#kenma is from May and the other two are July

[anoant-haikyuu-dump]

First time drawing them vs recent time

[mackjlee9]

Upcoming event!

(almost 2.2k wha-?!)

So, I've recently reached 2.1k followers which is... a little crazy when I think about it, and I wanted to do something special, however, I've never done something like this so... I might fuck it up.

But! Under the cut you would find the details of this event, including the rules, prompts and the quick navigation to the event!

2.1k Followers Event

Don't forget to check my general writing rules before sending in your request (especially the Dont's, they're very important) Only sub/dom!Top!Male!Reader.

Writing Prompts;

Smut Prompts / you can change daddy for; master, sir, or just (M/n)-me/I.

Fluff Prompts / pt.ii

Angst Prompts

You can request any prompt, even mix some of them two (smut&fluff; angst&fluff), and the max is 4-5 per request.

You can only request up to three characters in your request, and they have to be from the same anime/game, however, if you want the same prompts with characters from different "worlds", you can request again. Example; 'smut-fluff prompt with kenma, malleus, langa', you're gonna have to send them separately; 'smut-fluff prompt with kenma/malleous/langa'.

Do not ask me to write one or the other, because I WILL write them both! I don't like choosing what you want me to write, so just tell me what you want. Of course, if one of the characters is from an anime/game I don't know/like or haven't watched/played I won't write and I would make it clear.

Anime/Games Characters;

I'm part of many, many fandoms, so I'll have to narrow the list a bit, however, I'm more focused in bolded titles.

Twisted Wonderland

Jujutsu Kaisen

Haikyuu!!

Punishing Gray Raven

Boku no Hero Academia

Tokyo Revengers

Sk8

Obey Me!

Genshin Impact

If you need a quick navigation to this event in particular, you'll find every post with this tag; #.mackjlee9's 2k event.

Requests will be open from the 30th (June) -of course, you can still send them before, I'll start publishing them next month-, 'till the end of July, most likely until the 31st, but request may close a little before.

I'm not 100% percent sure I'll be able to write every single request I get, but I will try! After all, I don't go to school nor have a job, so I'm free 24/7!

Let me know if you wanna be tagged in all the posts, or just some in particular, e.i; a certain character, an anime/game in particular, or just in the genre of the post.

If anyone has any other ideas of what I can add to this event, don't think twice before telling me! I want to understand more about this types of things and you if know or have experience with something like this, I would love the feedbacks and advice ☺!

(Argentina's age of consent is a little weird, so for sexual content the character would be/has to be 16 or above, don't judge me for this)

[sweetlavenderwritings]

hq boys & what their love would feel like

A/N: having trouble finishing my last two birthday specials for kenma :(( trying to get rid of writer’s block with this and a couple of requests, hoping this works..

Pairings/s: kita shinsuke x reader, akaashi keiji x reader, miya atsumu x reader, miya osamu x reader, aone takanobu x reader, tendou satori x reader, kozume kenma x reader

Word Count: 603

Tags: fluff, unestablished & established relationships, romance, love, mutual pining

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˚✩ Kita Shinsuke- it’s a soft, familiar warmth that oozes from your fingertips. like thick fuzzy socks on winter, or a nostalgic song you used to listen everyday. there is deep adoration and fondness you share between the two of you, communicated through small gestures such as tucking a hair into one’s ear or kissing one’s knuckles as you both walk home.

it’s a quiet feeling, a thread of never ending contentment as you both relish in each other’s presence, taking your time in loving every inch of your togetherness. 

˚✩ Akaashi Keiji- it’s unspoken, unannounced, but never non-existent. like shinsuke’s, its quiet. a vacuum of nothing but you and him. 

what you have together is something minimal that speaks volumes, a trade of discreet kisses and notes stuck to lunches bidding the best day. sometimes it gets loud. louder than you’d both prefer, but it’s your own sound after all, so you don’t complain. 

dancing in your balcony with the softest music won’t hurt nobody.

˚✩ Miya Atsumu- now this, is a love that begs to be noticed, to be acknowledged, purely for the sake of claiming a happiness that not everyone can enjoy.

it’s all playful banter and joyful interactions in any setting, a comfortable stretch of your own atmosphere you carry everywhere. it brightens like a child’s delight at new toys, or the explosive sparks of fireworks in the fourth of july. 

loud, but beautiful nonetheless.

˚✩ Miya Osamu- it’s a tangible ball of yarn woven into a lulling quilt used for winter. it seeks to comfort and warmth, big enough for the two of you to lie comfortably with each other.

like hot ginger tea to soothe your sore throat, or hot baths that eases up your aching muscles. your love for each other is a remedy, a calm you both reside in to face the outside’s storm.

˚✩ Aone Takanobu- this speaks pure innocence, a newfound feeling that’s both terrifying and captivating.

it’s threading on unknown territories, chests filled with determination to map out every inch of each other to claim a mutual understanding where the both of you can kiss and love at ease.

hands can get shaky, but that’s okay. sooner or later, one will find the courage to reach out and grasp onto what the other is trying to say.

˚✩ Tendou Satori- it’s unexpected but profound, somehow it feels like fate tied your strings together years ago, taking a while to finally unravel and pull you both in close.

at first it’s wary, hesitation and nervousness shying you both to even meet eye to eye. perhaps its the unfortunate circumstances he’s suffered that hinder your path, or your fear of hurting what’s already been hurt.

it takes time, soon enough, your worlds will come to a screeching halt, then finally let the other in.

˚✩ Kozume Kenma- it demands nothing, but content with what you both offer.

it’s tiptoeing on each other’s boundaries, a shared respect for what you’re both comfortable with. this does not mean a lack of intimacy, rather, it’s a silent agreement on how you speak your love language.

it may seem inconvenient and lacking for others, but for you both its the next best thing. your embraces and loving gazes mean more than what most would consider, a deep understanding that there is only so much you can give and its okay.

so when you both lean in for a kiss, it feels like time stands still, leaving you both to take in and relish in the smallest things the world overlooks. 

[remuswriting]

So, I’ve decided to write up this post about my pet peeves even though literally no one asked.  This focuses on a lot of things but the majority of it speaks about male readers.  I’ve noticed the majority of people who write male reader are cishet girls and while it’s great that more male reader content is being made, the content is not always the best when it comes to accuracy.  These are all things I’ve noticed as a gay man and I feel like should be addressed and fixed.

Something to keep in mind is that I say gay man throughout this but you can put in any sexuality or gender (besides cishet) in there that makes more sense for you.  Obviously mlm doesn’t mean gay men but gay relationship because man loves man.  Just wanted to put that disclaimer out there.

Submissive Reader

Okay, so the reader being submissive is totally cool and everything but not when it’s literally every single male reader post out there.  Now, submissive in this case isn’t just sexually but ‘personality’ as well. The media depicts a lot of gay men as very feminine and over the top or incredibly soft, which everyone says is submissive.  This idea feeds into heteronormativity, which means “denoting or relating to a world view that promotes heterosexuality as the normal or preferred sexual orientation.” You could also just say that it’s forcing straight roles onto lgbt people, even though they’re not straight.

The reader doesn’t need to be all soft spoken and uwu just because you want the Haikyuu guy to be the dominant one in the relationship.  Personality doesn’t go with what you’re like in bed because why would it be?  Do girls always act like the way you’re writing submissive male readers just because they ‘bottom?’  No, they don’t.  It’s very aggravating to read because it literally discredits every guy who doesn’t act or dress that way and may ‘bottom.’  I know gay guys who literally just wear ratty t-shirts, cargo shorts, and sandals they bought three years ago and drink beer like no one’s business. They’re still gay submissive men who are being looked over because people want to use heteronormativity when it shouldn’t be.

  Over Sexualization + Fetishism

This is not always the case but I’m going to mention it.  A lot of cishet women read or watch yaoi and find it so incredibly hot and then become obsessed with mlm relationships.  If that is your reasoning for writing male reader, then don’t. It’s already disgusting enough that me being in a relationship with another man has gotten me messages asking who tops and who bottoms and what the sex is like.  It’s really easy to see who sees mlm relationships as yaoi and fetishizes it and who sees mlm relationships as relationships between two men.  There are blogs who are ran by gay men and them posting nsfw things dealing with mlm is completely different than a woman doing so. We are not your fetish.

Also, the over sexualization of gay men is when you’re always thinking about mlm couples having sex and you have to make everything sexual is starting to become more and more prevalent in any fandom and real life, which is disgusting and ridiculous. When a mlm couple goes to the store to get groceries, don’t find some way to make it where they’re going to have rough sex when they get home.  Let them buy their fucking groceries and have a fluffy moment.  You ruin the quality of the writing when making everything sexual.

If you write smut, then make them use lube and a condom.  Spit hurts so fucking bad, an asshole isn’t like a vagina that self-lubricates, so use lube.  I’m literally just saying that I don’t know any gay men that would rather have spit be used to prep instead of lube.  Also, I know you all think it’s so hot for guys to come in each other, but it’s so unsanitary.  Of course, if they’re each other’s firsts, it’s not as disgusting (still disgusting) but if they’re not each other firsts; have them wear condoms.  They should be getting tested after every sexual partner to make sure they’re not getting any STDs.  There are some STDs that literally never go away and they need to wear a condom any time they have sex or else they could infect that other person.  Yes, I know that you’re writing where they’ve never had sex with anyone before but let’s be real with some of your prompts.  Majority of men have sex in college and when they got to bars, so it’s not unlikely for them to not be a virgin.

  Sexualizing Minors

I know everyone has an opinion on this, so here’s mine; don’t.  I don’t give two shits if it’s fictional, you are still sexualizing minors. I don’t understand why you are all so dead set on only writing them in high school when there is literally a whole time skip to use.  According to Japanese law, you become an adult when you’re 20, which means that high school guys should not have any smut written for them.

None of the Haikyuu boys were even thinking about sex in high school.  The fandom has made some of them sex gods when they were all volleyball losers who only thought about school and volleyball.  It’s confirmed Kuroo was in college prep classes and he also forced Kenma to be on the volleyball team.  He only thinks about school and volleyball, sorry guys. Ushijima is literally only volleyball and it is so funny you guys think he’s all sexual.  The guy is too stupid to realize common things about earth and it’s gravity, do you really think he’s going to be all ‘daddy’ with anyone?

Another thing is how I don’t see the appeal for anyone to have sex in the gym or club room or in public due to the number of germs there are.  This goes back to people over sexualizing mlm relationships but there’s no need to have so many public sex things written about high schoolers. Instead of doing all that weird shit, write for the Haikyuu guys when they’re 20+ and do like college AUs (my favorite) or just follow the time skip.  I promise you, it’s not that hard when there’s a whole Haikyuu wiki page just about the timeline that breaks everything down into years and months.

 Americanization

Buckle your seatbelts boys because this is going to be a long one.

I notice in nearly everything I read is that you guys Americanize it.  Sure, you don’t know Japanese culture, so you write what you know. This is really annoying though because you’re taking away from the culture Haikyuu comes from.  If you want to make it like it’s in the United States, then make it an alternate universe instead of doing whatever you’re doing.

I have been writing Haikyuu fanfiction for years and have done plenty of research when it comes to Japanese culture from Googling things to intense reading to taking notes from what I notice in different animes.  One thing I’ve been working on for awhile focuses on Hinata, who is a trans guy. There are a lot of people who would just make it as American as possible but I’ve been researching about how Japan is with the lgbt community.  Just because I want to write a character to be something doesn’t mean I’m going to Americanize it.  Let me share what I’ve read.

Gay marriage isn’t really a thing in Japan.  Two prefectures have it but it literally means about nothing when it comes to the government.  If they just want to get married because they really love each other, then that may work for them but they will not be seen as married to the government.  It is still taboo for people to be gay in Japan, so no one really screams it from the rooftops that they’re gay and dating someone of the same gender.  Transgender people are just now getting places to go to get hormone replacement therapy and if I remember correctly, it’s maybe a handful of places but at least one for sure.  LGBT things in Japan are not the same as they are in the United States, so don’t write it like it is.  I’ve been told I’m writing it that way to create angst when in reality it’s because that’s how it is over there.

I’m going to come off as rude here but how the fuck are you guys writing their schools wrong?  They don’t go to different classrooms each period; they literally stay in one class all day and the teachers change for each period.  This is one of my biggest pet peeves because why do you have to Americanize this thing when it’s literally clear as day something that doesn’t happen over in Japan. Here are some things about Japanese schools.

They start at 8:45am and end at 3:15pm.  Schools in Japan go from Monday to Friday but used to be Monday through Saturday. There are three terms: April to July, September to December, and then finally January to March.  Each term gets a report card and finals.  Classes are 40 minutes long with 10 minute breaks in between to do whatever as long as you’re back in your seat before the next class. Elementary and middle schools always had some type of field trip, so if you could always have reader meet one of the boys on the field trip because maybe both of their schools went to the same place.

It’s not that hard to look this stuff up.  To look all of that up, it took maybe 30 minutes because I was checking different sources to try to fact check somethings.  I’m just one for accuracy and it drives me nuts when someone doesn’t put in the same effort I did into making things as accurate as possible.

 Settings

I’ve already discussed school setting, so let’s go into some settings that are typically written incorrectly.  This is usually because people don’t have actual experience with that environment.

University

I can’t find just a whole lot all about university in Japan but I’ve found some, so I’ll share what I’ve found.  University students take fashion seriously because they’ve been forced to wear uniforms for the last six years.  In the United States, we value comfort over fashion and I’ll admit I’ve gone to lecture in pajamas before and not cared because it was an 8am class but it’s not like that in Japan.  Everyone tries to look as good as possible because they finally can.

Dorms are not like they are in the United States.  My living situation right now is more like theirs than the U.S. aka I live in an apartment by myself (I need a roommate though because rent is so fucking expensive). About every student lives in an apartment and there are no dorms unless you are a foreign exchange student and you’re still technically in an apartment but you have a roommate you didn’t pick. Characters can live in the same apartment complex if you want them to but Kenma literally lived in a house in his second year of university if you want to have that accuracy.

They don’t change their major once they start college.  As much as I could see some of them constantly changing their majors, you just don’t do that in Japan.  It’s a pretty weird concept because my mother changed her major six times before she stuck with nursing and I know a guy that has been at a two year college for five years because he keeps changing his major.  They decide what they want to do because they start university and have to hope they’re going to like it.

I read an article from someone who went to university in Japan and the entrance exams to universities are apparently the hardest part about university there.  You don’t have to really work much to pass classes in Japan because all you need to do is show up to get the units for the course.  Some classes don’t even require attendance, you just have to write a report by the end of the semester.  This is so different than university in the United States where you are literally drowning in homework every single day and debate on dropping out constantly.

Hospitals

As someone who has multiple family members who worked in hospitals, which made me be in hospitals constantly as a child, and had a lot of medical issues, it is the most annoying thing to see people write hospital wrong.  There is so much information online that you can look up as well as just asking people you know who have been in hospitals as either patients, visitors, or employees.  This is going to based off of American hospitals because I was having a difficult time finding things about

In regular hospitals, you cannot leave the floor without anyone knowing.  There is literally no way to break out of there without someone knowing. This applies to at night too because there are always nurses there at the nurses station because they have to check up on patients and give medication as well as help people go to the bathroom.  Doctors don’t stay at night because their shift is during the day.  You may not have the same nurse twice while in the hospital because they work 12 hour shifts.  I don’t know if this is the same system as in Japan but nurses don’t work every single day if they work in a hospital, they do have days off where other nurses will take their shifts.  In the United States, some hospitals have four 12 hour shift days in a row and then three free days.  Nurses change patients a lot because of the people taking that shift or they have to go work on a different floor.

You are required to eat, even if it’s through an IV.  Also, you always have an IV in your arm if you are admitted to the hospital because it’s just how it is.  Typically regular hospitals aren’t all that pretty and I’ve been to like dozens for multiple things, but psychiatric hospitals usually have the prettiest grounds. That’s just a random thing that I’ve observed in my 21 years of going to hospitals.

[hanwritesstuff]

2016 Fic Roundup!

Wow okay so first off this was my most productive fic year ever (yes i only started publishing stuff in 2015 it’s still true) and thank you to all 226 followers on here, all 3404 followers on my main, all 28 people subscribed to me on ao3, and everyone else who gave me a chance this year. You all rock <3

☆ Indicates the fics I’m most proud of

I Like... (bokuaka, 1.5k) - February 15

Written for tumblr user @malfettooru for the Haikyuu!! Valentine's Day Fic Exchange 2016!

Prompt: Person A starts to receive sticky notes in front of their locker door. They irk him at first but later guiltily admits that it’s cute and very heartwarming, though he has no idea who sends them. One day after practice ends, he caught the sight of Person B stealthily slipping a confession letter into his locker.

In which the mystery is solved before Akaashi even starts to investigate it.

☆ MitAoSI 2: Coherence (tsukkiyama w/ side kiyoyachi, bokuaka, kuroken, 47k) - Started November 15, 2015, finished February 22

You can fly as high as you want to, I'll be there to catch you if you fall.

In which Tsukishima Kei falls asleep in a limo, runs faster than he's ever run before, remembers just how adorable he was at age twelve, finds out his time at the top is limited, and realizes he might be okay with that.

Final Destination (tsukkiyama, 1.2k) - February 28

Yamaguchi says he can't do double replacement reactions.

Tsukishima says he can't use a simile correctly.

Neither of them are correct in their assumptions.

☆ Smooth Seas (tsukkiyama, 1.7k) - March 13

Love sounds like crashing waves, the piano, and the sound of your voice...

Get Ready, Get Set... (gen, 1.9k) - March 14

It was a thing at Kitagawa Daiichi, apparently. Not like anyone else understands.

Or, the Pretty Setter Squad™ gets together for some reason and plays the worst best game ever.

A Kenma Sandwich (levkenhina, 755) - April 10

All Kenma ever wanted was to sleep.

drabbles from mitaosi-verse (tsukkiyama, 3.2k) - Started December 7, 2015, updated April 13

In which a pair of unlikely heroes gain a new asset, control their chemistry teacher's mind, have an extensive telepathic conversation instead of paying attention in class, become some of the most popular people in the country, and cuddle way more than should be legal.

Among other things.

A collection of mitaosi-verse drabbles and side stories.

(^_-) (kiyoyachi, 909) - April 17

From: Yachi Hitoka 4:42 PM Sugawara-san, can I ask you a weird question?

To: Yachi Hitoka 4:42 PM Yes...? What is it?

From: Yachi Hitoka 4:43 PM Is Shimizu-senpai single?

☆ Oikawa Tooru Has Great Intentions (iwaoi, kyouhaba, kinkuni, 3.4k) - May 23

Oikawa tries to get the rest of his team together, and Iwaizumi is somehow dragged along

Simple Things (tsukkiyama, 1k) - June 2

The moment was simple, but like all the other simple things, Tadashi couldn’t ask for much better. 

Sawamura Daichi, Nice to Meet You :D (daisuga, 1.6k) - July 20

At some point during your childhood, you recieve your Journal. Everything you write also appears in your Soulmate's Journal, but it's up to you to find each other. And Sugawara Koushi just happened to find Sawamura Daichi by chance.

☆ The Excruciatingly Beautiful Process of Falling In Love (As Told By Tsukishima Kei Over Ten Chaotic, Wonderful Years) (tsukkiyama, 13k) - August 27

"How lucky I am to have something that makes saying goodbye so hard" - Winnie the Pooh

☆ I Like Us Better When We’re Wasted (iwaoi, ushiten, matsuhana, 1.9k) - Started July 30, updated August 29

“Do you secretly hate me -” Oikawa stops dead in his tracks, narrowing his eyes. “You two have to hate me to pull something like this.” “Don’t be silly, Oikawa, we love you.” Matsukawa grins. “Not as much as Iwaizumi does, but we still love you.” Hanamaki fist-bumps Matsukawa without even looking, and Iwaizumi disowns every part of him that thought this was a good idea.

Rest in Pieces, Tsukki (tsukkiyama, 640) - September 27

Three strikes and Kei was out.

☆ Semi-Conscious (tsukkiyama, 780) - October 24

Kei's cute when he's sleepy. Tadashi doesn't know how to deal with it.

Damsel in Distress (ushiten, 1.2k) - October 30

At one point in his life, Tendou Satori wished he could be a cartoon villain. Not anymore.

Sweater Weather (tsukkiyama, 1.6k) - November 9

Yamaguchi Tadashi's sixteenth birthday is just a normal day. Mostly.

Forty Days (semishira, 927) - November 11

All Eita wants is to come home, but a birthday Skype call can suffice in the meantime.

Semishira Weekend Day 1: Happy Birthday/Pocky Day

Come On It’s Lovely Weather for a Sleigh Ride Together With You (tsukkiyama, 1.3k) - November 12

It hasn't snowed in Torono in years, and Tadashi has every intention to take advantage of that, whether Kei likes it or not.

Merry Crisis (semishira, 953) - November 13

Who had the bright idea to bring mistletoe to the Shiratorizawa Christmas party anyway?

Semishira Weekend Day 3: Karaoke/Free Prompt

Sleepers (kugushiba, 2.7k) - December 8

In which Shibayama Yuuki finds a guy in the library with a green hoodie and a suspiciously similar wrist tattoo to his own.

The Adventures of Stubborn and Petty (tsukkiyama, 573) - December 11

“What was that for?” “Revenge.” Tadashi grinned. “Petty, aren’t we?” Kei smirked.

Deck The Halls With Boughs of Volley (Falalalala lala la la) (kagehina, 772) - December 24

Gift-giving is not Kageyama Tobio's specialty.

☆ ☆ ☆ Camp Cantabile (kagehina, tsukkiyama, iwaoi, kuroken, levyaku, kyouhaba, matsuhana, ushiten, semishira, daisuga, among others, 34k)  - Started May 1, updated December 24

Their first violinist just wants this to be over so he can get to orchestra rehearsal and be another face in the section.

Their second violinist is brand new, well-rehearsed, and ready to succeed.

Their violist wants to be heard but doesn't want to stand out.

Their cellist is only here because his teacher said he needed chamber music experience.

Their ragtag string quartet has three weeks to make something beautiful, no matter what that something is.

Total Words: 100,276

2017 Goals

Finish chamber au! (or get really close)

Finish and publish MitAoSI 3

Make more fics for people

Write longer oneshots

Actually finish the 3k giveaway fics (sorry you two I’ll get on those)

Branch out into other fandoms NAHHH

Not just disappear over the summer like I did last year

[wonderwonderhowido]

fic roundup

Another year-end meme, this one looking back on my fic output in 2016.

Wordcount: 126,116 words according to ao3

Stories: 10

Fandoms: 7

January: None

February:

Goodbye Highway (first chapter posted in January, finished in February) - The Raven Cycle, Ronan/Adam, 69k words. The big amnesia fic.

Did I Say Too Much? I’m So In My Head - Haikyuu!!, kuroken, 3k words. Kenma pines and then is brave. This was the one I wrote during the one all-nighter I pulled in 2016, while I was in a semi-euphoric state after the Carly Rae Jepsen concert. Memorably, this was also the night I tripped and read all the ushioi and found myself with a new otp, but the fic I wrote that night was actually kuroken.

March:

Better Make Sure That You Get Yours - Haikyuu!!, ushioi, 6k words, written for Auto’s birthday. The rimming fic.

April:

Last Year’s Wishes Are This Year’s Apologies -  Haikyuu!!, ushioi, 13k words. The one where Oikawa saves Ushijima from a dude hitting on him, drunken hookup ensues.

I Am One Of Your People - Haikyuu!! x Attack on Titan, Armin/Kenma, 5k words and written for ouroboros for smutswap.

Stand Brave Life-Liver - The Raven Cycle, Ronan and Noah gen, 1,802 words. A missing scene from TRK.

May - August: None

September:

Change of Heart -  Haikyuu!!, ushioi, 12k words. The one where they get lost in the woods together and have to work shit out.

November:

Warm Blood - Mystic Messenger, Jumin/Zen, 7k words and the first chapter of a WiP that will probably never be finished. Zen’s a vampire in this one.

December:

Teach Me Just What Fast Is - Yuri!!! On Ice, Yuri/Otabek, 3k words. Basically just my manifesto of headcanons about Yuri P being a sub.

Tiny Islands Where We Didn’t Always Have To Be Afraid - Jessica Jones, Jessica/Trish, 4k words. Backstory of them hooking up while they were teenagers.

Leitmotif of the year:

I am not sure that there is a single leitmotif that runs through all or most of these, but all my ushioi plus Goodbye Highway have to do with struggles of reconciling the past with the present, and the general concept of, and importance of, the baggage you can have with someone. So I guess that.

Other themes I’ve noticed: healing from trauma; pining; jealousy, resentment, anger and the complications ensuing from these uglier emotions getting entangled with romantic yearning; gaining understanding and knowledge of another person and/or yourself through sex; sex and control, specifically the sexiness of surrendering control to someone else.

What’s the story that makes you happiest?

Goodbye Highway. I feel like a broken record for how much I’ve already talked about my positive feelings for this story, but, well. It made me happy to write and it makes me happy to think about.

My favorite stories this year:

Goodbye Highway; Better Make Sure That You Get Yours; Change of Heart

Most popular story:

Goodbye Highway, and I’m a little stunned by the popularity of Teach Me Just What Fast Is, considering I wrote it on an airplane. 

Story most underappreciated by the universe, in my opinion:

Hm. I mean, both Tiny Islands and I Am One Of Your People were barely read by anyone, but I didn’t really expect them to be? I wrote the Armin/Kenma for ouroboros in smut swap, and they loved it, so I consider it successful by that metric, and Tiny Islands I wrote primarily for myself and I’m satisfied with it, so.

I guess I feel like Change of Heart and Last Year’s Wishes are underappreciated, partly because they got less kudos than the ushioi rimming and were harder to write/more plotty than that, and partly because I always think that ushioi is underappreciated by the universe in general.

Most fun story:

Change of Heart. Dramatic locker room arguments, a hike in the woods gone horribly wrong, forced intimacy, and all of Oikawa’s issues and hangups. The dialogue I wrote for this is some of the most fun I’ve ever had writing dialogue, and I loved pulling so liberally from my own internal monologues for Oikawa’s.

Sexiest story:

Better Make Sure That You Get Yours. Hard to argue with rimming and frenemies to lovers.

Story with single sexiest moment:

Adam sucking on Ronan’s fingers and then his dick before fucking him, in the middle of the longest sex scene I have ever written, at the end of Goodbye Highway. Oh also Oikawa coming on Ushijima’s face in Last Year’s Wishes.

Story with single sweetest moment:

Probably Goodbye Highway again, Ronan and Adam eating chocolate cake and watching porn together. I’m also awfully fond of Blue and Ronan’s first conversation together in GH, when she gives him the light, which maybe doesn’t strike other people as sweet, but it is for me. Also, Oikawa coaching Ushijima on how to make friends is very sweet to me.

Hardest story to write:

Warm Blood. It became hard enough to write that I’ve pretty much given up on continuing it, which is too bad; I kind of feel like I shouldn’t have posted it at all, oh well.

Easiest story to write:

Teach Me Just What Fast Is, or Did I Say Too Much? Both of them were written in p much one sitting, while I was sleep-deprived and in a good mood, and they just flowed.

Truest story of the year:

I still struggle with deciding on a definition of ‘truest.’ Tiny Islands is the story truest to its canon; Goodbye Highway and Change of Heart are the two truest to myself, I guess.

Story that made you cry/saddest story:

I don’t think Goodbye Highway is ultimately a sad story, although some might disagree, but it was the closest anything came to making me cry.

“Holy crap, that’s wrong even for you” story:

I don’t think I wrote anything that would fit this even remotely. All the porn I wrote was extremely right.

Story that shifted my own perceptions of the characters:

I don’t know if this counts as shifting my own perceptions of the characters, but I wound up writing Jumin and Zen as kinder to each other than I’d originally intended in Warm Blood, and I’m still sort of mad that I wasn’t able to make their dynamic nastier.

Biggest disappointment:

Not writing the Blue and Ronan gen story where they become roommates after Gansey’s death.  

Biggest surprise:

I cannot fucking believe that HQ is the fandom I wrote the most for this year.

Most telling story:

Goodbye Highway, which is basically just 69k words of me processing my own brain shit. Change of Heart, wherein I wrote Oikawa a lot like myself.

Favorite opening line:

From Better Make Sure That You Get Yours: “Oikawa had a list of things that frustrated him about sex with Ushijima Wakatoshi.”

(Honorable mention, from Last Year’s Wishes: “Go suck a dick, Ushiwaka.” Listen, I love writing Oikawa more than I love most other things on this earth.)

Favorite closing line:

"Ronan sat on the forest floor, ignoring the occasional buzz in his pocket that indicated a text from Gansey, until it started to get dark. The temperature dropped, though not by much. Stiffness grew in his legs from sitting in one position too long. Distantly, he could hear the roar of an engine on a highway, so far away that it seemed quiet and kind. And around him, fireflies.” From Goodbye Highway. I just need to point out that I wrote this before TRK came out, and therefore m*ggie owes me for the concept of Ronan and symbolic firefly imagery.

And I can’t choose, I also love this one so much:

“As Noah crouched over Gansey’s body and said the words Gansey needed to hear, energy lines and time circles and knots in threads flitted through him like bird wings flapping. He was relieved to find that letting go did not feel like being murdered at all.” From Stand Brave Life-Liver

Favorite line from anywhere:

I’m very fond of this line from Tiny Islands, because it’s very simple and forgettable out of context but, at least to me and within the context of the show, it has a super bleak impact: “Jessica’s hangover the next morning was terrible, and she swore to herself she’d never drink again.”

But also like, the real favorite has to be this one from Goodbye Highway: “The holes in his mind scared him. But they were just holes. They couldn’t hurt him in the present.”

Favorite title:

Tiny Islands Where We Didn’t Always Have To Be Afraid, which is my favorite lyric from Run Fast by The Julie Ruin, a song that makes my heart hurt whenever I think about it. Honorable mention for Last Year’s Wishes Are This Year’s Apologies, because Fall Out Boy.

Looking back, did you write more stories than you thought you would this year, fewer than you thought, or about what you predicted?

I don’t remember having any real predictions about how many fics I would write, but hm, probably fewer? I wrote fewer than last year, but more of my stories were longer and/or more substantial.

What pairing/genre/fandom did you write that you would never have predicted in January 2016?

Ushioi took me by surprise and I’m so glad and I’ve never looked back.

Story that could have been better?

Idk, I’m pretty pleased with the quality of most of them. Stand Brave Life-Liver probably could have been better, but I’m not sure how I could have improved it except by being an entirely different kind of writer than I am. I Am One Of Your People could have been more ambitious, but I think it works as a hot sex scene and a snippet of an established relationship. Warm Blood could have been finished, but oh well.

Did you take any writing risks this year? What did you learn from them?

Goodbye Highway was risky, I guess, but it didn’t feel like it at the time because it mostly flowed easily. Same with most of what I wrote, tbh. I started working on a novel pretty early on last year, and the work on that was for the most part not something that flowed, so fanfic was more of an escapist thing for me, something I thought of doing purely for my own enjoyment and often something I spent time on when I knew I should be doing other things. This meant that most of the fic I wrote was id-driven and a blast to create. I guess what I learned is that it’s worth it to try and find that sweet spot where your writing is simultaneously you shooting from the hip, and striving to pull off an ambitious concept.  

What story do you want to have written?

I want to have finished the otayuri spy AU, I’m so impatient with this one, it’s all I’ve been thinking about. And I want to have written ushioi where Oikawa tops. And I want to have written some kind of otayuri fic that involves them having some kind of fight or misunderstanding and angsting about it and then resolving the conflict. And I want to have written the otayuri idea I have that I described as “orgasm denial but for kissing.” Look I just want to write otayuri all day, every day.

Story I want remembered:

Goodbye Highway.

What’s next for 2017:

I don’t really have any fic goals right now beyond finishing my current otayuri WiPs. Predicting next year’s fandoms is always fun to look at later, in a ‘wow I was hilariously wrong’ way, but I have no idea what’s coming up that could prompt me to write fic. Maybe I’ll write some stuff for Attack on Titan s2, if that starts showing up on my dash again. Maybe I will continue to tend my humble ushioi garden and write the bottom!Ushijima of my dreams; I keep thinking that I’m done with HQ but that hasn’t happened yet and I should probably learn to stop predicting it. I would like to write some victuuri, but I’m waiting for the right idea and it might never come.

You know what WOULD be nice, but I have no idea if this is actually on the horizon, is getting into a big western TV slash fandom again. I’m so ready for another Teen Wolf. I mean, I think a lot of us are and have been for a while, and YOI kind of turned out to be way more of a juggernaut fandom than I would have predicted, which of course I’m thrilled about. But it seems like all of the big non-anime fandom waves in recent years have been movie fandoms, which I can never seem to sustain an interest in, and I want another huge ridiculous TV fandom. I have no idea if this will be in store or not, though, beyond YOI hopefully continuing to gain momentum.