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Random but I saw a post about self inserts. To bottle it down "why???? (/gen) self-inserting doesn't adds to the narrative???" - which wasn't malicious but damn it rubbed me the wrong way and I annoyed D: 1) Bold assumption I am not a foil to my f/o, thematically relevant to themes and/or overall my addition isn't crucial to what I am making (adding me literally change the whole genre of the source material into slice-of-life-comedy, in a way original cast couldn't be used bc I am methaphorically a clown unlished into a serious buisness meeting and that's why it works DFDFG) 2) Bold assumption narrative concerns me at all in the first place- In my case the goal is romantic feelings, affection and comfort. I cannot use any canon x canon to sumplement this bc I am highly apathetic with low empathy (my autism thing). Not like I feel myself ever represented by canon characters in *anything* anyway :| ALSO I've been also involuntarily socialy isolated from ppl for over 10 years (not going to end anytime soon either), the only ppl I have around is my neglectful mom and cat. And that's it. I live in a forest in the middle of nowhere. Not even neighbours. Our car broken down some time ago. Only mail gets here. One might only imagine how isolation and routine so extreme can fuck up a human, an extremely social being with social needs. I'm literally trying to keep myself sane here, narrative be damned- X'D 3) Also bold assumption that I like the rest of the cast of [source material], I want them to begone actually DFGF 4) Also I simply prefer to interact that way with media. It's fun to me. The same way I have a friend who hates anything self-inserty and always has to have a full-made protag (= not a fan of RPGs). And that should be all the explanation needed really :v

But sure, (gonna be salty 4 a sec) what a self-insert brings to *THE* narrative- since narrative must be upheld so highly and is (paraphrazing) "already complete with the original cast" :/ Honestly the assumption of ppl's s/is irrelevance here is somehow the most annoying. I've been through some bs alright. And I have some valuable things to say about it. I just don't want to do it by proxy of canon chara :/ And other ppl have complicated, deep inner lives (it feels insulting to imply otherwise ngl) so I assume same goes for others. And some ppl don't care at all bc they're just powerful and vibin' like that B) DFDF

(a me: @nekociapek / @ladynyat)

WHAT THE - 

WHY would someone say that???? That’s ridiculous!! -_- I don’t understand why people post sh!t like that. Even if it’s not really malicious, it’s still kinda negative and they can just...not say anything! There’s PLENTY of stuff in fandom(s) that I don’t understand and/or like, but I don’t waste my time on it. I move on and focus on what I enjoy instead!

Anyway - mini rant over

....ACTUALLY I’M NOT DONE 😡

1. There is literally NO requirement that our interaction with media of any kind MUST add to the narrative! That’s like saying, “A hobby is a waste of time unless you’re making money at it.” (BIG NO) That makes it sound like if we have any interaction with media, it’s our DUTY to add to the narrative.

Heck no it’s not!

2. The ENTIRE point of storytelling is to make us think. To find a piece of ourselves in the narrative. So OF COURSE self-shipping DOES add to the narrative in some way! We’re literally inserting ourselves into the narrative and interacting with it, just like EVERY person does when they listen to/watch/read a story! As soon as we consume the story and expose ourselves to it, we’re interacting with it!

3. It doesn’t matter if it adds to the narrative or not.  It doesn’t HAVE to add to the narrative. Self-shipping is literally not for anyone else except yourself. No, we’re not out here writing 100k AUs for some rando to read free (and then sh!t all over because “it’s not true to canon” or whatever 😒 ) Self-shipping is FOR YOU. Not anyone else. So it automatically adds to YOUR interpretation of the narrative!

4. Like you mentioned, canon often misses entire demographics. People aren’t seeing themselves represented in fiction so it’s THAT MUCH MORE IMPORTANT for EVERYONE to explore stories with a vision of themselves in mind in order to spread awareness and educate people.

I can’t tell your story. I haven’t lived your life. Likewise, you can’t tell my story because I’m the only one who has lived it. I know all the details of my story and you know all the details of your story.

Canon isn’t sacred ground that must remained untouched. At one time, it was just an idea, like the myriad of ideas rolling around in your head. Yes, the canon material managed to make it to a larger platform, i.e. Netflix, Hollywood, etc. But that really doesn’t make it any better than anyone else’s ideas. Mainstream media has had a LONG run of spreading narratives that are harmful - i.e. racism, fat shaming, etc. So it’s a damn good thing to NOT add to the narrative in some cases! :P

You have so many excellent points, lovely, and I’m so glad you shared your ask with me!! ♥♥♥ Fiction has provided understanding, acceptance, and some form of escape for centuries. Just one look at the oldest cave paintings in the world and you’ll see early artists painted hunters, LIKE THEMSELVES, into powerful stories of hunting bison and deer.

Fiction provides us sanctuary. It gives us a voice in this big world to say (and hear!) “You are not alone.”

Whether someone wants to interact with stories through self-inserts, original characters, RPGs, you name it - it’s all a celebration of storytelling! ♥

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Proud - King and Longing Heart

A/N: Hi, I'm sappy and emotional but I'm sure y'all have figured that out by now lmao. ANYWAYS hi it's Alistair and I's six month wedding anniversary today and uh here's a fic to celebrate 🥺 and that's abt all I have to say on that for once awnwisnehs I may also being posting a poem later if I can work up the courage but. We will see 😔

CW: Like 2 sec mention of alcohol but not even of consumption. Getting undressed but like domestically not sexually and no nudity. Silly banter where we're kind of going back and forth poking fun at each other but it's all flirty and in good fun and just how we talk!! Hint at Al feeling insecure? But not explicitly stated.

Word Count: 871

Tag List: @sacredempressnatlyia @ladynyat @solomates @cosmicselfship (I. Forget who was even on the tag list at this point. I need to post writing more. I should make a tag list post. Y'all just have this and if you would rather not be tagged just lmk no questions asked avatavtaavyaa!!! and if anyone else would like to be tagged/I forgot to tag you also just lmk as per usual <3)

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I fell back onto our bed dramatically as Alistair closed the door behind us, sighing loudly. “If Teagan doesn't start running Redcliffe and stop randomly showing up here to make us have formal dinners with him to discuss policy, I may go insane.”

His chuckle was low, and soothing, “Are you telling me you don't enjoy being grilled about what we intend to do for road infrastructure on the Imperial Highway?"

“After the huge construction effort that was made to re-pave the whole thing just last year? Not particularly, no.”

He laughed more loudly at that, “Can you really blame him for wanting to make sure that people have an easy time traveling to Redcliffe?”

I raised my head enough to look at him and raise an eyebrow in question, “Are you insinuating anyone has ever had a difficult time getting Redcliffe because of infrastructure and not the plethora of other issues that plague the Hinterlands? Because I beg to differ.”

“You've got me there.”

“Does that mean you'll tell Teagan to go home and stay home?”

“Are you insinuating Teagan listens to me? Because I beg to differ.”

“...You've got me there.” I sat up slowly, stretching my arms out, “Feel like helping me get this dress off? Because these laces are hell and I'd love you forever if you undid them so I don't have to.”

He placed a hand over his heart in mock offense as he moved to meet me at the mirror, “Ouch, I didn't know I was still earning your undying love.”

“I’ve gotta keep you on your toes somehow, can't have you getting complacent.”

“Right, because running a kingdom couldn't possibly be enough to keep me sharp.”

“I see we should be prioritizing curbing your ego, then. I'll note that.” I began undoing the necklace I was wearing as he began undoing the laces on my dress that I couldn't reach.

“So are we going to acknowledge that our wedding was six months ago today, or were we just intending to let that slip by?” His eyes met mine in the mirror over my shoulder once he posed the question.

“Ah, you noted that, did you? I didn't know if six months would be a milestone you'd consider.”

He shrugged, “I'm holding onto the really fancy wine until a full year, but half of one isn't something to snub, is it?”

“No, you're right. Quite impressive that we've gone a full six months of being officially joined at the hip and you're still not sick of my antics.”

He pouted softly, “If it makes you feel any better, I would never describe any of your behaviors as ‘antics’.” He finished with the laces and moved his hands to rest them on my shoulders, rubbing them softly.

“Six months and you've already got the whipped husband thing down pat. That really is the most impressive part, I'd say.”

He reached for one of my hands, raising it to his lips to kiss my knuckles softly, “I could've never perfected the mindset without your guidance. Or just my general adoration for you.”

I rolled my eyes, but couldn't stop my smile, “Oh, stop that. What did I say about derailing conversations with compliments?”

His eyes were gentle, and so was his hand on my shoulder. “Have I told you that I love you?” A thousand times, and he knew it.

“Have I told you I’m proud to be your wife?” His expression snapped to shock as he held my gaze in the mirror. A genuine question, and based on the reaction I was receiving, I assumed the answer was ‘no’.

“Well- I-” I was almost embarrassed to say that I found his sputtering endearing. Almost.

“How does it feel, being on the receiving end of the sudden compliment, huh?” My tone was teasing, but my voice was quiet.

His voice was choked with emotion even as he joked back, “Pretty good, actually. I really don't see what you've been complaining about.”

I ran my thumb over his knuckles, softly, “You know I mean it, right?”

“It's still a little hard to believe, if I'm being honest.”

I turned to face him, taking his face in my hands. Our height difference made the position awkward, as I was determined to look into his eyes, but I would make it work.

“You are the best man I have ever known, and I am proud of you. None of your accomplishments have been anything to write off, down to the way you retain your goodness even in spite of everything you've been through. To even be associated with you was one of the few things I wear as a badge of pride, and to now be viewed as your partner is truly all I could ask for. Do you understand?”

His misty eyes told me that he did. He opened his mouth to speak, but promptly shut it again, and settled for leaning down even farther to bury his face in my neck. I settled for bringing my hand up to run it through his hair, silently.

After a few moments, I both heard and felt him murmur, almost silently, “I love you.”

“And I love you, my King.”

[the-storyteller-and-her-soldiers]

Teddy Bear

Title: Teddy Bear

Word Count: 912

Warnings: None -- just fluff!

Ship: The Ripper’s Rose (Raiden x Myself)

Summary: The deeper he looks at himself and his past, the harder it is not to feel like an outlier to those he’s with now. But that is all just a matter of one’s perspective and when his love sees something in him that he can’t who’s to say that she’s wrong? (This story was inspired by the prompt that @ladynyat sent in so thank you love!!)

Raiden’s clouded gaze looked stared down his reflection as he sat there, waiting for his girlfriend, Rebecca, to return. The storm that raged constantly within the back of his mind had started to spread the debris of its chaos to the forefront of his thoughts the longer he held his image. His attention only diverting slightly when he picked up the sound of his fingers tapping against the hardwood of the table in front of him. The almost stone-like features of his stoic expression were slowly being carved into, revealing the depth of his annoyance thrashing behind his stormy gaze.

He couldn’t help but question what he was doing here. It wasn’t that he didn’t want to be here, spending time with his partner. But as he took in the sight of himself in the mirror once more, the sight of his body metallic and steel-plated, filled with more circuitry and wiring rather than flesh and blood only spurred the voice in his mind saying how he didn’t belong even further. He didn’t belong among civilians, especially not with Rebecca, playing into the facade of a domesticated soldier.

Rebecca was soft, sweet, filled with a love for the life around her and a want to share that with others. While he was someone who took that life away from many, all in the name of some company’s or some country’s sense of a greater good. A dry, humorless chuckle escaped his lips as he took a moment to think on that further. But before his thoughts could spiral into a self-inflicted debate of philosophy, a noticeable pressure found its way into his lap.

Glancing downwards, his vision was filled with the rich shade of sangria before catching sight of the sunny smile that never failed in calming his nerves. Quirking an eyebrow, Raiden remarked, “You know, you could’ve told me that you were back.”

“I could’ve,” Rebecca agreed, smiling even wider. Yet even with her syrupy gaze crinkling at the corners, the glint of mischief within them was unmistakable. “But then I couldn’t have done this!”

Rebecca then leaned forward a bit as she sat up. The mischievous intent that was gleaming in her eyes mere seconds before had melted into a look so loving that it was hard for the military cyborg to focus on anything else as he met her gaze. She then brushed some strands of silvery hair away from his face before pressing her lips against his forehead.  

With a joyful hum of satisfaction, the small girl sat back on his lap once more. “Just wanted to remind you of how much you’re loved! Anyways, you looked deep in thought. Wanna talk about it?”

He opened his mouth to confide in the young woman, only for no sound to come out and for Raiden to close his mouth a moment later. Even though the gesture was so brief and her explanation so simple, it was enough to banish the storming thoughts back into the shadowy corners of Raiden’s mind. Raiden could only shake his head before wrapping his arms around her waist.

“I was just thinking that this was my lap. Now apparently this is your lap.“

Rebecca simply giggled, a high-pitched, yet soft, melodic sound before humming in agreement. To prove her claim, even more, she then turned around and nestled herself against his chest, and pressed a kiss under his chin.

“You sure that’s actually comfortable?” Raiden asked quizzically when he regained his usual calm composure. Before he could explain how there was more than enough sofa for the both of them to sit comfortably, Rebecca’s mulberry locks tickled his chest as she laid her head against it.

“I’m more than comfy, don’t worry! You’re like one of those giant teddy bears, but warmer!”

Once again, Rebecca managed to steal any quip or comeback right from his mouth with her innocent tenderness. The only comment that Raiden managed to voice was, “Out of all the things I’ve been called in my life, I never thought that ‘Teddy Bear’ would be one of ‘em.”

“Really? Think of all the similar qualities though! You’re fiercely protective, do what you think is right, really strong, and you give great hugs!” 

Raiden could only chuckle once more. Only this one held an expression of warm fondness he felt that he couldn’t properly communicate. Taking one of his hands from her waist he then patted the top of her head a few times, earning another lighthearted giggle from his partner. He then proceeded to slowly comb his fingers through her plum-shaded locks. The smooth, chilled metal of his fingertips proceeding cautiously down the silky treses while his other hand pressed her even closer.

“If anything, I’d say you’re more of the teddy bear out of the two of us. Especially when I’m the one always holding you.” Raiden suddenly spoke.

Rebecca then turned her head to the side, puffing out her cheeks in a pout. Raiden simply poked at her swollen cheeks with an amused smirk until he had earned another fit of giggles from her. While Rebecca was trying to catch her breath, she replied, “I am completely serious one-hundred percent of the time! No way am I a teddy bear. But you’re still gonna be my teddy... As long as it’s okay with you?”

Bending down slightly, Raiden kissed the top of his girlfriend’s head. “Whatever you say, kitten. If it makes you happy then that’s what I am...”

[imagine-your-love-story]

Yo sup, long time no see :D (@ladynyat) I have sorta big news to share, considering I had 1 f/o for a very long time. Well there is currently storm season in my arena and I have no internet connection often, so I've been playin some games. One voice actor reminded me of of character from a game realeased in 2015!! O_O I I've decided to play it again. My taste didn't changed at all lol, I have the same fave XD He's just very cute and puppy-like, and very openly affectionate and loving. Mostly becouse he has abandoned issues and he's so scared if he won't be good enough he will be left alone again. So he's both compeling bc he's nice and bc he's a bit sad and cynical and I just like people who can understand and sympathize with my own pain as I do with theirs, you feel me? And well, since I've been always lonely it does feel nice to know I'm his priority. It makes a girl like me safe, to know my mental illnesses wouldn't push him away even if I were harsh or something. Besides like I mentioned he's so cute, which makes me want to care for him and pamper him a lot! Which would make him take care of me as a "thank you"! So I would be even nicer, so he would be even nicer-- It sounds like a perfect synergy to me >w< <3 Unforunetely the world in the game is not fleshed out very well, nor is the lore. Personally I need those elements to be in place so I can lanch onto them and keep thinking about them. Otherwise I can't get really attached. It will just slip my mind :c So I hope I might get an official 2nd f/o soon but just in case: let's knock on wood!! Haha ^w^

YOU TWO SOUND SO ADORABLE!!!! ♥

You could always flesh out any missing pieces/lore yourself! Or bounce ideas around with another self-shipper or two! Even if they aren't familiar with it, sometimes they can come up with ideas that you hadn't considered before! :D

[imagine-your-love-story]

(@nekociapek / @ladynyat)

On the happier side, I'm rewatching an anime from which my first big crush was... basically I have a Type(tm) alright. I won't say who my f/o is, or the protag but. The protag of this anime, my ex-crush walked so my f/o could run ok.

They behave, manner of speech, general vibe, look, and generally are so similar at times I look at screen and think "ah, (f/o)...". They have the same eyes and the hair colour. In fact my f/o might be... a knock off of my ex crush, literally. At some point I might redraw better looking' screens from the show to look like my f/o bc I will have to change *so little* aaaaaaaaaaa

(Btw. I dress like protag's gf... so I made a whole halloween comic joke about dressing as that couple, except the joke is, I only slightly changed my hairstyle, and my f/o only wore a different tie and that's it and we looked JUST like them :V DFDFG)

Generally I was imagining how it would be to watch this anime with my f/o and lemme tell you... it's so awkard KDHFDF Protag will do something that is SO My F/O and I will blush and it's like. Yes I had a crush on that dude once. No I'm not into him anymore. Omg his laugh is just like yours omg omg. You Do That~ <3 >////w////< .

He'd get a new understanding of what makes me into him tbh, like seeing it 2nd hand would make him Realize(tm) lol. Which would be extra funny bc then he could do those things *on purpose* to get reaction out of me XD DFDF"" That would be so embarassing but so fun like Yes Do Use On Me The Silky Smooth Voice(tm) the protag only uses to manipulate ppl. Don't ask why I like that >.> JHDFDF

THIS. IS. ADORABLE!!!!!!!!!

[the-storyteller-and-her-soldiers]

This one cough my attention “This was my lap. Now apparently this is your lap.” :3c (@ladynyat)

Hey thank you so much for sending this in! Writing this for the past day and a half has really helped keep my spirits up! Although I did lie to myself by saying I'd try to keep things short so for that reason you can find the actual story on my blog and I did tag you! I'd also link the story here but tumblr sucks right now and isn't letting me! BUT I hope you have a fantastic day and get all the love you deserve! Thank you so much again!!!

@ladynyat