#just wanna know what books she likes and what lipstick she admires u know?

[youcanfacethis]

Taylor Swift I know you won’t do this but I need a list of your top reads every month and for you to suddenly create a brand new lipstick line just for my own sake!!! I will buy every color!! I will read every word you recommend!!! pls!!!!

[2012aura]

Spencer reid x reader where she has red lipstick on and kisses him all over his face and he’s just like giggle as reader just keeps doing it? (Hope u understand what I mean English isn’t my first language)

of course, i can do this, and your english is fine do not worry!

red kissies !

summary : being drunk and wearing red lipstick doesn't always stay clean.

warning : alcohol usage.

pairing : spencer reid x black!reader

it was a late friday night, and the bau had just closed a big case they were working on. you forgot who but someone suggested you all go out for drinks to celebrate, and gosh how could you say no?

so there you sat, five drinks deep, at the booth with spencer. his hand around your waist to keep you steady on your seat, nothing but a dozy smile left on your red lips. you leaned into spence, "can i kiss you spence?" you said breathlessly. maybe it was the alcohol giving you the confidence to kiss him in front of all his friends, or perhaps you were tired of being so scared of public displays of affection. a soft smile also overtook spencers beautiful features, the team looked at you both and could see heart eyes. "of course you can beautiful, kiss away," he said. you wasted no time diving into his lips, your lipstick starting to smear on him.

you moved your lips from against his letting yourself indulge in his now red and smiley face. that same dorky smile that came around every time you both watched some sci-fi movie. you started to kiss around his face, leaving red-tinted kissy marks all over his cheeks and neck. the team was still so invested and their eyes never darted away, even when spencer side-eyed them many times. they talked amongst themselves, in shock at how this night of drinking was coming to an end. your kisses soon filled most of his face, giggling to yourself about the absurd amount of kisses on him. "hm, i wonder who did all of these," you strung out your words, pointing to each and every kiss mark. spencer just sat there, with his heartwarming, loving smile, "I'm not sure, but if I'm correct, it must be the pretty lady in front of me," he said lovingly.

he got himself up from his seat, walking over to the team, leaving you to put your jacket on. "if you guys even so mutter of this ... you're dead," he said jokingly, while the team snickered at him. "pretty boy, your face is covered in kisses, can't take you seriously," said derek with a cheeky smile on. "yeah yeah whatever, bye you guys, we had a blast." spencer said as everyone also said goodbye, derek let another sly remark leave his lips. "yeah we can see that," he said which made the rest of the team erupt in laughter. spencer finished helping you put your jacket on and grabbed your hand, leading you to the exit. it was a chilly night, and your hair was now poofy from all the fun you all had. you both were too drunk to even consider driving so you walked, you didn't live too far from this little bar.

"spence, i love you, my pretty boy," you cooed while you lazily touched the side of his face. before spencer could reply another idea popped into your mind, "do you mind if i take a picture of us, just for memories you know?" spencer said he didn't mind at all. you took out your phone from your coat pocket ad snapped a couple pictures of you both, and then him alone. you weren't planning on posting them, at least not for a long time. "thank you for tonight spence, it was amazing" you said wholeheartedly, you were not approaching your apartment after walking for about fifteen minutes. "you're welcome baby, always wanna see you happy." spencer spoke as you both arrived at the apartment door. opening the door for you and letting you tumble upstairs as he locked the door. once you were both in the privacy of your own room you changed into something more comfortable for sleeping. you both sat on the edge of the bed, with cups of tea on your lap, and a book in spencers hand. you admired his face longly, with the red stains still on them. which is when you decided to take another picture of me, and one turned into ten until he acknowledged you.

"i know i said a picture lasts longer but i think you have enough," he laughed as he set his book and tea down, grabbing yours and doing the same. his arms found their way around your waist, pulling you up onto the bed and onto his chest. "let's rest now, yeah?" he said, and you sleepily nodded. the next morning all went well, you both woke up with a pounding headache but one detail went unnoticed until you fully opened your eyes, "SPENCER THE SHEETS!" you yelped, there were now red stains permanently stuck on your white sheets.

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hopefully, you enjoyed it, leave a cmmt if you please!

[inkyveins]

sunflower, waves, waterfalls, freckles, blushing, watercolour (ooo there’s a u), pine, & clouds!!

you don’t have to answer all of them but i’m just curious about you bc i love you 🥰

aaaa love you too!!! only senpai i'd have a dramatic mid-game flashback about, catch me screaming "선배!!!!" and going absolute feral magical girl on the opponents. (also i am so sorry this is so long asdlfjs;lk)

Answers under the cut! (of course I answered all of them, this just feeds my inflated sense of self-importance uwu)

sunflower: if there was a door that went to a city that was a good representation of you, what city would it be and would you go through the door?

Honestly? With my emotional repression and questionable coping mechanisms, we're headed for Ba Sing Se, babeyyyy~♥ I think it'd be a door to the city I studied abroad in (not to be that guy, but...) because it's got that small town, secluded calm but is also just a short ways away from a bigger, more urban city so you can vibe at all energy levels. I would definitely go through the door (although if the city is a good representation of me, it's definitely infested with night terror demons or something).

waves: is there one music genre you can’t listen to?

Modern country ("i'm cheating on my wife with my tractor" style. Not Jolene-era. I vibe with Jolene). Leaves a bad taste in my mouth and an unpleasant ring in my skull.

waterfalls: describe your perfect date.

*cracks knuckles* alrighty, buckle up buttercup, we're about to go on a

Mental Journey.

So we meet at a park (ideally there is an outdoor photography/art exhibition because I'm extra like that) and walk around a bit, people/art-watching and chatting. We take photos of each other in front of our favorite pieces (and yes there are Moments where we pose each other and share brief but meaningful Wordless Gazes), and then take a picture together in front of the art. Later on, we'll draw silly memes/stickers on these and send them to each other, but for now, on to the secondary location! It's a bookshop/café, where we sample each other's pastries and point out our fave authors/books. There's a frankly sickening amount of poetry/literature being quoted/purposely misquoted/slipped into conversation throughout this entire thing. (No this is not realistic, no I don't care)

freckles: what’s something that makes you happy? describe the first thing that comes to your head.

The feeling of making something delicious for a loved one and seeing them enjoy it. Knowing that something I made with love is being loved is such a nice feeling!

blushing: describe a rad person you know.

There's this girl I know who is so incredibly resilient and brave. I really admire her because she's been through a Lot, but it's so important to her that she doesn't let it make her cynical or hardhearted. She approaches life with so much mindfulness and kindness, even when it's difficult, and her emphasis on making conscious decisions that make her happy with herself is so rad. We went to highschool together and she's one of the few people I still talk to from that Dark Age lmao.

watercolour: talk about something someone you are interested in can do that never fails to make you find them attractive?

Get excited about something they really care about! Bro if they get that sparkly look in their eyes and start speeding up when they talk....it's over. Critical hit, fatality, doki doki ultimate tachycardia.

pine: if you could only smell one scent for the rest of your life, what would it be?

Freshly bloomed jasmine flowers 🌸

clouds: list your top 5 songs at the moment and how they make you feel

(song names are links to yt)

Paprika (Japanese Breakfast) - hopeful; bro this song makes me wanna dance! This song makes me okay with being afraid of the future and plunging into it anyways.

Amandoti (Måneskin w/Manuel Agnelli) - look this song has everything: glam rock, ballad, tender crooning, rad bassline. Makes me want to stomp around in platforms, kiss someone with red lipstick and call them lover, maybe do a little h*ndh*lding.

Fresh Blood (전동석, Dracula the Musical) - vibin and mildly nostalgic; Dong Suk Jeon is my favourite Dracula in the Korean run of the musical and the way he snarls out some of these lines is so deliciously wicked. Every time I listen to this song I remember the first time I heard it, when I was putting together my honors thesis proposal

Your Blood (Nothing But Thieves) - seen; the lyrics really resonate with how I've been feeling lately about Asian-American identity

Posing in Bondage (Japanese Breakfast) - hnnggh I love Michelle Zauner so much, this song makes me feel like my reflection stepped out of the mirror, gave me a hot pocket, and told me it was okay to cry. (also makes me think about Asian American identity in a really raw way; honorary mention too for Slide Tackle from the same album)

[szopenhauer]

Are you the type of person who gets straight to the point?: I try my best to explain things but ppl still don’t understand the obvious

What was the last thing you said in complete caps?: not sure what was last

Do you enjoy playing board games?: some

Did you wear anything new today?: pineapple shirt my mom bought for me recently

Do you ever eavesdrop on people’s conversations?: hard not to when they’re so loud

Are you good at playing Hide and Go Seek?: I was because I’m tiny XD

Who or what made you smile last?: my thoughts 

What was the last song you had on repeat?: Daisy by Ashnikko :x

Do you often have that song on repeat?: no that was one time only lol  I hardly ever have a son on repeat, that happened like 5 times in my entire life, usually after breakup

Silly string or confetti?: fun but too messy and waste of money so none

How long is your favorite song?: about 3.50

What was the highlight of your day today?: it’s complicated

Do you tap your foot when you listen to music?: I tap but mostly due to anxiety ^^”

Would you rather use tape or glue?: tape 

Homemade or store bought cards?: store bought 

Do you listen to any hip hop?: nah

How about some lyrics?: I'm tired of weakness Tired of my feet of clay I'm tired of days to come I'm tired of yesterday And all the worn out things that I ever said Now it's much too late The words stay in my head (...) I'm tired of Facebook Tired of my failing health I'm tired of everyone And that includes myself Well being alone now It doesn't bother me But not knowing if you are That's been hell you see 

Have you ever had a fascination with stickers? slightly

Have you ever seen A Walk To Remember? yeah Did you ever watch Captain Planet? I did Do you think that Uggs are ugly? I love them Have you ever watched That ‘70’s show? meh Do you get along with your sibling’s friends? we don’t know each other Do you have a fashion icon? sorta, not really Do you think that iCarly is annoying? possibly

Have you ever had a really bad haircut? sadly

What are your favorite type of calendars? pocket?  Could you spend hours on pinterest? just a couple of minutes  Have you ever had to wear a school uniform? I liked that Who were your best friends in high school? K.K. E.E. E.W. Ż.B.

Would you rather sleep on the top bunk or bottom bunk? bottom Have you ever had a secret admirer that left you notes? I got a note in elementary, it’s a mystery to this day, I thought that it’s a response from M.N. after I left him one myself but it seemed to be a prank done by girls who’ve been bullying me so I threw that piece of paper angrily at him like it was his fault - I still kinda remember what was written on it, they called me a flower and left a tiny drawing - later, forgot how, I found that note again and I believe I might still have it stored somewhere  What was your favorite thing to do at sleepovers when you were younger? as a kid I had 1 sleepover (same school in which the note situation happened) my friend P.W. had puppies and I was allowed to stay for the night in her house Do you currently live in the city you grew up in? mhm What’s one way in which you’re behind the times? ex. getting a job  What’s one way in which you’re still a child? ex. collecting stuffed animals, lots What’s one way in which you’re old? ex. health issues Do you feel old or young? Or do you feel both at different times? both at different times What would be the best surprise you could receive right now? money? Do you usually forgive when someone hurts your or try to get revenge? neither, I hold grudge and don’t trust the person again, at least for a long time  Were there any subjects in school that were really easy for you? in primary most of them were, in middle school: polish, biology, chemistry and math and in high: russian, english, PE and physics (but I probably shouldn’t count it as we had it for a few months) Did you ever skip a grade or get held back a grade? - What time of day were you born? half past midnight, my mother asked me why I’m so lazy as for someone who was born on Saturday and I responded with - I was sleeping in and was late for Friday What is the best hairstyle you’ve ever had? can’t choose Do you think you look better with dyed hair or natural hair? I’m used to my color but I wouldn’t mind dyed hair Do you ever listen to Celtic music? me and John had a phase on that back in the day, I wish I remind the titles... Have you ever wanted to be a model, actress, singer, or dancer? actress When you look at your baby pictures, do you recognize yourself? pfft Has your hair color changed since you were a toddler? got darker, less red  Do you wear matching socks? always but recently I thought about changing that fact Do you have a seashell collection? Do you have a rock collection? small Flamingos or pineapples? both Cacti or seashells? same but it’s harder to take care of cacti than shells haha Maple tree or palm tree? palm, ppl say maple looks like weed - I don’t think this way but that’s annoying, still I’d prefer maple trees irl!  Dreamcatcher or wind chimes? wind chimes but not every kind Have you ever taken a picture at the perfect moment? <3

Are you a pyromaniac? Bu is :P Are you a kleptomaniac? wtf Do you like to wear belts? it’s uncomfy and not good for my belly Would you ever get dreadlocks? I could but I won’t Do you listen to Eminem? no way

Does your sibling have a significant other? my sister is married 

When and why is the last time you cried (or at least, shed tears)? yesterday?

Have you ever cried at a real wedding? not that I been to many but no

What do your flipflops look like? don’t own any

Are there any gadgets of yours that need charging right now? my cellphone is charging

Which awards show would you wanna go to the most (e.g Oscars, Grammys etc.)? I wanna go to MET gala, nothing else

Any idea what time you’ll be going to bed tonight? late

Does your significant other like the same colour as you do? she hates my fav colors besides black 

Have you ever purchased anything online? obvi

Name all your friends whose name starts with the 4th letter of your first name. ...

Have you ever ridden an elephant? I’d like to (and camel and an ostrich and a horse)

Are you the candle lighting type? am not

Coffee in the morning, yay or nay? nay

Anal sex, yay or nay? hell no

Blue lipstick, yay or nay? okay, whatever

Is this question lame: “Have you had sex?” yep

Have you ever dated someone with really crooked teeth? mine are crooked

Would you rather vacation on the beach, or in the mountains? beach What embarrassing music do you listen to? too embarassed to write down? What’s your biggest talent? talented? me? r u kidding?

If you were a candy bar, what would you be? Milky Way? Would you rather ride in a hot air balloon or hang-glide? air balloon What’s one word you want people to use to describe you? truth is most important, everything else is less 

Did you often read for fun when you were a kid? tons of books

Are you more of a visual learner or an auditory learner? I learn best with my hands (kinesthetic) but visual is probably easier than auditory to me 

Do you have any dietary restrictions? ugh...

Do you prefer Google Maps, Apple Maps, Waze, or something else? I get lost no matter what

How old does someone have to be for you to see them as an adult? about my age or older

Do you ever ‘manspread’ when you sit down? sorry but I don’t sit like a lady - I sit like a lesbian unless there’s no space for that

When was the last time you were in a crowded place, and where was it? bus this day

Have you ever turned down a job offer? had to

What was the last medical appointment you scheduled? scheduled plenty at once

Have you ever had a dream in which you died? I die often, it’s a common element in my dreams, I’m fine with it by now

Have you ever fallen asleep on public transport?  oh well... majority of those times I was able to but once it was an accident and I missed my stop while going to school

Can you touch your toes without bending your knees? almost Have you seen all the Hunger Games films? yasss Why did you last go see a doctor? control visit about my IBS, GERD, food intolerances... Are you more logical or creative? depends

What do you currently hear? parents talking, music - iamamiwhoami; shadowshow 

Did you get enough sleep last night? I slept a little over 3 hours and I feel tired  Are the streetlights on? it’s not dark yet When you wear a hoodie, do you pull the sleeves over your hands? when it’s warm for that or they bother me in what I’m doing Are you in any advanced classes at school? w moim profilu miałam rozszerzone historię i WOK (wiedza o kulturze) Did you have a good day today? it wasn’t the worst (compared) and hope it won’t turn into complete shit 

[bearsace]

Hello! I saw that you were taking requests for IkeSen headcannons/fics, so I hope this isn't too much to ask, but what do think about female!Mitsuhide or any of the guys? What do you think they'd be like if they were girls instead?

ikesen requests are open!

oh my goodness so i only did the oda forces sinc those are the ones i know well enough to write with confidence sdlkfjdlkfj but this was so fun thank you! i pictured a female mc for this, but it could definitely be easily changeable ;;

nobunaga

she’s super gorgeous, has the same seductive qualities as male nobunaga ;; curvy, tall, and statuesque with these eyes that just smolder at you

when you first meet her you’re a little confused because …… this is the great warlord (warlady?) nobunaga?? the one from the history books?

you imagined a woman who didn’t look like. as hot as her honestly

and when she presses you against the wall in the famous Using Your Lips as a Cup scene

well that’s when you’re done for. you can feel every curve of her body and her voice is low and sultry, and her eyes light up in a grin when you swallow the sake

when she comes home from a fight one day you’re really shaken;; she just wrings the blood out of her long hair and her eyes are cold

but getting to know her is something amazing (i mean it is no matter what gender nobunaga is :’)). games of go are filled with tension as her eyes slip into focus and her slender fingers rub the pieces between them, and she bites her lip while she thinks of her next move

she knows exactly where to touch as well oop

when she kisses you she brings your hand to her breast, just above her heart and holds it there, and you can feel her relax in your arms and lean in to the kiss

she likes to sit with her back against the headboard and pulls you in close between her legs with your back to her chest, stroking your hair almost in the way someone would stroke a pet and nipping at the junction of your neck and shoulder. the tops of her kimono are falling off her shoulders so you can turn around and kiss the skin there, making her shiver, and the ends of her kimono pool up around her legs so you can rub at her thighs

she’s so hot gdi

mitsuhide

like nobunaga, she’s got the same slinkiness about her, but stands taller

when she looks at you from her vantage point, she tilts her head and regards you through half-lidded eyes with this infuriating smirk that’s probably painted in blood-red lipstick

and this woman clearly thinks she’s better than you but she’s so attractive dammit you want to deck her

her hair is either super long and flowing, or it’s pin-straight and cut blunt, longer in the front than it is in the back you pick

you know that tumblr post about being hot enough to make people question their sexuality?

yeah that’s mitsuhide

and she knows it too

which means she literally never stops teasing you and watching how flustered you get

probably the kind of person who flaunts her assets to get what she wants out of prisoners and shit

she bleeds sensuality honestly, and it has you so shook because gorgeous snow-haired woman? paying attention to my me? it’s more likely than you think.

she has these really long, sharp nails and she likes to run them across your thighs, tapping her fingers along the way

and when she undresses you she does it verrrryyy slowly and deliberately—

she begins at your throat and traces her way down to your bellybutton, down between your cleavage, opening your kimono just a little;

then back up to your mouth where she caresses your lips with a smirk, then comes back down

and she continues until you’re moaning for her just to take me already dammit, we haven’t even gotten started and u just undressing me has me so sh00k

masamune

WONDER WOMAN

okay not actually wonder woman but build-wise, she’s lean and muscular and proud of it

she ties her brown hair back into a braid that’s long enough for her to tuck into her belt, and you can see mischief playing in that bright eye

you see her playing with her sword one day, and when she catches you watching, she grins at you and bites her lip

well that’s it you’re done for

she’s actually a little short compared to the others, which makes her fighting style even more ferocious and calculated as she’s got the speed and slipperiness that they don’t

the first time she kisses you you’re so shook

like maybe you haven’t even kissed a girl before (or if you have, definitely not one as attractive as masamune)

and she flirts with you even more than she already did after that because gotdamn you’re So Attracted to her

the first time you go horseback riding with her you’re so shaken; she pulls you close and you can feel the hard muscle of her body against your back as her throaty laughter rings out in your ears

not many women are allowed to have such a high military position, she explains, and she had to prove herself time and time again and you can tell by the way she so clearly enjoys her time with the troops and riding her horse that she was born for it

she was born to ride other things too

she’s a biter, and she leaves her mark up and down your body

definitely keeps her habit of calling you “kitten” and one day calls you a “good girl” in bed. automatic nut

anyways after a night of Fun you come into the common room without realizing how many bite marks you have up and down your body

hideyoshi bursts out laughing

masamune just smirks. you berate her for not telling you. she simply catches your finger between her teeth while you’re wagging it at her and winks at you, and you’ve gotta excuse the two of you for maybe an hour or the entire day

ieyasu

fighting smol

seriously like she’s even shorter than masamune

but she’s slender and literally looks like a doll she’s so pretty and porcelain, like you’d never expect her to be anyone scary

probably like 5′0″ and 100lbs, hair cut to shoulder-length (think the wavy windswept bob hairstyle in-game)

has a glare like ice honestly, and tbh her voice is probably pretty high pitched compared to the others ;;; probably the one to give off the ~cute~ image but lowkey wants to murder you in your sleep

when she’s practicing archery, she suddenly becomes someone imposing

and when she gives you that pair of earrings she scowls, but blushes anyway and she has really good taste in jewelry

so you buy her this beautiful necklace and she honestly turns beet red

“well…… i guess i have to take it since you spent money on it…… but i wish you didn’t buy me things as useless as jewelry”

you see her wearing it like everyday after that tho

but you take heed and instead commission mitsunari to design a practical bracelet that helps with archery (idk maybe it holds arrows or smthn so she doesn’t have to reach elsewhere to pick one out to nock?) and ieyasu is so shook she can even overlook the fact that mitsunari designed it

when she kisses you, she has to stand on her tiptoes and sling one arm around your neck to pull you down. in any other situation it would be cute because “omg she’s so short” but in this situation like… “wow ieyasu that’s really hot” with the confidence with which she brings you to her level

she’s really outright with what she wants in bed. “no i don’t like that” or “yes, that feels perfect” are common phrases you’ll hear

she pays special attention to bringing you to climax. her brow furrows as she focuses on touching you in all your sweet spots

mitsunari

Extremely Gorgeous Goddess Lady

long hair that falls in the most perfect waves, voluminous, straight out of a pantene commercial. lips that are a natural scarlet color like she’s just been sucking on a cherry popsicle. tall-ish, about your height, but not quite as tall as nobunaga and mitsuhide

you’re drawn in by her almost immediately because her eyes are clever and kind

that one girl who all the boys follow around, but she doesn’t know that;;; she thinks that they all want war advice

you become fast friends as she teaches you to play go before u realize,, Oh Shit, I’ve Fallen for Her!

she has a laugh like bells honestly. so good. so pure

you have tea with her all the time but she’s SO BAD at making tea and apologizes profusely when you nearly throw up since it tastes like gasoline?? um??

it’s fine, because you make her these delicious dumplings and sew her a pretty new kimono which quickly becomes her favorite. she wears it to all the important war councils which makes her even more of a stunner among men tbh

on that note……. during war councils she goes from soft angel to confident war woman…… her eyes take on this sure and calculating gleam and it’s so hot you can hardly keep your hands off her when the council is over

she loves to hold you in bed and stroke your hair— you both always find yourselves laughing together, and her skin feels so soft against yours

she’s really careful, always asking you what feels good, though she’s not afraid to experiment. her hair is soft and silky and you love to run your fingers through it while she kisses your neck

she alternates between big spoon and little spoon tbh. when she’s big spoon, her breath washes over the back of your neck while she sleeps and even the sound of it is so calming um wtf?

when she’s little spoon she rests her head on your shoulder and gently kisses along your jawline till you fall asleep

even when you become romantic partners, she stays your best friend and you can talk deep into the night

hideyoshi

MOM FRIEND ALERT!

she’s about the same height as you and mitsunari, so it’s pretty funny to watch her order around the likes of mitsuhide, one of the two Tols in the group

especially when she scolds him oop

her loyalty to nobunaga is something to be admired, because it’s passionate and devoted and she’s completely unashamed of it

she garners the attention of both men and women (and you)

like she makes people question their sexuality not for the same reasons as mitsuhide’s attractiveness, but rather because she’s confident and independent and women are often confused whether they wanna bang her or be her

it’s a little bit of both, at least for you

she doesn’t trust you initially and makes that clear, but you’re persistent

and as you get to know her you fall hard b/c if she were a modern woman, she’d be the Strong Independent One you hear about all the time who runs a business

she takes good care of you

you fall ill one day and she nurses you back to health,

“honestly, mc, i told you not to go out in the rain like that”

and she sighs, looking genuinely distressed, and you’re shook to the max

she stops by a lot to make sure you’re doing okay, and usually swings by and keeps you company, putting off this sure, steadfast aura that comforts you and makes you feel safe around her

she knows what she wants in bed and guides your hips to where she wants them to go

but she’s also gentle and patient and makes sure you climax as well

in the morning, you’ll wake up and see her smiling at you and all is well in the world :’)

[tmntl0verthings]

レオナルド         Leo X Reader

  “Childish Love” 

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                   私は何かを守るために

         Because I have something to Protect

Your wearing pink ruffle shorts with a mint blue shirt that said "I'm 100% mermaid" in white writing with Galaxy Vans.

     You were snickering with Mikey were hiding behind the Couch's backing peeping over the other side..waiting. "and one..two..three.." Mikey spoke softly A huge Black smoke Leaked through the Bathroom door. It busted open to see a huge figure stomp through "MIKEY!!" Raphael's voice bellowed in anger as he coughed The smoke slowly fading away. He looked around to see only Leo reading at the kitchen table as Don was making himself Cup o'noodles in the microwave. He then heard faint laughing at the couch. He marched over to the Sofa with his usual manly strut to see you covering your mouths with laughter. "Oh I see this was a team effort his eyes rose in anger as he tried to swipe Mikey then you. You ran over to be with leo. You hugged his neck Kissing his cheek. Your eyes wondered up to see Raph coming over this way "Leo bear. Raph's being mean." you whined. "And is it because you and mikey did your little pranks again?" he looked from his book to you. "what? nu Boobie. I would never." You hugged his tight Muscular arm. "hmp.." he smiled as he then saw raph next to himself "Come here! I'm gonna fix you good once i'm done with you." you hid behind Leo's side. Leo glanced at you then to raph "Raph knock it off. Just some harmless fun." "OH of course you'd stand up for her. She's your 'Girl friend' ." he sang the last part with a girly tone. "knock it off raph. Your just jealous." He sassed back. "Oh-oh your think i'm jealous of you! Ha!" "No. Not of me but what I have." "you wish!" Raphs anger grew like it could break a temperature Gadge. "Cool it Raph. your gonna get us stuck in the hashi again." Donnie whispered on the other side of the table. "Shut it Four eyes!" "Hey now that was uncalled for!" Donnie stood up for himself as he pointed at raph. "You wanna get pummeled too!" "Leo would kick your butt before you got the chance to hurt me." "Fine..(he walked over to Don) I'll start with you first.." his voice grew deeper with Fury as his eyes were cold and dark at the moment. "Raphael." splinter rose his voice "Thats enough! You treat others how you wanna be treated." his wise and elder voice educated the Red banded turtle with his walking stick creating hallow clinks against the Brick flooring. Raph backed off still fairly puffing out his anger in breathes as he then just walked away to punch a dummy in the home while walking passed it. "What got him upset today?" Splinter asked curiously "Just a harmless prank." Leo explained. "Mikey?" he asked knowing the answer already. "pretty much but y/n helped." Hearing an accomplice this time made Splinter smile with amusement. "Is that so?" he chuckled "You mad?" you asked worried "Mad? cause my sons are finally getting along with humans and Ones even dating a girl. Whats there to be mad about." You smiled at his words as you hugged Leo's neck. "Yea only one..where's my girl?" Don pouted as he put his head in his palm looking to his family to then hear the microwave beep-beep-beep. He walked from the table to open the small door letting the warmth hit his glasses accidentally fogging them. He ugh-ed as he tried to see passed it, grabbing his noodles feeling a Drop of hotness drip down and touch his rough flesh. He hissed as he still carried it down to the counter about to pour the noodles into a bowl so they cool down faster. Looking from Donnie wanting to ask but Asking questions can infuriate some people..so keeping to yourself you look at Splinter whom was speaking to Leonardo. You walked away patting his shoulder to then go over to Mikey's side of the home. "Hey" You smiled brightly feeling a rush of excitement, Usually everything with Mikey is Funny, Exciting and Fun Filled. Walking over to Mikey you see Raphael reading something in his bed above Mikey's. 'crap..' you just continued your walk pretending not to fear Raphael. "Hey Squishy!" Mikey greeted you over to his side of the room which also happens to be Raphael's. Raph looked at you for a moment then looked back at his book. "So what'cha wanna do since we already pissed of raph." Mikey laughed; you laughed with him but more hesitantly. "Come on, lets go to the skate park. No one's there and it'll be just you and me." "sounds like fun!" you cheered making Raphs lip snarl a little. Walking away with Mikey Leo walked up to you. "Where you going?" curious "Just out with my Broth'ah." you put your arms around making Mikey laugh as you smiled "where?" "skate park with mikey." "no." "What why?" "yea why!" Mikey backed you up but also why? "Cause i'm taking you to the skate park." he wrapped his arm all the way around your shoulders taking you into his warmth. "awww Leo bear.." you smiled adorably up at him as mikey pretended to choke. "shush." leo shushed playfully as he led you out "coming Mikey?" "Oh i'm still coming? alright >,< "

That night~~ "what are you doing to your pizza?" Leo asked "taking pepperoni off of it. You know i don't like sausage." "You don't like sausage?" Mikey asked as his face looked at you like you were an alien or heart broken. One of the two. "well yea.." "what else don't you like?" Mikey asked petrified. "Bacon, peanut butter--" being cut off before being able to finish your words. "What is happening to SOCIETY!" Mikey pleaded to the lord with his hands up making you laugh. "Oh god i can feel it..the earth is crumbling! Atlantis is rising once more!" "Mikey.." raph looked to Mikey getting his attention easily "Shut up." As raph put down the plastic shaker bottle of Parmesan on the table. Donnie smiled at raph's comment.    Later~~ As leo was lecturing his brothers for a new lesson coming up at the same kitchen table as you were leaning back into your chair with your knees against the tabletop. Raph had his arms crossed as Don pretty much was the only one paying attention. Mikey was falling asleep until you threw a sausage ball from dinner at his face making him blink. Raph watched as you and him were throwing it back and forth. A chuckle left your lips getting leo's attention making you cover your smiling mouth while Mikey Pretended to go back to his sleepy state. "y/n please, i'm trying to help my brothers." "Do what..Die slower?" you sassed playfully. "Y/n.." his eyes were unamused -,-  "Alright, alright. Fine." you put your hands up surrendering as you curled back up into your position. "thank you.. now I figured for when we do HaiJaku we could instead try--" his words were cut off by your sausage ball being thrown at him but instead of it hitting him He caught it as he looked at it. "A sausage ball? Really y/n. Seriously Do you take what i do in this team seriously. I work my ass off to try and get these guys in line while your throwing sausage balls! Knock it off and just grow up!" "wow dude.." Mikey commented. "You got something to say?" he looked at his brother with risen brows. "no, nope i'm good." "good."Donnies eyes were widened while raph was enjoying the first amusing thing that's happened in a family meeting. Your eyebrows narrowed as you got up out of the chair to scoot it back in. "Excuse me." you bowed mocking Leo's love for Japanese culture and also how ninjas tied into that. Leo watched you walk away and out of their home for him to exhale and rub his eyes "Dear god.." 'what have i done?' was his thought after his spoken words.

Two days of not hearing from you~~    Leo entered your apartment as lucky for him, the window was opened allowing Autumn air to fill the Cinnamon scented room. "wow.." he looked around to see your apartment was Clean. Legit clean. No messy piles of laundry, no left out plates and even the glass table top was polished. 'whats happening? did she leave to live elsewhere and now someone else lives here?' my thoughts rampaged to then see y/n leaving her kitchen that was hid away around the corner. She wore platform high heels with a tight fitting black skirt n' a puffy white shirt with pearls on. Hair in a bun. Even wearing Eyeliner and red lipstick. "Morning Leonardo." "uh morning. What are--what happened?" "what ever do you mean?" "your apartment." "Well I took your words into consideration and detailed my apartment and myself while i was at it." "what?" he asked as he leaned his head forwards with a risen brows. "Oh yes. And i must say I feel so very replenished to take such a turn on things. Thank you Leonardo." 'she's not even calling me Leo-bear.. this can't be too good..' "I uh..your welcome.." "would you like some homemade French toast. I made some this morning." "you cooked?" "Don't sound so surprised." she corrected my behavior like splinter would. 'oh god..' She walked along into the kitchen to see her butt sway side to side due the heels which..i admired very much so. She handed me the plate of French toast to break me from my concentration. "Oh gosh sorry no thank you." i apologized. Without a smile she put the plate down on the counter. She looked at me as she held her hands together with her polished nails. "y/n i'm sorry for what i said. I shouldn't have said those things. Your perfect the way you are." relaxing your posture you were getting lost in his blue eyes with your red matte lips gaping a little to show your two front teeth. "Please forgive me. It was more out of line than how you acted." after hearing 'how you acted' you straightened your posture "I see. Well Leonardo If you don't mine could you please Excuse yourself. I have much work to do." "work?" he questioned with more surprise. "Leonardo. To have money in this world one must grasp concept of earning their keep. And i plan to do so." As i blinked my made-up eyes at him. He looked dumb founded and astonished. "oh..kay if you want me too." The sounds of his weight pummel with each step along the wooden floors with metal clinking and his fabric brushing between his thighs. U clicked on your blue tooth speaker to play 'Kenny G.' As he was leaving out the window. As he finally left you slouched taking off your platforms. "ohhh" you exhaled. "thats much better" you wiggled ur toes into your carpeting; changing the music to something on Pandora.

"I dont know what to do. She seemed so adamant about being an adult and..all I did was yell at her for being herself." Leo pouted. "Leonardo. You are my best and honored student but sometimes you lack social skills. Every leader knows how to communicate to their loyal and committed team members. Y/n is no different. Find a way you can communicate to her. Get through to her in a way she can understand." nodding he understood "you understand?" "yes, father.." "i hope so. Otherwise your screwed.." his father spoke bluntly. Leo was a bit surprised but he did ask for help.

Walking into her apartment i see the place is still clean. "yn/?" You were watching netflix in your room with your makeup on all jazzed up still to then hear Leo's voice. Your eyes widened as you stood up to slip on your shoes with a cheeto in your mouth. You crunched it as you shut off netflix. "y/n?" you heard again. 'stupid shoes..' You argued with yourself. You stood up to walk over to your door gathering yourself to open your bedroom door. seeing Leo's shell facing you from afar as he looked around "Leonardo." you held your hands together. "y/n there you are. Hey I found something of yours." "Did you now?" "yea..here.." he hands you a fake real sized Lolipop without its wrapper KeyChain. Taking it from him you looked to him "Where'd you find this?" "under my bed. I was cleaning and found it. I remember when you first saw it when you and me went for a midnight walk and you fell in love with it." memorizing the keychain as you rubbed along the Red Pop part. "yea.." you smiled brightly as your red lips illuminated your whitened teeth. "Y/n I hope you know i didn't mean what i said. Your important to me. I want you there in my life by my side.." he huffed a smile. looking from your key chain to his eyes without a smile but pouty lips. "Leo I--" he interrupted your words with a step forwards, placing his hands on your jawline as his your whine lips touched his. He swore he even got drunk off them for a moment. He moved his lips along yours. You put your polish nails around his wrists closing your eyes. Letting go of your lips leaving his lips somewhat red. You smiled laughing, bringing out your real self you pointed at him "you got some red on you." He looked down as he wiped it with his wrist. Licking his lips he asked "better?" smiling you said "sure.." "Come home with me..please.." "alright..finnnneeeee." you whined as you went into your bedroom to change. Coming out you had shorts, shirt that had WonderLust written on it as you wore galaxy vans. "theres my girl." He puts his arms out for you to run into, swinging you around the apartment he stops to let you down. "one thing though." he offers. "yea?" "Don't ever be that Grown up again." his words made you snort a laugh making you cover your mouth n' nose. he kissed your forehead to lead you out the window before grabbing your keys.

Dah end

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headcanons compilation  ↬  alexander lightwood

a compilation of my scattered/posted (so far) alec lightwood headcanons. i will be updating this as i post more.

i don’t think jace realizes how much of alec’s self worth was always knit so tight to him. how deep the pain of his unrequited feelings really run. how it actually feels when jace starts to reject him (from his pov).

vampire academy au

drabble: alec and telling magnus he doesn’t need permission to be in his space

alec’s fantasy is

alec: top intelligences

alec and not being as KIND or COMPASSIONATE as u might think

alec’s kink is to be loved by a cute boy.

i just really like the idea of clary and alec learning to be friends, care for each other, learn from each other, and learn to share jace and share in their love for him and eventually in their friendship.

do you ever cry about the fact that most probably almost all the runes on jace’s left side were put there by alec?

jace didn’t always have perfect control over his extra strength, specially since he was used to training only with valentine, who was an adult at the time, which evened the field. when he first started training with alec and izzy he sometimes went too hard on them. izzy complained but alec never did, and would  if needed hide any markings left, because he didn’t want jace to feel bad about it, and because he wasn’t about to admit he couldn’t take it from a kid almost two years younger than himself. 

things alec wants: magnus casually touching him.

not feeling like a good person is something that both alec and jace carry for different reasons, and in two people that are so moral and were raised in such a lawful and righteous environment, that is an awfully dark weight to carry.

one of alec’s greatest pleasures is being around magnus after they said their i love you’s, because he never experienced before the freedom of being with someone he loves while being open about it, and  as a result, getting to experience the rush of knowing they’re aware of his feelings and still wanna be there. just touching magnus, or kissing him, or being around him, while aware of all of this, makes a ridiculously huge difference.

ok, listen. alec learned how to treat, talk, and deal with, help, someone after strong trauma, growing up with jace. growing up with jace, he learned that you don’t just touch someone that is going through an episode because of abuse/trauma or other strong case of overwhelming emotion. he learned that unwanted affection can be just as bad as violence, or indifference, and that the BEST thing he can possibly do is let the other person know he’s there, and let them tell him what they need. alec never goes straight to jace physically, when he’s upset, unless he initiates it, or jace gives him a clear indication of what he needs (indication that to parabatai that grew up together can be just a look of permission). he RESPECTS the fact that his need to help the people he loves, should not, is not, and will never be more important than what that person needs or wants. he respects the fact that he DOESN’T know what a person with trauma needs better than themselves, and he knows that even silent support, or just making sure the person is safe, can make a huge difference. he accepts and understands the fact that someone during or after a traumatic event, or traumatic memories of that event, might not WANT or be able to HANDLE affection at all, and he’s ready to give it only, and only if, the person indicates that’s what they need. this has been demonstrated in the way he took care of isabelle while she was detoxing. this has been shown again with magnus. this has been shown with jace again on the roof. his own sensibility allowed him to learn this, and it’s what makes jace trust him so much. jace TRUSTS alec to be there for him, because he KNOWS alec won’t push him, or overwhelm him, or even so much as touch him without permission. and sometimes, though not always, just to know that he can have this small power and agency over his own body and what happens to it, and who touches it, and how, can be enough to wind him down a notch.

lowkey both alec and jace are oddly attracted to magnus’ lack of belly button.

alec really likes magnus’ hands.#he likes kissing them#touching them#holding#having them on his face#on his body#i mean

listen, magnus hands are magical, powerful, and so, SO kind, gentle, and hard working, and alec feels gratefulness and profound admiration.

listen, alec comes home from magnus all glittery, with lipstick marks, bed hair, and hickeys. he nuzzles magnus and likes to be touched all over, and doesn’t even realize he’s getting himself all shiny until someone points it out to him and he’s ‘ wh-wh-WHAT’ blushing mess. that happens bc alec doesn’t have the habit of looking at himself in the mirror at all. p sure he just goes about his business with his head down and thinking about a million things and never even lifts it, much less pays attention. after all, the boy that doesn’t even brush his hair, wouldn’t notice any of those on himself.

alec lightwood is a family man, a father, big brother, son, parabatai and a husband, before anything else and that’s what makes him the happiest.

i feel like jace passes by the bane-lightwood residence once in a while just to clean, because if he didn’t, between alec and magnus they’d drown in the mess.

tbh i actually think the beverage alec would like the most is wine, i have this headcanon that the institute and idris have the european tradition of wine at the dinner table, and the kids would be allowed to have a small glass as they grew up. it’s the one he’s more used to, and he likes it some because it feels like family and reminds him of home even if it’s a memory blur of the institute and his few scattered memories of alicante. it’s the one he knows a little more about too.

alec spent so many years controlling himself that he doesn’t have a quick trigger at the start. he keeps holding his body down subconsciously and has to remind himself he can let go, it might not even happen the first time he’s more intimate with someone. he spent years hating every little natural reaction on his body, training himself against it, and it takes him a while longer than an usual boy his age to physically manifest his arousal, to allow himself to. it becomes more natural as he feels safe and more used to the relationship.

also, i think that’s what people find so funny in the book (and by people i mean other characters) when alec is like “clary is one of my best friends” ? because they’re like, you couldn’t care less about her five minutes ago. but that’s the THING about alec, once he takes you under his wing, he does and it’s finished. it doesn’t matter what he thought before because once you’re one of them, you’re one of them, to alec and he’ll keep you safe with his life.

another example of this is when clary hears alec comforting izzy after simon is turned into a rat, and she’s crying and like, HE COULD HAVE DIED, and alec is like, very patiently saying, so what if he had? and izzy is like I WOULD HAVE- and he’s like “you would have continued to do what you always did and lived your life as usual.” and clary says he sounds like he’s done this many times before and not once does she says he sounds worried for simon or the other boys or that isabelle seems to get a lot of people in trouble, because SHE is not in trouble. alec. lightwood. doesn’t. care. he’s super lovely to izzy but not once he worries about simon, at that point.and YET, later on, when simon has saved their lives and stuff in cog, he DOES worry about him, when the clave takes him. so you see what i’m saying here?

talking to nanda @magnusbanedfromperu and headcanon that once they’re older, starting with alec after he adopts max, maryse teaches all her three children to cook, so they can cook for her grandchildren.

the truth is, ale.c head of the instit,ute would never work. he was already forced to choose between his family and the clav.e and he’ll continue to be. you can’t be against the system, while also answering to the system and representing it. if he truly wants to educate shadowhunt.ers, he can’t be liable by the cl.ave for his every move. if he always has to compromise to keep his position, if that is more important  — keeping the title — than working for change, then his hands will always be tied. at the end of the day he’ll live a hypocritical, limited, life.

when ale.c is like that but with kids he brings home and mag.nus is HOW DID WE GET ANOTHER CHILD. and al.ec just……………………………………. i saw them, they’re ours now.also, actually i was gonna say this before and thought it sounded mean but it’s just alec, alec is really like: they’re my child now, you don’t need to pitch in, but if you want to be their father with me i will love you even more for it. however, regardless of anything, they’re mine now and i will take care of them for the rest of my life.

do you ever think about isabelle and jace pranking alec and giggling in the corner?

alec.lightwood.doesn’t.see.people.as.their.sexuality.doesn’t.see.himself.as.his.sexuality.doesn’t.give.a.shit.what.your.sexuality.is.only.what.you.do.doesn’t.hate.people.because.of.their.sexuality.doesn’t.exist.for.that.

listen those blue jammies were alec’s once, bc maryse bought them to match his eyes, only alec didn’t like them so much because they were too bright, and so she gave them to jace, which is why neat-freak jace sleeps in clothes that have a hole in it. bc alec made it and they were alec’s jammies.

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now all i can think about is that alec still had conflicted feelings after kissing magnus, and that when he snaps at him and says “after everything i did for you” that he’s actually screaming that at jace, like seeing jace on magnus, specially considering how tortured he is. as though, “after everything i did for you, you still left me, you left me and made me stay back and protect everyone when all i wanted was to go with you.” it’d also mesh well with what he says in his ‘apology’, about how not having jace around makes him confused and feeling as though he can’t stand on his own. that part of him is hurt that jace left, even if he rationally knows he did it for them, he’s still furious he went without putting up a fight, because he knew what that would cause to alec, how it’d kill him, but alec still had to be strong and protect everyone else, specially clary from going after them. when what he wanted was to run after jace, himself.

bc him saying that to magnus makes no sense we can even see that in magnus face he’s outraged like wtf u talking about alexander bc alec did do the wedding thing for himself and everything else magnus has done was to help him even if alec didn’t want him in the end he’d still want to help him, so alec’s outburst was confusing and makes no sense but if you look at it from this point of view of him being frustrated and nearly through a panic attack and feeling betrayed and like he can’t trust anyone and no one will LISTEN to how he FEELS and how BAD it is and his head just shifts into jace and all the crap they’ve been through in s01 and he snaps at the wrong person bc he feels like he’s going to burst from it all

alec / izzy and the demon possession / yin fen

“ I DIDN’T EVEN HAVE SEX IN MY BOYFRIEND’S APARTMENT YET. HOW HAVE YOU?!?!?!!?!”

alec did feel it when jace tried to kill himself during the trial. in fact, he felt jace’s anguish and despair, and he got hit by it hard, which is what ultimately made him vulnerable for the demon possession and attracted it to him, in the first place. jace’s anguish through the bond knocked alec’s guard down and got him possessed.

alec was serene and happy earlier when he talked to magnus. he was worried about jace, but he was so certain jace would be back in an instant that he wasn’t tortured by it. sure the demon possessions were scary and all, but alec isn’t a scared little child, and he knows better than to let his guard down. he wasn’t vulnerable, he was feeling grateful to be alive, to have jace back, to have magnus.so why and how would the demon get in him? the most logic explanation is that jace was in such terror and pain and anguish that it seeped through the bond, and hit alec. which then, for my alec, drove his possessed self to clary’s room looking for her, where he found jocelyn instead.

what i really take into consideration about alec’s despair for finding jace, beyond the parabatai bond, beyond loving him so deeply, was that (mine, at least) alec had grown up hearing jace’s stories about his father. he grew up holding jace at night when he had nightmares. listening to incredibly awful stories told in a nonchalant tone because jace never even knew how bad it was; because he never knew any differently; listening to a little boy talk about his father with a fierce loyalty and love, when alec only felt stomach sick at the way he was raised, treated and beaten. jace literally thinks how he remembers looking for beating scars on his body after his father died, because those were the closest connections he had to him. and alec KNOWS this. he knows all of it. he knows exactly how jace was abused, how he feels about it, how vulnerable he is to valentine, and i think that of everything THIS is what scares him the most.

i think that when he was a little kid, he promised himself that he would NEVER let someone hurt jace like that again. and i think it really translates in his complete despair at not being able to find him. he knows more than anyone, almost as much as jace, what valentine is capable of. he knows intimately of the mental and emotional effects that has had on someone whose soul he has inside him. he KNOWS how this is gonna wreck jace apart, and it HURTS, because he swore he’d never let valentine(or michael) get his hands on him again and then it happened.

i’m sure i’m the slowest person on earth but i think i just maybe realized their intention with alec+jocelyn (i mean besides another wedge between fraywood). that alec’s rage brought him to clary’s room, to kill her, and found jocelyn in it, instead.+ i mean, i thought about it because before that we get that scene between clary and her mom, and there’s this pretty pointless comment of her saying she was guarding clary’s room, to make sure it was clear. it’d make sense? if izzy came for alec, because she focused years of resentment on him, alec does focused a lot of his resentment with himself on clary since she showed up.

ok. but seriously. this makes so much sense to me, and it’s my headcanon now. and now i’ve made myself sad. we got almost the entire first half of the episode reminding us of how alec’s annoyed by clary, doesn’t like her etc. then there was jocelyn’s comment that she was guarding clary’s bedroom. and i’m pretty sure some part of alec still irrationally, deep down, blamed clary for jace being through all the suffering he can feel his parabatai going through. valentine wouldn’t order jocelyn dead, specially when he hadn’t even got to talk to her yet. and while alec did have reasons to hate her, i.e. for what she did to jace, and how she used him too, she wouldn’t be his priority target. so what does make sense to me, was that he was looking for the daughter and found jocelyn instead, and it was good enough for the demon, given the circumstances. clearly i’m not saying alec wants clary dead, ofc not, much less to be the one to kill her, but just that his emotions would much more likely guide the demon towards her than her mother.

memory demon : “the one person you love the most.” /love/ the most. and while you could argue it was a sibling type of love (which is bullshit), alec’s reaction to it makes it clear that was not what that was, and he knew it wasn’t, and therefore could not possibly IMAGINE that someone would think it was something else, and not what he hated himself so much for. just like izzy knew. magnus knew. and clary knew. and jace did too at that moment. i just don’t get how someone can think that isn’t important. is alec falling in love with magnus? ABSO-FUCKING-LUTELY, but that doesn’t invalidate feelings he’s had before. it takes a while to work those kind of things out. he’s learning to love jace in a platonic way. i don’t know about anyone else, but, to me, you just don’t forget your first love, and everyone you’ve loved in fact, stays with you in one way or another. everything was done rushed-ly (though we know that was not their fault in season 01) so yES. alec WAS in love with jace still. at least my alec would always have been.just like camille is fucking important, and not dispensable, neither is jace to alec. their heartbreaks and unrequited love, are part of what make them finding each other so important. discarding that just actually cheapens their love, in my opinion.

malec fighting : i want magnus to drop his gentleness for once, and be the powerful, centuries old warlock around alec. i want  him to give alec a good shake (with words), so he realizes he can’t just shift back into treating magnus like “any other downworlder” that doesn’t belong in his business whenever he’s angry, scared, or upset. i loved that scene so much, but now i really wanted a confrontation that didn’t happen last time, when alec apologized instead, and magnus was sweet to him and that was great, but i wanted him to shake alec up a bit this time. like yes, he understands, but alec needs to understand too. that that was his family as much as it was alec’s. that alec can’t just be a shadowhunter, in business mode, that has no space for magnus whenever things get hard.

#ok#i see where you're coming from and all#but let me tell you about the word 'friend'#that fucking word#hurts so much#so fucking much#idk if that's the case here with magnus#but i can say that even watching that scene made me flinch#there is a world of conotations#of sweeping under the rug#of diminishing#of shaming#of dismissing#and of humiliation in that word#specially when it's said in the exact tone he said it#it actually hurt me to see it#it's a brutal word when said just right  X

there is a reason for why alec never sensed jace’s hook ups before, but jace felt it when alec and magnus first had something intimate with each other. the reason being that what jace felt and called happiness was actually a mix of intimacy, safety, yes, pleasure, but above all, love. since jace has never been in love before clary, and never had the chance to have something more with her, alec never felt the same from him. which is why it was a big surprise when he found out jace felt it, and it’s something he’s definitely to this day not entirely comfortable with. when clary and jace finally have their moment, alec will probably feel it too. it is certainly one of the reasons for his jealousy and pain in the first season, as he’s felt many things from 🇯🇦🇨🇪 towards girls before, but had never sensed him actually falling in love with someone else, until her.

people say alec is not affectionate enough but honestly to my alec those little touches are such an evolution??? just talking about my portrayal, personally, he was definitely more affectionate as a child, but ever since his gay thoughts™ started, he slowly stopped being freely affectionate to people. it started with jace, and then it extended to not initiating affection unless other people did for him. he’s JUST learning that it’s okay and he’s okay being who he is and he’s not gonna taint people just by touching them, or his close ones aren’t gonna find out he’s weird if they stand too close, or he’s not gonna give himself away if he lets himself be sensible and warm and let people in. that his love is not tainted. the fact that he’s initiating so many little gestures of affections is incredible to me. and i know the show doesn’t quite show how much of his struggle was due to homophobic society since that is so toned down in it, but his struggle was supreme, and to be this confident in himself, this comfortable, with greeting kisses and casual touching, that is amazing to me.

ok but look at his face. i know there’s this whole show thing where suddenly alec is the most confident person in the world, but that’s not how my interpretation will go. he’s not comfortable in this position, at all. he doesn’t even know if this is what he actually wants or just what his family imposed for him and he’s just used to it. he didn’t have the time to figure that out with jace having been head for less than 24 hours. at this point it feels like an obligation he can’t escape, and he feels wrong telling people what to do and being in this much exposition. he doesn’t like it. and he’s not even sure the job is for him.

ok but look at his face. i know there’s this whole show thing where suddenly alec is the most confident person in the world, but that’s not how my interpretation will go. he’s not comfortable in this position, at all. he doesn’t even know if this is what he actually wants or just what his family imposed for him and he’s just used to it. he didn’t have the time to figure that out with jace having been head for less than 24 hours. at this point it feels like an obligation he can’t escape, and he feels wrong telling people what to do and being in this much exposition. he doesn’t like it. and he’s not even sure the job is for him.

jalec headcanon hour: jace is able to, through their parabatai bond, activate alec’s runes for him without a stele, and at a distance, just like he does with his own.

i firmly believe alec is overcompensating on confidence and decision-making for having not done so the episode magnus was trapped inside valentine. that’s why he’s so“FINE”, with all of this. he KNEW something was wrong the moment he touched magnus to get him off the floor after azazel’s attack. but he didn’t trust himself, and if he had, and had been more involved, instead of accepting the clave’s authority, things would had been different. now he’s desperate to fix this however he can, prove himself not only as a protector but as DIFFERENT from the institution that did what they did to magnus, the downworlders, and so many other prisoners, and trust his gut. and just really hoping it won’t explode all on his face. pretty sure an anxiety attack is on the way when things get too big to handle. he’s much too young for this big a responsibility over so many lives. he might look all grown up but if clary is eighteen, that means he’s twenty one at best. and i feel like it’s often forgotten.

ok, but, good part of why it took my alec a while to realize the whole switch thing is he’s still waiting for the other shoe to drop. aka people, including  magnus, to reject him.

for weeks after alec dies for a second, jace has repeated nightmares of re-living that scene, only alec never comes back and jace in the dream thinks reality is the illusion. it messes him up for a while, where he needs to touch alec to know he’s real and there and alive, and jace wakes up gasping and while he’s dreaming he at times chants the ‘please don’t leave me, alec’ hoping this time he will get to live. some times in those dreams alec is killed by wolves, or by valentine’s hand because jace refuses to obey. some times he wakes up with his parabatai rune burning.

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jus realized i apped for like ? 4 new muses ? and have yet to introduce them lolz my bad here they are huns xx

ava madelaine rojas !

a rich girl who grew up in the lap of luxury, got all she asked for, the whole nine yards or whatever that cliche is idk i’m bad at remembering the correct sayings for things herldksjf

didn’t have any angsty parents who ignored her or something, tbh they were really supportive of her but a lil bit too supportive if u get it.... think like patrick’s parents in kings of summer ? they were super corny and cheesy and always offered her a tomato to take as a snack

so anyways she was hella babied and didn’t really resent it or anything heavy like that she jus really thought it was fricken annoying and of course rise her rebel phase

had a myspace for a while and attempted to get myspace famous which worked to a certain degree but her parents couldnt stand the sight of her ugly ass hair with too much layers and colours and she really didn’t like it either but anything to rebel !

anyways fast forward some years and she’s calmed down but still attempts to be a rebel bitch and acts tougher than she really is

took up vaping unironically and now it’s all she ever talks about. she deadass spent heavy monies on a good vape and goes out of her way to buy root beer flavoured vape. that vine of that white girl at a party vaping and it pans over to a guy and he’s like “wooow” that’s her and morgan ( @convndrums hey hunnie xx )

has a heart of gold and would die for her friends if they asked her to. when asked if she’d jump off a bridge if everyone else is doing it, she’s already on her way down

her life goal is to get a criminal record in every continent, hence why she’s here in london. she deadass just spins a wheel and whatever it lands on she goes with. public indecency ? been there done that, sis !

insult her vapes and she’ll go into a deep depression

delaney jun zhang !

an actual high class bitch minus the bitch part

grew up in vienna and was all about sipping wine and admiring renaissance art. she followed that aesthetic 100%

she grew up middle class, tbh nothing special. her mom was a nurse and her dad was a carpenter so she wasn’t struggling for monies but she also never took a vacation further than austria but she didn’t mind, she loved it there anyways :P

anyways she lived a normal life so flash forward a couple years and she’s in university studying journalism and she gets this internship at bbc radio and luck just struck her right and now she got semi-famous ?

she’s always getting papped but not even for her, she jus hangs with famous ppl and she’s always that girl u never know how or why she’s there. pretty much only england famous, otherwise she’s pretty unknown

think of this post ? http://harrystylesdaily.net/post/44412287518/harry-and-co-on-look-magazine she’s the dave garder. who is he ? no fricken idea tbh

so now she’s semi-rich and always sends money home for her family and honestly just lives it up

a party girl who loves meeting new ppl and making friends and is always down for a good time :P

felix ephraim estbury !

so to start off ? the son of george and poppy estbury aka a fricken prince

despite their slack take on the royal shiz, he was still forced into all those ridiculous dinner parties and galas which also meant etiquette class and just the whole works which he wasn’t the biggest fricken fan of but honestly who the funk would be

he saw through a lot of the stuff that went on in the family with the scandals and really just focused on the bigger picture and the greater spectrum of things if u pick up what i’m putting down but probs not bcos i got no idea how 2 put anything into words

BASICALLY where his family knew of their status and would sometimes abuse it or even just take advantage of it or whatever, he hated the thought of doing that and his family would tell him that he’d grow into it and fill the royal shoes but he just could fricken not

so he grew up with the mindset of ?? he really don’t like the monarchy lolz

growing up it just started with small little things to rebel like slouching at the dinner table or just not executing these good social manners, etc but as he grew, his little plans began to grow. he would sabotage events that he knew would have a huge social following and thus, higher stakes ? he’s fallen into the cake at some royal wedding, shown up drunk to gatherings, the whole bit :P

at this point, his grandfather’s got a tight leash on him and though he adores him bcos he looks at him and he thinks that’s my grandpa.. and he’s proud... but he makes it loud and clear that he disagrees with the monarchy and #DownWithTheBourgeois

he’s hella socialist and was daniel sharman advocating 4 bernie ( the one that got away </3 )

he hates being associated with the monarchy tbh he really just wants to have his own thing going for him and is walking a thin line on changing his name altogether

he kylie jenner doesn’t think he should b “famous”

dead ass just wants 2 be that #FreeBitch and move 2 prague, do his own thing, not have to worry about anything back home, just completely disassociate from his current life

also very flighty ? he fricken hates doing one thing for too long or being stuck in the same place so he has gotta pick up the next thing that crosses his mind aka he’s got 4956 unfinished projects, 9438 unread books, 1839 hoes in different area codes

loves meeting new peepz, making new friends, b his pal !

serafina ainsley villiers !

invented posh bihtcs

literally grew up to be the girl riot club. was filthy rich and spoiled rotten and never had to worry about the consequences of her actions because she had all the money in the world to pay off who she wanted

literally went through nanny after nanny over the stupidest reasons ? she didn’t like their lipstick colour ? consider them fired. literally made her family’s workers a living hell

to the public eye though, she was all smiles and charitable and highly respected and was this golden girl with no bad intentions whatsoever and the only news of her bad decisions were on these shit ass gossip sites that nobody believed in

literally pulled a kendall jenner and used her family’s name to get herself into the modelling business. she’s good ig ? but not so good where she’s deserving of her place

career-wise, she’s p much like real suki wherein she’s got this side business and designs clothes and accessories and all this and yea :P

is honestly the fakest bihtc alive ? upon meeting her, she’ll be all regina george but once they leave she’s shit talking them to hell and back and honestly ? isn’t the nicest person, not even in the least bit

welcome 2 hell welcome 2 hell welcome 2 hell. if u wanna plot, SMASH THAT MF LIKE BUTTON