#lala meltdowns

[mobagehelllocal]

IM THINKING ABT HIS EXPRESSION IN THE DARK!!! WHAT R U HIDING FROM US!!! WHAT IS IT!!! WHAT IS THAT EXPRESSION 😭😭😭

also included his flowers because of course

[hazshit-hotel-hater]

100 FOLLOWER!??!?!

Through the grapevine, through the phone line.

HOLY SHIT!!!! 100 FOLLOWER!!!!!!!!!!! I was not expecting to hit that in like.. a little over a month, that is genuinely insane. Thank you so much for following my hate filled journey 🎉

This art was for my friend because they’ve converted me into a voxelette enjoyer so this is their fault btw/j

The Analysis on this one won’t be too long because I don’t think many people are as nuts about longform content as I am so lets see how normal I can be

First of all, I wanted to give Velvette her natural hair and have fun with puffs and braids and twists and stuff instead of just straightening it and putting it in ponytails. She actually went through 5 hairstyles before I landed on this one and I’m fully convinced she’s responsible for making this art take 9 hours but its okay because shes cute ^w^ also I have made her into a silicone BJD doll with plastic hands for better posability and a little hole for holding accessories and stuff like how G5 LPS did. The lighter strands of hair are also supposed to look a little bit like yarn because I think I was subconsciously thinking about Lala Loopsies and it led to the button eyes and all that. Her shirt was based off Fluttershy’s colours and that is 1 because they look good and 2 my friend likes fluttershy. The stitches in silicone also might not make sense to some but to that i say. uh go look up a suture pad

Here is her little Colour analysis 🩷

Now for Vox (and technically still Velvette), his colour scheme is mostly purple actually, the blue light turns a lot of it .. well. Blue. So you cant see it much but im not lying I promise. I feel like Vox is very insecure but still being prideful at the same time while Vevlette is more sure of herself, hence the significantly less amount of blue. The only blue accents on her are her beads, eyeshadow and scrunchies and the “sloth” aspect of that is mostly just how little she cares about others opinions which kind if intern turns back to pride. Meanwhile Vox has a lot more blue, not because he doesn’t work hard, but the methods in which he does things. His employees do a LOT of managing and he doesn’t have to do much for marketing because yknow. brainwashing. It also correlates to his personal grudges and grievances getting in the way of his work like how he had a public meltdown over Alastor. His body is blue but his purple suit covers it, ie masking insecurity with self assurance. People wear clothes, Im very smart I know you can hold the applause./j Hes also buffer because where the hell else is all the wiring gonna go

Here is Vox’s colour chart (note the use of bisexual flag colours/j/j)

It’s kind of obvious but their eyes are both yellow in sections because capitalism and all that. Also I thought making Vox’s eye change into the screen recording symbol was clever because yea he is watching everything and also he is technically recording visuals into his brain and processing them so !

I didn’t know where to squeeze this in but theres a very faint tint of green in his screenlight for the envy aspect so do with that what you will. Oh and his buttons are little outlet plugs :3c

[starrysnowdrop]

Hey everyone, this post might be a bit long, as I’m just wanting to get my thoughts out on stuff. Feel free to ignore it and skip. I might ramble a bit, so I apologize in advance! But first, an Aymeric dote for a much needed serotonin shot! 😘

I wanted to thank everyone who sent well wishes for my son! He just has the common cold, but since he’s special needs, it is really hard on him, and he usually has meltdowns whenever he gets sick. Needless to say, I’m exhausted. I’m exhausted to the point that I had an asthma attack earlier and I’m just now getting to relax. But don’t worry, I’ll be alright.

Along with my son being sick, it’s been hectic with IRL stuff as well. Not getting into too much extraneous detail, as it’s not important to the main point, but it’s been hard just finding the time to get gposes or any writing done with everything I have to do IRL.

Because it’s been so difficult getting anything accomplished that I already have on my WIP List, I know that I just don’t have the time or the energy to do Lalapril, or any other event for a while. I’m hoping to do Wolmeric Week though, which is the first week of May. I think that will give me the time I need to plan ahead what I want to do for it, and since it’s only a week, I think it’s pretty manageable next to a whole month for Lalapril. It will also be something of a present to myself, as my birthday is at the end of April after all.

What I can do, however, is support my fellow lala peeps out there, and cheer you all on if you are planning on doing Lalapril, or if anyone else is doing one of the other April events (Why there’s a million events just in April I have no idea…)

This next point might not be much of a surprise, as this has been kind of a thing for a few months already, but I’ve decided to put my first WoL OC Yume on hiatus for a while. I’m NOT getting rid of her, and I’m still insanely proud of the years of work I’ve put into her story and development. However, I haven’t had inspiration for her for a while now, and it is bothering me that she’s still prominent on my pinned post when all of my inspiration has been for Hali ever since I created her.

I know this might be a disappointment for those of you who have followed me for years and/or those who followed me for Yume or Yume x G’raha. But I need to do what makes me happy, and Hali makes me so happy that I want to pour my limited energy reserves into her. If this makes me lose some followers, then so be it. It can’t be helped.

But what I will do is I will make a Masterlist of all of the important Yume info, basically everything that is on my pinned post right now, and put in on a separate post. Then I’ll link that Yume Masterlist onto my pinned post instead, so that Yume’s info is still easily accessible to everyone who is curious to read it, but it’s not as misleading as it is now.

I think the last thing on my mind is the live letter, and that I’m super excited for the end of Pandaemonium, but I’m still iffy on the MSQ, as I just haven’t been that invested in it since 6.1. I am hoping that this all ties into 7.0 somehow, because right now, it is feeling like the filler arc in an anime, and I’m just ehhhhh. I don’t know if that’s part of my problem with my lack of inspiration for Yume, but it might be. I’m not sure anymore.

Anyways, if you’ve actually read all this, I thank you dearly for putting up with my rambling. I hope you all enjoy your weekend! Love ya! 💖

[cyarsk52-20]

https://www.buzzfeed.com/laraparker/vanderpump-rules-reunion-part-2-recap

Tom Sandoval's On-Camera Meltdown, Raquel's Restraining Order "Regrets," And Everything Else We Learned On The Chaotic "Vanderpump Rules" Reunion

At one point, we see Tom Sandoval get up to leave Raquel's trailer before he comes back in and demands to talk to her without being filmed. When producers inform him that he cannot speak to her 1-on-1 without a film crew, he starts to completely unravel.

Posted on Jun 1, 2023

Well, we made it. Here we are. Another week, another reunion episode on Vanderpump Rules. But this week, we finally get to see Raquel face the music, or just her other castmates, and this is like a weeks-long Super Bowl event — but better.

All of that to say, the second reunion episode of Vanderpump Rules Season 10 aired last night, and it's time to go over everything that happened.

Immediately starting the episode — and I'm going with the uncensored version for obvious reasons. This is something I have only dreamt of being able to do since I began watching this show in 2013.

The episode starts with an overview of what we are about to see, including Raquel — or Rachel, if you prefer — coming on stage to face her fellow cast members and fake boss Lisa Vanderpump. Then, we jump right into where we left off in last week's reunion episode with a standoff between Lala Kent and Tom Sandoval, with LVP interjecting to seemingly defend Tom Sandoval and piss off the fandom around the world.

Tom Sandoval seems emboldened by LVP's defense of him and continues throwing insults Lala's way, including that she's "a narcissist" which, let's be honest, he should consider taking an online test for. He then takes it a step further and insists that Lala "pulled out her IUD the day she found out Stassi was pregnant." It seems that he is insinuating that Lala wanted the same press and attention that Stassi was getting, but honestly I don't really care what he meant because it's a weird and very shitty thing to say. But shoutout to IUDs, hey?

James finally comes back to the stage after explaining that he keeps getting "angry" at Tom Sandoval and then "having to pee." He apologizes to LVP when he comes back on stage — she wins again — and then Andy pivots the conversation to Lala Kent and Randall Emmett's former relationship. Lala shares that she hasn't spoken to Randall at all, and the reason that Ocean — her daughter — is not on camera is because Randall sent a legal letter forbidding it.

The Los Angeles Times piece on Randall and the numerous allegations he is facing is then brought up, and Lala says she was both surprised and unsurprised because people had been "blowing up her DMs." Lala reveals that she and Randall met after Randall — who was allegedly a huge fan of the show — sent his assistant to talk to Lala while she was "hostessing at SUR." I almost forgot that this show made Lala pretend to answer phones and book reservations on camera for multiple seasons.

Andy asks Lala if she felt like "she had to sleep with Randall" because of the audition and she said that she did not feel that way, but that as a girl from Utah, she didn't understand how Hollywood worked. James Kennedy interjects to say he knew how Hollywood worked "since he was like 8 years old," which is both very dark and probably true. Then LVP — making sure she stays being filmed on this show despite her role making less and less sense, IMO — interjects to remind everyone that James Kennedy "slept with Kristen to get on Vanderpump Rules."

The cast then breaks for lunch — and we see it all, I FUCKING LOVE BREAKING THE FOURTH WALL!! — and we even get to see Tom Schwartz attempt to do a push-up. TBH, this is exactly what I look like when attempting to do push-ups, so I will refrain from making fun of him because we're all doing our best. But I will be including the screencap below for your viewing pleasure.

I am laughing as I type this, because I cannot believe this is real, but Tom Sandoval's defense as to why he and Ariana "seemed solid" is that she went from "talking down to him" to "telling him he's so good at fashion" and therefore he had no choice but to stay with her for many months (and sleep with her!) while simultaneously carrying on an affair with her good friend!

We then see Tom Sandoval get up to leave Raquel's trailer — he hugs her goodbye — before he comes back in and demands to talk to her without being filmed. (This is getting juicy, OMG.) When he is informed that he cannot speak to her 1-on-1 without a film crew, he starts to unravel. At one point, he throws around legal jargon and says he's entitled to a filming break "legally" and that if they don't allow him, he's "gonna call a fucking Lyft and get the fuck out of here." I honestly would have pegged Tom Sandy as an Uber dude, but it's good to know where he stands in the rideshare app world.

And this, ladies and gentlemen, is why I pay $9.99 for Peacock every month. This uncensored version is HITTING FOR ME!! I am enthralled. I feel alive, on the edge of my seat, etc.

OK, Tom's meltdown is over (for the time being) and the cast is back from their lunch break. James' girlfriend, Ally Lewber — aka the woman who broke the scandal before we knew it was a scandal — joins the rest of the cast on stage. She admits she "went down a Bravo rabbit hole" during COVID in 2020 and had watched the show, but that James is "different" in person and she is glad she gave him a chance.

We then get a flashback of Raquel sharing during Season 10 that James had spoken horribly to her family, recounting one episode in particular over Thanksgiving when James said that Raquel's dad "is miserable because he's married to a fat bitch." And I am once again reminded why it's so difficult to root for James sometimes. Because he's legitimately not a nice person at times and is the definition of "hurt people hurt people."

Andy then asks Ally, "Did you ever think he wasn't over [Raquel]?" She said he gets triggered easily, and then continues that she doesn't think his drinking is an issue "at the moment." She then shared that they are taking breaks from drinking together.

The discussion of James' drinking doesn't end here, however, and after LVP shares that she believes James Kennedy is better off without alcohol — and I think we all agree with her on this one — Tom Sandoval begins to share a story of how James Kennedy apparently ruined a gig that he, Tom Sandoval, and Tom Schwartz had booked together.

Lala interjects and reminds us all that this is a sensitive subject and that while it should be discussed, Tom Sandoval and Tom Schwartz both "drink very, very heavily" and that it's odd for them to have any say on James Kennedy's drinking. It's really the theme of this show, though, isn't it? A bunch of people who have done terrible things going after other people for doing other terrible things in a race to see who comes out looking most terrible.

With that, James Kennedy leaves the stage again, but not before yelling out "You fucking mustache worm bitch!" Again, what did I tell you guys about the uncensored version? Chef's kiss.

Back to the reunion, and now we are discussing Scheana's wedding to Brock and how Katie Maloney was upset by Tom Schwartz's apparent loyalty to Brock and Scheana over her — the person he was in a relationship with for over a decade.

Andy then brings up the fact that Lala had tried to "warn" Ally about dating James, and Lala explained that the summer was very difficult for her and that she didn't want to see what happened to her happen "to any other chicks." James said he understood her intentions, even if it upset him, and with that, Ally's time on the reunion stage is over.

Ally has left the stage, and it is now time to discuss what the hell happened between Raquel and Scheana on that fateful night after Watch What Happens Live. Andy asks Scheana what happened and she informs him that she cannot speak to any details until the court case — which was scheduled on the 29th, after filming. Andy then asks Tom Sandoval what he thinks happened and he hesitates to answer for what feels like five minutes, deeply sighing occasionally in between. He says he feels like "he is in between a rock and a hard place" because he is friends with Scheana (not anymore, sweetie..) and also wants to defend Raquel. He finally shares that Scheana allegedly said to him via phone, "I just punched that bitch in the face and threw her phone in the street."

Lala also says that she spoke to Scheana immediately after and "not once did Scheana mention punching anyone." Tom Sandoval remains firm that he heard her say she punched Raquel, despite him NOT EVEN BEING IN NEW YORK, and Scheana eventually tells him to "keep his fucking mouth shut."

When Scheana is asked if she will ever be friends with Raquel again, she replied, "Never."

Andy then gets back into the discussion of whether or not Tom Sandoval and Ariana portrayed their real relationship on the show. Ariana maintains that she believes she has been extremely vulnerable at times on the show and did not intentionally hide anything. Tom Sandoval disagrees and maintains that they "hid their issues" and that "Ariana was very strict about it." I know you can't see me, but I'm rolling my eyes.

Andy then tells Scheana that he has something to give her from Raquel, which, as it turns out, is a notice that she is attempting to drop the restraining order she filed against Scheana. Raquel told Andy during their 1-on-1 that she regretted filing it and would be moving to get it dropped from the court systems as soon as she could. Scheana is stone-faced at first when Andy tells her this, before Lala says that she is so glad this is happening so that Scheana "can be present with her kid," which has Scheana breaking down in tears (and, tbh, me as well).

BTW, while Scheana is crying and recounting the horrible experience she's had over the last few weeks between betrayals and having to defend herself in court, this is Raquel's face. No emotion. CHILLING.

Scheana continues crying — which makes Ariana and Lala cry — as she details just how hard she rode for Raquel, even saying that she felt comfortable "with Raquel in the same bed as Brock." The camera then pans to Raquel in her trailer saying that she maybe should have "written Scheana a personal note." Which is like, idk, the very fucking least you could do??????????

BTW, that moment spurred this tweet, which made me laugh out loud.

Raquel’s note to Scheana #pumprules pic.twitter.com/GYMYoFQql9— miz conduct (@doNUTSarefreeYO) June 1, 2023

Twitter: @doNUTSarefreeYO

Tom Sandoval and Ariana argue a bit more, and we learn that Tom Sandoval lied to Scheana's face about the affair and that he believed he was doing her a favor because then she would have had to be the one to tell Ariana. BTW, we have just nine minutes left in this episode and Raquel has still not even entered the stage. They are dragging this out, and I am both entranced and slightly annoyed by it. But, as I type this, the Bravo gods seem to have heard me, and it's time for Scheana to exit the stage so that Raquel can join.

But before she actually comes on stage, we're given more of her 1-on-1 with Andy Cohen, which was shot the previous day. During the 1-on-1, she explains that she wants to "take accountability" for her actions and that Tom Sandoval made her feel "seen and heard in a way she had never experienced before." She admitted that she was "living in her own little reality" and that she had hoped Tom Sandoval would break up with Ariana so that they could start dating.

Raquel then shared that she and Tom Sandoval "were going to tell Ariana" but that they "wanted to get their stories straight" first because they both agreed that if Ariana knew how long the affair had been going on, it would hurt her. I love that the affair being only a month would be less hurtful than 7 months in their minds. Like, what the fuck is this logic?? I almost cannot believe this is real and that I am watching it.

When asked if Raquel would return for next season of the show, she said it was "up in the air" right now but that she wanted to. And when asked how she felt about seeing Ariana on stage at the reunion, she replied that she was "scared." Girlie...you should be.

MY GOD. We have finally made it. It's finally time for Raquel to actually walk on stage. We see Tom Schwartz rattle a pill bottle and tell Tom Sandoval that it's Xanax.

Raquel finally walks on stage and sits down, says "Hi Andy"...AND THEN IT ENDS. THEY ARE LEAVING US HANGING FOR NEXT WEEK.

HOLY SHIT. I am not ready for next week and simultaneously cannot wait and need the episode now. Catch me back here next week for the conclusion we've all been waiting for. And hopefully we will finally find out what the big bombshell is.

In the meantime, be sure to catch new (and old!) episodes of Vanderpump Rules on Peacock! You can even watch uncensored versions now! Which, BTW, I highly recommend.

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[lalitaoffashion]

[Cisgender Woman she/her]. Hey, is that [Summer Bishil], no that is just [Lalita Basu] around Turtle Bay. I heard they are [37] years old, and their birthday is [December 12, 1986]. They rest their heads in the [Midtown] but they can mainly be found working as [Fashion Journalist]. Some say they are [Loyal, Loving, and Emathetic ] and can be [Indelicate, Bossy, and Nosey]. If they had a theme song it would be, [The Man by Taylor Swift]. I hear they are [Newcomer], either way Turtle Bay is home and welcomes you!

BASICS:

full name: Lalita Basu

nicknames: Ita Lala (do not try this. it's only for her parents) Bambi (Only Willow or you'll get hit)

age: 37

dob: December 12, 1986

hometown: New Orleans, Louisiana

current location: Turtle Bay, South Carolina

neighborhood: Midtown

occupation: Head Writer of a major Fashion Magazine

gender: Cis-Female

pronouns She/Her

sexuality: Aro/Pan/Poly

relationship status: Single

POSITIVE TRAITS: Loyal, Loving, and Emathetic

NEGATIVE TRAITS:Indelicate, Bossy, and Nosey

theme song: The Man by Taylor Swift

PHYSICAL APPEARANCE:

face claim: Summer Bishil

hair color: Brunette

eye color: Brown

height: 5'2"

weight: 120lbs

tattoos: [1.] ,( Matches with Willow.)

piercings: ears and belly button.

scars: None.

FAMILY:

mother: Angelica Basu

father: Amir Basu

siblings: Willow Matthews(not adopted or biologically)

children: Absolutely not.

pet(s): Frodo [FERRET] (Willows but she takes care of him. Sometimes)

significant relationship(s): Willow (Best Friend platonic soulmate roommate).

IMPORTANT BITS:

For the first ten years of her life Lalita and her family moved around between Louisiana and India for her dad's job before Lalita and her mother got tired of it and put their foot down. They didn't care if it was America or India but they needed to decide as Angelica never could get settled enough to get a job and Lalita had no consistency in her schooling. Her father agreed any they settled in America.

Once they were settled Lalita finally was able to at least attempt to gain friends though it wasn't as easy as she'd hoped in the south. Not just that but because of her moving around and inconsistant education she was also placed in special education to attempt to catch her up where she met her best friend.

Willow and her clicked from the moment they met. She seemed to have very few issues commincating with them even so far as to helping the teacher doing major meltdowns. From then on they were always seen together. Something her father wasn't too happy about but he couldn't really do much to stop his headstrong daughter.

She didn't realize though her best friend graduating before her. It didn't matter. While being her class's validictorion she'd spent little time caring about school and instead taken an intership as an editor at a fashion magazine that she got offered a major writing job in the minute she graduated and she and Willow moved in together.

When Willow told her about Turtle Bay she asked them to give her a few months and worked out everything so they could move. She says it's so it helps them keep their rituals but really she can't imagine living without her best friend..

[renesf]

MTRCB’s Lala Sotto On 12-Day Leave After Meltdown On Satirical Post

MTRCB chair Lala Sotto has decided to take a 12-day leave of absence, leaving us all wondering if the absurdity of her agency’s recent actions finally got to her.  The MTRCB recently made headlines by vehemently denying any involvement in summoning Vice Ganda over that infamous chicken-licking McDonald’s commercial. But here’s the kicker – it turns out that the MTRCB’s outrage was triggered by a…

[mightyaphrodytee]

Lol, that was season 5, but…

Holy shit so much information has poured all over us for the last two months, it’s hard to keep everything straight in your head. I broke my shoulder during Scandoval, I had endless time in bed, in pain, so I did a rewatch (I’m currently mid-season 7, and I’m not committed to seasons 8 or 9). Every episode. Every blowup, every fight, every meltdown, all the drunkenness and drug abuse, all the infidelity and accusations and denials and tears. And I have thoughts. For posterity, darlings.

I’ve learned (and seen with my own eyes—Florida Girl) that BOTH Tom AND Ariana had some kind of pact, and I think they both took it seriously until Tom abandoned it for Rachel, that they would keep their private struggles, whatever they might be, OFF the show and hidden from their castmates and “friends.” I believe with all my heart that nobody on the show or in production really ever questioned it. No one ever leveled an accusation at their relationship. Tom and Ariana were like the closest thing to an audience pov on the show. The DRAAAAMA was Jax, Jax, Jax, Jax, Stassi, Stassi, Stassi, Stassi, fistfights and party crashing and cheating and a breakup…! We were barely shown Tom and Ariana’s conflict over having children, which seemed significant when Tom said it was a dealbreaker, then immediately retracted it when confronted by Ariana. That, plus their difficulties with intimacy and Ariana’s body image issues, was all we knew. They had each other’s back to an insane degree for YEARS, because of this pact, and now the floodgates are open, And we know that when Lala tells Ariana about what really happened at that party the day Ariana’s grandmother dies, Ariana had a meltdown and refused to film with Lala, who had to sit at a table and wait while production talked Ariana down and got consent to film. That’s why she abruptly turns and yells for Tom to come join the Lala info dump, saying I’m not gonna do this, so…let’s get him. And he was absolutely stone cold caught in a lie right then and there.

How could Ariana so easily dismiss the certain knowledge, via Lala, who was there at the party with Sandoval (and Raquel), that TOM LIED TO HER ABOUT NOT FINDING AN UBER SO HE COULD STAY WITH RAQUEL. So, like, I feel like that should’ve been the red flag to end all red flags.

And she definitely had her doubts, no matter how hard she rode for him publicly, because her INTUITION told her to see what she could see when she had the perfect opportunity to look at his phone. The photos app I guess, which is the iOS camera roll. What a shock it must have been. It’s like you’re flying off the edge of the earth, right up into outer space, no tether to humanity because everything is a lie. UGH I RELATE and probably am projecting my shit onto Ariana, which I’m not trying to do fr fr.

Dude, if she had followed me she would have known I wasn’t at Schwartz’s WORST STATEMENT OF THE EPISODE CONGRATS SCUMBAG

But every time you stayed out late or overnight, Ariana checked your location, which was always at the complicit Schwartz’s house

So you left your phone there while you went off to Rachel’s?

Because OBVIOUSLY you’re no fucking stranger to her apartment (!!!)

There is no way in hell I would ever believe that Sandoval wouldn’t run to his work wife, in whom he has confided everything, and confess every detail, with a TON of drama because it’s Sandoval, to expunge his guilty conscience alllllll over Schwartz. Please. He knew everything from the jump, but of course he took no action beyond urging Sandoval to confess. For seven months. He knew. These people are such great liars.

Every line out of Ariana’s mouth, in her confrontation conversation with Tom, was poetry. Eloquent, blunt, sincere, honest, brutal, true. That woman! I admire her dignified reaction in this episode while also side-eyeing her own complicity in not wanting any breaches of the wall of positivity that she helped create. But everyone on this show has their good and their bad, and we’ve seen it all. Ariana’s very first episode! Disaster. She was playing a tough girl character, not herself.

Brittany is the exception to that and has never done anything wrong or shady or hurtful or mean girl-ish.

[suchananewsblog]

Lala Kent Claims Ariana Madix Had a “Meltdown” When She Brought Up Tom Sandoval’s Lies in Recent ‘Vanderpump Rules’ Episode

Lala Kent revealed that Ariana Madix had a “meltdown,” causing a brief pause in filming when she raised concerns about Tom Sandoval during last week’s episode of Vanderpump Rules — months before his (then ongoing) affair with Raquel Leviss came to light. At the end of the episode, Kent tells Madix that Sandoval had the option to leave a recent Labor Day party to be with her the day her…

[themetalgodsmeltdownposts]

Burning Witches interview with Lala Frischknecht for The Metal Gods Meltdown by Seb Di Gatto

[scythe-wolf]

Every day I realise how shitty my childhood was and every day I dissociate

[rookieforlife]

I love it when they doubt CP. Then bam! She plays lights out and the trolls go back to their caves and grumble on their own. Remember when Lalas wouldn't even put her on the starting XI? Or when people said she needs to play at LV to be match fit? I just have to laugh.

I'm enjoying their meltdowns. They are so obvious lol.

[shieldsecretbase]

All The Right Moves - Peter Parker x Stark!Reader

[part fourteen] - Ignore It All

words: 755

summary: After deciding you needed to get away from your home town and everything you know, you move in with your uncle. Who also happened to be Tony Stark. Through him you meet Peter Parker and a blooming friendship forms. Will your life be better with the Avengers? Or will the danger be too much for you?

warning: swearing i think

A/N: i’m SO sorry it has taken me months to post an update. College started to get rough with exams and then the pandemic happened and I got evicted from school and had to move home and I’m finally done with the semester and can relax a little bit. I hope you all enjoy the update! Let me know what you think! 

The ride to the compound was silent by your own design. The music from your speakers blasting and echoing out the open windows. You didn’t want to discuss your interaction with Jamie. You didn’t even want to think about her. So instead, you avoided it by drowning out all thoughts with the playlist your uncle had made you. And any thought Peter wanted to say would be equally drowned out. Pulling into the compound, you parked the car in the garage and shut it off.

“Y/N?” Peter asked, the second the music was shut off. “Are you okay?��� 

“Mhm,” you hummed, grabbing your backpack and heading for the front door. “Just can’t stand Jamie is all.”

“Did she do something to bother you?” Peter continued to interrogate you, not fully understanding your hate towards her.

“Don’t worry about it. Come on, Tony and Bucky are waiting for us,” you replied, not waiting for Peter to follow you inside. 

“Hey kiddo, you’re back early,” Tony called as he saw you walking in, talking with Steve and Rhodey in the main hall. 

“Practice was cancelled today. Figured I’d come home and get some work done. Peter’s here too.”

“Oh good, I need his help on some suit designs.”

“I’ll head down for the lab now then sir,” Peter spoke, entering the compound now and walking past the group. You watched as Peter walked by and didn’t bother reacting as you nodded at the three men. “I’m going to go find Bucky so we can start training.”

Tony frowned for a second, watching as you made your way to the main living room. Turning back to the other two, he let out a sigh. “Something happened in that car ride,” Tony muttered, walking to the lab.

“I’ll go train with the other two and see what I can find out,” Steve called out to Tony as he made his way to the gym. 

Downstairs, in the gym, you and Bucky were stretching, talking nonsense. You had changed relatively fast so the two of you could get started. A knock on the gym’s door cut your conversation short and the two of you looked up to see Steve and Natasha walking in. 

“Hope you don’t mind us joining your training session?” Steve asked, giving that innocent smile that you could never say no to.

“Not at all,” you replied with a smile. “We’re still stretching so you’re just in time.”

The two nodded, joining you and Bucky in stretching. It was silent for a moment, something in the air seeming off. It wasn’t until Natasha spoke up did you realize they were worried about you. “I heard from a little spider that your car ride home was quite tense. Did something happen at school?” Nat asked, sitting on the ground next to you as she stretched her legs.

You were quiet for a moment. Not sure if you should tell them. What could be the harm really? They all knew your situation. They all knew Jamie. So why not tell them? It wouldn’t hurt to vent about your feelings before they bottled up inside and caused a meltdown. Swallowing the lump rising in your throat, you spoke up, “It’s just… this whole Jamie situation is getting to me today. I was already on edge this morning with running late and to see her waiting at my locker just pissed me off. Not to mention her trying to control Flash and then trying to hang out with Peter and I after school as if we’re friends still. As if she isn’t the reason why my life fell apart.”

“Ah, so little miss mind controller isn’t leaving you alone,” Bucky muttered, standing up as he finished stretching. 

“I’m worried that the more she tries to get closer, Peter will end up getting hurt. What if she manages to control him? I don’t -” shaking your head, you let the rest of the sentence die off. What were you even trying to say? Standing up alongside Bucky, you looked down at the other two. “Well come on, shall we start training or we going to sit around and gossip like children all afternoon?” 

Steve and Nat shared a concerned look but let it go for now. Letting you ignore everything else and train with the three. That’s what you needed more than anything right now. If you admitted your feelings, if you admitted how much it might hurt if Peter falls under Jamie’s control, you might never be able to keep going.

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[oh-shit-a-baby]

Black Friday thoughts

(All the spoilers beware!!!)

with lala n ari (hi I’m @drawinglinesinarbitraryplaces if yall dont know me)

These were our thoughts the first time watching my digital ticket through. It will be long. There will be spoilers.

ITS JOEY

ITS KURT MEGA

I can’t remember how to spell her name but she looks like an excited child and i just Acting (it’s Jaime yall dw)

i was on board until fifty quid was an only

Robert forgot the choreo and lala just went OH MY GOD WHAT A DARLING so

DAN AND DONNA?????

E M M A A N D P A U L

I wanted a salad, but, now I have a child

Emma my darling I’m so sorry about ur sister

DUMBLEDORE????!?!?

BY GRACE DO U MEAN GRACE CHASTITY?!?!?!?!?!?

LADIDADAH DAY OH MY GOD

Paul ur such a mess ily

Emma shows up had an hour late with Starbucks

i dont really like getting hit by cars any more

i dont get flashbacks i remember bad things vividly

Both of the above are moods but who hurt them

PLAID

@drawinglinesinarbitraryplaces saw plaid and immediately said ‘is he a lesbian? Wait no’

What do you mean I have to look after a child

ITS THE OKAYS

Tim’s a mood

and even if I did, HOW WOULD IT FIT INTO THE SEDAN?!

Paul’s buddy bill

Well I will be GODDAMMED if he doesn’t have a merry FUCKING Christmas!!!!

We stopped for like ten minutes to watch @dialovesyellow being an idiot but we love her so it’s fabulous

At the same time though were not going to be able to do this in one sitting bc we spent like 30mins chatting to dia and heeter

Dumbldore grew a beard?? No??

No comment

He’s a chaotic mess but we love him

(Heather started playing the mii song on the piano while he was singing which was fUn)

FLASH! BANG! WHAT HAVE I DONE?!!??

But dumbledores voice is still stunning

How does he hit high notes whilst still not opening his mouth like at all

Jeez Corey that’s dark

Corey everything ur character says to lex is m e a n

MONEY MONEY MONEY MONEEEEY!! JUST FOR MEEE!!!!!!

why does anyone want this

no it isn’t cute

get away from it stop it

Lala: ROBEEEEEEEERRRRT

I want his jacket

WEAR ANOTHER GLOVE ETHAN

Fuck Ethan lost lexs sister

@drawinglinesinarbitraryplaces : Everyone’s wearing plaid they must be lesbians

Now we gotta talk to the imaginary spider from outer space

Not crazy but creative

A certified mess

Don’t u fuckin laugh

SEVEN FUCKING THOUSAND DOLLARS

CALIFUCKINGFORNIA

MY MOMS A BITCH

The new lil girl can’t dance but we love her

Califomia sounds like speed run from tto conspiracy theory

Nuff said

That’s not how cameras work babe

Legend

Jesus Robert and the girl who plays lex can s i n g

LINDA

Linda bribing people is a mood

Becky Barnes. Nuff said.

Linda’s buying four what the fuck

IN SO MANY WORDS YESS!

I HOPE YOU DONT GET A WIGGLY! I HOPE YOU FUCKING DIE!!

Well my children were accidents!

Becky is stunning but Linda’s also a bitch

Becky we love you

Becky my darling I’m so sorry

YEAH GERALD

Becky wants to fuck dumbledore

Jesus they’re both a mess

THE HOMELESS DUDE???!!??

OMG IT IS THE HOMELESS DUDE!!!!!!

They all just,,, got out of the line to dance around Becky and dumbledore

Oh my god it’s a train wreck!

(My favourite)

What do you say?!?!?!

Oh my god they’re a mess

Opening the doors!!!

DID YOU KNOW IF YOU SPEND MONEY, YOUR KIDS WILL LOVE YOU MAYBE??

Gotta love some capitalism

The cast is huge what is this witchcraft

COREY FINALLY GOT HIS OWN SONG ITS BEEN SO LONG

but his dancing there ?? stop it

GIVE US YOUR FUCKING MONEY! GIVE US YOUR FUCKING CASH!

Jaime up in here buying all of the fucking dolls

Linda u melodramatic bicth

ARE YOU HEARING THIS GARY!?!?!?

Linda’s like,,, ‘well shit guess I can’t buy four’

Gary really????

Shut the fuck up!

Fuck you! (Dramatically)

Kurt fucking up and stole a wiggly that’s a yike

Jesus this song is a bop

They spent approximately all of their budget on wiggly dolls and none on choreo

THATS where that comes from ooohhhhh

Joey only ever plays a douche with voice cracks especially in this show

Santa Claus is going to high school

Yikes what did he do to get banned from the mall

hes being a good father figure though

I get the feel he’s being slightly manipulative tho idk if that’s intentional

This is so sad lex play despacito

Yikes who’s beating Ethan up

GET IN THE KIDDIE TUNNEL

BECKY NO

TOM YES

Holy shit is Ethan dead

Jesus I’m going to cry Ethan no

NO!!!!! YOU CANT DO THAT!!!!!!!!

(Said in a Jeff voice) GET ME THAT FUCKIN DOLL IM JN A HURRY

I have pepper spray and I can use it more than you can ever imagine

(Said in a joey voice) I don’t know if u wanna wanna wanna wanna wanna wanna fuck with meeee

And YOU are the most special person in it. I KNOW THAT!

Joey either plays characters with all the voice cracks or dramatic low voices

Did joeys Randi character kill Linda

YES I FUCKING SEE HIM

The Black Friday from hell

Shopper mania and a fuck ton of it

Yeah bob,,, are you serious

Jamie’s in love with the wiggly immediately

Kurts character gets it

Jaime can do background acting much good

President kurt is a yike

ITS GENERAL MACNAMARA AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

FUCK YEAH WE CALL IT PEIP

Just me and a few of my peeps

ok so this is a Thing

As in crisis and mcnamara

The crowd went fucking wild when macnamara showed up and so did I

Jeffs falsetto song is a whole bop

BOP

And these eldritch forces are rising

Jeff just yeets the wiggly ookay

President kurt is having a meltdown

Is this spies are forever

INTERMISSION

bop

jeff doesnt look like a child

What does this have to do with anything

I mean the high school song is a bop but

Christopher cringle

Mr humbugger

Jingle! Jangle!

If anyone sees two elves in my locker I’ll get expelled for sure!

What the fuck

height difference in elves

Also what the fuck

Is Robert Santa now

OMG I’m calling it this is the film they were talking about

good choreo !!

Robert Lauren and the new guy who I thought was Corey for like the first 20 mins are all good dancers

This song is still a bop

What the fuck am I watching (Tom not me)

Omg I was right

Santa turns into a teenager so he can reconnect with the youth?????

okay What is this and can i punch it

their expressions whilst watching the shitty film is a mood

Beckys the only sane character

Becky and Tom are such white names

Plot twist Tom killed his wife

(lala that’s mean I’ll fight you)

WHITE NAMES AND QUARTERBACK AND CHEER CAPTAIN IM

why can i see tears in her eyes from this far away this is so sad alexa play haus of holbein

Holy fuck did she kill Stanley

Well yikes

You say you killed your family, I hope I killed mine

Well that’s that we got exactly halfway through imma post this now

[realhousewives-fan]

Jax Makes It All About Himself

Yes, Jax Taylor should definitely move to Kentucky and get himself clean from all the drugs he’s on. 

The city of angels isn’t working for him – and he should have figured that out a long time ago.

I’ve been giving Jax so much slack on my blog since I don’t really find it necessary to react to every single word that dick is saying. I really hope that everybody is of the same opinion of Jax; he’s an asshole.

But why the hell is he coming for Ariana Madix this season? In regards to the homophobic pastor earlier this season; I don’t think that what Tom Sandoval did was the wrong thing to do, I just felt that it was the wrong way to do it. But if you want to ruin friendships that’s the way to do it, yes.

For some reason Jax is attacking Ariana about her sexuality and now her depression? I didn’t comment his outburst about Ariana’s sexuality because it was so infuriating. 

But what shocked me the most was that Lala Kent didn’t defend Ariana!

Now he tries to make us believe that Sandoval and Ariana are miserable together. That gave me a whiplash. 

He claimed that Ariana uses her depression as an excuse if she doesn’t like the conversation. Like, what?!

Jax was all over the place in this episode and no matter how cruel and judgmental he is, I can see that he’s unhappy. 

Brittany Cartwright has to do as June Carter did for Johnny Cash in “Walk the Line”. Get him locked up out in the woods and get that man clean from drugs and Hollywood.

He tried to pick a fight with Kristen Doute at her t-shirt event, like he tried to ruin her moment. Can’t she have anything nice this season? The wine party was ruin by Stassi Schroeder’s meltdown and now Jax tried to ruin her t-shirt event.

Why should the group care about Kristen’s sex life? She’s damned if she do and damned if she don’t. And I don’t understand why Jax is being so pissed about it.

[lovemesomerafael]

El Amor Todo Lo Puede          Chapter 56:  Home

Source:  @peter-stone

Chapters 1-55

Laura knocked quietly on the door of Lucia’s apartment in the Bronx, feeling a strange mixture of excitement and sadness.  They had kept in touch, of course, for the two years Laura had been away, although after those first, hellish months, they hadn’t spoken quite as often.  Laura fully expected that they would spend time during this visit crying over their mutual loss, and she didn’t dread that. In fact, she and Lucia hadn’t been able to hug while they cried in all the time Laura had been gone.  Since the crying part was probably inevitable, Laura thought it would be nice to be able to put her arms around Rafael’s mother while they shared their pain.  

Lucia had tried to understand Laura’s need to run away.  At first, she had been confused and a bit hurt that Laura wouldn’t be in New York, where they could comfort one another.  Over the two weeks after Rafi’s death, however, as they had worked feverishly together to do all the horrible tasks that have to be done when someone dies, Lucia had seen in Laura a fear that she herself didn’t feel.  Laura was not only grieving the past, she was also terrified of the future.  Lucia wasn’t. Partly, the difference was that Laura was young, and had to figure out who to be, now that she had been left without the partner she’d chosen to spend her life with.  Rafael’s death had fundamentally changed who Laura was.  That wasn’t true for Lucia.  Losing her child, adult though he had been, didn’t change Lucia’s identity as his mother.  The other difference was that having another child wasn’t an option for Lucia, so she didn’t have to find the courage to try again.  

Over the past two years, something had happened that neither of them had expected.  As much as they had liked being mother- and daughter-in-law, they found that they also enjoyed being friends.  Lucia still felt motherly toward Laura, who also loved Lucia like a second mother.  But helping one another through their greatest loss had also forged a deep, lasting friendship between them as women.  Rafael was always there, between them, a shared love that united them.  But they found that, slowly and in stages, their conversations branched out to involve the rest of their lives, as well.  It was a lovely connection that allowed them to keep Rafael close – the two women who had loved him the most – and also allowed each of them to enjoy the other for her own sake.

When Lucia opened the door, she and Laura hugged (and cried) for a very long time before Laura even crossed the threshold.

 *************

Dinner at Amanda’s had started at breakfast time.  Laura wanted to spend as much time as possible with her friends from SVU, so they’d arranged to meet at the zoo in Central Park, where the kids could play while the parents talked.  Laura was shocked by how much they’d grown; both Fin’s grandson, Jaden, and Amanda’s daughter, Billie, were talking already.  They weren’t speaking full sentences, but they were certainly able to make their needs known.  Amanda’s daughter Jessie and Olivia’s son Noah both had vague memories that they had an “Aunt Lala”, but had really been too young to remember Laura.  It was great fun to get re-acquainted with them, and to discover Jaden’s and Billie’s personalities, made easier by the fact that Sonny Carisi was, by far, the kids’ favorite person and knew everything about them.   As soon as they saw that Sonny liked Laura, they decided to like her, too.  

While the older kids ran around like maniacs and the littler ones alternated between mania and meltdowns, the adults caught up.  Laura had cried as soon as she saw Fin, which she’d known she would.  He tried to play it cool, but the tightness of his hug and the amount of time it lasted told her he was just as glad to see her.

“Any idea what you’re gonna do when you get back to Chicago?”  He asked.

“I have a few leads.  I really loved the work I did for the feds; I might want to do something with computer crimes.  Or maybe I’ll go to the dark side and make a mint working in cybersecurity.  Regular hours, no one shoots at me…”

“Yeah, but you’d never get to go off on anyone.  Remember Reginald Skoggs?  You love that shit,”  Fin laughed.

“Oh, man, I haven’t thought about him in years.  But you’re right, that was fun.  Remember I had to change my clothes before Barba saw all the blood?”  

Fin laughed at that, too, and Laura noticed that the whole group seemed to relax a little, knowing that it was all right to mention Rafael’s name.  

“What I remember is you still owe me fifty bucks for not tellin’ Barba what you did.”  

Laura feigned a blank look.  “I don’t remember that.”

“Yeah, sure you don’t.”  Fin threw an arm around her neck and gave her a rough hug.  “Punk-ass kid.”  

All morning and afternoon, the SVU detectives shared stories of cases they’d worked and listened as Laura told them what she’d been doing.  Laura wanted to hear every story about the kids.  They had so much to talk about that it was actually after lunch by the time the conversation neared the subject of Rafael’s murder.

Olivia moved so that she was walking next to Laura while they headed toward the Polar Circle, where the penguins – the kids’ favorite - lived.  

“I thought we’d get to see you for Randolph’s trial.  I wasn’t surprised to see him plead out, but I was sorry to miss out on a visit from you.”  

“Thanks, Lieu. I knew he’d take a plea.  McCoy was going to bury him no matter what, so I think he just figured he’d save himself the trouble.  For a sweet man, Jack McCoy can be a scary SOB when he’s crossed.”

“Yes, he can,” Olivia agreed.  

“Anyway, it was better that way.  I really wasn’t ready to come back until pretty recently.  In fact, I might have stayed longer, except…”

“Yeah, I heard. You know, until Rollins told me the whole story, I just thought you and Stone were oddly close.”  

“And you were right about that,” Laura laughed.  

While Jaden and Billie napped hard in their strollers, Fin sat with them and napped a little, too. Liv and Amanda kept a close eye on Jessie and Noah, and Laura and Carisi stood leaning on poured concrete rocks, watching the penguins.  

“So I’m looking at all these kinds of penguins, particularly the macaroni penguin, which is really the coolest of penguinkind, and I’m thinkin’ that right there is evidence that God has a sense of humor.”

“Hmmmm. Deep, Carisi.  I don’t disagree, but I’m thinking whoever named them macaroni penguins gets an honorable mention.”

“Yeah, I could go there,” Sonny shrugged.  “And since you didn’t throw me over these rocks into the water, I hope that means that maybe you and God have made up a little?”  

Laura thought for a minute.  “There was this priest in Stockholm, Father Piär. He helped.  Probably not as much as you, but he did OK.”  She bumped Carisi fondly with her shoulder.  

“I don’t know that I helped any, but thanks.”

“Sure you did.  And I appreciate it.  I owe you.” Laura didn’t want the day to turn maudlin, so she changed the subject.  “So I noticed in your emails, you never mentioned any dates.  You didn’t become a monk or something, did you?”  

“Nah,” Sonny blushed.  “I just like to play things close to the vest, y’know?”

“Well, don’t. Tell me.  I want to know you’re happy.”

The smile on Sonny’s face, and the crinkles around his bright blue eyes told Laura that he would never want for romantic companionship for long.  “There’s no one special right now, but…  I’ve kinda been thinkin’ I’m getting a little old for dates.  Dean got married, you know.”

“I hadn’t heard that!”

“Yeah, married a surgeon.  They’re in L.A. now.  Anyway, I’ve been thinking I might be in the market for someone, you know, more permanent.”

“Any candidates?”

“Not right now. But who knows?”

“Just don’t get serious about anyone until I get to check them out.  Don’t rely solely on Amanda’s judgment.”

“If I have to wait until Amanda approves someone, I might as well hang it up right now.”

The rest of the afternoon went on like that, everyone enjoying the day and Laura getting a chance to talk one-on-one with each of them.

At dinner, there was plenty of wine and entirely too much food.  Sonny made something no one could pronounce, but it was so good everyone ate until they couldn’t possibly take one more bite.  Lucia joined them, and they all enjoyed themselves.  To Laura, it felt as though she’d never been away, which was just a little bittersweet, because it meant she kept expecting Rafael to walk in at any time.  

There was a sweet moment when Olivia was telling a story about an argument she and Rafael had, and Noah asked, “Is Rafael the same as Uncle Rafa?”  

Olivia told him that he was.

“I ‘member him,” Noah said.  “He used to sing the pirate song.”  

As much as Laura had needed to leave New York to escape the constant reminders of Rafael, it was lovely, now that she could, to be able to talk about him with people who had known and loved him.  There were a hundred stories about funny, biting comments he had made, demonstrations of his undeniable abilities, and his courtroom coups.  Lucia told some hilarious, adorable stories about him as a child that he would never have allowed her to tell, had he been there.  They all laughed, and shed a few tears, and toasted his memory.  The entire day was as special as any of them had hoped, and it was a perfect way for Laura to acknowledge the life she had loved in New York before she went on to begin a new life back in Chicago.

Amanda waited with Laura and Lucia at the curb for their taxi back to the Bronx.  She and Laura had exchanged many hugs throughout the day, but it still didn’t feel like enough.  They sat, side by side on Amanda’s stoop, with Amanda’s arm around Laura’s shoulder.

“Just remember, you need me to shoot Stone, I can make it look like an accident.”

“I thought it was Rafael you offered to shoot.”

“It was, but you never took me up on it, so I still owe you.  But I’m kinda hopin’ you don’t ever need me to shoot Stone, either.  ‘Cuz you look happy.  And I like seein’ that.”

“Me, too.”

“You take care of yourself, Parker.  You know you always have a home here, if you want it.”

They hugged yet again, both smiling, and Amanda pulled Lucia into the hug with them.

**********

The flight from New York to Chicago had seemed very short after the flight from Stockholm. And now, Laura was home.  She smiled even as tears spilled over, looking out the window of the airplane at the familiar landscape.  

She walked through the concourse toward Baggage Claim.  She reached the main terminal, passed the security checkpoint, and descended the stairs toward the row of baggage carousels, some surrounded by people and spitting out luggage which then circled slowly, some still and silent.  She idly looked out over the scene as she walked down the stairs.

She froze on the last step, her heart doing some sort of somersault in her chest and a large swarm of butterflies taking sudden flight in her stomach.  She whispered an involuntary, "Peter."

She stood, unmoving, staring at the tall, beautiful man standing near the baggage carousel for her flight.  As always, his muscular, athletic build and his square, masculine jaw stirred a deep longing in her.  She stared almost helplessly at him, just as she had done that day years before, when she saw him in the lobby at District 21, waiting for an appointment with Sergeant Voight.  She realized with a surge of love that the pain of missing Peter was over.  She was home now, with him, and there was no longer anything to keep them apart.

His hair was longer than it had been when she’d last seen him.  It looked so good she instantly wanted to run her hands through it. Had he let it grow for her, knowing she liked it that way?  Only when he looked up at her, perhaps sensing her staring at him, did Laura take the last stair and begin to move through the crowd toward him as his face broke into a wide smile.

They didn’t say anything at first as they came face to face, just took a moment to smiled at one another before they wrapped their arms around each other in a long, contented embrace.  People looked at them, some annoyed at these fools locked in a marathon hug in the middle of baggage claim, some grinning shyly at the apparently very happy reunion. Peter and Laura ignored them all. Somewhere in the middle of their embrace, they began to share whispered “I love you’s” among heartfelt endearments.

There were plenty of kisses and laughing as they collected Laura’s luggage and walked, talking animatedly, out to Peter’s car.  With so much to carry - suitcases, Laura’s guitar, her carry-on - they hadn’t been able to hold hands or put arms around each other as they walked, and with each step, Laura found herself more aware of wanting to touch Peter.  She noticed again his hair, just a bit shaggy, and the way it made her think of him in bed.  She watched the sexy way he walked, so athletic and confident, legs wide and striding quickly.  As Peter stored the luggage in the back of a new SUV he’d purchased at some point after he’d returned from New York, Laura stood close to him, just wanting to be near him and eager to have her arms around him again.  

He slammed the gate down and pulled her to him.  As he leaned down to press his lips to hers, she breathed in his scent: a clean, masculine smell of soap and a little bit of musky cologne highlighting a warmer, savory essence that Laura thought of as just plain man.  She reached up, sliding one hand into the hair at the back of his head and using the other to hold him close.  As their mouths met in heated haste, Peter’s arms encircling Laura completely, she felt herself pressed against the back of the vehicle.  She moved her legs to more fully melt their bodies together, feeling lust overcoming her sense of anything beyond Peter. He felt warm and firm, large and muscular, the beginnings of his erection evident as he moved against her.

He broke the kiss when they started to lose control of the sounds being drawn from them and the wantonness of their hip movements.  

“Get in the car,” he growled, and they quickly separated to slide into their seats.  Before even thinking about putting on seat belts, they turned to each other and their mouths met once again for the kind of kisses they really wanted, but couldn’t indulge in publicly.  Their intimate caresses became quickly more serious, more heated, and soon they were both moaning as Peter’s tongue teased Laura’s. Minutes later, Laura slid a hand up the inside of Peter’s thigh.  

He took her hand from his leg, lifting it to his lips and kissing her fingers, chuckling.  “You missed me.”

“I missed you like crazy.  And I want you.  Let me…”

“Not here.”

“Please?  We could get in the back…”

“I am not going to have sex with you in an airport parking garage,” Peter said, a little more gruffly than he meant to, because he was having some trouble resisting her suggestion in his current agitated state.

“It wouldn’t be the first time.  I think it was even this garage.  Remember when you went -“

“That was…  We were in our twenties then.”  He consciously tried to slow his breathing.

“And?  What are you, a grown-up now?”  Laura leaned in and began kissing Peter’s neck, slipping her hand from his and reaching toward his crotch.  “Come on.  I love you, and I’ve been thinking about you nonstop.  Let me touch you…” she purred.

“Stop,” he said, laughing but taking her hand again.  “I mean it.  You can do anything you want to me when we get home.  Now behave.”

She moved back into her seat, pretending to be grumpy as she fastened her seat belt.  “Behave.  Since when have I ever behaved?”  

“Just be patient. I’ll make it worth your while.”  Peter gave her a look that did nothing to cool her arousal.  “I promise.”

Seeing that he wasn’t going to relent, Laura settled into her seat, smiling contentedly. “It’s good to be home.”

“It’s good to have you home,” Peter agreed, reaching for her hand and intertwining his fingers with hers.  

The city looked beautiful to Laura, even in the dreariness of late fall.  There was a weak sunlight through breaks in the clouds, and there were still some trees with bright fall foliage here and there. Mostly, the city looked good to her because she had been homesick.  She noticed a new building going up on the downtown skyline and pointed it out to Peter, asking where, exactly, it was.  When he told her, she scrunched up her eyebrows.  “Wait, doesn’t that mean… didn’t you miss your exit?  I thought you lived in the Fulton River District.”

“I did,” he responded, looking at the road.  “I moved.”

“You moved? You didn’t tell me you moved.  When did you move?”

“A few months ago. Didn’t I tell you?”

“No.  How do you move, and not tell me?”

“I must’ve forgot. I told you, I’ve been crazy busy these last few months.”

Laura frowned. This was strange.  Moving is not something you forget to mention.  “Where do you live now?”

“Wilmette.”

“Wilmette!  You do not.”

Peter smiled and chuckled a little, but kept his eyes on the road.  “I do, actually.  You’ll see.”

“Peter, you… that’s… I can’t believe you moved to Wilmette and didn’t tell me.”

“I thought you liked Wilmette?”

“I do.  We both do.  Remember, we used to talk about living there someday.  That’s why I can’t believe you didn’t tell me.”

“I’m sorry, Sunshine.  Really.  I guess I thought I had.”  He lifted her hand from the console where their clasped hands had been resting and kissed it for about the hundredth time since they’d left O’Hare.

Laura shrugged slightly, but she was still uneasy.  He had told her that he’d been extremely busy over the months since he’d visited her in Stockholm, and with all that had happened between them, maybe he really had forgotten. But it still struck her as a very strange thing not to mention.

Several miles later, Peter exited the freeway and drove through the Village of Wilmette, a clean, leafy, cute midwestern town with lots of small shops and other businesses lining the streets.  He turned into a neighborhood of pretty houses, many of them brick, all set back from the street behind well-maintained front lawns with trees and shrubs.  Most of the houses had flower gardens up next to their foundations, although this late in the year there weren’t any flowers blooming.  He turned into an idyllic, peaceful street and began to slow down.

“You’re messing with me,” she said.  “You bought a house?”

“Yeah,” he said, pulling over against the curb.  “We’re here.”  

The house he pointed to was two a story brick, with copper awnings covered with verdigris over bay windows, one on either side of a rounded front door that sat at the top of a set of two steps.  There was a little patio in front of the door with wrought iron railings on either side. There was a chimney to one side, and it looked like there was another chimney at the back.  Peter got out of the car and came around to open Laura’s door as she simply sat and stared.

“Do you like it?”  He asked, a sweet, expectant smile on his face that almost hid a glint of mischief in his eyes.  

Laura stepped out onto the curb and stood, looking at the charming house.  “You didn’t forget to tell me you bought a house.”

He shrugged, pleased with her reaction.  “Maybe not. Maybe I wanted it to be a surprise.”

“Peter, this is your house?  It’s beautiful!  It’s perfect! You really live here?”

“Got the mortgage to prove it,” he said, taking her hand.  “C’mon.  I want to show it to you.  We’ll get the luggage later.”  

When they reached the door, he opened it and then turned to her and lifted her up with one arm behind her back and one behind her legs.  

“What are you doing?”

“I’m carrying you over the threshold.”

All Laura could think to do was laugh.  This was… bizarre.  Unreal.

They stood in a small foyer with a flagstone floor, a little table with a lamp on it just inside.  Something about the table or the lamp, or maybe both, looked familiar to her, but she was so curious to see Peter’s house that she didn’t give it much thought.  The foyer gave onto a short hallway.

The first room they came to was a formal living room with a couch and some wingback chairs arranged around a fireplace.  There was something about the room that seemed…  Then she noticed the painting of a cottage in the English countryside over the fireplace. 

“I have that same painting,” she said, her voice a little unsure.  “I’ve never noticed that in your apartments, did you just get it?”

“Sort of.  Let me show you the rest of the house.”

He led her past the living room to the end of the short hall, which opened onto a large, sunny great room at the back of the house.  The room had a pleasant kitchen separated by a span of granite countertop from a family area with another fireplace.  Laura was astounded, her head swimming at the surprise of Peter owning a house in Wilmette, and the perfectness of the house itself.  

“Oh, Peter, this is great!  It’s… I love it!  Is this actually a wood-burning fireplace?”

“Yep.”  

Again, Laura had an odd feeling about the room.  It seemed like she’d been there before. 

“This is so weird.  I’m having the weirdest sense of déjà vu.  I know I’ve never been here before…  Holy shit, I know what it is!”

She turned to him to find him grinning like a fool. 

“Peter, your house is just like the one we used to talk about.  Remember?  When we lived in that fifth-floor walk-up in Evanston.  Now all you need is a dog named Marshall.”

Peter, now actually laughing, cocked his head toward a sliding glass door that led from the kitchen out to a patio.  “Back yard.” 

Laura felt herself go numb.  Her eyes got big and she just stood where she was, a confused expression on her face.  Her voice was shaky as she asked, “What’s going on?”

Peter went to the door and opened it.  “Come on.  Meet Marshall.”

She almost stumbled as she moved, uncertain and overwhelmed, over to him.  He put an arm around her back, enjoying every second of her reaction, but a little worried this might all be a bit too much.  He led her out onto the wooden patio, which had two sets of steps down to a small back yard shielded from any neighbors by high hedges.  She noticed movement to one side, and her eyes fixed on a red doghouse from which a Yellow Labrador Retriever puppy was sleepily emerging.  The puppy saw Peter and ran to the stairs, a little small yet to climb them easily. 

“Oh, look at you!  You’re so cute!”  Laura hurried over to pick up the puppy, who immediately began to lick all over her face.  She looked at Peter, eyes still wide, confusion and disbelief still very much evident.  “How old is he?”

“She is about three months old.”

“You named a girl puppy Thurgood Marshall?”

“I had to.  That’s the name we picked out.”

“I… what?”

Laura had just enough presence of mind to notice that Peter’s smile was heartrendingly handsome.  He was looking at her, holding the puppy, as though he was a child on Christmas morning catching his first sight of what Santa had brought.

“C’mon, let’s sit here for a minute.”  He sat her down on the stairs that led from the deck to the yard and settled next to her, their legs touching for their full lengths and his arm around her.  

“You OK?”  He chuckled.

“I…  You bought a house.”  She looked up at him just as the shocked, confused look on her face was replaced by something else.  “That picture.”

“Hmmmm?”  He asked, grinning again.

“That’s mine, isn’t it?”

“It was.  Now it’s ours.”

“Did you…?  What did you do?”

“We moved you in.  Everything you had in storage, we moved in here.  This is your house.  Well, our house.”  The grin became a radiant smile.

“Our house.”

“That’s right.  You live here.  With me.”

Peter realized he should have found a way to record this moment.  Her face was registering every emotion that tumbled through her head. He would have liked to be able to watch it again and again, for the rest of his life.  

“But… Who’s ‘we’?  Who helped you move everything in?”

“Do you really have to ask that question?  I could never have finished getting everything ready for you if your whole family hadn’t helped.”

“Our family.”

“Our family.”

“I don’t know what to do.  I don’t know what to say.  Peter, this is…”  She reached for him.  “I’ve been telling you for twenty years that I love you, but I’ve never loved you like I do now.  And not just because you bought me a house.  I don’t know how to say a bigger I love you, but… I love you bigger!  They don’t have a word for how I feel about you.  So how am I supposed to tell you?”  Laura’s eyes were overflowing with tears as she laughed into Peter’s shoulder.

“I know how,” he said quietly.

Marshall had been frolicking around their feet as they sat on the stair, and Peter reached out to her, taking hold of a little white ribbon tied to her collar, which Laura hadn’t really noticed.  He untied it and something that had been attached to it fell into his hand.  As he reached behind himself to take Laura’s left hand, she gasped. He pulled her hand to him and held a small gold band with a solitary diamond shining in the middle just off the end of her ring finger.

Laura laughed again through her tears and said, “Yes.  Yes, yes, YES!”

Peter laughed, too.  “Always so impatient.  I haven’t asked you yet.”

He took a deep breath, wanting to give this moment the seriousness it deserved.  As he looked into her eyes, he said, “I love you, Laura.  Will you marry me?  Will you make a family with me?  Be the mother of my children?” 

“Yes,” she whispered, suddenly unable to speak. 

She watched as he slipped the ring onto her finger.  “Peter,” she gasped, “Is this…  This is…  This is our ring.  From before.”

“Yeah, I know.  We’ll get a real one, I just needed one to propose with.”

“We will not get a real one,” she cried, suddenly finding her voice as she threw her arms around him again.  “This is the real one.  You kept this ring, all these years…  You will have to pry this ring off my finger.”

For the next several minutes, Marshall became increasingly excited because Peter and Laura were paying no attention to her.  They were too focused on each other, laughing, hugging, kissing, and telling each other over and over how much they loved each other.

“Peter, stop.  I can’t!  This is too much.  I’m gonna explode or have some sort of neurological event from happiness overload…”  Laura laughed breathlessly.  “How many of my dreams are you planning to make come true?

“All of them,” he answered.  “Didn’t I tell you?”

[dia-m-o]

Well ... that before have really a little of ice, nos look like elsa go to sing let it go there

I can smell my anxiety go to a new levels now

Whe make wandless magic because where cool

And the ice say fuck of at my autistic ass

Ok now this is serious time >:(

But.... why I read the boss theme?

Lala~ im in panic and trying to no have a meltdown in a curse freezing room but im failing lala~

Bill por amor a Dios, porque no trajiste tu suéter? Bill

Oh boi here whe go

Dia, totally with internally meltdown to the point she can't screench: where totally gonna die

Also Dia, show off is wandless magic so she can look chill and not like having a autistic panic in a iCe RoOm: yup I hope my death be pretty soon

Bill:

Bill:

Bill: Wait-Are you Okay ??

Dia: *sCrEeNcHiNg while using incendio* aLwAyS, DoN't wOrRy