#kinda wanted to use this blog to start my fanfic era but….

[pinkarry]

just realised if you make a secondary blog you can’t reply using that!! not ignoring anyone who replies-I swear- I just want some sort of separation between blogs! :((

[chiyoso]

update

hi pookie. to those who read this the first time, welcome back, this is a re-write. an update. i kinda found the initial update i did rushed, not clearly descriptive of my situation outside this writing hobby of mine. also for the ones that i tagged, i have notes for you <3 (sorry for the tag 🫶🏻)

alright. hello hello. i'm chiyo, a jjk-focused/sporadic genshin and hsr fanfic writer, and you've caught me, and this blog in such bad time, and im so, so very fucking burnt out.

writing for me should be fun, stress relieving, and that goes for any other hobby i have. i have been told and supported countless of times to take a rest, to take a break from this, but my stubborn ass continues to try and get something out, anything to keep my blog alive, hells, it feels like a toxic relationship where i keep coming back, because i remember all the fun, happy and fond times i had in this app, only then to return to why it becomes draining, exhausting.

just sat there, occasionally laid on my back, using my phone, but with unmoving thumbs, with a brain lacking the world that needs the narrative to make a story, fuck, where has it gone?

that innocent, startup of mine, the newfound love and interest for that world of fiction that you all create. dude, i remember being so happy discovering that this brain of mine can conjure up so many shit, all because of your words, it's fucking amazing. hence, the start of the era of my honkai star rail writing journey. (hsr/hi3rd fans who followed me, i let you down with my jujutsu kaisen brainrot obsession im sorry lmao)

“take a break hira,” “take a break chiyo,” “please, take a break.”

i've heard it all, and with utmost love and respect, thank you.

thank you for everything, every word, every action, and every peep of interest you all had for me. small and big creators, who, stopped by because of my small percent chance drop in on their feed, because of the stories i created that you shared, i've met so many wonderful, inspring and motivating people in tumblr, fuck, i didn't expect to crrate a little community all by myself, with my grit alone, it's so rewarding for someone who strives for perfection, for someone who struggles with her mental health daily, for someone who deluded themselves in a world of fiction, I can't express my genuine gratitude enough.

i'm not quitting. maybe i should've mentionrd that earlier to prevent you from getting rattled, but continuing off, i don't find myself quitting this writing journey, maybe i'm just not in the right mental headspace for it at this time. damn, my ex really fucked me up LMAO.

right, i'm aware of the less and lessening interactions i've had with the people i've encountered throughout tumblr, i feel sick of myself for not being able to catch up, nor interact with any of you as much as i could anymore, it really, really fucking sucks, i hate it, i hate it, i do.

i still have leftover projects to go over and publish, because i still want MY ideas, MY thoughts, MY worlds of fictional prowess to all of you. i'm not done, but i will say, that i'm- i'm so incredibly, so very sorry to the ones that were highly, to the heavens, expecting greatness from me, to the ones who were anticipating my unfinished stories, fuck, there's so much to do, yet my body, my mind, they do not respond, as if i'm losing my sense of time, literally.

all i can say to those sticking with me because of their plain interest for me, i wish, i pray, i'll beg, beg for me, my soul, my mind, my body, my spirit to heal, and heal faster, so i can love you all at my 100%, not with my trying 20%, and lower.

thank you. to the old, and to the recent supporters that got me to 3k followers and counting, fuckin' wild. actually insane.

i'll continue to write. i'll continue to create. i don't want to quit.

i don't want to leave the only thing that gave me freedom, and the genuine happiness the first time, making me discover shit about myself, and there's that.

p.s. apologies for my jjk brainrot everyone who followed for genshin and hsr <3 also that one popular otome game, love & deepspace? yeah, that shit's also fucking me up so good.

HONORABLE MENTIONS: (lawd i feel bad for tagging)

@ainescribe @wanderingconstellations @teapartyspilled @v3lv3tf0x @ciarchivez ⸻ you fucking OGS. literally five pillars of my life, the cheerleaders, my absolute undying support of this blog, you saw me at my noob tumblr handling form, the lows, the highs, and the absolute peaks, i consider all of you special, i do, you all made tumblr and the writing community such a fun place for me. thank you, thank you, i just can't spam that voiceline enough.

@peachdues @screampied @chuluoyi @blkkizzat @jabamin @flametrashira @meowzfordayz ⸻ you superstar mutuals of mine. we've only interacted sporadically, PLEASE BLAME MY BURNOUT AND COLLEGE SCHEDULE FOR THAT, but all of you invoked so much burning hope, and motivation for me through your stories, AND your interests for me, whether it'd be something about my themes, edits, stories, it doesn't matter, you all took interest in lil' ol me, despite what, being such big content creators? FUCK??? that's insane. thank you.

god, i seriously wish my schedule would just clear up by a fuckton, and then again, i was the one who took psychology and performing arts 💤 i hope, hope HOPE i get to interact with you all again once i take a leave/break from college.

⸻ with all my love, chiyo.

[multifandoms27-blog]

Hello there!

I just stumbled across your blog and I love your posts! And when I saw that you also write for Creepypasta, I just had to send in a request, especially considering that there's barely anything there!

So may I ask for some general and romantic headcanons for Toby? I really love this guy!

I hope you have a wonderful day and remember to stay hydrated!

(Also, apologies if there are any mistakes, English isn't my native language ^^)

See ya! :D

Hi! Thank you, Vero, you stay hydrated and have a wonderful day as well! I'm so glad you love my stuff <3 I was just thinking about doing something for Toby, so you're in luck hehe

(Also, your English is amazing my friend. No worries <3)

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Content: Toby general and romantic headcanons with gender neutral reader

Warnings: Mentions of trauma, implied murder, implied violent bipolar episodes, obsessive behavior, toxic jealousy, toxic relationship, and implied familial trauma.

Notes: I come from the era of creepypasta where everybody believed Toby was very obsessed with waffles, and was horribly misinterpreted in fanfiction. That was about eight years ago now though, and from what I've seen the fandom has been getting better with representation of Toby.

I've put a lot of thought into this. Might use this as inspo to revamp my Jeff headcanon list.

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(art by Lynnarty on Deviantart)

❥General

I want to start by saying: I know almost nothing about Tourette's syndrome and don't know anybody who has it. If I get anything wrong, please please please correct me. I wanna get this right for you lovelies. Thank you <3

Now, what I do know about Tourette's, is that there are two types of tics: motor and phonic. I believe Toby has more motor tics than phonic. I know he's portrayed as stuttering and twitching/moving rapidly at the same time, but I don't think he has as many phonic tics as we think

I do however, think he has a natural stutter. He was bullied in grade school, and as a fellow bullied child, I can confidently say that he developed the stutter then. I will die on this hill.

His personality is also not at all that of a child, who spends all his time screaming and laughing just for the hell of it. He's unhinged, yeah, but not in the oblivious child way. More of the sadistic way for very obvious reasons.

He's more so reserved, just kinda comes and goes. There will be points in time where he decides to be super obnoxious and fuck with other pastas in the mansion, but that's moreso purposely picking fights and intentionally being annoying than whatever the hell fanfic writers wrote in the early 2010's.

He does have bipolar disorder, so he'll lose his shit when he decides to fuck with people and they fuck with him back. It turns ugly really fast.

With his CIPA (Cognitive Insensitivity to Pain), obviously he cannot feel when he gets injured on missions, or if his motor tics cause him any pain. He won't really give a shit if he finds an injury, and won't really take any steps to go to Eyeless Jack either to get patched up. Either someone else will have to bring him, or Jack will have to hunt him down himself.

Speaking of Jack, he was able to fix up the left side of Toby's mouth when he came to the mansion. Fixing Toby's injury and Jeff's face were the first two things he did.

Toby still chews on his hands and the insides of his mouth, just out of habit or if he's stressed/upset about something.

He doesn't have a reaction to fire, really. He doesn't like dwelling on the past + he's ready to just keel over and die at any moment, so it doesn't really matter to him.

Being called "Ticci Toby" angers him to no end. You will die if you call him that, no exceptions.

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❥Romantic

Toby didn't really look for love after joining the mansion

Like I mentioned above, he's ready to die at any point, so he finds it kinda pointless to get a partner if he's just gonna die soon

He noticed when you joined the mansion, but he didn't actually say anything to you until you'd been there for some months. He doesn't particularly associate himself with people in the first place, let alone people he newly "meets."

He's not very friendly at first, but being nice to him even through his obnoxious moments and horrendous mood swings and even going so far as to try to help him (he won't let you in the moment but he'll reflect on it later), it'll get you in his good graces

Being blindingly nice won't just get you in romantic territory. If he sees you being an actual person around others while just being super nice with him, it's going to make him think you're not genuine.

Just be yourself around him. When he sees you treat him the same as the others (with genuine kindness and respect) and not like he's some freak, it'll get you brownie points.

Toby doesn't realize he's insecure and thinks it's normal to get super jealous super easily. His parents didn't have the best relationship and most internet media of relationships is toxic in itself, so you'll have to be the one to sit down with him and lay out your boundaries. Even then, he'll frequently cross them.

It's not because he doesn't respect you or love you. He does. Just sometimes he wants to move the relationship a little faster, or he's impatient and wants kisses when you're with the others, or he's just plain forgetful.

Again on the jealous point though, he's going to get very upset if you don't notice he's jealous. In his mind, it's very obvious. Eventually he'll get so upset that he yanks you away from the people, cusses them out, then storms off with you and slams every door he goes through for extra measure. He's then going to cry as he holds you, apologizing and saying he didn't mean it and he was just scared you were going to leave him.

He doesn't let you be with your other pasta friends without lurking in the background, watching yours and their every move. He loves you and just wants to make sure you're okay. Happily accepts you back into his arms when you're done.

The only time you'll be able to hang out with friends outside the mansion (without him watching you) is when Toby is away on missions. If you befriend the right pastas, they'll cover for you. If he's not away though, he's very likely going to be stalking you and your friends in the background.

Toby doesn't care if you give him PDA or not, he just wants to be near you and do what he wants in the moment. Once he realizes he has feelings for you, he's going to be clinging to your side.

Loves when you show him physical affection and attention without him asking.

He also loves when you involve him in things you like. He might not participate in it, but the fact that you thought of him makes him happy. His favorite thing is eating some snacks while cuddling on his bed and watching some show you love.

Toby by himself just kinda exists. Toby in a relationship with you just kinda exists, but he wants people to know that you only exist with him.

For obvious reasons, Toby is a fucked up individual, and a relationship with him will always be toxic in some aspect. Everyone in the pasta mansion is fucked up, and very few will have healthy relationships. Yes, we love the pastas anyway, but we cannot fix them, so just keep that in mind lovelies <3

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Here is my Masterlist in case you want to request, or look for more of your favorite character!

[fantomette22]

By the way, I wanted to ask - what are the flaws / the worst traits of your Laurence would be? So far I've only seen him portrayed in your fanfic, when he was still so innocent.... And he is already a rather pleasant man. But also everything you post about him in your blog is rather flattering?

But like, what are his dark sides? What are his vices? I could expect them to start manifesting/developing in Healing Church era more specifically, but all will do! There are just unique things. Smug bastard overly-confident in his ever-rightness, fierce arrogant stubborn asshole, the fuckin manipulative self-vindicating narcissist being *delighted* with too many close people taking bullets for him, manic vain cuckoo clearly getting off at the awful things he "had" to do, etc etc... Like, yeah whereas the same character written, what are YOUR Laurence's 'focal' flaws and vices?

(P.S. It is okay if you did not actually plan anything like this and your Laurence simply descends by making more and more sacrifices. There could be at least one Laurence that WAS a good person x) )

Ah Laurence! Really interesting question about our fav Vicar (beast on fire) indeed!

First have this drawing of a darker side of Laurence i just draw too.

Yes, it’s true that in my fic for now he’s kinda in his baby era so far XD so he’s not at his worst at all yet (gonna detailed that later but yeah it really develop during healing church era & become even worst after the fishing Hamlet. Until MP calm him the fuck down but it was already too late to fix the mess 😭and with beasthood creeping it was not super great for him…) but I imagined he still have a couple of flaws at that time yes.

Well back at Byrgenwerth and afterwards he was overconfident, too proud and wanted to test lot of new things that the older scholars didn’t really approve of (even if he was right some experiment or research, he wanted to do were either kind of controversial or people found the results weren’t that great at first.) But he was proven right in the end about the old blood XD so yeah, he got kinda a big ego who grow more during the years/his life. He can be impulsive, reckless but will do anything if the ones he cares about are in danger.

(Just another idea I had too I think him and some people of Byrgenwerth staff could be ok with torturing people and enemies, and experiment on people O_O but he’s not the worst at all (like he just talk and ask question) but it’s more of an AU scenario I guess)

In contrary the more the years pass the more he start to loose empathy towards stranger he couldn’t save (but he’s a doctor too of course he got disconnect but sometimes it’s just too much) and even towards his friends after losing lots of them :/ He start to believe that « some sacrifice need to be done » and would continue what he started and still wanted to reach the great ones, at WHATEVER THE COST. Ready to take distance or ditch? the ones who didn’t follow and weren’t of any use to him and would just hold him back.

He became quite a bit absorb in religion too (but normal he’s a vicar you would say) he want to « strict to the code! » But his way, or the saint writings or smt but kinda his interpretation and what he learned. He helped people with religion and with the healing blood of course but some people start to almost veneered him, believed he was some kind of messenger of the gods etc. And that allowed him to changed people mind on lot of things (even if he didn’t plan too at first) That didn’t help so yeah god/messiah complex let’s go… Also, yeah kinda obsess with the great ones, ascension (the watchdogs and fire cough cough but I digress).

As well, after the church gained lots of influence, his life was on the line several time and he didn’t seems to realize it was THAT serious XD

« Hm smn got into my apartment, stole smt and re send it to me with a note saying I will get into trouble if I continue my work…Hm I don’t see the problem 🤔 They’re just trying to intimidate me.»

« Laurence you’re gonna freaking get assassinated!!!!! DO SOMETHING!!! »

Later, he did ask the assassins of the church to kill the « problematic peoples/enemies » too. As for the « preventive measures, aka go kill people before they become beast but are still human » I liked to thing it wasn’t from him perhaps but it become automatic after his death, or maybe it happened when they had huge doubts, but could be occasional and was generalized later on (after his death).

So yeah, for me he’s not the huge devil but not an angel either. He’s human, the best and worst of humanity. To resume, he wanted to do good things, had ambitions and just had a few flaws, then he become kinda an egocentric bastard & distance/dissociated from his friends and their suffering.

He cared about his friends for real but the trauma of losing some really changed him and he then he began to give an image of someone how is more bother by the administrative mess he got to deal with, because his close friends died/suffer/or are problematic than being sad for them/trying to help genuinely without waiting for smt in return. (actually, he is SAD! And want to help but he got responsibilities… and he decided that they pass before… (see what happen with Caryll/some members of the church/Maria/Gehrman/Ludwig/the Vilebloods vs executioners/Gehrman again lol/Old Yharnam burning etc) I think he didn’t really want the Cainhurst massacre /Old Yharnam burning to happen but he thought it was sadly the best/less worst thing to do and they didn’t have another choice. Especially with Cainhurst, I hc they got a Third of umbilical cord in the end SO…

 And after all deal with the blood moon he realized his mistake and tried to get thing to be better but… it was too late… he couldn’t just take back the blood like that or say it was too dangerous… you can’t risk a civil war and even so it’s in the wild, traffic would still happen… and the rest of the church would probably thing he’s crazy… I think at the end of his life he was really pitiful yes….

(Last mention to his incredible theme who make me see/imagined all his life (like gehrman’s). The glorious part as well as the decent to hell…)

In conclusion I think yeah, he was a grand man but kind of a bastard too…really a nuanced character. He wanted to help but ultimately failed… (still I think healing church maybe even worst after he passed away) Like the one before him (pthumerians) and the one after. And even if it wasn’t him maybe smn else would have done what he did. For me he’s one, if not THE MOST important character of Bloodborne lore, after all.

Hope I answer the question 🫡 I really have difficulty to explain him it feel so natural how I see him and his evolution in my head but I can’t tell and write everything yet. I hope to be able to.

[jublian]

Wolfstar fans- exquisite corpse ✨

Hey! Wolfstar fandom- wanna make a Wolfstar exquisite corpse? Open tag!

Exquisite corpse is the group activity where you take turns writing a few lines (50-100words) on a piece of paper. You fold it over to conceal most of it, leaving a few words visible for the next person to begin their writing. When someone finishes the story, you unfold it and laugh at the wonderful nonsense story.

A digital, wolfstar version of that!

How? Am thinking:

1. Ill start by writing 50-150 words in my notes app, then posting the last word/ few words in the comments.

2. Next person will use that comment as a prompt to begin writing. They’ll DM me their writing and post their last words in the comments for the next person to use as a prompt. Feel free to tag someone in your prompt comment!

(these don’t have to be the last words of a sentence. They’re just the last couple of words you write. You can stop writing in the beginning, middle or end of a sentence).

3. So on and so forth!

4. I’ll repost this with the finished product.

Soft rules (will make it easier to read in the end.) pls consider writing-

- romantic, Sirius x Remus. Just write the first thing that comes to ur head. The weirder the better

- third-person past tense. Eg. Remus wanted very badly to throw his teacup into Bethlehem, but he kept his cool.

- Multi-viewpoint narration (POV from whoever/ kinda omnipotent/ whatever)

- Era- Hogwarts student times

Should be fun and cute and funny. If you can think of a better way to do it tho let me know lol

Tagging sweet peeps (I like ur blog/ ur vibe/ ur fanfics ) @dorleneisfuckingadorable @tahtahfornow @squidgilator @racoonsbandaid @achilleslikespeas @nkjemisin

[anggrosaurus]

regrets

the last time i wrote something here was when i was only 21, just a month short of 22. now im 31, 7 months away from being 32😅.

from now on, im gonna copy all the notes ive written in my phone here so that i wont lose them. i hope that one day i can share these notes with, idk, my future self? my offspring, if there's any? somebody else? never mind, its not too important. but i wish that someone will know the existence of this blog other than myself. idk if its even necessary. but, now let me begin.

so the world today is not the one i've been hoping to see when i was 21. prabowo won and jokowi has turned out to be an asshole. kinda regretted supporting him for the past 2 previous elections but okay. at least prabowo wasnt our president back then. work sucks but i choose not to care. people suck but its been always like that everytime. life sucks but good things happen. feelings change, happiness come and go. im stuck but ill go.

im still a kpop fan but now ive turne to seventeen. im not married yet because im still afraid but sometimes i want to. i dont even know what i want. i dont want kids but i always curious if i can raise a good one. might as well going to umrah again to ask for a different thing. Allah has granted my wish to continue my master this year and He gave me 5 LoAs already. i abandoned my dream uni because im lazy but maybe Allah knows best. i tried istikharah and i dreamed of meeting BP Lisa. my office mate told me that it meant i need to go to oz instead of other places. so okay😂 sometimes the regret of abandoning still hits me. tonight it hits me again. i need to buy a new tws. im getting distracted all the time. gotta improve myself before school starts.

also shouldve worn braces since eons ago. should shed my weight since many years ago. i procrastinate too much sometimes i regret not doing things.

university students are doing mass protests in the US. kids from the ivies and other prestigious unis. idk if unimelb children are doing the same. kinda regret not pursuing columbia even though ive been wanting it since my avid exo fanfics reader era. i remember wanting to go there because i liked kim jaeseop aka ukiss aj so much back then. idk where he is now. also the Office Antics fanfic that i read idk which exo member graduated from columbia in the story. but i felt so heavily influenced. things were kinda difficult at the beginning of this year. had a hard time making decisions whether i should just go with unimelb or if i should apply for cornell and columbia as well.

[gar-trek]

OKAY TO BE REAL THO.... my spirk journy:

When I first started watching star trek, i did not know spirk existed... HONEST!!!! i was like 13 and i wasnt really active in any star trek fanspaces... just existing in pure bliss and enjoying the show for what it was.... den... as i kept existing through life i was peripherally away of spirk but i never even had one thought about it and if i did that thought was probably like "oh thats kinda weird and funny" THEN... a year before i started my tumblr account, i went to an antique store and found a star trek zine. It was not a spirk story, just a little bit gay. this was during my first year of college when i had yet to make any friends. I found that zine and showed it to some aquantences who thought it was pretty funny, and we all spend an afternoon reading it together, laughing, and speculating if it was supposed to be gay (it was not k/s, but it was still a little gay)... one of those people turned out to be my now very close friend austin (HI AUSTIN) and perhaps this moment shared between us helped our beautiful friendship grow. Either way this was one of my best memories from my shortly lived pre-covid college experience... this made me associate good feelings with star trek zines, and when i went on ebay to check out more i was extremly amused to find that a lot of them were kirk and spock... this is what me and my friends had joked about with the first zine... but for realsies this time... SO i went on ebay and bought some authentic K/S zines and this coincided with me making my tumblr blog.... in January of 2021 i began yet another rewatch of tos... and i was enjoying it so much.. but i wanted someone to talk to about it!!! so i joined tumblr,,, ALSO since i was intrested in zines, RIGHT before i started my tumblr account i looked it up and found that people on tumblr were STILL making spirk zines, which i had become obsessed with, SO I SIGNED UP TO CONTRIBUTE MY ART TO A SPIRK ZINE.. which i did and it was physically printed like 6 months later. anyway i made my first post on january 15th... and by januery 18th... i had reblogged my first spirk post.. then that same day i posted this... as i struggled to come to terms with the fact i shipped spirk

then on febuary 7th... i made a spirk post that got 1.5 K notes... my first taste of spirk clout...I would say my main spirk era lasted untill i started watching tng, which i did in may of 2021. In may i also made a post that likened spirkies to johnlockers, and although i did not say anything negative about spirk shippers, but if i was compairing them to johnlockers i must have been growing wearing. i must also note that during this period, i used to get a lot of random anons that were just like "i love your blog! your content is so funny!" or whatever... and this was like kind of a regualr theing. this really did stop when i started posting about tng more and probably started acting a lot more mean and now i just get anons asking me if i have a gas leak in my house.. just saying. I enjoyed a summer of tng content, and slowly started to realize that i could like a trek that wasnt tos... THEN .. by septerber.. i made my first negative spirk post... a disturbing trend that would be repeated

i was very wearing about saying something negative about spirk, as i knew a lot of my followers and friends LOVED spirk.. but it has began to really grate my nerves. then it was all down hill from there!! anyway, i wont lie. i used to get the spirk feels man. i even read a couple fanfics man!! drew some fan art!!!! idk. i moved on to greener pastures. i used to say sappy things about spirk!!! i think that... me ... shipping spirk and liking that a lot is very much tied to online schooling and a time in my life when i was feeling very isolated from genuine friends. I'm not trying to say like spirk was a trauma response or anything, but its just weird how different my life was a year and a half ago, like much more different then it should have been. it was just like me and spirk against the world back then.... actually like right now writing this post im having a revelation that im probably so soured on spirk because it reminds me of a time in my life when i was a lot less happy then i am right now.. ISNT THAT WEIRD!!!!!!!!!!!! the parellels im drawing.. wow i never thought of it like this before.. okay mind blown. good night everyone

[insomniac-ships]

Hi there- I’m someone who wants to be pro-ship, but I’m kind of struggling about it. I SINCERELY believe that thought crimes are NOT a thing. But I also believe that a person interacting with certain ideas a lot, like very intense things so much it’s casual, can become numb and insensitive to it (as an example not related to pro-ship topics, I think it’s uncool when people joke about suicide a lot to the point where it feels like they don’t take it seriously despite it being a serious thing)

Can you offer any thoughts on the predicament? Were you ever kind of at war with yourself about it?

Like, as a broader picture, how can a person align themselves with any particular idea any more when so many people are chomping at the bit to misinterpret or pull out the worst possible thing attached to that idea?

I’m not necessarily asking you to answer all that, just the initial two if you have time and are willing. I wanted to get these thoughts out there to someone who wouldn’t harshly judge and your blog seems like a safe place to do do

Hey Anon! I'm honestly really glad that you felt safe enough here to ask questions like this.

(This got awfully long, so the rest will be under the cut!)

I totally understand where you're coming from, and to a point, I agree. Thought crimes are absolutely not a thing, and no one should be punished for thoughts that they don't act on. The idea that thinking something is the same as doing that thing can be very, very dangerous. I also completely understand your concerns about desensitization to some absolutely horrific stuff. I think it's important to be able to take a few steps back and really get a good look at the bigger picture every now and again. That might mean having to stop and sit with yourself in order to kinda... recalibrate. That's probably not the right word, but oh well. Sometimes it's necessary to give your head a good etch-a-sketch shake and remind yourself that fiction is fiction and reality is reality. I hope I didn't get too far off track, there.

[I, personally, sometimes get so involved in a hyperfixation that it tends to bleed into other aspects of my life. That's usually when I know I need to give the gerbils on hamster wheels my brain a bit of a shake and step back for a minute. Does that make sense?]

I can't say I've ever necessarily been at war with myself over this stuff, to be honest. When I was a preteen/teenager and first really started using sites like deviantArt, Quizilla, FF.net, and roleplay forums, it was never a question in my mind whether or not the (admittedly problematic) stuff I wrote or liked reading about would have been bad in real life. I knew it was. But I was also very aware that what I was reading and writing was fiction. It was pretend. No real people were being hurt. Even when I was all of 11 years old, I knew that the art I was seeing of fictional characters was, well, fictional. Running into KakaSaku art at 12 never made me think it was totally a-okay to date a 26 year old at that age.

I grew up in the era of "ship and let ship", "don't like, don't read", and having full conversations with fictional characters in the author's notes of fanfics. I've always been proship, even long before it ever had a name. That was just... normal back then.

That's kinda why I'm not against using the proship label, even with its awful reputation. I know myself, I know my values and beliefs better than anyone else does (despite what some antiship folks like to think), and at the end of the day, I know I'm a good person. I don't send hate, I don't start petty arguments or drama, I do my best to respect boundaries, and I try to mind my business. If people want to spread misinformation and make up lies about what being proship is about, fine. I know my truth, and the truths of many others. If people have questions, I'm happy to answer. ♡

I, uh... didn't mean to get so ramble-y there. QuQ I really hope I answered everything in a satisfactory manner. Like I said above, if you have any other questions, I'll do my best to answer! ♡

[wannaliveattheholidayinn]

Ok, But Seriously, I Have Thoughts

I have... really mixed feelings about this episode, so I'm gonna talk about those feelings. And if my feelings about zep as a show and this season come out during that... so be it. (Seriously, this got long. I'd apologize, but I'm not sorry). Also spoilers for the new ep below the cut, but y'all should've been able to guess that

- I... Zimon seriously deserves just so much better. We saw them as a couple together for three episodes, and they honestly weren't explored enough. Zimon... and this is a very personal opinion, but they really do strike me as a couple who never fully leave the honeymoon phase... like ever. Like, of course, they'll fight and disagree on a lot of things, but they also can have adult children, and just kind of act like newlyweds even if they've been married for over twenty years. And again, I know that's a very personal opinion, but I mean... we all knew c/arkeman was gonna be endgame, and it just feels like zimon was never given an actual chance.

- However, I do very much appreciate that their breakup was not messy, there's still clearly a ton of respect for the other on both of their sides, and that Simon is okay.

- "We didn't belong together." No, you fucking did.

- I am not going to stop writing Zimon fanfic either. In fact, this might spur me to write more and work harder on writing Zimon fanfic.

- Rose. Fucking. Deserves. Better. I'm not even gonna elaborate on this one. We all know it.

- Despite the fact that I fucking hate c/arkeman and that it was very, very rushed... I'm giving acting and singing props to Jane. I Melt With You is a song that's extremely personal to me. It helped get me through a point in my life where... I was constantly feeling at war with others, myself, and even felt unsafe in my own home (something I still feel today, no matter how irrational I know it is). I just generally feel a strong connection to every version of the song bc of that, whether it's the original or the Bowling for Soup cover (that was in Sky High!), and... Jane just has a way of making me feel safe when she sings. So, I really, really loved her cover.

- Um... yeah, I'm gonna be real, I don't like the idea of Max having powers. I don't know, I just think it kinda changes the whole original concept of the show, and I'm not a big fan of that...

- Simon! Simon working on changing SPRQ Point!!!!

- I do not really like how they handled Simon's racial bias/systemic racism in coding storyline *after* episode six (aka it only really being mentioned in passing, not being further explored, etc.), but,,, credits due where it's due I guess? I like how they handled him going to Danny Michael Davis, and how DMD listened.

- Sidenote, I kinda find it weird we as a fandom don't refer to him as Danny... it's Danny Michael Davis, DMD, or fucking Willy Wonka jokes. Makes sense I guess.

- Um... the writing was just... so lazy. Yeah. It's... really sad, I think that the show would've benefitted from even one less ep. But on the other hand... lazy writing is lazy writing.

- I think it would've been better - honestly - if Zoey's feelings of loss hadn't been connected to Max in a romantic way, but in a platonic/familial way. We didn't see a ton of their friendship, and yeah,, I hate Max, but there are a few moments there where you can see a legitimate friendship that's really sweet. I also think if they had maybe explored Zoey's fear of losing Simon as well as Max and centered the finale more on Zoey telling Simon about her power, it would've just been a lot better.

- But... honestly, after I just aired out all my issues with this episode (and the season too kinda),,, I honestly liked it. I hate that Zimon broke up and I just generally hate cl*arkeman but... this ep had some really great moments. Zoey and Mitch were beautiful to see again. Mctobin, Davidemily, and Mo x Perry were all absolutely my favorite parts of the episode. Hell, I'll even admit I... well I don't wanna say laughed considering I was so close to crying, but I let out a weird, breathy noise resembling a laugh when Zoey just blurted out she and Simon had broken up.

I don't want to say it was a bad episode, because I did honestly, enjoy ~parts~ of it... but... it wasn't even that cl/arkeman happened, I knew it would, but how it did... it just honestly (my g.od i need to stop writing that word) seemed like they were trying to kill off or like... fucking quash *any* hope Zimon shippers may have had,,, and the writing was just so fucking lazy, I just...

I started the show after dance one night because my teacher showed us the Help! number bc he was an extra in it. And I had already been intrigued by the few ads I had seen for it. So, my mom and I watched it, and we loved it. So we kept watching. And it was good! It was really good! Sure it could be cheesy, but... that didn't matter. I latched on...

I don't know if, ZEP is gonna get renewed, and if it is, I don't know if I'll watch it if/when it does. I latch on to shows really fucking hard when I do latch on. It's why I keep rewatching The Good Place and why I'll never forgive Freeform/Disney/Marvel for canceling Cloak and Dagger. The way I latch onto things is probably a bit unhealthy. And the fact of the matter is, despite everything, my overwhelming feelings about ZEP are positive. And I latched on. I'd honestly do it all over again.

I have a lot of feelings about this fandom and this show, both positive and negative. Still, I love it. Unconditionally. Ultimately, I don't care if Zoey ends up with Max or Simon (though, seriously, she and Simon are made for each other). It's a good fucking show, ships shouldn't be everything that matters.

I began lurking in this fandom when I was fifteen. I began posting fanfic for it when I was sixteen. I'm almost seventeen now. I was planning to get Tumblr when I was seventeen. I also knew I wouldn't forgive myself if I hadn't made my presence here known if it didn't get renewed.

I want to thank @simon-haynes because, uh, holy fuck, I adore you. Running a blog for fandom is something I couldn't even fathom, especially when a large portion of the fandom doesn't like your ship. I legitimately can't believe you followed me.

Thank you to @jennakang. You are, honestly, one of the best writers I've ever read from. You were so incredibly supportive of my writing on ao3, despite the fact you didn't know who I was, and that really meant the world to me. Thank you so much for your contributions to the fandom. Also, uh, fun fact, I was the anon who, after you expressed the want to write the quarantined Zimon fic, sent in that ask that was like "please do!" and also "hope I'm not being pushy about this". I don't know if you remember that at all, but your response meant the world to me.

And uh, lastly @myheartissetinmotion. Um, wow. I know we barely know each other, but I can honestly say, you have been my anchor for this whole show. I love both your Tori content on TikTok as well as just zep content you do on there, and how you wrote her into zep on ao3. I personally like to think of you as the pioneer of Zoey's Extraordinary Playlist Tok. You were pretty unbiased when it came to ships on there, and that made me feel safe in a place where there were virtually no zimon shippers. Your content was funny, and I always found myself laughing or screaming "accurate" at it. I know, I'm the nuisance who every few months DMs you about something zep related, but I hope you know, you made me feel both seen and somewhat appreciated in this fandom. I cannot thank you enough, Isabella 💗

I know Zoey's Extraordinary Playlist may not be ending. But this still oddly feels like the end of an era. I'm not leaving the fandom, I plan to keep posting fanfic for it and everything. I just want everyone who may be reading this to know I love this fandom and I would not take any moment here back.

Also, this is me formally asking for a link to a Discord group chat since I know it exists but I'm too scared to actually ask any of you for it directly.

[marauderssequels]

meet the project managers!

we have a fantastic team assembled for this series, and it’s finally time to hear a little about a few of them! each and every one of us is dedicated to creating the books this community deserves, and I hope you’ll stick with us through this seven-book journey :)

Hi! I'm Richa, your designated Gryffindor stereotype. I'm 18 and I'm in charge of managing Book One of the series, as well as the character arcs for James (my favourite character!!) and McGonagall. I'm Indian and my pronouns are they/them. What I love most about the marauders is their friendship and how they'd do anything for each other, how they lived their lives raising hell wherever they went, how they're so different from each other and yet so similar, how they're the epitome of loyalty and chaos. I love their story, and so I'm really excited to be working on this project with so many creative people and I can't wait to see how it turns out! I'll be active on the Discord server and I’m TRYING to be more active on Tumblr (@imadiamond) too but lets be real I’m failing so don't hesitate to connect, I'd love that! :)

Hello, I’m Chloe (she/her and @nerds-escape), I’m 18, a Ravenclaw, I’m going to be double majoring in Anthropology and Criminology, and I’m the manager for Book Three! I’m great at projecting onto Dorcas (and Peter) whomst I am in charge of! While the original stories are interesting, there is something to be said about the Marauders and their friendships; we know virtually nothing about them, and it’s fun that the Marauders got to have a little more of a “teenage typical” view of the world growing up than Harry did. I’m always looking to get into projects, especially ones with lasting impressions. I had just finished working on the Marauder’s Pride Fanzine and figured I had room for another project, so I offered my help. We have come up with some amazing ideas so far and I’m super excited to see how the project ends up!

Hi, I’m Raina (she/her)! I’m the head of Book Four, and I’m managing Snape and Marlene’s character arcs. I’m a 19 year old English major and an aspiring novelist. I love to read, write, and draw, and I always find something to fangirl over. Harry Potter’s been a major obsession of mine for basically my entire life and I’m so excited to work on this project together. I’m active on the Discord server (raina//raincoat) and my tumblr is @yellowraincoat. Feel free to reach out and interact!

hey there, im aj (but you can also call me alex). my pronouns are they/them and i'm the co-manager of books 3 and 5. i've adored the marauders era and always have read fanfics (since jkr ever-so-nicely didn't write an official series for them), so the fact that im now part of a project which basically will talk bout the marauders during their school years is kinda cool, if im being honest and i cant wait to see how this goes!

I'm Toni (they/them), I’m in charge of Book 6 and the character arcs for Lily and Petunia. I also run the discord server (I’m Toni on there as well). My tumblr is @toni-d-b and it’s very chaotic (I’m sorry). I’m German, so I have a different time zone than most (I’m in UTC+1) and english is my second language, but it’ll be ok, I’m bilingual at this point and sleep is a lie. I will however remind all americans of the absurdity of everything about america at any chance I get. What I think I love the most about this fandom is that it is one at all. In the sense that we took little bits and pieces and built an era around them. There were mentions of people and now they are fully fleshed out characters and I just think that’s very neat of us to do that. That is also the reason I want to be part of this project and maybe to give back to this community I found.

hello, I’m ryn! I launched this project in august, and I run this blog and organize the tiers. I started this series because I wanted to find a place for myself and others in the harry potter stories again. the marauders are characters with so much potential, and the way fandom has shaped them is so loving and meaningful. I’ve always wanted more canon content for them, but I know now that our versions of them are better than anything that could come from the original author. bringing our community closer together through a project like this feels like the best possible way to connect again in one of the most isolating times many of us have experienced. I’m so happy to be working with all these incredible people, their introduction was long overdue and they can’t get enough credit for the fantastic work they’ve been putting in over the past few months. we’re going to bring you an amazing series, and I can’t wait to bring more passionate creators in as we launch production next month <3

[jackrrabbit]

about me /// 3k follower thanks 💝

ok what in the fuckign—

thanks for 3k followers, guys!!! I actually hit 3k abt a week ago and I was going to make a post about it but I forgot bc of soft sunday lol. I went back to my 1k annnouncement and it was like, a month ago !?!?!?!?!?!?!? which means 2K IN ONE MONTH?? EYE—

y’all horny but.....same. and thank you for thirsting with me!! decided it was time to make a more detailed about me in case any of you are curious about what kind of person is writing this stuff lmao

ABOUT ME

Hello! (≧◡≦) ♡

My name is [redacted], but you can call me Bunny (or sensei if you’re feeling kinky). I’m 20 years old, which is nice because I’m old enough to write porn but young enough to still be excited about adulthood ✨ As of summer 2020 I’m a college senior at a university in California, where I study psychology and law, or “manipulation tactics” as my friends have lovingly dubbed my combination of majors 🤡🤡🤡

I’m a bi woman and I use she/her pronouns! I’m ethnically Indian/Chinese/white & I grew up in the USA. My western zodiac is scorpio ☀️ (surprise surprise), libra 🌙, and capricorn ⬆️; my eastern zodiac is the year of the rabbit 🐇!! My MBTI type is ENFP-T, which is the campaigner I think?? not sure

I like: pink lemonade, west coast sunsets, kissing strangers, skinny dipping in places you’re not supposed to go skinny dipping, ice wine, hiking at night, free samples at farmers markets, and plum trees in bloom 🌸

I dislike: commitment, deadlines, the fact that there’s dairy in everything for no good reason, cleaning up, sitting still, the smell of cigarette smoke, soap operas (altho I still watch them), and Natural Light 🍺

Writing: I’ve basically been writing my whole life, but I started in fandom when I was like 12 with OC x character fanfic (which turned out to be thinly-veiled self insert? a common staple of the FF.net era) and then gave up on it when I couldn’t stay interested ☠️ Re-emerged in fandom after I graduated HS with a 80k word character/character fic that needs about 10k words to the finish line…one of these days I’ll get around to finishing it 🙈 but truly that fic rekindled my love for writing and I’ll always be grateful to it and the entire fandom for making me a better writer 💜💜

And onto the present era…I’ve always been into the kind of stuff I write now (e.g. kink, dubcon, etc.), but I never really knew where to find it bc none of the fandoms I was into had people writing the stuff I wanted to read, until I discovered bnha x reader smut really randomly while I was browsing some kink tag in winter 2019.

Before that, I didn’t understand reader insert & honestly could never get into it, but after going down a rabbit hole of ‘x reader’ smut I was like, hmm, this do be kinda hot? So I watched BNHA, feverishly wrote Sidekick while I was alone for a few weeks over winter break, and thus this blog was made.

On the topic of s*x—I’m an extremely open & sex-positive person and I’m lucky enough to be surrounded by friends who feel the same. We go to kink clubs & lingerie parties together; we text each other pictures of our new sex toys; we have a book club where we read Foucault's History of Sexuality and talk about how sex, repression, and liberation have shaped our lives. Although they don’t know that I write smut about anime characters and post it online, my close friends are well aware that I write “erotica”, and all of them are encouraging and supportive.

If you don’t have friends like that in your life, message me! I would love to be that friend for you, and I’m always down to thirst about a character/situation 🤤

As always, followers are welcome to ask me questions about myself!

[bisluthq]

this JKR thing makes me kinda sad, and I know a lot of queer people and poc feel the same, including maybe you? a lot of us grew up with the harry potter series, it was like an escape for us, and a lot of us could identify with that feeling of being "different" and of being treated badly and like an outcast the same way that harry was by certain people.

and I know a lot of us could definitely relate to the way that hermione was treated for being a muggleborn.

and then it turns out that the author of this series is a terf and that the books have homophobic, antisemitic and racist elements in that we never picked up on as kids.

and then you also realize that there are barely even any poc in the series, and the ones that are poc are mostly stereotypes or poorly-written. like it's so sad how JKR treated cho chang's character in particular. even the actress spoke about it

but at the same time, the books will always be important and special to me, but it's like she's ruined even that for so many of us. you can't really get back that same nostalgia and enjoyment when re-reading knowing all of this new stuff about her.

I've been wanting to re-read the books for months, but I feel like she's tainted them :/ not to be dramatic or anything lol

I’m actually gonna tag this because I need to start implementing a tagging system since I talk about so much. I don’t talk about HP often because of... this... but like. It was my first love and how I ended up deep on the internet in the first place. Like I did my Beatles -in-Hamburg 10K hours writing Harry Potter fanfic and play by post roleplays on ProBoards and then InvisionFree. I did it in the era where we had word counts of minimum 800-1200 words per post. It was wanky. It was interesting. I still need to unlearn some of that 🙃

I loved these books so much growing up. I was at every midnight launch from the fourth one onwards. I was on a local panel about it for the last one because I had a blog lol. I watched every film the day it came out. I did, as you say, as a marginalized kid (queer, Jewish, woman) feel so seen by these books.

And I grew up and realized I wasn’t actually being seen.

I’d projected myself into it. But the author didn’t like that I had. She didn’t want me in that world. Which... I think is even more hurtful for trans people because JKR is a legit TERF.

So that sucked.

A lot.

Now, there’s an interesting link here to make with Taylor right because we could also be projecting. But there are two things she needs to do to not fuck it up: 1) not be a homophobe on main and 2) y’all need to embrace death of the author.

For Harry Potter fandom, for a long time the author was dead because we didn’t know otherwise we were just a bunch of stan kids. That meant we wrote fanfics and interpretations and theories as we wanted them. Did we care if she validated them? Not really. And that was the right attitude.

Expecting validation for your take from the author is weird. We don’t do it in any other fandom. So like.

Fuck JKR.

But also I’m always gonna love Harry and Ron and Hermione and Ginny and who they are in my head and I can’t give two fucks about her.

[thesunnyshow]

Name: Juliet

Writing Blog URL(s): @wonderlustlucas

Nationality: American

Languages: English, beginner level French, teeny tiny bit of Korean

Star Sign: Virgo

MBTI: ISFJ-T

Favorite color: Pastel yellow

Favorite food: My mom’s Sunday gravy

Favorite movie: Howl’s Moving Castle (The Lion King is a close second though)

Favorite ice cream flavor: Specifically Turkey Hill’s Double Dunker (get it— it’s so good)

Favorite animal: Humpback whale

Go-to karaoke song: She’s Kinda Hot by 5 Seconds of Summer

Dream job (whether you have a job or not): Neurosurgeon! Or a Twitch streamer HAHA

Coffee or tea? What are you ordering?  Ahhh probably coffee, I love tea but I need my coffee </3

If you could have one superpower, what would you choose? Shapeshifting! Clearly the superior superpower I don’t take constructive criticism.

If you could visit a historical era, which would you choose? This is weirdly specific, but I would love to be in Scotland during the 1700’s. Alternatively, the 1980’s.

If you could restart your life, knowing what you do now, would you? 100%. I know everything happens for a reason but getting a redo and being able to fix all the big mistakes I made would be pretty nice.

Would you rather fight 100 chicken-sized horses or one horse-sized chicken? One horse-sized chicken! 100 tiny horses would be crazy tiring.

If you were a trope in a teen high school movie, what would you have been? I would probably be the gay side character that gives good emotional advice but is hella lonely LMAO

Do you believe in aliens/supernatural creatures? Yes, both!

What are some small things that make your day better? Driving with the windows down and music blasting, picking up coffee, playing video games, & talking to my internet friends on Discord.

Fun fact about yourself that not everyone would know? I discovered my love for writing through Warrior Cats roleplay😭

What fandom(s) do you write for? Right now, only Kpop, but I wouldn’t mind writing for 5SOS or some of my other fandoms!

When did you post your first piece? On WattPad, December 2015. On Tumblr, April 2018 :)

Do you write fluff/angst/crack/general/smut, combo, etc? Why? I write everything! Fluff/smut/crack is my favorite and slight angst (usually just slow burn though cus I’m soft).

Do you write OCs, X Readers, Ships...etc? Again, I write anything and everything! Currently, second or third person reader inserts are my main style, but I also do ships and would love to write more OCs.

Why did you decide to write for Tumblr? Before Tumblr, I was on WattPad for different fandoms but eventually fell off. Then, when I got into Kpop in 2017, I found that urge to write again and decided to move to Tumblr since WattPad was becoming… weird. Plus Tumblr was a better fit for me!

What inspires you to write? To be completely honest, it’s the little things throughout the day that inspire me. For example, “Honey” was inspired by me not being able to open my locker in high school. “I Hemoglobin You” was based off my friend giving me a head rub while I was donating blood. Kpop idols just so happen to be my muses that I like to put into random moments of inspiration!

What genres/AUs do you enjoy writing the most? High school or college AUs are my favorite, along with some good ol’ friends to lovers slow burn. Angst isn’t my forte so I usually just stick to fluff, smut, and some crack. I haven’t written any but fantasy AUs are some of my favorites too! (RIP to my League of Legends AU that I started and haven’t touched in months.)

What do you hope your readers take away from your work? Just like other fanfiction authors inspire me, I hope some of my work inspires others. Considering fanfiction is free, there is so much out there to read and when I find a good story that inspires ME to write better, I’d love for my writing to do the same.

What do you do when you hit a rough spot creatively? 3 options: 1) Skip that scene and jump ahead to one I’m excited to write; 2) Erase what part I’m on and completely redo it; or 3) Drop it. The majority of my works usually take a few months to write as I will completely stop working on it until I find the right inspiration again. 

What is your favorite work and why? Your most successful? “Four” is definitely my favorite work. It’s one of my longer pieces and there was a lot of raw emotion in there on my end. I love the relationship between Hyunjin and the reader and especially love the ending. “Greatest Gift” for Chanyeol is my most successful, and one of my other favorites!

Who is your favorite person to write about? Easily Hwang Hyunjin. It’s so easy to place him in any of my works, and sometimes it’s a struggle to NOT write him. It sounds stupid but sometimes I really feel like I “know” him so being able to describe him physically and mentally is easy for me.

Do you think there’s a difference between writing fanfiction vs. completely original prose? Yes and no. Yes, because most of the time, fanfiction is totally original as well and requires just as much thought as a 400,000 word novel. No, because fanfiction uses a specific person as a muse.

What do you think makes a good story? Detail and realistic dialogue! Of course, everyone has their own style of writing, but detail is especially important to me. Sure, you can have a great plot, but having concise, detailed writing to get immersed into makes a story so much better. I also find realistic dialogue to be a big deal— I hate when teenage characters are speaking in deep analogies because, if we’re being honest, my daily language is 95% just “Bruh.” If you’re like me, I’d actually prefer realistic dialogue over anything else.

What is your writing process like? Process… yikes. Sometimes… I have a random thought and then I’m like… hell yeah let’s write that. I actually have no process. I don’t outline, I just start writing and keep writing until I’m finished. Then I’ll read it all over to make edits, then I’ll use the Read Aloud feature to catch any mistakes I missed, then I’ll run it through Grammarly before posting!

Would you ever repurpose a fic into a completely original story? Hm, maybe? In the future, possibly, but as of right now I wouldn’t use any of my fics to do so.

What tropes do you love, and what tropes can’t you stand? Oh, gosh, tropes. Gotta love them. Friends to lovers, enemies to lovers, stuck together (AKA forced to share a bed), and fake relationships are my favorites. They may be corny, but I also love truth or dare or 7 minutes in heaven games in fics cus… they’re just classics. Also love fics with a popular x shy pairing. I can’t say I dislike many tropes, but I definitely have a love/hate relationship with vampire and werewolf tropes because of how romanticized they are.

How much would you say audience feedback/engagement means to you? Hm, to be completely honest, only a little bit? I mainly write for myself, it’s like a guilty pleasure to just get all my thoughts and desires out, and then I just so happen to make it public on Tumblr. Nevertheless, receiving comments and asks actually make my day, and sometimes I still struggle to wrap my mind around people enjoying my writing! So, thank you to everyone who has ever left me a kind message, I truly appreciate it ♥

What has been one of the biggest factors of your success (of any size)? Getting involved! I think one of the best ways to grow is to join networks, which not only gives you the opportunity to share your work on a greater scale, but also allows you to make connections. Like real life, making connections and making friendships with other writers can play a huge role in growing as a writer and growing your account.

Do you think fanfic writers get unfairly judged? Yes :( As someone who’s involved with other fandoms, I’ve heard the way some people think of fanfiction and it’s really sad. People do not know how much goes into writing and just see it as cringey and disgusting when it’s just… not.

Do you think art can be a medium for change? Yes! In all its forms, art is something a creator can use to influence their audience (in a good way, hopefully).

Do you ever feel there are times when you’re writing for others, rather than yourself? Like I said in #40, I mainly write for myself. Even when I’m writing a request, chances are if I like the request enough I’m going to create a story out of it that fits my personal desires the most.

Do you ever feel like people have misunderstood you or your writing at times?  No! However, I’d still consider myself a small account and do not have TOO many works posted. But so far, I don’t think I’ve faced this problem :)

Do your offline friends/loved ones know you write for Tumblr? Only a few! My best friend Maggie is on Tumblr with me and only 2 of my other pals know I write fanfiction.

What is one thing you wish you could tell your followers? How much I love each and every one of them for supporting me and sticking around even when I won’t post for months🥺❤️

Do you have any advice for aspiring writers who might be too scared to put themselves out there? Don’t psych yourself out! In the time I’ve spent on Tumblr, I’ve never received any substantial hate. My main advice is don’t write fanfiction to get popular on the app, write fanfiction because you love to write and love your muses!

Are there any times when you regret joining Tumblr? No, as much as Tumblr can be annoying at times, I love the people I’ve met and the content I’ve found and wouldn’t have wanted to use any other platform.

Do you have any mutuals who have been particularly formative/supportive in your Tumblr journey? @pinktea99 — Mo, you’ve been around since the beginning honestly, and without you I wouldn’t have been able to come out of my shell! Thank you for all your love & support & for being my SF9 buddy❤️

Pick a quote to end your interview with: 

“Like mate, stop procrastinating.” — 3RACHA

BONUS ROUND: K-POP CONFIDENTIAL 

[t100ficrecsblog]

an interview with @ravenreyes-0g (she/hers)

what are you working on right now? I'm working on both my Bellarke fic for BLM and a personal fantasy story that I've written and rewritten from the beginning to about 5000000 times because my ideas keep changing. My Bellarke fic is a modern day COVID AU that is also the longest I've ever done so it's been taking a minute to finish! :) 

what’s something you’d like to write one day? A YA either historical fiction or realistic fiction LGBTQ+ romance. I have  a ton of ideas for plots, but I haven’t quite gotten the chance to sit down and try to plot them out. For historical fiction, I’m very interested in the 1900-1950s era, especially the Roaring 20s and WWI/II so I’d most likely set it there! I’m all in for the angsty romance, but I'd definitely want to end it on a happy note (unlike my current fantasy work) and I’m really looking forward to getting the chance to write a character driven story that doesn’t focus so much on heavy plot elements - something I can’t do as much in a fantasy setting!

what is the fanwork you’re most proud of? This one is actually pretty hard considering how my writing style has developed since I started writing fanfics. But if I had to choose, I’d probably say my FirstPrince (Alex/Henry from Red, White, and Royal Blue) fic on Ao3 called To Love Another Is to Cherish Life Itself. The title is a bit dramatic but basically it is an angsty/fluffy one-shot that I wrote really late one night and did minimal edits to before posting. It definitely feels like the most in character and honest fic I’ve ever done, and it broke my heart to write about some of the darker stuff, but in the end I’m pretty proud of it! 

why did you first start writing fic? Well, I’ve been writing fanfics since I was probably 10 or 11 years old (I had PJO phase that spanned close to a decade and I’m still not totally over it 😂) but I started publishing work on Wattpad literally the night I turned 13. That was actually my first Bellarke/the 100 fic! It started out as my predictions for season 5 and then evolved into a fix-it fic for everything I didn’t like about the season. I’ve abandoned it for almost two years, but I’m slowly coming back to it so...slow updates y’all :)

what frustrates you most about fic writing? Everything! Just kidding - I love fic writing! But if I had to choose, probably two main things tho. 1) Creating a plot for a long term fic - I’m sooooo bad at it because I always feel like I’m writing too much in line with the actual show/book/movie and it feels like copying. 2) Making sure that I stay honest to the character I’m writing about. I have a huge tendency to write my fics (ESPECIALLY my one-shots) from the POV of the character who was not the main character in the original thing (like my POV for my RWRB fic is Henry, the love interest of Alex/other main character). This means that the only look inside their head that we’ve gotten has been through the eyes of the main character - which can obviously be biased. I try to stay as honest as I can to my interpretation of the character drawn directly from the text - but sometimes that means that I can’t include scenes that I want to because it feels off/out of character and that’s always disappointing. (also dialogue is just...something I really need to work on)

what are your top five songs right now? Ahhh see it changes on my day/mood but right now it’s probably

1. The Last Great American Dynasty - Taylor Swift 2. The Garden - Dua Lipa 3. Mirrorball - Taylor Swift 4. Icarus - Emma Blackery 5. Betty - Taylor Swift 

(taylor really blessed us with folklore...I’m in love)

what are your inspirations? Ahhh - there are many. First and foremost, The Book Thief by Marcus Zusak. It’s my favorite book for so many reasons, but it teaches me so much about writing and character development. Also Liesel and Rudy melt my heart every time. I also love all the songs listed above for inspiration, and I listen to I Get To Love You by Ruelle (it’s the Malec wedding song for any Shadowhuners fans out there!) whenever I write a really emotionally intense romantic scene. If you’re looking for amazing fic recs, I highly recommend all of HMS-Chill’s works (multi fandoms), clarkesbell, and DracoWillHearAboutThis on Ao3. Though not all of them write Bellarke/the 100, if you are in any of their fic fandoms, I highly recommend checking them out because they are fantastic writers!

what first attracted you to Bellarke? what attracts you now? Honestly? #1 - their development. I love enemies to lovers with my whole heart, but I honestly didn’t see Bellarke as romantic until the 2x05 hug where I was just hit with a wave of OMG THEY BELONG TOGETHER!!! Seriously, though, the fact that they go from enemies, to grudging allies, to co-leaders, to partners, to friends, to best friends, to soulmates just makes my heart go !!!! - Also they have insane chemistry, and that certainly doesn’t hurt. What attracts me to them now is much the same, but also how much they care about each other. They’d go to the ends of the earth to save one another, and it just blows me away how powerful their screen time is, even when their scenes together have become so rare. I also don’t thinkI’m ever getting over 6x10. I swear my heart actually stopped beating when I watched it live the first time. 

BESIDES Bellarke, what character or pairing do you like best on t100? Ha! Umm, I actually really like Murven, both platonically and romantically. Their journey might not be as well developed as Bellarke’s but it is still a powerful one hinging on love and forgiveness. I love how Lindsey/Richard play off of each other on screen - it’s such a joy to watch! I’ve also loved the Octavia/Indra dynamic, but it’s kinda been tabled in recent seasons which is sad :(

why did you decide to start writing for bellarkefic-for-blm? Two reasons - 1) I wanted to do everything I could for BLM and it was so amazing that I could do that, and write works for my favorite show! 2) I was super curious about the prompts people would send in. My work right now is a modern day AU COVID fic where Bellamy and Clarke have to share a room together in an overcrowded hospital until one day Clarke disappears. It’s so different than what I usually write - bc I almost always write canon compliant/in universe fics - so it’s a nice challenge!

what’s your writing process like? Honestly it depends. For long/multi-chapter fics I try to plan out as much of it as I can, characters, plot, important moments, etc - even though I am not very good at planning. But for one-shots I tend to go off of emotion or feelings. Usually when I write one-shots, it’s because a particular line or moment in a book/movie/show really spoke out to me, and spurred this idea in my head. I always start with the line I want to get to at the heart of the fic and then write around it from there. I am definitely much more of a panster than a planner- which is why one-shots work much better for me!

what are some things you’d like to recommend? 1. The Book Thief by Markus Zusak. Also, All the Bright Places by Jennifer Niven, The Gentleman’s Guide to Vice and Virtue by Mackenzi Lee, Six of Crows by Leigh Bardugo, Red White and Royal Blue by Casey McQuinston, The Song of Achilles by Madeline Miller, Aristotle and Dante Discover the Secrets of the Universe by Benjamin Alire Saenz. 2. Musicals! They can be amazing inspiration - my favorites are Les Mis, Hamilton, Dear Evan Hansen, Six, Everybody’s Talking About Jamie, Hadestown, Anastasia, Island Song, Newsies, & Tuck Everlasting! 3. TV Shows besides The 100 - Anne with an E, Shadowhunters (just pretend you haven’t read the books), French SKAM, Love Victor, HSMTMTS, Merlin, Lucifer, I think I’m just listing fandoms at this point 😂

Also, almost any Taylor Swift, Troye Sivan, Conan Gray, Dua Lipa, Emma Blackery or Harry Styles songs are amazing!

My handle is the same for everything - Twitter, Tumblr, Ao3, Wattpad (if anyone still uses that anymore), etc (RavenReyes0G). I also run a book review blog on Instagram which is @betweenthepagesandtea, so feel free to check that out too! Request a fic written by her via @bellarkefic-for-blm!

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jasper what were some of your obsessions in your preteen years? coming from the "cringe" post. just today I was thinking god I was so cringey as a kid thinking four from divergent was the ideal man (I didn't really have any men in my life until I was 18)

I mean!! Im currently p """cringe""" if you wanna check out my cartoon blog @captainunderkrupp lol. I fuckin adore trolls rn, cute funky lil musical creachures 💞

but I used to adore goosebumps and warrior cats and animorphs and books like that! i was the kids library fiend. cartoons like Ben 10 and freakazoid and the pbs shows like wordgirl and wild kratts were big for me... plus I got rly into manga and, never finished them, but used to be a bleach and naruto and one piece kid. still kinda wanna finish some of those... I'm p sure i used to have otaku pins lmao. and!! i got obsessed w webcomics when i was 12, lots of "gamer comics" and furry stuff (I still read a good chunk of the stuff I found back then tbh)

my real "cringey" years were 11-14 when i was a HUGE edgelord (still am a little but im a bit less dire abt it lmao) and wanted to be emo/goth and listened to a lot of linkin park... I also wrote my first fanfic when i was 13! :D a goosebumps crossover fic X3 plus that's when i started getting rly into anime and rewatching stuff from when i was younger and trying new ones... and when i was 14 i got rly into danny phantom!! plus that was also my era of hours of minecraft and undertale...

anyway. I used to adore ya dystopia like that too and inhaled it like i couldnt get enough but never got to divergent... but idealized fictional characters are fun to play with, yknow? esp when you're just a learning kid and are processing and consuming information at such a crazy rate while ur developing... and sometimes you look back and think "oh man i sucked" but again!! kids are constantly learning and that's part of the process, being "cringe" and making mistakes. I hope ppl learn to chill out and let them enjoy things, and not be mean or bullies abt it

[sxfterhearts]

get to know me!

Tagged by: @mxillusion​ thank you so much for tagging me omg i’m so honoured!! this is the first time i got tagged too hahah i feel you girl, the excitement is real

Rules: Answer some questions and tag some bloggers you want to know better.

Name: Rachel

Nicknames: Rach, Rae Rae, honestly i’ll respond to anything, even if you call me “hey”

Gender: Female

Sexuality: Straight

Height: 162cm? Maybe?? 

Languages: English, Mandarin, Malay, ᵗᶦⁿʸ ᵇᶦᵗ ᵒᶠ ᶠʳᵉⁿᶜʰ and i can read hangeul hehe (perks of a senior kpop fan)

Nationality: Australian/Malaysian

Current time: 10:42pm (aka time for me to start writing LMAO)

Favourite season: Winter is my favourite!! I also don’t mind spring and autumn, just not summer bc if you’ve been to Aus in summer it is literally like living in an oven smh... Winter in Japan is probs my fav cos snow hehe

Favourite flower: Roses, baby’s breath and carnations! fun story, my friend who lives overseas got a bouquet of flowers delivered to my doorstep for my birthday ㅠㅠ

Favourite scent: The smell of food (any food honestly i love food sm), coffee (especially when i’m sitting in a cafe and doing work), rain, certain brands of laundry detergent (mhmm that clean, heavenly scent)

Favourite colour: Pastel colours, especially pink but i also tend gravitate towards grey clothes for some reason

Favourite animal: i wish i had a pet corgi!!

Favourite fictional character: for a longgg time i was rly obsessed with harry potter so.. harry potter + the gang LOL

Average hours of sleep: ~7 hours when i have uni but now that it’s holidays it kinda varies - i tend to sleep past midnight and stay in bed til noon hahha

Coffee, tea or hot chocolate: coffee definitely!! i have a cup every single day~ although i feel the need to mention my other favourite beverage - bubble tea!!!

Number of blankets you sleep with: Uhm one? (isn’t this the same for everyone o.O)

Dogs or cats: dogs!!

Dream trip: jeju & japan

Dream job: honestly i am going thru like a life crisis rn cos idrk what i wanna do with my life after graduation so yea LOL

Followers: 90 (omg i’m surprised that people actually follow my blog, thank you guys!!! as you can tell from my lack of a theme, i’m pretty new to tumblr so apologies for that...)

Blog established: tbh i opened this blog years ago but never really used it much until this may! i got into got7 during nbtm era and read a lottt of fanfics on here so i decided to start writing again! honestly the best decision i made in 2020 bc although my writings are kinda short/don’t get a lot of attention/aren’t very good, i’m glad that i have a creative outlet to pour my heart and soul into. i think i also mentioned this before that when i write, i feel satisfied bc it’s like i’ve accomplished something for the day! the likes, reblogs, comments and asks that i receive are the cherry on top~

Reason for my URL: i initially wanted it to be sxfthearts bc it’s a u/n i use on other social media sites but that was taken so i used sxfterhearts instead, aka softerhearts. doesn’t really have a specific meaning but i thought it sounded cute and well, soft

Main blog: this one!

Sideblogs: none

Random fact: i was (and still am) a huge exo-l before i stanned got7, like multiple posters in my bedroom, running a fanacc, that sort of thing. i sort of fell out of kpop these past few years but after watching jackson as a judge on a chinese singing show, i started to look up got7 and fell down the rabbit hole! when i first started out, my bias went from jackson to mark to jinyoung/jaebeom, but ofc i love and appreciate all 7 boys! i’m actually a pretty new ahgase but i hope this doesn’t reflect in my writing hahah i’ll work harder in the future to learn more about got7 and produce better, more accurate pieces of writing! thank you for your support!!

Tagging: @prettywordsyouleft​ @jinyoungsir​ @jinseunie​ (omgomg i know we’ve never interacted before but i really enjoy reading your fics and you guys inspired me to write as well!! it’s alright if you don’t do this but yea just wanna say i’m your fan and i appreciate your existence 🥺) also anyone who wants to do this, feel free to do it as well! 💖