#kinda want to draw something based around this but haven't figured out what

[unsat-and-strange]

jonny d'villes heart ticks audibly. the crew can hear it during the few and far between quiet moments on board the aurora. it's so steady, tick tick tick, a reminder that he is there and they are all alive together, never speeding up or slowing down. sometimes they joke about using it as a metronome during practice.

jonnys heart ticks. he can hear it every waking moment. tick tick tick. it never slows down, even in the deepest sleep according to the rest of the crew. it never speeds up even when his blood is more adrenaline then actual blood, times when normal peoples hearts would be racing. whether he's laughing his ass off or terrified for his life (I guess old habits die hard?) it. never. speeds. up. sometimes it's fine, he can ignore it but there are days when the constant tick tick tick tick tick tick tick is too much. the days when he has to drown out the sound with gunfire and screams or music loud enough to make his ears bleed. some days even that barely cuts it and he debates putting a bullet in his head just to make it quiet for a few hours. the rest of the crew has gotten pretty good at recognizing those days, and they know how to help him get through them, just like he knows how to help his crew through their bad days. nastya will bring him into the near deafening engine room and theyll play with power tools until their hands are covered in grease and grit, or Tim will sit him down on a speaker and play the bass so loud the whole ship can feel it, or Marius and raphaella will tell him about unethical medical practices they've witnessed/performed or Brian will just hold him close until the rhythms of the metal man's body distract from the tick tick tick tick of his own heart. the constant tick of immortality is loud. jonny can't deny his luck in finding a crew that is almost always louder.

[matrixbearer2024]

I currently have two AUs that I don't exactly know what to do with or what to properly call them LMFAO- I'll probably write something on Ao3 for it eventually since there's a ton of BillFord and FiddStan in there but yeah-

1st AU: Timelord Stanford (Dr Who what if)

This case was inspired by an RP I had with someone's Bill Cipher on @gftimelord where the triangle starts to be on the mend with Stanford after their ruined past. This to me makes sense because the Doctor is inherently very lonely despite the savior god complex. In that AU where Ford is functionally immortal and Stan and Fidds both at some point die due to his complacency and arrogance— he searches for a companion that can actually keep up with him.

So when Bill visits him during one of those window hours set by the Theraprism, they talk about the triangle's impending demise with their plans to essentially erase him from existence. It's not an outlandish idea given that any inpatient seen as a lost cause would or could be disposed of when it comes to cosmic entities. It's simply the easier option.

The doctor(Ford) is more impulsive, nonchalant, and egoistic compared to his counterparts because he does have the walk to back his talk(this man has been broken by the nightmares and guilt he carries from the deaths he caused; also time war) problem being he doesn't fear death as much as he fears being alone. He's had a fair share of close calls with the grim reaper, but always like some horrible twist he survives. After all, it is a saying that we covet the most what we don't have.

So yeah, he jailbreaks Bill essentially and whatever power limiter is stuck on the triangle get tied to his sonic screwdriver instead and they simply go around the multiverse doing whatever. Most of the reason why Ford isn't caught yet largely has to do with how scared most entities are of him. The doctor is never armed, but it doesn't mean he won't kill.

2nd AU: Modern Era AU (Set in 2024)

This one is more of a shitpost thanks to the young trio I drew a little while back, I'll draw more of them for this at some point while I also try and figure out a decent human Bill design that I like in my artstyle.

But this AU heavily features these four idiots as Undergrad students fucking about college life as they would. This AU is supposed to feature like a more cultivated genius Stanley based around my own dynamic with my brother since I do like me some happy Stan twins.

It just so happens that Ford is also a very much EQ negative idiot and falls for an upperclassman(one year his senior) in BSSE[Software Engineering] who is a close friend to Fidds. He goes by 'Cipher' as an alias since he's a prodigy for his age and very young ethical hacker.

So yes, that's where Bill comes in. Haven't figured out what I want his full name to be yet shoot me some ideas! Ford is very shy when it comes down to talking with Bill whereas Stan is completely chill.

Both Stan and Bill get along very well in this AU because they're similarly chaotic the same way that Fidds and Ford get along because they're the ones holding the other two back from doing something undeniably stupid for shits and giggles.

All of them share some fundamental subjects together(i.e. Math, Biology, Chemistry, Physics, Statistics, Research, History, etc.) or take elective courses just so they could chill together. Stan is typically the one who adjusts to the schedule of the other three since he takes BSBA[Business Administration] and is the odd one out when Ford does BSCMB[Cellular Molecular Biology] and Fidds does BSEE[Electrical Engineering].

The FiddleStan in this AU is gonna be c r a z y mostly due to Fidds in this AU is the heir to his family's computer company, so lowkey spoiled nepo baby but also on a very tight leash with his parents. Stan is the kid where 90% of his childhood was parents either forgot him or straight up did not give a flying fuck. So these two kinda work as complements and it's why I decided to pair them together after chatting with a friend about the group dynamics.

So yeah, simpy and adoring Ford and silently aware but shy Bill + rebellious Fidds and supportive Stan. All the more when I actually plan for this AU to have some typical gravity falls shenanigans anyway thanks to a place on earth called the Oregon Vortex.

[I'll likely make fics and comics of these AUs, reply to this post if you want to be tagged for whenever I post something]

Yeah I need to properly name these AUs.

[star-ts-farts]

absolutely obsessed with your Motorcity art you Get those guys so good

EXPLODES AOOWOIW GGRRRR THANK YOU SO MUCH

I love them so much ( it breaks my heart that i haven't been able to draw them anywhere near as much as i want to)

Sorry for replying so late, i wanted to have more to show you. but I'll show you these. alot of old/unfinished stuff

My motorsona!!! with the expressions and head turn around (minus the side views 😬, oopise I forgor)

it was hard to get it to look like the style. Cuz theres like 2 fat characters and not single character with defined textured hair. So it took a while to figure out how to make my curly hair, but i did what i could. And i think it turned out hella :D

Dont have the first rough sketches on hand, but this is when i finally settled on the final body/face design and got to design outfits

I had this bit about the Duke of Detroit. I get it's his stage name, but what if it actually was a title that could be passed on, and someone else could be the Duke( the motorcitizens vote on it cuz theyre sick of his ass). I didn't wanna put them in the exact outfit, but I wanted to stick to the same color palette and duke's kinda gaudy opulent vibe. (Mostly an excuse to design an outfit)

now for assorted doodles

still working on these outfit concepts that are based off their cars (havent even started on most of them!!!!) also soul eater :DD

This is my idea for a nightmare sequence

eeeh friggin, mutt and mikey are driving through a field of singing flowers. Very cutesy 1920s cartoon style. then they run over something, mike goes to see what it is and finds his own body all mangled and crap (but the corpse him is in a style more akin to the show's). lil rubberhose mikey is frozen in fear and then the mangled body starts contorting it's form to get up off the floor as best it can and lunges towards cartoon mikey. starts eating him or some shit. something something the past still haunts him

[deemizer]

The Selfish and the Selfless

Warnings: adhd and autism talk, typical criminal minds violence possible idk, insecurities? panic attack mentions and one experience, though idk how to describe what i go through since feelings are foreign to me.

Parings: Aaron Hotchner x Fem!Reader

A/N: i got high and realized my adhd is worse and better when i'm this relaxed. idk man, i was cleaning and thought of this. i base most of the reader's issues as how i perceive them, though with my (possible autism since i haven't been professionally diagnosed) i don't understand what feelings are happening, like i need an owner's manual to navigate, understand and name each feeling. sorry, long rant, but in my defense, i'm high. idk if virgina has legalized marijuana or not, but let's just pretend the did for the sake of this fic.

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Dating Aaron Hotchner was nice. Great, even. You often had doubts about why he loved you, especially since you started feeling constantly on edge, skin itchy, kinda uncomfortable. You knew why, but you wouldn't risk Aaron finding out. You didn't want to make him decide whether he wants Jack around weed or not, so you stopped smoking to relax just a couple of days before you went on your first date with Aaron. It's been a little over a month (38 days, 23 minutes, and 56, 57, 58 seconds, but who's counting?) and knowing Aaron's career and abilities that come with the job, you figure he knew something was wrong the minute the withdraws starting hitting you.

Not working at the BAU was probably a good thing, as people raising their voice often makes you go into a panic attack. You started working from home, doing a third shift computer job. That way, if Aaron ever needs an emergency babysitter, you're open. You can take him to school, sleep, go pick him up, and have a fun night before bed with the baby Hotchner, then go back to work again.

Jack loved your American Staffordshire Terrier, Layla. She was so gentle with Jack, and like you, she protects Jack like he is her own son. Aaron was weary about Layla given he hadn't been around many bully breed dogs, but the second he walked into the door, Layla chose him as her new person. She still protected you, but he was her favorite. And she typically didn't like men besides your grandfather .

You had had enough, and since you knew Aaron shouldn't be around as he was at work and probably wouldn't be home till well into the night, and Jack was with Jessica today and tomorrow, you took a couple of hits from the Snail battery and the highly potent cartridge. You haven't done so in so long, that even though you had medication that slowed the effect for a good ten minutes, you could already tell the high was going to be good. Layla walked behind you as you walked around the house, randomly moving on from chore to chore without finishing the previous, bopping your head along to the speaker you have for your spotify playlist.

You had given Aaron and Jack a key to your two bedroom house, which is probably why you didn't hear Aaron walk in, nor did you realize that Layla was no longer behind you. Hands wrap around you from behind, and you squeak loudly and flinch slightly as you startle.

"What the- Aaron! You scared the shit outta me!" You pant, forgetting about the hits and the more twitchy you are with a full body and mind relaxation.

"Sorry, sweetheart. Didn't mean to scare... you. What's that smell?" Aaron starts sniffing the air, and you can almost feel your face drain of color.

"Uh, what smell?" You ask, trying to keep your voice even. Attempting to take a step back, though Aaron's grip on your forearms stops you and draws his attention to you.

"What's wrong?" His eyebrows raise slightly in concern, though his frown deepens.

You can start to feel your breath quicken, as though you've been holding your breath for far too long. Your arms start to clench up, and cross to hold your chest. Hands forming a tight, white-knuckle fist, and your shoulders tense up to your ears.

"I uh, I'm sorry," Your voice is weak, and you start to tear up from both panic and embarrassment. This is the last thing you wanted to show him.

"Why are you sorry? Are you," He pauses, eyes working up and down to profile you. "You have autism."

You almost snort, forgetting your panic for a second. ADHD and being high does that to you. "Yeah. I told you on our second date. When we had a movie night at yours with Jack."

"You don't usually react this much. What happened? Are you okay?" His words cause you to sigh. Might as well get this over with.

"I smoke marijuana sometimes, when I'm overly stressed, or need a day to relax, go to sleep. Plus, with ADHD and autism, there's a thing called masking. I've done it for my entire life, without knowing I was masking, and without being able to take off the mask. So when I'm high, it calms my mind enough so that I can't wear the mask, and then in turn get to enjoy in having ADHD and autism, because it feels more natural. I stopped because of you and Jack. I could do without getting high so I didn't risk losing either of you. You mean more than my unmasking. I don't change my personality, other than shy till I know you, type of deal. Just the tics, forgetting words immediately, doing random things." You take a breath, which is shaky. You start to loosen slightly, given the fact that his frown has almost become a thin line. He doesn't seem angry, that of which you could tell.

You keep your hands gripping the opposite shoulder, but most everything else looses tension. He seems to sense the anxiety and relief, because he tries to smile, succeeding in only lifting one corner of his lips.

"Honey, I appreciate the thought of keeping Jack away from it, but that doesn't mean you have to stop feeling comfortable with yourself. I don't really mind, though we can discuss the details later. Is that the reason you've been slightly down lately?" You bite your lips and nod at his question, looking down to your feet that touch Aaron's toes in his work shoes.

"I uh, thought that if you couldn't be with me because of it, I would stop and it wouldn't bother me. I haven't been in a good state of mind, and I didn't really know how you'd react. I can't really judge things like that anyway. I just didn't want to loose the one good thing I feel like I've earned. Being lonely and touch starved really messes with one's mind. Being an introvert doesn't help either." You scratch your neck, kind of nervous to look up.

His hand comes up to your jaw, and you lean into it, the nerves firing with his touch. Being high makes your senses more sensitive.

"I don't mind, if this is what makes you feel happier, and more comfortable." Aaron says, thumb rubbing your cheek softly.

Smiling inro his hand and nuzzling your nose into the heel, you say, "I promise I won't do it all the time. I usually just do it when I'm alone, so I can be free and not bother anyone. I won't ever do it in front of or be around him when I'm high. It's not an escape, just something for the really off days."

"I know, you don't need to worry about that. You're too selfless to worry about yourself when Jack or I are around. I'm just glad to know you do stuff for yourself." He pulls you into a hug, resting his chin on your head, and his arms around your shoulders. His touch feels so relaxing and warm, and you just melt into him.

Thank whatever power above that Aaron fell for you just as you did for him. There's nothing you wouldn't do for your boys. Seems the feeling is mutual.

[saysike-skedoodles]

Treat Me Like Your P3T

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MORE SILLY ART! MORE OF THE FUNNY COYOTE!! I was listening to some Femtanyl as I usually do and got the idea for this drawing thanks to her song 'P3T'. I really like it, really energetic and fun :]. I based her makeup look off of the eyelashes present on Token (the character usually seen on Femtanyl's music artwork) cuz I liked the look of them. Also, I should probably mention this but uhhh don't take the phrase on the art literally. If you did treat Silly like as if she's an actual dog you'd be getting a free ticket to the "Getting Punched in the Face By Silly" experience, don't do that. Obviously you can see her already not looking too happy here but just to clarify that before anyone actually does HAH.

I also went a bit experimental on the likes of posing and head views in this drawing. Of course it's not absolutely perfect, but it's still an attempt nonetheless :]. I'm actually really happy with the result. I've always wanted to do the likes of tilted heads and such but just never tried it cuz to be fair I was a bit scared of trying it. Get experiemental with your stuff guys, it's not as scary as past me thought it was going to be. I'm honestly really glad I'm getting the energy back to make digital art, been sketching in my sketchbook a good bit outside of digital art which is neat too. Which does remind me, I dunno if yall would be up for it but I have thought of sharing more sketchbook stuff, stuff like design pages, doodles, all that. Kinda like me posting some craft stuff, just changes things up for this account and my content if ya get me. I'll decide on something anyways.

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Also, I may be posting a speedpaint later after this, it's most likely not going to be of THIS DRAWING specifically, but I figured why not post one since I haven't posted on my youtube in a little over 5 months. I know my upload schedule on youtube is anything BUT consistent but it's only cuz making youtube content takes a lot more time and energy out of me than it does posting to DA, Tumblr, Newgrounds etc. Honestly I don't usually like posting speedpaints to me channel, I always feel like it's "lazy" content to be put on my channel, I dunno what you guys feel about it but that's how I feel personally. But that's probably just me. ANYWAYS- speaking of Silly actually since this drawing features, October is about 3 days away (YAYYYY) which means that, yes, Bex, Silly and Stacy will be back once again to show off their Halloween costumes for 2024! I definitely think this year's is gonna be the BEST in terms of costume choices, I don't wanna say much but lemme tell ya that this year's Halloween costumes are gonna be AWESOME. ALSO ALSOOOO- with October around the corner, I HAVE A GOOD FEW SPOOKY DRAWING IDEAS READY TO START DRAWING. I also have a few horror related drawings that I've been working on in the background that I wanna share when October comes around since I'm proud of some of them :].

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I think that's it for me and what I have to say, go listen to Femtanyl

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Deviantart Tumblr Art Tumblr Youtube TMM Official Tumblr Newgrounds --- [all content I post is automatically 13+ if not stated in the title or the content itself]

[peoplepersonoaktree]

Is this how I reply to comments like this? Idk. Anyway~

@banana-pancake5 if you actually wanted me to answer this, here-

HOLY CRAP THIS IS GONNA BE LONG-

Hopefully not too long- I'll try not to rant too much, we'll se tho

so, the Au is your basic, “what if Mikey wasn’t able to open a portal?” Au, which has been done a whole lot, I know, but oh well. I’ve been working on it since like, July and I’ve only gotten to pg 19, so idk if I’ll ever finish it.

so, one day, in like, mid June, when I first started actually trying to draw the turtles, I started drawing a thing in this little baby sketchbook I have, based on the song “Georgia” by Jonah Kagen. And then I sent it to my friend. And then it grew and we eventually came up with this and this entire storyline. We just kinda plotted this thing out where like, two weeks after the invasion, Donnie starts getting these weird visions of Leo in the prison dimension because why not, and tries to get him back with Casey's help or whatever because he thinks that these visions mean that Leo's still alive. Here’s the original pictures because I think they can be in here-

Idk. I didn’t know how to draw clothes and still don’t 😃👍

I don’t think I’ll ever post the comic on tumblr or anywhere because I probably won’t ever finish it, but if I get to a certain point in the comic, (which is way far away) maybe I will. Idk.

*Cough* and then I also have a mini thing where I turned them all into mushroom people but that's a whole different thing-

NOW TO THE KID’S SHOW WHICH IS THE PART I’M ACTUALLY EXCITED ABOUT~

Like I said in this post, my friend texted me at like, 2 am on a school night, and was like, "Hey, hey hey... wanna write and animate a kid's show w/ me??" and I said heck yeah because I definitely have time for that. I asked her if she had any idea for what it would be about or anything like that and she did not, so we just kinda... pulled something out of the ground the next day and I ended up getting obsessed.

So, the kid's show...

We haven't figured out a name for it because we're both indecisive, which is... bad if you're trying to get something done. But we got characters and half a storyline settled!

So, the show is centered around four main characters, Atlas (A deer), Fern (A fox), Nutmeg (Mouse), and M I L D R E D (a chickadee). They're also in the post linked above.

The show would be about these four, going on little adventures, exploring the forest where they live, discovering odd creatures (thinking about adding in a few Acorn Creetchurs because that would be fun) and just living life

but as the series continues, the colors start to get more muted and the backgrounds start to get more gray, as if the life is being drained out of the forest.

one day, while exploring, they come upon this odd sort of... black goop that's spreading across the forest floor, infecting and killing everything it comes into contact with. Then, the four of them have to find a way to stop the spread of this odd goop. This goop represents pollution/deforestation, and we have a few ideas for how the goop started, one of my favorites being that it's controlled by some sort of animal spirit that grew up in a heavily polluted area and died at a young age because of the conditions and the only reason it's spreading is because it wants to be able to breathe fresh air and drink clean water for once, but it can't, because everything it touches immediately becomes polluted.

We both went into this knowing absolutely N O T H I N G about animating, so it'll probably be a few years until we're actually able to do anything with this, if we do anything with it.

That- that little animation is the most I can do with animation. That's the best I got.

[kahvilahuhut]

wip questions tag

thank you @sunset-a-story for tagging me!!!!!!! (and sorry it took me a while sjfjfjfjfj)

tagging @void-botanist @avi-why @televisionjester and anyone else who wants to do this :3

1. What was the first part of your WIP that you created?

Worldbuilding!!! I've always loved Mars (influenced by Doom probably? i just think it's neat :]) and the idea of a whole society on Mars is just very cool for me. All the possibilities and things that can go wrong. And the political debates.......

2. If your story was a TV show, what would the intro song be?

HMMMMM this one is hard bc i absolutely su k at picking music for story playlists and this is waaaaaay harder. I think I would love it to be instrumental or smth tho!

That said I would soooo much rather have it become a video game, and and if I were to pick a song for a trailer I'd go with either Black Mambo by Glass Animals or something from Depeche Mode. My brain is currently telling me to go with "Pain That I'm Used To" but I wouldn't say it fits Cynosure that well KFKKFFKFKFK

3. Who are your favourite character(s) and why?

Tobyyyyyyy <3 I love him so much he is such a...guy. He's some guy. A chemist who has spent a bit too much reading his dad's books about social theory and stuff since he was a child. All he wants is that people would be happy and he has so much love to give for the world, which mostly means him helping people a lot (people pleaser guy). Tobias isn't really that special, he wants to do something he likes, he's scared of guns (for a reason) and just wants a calm new life. Too bad that's not happening for a while.

To think he started as a copy of Nathan I made for a The Outer Worlds playthrough and then it all kinda turned into a bigger thing and he became his own self and I just decided to pull him + Klara & others out of being fandom ocs and put them into Cynosure.

putting the rest of questions under read more <3

4. What other pieces of media could share a fan base with your WIP?

HMMMM I'd say basically any kind of scifi book that has some societal themes in it + has some comedy and stuff. Same for video games maybe?

5. What has been your biggest struggle while writing your WIP?

I'm going to be honest I haven't really started writing Cynosure yet JFBBFBFFKF

My biggest struggle is having a job and being a master's student basically hehe

6. Are there any animals in your story?

Haven't really figured out if I'd want to showcase Mars wildlife in it + what kind of wildlife would it be, BUUUUT!!! There's definitely Klara & Toby's cat, Melody. She's a lil tabby cat :3

7. How do your characters get around?

I'm a public transport fan so I'm putting public transport into my wip!!!! I'd say Mars has lots of fancy trains and the ocean area has ships. Buses, too, though probably not what Cynosure characters will end up using.

There's also cars and motorcycles, though they're hovering instead of having wheels. Mars terrain sucks for wheels.

8. What part of your WIP are you working on right now?

Figuring out the plot + finishing up worldbuilding <3

9. What aspects of your WIP do you think will draw people in?

Hmmmm! I'd love to say worldbuilding or like, whatever is going on in Mars power struggles. Making fun of capitalism too (i'm a social scientist), maybe even the characters? Who knows :^)

[luimagines]

I had a little idea, imagine if the hero of courage reader met the chains reincarnations (animal) or ghost as a kid and grew up through their advice as well as gained bits and pieces of the chain’s era. Like casually dropping an embarrassing thing that one of the links did and realizing how a machine/ object worked before the others do. (Ghost legend teaching hero!reader how to be on their toes and teaching some easy magic spells or maybe an older wolfie (could be centuries old, who knows) playing and protecting them from danger until hero!reader is old enough to protect themselves.

It depends on how old hero!reader is but I’m going with the idea of at least a 10yr old based on what I’ve put

Ghost time could be a menace with the cuccos and teach hero!reader how to fly with them for a bit, probably teaching them about the

Wars would help them practice with a wooden sword and guide the proper way to hold it but will also read to them if asked (I live for older brother wars headcannon sue me/j)

Sky would most likely take naps and tell the small hero about skyloft as well as the loftwings, explain the sword on his back and fondly talk about fi, maybe throw in a few stories about himself and his friends to calm them down a bit

I feel like Wind would play pirates with hero! reader and get them in all kinds of trouble that’s it, either that or actively get them to sail in a small pond nearby or get them to build a tiny boat (that’s absolutely not made of paper and lots of tape) to see if it’ll float

Wild and Hyrule would probably help them explore more and have fun that way while also keeping them safe (and even make friends with a few fairies); Hyrule being the most protective because “holy shi- how do I not let them die” or him delving into his insecurities and thinking the kid is bored and wants to leave only to be proven wrong when they ask what the fairies are saying/doing with a giant grin on their face

Legend would try to be protective and/or leave them alone, at least until hero!reader reaches out to him and drags him off on an adventure around the house/ village (it only lasts until hero!reader gets hungry and has to go home)

Four would most likely teach hero!reader about the Minish / Picori as well as explain what happened to them, probably showing them how to find kinstones (igf they’re around in hero!reader’s hyrule)

First would probably be awkward around hero!reader for a bit or at least watch over them while they play with their toys until hero!reader looks at him and offers to play/ draw with them

If hero!reader sees the master sword for the first time and reaches out, I feel like one of the chain members would try to stop them (leaning towards time/ wild) so they could live out their childhood and have fun a bit longer

This kinda stemmed from my thoughts from a few posts of work with a few of the ghost Zelda’s and links meeting and talking to Flora and Wild mixed with a fic where wild encounters the ghost version of the chain and meets with them when the events of linked universe take place, same with reading through the “little link” tag on your blog mainly based off the second and third reasons. Anyway have my little brainrot

(If it’s okay, can I be bird anon if there isn’t one already? If there is I could be mushroom anon if it helps)

Bird or Mushroom work! Very few anons actually have given a tag for themselves so it's all for the picking. (like- there's Avi anon but if you just wanna go by Bird, then that works)

And oh my goodness, Ghost! Chain looking over Reader. My heart...

I bet it freaks out the village though. They chalk it up imaginary friends until little Reader knows something in history tat others haven't been able to figure out despite the clues.

But just... I want soft moment of the Chain looking after the next generations... even if they know there's nothing they can do to stop the flow of time- even if the moment to take up the mantel comes before either of them know it.

[stemmmm]

i got back from a week long trip so now i've had plenty of time to ruminate on things and im finally ready to see what the fuck this guy has been trying to cook

episode 7 post

ep1 ep2 ep3 ep4 ep5+6

i think i saw a drawing of this guy earlier today except he had boobs

so lion's pretty obviously supposed to be the baby from 19 years ago, right.

ay ay aY AY AY

oh bah, the way it started out as just the last word in caps for a couple lines made me think dlanor was disguised as shannon or something but nah shes just like a robot or possessed for something.

i feel like ive been told explicitly 15 times that beato was the original beatrice's daughter who kinzo believed was her reincarnated, as if this is the first time im being given this information

damn bro you look hideous

alright so we're positing that original beatrice was enough of a fascist that she stuck to mussolini even after the rest of the country gave up? ok.

alright alright alright we're talking about whether the axis were cowards based on whether or not they surrendered and how alright.

REALLY FUNNY FOR THE V/O TO STILL BE FULLY JAPANESE WHEN HE'S SUPPOSED TO BE SPEAKING ENGLISH. OH BUT "I CANNOT SPEAK ENGLISH" IS?

interesting that this beatrice is using the baby beato voice. I've been trying to get the logic of it, and the best I can figure is that its just... to differentiate? differentiate WHAT exactly, whether its between human beatrices or just the humans and the witch im not sure yet. but I miss her other voice :( the flashback we got of her earlier that I didn't mention also used this voice even though im fairly certain the original version didn't.

i get that its for plot contrivances because beatrice had to get here somehow but WHY on EARTH would someone bring their daughter on an armed military vessel in the middle of a massive war. also because i touched on it earlier i'd like to clarify, i get that the participants in war are not necessarily people who agree with any of it. and even then, your circumstances of birth and pressure from your family will put you in situations out of your control (given, thats what this whole thing has Been About). idk i dont want it to come across as i don't get what's going on or like im an idiot or something. i may also be a bit defensive because i haven't really enjoyed the reading process terribly much in a while and didn't appreciate some of the feedback i've gotten in regards to "just keep reading, you'll like it, youll understand" because i dont think its properly come across that i think i Do understand, im just squicked the fuck out by a lot of things in part 6 and so far haven't seen anything that would allegedly turn my opinion around that much. but there's still a lot left in this to go. im just. bored honestly.

REALLY funny how much "bice" comes off sounding like bitch. all my friends at home call me bitch

oh my god also hilarious. the golds in the submarine isnt it.

EVEN IF ITS A TOP SECRET BASE WHY THE FUCK DONT YOU HAVE A DOCTOR?

anybody else have to stop and hold their head for a minute every time wildly specific gun specs are listed for no reason whatsoever

anyways this fight over the gold is fun, i figured something was gonna have to happen that got everyone else off that island and left the gold, so this makes as much sense as anything. and feeling the drive to live despite it all after seeing genuine bloodshed for the first time is a little overdone but just fine.

*curb your enthusiasm theme starts playing* well at least he insisted on taking her to a doctor

ohhhhh we're confirming beato is really and for true kinzo's biological daughter *head in handssss*

PLEASE STOP PINCHING THIS MAN'S ASS!!!

oh my god, first acknowledgement that battler isn't here. i kinda figured since he's always been kinzo's mirror of sorts, he wasn't gonna be here because kinzo was alive. like there's no reason for that to be the case, but to me the logic felt sound. battler and kinzo haven't been in the same place at the same time, at least not in 1986. and it seems that will continue to be the case !!

STOP PINCHING EVERYONES ASSES

lion sucks, actually. wretched personality.

i was holding back on making a joke about how maria talks about beato the way christian billboards exclusively go on about how there's "evidence god exists" or whatever, but now she's reciting the bible word for word so i dont know what to do with my point but i have to share it now. i do like that her point seems to be that because maria doesn't have a father, she is jesus. good for you girl.

BEATOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. and with the voice! ok so definitely that's the witch's voice.

alright this whole scenario can be argued as maria having an imaginary friend about it but if that piece of candy that beato told her to keep as a souvenir and not eat is still in maria's bag, magic is fucking Real.

also beato telling maria to practice basic hygene as her witch traini-- *has a jimmy neutron style brain blast and remembers the 1 (one) shinto shrine i've visited* OH, NO THIS IS A SHINTO THING. OK HELL YEAH. more of beato the "western" witch using japanese magics. i see i see i see.

fellas i may just like witch beato

[batwritings]

I felt that sm. When I used to write for Philza, I would pretty much rely on this mf to tell me what to do.

Pokemon Scarlet :000 I've wanted to play it but I haven't finished Arceus so I would feel bad if I bought it.

Also also! I have a request, of fluff, because I just very much enjoy fluff. So, I did check your 'okay with writing' list to check, but just incase feel free to ignore. But how about XD with a partner that has a dissociative disorder, and how he reacts?

-🃏

It's kinda nice at the same time because like, hi you know your body? You know what people might like to read? lol I know Schlatt actually nabbed the front from me and wrote something on this blog. I think I tagged it with "bat's system writes" if you wanted to read it lol

That's exactly how my partner is! He adores Arceus, but has yet to finish and doesn't want to start Violet until they do.

So, bear with me on this one, but these will be somewhat based on my own experiences (and interactions with an XD fictive lol), so they may not be concurrent with everyone else's! Enjoy!~

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When XD first noticed you dissociating, one could certainly say he was concerned. You were virtually unresponsive and the poor god didn't know what on earth to do. You had to reassure him later on that this was actually a pretty common occurrence for you.

You sat DreamXD down and ran through what he could expect, especially when it came to your switches. You couldn't help but chuckle as he watched you with rapt attention. You swore, if his memory wasn't as good as it was, he'd be taking notes mentally.

The first few times he ran into another alter, there was a lot of confusion. The SMP's creator couldn't figure out why you were being so cold to him despite your relationship. It took the blonde a moment to recall your previous conversation, asking if the person who was now up front knew you.

Conversation ran from there, and over time, XD came to adore most of your entire system. His favorites were your littles; he loved their zest for life and joy they got from the little things he would create for them. The littles enjoyed him just as much, being the first people to go to him whenever a trigger arose.

Another habit DreamXD picked up extremely quickly was note writing. Usually he would simply leave a message for you, but it became a lot more common for sticky note upon sticky note to be found around your home. "I'm out for my work, I'll be home later tonight," could be found on your nightstand. "[Alter], do not forget to take the medication this morning." "Your bear is in the wash little one, please be sure it gets into the dryer before playing with him again."

The scariest moments to your ethereal partner were your flashbacks. The moments of PTSD that would shake you and your entire system to it's core. And in the moments, DreamXD was at a loss; he felt like the worst partner for not knowing more about the mortals he'd created and how to help his favorite one in their lowest of times.

Unsure of what to do, the blonde deity could be found flitting around your shared space. He would prepare a litany of favorite snacks and drinks for you and the people who shared your body and headspace. Clawed hands would gently lift you up, bringing you to your bedroom and covering you in your safety items.

And at the end of it all, DreamXD would wrap you up in his arms, both sets along with his wings encapsulating you in warmth. His claws would draw gentle shapes along your arms and legs, but only in the spots that he knew would not trigger you all further. On the occasion he would hum a song that he thought could bring you back to the present.

Once the memories would fade, you would relax against him, full body weight sinking into his embrace. "Are you back with me little star?" XD would ask, his voice full of concern and barely above a whisper.

You nodded, an overwhelming feeling of safety clinging to your skin.

[imthediamondintherough]

Because im in a somewhat ok mood I thought I'd start with design lore and character details. I said I'd inform you @0lympian-c0uncil

So. A tip: I'm a bit of a clothes/fashion fanatic. I obsess over small details a lot. This is gonna be very evident.

Also I CAN'T DRAW. So there is no art for any of my characters.

Currently.

Moving on.

Right!

The new name for the series is now

Lore Chthonic Order

(Or LCO in abbreviation)

yeah you waited a long time and the title isn't even that good. hilarious right?

I took a lot of inspiration from much anime and existing series. (You know as authors do) so designs are heavily influence by anime characters and such.

I also said there would be other deites in this... series actually I haven't decided if this is a series or anthology (still working out that detail.)

I can't give all the characters information out (like the second protagonist) because that would be spoilery. But I got to give you guys something to make up for the delay in content right?

So let's get to infodumping!

Demeter and Persephone purposely have similar designs in terms of clothing choices. But that is when they are together and only when they are together.

Demeter's character design (as in physical appearance) is inspired by the character design for Type Moon's FATE/ Grand Order's goddess Parvati. At least when she's in her domain and not in typical "civilian wear" when she is around mortals. ...More on that later.

Typically her colors are various greens, whites, browns, and yellows because I like the idea that Demeter gives off a summer vibe (probably some unintended symbolism and hidden messages there. I'll let you work that out) so alot of her clothes are very summery and late spring based.

In LO, Demeter's clothes usually look very business like. Very formal (and kinda boring) BUT I like that choice in clothing it suits her business oriented mindset. (I also like business suits and think women look great in them.) But this is Demeter so I'll make a point to incorporate certain aspects fit for Demeter and what she stands for.

So lots of plant motifs and maybe summer fruit images on her more casual clothes and dresses. But I also want to reference the thing she's iconic for: Persephone. True the myths around Perse don't have the best light and everyone likes making it so it's a "okay" thing that happened (and depending on the version you prefer it kinda isn't...)but whatever! not relevant.

I want to hint at or allude to Persephone the daughter who (probably) ran away and the daughter she loves. In my story Persephone is only seen as her role as queen of the underworld (I think that's justified since the focus IS on all the underworld related deities...) So that means darker colors and delicate...ish appearing flowers (not the common roses. unless you mean "black" varieties and the thorns)

Demeter wants her daughter to be around her (but she's in the underworld for much of the beginning of the story so I think placing little references to her is a good idea.) Demeter herself will not wear too many dark colors and flowers are usually limited to reference her daughter Persephone. No Persephone isn't a delicate flower and in LCO Demeter recognizes this and accepts it. But she also still wishes she could keep Persephone by her side always. Hinting to her in her clothes as a sort of reminder is a good way to emphasize that.

And I like clothes. Like I really like writing about them so brace yourself.

Back to my first point Demeter's physical description design is based on Fate Grand Order's Indian goddess Parvati.

Incidentally Parvati is a mother like figure and in this story Demeter ends up a mother like figure to multiple people so is anyone surprised?

As for normal civilian wear-- well it's just what she wears when she is around a large number of mortals. Usually this is a dress or suit with floral details (or reminders of Persephone). And I think having suits have lots of references to Persephone fits because it's like... Persephone means business in both aspects of her role. And Demeter wants to follow that in her own way so while she can't ask Persephone to wear suits (though she's positive her daughter would look wonderful in them) she wears them herself as a way of hinting how proud she is that Persephone is her own person.

When Persephone is around and not stopping by to drop off a gift she wears clothes similar to her mother in terms of style and colors. Mostly to reference where she currently is. But being the goddess of spring she wears lots more flowers. As per request of Demeter to feel like the old days they are normally large flowers or flowers that would require a lot of... Sun....

Although on occasion, Persephone pops up randomly (which is how we have warm days in winter) usually just to say hi or let one of her children speak to their grandmother or she's doing a favor for another goddess then she still wears dark colors with minor or or more subtle hints to flowers.

[injvre]

i want to draw again but every time i even think about doing it i get really anxious about doing it. if i get as far as opening procreate or getting a piece of paper, i can't make anything happen

the most i've been able to do is piddle around with some brushes i downloaded and kinda glance at some bases i bought a couple years ago

i haven't drawn anything since i think february 2020, because i had to live off commissions while jobless, and i think that's part of it. i couldn't charge anything but peanuts and i was still struggling to get any sales, so it was just me & indy drawing all day to scrape together $15 so we could barely afford food. plus some of the people i had to interact with to (attempt to) make money were just awful to me. so maybe i just remember that and freeze up

i also in some ways. regret majoring in art in college. because i feel like the commissions + majoring in art killed whatever part of my brain gave me permission to sketch and doodle. i can't put pen to paper without feeling immense pressure? compulsion? to fuss over anatomy, composition, light, value, contrast, etc ... and make it a Complete Finished Piece. so it's really hard for me to do things such as "loosen up" and "have fun" and even "enjoy it"

and i'm like. do i enjoy art anymore??? can i even say that, having not done anything except scoot my personal sisyphus rock a couple feet & then give up again, for three years?

i'm also just frustrated because ... i have Art Skill. i know The Fundamentals. i know color theory and composition and light and value and shade. i have Won Awards (multiple!) and i have Sold Original Pieces (multiple!) i'm Good At It! but not at the kind of art i want to do. i have the fundamentals and i have worked hard and done well at ... really boring shit no one cares about. still life. still life. still life. another still life. no one cares about still life.

(i could devolve into my frustrations about how it feels that there is a hierarchy of art people care about / are interested in; ie, most people will say they love art and support artists but will always engage with fanart, only sometimes engage with original content, and very very rarely engage with fine art like still life, landscape, portrait, etc)

i also don't want to give the impression that part of my hangup here is that i'm saying i feel paralyzed by anxiety and unable to do art because i "won't get enough attention for it". i'm not wanting to "do it for the notes", and in fact the idea of getting the attention of more than like, 20 people at a time makes me more afraid than doing art ever could especially because even i must admit - i don't care about my still life. i did well at still life in school, i am proud of the work i did and it was cool that i sold those pieces. but i wouldn't say that i had fun. i wouldn't say that i enjoyed it. my art was good! but it wasn't art that got anyone excited. not even me.

but i feel that the type of art i am good at is not the type of art that i want to do.

i could sit down and put 20+ hrs into an 18x24 piece of paper and come out the other side with a near photographic rendering of some random objects, or animal bones, that would impress ... idk, someone who's not gone to art school and isn't also capable of producing similar things? whatever

but i sit down and try to draw something i'm passionate about, and have put a lot of thought and effort into already and .... nothing happens. i just get frustrated. i give up. immediately i feel like i have only a very basic, rudimentary skill. i feel like i draw like a child. it's repetitive and basic and samey. it's stiff because i'm so locked down with Following Rules that i don't know how to push them into things like "poses" or "expressions" or "style".

not that i even know what style i want to draw in, in the first place. i have no idea! i have tried to figure out what i might want, by saving a ton of images and names of artists where i think "wow i wish i could draw in that style", but there are so many and they are all so different that i ... still don't know the answer LMAO i feel like i've done nothing but shoot myself in the foot because now i have a collection of shit that makes me think "wow i can't fucking draw"

whatever every noise in the world started happening while i was writing this and i lost my train of thought :)

doesn't really matter where i was going with this. i have anxiety. i need help / advice but fundamentally i know the solution is "get over yourself and just do it and do it a lot and it'll happen naturally" but that's incredibly frustrating to hear when i've been doing this for years and it's not resulted in anything i'm happy with. i'm really questioning if i really want to do this / if i enjoy it at all. i know the truth is i DO, because i used to, i am just struggling to get that feeling back

[sawrinwrites]

Hold up. You can't come into my reblogs and be that complimentary and make it that clear I've understated just how much of an unintended impact you've had on me and my work, so you know what? Sawrin fucking essay time. I could make a very good argument that this starts because you wrote a monster smut fic and I gained a new hyper-fixation because the bees kissed but, honestly, it starts with a tweet (or a comment, I forget which) you made wayyyyyy back when about being anxious about posting Menagerie because you were drawing on personal experiences. At the time, I'd never commented on a fic. And I hadn't really engaged with social media in an embarrassing number of years (the joys of social based trauma). But, I was reading (and loving) Beestfic. And I knew you were talented. And I figured, "You know what? I'm actually trained to analyse prose. The least I can do to show how much I enjoy this person's work is to put that to use."

I never imagined you'd actually respond. And I definitely never anticipated you saying how much it meant to you. And so I decided I was going to make an effort to comment on every chapter and pick out things that I really enjoyed or were really well done. Nothing ground breaking, just something a bit meatier than a simple "I fucking love this."

Then Carrera De La Muerte drops and Adam grabs Blake's wrist and I can't not analyse that chapter. Then World's Worst Car Movie comes out and I can't not start to pick apart what's happening with Blake and Serena. And at that point I'm still kinda...holding back (I guess?) from throwing myself into it because I'm anxious about coming across as too...intense? Extra? (Whatever word we want to go with to conceptualise the trauma from the "too much" part of Yang's line in Something About Moths and a Flame: "Either I’m way too cold and distant or I’m way too much and borderline suffocating.")

And at about the same time, you start tweeting about how excited you are that someone's started to figure out what you're doing with Blake. And this should be the point at which I go "yo, glad you're enjoying me losing my mind over this complex character" but I chicken out because I can't shake the possibility that you're referring to someone else and I don't want to embarrass myself. It takes me a month to get the courage and even then I'm being vague because I know the tweet references me but I'm still unable to shake the voice that says I'm wrong.

But I still do it. And then I start posting more. I start engaging with the fanbase. I start tackling my anxieties around talking to new people. I stop being so fucking afraid of putting myself out there (not completely, but I'm getting there). I fall in love with literary analysis again. I build a routine around reading new MM chapters. You start getting excited about my comments and I try and deal with the fact that that's a thing that's happening and then I'm getting called out by the editors and unlocking lore drops and all I can think is how much I've missed being part of a creative community and how amazing it is to see someone whose work I admire be so damn passionate about it. And yeah, it's a little validating, too (shout out to the validation cycle).

And somewhere in the midst of all that I finally throw enough of my anxieties out of the window to decide that not only do I want to write about Blake and Yang, I want to share it. I start having fun with writing in a way I haven't in years. I start experimenting. I stop caring about making it perfect and just focus on making it fun. I get out of my comfort zone and I enjoy what I find. Nothing that's gone on AO3 is in my usual style but it's nice to write for the thrill of it again. It's nice to craft stories without thinking "is this good enough for mainstream publishing?" and instead going "I hope this very small list of people (including Kaeli) get a kick out of this". And you know what? It's changed how I think about my own work. Because the whole point of studying Creative Writing at university was to learn how to write properly and that's absolutely ingrained in me but it's also meant constantly second-guessing whether every sentence is "good enough" and with fan fiction, I don't. And the more that becomes habit, the less I care about writing "right" and the more I care about writing something that's going to mean something.

And then there's just the basics of being inspired and introduced to things through your work. I can honestly say I didn't peg myself as someone who'd be into monster fucking but Act 8 of Beestfic dropped and I read it a few times. And then I read some things under related tags. And I'm not going to out myself that much, but I will say that I read enough content that the 700 word analysis of Blake's breeding kink in MM was ad-libbed to the point that the only note I had for it was "I can't believe I'm doing this". But I will say it made me think about writing some of my own.

We all know how THAT ended up.

And now I'm writing a multi-chapter based off of a discarded scene and I'm starting a collection of dog fics because I was arguing with a Yang/grimm conversation and ended up going "what if I do this entire fluff fic from the POV of the dog?" Hell, there's another monster smut fic sat in planning.

And on top of that, there's the MM playlist. Because yeah, I listen to it a lot. Partly to try and figure out plot bits but mostly because I enjoy it. It's a fun list to work to. It's also responsible for me hyper-fixating on Playground to the point it was my most listened to track in 2023. And that is responsible for the afternoon I randomly went "what if OC1 and OC2 had to go to a brothel together? And what if OC1 regularly sleeps with one of the girls there?" And then I built a new character. And a complex situationship. And had to restructure a 5 book series to account for the new addition. And then ended up changing the circumstances of a character death I've had planned for 17 years. Genuinely, I think I've created the resident "fan favourite" character and her entire existence is the result of you putting Playground on that playlist and me being a bit autistic about it.

And not only that, that playlist became kind of a morning staple in the house. My partner and I were going through some shit last year and it became a thing to try and theorycraft the songs. Sometimes we'd make deliberately wild (and definitely wrong) guesses just to see how ridiculous an outcome we could create ("What if Daddy AF is a Weiss song" being one of my favourites). It helped. In ways that I cannot express in words outside of the phrase "thank you".

Lastly, there's the fact that Moths and MM both made me realise some things about myself and my own traumas, to the point that I'm actually starting to process those things instead of pretending that they either don't exist or that they don't bother me. Yang's backstory reveal in Joyride especially just hit so many nails so perfectly that I couldn't stop thinking about it. Here was a whole host of messy, complicated, tangled things about my own childhood written out so succinctly that I finally got it. Which means I can finally start processing it.

It's been life changing.

So yeah, I'd say your impact has been very fucking significant and I am both humbled and honoured to be considered a creative comrade of note.

March Content Plans (Long Update)

As it is now the 25th here in frosty England, it has officially been 2 months since I published my first piece of fan fiction. In that time, I've released:

A one-shot containing my first ever attempt at both monster smut and an explicit F/F sex scene (which is currently my most popular work????)

A low angst (I know, I can't believe it either) romantic one-shot from the POV of a golden retriever

4 chapters of an emotionally intense story that is so far from my usual writing style I have to re-read earlier chapters to remind myself how to write it (a deliberate stylistic choice but boy, am I paying for it)

3 chapters of what was meant to be a fun side project and is quickly turning into something deep and dark and wonderful in its own right

All in all, that's 4 bodies of work spanning 57.7k words released over a period of 9 weeks (not including the 15-20k which got rewritten / replaced / outright cut). Which is, for me, insane. It's also a pace that I won't be able to maintain going forward, so for the sake of setting expectations (my own, more than anyone else's), here's the current plan for March:

The Monsters At My Side And In My Shadow Ch 1-3 update Given that this has gone from "werewolf smut hiding in a multi-chapter fic" to "multi-fic exploration of abuse with a healthy dollop of smut", I want to revise what's already been released to better align with what I have going forward. There won't be any plot / event changes, scenes that get altered will be getting either an expansion or a rewrite, depending on the work needed (which will include adding more smut-adjacent content because it's currently lacking and I want it to be better).

Untitled - An Ember POV Story to Celebrate 1yr Since The Bees Kissed (March 25th) @reeves3 put the idea in my head and now I have a collection of outlines covering various points in Yang and Blake's relationship all told from the perspective of the Best Girl. They won't come out in chronological order as I'm looking to line them up with various events, but the current plan is that March 25th will cover the introduction of a new member into the Xiao Long-Belladonna pack.

Additionally, I'd like to release the following chapters but I am forcing myself to accept that these will likely get bumped to April:

The Monsters At My Side And In My Shadow Ch 4

Shattered Divinity Ch 5

There's a few reasons for the (temporary) slowdown in content:

I am supposed to draft 1 - 3 OC novels this year (the mistake of mixing alcohol with an empty resolutions boards and the word "bet") and I need to dedicate more time than I have done to those projects to have any hope of doing that.

Rather than wait for the fan fic writer's curse to hit, I've gone and done it to myself by buying my first house. The offer got accepted yesterday, so now I have to deal with the joys of legal and financial paperwork. And start prepping for a move. And every other stressful time consuming thing that comes from this period. Don't get me wrong, I am fucking ecstatic, not least because it means me having an actual bedroom for the first time in almost 4 years, but the next steps are going to take a chunk out of my usual writing time.

@kaelidascope is about to drop a veritable feast of content. Look, I'm not subtle about how much I enjoy her work. She's my favourite fan fic writer. She's probably one of my favourite writers period on account of the emotional damage and veritable joy Mightnight Menagerie has brought me. And I'm not just saying this because she's been exceptionally complimentary of my own work (which, by the way, I am still freaking out over). She is one of the main reasons I started writing fan fiction. If it wasn't for the original Beestfic, I'd never have written The Hunt. Which means I'd never have had the concept ideas that initially led to starting The Monsters At My Side And In My Shadow, and without that fic, I wouldn't have had the 3 experimental scenes between Yang and her grimm which ended up inspiring the idea to write Best Laid Plans from Ember's POV. So I will be setting aside some time (translation: every waking moment I have during release weekend) to thoroughly immerse myself in the relaunch. Also there's two Menagerie chapters due and the previews are already threatening my analytics brain and unfortunately it takes time to launch that kind of assault on AO3's comment section.

So yeah. A few things going on in March. I'm gonna try and do this as a rolling monthly thing going forward in lieu of trying to have a timed release schedule. Hopefully the April one will be a bit lot shorter.

[wordsbymae]

The Killer Alphabet 18+

Hi everyone! Hope everyone is feeling good! I wasn't going to do one of these for this (disgusting) guy but you guys seem to enjoy my previous alphabets for The Mad King and Eli, and I have some time to kill so I thought why not. I really wanted to try something different with this guy compared to the traditional slashers you see in movies, please feel free to tell me if it worked or not!

Also If you haven't noticed I haven't given too much description to any of my OCs, I do have images of what they look like in my head but I'll leave it up to you guys what they look like to you (mainly cause I can't draw for shit). I do see him as Mario Casas in 'The skin of the wolf' but like I said I really don't mind what they look like to you. Also, I don't have a name for this man cause it didn't really make sense in my mind for him to have one so he'll be known as Killer. Once again this is based on @/dear-yandere original template.

Also, I hope I don't need to say this but I will just in case, I do not condone these sorts of actions!!! Or any actions in any of my work. This is pure fiction.

TW: Murder, violence, blood, Killer being aroused by a scene in a movie of a man kissing a woman but this is because it's from the golden era of film (1915-1963). Also please don't judge, I tried doing smut again but I am kinda insecure with how it turned out :/ Male Masturbation. Old-timey Pornography, not in much detail. reader described as pretty. Implied Non-con. Physical harm to reader - breaking bones, branding. Reader has sex with another person, who is then promptly killed. Please use discretion!!!

Minors turn away now, please!

Let's get into it!

This man scares me, not even kidding. Like he gives me the absolute creeps. The drabble this is based on is here.

Before we go into the meat of it, I want to flesh out an important character point. His whole character and personality kinda revolve around one thing. He is obsessed with movies from the golden era of film, especially the ones where the guy gets the girl. I like to think that his cabin wasn't always his, that he stumbled upon it wandering the woods, maybe after a run-in from the law, or even just travelling from his previous shelter to find a new one. And when Killer moves in (murders the old man living there) he is confused to find an old film and a projector set up. After accidentally getting it to work he is amazed by the pretty images floating on the wall. And the moment the man kisses the leading lady? He is baffled, flabbergasted. Where was the blood? The violence, the murder, the guts and gore being spread on screen?

This was the first time he saw physical interaction between people that didn't end with someone screaming, crying or bleeding. And man was he obsessed. He would rewatch that old film, over and over and over just so he could watch the few seconds where the two actors kissed. And I mean over and over again. He practically melted the film with how many times he played it. But he just couldn't help it, he was desperate to recreate this funny feeling in his gut he got every time the actor gripped the actress's waist or connected their lips. This feeling increased with each new rewatch, it went from just a feeling in his gut to taking a physical form in the shape of his pulsing member straining against the worn fabric of his pants (I see him in dark blue jeans but that is just my whorish side talking).

And when the pain got too much and he reached into his pants to check for injuries??? The moment he touched his dick for the first time when aroused?? He practically came right then and there. So after a few trial runs, he finally figures out how masturbation works (yes he is a 30/40ish-year-old virgin, fight me in the maccas carpark)

And that changes everything!! After melting the original film (he is still upset he destroyed it, there's a fist-shaped hole in the wall), he was able to figure out how to add another film from the massive collection the old man has hidden in a backroom (he's more careful with them now), and when the next kissing scene comes up? You bet he's got his hand in his pants and he's rutting into his palm desperately. And then comes his favourite actor!!! He just loves the way they move, the way their skin looks so soft and touchable, so grabbable. And especially the way their hands would look just delightful covered in blood. And they are so lucky! This actor seemed to be a big hit in the old days and a personal favourite of the old man, so there are countless films with them as the leading actor or as the romantic interest. Now he just can't help himself. Instead of just taking care of himself during the kissing scenes, he now has to pleasure himself whenever the actor comes on screen (it's a lot).

Now here is where it gets interesting. Firstly, you come onto the scene. It was your first trip to the camping site with your friends and you were a little nervous, but it was going to be such fun!. Your best friend hadn't been in a while, not since childhood, but how different could it be? It was safe back then so why not now? Surely the dozens of missing hikers were just people getting lost, dehydrated or injured? It had nothing to do with the slasher who had moved into the area, who hated people interrupting his personal time.

Ok so on the last night of the trip, spotlight started. You've run deep into the woods (far too deep) and have found a nice little hiding spot. The woods were filled with screams and laughter and yelling. It was so loud in fact it disrupted Killer from watching his nightly film. It was so loud he decided that the only reasonable way to regain peace and quiet would be to rip the tongue out of every one of these stupid little mutts. Unfortunately for you, he came across you first. You were crouching with your back towards him and your face hidden in the darkness. Now despite his size Killer can be quite the sneak, so you had no idea there was a murderer planning on planting an axe in your head. Just as he planned to jump out, you happened to turn your head at the right moment as the moonlight passed the clouds, and he was able to get a look at your face from his hiding space. Fortunately for you (but unfortunately in 4 years' time), you looked almost exactly like his favourite actor. He was so mesmerised and in awe of your resemblance that he was more than happy to let you slip away into the darkness. From then on he followed you throughout the night.

In doing so he found out so much about you! Like how you jumped and whimpered whenever you heard a sound from the darkness (so much like the bunnies he skinned with his trusty knife!), how you looked so good in that dark red jumper you wore, how pretty and soft he imagined your skin to be, and how you might even be better than the actor on his screen because you were there right in front of him, in the flesh.

So began his obsession with you!! How lucky he was that you returned every single year! It made him so happy to follow you around like a little puppy that he would even forget to torment the hikers near his cabin. He was just so painfully shy when it came to you though. Putting an axe through someone's chest cavity was easy when you didn't have to talk to them. But he wanted to talk to you and maybe even kiss you!! So he was happy for the next two years to just follow you around for a week before you drove away (not before he pinched some of your things- he needed to remember your scent till next year).

But!!! The few weeks leading up to your fourth (and final visit) were a bit different. He didn't pleasure himself often anymore with the sight of his favourite actor, instead, he would now think of you or smell some of your clothes he pinched, or when the actor was on screen he pretended they were you and he was the leading man gripping your waist. But, when looking for a new film to watch ( I wasn't lying when I said the collection was massive) he came across a box he hadn't seen before. Putting one of the films on he was shocked to see what came on screen. The people were doing a lot more than just kissing. It almost looked like the struggles he was used to when he strangled his victims, there were a lot more limbs going places and a lot more grunts and groans ( i don't know how the sound systems work for old projectors but it gonna work for us). But this was different, there was no blood, just two people rutting against each other. And no one died at the end? huh

Instead, he watched as hands travelled over their skin and up shirts, as the man flipped his partner over and ground his hips against their ass and how good it looked to finally have something soft to rut against instead of his callous hands.

If he thought the subtle grabs and light kissing were arousing this sent him over the edge. All these new things he could now imagine doing with you! But why leave it to the imagination? He had spent the last 3 years fixing the cabin where it might be somewhere you could live (and couldn't leave, don't want his little bunny to run). He fixed the walls, the windows, the roofs, and he even added some chains! This year was going to be the year he brought you home, his pretty bunny!

He had it all planned out, he would corner you during the spotlight game and give you pretty flowers and maybe even do the thing the people in the new film do with your hand around his cock! How exciting! No one had to get hurt, he saw how much those mutts meant to you, so he would let them live, even if it would be painful to not crack their skulls.

He had it all planned out! until he watched your boyfriend shove his cock into your mouth. Then he got a bit mad.

And we all know how that ended, don't we?

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A = Affection (How do they show their love and affection? How intense would it get?)

He shows his love in bloody, violent ways. He doesn't talk much, like at all, so his actions are everything. Skinned, still warm, rabbits laying on your pillow, leaving a bit of a mess. They make a perfect stew and the fur can make lovely gloves! The heart of a fox is gifted to you inside a worn wooden trinket box. So you know you have his heart! His victim's still bloody and torn clothes as a gift for all your good behaviour. He doesn't understand why the blood is a bad thing.

On the other hand, he worships old movies, most of which show courting and wooing. He'll pick you flowers and push in your chair, he'll give you rings he finds on his victims and try to slow dance with you in his make-shift living room (his feet are just too big, but he does get better though).

However, don't think just because you are his pretty thing he won't show his love in harsher ways. Gripping your wrist tight until you can almost feel the bones break when he gets a little too excited slow dancing. Tugging on your hair (if you have hair) and forcing you to sit still as he brushes it (even though you tell him you can't brush your hair type dry - I've got curly hair, I would hate this!!), leaving you to wince as he hits knots with the brush. He forces pretty clothes he found on you, gets annoyed when you say no (the actors in his films never said no to their partners) and holds you down on the thin mattress as he rips your old clothes on to manhandle you into your new ones. He forces you into a lot of things but I'll get into that later. Even though you might be crying and begging for him to stop, he still sees his actions as a form of love and just can't comprehend he's doing something wrong.

B = Blood (How messy are they willing to get when it comes to you?)

Extremely bloody!!!! Blood everywhere man. He doesn't need an excuse for him to go straight for his axe. I do think he would go for a slower death for someone who he thinks wrongs you. His greatest regret (besides not bringing you home kidnapping you sooner) is letting your boyfriend off with a somewhat quick death

C = Cruelty (How would they treat you once abducted? Would they mock you?)

Oh yeah, baby, he is cruel!!!! Not in verbal ways but physically. I mentioned before he grips your wrist too tight and that's when he's happy! When he is actually trying to cause you damage I see him do it as a way of punishment, he's not going to beat you for the fun of it, remember he loves those movies and he tries desperately to live the life he sees in it, so when you do something he doesn't like (like saying no or really any small thing) I see him using his leather belt (actually it was the old man's). But are you trying to run away or actively hurt him? Oh boy. I definitely see him as the sort to break a few fingers or even brand/carve his name into your back. But that's for real bad bunnies who try to runaway.

D = Darling (Aside from abduction, would they do anything against your will?)

Yep yep yep. The man is trying to recreate life from an era when consent was practically non-existent, especially between married couples (which he sees you as). And also he just doesn't care. He'll force you to dance awkwardly with him, he'll force you to bathe in front of him, change in front of him, masturbate in front of him, touch him (in more than one place), and force you to kiss him. Also, he doesn't speak often, if at all, only really to say things like:

bad bunny

good bunny

silly bunny

naughty bunny

pretty thing

soft

stay

no

yes

mine

touch me

so it takes you a long time to figure out his non-verbal clues to save yourself from his wrath.

E = Exposed (How much of their heart do they bare to you? How vulnerable are they when it comes to you?)

What heart? This man feels like 6 emotions: Blood lust, normal lust, hunger (Not even an emotion), thirst (still not an emotion), contentment and obsessive love towards you. So no, no vulnerability from this guy.

F = Fight (How would they feel if you fought back?)

Angry, to the point where he might break a few fingers to remind you bunnies don't have claws. (they literally do but he doesn't know that - neither do I apparently)

G = Game (Is this a game to them? How much would they enjoy watching you try to escape?)

Not a game, but a massive delusional mess. He actually thought that the picnic blanket set up was for him. He thought that your boyfriend was forcing you to do all those things (he wasn't) and all your cries of pleasure were just cries. He had to wait till the spotlight game though, even if he wanted to butcher your boyfriend then and there. That game was how you first met and he wanted everything to be special. So yeah when he saw you put out all those rose petals he was adamant they were for him, it's why he brought you back there for your first time together. He even washed his hands for you! He didn't want you to get mad at all the blood, how sweet :( He really thought as well that what you did was sex, unfortunately for you, he learns really soon what sex is.

The only time I see him wanting to play games is when he lets you go so he can chase after you through the woods or even play a version of spotlight! (it is just him playing hide and go seek, and you running for your life). That really gets his blood pumping. It's sad, cause you think that this might be the time you get away and that you won't be shoved to the ground on your hands and knees getting railed from behind.

run bunny

H = Hell (What would be your worst experience with them?)

Besides watching your boyfriend get killed? There are so many. Losing your virginity to him on the thin mattress, him breaking your finger when you try to slash him with his knife he left lying around (he actually thought he could trust you-naughty bunny), you watching from the window as he drags a hiker that tried to escape back to the front yard to kill them slowly (you couldn't look at him for days and you would sob every time you caught a glimpse of some blood still under his fingernails) or what about the time he kidnapped an unsuspecting camper and forced the two of you to have sex just so he can see if he's been doing it wrong. After the camper finishes, they are promptly killed while you sit on the bed sobbing watching it all unfold in the living room. I have so many more.

I = Ideals (What kind of future do they have in mind for/with you?)

I don't really know, I don't think he does either. I personally would like to say, like I have for my last two OCS, something to do with breeding and a slight housewife kink but that's just cause I'm a virgin whore. But I did say I would try to keep the reader gn for this one, so I really don't know. I think he would just want you to stay his, in his cabin till the police drag him out or until you both die. (feel free to add your five cents! I would love to hear your thoughts)

J = Jealousy (Do they get jealous? Do they lash out or find a way to cope?)

It's strange because I did say he let someone fuck you but then killed them. I don't think he gets jealous the way normal people do, as in afraid their partner would leave them or sees the other person as a threat. He doesn't see them as a threat he just sees them as a loose end and a distraction for you from him. Even your boyfriend was killed out of annoyance and delusion that you needed saving of sorts.

K = Kisses (How do they act around you?)

Like a massive murder puppy, heart eyes and everything (as long as you say yes to everything and never say no)

L = Love letters (How would they go about courting or approaching you?)

Very much the same as affection, lots of bloody gifts and lots of flowers and trinkets he stole from dead bodies.

M = Mask (Are their true colours drastically different from the way they act around everyone else?)

Not really, he just doesn't want to kill you or cause irreversible damage. He is still silent and broody and still scares the shit out of you, except of course he also acts like a love-sick puppy.

N = Naughty (How would they punish you?)

I mentioned this one a few times now, but breaking bones, branding, using his belt, chaining you up to the headboard of the bed, or keeping an ankle chain on you,

O = Oppression (How many rights would they take away from you?)

your right to freedom and privacy, you can't change your undies without this man standing like 2 cm behind you

P = Patience (How patient are they with you?)

no patience at all, if he makes the sign for you to sit on his lap during movie night, and you hesitate or worse straight out say no? Your getting punished for sure

Q = Quit (If you die, leave, or successfully escape, would they ever be able to move on?)

He would probably just do what he has always done and murder people in the woods, but he would be way more aggressive about it if that's even possible. Leaving is a big no-no, he has moved places before and you can bet your top dollar that this woodland slasher will become your not-so-friendly neighbourhood slasher real quick

R = Regret (Would they ever feel guilty about abducting you? Would they ever let you go?)

Nope!!! He's having the time of his life

S = Stigma (What brought about this side of them [childhood, curiosity, etc]?)

He's a murderous manic what more do you want from me

T = Tears (How do they feel about seeing you scream, cry, and/or isolate yourself?)

he would confuse crying during sex to mean good things and screaming to just be annoying (if during sex, he thinks it means he's doing it right), if you scream outside of sex he wouldn't have the patience and would just punish you then and there. His pet peeve is victims who scream. Isolating? He wouldn't really mind, as long as he can still manhandle you to do things he wants you to do, I really don't think he would care if you never spoke again.

U = Unique (Would they do anything different from the classic yandere?)

nothing i can think of

V = Vice (What weakness can you exploit in order to escape?)

His naivety. yes, I said what I said. This guy doesn't know anything about relationships or sex, or the modern world in general, so if you tell (beg) him to close his eyes cause you have a surprise for him that might involve you on your knees, he will gladly close his eyes and not even notice it has been ten minutes since you've made a sound till he gets bored and opens his eyes to the window jimmied open and you gone.

W = Wit’s end (Would they ever physically hurt you?)

hahaha yes. read above

X = Xoanon (How much would they revere or worship you? To what length would they go to win you over?)

Yeah, I do think he sees you as this soft, pretty creature that sometimes reminds him of a life before the blood. But not to the point of getting on his knees. Oh no no. Only bunnies get on their knees.

Y = Yearn (How long do they pine after you before they snap?)

This boy has been pining for you for years!! he had a dedicated box where he would put scraps of clothes of yours, flowers you touched, jewellery of yours, pieces of your hair, anything he could get his hands on! Even a polaroid picture your friend took of you on your 2nd trip, just don't ask why it's sticky. He "snapped" when he saw your boyfriend fucking your mouth but he had been planning on taking you anyway so I guess as soon as he saw you.

Z = Zenith (Would they ever break you?)

sure thing! Physically, mentally, and emotionally, this guy just does not care.

[cottonfeltgembira]

hey, i just wanted to say i love ur ocs!!! they’re super creative and make me want to know more!!! if u ever want to ramble or talk about them more (specifically about ur oc’s relationships with others) then i’m more than willing to listen and ask questions about em!!! ur creativity is awesome

AHHHHHH FANK YEWW SM ANON ｡ﾟ(ﾟ´Д｀ﾟ)ﾟ｡ sniffles fefeffefe my darling little ocs I care a lot about them :]

Speaking of which, would be a good time to kinda give some extra details and general info of the ones I have so far !(^o^)!

Mnemosyne Vicas

He's essentially my medium to interact with twst's overall story since I struggle with doing sonas or self inserts (mostly due to the fact I have trouble understanding myself as a single person being a system and what not)

He's kinda the main oc if you will (｡･･｡) since I put a lot of thought into making him (even his name has ties to themes of memory because of the ghost camera) though his origin is pretty KH heavy, it's pretty much incomprehensible if you've never played/watched Kingdom Hearts Union Cross •��ε•̀٥

Mnemosyne ADORES Grim, he's one of the few people besides Malleus who recognizes him as a monster instead of a cat/weasel/cute animal. Although he doesn't refer to Grim as a monster, instead a beast felt more accurate for him.

I think his most interesting relationship would have to be......Jade? The entire nature of their bond is complicated at best, incomprehensible at worst.

And what started their relationship (or the very least, both Jade's fascination and infatuation with Mnems) only makes this worse. Nothing like almost amputating someone's arm to get those feelings going! Mnemosyne still feels bad for the whole thing even if it was justified (seeing as the tweels were ordered to stop Mnemosyne from winning the bet with Azul)

Yuna

No last name for now (I'll add it once I've figure it out!!) She's a secondary MC to Mnemosyne (Yuu 2? You two!!) She's actually based on the fact I've haven't really gotten to indulged in stuff like this in years ;; it's kinda odd to get back into oc x canon when the last time I've done that was maybe what? 5-6 years ago??? She's the epitome of a nerdy and dorky teenager with a heavy media based interest.

In a sense, Yuna is my love letter to all those teen girls from the early 2000's who were so lovingly shameless with the content they made for the media they loved （●＾o＾●） she probably has made a LOT of self insert fics (definitely a very famous x reader author on a fanfic site)

Nyx

Nyx is Yuna's best friend!! She's kinda the contrast to Yuna, being a known cosplayer on Instagram since Yuna and Nyx comes from our world.

She doesn't get involved with the twst world itself but she's incredibly important to Yuna, since she was the one who would always encourage her when she thought she couldn't do something.

She's best known for her cosplays of Azul and Jade because, though her reasoning to frequently cosplaying Azul is because of Yuna who adores him (and the fact Nyx wants nothing more than the person she loves to be happy)

Yuna and Nyx's story are heavily intertwined even though Yuna is stuck in twisted wonderland and Nyx is back home in our world.

Vicus & Arena

I haven't gotten around to drawing them yet (still stuck in dress up game prison 💔) they're twins based on the glass slippers from Cinderella!

Vicus is named after the Latin word for quartz! Since clear quartz bares a resemblance to glass and quartz itself is used in the making of watches (a reference to the limited time Cinderella had to spend at the ball)

Arena's name comes from the Latin word for sand since it's the main component used in making glass. Her name also greatly resembles the name Aranea, which means spider (since when safety glass breaks, it creates a spider web effect inside the glass)

The twins have a very complicated family relationship, their blood father left passed, to which their mother got remarried. But then her stepfather turned out to be cheating on her with his mistress. They got divorced and compromised by separating the twins as both parents stilled loved the children so dearly. Vicus stayed with his mother while Arena was taken in by her stepfather and mistress.

To put it simply : theyre long lost twins! They were separated at age 4 and reunite as second years albeit they clash in terms of personality

Vicus goes to RSA, he's sweet, a big believer and a bit clumsy. He's always helping people and taking care of others. He doesn't seem to care much about his appearance and yet is always so well dressed (his reasoning is simple, his mother taught him to)

Arena... Well much like her family, everything about her is complicated. She attend NRC despite it being an all boys school. Why you may ask? Her stepmother's bargaining of course. Her home life wasn't bad but it wasn't exactly intimate either.

Her stepfather is never at home, always on a business trip and her stepmother whom while did love her was strict and in her mind knew what's best for her daughter. This cause Arena to grow with the mindset she has now today, "to be the best of the best, better than everyone else, better than the me before."

For obvious reasons, she's been placed in Pomefiore and greatly admires Vil. Many people mistake her admiration for romantic interest, but in truth Arena simply wants to be like Vil.

Unlike her long lost brother, Arena is snarky and at times a bit self centered. She has no time to interact with strangers and people who are lesser to her much less unworthy of her presence, only circling herself around strong and powerful figures like Vil and many of the Dorm and Vice Dorm leaders.

Knowing that, she's definitely jealous of Epel. Why choose someone who seemed so unwilling to work for Vil when she's right here?!?! She'd do ANYTHING. to be closer to Pomefiore's queen, even if it meant getting her hands dirty

[tokillamockingbird427]

I’m not sure if this was asked before but what crowd does Uriel fall into at school? He got any friends? 🤨

I'm trying to write Uriel as much of a nerd as I can. He draws a lot, he asks tons of questions, and while he does act like a child that's because he is one. When he's older I can imagine he settles with a circle that's more akin to a study group than anything else. (Something Logan's probably relieved about lmao. Perpetually paranoid.)

As for friends, he does have friends!

In Repentance he has the Group Chat, which I use as a plot tool. (They're the ones who motivate him to find the patch Keegan gave him.)

J (Or "Jay") Barf (Barto) and Izz (Izzie, Isabele, Isabella.) They're all around the same age as Uriel, and we haven't seen Uriel actually interact with them outside the chat. However, I did give them different type-styles to try and distinguish their personalities.

J is the most mature. J checks Barf and Izz when J thinks they're peer pressuring him a bit too much. J uses perfect punctuation and capitalization, but occasionally uses shorthand like "U2." J also regularly makes references to American media.

J: What else did u2 get up to? Uriel, you weren’t such a scoundrel when we lived at the same base.  J: Ur dad seems cool but I can’t forget my first time meeting him… felt like I was being interrogated. 

Barf staunchly refuses to use periods, refuses to capitalize, regularly spells words wrong, uses emojis. He's the childish one, if the weird nickname didn't give it away. He also refuses to acknowledge his birth name: "Barto"

Barf: barto? whos barto? my name is barf  Barf: even i got a story about ur dad remember we skipped and tryd going to the park but he found us while we were still walking to the park how did he even do that 

Izz and J are pretty similar in text style, because both use good punctuation and that, but Izz almost never uses shorthand. She will however, use emojis.

Izzie: Am not! You two could have gotten kidnapped, you know.  Izzie: Guys, please! Not again. :( 

(Uriel's text style is as similar to my writing style as I could make it. I wanted to give the vibe that the story really is just his thoughts, seeing as it's one big flashback for him.)

Unfortunately, the precious quartet has only been in one chapter so far. Chapter 2. However, I do hope to feature them again. It was very fun figuring out their interactions and how they might all react to each other.

Later in the story Uriel makes another few friends. Or, they make him, seeing as they're the ones who seek him out. Axel, little sister Jasmine, twins Jan and Jace, and the oldest of the lot: Val.

Uriel and Axel wind up getting along very well, and it was enjoyable to write them. How do two kinda dumb 12 year olds interact? Well, Axel shoves his face in Uriel's face and neither of them mind very much. (They're so very cute.)