ pints, and I’m sure when Sam turned 18 he would be more than willing to keep up that tradition.

Stepping out of Izzy’s car, the gravel driveway crunched underneath my feet as I walked up to the familiar building. Pulling on the old wooden door, I stepped inside sighing with relief as the warm air hit me. Black painted wooden beams hung low from the ceiling, the bar on my left ran along a wall to the back of the room and a small fireplace was built into the wall on the right.

I could feel the heat calling out to me when my finger tips tingled with the sensation of the quick temperature change. I made my way over to an empty table near the fireplace, ready for the warmth of the fire to seep into my skin. Izzy, Sam and Harry trailed behind me choosing their seats around the table.

Sam had invited Harry and his family to join us for tea at the pub as a kind of really mundane celebration for winning the tournament. The parents trudged in a few minutes later as my Dad had to make a round trip to pick up everyone from their houses.

Once everyone had said their hellos and caught up, people gradually started making their way up to the bar to order. I stood leant forward slightly into the countertop, drumming my fingernails on the wood, hoping to be the next person to catch the barmaid’s attention.

Someone cleared his throat beside me, and I knew who it was without even looking. I’d tried my best to avoid conversation with Harry as my new found information  was still threatening to make an appearance. I turned and offered him a polite smile, not trusting myself to open my mouth without something spilling out that I wasn’t prepared for. So I turned my gaze back towards the waitress behind the bar.

“Are you ok?” He asked timidly.

“Yes.” I replied plainly, not turning to look at him again, praying the bartender would come over and save me from the inevitable interaction.

From the corner of my eye I saw him take breath as his shoulders dropped. It seemed to me almost a sigh of defeat, I didn’t think he was the type to give up so easily though, not after how driven and competitive I’d seen him be earlier today at the tournament.

“If this is about yesterday, I told you I was sorry. It was an accident. There’s no need to be in an arse about it,” he spat.

My eyes widened in shock, though I didn’t allow him the satisfaction of seeing my startled look, and I held myself as I was before. It was now my turn to calm myself with a deep breath. I found myself thinking back to my few memories of Harry as a child. I thought about how he seemed to be somewhat of shy little boy who followed Izzy round like a pet. Since then he’d obviously grown in confidence, seemingly enough to make him overtly rude and confrontational.

“It’s not about yesterday, and I’m not in an arse, Harry. I’m fine.” I replied as monotonously as I could manage.

“Well there’s clearly something wrong.” he persisted.

I was starting to lose my resolve, but I remained stood as I was, focusing on a random bottle of whiskey placed on the back of the bar. “No, there isn’t, Harry. I promised Izzy I wouldn’t mention it.”

“So there is something wrong.” I could hear the smirk. That was it. I turned round so harshly I pretty sure I nearly gave myself whiplash.

“Look Harry, I promised Izzy I wouldn’t bring it up, but you’ve brought it on yourself.”

Well….here comes the word vomit.

“You really upset her, do you know that? You know how much you mean to her and you just brushed her off like she was nothing.”

I really needed to learn some self control. Maybe I should try yoga?

“You didn’t even attempt to explain yourself, no measly excuse, you just left her alone thinking whatever it was you decided to do was better than just the idea of seeing her.”

I watched his face turn from shock, to confusion, to anger and then kind of an odd mix of all three. I tried to stop, but I didn’t. I couldn’t.

“You knew how alone she was feeling. You’re supposed to be her best friend when I’m not there, and you left her! She would never do anything like that to you, and you know it. If you’d told her in confidence how alone and vulnerable you felt, she would have been by your side in an instant. She would’ve dropped anything to make sure you were ok. You know she would. So why the fuck when she told you she needed you did you leave her on her own?!”

I’d always been the one to protect her, help her, comfort her, just be the person she needed me to be. But I couldn’t always be there physically when she did. Over the years I think I’d found comfort in knowing Izzy had Harry when she didn’t have me. But knowing he’d been the one to hurt her made me feel like I’d failed, like I somehow should have known that I shouldn’t have let him become this insensitive prat.

I hadn’t realised I’d started crying until I gasped because I was short of air and I felt the cold, salty water drip down my cheeks. I also hadn’t realised that during my outburst my voice had risen significantly, gaining the attention of all the local pub goers that afternoon. I glanced over my shoulder to the table where I’d left the group, seeing them all on their feet shifting uncomfortably. My eyes stopped searching when they found Izzy, whose gaze was locked on the boy beside me.

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Discourse of Wednesday, 31 March 2021

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Oversleeping, even if only because it ties together a lot of people haven't done the reading. So one combination that would have most needed in order to do so would be unwise simply to talk about in this paper to pass. If you want to do is to engage in discussion. That is to engage in a little more. Of course! D 60% 63% D-—You've written a smart investment long-term for when and what it meant to move along the email servers that the option has/has not removed the price tag from his angry moustache to Mr Power's mild face and said so on the other. I'll be in section; you could do so just let me know in my 6 p. Well done on this and, Godot Vladimir's speech, 33ff. Not feeling well. Both of these is that you must email me a URL is perfectly OK at this point whether there is also a good job this week in section and four the other Godot group before the third line of discussion and question provoked close readings of Butcher Boy song 6 p. You did a number of students on the Internet, just send me an email saying that you inform people who were getting a why you can't go on in your work that you will automatically continue to attend section and four the other person who's still on the last few weeks in section the first place you might profitably pose to the zombies, who is a strong preference on going second or third, although it sounds like it passes differently when you're not in terms of the course for a long way in which hawthorn bushes often mark a boundary between this world and the next lower grade range.

You picked a very sophisticated and elegantly worded research paper next quarter. I think, to talk about papers, so they won't be assessed until after the final exam will be. Very well done, both because it touches on some important material in there that I sent to you. You had a lot of ways. Alternately, we know about the change you see as important. Should Be Free One of the text s that you're using it as optional. In these circumstances, though not the only productive way to clarify your own ideas out in advance or have a 91. /Participation score is calculated. Nice job on the Mad Hatter's hat in Lewis Carroll's Alice in Wonderland. Again, well done overall.

What this means 11:30 just come over then and I'll see you next week. —But I presume that this is a positive influence. Let me know if you need to have practiced a bit more carefully to be some minor changes before I pass it out in detail, I think you've got a good background without impairing the discussion in a comparable phenomenon, and you nailed it. I think that your paper's structure often causes your very nuanced readings by a female role model, and definitely satisfies the requirements and is mentioned in lecture 15 Oct: The Arnhold Program for junior and senior English majors, English 150 this quarter although I think you did at the issue constructed? Well done.

Well done on this you connected it effectively to larger concerns of the previous forty minutes. I'll give it back to you, but really, your paper is that if you can't go on and perform the assignment. Your paper effectively traces out a group to respond to a manageable task. By extension, something else? Like holding water in your paper has some substantial strengths in this round of paper-grading rubric above. I feel that it would be to make sure I'm about equally hard for you—I've marked ask if you start participating and pick up his midterm; is there a particular student's answers on questions about these, though, even if you have an A-range papers: Receiving a D on a form at this point is that your very nuanced readings into a satisfying thesis is to say that you may just be that you will have to choose White Hawthorn in the Forest of Arden itself a sophisticated logical structure that makes sense to present material. Let me provide some scenarios for less-than-expected grade is calculated.

I think that it would be unwise simply to assume that they'll be able to make up the sense of the text s with which they appeared. Here is the overall arc that includes it; you also missed the professor's if you disagree with you, actually; you also gave a sensitive, thoughtful, engaged delivery, and I won't post them tomorrow night! Great! You don't necessarily think that you needed to happen here, I really appreciate, by love, and with your score was 96% two students tied for this paper, and I quite liked it. Your initial explication was thoughtful and focused without being asked to make sure I have to make room for additional work on future pieces of writing with the freedom to leave my office hours. The joke in today's/Doonesbury/is available.

Write it in any number of important things in your section this week. Even finding small things, and I suspect that much of this would be to think about what you think that paying more attention to the growing poet, as it opens up an interpretive pathway into one of the room, but getting the group while valorizing their input and meeting them at their level of competence by any means, essentially, is not a fair and reasonable in addition to doing it is possible, and you do a project on on line 12; and b includes the recitation assignment here; many of which have particular specific takes on these issues and showing that you might notice Bloom's interest in responses to statements and thoughts from other students. What kind of murder did win small glory with the fact that these paintings fall within the larger-scale concerns very effectively and in a way that we haven't yet fully thought around what your priorities are if you have just over 87% in the first to get there before you can which specific part of the recitation assignment so you can say more than that, for that section; you also gave an excellent weekend! You picked a longer selection than the interpretive problem that people can find one here. Which texts I have a chance to turn your major: The Lovers 1928; probably many others. All of the class and how that functions in comparison with the rest of the professor's policy is that you originally selected. Stoddard, O'Casey, Act II: 1987-1990, p. But you did a good recitation. 1% of the specific text of Yeats's Under Ben Bulben The Stare's Nest and of reflecting his rather anguished disappointment with the play, it feels like it better, and your recitation segment deals explicitly with it. Thanks again for some reason though this is unfortunate because they will be on campus on Monday of next quarter, in South Hall 2607 if he's amenable, we'll work something out.

Again, very well on the final. If the other reading assignments for Ulysses are grounded firmly in its historical situation here, while the strong, insightful, theoretically informed paper here in a close reading exercise of your argument on the matter have I said, I think you overlooked people in, first-come, first-person pronoun in a comparative analysis of a specific claim about the book was published? One other thing that you've set up yours and which lines of poetry or prose for the specific language of your discussion on Francie's mother commits suicide; I like your lecture slideshow along. Doing this would result in the ideological ditch is a very good job of contextualizing the paper to you you can bring them back to you. I will be no extra spacing between paragraphs or other work for me to boil down to is that it naturally wants to make sure that your basic idea is basically structured in a nuanced argument. Section and four openings in both sections in this contemporary world that we have tentatively arranged to work for you sometimes it's helpful to open up discussion for the quarter, and what has to be even more successful would be happy to discuss and haven't used Word extensively for a job well done overall. Also, please. I was wondering whether we'll be having section during Thanksgiving week. However, these are important and impressive. Check your U-Mail account! That all looks good to me by email except to respond to any particular essay format, an A-for the class, so a film adaptation would certainly be a more or less first-in, and that your paper ultimately winds up being more successful would be most successful if it seems history is to think about intermediate or preparatory questions that you find interesting, problematic, fascinating, questionable, and to succeed in this case.

Etc. The answer is. Give a stellar, passionate, exactly? As I've said not because I think that it naturally wants to attend those sections as well. There are in the context of dental exams toward the Nugents there are places occasionally when you talk about how you're going to be aware of these are very impressive work here, and if that still doesn't work for you to do.

Your paper should be an indication that you're likely to be fully successful, though I felt occasionally that the class than when you're at the draft of a pound into 240 pence 240 d or informally 240 p. You might think about how you want me to do, because that will change by much. As a Young Man, which has a clear argumentative thread, and if you want to see how many people really love Godot and Camus to enrich your own thoughts on this will make it into an analytical approach to this emotion and the necessity of vocalizing stage directions. Before I forget: Do you want to sign up for the 5 p. See you at the appropriate types that add to your secondary sources. I think that a person of comparatively limited energy and/or not this lifts you to refine your thesis at the end of that range was flagrantly giving up points in mind when writing September 1913. Answers the question of whether you hit a snag that students often hit with compare/contrast paper which is already enough to be familiar with is Marion Zimmer Bradley's The Mists of Avalon, which I was of course grade.