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Yin & Yang (Steddie X You)
A/N: This post got me feeling some kind of way𫠠.
Warnings: Older Daddy Eddie (Late 30s)/ Older Dom Mr. Harrington (Late 30s) & Younger Fem Sub Y/N (mid 20s)
SMUT, LOTS of dirty talk, male masturbation, fingering, talks of sharing (duh), slight innocence kink (if you squint; she's new to the dynamic), ANGST, reader deals with a rude customer and Eddie saves the day. A fight between Eddie and Y/N are mentioned.
Word Count: 4838
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Everyone always said Edward Munson was a rude, pretentious asshole. News outlets, websites, social media; everyone who met him briefly or not at all expressed a particular distain for him that you always found amusing when the topic came up.Â
Visually, he did seem a bit aloof whenever the businessman did any kind of interview or was asked any kind of question. It was always a bit odd seeing a music producer get so much attention especially one who focused on the heavy metal scene but everyone who hated him also tended to agree that he was a genius at the craft.Â
The bands he signed and prompted always hit high numbers on their respective charts making him and them a ton of extra money in the process.Â
Anything you read or heard you skimmed past mostly because that wasnât exactly your scene nor did you know anything when it came to what goes on the background of the music industry. Working at a coffee shop wasnât extravagant or lucrative but it got you through till you could figure what actually was your scene and go from there.Â
Thatâs how you met him.Â
On a particularly rough shift, a man was screaming at you about an order that you supposedly got wrong as you tried to control the tears from spilling down your face.Â
âHow stupid are you?! Itâs coffee not a fucking math equation. You just put the right liquid in the right cup and fucking hand it to me! Itâs not that hard! Fucking moron.â
âExcuse me.â The man turned just as the handsome gentleman who addressed him hung up his phone and shoved it into his coat pocket. âI understand youâre a bit stressed but Iâm going to have to ask you to stop harassing the young lady. Itâs not her fault and sheâs doing her best.â
âPfft. Fuck off, douchebag. This doesnât concern you.â
âIt actually does because you couldnât handle this situation in a quiet calm manner. Youâre ruining everyoneâs morning including mine. NowâŚeither take the coffee sheâs giving you or wait for her to make a new one patiently.â
The manâs fist flew but the gentleman moved out of the way, grabbing his wrist, and twisting it as he forced the man to kneel before him.Â
âOk. If this is the way you want to do this, thatâs fine. SweetheartâŚâ When he addressed you, you immediately stood at attention ready to die for this man if he asked after what he had just done. âCan you hand me that cup there? Thank you.â, he praises, flashing you a small smile that makes you giddy. âNow, apologize to the young lady.â
âOw, Iâm sorry!â, the man cringes when his wrist is twisted a bit more.Â
âGood. Take this coffee and get the fuck out of my sight. If I see you here again I wonât be so nice.â
Disregarding the Styrofoam in the gentlemanâs hand, the rude customer quickly gets to his feet before running out of the store. Sighing, your hero places the coffee in front of you.
âThank youâŚfor defending me⌠He was being such an asshole.â
âYeah, he was. Itâs not your fault he didnât order the correct thing. I can be an asshole myself but I know when and where to use it.â When you giggled, his beautiful eyes scan you over as if trying to get a read on you with the little information in front of him.Â
âAre you, um, are you Edward?â, you ask as you slide him the coffee with the name scrawled across.Â
Again, he glances you over and later on you would learn he was looking for recognition. Everyone he interacted with knew his name and who he was. You were the first person in years who seemed to regard him as just another stranger which fascinated him.
âI am but you can call me Eddie. Thatâs what my friends call me.â
âOh. Um, weâre friends?â
âFor now, but Iâd like to be more whenever youâre open to it.â
Another smile stretched across his face when he noticed your own turn bright red as you blushed.Â
âYou donât even know my name.â
Coyly, he leans his elbows on to your counter as his eyes stare at your chest. At first you feel self-conscious before you realize heâs looking at your name tag and you let out a tiny laugh to break the tension.
âIâm sorry, I justââ
âDo I make you nervous?âÂ
âA little.â
âHonest. I like that. How about this. I can pick you up after your shift today and we can start with dinner and go from there.â
âI donât have any clothes to change into.â
âThatâs ok. I think you look perfect as is and I promise when I come get you I wonât be dressed as formal.â
âO-Ok, Eddie.â
âGood. Good girl. Iâll see you tonight.â
That evening, he showed up right as the shop was about to close and when you told him it would be a few more minutes, he nodded as he patiently waited by the front door. You occasionally snuck glances at him as he browsed his phone. True to his word, he wore jeans and sneakers with a nice white button up shirt that he had rolled up to his elbows. With how he looked this morning, you imagined for him this was dressed pretty down. While his hair was slicked back when you last saw him, now his waves seemed to have a mind of their own making him seem less intimidating and quite adorable.Â
Eddie asked you so many different questions about yourself, silently listening as you both ate at the restaurant he took you to. You learned fairly quickly, while he seemed like a man of few words, his body language spoke loudly. His chocolate eyes never left yours as he hung on each and every word you spoke. When you said something he found even remotely funny, his lips would flicker into a slight smirk before returning to their proper alignment. When your drink ran low, his finger would raise and a waiter would promptly run your way with a refill and as the night progressed you found his leg leaning against yours with a little sigh escaping his chest when you didnât shy away.Â
âI feel kind of selfish. Iâve been talking about myself a lot but I feel like I donât know anything about you.â
âHonestly, sweetheart, itâs a nice reprieve. Everyone I run into knows me and my perceived reputation so to finally meet someone who doesnât know me is a breath of fresh air.â
âReputationâŚâ, you repeated the word apprehensively.Â
âUm, Iâm kind of known as being a jerk.â
âYou donât seem like that to me.â
Eddie smiled so wide this time that his teeth came into view and you knew at that moment youâd do whatever it took to see him smile like that as much as possible.Â
âThank you for that. I can be when I need to be. In my line of work people tend to take advantage pretty early on and I wanted this industry to know Iâm not someone to fuck with.â
âDo you make movies or?â
âMusic. Iâm a music producer for some heavy metal bands.â
âOh wow! Thatâs so amazing. I would love to know more! Did you use to play?��
When he finally began to open up, hours passed like minutes and you were so entranced that you didnât even realize the restaurant was getting ready to close.Â
Eddie told you at one point he was in a band but hated the way they were cast aside for being âto genericâ and âstuck in the pastâ so he took matters into his own hands. He bought a building and turned it into a label where he could help produce his friendâs music. He learned everything he could about production and managing, getting everything together, and essentially put Corroded Coffin on the map.Â
He found that he actually loved working behind the scenes and stuck with it from that point forward. Now heâs a well-respected name in his field earning triple what he would have made as a guitarist.Â
âWhatâs the name of the label you first opened?â
âFranklin Production; my motherâs maiden name. It seemed right because her money bought the building and she always loved music. She died when I was young.â
When his head hung, your heart broke.Â
âOh my God, Eddie. Iâm so sorry.â
His mood changed in the blink of an eye as he breathily chuckled and glanced at his watch.Â
âShit, Y/N, itâs almost 1am. You have to be exhausted after your long shift today. Let me pay for our meal here and then I can take you home.â
âWeâve ordered so much food and drinks. Please let me help pay.â He paused at your comment then as his eyes met your now confused ones. âWhat?â
âIâve only met one person who ever offered something like you just did and that man is my best friend.â
âI meanâŚitâs rudeâŚisnât it? Itâs not fair for me to expect you to pay for everything.â
âFuck me, baby.â Your eyelids visibly flutter at the term of endearment; coming out of his mouth with a sultry husk that made you swoon. âYouâre really something special. I appreciate the offer but when youâre with me, honey, I can take care of you. Itâs my pleasure quite honestly.â
You watched him pay the waiter and leave him way more than 15% before Eddie grabs your hand, leading you back to his car.Â
That night he dropped you off at your apartment continuing to be the perfect gentleman as he walked you to your door and kept his hands behind his back as you slowly turned your key. Before you entered, however, you paused and hastily turned to plant a small kiss on his lips. Without waiting for a retort, you want inside and shut your door with a little giggle, watching through the peephole to see what heâd do.Â
Eddieâs fingers softly brushed against his mouth as he grinned the way you enjoyed at the restaurant.Â
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You had been together now for a few months and you loved him with every fiber of your being. Eddie was extremely protective over you insisting you quit your job and move in with him.Â
âSweetheart, I donât want you being somewhere where some fucker can belittle you and make you feel like trash. I can take care of you till you find a new job that makes you happy and people treat you with the respect you deserve.â
âEddie, I canât ask you to do that.â
âYouâre not asking; Iâm offering.â, he cooed as his hands cupped your cheeks. âYou know how much Daddy loves looking after his pretty girl.â
The first time he called himself Daddy, you blushed and hid behind your hands making him smile as he chuckled low in his throat.Â
âHave you ever called a man Daddy before?â When you giggle and curl tighter into your body, he climbed into the bed beside you and pulled you to his side. âItâs ok, sweetheart. Nothing to be embarrassed about with me. Can I show you something?â
Eddie grins when you drop your palms and show him your beautiful face.Â
âGood girl.â, he praises as he takes ahold of your hand and kisses the back of it. With his eyes locked on yours, he gradually places it on the bulge in his slacks. âYou feel that? Do you feel how hard I am just from being around you as is? You donât have to do or say anything you donât want to, princess. Iâll still be here and Iâll still want to fuck you till you can barely move.â
A smile twitched on his lips when your breathing stuttered.Â
âI-I-Iâve never called anyone Daddy before or done anything thatâs notâŚâ
âVanilla?â, he helped when your sentence stalled. âVanillaâs ok to. Definitely a delicious flavor that canât be disregarded. Can I tell you a secret?â
âOf course.â
Eddie leans in till his mouth is just hovering over the shell of your ear.Â
âThe fact that youâre so nervous and innocent to all this really fucking turns me on.â
When his cock strains a bit more against the fabric and pushes back against your hand, you canât help but release a little whine as you push your thighs together.Â
âWhatâs wrong, baby? Got a bit of an ache between your legs?â
âYes.â, you breath out heavily as his palm ghosts up your thigh and his lips tenderly peck along your neck.Â
âI can help with that if you want.â
âY-Yes, Daddy, please.â
Now, you were more than comfortable especially since he was always so patient with you when it came to almost everything. Unlike your past relationships, you were genuinely surprised at how little the two of you fought if at all. Eddie was a force in his business but when you two were together he was always as accommodating as possible. The one time you ever saw his anger directed towards you was when you forgot your phone when you went on a girlâs night out with your friends.Â
When you came home at 2 in the morning, he was waiting in the living room and pacing with a glass of whiskey in his hand.Â
âItâs 2 in the morning, Y/N! Iâve been worried sick! You forgot your phone. What if something happened to you and you couldnât reach me!?â
âEddie, itâs ok! I just forgot it. I promise Iâll do better next timeââ
âThatâs not the point! What if there hadnât been a next time!? Iâm responsible for you!â
âI donât know what you want me to say!! Iâm sorry!!â
âYou watch that fucking tone with me, little girl!â
âOh yeah. Or what?!â
When the glass in his hand shattered into the wall behind you everything became abruptly silent. Tears stung your eyes as you grabbed the little trashcan nearby and scooted towards the mess, sinking to your knees as you collect the pieces.Â
âY/N, baby. No. No, no. Let me clean this, please.â, Eddie begged, his tone much softer than before as he kneeled beside you.Â
When he tried to take the sharp items from your grasp, you angrily pulled away from him.Â
âI didnât mean to forget my phone. It was an honest mistake and you had no right screaming at me like you just did!â
âI know. Youâre right, sweetheart. You are absolutely right. I just⌠fuck⌠Iâm so sorry, Y/N. I love you so much and the idea of something happening to you or you getting hurt just terrifies me. I shouldnât have reacted this way.â
Blinking up at him, your hand reaches for his own.Â
âYou love me?â
âYeah, Y/N, of course. Since I met you behind that coffee counter.â
After tackling him excitedly, you beamed as you kissed his lips.Â
âI love you to.â
People on the outside didnât seem to understand why you were with him but they didnât know him the way you did. Eddie was sweet, funny, and incredibly kind despite his hardened outer exterior. According to the man himself, the only other person who understood him the same way you did was a man you had yet to meet.Â
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Steven Harrington was a name you knew solely due to his reputation in media.Â
He was always portrayed as just another trust fund baby who was utilizing daddyâs money to do whatever he wanted. He got in trouble constantly but brushed it off with a sexy smile and a calm demeanor that made even the biggest skeptic want to trust him.
The first time Eddie mentioned him by name was after you noticed him watching one of Steveâs interviews.Â
âFucking idiot.â, he chuckled light-heartedly, turning the screen of his phone so you could watch to when you climbed into bed beside him. âThis is the guy I was telling you about. Steve Harrington has been my best friend for years.â
âThis is your best friend?â
When he nods, you focus on the interview in front of you.
âNo, no. Trust me, that company would be crazy to sell right now in this economy. Once things bounce back it will be worth way more than it is now. Then againâŚif they sell I could buy it and turn it into a hotel or some s***. Go ahead than! Sell that f***er!â, he laughs making you giggle as well when his nose scrunches adorably.Â
âSteve is actually a very clever business guy. People constantly underestimate him because he acts like a playboy.â
âSoâŚheâs the yin to your yang?â
Eddie smirks down at you before kissing your forehead.Â
âYou could say that.â
The more your boyfriend told you about him the more you wanted to meet him. Eddie seemed to genuinely care about this person and as his girlfriend you wanted him to get to know him as well. The first time you spoke to him was after you moved in with Ed and he called to congratulate you both.Â
âHey! Are you Y/N?â
âI am.â, you grin.Â
âOh good. I donât know what I would have done if you said no. âEDDIE! Some random pretty girl is in your place!ââ, Steve laughed.Â
âPft. How do you know Iâm pretty?â
âBecause a sexy voice like yours must be inside a beautiful woman. Iâm kind of jealous.â
He said it so smoothly that if you werenât already sitting youâre sure his words would have knocked you off your feet. Your eyes glanced towards Eddie who was watching you from his spot on the couch.Â
âUh oh. Did I lose you, honey? Sorry. Sometimes I come on a bit too strong.â
âNo, no. Itâs ok. You just⌠you remind me of him.â, you exhale as you get up and walk towards your boyfriend.Â
âOf who? Of Eddie? I take that as a compliment. Heâs a good man.â
âYeah he is but thatâs not exactly what I meant.â
âOh? Well then use your words, pretty girl. Who do I remind you of? Iâm DYING to know.â
Eddie softly smirks as he watches your breathing stagger the same way it does when youâre intimidated by something. His ring covered fingers gently trace down your arm making you shiver.Â
âTell me.â
The two words that followed came out as a strong command that told you to obey. The contradiction of how he spoke now to how he had before made you dizzy and you desperately wanted more.Â
âDaddy.â
After tossing the phone next to Eddie, you covered your face with your palms and ran up the stairs. A few moments later, the man you loved climbed into bed beside you and collected you into his arms.Â
âTalk to me, baby. Remember, no matter what thereâs nothing to be embaressed about, ok?â He smiled when he felt you nod against his chest. âI know Steve can be a bit much at first but heâs a good person whoâs been through a lot of bullshit.â
As you sniffle, you tilt back so you could see his face.Â
âI feel bad.â
âAbout what, sweetheart?â
âI liked the way he spoke to me. It turned me on the same way you do.â
âOkâŚwhy does that make you feel bad?â
You shrug. âI love you.â
That makes him genuinely smile.Â
âI love you to, Y/N, so much. Thatâs why I trust you, babe. I, um, I have a confession to make.â When you sit up to give him your full attention, he does the same. âIâve known Steve for a long time and I trust that man with my life. Iâve told him things Iâve never told anyone and heâs done the same. You said, sweetheart, heâs the yin to my yang and youâre right. Fuck⌠how do I say thisâŚâ
âYou want to share me?â
The innocent way you asked your question drove him insane but he pushed down the need to fuck you for the time being.Â
âKind of, yes. IâŚI wanted to see how you two got along and if it worked out, maybe, we could fly to go meet him and⌠youâd still be mine but heâdââ
âUse me.â
âFuck, baby, you have to stop saying things like that the way you are.â, Eddie panted excitedly as he adjusted the growing bulge in his pants.Â
âMay I ask why? Why you would want to share me like that?â
âOf course, Y/N, you can always ask me anything. You hold the power here especially when it comes to this. I just⌠heâs my best friend and I want him to be happy to. In these past few months, youâve changed my world and I just want to give him some of that. I, um, I also thinkâŚâ
âTell me, Daddy. Please.â, you beg in your tiny voice that has his eyes closing as he tries to control himself.Â
âFuck⌠I think it would be incredibly hot to watch you fuck him.â
You had told him you were open but apprehensive because it was all new territory for you. Both men came up with an idea to help you get acclimated to the idea.Â
âHey all. Wow, Jesus Christ Munson, you undersold your girlfriendâs beauty. Hot damn.â
You giggled as Eddie rolled his eyes at his friend who was laughing himself from his side of the computer screen. It looked like Steve had the device he was using for this facetime visit resting on his lower stomach as he leaned against the headboard of his bed looking incredibly sexy with his ruffled hair and tank top just barely covering the chest hair that littered his skin.Â
Eddie had you sitting in between his own legs as he rested his head against your shoulder and his arms hugged you to him.Â
âI hope Iâm not making you uncomfortable. If I do at any point please just let me know and Iâll respect your boundaries.â
âYou donât make me uncomfortable but, uh, you kind of intimidate me a bitâŚmore than Eddie did.â
âIs it because I start at 10 and go from there? Yeah, casualties of growing up in chaotic household and then starting a business where your biggest competitor is your father.â
âWhat DO you do? Ed said youâre an investor?â
âKind of.  I invested in a friendâs tech company many years ago and that paid off in a big way. They make medical supplies that are high quality for a cheaper price. Iâm trying to expand so we can invest in moreâPfft! Listen to me talking about all that bullshit. Letâs talk about something else.â
âNo, hey! Thatâs amazing that you do that. My father needed supplies like that but it was so hard for him to afford stuff. Youâve probably helped so many people. What supplies has your company helped make?â
Steve blinked, sitting up straighter.
âHuh.â
âI told you.â, Eddie sings as he places a delicate kiss along your skin.Â
âD-Did I do something wrong? Am I not allowed to ask him questions?â, you asked genuinely worried you crossed a line.Â
âMost people, let alone women, donât care enough to ask us things like you just did.â
âMaybe you two are spending time around the wrong people.â
âMaybe⌠Damn, Eddie. Sheâs perfect. Where did you find her because obviously Iâve been looking in the wrong places.â
âHm. I found her in a coffee shop being yelled at by some asshole. Fucker.â, he growled before you tilted back and kissed his cheek. âItâs not just her personality either. Her body fucking drives me crazy. Even just watching her walk from the bed to the bathroom makes me so fucking hard.â
âYeah? Your Daddy says you have sexy body. Can you show it to me?â
âOnly if youâre comfortable, princess.â, Eddie whispers in your ear.
âCan you help me, Daddy?â
Nodding, he removes each item of your clothing till you were naked for the man on the screen in front of you.Â
âFuck me. Iâm not just saying this, Y/N, but youâre so gorgeous.â
âThank you.â, you groan as you lick your lips. âMay I see you?â
âWell, since you asked so nicely.â, he smirks.Â
Your whole body tingled as you watched him undress until you sucked in a sharp intake of air when his cock sprang free from his cotton confinement.Â
âHeâs so big.â, you murmur against Eddieâs cheek as his eyes remain downcast to focus on you. âHow will it fit?â
âWeâll make fit, pretty girl. Steve and I can take care of you.â
âEverything alright?â
âYeah. Little one is worried about your splitting her in half. â
âDonât worry, honey, Iâm a gentleman to. Iâm not going to just shove my dick inside of you. Even if it takes hours, we can eat and finger your little pussy till sheâs ready.â
âFuck, Daddy, please.â
Aggressively, Eddie opens your legs wide putting you on display and making Steve groan.Â
âWet already and no oneâs even touched you yet.â, he responded mockingly before leaning over his cock to spit on his tip and stroke himself. âHow tight is she, Munson?â
You moaned loudly as Eddie inserted two of his thick fingers into your cunt and your head leaned back against him.
âSo fucking tight, Harrington, and greedy. Her pussy just sucks me in and chokes my dick when she cums. Add in her sexy little noises and the way her face scrunchesâŚâÂ
âOpen your eyes, Y/N.â Steve smiles when you do what he asks. âGood girl. She listens to. Fuck, baby, donât take those eyes off me. God, IâmâmmmâIâm dying to feel those pretty lips around my cock.â
âYouâre really good at sucking cock, arenât you, sweetheart?â
âY-Yes, Daddy. IâmâŚMâclose.â
âI know, pretty girl. I can feel it. Why donât you tell Stevie how bad you want his cum.â
You mewl as Eddie moves at a faster pace with the sound of your slick echoing around the room.Â
âPlease, Mr. Harrington, Sir. I-I-I want your cum so much. I want to feel youâahhhhâfeel your cock in my mouth till you spill down my throat.â
âJesus Christ.â, he grunted and you both watched as his release hit his thigh.Â
âYou did so good, sweetheart. Cum for Daddy now, baby.â, Eddie praised as your back pushed against his chest and you panted as you came. âThatâs my girl. Good girl. Ride it out on my fingers till you come back to me. Thatâs it.â
âFucking hell. That was amazing, honey.â Steve watch with fascination as you turned your body and wrapped an arm around Eddieâs chest as you curled into his warm chest. âEverything ok?â
âSheâs fine. Itâs something baby girl does when she cums hard like that. Sheâll squeeze me like a fucking Teddy bear and fall asleep. Sometimes itâs for a few minutes or a few hours. At first I thought it was the headspace but I donât know. Either way I love it.â
âYeah, man. If she had a good time and is open to it I have that party coming up in a month. You two can fly down and we can hang out. Of course, nothing has to happen. I can always just show you guys around and get to know her more.â
âIâll let you know when she wakes up and we talk about it.â
âNo problem. No problem. Hey, maybe at most, you and I can fuck around.â, Steve replies as he coyly raises his eyebrows making his friend laugh.
âOk, calm down over there.â
âOh, come on. Not like it would be the first timeââ
âGood night, asshole.â, Eddie teases as he cuts him off and closes the laptop.
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âAre you alright, sweetheart?â, Eddie asks as he watches you fidget with your hands as you stare at your reflection in the metal of the elevator.Â
âYeah. Iâm just a little nervous. This is your best friend and I know how much he means to you. I donât want toâŚI donât knowâŚfuck anything up.â
âFuck, I still think itâs hot when you get all jittery like this.â, he chuckles as he takes your palm in his. âYou have absolutely nothing to worry about. I love you so I know for a fact he will. Just keep being your unique self, baby, and no matter what Iâll be here if you need anything.â
When he flashes you that big toothy grin, you canât help but smile back as you lean up on your toes to kiss his lips. The doors abruptly swing open and your boyfriendâs demeanor instantly hardens at the sound of loud party guests in the room you both step into.Â
Your eyes swing around the area with no sign of the host himself.Â
Tugging on Eddieâs bicep, you lead him to the drink station where you desperately chug down some liquid courage as you pray that tonight goes as smoothly as possible.
#steddie#steddie x reader#steddie x you#steddie x y/n#eddie munson#daddy eddie#eddie munson smut#eddie munson angst#eddie munson fluff#steve harrington#steve harrington smut#steve harrington fluff#steve harrington angst#stranger things#joe keery#joseph quinn#fan fiction#stranger things fic#stranger things fanfiction#eddie fanfic#steve fanfic
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BG3 reactions to "would you still love me if i was a worm?"
DISCLAIMER: i am not a writing blog do not follow me expecting more hcs you'll be greatly disappointment by the fictional men thirst. this is so fucking stupid. characters included: Astarion, Gale, Halsin, Karlach, Shadowheart
Astarion
"No."
"But what if-"
"I'd crush you under my heel."
damn.
alright.
Gale
"A polymorph spell? that should wear off soon enough."
"but if it didn't?"
"I haven't heard of a spell that strong, is there something I should be concerned about?"
Please. just answer the question man.
he starts fucking infodumping about polymorphing.
you cant even remember the question when he's done.
Halsin
"of course :)))"
what did u expect. man loves nature
"I'd set you free though, i cant bar you from living your true freedom and life as a worm, you belong in the dirt."
you assure him you would way rather stay with him as you live your worm life
He'd narrate the scenery around you... worms are blind
wants to give you a little pat on your worm head but worms are so small and he is.. so so big :(
Karlach
"Why are you a worm :( who did this"
its a HYPOTHETICAL
goes on about how you would travel with her as a worm by her side...
she would keep ur lil worm body warm
"where would you carry me?"
in front of her heart :) worms need a lot of heat
wait that's...
you're currently trying to figure out how to curse yourself immediately.
Shadowheart
"What kind of question is that?"
thoroughly confused.
after much persistence you wring an answer out of her
Yes, she'd keep you in a... jar or something.
hopefully she remembers to poke airholes.
#BG3#god these tags r gonna be annoying#bg3 hcs#bg3 headcannons#astarion x reader#astarion x tav#gale x reader#gale x tav#halsin x reader#halsin x tav#karlach x reader#karlach x tav#shadowheart x reader#shadowheart x tav#astarion#gale#halsin#karlach#shadowheart#GOD.#these r so stupid
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Morning After
Authors note: This includes a variety of my own headcanons on these characters. The reader is gender neutral. This includes only the male harbingers, but I am willing to write one for the chicks too ^^
Capitano.
-The instant you stirred in your sleep, just the slightest twitch, and you were pinned to the mattress with a looming figure above you. His black hair tickled your skin, swaying back and forth from the sudden movement, but that was barely a concern when this man who had been so sweet with you last night was suddenly acting like a switch that flipped off in his brain. All you could tell was one discernable thing after the sudden surprise: there was no escape if he didn't want there to be.
-âCapitano?â You called out, voice hesitant and barely a whisper as fear choked back the ability to speak confidently.
-Immediately the tense nature that had over taken his form fell, shoulders no longer strung together as that soldier who had been pinning you down held you close and started apologizing for startling you.
-He didn't have to say it, he didn't want to, bit for a moment there the Captain had mistaken you for someone that crept into his chambers with ill intent. He's a soldier. War is what he's known for. This caution just comes with the territory.
-To make up for his own actions he makes sure you're well fed, given a hearty breakfast (one a little too big for you to fully eat but he doesn't mind giving you some Tupperware to take it home in) and tea.
-It's just he's a terrible conversationalist, barely talking as he just nods along to whatever you say, making you carry the flow the entire morning as he adds in an occasion âyes, interesting, or no.â
-At least he's handsome under that helmet.
Childe.
-Fell off the bed the moment he saw you, a shout falling from his lips from the surprise of the fall and well, this naked person in his bed.
-Why he didn't expect you to wake up and throw a pillow at his head for being so darn loud when you have a hangover? Well, only Celestia knows. Though he didn't bother to block it, simply accepted getting hit as it didn't even knock him back.. well that is if he didn't play along and dramatically fell down onto the floor.
-âAre you always such a drama queen?â
-âA guy can't play along with a joke?â
-Very sweet, but a little bit annoying as he asks about you in as many questions he can think of. What's your favorite color? What's your job?
-Admittedly Childe has never had a one night stand before so he doesn't know what to do in this position so when you give him a sweet smile and tell him to just to let you get dressed for now he goes to get a stray shirt for you.
-Definitely wants to see you again, and not just in the bedroom.
-âSo where do you come from?â
-âGive me five minutes for fucks sake.â
Dottore.
-First off, what? He's aware each harbinger has their own little dedicated fan club, even himâŚfor some reason. Yet for him to willingly bring someone, possibly one of them, to his bed? People aren't allowed in his personal quarters. Hell, he barely uses it himself, opting to sleep on that one couch in the laboratory. So why the switch in his normal behavioral patterns?
-(I personally see Dottore as a virgin so for this dweeb to lose it this way-)
-Admittedly, he's on edge from trying to remember what happened, the haze of sleep, and the shock of seeing someone he apparently trusted enough to bring to bed. It only made sense he was scowling at this sleeping body. It wouldn't be easy enough to just call it a new test subject, use the sheets as restraints to drag this stranger down to his lab and shove them in a cell but..
-Maybe not this time.
-Instead he gets up and throws on some clothes as quickly as possible, making sure to slot his mask in place despite the fact you have very obviously already seen what lies underneath. That and more.
-It has proven more useful than not to use that thing to hide his expressions.
- Depending on if he drank last night and that's what had him indulging in the warmth of another person's body, Dottore would have one of his clones stand by until you wake up. They can deal with the situation from there and take you home while he gets some caffeine in his body. An easy way to rid of a hangover and forget his newfound company.
-If it was a completely sober decision, Dottore no longer has the excuse that he simply got ahead of himself from the drink and would therefore be hostile in response. Unable to put up with this one bit, he would be telling his bed partner to get dressed and head home already so he can get back to work instead of watching over pointless little you.
-Don't try and say anything about possibly being emotionally attached, it would only anger him. Boy is not used to being open or vulnerable with anyone and you suddenly appearing and having held him so close last night would only set him off in the worst of ways.
Pantalone.
-First thing this man notices is he's just not as comfy as usual, somehow this mattress isn't right, he isn't sinking into the soft plush he spent thousands on. Not even his haze of grogginess was enough to make tossing and turning twist his body into comfort. (Goldilocks having motherfucker). So with a steady hand he reaches out to find his glasses on the nightstand, silver chains rattling on the surface as he pulls them close.
-A one night stand isn't an uncommon thing to the regrator, for him it's happened a small handful of times before but it's never something he's typically the better for in the morning. A man of his position caught slinking into a woman's bedroom as they drunkenly grope at eachother was far from a good look. Not to mention you never knew if the individual would keep their mouth shut.
-That has been a problem with one particular individual in the past that has henceforth been âdealt with.â
-But the person laying besides him was still conked out and wrapped in a good majority of the blankets the bedding had to offer. Well, a bit of a thief aren't they? Pantalone almost wanted to laugh but kept his mouth sealed shut, already knowing it's best not to wake you.
-Slowly he got up and out of the bed, trying to keep it from creaking too loudy, to put on last night's clothes. He'll take a shower and get changed into something clean later.
-With one last peak towards the stranger he spent the night with Pantalone slipped out of the front door.
Pierro.
-He's confused.
-Now he understands what happened, the sight of you naked and curled up into him is more than enough to make that clear; though your underwear basically on his favorite pillow definitely would have gotten the point across either way. But, like, him? You who look so much younger, livelier compared to what Pierro sees in the mirror every day after five hundred years haunting him.
-Maybe that joke the second made about people liking âolder folksâ was based on reality.
-Would greedily allow himself to hold you in his arms for a time. It started with him first saying one minute, that's all he'd allow himself. Then that turned into five, then ten, then twenty. Eventually he would barely wish to nudge you awake even though he knows better.
-Don't go getting attached when there's so much left to do.
-When he finally did wake you up he did his best to make sure you wouldn't get startled, softly calling out the name he was given last night. It's just a shame you do, startling as your hand nearly wacked his face from sheer shock. (Though who can blame you? It's not everyday you blearliy open your eyes, vision still blurry as you take in a man with white hair and stars in his- wait is that the fucking Pierro? Oh fuck).
-The type to help you find your clothes and call for a cab so he knows you get home safely.
-Now all that's left is trying to figure out how to hide the hickey you planted on him.
Scaramouche.
-Let's be real here, you're not making it to the morning.
-He had no clue why he was allowing this, allowing a humans lips to fall to his own with such fevered need. In any other situation he'd be pushing them off, telling this person they're a useless worm that shouldn't ever have walked these lands if all they was going to do was use their life to paw at him. Oh but to worshipped was a delight.
-Kisses pressed to the wooden skin of his puppet body like small prayers to the God he will one day be. This is what humans are made for, aren't they? To give their all to a greater being. So readily Scaramouche let himself be tugged along as you pulled him to wherever you pleased, ready to lavish in the attention he so rarely got.
-A human isn't a threat after all.
-Yet when you tugged on his short, pulling them down just low enough for your mouth to eagerly await something filling it, everything took a turn for the worst.
-âWait a minute, you don't have genitals?â
-And in a heartbeat you were struck with a bolt of lightning that had you dead on the spot.
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While in This World
Logan Howlett (Wolverine) X Teacher!Reader
Summary: A purely self-indulgent one shot where Teacher!Reader and Logan frequent the same bar, and when Logan comforts reader after a rough day at work, they get to know each other a lot better.
WC: 7k
Tags: 18+ SMUTđĽđĽđĽ, Reader has female anatomy, p in v sex, creampie, oral sex (f receiving), dom/sub undertones, grumpy/sunshine dynamic, Hozier references, X-Men: Evolution references
Minors DNI. All divider credit goes to @saradika-graphics
Logan only knew two things about you: you were a teacher at the local high school, and you drove a yellow Honda Civic.Â
The latter was easy for him to figure out; that car was hard to miss, and whenever he saw it parked outside of Dustyâs when heâd pull up for a pint, he knew youâd be sitting at the bar when he walked in.Â
The former, he didnât even have to ask about for you to tell him. In fact, he never asked you anything, never so much as spoke to you. But did that stop you from talking about whatever happened at work that day? Fuck no. Youâd yap about it unprompted every damn time.Â
It was like youâd created a game of it. Heâd walk into the bar, wearing an expression that clearly says âDonât fucking talk to meâ, sit down on the same barstool he always sat at, order a drink⌠and just when heâd start enjoying the silence youâd start in on him.
âDamn, today was brutal. Was it brutal for you too?â
âWhew! Wednesdays, am I right?â
âWell you look chipper this evening! Good day today?â
He never answered. You knew he would never answer, you just seemed to love ruining his peace and quiet.Â
In the face of his silence, you would usually just carry on the conversation alone. Youâd tell him about some kid whoâd been particularly annoying that day, or a student whoâd finally understood a concept youâd been spending weeks trying to teach them.Â
Youâd ranted to him about how Kash from your second period class never turns in his homework, which drove you nuts because you knew how smart he was.Â
Youâd told him about Lily, whose essays were some of the best youâve ever read from a sophomore even though the kid had convinced herself that she hated history.Â
Youâd vented to him about Lindsey, the math teacher next to your classroom who complained about every little thing- including the students- careless of whether or not they were within earshot.Â
âŚOkay, so maybe Logan knew more than two things about you. Wasn't like he wanted to, though.Â
Today, he knew enough about you to be absolutely sure that something was wrong.
He was sitting at the bar, already down to the last couple sips of his drink, and you hadnât said a word since heâd sat down. Nothing.Â
He fought the instinct to look at you so badly, he really did- but he couldnât help himself. Heâd half expected you to be waiting for him to do so, grinning smugly when your prediction proved correct. Instead, when he finally succumbed to the urge to glance at you out of the corner of his eye, all he saw was your profile wearing an expression he had never seen on you before: stern.
He swiftly turned his attention back to his drink when the bartender emerged from the back and wordlessly started pouring Logan another glass of bourbon before going to crack open another beer for you.
âSomething stronger, please.â you sighed. The bartender stopped, a beer bottle already held in one hand with an opener poised and ready in the other. âWhat heâs having is fine.â you added, nodding to Loganâs fresh glass.Â
He and the old bartender both raised an eyebrow at you simultaneously. You didnât usually order âstrongâ. You usually got something bubbly with a perfectly reasonable ABV.Â
A second passed before the bartender simply shrugged and did as you asked, exchanging the bottle in his hand for a larger one and pouring you a glass of liquid amber. You sipped it, wincing slightly before taking another.Â
Donât ask. Logan thought, Donât say a word, you fucking softie-
âRough day?â Logan mumbled, his voice like sandpaper after barely using it all day.Â
Weak-ass, he cursed inwardly.
You didnât look at him, just nodded. Logan cringed; he wasnât good at carrying conversations- that was usually your job. You were so good at it, too, he never even participated and still you always carried on completely unphased. He wished youâd at least give him something to work with here.
âSome kid mouth off to you or somethinâ?âÂ
You shook your head and took another sip of bourbon. âNo,â you mumbled, âkids were great. Phenomenal, even.âÂ
Logan exhaled a soft sigh of relief through his nose, fogging the side of his glass. At least you were talking now. He waited silently for you to continue; he knew you had more to say than that.Â
âI taught this lesson yesterdayâŚâ you paused before chuckling under your breath. â...I think it might have been one of the best Iâve ever taught. The kids got so involved with it, they practically ran the class themselves.â
Logan watched your shoulders sink sullenly as you sighed. âAs a way of helping them relate to the issue of race as it was being discussed during the Civil Rights Movement, I printed out articles for them to read about the issue of Mutantsâ Rights.â
Logan didnât let it show on his face, but that was surprising to say the least. The topic of mutants- outside the walls of Charlesâ school, of course- was taboo. It was an important issue, yes, but he didnât expect it to be brought up in classrooms, at least not while it was still in the news.
âI mean, theyâre already seeing it on the news- anti-mutant crime is increasing, advocates for mutantsâ rights have started earning followings all over the world. Theyâre already discussing this topic amongst themselves, so why not use it to help them understand that less than a century ago, their grandparents were discussing policies not much different than the policies being debated today?â
Little did you know, mutantsâ rights were also being discussed even then. Being discussed in rooms full of important men who had the power to change the future- for the better or for the worst. Logan remembered it well; he'd been alive when those talks had happened.
âSo what happened?â Logan asked, before he realized heâd said the words out loud.
You scowled. âSome kid went home and told their parents what they did at school yesterday. Next thing I know, Iâm in the principalâs office getting told off about sensitive topics and keeping politics out of the classroom. How can they expect me to teach U.S. History and keep politics out of the classroom? Itâs ridiculous!â
Slamming another gulp of whiskey down with a shudder, you seethed and stared at the wooden bartop like you were trying to set it on fire. âAnd Iâm not even angry for my sake. Iâm angry for the sake of the mutant kids that go to that school- and I know thereâs got to be at least one, Iâve seen the statistics. They arenât as rare as people want to think they are, and if even one kid in that classroom is a mutant then theyâre about to learn they arenât even allowed to be themselves at their own school.â
Logan was quiet- as per usual- before replying. âThey knew that already.â
Your brow crinkled. âWhat?â
âThey already knew they werenât allowed to be themselves at school.â Logan said. âHell, a lot of âem arenât even safe enough to be themselves in their own homes. Parents throw their kids out when they learn theyâre mutants, happens all the time. Iâm sure your statistics showed you that.âÂ
This was the most Logan had ever spoken to you. You were rapt with attention, clinging to every word as protective fury for all of those uprooted children clenched your fists. Your fingernails dug into the skin of your palms while Logan contemplatively brushed his thumb over the grooves between his knuckles.
âA mutant in this world learns pretty quick that it isnât safe for them to be themselves. What you just taught them is that not everybody thinks less of them. Not everybody wants them gone.â Logan hadnât looked at you this whole time, just kept his eyes forward. Now, as he brought his glass to his lips, you saw his hazel eyes glance your way. âYou taught them that at the very least, theyâre allowed to talk about this shit at all.âÂ
You blinked. You gulped. You blinked two more times. All the while, Loganâs eyes stayed trained on you.
âThanks.â you whispered, too stunned that he had just comforted you to say anything else.Â
An awkward sort of silence settled between the two of you. Normally, silence was difficult for you to sit with; you felt this compulsive need to fill the quiet with words. Now, though, silence felt right. You allowed it into your mind to calm the raging typhoon of resentment toward the bitter world you lived in and instead focus on smaller things. You let the sweet burn of your whiskey warm your insides and trickle down to your nerves. You took deep, mindful breaths through your nose and exhaled through your lips, taking note of the way that the air smelled smoky sitting next to your drinking buddy.
It occurred to you now that youâd never actually learned his name, so you asked him.Â
He chuckled, grinning ruefully out the corner of his mouth in a way that made your heart sputter. âYou donât wanna go down that road, kid.â
You smirked, acting a bit more like your usual spunky self. âAnd what road is that?â
âKnowing about me.â
You threw your head back and cackled. âWow, youâre really committing to that dark and brooding act, huh?â He shook his head but you caught the glint of a tooth as he smiled into his final sip of bourbon. âFine, Iâll guess. Josh?â
He raised a single eyebrow at you and said nothing.Â
âNot Josh, then. What about Eugene? You look like you could be a Eugene.â
âI am not a Eugene.â He grunted.Â
You raised your hands in mock surrender. âGeez, sorry, not a Eugene then.â
He sighed, throwing you a hard sidelong glance before muttering, âItâs Logan.â
âLogan.â You threw back the last of your bourbon and let the taste of it mingle with the feel of his name on your lips. Both burned deliciously.Â
âYou gonna give me yours?â Logan asked, his voice rough and quiet, like lonely tires on an empty gravel road.Â
You held your glass up in the dim lighting, turning it this way and that to admire the way the image of the neon Michelob Ultra sign behind the bar warped when it shined through.
âThat depends, are we getting another round?â
We. The word was new to Logan in the context of you and him. He liked the way it sounded on your tongue.Â
âAnother bourbon?â he asked you.
âRye this time, please.â you purred. âThat bourbon was a little too sweet.â
You were definitely the first to tell him that his drink of choice was too sweet.Â
Shaking his head and fighting a grin, Logan ordered two glasses of rye whiskey as you continued telling him about the lesson youâd taught yesterday.Â
He noticed a shift in you as you described the way your students had discussed social issues with the fervor of seasoned politicians. He clocked the way your posture straightened and your eyes sparkled when you told him how proud you were of those teenagers in those moments- how it was like they had all been waiting for someone to simply give them permission to discuss the intricacies of their social structure and how little it took for people to turn against each other when standing by their neighbor became something controversial.Â
Before you both knew it, hours had ticked past while the two of you sat at that bar. As usual, you did most of the talking, but a crucial change that had set this conversation apart was Logan. This time, his hazel eyes never left yours. He listened- really listened- to every word you said. Heâd never taken the time to learn the way your lips always looked like they were about to quirk up into a laughing smile. Heâd always thought that you were funny- pretty, too- but heâd never known that when he actually laughed with you, you got this triumphant look in your eyes like making him laugh had been your only goal all along.Â
He was noticing a lot of new things tonight- like the tattoo on your upper thigh that only showed when your dress rode up over your crossed legs. He noticed the dimple that appeared when you smiled wide enough. Noticed the looks you threw his way when you finished laughing that made him feel⌠something.Â
By the time youâd both had three rounds of neat whiskey, it was nearly two in the morning. The bartender had given you both sweating glasses of icy water as a silent reminder of closing time.Â
âDonât you have to get up early, teach?â Logan asked as you gulped down your water at a speed he knew would freeze your brain.Â
âI do,â you acknowledged, wincing from the passing brain freeze. â...but Iâm a natural night owl.â
Logan grinned teasingly. âThatâs pretty irresponsible⌠arenât teachers supposed to be role models?â
âWhat can I say,â you shrugged, âI like my whiskey neat and my bed at three.âÂ
Something in Loganâs eyes darkened then. âYour bed, huh?â
You caught his drift; you were already drifting that way, too. Your knee drifting closer to his as he reached for his wallet. His hand drifting to the small of your back as he walked you out of the bar. Your eyes drifting to his lips while you struggled to maintain eye contact.
That was how Logan ended up slamming you against the front door of your little townhouse at quarter past two in the morning.Â
âFuck-!â you exclaimed, arching against the chipping white paint and gasping at the feel of the cold glass window as the skin of your back prickled. Loganâs hands- large and grasping at the soft material of your sweater- pulled your torso closer to his as his mouth devoured the lingering spice of rye on your lips.Â
For a man of few words, he was suddenly louder than anything else- his noises, his touch, his scent, his tasteâŚ
ââFuckâ what, doll?â He grunted as his lips traveled behind your ear and down your neck, âYou never run out of things to talk about, is this all it takes to shut you up?â
â-ngh⌠That depends, are you trying to shut me up?â Your voice was breathy, blood racing through your veins as his lips teased the skin where your neck met your shoulder. Logan made a noise that sounded almost like a growl just before biting down on your heated flesh, ripping a surprised moan from you that came straight from your core.Â
âNah,â he grumbled into your shoulder, licking the abused spot that would bloom darker tomorrow. âI wanna hear everything.âÂ
You whimpered. Actually whimpered at the way you could feel his voice rumbling through his chest as his solid pecs pressed against you. Cradling your face in both hands, he brought your gaze to meet his own. The dim porch light shone through the windows just enough that you could make out his smoldering hazel eyes as he brought your lips to his.Â
The kiss was tender this time; richly sweet and intentional as he captured a sigh before it even left your mouth. You relaxed into him, melting into the kiss and letting the heat of his touch unravel the tension that still lingered in your muscles from the dayâs stress. His hands left your cheeks, caressing down your shoulders and arms until they found your hands and lifted them to encircle his neck and shoulders. He grunted, grabbing your hips before tapping them in a wordless command to jump. Which you did.
With a little hop, you found yourself wrapped around Logan, ankles locked behind his back and his stubbled jawline prickling your fingertips as you held his face and kissed him hard. You mumbled directions into his lips while he maneuvered the two of you through the house until he found your bedroom at last.Â
Mere seconds passed before you were practically thrown onto the bed, and you propped yourself up on your elbows to watch as he yanked off his flannel. Your mouth watered at the sight of his arms- not a lightswitch had been flipped since the two of you had entered the house, so the moon remained your only lighting as it filtered in through your gauzy bedroom curtains. Logan was haloed by a bluish, moonlit glow that made him look ethereal as he stood over you in only his jeans and white undershirt.Â
Something sparkled under that moonlight⌠around his neck, you noticed he wore a piece of jewelry that glinted silver. Funny, you thought, he doesnât seem like the jewelry type.Â
You were soon granted an up-close view of it when he crawled over you on the bed. As he leaned in to kiss you again, the cold bite of metal hit your collarbone and you recognized what it belonged to. Dog tags. You made a mental note to ask him about them when you werenât so preoccupied.Â
You gasped suddenly, feeling his hand start to creep up your bare thigh beneath your dress. Your breath hitched in your throat when his warm fingers started to trace the intricate patterns of lace on your panties.Â
âThose feel fancy.â Loganâs husky voice whispered into your ear, âCan I see?â
You nodded, eyes blown wide with lust and submission.Â
âTalk to me, baby, tell me I can touch them.â he reminded you.
âYes, you can touch them.â
You could barely see Loganâs face in the dark, but you could tell that he was grinning. His fingers slid into the waistband of your underwear, working them off your hips as he repositioned himself between your legs.
âGood girl.â He purred as he pulled them down your legs and off of you completely. Then you felt him pushing your legs further apart before-
âHoly shit-!âÂ
One lick up the center of your bare pussy was all it took to rip the expletive from your mouth and reduce your muscles to gelatin.Â
âMmmh..â Â Loganâs muffled growl from between your legs sent a wave of pleasure through you, synchronizing with the way his tongue flicked over your clit. You could feel your pussy getting wetter just from hearing him, weeping into his mouth as you unraveled under his ministrations.
Your eyes rolled back with ecstasy as his tongue continued its work- you moaned and arched your back with every lick and every noise he made that sent chilling vibrations through your body. It didnât take long for you to feel that familiar mounting pleasure rising inch by inch within you.
âFuck, Logan,â you sighed, âIf you keep that up, Iâm gonna cum.â
Those were the magic words. Logan looked up at you from between your legs with an intensity that made your heart skip a beat and your walls clench- which he felt, since your admission of how close you were was all he needed to slide two fingers inside of you.
He worked you like it was his full-time job, tongue and fingers working in tandem to pull noises, movements, and delicious pulls of his hair from where your fingers had snaked down to his locks. His fingers drove into you, veins and muscles bulging from his forearm as his tongue circled and flicked your clit at a breakneck pace.Â
âOh fuck,â you gasped, letting overstimulation devour you in waves as you clamped down on his fingers and came hard. âohfuckohfuckIâmâŚIâm cumming-!â
It was music to his ears; his fingers kept going, pumping into you and keeping pace with your release. Someone would have to physically rip him away from you to get him to stop before you told him to. It took him a second to register that something wet was dripping down his forearm, and it was you.Â
When he finally felt your spasms starting to slow, he gently removed his fingers from your pussy and held his arm up to the light.Â
âDamn, baby,â he whispered, his husky voice full of awe and admiration. âDid my fingers make that pussy cry? She needed to cum for me that bad?âÂ
You watched, wide-eyed and panting as Loganâs tongue caught the bead of your arousal from where it had dripped down to his elbow, all the way up to the tips of his fingers. His eyes closed for a moment as he savored your taste.
âSo fucking goodâŚâ he sighed, almost to himself, before his hands reached for his belt. âIâve gotta feel you, baby, you have a condom?âÂ
You nodded, reaching for your bedside table. You knew you still had some in there, but youâd bought them what seemed like ages ago- you hadnât brought anyone to your bed in quite some time.Â
Feeling around in the nightstand drawer, you finally found the box of condoms⌠and the single remaining condom inside.Â
âI have one left.â You said, holding out the small square package to Logan.
You heard him huff out a little chuckle. âBusy girl.âÂ
âNo, ah⌠quite the opposite, actually. Itâs been a while. Iâm lucky I had some left in there, really.â you laughed nervously.Â
âIf anyoneâs lucky tonight, itâs me.â Logan whispered, kicking off his jeans and underwear after yanking his undershirt over his head. You cursed the darkness of your room, wishing you could see more than his moonlit silhouette standing over you in your bedroom- but God, was it a silhouette. Broad shoulders lined in bluish-white light, sweat-sheened pecs and a strong jawline that dipped half an inch when he saw the way you were gazing at him.
Unlike you, Logan could see everything. The night sky was littered with stars beneath a full moon, and all of it graciously allowed him a gorgeous view that practically left you glowing- but he knew you could glow brighter if you bared the rest of yourself to him right now.Â
âClothes off, doll. Let me see you.âÂ
It wasnât a suggestion- this was a command. A command you eagerly obeyed as he got to work ripping open the condom wrapper and sliding the rubber down his cock. He was so ready for you, even the soft touch of his own hand rolling the condom on made him twitch as he watched you remove layer after layer until you wore nothing but the moonlight.Â
âGoddamn beautiful.â he swore.Â
You gazed at him through thick lashes and heavy lids, propped up on your elbows and smiling demurely as you slowly widened your legs for him.Â
He couldnât take much more of this; a growl resonated in his chest as Logan practically pounced on you, enveloping your mouth in a molten kiss as he lined himself up with you and plowed into you without warning.Â
âHoly shit-!â you yelped into his mouth, the size of him surprising you as you took his whole length at once. You hadnât realized how empty you had felt until you suddenly had something to fill you wholly and completely- the stretch was overwhelming and beautiful all at once. You moaned wantonly, clutching at his bicep with one hand and his shoulder with the other.Â
Logan groaned as he slowly began pumping in and out of you, reveling in the pleasure he received with every fraction of a movement he made inside of you. You were so tight, muscles already primed and contracting from the first climax heâd brought out of you.Â
âYou tell me what feels good, baby.â He said, working one arm under your head to cradle it with his forearm, and using the other to lift one of your legs up to hook around his lower back. Once again, his tone left no room for argument.Â
âOkay.â you agreed meekly, all the fight you normally had in you suddenly gone now that you had this man seated deep inside you. One thrust and youâd become putty in his hands.Â
Logan pulled out about halfway before slamming into you, and the sharp moan you gave him as you clutched his shoulder drove him forward like a war cry. Every thrust was harsh and powerful enough to make you see stars, and you wondered briefly if it was possible for a dick to shatter someone from the inside.Â
âWhat did I say?â Logan grunted into your ear as he fucked you, âI told you to tell me what feels good, baby, didnât I?â His movements started to slow. âIf this doesnât feel good I can stop-â
âNo!â you whined, actually pouting despite yourself. You were a grown ass woman, you couldnât remember the last time youâd pouted. Apparently he could see it, because Logan chuckled as he lifted your leg from around his back to reposition it over his shoulder, opening you wide for him.Â
âThen if this feels good, you better tell me, doll.âÂ
One thrust in that position was all it took for you to know heâd have you cumming in minutes, maybe seconds.Â
âHoly-!â you yelped, and the bastard had the gall to laugh as he speared into your pussy over and over again, hitting that spot each time without fail. âSo deep⌠oh my God, youâre so fucking deep, it feels so good, IâmâŚâ Your voice trailed off as your back arched, pelvis pushing into him as his cock drove into you repeatedly while you moaned loud enough that it didnât even sound like your own voice anymore.Â
âThatâs it, baby,â Logan sat up on his knees, cock still sheathed inside you as he looked down and spat onto your pussy. He lifted both of your legs this time, hooking them both over his shoulders before swiping his thumb through the glob of slick that sat cooling on your clit and moving it in little circles as he continued to mercilessly rail you. The movement was even smoother now, allowing him to hit that spot deep inside you that had you seeing God with every thrust. He felt you getting tighter, his dick combined with the soft, wet movements of his thumb were working you into a blithering mess. âYou gonna give me another one?â
The way you looked up at him then- eyebrows pulled together helplessly over starlight eyes and bottom lip reduced to a quivering, spit-shined pillow- it was the stuff of dreams. Logan did everything he could to commit this moment to memory; he filed it all away and prayed to whatever god was listening that he never forgot the way you looked like an angel as you writhed under him, whimpering as your second orgasm crashed into you and made your pussy spasm around his cock- somehow feeling strong and soft and wrapped in fire all at the same time. Logan knew his own release wasnât far behind, and the blood that was rushing to his cock drove him into you deeper and harder until-
Snap!
You both felt the rubber snap open inside you. It launched your eyelids open, had Loganâs movements reluctantly slowing as you looked up at him in alarm.Â
âFuck.â Logan muttered. That had been your last condom; he felt his heart start to plummet as he pulled out of you, inspecting the condom with his hands and sighing frustratedly through his nose when he felt nothing but his bare cock covered in your arousal.Â
âUmâŚâ you piped up, your voice small and breathy beneath him. âWe can still keep going⌠if you want.âÂ
Hell yes. Logan began rolling the broken condom off his cock, perking up at the thought of fucking you raw. He tried not to make a habit of unprotected sex, but if you were on the pillâŚ
âI have an IUD,â you added, as if you could read his mind.Â
Logan had forgotten those were a thing. Moments like this always reminded Logan how fucking old he was⌠he tried not to dwell on that right now.Â
â...You sure youâre alright with that?â Logan said softly. âWe can stop if you arenât comfortable.âÂ
You smiled, running a feather-light hand down his forearm. âIâll feel a lot more comfortable when youâre back inside me.âÂ
Something darkened in Loganâs eyes as he looked down at you, lying bare and sweat-sheened on your bed beneath his looming form. Heâd been getting closer before, but now that he knew heâd get to savor you without a barrier, without anything to numb the pleasure of feeling you completely⌠he wanted to make this last.Â
âYou want it?âÂ
Loganâs tone was different now; there was a dominant edge to his words that made your heart skip a beat. You suddenly felt the urge to play dumb, to eagerly grant him whatever he asked for and beg him for all the things you wanted from him. Your dignity was fading with every second you spent underneath this man.
âYes,â you nodded, âyes, I want it.âÂ
Logan looked down at you appraisingly, making you feel smaller in the best kind of way. He gave a little nod. âAll fours then, doll.âÂ
A thrill rushed through you as you rose to line your mouth up with his cock, before he stopped you with a click of his tongue.Â
âOther way.â
Oh.Â
Slowly, you shifted, spinning around until you were on your hands and knees facing away from him. Your cheeks heated, knowing how exposed you were to him this way. It made you feel like you were under a microscope, but for some reason that part turned you on even more.Â
You shivered as Loganâs hands came down to rest on the flesh of your ass, caressing and squeezing without hesitation.Â
âYou know how many times Iâve watched this ass walk away?â
You waited for him to continue, but his silence told you that he actually wanted you to answer the question. âUh⌠more than Iâd ever noticed, Iâm guessing.â
You gasped as his hand came down on your ass with a slap. It wasnât hard enough to hurt, just enough to surprise you.Â
âEvery time you left the bar before me, sweetheart.â He said, his voice gruff and thick with lust. âAnd sometimes Iâd go home and think about this ass in this exact position⌠my fantasies didnât do you justice, baby.âÂ
You jolted at a second slap that he delivered to your other ass cheek. Knowing heâd fantasized about you, the feeling of presenting your ass to him like this, the fact that you couldnât see him from this angle- all of it was overwhelming enough that you actually yelped in surprise when you felt Loganâs tongue on your pussy again.Â
âOh my God-!â You half-gasped, half-moaned as his tongue slid over your lips, into your hole, around your clit. You almost whined when his mouth left you, but definitely whined when you felt him spit on your pussy before slapping your ass again.Â
âGood girl,â Logan growled, âkeep being loud for me.âÂ
That was the only warning you got before he plunged his dick into you raw and started pounding you relentlessly from behind.Â
You did as you were told, that was for damn sure. Your moans, your cries- all of them merged together into a train of incoherent wailing in rhythm with Loganâs ruthless thrusting. He felt so good, his length reaching places at this angle that made your eyes roll back and your mouth hang open- at one point you might have even drooled.Â
Logan was enjoying himself too, grunting and growling as he felt every inch of you squeezing him tighter, tighter. You cunt clung to him, and the soft, wet heat of you was driving him crazy.
âSuch a sweet thing,â he muttered, and he was so quiet you couldnât tell if he was talking to you or to himself. âAlways so sunny⌠so- fuck- dirty now⌠were you always this dirty, baby? Or is this just for me?âÂ
You moaned a response, but the mounting pleasure within you muffled your words into more babbles into your sheets.Â
Slap!
Logan rubbed the spot on your ass cheek that was inevitably turning red now. âWords, baby, answer me.âÂ
âJust you-â you moaned, suppressing a sob of pleasure as you felt yourself reaching your third climax of the night. âNo oneâs ever- ah!- fucked me like this- mmnh!â A strangled moan cut your sentence short as Logan felt you start to spasm around him. Those words, your hot cunt squeezing him tighter than he thought possible- it was enough to push him over the edge as well.Â
âAaahgh- fuck!â Loganâs pleasure overtook him, and he continued his relentless pace as he filled you while you came around him. Your moans intertwined in that moonlit bedroom, and by the time you were both completely spent your knees had given out, leaving you sprawled on your stomach beneath Loganâs exhausted form curled over yours.Â
A couple of moments were all it took for you to wonder what happened now- if Logan was the âstay the nightâ type, or if âwham, bam, thank you maâamâ was more his style. You had a sneaking suspicion he wasnât a fan of cuddling after sex, so you shouldnât get your hopes up about him staying the night. Besides, you worked tomorrow, so it wasnât like the two of you would be getting breakfast in the morning anyway-
âWhat are you thinking about?âÂ
âHuh?â You rolled over, turning until you and Logan were both on your sides facing each other on your bed. âNothing.â
He raised an eyebrow, unimpressed. âI know what you look like when youâre thinking about something, you know.âÂ
You didnât know what to say to that. All those nights at Dustyâs when youâd chattered on and on just to see if you could coax him out of his brooding silence.⌠youâd just assumed that you annoyed him, that heâd been trying to ignore you.
 But maybe⌠maybe heâd actually been listening this whole time.Â
You sighed, conceding. âIâm wondering if I should ask you to spend the night, and if youâd even want to.âÂ
Logan looked at you- really looked at you- then slowly leaned toward you until his lips softly touched yours in the gentlest kiss heâd given you tonight.Â
âIâll stay as long as youâll let me, doll.â he said when he pulled away, before placing one more of those soft kisses to your forehead.Â
You woke the next morning to the sound of your alarm and the smell of coffee.Â
It was still dark, and you followed the scent of morning brew like a zombie until you found yourself standing in the kitchen with a mug of hot coffee in your hand.Â
With Logan, who also held a mug of coffee.Â
WaitâŚ
Oh shit.Â
The events of last night flooded your mind, and when you finally registered that not only had Logan stayed all night, but woken up before your alarm and made you coffee? You felt like you were dreaming.
â...Good morning.â you mumbled, your voice croaky as it always was in the morning.Â
Logan smirked at you, taking in your bed head, your smudged makeup from the night before, your sleepy eyes- all of it was endearing to him. He nodded, raising his mug in a toast. âMorning, doll.âÂ
You stared at his mug, then yours, focusing on it as if it were a puzzle you couldnât solve. âYou made me coffee.âÂ
Logan raised an eyebrow. âYes, I did.âÂ
You took a sip before staring at the mug again. âHowâd you know I like it black?â
He shrugged, âFigured anything else would be too sweet for you.âÂ
You chuckled, inching closer to him and tilting your chin up to meet his in a sleepy kiss. âI have to be at work in an hour.â you groaned.
âI have to be at work in half an hour.â
You gasped, âOh my god, are you going to be late?â to which he simply shrugged.
âTheyâll wait on me. Boss is a softie.âÂ
âThatâs something you two have in common, then?â You grinned, knowing heâd probably hate being called a âsoftieâ, what with his gruff exterior and strong, silent type vibes.
Logan rolled his eyes, pairing them with a wolfish grin. âIs that what youâd call the way I fucked you last night? Soft?âÂ
You felt a rush of heat at the reminder of last night- youâd be thinking about this encounter for a long time. âThat was definitely not soft.â you said, sighing wistfully. âWaking me up with coffee, however-â You clinked your ceramic mug against his and smiled up at him smugly. â-soft. In a very good way.âÂ
Logan grunted, shaking his head with a rueful smirk. âYeah, yeah. Donât get used to it.â
Logan had left soon after that, leaving you to shower and get ready for the day. You hadnât had a very in-depth conversation with him about where the two of you went from here⌠but you put that out of your mind for now. Youâd have plenty more eveningâs at Dustyâs with him to DTR.Â
The day hit the ground running at work, keeping you busy enough that the night before only crossed your mind when you sat down and felt the echoes of Loganâs thrusts between your legs. Everything seemed normal for the most part- until fourth period, that is.
âExcuse me,â murmured Kurt, one of your quieter students. âCan I go to the front office?âÂ
Kurt had seemed off since heâd walked into your classroom that day; nervous for some reason. He was stumbling through his words, his German accented English tumbling from his mouth clumsily.Â
âWhat do you need to do in the office?â you asked him gently.Â
He seemed fixated on his watch, fiddling with the dials obsessively and refusing to meet your eyes. âSomeone is dropping something off for me. I really really need it.â
Something strange happened then. Kurtâs features- his raven hair, his pale skin- glitched. For a second, his skin was royal blue and his eyes shifted to a golden yellow. Then, as quickly as the changes had appeared, they changed back and Kurt was Kurt again. He glanced down nervously at his watch again.Â
Realization dawned on you then, Loganâs words at the bar last night echoing in your head.
 A mutant in this world learns pretty quick that it isnât safe for them to be themselves.
Your eyes must have widened dramatically, because Kurt went from nervous to frantic. He looked like he was about to try and salvage the situation somehow, but you stopped him.Â
âThis-â you gestured to Kurtâs watch. â-does it help make school safer for you?â
His eyes were nervous saucers as Kurt bit his lip and nodded.Â
âAnd itâs acting up, so someone from home is coming to help?â
Kurt nodded again.Â
âWould you feel better if I walked down there with you, or worse?â
He thought about it for a moment before nodding again. âBetter.âÂ
It only took a moment for you to ask the teacher next door to you to watch your class while you walked with Kurt down to the front office. The whole time, your mind rolled through anything and everything that you knew about Kurt.
He was one of the kids from that Xavier Institute that you always drove past on your way to work. Not much was known for sure about the strange boarding school. Officially, all you knew was that some students learned every subject at the school and rarely left, while others studied their core subjects here at the public school and got all of their other credits from the Institute. The rumors, however⌠they were much more elaborate than that.Â
There were several rumors floating around about the Xavier Institute, but the most common one youâd heard was that it was a school for mutants.Â
Kurt came from that school, and you were starting to wonder how much truth there was to those rumors.Â
âOh danke Gott!âÂ
Kurtâs relief was evident as he entered the front office, running immediately toâŚ
Logan?
âDammit, Elf, I told you to have Hank look at this thing weeks ago- oh.â
Loganâs sentence was cut short when he saw you frozen in the entryway. Slowly, his wide eyes and surprised expression shifted into a devilish smile of recognition. âHey you.â
A soft laugh escaped your lips. âHi.â
Kurt looked bewildered as he tinkered with his watch, fitting an attachment onto the face of it that heâd grabbed from Logan the second he saw him. âDo you two know each other?â
Your mouth opened and closed, not quite sure what lie to tell before Logan swooped in with, âAll teachers know each other, kid.â
Kurt seemed to accept that answer, shrugging and turning to face the front desk and ask the secretary if she had a screwdriver. You took the opportunity to inch a little closer to Logan.
âYouâre a teacher? You didnât tell me that.âÂ
Logan shrugged. âYou didnât ask.âÂ
You smiled ruefully, shaking your head. âWell whatever you teach at that Xavier placeâŚâ You beamed up at him. âtheyâre lucky to have you.â
He looked back at you, a tender smile stretching his lips just enough to crease the outer corners of his eyes. âTheyâre lucky to have you too.âÂ
You felt your cheeks heat at his praise. Eager for something else to look at, you watched Kurt as he expertly worked the dials on his watch. âKurtâs a great kid. Super smart.â You raised an eyebrow when you noticed the way Logan was watching him, too- proud, fatherly admiration was evident in his gaze. He had been the one Kurt called when heâd needed helpâŚ
âYou wouldnât happen to be hisâŚâ you asked, to which Logan replied with an immediate-
âNo!â he shook his head quickly, âNo, far as I know, Iâm nobodyâs dad.â His voice was low and gruff as he chuckled the question away. He glanced back at you with a twinkle of mischief in his eye before lowering his lips to your ear, only speaking loud enough for you to hear his whispered addition.
ââCourse, I donât think Iâd hate it if you called me âdaddyâ-â
âOkay, Kurt!â you practically jumped away from Logan, face feeling hot as the summer sun. âYou almost done with that thing? Mrs. Smith canât watch our class forever, can she?â
âJust a second!â Kurt mumbled, still focused on his watch.
Your eyes darted to Logan for a moment, taking in his smug little grin and the way his pecs puffed up when he crossed his arms over his chest-
Damn. Barely twelve hours after heâd fucked you into your mattress and you were already horny for him again.Â
Taking a deep breath to bring yourself back to earth, you grabbed a post-it note and a pen from the receptionistâs desk, scribbled your number onto it, and handed the little neon pink paper to Logan.Â
âHere. In caseâŚâ Your eyes flitted around in search of a reason other than in case you want to fuck my brains out again. â...in case this isnât the last time something like this happens.âÂ
Logan grinned, tucking the post-it into his jeans pocket. âOf course.â he tapped a sarcastic finger to his temple. âSmart thinking.âÂ
âOkay!â Kurt said, jogging over to the two of you from the front desk. âAlles gut! We can go back now.â
Logan nodded to Kurt. âThen thatâs my cue to leave. See ya, kid.â Then turning to you, he added, âMaâam.â He dipped his head as if tipping a hat, pulling a small involuntary giggle out from under your breath.Â
âSir.â you replied, mimicking the gesture. Loganâs eyes darkened in the most delicious way when you called him that, and he looked to be biting the inside of his smirk as he turned and exited through the front doors.Â
You hadnât even made it all the way down the hallway before you felt a buzzing in your back pocket. Upon checking your phone, you saw a text had been sent from an unknown number. The content of the message, however, left no question as to whom the sender was.Â
Drinks tonight?
You grinned giddily as a schoolgirl, quickly typing out a reply and hitting send just before you re-entered the classroom.Â
Do you even have to ask?
A/N: I've never written for Logan before, so I hope his characterization feels right! Writing this felt like walking around in brand new shoes- still breaking them in. If you enjoyed this, let me know! â¤ď¸
Taglist (just a few people I thought might be interested): @the-unforgivenn @ghost-proofbaby @pastel-pillows @munson-blurbs @hellfire--cult
#wolverine smut#logan howlett#logan wolverine#wolverine x reader#logan howlet smut#logan howlet x reader#teacher!reader#hozier#too sweet#wolverine xmen#logan x reader
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đIKEMEN BREEDING SEASONđ - XXSYCAMORE'S 2000 FOLLOWERS CELEBRATION EVENT
On October 28th, 2024, this blog hit 2K followers! Once again, thank you, everyone, for the support, and for sticking around in my writing adventures. I hope you can continue enjoying my work! Now, our previous milestone celebrations were all about fluffy short stories, so I figured it's high time we bring some smut into the mix. Even though spring would have been perfect for the Ikemen Breeding Season, I decided, why wait when we can have it now. Besides, that time is reserved for part 2 of our Steal My Heart!! (1500 followers) event! If you have placed a request for it and haven't received a ficlet yet, don't worry, I haven't deleted anything! :)
âş PROMPTS
How do you want the suitor to breed you (or the MC)? :
In the heat of the moment
As proof that you belong to them
To produce an heir
With a chance for twins
While imagining you being pregnant
Making sure that it takes
Making the moment special
When they'd already gotten you pregnant before
With you taking the lead
While you're in heat (Omegaverse)
â๨ŕ§ËâĄË ࣪ 2 separate request openings - Since in the past there have been times when everything has been grabbed in the first 10 minutes from the announcement, I decided it would only be fair for the people in different time zones if I divide it into two batches at different times of the day.
FIRST REQUEST OPENING WILL HAPPEN ON OCTOBER 30TH, 12 PM UTC (8 AM EDT) (or click here to see it converted to your time zone)
SECOND REQUEST OPENING WILL HAPPEN ON OCTOBER 31TH, 12 AM UTC (8 PM EDT on the 30th) (or click here to see it converted to your time zone)
Both request openings will be closed after I get a total of 15 requests each! I will make separate posts to announce when those start and close.
âş RULES:
Understand that these are going to be short NSFW stories, around 500 words each.
Anonymous asks are allowed, but please don't abuse my kindness and don't request if you're a minor!
Pick a character from the list below and a prompt from the prompt list. Threesomes are allowed, so long as no one is related, lol.
Be sure to let me know if you want MC x Suitor(s) or Reader x Suitor(s). If you don't specify, I'll write it as I see fit!
Specify your gender preferences if you have any! If you selected "Reader", I'll by default write them with afab traits. This goes especially for the prompt "Imagining you pregnant" where you could encounter terms including but not limited to: breasts, lactation, love handles, vagina, ovulation, womb, ovaries, pregnant bellies, you get the picture. To bypass all of this, you can ask for a Gender Neutral Reader, or you can be more specific and tell me your preferences in detail.
Mpreg is welcome, sure, why not. This goes both for Male Readers and for Getting your suitor pregnant, like in the case where you picked the Omegaverse prompt and he's an Omega. Go wild.
OCs are NOT allowed, due to how short these stories are going to be versus the research required in order to do justice to your OC. Sorry!
Don't send multiple requests! One per person. Again, I'm put my trust in you about not abusing the anon option.
In the event where I've already received the same prompt with the same character, I'll only write it once!
Don't hesitate to give me details! :) I want to create a work specially crafted for you. If you have a whole scenario in mind, I'd love to hear it, even if I have to squeeze it in the word limit. Where are they doing it, what is the reader wearing, what petname the suitor uses - these are just a few examples! Additionally, since I haven't read all the routes of the characters listed here, if you feel it's needed, you can provide some in-game information about the character if it has a relation to topic. Ex: "I think he'll make a great family man because he canonly loves taking care of the younger ones."
Requests sent outside of the specified time periods won't be accepted. I try to immediately answer these so you'll know, but I might also straight-up delete anything that doesn't follow the rules.
âş AVAILABLE CHARACTERS:
Ikemen Villains:Â Wiliam; Harrison; Liam; Elbert; Alfons; Roger; Jude; Ellis; Victor; Darius; Nica; Ring
Ikemen Prince:Â Leon; Chevalier; Yves; Nokto; Licht; Jin; Luke; Clavis; Rio; Sariel; Gilbert; Keith; Silvio, Cyran/Cyril, Matthias, Kagari
Ikemen Vampire: Napoleon(pls); Leonardo; Mozart; Arthur; Vincent; Theo; Isaac; Jean; Dazai; Sebastian; Comte; Shakespeare; Vlad; Faust; Charles;Â Drake; Galileo
Ikemen Revolution:Â Lancelot; Ray; Jonah; Fenrir; Edgar; Sirius; Kyle; Luka; Zero; Seth; Blanc; Oliver; Loki; Harr; Mousse; Dalim; Dean; Levie
Ikemen Sengoku:Â Nobunaga; Masamune; Shingen; Hideyoshi; Mitsuhide; Kanetsugu; Ieyasu; Mitsunari; Yukimura; Sasuke; Kenshin; Kenyo; Ranmaru; Motonari; Keiji; Kicho; Yoshimoto
Midnight Cinderella:Â Alyn; Giles; Louis; Leo; Byron; Nico; Albert; Robert; Rayvis; Sid
â§âËâŕźâ§âË. đŚŕźâ
Please understand that I can't guarantee that I'm going to write all of these! I have a lot of issues IRL that I need to take care of, which leads me to either not having a lot of free time or not having the needed energy and inspiration to write. Either way, I hope you can have fun with this event! I can't wait to see what you send me. Have a great day, and I'll see you in my askbox soon! <3
#ikemen series#ikevil#ikevamp#ikesen#ikepri#ikerev#midcin#ikemen villains#ikemen vampire#ikemen prince#ikemen sengoku#ikemen revolution#midnight cinderella#ikeseries
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Thinking about yandad Dabi and his child who's now around 9-11 years old. Your writing has absolutely captivated me <3
Dabi starts getting more possessive, more protective, and certainly more assertive. He's your dad, after allâyou HAVE to listen to him, no? It's too dangerous to go outside without him keeping an eye on you, you're still so tiny and fragile. He'll be damned if his kid steps foot out of the apartment without his say so, no ifs or buts.
After a long day of setting people on fire and committing various crimes, Dabi just wants to scoop you up into a bone-crushing hug and plop down onto the couch to snuggle his baby, paying no mind to your complaints.
While he's soft and affectionate towards you, it's a completely different story when it comes to others. Dabi is ruthless and aggressive, destroying anyone and anything that may try to take you awayâmuch less harm you. It doesn't matter how small, Dabi will turn it into ashes without remorse. If you somehow figure out about his actions and try to make a run for it? He'd be crushed, obviouslyâDabi can't stand the thought of you fearing him. Rest assured, he'd track you down and bring you back home, suffering you in cuddles while scolding you. He's your dadâyou need to listen to him.
(Btw sorry about how long this became didn't realize I was ranting)
omg hi???? thank you for gracing me with this masterpiece??? wtf???? (lovingly)
For those who don't know, this post is related to these
Pt 1, Pt 2
and this is all so fucking true. I plan on making a longer fic on this (sorry to say that I haven't drafted it yet, I'm working on overhaul posts)
but he's so paranoid, so utterly terrified 24/7, he dead bolts all the doors and windows at night and only lets you go outside between 11 AM and 5PM unless it's for school.
speaking of which, he hates them for giving his baby so much homework and taking away from their time together buuttt he genuinely believes you need to get your education, don't skip out on highschool like he did.
and he does this thing, this god awful thing, after dinner, after your daily shower, and after getting you all nice and snuggly for bed and into your cat pajamas. he'll do this thing where he'll hold you tight to his chest while he flicks through the news channel.
now normally this would be fine, perfectly fine, if I weren't for the fact he either goes to true crime channels where they display the horrific acts of villains (himself included) live. he tells you that the world is a horrifying place, that that's how he burned himself, how painful it was, the scorching flames. he doesn't mean to traumatize you, it's just to warn you!
either that, or he'll go to news channels covering endeavor's problems, scandals, recent missions, interviews. please don't ask who that strange man with eyes like yours is. he'll hold you tighter and say in the lightest voice possible. "he's a bad man, don't you dare go near him, he'll hurt you like he hurt me."
don't say anything else after that.
he's just tired, so tired, and you're there, right when he gets home after running "errands". you're his reminder of what he's working towards, this future with no heroes and no pain that he's trying to build. the revenge he longs for and the aftermath where you thrive. really, you're the reason he gets up in the morning these days, the reason he stopped smoking in the house, the reason why there's no more beer in the fridge, only tenderly made lunches that he makes every Sunday to prepare for the week.
you're like this stress ball, this hit of Serotonin and Dopamine and what not. every time you smile he can feel his heart clenching. when he looks at you, he sees the boy he once used to be, happy. you're so happy, so pure.
he refuses to let you go out much, his reasoning being that the world's a terrible place. when you ask what's his job, what he does at "work" every day, he only chuckles.
"Oh baby, I'm trying to makes this world a better place, my job is to try and stop all the bad things from happening. I'm a type of... Freedom fighter, really."
and he so, so, so so so so so so sweet to you. you have never known Dabi, ruthless arsonist and serial killer. you have never known Touya, a boy lost in his own insanity and deprivation of paternal love. both are vicious, people, downright insane. one's a criminal the other's incapable of ever recovering from his own madness and fury.
the only person you know is your Dad, Dad's a nice guy, he plays doll house and dress up with you and watches cartoons with you every morning before school. he lets you wear his jacket when you're cold and left yours at school in your cubby, and he takes you out for donuts or ice cream monthly. sure, he doesn't have money, he can't buy you that many toys and sometimes they turn the light off because he missed too many bills, but he loves you. that's all you need to know.
Dad is a kind person, he's not Dabi or Touya, he's definitely not a hero. he's your dad.
And Dad does the best job of gas-lighting you to hell and back. you want to go outside after 5 or before 11? welp, he's not coming with you, sorry honey, maybe tomorrow. what do you mean you'll go anyway? the boogeyman'll get you! (it's him, he's the boogeyman, he knows you won't last a second out in the real world with your loving father's help and he's going to exploit it the moment you start to show independence.)
but it's very unlikely that Dabi would ever even get the chance to do this when you're 9-11 years old, you know why? because you'll be in Endeavor's custody by then. I refuse to elaborate since then I'll be spoiling the plot of Part 3 and I don't want that.
P.S. you wanna be tagged?
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brothers best friend billy bc i am self-indulgent âşď¸ very poorly proofreadđ´ edit; hereâs another installment of this au <3
william h. bonney is a gentleman.
he is a gentleman, but fuck, if you whisper another word into his ear, warm breath fanning over the cusp, heâs not above bending you over the poker table and fucking you in front of everyone, including your brother.
and billy knows, he knows youâre trying to rile him up, knows youâre just trying to get a ride rise out of him, but did you really have to hit him where it hurts? youâd learnt not too long ago that billy is quite sensitive on his earsâwhen you nibbed him on his earlobe while he was balls deep inside your tight cunt and he came on the spotâand if you didnât take advantage of that from time to time, you reasoned, it would be an injustice, truly.
âoh billy, donât you know fucking your best friends little sister is wrong? how long has this been going onâ2 months, huh? hmm, you ever gonna tell jesse? oh, no. he would kill you if he found out, wouldnât he? and youâre still taking that risk for me; how romantic of you, billy,â your voice is a tantalizing taunt, and itâs winding him up, so much so that he has to take a swig of his whiskey to cover up the flush spreading on his cheeks.
your whispers are received from billy with a shudder, whom youâre standing behind while he sits at the poker table. nobody really even notices you talking to him, not even jesse. heâs focused on winning, as is billy, but you just make it so much damn harder for your lover.
the game is on its last play and itâs gotten quite intense. âreveal your hands,â the dealer commands and jesse lays down his cards before billy shows him up completely, 4 aces over jesseâs straight.
the sportsmanship is friendly even after billy gathers the whole pot for himself and jesse goes to catch a drink at the bar, giving billy the perfect opportunity to figure out what the fuck your little show was about.
his large hand is wrapped around yourâby comparison, smallâwrist, and heâs dragging you outside the saloon, all the way to his house just down the block.
when the door slams shut, billyâs lips are on yours faster than you can blink.
he has this way about his kissesâtheyâre always needy, but not all-dominating. he doesnât want to own you, you can see it is his eyes, the eyes that are so much softer than lil the other men youâve come across, who look at you like a piece of meat. he kisses you with a certain passion, a fire that you havenât been able to find with anybody else, and it ignites something bubbly inside you. heâs feverish, and you reciprocate his urgency, fingers hooking into his two front belt loops, pulling him closer to where you need him the most.
âfuck, pretty. really tryna rile me up, huh? fuck was that, back at the game?â his lust-blown pupils do nothing to hide the fact that you won. you got just what you wanted, so with a giggle you respond, voice teasing. âi just wanted to see how gentlemanly you could stay before you would eventually breakâi knew you would break,â
billy scoffs and rolls his eyes, before placing his lips on yours, more gently this time, and picking you up, wrapping your legs around his waist, carrying you to his bedroom that youâve grown oh, so, familiar with.
he surprises you when rather than laying you down on your back unto the bed, he sits down himself, begins unbuttoning your linen button-down and unbuttoning the boot-cut denim jeans that hugged your ass so fucking well, before pulling all of it off of your limbs and helping you pull his own trousers down.
with gentle maneuvering, billy eases you onto his hard, awaiting cock. a soft gasp leaves you, and a deep groan from billy reverberates throughout the room. âthis is what you wanted? to sit on my dick, make your pretty, little pussy cum? yeah? go on, use me. ride my cock, hm? you own it, itâs yours,â his breathy words only speed up your pulsing around his dick, and pull a aroused moan from your throat.
he sounded so honest, so real. it was times like these, with him underneath you, coming more and more undone by the second, that felt the most raw. it was times like these, when his hands where welded onto your hips, surely leaving bruises, that you realized, you didnât want this with anybody else, ever. you never wanted to leave his loving embrace, and itâs with that epiphany you speak.
âfuck, billy, i love you. i love you so fucking much, oh my god, fuck!â
his hips falter slightly at the sentence, but almost like a serendipitous parallel, billy cums with a loud moan right along with you, orgasms perfectly in time with one another.
and as he comes down from his high, riding you through your own, his response to your confession is utteredâin hushed tones, in fear that if he dare raises his voice, dare speak freely, dare open his arms, you may disappear, like sand through his calloused fingers.
âi love you, too, angel. i think⌠i think want forever with you.â
#.đĽ Ý ËÖ´ ࣪ââ âšË đ¤đđ˘đ đ°đŤđ˘đđđŹ !#hehehehehe#billy the kid#billy the kid smut#billy the kid imagine#billy the kid x reader#william h bonney#william h bonney smut#tom blyth smut#tom blyth#william bonney#billy antrim#guys if he doesnât show up in my bed soon#im going to go so fucking insane#but yea this was really just me daydreaming out loudđź#kaia writes william
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Hiii, I absolutely loved immortal it was adorable! I was wondering if I could request a fluff fic w Gn!reader where when Spencer goes to the swing set after the whole thing with Cat at the restaurant reader also goes there maybe to read a book and it's a whole meet cute kinda thing cause it's one of his favorite authors or smth? sry for the long request I was trying to be specific Imao
swinging [s.r]
Summary:
You attempt to find your usual late night escape in the empty play park late one evening after an argument with your boyfriend, instead you find a handsome stranger that you find oddly endearing.
WARNINGS: shitty boyfriend (not spencer obviously)
pairing: spencer reid x gn!reader
genre: fluff (kinda hurt/comfort)
wc: 1.5k
masterlist!!
a/n: i am reuploading this once and once only so if it doesnât upload to the tags again then i am giving up-
âItâs a little late for a play date donât you think?â
Your comment clearly catches the boy in front of you off guard, his head shooting upwards and his eyes wide like he was in a state of fight or flight.
âSorry, I didnât mean to startle you,â You take a second to admire the man in front of you through your apology.
His hair was fluffy, bordering curly, and long enough that it was getting caught in his eyelashes as he blinked up at you.
His eyes were big, round, and practically glistening in the warm lighting of the lamp post to your left.
He was dressed in a finely pressed black suit fit with a baby blue shirt and a lilac tie that made him look like heâd walked right out of one of those rom-coms where the male lead is a prolific billionaire.
He was gorgeous.
âI came here to wallow in my own self-pity but it looks like you beat me to it,â You canât help but chuckle softly at your own explanation. âDo you mind?â
You gesture towards the swing besides his with a book held in your left hand and a soft expression, as if to silently tell the beautiful stranger in front of you that if he wanted to be alone that you would feel any offense.
âUh- yeah- no- no, go ahead,â You donât even try to suppress the smile that creeps its way onto your face at the way he stumbles over his words, and you take a seat on the swing next to him with a chuckled âThank you,â as you turn your head down to the open book in your lap, just illuminated enough under the lamp post so you can read the words on the pages.
Any distinguishing factors, including the bookâs title were unceremoniously hidden from view as it blends into the nightâs shadows, effectively halting curious effort of the boy next to you to figure out what it is.
Of course, it doesnât take long for you to feel his lingering gaze, and you follow it down to the novel in your hands before you show off the cover in his direction.
Paramenides by Plato.
âHave you read it?â
Your voice stops his psychoanalysis of your literature choices as he turns his eyes back up towards your face again.
âI have actually,â He nods softly at you with a pursed, slightly awkward smile, the contours of his cheek bones perfectly captured in the dim lighting. âI read it when I was doing my Philosophy degree.â
âNo kidding-â You let out a small laugh in surprise at the fact the cute stranger encroaching on your usual pity party venue just so happened to have a degree in Philosophy.
He also just so happened to have an absolutely beautiful laugh, the sound like a song in your ear as he joins you in laughing about the absurdity of the odds that the two of you both had a keen interest in philosophy.
âSo, what brings you out here so late then?â You seem to lose interest in your book as the two of you make eye contact, shutting it in your lap as you turn your shoulders towards him. âNo, wait, let me guess, shitty date?â
The boy lets out a breath that could almost constitute as laugh, averting his eyes from you and leaning towards slightly to awkwardly run his hands over his legs. âSomething like that-â
You give him a sympathetic smile and a nod. âDonât let it ruin your perception of romance, itâll work out in the end,â
The boyâs eyes turn up towards you once more as you speak, and your smile becomes a little more awkward as he meets your gaze once more.
âYou donât look like you believe yourselfâŚâ His words leaving you blinking softly in his direction, facial expression full of confusion.âYour relationship isnât going very well at the moment is it?â
Your expression morphs at his question and he immediately backtracks, waving his hands around as he tries to pull back the conversation.
âIâm sorry- I didnât- Iâm-â He takes a sharp breath in through his nose before attempting to actually speak a full sentence to you. âIâm a uh profi- A behavioural analyst- I didnât mean to make you uncomfortable iâm so sorry-â
âNo itâs alright,â It was your turn to awkwardly drag your hands down your legs now, fingers curling over the edge of your book as you reach it and fiddle with the metal plating on one of the corners of the cover. âYouâre not wrong,â
You can practically see the curiosity in his eyes as you confirm his suspicion. âIs that why youâre here?â
You can hear the cautiousness in his tone as he presses you further, clearly scared about crossing a line, âYou said you came here to âwallow in self-pityâ earlierâŚâ
You canât help but laugh at the ridiculousness of your earlier statement as he repeats it back to you. âWe uh, had an argument,â
You play it off as something insignificant, but you can tell that he doesnât believe you and soon end up finding yourself spilling the entirety of your relationship problems to someone youâve never met before.
âHe has this best friend that heâs like weirdly close to and he stood me up on a movie night we were supposed to have so they could go out together instead-â You sigh exasperatedly as you replay the nights events in your head.
âI called him to ask where he was and it spun into him yelling at me for ânot respectingâ his friendship because theyâve been friends longer than weâve been dating, itâs stupid really-â
âThatâs not stupid at all,â He shakes his head determinedly at you. âHeâs not respecting your relationship, iâm sorry you have to deal with that,â
You canât help but feel minorly guilty for making a stranger feel bad for you, but you give him a soft âThank you,â nonetheless.
You unfortunately donât have time to continue your conversation as your phone buzzes with a message from your boyfriend telling you that you have to go home to your shared apartment.
With a sigh you pick yourself up from the swing, clutching your book underneath your arm.
âWell, it was nice to meet youâŚâ You trail of the sentence with indication for him to fill in the space with his name.
âDr. Reid- Spencer Reid- Spencer- Iâm Spencer....â
You can see the flush spread across his cheeks and over his nose as he stumbles out his name.
âI enjoyed speaking with you Spencer,â You give the cute stranger, Spencer, a soft smile as you prepare yourself to leave, hands stuffed in your pockets.
âI enjoyed speaking to you too,â He returns your smile with one of his own, albeit one thatâs slightly more awkward, and you can see his mouth fall open again as if he was going to say something else, but his words fall short.
âGood night,â Your stopped in your walk home almost before it even starts as Spencer calls after you with a new found confidence.
âWait-â His voice echoes through the empty play park, and you turn around to meet his glistening gaze once more. âAm I- going to see you again?â
His half-awkward demeanour was oddly charming, eliciting a soft smile that spreads to your eyes.
âI like to read here sometimes, bring a book with you and maybe we can read togetherâŚâ
Spencer smiles at your indirect invitation to see him here again in the future, and he nods softly at your answer, standing from the swing he was sat on to mirror you. âIâd like that,â
âGood,â You give him another soft smile that joined by a slight tilt of your head. âIâll see you soon then..â
âYeahâŚâ Spencer stays stood as he watches you leave to go home, mind running at a million miles a minute as his brain fully comprehends what just happened.
Youâre already out of sight before he realises that he forgot to ask for your name.
#spencer reid x reader#spencer reid#criminal minds#criminal minds x reader#spencer reid fluff#criminal minds fluff#mgg#asks đŤś
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I am now at a level of obsession with Disco Elysium where I am watching at least a little bit of every playthrough I come across. Last time this happened was with Undertale almost a decade ago. With UT this helped me get a very thorough handle on the way the game was designed and with the subtler bits of player manipulation. DE is not subtle about anything and so instead I'm getting insights into the people playing it, particularly as it spreads beyond the youtube leftist bubble.
The one I'm having the most fun with right now is by this guy named Brady, who is a therapist specializing in addiction. The fun part is not so much his insight into Harry as an addict - again, the game is not subtle - but his absolute discomfort with politics. He refuses to engage with any of the ideological choices, and that makes the game a bit of a bumpy ride for him. It's particularly striking because he's willing to read into everything else that goes on in Harry's brain - he breaks out his Johari windows and his CBT flowcharts and pins the butterfly right to the corkboard - but he shuts down when the game asks him to pick a side.
To extrapolate wildly from one dude's hangups, I think this is just part of the deal with therapy. The aim of a therapist is to make the subject more functional (particularly these days, when if you're lucky insurance will pay for ten sessions, and you better document exactly what worksheets you made your patients fill out) - and being functional means being able to be happy and productive in the society you're currently living in. If I go to a therapist and say I'm bummed out about all the murdering my government is doing they will suggest I stop watching the news, or, if I'm lucky, they'll try to help me figure out why I feel guilt about things I can't control. Delving into the whys and hows of said murdering is actively counterproductive.
This is not to say that therapy is inherently bad, or, like, counterrevolutionary, because making you a more functional person does help with a lot of things, including your ability to help others. It's just a useful thing to keep in mind when therapy and politics bump into each other. I read this paper when I was googling ABA for podcast reasons and it stuck with me. The thesis boils down to: because the world is imperfect and people need skills to live in it we should continue to torture children, and we don't have enough research to conclude that torture could be traumatic. This is on one level reasonable and on one level insane. It depends where you stand, and whether you think "ability to express affection towards parents" is worth that kind of intervention. But the authors wouldn't construe this as a political argument.
Anyway: with all this in mind, I very much recommend reading "The Saint of Bright Doors", which we will be covering on wizards vs lesbians soon.
#disco elysium#the saint of bright doors#in the ways therapy can be helpful category Brady also points out how Harry sees everything in terms of power dynamics#which I never noticed because I also do that. I wonder why??
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Hi dear I have and idea for touch starved ais and vere.
WHAT IF- what if the reader (MC) is like a single parent?????
Mc's like a mild or dilf or something like that?!
AIS AND VERE WITH A SINGLE PARENT
gn!mc | meow. this (doing old reqs) is my parting gift(?)..
VERE
his ear flicks up when mc mentions their kid for the first time. where are they? why are you here? who's the other parent?
not a guy who spends time around kids. probably not a guy who should spend time around kids /hj what swear words and scary stories will he share...
^ tbf he also gives some solid life advice, even if it's a bit blunt, or something the kid doesn't understand just yet
if mc's kid is witty / snarky he finds them amusing (especially if it's at mc) and easier to be around! whether that's good for mc or not is not up to mc Lmao
it varies depending on mc's relationship with their kid but if mc's kid is grown up, vere is more of his usual self. swearing, analyzing them, taunting them, etc.
vere never thought of himself as a possible father-figure. or even like, a fun uncle. but he likes mc, and despite his complaints or denial, has grown a little fond of their child.
^ possible angst if vere's like, do you really want to be with me? am i the role model you want them to have in their life? i'm chained up for god's sake etc
gets soft/quiet when mc talks to him about their kid. he sees the fondness in their expression, and even if he can't really relate, he can still sympathize
would make a couple pilf...? jokes. sorry. it isn't necessary though. he does enough flirting and innuendos that the pilf(?) thing doesn't come up that often
brings up their kid when mc is about to do something dangerous or stupid, when they succeed at said dangerous or stupid thing, or when their kid also tries doing something dangerous and or stupid. "well it's no surprise who you got your confidence from."
vere questioning mc's parenting tactics LOL. mc is like And what do you know about parenting and vere's like. enough to judge yours. they find common ground eventually
AIS
really doubles down on his warnings about the seaspring when he finds out they're a parent. he doesn't have to know how old, what their relationship is like, etcâhe's already asking how much they're willing to risk and telling them to think about their kid
otherwise he doesn't really treat mc differentlyâthey're a grown and capable adult, and being a parent doesn't change or weaken that
ais would pick his pets over hanging out with a kid, but he doesn't give himself enough credit with how well he can get along with one
if mc's kid is old enough that he can play pranks on mc with them. well. he will. mc looks at the both of them and they both shrug like What? it wasn't us? (the kid is grinning and giggling but ais keeps it together for the both of them.)
if there's an opportunity to introduce them to princess / whoever else, he will! like look at this sweet girl, you don't have to be scared. you wanna try getting her to sit and roll around?
babysits if needed, takes them out for the day (if only to keep them away from the seaspring). they get some food and he comes up with exaggerated stories for each shop the kid points out
mc's kid who's old enough for ais to teach them some self defense after they walk in on him taking care of injuries from a bar fight. mc who walks in on them and goes ?!?!?!
mc vents about their parenting troubles, and ais isn't sure if his leadership advice/experience is totally applicable to taking care of a child, but surely some of it is? he tries to help anyway
i can see their kid opening up to ais about things that worry them tbh. he's got that vibe. depending on what it is, ais might suggest to mc something they should do, or try to help himself
similar to vere, he likes mc and their child but he wants them to think about what's best for themâif that includes him in the picture. like yes he'll do his best, but he can't blame them if things don't work out. honestly he might try to cut things off firstdjdjshd
#touchstarved game#touchstarved x reader#vere x reader#ais x reader#... hm#vere x mc#ais x mc#touchstarved x mc
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Please make a tea post so I can save it especially the pineapple ice cubes I need more info
Oh, like, different teas I like to make? Okay! :D
đPineapple Teađ
The way I do it is really simple:
Buy a giant jug of already-made tea (I like gold peak!)
Buy a carton of pineapple juice
Freeze the juice into cubes, pour a little of it in the tea for extra flavor
And that's it. That's aaaall you gotta do.
There's all kindsa ways you can dress it up, but nine times out of ten I just do this and drink it by the gallon when it's hot out.
If you wanna get fancy with it, feel free to cold brew your own black (or green) tea, add actual hunks of pineapple fruit in there, add some orange juice, add some honey, add some coconut milk or sweetened condensed milk, whatever sounds good! (Also, pairing pineapple tea with coconut cookies? SO GOOD.) Put mint in the pineapple cubes if you like mint! Add a bit of boiled ginger root or some brown sugar and cinnamon for a little kick! Heck, last summer I used blue peaflower star-shaped ice cubes just because they were pretty.
(Peaflower petals don't taste like much, but they make a GORGEOUS blue, and if you put something acidic in there like lemon juice IT TURNS PINK. :D)
đStrawberry Teađ
I find this stuff sort of difficult to find where I live, so often I go the same route as the pineapple tea: grab a jug of black tea, grab a jug of strawberry juice, (ocean spray has a really nice cran-strawberry one I like) freeze the juice, mix, and enjoy. Super simple.
If I can't find strawberry juice, I dice some strawberries up and put it in a jar with some water and a bit of sugar for a few hours, then add *that* to the tea. (heck, it's really nice all by itself!)
What goes with strawberry? ANY DANG THING YOU WANT. I am particularly fond of lychee. Jasmine tea and rose petals pair really well with it too. Again, if you like mint, it's *really* nice with strawberry. And you know how if you put black pepper on strawberries they taste even strawberrier? (If you haven't tried this, go do it, it's magic.) Same goes with the tea, add some peppercorns or a teeny bit of chili powder or some ginger.
If you wanna drink it hot or cold brew a batch of your own, here are some brands that are also nice:
1. Strawberry Sensation
2. Adagio Strawberry Tea (this is also where I got the peaflower petals)
3. Any of Lupicia's Strawberry Teas they are HEAVENLY
đApple Teađ
As with the pineapple and strawberry teas, it's totally fine to just go find some ready-made tea and mix it with some apple cider or apple juice for tasty low spoons fun. If you drink it iced, a bit of sugar and lemon juice brings out the apple flavor nicely!
I prefer drinking this stuff hot though. You know that Fall Drink post that was floating around? IF YOU HAVEN'T YET, TRY IT, IT'S AWESOME.
âChai Teaâ
So here's the thing about chai for me personally: I don't tend to drink it iced or sugary, but if you do like it iced and sugary, there are a couple of really nice chai tea concentrates:
Oregon Chai Latte
Tazo's Chai Latte (Forget the "skinny" nonsense, I just wanted to include an option with no milk so you can add whatever you want to it)
Pacific Chai isn't concentrated, but you can use it to make hot or iced chai and it's really lovely, not too sweet and super easy to work with. As for dressing up chai, I don't tend to! There's already so much going on with all the flavors, I just drink it as-is most days. Play with milk-to-tea ratios or sugar amounts all you like, figure out what's your jam.
I do know that mixing chai and coffee together (or chai and chocolate together) is guaranteed to make a feeling groovy kind of morning, at least if you have two thumbs and you're me. Iiii think that's all the tea blather I can think of for right now. Thank you for asking, anon, it was fun! Anybody reading this, feel free to add your own favorite things to do with tea. :D
#domestic blifs#this has been tea blather with rainbowbarnacle#thank you for attending my TEA-d talk
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Unwanted 1
Warnings: non/dubcon, bullying, insults, body insecurity, perversion, and other dark elements. Not all kinks or triggers are tagged. My username actually says you never asked for any of this.
My warnings are not exhaustive but be aware this is a dark fic and may include potentially triggering topics. Please use your common sense when consuming content. I am not responsible for your decisions.
Summary: You're used to being unwanted, but a strange man might just convince you that's a good thing.
Note: this is a sequel to Unsolicited/Unexpected, but with a different reader. This is Lloyd's sequel. Peaches is flourishing somewhere else.
As usual, I would appreciate any and all feedback. Iâm happy to once more go on this adventure with all of you! Thank you in advance for your comments and for reblogging.
You keep behind your brother a he marches through the mall. If you walk beside Derrick, heâll be sure to elbow you away and if you get ahead of him, heâll think youâre trying to prove something. Anything but out of sight is incorrect.Â
Thatâs the way it goes in your family. Your brother is the chosen one. Heâs perfect, but you, youâre a disaster. Youâre a nuisance. Unwanted.Â
âGod, stop dragging your feet,â he snarls over his shoulder. âIf weâre late, Iâm going to tell dad itâs your fault.âÂ
âIâm going,â you go faster but he easily outpaces you.Â
âAnd if theyâre out of stock, itâll be your fault too,â he spits. âI donât even know why they sent you with me. Probably to get a break from you.âÂ
Probably. You canât disagree. Your parents are no more fond of you than your brother. No one really is. Who would be? Youâre thirty and you still live at home. Pathetic. Useless. Everything they say is true.Â
Youâre out of breath as you enter the department store. Itâs one of the upscale ones with the overpriced throw pillows and the store brand merchandise. Derrick turns left even as you glance right towards the beauty department.Â
âUm, Derrick?â You shuffle after him. âI think the perfume is--âÂ
âShut up,â he sneers.Â
You obey. Itâs easier to let him figure it out on his own, even if in the end, heâll be mad at you for not telling him either. Thatâs just how it is. You canât do anything right.Â
He wanders through the menâs clothing and comes almost full circle before he finds the fragrance desk. He growls and you donât miss the glare he sends in your direction. You linger behind once more as he steps up to the desk and slaps the bell.Â
âYo, anyone here work?â He hollers.Â
You shrink down in embarrassment. If only you could make yourself small. Youâve never been that. Curvy at best, chunky some might say, fat in your motherâs words.Â
âAbout time,â Derrick huffs as a woman in a black turtleneck appears behind the glass counter. âYeah, Iâm here to pick up a bottle of... hold on.â He takes out his phone and taps around, mumbling as he scrolls. âI just had it... where the fuck--â He sniffs in frustration, âwhat the fuck kind is it?âÂ
He turns to bark at you and you flinch. You glance around as other customers pause to look at his rising voice. You push your shoulders up and gulp.Â
âWhite Ice,â you say. You can see the gleaming bottle your mother forbade you from ever touching. You never had the courage to tell her it stinks to high heavens.Â
âYeah, what she said,â he spins back.Â
âOh, well, I think we might have a few bottles. The holidays are a bit chaotic,â she chimes.Â
âWhatever,â he mutters.Â
He follows her to the end of the counter and around to the shelves. You stay where you are. The blend of scents is a bit too much, you donât need to wade any closer.Â
You busy yourself by perusing the promotional shelf of beauty samplers. Body spray, lip balms, even hand lotion. You lean in to figure out what those little metal containers are.Â
âDamn, look at the dump truck on you,â a man chortles heartily at the disgusting remark as it leaves his lips. âThatâs not a peach, thatâs a damn three-tiered cake.âÂ
You donât react. You tend to block out the general public. They often to the same to you.Â
âHey, sugar stack,â a hand falls onto the top of the shelf before you and you stand straight. You gape at the man who leans on one foot and smirks at you, âIâm talking to you, or can you not hear me over that extra cushion? You need me to push it outta the way?âÂ
âExcuse me,â you utter. âDo I... know you?âÂ
âNah, but you can get to know me,â he snickers. âGimme a hint, huh,â he wiggles his finger towards your coat, âdoes the balcony match the basement?âÂ
You stare at him dumbly. He canât mean... that. Itâs gross. Disgusting. And not very flattering. You know what heâs doing, heâs making fun of you.Â
âNo thanks,â you turn away and fold your arms.Â
âWhereâre ya goinâ? Iâm just gettinâ to know ya, baby?â He trails after you as you search around for your brother. âCome on, I know you donât wanna go back to that jerk you were following around. Jackass barely looks at you, does he?âÂ
You shake your head and keep going. You stop as you see your brother. He has a bottle in his hand and a scowl on his face. Even he knows it isnât the right perfume but the associate is doing her best to sell him the substitute.Â
âReally? Youâre gonna ditch me for that jackwad,â the stranger scoffs.Â
âHeâs my brother,â you mutter.Â
âAh, that explains it. Even better reason for you not to both. Come on. Letâs get outta here and you can rest those legs,â he grabs your arm and spins you back to him. âI even got a nice seat for you to sit on.âÂ
He licks two fingers and smooths his mustache. You curl your lip. Oh god. He has nice enough eyes and his hair is tidy, but the lines around his eyes and in his forehead give him about a decade on you at least. Besides, the way he talks is nasty. Â
You might not have many options but nothing is sometimes better than anything. Not much more or less than what you already have. You shake your head, âno, thank you, sir.âÂ
You turn your back to him again and tug your arm away. Â
âSir? Oh, say it again, jello jugs,â he purrs, âI like the way those lips sound around it. Oh, wait, wait, try Lloyd. Yeah, I wanna hear you say my name--âÂ
âStop,â you hurry away but heâs quick. âPlease, leave me alone.âÂ
âYou should be thanking me with a wide load like you got. I mean, look at me, sweet cheeks. Iâm a ten. Eleven if weâre being honest about it,â he taunts. âYou really wanna hang out with baby boy brother or you wanna go with a real man and see how he can make you shake--âÂ
âI said leave me alone,â you hiss over your shoulder. âOr my brother will tell you himself.âÂ
âPfft, alright, sweetheart, you really think Iâm afraid of that bitch boy?â He scoffs. âFine, you go one, hide behind big brother. All alone. Unlicked.âÂ
You stop short and peek back at him. He sticks his tongue out lewdly and you shudder. You blink at him then twirl back to your course.Â
You reach your brother as he snarls at the associate, âstop wasting my time. You either got it, or you donât.âÂ
âIâm sorry, sir--âÂ
âSave it!â He puts his palm in her face and turns to you, âcome on, letâs get outta here. Fuck. Dadâs gonna be pissed.âÂ
You move out of his way and let him go ahead. You scurry at his heels and keep your head down. That man looms, pretending to look at the perfume rollers. You ignore him as you wring your hands.Â
He isnât wrong. You donât get much attention from men. None, actually. Yet, his isnât welcome. His makes you feel worse somehow. Dirty. Wrong.Â
You just want to forget about him. Youâre certain you will soon enough. With the mood Derrick is in, your parents wonât be much better.Â
#lloyd hansen#dark lloyd hansen#dark!lloyd hansen#lloyd hansen x reader#series#drabble#unwanted#the gray man#sequel
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Not only do Robin and Will (and Mike!) have scenes together, they have a plot where the three of them visit Castle Byers in the Upside Down and here's all of the proof:
I originally posted this on twitter a month ago, which got a lot of backlash as well as prompting a certain someone to lie directly to my face about it. Now that I've been vindicated so much in the last few days, I want to share this mini-theory that I'm mostly convinced of at this point.
1.Let us go over the filming timeline: February 15th (left), Robin and Will at the McCorkle farm. Take note of the outfit that Robin is wearing here. February 20th (right), fans stumble on an Upside Down Castle Byers set in the woods.
February 22 (left), a pap reveals they were filming at this location the past week, and likes a comment saying one of the figures in the red picture was of Noah/Will.
March 1st (right), Ross Duffer posts what is (possibly) weeks 7-8 of filming, including a picture of Castle Byers in the Upside Down with the prominent American flag.
March 13 (but not really), we get a hidden shot from Episode 4. Oh, and an iPad in the corner that says this was actually February 13 - the same week they were filming with Maya/Noah/Finn at the farm.
Oh, but zoom in. Enhance image. What is that? It's the unknown!
A flag.... the body of a person with a dark coat and a white t-shirt.... possibly in the mirror view of a car or some kind of framing device. Now what did they film in the same week(s) that looks like this? Just Castle Byers and Robin.
2. Aaaaand then we get a little bit into Lovers Lake gate (literally).
The official version of the map, that could still be incorrect tbf, has Lover's Lake placed near the farms on the outskirts of town. There is also a fan-made map referenced from the actual show, which is different but still places Lover's Lake next to some farms and specifically Eugene McCorkle's farm.
Then we have this classic BTS photo from Ross of (possibly lol) Weeks 5-6 which would include the week of February 13 and 16th where we know they were filming at the farm.
What this all means, I won't speculate on too much, but I am fairly sure we are getting a mission with Robin/Will/Mike as they venture into the Upside Down (maybe Mike drives them himself) through a rift that has strategically opened near the farm because of it's position near the Lovers Lake gate. I think it's possible that they are investigating Will's memories, and trying to induce them to come back. The opening scene as we all know happens at Castle Byers. Will wants to go for his own self-development and discovery, Mike tags along because that's his boyfriend bestie, and Robin tags along after developing a soft spot for Will and to get a glimpse at how the two interact.
3. Where are the others at (why only them three)? Also in episode 4, we have Nancy, Jon, Dustin and (probably since it's his car) Steve as a group all travelling from the McCorkle farm into the Upside Down. Perhaps they split off into their own missions, or something goes awry and this is the reconnaissance team sent in to find RoWillMike.
The one thing I do have extra confirmation of is that Millie has not been involved in any of the farm scenes, even the ones filmed in April. There is no way El is involved in this plot. Millie was also on a filming break during most of February.
The others all likely have a plotline together (Lucas/Erica/Joyce/Hopper/El). Vickie couullldd be there though?
Fin.
#now that i dont have to explain WHY i think theres a team up this is much easier lol#robin buckley#will byers#mike wheeler#byler#st5 speculation#basically: skittles squad is real
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haven't we met? âžď¸ minghao x reader.
âwherever you are in the world, i swear i'll find you again.â # day one of (the)8 days of minghao.
â includes: mentions of death/calamities. soulmates, body swapping, time travel, delayed ripple effect, references to chinese mythology, light angst. this is inspired by & heavily references makoto shinkai's film kimi no nawa/your name, but it's not required to have seen the film to understand the plot. word count: 9,000+
Itâs a Wednesday when Minghao wakes up in a room that isnât his.
He doesnât immediately register it. His senses come to him slowly; the sun is warm on his face, supposedly streaking through the windows.Â
But then an alarm blares, and itâs an alarm thatâs decisively not his. Itâs loud and oppressive. The complete opposite of the gentle tinkling of bells that he sets for his mornings. Minghao peels his eyes open before blinking blearily up at a ceiling thatâs in a shade of dark green.Â
Odd. His ceiling is supposed to be beige.Â
Minghao finally manages to sit up, to glance around. The room heâs in is not his. Itâs much more disorganized and the furnitureâs a bit more old-fashioned. He lets out a slight exhale.Â
A dream, he thinks wearily. Iâm dreaming.Â
Minghao canât help but think that itâs a particularly realistic dream as he unsteadily gets to feet. As he pulls aside the sheets that had covered him, he notices snatches of a body that isnât his, either. Lithe legs, painted toenails.Â
Iâm dreaming Iâm someone else, he thinks. It happened, didnât it? One might sometimes dream from the perspective of a stranger, a friend.Â
Minghaoâs attention is drawn to a half-full water carafe on the bedside table. Without much thought, he reaches for itâ before smashing it onto the floor. Free will, baby.Â
Exceptâ
He feels it. The wetness lapping up at his feet. The shards of broken glass flying in all directions. Something closes up in his throat. Did he usually feel things in his dreams? Had he eaten something weird, drank something the night before, to have him dreaming like this?Â
The door to the room swings open.Â
A silver-haired woman stands in front of him, now, her face pinched with worry. She says a nameâ a name that isnât Minghaoâsâ and asks, panicked, âWhat happened?âÂ
Minghao doesnât know what to say. He doesnât trust himself to speak. He just stares and stares as this wrinkled woman chides him in a motherly way until he realizes, ah. This must be his mother. Not his mother, but his dream selfâs mother.Â
He can work with that. âIâm sorry,â he chokes out. His voice is different. Not his, not his. He tries againâ softer, this timeâ like it might change things. Like he might be able to coax his old voice to break through whatever sleepy haze heâs in. âIâm sorry. I knocked it over by accident.âÂ
âYouâre so clumsy,â his âmotherâ chides, but sheâs already getting to her knees to wipe at the puddle of water with her apron. That snaps Minghao into action; he stumbles across the room in search of a towel.Â
What a crazy dream, he thinks as he delicately gathers up the shards, as he wipes up the spilled water. Iâve never had a dream like this.Â
As his âmotherâ heads back downstairs, Minghao figures he might as well play the part.Â
He follows her down for breakfast. Heâs struck by how visceral, how tactile everything feels. The creeks of the old staircase. The smell of seaweed egg drop soup. The crick in Minghaoâs neck.
Am I going insane? Minghao briefly wonders as he settles into the dining table, where thereâs already a spread of food waiting for him. He notes that itâs a rather small table, made for only two people. Itâs a stark contrast to the long tables he usually shares with twelve other boys, to the family tables he reserves with his own family.
âWhy are you being so quiet?â his âmotherâ asks as she sits across from him. âWeâll just get you a new carafe, kiddo.â
Right. Thatâs definitely why he was being quiet. Minghao picks up the chopsticks in front of him and goes to try some of the braised potatoes.Â
He can even taste it. This was probably the most detailed dream heâs ever had.
âArenât I always quiet, though?â Minghao manages to ask in the voice-that-is-not-his. Itâs a higher pitched voice, one that has a distinct Seoul accent.Â
His âmotherâ lets out a snort of laughter. âYah, in what universe are you quiet?â she says with a snicker, reaching over to flick Minghaoâs forehead.Â
He lets out a small sound of protest.Â
âThatâs more like it,â his âmotherâ notes. âNow, eat up. Youâll be late for work.â   Â
Work. Something like unease begins to pool at the pit of his stomach at the thought of it. Not because he hates his job, no. Minghao loved being a dancer, an idol, an artist. Butâ he had a feeling that wasnât the job he should be expecting this time around.
âIâ Iâm not really feeling well,â he mumbles, pushing around some seaweed at the bottom of his soup. When his âmotherâ shoots him a scrutinizing glare, he forces out a cough to sell the act. âIâm not sure if I can go in today.âÂ
His âmotherâ goes from looking skeptical to concerned. She sets her own utensils down. âDo you need me to take care of you? I can take off, tooââÂ
âItâs okay,â Minghao says hastily. âI think I just need to stay in bed.âÂ
The woman across from him doesnât look convinced, and so he presses on, âHow is work, anyway?âÂ
Itâs a polite question, one meant to wheedle out more information. His âmotherâ takes the bait, though, and goes on to rant about bad co-workers, about impatient patrons. Sheâs a grocery store bagger, Minghao gleams. And when she complains about other small thingsâ the weather making it difficult to hang laundry, the lack of delivery shiftsâ Minghao realizes that his âmotherâ has an array of other side hustles.Â
He listens intently. He nods in all the right places. He thinks heâs doing the right thing, but his âmotherâ falters mid-sentence to fix him a worried look.Â
âYou really are so quiet today,â she repeats, reaching over to put the back of her hand against Minghaoâs forehead. He feels the touch, feels the warmth of concern wash over his skin, and it makes him shiver. âYou really must not be feeling well, huh?âÂ
Minghao thinks heâs only about to feel so much worse.
He heads back to âhisâ bedroom, and itâs only then that he catches a glimpse of himself in a full-length mirror. Itâs⌠the face of someone heâs never met before.Â
Minghao once heard that the people you see in your dreams are never strangers. Theyâre all faces youâve seen at least once or twice, and in Minghaoâs line of workâ well, heâs seen a lot of faces. He raises a hand to pinch at his cheek, to pat at his hair.Â
It all feels so real. He doesnât dwell on that.Â
Instead, he starts to explore. Walking around the cramped bedroom feels both like a museum visit and an intrusion. Thereâs posters peeling off the wall, shelves groaning under the weight of books, clothes that look a little worse for wear. Itâs honestly such a mess that Minghao ends up killing a couple of hours just cleaning.
He lets out a snort of laughter as he does. Even in his dreams, heâs picking up over someone.Â
He doesnât know how long he spends gathering hangers and sweeping the floor, but, at one point, the silence is broken by a high-pitched ringtone. He fumbles for the shabby cellphone on the bedside table.Â
It had been password-protected, which is why he couldnât open it. Now, though, thereâs an option to answer the incoming call.Â
BOSS MAN đż, it says, and Minghao nearly cracks a smile. Yeah, he can relate to that, at least.Â
When he answers the call, though, any and all humor dissipates at the yelling that assaults Minghaoâs ear. âWHERE ARE YOU?â âBoss Manâ screams on the other end. âIâVE BEEN TRYING TO CALL YOU ALL DAY! YOUâVE GOT SOME NERVE, PUNKââÂ
Minghao definitely sees now why the devil emoji was warranted. He has the urge to cut into the other manâs tirade, partly because itâs a dream where thereâll surely be little to no consequences. Something holds him back, though, as he puts some distance between his ear and the phone.Â
Once the other man pauses to breathe, Minghao manages to get a word in. âI⌠wasnât feeling well,â he says lamely. âCould I maybe work from home or something?âÂ
âWORK FROM HOME? ARE YOU CRAZY?! WHAT KIND OF BULLSHITââ
At that point, Minghao just hangs up. When âBoss Manâ tries to call again, Minghao turns off the cellphoneâs ringer and goes back to cleaning.Â
He cleans until thereâs not a speck of dust in the bedroom. And when thatâs done, he goes to work on the grout in the bathroom, the oil stains in the kitchen. Heâs not really sure what heâs doing. Occasionally, heâll stop in the middle of a chore, wondering if itâs finally time for him to be shaken out of this mundane, long-winded dream.Â
Night falls. His âmotherâ texts about taking on an extra shift. She says something about food in the refrigerator, but Minghao canât be bothered; heâs so exhausted that he blacks out the moment his head hits his pillow.
He doesnât even have the energy to contemplate the mechanics of falling asleep in whatâs supposed to be a dream.Â
On Thursday, Minghao wakes up back in his dorm.Â
When he hears the familiar chime of his morning alarm, when he opens his eyes and sees beige, he feels a wave of relief. It really had all been a dream. A very realistic one, sure. But a dream all the same. He was awake now, and he was ready to go about his Wednesday scheduleâÂ
Except, when he checks his phone, it says that itâs already Thursday.Â
Minghao blinks. How long was he out? Surely one of the boys wouldâve dragged him out of bed if heâd been out of commission for twenty-four hours.Â
He unlocks his phone to a dozen unread messages. Eyebrows furrowed, he decides to first go with Seungcheolâs texts.Â
đ: myungho đ: are you feeling better? đ¸: Hyung, hi. I think I just overslept a bit but Iâm feeling ok.Â
Despite the early morning, the three dots indicating that Seungcheol is typing pop up.Â
đ: are you sure??? đ: you had us worried đ¸: Did I really sleep that long? đ: i mean, i donât know how long you slept đ: was that the problem? were you hysterical yesterday because of lack of sleep? ă
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Suddenly, Minghaoâs room feels a lot colder than earlier. Hysterical. That was the word Seungcheol had used. And yesterdayâ Tuesday? Nothing out of the ordinary had happened to Minghao. It was all the usual; he had practiced, eaten dinner out with Soonyougn, then went home.Â
The dream had been the only unusual thing about the day prior. Minghao is jolted when Seungcheol sends another slew of texts.Â
đ: seriously đ: i was worried i might have to bring you to the hospital or something đ: but you say youâre ok now?Â
Minghao canât help it anymore. He dials Seungcheolâs number and puts the phone to his ear, his heart pounding in his chest all the while.Â
Seungcheol answers on the first ring. In lieu of a greeting, Minghao jumps straight into âWas I reallyâ hysterical, yesterday?âÂ
Thereâs a pause on the other end of the line. When Seungcheol speaks, he still sounds a touch gruff, like heâs only half-awake. âI mean, kind of. What, are you worried about it? Do you need help apologizing to Mingyu?âÂ
Apologizing to Mingyu? âWhatâ is Mingyu mad at me?âÂ
âUh.â Thereâs some sounds of shuffling on the other end, as if Seungcheol is sitting up. Itâs a pretty clear giveaway of his growing concern. âYou might have to ask him that. But, Haoâ you sure youâre better?â
Minghao swallows around the lump in his throat. He doesnât know where to start without sounding insane.
âI think Iâm still feeling a bit off,â Minghao says weakly. âMust be the flu or something.âÂ
âI can come over.âÂ
âNo, no. I think I just need some rest.âÂ
Seungcheol lets out a contemplative hum. âAlright,â he says, though he doesnât sound all too convinced. âIâll keep the boys off your back for the day. Text me if you need anything, and maybe text Mingyu when you can.âÂ
âText Mingyu,â Minghao repeats absentmindedly. âYeah, got it.âÂ
The call ends without anything more. Minghao stays seated in his bed for a long moment, just staring at the call log.Â
Seungcheol had called him hysterical. Mingyu was upset with him.Â
Something was definitely not right.Â
Minghaoâs suspicion is only confirmed when he goes to check the texts heâd gotten from other members.
đŻ: need to call u about choreo but preferably u dont yell at me this time đ let me know whenâs a good time đą: Are u ok? Or did u actually ditch me for our dinner (bec if then, wtf) đŚ: iâve been in the practice room for an hour now!!!!!! Where are you!!!
If Minghao wasnât already sitting down, he mightâve collapsed.Â
He yelled at Soonyoung. He ditched Jun and Chan.Â
He had no memory of any of that.Â
But he remembers the shattered carafe, the seaweed soup, the shrill shrieks of âBoss Manâ in his ear.Â
For a moment, heâs convinced heâs just in another version of the same dreamâ except, this time, it looks a lot more like a nightmare. As Minghao finally musters up the energy to get to his feet, he notices something at the foot of his bed.Â
He unfurls the folded piece of paper. The handwriting isnât anything heâs seen before. His eyes inadvertently skip to the very bottom, and his heart nearly stops in his damn chest. Minghao drops the paper like it had physically burnt him.Â
âWhat the fuck,â he mumbles to himself as he scrambles to his feet, as he puts distance between himself and the now-discarded paper. âWhat the fuck, what the fuck, what the fuck.âÂ
At the very end of the handwritten letter had been a name.Â
The name that had been uttered by his dreamselfâs mother. The name that âBoss Manâ had shrieked. A name he hadnât heard before yesterday, before his dreamâÂ
Minghao is finding it increasingly hard to believe that it had been a dream in the first place. Hell, he doesnât even know what âyesterdayâ is anymore.Â
He paces his room. He does breathing exercises. He brews half a pot of tea.Â
None of it helps. Hours laterâ with all his texts still unanswered and his tea depletedâ Minghao stumbles back to the letter.Â
I donât know who you are, it starts. But I can tell you who I am.Â
Iâm from Umyeon-deong in Seocho. I live with my mother; my father hasnât been in the picture for a long time. I work as an editorial assistant for a local newspaper. (Itâs not exactly what I want to be doing, although thatâs a story for another day.)Â
For a big part of today, I thought I was dreaming. I keep thinking Iâm going to wake up back in my bedroom, but the hours have ticked by and Iâm still here. Your friends keep contacting you. Itâs driving me insane. I accidentally yelled at two of them because they wouldnât stop calling. The Mingyu one got really upset about it, I think. Sorry.Â
Iâm writing this because I donât know what else to do. If this is nothing but a dream, then this shouldnât matter. But in the 0.000000001% chance that something truly insane has happened to me and you? Well, at least now you know.Â
Iâm going to try and go to sleep now, although I must admit: You have some pretty nice stuff. I ate some of your tea and snacks (sorry, again). This is crazy. None of this makes sense.Â
The letter unceremoniously ends there. Minghaoâs eyes flick again to the signoff, to the name at the very bottom.Â
Your name.Â
His head is reeling. He feels like heâs going to be sick.Â
This is no coincidence, no practical joke. Itâsâ as youâve saidâ truly something insane happening.Â
Minghao is struck with the realization that it just might happen again, and this time, he actually does get sick. He ends up hurling into a trash can.Â
After brushing his teeth, chugging some water, and running through one too many of the chips in his pantry, Minghao gets back to the letter.Â
Itâs still there, in his hands. The stationary that was locked away in his drawer, bearing handwriting that is not his.Â
None of the boys would pull off a prank as elaborate as this. Minghao is fairly certain he wouldâve noticed if any of them snuck in, too. So, now, the only logical explanation was the one that was left.Â
And Minghao really didnât like that explanation.Â
For what feels like forever, he contemplates what to do. He considers calling up Seungcheol again. He debates the merits of apologizing to Mingyu and Soonyoung; he decides against it when he realizes he wouldnât even know what heâs apologizing for. He knows what to say to Jun and Chan at least, but that doesnât make it any easier. How would Minghao even begin to justify himself? Hey, sorry for ditching you; I think I body swapped with a complete stranger. Letâs grab dinner tonight instead?Â
Thereâs a headache blossoming behind Minghaoâs eyes at the mere thought of putting the words out into existence.Â
In the end, he does what he deems to be the easiest thing to do. He picks up a pen and writes on the other side of your letter.Â
Hello, he begins. Iâm The8 Myungho Minghao.Â
Iâm an idol whoâs part of a group called SEVENTEEN. Theyâre the friends who keep contacting me. Mingyu is a fellow member and good friend of mine. Iâll talk to him.Â
My family is in a different country.Â
As Minghao goes on to write the next parts, he feels a bit foolish. He doesnât really know what to say, though he feels like he should say something. You had given him something to work with, after all. Slivers of context. He should be able to do the same for you.Â
I met your mother. Sheâs nice.Â
I talked to your boss. He wasnât happy. He yelled at you (me?), and I may or may not have put down the phone. Iâm sorry. I wasnât sure what your work was so I ended up not going at all.Â
I hope you liked the tea. Feel free to have all the snacks you want.Â
And youâre right. This is crazy.Â
If Iâm lucky, youâll never need this letter.Â
Minghao wakes up on Friday to the realization that he is decidedly unlucky.
The loud alarm is back, and the ceiling is dark green again, and Minghao once again leans over to throw up. Luckily, thereâs a bedside garbage bin that comes to the rescue.Â
Thereâs no sun this time. Itâs fairly gloomy outside, the overcast skies peeking through the windows.Â
Minghao immediately notices that thereâs a folded piece of paper on the pillow next to him. He unfurls it so fast that he almost tears it in half.Â
This is a precaution, you start. Maybe, come tomorrow, I can just chuck this out and chalk it all up to a one-off freak incident.Â
The thought of this phenomenon not being a one-off nearly has bile rising up in Minghaoâs throat all over again, but he forces himself to read the rest of your words.Â
First off, I guess I should thank you. My room has never been this clean in my life! And you should have seen the look on my motherâs face when she saw that âIâ cleaned the entire apartment. I didnât have the heart to tell her that I was possessed, for the lack of better term, by someone who is a much better person than me.Â
That almost makes Minghao smile. Almost, because the next part sends a pang of guilt through him.Â
Secondly, though, you almost cost me my job. I canât believe you hung up on my boss, Donghyuk. I had to do some serious damage control. I managed to get today off, just in case.Â
Minghao is struck by your foresight and, adversely, his absolute lack of it. The most he had to do was appease a sulky Mingyu and message back the rest of the boys. His brain races to figure out if he has any schedules forâ Friday, was it? A practice, maybe. Or a recording.Â
Either way, heâs screwed. Youâre screwed.Â
Minghao his face in one hand and quietly prays that you know how to dance.Â
He skims over the rest of your letter.Â
I donât know why this is a thing. I donât know if it is meant to be a thing. Iâm going to try and look for some answers, whether or not I wake up as you/myself.Â
Wish me luck.Â
A small part of Minghao feels a tug at the thought of both of you ending your letters with the concept of luck. That feeling is quickly replaced by something akin to dread, because heâs fairly convinced that this is no longer a dream.Â
Minghao has woken up in a body that isnât his. Minghao has woken up in your bodyâ the body of a person heâs sure heâs never met.
He has to live a day in your life with nothing to go by but the notes youâve left and a handful of context clues.Â
For a moment, Minghao contemplates just going back to sleep. Maybe if the both of you just slept right now, the switch would trigger. Maybe he could just spend the whole day in bed until you have to swap again.
The latter seems like the best idea until knuckles rap against the bedroom door.Â
Your mother pops her head through the crack in the door. âIâm going to leave early today. The rain isnât looking so good,â she says with a slight grimace.Â
Minghao glances out the window. Itâs all he can do, really, to keep himself from not going insane then and there.Â
âTake care,â he says.Â
Heâs suddenly acutely aware of your voiceâ the cadence and timbre of it. He knows what you sound like, how you write, and he wonders how the two might combine. What might be the right thing to say in this situation.Â
Because your mother has that look again, that openly dubious expression.Â
âAre you alright?â she asks cautiously, not quite stepping into the bedroom just yet.Â
A flash of panic rises up in Minghao. What would you say? What would you do?Â
âWhy wouldnât I be?â His toneâs just a little haughty now. Itâs so uncharacteristic of him that Minghao nearly winces, but he persists. âGo on, donât get caught in the rain.âÂ
Your mother lets out a huff of a laugh, mumbling something like âungrateful kidâ as she retreats. Despite that, it seems to work; she takes her leave without another protest. Minghao lets out a shaky breath. Â
Hisâ your stomach, reallyâ lets out a low grumble. A part of him wonders if youâve been just on edge as heâs been. Unable to eat properly, losing sleep over this whole thing.Â
Regardless, the least he can do is take care of you. He pads over to the kitchen and rummages through the refrigerator for some leftovers. All the while, heâs thinking of what he has in his own kitchen.Â
Will you be hungry? You did say you liked his snacks. Would that be enough?Â
The questions rattling in his head turn into considerably more stressful ones.Â
Is this going to happen forever? Will he have to spend the rest of his life swapping bodies with you on a day-to-day basis?
He thinks of the group, thinks of your mother. Thinks of his demanding job and your terrible boss.Â
Minghao nearly panics again. He manages to keep it together enough to make a sandwich and sip some coffee.Â
He tries to meditate, even, but itâs like your body knows that itâs not a practice that you frequent. Your hands twitch in the stillness; your heart only slams harder instead of calming. You need to catch a goddamn break, Minghao thinks as he grits his teeth and tries to relax.Â
Something good comes out of his attempt, at least. It comes as an epiphany of some sortsâ how he suddenly remembers a portion of your letter.Â
Iâm going to try and look for some answers, you had written.Â
He might as well do the same.Â
Once heâs changed into outerwear thatâs slightly more acceptable for the rainy weather, he spends a good amount of time searching for your wallet. When he goes to check it, he inadvertently lets out a grumbled âdamn.â
Your wallet has nothing but a couple of loose bills.Â
Minghao canât blame you, not really, but youâre certainly giving him very little to work with. A part of him even feels kind of bad for you. Not only did you have a demon for a boss; you were also severely underpaid. He makes a mental note to bring that up in his next letter to you.Â
He canât go far with the lack of funds, though thatâs not the only thing hindering his quest for answers. Itâs pouring outside, the rain coming in heavy droplets.Â
Minghao braves it with a raincoat and an umbrella, hoping against hope to find something. Anything.Â
As luck would have it, your neighborhood has a local library.Â
When he steps in, the librarian doesnât pay him much heed. Minghao is momentarily amused by the thought. Did you not come here often?Â
Itâs a quaint place with a scarce collection. A lot of the novels are on the older endâ published nearly a decade agoâ but they remain in pristine condition. Minghao skips over the best-sellers and the manga serieses, instead opting to sift through the psychology textbooks.Â
Heâs not surprised when he doesnât find anything of use there, when he spends nearly four hours reading and reading to no avail. The lack of non-fiction about a body swapping phenomenon is to be expected. This wasnât something that just happened, after all.Â
And yet itâs happening to me, Minghao thinks with frustration as he grabs at his sixth book of the afternoon. The unexpected force knocks some of the surrounding books onto the floor.Â
The librarian gives him a vicious side eye.Â
âSorry, sorry,â Minghao mumbles as he immediately gets to his knees.Â
His hands close around one of the books he knocked over. Itâs a heavy hardbound with a gorgeous deep red cover and metallic gold lettering. Thereâs a dragon featured on the front and the familiar iconography of it nearly bowls Minghao over.Â
While still crouched down on the floor, Minghao flips through the pages. The images that go flashing by are not strangers to him, but thereâs one in particular that heâs looking for.Â
He finds it on the thirtieth page. Almost out of instinct, his fingers trace over the characters.Â
ćč. Yue Lao.Â
Suddenly, Minghao is a child again, listening to his motherâs stories. He had been young and wide-eyed, sprawled on her lap as she talked soothingly about the god who presented himself as an old man under the moon. Â
The god of marriage and love. Heâs the reason why your bĂ ba and I met, his mother would say amusedly. Yue Lao made it possible.Â
How? His younger self had demanded. How did he make sure?Â
His mother had laughed, then. Had stroked Minghaoâs hair out of his face as she told him about the myth. The magical cord may stretch or tangle, but it will never break.Â
And, oh, how Minghao had prayed back then. He prayed to Yue Lao the hardestâ his eyes squeezed shut, his hands clasped to his chest.Â
I hope I find love.Â
It doesnât matter when, or where, or how.Â
QÇng, Yue Lao. Please, please, please.Â
âAre you going to check that out or what?âÂ
Minghao is dragged out of his memories at the sound of the librarianâs sharp tone. âIââÂ
The words stick in his throat. Eventually, he manages a meek, âIâll put it back.â
Itâs still pouring as he leaves the library and makes the short walk back to your apartment. The rainwater pooling in the gutters has muck and grime sticking to the bottom of hisâ technically yourâ rain boots. Another thing to apologize for, Minghao thinks wryly.Â
He seeks temporary shelter underneath the corner store near your apartment block. The vendor looks up expectantly.Â
âThe usual?â the woman croaks, and it takes a moment for Minghao to register that heâs being addressed. Â
âNot today,â he responds with a tight smile.Â
The vendor lets out a bark of laughter. âWhen have you ever said ânoâ to me?â she says with a tut of disapproval. Before Minghao can protest, the stranger is already shuffling over to her cooking station.Â
Minghao watches in silence when he realizes whatâs being made. Some fruit is speared onto a bamboo skewer, then dipped into a simmering syrup. It emerges coated like a clear gemstone before itâs shoved into a bowl of ice.Â
Tanghulu, Minghao thinks dazedly as he accepts the snack. âThank you,â he says softly.
The vendor smiles. Sheâs already missing a couple of teeth.Â
Minghao takes a tentative bite. Tanghulu was a familiar enough delicacy, but the fruit he'd been givenâ your âusualââ is something he hasn't seen in quite some time.Â
The date-plum persimmon is soft and glutinous, wrapped in a thin layer of crisp sweetness. Minghao can't remember the last time he had black jujube this way.Â
âYouâre still the only one who likes that stuff.â Thereâs an edge of fondness to the vendorâs tone. A clear indicator that you have some sort of camaraderie with her, something that Minghao isnât entirely privy to. âDo you know how hard it is to find stock of that darn fruit?âÂ
It seems like a rhetorical question, like something that youâd probably take in stride. But Minghao canât bring himself to joke. His free hand is already fishing for your wallet, where heâs prepared to blow the last of your money on this dessert.Â
The vendor shakes her head. âNot today,â she chirps, echoing Minghaoâs words from earlier. Her gaze is fixed over his shoulder, where the downpour is relentless.Â
Minghao is not quite sure what the norm is supposed to be. Do the two of you talk? Do you leave right after youâve made your purchase?Â
He doesnât want to be rude, so he mumbles his gratitude and decides to stick around for a moment. The vendor thankfully chooses not to make conversation.Â
Minghao spends a long time just standing there, making slow work of the sticky date-plum. He watches the rain that never lets up. He watches the lights of your apartment building flicker on as night falls. He watches, and he tries to commit it to memory as he finishes off his tanghulu.Â
For what itâs worth, heâs glad to âshareâ this with youâ something sweet to get the both of you by.Â
Come Saturday, Minghao wakes up with more questions than answers.
Your letter is within reach, resting atop his bedside table. He goes to read it despite the fact that heâs barely lucid.Â
Itâs shorter this time. If he strained, he could almost hear the words in your voice. A distant echo.Â
I canât believe youâre actually an idol. Have you met BIGBANG?Â
That draws a surprised laugh out of him. Itâs been years since he last heard of his industry seniors. The thought of you being a second gen fan is a little endearing to him.Â
Anyway, I told everyone who contacted you that you were really sick. Like, throwing up levels of sick. âCoups-hyungâ said he would send a manager, but I assured him that you already had one on the way. You might want to corroborate that lie.Â
I know I said I would look for answers, but I couldnât really go far. I was scared of getting lost. And, man, your neighborhood is overwhelming. Iâve lived in Seoul my whole life and I donât think Iâve ever been in this part of the city.Â
I ended up spending most of my day just reading your books. Good taste.Â
The compliment puts the smallest grin on his face. Â
I promise to do better research when Iâm back in my own body. âTill then.Â
As curt as your letter is, it gives him an idea he probably wouldnât have had otherwise. Better research. Back in his own body.
He fishes for your first letter, which he had kept tucked in his drawer. Itâs still there, which means the past couple of days have not been a bout of psychosis. He doesnât know if heâs relieved or horrified.Â
Minghao focuses instead on scanning your introduction, where you had mentioned your neighborhood. Umyeon-deong.Â
While heâs in the back of the cab, Minghao texts back his members. Heâs vague, still, but itâs not anything particularly new. Feeling a little better. Getting a check-up, just in case. Stop worrying. Iâll let you know how it goes.Â
The heat is oppressive for July, almost beating down on Minghaoâs back as he finally makes it to the district. Itâs a full 180 from yesterdayâs rain. He regrets the baseball cap and the hoodie, but both are necessary evils.Â
Heâs not entirely sure where to drop off, so he settles for one of the corners at the mouth of the neighborhood. Once heâs there, he justâ begins to walk in a general direction.
Later, he realizes he probably could have pulled up Google Maps. He would have benefited from asking around, would have cut his time in half if he deigned to admit that he was lost. But, at the moment, heâs just taking it all in.Â
The apartment complexes. The childrenâs park. The liquor store.Â
Briefly, he wonders if heâll run into you. Would you recognize him?Â
Would he even want you to?Â
Minghao is so busy mulling it over that he almost misses it. The streetside food stand advertising fresh tanghulu. It feels like yesterdayâ well, it was yesterday. His mouth is already watering at the thought of the candied date-plums as he wanders over to the stand.Â
A rasping voice addresses him. He looks up from scanning the selection, realizing with a jolt that itâs the same vendor.
But itâs alsoâ not.Â
Something is off.Â
Something he canât quite place.
It almost steals the breath out of Minghao. He probably looks dumbstruck, looks stupid with his mouth hanging slightly agape, but the vendor asks again, âWhat do you want?â
Minghao forces an answer out of his chest. âDo you haveâ black jujube?â
A myriad of micro expressions flash across the sellerâs face. It starts with recognition, but ends with something closer to tightness. She gives a labored grunt in response before going to make the snack.Â
When she hands it over to Minghao, thereâs a slight quiver in her fingers. She nearly drops it, even, but Minghao catches it just in time.Â
âSorry,â she grouses. âItâs an order that a regular of mine used to have.âÂ
Thereâs a low ringing in Minghaoâs ears as he says âah,â as he hands over his payment. The vendor busies herself with cleaning her workstation, and Minghao tries to enjoy the date-plums, but itâs not as good as he remembers it.Â
Was it perhaps a difference in taste buds?Â
No, he thinks. Itâs the lump in his throat. Itâs the sellerâs words nagging at the back of his mind.Â
An order that a regular of mine used to have. Used to.Â
He saw her yesterday. You were supposed to have seen her yesterday.Â
As he munches on the fruit, he asks almost too casually, âIs it your first time selling in this area?âÂ
The vendor shoots him a suspicious glare. Minghao knows heâs being a little odd with the line of his small talk so he fields his question, tries to make it come out more naturally. âI remember you used to have a spot somewhere else,â he offers. âIn front of an apartment building.â
This time, itâs the sellerâs turn to mumble âah.âÂ
âThatâs why you had that order,â she says with a humorless laugh. âYou knew them, huh?âÂ
âThem?âÂ
The vendor says your name. The ringing in Minghaoâs ear gets louder; his fingers, tightening around the skewer of his tanghulu. Itâs the first time heâs hearing your name in his own body and it sends a shiver down his spine.Â
The question is even harder to answer. Does he know you? Was he allowed to say that?---
No. No, wait. The vendor had said knew.Â
The ringing reaches an almost feverish pitch. Itâs a miracle that Minghao hears anything else, that he picks up the murmured words that the seller says next. Â
âItâs a real shame,â she says with a voice so soft, so solemn, so small. âItâs been nine years, hasnât it?âÂ
Nine years.
Nine years.Â
Nine years.Â
Since what? Since you?Â
A lot of things havenât made sense to Minghao in the past couple of days, but thisâ this is the one that baffles him the most. He saw youâ he was youâ yesterday.Â
When Minghao finally finds his voice, itâs to ask for a favor.Â
The vendor complies, albeit skeptically. She hangs a âbe right backâ sign over her stall. Itâs a short walk, not more than seven minutes.Â
If Minghaoâs ears had been ringing earlier, now, itâs just dead silence. A dreadful sort of quiet as he stares at the ruins of the apartment building he was staring at just the day before.Â
The seller is watching his face carefully. âYou didnât know?â she prompts gently.Â
Minghao realizes he has to come up with something. âWe were friends. Me andââ He chokes around your name. When he finally says it out loud for the first time, he feels guilty. It feels so wrong to be saying it in this context. To have it be part of a lie. âBut thenââÂ
He trails off. The vendor supplies, âYou lost touch?âÂ
Sure. Minghao gives a jerky nod in response. Thatâs one way to put it.Â
Heâs not even looking for an explanation, but the seller gives him one. âThe typhoon was so bad that it triggered landslides,â she says gruffly. She nods towards the direction of the mountain towering over the neighborhood. âI think the death toll was around eighteen people.âÂ
Minghao resists the urge to scream. If he were a lesser man, he might have fainted. Instead, he quietly says, âNine years ago.âÂ
âNine years ago,â the vendor confirms. She pauses before adding, her voice just a little sadder, âA tragedy.âÂ
âTragedy,â Minghao repeats. That doesnât even begin to cover it, he thinks.Â
Neither of them say anything for a long time. He can feel the pity rolling off the seller in waves; still, he canât bring himself to turn away. He stares, and he stares, and he stares at the rubble, at the derelict building. At the mere echo of what had been so loud and alive to him just yesterday.
After what feels like forever, he asks another question. âIsâ is the library still around?âÂ
The vendor leads the way. At the door of the library, she attempts to give Minghao a reassuring smile. Itâs all just gums, now. No teeth. Thereâs an endless refrain of nine years, nine years, nine years screeching through Minghaoâs head as the seller bids him goodbye with âIâm sorry you lost your friend.âÂ
âIâm sorry, too,â he responds with a solemnity that doesnât need to be feigned.Â
The librarian isnât the same one.Â
This one has a calmer demeanor, a more restrained smile. Somehow, that only makes Minghao feel much worse. He knows what heâs looking for this time; he goes straight to the neighborhood records and scrolls all the way back to nine years ago. 2015.Â
Itâs a lot of information to digest all at once. Thereâs the news clippings about the heavy rainfall. The flash floods, the landslides. Class action lawsuits. Landmine threats. Government incompetence.Â
Minghao feels like heâs drowning in information, but itâs still not what heâs looking for.Â
He finds it in a directory. Thereâs two people with the same last name and Minghao nearly loses it then and there, at the thought of your mother, tooâÂ
He focuses on you for now. His quivering finger traces the cell that contains your name, your date of birth. 1997. The same year as him. A couple of months younger, though.Â
Nine years ago, Minghao had been 18. Just about to debut.Â
Nine years ago, you had been an editorial assistant. Not exactly what I want to be doing, you had written in your first letter to him. There was no way for you to know that you would never have the chance to be anything more. Â
Minghaoâs eyes fall on the date of death.Â
ExceptâÂ
Itâs not nine years ago yesterday, not nine years ago today. Itâs tomorrow.Â
In that very moment, he understands what heâs meant to do.Â
When Minghao wakes up in your body on Sunday, he knows he has only one chance.Â
He had read up all about it the âdayâ prior but the details were vague. None of the news reports mentioned when exactly the landslide would happen. The most he gleamed was that it would be due to an unstable slope from the nearby Mount Umyeon.Â
A wall of mud three storeys high hit the building, one article had said. Itâs the only information that Minghao has to go by as he drags himself out of bed, ignoring the blare of your obnoxious alarm.Â
He goes straight for your motherâs room. Sheâs already awake, standing by the window.Â
Outside, the storm rages on. Your mother turns to face Minghao. âItâs not looking good out there,â she says disapprovingly. âThe news said itâs the heaviest rainfall in nearly a century.âÂ
Back in his body, Minghao had contemplated how he would go about this. He thought he might try to coax your mother, might be logical and rational in urging her to evacuate.Â
In that very moment, though, he instead finds himself blurting out, âWeâre going to die.âÂ
A beat. Your mother looks unfazed.Â
âYouâre always so dramatic.âÂ
The panic simmers in the pit of Minghaoâs stomach. âWeâre going to die,â he repeats, his tone on the shriller end now.Â
It wasnât like him to give in to hysteria; he was you, though, and your mother seemed nonchalant enough about it. Heâs not sure if thatâs a blessing or a curse. âItâs just a little bit of rain,â your mother says dismissively as she squeezes past Minghao and heads towards the kitchen.Â
Minghao is on her heels, his hands wringing together. âWe canât stay here,â he pleads. âWe have to leave.âÂ
Your mother shoots Minghaoâ youâ an exasperated look. âWhere are we going to go in this weather?âÂ
âNo. No, no. We have to go somewhere safe.âÂ
âWeâre safe hereââÂ
âWeâre notââ
Itâs almost like a crack of thunder, the way your mother says your name. The sound shuts Minghao up immediately. Itâs a familiar warning, an intonation that all mothers seem to wield over their children.
âWhatâs going on with you, really?â your mother questions, her hands at her hips. Sheâs eyeing Minghao with mild annoyance but he sees it for what it is. Concern. âYouâve been so odd these past few days. Is there something youâre not telling me?âÂ
And how is Minghao supposed to answer that?Â
Iâm not actually your child. Iâve swapped bodies with a man who lives nine years in the future. Our survival hinges on whether or not youâll hear me out.Â
When Minghao stays silent for a little too long, your mother shakes her head. âGet it together,â she says sternly.Â
Maybe itâs that. Maybe thatâs what finally gets Minghao to sayâ
��Please.âÂ
Your mother pauses in the middle of rifling the refrigerator. For a long, terrible moment, the only sound is the rain.Â
Minghaoâs hands are shaking at his side. âPlease,â he repeats. He knows he sounds more like himself than you. He knows heâs being out of character, being obvious.Â
But he needs your mother to understand. Sheâs looking at him now like heâs a stranger.Â
Like youâre a stranger. And you areâ at least in that moment.Â
The words tumble out of Minghao before he can contain them. âI want to live.â
He doesnât know where itâs all coming from, this rush of emotion. Your voice wavers; he pushes on. âI want to live,â he gasps out. âI want to move us to an apartment thatâs not next to a damn mountain. I want to not work in this damn job. I want to live until Iâm your age, until Iâm even older than that, dammitââÂ
Your mother crosses the room, the refrigerator long forgotten. When she raises a hand to Minghaoâs face, he doesnât even realize that some tears had escaped.Â
These are all things he wants for you, he realizes.
He wants you to have a good job. He wants you and your mother to be out of harmâs way. He wants you to live a long, full life.Â
âPlease,â Minghao says a third time, his voice cracking around the word.
Thereâs a softness to your motherâs gaze; this time, her worry is undeniable. She holds Minghaoâs faceâ no, he thinks. Sheâs holding your face. Her childâs face. Her child, whoâs crying, whoâs begging.Â
Thatâs likely the reason why she acquiesces. âAlright,â she exhales, using her thumb to wipe away some of Minghaoâs tears. âWeâll leave. Weâll go.â
Thatâs only half the battle, though.Â
Minghao mutters something below his breath. Your mother raises her eyebrows in a silent question, and so he clears his throat before speaking louder.Â
âWe have to evacuate the entire building,â he mumbles.Â
It takes time to convince your mother, which stresses Minghao out beyond belief. Time isnât a luxury that he has. Not when he has no idea when the landslide will hit. Not when the rain is only worsening, making it less likely to persuade people to leave the comfort of their homes.
By some grace, he manages to get your mother on board. Sure, he had to spew odd specifics and statistics about the dangers of landslides, but it works. The two go door to door.Â
Theyâre met with initial resistance. Minghao doesnât care.Â
He badgers the elderly. He negotiates with the children. He almost gets to his knees when a family with a baby refuses to budge.Â
The entire apartment complex is bewildered.Â
But when somebody is batting so hard for safety, when somebody is so desperate in what seems to be just a little more than paranoiaâ you listen.Â
The landslide hits just as Minghao is helping the last resident out of the building.Â
Heâs never felt anything quite like it. Heâs experienced earthquakes and their aftershocks. Heâs been in stadiums that have shook with the sheer amount of people, the pulse of their music.Â
This one starts with a rumble. Low and deep, like itâs coming from the very ground. He hears the trees crack, the boulders knock together. And thenâÂ
Your mother is grabbing him by the arm. Sheâs screaming, screaming, screaming, the sound drowned out by the storm, by the shrieks of all the other evacuated residents, by the mud that suddenly crashes down on the complex in one fell swoop. Itâs everything, everywhere, all at once.Â
Minghao is soaked from head to toe. Some of the mud flies and sticks to his hair, his clothes. He can almost taste it, too. The earth. The rain. He feels the chill to his very bones.
Despite that, he laughs. Your mother is dragging him, you, away from the calamity, the tragedy, and all that Minghao can do is laugh.Â
Because he made sure that no one was left in the building.Â
Because heâs alive.Â
Youâre alive.Â
Later, when everyone is gathered in an evacuation centerâ shivering underneath blankets, talking about how it was all such a close callâ Minghao falls asleep at your motherâs side. He feels like a kid again, with his hair being stroked, with soft words being uttered to him.Â
He drifts off and dreams.Â
Minghao is sure that this is a dream because his surroundings take on the hazy quality of one.Â
Itâs just a little too bright to be real, the setting bathed in a light that feels almost like a bulb had exploded. Minghao has to put one hand over his eyesâÂ
Itâs his hand, he realizes. Heâs dreaming as himself.
His sight adjusts. Heâs at a dining table. Itâs a two-person dining table. Much smaller than heâs used to.
âItâs you.â
He drops his hand and braces it against the edge of the table, because your voiceâ he should be used to it, shouldnât he? He had used it for a bit, formed words like sorry and thank you with a lilting tone.Â
When he responds, his own words are imperceptibly soft.Â
âItâs me,â he confirms.Â
Youâre seated across from him. He had caught glimpses of your features in reflections, in photographs, but itâs something entirely new. To be taking you in from an outsiderâs perspective. He sees how you would control your body, how you were inclined to react. It makes him dizzy, just how much he had gotten wrong about your mannerisms.Â
The first proper words you speak are, âYou have some good friends, you know?âÂ
A corner of Minghaoâs lip twitches upward. The thought of the boys constantly checking in on him seems about right.Â
âAnd you have a good mother.â Minghao pauses. He did say he would mention the next part. âTerrible job, though. You should quit.âÂ
âEasy for you to say, Mr. Idol,â you shoot right back.Â
He winces; you laugh. The sound has the edges of his vision growing fuzzy. A sepia of the past, the present, and whatever this moment is, all blurring into one. Minghao doesnât want to wake up.Â
âWhat happens now?â you ask, your own fingers tap, tap, tapping on the table between you two.Â
âIâm not sure.âÂ
âWhyâ?âÂ
ââ Did this happen in the first place?âÂ
âYeah.âÂ
âIâve wondered the same thing.âÂ
The edges are closing in a little more now. Minghao can feel itâ the familiar warmth of his bed at home, the tug of his own time. Heâs already asked so much from his motherâs old gods but he lets his eyes flutter close so he can make a final plea.Â
Just one more minute. Give me one more minute, please.Â
âI thinkâŚâ he starts slowly. His voice already sounds so distant. âItâs my fault.âÂ
âYour fault.â Skepticism undercuts your tone, enough to prompt Minghao to open his eyes again.Â
He looks down at his hands, the ones that had folded atop the table. âI prayed for you,â he admits quietly. âEvery day, back when I was a kid.âÂ
Confusion drips from your every word. âFor me specifically?âÂ
He laughs. âOkay, maybe not you specifically,â he amends. âButââÂ
Itâs getting unbearably bright now, so much that he can only really make out the silhouette of your form. He itches to reach, to touch, just to see if youâre real. He doesnât want to push it, though.Â
Minghao settles with holding up his hand. If you squinted, if you really, really tried, you might see it, too.Â
The faint glimmer of a red cordâ looped around his thumb, tied to your pinky.Â
Every day, back when I was a kid.Â
âI prayed for this,â he repeats.
And so, in some way, he supposes youâre right.Â
He had prayed for you.Â
The chime of bells.Â
The beige ceiling.Â
Minghao is fairly sure he had dreamt, but itâs the kind of dream you forget the moment you wake up.
He blinks once, then twice. Odd. It felt like a good dream, too.Â
Thereâs a warm, fuzzy feeling blossoming in his chest, though it fades just as quickly as it blooms.Â
Minghao never wakes up as you again.Â
The universe takes, and takes, and takes. It takes away Minghaoâs memory. Heâs not entirely sure what happened to him those couple of days. Seungcheol says he went to the hospital. Mingyu laments that they fought.Â
Minghao borrows one of Soonyoungâs favorite words. Funk. He had been in a funk, probably. An off couple of days.
Heâs back to regular programming so seamlessly that the others are forced to believe him.Â
Stillâ
Minghao goes about the next couple of weeks feeling like something is missing.Â
It annoys him to no end. Itâs not any of his valuables, heâs sure. He double, triple checked everything. He turns his entire apartment upside down and puts it back together again. He goes for meals with all of his members, hoping to find the answers there.Â
Nothing.
He falls into dreamless sleep every night, and wakes up every morning with that empty feeling in his chest.
Itâs an unassuming Wednesday eveningâ one that he spends driving around with Vernon and Wonwooâ when it hits him.Â
âHey,â he says, throwing them a glance through the rearview mirror. âI could go for some dessert.â Â
Vernon perks up at that. âShould we head to Myeongdeong?âÂ
âSounds good.âÂ
Vernon throws out directions. Wonwoo queues the music.Â
Minghao keeps his eyes on the road ahead.
The night market is an assault on the senses but itâs also a good cover for the three idols. They set out with their matching hoodies and half-face masks, in search of something to fulfill their cravings.Â
Vernon goes to get some dragonâs beard candy.Â
Wonwoo wanders off to purchase some hotteok.Â
Minghao⌠He isnât sure, really, which is a bit ironic. He had been the one to make the call, after all. He weaves through the crowds, his hands in his jacket pockets, as he scrutinizes the stalls.Â
Kkwabaegi. Bungeoppang. Tanghulu. Dalgona. Bingâ
He backs up a bit.Â
âHi,â he greets the seller. âThis is a bit weird, but do you have black jujube?âÂ
The tanghulu vendor lets out a grunt of approval. âI think Iâve got one more stick,â she notes as he ducks to check her stock.Â
What a weird craving, Minghao thinks to himself. But itâs the first thing that came to mind.Â
A voice at his side addresses the seller by name.
âGot my date-plum persimmon, ajumma?âÂ
Itâs not a voice that Minghao has heard before, and yetâ
Frantically, he tries to sort through the hundreds of fansigns and fan meetings heâs had in the past decade. Could it be that? Could that be the reason why the lilt was so damn familiar?Â
As he turns to look at the source, he knows in his heart of hearts that itâs not the case.
Youâre already turning away, though, grumbling about the lack of the tanghulu that you want. Minghao hadnât even heard the vendor respond.
Thereâs a ringing in his ears.Â
âExcuse me,â he manages.
You falter in your steps. When you look up at him, he sees the same flash of confusion. One thatâs borne out of recognition.Â
The ringing has gotten louder. Despite that, he pushes out three words.Â
He thinks heâs yelling them; in reality, theyâre barely audible over the din of the night market.Â
âHavenât we met?â he breathes.Â
For one dreadful, dragging moment, heâs convinced heâll die if you say no, even though his mind is being terribly uncooperative. He canât place when, or where, or how he met you. He canât say if youâre familiar because he knows you or someone like you.Â
All he knows is that he canât, wonât let you walk away.
Your response makes everything in Minghaoâs head go quiet.Â
âI thought so, too,â you say, and something in his chest thrums.Â
It feels a lot like an answered prayer.Â
#minghao x reader#xu minghao x reader#the8 x reader#seventeen x reader#svt x reader#minghao fic#the8 fic#minghao imagines#the8 imagines#ylangelegy the8 days of minghao#minghao fanfiction#the8 fanfiction#minghao x you#the8 x you#⤠ylangelegy: mine#⤠ylangelegy: svt#( publishing this at 4am on my end of the world. good lord please just take this off my hands )#( i have Some gripes for what it's worth <3 haaapppy start of the series )
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Camp Wiegman-Part 42
Lucy Bronze x Ona Batlle
Alternative Universe : Military School
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TW : Violence
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 Tuesday, February 2nd; 06:00 AM - Lucyâs RoomÂ
I jump slightly when the alarm goes off in the room. I blink, trying to make sense of whatâs happening. Once I do, I sink back into my pillow, muttering softly. Itâs already morning. I have absolutely no desire to leave my bed.
âOna, wake up,â Lucy orders me as soon as she turns off her alarm.
I sigh, not moving an inch. Lucy has decided to take control of my nights again. Our relationship hasnât progressed, but now she forces me to come straight to her room after dinner, for the past week. This means I go to bed an hour earlier, without even being able to text Mapi. What Lucy hasnât realized yet is that this doesnât affect my exhaustion at all. Itâs still there since I still struggle to fall asleep and wake up during the night. Lucy, on the other hand, must think the problem is solved. If it wasnât, she wouldnât keep doing this. Knowing her, she would have found another solution. Today, though, waking up is particularly hard. On other days, I managed to get some sleep, but that wasnât the case last night. I really donât want to get out of bed. I have no motivation left.
âOna,â she growls.
âYeah, yeah, Iâm getting up,â I reply sharply. âJust give me two minutesâŚâ
âYou said that yesterday and didnât do it. So get up, now.â
I sigh and kick the blanket off with my feet. Once Iâm up, I give Lucy a mocking bow, accompanied by a fake smile before locking myself in the bathroom. I donât miss the opportunity to slam the door loudly to show my displeasure. Itâs childish of me, but Iâm fed up. All my troubles have worsened in just a few days, including my relationship with Lucy. I had forgotten how resourceful she could be. She figured out that the only way to get even a bit of my attention is to become the commander I despise. She gives me orders and threatens me at the slightest protest. The worst part is, I still canât get her out of my head because of it. She continues to take care of me. Itâs as if sheâs trying to make up for her mistake. Even though I try not to show it, the fact that sheâs looking after me affects me deeply because I already miss her so much. Alexia is right when she says Iâm slowly destroying myself with my methods. Sheâs going crazy because she sees me falling apart without giving her a chance to help me get better. Sheâs started insulting Lucy because, in her opinion, sheâs not reacting when she could. Itâs funny to hear her talk like that when sheâs always respected Lucy so much. It seems that Mapi is also going crazy. Since I no longer have the chance to reply to her, sheâs driving Alexia mad to get news about me. Of course, Alexia keeps her informed of every detail since sheâs closely following our situation. The only thing I can still hold on to are my friends. Iâm so glad Iâve opened up to them. Alessia continued with evening classes after ours. I really need them, even though I doubt theyâre as effective as Lucyâs lessons, but thereâs no way Iâm giving her that satisfaction. Spending more time with her wouldnât help me.
âOna, hurry up! I need to use the bathroom too, remember?â Lucy scolds from behind the door.
âYeah, yeah,â I grumble.
I make sure Iâve hidden the signs of my sleepless night and fix my hair before coming out. Lucy takes my place, and I move toward my bed. I stop when I see itâs already made, which surprises me. Since we stopped talking and Iâve been refusing to sleep with her, she hasnât touched it once. I must have been staring at it for a while because Lucy snaps me out of my trance.
âLetâs go.â
Without a word, I grab my bag and jacket before heading out. She closes the door behind me, and we walk down the stairs in silence. Usually, I would go straight to the cafeteria. However, since she changed my nighttime routine, she now makes me accompany her to the back of my dorm, where she waits for Ingrid every morning since Iâve been sleeping in her room. According to her, itâs to make my presence near their dorm less suspicious. I think itâs just an excuse to spend a few more minutes with me. I didnât argue, as it would have led to another fight for sure.
âHave a good day,â she wishes me.
âThanks, you too.â
I force myself to keep a cold, unwavering demeanor so I donât lose my composure. I wish I could tell her that none of my days have been good since we became distant, but I donât. I mustnât. As I leave, I give her a final small wave, which I immediately regret, realizing how friendly it seems. Finally, I head to the entrance of our dorm where Alexia is the first to come out. Sheâs gotten used to hurrying so no one discovers whatâs going on. Weâve been quite discreet, surprisingly. I prefer that no one knows, even though Iâve gotten closer to some people. Our friends come out one by one, barely giving us time to ask each other how weâre doing. Once everyone is there, we walk to the cafeteria. I smile when Alba walks up to me and gives me a playful shoulder nudge. Sheâs one of the people Iâve gotten closer to. She cares a lot about me and has become almost as protective of me as she is of her sister. I find it really sweet of her. Judging by her expression, I must look terrible or something. I mean, Iâve lost all my joy of life.
âHow are you today?â she asks me.
âThe same as usual.â
âYou started your exams this week, right?â
âYeah. Yesterday,â I sigh. âAnd Iâm failing all of them. I didnât understand any of my classes.â
âItâs because you donât focus enough when we study,â Alessia, who was nearby, comments. âBut if it helps, the exams were really tough.â
âIt doesnât help, actually. And Iâve already told you, itâs not my fault if I canât focus on this crap.â
âWhy did you choose management anyway?â Alba laughs.
âItâs better not to know,â Ale interjects.
No, indeed, itâs better not to know. Iâm liking my field less and less. I get no enjoyment out of it, and Iâm losing sight of my initial goals without Lucy. Even though Alessia is helping me, Iâm still lost in the important subjects. The only thing I can confirm is that thereâs no connection between literary letters and mathematical letters. Lucy tried to push her lessons on me again last week, but thatâs the one thing I managed to refuse. Alexia encouraged me to accept, but thatâs out of the question. Doing it with Alessia allowed me to spend more time with her outside of class. I definitely donât regret apologizing to her last week. Our relationship has taken another leap forward because of it. Iâve never known a girl as open-minded and wise as her. Even after everything Iâve done to her, she continues to act like nothing happened. I also discovered her well-hidden sense of humor, which allows us to have a lot of discussions and even playful jokes from time to time. I donât regret having her in my class. Not to mention Lotte and Leah. Although Lotte is the one Iâm least close to, Iâve been able to open up to her because we rotate seats to sit with everyone. Lotte seems to be uncomfortable around me, as if sheâs afraid to say something. If sheâs waiting for me to break the ice, she can keep waiting. My lively conversation with Alba and Alessia made me forget to be aware of my surroundings. Thatâs not a luxury I can afford these days. As a result, I didnât see the clearly intentional shoulder bump from a young student I recognize as a friend of Korbinâs. Itâs the first time Iâve been attacked while surrounded by my friends. Alba doesnât miss it and doesnât hesitate to hit her back from behind. The girls guys glare at each other with dark looks.
âGot a problem?â the girl spits.
âWhat about you?â
âLet it go, itâs fine,â I murmur, holding Alba back by the arm.
If I donât, she might do something reckless that would have repercussions later. Plus, itâs not the time to make a scene here, in front of everyone. The young woman gives me a nasty smile, as if this situation wonât end without consequences, just as I thought. I still donât understand why Korbin and her friends are bullying me so much, but Iâll need to figure it out soon to stop them. Itâs no longer just taunts in class; itâs starting to go much further. If it were up to me, I would have already dealt with her, but thereâs a lot at stake, and violence certainly isnât the best defense. Iâm the best person to know that.
âCome on, letâs go,â I say, pulling Alba with me.
âThey wonât get away with this, those bitches!â she swears angrily once inside.
âYou really should tell someone,â Ale adds from my other side.
âYou know that would only make things worse.â
âMaybe, but it wonât get better if you donât do something!â
âMind your own business, please.â
I love Alexia, but lately, sheâs been meddling in my problems a bit too much. I hate it when people do that. I ignore her grumbling complaints and follow her sister in the line. At least she doesnât insist when I say no. I fully intend to deal with this issue myself, even though I still donât know how Iâm going to do it. All Iâve concluded is that Korbin has noticed the coldness between Lucy and me and is taking advantage of it to make my life hell at every opportunity. Is it related? I couldnât say.
- âTheyâve been bothering you for more than a week, seriously! How do you stay so calm and not react?!â Alexia hisses harshly at me.
- âAlexia, leave her alone,â her sister reprimands her.
Iâm far from calm. I just donât show it openly to avoid making things worse. I promised myself I wouldnât ask Lucy for help anymore. So, itâs up to me to handle this on my own. I roll my eyes as Korbin and Emma, her little lapdog, giggle while passing by our table. Iâm determined to find out what she has against me that makes her and her friends use me as a punching bag. They regularly switch between physical attacks, like earlier, and even psychological ones. Iâve lost count of the homophobic remarks theyâve thrown at me or the little shoves against the wall in the hallways. Itâs as if theyâre constantly trying to put me down. The worst part is when Iâm alone. They take advantage of my defenselessness to attack. Because of that, I make sure to stay mostly in the company of others. Just thinking about it gives me chills. If Alexia knew about this, sheâd definitely pressure me even more to speak up, but Iâm stuck. Thereâs no way Iâm going to do that. Iâm already shaken enough. I donât need Lucy or anyone else getting involved. I eat my Nutella toast without much enthusiasm. My appetite hasnât returned, not even for breakfast. If Mapi were here, she wouldâve already made a comment. As usual, we linger in the cafeteria for a long time. Itâs the only time weâre sure to all be together, so we always spend more time than planned. However, today is different for me. I decide to leave earlier than the others to use the bathroom before going to class. Iâm taking a risk by being alone, but I need a moment to breathe. In my rush, I realize halfway there that Iâve forgotten my bag. This is the first time itâs happened to me, how stupid of me. My mind is definitely elsewhere today. I hope someone will think to bring it to me, otherwise, Iâll have to go back and get it. After I finish in the bathroom, I wash my hands before heading out. I sigh when I come face-to-face with my two current enemies. Itâs actually surprising I havenât run into them earlier.
- âWhat do you want from me, idiots?â
- âDonât get all high and mighty, you filthy lesbian.â
I roll my eyes and make sure to bump their shoulders, just like they always do, as I pass between them. I donât really feel like getting into their games today, but that doesnât stop me from physically shoving back.
- âSo, what? Did you screw your roommate too much last night to fight back today?â
I donât have time to respond before Iâm violently shoved against the wall. I groan as I slide down to the floor from the impact. Damn it. Havenât they had enough of tormenting me? If their goal is to provoke me, theyâre going to succeed because I wonât hold back forever.
- âAre you going to answer, you worthless piece of crap?â
- âYouâre the ones who are going to answer my questions.â
I lift my head, relieved to no longer be alone. Who knows what they might have done this time. Theyâve never physically hit me before, but theyâre certainly capable if I were to respond to their provocations. Lucy pins my two troublemakers by placing her hands on their shoulders while keeping her eyes on me. I turn my head away to avoid her gaze. I know her well enough to know she can read me just by looking, and I donât want that. Korbin and Emma stay silent in the face of the question hanging in the air.
- âWell? Are either of you going to explain whatâs going on?! And youâre all late, too,â she retorts sharply.
Now that she mentions it, I did hear the Alba. I could have done without it. I havenât been late in a long time.
- âI- umâŚâ Emma stammers.
- âOna insulted us. We just wanted to make sure she doesnât do it again,â Korbin finally responds, leaving me completely stunned.
- âIâm sure there are worse insults than âidiot,ââ my supervisor replies coldly. âAnd if she said it, thereâs probably a good reason.â
I bite my lip to keep from smiling. Maybe luck is still on my side a little bit. If sheâs saying that, it means sheâs been following our altercation from the start. The girls in front of me turn pale at her response. Lucy removes her hands and offers me one. I take it hesitantly. I donât even need to support myself against the wall; she lifts me up with ease.
- âHere, you forgot this in the cafeteria.â
Iâm surprised to see her with my bag. I thought someone from my class would have taken it. I frown, realizing itâs impossible she found it herself. She left the cafeteria well before I did since she goes for a run after breakfast. She must have sensed my confusion because she explains without me asking.
- âAlexia ran into me on her way to class and asked me to bring it to you since she didnât have enough time herself.â
- âThanksâŚâ I murmur, sliding the bag onto my shoulders.
- âAlright,â she says, patting the two girls on the shoulders. âYou two are staying with me today.â
- âWhat?! Why?â Korbin exclaims.
- âKeep playing innocent, and Iâll take you straight to the principalâs office so you can explain your unjustified homophobic comments towards Ona.â
Korbin pales as she realizes the situation sheâs put herself in. I canât help but be happy that Lucy found out this way. At least I wonât have to confess it to her.
- âWhat about her?â Korbin retorts, pointing at me. âShe just gets off scot-free?â
- âShe didnât do anything, so weâre going to escort her to class.â
- âYou just said it yourself. Sheâs late.â
- âAnd whose fault is that?! Anyway, Iâm not asking for your opinion. As far as I know, Iâm still the one in charge here! You donât realize how lucky you are that itâs me youâre dealing with,â she says sarcastically.
She orders them to walk ahead so she can keep an eye on them. As for me, I quietly stay by her side with my head down. My shoes suddenly become very interesting. Did Lucy know? It seems like it, but how? Could Alexia have dared to say something to her? Maybe Iâm just overthinking, though it wouldnât surprise me much. I have other worries for now. If the girls get punished because of me, it wonât go without retaliation. Even if Lucy chews them out, I doubt it will change anything about their intentions towards me.
- âCome to my office after your classes tonight. We need to discuss what just happened,â Lucy tells me. âUnderstood?â
Her voice softens suddenly. She seems genuinely concerned about whatâs going on right now. I nervously bite my lip. This doesnât help my plans.
- âDo I have to?â
- âDo I really need to answer that? If you donât come, Iâll drag you there by the skin of your neck. That would be unpleasant, if you know what I mean.â
- âFine,â I mumble. âIâll come.â
I give in to avoid making her anger worse. I still know when to stop. Besides, I owe her one now. Without her, who knows how this would have ended. We arrive at my classroom. I hope my teacher will let me in. Heâs not obligated to, even if Lucy excuses me. If not, Iâll have to stay with them. Iâd rather be in class than deal with these two bimbos. My supervisor knocks on the door and opens it after getting permission. The whole class has their eyes on us. Lucy pushes me to the front.
- âGood morning. Sorry for the disruption. Iâm bringing you a student who was held up,â she adds, pointing behind her.
- âNo problem. Take your seat, Ona.â
Luckily, I start with my management teacher. Since heâs young, heâs more understanding and cooler than my other teachers. Itâs a shame I donât like his subject. I sit down in my seat, trying to ignore the knowing look between my supervisor and my teacher. I shouldnât feel this damn jealousy, but I do. If only that poor guy knew he didnât stand a chance. Lucy has clearly told me she prefers women over hairy men. Still, I have a feeling their looks werenât innocent. Could she have lied to me...? That would explain a lot of things.
"Donât forget weâre meeting later," she reminds me finally. "Sorry again for the inconvenience."
"No problem, I assure you," he smiles at her. "Goodbye."
Keep that sweet voice for someone else, jerk. I sigh, cursing myself for thinking something like that. I pull out my things, ignoring the persistent gaze of Alessia on me.
"Is everything okay?" Leah murmurs as he turns around.
"Yeah, Iâm fine."
"Alright, letâs get back to it," says my teacher. "Weâre continuing the lesson, Ona," he tells me. "Grab a new sheet of paper. You can catch up on the rest later."
I nod, and he offers me a smile that I canât bring myself to return. The scene between Lucy and him has irritated me. He turns to continue his lesson, writing a few words on the board. I pick up my pen and leave half a page blank, as Alessia suggested, to get back into the lesson as best as I can.
 Tuesday, February 2nd; 4:40 PM - Restroom.Â
Twenty minutes have passed since I sat on the floor of a restroom stall. I told my teacher I wasnât feeling well. Well, itâs not entirely a lie. He let me come here, and now here I am. I wipe my face with my sleeve to remove the remaining tears. I couldnât hold them back this time. Iâve never had good luck in my life, and I probably never will. My morale being so low is really starting to weigh on me. At this moment, I feel like I could relapse at any moment. I try to calm my trembling. Itâs as if Iâm going through withdrawal, even though I havenât touched anything like that in months. Iâm just at my witâs end. I take five minutes to collect myself before standing up. I splash some water on my face to hide the damage. My teacher will probably never let me go to the restroom again after this incident. With my things still in the classroom, I have no choice but to go back. Itâs my last hour anyway. Whatâs waiting for me afterward is even less appealing. When I return, I apologize for taking so long. Against all odds, he doesnât seem to be mad at me. My awful appearance probably had something to do with it. I go back to my seat, and he resumes the lesson as if nothing happened. I finish the class with my head resting on my arms. Iâve missed most of my lessons anyway, so thereâs no point in trying to follow along now. Besides, I donât understand anything. Iâm lucky my math teacher doesnât reprimand me for my posture. The bell finally rings ten minutes later. I leave with my friends but abandon them on the way to head to Lucyâs office. I hope Iâve regained some color; it would save me from some comments. I wanted to stop by the restroom again, but Iâm running out of time. Iâm afraid Lucy might carry out her threat if I donât show up within ten minutes. I tap softly against the open door of the office. My facade drops when I see that only Ingrid is there. Either Lucy is already out searching the halls for me, or sheâs not here yet. Either way, the answer wonât please me.
"Wow, Ona," she says, surprised. "Whatâs going on? You look awful."
"Nothing," I mumble. "Whereâs Bronze?"
"You know you donât have to call her that in front of me," she replies. "She told me youâd be coming. Have a seat; she shouldnât be long."
At least sheâs not looking for me everywhere. This is the first time sheâs been late after giving me a time. I slump into one of the chairs in front of me and place my bag on the other.
"Can I go to the restroom?" I ask.
"No, sorry. Iâm not allowed to let you leave before she sees you."
Of course. That answer doesnât surprise me. I slump onto Lucyâs desk while I wait. She better hurry up.
"You know, Ona, just because things are tense with Lucy doesnât mean you have to ignore me."
"Sorry," I mumble. "I tend to avoid anything related to Lucy, if you know what I mean."
I turn around as she sighs. She nods, giving me a sad smile.
"I understand. Just know I donât agree with her decision, anyway. I hope she realizes it soon enough."
She falls silent as a noise at the door catches our attention. Lucy has arrived with slightly red cheeks and nose from the cold. She sighs in frustration as she takes off her jacket and scarf. At least I know neither of us seems to have had a good day. I glance over at Ingrid, who gives me a sympathetic smile before getting back to work. I didnât expect her to be aware of whatâs going on with Lucy. Anyway, itâs nice of her to let me know. It makes me feel somewhat supported.
"Damn, itâs cold today," grumbles Lucy. "Sorry for being late, Ona."
"Hmm."
She hangs up her things on the coat rack, then comes to sit across from me. She gives me a small smile that I donât return. Her eyes then drift to my bag on the other chair.
"Perfect, you have your things."
"Yeah⌠And?"
"Take them out, please. Weâre going to study together."
"What?" I frown incredulously. "I thought we were going to talk about this morning!"
"You should have guessed I already have all the answers on that. Come on, take out your things."
I sigh in frustration, running a hand through my hair. I knew it. She already knows. How did she find out? From whom? Anyway, she lured me here like a fool. This confirms that Iâm far too naive under her influence.
"How do you know?" I snap.
"I never stopped keeping an eye on you," she says calmly. "Your thingsâI wonât repeat myself. You need to make up for your missed tests."
"Who do you think you are?" I spit. "How can you know something like that? I never asked for your help, as far as I know!"
We stare each other down, our eyes as fiery as the otherâs, for a long moment before a chair scrapes the floor. Itâs neither of us, so it must be Ingrid.
"Seriously, girls, this is getting ridiculous. Youâre only hurting each other. Iâm going to leave, so take this chance to talk and sort out your problems."
I puff out my cheeks and turn my head away, crossing my arms. Thereâs no way Iâm talking to Lucy when this is all her fault. Weâve said everything we needed to say to each other. Ingrid finally leaves the room, closing the door behind her. This is the first time sheâs ever locked us in. Lucyâs first reaction is to fix her hair.
"Thereâs no need to sulk," she scolds. "Take out your management course. Youâve got a test tomorrow."
"I had it on Monday," I reply.
"It was so disastrous that I convinced him to let you retake it tomorrow."
"Again, I didnât ask you for anything."
"A simple âthanksâ would have sufficed. Now hurry up, youâre wasting my time."
"But I didnât ask for anything, damn it!" I shout, standing up. "I might as well leave if Iâm wasting your time so much!"
"Thatâs not what I meant," she sighs. "Iâm sorry. I really want you to pass this year, so please, come sit down next to me."
I was about to turn on my heel, but her gentle eyes won me over. I hate the influence she still has over me.
"Fine," I sigh. "I agree, but this will be the last time you interfere in my life."
I openly challenge her, feeling a certain pride at having found this compromise so quickly. She tilts her head as if considering my proposal. I need compromise with her. Itâs how weâve always operated.
"Alright, I wonât intervene in your life anymore. But it will take more than just one lesson to satisfy me. We both know youâre struggling in this field."
She raises an eyebrow, challenging me in return. Always and forever with the negotiations. I suppose I can come back here, knowing she wonât interfere in my life anymore.
"Fine. Your promise not to meddle in my problems in exchange for evening study sessions."
"Weâre in agreement, then."
I donât know why, but I feel like Iâm losing in this deal. She may not meddle in my life anymore, but weâll be spending more time together. Despite this thought, I conclude our arrangement with a handshake. I then move my chair to sit next to her. I pull out some scrap paper and my notes, which look like complete gibberish to me. I had never studied management before today.
"Letâs start from the beginning. Stay focused."
I listen closely as she explains the lesson in her own way. I can already see the difference compared to Alessia. I hope this time Iâll be able to understand something; otherwise, Iâm in deep trouble and should really worry about my future.
 Tuesday, February 2nd; 8:45 PM - Student Dormitory.Â
I spent my evening avoiding Lucy. After our study session, I slipped away to the cafeteria to join my friends. I felt Lucyâs eyes on me the whole time I ate. Unfortunately for me, our study session went well. I feel even more unsettled than before. Why is she doing this? Sheâs acting so contradictory. I mean, she pushes me away, but she continues to help me and worry about me. Someone is going to have to explain her behavior to me because I donât understand it anymore. Maybe I should talk to Ingrid. Sheâll probably explain whatâs going on, why Lucy is still keeping an eye on me. Maybe she even knows what Lucy really thinks. No one keeps an eye on someone they donât care about, right? Sheâs going to drive me crazy.
"You know you need to go back, right?" Ale asks me.
"Yeah. I'll go soon...," I sighed.
Before leaving the cafeteria, I asked Lucy if I could hang out in my room for a bit, and surprisingly, she agreed. I slightly regret not asking her earlier. Maybe she would have let me do it on the other days as well.
"Hey, Ale? I had a question."
"Yes?"
"Did you tell Lucy about Korbin and her friends?"
"No," she replies, frowning. "I just asked her to find you quickly. Why?"
"You're not lying to me?"
"Why would I? I know I insist a lot, but you asked me not to do it, so I didn't."
I sigh as I get up to put my sketchbook away in my empty wardrobe. All my stuff is still in Lucy's room since I haven't left the school since I spent the weekend at her place.
"She knows, anyway," I announce. "Unless she was bluffing, but I doubt it."
"Knows about the harassment?"
"I guess," I shrug. "I don't know exactly what she knows. Anyway, she punished Korbin and Emma today for making homophobic remarks towards me."
"That's good, isn't it?"
"We'll see when I have to face them tomorrow. Don't you think?"
I see her nervously biting her lip as if she's thinking it over. I sincerely hope she didn't say anything to Lucy like she claims. I would be upset if she did. I decide not to push the matter and put on my jacket, then adjust my bag on my shoulders. It's time for me to return to my cursed den. I give her a quick hug and kiss her on the cheek.
"Goodnight, Ale."
"Goodnight, ex-roomie! Please come back soon, okay? I'm starting to miss you in the evenings. I feel lonely."
"Be happy Iâm not hogging all the hot water anymore," I tease.
"That's true," she giggles. "You did that to me a lot! Doesn't Bronze complain about it?"
"I apologized for weeks! And no, she showers in the morning."
"Oh, you two even have your routines..." she chuckles.
I roll my eyes at her remark, though she's probably not wrong. Even though weâre not on good terms, we live together quite well. I say goodbye one last time before leaving. I walk calmly down the hallway until someone suddenly shoves me hard against the wall. I don't have time to react before the person grabs my throat to strangle me. I close my eyes, trying hard to hold back the tears that are threatening to fall. I grasp at her wrists, trying to pull them away, but the surprise of the attack makes it impossible. Sheâs managed to lift me onto my tiptoes. I quickly start running out of air.
"You bitch," spits my attacker, whom I recognize as Korbin. "Youâll pay for ratting us out! Donât think youâll get away with it so easily, and youâd better keep your mouth shut this time!" she snarls.
She suddenly lets go, making me collapse to the ground. I stifle a groan as she kicks me in the stomach. She giggles as she walks away down the hallway. I cough, gasping for air, before finally letting my tears fall. This girl is insane. She'll never stop! Why does this kind of thing always have to happen to me? I stay on the ground for a moment to recover from the attack. Then I force my trembling body to get up and quickly leave the hallway, heading to Lucy's room. I don't hesitate to use the instructors' access route. Lucy has given me permission to use it in the evenings to be more discreet. When I reach the other side, I immediately lock myself in the bathroom after grabbing my things. Luckily, Lucy was too absorbed in her computer to notice me. Maybe she watched me over the top of her screen, but I didnât see it. I expected my shower to clear my head tonight, but it's no use. I can still feel those cursed fingers on me. I only return to the bedroom once I feel ready. I expected to have to face Lucy for taking so long, but the room is plunged into darkness. I move blindly to find my bed. I find it without difficulty and sit on it. I wait a moment for my eyes to adjust to the darkness. In front of me is Lucy, who has her back to me. It's the first time sheâs ever ignored me, and itâs happening at the moment when I need her most. Iâm almost certain sheâs not sleeping. Her breathing isnât as steady as it should be. I glance at her clock, which shows 9:45 PM. I close my eyes to chase away the moisture starting to form.
"L- Lucy?" I attempt.
I bite my lip when I get no response from her. I know she's not asleep. I lower my head, playing with my fingers. This is the first time I feel ready to set my pride aside, but this situation is too much for me.
"I-I-... Uh... C-can I sleep with you?"
I feel so desperate asking her something like that, but I know full well that I wonât have a peaceful night after what just happened. I lower my eyes at her silence. I sigh in defeat as I start to pull up my blanket when I hear her move.
"Come here," she murmurs.
I blink, not expecting a response from her. To confirm her words, she gently pats the empty spot on her bed.
"You can come," she confirms.
I quickly move around the bed before she can change her mind and lie down next to her. Now I can see her face. Our eyes meet for a moment, but I quickly turn my back to her, keeping a reasonable distance. She doesnât seem to agree with that, though, as she wraps her arm around me, pulling me close to her. She holds me tightly, as if sheâs afraid Iâll leave. This thought brings tears that start streaming down my cheeks. I had terribly missed the feeling of having her close to me. I try not to choke so she won't notice, even though I think she can feel it given our proximity. Yet, she doesnât say anything. I intertwine my fingers with hers, which are resting against my stomach, seeking as much contact as possible. Since Iâm here, I might as well fully embrace the moment. A whimper escapes me unintentionally when she kisses my head.
"Goodnight, Princess."
Not feeling capable of replying, I just tighten the embrace between us. I try to calm the anxiety gripping me, but it's difficult. Yet, in her arms, I know that everything will always be okay. I finally close my eyes, trying to enjoy the moment and relax. Tomorrow is another day, and who knows what awaits me after this night.
#woso#lucy bronze#woso community#ona batlle#barca femeni#woso soccer#lionesses#sefutbol fem#ona batlle x lucy bronze#fiction#my fic
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I guess I kind of just use this account for PSAs now, and this has been on my mind a lot lately.
I figured out that I have OCD a few years ago, and recently Iâve seen a lot of bad advice around dealing with intrusive thoughts and obsessions.
Thereâs that post that goes around occasionally about âtaking pictures of your oven knobs before you leaveâ or other things Iâve seen that say to âmake a weird face when you lock your door.â THESE ARE COMPULSIONS. If you have/suspect you have OCD or you often struggle with things like that, please do not follow this advice. Instead, try to accept your intrusive thoughts and move on, not argue with them. Over time, they will get easier and easier to deal with. Ruminating, stressing, or arguing with them just makes them worse in the long run.
If you think you might have OCD and want to seek a specialist, the IOCDFâs home page has a lot of resources under the âfind helpâ tab, including a locator.
Iâm going to put the rest under a read-more because Iâm going to talk a bit more in depth about intrusive thoughts and compulsions. This mostly because good OCD info is so sparse on line, and Iâve spent many hours compulsively researching OCD lmao.
Content warning:
discussion of unreality/doubting oneâs own perception
discussion of specific compulsions
Iâm not going to push this point too hard or shame anyone who doesnât want to follow it, because OCD doesnât really just go away. Itâs a constant struggle. I give in to compulsions regularly, even though I am medicated and have seen a specialist to learn actual coping skills. Itâs hard to resist sometimes and you donât always have the energy, the awareness, or the power to ignore them. You do what you have to do to get through your day. The main difference is that the right medication and the right therapist make it easier to stay out of the spiral and to leave a spiral when youâre in one. They still happen. You still kind of have to play everything by ear.
Similarly, it is super fucking hard to get help or even get diagnosed. No regular therapist actually knows what the fuck it looks like, and specialists are few and far between and often donât take insurance. Itâs not fair or easy or necessarily productive to try and do exposure response prevention on yourself. Your âgood coping skillsâ can even turn into an obsession or compulsion, where youâre constantly worried about what is an intrusive thought and what is not, or if youâre responding to them properly.
What I want to do is try to give at least some useful advice to people who are struggling with intrusive thoughts.
The best way to respond to them is not at all. This is especially true with OCD, because the response to them is sort of the root of this disorder. Sometimes, itâs recommended that with depression or anxiety you challenge your thoughts. In OCD, itâs the opposite. Challenging them can so easily lead you down a compulsion spiral. (More about that cycle from a professional.)
Compulsions can be entirely mental, but Iâll use a common behavioral one to look at how engaging with compulsions can go:
You start by taking a picture of the your stove knobs to make sure theyâre all off. That works for a few hours or days, but then you start wondering if the knob is ever-so-slightly in the âonâ position. You wonder if the picture proves theyâre off enough. You forget to take the picture at all, and have to go back in to check anyways. You check your phone a few times before leaving to ensure that the picture is still there. You take several pictures because you canât tell if you actually took any at all. You start to wonder if you can even trust what you see before your very eyes. What if youâre just imagining that the knobs are set to off? What if youâre just imagining the whole picture to begin with? The picture allows you to engage with your checking compulsion throughout the day, strengthening the connection between the intrusive thought and the urgency to do something about it. That means it gets worse. That means you find new ways to doubt your perception or your memory or whatever.
It can eventually get really bad. Itâs hard and awful to try and deal with this on your own, but sometimes you have to.
Itâs so shit. Itâs so fucking shit how long many people suffer with mental illness without even knowing whatâs going on. I didnât know that my constant, overwhelming guilt over almost everything Iâd ever thought or said or done or maybe did and couldnât remember was the result of a disorder. It was so freeing to realize there was actually something that might help me, and I could learn to just live with myself and my weird ass thoughts that donât necessarily mean anything at all. Itâs so shit that OCD-awareness is so low among therapists. I was never going to get diagnosed until I found an OCD SPECIALIST (bold, italicized, all caps. Donât trust people on psychology today who just put OCD in the list of what they treat.) and went over the Y-BOCS with her. Itâs all so shit that several therapists I came to with textbook examples of OCD either ignored me or didnât have the tools to help. I told one of them I âdidnât feel connected to realityâ and he kind just went đ¤ˇ.
I just want everyone who is in that/a similar situation to at least have this information available to them.
If you want to learn more, these blogs from Sheppard Pratt were the best discussion of OCD I found online that really described what I was going through. Theyâre written by licensed therapists, several (all?) of whom live with OCD. Theyâre very healing to read if this is something youâre struggling with, or something you think you might be struggling with, and great in general if you want to learn more about OCD.
Whateverâs going on, OCD or not, have some grace with yourself. Take a few minutes today and do something kind for yourself, even just think one nice thing about yourself. Youâre doing the best you can.
#actually ocd#ocd#ocd awareness#do with this what you will but I stresses me the hell out when I see people#uncritically reblog posts suggesting new compulsions to people#because they worked on me and made my ocd worse#im sure a lot of those suggestions came from others with ocd so Iâm not trying to come after anyone about this#I just feel like I donât see a lot of discussion about this stuff in general and even in the notes on those posts
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