#knowledgejournal

[abceltic]

Good evening

Hello everyone, I've been trying to use my phone less so i havent been online. I deleted all social media except twitter and Tumblr on my phone. I am going to delete them and only use them on laptop though. When i get my new camera, i may redownload TikTok but only on laptop so i can post footage i'm taking. It'll be an old Sony camera, I'm really excited about it :)) My days feel a lot more fulfilling without using my phone so much, i dont restrict it (yet) as i consequently use it less as a result of deleting my primary apps. Also, this may be strange but I've attempted to listen to less music, not when im inside but, when outside. I feel I often miss many of my surroundings and the environmental noise as Im listening to music through Spotify, It's uncomfortable , i guess, to be with my thoughts and to be somewhat bored at certain points but, itll also be good to sit with my own boredom. There's nothing wrong with boredom and i dont understand why im so "against" it ... Lol That's another Topic, I want to be more present, to be able to sit in my boredom. It's okay to do nothing but, the feeling of boredom is so... Urgh. A restlessness, you carry a certain excitement, a need, a want, to do something yet there's nothing available. Actually, no, there is always something available, even if you think there's nothing. I sat in boredom today and after ten minutes, around ten minutes at least, my brain felt like it was actually conjuring up something and finally making do with its surroundings and available items or areas. It felt great. So, now i know that I am capable of that and i can in fact do something Lol. It seems simple but, Oh my god, It was harder than expected, i really did have to try. And, I started Journaling again. I didnt realise how much i have to say. it's been what... 2 days? 2 days of actually using it. It's in the image down below and I've been cutting out photos of images i've taken, writing down thoughts, writing down quotes, "Philosophical" queries, opinions, arguments, drawing, using stickers and making art. I'm really happy for the art as drawing has always been something I've really enjoyed and I've always done it but with this, theres no pressure and i can make collages, draw to my heart's extent. So, it's already getting bigger and all i can feel when i look at it is joy :) . Here's the journal from the side:

Good bye!