#koushirouzumi personal

[koushirouizumi]

( Koushiro's place-holder profile for my re-done Advs shrine is up! )

[koushirouizumi]

(Personal)

(re last thing rb'd)

I've seen that post around before and like, yeah, I want to. I also believe fan base history + archival is super important. (There's a ton of stuff I've saved and archived from Adv-02, Frontier, etc fan bases over time too, including sections of many of my old mutuals' Adventure fics and O.C. site things, though I also don't have 'everything' there since I usually saved stuff just 'as I went'.)

I want to re-post everything I created (maybe even some stuff r.p.'d elsewhere, if I can manage to effectively 'summarize' all that somehow) before 2k10~2k15~ on This Site especially.

... But yeah it can be difficult. (Probably more than some people may realize.)

Some of my stuff is on my old laptop which is currently out of commission rn until it gets fixed, (it may not even GET fixed - it could be a hard drive crash - the power button isn't powering it) but a lot of the rest (of stuff that was on my site specifically) is still archived /somewhere/ or otherwise literally on my old 02 O.C. shrine C.D. Like I literally have a whole C.D. where the site still exists offline (You just can't view the backgrounds because it's not 'online' so to speak, so the white text is on a white background and I have to highlight to read it, until I fix everything via a lot of re-uploding and re-writing of some 25+ pages including the 'character profiles' sections that I also have to re-write for all Adventure + 02 Chosen.)

... But also, like, I made that site when I was literally Young Me.

I've found out a lot about myself since and a lot of my perspectives have completely changed for the better. But even if I re-created the whole site from scratch, it'd just be ... different. Now. I don't really know how to explain it well.

A lot of the imgs I used back then were much lower quality. I'll have to go through and re-cap everything on my own time, and even then... it'd feel different, wouldn't it? The low-quality caps I borrowed from other sites back then who allowed free use, those were kind of what made the feel of the site. That kind of thing.

So I could double the amount of pages - which would take a lot more work - a high quality, polished version; and the original version with the low quality caps. But even then...

Some sections would still have to change completely, just because I've grown and my mentality has changed from what I originally wrote.

Even then, the shrine is my own personal thing, I can 'archive' it in my own time and just use it to store my own works, caps, etc...

I completely lost some of my 1st D.G.M.N a.m.v.s as it was. The original Frontier "Warriors" one is completely gone. (The one I made since was a re-make going purely by my own memory of scenes and timings I likely initially included.) The one (two?) I made for Takuya separately, I never found again. The experimental other few D.G.M.N and super early Y.G.O D.M. A.M.V.s (possibly also a Sonic one or two) were also gone.

My 2 Naruto A.M.V.s got deleted when a sweep of purges happened, and at one point both got re-uploaded by other fans without full credit to me, then deleted from those fans' accts when those accts got purged ? /again/ and I still, between multiple comp + external hard-drive failings, never got the back-ups saved in time. (Even those 2 Naruto A.M.V.s were super experimental and mainly just emotional timing so used a lot of 'larger', un-trimmed clips. But I still appreciated my attempts with those and wish I had them back, especially since I never went back to making Naruto stuff again after.)

Idek. I just have some conflicting feelings still.

It's all kind of why I just started back up with immediately focusing on Koushiro post-all That happening. "One Week" was the most 'recent' A.M.V. I had available at the time and I really wanted it up-loaded, along with my Taichi A.M.V. But even then, my love for Koushiro's chara was definitely there, having snuck up from the days of the O.C. site to kick me from behind. I'm still upset I didn't get to get to Koushiro's full character arc in my O.C.s story way back in the day, when Koushiro had a lot more active positivity and support by other fans (and wasn't actively being constantly re-written and sidelined out of Koushiro's own canon story by them). It was semi re-written using inspiration from the original outline in "The Past World" and even then it's only in sections still.

I don't really know where I'm going with these thoughts.

Maybe I'll archive what I can someday, but... yeah.

[koushirouizumi]

(personal)

I finally got 'Mute' feature on A.O.3.

It works really well. Back then I used a script to hide people but yeah there'd always be empty space and huge gaps in certain tags, and it made those tags really annoying to check.

Most of the people I muted were people who deliberately broke my boundaries stated in the banner or my F.A.Q that they clearly never checked (bonus if they did all this multiple times), re-blogged my stuff to their {any part of} Adventure{s} hate-blogs without making even an attempt at being respectful if we had a simple difference in opinion, and never apologized for it nor deleted said posts (of mine) from their blog since (bonus if they also trashed multiple things and fans of them that I made clear I enjoy since, because, you know, THANKS, I'M INCLUDED IN THAT ?????)

It was honestly making me really stressed out, including on Twit (though I did also notice that what I had going on with illness recently was definitely a small infection - it's definitely gone now) but seriously...

My KouxTai, 02, etc works aren't """content""" for people who outright HATE my other favorites and ships or other fans of them. If you can't deal with that, DON'T ever interact with my works because I block and/or mute often such fans anyway, and I'm not apologizing anymore. My Queer works are Queer. If you're reading/watching them to (not just enjoy in a [+02] canon-compliant respectful way but) deliberately erase all of my head-canons involved and pretend they aren't Queer intended I don't even know WHY you're interacting to begin with.

And yes, I do block new blogs for the same people I've blocked so they can't block evade me if I notice them, which is also against my rules and a direct violation of my boundaries I set a long time ago when Kizuna's first reveals were first dropping on Day 1 (because yes I was here ever since then + a major part of Tri era)

Thank you

[koushirouizumi]

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I'm starting to think I could ask people upfront / in advance / via some sort of blog post here to Introduce themselves to me (if by Messaging or DM) before heavy interaction with my blog or fan-works. Just some simple details would do by this point, honestly.

Another (J e w i s h) blogger I follow does this, and it seems to work out for them. But... by this point I honestly don't know anymore.

I just feel like I keep constantly putting in effort to assert my boundaries on here and ... it seems like more often lately, that more barely actually made even the smallest effort to even GLANCE at the F.A.Q before they Interacted.

(I just... don't get it? I really don't. I'll see people wholeheartedly acknowledge all others' rules & info and then completely ignore mine. It's just... really disheartening lately and is making me want to disengage heavily with certain sections of the fan base that do that the most often.)

Like, at this point it'd be cool if someone could message just to mention what they followed me for, or which D.G.M.N or Digi-Advs charas they'd like to see more of, or just having something nice to say about Koushiro or Taichi or the things I've made for them (and the rest too), however general or small.

On my old blog before this site existed in it's current form, we used to have "friending memes" (they were a thing! I know other L.J. / Dream-width {and such blog sites} people haven't forgotten!!) where we'd come across each other in such places and actually introduce ourselves, and have even small conversations, and I just ... really miss those kinds of things too.

I never had these issues in ANY other fan base I hung out heavily in previously that I made any sort of posts for. ONLY in DigiAdvs+02. (It's just ... mind-boggling ?? ?) I was in at least one mega-fan base previously, people (I normally avoid them!) ... it never happened there like this.

I don't know where this is going, but it's something I've been thinking about lately. I might make a post mentioning this idea (introduction by message?) better later, but I might also not... so.

{This post is marked with 'No rb's' but 'Likes' are O.K.}