#kinda sounds like how my friends describe me sometimes. weird

[blizzardream]

Another part of that WIP I've been working on since. Last month?? Two months ago??? Can't tell anymore it's been so long T-T

Pyro with that fire in their eyes ^-^

[neverendingford]

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[snekdood]

ig my biggest issue with fandoms is the almost... false closeness thats there in them? ig since i was a kid and wasnt good at enforcing boundaries and was just excited to find ppl with the same interest I didn't really think about it but be real like, there was a vibe that it was "okay" and "fine" to expose a lot about ourselves to eachother that... i think if we knew eachother irl... we'd hafta be a lot closer than that to see or hear about that stuff...

[allamericansbitch]

since y'all seemed to want this.... here's the live notes i took while listening to each song for the first time (bold are thoughts i had during later listens)

fortnight: 

‘i was a functioning alcohol till nobody noticed my new aesthetic’ what the fuck does that even mean…

love the fact she gave post the female collab treatment. don’t wanna hear what he has to say. 

they’re voices sound actually good together? 

some pockets of the melody are catchy

okay i don’t hate this 

ttpd:

her red flags are on fire in this song lol

this seems very half-cooked

also jacks weird mixing continues to plague us all

CHARLIE PUTH???? WHAT THE FUCK WHY HE HERE

tattooed golden retriever??? ……no way

my boy breaks all his favorite toys:

i blinked and it’s half over

this also is like… half cooked and didn’t need to be released tbh

i love the way she sings the second verse tho

down and:

the production does not match the vibe

did tpain produce this

i’m… kinda bored lol

like i have nothing to say this also didn’t need to be released tbh 

this grew on me a lot actually

so long london 

the production is so futuristic? 

oh im obsessed with how she sounds on this one

her talk-singing in the verses is great

honest lyrics without any clunky unnecessary metaphors! a win!!

the fast-paced verses with th slow chorus is really really cool

a favorite so far

daddy i love him

i can barely hear her? the bad mixing continues 

‘growing up precociously sometimes means not growing up at all’ oh yeah WE KNOW

is this…… is this about her dating matty and loving how people hate him… no fucking way she’s this stupid

SHE IS BEING THIS STUPID

‘it’s white noise’ yeah yeah that’s exactly how id describe him  

.... anyway y'all remember when fans really believed the little mermaid theory and this song was supposed to be about how 'joe stole her voice' lmaooo

we will pretend this one doesn't exist!

fresh out the slammer

are we getting another ‘i didn’t cheat technically’ song lol

what is this weird tempo change….

okay kinda catchy

it’s sounds exactly like you are in love at the end….. jack is really out of tricks

florida

‘my friends all smell like weed or little babies’ what the fuck is she even talking about anymore 

i’m sorry but i’m laughing at the phrase ‘fuck me up florida’

again the production sounds so detached from the vocals 

i honestly still have no idea how i feel about this one

guilt as sin

an real instrument?? wow crazy 

okay she’s kinda cute? catchy and fun, love the melody

i love when she goes up at the end of the vocal 

okay…. i don’t mind this one she’s catchy, a little too long and drawn out but cute

who’s afraid of little old me?

what is this production? it’s way too soft to be as threatening as they’re trying for 

why did jack push her vocals back so far when she’s supposed to scream…. that’s ruins the whole thing…. she’s supposed to be screaming and threatening….. not quiet and far away…. hello

this song is trying very hard to be threatening but it’s not... vigilante shit 2.0

‘you wouldn’t last an hour in the asylum they raised me’…………… upper middle-class pennsylvania? 

‘i’m drunk on my own tears isn’t that what they all say, that’ll  sue you if you step on my lawn’ okay bar?

the bridge was good but that’s about it.

i can fix him 

…………… not another matty song oh god

‘i can handle a dangerous man’…… im too stunned to speak this is so embarrassing 

wow taylor really is that girl who like ‘women supporting women’ and then dates/defends a racist bf…. a walking example of white feminism

intersectional feminism found dead.... twice....

loml

okay this is really nice? 

I WAS ACTUALLY ENJOYING THE SONG WHY DID SHE RUIN IT BY SAYING ‘MR STEAL YOUR GIRL’ 💀

if we ignore that one line we're good this is good. im refusing to let that line ruin such a good song

i can do it with a broken heart

‘bitch smile’ why are there so many cringey lyrics on this album lol

what is this song omg why do i kind of like it 

taylor please learn depressed isn’t a synonym for sad 

they recycled the mastermind production 

wait till taylor finds out most of the entire world is sad while they're doing their job and has to pretend they're not

smallest man who ever lived 

oh i think i like this?

‘you said normal girls were boring’ GIRL AND YOU DIDNT IMMEDIATELY GET UP AND LEAVE??? EWWWW??? she's not beating the pick-me allegations

'i just wanna know if rusting my sparking summer was the goal' okay love that line

i like this a lot

the alchemy

no….. no way this is real

i cannot

THE SPORTS METAPHORS WE JOKED SHED DO THAT AND SHE ACTUALLY DID IT OH NO 

touchdown ✅ teams ✅ benches ✅ winning streak ✅ the league ✅

she’s doing…… the worst thing ever this is so laughable 

the corny lyrics are on overload 

‘this time it’s heroine with an e’ didn’t she write folklore? i can’t remember 

that literally was an snl parody of a taylor song

clara bow

love how the guitar sounds… bet money this is an aaron track 

a stevie nicks reference!! a win!!!

i like this one a lot no cringey lyrics yet

nope never mind she name-dropped herself don’t like that

overall really liked it tho

the black dog

i think i like it?? this is kind of what i expected the album to be

okay for once the weird production choices kind of pay off

imgonnagetyouback

kinda catchy? 

she loves a fancy car getting wrecked line

the pre-choruses are the best part 

this would’ve been better without the jack of it all bc he loves a song that doesnt build to anything

this just comes down to personal preference: i don’t like her lighter vocals with jack’s heavy production (ie most of lover lol)

the albatross

a real instrument!!! production that matches taylor’s voice and is well mixed!!! aaron’s arrived!! 

i think it’s solid, has good writing and she sounds great. that's about it.

chloe or sam or…

took me a solid minute to have any semblance of a fuck to know what was going on but okay

okay i love this one

wayyyy more emotive than like… most of the original album

a lot of the 2nd version (or whatever this is lol) are way more emotive, maybe because her voice isnt drenched in reverb so we can actually hear her voice emote better

how did it end

this sounds like an old school adele song? 

i love this one too…. 

her being upset people wanna know what happened but then also feeding it while promoting the album oop 

i love the story of this one it's so refreshing

so high school

THE PRODUCTION is so good ugh aaron never fails 

the man here is a walking red flag girl and the lyrics are ~not it~ but the production is too pretty to hate it

fuck these lyrics are so bad lol

maybe if i disassociate hard enough i can ignore the lyrics and just listen to the production and vibe

give me a karaoke version of this song and we'd be so back

i hate it here

i mentioned disassociation and she made a whole song about it!!!! this one’s mine!!!! 

‘without all the racists’ GIRL HUH

WHAT WAS THE REASON

also... girl don’t act like we don’t know you’re fine with that lololololol

if i had a dime for every time i was liking a song to then have it slapped away because of a bad, out-of-pocket lyric…… 

thank you aimee

this isn’t grabbing my attention 

oh the bridge is interesting 

it’s meh 

i will never be thanking the people that bullied me thanks tho

i look in peoples windows 

what do you mean aaron didn’t produce this??? it’s well-made and has instruments? 

i love this one, again a really interesting and unique concept that's very refreshing to hear at this point when a lot of the songs feel repetitive

the prophecy

aaron guitar!!!! 

she’s nice i like her 

i've really grown to love how she sings this one, the melodies are cool.. however i feel like we've heard the same melody.. like on this exact album... where she upturns at the end of every line...

cassandra 

this seems very…. familiar… idk i feel like we’ve covered this (i mean there are 31 songs we’ve already covered everything lol)

this is such an aaron song, that's a classic 'the national' piano

i like her voice in this one tho, sounds good

peter

oh love i love this

now this? THIS feels the most like a taylor swift song

once again she’s at her best with a simple instrument and emotive simple lyrics

the piano reminds me of champagne problems

the bolter 

i like this! the chorus is so cute

oh i like that ending line a lot!

she’s cute, a little long and drawn out but cute

robin

i haven’t seen anyone talk about this one

welp…. i literally have no feelings toward this one but sounds pretty! 

the manuscript

oh this is soooooooo powerful 

i love this concept 

her ending the album on another introspective album that sums everything up a la dear reader yep yep!!

if you actually read of this ily 💗

[findafight]

On the one-sided harringrove post- I feel it becomes infinitely funnier with bi steve. He likes men, just not Billy. Never Billy.

Oh yeah. When Billy fiiiirst comes to school with his music blaring Steve is head over heels for Nancy, so he might register that the guy with the Camaro and loud music has a good ass, but then billy opens his mouth and Steve is like "oh, no ass can make up for that personality." And continues with his life.

Just. Okay I like to project just a liiiiittle on Steve with him just. Not realizing his attraction to men isn't a straight thing. Like. Of course all straight people feel that way, you just kinda ignore it or don't do anything about it. So Steve is half way between being comfortable in his sexuality and being closeted to himself because buddy used Hawkeye Pierce as the blueprint of straightness.

So Billy is out here, wallowing in self hatred and internalized homophobia, hating Steve and wanting Steve and hating that he wants Steve and wishing Steve would pay attention to him enough for a hate fuck he can cry about later, and it's all very angsty. All the while Steve is just actually completely fine with thinking a dude is hot he's just got standards that include "not racist" "doesn't try to beat up kids" "hasn't made me blackout from head trauma"

Wait. Oh no. I feel an au coming on. Shit. Au where post S2 Robin hears piano coming from the band room after hours and is her curious self going "I must see who is this mysterious genius" and it's Steve. They get to talking and hanging out and all of a sudden Robin thinks they are actually good friends. Best friends. Somehow.

Cue them going to a band party together. Someone spikes their drinks with waayyyy more than they were expecting so they are blasted. Robin has to go pee but does not want to go alone so she drags Steve into the bathroom with her and makes him face away. He's like haha Woah you really had to pee. And she goes shut upppp and washes her hands but sits across from him. Steve smiles at her and gives her his speech about how amazing she is and how glad he is to be her friend (it is like March '85 so he is still not ready to get back out into dating yet). Robin tells him about Tammy. They sing. Someone slams the door open and kicks them out of the bathroom because there's a fuckin line.

They lay on the grass outside and look at the sky. Steve like. Caaaaasually mentions once having thought he was gonna marry Tommy when he was six and then realizing you just didn't do anything about those feelings and Robin's gotta shoot up going WHAT!! WHAAAT? Because it sounded like Steve coming out to her? Right after?? She came out to him??

And Steve is like yeah. Like you don't really have to? Easier to ignore it and flirt with girls who I like or think are hot. And poor Robin's brain is melting she's like please Steve I'm really drunk are you telling me you sometimes want to kiss boys? And he's like yes, obviously, everyone does. Just like everyone also wants to sometimes kiss girls. Except lesbians I guess who only want to kiss girls? And gay guys only want to kiss guy? Yeah that makes sense and straight people don't care but go for the opposite ya know?

Robin is like NO!! And calms down some and says "okay I'm telling you this because you are my friend and you just told me almost the same thing. Steve. I like girls and only like girls. That not a straight thing"

"yeah. You've said."

"but I am ninety nine percent positive that just because you like girls doesn't mean you're straight because you also like boys."

"what"

"yeah dude, I do not think this is a heterosexual experience you're describing. I'm not an expert but. Yeah.

"oh. Huh."

"yep."

"I definitely thought it was."

"your brain is so weird I'm still kind of obsessed with you."

"haha. Honestly I'm kind of obsessed with you. This is wild."

"well. At least I know you're stuck with me."

"ohhh nooooo whatever will I do with my best friend always around..."

ANYWAYS THE ACTUAL POINT OF THIS is not in fact the stobin. It's actually that

Sometime probably in may, when Steve is ready to be on the dating scene again, he gets with Eddie. Robin is happy for him but also so mad because he went from "probably shouldn't act gay even tho everyone feels a little gay sometimes" to "hey Robin what would you say if I said I got a boyfriend?" In less than two months. How does he have straight AND gay game. That's not fair.

Steddie getting together is a non event. Eddie is still like ewww sports and yet somehow he made out with Steve Harrington and the next day Steve asked if he wanted to get milkshakes and throw rocks into the quarry to see the splashes. Eddie must restrain himself from thinking it's a date because he knows it's not but it'd also be the perfect date (Eddie is a simple man)

At the end of the night steve kissed his cheek and says "I had a really great time..."

Eddie just blurted "hey do you want to be my boyfriend?"

To which Steve perks up like "yes! I'd like that!"

And Eddie didn't actually think he'd get that far so he was like "neat!! See you tomorrow!" before slamming the door in Steve's face.

So they're dating and Eddie disparages sports but Steve is like haha aw you don't like watching me play? Which is sooo mean to Eddie because obviously?? He likes?? Watching his boyfriend??? Run around in tiny shorts and sometimes shirtless?? He has to reevaluate some things he supposes.

All while this is happening Billy is still on his Greatest Homoerotic Rivals shtick with Steve. Eddie notices and is like to dude...what is with Billy? And Steve just sighs. Says Billy is weird and obsessed with him and glares all the time. It's a whole thing. Billy is pissed because what is Steve, his epic rival, doing hanging around some random band geek, his sister's bitchass friends, and maybe the local dealer.

Alright. Grad happens. Yay Steve! Poor Eddie. They go to some party , hang out with people, sell some drugs, etc. Billy is unfortunately also at this party, and is like. Lazer eyes boring into Steve's back. Very annoying. At some point, he sees Steve slip away and is like this is my chance so he follows him.

Howmever he comes across Steve, his epic and totally heterosexual rival, making out with Eddie the freak Munson.

And listen this is a scary thing to be caught inna town like Hawkins, but that's not the point of this post.

So Billy goes "what the hell?"

They turn around. Billy is still spluttering.

"what are you-why would you-- with him?!" He says.

Steve raises his eyebrows, alllll cocky confidence. He smirks a bit. Drawls. "Well, yeah. I like cock, billy. Just not yours."

Because the point of this post is that Steve is a bitch.

Thank you.

[e-claire]

Misophonia sucks so fucking hard and no one anywhere ever wants to talk about it. Literally the only people I've ever had listen to me about my Misophonia are other people with Misophonia. So fuck it, Misophonia Awareness Post or something, I want to vent.

Allow me to describe what it is first for all the lucky people who aren't fucked over. Misophonia is likely an Audio-Processing Disorder (Potentially some form of Synesthesia) in which certain sounds trigger a fight or flight reaction. Trigger sounds can vary and sometimes after long term exposure it can create a reaction to the visuals associated with those sounds. It is possibly genetic, there is no known cause, there is no known treatment, there is only suffering and ways of generally kind of reducing that suffering. When I hear people chewing I am filled with a rage that can only be described as "Bordering on a primal desire to Kill." and there's nothing I can do about that. A family member or friend takes a bite of something crunchy and I have to sit there and exist with thoughts of pounding their fucking skull into paste with my bare god damn hands and then afterwards I have to go back to "being normal". I have to just pretend that didn't happen, I can't do anything with those emotions, I can't put them anywhere, I can't talk about them with anyone or gain any understanding or sympathy from others for having them.

When I see someone chewing food anymore it's borderline impossible for me to remain in the room with them for any more than a few seconds because the mere sight of them chewing makes me physically ill and inspires in me a sense of deep disgust and panic that I could never ever hope to describe.

I tell people about what it's like and I get one of four reactions :

"Oh I think I have that too" With a weird amount of curious excitement at the concept of having a fun new quirky thing to mention in conversations. This means that they don't have it, and they'll then proceed to list off a couple different things that literally no human being likes to hear and how much that thing "annoys them". This makes me want to kill myself.

"Wow, Yikes." Through a grimace. This means I was too open about how it makes me feel and they now think i'm a either a freak, liability, time bomb, or over-dramatic, and will do everything they can to avoid the subject in the future so that I can't make them uncomfortable. This makes me want to kill them AND myself.

Immediately eats something really loudly to set me off as a "joke". This means that they're an obnoxious piece of shit that I have to try my absolute hardest not to beat to death with my bare hands. This makes me want to kill them, if that wasn't already obvious.

"Oh. So that's what this is called." This means they have it, and we can both engage in a brief period of mutual trauma sharing that helps us know we're not alone, and that our curse is unfortunately shared with others. This makes us both somewhat melancholy, and kinda ruins the vibes until something fun happens.

And then we get into the "How do you make the pain stop", and good news! You can't. There is no way to make it stop. But you can make it hurt less with ✨Spending Unbearable Amounts of Cash✨

You can buy a billion different types of earplugs that will all do great at muting the world but always leave you incredibly unaware of the world around you and leave you fucked in-terms of listening to media.

You can buy normal headphones that will kind of work but never mute the world around you anywhere near enough and vaguely frustrate you constantly, but hey at least you're a bit more accessible! Try combining these with a combination of rain and static noise playing at all times in the background for an extra layer of silence :)

You can buy ANC headphones that cost infinitely too much money and are almost always built to break so that they can farm cash from you in repairs, but the ANC is so useful despite not working perfectly that you can't really exist without it so you're gonna spend 200+ dollars every couple years because you don't have a choice, and spend every single day 24/7 wearing hot heavy over-ear headphones! Use the Rain and Static Noise combo with this as well for the best ANC effect.

And inevitably, all of these options will give you hearing problems, potentially make you aware of new trigger sounds, and always leave you a step behind everyone else when a conversation happens. Pro-Tip : For when the sounds are really intrusive and you're on the verge of a breakdown, Combine ANC with Ear Plugs and the R&SN background audio to basically kill noise in it's entirety for a little while :)

AND NOW WE GET TO THE PART WHERE I SAY WHAT THE FUCK CAN YOU NORMIES DO TO MAKE OUR SUFFERING LESS FUCKING CONSTANT.

Listen to us. Don't ostracize us for experiencing emotions we can't control and don't mean or want to act on. If you can, try your best to do the trigger noises quietly, and try your best not to do the trigger visuals in-front of us. We know it's not something you can control entirely, but if you can make the effort to make our lives suck less, we'll really fucking appreciate it.

And if you try to get back at us during a fight by eating something really crunchy to abuse our disorder for your benefit, I swear to god I will hunt you down personally and subject you to the most violent and painful torture I can manage before killing you and hiding your body somewhere no one will ever find it so that your loved ones never have the closure of knowing if you died or if you're still somewhere out there. Thanks for reading even though I know you didn't because the length of this post is frankly unhinged and i'll probably only get like 2 likes at best.

[secndlife]

pairing: mingyu x female reader genre: kinda fluff but also kinda angst? they're just really bad communicators summary: people must ask each other a set of uncomfortable questions. they can either answer, or take a shot. word count: 2.3k warnings: mentions of unprotected sex, alcohol consumption series masterlist

mingyu: nervous?

you: hmm

you: maybe?

you: this feels kinda weird

mingyu: why?

you: i don’t know

you: i think we avoid these types of talks to be honest

you: and now we’re here to do it in front of a camera

mingyu: i just couldn’t say no to eunwoo okay?

mingyu: it’s for his internship

producer: oh, so you’re eunwoo’s friend?

mingyu: yeah

produce: nice!

producer: everyone loves him around here

mingyu: yeah, he's great

mingyu: can you make sure to get my good side?

producer:

mingyu: also, is the camera positioned correctly?

mingyu: i'm a visual arts major, so i know a thing or two about it

producer:

you: mingyu.

mingyu: what?

you: stop it.

mingyu: i was just asking a question!

producer: now that we all know your names, can you explain a little about your dynamic?

mingyu:

you:

mingyu:

you: uhhh

you: we’re—

mingyu: friends?

mingyu: with benefits.

you: i think that’s. uh. 

you: yeah, the best way to describe it

mingyu: right

you: friends with benefits

producer: right.

producer: and how long have you two been friends for?

you: with benefits?

mingyu: or do you mean regular friends?

producer: both?

you: we met early freshman year

you: and we’re juniors now

mingyu: but the benefits part started in august

you: yeah so it’s been about 3 months

producer: hmm okay

producer: did it start while you were drunk and horny?

mingyu: that’s funny

mingyu: close but no

you: high and horny

producer: second most common answer for college fuck buddies

producer: fair enough

producer: well! let’s get this party started then

mingyu: ladies first?

you: uh, actually—

mingyu: want me to go first?

you: please?

you: thank you

mingyu: anything for you

producer:

you:

mingyu: so

mingyu: what are the terms of this relationship?

you: wow

you: uh. 

you: i don’t think we’ve ever. seriously talked about it?

mingyu: yeah i think we haven’t

you: why are you looking at us like that?

producer: everyone knows you need to talk about it

producer: like, before it even starts

you: 

mingyu:

you: i don’t think we’re very good at talking about it

producer: i can see that

mingyu: i mean

mingyu: of course that there are some basic things

you:

mingyu: like we still need to be friends

you:

mingyu: and we need to be comfortable at all times

you:

mingyu: and that everything is uncomplicated

you:

mingyu: and no expectations or pressure

producer:

mingyu: and. and!

mingyu: 

you:

producer:

mingyu: that’s kind of all i’ve got…

producer: maybe you can talk about it now?

you: no

mingyu: no

you: shots?

mingyu: hell yeah

producer: oh god

producer: we’re not gonna get anything from them, are we?

mingyu: are you calmer now?

you: not really, but it’s okay

mingyu: sure?

you: yeah

mingyu: okay

you: my turn

you: oof

you: i don’t think i wanna ask this

mingyu: oh c’mon

mingyu: it can’t be that bad

you:

you: fine.

you: are you afraid of commitment?

mingyu: pfffff!

you: why are you rolling your eyes?

mingyu: of course i’m not afraid of commitment!

you: okay?

mingyu: do you think i’m afraid of commitment???

you: uh

you: no?

mingyu: i’m not!!!

you: okay! then you’re not!

mingyu: then i’m not!

producer: wow

mingyu: i really am not afraid of commitment

you: can you please just take a card?

mingyu: fine.

mingyu: oh! i know the answer to this one

you:

mingyu: have you slept with someone else since we’ve been sleeping with each other?

you: hmm!

you: what’s my answer, then?

mingyu: no you haven’t

you: why do you sound so confident?

mingyu: because i know you

you: 

you: you can be so full of yourself sometimes

you: do not wink at me

mingyu: 

you: why did you wink?

mingyu: because i know you like it

you: god.

mingyu: thank you

mingyu: anyway

mingyu: am i wrong?

you:

mingyu: did you sleep with someone else?

you: not since we started. you know.

mingyu: not using protection?

you: don’t say that out loud!

you: people are gonna think we’re irresponsible

mingyu: aren’t we?

you: 

you: okay but!

you: we get tested every month

you: and! we don’t sleep with anyone else!

you: and! i have an IUD!

mingyu: so i was right

mingyu: you haven’t slept with anyone else

you: urgh.

you: fine, yes

you: as in no, i haven’t slept with anyone else

mingyu: nice

mingyu: and just so it’s clear, i haven’t either

you: good

you: i wouldn’t really like that

mingyu:

you:

mingyu:

you: i mean!

you: considering we are irresponsible and don’t use protection anymore! 

mingyu: right!

you: do we still have a lot of questions left?

producer: i think like, five?

you: oof. okay

mingyu: you can do this!

mingyu: i believe in you!

you: haha

you: okay

mingyu: what’s with the face?

you: i don’t wanna ask this one either

mingyu: oh my god 

mingyu: what now?

you: name my 3 worst traits

mingyu: that’s—

you: i just don’t wanna know

mingyu:

you:

mingyu: i can drink if you want 

mingyu: then i don’t have to answer, and you don’t have to know

you: you’d do that?

mingyu: yep

you:

you: okay then

you: thank you

mingyu: you’re welcome

mingyu: that kind of burned

you: weak

mingyu: hey!

mingyu: i did this for you!

you: i’m just kidding

you: stop pouting!

mingyu: but just for the record—

you: why does it feel like you're about to answer?

mingyu: i like basically everything about you 

you:

mingyu:

you:

mingyu: hehe.

mingyu: ohhhhh, this one is great

mingyu: i love this question

you: what is it?

mingyu: other than being great in bed, what are my other positive qualities?

you: of course you love this question

mingyu: don’t look at me like that

mingyu: am i not allowed to enjoy being praised?

you: i mean you are

you: you just physically can’t take it

mingyu: i don’t know what you mean

you: the moment i start answering this, your ears are gonna turn red

mingyu: no they won’t!

you: they will 

you: but it’s cute

mingyu: wait.

mingyu: uh.

mingyu: maybe you can drink for this one?

you: absolutely not

mingyu: but i drank for you!

you: and that was cute

you: but i am answering

you: people need to see that i was right and that your ears will turn red

mingyu:

you: so

you: you’re just generally really nice?

you: like, you do things for everyone, and you don’t really ask for anything back

mingyu: hm

you: you’re also funny

you: and very caring

you: and you’re also pretty smart?

producer: oh my god

producer: his ears are super red

mingyu: they’re not!

you: stop covering them! the people need to see it

mingyu: they’re not red! 

you: they’re soooooo red

mingyu: stop ittttt

you: aw you look so cute

producer: they keep on getting red 

producer: this is kinda funny

you: it is, right?

you: but yeah, that’s it

mingyu:

you: you’re a nice guy

mingyu: i—

mingyu: wow.

you: yeah

mingyu: do you. like. really mean that?

you: of course i do!

you: we’ve been friends for a while now

you: and i wouldn’t do that nor the benefits part if you were an asshole

mingyu: right

you: right

mingyu: thank you

producer: did you just whisper something, mingyu?

producer: i think the mic didn’t pick up on it

mingyu: nope

you: that was fun

mingyu: no it wasn’t

you: awwww, poor thing

mingyu: let go of my cheeeeeks

you: hehe

you: okay the card

mingyu: go on

you: what’s the expiration date of our relationship?

you: damn

mingyu: yeah

mingyu: should i—

you: drink? 

you: nah, you can answer if you want to

mingyu: oh. okay…

mingyu: i mean. i think there’s no exact expiration date?

you: 

mingyu: as long as we’re both enjoying it…

mingyu: i-i don’t think we plan on stopping it?

you:

mingyu:

you: oh, you want me to—

mingyu: yeah…

you: yeah, i mean. i agree

you: i’d say if anyone gets uncomfortable or wants to call it quits?

mingyu: that!

producer: what about feelings?

mingyu: what about them?

producer: what if someone develops feelings here?

you:

mingyu:

producer: feelings would make it complicated, no?

you:

mingyu:

you: i mean.

mingyu: i guess?

producer: would that end it?

you:

mingyu:

you:

mingyu: m-maybe?

mingyu: i don’t know?

you:

mingyu:

you: can we drink?

you: i told you we’re not good at talking about things

you: okay 

you: you go

mingyu: right

mingyu:

mingyu:

you: what?

mingyu: okay, i’m gonna ask you something

you: yeah?

you: that’s the purpose of this game

mingyu: no i mean. not the question

you: i’m not following

mingyu: can you drink to this one?

you:

you: wow, you sound very serious

mingyu: i. uh. kind of am

you: oh! uh. 

mingyu: please? 

you:

you: yeah sure

mingyu: okay

producer: hey!

producer: that’s cheating!

mingyu: i’m friends with eunwoo, please let me have this

producer: haha.

mingyu:

producer: fine

mingyu: phew.

mingyu: okay so the card

mingyu: why can’t i be your significant other?

you:

mingyu:

you: oh.

you: you don’t want me to an—

mingyu: not really?

you:

you: okay

mingyu:

you: tequila here i come?

mingyu: i’ll drink with you

you: nice

mingyu: cheers baby

producer: i think we’re almost done

you: finally

producer:

mingyu:

you: don’t get me wrong! this was kinda fun

you: but also just.

mingyu: a lot

you: yeah

producer: sorry, this isn’t a great game for emotionally constipated people

you:

mingyu: what?

producer: i’m sorry! but. you know?

you: i get it

mingyu: i don’t get it

mingyu: what’s that supposed to mean?

you: i’ll tell you later

mingyu: did he mean—

you: mingyu.

mingyu: but—

you: shhhh

you: just let me take a card

mingyu:

mingyu: fine

you: oh. this will be interesting

you: on the count of 3, name who likes who more in this relationship

mingyu: oh!

mingyu: i mean. i know the answer

you:

mingyu:

you: what?

mingyu: what what?

you: what do you mean you know the answer?

mingyu: who’s gonna count?

producer: i will!

you: oh god

producer: 3

you: oh god!

producer: 2

you: you ready?

producer: 1

mingyu: you

you: it’s equal

mingyu:

you:

mingyu:

you: oh my god.

you: wow that’s so—

producer: oof.

mingyu: no, wait.

you: this is so embarrassing.

mingyu: no! i mean!

you: i need a fucking shot

mingyu: i didn’t—

you: it’s fine

you: just pour me a shot please

mingyu: baby—

you: mingyu. it’s fine

you: the tequila please

mingyu: do you want me to—

you: nope, i’ll drink it alone

produce: damn…

you: can we move on please?

mingyu: fuck.

mingyu: last question

you: honestly i’m glad this is over

mingyu: yikes

mingyu: i thought this was gonna be fun!

you: yeah. i mean.

you:

mingyu:

you: yeah. 

producer: didn’t you have at least a little bit of fun?

you: i do like free tequila

mingyu: see!

you: still.

you: just. take the last card please

mingyu: yes ma’am

you:

mingyu: oooohhhhh…

you: oh god

mingyu: this is. definitely something.

you: 

mingyu: 

you: can i drink before he even asks?

producer: no!

you: please?

producer: absolutely not

producer: please don’t ruin this even further

you:

mingyu:

you: just. just read it

mingyu: uh. 

mingyu: okay.

mingyu: could you see yourself falling in love with me?

you: jesus christ!

you: wow.

mingyu: yeah

you: i am absolutely not answering that

mingyu: i mean.

mingyu: it’s up to you

you:

mingyu:

you: wait. do you. uh.

you: do you want me to answer that?

mingyu:

you:

mingyu: m-maybe?

you: 

producer: oh shit

you:

mingyu:

you: mingyu, i—

mingyu: you don’t have to!

you: i, uh. really. 

you: i don’t know.

mingyu: then take a shot!

you:

mingyu: it’s okay!

you:

mingyu: i mean it.

you:

mingyu:

you: i—

mingyu: baby. just take the shot.

you: i don’t know?

mingyu: take the—

you: like, i’ve never really fallen in love with anyone?

mingyu: oh.

producer: oh?

you: i don’t really know what that’s like?

mingyu: not even with—

you: nope.

mingyu: right

you: so i don’t. i don’t know if i can do it with you

you: if that makes sense

mingyu: i get it

you: and i don’t think falling in love is part of the deal anyway so

mingyu: oh

mingyu: of course! 

you:

mingyu: totally!

you: yeah.

producer: she’s such a liar

you: what did you say?

producer: oh! nothing

you:

mingyu:

producer:

you: can i still take the shot?

producer: sure, why not

you: please don’t think i drink too much

you: i’m just. emotionally constipated

producer: they’ll understand, don’t worry

mingyu: what does that even mean???

you: don’t worry about it

producer: what about you, mingyu?

you: please don’t

mingyu: what about me?

producer: could you see yourself falling in love with her?

you: oh god.

mingyu:

you:

mingyu: oh!

you: mingyu.

mingyu: hmmm.......

you:

mingyu: do i have to—

you: no you don't!

producer: i mean.

producer: would be nice.

mingyu: i mean.

mingyu: i just think it can get awkward if i do?

producer: if you do what?

mingyu: answer it

you: oh.

producer: so you can't see it?

mingyu: what????

mingyu: i didn't say that????

you: can we just. stop this???

mingyu: it's complicated, that's all

you: please just stop talking

mingyu: i mean. you're amazing...

mingyu: it's just that—

you: i really. really. don't wanna know

mingyu: m-maybe?

producer:

you:

mingyu: i don't know, okay?

mingyu: god i feel like my ears are burning up

you:

mingyu: oh can you pour me a shot as well?

you: yeah

mingyu:

you:

producer:

mingyu:

you:

producer: well...

producer: it's a wrap?

you: thank god

you: can we go, please?

mingyu: yeah

mingyu: are you. uh. are you coming over?

you:

mingyu:

you: ... yeah

producer:

producer: i've never seen such a dense group of people do this

you: uh.

mingyu: thanks? i guess?

you: i don't think he meant it as a compliment, mingyu

a/n: well hello???? i haven't written anything (especially something that's not soonyoung) in sooooooo long omg i barely know how to format a post anymore bc it all looks different omg. anyway!! hi!!!!! it's been ages i'm sorry. this belongs to that one fwb college jock mingyu universe that's been a wip for literally. 3 years. yes i checked today when i first created the google doc for that. and i've also been kind of away from seventeen for some time But since yesterday my carat skin has been activated and also my mingyuner skin so here i am. with this. i hope you'll like it!!!! this is absolutely unhinged in terms of posting bc this was not edited, was written in a Questionable state of mind and was not betaed. let's see if i'll regret in the morning. mwah mwah love you all!! and my askbox is always open hehehe

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‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️MUTANT MAYHEM SPOILERSS ‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️

DO NOT READ IF YOU HAVENT SEEN IT AND DONT WANT SPOILERS

Okay now with that out of the way, my thoughts on the movie

I really enjoyed it.

I went to see it with a few friends and one of them made a really good point. They actually act like teenagers. Like yes, it was kinda cringey at some parts but that’s because it sounded like something a teenager would say because teenagers are awkward.

I’ve had very stupid conversations with my friends that sound like the conversations in the movie.

I noticed that this movie did the “teen talk” a lot better than I’m pretty sure all other versions of tmnt (in my opinion), even better than rise I think. Most others sound like adults writing teenagers and it sounds good most of the time but others it sounds weird.

Now for the main reason I made this post: April and Leo.

I was kind of dreading this when I saw in the trailers Leo would be interested in her (2012 April and Donnie flashbacks) but it was well done. I am a bit tired of April being a love interest for the turtles but I think it’s important to include that April is black, plus size and has acne and how Leo described her as “the most beautiful girl he’s ever seen”. Unfortunately the qualities she has aren’t shown very often to be attractive because of bs beauty standards.

It’s late so I can’t fully explain what I’m trying to say so disclaimer in case I didn’t come across this way: I don’t think that being black, plus size or having acne makes you not pretty, you are, just society sometimes says that and society is stupid.

April and Leo are cute together and written well and there is no “one of them is obsessed and the other is leading them on” going on. The fact that they end the movie looking into TCRI is adorable to me. My fav investigator duo.

Also Leo is an absolute dork. The whole phone call scene: “it’s a date then!” “Wait what a date?” “Uhhh *cue fumbling and wrestling for the phone* uhh nothing bad service byeee! Who’s got no rizz now?” Like Leo you are bad at this oh my god. (Again awkward teenager stuff)

And his bothers teasing him was so funny. They did not let that slide and teased him at every opportunity. Classic sibling behaviour

The tease for shredder was fun and I can’t wait to see what they do with him and his backstory.

Best Splinter. I love him so much. I love his whole “hating humans” arc and how he paralleled superfly and how he CHOSE to not be like him.

Both superfly and splinter have a very understandable fear (that turned into hate) of humans and how they both thought that the best way to protect their families were to hold their family too tight.

While splinter hid from the world and his fear pushed him into hiding and laying low, superfly’s fear caused him to lash out and take out his anger in a destructive way.

But splinter getting a girlfriend at the end was so cute he deserves this.

Also side note: why did so many turtles almost get hit by cars in this movie? Specifically Mikey.

He almost got hit in the flashback, then in the garage, then in the final battle with the flying cars. Then Donnie also almost got hit, I think just before they were captured but I’m not sure.

When they had to leave the movie and walked home really sadly and kept looking at the humans longingly I legit almost cried.

I was kind of surprised they ended up actually going to school and everyone was accepting. I thought they’d be like “we don’t need humans to accept us cause we accept ourselves” but I’m glad they got to go to school. They deserve it.

Also April being super upfront with them about if they didn’t save her she’d probably be running screaming was so funny. Also how she was planning to release a story about them while knowing humans probably wouldn’t accept them was a very realistic thing.

I loved April so much by the way. The way she fucking chucked the news mic into the crowd was iconic.

The fight scenes were SOOOO AMAZING I LOVED THEM SO MUCH. The splitting between the 4 (I think) fights at the same time and every other fight scene were so well done. Them figuring out that they skills they learned for years actually work in a fight and how they’re awesome at it was adorable to watch. And the way in the beginning how they were using their skills to steal get groceries was great.

All the turtles up from every version are good fighters (in their own ways) but these versions are definitely up there with how skilled and how well they work as a team. Love them.

AND THE TURTLES SHARING A ROOM AND BUNK BEDS WAS ADORABLE. It’s so funny cause later they were like “yea we have so much space to hold the 6 or 7 other mutants in our house on short notice we have lots of space!” Which means they chose to share a room with is adorable and a little bit unrealistic lol.

It seemed like a pretty realistic movie and I have bullet points of the least realistic parts (excluding the mutant animals cause duh). And this is just me being picky lol, I still loved this movie and these are just jokes.

The fact that they wrote nice things on aprils locker at the end of the movie

(Pointed out by my friend). She went from being puke girl to April O’hero. They would probably stop teasing her since she was friends with the most popular kids in the city but the 2 most likely outcomes would be

1. They just stopped and then left the insults on there, maybe scratched them out

2. Wiped off the locker and never spoke of it again

No one writes nice things on other peoples lockers lol

The boys want to share a room

I guarantee if 4 teenage brothers had a choice between sharing bunk beds and each having their own rooms, they’d have their own rooms.

Imagine arguing with your sibling and you don’t have your own room to sulk and avoid them? By choice??? People need their own spaces. No matter how much I love my siblings if I shared a room with them it’d be chaos.

There would be one prank done in that room to one of their beds and that’d be the end of the shared room lol

The fact that everyone unquestionably liked them (especially at school)

Kids are assholes. That’s it.

AGAIN this is just things I thought were unrealistic in a funny way, it’s a kids movie so it’s not that deep.

This was definitely one of my favourite versions of tmnt (I haven’t seen all of them but still). It was a good mix of serious and goofy and I liked it a lot. I recommend seeing it, I want to watch it again lol

[laundrybiscuits]

(purify our misfit ways tag | AO3)

After the ultimate betrayal that is her best friend experiencing some kind of gay apotheosis about Steve Harrington, Robin’s in no mood to put up with any shenanigans from that quarter.

“How’d you meet Eddie, anyway?”

Ah, so the shenanigans will be starting early today. Robin marshalls all the authority she can muster in knee-high socks and turns to him, hands on her hips.

“Hey, dingus! Did you forget what I said just the other day about harassing him?”

“How am I harassing him? He’s not even here! You sure he’s not your boyfriend? Because you’re sounding kinda—” Steve breaks off and snaps his fingers. “Wait, you totally want him to be your boyfriend, don’t you? That’s why you’re being so weird.”

Robin thumps her head against the display case. She’ll have to clean up the smudge later, but right now it is vitally important that she express her pain in some concrete way.

“How many times do I need to tell you, no. Not my boyfriend, and I wouldn’t date him if he were the last person on earth.”

“C’mon, Robin. I know I’m not, like, your favorite person, but I get it. I’m not gonna tell anyone.”

“The words for how far you are from getting it have yet to be invented in any language,” Robin informs him. “If getting it is here in Hawkins, you are on the other side of Alpha Centauri and getting lightyears farther every second. We’ve sent probes after you, but they’ve fallen prey to decay while attempting to traverse the vast distances between you and getting it.”

“Sure,” Steve drawls, patronizingly. “Whatever you say.” Robin thumps her head against the display case a few more times for good measure.

Steve doesn’t tease her about his extremely wrong assumptions, like she’d expected. It’s much worse: he’s supportive.

“You know, it’s pretty cool that you’re, like, smart. Plenty of guys are into that.”

“Ew,” Robin says. “Please don’t hit on me.”

“What—I’m not! I’m saying, I bet Eddie likes smart girls.”

“Bet you a million bucks he doesn’t,” says Robin flatly.

Also, in her experience, guys do not in fact like smart girls; it doesn’t really matter to her either way, because she bets it would also suck to have a bunch of guys into her for real, but her kind of smarts have only ever made her a target for bruised egos. Kinda funny that Steve Harrington, the guy with the biggest ego she’s ever come across, doesn’t get that.

Maybe it’s not really ego, though. She thinks about the stilted half-truths he’s dropped about his current circumstances; he’s clearly having the worst summer of his life and not exactly coping the best anyone’s ever coped, but he doesn’t seem to be taking it out on anyone else.

Well, she assumes he’s not. It’s not like she knows what he gets up to outside Scoops, but…nobody ever comes to visit him at Scoops. She wonders if his friends even know he’s working here, or that he has to work in the first place.

So if he’s mad and frustrated about his whole situation, and Robin can’t imagine not being mad and frustrated about his whole situation, he’s either being incredibly professional and keeping his temper tantrums to his off-hours, or he’s gone through some kind of evolution. She’s honestly not sure which one’s more likely, even though professional and Steve Harrington should never belong in the same sentence, ever.

She definitely wouldn’t describe him as evolved, though. Case in point: his attempts to be subtle about her alleged romantic inclinations towards Eddie.

“Sometimes, guys are just nervous,” Steve says halfway through their next shift. “I mean, that’s why they might not ask someone out, even if she’s awesome.”

“Please never talk again,” says Robin.

“I’m not talking about anyone special!” Steve holds up his hands, wide-eyed and faux-guileless. “Just, I bet if a girl wanted a guy to ask her out, it would speed things up a lot if she dropped some hints. Give him some hope. That kind of thing.”

She bikes over to Eddie’s place straight from her shift, fueled by new heights of exasperation.

She’s been spending a lot of time there this summer. It’s strange and exciting to have a friend who basically lives alone; she’s met Wayne Munson once or twice, but only ever in passing, and he doesn’t seem to have any rules about how Eddie has to behave in the trailer. Eddie’s never worried about breaking stuff or being home at certain times. He doesn’t even seem to clean up after himself if he doesn’t feel like it. His bedroom floor could probably use a bucket of bleach, or maybe a lit match, but it’s his choice to keep it that way.

Robin is barely seventeen, and that kind of freedom seems so impossibly far away. Of course she knocks on Eddie’s door whenever she gets the chance.

“He’s being nice about it,” she says when he opens the door.

“About…?” Eddie doesn’t ask who he is.

“About how we’re, like, the tragic untold love story of the ages!”

A week ago, she might’ve felt too awkward to refer to anything about romance between them, despite…everything they’ve disclosed. God, she can’t even say the words in her own head unless she works up to it first. Eddie’s been really great about giving her space and not making her talk about it; even aside from The Steve Incident, though, he’s started mentioning stuff about guys now and then. Just little stuff, like thinking actors are cute or whatever. She thinks he might be doing it to reassure her that he wasn’t lying about being gay, which is hilarious because now that she’s looking for it, the whole thing seems really obvious. It’s less hilarious because she knows she’s been slow at working her way back to being totally comfortable with him, hence why she wouldn’t have brought up the idea of them together even a week ago.

That was before two full shifts of Steve Harrington’s well-intentioned meddling pushed her to the breaking point, though. She doesn’t have time to feel weird about things, she needs to complain to her best friend. So hey, in a sense, maybe Steve Harrington did help their relationship after all—not that she’s about to give him any points for trying.

“Eddie,” she says, grabbing his shoulders. “Steve is a visual learner. I need you to help me demonstrate to him, once and for all, how we have zero chemistry. Whatever the opposite of chemistry is, that’s what we have. Steve needs to learn this, visually, so that he will stop trying to convince me I’m a total catch and can definitely lure you in with my feminine wiles.”

She looks him in the eye and digs her fingers in, just in case he tries to make a run for it. “Eddie. I need you to come back to Scoops.”

[sydmarch]

seeing people on here designing their own skill sets had me soooo inspired to make one too. kept feeling like there was too much overlap between intellect/psyche and physique/motorics so i split mine into just mind/body. some ended up more heavily inspired by harry's skills than others which don't draw from them at all. none of the 'portraits' are actually portraits bcus for the way my mind works i felt more abstract/object based representations just worked better. full breakdowns of each skill, which of harry's it takes after if any, etc below the cut bcus long lol. image descriptions in alt are hopefully helpful i kinda struggled writing them since some of these were pretty abstract lmao.

SALESMANSHIP: one on one people skills. a bit of rhetoric, suggestion, drama, and empathy. reading people, debating, mimicry, understanding what people want and how to act to get what you want in return. represented as it is because sometimes when you're neurodivergent you owe the majority of your people skills to the training you once got on a sales floor. masking falls under this skill along with composure.

CONVERGENCE: people skills in group settings and crowdwork. the ability to find a group of friends anywhere from school to workplaces to parties where you only know one person. reading crowds and the feeling of safety in numbers. finding the best route through packed subway tunnels and sidewalks or leading your friends to barricade at a show. gets +2 from alcohol.

ACUMEN: learned information or book smarts. a mix of encyclopedia and logic. memory, information recall, etc.

WEB WEAVING: conceptualization, but with a heavier emphasis on connecting patterns and drawing parallels. understanding where your creativity comes from and how to connect things that inspire you in new ways. +2 from weed.

INTUITION: protective instinct. somewhat of a half light and inland empire mix. less of an emphasis on gut feelings and more on careful evaluations - often too careful & veering into overthinking. will keep you safe but will also make you paranoid.

CRAFTSMANSHIP: interfacing, but with a focus on tools/artistic mediums rather than machines. familiar mediums like sewing needles, palette knives, and mirrors feel like an extension of yourself. the ability to quickly pick up & acclimate to new mediums through trial and error.

COGNIZANCE: perception, but more than sight hearing and smell. heavy emphasis on touch and a higher than average sensitivity to vibration where many sounds can be felt more than heard. extremely sensitive color vision and innate sense of color theory. synesthesia. a clinical or practical awareness of the body.

FLIPPING EVERY BEETLE: a weird name for a weird and hard to describe skill lol. some of you already know the name comes from part of the clj lyric i have tattooed on my foot. whimsy, childlike wonder, unselfconscious enjoyment of things. allowing your body to lead you. an awareness of the body that feels positive and playful. gets a +1 from alcohol and a +2 from weed or molly.

COMPOSURE: the same as harry's (since I already identified pretty strongly with that skill as is - those who've seen my jacket know) but combined with pain threshold and endurance as I feel all 3 stem from a similar place. keeping emotions in check, nt masking, sitting unfazed through long tattoo sessions, using drugs without getting sloppy or sick.

ELECTROCHEMISTRY: once again, the same as harry's. sex and drugs, but also dancing and stimming. urges and impulsiveness. my version has very different ideas around sex and also different prioritization of substances where out of all the things i partake in alcohol is of least importance.

[my-castles-crumbling]

Hi Cas! I just had a question about gender identity, and I really don't know who to turn to and you give great advice and knowledge, but please don't feel pressured to respond

So... with gender dysphoria... I thought it was just something that like came and went, if that makes sense? Like in periods; sorta like how depression episodes are bad some days but fine other days? Sorry I'm probably not describing this properly and that was probably a bad comparison 😂 but now I find out that it's like... a diagnosis? But I thought it was just something you could.. get occasionally. But are you supposed to feel it all the time for it to actually be gender dysphoria??? Aaargh

And is it okay to experience what I presume is gender dysphoria when you're... not trans? Bc I'm a girl, was born a girl, but sometimes (especially late at night, welp) I just hate my body, hate being referred to as a girl, hate having long hair and just wish upon all things that I was born a guy, seen as a guy. But then other days I'll be completely fine with being a girl? So I don't think I'm trans, but then why do I hate being a girl so much sometimes 😭 and I know there's other identities, but I've never really thought 'oh hey this sounds like me!' (And besides it's not really worth trying bc none of my family and friends will every recognise identities outside of the binary. Yay. It's just better for me to suffer through being a girl atp, they'll only ever see me as their 'daughter who thinks she's a boy, enby etc.')

I'm just kinda scared to ask my friends if they feel like this cos I'm not really close to anybody and theyd probably just think I'm weird and avoid me, and I'm not sure if I'm just making it up, yk? Like because there's so much stuff online about new identities and stuff I'm just being 'dragged in' (at least, that's what my mum thinks/will think 🙄, same with my ✨️mental health issues✨️, but that's a whole nother issue lol)

Anyway sorry for the half-rant, I hope you have a fantastic day! 😊

And don't forget about the game...

Hi love!

Okay so the thing with dysphoria is it differs for everyone. So I can share my experience with it, and what I know about others, but I'm not a professional, and I can't speak for everyone. Just keep that in mind.

From what I know- yes, most people feel it in waves. Some days are worse than others and things can set it off. It's not a constant same-level feeling.

But it can also be diagnosed. It can be diagnosed for the same reason other things are diagnosed- some people want a name for the feeling, some people need it diagnosed to seek out treatment (hormone therapy) or for a host of other reasons.

Yes, yes can experience dysphoria when you're not trans. For example, if a cis man put on a dress, fake breasts, and a long wig, he might feel dysphoric. Maybe not, though. Not all trans people feel dysphoric, either.

But what you're describing- sometimes wishing you were born as a guy? That might be something to explore. I know you're afraid to talk to people irl about it and that's okay, but it could be helpful to just do some research about being outside the binary. Only if you want to, though. If you don't want to, that's completely your decision, and no pressure at all <3 You also don't have to identify any particular way, you know? it's all about what's comfortable for you.

Naming you star anon!

[highladyluck]

13 books tag game, tagged by @amemoryofwot and @asha-mage (incidentally I typoed that as "amemeryofwot" which would be an excellent sideblog concept, maybe snatch that one up?)

1) Last book I read:

Mistress of the Empire by Raymond Feist & Janny Wurts (at the time I started filling this out, anyway… I've been working on this ask for several days) This whole trilogy was a delight, thanks to @sixth-light for telling me I would love Mara!

2) A book I recommend:

The Best of All Possible Worlds by Karen Lord. It's a quiet little road trip romance exploring grief & diaspora, in a setting that I can best describe as 'if Madeline L'Engle had been in charge of Star Trek worldbuilding'. (If you squint you can see analogues to humans, Vulcans, Romulans, and Orions, but the tone is reminiscent of L'Engle.) There are sequels that follow different characters but this is the first one and it works as a standalone. I feel like it has a lovely light touch on some intense subjects and I appreciate the way each chapter works as a separate story while still fitting into the whole.

3) A book that I couldn’t put down:

I remember staying up past my bedtime for The Monster Baru Cormorant, I think? At the very least, that's where we first get my beloved Tau-Indi, and the pacing on the climax is kinda weird, about 2/3rds in, so I think I would have read through to it without stopping. I don't know if this question is supposed to be about compellingness or pacing? Probably compellingness, I think I'm weirdly fixated on structure when I read things. But sometimes I think books you 'can't put down' are at least partially that way because there's no damn place to breathe, and I don't entirely approve.

4) A book I’ve read twice (or more)

I see from literally everyone who has tagged me in this that this is one of the two free spaces for Wheel of Time, but I'll switch it up: Lifeboats by Diane Duane. It's set between Young Wizards 9 & 10 and deals with an emergency response team permanently evacuating an entire alien population from a natural disaster (RIP their moon and also consequently their planet). This novel is a huge comfort read for me and is undoubtedly the Young Wizards work I've read the most. I don't really know how to explain what it means to me… I wish I had had it when I was living and working in a foreign country.

5) A book on my TBR

A friend recommended Cahokia Jazz (in general, not to me specifically) and it sounds SO MUCH like my jam. I suspect if I can't find it at my library soon, I'll end up buying the ebook.

6) A book I’ve put down

Can't think of a recent one, but if I hadn't forced myself to finish reading it because it was a Hugo Award nominee, I would have DNF'd Project Hail Mary.

7) A book on my wish list

I wish for more Baru Cormorant but I also literally cannot imagine how Seth is going to write that next book. So like, I'm girding my loins for Baru #4 either 15 years from now or never.

8) A favourite book from childhood

When I was really little I loved the Berenstain Bear books and my mom HATED that I loved them ("they were so badly written!" - my mom the children's librarian) but she bought them for me anyway. That's love.

9) A book you would give a friend

You all need to read Middlemarch by George Eliot. I don't care what stage of life you're at, you will find something resonant in it. Read it now, and read it again in 20 years. Give it to recent high school grads. Give it as a wedding present. Take it to the beach. BUT I am specifically recommending it to the WoT contingent, because the characters are so good!

10) The most books you own by a single author

It's actually either Diane Duane or Terry Pratchett, and DD's probably winning because I don't have every Pratchett book but I do have almost every DD book including tie-in novels.

11) A nonfiction book you own

Four Lost Cities: A Secret History of the Urban Age by Annalee Newitz. I don't read a ton of nonfiction but the writing is very engaging and I think cities are neat.

12) what are you currently reading

I'm between books but I just finished The Imposition of Unnecessary Obstacles (as I am writing this part several days after question 1). I didn't like it as much as the first one, The Mimicking of Known Successes, but I think it's just a taste thing. I didn't like being in Pleiti's POV very much, her overthinking is too much like mine and it alternately stresses me out and makes me angry, because I can see the assumptions/unhelpful thought patterns but I can't fix them. Obviously, to draw that reaction from me the characters are well-defined, and I like everything else about the series, I just hope it goes back to Mossa's POV.

13) what are you planning on reading next?

WHEN WILL 'RED SIDE STORY' BY JASPER FFORDE REACH MY HOUSE??? I have been waiting like 15 years for this sequel to Shades of Grey and the entire point of preordering it was so I could have it ASAP. I could have walked into a bookstore on May 9th and walked out with it, and instead I won't get it until tomorrow. >:(

I think I am supposed to add a shelfie? The organizing principles(s) of this shelf in my bedroom are very weird…. Classics/adventure, fantasy, popular science writing? Someday I need to reshelve everything in the house according to size/favoriteness/genre/theme/vibes (in that order) but I haven’t felt like it.

I think pretty much everyone I was going to tag already got tagged, so whoever want to do it, go ahead!

[good-to-drive]

Would love to hear your thoughts on if any of the Beatles were neurodivergent :)

This is SUCH a good question, but I'm afraid I'm probably not able to answer it very well because I don't know enough about the underlying subject matter. My thoughts are under the cut, but in this case I don't actually recommend reading them lol.

My irl friend is pretty convinced that Paul is on the autistic spectrum, so I'm semi-familiar with the arguments there, but she was also convinced that I'm on the autistic spectrum until I saw an autism specialist who said there was no fucking way lol. In fairness to her I was misdiagnosed with autism by two separate therapists (not psychiatrists) because I have social anxiety, OCD, OCPD, and an aversion to physical touch after getting smacked around a bit. And actually some of that may also describe Paul, but obviously it's not enough to say someone is autistic or I'd still be diagnosed with autism.

I know there's also some speculation that George was on the autistic spectrum, but again it's really hard to say and I feel like I in particular can't speak to it because I've only experienced being misdiagnosed with autism. So I know more about things that can be mistaken for autism than the actual condition. As long as we're talking about George, though, what stands out to me with him (that I wish the community would engage with a little more) is the stuff he says that sounds like depersonalization, or at least it sounds like something I described to a psychiatrist once and he said it was probably depersonalization... but I'm actually not sure he understood what I was saying and regardless I have no idea what to do with that information lmao.

In regards to John, there's some quote from him where he talks about being able to sense/know things as a child that other people didn't know and how it was isolating and scary and then it just kinda went away when he grew up, but I can't for the life of me find it again. (If anyone could point me towards that quote I would hugely appreciate it btw.) I remember reading it and thinking holy shit that's exactly how I characterized my childhood until my old therapist made me start explaining what exactly I sensed/knew and was like yeah that shit is psychosis lmao. But it also might just be a weird description of magical thinking, because it's actually totally healthy and normal to engage in a lot of magical thinking during childhood and sometimes it's hard to tell whether it's an actual psychosis. Anyways, the fact that John might have experienced delusions during his adulthood would probably indicate that he didn't have childhood psychosis because if it presents that young it almost always goes away by your mid/late 20s. It's the shit that first presents in your mid/late 20s that you deal with for the rest of your life.

Regardless, saying "I relate to x quote/description and I have x diagnosis so they have it too" is probably a pretty terrible way to analyze these people. But ideally that's not what I said. Or at least it's not what I'm trying to say.

[townofcadence]

11. When do you think a ship is not fruitful for your muse development or enjoyable to write?

Munday Questions

Hmm! A good question. I don't really fully know, because I think I leave it very much to the muse's discretion lol. I don't tend to go into interactions planning to ship. So with that, I kinda end up not knowing what to expect! I could probably tell you by interaction how that's affected the character and their feelings on the other person, but even the littlest or biggest thing might change the whole trajectory. Tbh I think everyone brings something interesting and unique to the table, so in most cases i'm open to it if the chemistry happens and it feels natural regardless of speed it happens at. It's fun because personalities can have some real interesting chemistry narratively you don't expect!

BUT that's kind of a side tangent. The best answer I can come up with is if it feels like the mun is trying to force it? Like if the mun tries to undo every conflict, especially if their muse is instigating it, either by having it erased, or their character immediately trying to fix it? Or making their muse behave out of character to make something happen (especially if it aligns with the muse they're interested in's wants/needs), and coming up with reasons why after the fact? Even going out of character and basically asking what the right answer should be so their character can say the right thing, so they can get extra points with the other muse. It feels kinda metagamey and trying to force a good relationship to happen, and it feels inauthentic and kinda makes me feel weird and uncomfortable sometimes?

The other thing is if some of that stuff happens and it feels like the only thing the other mun is after is a ship between the muses. I think shipping stuff can be a neat side effect of rp! But my focus is on characters and how they change and grow and bond when connecting to others, and the constant ever changing growth that comes with being a person. So when someone is clearly there for the ship, most of the time they don't know my version of a character, just either the canon version they're interested in or in OC cases, that they like their look. They'll usually approach and immediately ask to ship, and I'm just not comfy without at least having some kind of interaction first, even if we establish a baseline to make that easier and not need an introduction thread that's an in-character first meeting.

Gosh, that reminds me of a story i find funny though.

It was yearssss ago and it still kinda makes me laugh at the absurdity. I had yet at the time the ability to say no to anyone. someone approached asking for an rp. I agreed, and they immediately wanted to ship, and toss Artair and his gang into a ship with their oc. I was kinda like 'haha i don't know your muse' and they were like Okay. Then just remove the single woman in the ship. Which is bonkers as a response? And i was like 'well maybe we should have them interact first, Artair is demi' which they they asked me to explain why he was demi, how it worked and why that would prevent him from liking thier OC, and what specific traits that they should describe their muses having so I could decide if he'd like him--- and then when i said i didn't know if hearing the traits and not seeing them in action would work, they were like 'okay just put him with the other guy not artair' .

i didn't know how to say no so i just tried to make it sound really boring if i wrote him, so they changed their mind and agreed to just a platonic thread with artair. And then immediately jumped into stuff like a demon chopping off all their limbs and artair needing to make prosthetics and attach them to this character. I distinctly remember that they said artair could surgically attach them and i said I didn't think artair could do that part, and they went 'well then who can' and i was like '.....a doctor?' with the most bafflement lol. It was wild, and my one friend still jokingly says 'paging doctor art-io' as a joke (art-io was because I said artair was as qualified to be a real doctor as dr. Mario was when i told them, i think xD)

That mun went to eat dinner and never came back to the conversation, which i was alright with. Then six months later they reached out and asked to rp again, and i told them if they want to rp, I specifically don't ship-- and they never responded and i never heard from them after that xD

[firstdivisiongirl]

hello^^ id like to request a romantic match-up if its okay with you My pronouns are she/her and im an asexual. My MBTI is INTP and so please understand if im not able to identify myself that great. Yk the kid in the class who doesn't do any hw but passes all of the subject? Well yes thats me. Also im great at mathematics. I have kind of strict parents but more protective type so im not allowed to go to any person's house. I get told by my friends that when they first saw me i looked like a rly cold or egoistical person and all , as for my best friend (i asked her) to describe me in 1 word she said "comfort" so hope that makes sense. Im 5'2 tall... really bad eyesights like -6.25 and 5.75 (if i can remember correctly) . Im not really the outstanding type, but i do have some amount of confidence honestly. Also im a Christian and hope you get what i mean^^ Im able to like uhh copy people's personality and i currently have "the perfect girl" personality copied from the class president. I kinda sound like only complimenting myself soo here's some weaknesses or things like that I procrastinate so much and mostly doesn't get hw done until the deadline (im trying to stop even in the littlest). Horrible sleep schedule. And sometimes pushes ppl away out of frustration. I hate gathering any useless attention (like social anxiety). And mostly i do not feel much emotion until i like be burst of emotion. I really have a lot of great idea and is able to tell people if they're lying or not like kinda reading people but i dont really talk out loud about it, i only talk rarely about them out of fear they think im weird or smth because i was neglected and talked behind my back in 6th grade before. And a lazy fashion sense coming in!!!!!!!! i usually just wear baggy clothes or like wear smth the same mostly because im too tired to make another outfit and memorize it I like yanderes pretty much (crybaby, possessive, manipulating , clingy, obsessive type...) Deep inside im really clingy, childish and a sore loser , i don't really realize my surroundings so i tend to forget roads a lott I can be a motormouth if im comfortable by it and can be really quiet , some things depends on my mood tho Weirdly scared of person using the stairs behind me , bcz its really creepy. If a conversation annoyes or bothers me i really try and make excuses to get out of it.. Hope u can get smth out with my horrible explanation TT

and please remember to take care of urselff!!!!!! its my first ask so im a bit nervous TT its currently 10;37PM here, so have a great day and good day/night/morning!!!!!!^^ (me trying to come cheery and nice as much as possible)

cyaaa!!!!!:DD

Hey there. I try to take care of myself, but I am always a mess lol. Don't be nervous about asking. You did a good job. So onto the Tokyo Revengers matchup!

You Got...

Taiju Shiba!!!

He is a tough nut to crack, but I think he would love you.

Both of you are religious and would bond over that and go to church together.

He needs a a partner who is confident.

He'd love how you can be anything you want to be and copy others.

I feel like he needs someone who can read people well, since he is a lot. You would be able to understand what's going on in his mind. Good luck, I think it is scary in there.

Would scare off people who walk behind you

He's the type of guy who would make sure you never get lost

Wouldn't really care if you were in tight clothes or baggy clothes. He loves you for you. (If he cared about looks he would have kicked Inupi out for looking like discount Sabo lol)

Dates would be anything you want. But there must be good food!

Would like your clinginess. That means he gets to spend more time with you.

I hope you like it!

[sw33t-oubliette]

anyways onto them, sabrina aden (also known as "sabie") is a self described "internet sleuth", she was initially made as a extension of me, but she's her own beast now; considering what happens in the events of drowsytowngames.com (the name of my hatchetfield unfiction thing) i don't know what that reflects in me lmao. she's chronically online and slowly goes mad johnny truant style in her attempts to uncover a old flash games site she played back in the 2000s. she has like this undying need for knowledge - to "see what happens next" - and that sometimes supercedes her weird savior complex; where she HAS to save everyone and stuff. this leads to stuff that are spoilers :( but lets just say. have you watched madoka magica. it's like that. she's meant to live in hatchetfield, the narrative wants her to, but she lives in some bumfuck city in washington

the other girl, avery lemmington, is sabie's best friend since diapers - she's in the dark for most of the text, only finding out about all that in the lategame. she's...boring? she's treated by the lords in black like how andrew hussie treated jade harley - ignored by the narrative. she kinda is....masking....SUPER HARD? it's to the point where she kinda forgot who she really is. she sometimes just. sits in her room, staring at the wall, lost in thought. she's kinda depressed but she hides it. she hides a LOT of things lol. she's probably as messed up as sabie, but again, the narrative doesn't care about what happens in avery's life. her mom doesn't let her use the internet, she's like, technologically stuck in the 90s lol. she has a DS, she wants a 3DS but she doesn't have the money. i initially had a idea that pokey targeted her - like a silly paulkins parallel, but i decided it's more interesting if the lords were just. uninterested. esp since the lords kinda are also indicative of the narrative, at least in drowsytowngames.com.

and they're in yurriiiii

!!!!! swag !!!!!!!!!!! they sound super interesting literally ilove your ideasssss rahhhh ....