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Naruto's Voice
Part One of Who Knows
January's Rambles Day Four
Word Count: 644
Summary: What if Naruto made contact with the Kyuubi years before canon? What if the Kyuubi cared?
Naruto's Voice
The voice was one of the few things that lasted in Naruto’s life. The food sold to him by the grocer would rot away in a day or two. The things the drunks would throw changed by day or hour. Naruto never knew how long he’d be able to play with the other kids before their parents pulled them away. But the voice was always there – always rumbling in the back of his mind.
When the grocer’s handed him milk past its use-by date, the voice would grumble about how, one day, Naruto would get to taste milk fresh from the goat. When the meat squished alarmingly in his hands, it promised to teach him how to catch his own meat, taste the rich flavours of goat and steer and fish. When Naruto travelled home with two weeks’ worth of ramen for a month’s worth of yen, he didn’t think about the repetitive meals in his future, but of sweet berries plucked straight from the bush, fish caught fresh from the stream, crisp vegetables pulled ripe from the earth. Sometimes, while eating his ramen, Naruto imagined he was eating berries and fish and vegetables instead of soggy noodles and broth. Sometimes he could almost taste it.
If the drunks threw rocks, the voice would judge their aim. If the drunks threw half-finished bottles, the voice would scoff about the wasted drink. If the drunks threw harsh words – demon, murderer, freak – the voice would drown them out with nicer ones – treasure, precious, mine. But it was when the rocks and bottles and fists connected that the voice would get angry. Get livid. The voice would howl about those spineless worms, daring to harm my vessel, my treasure, and how they were a waste of chakra and air, not worthy of being in our presence. It would vow to avenge Naruto, to return the pain they caused you a hundred-fold before allowing them the peace of the Shinigami’s embrace, often at a volume that drowned out the violent fantasies of his attackers.
The voice was quieter when Naruto played with other kids. It would stick to deep rumbles as he ran, high yips when he got close to catching someone during tag, a low croon when he tripped and fell, a rolling chuckle when he missed his target. Loud snarls would warn of the parents’ approach. Every cruel word was answered by kinder ones – talented child, brave warrior, precious treasure. Every mean look was answered by a warmth in his stomach and whispered reassurances – you are loved, you are adored, you are wanted. And when Naruto was left alone in the playground, the voice would encourage him to play anyway. See how fast you can climb the tree, it told him, see how many times you can run around the clearing, see how many cartwheels you can do. In the sandpit, Naruto would try and sculpt the voice from its vague instructions – I have four legs, like a cat, and no, my ears are longer, like a pointy rabbit, and my face isn’t so flat, it’s longer than that. It was quiet for a moment when Naruto tried to make a tail. There was an upset feeling in his stomach that didn’t shift until he added another tail, and another, and another – until there was a somewhat-cat shaped creature curled up in the middle of the sandpit, long nose touching the tips of nine tails. By its belly, Naruto placed a tiny little sand-Naruto with tiny seeds for eyes.
The sand-Naruto looked cozy. It looked like it belonged there, protected in the circle of the voice’s body. Longing caught in the real-Naruto’s throat. In the back of his mind, the voice purred and rumbled and promised.
One day, my treasure. One day, I will no longer be caged, and I will grant you everything you deserve.
To be continued... eventually
#January's Rambles#Naruto#fanfic#naruto uzumaki#kyuubi#managed to write today#144 words over which is nice#this has been bouncing around in my head for a while#sorry for the abrupt end#kinda just lost steam
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Soap honestly thinks that he's very terrible to be around, like just his general presence is annoying. It's honestly to the point that soap doesn't even realize he's being self depreciating
So he cannot fathom why ghost...? Hangs around him so much.... does he like... hate himself or something??? Should soap be worried about him? Does he need to go tell price that Ghost is being mean to himself by subject himself to soap's presence?
When ghost initiates something with him one night he goes a long with it but only because he assumes that either ghost didn't want to deal with strings attached (what with the mask and all that), or he was desperate and maybe everyone but him is too scared to touch the big bad ghost
When ghost asks for them to become more serious (it was always deadly serious for soap), he says yes even though he's SO confident that this could only end horribly for him.
Ghost really, honestly, struggles to get soap to see that it's really enjoyable to be around him. But slowly it starts to get better. Some days are better than others. And it's not perfect, but neither is Ghost.
Can you tell I like fuckin' with soap?
#ok it's not the best but i kinda lost steam halfway through bc I lost whatever the original end goal was#so just... act like it's not totally dogshite#john soap mactavish#simon ghost riley#soapghost#ghostsoap#ghoap#call of duty#cod#cod mw2#el rambles
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glass cathedral - an experiment in concepts and shapes and textures or whatever and refusing to ever ever finish the back of the build EVER
#mmmmmyea it’s a cathedral with a glass tower stuck in th middle of it. YUP. WHATTTTEVER!#needs 2 be powerwashed ASF#minecraft#mineblr#minecraft build#minecraft cathedral#bsl shaders#lode-builds#interior? i hardly know her.#do not ask about what the inside of this build looks like matter of fact dont even THINK about it!!#this is the biggest build ive made in a while and im happy with it but i thjnk it can also be improved#i got off to a great start w the shapes and stuff but kind of lost steam towards the top#and texturing it was harder than i thought itd be thats usually the easier part for me!!#idk i feel like i kinda just had a cool concept then lodeified it with the pipes and stuff so ill probably come revisit it later#and make it even awesomer#but im still glad I made something so BIG at the very least HEEHEE
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i just spent ages looking for the post, i swear i posted about it when i broke my beloved fish plate like a year ago, but now he's finally back together! i just have to wait a week or so for the resin to cure , and then i can go in and wipe away the excess gold. even though the process was frustrating and VERY time-consuming and i lost motivation halfway through and let it sit on the shelf unfinished for like 14 months, i'm glad i went to the trouble of learning how to actually kintsugi it with resin and gold instead of rushing it with epoxy and mica powder.
the before pics (freshly broken and after the initial gluing):
#kinda wish i'd gotten pics of him when i'd filled in the voids and done all the coats of resin on top and sanded them down#the different types of resin were different colors and after sanding it had kind of a marbled look#the process basically goes like: filing down sharp edges to create a gap for the gold to show#gluing everything back together with resin mixed with flour and water to make it strong and sticky#filling in the voids with resin mixed with fine sawdust to make it strong (this part took the longest bc you can't put the paste on thickly)#creating a uniform surface with resin mixed with (i think) fine clay powder#creating a smooth finish by alternately painting on layers of pure resin and sanding it down once cured#(the resin will wrinkle if applied too thickly or if it's too humid)#(this is also used to smooth out the rough areas that the resin/clay step couldn't fix)#and finally painting on a final layer of resin and applying gold powder and burnishing it slightly#each layer of resin takes about a week to cure#if my apartment was more humid and if i hadn't lost steam i think this would've taken me... three months#and thats assuming i could work on it every weekend#seriously it's only worth doing if it's a piece you really love#alternatively if you didn't care about looks you could just stop after sticking it together but idk how food safe it would be#ALSO. BIG word of warning.#the uncured resin could give you a really nasty painful rash if you touch it with bare skin#it is not a joke#once it's cured tho it's inert
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I kinda hate how the finale of ghosts killed my enthusiasm for anything ghosts since it....urgh
#not tagging#genuinely no hate but god#i feel empty without it and i miss the joy it brought me#i am looking forward to the day i can go back to it and enjoy it again but right now i am quite apathetic towards ig#its still an amazing show but idk it lost so much steam at the end#and the conflicting endings just eh.#its not bad but somehow perfectly made me move on so fast i havent been able to enjoy it since#i want to write thomas thorne bc rogue but ghosts is so dead in my brain#am i the only person like this#also kinda sad the german ghosts havent got any non white ghosts either....#anyway
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A woowoo for your Wednesday
#the way I was in procreate flash banging myself#had the brightness cranked up all the way for this drawing but when I left the file I would just blind myself#wolfwood#nicholas d. wolfwood#nicholas d wolfwood#trigun#trigun fanart#trigun wolfwood#trigun 1998#wolfwood trigun#dad bod wolfwood#dad bod wolfwood my beloved#wolfwood stealer of hearts and haunter of narratives#I kinda lost steam on shading ngl#mullet wolfwood#mulletwood dare I say#dad bod wolfwood truther#wolfwood wednesday#el woowoo#el woowoo wednesday
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im GOING to write today ........ i WILL !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
#the sky speaks#i havent used twitter in so long and lemme say i missed using tumblr like twitter. just putting my long rambly notes into a single post#anyways onto the rambling#i havent been writing or drawing like at alllll#too busy#also was so sick#but now that i have my new job and i know what my schedule is gonna sorta look like#3 days at joann 2 days cleaning w mom and 2 days nothin#PLUS i dont have to spend money on therapy til after the new year now#and mom is coming home and she seems rly optimistic abt sobriety#im feeling like i can finally create again !!!!#i have 2 creative presents i need to do before christmas#but aside that and 1 prompt still in my inbox (that i rly wanna do anyways) everything else i wanna do is all for Me :)#im kinda put out bc a lot of stuff i wanted to do this fall got shelved.. i wanted to make bday art of kirishima xinyan and kazuha.#i wanted to open comms. but im way too rusty w art rn to be confident doing that. maybe after new years?#god i wanted to come out to my parents properly. the day my mom went to rehab was national coming out day.#it was also one of my last therapy sessions. i came out to her instead#i still managed to do stuff tho. started my new job and got together with friends TWICE !! and i've kept up w doing my moms job alone#idk where im going w this anymore ive lost steam. but yeah. i wanna write today! idk what yet. i hav so many wips i could work on..
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hi!! look at my cool kirby walking simulator fangame i made over the course of last year!! i worked very hard on it!! it's downloadable for windows and linux!
#kirby series#kirby#kirby's adventure#my art#pixel art#it's got a little jank to it but i think it works about as well i could have hoped for.#unfortunately due to “my first time using this game engine proper” brain the two things i'd really like to have added if I could-#those being support for other screen resolutions and input remapping#were kinda. not something I considered at all#and trying to add them in retroactively was a bit of a nightmare#and i kinda lost steam on it and didnt work on the project for a long while#but i figured i'd rather have a release thats rough around the edges than an almost-perfect video game languishing alone on my hard drive#so i'm putting it out as is.#i hope you like it !!!#i learned a lot about godot engine making this thing. hopefully soon i will make even more cool things with godot!!#i can even try godot 4 now!! i've got no idea what that's like because when i tried to port this over to it all the visuals broke somehow#so i just stuck with godot 3.5#anyway. please enjoy!!!#Youtube
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me, waking up in a cold sweat: Didi is just Snooki if she were French
#ooc#They are the same size and shape. Their hair holds secrets.#This is inspired by a quote I saw by snooki that was like#“what are you doing? If you wanted to make out just ask. I would say yes” and that's very on Brand#that being said: I STILL have to finish dropping all the opens for my muses. I kinda lost some steam with that BUT#reply to my opens my guys... Send memes....etc.
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#hi I'm alive still#just quiet#haven't been very in the f/o community for a bit#I still love my f/os I just kinda. Lost social steam for it I guess#Just know I love y'all /platonic and that I hope you're all okay rn. Life is rough.
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stickered up my ukelele (that I don’t know how to play) a bit cause I have so many stickers around the house with nowhere else to put them lol
the painted bit on front and armada games sticker are old, the manatee + bat donuts are from the zoo, the scratch + owlbear were part of a bg3 set a friend gave me for my bday, and the other 2 I got at pride ✌️ ‘fuck desantis’ in st pete and ‘you make our city beautiful’ in orlando. sadly most of them are too big for the front of it though 😂
#like looking at all of these together it is PAINFULLY obvious I’m from florida. kinda love it kinda hate it lmaoooo#also I did try to learn ukelele at one point but I just. lost steam on it lol so now it just looks cute in my office.#anyway this was prompted by me being productive today! I cleaned up a bit and did some laundry! truly thriving on this day#personal
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need to get my MiA thoughts out somewhere because i’ve been thinking about it again and i have so few people to discuss it with (read: my singular friend who’s already heard my impassioned mini-rants after we finished watching the most recent season together).
children! they’re weak and fragile and completely and utterly powerless, and yet they’re also full of so much inner strength that they can overcome practically anything! perfectly exemplified by how riko and co. have managed to not only survive, but also continue on their journey despite the overwhelming odds stacked against them! riko’s unflinching optimism in the face of unspeakable horrors! reg’s enduring kindness and empathy! nanachi’s wit and resourcefulness! these three have made it further than hundreds of maybe thousands of people from all around the world, and they’re all like 10-12 years old!! probably. i’m not actually sure; i could look it up but i’m always afraid of googling MiA and getting spoiled somehow ahsdjakl
i mean, just going into the abyss is a death sentence in and of itself. the abyss being this strange, beautiful world that ultimately doesn’t give two shits about the fact that they’re children, because nothing does! being young doesn’t protect them! people look at them and pity them but won’t shield them from the horrors of the world because they’re unavoidable! especially for children! because this is a world that values children as a resource, one that’s as precious as it is fairly easy to come by! because cave raiders keep heading into the abyss and dying and leaving their children behind with nothing to do but follow in their footsteps! because the abyss is just filled to bursting with all sorts of wonderful treasures and children are taught to risk their lives to get their hands on as much as they can! for money and fame and glory!
they’re taken advantage of! in so many ways! by the adults that are supposed to be caring for them and protecting them! because they’re not seen as people, they’re seen as things, to be used and gotten rid of when they’re no longer useful! only there’s always a use for them because they’re so expendable and because people value them so much and yet so little that you’ve got guys like bondrewd going around, scooping up as many orphans as he can carry to take them down into the abyss and experiment on them as much as he damn well pleases! even though, in his own twisted way, he actually cares for those children, he’s still using them for his own selfish gain.
and children have so much untapped potential! they’re the only ones that can use those special-grade relics; those “cradles of desire��� will only grant their wishes, but it grants them in the worst possible ways! because how deeply might a child understand their own wants, their own desires? especially when they’re dealing with forces that no one truly understands?
children are as blessed as they are cursed! just by virtue of being children! in a world that won’t show them a single ounce of mercy! a world that robs them of every scrap of innocence they have! but that innocence doubles as a well of power that’s unlike any other! a great and terrible power!!
#tlldr being a kid in the mia world fucking sucks but you also might be able to become a god or something i don't know#i kinda lost steam toward the end of this lol#i'm not one of the only ones who thinks that the abyss is just one GIANT living creature right#like an old god or something#orth keeps fucking feeding it people but it also lures them in#and makes them sick?? apparently??? but only on their birthdays?!#the questions never end with this shit#the mysteries just keep piling up#man the wait for a new season is gonna kill me#unless the wait for new manga chapters does me in first#gotta pick up where i left off with it after the movie#made in abyss#made in abyss spoilers
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Why tye fuck am I crying over ninja clash in the land of snow???? I fucking love this movie so much. It's sooooo fucking good. It's definitely my favorite and it was only the first ever Naruto movie. Can you believe they peaked at the first fucking one??? Why is it so good??? Fuck man aaaaaa
#i admit ive only seen three shippuden movies. but not counting the last or road to ninja (cuz they seem so good but i still havent seen them#sadge i know) but for real i wanna say they peaked at the first one. and i say that as a BIG fan of the lost tower#which is admittedly kinda rushed so like yeah of course ninja clash in the land of snow is better. im just very biased about the lost tower#granted i am certainly biased about all the part 1 movies. i guess im biased about the movies in general tho#since they count as filler and im always defensive of filler#also its SO funny to me that the land of snow has steam trains and blimps and the movie says movies exist#when all that stuff doesnt get invented in canon until post shippuden#theres a full on novel where kakashi and guy go on a mission in a. blimp?? hot air plane or something#and like half the point of the plot is that ITS A NEW INVENTION.#and i think the nerd kid's dad from boruto (IM SORRY I CANT REMEMBER HIS NAME RN) like. invented trains i think??? or he invested in their#invention. and that like#mega related to his character as a rich tech guy's kid.#and i KNOW the land of snow is technologically advanced and also not canon. BUT LISTEN.#its just so funny to think that kakashi literally saw a fucking blimp like 8 years prior and then proceeded to be impressed when#going on a mission to protect like some rich lady on her trip to the take off of the world first blimp or hot air plane#whatever the plot of that novel was.#like. its just fucking funny.#i dont even remember if regular television is confirmed to exist pre-boruto. outside like#cctv for the kages that we saw like. once? in fucking. season 1 or something.#personal
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do i pull a if on a winter's night a traveller with this book and just let my eyes glaze over the words in record speed. do i quit it. or do i finish it like a normal human being.
#its solaris and it was extremely appealing for the first 30 pages and then it had a super vile racist passage and i lost all steam#btw i say 'pull a if on a winters night etc' bc thats how i read its entire second half. i just wanted to get it over with that night.#bc it sucks. i like calvino well enough and i might revisit it in a few years who knows but it was so so sucks#manic pixie dream girl ass book. i left such a negative review on storygraph lmao its kinda funny looking back#''only a man — not any man; only a literature professor considering an affair — could call this a masterpiece'' um go off queen#its my lowest rating ever; i usually give 2 stars for books i finish and dislike but it made my blood boil
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fucking WHATEVER
#bwark#just lost 3 pokemon at once on my rejuv randomizer. one was my starter and the other two were legendaries#ehh i'm kinda losing steam with it anyway because i've been skipping the story since 13.5 is coming out this year#and i wanna replay it fully when it comes out
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well at least we’ve always got fanfic
#I have a next chapter for both fics from last week just never finished editing bc part 2 dropped and I lost steam#but despite all the turmoil I’ve really enjoyed writing#and while some of it is ooc now… I’ll just keep going and live with it#also two scenes ended up almost happening the same and it’s like nooo I swear I wrote this first lol#but now I feel like I need to rework it#also I’m realizing this post sounds like it’s about bridgerton and it kinda is#but it’s more about hannibal akfhssjdj#and the weird shit the actors said at the con
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