#(This is just a stream of conciousness ramble bc I never really know what to write in the tags when I see this kind of ongoing discussion)

[koushirouizumi]

(Personal)

(re last thing rb'd)

I've seen that post around before and like, yeah, I want to. I also believe fan base history + archival is super important. (There's a ton of stuff I've saved and archived from Adv-02, Frontier, etc fan bases over time too, including sections of many of my old mutuals' Adventure fics and O.C. site things, though I also don't have 'everything' there since I usually saved stuff just 'as I went'.)

I want to re-post everything I created (maybe even some stuff r.p.'d elsewhere, if I can manage to effectively 'summarize' all that somehow) before 2k10~2k15~ on This Site especially.

... But yeah it can be difficult. (Probably more than some people may realize.)

Some of my stuff is on my old laptop which is currently out of commission rn until it gets fixed, (it may not even GET fixed - it could be a hard drive crash - the power button isn't powering it) but a lot of the rest (of stuff that was on my site specifically) is still archived /somewhere/ or otherwise literally on my old 02 O.C. shrine C.D. Like I literally have a whole C.D. where the site still exists offline (You just can't view the backgrounds because it's not 'online' so to speak, so the white text is on a white background and I have to highlight to read it, until I fix everything via a lot of re-uploding and re-writing of some 25+ pages including the 'character profiles' sections that I also have to re-write for all Adventure + 02 Chosen.)

... But also, like, I made that site when I was literally Young Me.

I've found out a lot about myself since and a lot of my perspectives have completely changed for the better. But even if I re-created the whole site from scratch, it'd just be ... different. Now. I don't really know how to explain it well.

A lot of the imgs I used back then were much lower quality. I'll have to go through and re-cap everything on my own time, and even then... it'd feel different, wouldn't it? The low-quality caps I borrowed from other sites back then who allowed free use, those were kind of what made the feel of the site. That kind of thing.

So I could double the amount of pages - which would take a lot more work - a high quality, polished version; and the original version with the low quality caps. But even then...

Some sections would still have to change completely, just because I've grown and my mentality has changed from what I originally wrote.

Even then, the shrine is my own personal thing, I can 'archive' it in my own time and just use it to store my own works, caps, etc...

I completely lost some of my 1st D.G.M.N a.m.v.s as it was. The original Frontier "Warriors" one is completely gone. (The one I made since was a re-make going purely by my own memory of scenes and timings I likely initially included.) The one (two?) I made for Takuya separately, I never found again. The experimental other few D.G.M.N and super early Y.G.O D.M. A.M.V.s (possibly also a Sonic one or two) were also gone.

My 2 Naruto A.M.V.s got deleted when a sweep of purges happened, and at one point both got re-uploaded by other fans without full credit to me, then deleted from those fans' accts when those accts got purged ? /again/ and I still, between multiple comp + external hard-drive failings, never got the back-ups saved in time. (Even those 2 Naruto A.M.V.s were super experimental and mainly just emotional timing so used a lot of 'larger', un-trimmed clips. But I still appreciated my attempts with those and wish I had them back, especially since I never went back to making Naruto stuff again after.)

Idek. I just have some conflicting feelings still.

It's all kind of why I just started back up with immediately focusing on Koushiro post-all That happening. "One Week" was the most 'recent' A.M.V. I had available at the time and I really wanted it up-loaded, along with my Taichi A.M.V. But even then, my love for Koushiro's chara was definitely there, having snuck up from the days of the O.C. site to kick me from behind. I'm still upset I didn't get to get to Koushiro's full character arc in my O.C.s story way back in the day, when Koushiro had a lot more active positivity and support by other fans (and wasn't actively being constantly re-written and sidelined out of Koushiro's own canon story by them). It was semi re-written using inspiration from the original outline in "The Past World" and even then it's only in sections still.

I don't really know where I'm going with these thoughts.

Maybe I'll archive what I can someday, but... yeah.

[iishmael]

A, B, F, Z for the fandom asks pls 💗

Aaaah thank u sm for asking!!

A - Your current OTP

I mean all my OTPs are always ‘current’ ones, but I do have some that I obsess more over than others atm... So I kinda had a James Potter/Sirius Black phase last week tbh but Valkyrie/Carol Danvers!!!!! UGH they so cute. Carol/Maria is soooo cute as well but Valkyrie is my wife so they’re like extra?? good??? And also I still cry over brocedes I’m sorry I will never let that one go. They own my wholeass icecold dead heart

B - A pairing you initially didn’t consider but someone changed your mind

mmvcjmx tbh I usually can’t be “convinced” to like pairings. I either see it or I don’t? At least romantic pairings. I’m quite picky

F - What’s the longest you’ve ever been in a fandom

Oh good god. 10 years? shit yes it’s 10 years. My first fandom ever was Harry Potter... and I still stan HP even though jkr is trash but I separate the medium from the author and loathe her but still love Draco Malfoy. Uhm. The content, I mean. anyways i can still remember the first fanfic i ever read fjfjfj

Z - Just ramble about something fan-related, go go go

okay okay I have this really great idea for a stony fic and I rlly want to write it!! but im not sure if people would read it? I wanna write an identity porn fic where no one knows that tony is iron man but everyone knows steeb is cap. bc steve is a cinnamon roll he volunteers with a construction crew after battles to fix the damages. Steve and Tony hate each other btw. (hmmm. tony “hates” steve ofc. rlly hates him. sometimes he looks pics of steve in really tight tops up and projects them onto his shower wall. but no one needs to know that.) Well, Tony makes the construction crew come to his mansion (stark tower? idk her) and steve is LIVID how dARE the billionaire use VOLUNTEERS to rebuild his stupid mansion??? (tony didn’t mean to! he messed up some paper work bc pepper was busy in california and accidentally sent his paid-for construction crew to the battle damages and the volunteers [who always end up “winning the lottery” or “finding a brand new car parked in their drive way with mountain bikes for the kids and a playstation loaded into the back” btw. except steve bc hes a dick.] ... anyway, tony made a mistake, but he can’t very well fix it bc technically it IS battle damages and he needs to be the Arsehole Billionaire so people continue to Hate him so he can be iron man in peace bc he has some issues and thinks he only has worth when he’s in the suit and doesn’t realise that his strategy of making the public hate tony stark is a form of harming himself fjfjfjfjfjfh. so,,, he just sits there and watches steve fix his mansion. well, they start talking and blah blah tony helps oh no! tony is a nice person! oh no! steve really likes how tony looks when theres dust in his hair! oh no!! steve is falling for him!!! OH NO THEY HAVE TO SHARE A ROOM with only o n e b e d. okay maybe not that but ya know love story in action and then steve finds out that tony is the bestest human and feels like shit and apologises and they finish rebuilding the mansion and the team gets rooms and steve moves into tonys bedroom and im a little bitch for happy endings. SO MUCH FOR MY HAPPY ENDING *avril lavgine starts aggressively playing in the distance*