#korn my detested

[maenecoon]

tw (mostly mild) depictions of violence and blood, bc it's involves vampires, also major spoilers for a fic im working on rn

so

i may or may not have a vampire kimchay fic idea

except the execution of it is going to have me combusting into flames??

anyways, thoughts about kim finding an annoying baby bat in the forest. he wants to ignore it, but he can't. so fine, he takes it in.

except...

kim definitely doesn't know how to care for a feral bat.

anyways! cue sweet/fluffy/bat-and-vampire shenanigans! like babybat so sated with blood that he becomes a little drunk, or at least the bat-version of drunk. babybat who flies into the window trying to escape because he's not good at echolocatio. babybat who sneaks into kim's closets to bite holes in every single one of his silk shirts.

vampire!kim somehow being whipped af for this cute but annoying little shit that he's somehow adopted. feeds him blood pudding and gives him many head scritches. shows him his red string murder board and rambles about his murder plans and all. vampire!kim who started off detesting or tolerating this pest at best but unable to imagine starting a day without the weight of babybat curled up on his chest.

then the murder plan happens. kim wants korn (his father/sire) dead, bc who doesn't, and he sneaks in to "kill" him.

he's gone in, wooden stake and holy water and all.

he goes bat-shit crazy. bodies of full-sized vampires drop to the floor around them as kim works with ruthless efficiency. he's memorised the techniques of his father's men and their weaknesses. he's dreamed about this for centuries. and it's pays off.

and then enters korn.

korn was always going to be the issue.

kim had no plans of returning alive - he knows to end lorn by all means necessary even if it means his own life - but korn has gotten more powerful. sire bonds are difficult to break, and even if kim has been diluting the bond and doing his absolute best to weaken their link, korn still has kim in an iron grip.

(if you'd read my phayurain vampire fic, there's this thing about sires being able to control their fledglings because of a bond they share when a vampire (sire) turns someone into a vampire (their fledgling). )

anyways.

when suddenly a weight in his pocket starts to stir. it's the little shit, the bat. and kim's all panicked because little shit is small and harmless and now barely the size of half his palm? like, kim's on his knees and has his hands shaking with effort not to plunge the stake into his own chest, by the command of korn.

it takes just a second, but bat flutters out of kim's pocket. bat, with all the rage that a bat can muster, swings himself right on korn's face and digs his fangs into korn's eyes. the eyes are part of what maintains the sire-control that korn has over kim, and kim is able to use that split second to drive the stake into korn's heart.

the moment that korn falters, falling to the ground with a thud, is the moment that the bat drops to the floor.

kim thinks like yeah, fuck, that must've taken a lot out of this poor baby bat, and god that fall looked bad, when all of a sudden the bat is expanding. almost like his bones are breaking (and kim winces because that sounds anguishing) and reforming and he keeps growing bigger and bigger and bigger until kim realised that this was no bat.

this was a vampire, trapped in the form of a bat.

this is his fledgling, his fledgling who was supposed to have died.

chay.

yeah anyways!! fun little story that i'm working on rn!! lmk what you think/want to see, if you got to the end of this! !

[aeternallis]

Kim's Place in the Mafia: Novel vs Show

The one thing I can say without a doubt in my mind is that from the crumbs we get of Kim and Chay from the book and show, these two are obsessively in love with each other. So I'll say that now and get that squared away.

And I know, most of the fandom detest the book due to its problematic authors and will never read it, and that's completely valid. Furthermore, I will say now that the book is trash and hardly coherent at times. But as my favorite English scholar for Ancient Rome, Mary Beard, once said: "It's trash...but it's very valuable trash."

For what it's worth, reading the book at least once can provide a more nuanced understanding of why the showrunners made the changes they did in the show. The changes in and of themselves makes for a more cohesive story (SOO MUCH MORE COHESIVE), but it also goes without saying that a lot of the events in the show remain faithful to the novel, so in that regard, there is some merit to be had.

Finally, when I say the novel is "trash", I mean the narrative itself, not necessarily the translation (although it's not perfect by any means). If anything, I'm grateful for the translators who took the time to translate this novel into English, since translation is a thankless job most times in fandom (lookin' at you, MDZS). As I speak no Thai whatsoever, I can’t give an informed opinion on DAEMI's technical writing abilities, since I'm not a native speaker, nor am I the book's target audience.

But, I digress.

The more I reread the book (in all its trash glory), the more I find myself questioning Kim's views in regards to how he sees himself as part of a mafia family. 🤔

In the book, Kim is a lot more accepting of his place within the mafia, despite his initial tendencies of disappearing on his guards and staying away from the main house. In fact, that pretty much changes once Chay enters the picture.

Gotta love a Kinn who's curious about his little bro's love life. XD

Kim is firmly settled into the fold of the family business (if that scene in the secret warehouse is anything to go by) and there’s a scene in the beginning of the book where Korn obligates all 3 sons to dress up in some fancy suits and visit their chocolate factory, since he’s particularly keen on getting it off the ground. This shows that although Kinn is set to inherit (in public, at least) the other two sons still have their duties to the family.

In fact, I will say that one of the most interesting things about reading the book is finding out that Kim's sleuthing is actually canon. Lol Granted, it's sleuthing more in regards to finding the mole and not really about Korn's game plan, but sleuthing nonetheless.

But in the show, his role within the family business and how he views it are a little bit more foggy because he has his musical career to keep him occupied, besides his sleuthing into Korn’s affairs. He’s not active in the way one would typically expect a member of the mafia to be (and who knows, this may be due to limited time constraints on the part of the showrunners), but he’s active within that sphere nonetheless.

And because of this, contrary to the general fandom consensus, I never really got the impression that Kim wanted to be out of the mafia, yknow? Personally, I think it’s too big of a leap to say him moving out = him not wanting to be in the mafia. Having that sort of character motivation wouldn't really make sense either, because then we would have had stronger hints of it, I think?

At the very least, by the end of the show, Kim--just like Chay--has more reasons to stay than not. The way I see it, Kim wanting to be out of the mafia would actually somewhat contradict his actions in the show.

Despite his effort in staying away from the mansion his father and brothers live in (and later on, Chay), Kim benefits from being a Theerapanyakul. We see this in a lot of different ways: the penthouse he lives in, the cars he drives (he gets his own set of the Maserati fleet, yo), his private studio, the freedom of movement he has in being able to easily get information (although this may be debatable), using Big as a gopher.

I highly doubt his career as a young musician is maintaining his luxurious lifestyle (perhaps only a part of it, like the fame); imo, there’s a calculated reason why BOC chose to keep the level of his fame as vague as possible. The way I see it, Kim moved out and pursued music simply because, due to his unique position of being the youngest son (aka the spare), he just had the luxury to do so.

If he truly wanted out of the mafia, I'm firmly on the camp that he could have done so already. We've seen in both the show and the book that unlike Kinn who's constrained by his duties, Kim does have the freedom to disappear, even to the point that it's to his detriment at times. Lol

Maybe I can go even further, and suggest that perhaps the reason he chose to move out is to get a better vantage point of the circumstances surrounding his father's schemes and the ongoing tides of power. Kinda like, he has to move away from the trees, in order to see the entire forest.

I wouldn't go so far as to say he wants power for himself (although this idea would be fun to entertain, especially within the context that he now has Chay in his life to protect), but again, being a member (a high-ranking one, at that) of the Theerapanyakul family benefits him in a lot of different ways.

In one of BOC's interviews and then in Jeff's goodbye message during the last KPWT, he mentioned something about Pond changing up Kim's character in order to make Jeff Satur shine. Idk about y'all, but that's quite a touching gesture, and one I definitely approve of, whilst I get a better understanding of the similarities and differences between novel!Kim and show!Kim. It's obvious from the show that besides changing Kim's maturity level and changing his image from a fuck boi to a cool prince, giving him a passion for music definitely humanized him and served as a way to balance out the other two love stories.

But be that as it may, although we the audience don't know as to what extent Pond changed Kim's character to better fit the story, at the very least maintaining Kim's position as a legitimate contender in the politics of the mafia world remains consistent in both the book and show.

Whether that observation lines up with the idea that he wants out of the mafia though, is entirely up to you. XD

[reirakurenai]

RULES: post 5 songs associated with your OC, followed by 3 outfits they would wear

Thanks for the tag, @avani-telvanni! ^^

Here's my lovely Durge, Lux! ✨️

5 Songs:

I have a whole WIP playlist for her (and Gortash). You can access it here.

3 Outfits:

She likes to be pretty, but hates restrictive movement. She purposefully wears revealing clothes to lure in her prey (Bhaal gave her looks, so she's gonna use it wisely). She DETESTS shoes. Usually refuses to wear them - she and Gortash have argued over it before ("You can't attend the party wearing those ridiculous things you call footwear!" "Well, eff your party then, lordling." XD)

Gold, garnets and rubies are her favourite. And obviously she favours black and red. ^^

I um...tag whoever wants to do it! XD

[domsaysstuff]

Korn and the art of learning through the mistakes of others.

My brain is going crazy rn and i don't know if it's my lack of sleep or am I having intellectual™ thoughts about the gay mafia show again but I have been thinking about Korn after the finale a lot(as we all have been doing). But especially about Korn and his father and Namphung.

At the day that Porsche's father is killed, Korn's father is accused of murdering Namphung's whole family and then taking her under his wing.

I will not go as to why would Korn's father saved Namphung, but I will go into what he wanted from taking her in and he failed doing and what Korn actually succeeded in doing with Porsche by improving on his father's methods.

The Big Theerapanyakul, let's call him Big T, obviously wanted Namphung loyalty. He raised her after all and took her under his wing. He expected her to come back on his call.

But he hadn't succeeded. He didn't have her loyalty, she left the mafia, she got married to someone and cut all the ties and she didn't want to come back to that world.

Big T wasn't successful.

But Papa Korn?

Student Beats his Master.

And Korn apparently was a very good student.

But why did he succeed in trapping Porsche in this life while Big T failed with Namphung?

It's because Big T murdered Namphung's whole family, she didn't had any stakes when leaving other than her life and that was practically unimportant anyway. She had no chains in the form of loved ones when she was leaving.

Loved ones as a leverage.

And Korn saw that, I think that's why he left Porsche and Chay alive that day, as a leverage. Namphung wouldn't go with them willingly, but if it's her children at stakes? Her loved ones? She can be locked up in that attic for an eternity.

And then all those years later comes Porsche.

We all know how much of everything was planned by Korn but I actually think that even showing Porsche his mother was indeed planned. That he really did had in mind their meeting but not in a caring uncle way.

No, Korn saw Porsche and he saw an opportunity. He already had a leverage over him - his mother, Porsche clearly was skilled and he was a Namphung's son. Which meant that he could get the position as the minor family heir.

But what Korn needed was Porsche's loyalty before doing that. He needed him to walk into this world by himself. That's why I think he also reacted so quickly to Kinn and Porsche being boyfriend's in such a manner. They being in love actually aligned with his plan more then he initially planned. He now, not only had his mother but also his lover and then saying that Chay also should be moving into the compound? This was Korn's chains tightening around Porsche's hands and ankles without us even noticing.

But he still wasn't sure how loyal Porsche was.

That's where the final showdown comes in.

Korn could have lied about Porsche hiring Porsche, he didn't have to really say anything. Kim meddling wouldn't have impact on Porsche and Kinn because he wasn't speaking and sharing with them. He didn't have to do that.

But he did, he did as to specially put him into this position where Porsche had to choose.

And Porsche showing up to the final fight? It was a testament of his loyalty.

To Korn it didn't matter it was his loyalty to Kinn. Loyalty to Kinn means inderct loyalty to Korn because his own son is just a pawn, a tool to use in this game of chess played with lives.

And that's when Korn shows Namphung. When Porsche has proven his loyalty. He shows him his shackles, the ones that were put on him long before and by having Kinn offer him the ring, the new ones he put on.

That's why Namphung was so devastated at the last minutes. All this sacrifice, this life in a fucking attic was for nothing, because there were walking in her sons. One of them with the same shackles thing him to this world she recognized because she wore them herself.

Also side note to VegasPete fans: Vegas also has slight shackles put on. Korn did what his father did when killed Namphung's family. He said he will take care of Vegas and Macau. And then he let Pete go after Vegas. Pete who did say he will always be loyal to the major family (even if it was only formality). They might have an illusion of an escape from this world but one string pulled from Korn and just like Namphung's lovely family life with her husband - it will fall apart at the seams.

Because Korn saw what his father did. And he improved it.

[biblesbuild]

i actually didnt think that far into the plot for my fic and now im at a standstill… im not sure if i wanna keep pete as a mole

(this was my original THOUGHT…. which brought on the idea. but now it just seems redundant, i dont know how to factor it in. i wanted pete to detest porsche but the longer i think abt it i hate the idea. kinn is still the perfect man to detest, and pete likes tankhun just hates his situation.)

then i realized im being too nice to the non vp characters, im looking at it through the show lense. vegas in the show did not care if porsche or kinn died, wanted to kill them himself even. wanted to kill korn with the help of his father (although im not sure if the overthrowing was ever vegas’ true desire, maybe it was until he met pete. all vegas ever wanted was his father’s acceptance and this was his chance to get it)

my problem is, i see vegas as bad. he is not a Good Guy (none of them are) but im having trouble channeling a pete that is exactly like vegas. (which i already touched on, w the torture and the killing and the bloodlust) pete enjoys these things as much as vegas does. BUT i am having trouble with the thought of pete wanting kp dead (not saying they’ll die). ive already alluded to the fact that pete is not the biggest fans of the people he works with, so there is already that detachment. i just dont know how to WRITE IT IN. petes character is making me uncomfortable but that is the point. there is no heros or villians in this World.

in conclusion. i want to stray away from post canon pete which ppl love (staying home, taking care of venice, more on the financial and legal sides of the business, mediator between the cousins) while its nice its not something i personally want for pete. he deserves to be unhinged (hes not quite there yet though)

also tawan will still be here but for the life of me i cant figure out how i wanna use him. bless his heart

if u have any dark pete suggestions let me know or if you’ve read my fic something u might want to see. im struggling

[boyfriendsmalec]

Tagged by @bad-buddy-owns-my-ass Thanks for the tag!

1. Your all time favorite bl and why

Bad Buddy. I think it's obvious from what my account has devolved into but it honestly is my favorite BL I've ever watched. It's got everything. It's got comedy and drama and romance and the best onscreen couple chemistry I have ever seen in a BL. OhmNanon have made this series to be what it is, and I don't think if it was portrayed by different actors that it would have at all the same impact.

2. That one bl that scarred you for life

This is hard to say because I usually avoid sad BLs. I will say that after watching Until We Meet Again I was really sad about In and Korn for a good two solid days, but I don't think I'm scarred for life because of it.

Also waiting between episodes 11 and 12 of Bad Buddy was low-key scarring but only temporarily.

3. Is there any bl that made you feel very single

Bad Buddy. THE CHEMISTRY! The way they're constantly being super playful and flirty. Even before they get together on the show they had me feeling single BIG TIME.

4. If you could change one thing from a bl, which one would it be?

I probably would have a better answer if I wasn't in Bad Buddy brain rot mode but I would say for Bad Buddy I would change the whole Wai plot. And also have Pa tell her parents about Pran saving her life because that was HUGE and we never got that to come out to the parents. (Also I'd have them get engaged by the end of the finale but you know maybe it's being saved for a special episode... one can hope)

For a BL other than Bad Buddy: Have GSP end happily or have Tang Yi not go to jail at the end of Trapped.

5. That one bl you detest (don’t hold back)

I don't sit through shows I don't like so I can't say. I may come back to add one in later if I can think of one I didn't like.

6. Your top 5:

1) Bad Buddy, 2) Cherry Magic, 3) Until We Meet Again, 4) Kieta Hatsukoi, 5) I Told Sunset about You (but not IPYTM)

7. That trashy bl that you lowkey like

Tien Bromance... it's utter trash but I watched it all including the special episodes. I don't even know what was going on in this show. The first episode is full on horror and kinda scary. Then we have the mafia (I can't even remember anymore) is after them??? But at the time I watched it I had fun with it and was like damn, this is a show where the gays really are invincible. Nothing could kill them! I think their spinoff with their adopted son is pretty cute too. But I don't really want to rewatch it now that I've seen so much better BL content.

8. Your favorite Korean bl (it’s important we know)

Light on Me. They had enough time to develop all the characters in this one. I wish other Korean BLs were given this length.

9. But also your top 3 for kbls

Light on Me, To My Star, Color Rush

10. Season 2? Which one?

Bad Buddy but only special episodes because I don't want more drama for Pat and Pran, I just want to see them get happily married.

For an actual Season 2 I would like to see Gaya Sa Pelikula get one (which was SUPPOSED to have a second season).

11. A bunch of dramas will air soon. Which ones are you most excited for?

Vice Versa bc Ohmnanon. But also Cutie Pie because I just love arranged marriage plots and I want to see it play out. Also curious for Moonlight Chicken (P'Aof directing). Some interesting Korean BLs coming out in February too including Semantic Error and Cherry Blossoms Before Winter.

12. Tag them!

Anyone that wants to participate feel free to share your thoughts!

[watchinglikeafangirl]

I keep wondering why Vegas decided not to shoot Korn. Vegas was already a bit suicidal at that point, not caring for his life and he looked deaf to pete's pleading voice. So the only thing that comes to my mind is that he puts his gun down when Korn mentions macau. Like that sobers Vegas a bit..I don't know...I am just very curious what was going through vegas' head at that moment...

I haven't figured that out myself either because it would make perfect sense for him to shoot Korn, but then again, it was Gun who put Vegas through hell. It was Gun who abused him and Gun is dead now and maybe Vegas realized Korn hasn't done him much harm.

I'm still not sure if Vegas really hates the major family because they will always be above him or if that was just the idea he copied from his father to appeal to him and he just detestes that entire family because of the abuse it symbolizes for him without anyone caring for him. Because it's not just the majore nor minor family that are selfish, everybody looks out for themselves first and violence is commonly used though it destroys you mentally and I think nobody has ever helped Vegas or laid an eye on him, at least noticing how hollow he felt.

This is all speculation but I think Vegas pointed the gun at Korn because 1. Korn kiled his father after all and 2. because Korn never helped him before. He then puts his gun down because 1. Korn helped him now at least and 2. like you said, Korn said he will take care of Macau. We know how much Vegas looks out for Macau, how much he tries to protect him, so yes maybe Macau was the only reason Vegas didn't shoot Korn but maybe it was a little more than that.

[kawasiki-jo]

And Yet Again, We’re Fucked ✨

- Sorry but this chapter's post won't have fanart cause I'm wrestling with my CSP software to save all my art. I am not winning.

I'll try having it fixed by the next post just so I don't lose my mind. But until then, please bear with me. - Joanna.

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I want to preface this part of the rant by addressing a few things that I’ve been asked on tumblr about the posts - 

1. This was never really meant to be a full fanfic, it was originally a 3k comment that I had sent on one of the fan pages i followed. The reason I uploaded it was because Instagram had a really short word limit and most of the comment was cut off, resulting in me having to individually send the whole thing to whoever wanted to read the full comment. It wasn’t necessarily proper in any way, hence i referred to it as a rant and not a ff. the second part of the rant was meant to be a mere skeleton of how i envisioned Macau and Chay getting their lives tangled up in each other’s. which brings up the next answer.

2. The lack of detail is, or well was, intentional. Just so the reader could imagine at their own pace, add details to whatever part they wanted. It was also meant to depict the underlining derivativity of actual affection and honesty shown to the second family siblings. Everyone already knows Vegas’ side of the story by now, but I didn’t want Macau to be left out. the novel does give his perspective some reading time, but I wasn’t fully satisfied with the dept it portrayed.  

3. Hence, all the posts are from Macau's perspective - so far. I felt the need to focus on him, since the series as well as the novel already provided for Chay’s POV. It allows me to create some sort of a time line that runs parallel to the series. 

4. In this rant, Macau isn’t very integrated into the dramatic events that happen in the series - in the sense he has no knowledge about some of the stuff that happens with the main family. seeing as I am portraying him as the one always left in the dark, don’t be surprised when I don’t mention a lot of events that pertain to the other couples of the series. it’s pretty understandable. But all the main events will be covered, don’t worry.   

5. Do I hate Kim? Yes, I absolutely fucking do. I detest him, very much. the fact that he does what he does, just cause he can, without considering anyone's feelings, irks me to no end. No one asked him to do an entire flog background check, no one even consented to that. He just goes about digging up a past that no one wanted to know. Porsche and Chay seemed to be at peace with their parents death, initially until Porsche’s entire world is flipped upside down and he realizes that he can’t fucking deal with everything changing. But the fact that Kim decided he’d ignore that and ‘find out what really happened’ pisses me off. even Korn knew not to break the siblings bubble until he was forced to. Kim disregarded Chay’s peace just so he can do what? Know everything and then what? Just remember, denial may be tough and annoying to watch, but sometimes it’s what’s preventing a person from becoming the worst they can be. I have so much more to say. But I’m already wasting so much of your time. So I’ll leave this with one last note. Jeff bringing Kim to life, makes me hate Kim so much more. (I absolutely appreciate Jeff, he did an amazing job in making me want to smack the shit outta Kim)

4. There now is a plan to make this a full fanfic, because i’m apparently the easiest person to coerce. But there’s still a bit of internal discussion on how i plan on making it a ff when i’ve already set out the first few chapters of the storyline for you guys. If y’all are still up for it, I don’t actually mind. 

As I see it, there's a few ways to go about it:

   a. would be to start all over with dept and details.

   b. would be to continue, but start the details from the next post.

   c. would be to continue with just a skeleton, and then maybe write a whole ff.

   d. would be to just write the skeleton.

I’m open to whatever.

I’m not evil enough to just post a half-hearted QnA so I’ll get on to the rant.

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Macau should just leave it alone. he really really really should.

But a few days later, when he opens his Instagram the first post is from Chay’s account. it’s shaky as if the phone was moved just before the camera could click, but noticeably a picture of Kim, who’s playing the guitar.

But what Macau notices, even more, is the background. it’s Chay’s house. Macau is sure of it. A 100%. shaky image and all.

He tells his brother he’s going to the Skate park again, but this time Vegas tells him to take some bodyguards with him. Macau wants to argue, but he’s aware of the situation right now. He knows what happened to his second eldest cousin (referring to the lost-in-the-woods,-but-it’s-not-Kristoff-singing-it scenes) and that the main family suspect them first. 

He nods and is taken to the park, but half an hour later Vegas gets a call from Macau’s head bodyguard that he’s run away. Vegas sadly sighs as he tells them he’ll go collect him.

Escaping the guards was a piece of cake according to Macau. He’s done it a couple of times, but his main problem would be the amount of time he has until his brother comes for him. Judging from how loud his father was in the morning, Macau guesses that Vegas is in the warehouse near the east river by now. 

20 minutes, give or take.

He sits himself down at the same milk stall he had visited before, waiting - for what he isn’t sure, but he does it. 

10 minutes and he’s restless, knees relentlessly trying to keep his feet grounded. He has no idea if they’re still home, or if Kim has left or anything really. He’s wasting his time again.   

Nothing.

The 20 minutes go by and he sees nothing. He doesn’t know what he was hoping for, but he feels slightly crushed. 

His brother is feeling generous, he thinks. Giving him more than 30 minutes to waste away his time. When Vegas finally arrives he gets into the car without a word. Not sparing another glance at that stupid white gate. 

They get home and Vegas stops him from getting out of the car. He reminds him that he doesn’t need to keep an eye on Chay anymore, that he’s already done with his task.

Macau wills himself to resign, for the sake of his sanity brother. He feels bad that he’s also wasting Vegas’ time. He didn’t miss the budding red bruise on his brother’s left cheek. he shouldn’t be troubling his brother like this, Vegas has so much of work to do. 

He unfollows Chay.

.

.

It’s the last two weeks of school, Macau can’t wait to finally be free from that hell hole. He has successfully managed to avoid Chay, actively leaving when the boy is anywhere within his peripheral. if he did manage to do the same in his mental realm, he leaves no comment. Not that Chay noticed. 

He’s forced himself into a steady rhythm, chastises himself when he catches his mind reminding him of anything related to Chay. He had dramatically gone and packed up all the one piece manga he got after seeing Chay read one volume. He had also gone the extra mile and told his bodyguards to drop and collect him from the west-end school gate. it’s an extra eight minutes walk to his class, but it’s the path furthest from the music room and Chay’s class, so he does it. grumpily.

In an awful turn of events though, which Macau will surely argue is the universe’s way of fucking him over, yet again. he happens to overhear Chay confessing his love to someone, when he’s on his way to the school gate. his immediate reaction is to duck and hide behind the pillar.

He’s filled with a sudden feeling of unwanted hurt as his heart is pounding away in his ears. he’s going to town on the straps of his bag, surprisingly not ripping them out of the seams, with the force he’s crushing scrunching them in. 

He can’t bring himself to look, or move, or even breathe for that matter.   

He hears it once, then twice, then thrice, and surely he can’t be going mental enough for his own mind to replay Chay’s words again and again. 

He peeks, just to prove his sanity. 

And then he’s left confused. 

Chay is the only person there. 

Just when he thinks he’s actually fallen off the edge into hallucinations, he hears the confession again. But this time he can see that Chay is reading from a piece of paper. Or was it to?   

Macau’s been through a lot and judging from his recent plummet into insanity, he’d reckon that to was not so unbelievable. 

He’s thrown out of his mental crusade by Chay’s frustrated groans. he watches Chay pace in circles as he animatedly ruffles his hair out in frustration. It’s absolutely fucking adorable Macau’s heart is now beating rent-free in his mouth. 

Takes him of while of staring watching to understand that Chay is rehearsing . Chay is rehearsing his love confession. Chay is rehearsing his love confession to Kim. 

When his brain catches up to the realization, it’s a blow right to his gut. he feels the bile rise as he’s trying to get himself to calm down. he’s trying to reason with himself that he has no need to be affected by this. no reason whatsoever. 

His reasoning is weak solid and absolute bullshit true, he can’t afford to waste his time. this has already taken up so much of his youthful final school year. it also shouldn’t fucking matter to him. Chay is no-one. Chay was just the task he was given. Chay doesn’t even care about him

He crumbles to the floor, knees to his chest. hoping that at least they will hold him from completely coming apart.

Thankfully, his moment is ruined by the sudden blare of a phone ringing. he’s startled, but Chay’s sweet voice cuts through the tone quickly. 

From what he overhears, Chay isn’t talking to Kim. it’s a relief, but it’s short lived. He hears Chay enquire if ‘he’ is in the studio today.

The answer must be yes, because when he checks, Chay’s face lights up with the biggest smile Macau has ever seen on him. that stings.

Chay thanks the person on the other end before scrambling to collect his bag and guitar case. He rushes through the hallway, making Macau frantically fling his body into the bushes to narrowly escape being seen.

When he can no longer hear the resonance of running echo through the hallway, he takes out his own phone and texts his brother to send him all the addresses of Kim’s recording studios

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Macau in this post is the epitome of ‘faking-it-and-hoping-i-don’t-crash-and-burn- till-i-make-it’.

also talk about organ displacement, poor Macau has had his heart take a paid vacation to smack the shit outta his braincells.

Also I'm aware this is short as well, and most of it was just me wasting your time. But I didn't want to give a full post (or whatever this was) without knowing if y'all wanted a full ff.

Let me know what you want, so I can continue.

[purityoflust]

Hi! May I have a creepypasta matchup please?

Im a intj. My sun sign is pisces, my moon sign is Sagittarius, and my rising sign is virgo!

I have medium dirty blonde hair, I have tan skin also I wear glasses and I have hazel eyes Im kinda muscular too. My style changes alot but I'm mostly vampire gothic I like wearing rings, makeup, and jewelry with my clothes when im tired or unmotivated I wear punk clothes without makeup but still wear my jewelry and rings. But when its time to chill I wear tank tops and sweatpants with a bun

I love playing video games, listening to music, watching scary or comedy movies, I like reading books and doing art when I have time. I like spending time with others and chill with them im like a random stray cat that pops out of nowhere to see what others are up to.

I dont really like loud noises or repetitive sounds, I especially hate the sound of squeaky foam sounds I tried my best to describe it, I dislike people being judgmental to others who they don't even know, argumentive people and people that likes to tick you off on purpose.

I have a strong personality and im mostly psychic but i fight for what's right and protect others, I stand up for people Im not really shy but im standoff-ish to others I barely know and im mostly quiet but when im talked to I talk back, im ambiverted I have bad social anxiety I don't really trust people as well, I have a few close friends as well. I love to collect crystals, rocks, or anything nature related. Im intelligent in many ways like if someone needs the answer for something I give it to them off hand

If im in a relationship im clingy and protective and Im always there for them, If we argue then I keep slient and want to talk things out if they are upset I comfort them or give them small gifts. I love to make inside jokes and vines references and Im not really experienced in relationships like I get all blushy and awkward lmaooo. I'm also focusing on myself which is great, I struggle with depression and derealization it really sucks because I lose all motivation but I keep pushing on.

My love language is quality time and giving gifts! I think spending time together is pretty neat and sweet, I give them gifts because I want to see their smile =]

My favorite colors are maroon, dark blue, purple, forest green and black!

The type of music I listen is hyperpop, nu-metal, and some rap, but not all of it. I mostly listen to korn, 16volt, and slipknot. Btw 16volt is kinda like dubstep metal.

My sexuality is bisexual (preference for guys) im genderfluid so any pronouns as well!

My favorite animals are reptiles, bunnies, mammals, and felines! Dogs scare me a little tho but not badly

Thats all I can think of, I hope your day and week goes well for you oh btw I love your blog and writing :) thank you for doing my request when you have time!

Your matchup is: Eyeless Jack!

This didn't take too long to figure out. Just how I would word it.

In general:

When I saw this, I knew it SCREAMED EJ. It just- ugh, you two fit perfectly together like a puzzle piece. Your style, personality, everything is just perfect.

Tbh I was stuck between Masky and EJ but went with the dark king.

Tbh I see him having a dark styled S/O.

Jack is very quiet and reserved. And patient.

You appear the same way, so it's only fair.

I imagine he's an INFJ, which still fits well!

He adores your zodiac. <3

Things he likes about you:

Your beauty. Your hair, your skin, your eyes, your fit form - he loves it all. He loves giving you hugs because of it!

That's not just it. He LOVES your personality.

He honestly loves how self-reserved yet laid back you are. He respects that.

He honestly finds it adorable when you check in on him or anyone else just as a "hey what's up" type deal.

He loves that you stand up for what you believe in and you fight for it, as well. He finds it beyond admirable.

He understands being standoffish, he honestly gets the same way!

He absolutely agrees with you on detesting those who judge and seek to hurt for no reason [At least personality wise. He's a cannibal, of course he's gonna physically hurt someone].

He adores your style. He finds it unique and cute. And badass.

Goth/Punk lover for the win.

He ABSOLUTELY respects your identity and pronouns.

He likes to mix them up lightheartedly, calling you a "he" around others then "she" out of nowhere. It confuses them and he finds it amusing.

Of course he means no ill intent with it.

He'd of course stop if you were uncomfortable.

Adores your art skills.

Your intelligence!

When you talk about what you like. Being so passionate about things just makes his heart flutter - especially when you talk about collecting things and what kind of animals you adore.

He quotes vines as well, so he definitely enjoys joking with you!

Psychic GF/BF/SO? HELL YEAH!

You two as a couple:

He's kind and patient with you.

He's always talking in a soft, deep voice around you.

He always makes sure nothing is too loud around you.

Positive affirmations!

If you need space, all you have to do is ask.

He lets you steal his hoodies & T-Shirts.

He honestly loves kissing you all over. [Anywhere you're comfortable with.]

Inside jokes!

He always praises you.

He finds it extremely attractive when you're protective of him.

He doesn't mind the clinginess tbh.

He gets the same way, actually.

He's just as protective tbh.

He will absolutely TEAR into anyone who hurts you. [Quite literally].

Quality time!

He loves playing video games with you - and watch horror movies!

He'll do anything with you, really.

Sometimes he steals your shirts, too.

He understands the awkwardness and being inexperienced, you're honestly his first S/O in a long time, so he's warming up to it himself.

He may seem a bit awkward, but he loves you.

He adores your love language. His is basically hovering behind you for a while and hugging you from behind.

He also loves stroking your hair.

Finds your glasses adorable, honestly, so he's always calling you his sweet little nerd.

He completely understands your derealization and depression and is there for you 24/7.

Alot of cuddles and kisses!

Jamming out to nu-metal all the way!

He'd look into hyperpop for you, to be honest.

Ends up loving it.

HELL YEAH, JAM SESSIONS!

Adores dark colors.

Definitely robs a few stores just to get you some gifts.

Definitely gets you more punkish/gothic clothing.

And accessories!

Always compliments you, especially when you aren't wearing any makeup.

Matching rings omg!

Matching outfits??????

Loves surprising you with food, too!

Sweets, savory, anything you want.

NOTE: Hi Sugarplumb! I'm sorry this took a while, I really wanted to make sure I got this right. I'm sorry if some things are repeated or out of order, I went from what was at the top of my head.

You remind me so much of myself. Appearance, style and all! Except I'm so white, I make Casper look rainbow bright. I also vibe in Scorpio.

I'm so sorry you go through Depression and Derealization. I hope you enjoyed this regardless! Don't be afraid to ask me to add anything else in if you'd like!

And thank you so much on the compliment! I hope you have an amazing week as well! I'm glad you like my writing. :)

[alirhi]

The other day, the lovely @hiddlestanss asked me what kind of music I listen to. I didn't have an answer ready because I love music. Music is my entire universe, it is what my soul is made of, I love it, and I don't judge based on genre or even artist. It always comes down to each song. I mean, there are a few that can be generalized because I either detest with a fiery passion every single thing I have ever heard by them (Taylor Swift, Panic at the Disco, My Chemical Romance, Lady Gaga) or adore every song, or nearly every song I've ever heard by them (Korn and no I'm not ashamed to say that, All Time Low, pre-2000s Madonna, The Moody Blues) but for the most part, it depends on the song.

I like to say I listen to a little of everything, from Aaliyah to ZZ Top XD but for a quick guide to, basically, my personality, here's what I've been listening to on loop lately:

SKÁLD (especially Rún, Valfreyjudrápa, Ginnunga, Gleipnir, and their cover of Seven Nation Army, which is weird because I hate the original of that song lol) Bad Omens (holy shit their acoustic songs... Also, Careful What You Wish for is fucking flawless.) The Victorious Soundtrack (I'm a sucker for any of the songs Victoria and/or Liz sings. I love their voices. I also really like Ariana's voice, but I don't like her music outside Victorious, and her character made me want to slap her lol) Enya - Only Time (it's my favorite meditation song) We Are the In Crowd (Windows in Heaven, Long Live the Kids, and Attention. can't get enough, even though the first one makes me cry like a baby) Miranda Lambert (Over You and Gunpowder and Lead are the only songs of hers I like. There are the occasional exceptions, but overall, I fucking hate country music!) Halestorm (omg I love them so much. Lzzy Hale is a Goddess) The Hu

That's off the top of my head, anyway. 🤷‍♀️ I'm also a sucker for 80s/90s music because... hello, my childhood lol