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Chapter 18: I’m Sakusa Kia

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Kia’s short autobiography.

Hi I’m Kia.

My mama is (L/N) (F/N). I didn’t have a papa. I didn’t have a big family. My family is only mama and Kia. But in mama’s bedtime stories, she describes my papa as tall handsome prince with black curly hair. A very caring and loving prince. My mama loves my papa very much but he’s not with us.

I have two favorite uncles. Keikei and Kenken. They give me clothes, books, toys and they play with me. But I don’t see them everyday because they have work and are far from my mama and me. They are always worried about mama.

I’m worried about mama too.

She always cried.

She cried when grandma told her to put me at a house so she could study. But mama said she didn’t want to be separated from me. I couldn’t speak yet. But if I could, I would have told her to leave me because I know she’ll come back for me. And I’ll wait for her.

She cried when we moved out of grandma’s house. Maybe that’s why she was sad. Cause she will miss grandma. I miss grandma too but she told us never to come back. She said she didn’t want see Kia or mama again.

We found a new home. It was small like a box but mama and I fit in it. We played and ate on the floor. But every night, only mama slept on the floor. I was in the crib, sleeping on soft fabric. I heard mama cry there too. Maybe because her back hurt.

We were playing house one day and she cried. She told me to be a good girl then mama slept for very very very long. Keikei came and picked me up. I stayed in his house for a long time until mama came back. I waited like the good girl mama told me to be.

We transferred to a bigger house and mama didn’t sleep on the floor anymore. We had a couch and a bed. I thought mama would be happier. But she still cried because she didn’t eat. I gave her my milk and she smiled again. I love mama’s smiles.

When she thought I was asleep, I heard her cry again. She talked on the phone with Keikei and Kenken that she’s worried if she could still feed me or send me to a good school. She said she felt lonely. I wanted to tell her I don’t even know what school is and I was there for her but she’ll get mad that I was awake. So when she came back, I hugged her tight. She always hugged me tight to help me sleep better.

That night she also told me that she couldn’t give me all the best things in the world but she promised she’ll give me all her love. But that’s crazy, right? How could she love Kia even more? She loves me way too much already. And mama is the best thing in the world!

We moved to Tokyo and met uncle Momo. After that I met my new grandma and grandpa. And my uncles and aunties and cousins. And my great grandma. And my cousin’s dog. My other cousin’s cat.

I also I met Kyo.

I didn’t like Kyo. Mama cried after she saw him. She cried all night. She wasn’t able to sleep. Maybe he was bad to mama that’s why she was crying?

Keikei told me Kyo was my papa. But he was mean to me. He hated Kia. How could he be my papa?

He didn’t like feeding me. He hated changing my diapers. He wouldn’t sleep beside me. He doesn’t carry me. He hates it when I talk or follow him around the house. He shouted at me for coloring on his wall.

But he loves me now!

He protected me from that doctor. He also said sorry for shouting at me. And he told me a bedtime story. He played ball with me and my new other uncles. We went to a flower field and took pictures. We rode the big teacups.

Kyo also gives the best hugs. He carries me around the house all the time. He lets me follow him except when he goes to work. No matter how hard I cry, he doesn’t bring me with him. But he gives me promise kisses so I let him go.

Kyo said he loves me more than mama but I’m sure he’s lying. He kisses mama more than he kisses me. But still, he loves me. He even proposed to me! He gave me a ring!

Mama also stopped crying ever since we moved in with Kyo. Maybe because he takes care of mama. He cooks food for mama. He hugs mama. He kisses mama. He loves mama. She isn’t lonely anymore. She has me and Kyo.

My family got bigger. I have more uncles, cousins, grandma and grandpa. I have mama. And I have Kyo, my papa.

End of Kia’s autobiography.

“And Sakusa finishes the match! 24-26!” The commentator says, the whole arena roaring in cheers. You and Kia jump from your seats, thrilled by Kiyoomi’s last spike. He looks at the two of you, grinning proudly.

“Papa, I love you!” Kia shouts. Kiyoomi actually can not hear her but he manages to read her little lips. She does a big heart with her arms, the tips of her fingers on top or her head. She’s hoping he’ll respond.

“I love you too!” Kiyoomi shouts back, doing a heart shape with his arms too. Kia squeals, happy that her father responded. He does not care about the crowd watching and cameras flashing. It’s just him and his daughter. And you of course.

“I love you,” you mouth to him, and his lips turn into a teasing smirk. He blows a kiss to you, but you don’t catch it. You’re not your high school self anymore. You actually feel shame now. You’re aware that almost everyone in the place is staring at you. Who isn’t curious about the person that the impassive Sakusa Kiyoomi in love? He’s even making hearts and throwing kisses at you.

Kia huffs at you. “You have to catch papa’s kiss!” You look at Kiyoomi and he’s looking at you with hope in his eyes. You sigh, then raise your hand acting as if you’re catching something. You kiss the palm and your hand and the crowd roars once again. You hid your face, burying it on Kia’s backpack.

After that commotion in the arena, you and Kia head to the backstage of the press conference, where their manager told you to wait. You sit at one of the plastic chairs, settling Kia on your lap.

After the opponents team interview, Kiyoomi finally goes up to the stage with Atsumu and Hinata. Kia hears her father’s voice so she slides her way down your lap and run to the stage. Before you could even catch her, she is already entering under the table of where the players are being interviewed.

Hinata is the first one on the table, so he yelps when he feels someone under it. He lifts the table cloth to check what it is and see Kia crawling to her father. He silently chuckles and continues to watch her journey.

“I actually think the team is in gre-” Kiyoomi stops talking mid-sentence as he feels someone grab on his calves. He lifts the cover only to see his daughter show off a toothy grin. “What are you doing here?”

Bokuto and Atsumu check, too, curious on why Kiyoomi suddenly stopped talking. They see Kia and can’t stop themselves from smiling. The press is curious, too. Taking pictures at different angles so maybe they can capture whoever is under the table. You palm your face, scolding Kia inside your head.

“I miss papa,” Kia replies to Kiyoomi’s her eyes glistening. How can he ever say no to his princess?

“Wanna sit on my lap?” Kia nods at his suggestion. He picks her up from the floor then sits her on his lap. She sees the camera and cowers to Kiyoomi’s chest. “Go say hi.”

Kia leans close to the mic, her lips close to the mic just like how she observed while you were still sitting. Kiyoomi pulls her back a little, making sure her lips doesn’t touch the dirty mic. The room is silent, waiting for Kia to speak. She glances at Kiyoomi and he gives her a reassuring pat on the head.

“Introduce yourself. What’s your name?” Kiyoomi guides. Kia nods, understanding his statement.

“Hi, I’m Sakusa Kia. My mama is (L/N) (F/N) and my papa is Sakusa Kiyoomi.”

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Facts:

Babies who are only a few weeks old, can store their memory for 2 days. By the time they reach 5 months, they can familiarize photos for as long as 14 days.

There are two major types of memories: explicit and implicit. Explicit memories recall events that has a time and place. Implicit memories do not recall specific events, they recollect emotions.

Children 7 years old below remember more implicit memories than explicit memories, unlike adults who remembers the latter more.

Kia is most likely not to remember all these events but will remember what she felt from it.

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9 Favourite Albums Tag!

I was tagged by @shaddyhatter , thanks bud! :)

1) The Party Scene, All Time Low

I can’t make a list of my favourite albums and not put The Party Scene in there. That album is just raw energy and voice and so packed full of meaning. This is one of those albums I can’t choose a favourite because I love them all so much, but Hometown Heroes, National Nobodies is a great one; We Say Summer, Running From Lions and ofc Lullabies have special significance to me. And let’s not forget about Sticks, Stones and Techno. Let’s not let ATL forget it either

2) Selfish Machines, Pierce the Veil

AHHHHH I LOVE THIS SO MUCH because it opens with Besitos and you have ‘a diamond bullet from a gun made of gold she was covered in blood last seen in San FRANCISCO’ I mean, I die every time. And it finishes with The Sky Under The Sea which is like, the best. And there’s just so many bangers on this album, including The Boy Who Could Fly which is one of my favourite songs ever oml

3) White Noise (Deluxe), PVRIS

Okay the reason I’ve put White Noise Deluxe and not just White Noise is because of Empty, I gotta say the first time I heard that song I felt the most fundamentally human, raw connection with it and it was just beautiful. Ofc there are so many good songs on this one too, Holy and White Noise are two of my favs :3

4) So Wrong, It’s Right, All Time Low

Yeah okay I put two ATL albums in this list I am t r a s h leave me alone :) God I just love this so much, I especially love in Let It Roll when it goes ‘take a breath, we’ve got all the time in the world to get a grip on the fact that we don’t last, but right now I wanna watch the tide roll in with my best friends’ AHHHHHH yass and also, Vegas is on that album, and Stay Awake, and I actually want some of these lyrics tattooed on me one day because Stay Awake means a lot to me <3

5) California 37, Train

Haha, not many of you (if any) know this but I used to be a huge Train fan. They took a hiatus and I’m not really into them any more, but this album still bangs. We Were Made For This is probably my fav from it, or perhaps Feels Good At First. It brings back 2012 vibes for me, serves as a nice bit of nostalgia <3

6) Gravity (EP), Against the Current

This was the first EP by ATC that I listened to, and it was like a week before ATL last year and I fell in love with it. Gravity in particular means a lot, because it reminds me of the people who mean Gravity to me; who keep me safe and grounded.

7) Summer (EP), Cassadee Pope

k, one word: ALIEN, oml that song is my j a m, I relate to it so much. Cass’s voice on anything is just incredible and she always shows such an emotional connection to the lyrics. I was tempted to put Frame by Frame on here, but it had to be Summer. I feel like her style really took a jump from Frame by Frame to Summer and it’s just so impressively wonderful.

8) Collide With the Sky, Pierce the Veil

Yep I put PTV in here twice too. This whole album has significance for me. A lot of it I associate with hard times, but in a good way. These songs made me feel so much less alone, particularly songs like Props and Mayhem, Bulls in the Bronx, Hold on ’Till May. Yeah, they mean a lot. This album is full of bangers too ofc

9) okay., As It Is

This album just dropped in January and I love it so much! It’ s so brilliantly honest, and the glo up from Never Happy, Ever After is insaaane. I especially love Soap, as well as The Coast is Where Home Is, because I live on the coast so I’m like ayyyyyy :3  also I really relate to okay, which is about the hard shit Patty went through, saw a therapist, etc. so I connect with that a lot. And Hey Rachel is such a tune oml

I know this is long but I have an irrational need to overshare :) soooo imma tag @matcha-merlion , @lunavos , @fried-demon-potato , @saltie1-8 , @jackbarakitty , @edgeofbarakat (even tho ye aren’t really on tumblr anymore) and @xxgeorgiehamxx . And anyone who wants to do it just say I tagged you lol :)