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I have a Vil bingo âš
#just the useless thought of the night#keep scroling#twisted wonderland#vil schoenheit#all for my queen
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Sometimes I hate having the latest timezone because I get really insecure at night but everyone's asleep so I can't ask for a hug from my family and god it kind of sucks
#It's nice being up the latest because then I can somewhat ensure everyone else sleeps at peace (SOMEWHAT)#but god sometimes I wish I could be the one who's wished a good night after letting out my late night thoughts#not condemning anyone btw I just#Idk I'm gonna make vent art like usual it's the only thing i have#sorry if im worrying anyone im fine i swear i just need to calm the fuck down#why am i like this im so sorry everyone maybe i should just leave#i dont do anything good for anyone anyways im not that important all i do is just make everyone worry about me#i dont really do anything to help anyone im so useless im so pathetic maybe i should just delete my account and disappear#fuck im venting again i gotta shut the fuck up#im sorry#im so sorry ignore me please im probably gonna delete this in the morning or soemthign im just being stupid like usual#maybe this is why my dad always calls me a useless retard
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If I got paid for my role as a Professional Crastinator, I'd be making bank, because I have never done a damn thing when I'm supposed to in my entire life.
STORY UPDATES COMING EVENTUALLY I GUESS I DON'T FUCKING KNOW (âŻÂ°âĄÂ°ïŒâŻïž” â»ââ»
#ramblings#i don't even know what to tag this#i'm just being generally useless again#i thought i was going to have an update out yesterday but then my brain was like#hey laura hey what about we don't do that#so then i didn't#and i played mobile games and listened to creepypastas on yt all night#and you know what#it was a good fucking time#but it didn't get me closer to getting over this hump i'm in storytelling wise#and i see all the stuff down the road from this part of the story#and it's good#it's good shit#i'm so looking forward to it#but i just gotta get through this one part#and i don't wanna#oh uh#gif warning#why do we warn for gifs btw?#is it a photosensitivity thing or like a bandwidth thing?#i do it because my usage of gifs will go unchecked if i don't remind myself not to do what i usually do#and spam that shit everywhere#you know what i could have written all of this in the main body of this post#but i didn't#because fuck you that's why#i'm sorry i didn't mean that#i love you#if you're reading my mental breakdown in the tags#i love the shit out of you#because you could have just kept scrolling
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been hyping myself up to do one (1) chore for like three hours now WHAT is wrong with me
#i am sooo fucking tired but i need to clean the lads' cage because they are small and they live in there#then i have to shower and wash my hair but imma be so honest with you chief. i kinda just wanna sit here and drink a cool beverage#until i inevitably fall asleep on my phone and wake up in the middle of the night#girl i'm so sleepypilled#i actually meant to do like three more things today and i have done zero (0) so i gotta do at least this#i had this era recently where i was just doing this and i thought wow this is sick but now it's OVER i'm back to being HORRID and USELESS#rayrambles
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#ryuji suguro#blue exorcist#suguro ryuji#ryuuji suguro#ao no exorcist#suguro ryuuji#bon suguro#manga ryuuji#rin okumura#chapter 25#and here you *finally* get to see rin do a bit of self reflection#and realize he's put his own assumptions on his friends (which a lot of readers do too and unlike rin they never reflect on that)#he didn't really get any of their reasons for the awkwardness after the forest fight#like literally none of them#shiemi was entirely upset that she was useless and not strong enough or close enough to them to have seen the struggles they had#and thought herself a useless and unworthy friend. she stayed back out of self hate and not hate or fear of rin#renzou is an utter mess of spy stuff so who the hell knows what is going on over there but he just claims not wanting to deal with drama#izumo is still deep in the ice everyone out and be as unlikable as possible but genuinely does not give two shits about demon blood#konekomaru was scared of rin losing control again and taking away the only family he has left because the flames and blue night#took away all the family he did have#and ryuuji i just typed an essay about in the previous post so go there#this is a growth moment for both of them but people seem to miss it#and yes ryuuji is calling him out for saying 'trust me' 'trust me' 'trust me' over and over because they all did#because they thought they were friends#and it ended up with the forest fight where the kyoto trio got physically beaten up and shiemi got mind controlled#and then when they were limping their way back to the academy rin tried to attack them while actively on fire and very feral#so they're going to need him to give *something* to trust him again and show that he's willing to do things differently this time
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okay so now it makes sense why they keep singing the same songs over and over again as if they didnt have five albums to choose a different/better one from
#I bet they have a list of '1d songs we can sing whenever we want to without having to ask for approval'#and that list is made of story of my life night changes stockholm syndrome#wmyb and fools gold too#(im just kidding btw)#(had to log in again just to make this random post lol)#(didn't have anywhere else to put this useless thought) (lol)
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Tonight I had one of the most terrifying thoughts. I realised that I missed art, but more as a memory of it. I do want to get back to it, but I also do not want to. I miss it, but I dont miss it. And I thought, well, it's just being an adult now. Time is missing, procrastination overwhelming, skills lacking. Trust and beliefs in myself, too. So maybe that's how it is, I'll never really do big artworks again, my comics will just be sketches if I do any, the Golden Age is behind, in 2019, and I didn't even know back then.
I don't know how to feel about these thoughts, if it's okay, if I'm paralyzing myself or giving excuses to give up, or if I'm still in the break from art productivity... it just feels odd not to post "calendars" of the year with a piece each month since last year, because I don't even draw each month now.
I don't know how to feel, my brain is foggy, part of me wants to scream and cry for help so I can be shaken and get back to it already and keep going, and another just accepts that it is what it is, and that's it. And it might sound pessimist but that sounds like failing some part of my identity, of child me, who only wanted to draw and only found comfort in art, to leave behind a world of imagination and creativity because the adult world is too great. I need to work. Earn money. Take the bus, then the subway. Correct papers. Prepare classes. Come back. This all takes so much time alone. Then the chores. And the fun? Hanging with friends, travelling, playing games.
I dont know how to manage everything. I don't even do half of what I want to do right now. What about art?
I wish I was in touch with this world in real life.
#night thoughts#just some random stuff#i sketched again today#its a victory#its better than yesterday#but its so much less than before#is it useless?#i just want to enjoy myself#but when i pick up the pen#when i manage to#i also start thinking#about things that have nothing to do with this#and then overwhelming anxiety and triggering thoughts kick in#and its tiring#it doesnt happen systematically#but it happens a lot
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you guys.... i'm going down a spiral and I need advice
#my best friend (my favourite person in the world) has been acting kinda distant lately#she's been struggling with depression so I figured she just needed some space#we still talk on instagram every day and send each other reels all the time#but lately I just feel like she's gonna abandon me...#she's growing up and has a job and a boyfriend and is doing well for herself#meanwhile i'm a failure lmao i flunked twice and am still in uni and barely surviving this school year with absoltely no (...)#(...) prospects and hope for the future. on top of that i'm a depedent clingy selfish useless jealous baby#she deserves better than me and she's bound to realize that so i'm not surprised this is happening. but it still hurts.#last night she sent me a message on ig saying she missed me but deleted it immediatly so i didn't have time to respond#which most likely means she meant to send it someone else and sent it to me by mistake#which means she doesn't miss me at all (she could have just kept the message and it'd be no trouble#but the fact she deleted it so quickly without a second thought just means she doesn't care about me#we haven't seen each other in a month so that hurts#i panicked and ârepliedâ saying i missed her too but she left me on read#now she's sending me reels but I can't bring myself to even open our chat because it just hurts#I wish we could just cut the chord and end the friendship at once instead of having me slowly watch it crumble#i hate this#i'm so sad#i'm gonna be all alone#i'm completely isolated from everyone and it's my fault for depending on her so much#it hurts so much I don't even want to see her#i don't know what to do
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if my coworker doesnât stop smacking his lips itâs gonna turn into a murder-suicide situation.
#they have him come in late to do essentially nothing. i set up the big event myself ran around and then he still acted#completely useless for the simple fucking event at 10. which is fine bc u know that's the only other one going on while im here#and yet i have to just sit here. anyway yay hours. but yeah im over it i just want to be out of here and go to class tbh.#WANT to go to class. i love my instructor that's my best friend. thought abt how bad i wished ic ould talk to him last night#HES DOING IT AGAIN UGGGHFSHGJFDHGDFHG. i might have to leave the office till he finishes this cookie im not even joking#it's so bad.#abby talks#u know when writers r like they Punctuated an action with blah blah blah. he jsut did that extremely loudly as if he can tell im suffering
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Oh thats. Stupid. I found a new trigger from something that shouldn't have been as traumatic as it was
#i dont remember if i told this story#so way back to this holiday in september in gran canaria#there was a night where i woke up to sniffling#and i could hear it from the main room and i thought my sibling was on the other bed (in the same room i was in)#and this was at like 2am and my phone is useless because my provider cant get me signal on this island#so i think there's some creepy ass intruder on the sofa just sniffling away (because thats all i hear)#and im freaking the fuck out on how to get me and my sibling out of this apartment and to the other part of our group on the same floor#bc we all have separate rooms spread out in this hotel#and i make up this whole plan on how to sneak out without the intruder noticing#im ready to drag this kid out of bed and run for our lives with nothing but my bag with my purse and phone#and i go to wake him up and realise the body-shaped thing i saw on the other bed was the fuckers blanket#and they'd gone to the main room. because they were snotty. and couldn't breathe lying down.#so there i was. trembling with adrenalin. ready to get the fuck out. and this poor kid had just woke up ill.#but the issue is now i hear them sniffle and im back to thinking there's a creepy intruder waiting for me to leave the room#it didn't help that when i woke up this morning the blanket had been dropped on the sofa like someone was sat there#like they had a knee up and it was draped over that#but i feel so stupid because there wasnt even any intruder. and i cant ask the kid to stop sniffling bc wow way to make them feel guilty#for being ill and not being able to help it#but im also mad because i shouldn't be invalidating myself like this because we've also become switchy#without me realising the correlation until right now as i make this post like 'ah yes that is what the system helps with and is for'#and 'wow trauma makes me dissociate? crazy'#but i feel just. ridiculous :((
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#well. guess whos job application got rejected#i mean i didnt have very high hopes in the first place i was just glad i applied for something i thought i could do#now i dont know. is there anything i can do?#i know its just one job but also its the only one ive found so far so...#im just meant to be a useless piece of shit idk#night is an absolute mess on main
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no one asked but I just wanna type my incoherent thoughts out somewhere lmao so you can ignore me if you don't wanna read my bs.
The reason I chose to study this statue "Menelaus Carrying the Body of Patroclus (or Ajax Carrying the Body of Achilles) was cos Paz's last moments w the guards kinda reminds me of Patroclus. From my hazy memory and poor understanding of the Iliad, Patroclus died from getting struck by Apollo from the back, pierced midway between the shoulder with a javelin, and had Hektor spear rammed through his lower belly, kindaaaa similar to Paz's wounds. Menelaus tried to protect the body of Patroclus so they can bring him back to the camp to bury him. They were driven away by Hektor but then managed to escape and retrieved Patroclus's body later to give him a proper burial rite. Now, Paz has always been the one staying with the Armorer since the beginning. There were only two of them left trying to rebuild the tribe after Gideon destroyed their home, again. For someone who values traditions like the Armorer, I think she would try her best to come back and retrieve Paz's body (or what's left of it) after the battle to give him a proper burial, like how Menelaus did for Patroclus's body.
Well idk if she will keep his helmet to pass it to Ragnar when he's grown up enough, or if she will still melt it tgt with his armor for beskar, I just really wanna see her giving Paz one last goodbye. It's what a warrior like Paz deserved, instead of dying a forgotten soldier in the dark :(
Anw, I really dk how to explain this I'm not smart enough to put my thoughts into words, but I hope you get what I mean o(-(
blacked out and added Ragnar into this as well
#this show really makes me stay up at night thinking useless thoughts goddamn#can some good writter write sth about this cos idk how to explain this I'm just rotating them in my head like rotisserie chickens atp#the mandalorian s3#the iliad#star wars#yapping in hyperspace
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I think my least favorite trend in fandom that I noticed a lot is when a person does like a series but hates half/most of the cast but not for a reason of that theyâre a badly written character or they just donât like the archetype they are and more so those people who only care about how cool a character is and calls every other character âuselessâ or âannoyingâ when thatâs far from the case because Iâve seen this happened so much and this is yet another thing that makes me go âoh this would happen with getter if it was bigger wouldnât itâ
#meg text#yes this is my immediate thought upon walking up cause I also thought about this last night randomly#and thereâs already a lot of people who ONLY care for ryoma and itâs clear but rarely do I see the other characters be trashed#but if the series was more popular? GOD there be too many posts like âRyomas friends are trash and hold down my goatâ or something#or even the opposite where people trash Ryoma and say his friends were the real MVPs LOL#even if I expect either way there would still be a lot of people who like hayato but the musashi/benkei would be deemed useless#which is just more of a issue of how the third pilot is handled and LESS of their characters#(Oh and every other team would get ignored cause this already happens lol)
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Haunting You - G.S.
Synopsis. A bIoody trail of vampire attĂĄcks, a political marriage, and four suitors youâre forced to choose from - all haunting you. But none as much as the mysterious stranger that makes everything in you scream that you might just be fated for the very thing your kingdom is trying to escape from.
Pairing. Gojo Satoru x Reader
Content. MDNI, fem! princess! reader, king! Gojo, vampire AU, heâs actually ĂNSANE, royalty AU, arranged marriages, creampĂes, breĂ©ding, fated mĂĄtes, FĂRAL down bad Gojo, mentions of bIood and kĂlling, bĂting, Ăłral (fem receiving), spĂtting, marks (a LOT), fĂngering, pĂłrn with plot tbh, overstĂm, Ănnapropriate use of powers, jealous! Gojo, slight inspiration from Persephone and Hades, pet names, swearing.
Word count. 15.8k (HUH???)
A/N. Was listening to Haunted by BeyoncĂ©, and my mind went âooo vampires.â Hope yâall have a lovely week <3
In all your years being carefully primed to take over the throne, there have only been two rules you were raised under:
You live by the crown, and you will die by the crown. No matter what.Â
To stop the vampires - if your father, the king, fails to contain the bloody trail of killings before his own inevitable death, you have to. Or, more according to those tedious meetings with the table of elders, your husband will have to.
And it seems as if they were well and fully intent on enforcing that last rule as of late - with sharply increasing numbers of attacks on your local towns, the public was growing restless - and so was the royal court.Â
You werenât doing any better either - but for a wholly different reason. Â
Maybe it was paranoia, but these days, you found yourself constantly catching a flash of crystal blue in the corner of your eye. Or hearing a sweet, sweet whisper in your ear deep at night. Maybe even a soft run of fingers down your spine as you were readied for yet another ball - hands much too large to be any of your ladies-in-waiting.
Like something was watching.Â
Waiting.Â
âAnd then I- your highness, are you listening?â
That familiar, grating voice snaps you out of your thoughts, and youâre gasping in embarrassment as you turn back to the prattling man in front of you.Â
âMy apologies, Lord Naoya.â you smile tightly, desperate to finish up yet another conversation about his latest cavalry expeditions. Nodding dismissively, âJust tired, please continue with your ah- wonderful tales.â
But of course, when he starts right back from the very beginning to âcover the key points you missedâ, your stomach turns when you realize that you wonât be escaping any time soon. Great. Wonderful. Perfect.
God, future suitors your ass. Youâd been taught that thereâs no such company as âbad companyâ when youâre an heir to a kingdom, but this has been the fourth royal ball this month - and the biggest one yet. The fourth night you had to listen to another uptight lord show off his sparse battle medals, or another elder snide about how youâd be useless against the dangers of vampires.
You knew it was likely some coping mechanism with the grim deaths this week, but surely the nobles were tired of all this silly dancing? You sure were.Â
Gauzy dress just a bit too tight, sighs just a bit too loud than was permitted for the princess, you let your gaze wander across the brilliant ballroom. Those intricate gowns, the huge reflective wall, those little pastries you really wish you could walk away from this conversation and-
Blue.Â
Crystal blue.
âWait! Did you see-â you startle, and it disappears as fast as it appeared. Your heavy skirts sway as you whirl around to uselessly track that odd burst of color, âDid you see that?â
âI know!â Naoya gasps, making you turn your head in excitement. âThe light reflects off my medal so gorgeously! Oh, and this one-â
Dammit.Â
All through your life, it was this same color thatâd been flitting occasionally through your vision, now haunting you almost every day.
You didnât know where to look to find that familiar blue again - and you didnât want to stand here waiting to find out. At the very least, your ears have definitely been assaulted with enough talk about horses and how âabsolutely enormousâ Lord Naoyaâs weaponry at the Zenin Estate was.
Compensating, you muse.
The thought helps you plaster on a grin to your face, humming in a saccharine-sweet tone, âIt pains me to cut through, my lord.â It really didnât. âAnd Iâd love to chat more later, but I think I hear my lady-in-waiting calling for me.â
He sputters, breathing out a few profanities under his breath that you catch. An arm raising as if to keep you in place, âNow, wait a minute-â
Youâre angling your body expertly to make your dash. Batting your lashes deceivingly innocently, âOh? What was that?â you cup your ear. âI hear her again- I really do apologize, but feel free to recount your valiant um- fairy tales in a letter.â
âBut your father-â
Not waiting to hear the rest of his response, you barely even bother with a polite curtsy before determinedly weaving your way through the stuffy ballroom. Nodding by the nobles greeting you, waving past the throng of young lords that wanted to reel you into more conversation. Your satiny feet taking you anywhere but here - anywhere but where you could feel the still, heavy gaze of something burning into your back as you escaped.Â
You just prayed that it was only a miffed Naoya and nothing else.
It was around this time that the orchestra struck up another upbeat waltz, and with most people pairing off on the dance floor, barely anyone noticed you tip-toeing out of the ballroom.Â
âGod-â youâre letting out a sigh of relief when you reach the long hallway, rubbing at your throbbing temples. âThe next ball they host, mâgonna conveniently disappear, I swear.â
You didnât care enough for what matchmaking would happen in the future anyway, no matter what the elders may tell you.Â
Your ballgown swishes with every urgent step through the quiet, dimly-lit corridors. Maybe a bit too quiet.Â
Strange. You knew that not many nobles would be wandering around the palace during a ball but, surely you canât be the only one here? Where were the guards?
Just then, a soft winter breeze puffs against your left ear - and you inhale sharply. âWha- hello?â you shudder, gaze darting around. âAnyone there?â But when only silence greets you, youâre struck with the sudden thought that the windows along the hallway were closed.Â
Where did the wind come from?
The realization has you taut with goosebumps pricking at your skin, your pace increasing ever-so-slightly. Gulping, you round the corner quickly, making a beeline for the closest haven you could find - the library.
Ducking past the towering stone archway, you hastily slam the door closed. It takes you a few seconds to get used to the darkness inside. With silvery moonlight ribbons filtering in through the curtained windows, you could just barely make out the rows upon rows of books youâd pestered your father into lining. Surrounded by heavyset tables, and your favorite, cushioned armchair. Luxurious, yet completely dwarfed when seating the lone silhouette-
âIf this is an attack, then I surely donât mind.â
âFuck-â you scream, reflexively grabbing the nearest book spine you could reach to throw in the direction of the shadow. âShow yourself.â
Somehow, itâs as if the book bounces off an invisible forcefield, plopping down unceremoniously onto the velvety carpet right in front of the tall figure.Â
âAnd here I thought princesses usually curtseyed.â that deep, honeyed voice cuts right through your heavy breathing. He makes a move to get up - languid, and torturous, as if he enjoyed your agonizing suspense. âWell, maybe I do prefer being pelted by a- hey, that doesnât mean pick up another book!â
In a split-second, you were brandishing a weighty encyclopedia this time - holding it firmly behind your head in a ready stance to throw once again.Â
âShow yourself.â
The man sighs, stepping into a channel of low light. It illuminated his stature - taller than youâd thought, towering well above most of the generals in the royal court. Muscled, yet lean - powerful, the thought strikes you. Magnetizing.Â
Someone from outside the kingdom, you observe, otherwise youâd have remembered that cloudy white hair, strands falling over a strange, black blindfold stretched across the upper half of his face. Leaving you only a set of high cheekbones, and a pert, pretty mouth to admire.
One that curls into such a mischievous smirk of neat pearly whites, and a tiny dimple digging into his cheek. âNow, Iâve never had anyone this eager to see me.â He drops into a courteous bow at the waist, expensive blue fabrics rippling. âFrom the North kingdom, Satoru, at your service, princess.â
Your hand falters - partially because of the heavy weight, partially because you recognised that gold âGâ insignia in the middle of this stranger- Satoruâs uniform. The Gojo family.Â
That mysterious, estranged kingdom from the Northern part of the country that hadnât been seen since you were young. Youâd heard stories of them - everyone in this vast country had, it was impossible not to. Of their cruel winters and even crueler king, how blood stained every room in his palace. It was rumored he was a monster, and yet, no one ever saw his face - if they did, they never lived to tell the tale.Â
You knew your father had invited the king to every single ball out of diplomatic obligation, but heâd never attended. Never even bothered to respond.Â
So who was this?
âNo one. Just a lowly attendant accompanying my king, your highness.â youâre jolting when he purrs, a brow quirking at just how he knew what you were thinking. âThe question ah- showed on your face, my apologies.â
Finding your voice, âUm, I apologize, too, Satoru-â You note the lack of a last name, â-for the book. I canât imagine being hit with Yagaâs 1001 Methods to Crochet was a very warm welcome.â And like a little truce, youâre placing down the encyclopedia in your hand. Flashing him your most practiced smile, âI bet youâre hiding out here for the same reasons as me, then.â
That draws out a pretty laugh from him, bubbly and boyish. âMhm, the ladies just refuse to leave you alone, too?â
âWell, more like the lords there.â
He hums, something that sends a chill down your spine. Words just a little strained, âNot much for bragging about horses?âÂ
And suddenly, you get the urge to snark back, huffing in a way you know your preparational teacher would faint at. âAbsolutely not. Iâd rather face a vampire than listen to Naoya and the âabsolutely enormousâ weaponry he uses to-â
â-compensate!â
â-compensate.â the two of you finish at the same time. âI like this place a lot better, itâs quiet- thoughâŠâ your voice trails off in wonder. âItâs strange, guests arenât supposed to be allowed in the library unsupervised.â His jaw clenches when your eyes sweep him, âWe are supposed to have a few guards here but I donât know where-â
All of a sudden, itâs like youâre being splashed with cold water. And your words are dying on your tongue when the room drops a few degrees in temperature.Â
Satoru is unnervingly still, yet he catches onto your slight shiver. âThis damned wind, am I right?â And heâs gesturing at the windows with his head. The closed windows. Words tumbling quickly from those pink lips now, âAnyways- why donât you sit down-â He prowls towards you, slow, confident. Large hands rest at your arms, theyâre pale, surprisingly cold - guiding you easily to sit on the unoccupied armchair. â-since mâbeing nice enough to let you hide out here.â
His words drip with tease, and you still couldnât see his eyes, but you imagined theyâd be twinkling. No one ever dared to speak to you this way - it was always either thinly-veiled condescension or fear towards royalty.Â
Surprisingly, you didnât mind.Â
You roll your eyes, trying to hold back your smile. âYeah? Well what do I owe you in return for that, Satoru?â
His lips part, as if not expecting this response. Before letting out another sharp cackle at your expense, âWell, why donât you-â You canât tear your eyes away from his magnetic figure when Satoru begins unbuttoning his flowing coat to reveal a snow-white shirt underneath. Wrapping it snug around your shoulders in one, fluid motion, a hand of his tilts your head towards him. â-give me your soul?â
The Gojo emblem burns into your back, and Satoruâs deep, almost raspy tone rings in your ears. It sounded like a joke - but looking into his ethereal features, there was no trace of a grin on what you could see of it. And once again, youâre struck by the pure power radiating off of him.Â
You hoped it was a joke.
âS-soulâs not for sale.â you manage to choke out, trying to make it look like you werenât breathing in his metallic, peppermint scent. Heady. Pulling the soft fabric tighter around your cold body, âSteep price for a hideout, donât you think?â
âSâa discount for you, flower.â his chilling breath fans your face. Letting out hushed, âHeh, you should see the prices I charge others.â
Youâre reeling, face burning, âFlower?â
âBecause youâre shaking like one, see?â The pads of his fingers move from under your chin to trace up, up, up the goosebumps on your exposed arms. Somehow, you canât bring yourself to pull away.
Hypnotic.Â
And his steps are soundless as he walks over behind you, the moonlight giving him an angelic halo. Haunting, almost. âAnd youâre just as gorgeous, like a wild rose. Way too gorgeous for the fuckinâ bastards out there, might I add, princess.â
The nerve!
Heart pounding, you turn around to- call him out for his disrespect? Snap back? Accept the compliment?
You donât know - and you donât get to find out, either. Because before your eyes can search for Satoruâs mysterious figure, the door to the library is slamming open with a deafening bang!
âAh! There you are!â your lady-in-waitingâs relieved voice floods your ears. And sheâs barging in with no comment about your sudden stiffness, or that foreign coat around your shoulders. âWeâve been looking everywhere for you, your highness. His majesty is just about to make his speech of the night and needs you there.â
Shit, out of all the scandals.Â
âI- I can explain.â Youâre desperately trying to catch Satoruâs eye to make up an excuse for why youâre alone with a strange man away from the ball, shooting from your seat to look around the library. âWeâre just-â
The suddenly empty library.Â
âYes yes, I understand that the balls arenât exactly your favorite pastime.â The oblivious girl is pushing you towards the door, brown eyes narrowed. âBut weâve got to get going now.â
Despite her wrangling you outside, you manage to sneak a few glances backwards, straining to see if he was hiding in the shadows. Only to be met with a now-rumpled armchair and the still, dark bookshelves. As bare as if Satoru never existed - the only proof of his existence being a sad copy of Yagaâs 1001 Methods to Crochet lying on the ground.Â
And yet, you canât help but feel a pair of eyes on you.Â
You feel it all through the short walk back to the ballroom, Nobaraâs excited chatter about how finely your all-new coat was made filtering through one ear and out the next. Even when you reach the edge of the dance floor, even when you feel every single other eye in the room on you - you feel it.Â
âUm, Nobara.â you whisper, discreetly shuffling the coat off your shoulders. âPlease take this to my chambers for me.â
The younger girl is positively bursting at the seams, murmuring conspiratorially to you, âSo is this where you were? With who- The âGâ what does that-â
âAh! My daughter!â Saved by your fatherâs booming voice - though, you wouldnât consider it too much of a salvation when youâre immediately being whisked away to the high platform your fatherâs throne was seated on. His arms spread wide to greet you in a hug despite stiff etiquette.Â
âYouâre late.â he whispers in your ear.
Itâs all you can do to manage out a quiet, âS-Sorry.â
Without another word, heâs addressing the congregation in the middle of the dance ballroom again. More ruler than father at this very moment. âMy people, we are gathered here today to dance, to sing, to forget about the horrors happening in our beloved nation.â To large murmurs of agreement he continues, âAnd despite it all, itâs a reality we must all live with. Me, especially, as your king, have a duty to fulfill.â
Thereâs a beat of silence, and you wonder where this is all going - your father never brought up vampires during a time like this. Never.Â
Clearing his throat, âAnd as we all know, Iâm not getting any younger here, unfortunately. Which is why-â He claps his hands once, and three figures - one of which being Naoya, amongst two other nobles you briefly recognized - step forward from the crowd. âAh- there should be one more- Anyway, after thorough consideration with the table of elders, we have decided to go forward with the betrothal process for my dear daughter here. With the joining of hands will not only be the joining of kingdoms - but the joining of arms, and our people shall prevail as one over the vampires.â
You think you might stop breathing, eyes burning and trained firmly on the ground. This had been a topic of conversation - well, more the elders conversing while you skipped out on every meeting once this discussion was brought up.Â
You knew this would happen. You knew. But now? At this very moment? All you can do is stand there and listen while he rattles off.Â
âI know four of the- erm, three of the most eligible young suitors of the land will do their utmost to vie for her heart - and her hand. No easy task I tell you.â Your fists clench, head swimming. âAnd in a weekâs time, we will hold the grand ball to announce my successor.â
Shit - a week. A week.
Somewhere in your line of vision you see - you feel that spark of blue. And youâre raising your head to cheers echoing from all around the room, and still no sign of where those eyes are.Â
âThe next time we meet, will be with the future king and queen!â
Fuck.Â
---
That night was spent with a few too many tears, and a consoling Nobara at your side all until daybreak. And if you held onto that comforting, peppermint-scented coat through it all, well, you were only glad that you seemed too pitiful for her to question it.Â
Feeling much more composed and only slightly less bitter about the prospect of being married off to a stuck-up noble you didnât know, you made your way to breakfast the next morning. An affair usually spent with your father, or in the palace gardens - but this time, surrounded by four suitors under the guise of getting to know you. Sizing each other up, maybe.Â
âAh, your highness, good morning!â you sweetly reciprocate the greetings once youâre escorted into the dining room, taking your seat at the very end of the long, mahogany table.Â
Sighing you take in the scene - on your left was Lord Naoya from last night, the same sharp grins and shifty eyes as you remembered. Seated beside him was the young duke of the Kashimo clan - hair striking, his battle staff laid out next to him on the table. Intimidating.Â
But nothing in comparison to the hulking man on your right, it seemed as if his uniform was on the verge of bursting. Face sullen, letting his pink locks fall into place - Sukuna, you think you remember.Â
âYour highness.â Ichiji bows, taking his place supervising the breakfast. âI am afraid our guests from the Northern kingdom will not be able to attend this breakfast today. He sends his deepest apologies. B-but-â His face-paled, looking scarred for life. â-he did have his um- attendant send this note-â
Youâre gratefully taking the creamy scrap of paper before the words have even left Ichijiâs mouth, flipping it over to reveal slanted, beautiful calligraphy - Apologies for the sudden departure last night, flower. And I hope you forgive my king for not being here to deter the talk of horses - duty holds both man and beast from freedom. Worry not, we will be seeing your sweet smile again soon. But, for now, give those three bastards a rude gesture from me.
You giggle, tucking away the note. A tiny pang of disappointment hitting you out of nowhere at the lack of that gold âGâ emblem anywhere along the table - and more importantly, the white-haired enigma that would follow.
All three men were glowering, yet begrudgingly plowing on with their conversation from before as you settled. Not having the energy to contribute, you listened in.Â
â-this would never have happened in my estate.â
âOh buzz off-â Kashimo interrupts Naoya, before throwing a guilty look your way at his crass words. As if you didnât say worse. âApologies, your highness. As I was saying-â he turns back to the man. âDonât think we havenât heard of those vampire killings in your court that you tried to cover up, your defense isnât as impenetrable as you want it to seem, Naoya.â
That causes you to raise your brow - and evidently, Sukunaâs as well. âThat so? Little fraud, arenât ya, Zenin?â
The shorter man sputters indignantly, âYou- you little- you call me a fraud and yet youâre the only one who didnât bother to help investigate last night? Got something to hide, oh king-of-curses?â
âTch, shut up.â That little nickname ticked something off in Sukuna, and his grip on his delicate fork tightens. Smirk intentionally bared to piss off, âItâs just because when the princess marries me, she wonât have to worry about vampires attacking guards in the middle of a ball.â
Wait, what?
âYeah right, you and what army because I have an absolutely enormous-â
âWhat do you mean?â Your smooth voice cuts through their bickering, and all three men freeze, gazes snapping to you as if theyâd already forgotten you were there. âI didnât hear about any killings last night.â
If you thought they were tense before then you werenât prepared for right now - shoulders raising in surrender, for all their blabbering, not a word was uttered after your accusatory question. After a few beats of silence, you scoff in frustration, turning towards your escort, squirming and avoiding your pointed stare at the very corner of the room.Â
âIchiji.â The man looked like he could positively give anything to blend into the meticulously hand-painted flowers on the wall. âIchiji, tell me what happened.âÂ
âP-princess!â he yelps, adjusting his glasses. âI- Iâm afraid the king said- please I canât-â
âIchijiâŠâ
âP-please donât banish me-â
Youâre on your feet now, cornering the poor man. Mentally, you make a note to give him a raise. Eyes narrowing, âI wonât banish you, but as the future queen I have a right to know, donât I?â
â...â
â...please?â
And the remaining men had been watching with morbid fascination as you worked your magic. They were already aware that the frail attendant was the weakest link out of them all, but what they certainly did not expect was exactly how weak.Â
It only took a single bat of your lashes before his pale cheeks colored an almost-concerning pink. Eyes scrunching shut in embarrassment, as the words spilled from his lips. Neverending and slurring with haste as he speaks in one breath, âTh-three of the guards stationed near the outer corridor and library wing were found killed by a vampire last night before you retired for the night, your highness. Their b-bodies were disposed of, and this in combination with all the recent killings was why the king hurried the announcement for your engagement. B-but, his majesty decreed that this never be relayed to you in order to keep you in high spirits after the betrothal eep-!â
âIs- is that so?â you breathe, eyes wide. Taking one last look at the four speechless men, before walking out of the tall doorway. âI seem to have lost my appetite, I will be heading for my chambers now. I sincerely hope you enjoy your stay, my lords.â
Shit shit shit - how did you not notice?Â
Maybe you walked right past the killer last night and didnât even realize - who knows what couldâve been hiding in the shadows. How did you not realize? How did you not see?
Just then, a thought strikes you - did Satoru see?
---
Itâs one of the whirlwind of questions ringing around in your mind even by the time you hear a steady knock on your door. Jolting you upright from where you splayed out on your plush, silken bed, rows upon rows of books on vampires haphazardly surrounding you.
Peering out of your large window, you notice the hues of pink and red painting the sky, a big red sun just dipping below the horizon - shit, when did you even fall asleep?Â
âCome in.â you answer, voice scratchy. Rubbing away the sleep in your eyes, you could barely make out the hazy outline of Ichiji standing in your doorway.Â
âAh- your highness, I apologize for waking you up.â he bows. âBut master Kashimo will be headed out for a late-night hunt at this very moment, and requested your presence shall you wish it. He noticed that you seemed upset at breakfast, and wanted to make it up to you.â
You take a moment to mull over the question - it certainly was rude for you to just ignore your guests all day. And considering you might just be marrying one of them, it wouldnât kill anyone to actually get to know them.
âAlright.â you reply, voice even. And your answer seems to surprise the other man, âTell Tsukumo to get my gear ready, I will be down as soon as I change.â
âY-yes, princess! I will call for Nobara to help you get dressed.â
As the door shut once more behind him, you threw off your heavy blanket- and your coat? Satoruâs coat, which had evidently been draped around your upper half. Heart stuttering, you didnât remember putting that on beforeâŠ
Hm, you had to thank Nobara for that later.
---
Hunting with Kashimo was, unexpectedly, dull.Â
âSoâŠâ you drag your words, trying to fill the tense silence. âWhat is it that weâre actually hunting for-â
âShhh-â you hear for about the third time this past hour. A brow of yours quirking at the way it seemed like the two of you had been wandering the woods belonging to your kingdomâs estate for hours, and you still didnât know what it was you were supposed to be looking for.Â
Alright, perhaps hunting wasnât the best opportunity to get to know your potential future husband.Â
âMy lordâŠâ you call out warily, already aware of the dukeâs affinity for hunting. âMaybe we should rest for a bit, after all, the stars are out already and the moon is so bright.â
He barely even turns to look back at you, âNo time. The woods belonging to your kingdom have some of the rarest species of cursed animals in this country. I must make the most of this week in that case, your highness.â
You brighten at the closest shred of conversation in so long. âOh, yes, Iâve heard! I also hear they-â
âShh!â
So close.Â
Letting out a resigned sigh, your eyes glaze over as you watch Kashimo trace his thick fingers over animal tracks on the dirt. Suddenly, gesturing for you to follow him as he sped off in another direction.Â
It doesnât take too long for him to stray out of sight. Meanwhile, your legs lag behind in protest - and pettiness, you realize. Grumbling to yourself about how youâd rather have watched paint dry as youâre sure the elders often did. Well, you look at the now-barren pathway, at least now you didnât have to worry about someone shushing you all the ti-
âAHH!â
And then, all of a sudden - it felt like you were the hunted.Â
Itâs like every bit of blood drains from your body at the blood-curdling scream. Grip tightening on your bow, youâre jolting at the direction it came from - where did Kashimo disappear off to again?Â
Yet, for how much you knew your kingdom like the back of your hand, itâs so dark. The moon barely peeking through gloomy gray wisps of clouds that you donât know where exactly youâre running to - just that something was tugging. Reeling you in. No destination in sight until youâre crashing face-first into- a wall?
âHey, flower, where are ya running off to this late?â
Your hairs raise, something visceral in your body jolting.Â
Satoru - blindfold and all. Â
âWh- Satoru thank God youâre here.â you gasp, looking nervously over his broad shoulders. âI heard a scream, and Iâm worried about Kashimo because he went somewhere over there and-â Youâre pointing aimlessly in his direction, before clasping a hand around Satoruâs defined bicep. Tugging, âYou have to help me, that idiot even insisted on no guards because of disturbing the wildlife and Iâm so worried and-â
Before you can react, big strong arms are enveloping you. And youâre suddenly hit with the smell of peppermint and Satoru - something so sickly sweet tinging the air, it makes you droop limply into his firm hold. Your skin burns when he breathes in, deep.Â
âShhh shhh, I know I know, princess.â he hums, pulling you deeper against his chest. Until you could feel every dip and curve of his pectorals. âYou mustâve been scared, right?â At your hesitant nod, âYou did good. You did perfect- in fact. Especially putting up with that pretentious bastard.â
The shocked laugh that drags from your throat has Satoru sighing contentedly, an almost-pained grunt leaving him as he pulls away ever-so-slightly. You felt much the same.Â
âSâalright, Iâm pretty sure it was some animal.â he soothes. He clasps your hands with his, running a damp thumb over your knuckles. âI saw him trudging about disturbing more wildlife over there.â
You breath catches in your chest at just how close Satoru was now, his breath mingling with yours. Pretty plump lips so close - too close. Yet youâre leaning in closer, like youâre drawn by a thread. âAre you sure? Maybe we should-â You gasp, eyes widening when you look down at where your hands were intertwined - red. Or, what you assumed to be red, a saturated, patchy stain on your hands where Satoruâs met yours. He stiffens when he follows your gaze, trying to pull away, but you only hold your grip harder. âSatoru, are you bleeding? Or is this-â
âNot mine.â his voice is hard - and for a second you have to wonder whether this is really the same Satoru. And you swear thereâs a little tremor in his words as he explains, âYou see, I went out on a little hunt myself, flower.â
Even if Satoru didnât have his blindfold on, youâre sure his face wouldâve been unreadable. That almost-familiar grin of his is strained. Too strained. Yet, his movements are unwavering as he tries to wipe away the blood. âMustâve forgotten to wipe down, I apologize for sullying your hands, princess.â
âLet me-â you mutter, taking a hold of the coat around your shoulders to wipe away the blood. Uncaring for what you were dirtying at the moment. âI swear you need to take better care of yourself, Satoru. Seriously.âÂ
And you didnât see them - but somehow you could just feel the amusement dancing in Satoruâs eyes. Raising your confused gaze up to meet his, âWhat?â
He only flashes you a knowing grin, âSâjusâ, youâre wearing my coat, your highness.â
Your movements pause, mouth gaping open while you try to pathetically spout out an excuse. âI- I didnât mean to get this coat dirty, oh my god. I didnât think-â
âSâalright.â he inches in even closer. A smirk grazing those sinful lips of his, âI actually prefer it like that, you look like mine.â Taking a deep breath, âYou smell like mine.âÂ
And before you can ask about his cryptic message, heâs placing a hand at the back of your waist. A very improper hand that would definitely make the elders gasp in scandal. âWe should head back to the palace, itâs getting late. I will escort you, mâsure that born hunter of yours is already halfway back too.â
âCarry me.â you blurt out, your body aching to feel more of him. And before you can retract your words - probably sputter a few apologies, youâre being cradled by a smug Satoru. One hand under your knees, the other supporting you like youâre weightless.Â
âHeh, a princess carry for a princess.â
âOh, shut up.â you grumble with embarrassment when he walks forward slowly, your legs swaying in midair. âWant my soul for this as well?â
And you can feel Satoruâs muscles ripple, you can feel the way his breath hitches in his chest ever-so-slightly. Rumbling as he drawls, âMore than youâd know.â
âSâthat a discount, too? You still didnât tell me what you charge others.â you quip, remembering the conversation from the night before.Â
âOh, youâll find out soon enough, your highness.â
Youâre quirking a brow, something hot churning at the pit of your stomach at that ragged tone to his words. âIâm onto you, yâknow.â You stare up at his clenched jaw, highlighted in the dim moonlight. His long, pale neck, the crevices of his blindfold. For a moment, you wonder what it would be like if you could peek under. âOnto you and your absurdly high prices, Satoru.â
He breathes out a shuddering, overly-dramatic shudder. âMhm, flower, I should be worried.â Before looking up at the sky - and you wondered just how well he could see through his blindfold. âThe moon is beautiful tonight, isnât it?â
That night, you dreamt of long-winded star-gazing and blue, blue eyes.Â
---
âWhat do you mean Lord Kashimo has left for his kingdom?â you hiss, feeling a faint stab of offense. Seriously, were you that awful at hunting? âHe didnât make any indication of it last night.â
And if your careless words made Nobara beam with slight embarrassment, you didnât take note of it - too caught up in what youâd just heard. Enough so that it takes her next words to bring you out of your stupor, âExactly what I said, your highness. The lordship and his court have all vacated their wing, leaving behind only a letter of forgiveness for ending the festivities early.â
âStill.â you murmur petulantly. Setting aside another one of your books on Vampire: Mates, Murder, and More. âItâs strange, I thought he was here for the hunting sprees, if not for me.â Your tiara weighs heavy on your head as you turn to your young lady-in-waiting. âI would like for Ichiji to catch up to Kashimoâs traveling party, make sure theyâre safe, and send them my well wishes.â
Ha! Take that elders - youâd show them youâre fully capable of holding diplomatic relations as a ruler.Â
âAs you wish, princess. Additionally, this-â Sheâs holding out a small pouch of blue fabric that youâd never seen before. â-was found by your bedside when cleaning and I wished to give it back safely.â Before her polite smile drops into a much more devious smirk, âA gift from one of the suitors, perhaps~?â
You gesture for her to hand it over, the silk casing soft under your touch. Detailed. One-of-a-kind, from what your tedious lessons in the history of fabrics had taught you. You didnât recognize the patterns sewn onto it as something typical for your kingdom - or any other youâd learned about, really.
âMânot sure.â you whisper. Opening the little purse to reveal a flash of gold - a necklace. Thin and intricate, holding a sapphire pendant in the shape of an eye.Â
Blue.
A blue you knew too well - the same one that peeked out from every dark corner, that you saw before you slept at night. The one thatâs been by your side for years.
Constant. Now coming to haunt you.Â
Chills run down your spine, and your fingers tremble at how life-like it looked. Burning into your very soul.Â
âWould you like for me to help you put it on?â Nobara asks, mistaking your shock for difficulty. And yet, you donât correct her - body moving before your mind to simply nod.Â
There was only one clasp on the chain - leaving you to worry about the fit. But when it was hooked around your neck, you found that it fit you so perfectly. Like it was tailored to you - and only you. Why was it so perfect?
Why did it capture the exact color youâd been chasing after your whole life - since before youâd even formed memories? Since you were nothing but a surly, teary-eyed little girl that was crying about the dark, babbling about that âblue flashâ that no one else ever seemed to see.
âIf that will be all, your highness. I will take my leave.â With a nod and a low bow, youâre left all by yourself in your sprawling chambers. Wondering, somewhat in amusement, whether youâd be let off this marriage pact if all the other suitors suddenly left as well. Hell, maybe you could marry whoever got you this necklace since they apparently know you so well.Â
And you swear - maybe it was the fatigue from trekking last night, maybe it was the stress from the past month - but you swear the wind picks up in its chilly bite. Howling just low enough that it sounds like a deep, taunting cackle.Â
The necklace doesnât leave its palace around your neck for the next few days. You still didnât know whoâd gifted it to you - right inside your chambers for godâs sake - and if either of the two suitors remaining knew, they didnât make any indication of it either.Â
Three, technically, but it seemed that the more the days passed, the less you saw of the mysterious king of the Northern kingdom.Â
While Sukuna and Naoya had taken it upon themselves to woo you by joining you in your daily activities, he hadnât even shown his face to you yet. You were sure your father wouldâve had him humiliated and thrown out of the palace already if he wasnât afraid for his life.Â
But you didnât mind, because you saw enough of Satoru to make up for King Gojo and Kashimo. The man seemed well and fully intent to stick by your side, talking yourselves well into the night.Â
It was on a night like this - sprawled out along the plush armchairs in the very library youâd met, only a few days after Kashimoâs departure - you asked, âSatoru, what color are your eyes?â
That makes him pause in the middle of his extremely animated story about how heâd caught Earl Yaga in the middle of an artistic dance routine. The baritone of his voice cracking so uncharacteristically as he responds with, âWh-why do you ask, princess?â
âBecause.â you roll your eyes. âIn four days mâgonna be marrying, and it might just be your king. Yet, I donât even know his attendantâs eye color - what type of good queen would I be then?â
You knew it was a flimsy excuse, truthfully you just wanted to see Satoru. All of Satoru.
âNot many have wanted to look into my eyesâÂ
You tilt your head, âHow come?â
âWell, I can assure you that they arenât half as alluring as yours.â Satoru pushes back your tiara ever-so-slightly to reveal your face to him better, fingers dancing down to fiddle with your pendant. âYouâre a strange one, arenât ya, flower?â he chuckles, face inching closer to yours - and for a moment, you think he might do something else. âTell me, how are the wedding preparations going?â
Ah, right - the wedding preparations. Your wedding preparations, to someone else.Â
Did you want him to do something else?
âW-well-â you pull back from his hypnotic presence. Heart lurching, necklace burning cold into your skin. âSukuna keeps trying to teach me his very particular diet, I swear Iâve spent much more time with Uraume learning it than with him- theyâre a sweetheart though, I canât complain.â Eyes trying to avoid the intensity of his gaze, âOh- and Naoya still talks about his weaponry, however, I think his Zenin elders had a word with him because he asked to meet me in the gardens tomorrow evening to actually get to know me for once.â
You brave to take a look at Satoru at the end of his spiel - only to be met with a face you never thought youâd see. His mouth a tight gash, jaw ticking, and you could almost hear the grinding of his teeth.
Terrifying. Magnetic.Â
Powerful.Â
The library was always cold - but you fail to suppress a shiver at the sudden grip in the air. âS-Satoru?â
And suddenly, at the mere sound of your voice, everything clicks back to normalcy. Youâre staring that familiar grin painted onto his face again, musing slyly, âHow much dâyou wanna bet heâll ask about your weaponry instead?â
âOh, shut up.â
Itâs only much, much later at night when youâre forced to retire early - Satoru slipping past the library earlier than usual with groans of his âattendant dutiesâ that you realize - he didnât answer your question.Â
---
âP-princess, will you be alright going alone? I donât think-â
âItâll be alright, Ichiji, Iâm just meeting Lord Naoya.â you wave off the stammering man. Tugging your velvety coat snugly around your body, âHonestly, you act like I havenât been out in the gardens alone before.â
And it was true, since returning from his little meeting with the Kashimo court, your jumpy attendant seemed even more so - and you didnât even know that was even impossible. Always peeking cautiously behind corners of the winding hallways, always hovering close by you even when his duty didnât require it.Â
Heâd told you - in that quiet, shaky voice of his - that Kashimo was well, and headed straight for his kingdom to fulfill emergency duties. To which youâd accepted - you understood the gravity of responsibility, after all.Â
âBut- but, your highness!â he gasps, pulling you out of your little reverie. âI donât think- with the way he-â
A spine-chilling breeze rustles the nearby tree, sending shivers down your spine. Howling in your ears. You squint your eyes against the cold, âSorry, what was that, Ichiji?â
But the man in front doesnât speak - fuck, you didnât even know if he was breathing. Face a sickly pallor, mouth gaping open and shut like he wanted to say something - he needed to say something. Yet, he wasnât even looking at you, wide eyes locked on something over your shoulder.Â
âAre you-â Your body holds you back, feeling two burning eyes on you - and you have to force yourself to look over your shoulder. Only to see- nothing? â-are you alright?â
Seeing nothing out of the ordinary, youâre turning back to face your attendant - only to see him sprinting back down the entrance as fast as his knobbly legs could carry him.Â
âIâll see you tomorrow, then!â you call, hoping it echoed far enough to be heard.
Strange.Â
Itâs all you can think about for the next half an hour youâre seated on that dainty, painted bench in the middle of the palace gardens, waiting for your potential future husband. And for the next hour. And the next.Â
Itâs by the time the sun has fully set, when twinkling stars are dotting the night sky that you settle with the conclusion that yes, it seems that Naoya has already made his decision about the marriage. And no it doesnât end with a wedding.Â
âDammit.â you spit, running a hand through the hair you had Nobara fuss about with. âSânot like I wanted to marry you anyway, bastard.â
And you didnât - you really didnât. Whenever you dared to imagine walking down that decorated aisle, Naoya was the last person you saw.
But seated alone and abandoned, trying to cover yourself from the biting chill of the night, you never felt more like an unworthy heir. Fuck, if no one wanted to marry you how would you even dare to think of taking over the throne?
Maybe you should just-
âWe have got to stop meeting like this, flower. Sâlike youâre haunting me.â
âSatoru!â you gasp, throwing yourself into his embrace. Youâre reaching up to loop two arms around his neck, âOh, you wouldnât believe it. That asshole had the audacity to stand me up.â Pulling back so your face ghosts his, âI got all dolled up just for him to leave me like this. As if I wanted to be with him, I was just trying to be a good- a good h-host and-âÂ
Suddenly, youâre struck with the realization of how close you two actually are. You could count every crease on his blindfold, pinpoint exactly where every dimple at the corner of his grin was.Â
Your hands slide their way down to his sculpted chest, pushing slightly. â-I apologize, this was forward of me.â
But his arms only tighten around your waist - when did they even get there? Large and steady, pulling you back to nuzzle his face into the crook of your neck, your racing pulse. âStay.â he groans, and he sounds slightly out-of-breath, heavy exhales tickling your ear.
âWe canât be caught like this, Satoru.â you breathe, but that familiar little tug has you shuffling closer. Breathing in that familiar metallic sweet scent youâve grown to love, âI- Iâm getting-â Bile creeps up at the back of your throat, and you laugh bitterly. âI think Iâm getting married in three days, yâknow? To Lord Sukuna, I assume, since two of my suitors ah- ran away and the other refuses to even see my face.â
His thick fingers dig deeper into the extravagant corset at your waist, âI know. Fuck- donât I know.â
Itâs a steady beat of silence, so still. So tense you could hear every stuttering heartbeat of yours, and strangely enough, you had the nagging feeling that he could, too.Â
âYou could just marry me.â Satoruâs abrupt confession breaks the silence, and you find yourself sinking deeper into his soft coat. Wrapping yourself up in his heady presence. âBe my queen. You wouldnât have to worry about duties or elders or- or vampires.â
And the night was still. So still.Â
Despite the way your heart races, eyes blinking up in disbelief, you find it in yourself to deadpan, âF-funny. Do I have to give you my soul for that as well?â Oh, some stupid little part of you think you might just have.
And youâd expected Satoru to crack a laugh, to give you a teasing smile while he carried on that little inside joke between the two of you. Youâd expected him to no sooner shove you off and talk about it being late. Hell, a part of you even expected this to be some elaborate set-up from the elders to get you caught in such a compromising position with the no-longer stranger from the Northern kingdom.Â
But, no. Itâs anything but that - everything but that.Â
Because the taller man only rasps, nose-to-nose now, âNo.â Sounding like his sanity was slipping away from him with every breath, fingers making their dance down to twirl your sapphire pendant between them. âIâd give you mine.â
You can feel his breath fanning your cheeks, head dipping slowly - so torturously slowly. As if he was giving you ample opportunity to run away if you wanted to. But you donât think you could move for the life of you.Â
Instead, youâre dipping closer, gliding the tip of your thumb over his defined cheekbone. Mere millimeters away - just one push. Another hand of yours steadies at the back of his neck, feeling those snowing locks under your fingers.Â
One.Â
Your thumb dips just under the seam of his blindfold - unwillingly.Â
âYour highness.â Satoruâs voice is cold, his fingers lacing with your own even colder. Something eerie. And even with the delicate touch you could feel the power thrumming through Satoruâs body. âThis is for you.â
You can only stand there in shocked silence as the moment shatters, and he produces a wild rose as if out of thin air. âConsider it from King Gojo.â Touch searing against yours when he hands it to you, you feel drunk off of him âPerhaps the night is late now.â
Right. The king.Â
When youâre walking back in the directions of the palaceâs warm lights, you donât think youâve ever felt safer. Strangely enough.Â
âSatoru.â
âYes?â
âIâm onto you.â
âYouâre onto me.â heâs tucking the bloom over your ear. Before stepping back into the inky pool of shadows beside the entrance you came from. âSweet dreams, flower.â
That night, when you tuck yourself into bed, you swear you hear a faint whisper of those same three words lulling you to sleep. Over and over.Â
Sweet.
Dreams.
Flower.Â
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Floral preservation was one of the lessons youâd been forced to attend growing up in the palace, but even you didnât know how that wild rose Satoru gifted you hadnât wilted yet.Â
It remained as fresh and prim as the night it was picked, bluish pink petals never fading. You didnât keep it safely in a bowl of water amongst the other plants and flowers in your bedroom. Somehow, never out of place, always tucked safely behind your ear in the days that followed. Perhaps it was improper to keep it on you even when you were being fitted into an engagement gown to be promised off to another man. But Satoru didnât complain, and you didnât either.Â
With Kashimo departing for his kingdom early, and Naoya apparently following in his footsteps due to âirrevocable differencesâ, it was now almost confirmed that the future king was to be Lord Sukuna. Not like King Gojo had made any effort to reach out - and Satoru hadnât mentioned it either.Â
Satoru.Â
Things wereâŠthe same after that night, and you didnât know what to make of it.
It must be done, you sigh, wincing at the pinch of the flowing white dress being suited onto you by the bustling tailor. At least it could be worse, even if youâd ratherâŠ
âHonestly, young people these days.â Yaga speaks up from where he was fussing with the silken hem of your gown for tomorrow. âI heard of that Naoya brat leaving out of nowhere, princess. My condolences.âÂ
âAh-â you startle, not expecting to be addressed. âItâs not your fault, we likely didnât mesh all that well. I just wish he left a note- Honestly, Iâm lucky to even have a suitor left after these six days.â
Another grimace leaves you when you feel another tweak of pins pricking at your skin. The other man hums lowly, âDonât say that, anyone would be lucky to have you. Anyway-â He gets up from his position kneeling, towering over you to admire his own work. âHow do you like it, your highness?â
You let out a gasp when you face the floor-length mirror, âOh my god, itâs perfect.â The dress was regal, decadent. With flowing tresses resembling a petals, and gilded gold and blue weaved into the fabric.Â
Blue.Â
âI fashioned it after that necklace and flower of yours.â You unwittingly reach for that familiar pendant, âI ah- forgive the assumption, but I assumed you would be wearing them both at the betrothal ceremony tomorrow, princess?â
Taking another long look in the mirror, you nod, âYeah. I will.â
---
âI knew it.â he laughs shrilly. âI fuckinâ knew there was something wrong with you. As soon as I saw you butterinâ the princess up in the library, I knew you were a fuckinâ freak.â
The other man only responds with ominous silence, letting labored breathing cut through the bone-chilling air. Clearly unsatisfied, âWhat? Not gonna talk now? Arenât ya just in it for the crown like me? Have the bitch, just give me the crown.â Goading now, âI bet youâre not even an attendant are ya- I know what you are-â
His words are cut off with another choked-up gasp, followed shortly by a strained growl. âI know- what you are-â
Red stains the marble floor - a problem for later.Â
âI know, King Gojo.â And itâs the last thing he sees. âAnd youâll reap what you sow, sheâll never love you.â
Blue.Â
âYouâve haunted me too long, flower.â
âSatoruâ!â you scream, throwing your soft bed sheets off your body.Â
It was burning - you were burning, gasping for the cold lungfuls of air that filled your empty bedroom. Mind bleary, distantly, you register that itâs around daybreak - tiny fingers of golden sunlight just barely dipping through your window - your open window.Â
Hastily, youâre tumbling out of bed to slam it shut. Heart still pounding when you take in the mess of flower petals from those congratulatory bouquets youâd gotten. Ruined. Only the stems left in the vases after that sudden, chilling wind.Â
âWhat-â Your eyes dart around to look over your dresser, where you always kept Satoruâs wild rose. And a shiver creeps down your spine when you realize it lay snug tucked behind your ear, safe and sound. Exactly where you didnât keep it. â-happened?â
You couldnât settle back into bed after that - couldnât even think about it. So you find yourself reaching for your wardrobe of dresses, running your fingers along the intricate gown made for your engagement ball tonight. Your engagement to Sukuna.Â
If this was the nightmare, and tonight was to be the dream - why did your stomach turn so?
---
It was difficult convincing Nobara to let you keep the wild rose on after getting ready.Â
âBut thatâs so last season.â she bemoans. âNo offense, your highness, but even old lady Ogami wouldnât be caught dead wearing flowers in her hair these days.â
Youâre giving her your best puppy dog eyes, âPlease, Nobara?â
âNo.â
âIâll let you raid my exclusive wardrobe the next time you want to play dress-up?â
â...â
Which was how you found yourself shoved into a dress that was way too gorgeously palatial, barely even having the time to admire the lush gold and blue decorations around the sparkling ballroom before you were being ushered next to your father on his throne.Â
You fiddle with your ringed fingers, feeling more and more like a lamb sent to slaughter - a very opulent slaughter - with each step.Â
âI am so proud of you for this week, and you look absolutely divine, my love.â your father whispers into your ear once youâre up on the crushed velvet platform. âI hear from Ichiji that you know, I apologize we couldnât go through with this marriage under better circumstances.â
You shake your head, giving him a calm smile - youâd already forgiven him, sometimes there was duty far greater than any man.Â
âMy people, as promised, we are gathered once more to celebrate the joining of two hands - and two kingdoms.â The king projects his voice out to the eager crowd, âTogether, these two young loves will face their duty. They will face the dangers. They will face our future.â
The thought had you clenching your fist into the soft fabric of your gown, looking down at your feet in a bow.Â
âAs I did with my father before me - God rest his soul - the future king and queen will oversee their responsibilities to protect our people from those treacherous vampires. The elders-â he stops short, eyes widening at the empty seats on the balcony - where the table of elders always sat. Abandoned. Chilling. â...have decreed, in accordance with our princess, to introduce my daughter to you all as our future queen-â
Your father gestures a hand your way, and you step forwards to cheers, still not daring to look up. And all you could see were two, gold-toed boots stepping into your field of vision.
â-and our future king!â
âLook up, flower, this is the best part.â
Gasping, you raise your head - Satoru.
âY-you?âÂ
He smiles that pearly smile at you, one that makes your knees weaken, âMe.â Before leaning down conspiratorially, âBetter get moving now, the king just declared that the big bad Northern king and the precious princess will have their first dance as a couple.â
It felt like you were moving through a dream as you slip your hand into his, flinching at the feeling of his cold lips meeting the back of your hand.
The crowd of whispering nobles part to make a path for the two of you, and Satoru is so gentle when he leads you into the middle of the dance floor. Weightless on his feet, swiftly placing a burning hand on your waist - just below where the elders would consider proper.Â
The other intertwining with yours, you barely even register the slow, romantic tune playing from the orchestra.Â
âI bet you have questions.â he whispers, breath fanning your cheeks.Â
You take in his tall figure, the rows of medals, gleaming only half as bright as the smile that makes its way onto your face. Hissing, âThat doesnât cover the half of it, King Gojo.â
âI-I apologize. I canât apologize enough but-â
âThough, I did have a nagging feeling about the fifth time you talked yourself up.â you smirk.
Satoru throws his head back in a loud cackle, echoing through the hushed crowds - no doubt gossiping about this being the Northern king, that fearful beast that ruled over the Gojo family. âI know.â His hand comes up momentarily to brush over your sapphire necklace, âAnd Iâll spend our entire lives making it up to you, flower.â
Goosebumps dance down your arm, your spine, right down to where Satoru held a firm grip on your hip. You two waltz around the edge of the dance floor, perfectly in time. Through the crowd of grumbling lords, the orchestra, past the table of foods.
âAnd exactly how long would the rest of our lives be, Satoru?â
Slowing right in front of that huge, reflective wall.Â
You couldnât see his eyes, but his biting gaze was all you could feel.Â
Lingering on the blue pendant nestled at your chest, the everlasting wild rose tucked behind your ear, the mirror to your right - where the twin image of you shone. Powerful, gorgeous, everything that a monster like him could never have because he wasnât standing there right next to you. His kind never could.Â
In the back of your mind, you registered collective gasps sounding all around you - the rest of the ball attendees thatâd also taken note of the lack of Satoruâs reflection. But your eyes stay locked on him.Â
A thumb hooks under his blindfold, and he grimaces. âYou really were onto me, huh, flower?â
Tugging.Â
Your fingers tighten around his, unable to let the most fearsome of creatures escape from your grasp. âYou mustâve been onto me, too, Satoru.â
Pulling.Â
All you see is a flash of a regal nose bridge, and the flutter of thick white lashes - before every single chandelier in the ballroom snuffs out at once. Cloaking the room in unnatural darkness, it sends every single knight and noble into a frenzy.Â
And then, he opens his eyes.Â
âITâS HIM-â
âA body! A BODY FOUND IN THE ROYAL GUEST SUITEâ
âVAMPIRE! STAY BACK-â
Oh, itâs blue.Â
That crystal blue.Â
And then itâs black.
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SLAM!
âIf you must kill me.â Satoruâs voice sounds from somewhere above you. You blink away the darkness, feeling your bleary gaze try and adjust to that unfamiliar high ceiling, the outlines of hauntingly beautiful paintings on it. His ragged breaths cut through your thoughts once more, hastily folding your hand to grip your pendant. âIf you must kill me, then I prefer you do it with your own hands, princess.â
You canât tell whose hand is trembling more - yours or his. Distantly, you realize youâre being pushed up against a luxuriously padded wall, one youâd never seen before in your life.Â
Where were you?
âThe Gojo palace- Please-â he reads your mind, voice breaking at the end of his plea. Gasping - and you can discern two elongated teeth at his canines. Fangs, you realize with a shiver. âYou may leave if you want to, you may kill me for what Iâve done. My life is in your hands.â
âSatoru.â you soothe in a hushed voice, despite the way your head was reeling. The Gojo palace? âI wonât kill you.â
âBut-â
âSatoru, what does this necklace mean?â You beg, and at this point, youâre not surprised that the necklace is from him - because it was an exact replica of the two burning eyes staring back at you. The only source of light right now, glowing a blue youâd finally found after a lifetime. âWhy did you-â you gulp, heart lurching. âWhy did you hand me yourâŠlife?â
Soft lips play right over your rapid pulse, murmuring into your skin, âSâmy soul.â A long, pale index of his plays with the pendant. âThe only part of my soul thatâs living, gilded into a necklace to be kept in the safest place I know. You.â
âBut-â you cry out, trying to get another look at his eyes - but your fiancĂ© only kisses deeper at your neck. Nibbling at the thundering beat just below. âBut why did you give it to me?â
âWho else would I give it to, if not for my mate?â
Mates - there were a thousand and one books and official documents detailing everything from a vampireâs killing pattern to the aphrodisiac toxins found in their blood. But the research on a vampireâs mate was far and few between.
Perhaps owing to the lack of willing mates that can come out without persecution, or perhaps due to the vampiresâ intense rumored mating rituals. But it didnât go without its own gossip, you were no stranger to the ladies of the court tittering about how morbidly âromanticâ it was that mates were akin to soulmates - how it was an invisible string connecting two people to share a life, a soul.Â
A vampireâs one and only mate.
Satoru was pinning you harder to the wall now, his pink tongue darting out to lick over your pulse. The fingers holding onto the necklace were now tilting your chin up at him, âSpeak to me, flower.â
âIâm your mate?â you whimper, your lips ghosting over his. Already knowing the answer, but fuck you needed to hear it from him. âWhat does that mean exactly?â
He lets out a pained grunt, pressing his forehead gently against yours. âIt means youâre the other half of my soul. My only one, I was born for you.â Pressing a chaste peck on there - and you swear you could feel the nip of two sharp canines against your skin. âThe one Iâll fight heaven and hell for, until the very last beat of my cold, dead heart.â Your fingers curl at his shoulders when his mouth moves to the shell of your ear. âThe one Iâll kill for, take out every measly scum that thinks they can get with my mate.â
He huffs out a burst of cold laughter when your breath hitches, probably reading over the thoughts running through your mind - Satoru killed them. The guards, Kashimo, Naoya- fuck, maybe even Sukuna. He killed them. He killed them. He killed them. He killed them.Â
You shiver, âA-and all the wind? The whispers? I thought it was just you these past week b-but- All my life, that was you?â
You know. You knew.Â
Another kiss - this time to the corner of your eye, and Satoru licks a long, content stripe up the big fat tears unwillingly welling up behind your eyes. He groans at the salty taste of you, taking in a long, drawn-out breath. âYes.â
All it takes is that single word for your entire body to collapse, thankfully onto an awaiting Satoru. He holds your entire body weight with one hand around your waist, the other coming up to swipe his thumb under those tears rolling down your cheeks now.Â
He kisses your cheek, âAll your life.â The corner of your lips, âAnd all of mine.âÂ
Run away run away run away run away-
But you canât - you donât want to.
Your lips wobble when he nuzzles down your face, leaving a trail of hot kisses with his cold, cold mouth. âAs soon as I learned to use my powers - was just a brat you see - I just had to see my mate. To smell her scent.â Heâs inhaling deeply again, hands groping over your engagement gown. âLo and behold, there was you. A cute lilâ princess around my age, tuckered out and fast asleep.â Lingering at your jaw, the hand tight around your waist pulls you painfully closer. Satoruâs knee wedging itself between your trembling thighs, âImagine my surprise when she took one look at me and cried. Scared me enough to teleport outta there as soon as you opened that smart mouth, flower.â
And the thought of Satoru - tiny and determined - teleporting halfway across the land only to be yelled at by you has you huffing out a shock of laughter.
âSo when I heard through the grapevine about your potential engagement, fuck- I couldnât have ran out of this palace faster. Was so excited I fuckinâ forgot to teleport, too. Even if you were afraid of the âcruel Northern king.ââÂ
Fuck - thatâs right. He mustâve heard your thoughts that time you met him in the library.Â
Satoruâs tone drops to a low simper, so close now that you could feel every slight curve of his grin. Every twitch of his fingers sweeping up and down your exposed skin, feeling the delicious thrum of your veins. He could bite you right now - easily. Â âAnd luckily, as I grew up, so did my ability to blend in with the darkness.â Eyes boring into yours, something so vulnerable in them now. âBut you found me, you always did.â
âSatoru.â you angle your head upwards. âKiss me.â
And how could he ever deny you?
You wince at the slight pinch of Satoruâs teeth - his fangs - as he crashes his lips into yours in a greedy kiss. Sliding his tongue over to taste those candied lips heâs been dreaming of for years.Â
âFuck-â he breathes out through his nose, jaw sagging open further to kiss you deeper. âFuck, princess.â
Strong arms pin you harder against the wall, and youâre blindly reaching out to reciprocate even a fraction of Satoruâs neediness. Just dragging your hips up and down his muscled thighs. Sinful.Â
Shit, it was so endearing to him seeing you struggle to touch him this way. And with a flick of a wrist, the candle chandeliers hung high above your heads are lighting up at once. âSâthat better, flower?â
It takes every bit of will in you to manage to pull away, yet the thought of seeing Satoru - of really seeing Satoru is what spurs you to break the kiss. Delicate strings of saturated spit snapping in the non-existent air between you two, you take a long look at your new husband.
Fuck, he was so pretty.
You always knew he was.Â
But even with his face tilted downwards, within the soft light tinting those snowy strands a sunset yellow - you could make out the pretty pink flush all the way from his glossy, ravaged lips, up, up, up to his delicate cheeks - he looked like the last thing from a monster.Â
âNo youâre pretty.â he hums, and youâre still not used to him reading your mind. Head nodding downwards, âJust look, grinding on my thigh like such a slut.â
What met you was a dark pool of slick saturating his trousers, just peeking out over the hem of your dress. It makes you give another lingering, experimental grind.
âSatoruââ youâre letting out a honeyed drag of his name, reveling in the way it makes him swallow heavily. âYou can hear my thoughts, right?â Look at me.Â
Slowly - but surely - familiar blue meets yours. Half-lidded, pupils blown, and if you didnât know any better youâd have said there were tiny sparks of lightning at the corners of his long white lashes.
Youâve been haunting me my whole life, Toru.
And it was an accident - it really was, your freshly kissed brain too hazy to slur out Satoruâs full name. But the impromptu little nickname has him dragging forwards like he was magnetized.Â
A low growl escaping when heâs kissing you again. And again. And again and again and-
âSay it-â Two hands are tugging at those tedious ribbons tying your decadent gown together. Pulling. âSay it again fâme.â Ripping.Â
The more his lips are assaulting yours, the more the dress slips further and further down your shoulders. Tattered. The soft satin leaving goosebumps down your spine as it reveals your neckline - all that skin for him to ruin. To mark.Â
âOh-â youâre squealing when one of Satoruâs fangs prick a bit too hard at your lip. Feeling a hot flow of crimson bleed out, the feeling has you so weak. So drunk. âQuite eager, arenât ya?â
âYou have no idea.â he groans again. Soft tongue moving from swirling around your own to lazily pool your blood on it. And you canât imagine what about the metallic taste would be so euphoric, but heâs letting out his loudest drag of your name yet. Eyes rolling to the back of his head like heâs just tasted a personal slice of heaven. âFuck- fuck you have no idea.â
You moan into the kiss when he bites down again on your already-bruised lower lip, âIâve always wanted to do this-â Slow, slow hands kneading up your waist, at a dizzying tempo matching his mouth down your jaw, your neck. Hips bucking, you feel the outline of something so hard between his legs. â-to kiss you. To-â Tethering on the sensitive area of your pulse, â-bite.â
In a split-second, youâre sinking down into plush silk sheets, swallowing you whole in a king-sized bed you didnât even realize was in the room before.Â
âS-Satoru, did you teleport us again?â you gasp, eyes adjusting to the intricate paintings on the ceiling that you hadnât gotten to admire before. Of white-haired youths and roses, of cold, dark palaces and- and you.Â
You - when you were younger, sleeping peacefully while a little boy watches intrigued from the corner. You - passed out in the library after a long night of reading, two pale hands wrapping a blanket around your shoulders. You - your brows furrowed, head cocked while you pushed past nobles to search for that flash of his blue. You, you, you.
You.Â
âI can hear the gears in that pretty head turning.â Satoru grins, still kissing you in a languid graze of lips. âAnd as much as I love it when you hah- admire my lonely paintings, Iâd rather you pay attention to-â A low groan curdles at the back of his throat when heâs grinding his massive clothed erection against the syrupy spot at your core. â-me.â
Thereâs a dark little huff of laughter and with one last bite at the side of your neck, Satoruâs unapologetically tearing right through the middle of your gown.Â
And you know itâs made with the finest fabrics the country has to offer, you know that no normal man should be able to even rip a tiny shred through your dress - but Satoru is no ordinary man.
Your spike of disappointment is quickly overshadowed by cold breath hovering over your exposed tits. âOh, so perfect fâme.â heâs groaning, deep and primal. Biting down on your hardened nipple, âYa think those uptight elders your court has- ah, had would appreciate me desecrating their precious princess before marriage?â
Through gasps, you peek down at his wicked tongue, swirling around the sensitive spots of your areola. âWho- who gives a shit.â
âSo feisty.â The peaks of your tits are left coated in him as Satoru pulls away. âSo addictive.â Pinching your soft flesh between his teeth - just hard enough that you worry heâs out to draw blood again. âSo- so-âÂ
Words are failing Satoruâs sharp mouth as he kisses his way down your body. The valley of your chest, your stomach, your hips.
Down, down, down-
âFuck, Satoru-â youâre hissing when he easily pulls the pathetic remains of your dress off and onto the floor. The rest of your inner skirts easily following afterwards. âAre you gonnaâŠâ
âMâafraid not.â he licks sloppy circles at the skin of your thighs. Tasting, nipping, leaving little marks with his fangs for later. Sloppily soothing his tongue over the tiny droplets of blood beading from the bites, he murmurs stubbornly, âNot until you address me correctly.â
Hesitantly, you reach out a limp hand to thread through his dampening white tresses. Tugging softly to lock those devouring blue eyes with yours, âPlease, Toru?â
You get absolutely no warning when he kisses right through that flimsy excuse of your drenched panties to slide his tongue up and down your sopping wet slit. Up and down up and down up and-
âSh-shit, Toru-â you moan when heâs just dipping the very tip barely past your puffy folds. The fabric of your underwear still sticking to you, âStop being such a tease, goddammit ngh-â
âWhy?â Of course, he toys with your patience even now, addicted to those needy whines falling from your lips. âI jusâ wanna play with my princessâs pretty pussy. What am I getting out of it?âÂ
You smirk, not even having to move your pretty mouth to know you had him in the palm of your hand already. Iâd be your mate for life.Â
Itâs all you can do to watch with satisfaction as the great Gojo Satoru gasps - gasps. Slick-glossed lips falling into a soft oh! Hazy eyes widening almost-comically, and at full heady attention while he takes a few seconds to mull over your words.Â
RIP!
In an instant, your soaked underwear is ripped clean off to bare your dripping cunt for him, wrapped tightly around Satoruâs fingers and disappearing down below to where your imagination couldnât handle.Â
âOh, such a pretty pussy.â he coos, thumbing apart your puffy folds to admire your lewdly winking cunt. Glistening and so so needy, you jolt when he bullies two long fingers past your sloppy entrance. With your greedy hole swallowing every slender inch of Satoruâs fingers easily, âSo needy too. This all fâme?â
As if to prove his point, his pink lips wrap around your throbbing clit, grinding his tongue over the ravaged tip. The harsh texture of his tastebuds rolling over every inch of you he could reach.
âY-yes-â you squeal, hips bucking down mindlessly to try and match his relentless tempo. âSâonly for you.â
âThaâs what I love to hear-â Satoruâs cheeks hollow when he sucks on your sensitive little nub - hard. âSweeter than I even imagined, shit-â
Every pump of his merciless fingers in and out of your cunt drags along your gummy walls. Deftly curling to prey at those hidden sweet spots of yours he just knew would wrench out such throaty moans from you - and fuck, Satoru thinks- no, he knows that the sound is is favorite song.Â
âYouâre makinâ me- hah making me fall in love all over again.â he gruffs out into your cunt. The pads of his fingers pressing into the cushiony ends of your pussy. âBecause look how messy you are- how loud.â
You didnât know if he had mind-control powers on top of mind-reading, because itâs as if youâre on auto-pilot when your lolling head is whirling down to look at the absolute sin made of you below. Satoru - running his mouth a mile a minute to send white-hot vibrations along your clit. His milky fingers buried knuckle-deep to stretch out your poor cunt. Your sweet sweet juices drooling all over them in such an obscene sheen down his palm, his wrist.Â
He whines, âMakinâ me wanna-â You jolt when heâs biting down so dangerously around your clit. âWanna-â
Satoru doesnât end up finishing his sentence - and he doesnât have to.Â
Because heâs pausing his make-out with your clit to spit once. Twice. A thick thumb swiping at the intentional splatter of saliva marking your skin, before surging forwards even deeper - you didnât even think that was possible. But Satoru has the tip of his nose rubbing methodical circles against your clit, jaw grinding at the base of your pussy, tongue flattening out your pussy lips.
Messy. Harsh.Â
âOh- oh my god, Toru-â youâre keening at the feeling of his wet muscle trying to squeeze in past the fingers still continuing their assault on your entrance. âIt- it wonât fitââ
âShhh shhh, sâokay, princess.â he hushes, letting another round glob of spit wet your clingy pussy. âYou can take it. You will - otherwise how are you gonna take your husband, hm?â
That little comment has connotations that make your plushy walls clamp down vice-like around his fingers - his tongue. And youâre angling your head just right, blinking away the lustful haze in your eyes to spy down at the rapid, jerky movements of his other hand. Devouring gaze dropping down to-
Oh.Â
Oh fuck.
It was difficult to even look at the sight below - your panties, soaked and completely see-through with slick and precum, wrapped prettily around what you could make out to be Satoruâs aching cock. Standing proud, twitching wildly with every drag of his fist up and down his glistening length.Â
âFuck-â he groans, taking the opportunity to devilishly slip his tongue past your feeble entrance. âFuck fuck fuck fuck- yâlike this, huh?â Drawled out little praises now muffled as he fucks you on his tongue the way he wished he could with his cock. In and out in and out in and out. Pulling back to eye your gaping hole, âI can feel yâgetting wetter for me is it because-â Before surging back forwards, as if heâs addicted. âBecause-â Again.âFuck donât clench around me that way. Was hard enough trying not to fuck you stupid right there in the middle of the ballroom.âÂ
You whine, tears flowing down freely at the sheer pleasure at this point. âY-you-â you gasp, your five fingers splaying out over Satoruâs head. Pushing even harsher, âYou hngh- talk too much- mâso close-â
Partially because you really needed those pretty lips back at your heated core, partially because every word tumbling from his mouth had you throbbing embarrassingly, your slick spreading a glossy sheen on the sheets underneath you.Â
âOh yeah? Heh, anything for you, flower.â Satoru grins such a sly, sultry grin and you feel it against one set of your swollen lips. âAbsolutely anything.â
In and out in and out. He has his brows furrowed now, concentrated on having every flick and divot of movement pushing you closer and closer towards the edge. Faster. Sloppier. You have half the mind to wonder whether it didnât hurt - whether Satoruâs tongue wasnât cramping up from how fast he was going, whether his fingers werenât tired already.
Out of the corner of your spotty vision, you can see those stuttering squeezes of Satoruâs hand speed up. Trying desperately to match each bullying push of his tongue and his fingers into your overstuffed pussy.Â
The thought makes you whine, âOh my god- Toru, mâgonna cum.â And shit, at this point itâs too much. You couldnât think - you couldnât even breathe. âMâso close please.â Barely able to even register anything but Satoru Satoru Satoru-
Itâs why you donât even realize at first when youâre finally cumming - Satoru does, though. He feels it in the way your heavenly walls are closing down on his fingers, clenching around him so tight that it was almost difficult to fuck you through your orgasm. Waves of electric pleasure crashing into you and you think youâre drowning.
âThaâs it.â he rasps. âCum fâme like that, thaâs it- thaaatâs it, such a good lilâ wife- a perfect mate.âÂ
The fingers stuffed deep inside your pussy are being pulled out in a flash - not letting you waste a moment of your heady high before heâs toying ravenously with your swollen clit. Pinching, and rolling between two soft fingers.Â
âO-oh fuck, mâ-cumming? Mâcumming mâcumming-â you moan deliriously, mind just now catching up. Your hips drag your sloppy pussy all over Satoruâs pretty face. Just drenching his noble features with your gushing mess. âFeels too ah- good, Toru.â
And he takes it like itâs everything he needs - everything heâs ever wanted.Â
Jaw falling slack to let your juices slide down his throat, tongue lolling out flick your spasming cunt through your high. Unstopping. Unwavering.Â
Even when your vision stops tingeing with black at the edges, even when you think youâre sane enough to form a coherent thought. Even when your climax is bating enough that every flick of Satoruâs tongue only sends almost painful thrums of pleasure down your spine.
âW-wait mâdone-â you sob, tasting the salty stream of tears splashing down your face now. âSâtoo sensitive- ngh-â
When he doesnât show any signs of stopping anytime soon, you try again - this time thinking the embarrassing thought out loud. IâŠI really want you inside me now, Toru. Please?
And he pauses - jolting, as if some dark, primal part of him had just been called back to life. Tongue still hot on your cunt, fist still greedy around his rock-hard shaft.Â
âF-fuck youâre gonna be the death of me, flower.â
And before, you couldnât get enough of those striking blue eyes, but now you couldnât escape them.
With inhuman speed, heâs shuffling up the soaked sheets. âAn absolute fuckin-â Slick-glossed lips meet yours, smearing along the combination of juices till the lower half of your face was as dripping wet as Satoruâs. â-minx, yâknow that?â
âWh-what can I say?â you tilt your head with a smirk, lips a bit too loose than youâd like - but it didnât matter anyway, he was in your thoughts. Your mind. âIâm your mate, after all.â
He falls back onto his knees at that sinful little sentence of yours, throwing his head back in a guttural groan. âFuck- youâre mine alright. See what you hah- do to me? See how this is all your fault?âÂ
If Satoru expected an answer, then he doesnât receive it. Because every snippy little retort on the tip of your tongue melts when you get a long, hard look at the angry shaft in his hand. So red and angry. Thick enough that you felt your cunt quiver already.
Delicate with prominent veins that glistened and throbbed down his long, long length with each slew of his vigorous fist. And his tip- fuck, blushed your favorite shade of weepy pink, slobbering a sheen of precum all down his wrist, his tufts of cloudy white.Â
And you realize with a jolt that he still had your panties wrapped around him - looking so tiny around Satoruâs massive cock.Â
Wordlessly, your hand replaces his.
âW-woah- fuck-â His toned waist flexes with the effort to fuck up into the soft cushion of your palm. âHow the- ngh how the fuck does your fuckinâ hand feel this good?â
âYouâre so big- fuck, donât know how Iâd- Wait you never imagined this?â you bat your eyes up with faux innocence. A thumb gliding over that deep divot on the very tip of his fat head. âBecause I sure have, Toru.âÂ
Satoruâs heavy balls smack against your arm when he shuffles down his pants even further, now fully letting you go ahead with your agonizing torture. âShit-â he yelps, eyes screwing shut at the image. âDonât- donât say that, holy shit.â
You toy with your scrap of panties, massaging every ridge and curve with it. Just dragging your hand up and down. âWould you rather I think it instead?â
Within milliseconds, two sharp fangs are poised right above your rapid pulse, a hand around your throat. âNo- no no no no-â Satoru gasps, sounding like he was at the end of his rope. And it takes him a few blinks to realize his position, immediately moving his lips up to nip at your jaw. âFuckinâ no.â Hard enough that another red pearl of blood drips out, instantly being sucked up greedily by your fiancĂ©. âGonna make me lose it before I-I ngh-â
With a pained growl, he suddenly has you sitting so prettily on his muscular lap. Your legs splayed out like such a slut, needy cunt slobbering all over where you were sat right on his demanding erection.Â
By the time youâre realizing your helpless position, itâs too late - and Satoruâs already shrugging off the rest of his pants. Buttons hitting the floor when he just tears his flowing dress shirt off.Â
âSh-show off.â you breathe, hands mapping out every dip and curve of the plane of defined muscles displayed before you. So mouthwatering.Â
âCan tell that you- ngh think mâmouthwatering, flower.â he grins. One hand kneading and groping the flesh of your ass to steady your drooling cunt to kiss at his thick tip. The other keeping one of your palms stuck to his washboard abs, up, up, up to press at his sculpted left pec. âNâ I know mâheartâs not beating, but Iâm much the same. Very- much the- same.â
And Satoruâs spent years waiting, yearning - so he doesnât waste even a second more when stuffing his cock inside your snug cunt.Â
âO-oh. Satoru- Satoru please oh-â
The stretch - fuck, the stretch. The stretch is so much that it feels like youâre being split apart. Just the bare tip of his fat cock being bullied in short, determined half-thrusts.Â
And it takes only one, lucky collision into the bullseye of your g-spot and youâre already falling apart.Â
âWait- wait wait wait mâgonna-â you gasp, your nails running down his broad, milky back in jagged red lines when youâre cumming once more. Toes curling, hips convulsing wildly on top of a smug Satoru. âOh my god, ngh- whatâve you done to me, Toru?â
âNow, let me ngh- let me tell you a little secret, hah- princess.â His hand comes up to cup your jaw, gifting a sweet kiss on your swollen lips. âThe best thing about mates?â Sharp fangs catch onto your delicate skin, âThey feel sex on a whole other level.â
And then heâs bringing down both hands to spread apart the globes of your ass. Your puffy folds are stretched to their limits when he thrusts up once. Muscled thighs flexing underneath yours. Harsh.Â
Ignoring your pleading keens and the slight resistance at the intrusion of his intimidating size, âHold on, princess- hold- fuuuuck.â Lips latch onto yours, drinking up every heady whine when your poor cunt is being fed every inch by fucking inch. âYouâre taking me so well.â
And that you were - your pussy lips bulging and struggling to accommodate Satoruâs monstrous size, but still taking him in so greedily.Â
âThere we go.â he grunts out, punctuated with heavy rams of hips. Up, up, up until you could feel Satoruâs sobbing tip graze against your cervix - your lungs. âTheeere we fuckinâ-â Pushing and pushing until there was no more, until your neglected clit was scratching against his snowy pubic hair. Ass coming to rest at his twitching balls. â-go.â
âYouâre in so deep-â youâre blabbering, cockdrunk already. The last few dredges of your high still not wearing off, it takes you a few seconds of Satoru still trying to squeeze his cock even deeper to manage to raise a hand about midway up your stomach. Feeling for that vertical bulge that was him, â-can feel you right here.â
âOh yeah?â
And like he was testing your theory, Satoru fucks up into your gummy hole in another bullying slam. Watching in wonder at the way that little divot in your stomach crashes around the same spongy cervix he was.Â
âFuck- youâre right.â he hisses. Addicted now. Immediately rocking into you with reeling, long rolls of his hips. âYouâre so- fuckinâ right.â
You canât find the energy in yourself to even yelp in surprise when Satoru immediately changes your positions so that youâre now laying fucked-out on the mattress. His domineering hips pinning you down to use you like some little cocksleeve.Â
âGod-â he pants into your open mouth, tongue swirling with your weighty one. âGod- fuck fuck fuck if heaven is real then this is it.â Each little profanity is decorated with a smoldering crash of his tip into your sweet spot. âYouâre the heaven I donât ngh- deserve, flower.â
That neat bitemark on your thigh is being jostled with the amount of ragged movement, and you wince with pain when it starts flowing again.Â
âOh- oh.âÂ
Satoruâs like a predator that has cornered his prey, and is spending hours tediously unraveling every single bit of you.Â
Sliding two smooth palms underneath your legs, theyâre urgently thrown over his large shoulders to fold you down, down, down into the meanest mating press you think you could handle - handle without fucking breaking, that is.Â
âSo good tâme.â he breathes, long tongue easily licking up that sweet nectar of your blood. âYâknow your cute lilâ brain sâtoo scrambled to even read right now.â
âH-how can I think when youâre ah! Like- like this, Toru?â
The sudden change in angle makes you scream. It makes you clamor for the headboard, the sheets, your husband when that obscenely perfect upwards curve of his dick is massaging every nook and cranny of your cunt.Â
âYeah? Feels good? Now now- donât run- awayâ heâs dragging you down those drenched sheets by the legs like some ragdoll, stuffing you more and more with his painful cock. Fucking you so relentless, like he was trying to worship every little hidden sweet spot inside your dripping cunt. âSay it- no no no, not in your head. Say it.â
And you do - a little over fifteen times when his thick hilt pecks your pussy lips over and over with each thrust when Satoru bottoms out, hitting all the way into the back of your cunt - your cervix, your g-spot - like he couldnât decide which one to bruise more.Â
âSâtoo good-â youâre gasping. Your overstimulated pussy being molded like clay to the girthy shaft kissing down your cunt. Stretching out your elastic walls until you could almost feel them take shape to his swollen cock. Feel every sensitive spot inside you being overstimulated at once with every burning massage against them. âYouâre fuckinâ me way too- too good- ngh- canât even think.â
But that wasnât enough for him.
Dipping a thumb down to circle around your clit, white-hot pleasure shoots up your spine when he lets out a deep rumble, âThink I fell in love with you when I- fuck, right then and there when I first- hah saw you all those years back.â speeding up with the sloppy staccato of his rude cock. Satoruâs words slurring now, messed up and half-prepared like the accelerating half-thrusts being bestowed upon your ravaged cunt. Like he couldnât bear to pull out completely. âThe first time you saw me, you were so afraid. Look at you- fuck, jusâ look at you now, princess.â
Each word is like a brand onto your sticky skin, accompanied by harsh smacks of Satoruâs balls against your ass, his sharp hip bones digging into your thighs. Him.
âToruââ is all you can manage to whine out, a limp hand pulling his face closer to yours. Youâre jumping with each swipe at your poor clit. âToru mâhere.â
âAnd- and yet-â heâs still blabbering, still pussydrunk while he fucks you so menacingly. Fingers sopping wet with their assault on your sensitive nub, âAnd yet I just- fuck-â He cuts himself off to give your messy hole another thick stream of spit. Coating his long, raw shaft - rubbed red with the way your gripping walls were massaging him so right - making it easier to slide in and out. âAnd yet, I just had to see you, to see the gorgeous mate I donât deserve. I couldnât live without you.â
A single overstimulated tear glistens a track down Satoruâs pretty face - one you kiss away as quickly as it appeared. Nudging open those teary, blue gaze to bore down on you.Â
Oh, he looked an absolute wreck - white hair mussed up, stray strands sticking to his forehead. Glossy lips parted, drool pooling at the corner, broken grunts leaving him with each smash of his tip back into your cunt. So blissed out.Â
Jolting at your eyes on him, Satoru feels his balls tighten so painfully. Abs burning when his pace stutters with need.Â
âYouâre haunting me, just as much as I was haunting you, Toru.â
The candles go out. Instantly.Â
And shit youâre feeling it first when when hĂ©âs cumming and cumming so hard that it almost hurts. Flashes of white startling behind his closed, glassy eyes. âShit- shit shit shit shit-â Hairs on your body raising as Satoruâs fingers draw circles on your clit so aggressively. Dragging out your high. Forcing it. âTake it- take it all, my flower. Let me paint this pretty pussy all white.â Violent, almost.
So, really, it makes sense that your third orgasm of the night was the same.Â
Just shivering, sinful tingles running from your overstimulated mind right down to where Satoru was stuffing thick white ropes of potent seed deeper and deeper down your tight channel.Â
Overspilling with each calculated ram, his cum is oozing out of the corners of your puffy lips with each furious clench of his balls. Too much.Â
And itâs all you can do to sit there and take it, feeling the sloppy dredges of cum make a mess slobbering down your thighs and his. Starting up blearily at the blurry paintings on the ceilings. The paintings of you - of a still Satoru that looked down at you with only half as much intensity and pure swirling emotion as he was right now.
Something that couldnât be painted - but would make such a pretty picture, when his fangs bite into that racing junction at your neck.
You scream a soundless scream of his name, eyes rolling to the back of your head as something warm fills your entire body.Â
Leaving your words unheard, your ravaged hole loose to let out slobbering squelches of Satoruâs cum. Blood racing and flowing right into Satoruâs greedy mouth.Â
âPrincess-â he gulps. Tongue licking up every crimson bead his crazed eyes could spot, body aching when he dares pull away from that heavenly taste. More. âPrincess princess princess- you- hngh youâre mine. All mine now.â
And heâs letting out more thick globs of cum straight into your waiting cunt. Body bowing even harder to let it seep into your elastic walls, your womb. So much more than you can take and he just keeps giving.Â
It seems like forever when Satoru finally pulls away - and within the glowing blue of his eyes, you can see the red staining his lips, dripping down those fangs, his chin. Staining the silk sheets below - staining you with so much more.Â
Before you can stop yourself, youâre reaching up to catch his lips in a bloodied kiss. Your own elongated canines catching amateurishly on his lips.Â
Satoru hisses - but he likes it. And you can tell.Â
You can read every single hypnotizing thought whirling behind those crystal blue eyes - how he wants to ravish you again, how he wants to worship you. To make you his all over, to have you make him yours. The thought makes you smile as you whisper, âIâm onto you, Toru.â
âYouâre onto me, flower.â Catching your lips in a sweet, sweet red kiss. âForever.â
A/N. This was SOOO fun to write omg yâall have no idea. If you made it this far then you get a sloppy smooch from me mwahhhh.
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Feeling B A D
#just kinda like on all fronts#physically: My knee has been popping weirdly and painfully today so i don't know if I can trust it#I've had a headache all day which has only been growing in intensity#mentally: just kinda not here?#my ability to think and communicate like a human being has deteriorated to the point where i struggle to type coherent sentences#emotionally: probably the worst ive been in months#ive kinda been stuck in a self-loathing spiral due to not really feeling like i got anything accomplished today#today has felt so long but ive done so little#that on top of some other things has me feeling kinda useless? pointless?#idk something along those lines#everyone is gone today as well so i haven't really had something to break myself out of it#on top of that#i think i hurt someone im very close to#im hoping it will be a while until they see this#i want to be over this before it becomes more of their problem#idk#i feel like im trapped in my own mind#every anxious and/or insecure thought chipping away at my already fragile confidence that i actively spent time trying to build up#i don't know#i just hope tomorrow brings something better#i doubt it#but im gonna take some sleeping drugs so that i can just skip straight to it#good night tumblr#im sure you'll be seeing me tomorrow#rant#personal
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if there's one thing i hate more than slackers in group projects its goddamn hypocrites
#this guy did jack shit for two full weeks when we're building the damn prototype#but STILL brought up the fact that most of our team blew off a report till the last minute in the beginning of march#*prototypes don't work* âsEe tHis iS wHy wE nEedEd tO hAvE a cOnvErsaTioN aBouT MS3â#like hon you lost the rights to the ây'all need to contribute moreâ argument the moment you left me hanging for 2-3 FUCKING WEEKS#like excuuuuuse me you been prioritizing extra curriculars all week get off your high horse stop lecturing everyone else about contribution#he made maybe 3 contributions? maybe?#first he 3D modeled an adapter and sent it to someone else to print (couldn't even do THAT himself smh)#then he sent the gc a sketch of an idea i roughly proposed literally the NIGHT BEFORE as his own contribution (that I ENDED UP BUILDING#then he...screwed on a few pipe fittings and called it a project :)#would be a LOT less pissed if he didn't show up to One Thing outside weekly team meetings/class#then apologize for slacking off BUT then launch into a FUCKING SPEECH ABOUT HOW HIM BEING HERE PROVES HIS COMMITTMENT#all because he DOESN'T LIKE GETTING UP EARLY. like sir. sir i am rIGHT FUCKING HERE. i was up till 4-5am working on this stfu#we've been building for three weeks and he's come into work on stuff wo me there ONCE for an HOUR#for context id spent about fifteen hours in the shop alone working on the fucking thing that WEEK#like im trying to be understanding ik tech week is hell#but i took âstepping backâ as âi only have a few hours here and there to be in the shop and will do the writeupsâ#NOT âwon't show up outside meetings AND we're splitting slides and writeups 80/20â#like id been in the lab all fuckin day and notice we have an assignment due (missed a SINGLE meeting due to exam)#and i ask him if theres anything i can do (and im thinking like look it over maybe add a spec or two)#and this fucker has the AUDACITY to ask me to write the full four paragraph summary cause he#*checks notes* copy-pasted some specs from milestone 3 so of COURSE its only fair that despite the fact I've been in the lab ALL DAY#that i write the four fuckin paragraphs too#course we're troubleshooting and he's like âdid you clean the pump? did you disassemble it and rinse it?â like yes???#i did EVERYTHING i could think of before i even bothered texting you cause i know you're fucking useless#and then he raises fifteen different concerns which while valid would have been NICE TO HEAR WHEN I SENT YOU MY INITIAL DESIGNS#y'know BEFORE i spent over fifteen hours of my free time building this damn thing#with slackers i just pick up the work and move on with my life this idiot is trying to gaslight me into thinking that he contributed fairly#when i heard âi need to step back due to play stuffâ i thought we'd be splitting it like 65:35 NOT FUCKING 95:5#and now hes probably going to give ME a poor peer review because I've been passive aggressive with him in the few meetings he showed up to#like i got shit going on too? how the fuck does he expect me to respond to being abandoned to do this shit myself
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