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a-little-slice-of-fandom · 4 years

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A) hi how ya doing? B) I miss you C) can you analyze anything of Aragon? Thank you :)

Hey anon! I’m doing good ❤️❤️❤️ thanks so much for asking! I hope you’re doing well too!

Aragon is really interesting to me, because her song is kind of like the bohemian rhapsody of six. Very few people will say that it’s their favourite, but everyone will instantly sing along because it’s so catchy! Plus, it’s a great song to follow ex-wives with. It keeps the energy up and introduces the audience to the plot of the show.

I will say this until the day I die: while I would love if more songs were as scathing as say AYWD...you could never start with those songs. It’s too much too quickly. You need the more catchy, light-hearted songs of Ex-Wives, No Way and DLUH to start with because it helps get the audience invested in the show and the plot as a whole. Six, first and foremost, will always need to work dramatically. That’s why the old, more openly bitter No Way was changed to something a little more light-hearted.

The first thing that always comes to mind when I think of Aragon is regal. She’s the queen who was married to Henry for 24 years and was a Spanish princess as well. She’s the refined, confident queen who knows her own worth and honestly? I get the vibe she just wants a little bit of respect from the other queens. While some people characterise Aragon as rather cold, I honestly don’t get that? The show portrays Aragon as a very loyal person despite all that Henry put her through, and she clearly cares for Mary and also, to a lesser extent, Parr as her god daughter (remember she calls Howard “the least relevant Katherine”...meaning she does see Parr as relevant.) and she often refers to other queens as “babe” even though she was just arguing with them five seconds earlier (harking on the idea of forgiveness, something I think Aragon is very good at in the show!). Plus, while there’s only one line referring to Mary, Aragon is always so protective of her and warm to her. In the album, Renee’s “aw, hi baby!” is the most adorable and heartwarming part of the song and it’s clear she adores her daughter, while the “oh, you don’t remember?” in the live versions is so protective of her baby. It’s honestly something we don’t discuss enough. Moreover, Aragon’s song is one of the most energetic, but she has her earnest moment of pleading as well, along with her undisputable strength of refusing to back down and accept Henry’s lies. She is also incredibly passionate when talking about something she loves or defending herself when she has to (which make sense! This was the woman who rode with an army wearing armour while pregnant. Aragon was not to be messed with!).

I personally disagree with people who try and claim that Toby and Lucy wrote Aragon as the “angry” queen because she never truly gets to the levels of boleyn or seymour (yes there’s the miscarriage argument where she does raise her voice but like...are we ignoring Seymour’s “boohoo Mary had the chickenpox” or the fact that Boleyn is also shouting in that argument??? And she usually goes louder than Aragon???) and yet she’s so often defined by that trait even though other queens share it and are even more extreme. And yes, Im fully aware of why certain people characterise aragon in this way and I’m so annoyed that even though we continually call out the fact that’s it’s problematic, it continues to happen. However Aragon does have flaws like every good character should. Aragon just won’t try and listen to the other queens. She refuses to accept that Boleyn or Seymour might have had a worse time than her. Now I personally never got the feeling that Aragon blames the other queens for anything. Her feelings are directed at Henry. Notice in now way she talks about how henry is “running around with some pretty young thing” and she refers to him having “one son with someone who don’t own a wedding ring”. Those people? They’re clearly supposed to be Boleyn and Bessie, two people who are actually on stage at the time. But Aragon doesn’t take an easy shot at either of them in her song. She doesn’t say their name or call them out or try and involve them in her song. Contrast this with DLUH where Boleyn grabs Aragon, forces her to be front and centre in this verse and then insults her constantly (“three in the bed” = airing Aragon’s and Henry’s ✨ intimate issues ✨ with the entire world while “Don’t be bitter, cause I’m fitter” and “he doesn’t want to bang you, somebody hang you” are both pretty self explanatory). I think it’s absolutely key that Aragon doesn’t blame Boleyn or Bessie or direct any misplaced feelings towards them in no way or the show. Her (very justified) feelings of anger and betrayal are (generally) directed at Henry. And that’s something so many people ignore! And I personally wish more people would be like Aragon in this regard in the real world. I don’t know if other people agree with me, but it’s your boyfriends/husbands job to not cheat on you, not someone else’s. I do know some people think that Aragon is slighting Boleyn and Bessie in that verse but if we’re sticking to tudor ideals, Aragon not mentioning them by name (in essence keeping their “dignity” and “honour” intact) would be the kinder thing to to. (Note I’m only saying this with Tudor ideals in mind. I also think Aragon fully knows that Bessie was 13 when Henry started making advances on her and again, refuses to blame Bessie for what happened because she knows she’s a victim).

However...Aragon doesn’t ever try and listen to other queens and will insult them if she has to. She (along with the other queens like Boleyn and Seymour) gets more and more defensive and petty as the show continues. However, she never gets to the same levels of hard hitting insults has say Boleyn. But I mean...Aragon was a queen who went through so much in her lifetime and never was able to really talk about it. Yes, she resisted Henry trying to get their marriage annulled, and she was one of the strongest women at the time, but she couldn’t deal with her emotions the same way that we can today. She never got to told Boleyn to go away or leave her alone. She never got to bad mouth Henry because he was the king. She was, first and foremost, a lady, and she was expected to act in a certain way all of her life. And now that she’s reincarnated in modern days, she doesn’t have to do all of those things. She can be annoyed and let it show, she can tell Boleyn all those things she wanted to do back in the day. Some actresses even lean into the idea that it’s sort of cathartic for Aragon to FINALLY just say what she wants to say without having to worry on how it would reflect on her as queen. Mind you, I still think that Aragon considers how her words would reflect on her (much more than any other queen) but she definitely has more wiggle room within the show than she did during her reign.

In addition, while the fandom also like to reduce Aragon to obsessed with her religion, I actually really like how her relationship with Catholicism is portrayed in the show. While I do concede that Aragon’s faith is sometimes reduced to the butt of the joke, that’s not always the case and I personally really enjoy how Aragon seems to gain a lot of strength from her religion, instead of it holding her back or hindering her. While I do understand why so many characters in media struggle with their religion or find it suffocating (my relationship with Catholicism is...fragile at the best of times), but I genuinely love this idea that Aragon’s faith is what guides her and gives her inner strength in times of need. I mean,,,when she’s pleading to Henry during now way, the music slows to something that sounds more like a gospel song, Aragon is kneeling with her hands clasped and there's bright white light around her (i also vaguely remember something that looks like a crucifix behind her as well? But I'm not 100 percent sure on that). At the time where Aragon is most vulnerable and needs to find inner strength and wants guidance...she turns to her religion and that's seen as a very positive thing!!! The same with Aragon's verse in Sox. Moving to a nunnery and finding friends there is something that's now postive and liberating instead of being stuffy and boring and restrictive like nunnery are often portrayed as in media. (yes I know that's also a play on Henry wanting to send Aragon into the nunnery after their divorce but I do think that there’s no malicious religion-basing in Six is a nice touch that’s often overlooked).

Finally, Aragon’s costume is quite important to her character. It is one of the more feminine outlines (especially the updated version on broadway) and I do think it’s an inadvertent issue that the queens with the more stereotypical feminine costumes are more catty whereas the more stereotypical androgynous or masculine outfits (aka Parr and Cleves) are often the voices of reason, but I don’t think that’s intentional or is intended to comment on anything. It’s just a coincidence. However, the gold of Aragon’s outfit obviously symbolises her love, courage and passion, along with indicating her status as a noble. While yes the rest of the queens were all noble in some way before they married Henry, Aragon was a Spanish princess and the daughter of two incredibly powerful monarchs. She was probably the highest standing out of any of the queens, and her costume reflects that. I also think that her wearing gold to flaunt her status could be her trying to make up for the years between her marriages to Arthur and Henry (where she didn’t have many provisions made for her as far as I know) and also the last few years of her life. (I’ve seen differing reports on how Aragon was provided for after Henry divorced her, with her claiming that she was living in poverty while others state she got 3000 pounds. If anyone has any confirmation then let me know). Either way, her wanting to flaunt her status after her reincarnation by wearing lots of bright gold makes total sense. I’ve also seen a few people say that the bust on Aragon’s costume is the most historically accurate but I can’t confirm that, although if it is then that’s a really nice touch.

Well this took ages, but it was fun to finally get to analyse stuff again AND do it on a queen who doesn’t get discussed very much!!! Aragon often gets reduced to “catholic” or “angry” within this fandom, even though she is just as complex as any other character within the show but she just expresses things in very different ways. And that’s okay! This whole show is about how women (and NB folk!) are different and do have different experiences and do express things differently and have different personalities and that’s okay! We should celebrate our differences.

#six the musical #six #sixthemusical #ask #anon ask #anonymous #anonymous ask #anon #ask answered #enya discusses: six

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blackbutler-readerinsertsandjunk · 4 years

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I can't stop thinking about your madame red au and the headcannons you wrote last. Can I ask for Joker and reader where she helps him during the dance and all and defends him behind his back when some ladies are shocked because ,,how dare a woman lead a man?!". And maybe Madame Red notices the reader and her behaviour towards Joker and the others and already ships them? Sorry it's so long. Headcannons or scenarios are fine. 😅😁

PLEASE DON’T BE SORRY, THIS IS ALL I EVER WANT IN LIFE AND I OWE U FOR REQUESTING IT

it got so hecking long omg I never plan for things to get this long but when I like something a lot it just kind of happens!!!

The fact that your new companion is missing an arm seems to bother you far less than it does him, at least in the context of trying to figure out how to position yourselves to dance.

“I just, ah ― oof, Lord ― I-I dunno if this is gonna work.” His face is about as red as his hair by now, and he just draws himself away from you. “I’m… I’m sorry. This pro’ly ain’t such a good idea, beauty. Why, uh, why don’t ye go dance wit’ someone else?”

Able to feel other people’s eyes on you both, you shamelessly step back toward him. “Because I want to dance with you. It’s not really that big a deal, is it? There has to be a way.”

He offers you a timid smile. “Be m’ guest, m’ lady.”

The sound of several other girls tittering behind their fans as they watch the man flounder is all the determination you need.

“So I shall!” You return his smile before analyzing the situation. After a moment, you make a move: you wrap your arm around his waist and draw him flush against you. This might be a good start… “Hm, this may work. If I keep my arm here, then I can support you. That way, we can hold hands and you don’t have to worry about losing your grip or anything, because I’ll be holding you.”

Another round of blush blooms over his cheeks. “T-this ain’t exac’ly proper, though, is it? I mean… Mum said th’ man’s s’posed ta be th’ one wit’ ‘is arm round the lady’s waist. Heh, treatin’ me like a lady, are ye? Makin’ a joke like ev’ryone else?”

You can’t help but to burst out laughing, though you take care not to be too loud. The two of you have enough attention on you already, and you get the sense that it’s not the good kind, so you don’t want to attract more. “What?? I wouldn’t make a joke of you. It’s just that we have to do things a bit differently, and we have to do whatever works. It doesn’t mean I’m treating you like a lady. If this is what works, then that should be the proper thing, shouldn’t it?”

“… Well…” His good arm scratches at the side of his cheek as he seems to think that over. It makes a lot of sense, as far as you’re concerned. The very definition of proper is that something is correct. If the way you normally dance doesn’t work when dancing with him, then clearly it isn’t proper. “I, ah, guess I never thought ‘f it that way b’fore. Good way ta put it. This is… alrigh’, then? Dancin’ like this? Ye don’t mind it?”

“Of course not. It’ll be kind of exciting to do things differently.” With your free hand, you take his, weaving your fingers into the spaces between his and noting how it just feels right. “I think this is song is meant to be waltzed to, so… one, two, three?” you tease.

When he chuckles, it’s a sound like golden honey. He has such a lovely voice, and a bright laugh to match even as he’s keeping it soft. “One, two, three, it is, m’ beauty.”

So the two of you start to move. As you lead him around the dance floor, you focus on him rather than all the people who are staring at you. “By the way, I don’t think we introduced ourselves. I’m (Name). And your name?”

“Ah, it’s JOKER,” he hums. “Mum told me she’d never heard ‘f anyone wit’ tha’name, but I picked it m’self a while ago. Never ‘ad any other one.”

“Huh… Lady Durless-Barnett isn’t your mother by blood, right?”

“Aye, tha’s right. She found us all an’ took us in.”

“So, what about the woman who gave birth to you? She didn’t give you any kind of name?”

He averts his eyes down toward your feet with a halfhearted shrug. “She didn’t. Rather not talk ‘bout any o’ that, ‘f ye don’t mind.”

You frown, but recover quickly. “Oh… no, that’s fine. I understand. Then ― all the others that Lady Durless-Barnett took in along with you. You were all basically a family before she found you? You’re all brothers and sisters?”

“Mhm. Tha’s ‘ow we’ve always thought o’ each other.”

“That’s so sweet.” You glance around the room for a minute, spotting some of them, and you can’t help the smile that settles on your lips. “What are their names? What are they like?”

His own smile is back at those questions. “Well… th’ two over sittin’ in th’ chairs, that’s Mally an’ Dagger. They’re each missin’ a leg. Both a bit ‘otheaded, if ye ask me, but that jus’ means they’re also passionate an’ determined. Go ta th’ ends o’ the Earth f’r ye if they think ye deserve it.”

“What about the tall fellow standing by the punch?”

Joker laughs and this time a little snort makes its way out. “Aw, that’s Jumbo. Ye can tell righ’ off what’s goin’ on with ‘im, can’t ye? I knoo he looks scary, but ‘e’s got the biggest ‘eart I ever seen. More afraid o’ ye than ye are o’ him, I’d wager. That suit don’t fit ‘im right; Mum did ‘er best.”

“And the girl next to him by the refreshment table ― the one with cake all over her dress?”

“Ah, God! She’s got it all dirty already, does she?” That grin of his is… really something. “Tha’s Freckles. We call ‘er Doll sometimes, too. Ye knoo, she’s pro’ly the brightest outta all o’ us, ‘r at least brighter’n I am. She’s pretty much th’ heart o’ our li’l group, always got a smile f’r us all.”

“I think the last two are… running around flirting? They seem to be half everyone else’s height?”

It’s obvious that the image is hilarious to him. “Oh, Peter an’ Wendy. Those two only grew ta a certain ‘eight, an’ they’re ‘bout as inseparable as anythin’. Peter can be a bitter pill ta swallow, rough round the edges… come ta think ‘f it, so can Wendy, she’s jus’ quieter. Once ye get ta know ‘em, though, ye see they ain’t bad at all.”

You give one more look at all of them, then return your gaze to Joker’s face. “… So, how about you?”

He blinks a few times, looking surprised. “Me?”

“Yes, you,” you giggle. “Now that I know that everyone else is passionate, nice,energetic, loyal… what are you? How would you describe yourself the way you just described your family?”

“Oh… er…” And he’s blushing again. Precious. “I… dunno, really.”

A hum vibrates up from your throat. “I suppose I’ll just have to find out for myself, then. As it stands, this is one of the most pleasant dances I’ve ever had with someone, so I would use charming as a starting point.”

He raises an eyebrow. “Ye think?”

“I’ve done this a few times, you know.” You lead him in the next step, twirling around with him in your arms. “So far, you’re probably the best dance partner I’ve had. You’re very sweet.”

“Awh, ye’re havin’ a go at me. Don’t make me blush, beauty.”

As the song transitions into a new one, you lean over and give a very light kiss to his cheek. “Oh, don’t limit me like that. You’re very handsome when you blush.”

You loosen your arm so that he can move away if he doesn’t want to dance for another song. “So,” you say, “would you like to go for another song?”

He shifts himself out of your arms. “Actually, sure. But first, would it… maybe be alrigh’ if I brought Mally an’ Dagger over? They both been poutin’ over not bein’ able ta dance, an’, well, if ye can find a good way ta ‘elp me dance, I bet ye could f’r them too. Sure make ‘em real happy, if ye’re up f’r that.”

“Oh… of course! I’m nothing if not up for a challenge.” You step back and give him a curtsy. “Hurry back!”

“Joker, darling, did I just see you were dancing with (Name) (Surname)? Goodness, and you didn’t think you’d be confident enough to ask anyone to dance, yet you asked the most beautiful, eligible woman in the room!”

Joker shoots a nervous grin at his mother, who’s currently fanning herself as she surveys her party. “Actually, she… she was th’ one who asked me.”

“What?” Anne’s eyes get even wider, sparkling devilishly. “Oh, my!! That can only mean one thing. She’s interested in you.”

“Her? Oh, Mum, she’s lovely, she really is, but… I-I dunno.” Just thinking about you makes his heart skip a beat. He’s very much interested in you, but the two of you did just meet, and he’s… missing pieces. “She couldn’t be int’rested in me.”

Anne pauses in the motion to point her fan toward the dance floor. “Then why is she doing that?”

When Joker turns his head where his mother is pointing, he not only sees what you’re doing, he hears it too. Currently, you’re positioned as if in a stand-off with one of the other attendees.

“― And you don’t know anything about him! You want to insult someone, pick on someone your own size and come at me. Go on! If you want me to tell my father to cut off business with yours, I dare you to say something. A woman leading a man in a waltz isn’t that strange! Well? Suddenly you don’t have anything to say? Just turn around like the coward you are, and if I hear you so much as breathe another word about him, you will be sorry.”

Joker’s attention isn’t even on the fact that the other lady turns bright red before flouncing off with her friends. He doesn’t care about her reaction; he cares about what you’re saying and doing. What…?

It would appear you’re defending him from someone who tried to make rude remarks about him. Why? Isn’t that the kind of thing that could ruin your standing if you get too heated about it? Why would you risk that just because someone made a cruel comment about someone you barely know? Why would you threaten such a big thing as changing your father’s business partners for him, who’s basically a stranger to you?

Anne’s giggling as she nudges Joker with one elbow. “Keeping that in mind, we should start thinking about whether you’d like a June wedding or a December wedding.”

“Mum!!” he snorts, though his face is all aglow with a soft pink. “That’s not… I’m not… she’s…”

“She likes you. Which, of course, proves that she has excellent taste.” Anne runs an affectionate hand through her son’s hair. “Why don’t you set up a date with her, sweetheart?”

Joker’s gaze returns to you, still standing in the middle of the dance floor, arms crossed, silently daring anyone to say anything mean about him or any of the others, while he remembers how kindly you treated him.

“… I just might do that, Mum. Just might.”

#twennari #Black Butler #Kuroshitsuji #Joker #reader insert #romantic #Madame Red Savior AU #drama #fluff #THIS IS ALL I WANT HOLY FUCK #I'M SO GLAD PEOPLE ARE INTERESTED IN THIS AU BECAUSE I WILL BLEED FOR THIS AU!!!!!#queued

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macklives · 5 years

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session 81 end

wow, okay, first things first

AC!!!!!

shes so fucking cute holy shit i love her so much i dont even know where to begin??

i mean i guess its because im so used to troll snark and the way they just? banter constantly? seeing someone who is a literal ray of sunshine is so refreshing and wholesome and pure. god she’s great. shes a cat, she knows her stuff. she’s strong and theres also this guys???? who shes scared of?? and tells her what to do??? yeah no, idk who it is but let her make her own decisions lol

maybe its just over exaggeration or whatnot, and hes not bad but first impressions do a lot to me and right now the only thing i know about this guy is that AC needs his approval for everything. i guess ill see where that takes us. hopefully nowhere bad. but AC seems like she can take care of herself and knows how to be a good decent troll and i love her for that. wow it literally took me one dialogue to like her. damn, that was fast. jesus.

you know who else is great?

terezi.

yeah i know right. and that whole trial thing, which yeah i guess half the time i was confused by what the fuck is going on since i still cant grasp the idea of how alternia works, but i enjoyed myself with lemonsnout and how terezi roleplays and how much she gets into it. seeing a character that passionate about something is so sweet and nice.

god this was just a nice overall session

which i say, while i completely forgot about the banter TA and karkat got into

right, that happened. oh my god. they both literally stomped all over each other, dissed one another, still made up in the end because apparently thats their friendship and i guess it just works like that. depends on the friends you have, i guess.

its funny though, not gonna lie

and karkat as of now is just being a prick and honestly?

like more than usual, which i guess is weird to say but i mean from present time to beginning of hivebent karkat. not that its uncommon for him to be a prick, he is, but seeing him go through the non-linear pattern with john is mmmmh interesting to say the least. though we havent seen his first trolling, just him constantly going “oh god what did i say, i was dumb” u know, not in those words but thats basically what he means.

ooh im gonna analyze, i feel like analyzing right now my fingers have already typed so much as it is MIGHT AS WELL

and our candidate will be *drum rollll* karkat wow predictable (its below the cut because this is literally irrelevant now to the session)

okay, lets lay out the shit we have already. as i said before, the way he talks presently to john (meaning in the future) is so different than how he speaks to everyone now. of course the “i hate the world” personality is still there, and hes still just regular karkat, but karkat talking with john is patient to some extent and tells him what he needs to know for the game, lowkey kinda chills out once they started talking about movies or growing up as huh, didnt he say larvae or smth?

okay that whole grub thing makes sense now as i just wrote that but i am still confused as to what the FUCK that is implying because i dont think it crossed my mind this much, im repressing it for now until it comes up later.

anyways, back to what i was saying. he was so DIFFERENT than the way he’s acting now which is bitch and moan and like? stfu karkat lmfao. i mean, its not THAT big of a difference in character, because i know he’s still his grumpy old self, and theres a lot of potential.. for growth? not sure if we’ll get it but i like to assume we will get character growth from these characters with fucking 8000 pages talking about them. but a story needs that growth and with karkat being just a straight up angry dude, in MY EYES, he should.. have growth, no? idk HOW he will grow, but im basically just taking what i have right now which isnt much but i analyze things for fun sometimes so let me be.

that being said, because its so early on, im not sure where homestuck is gonna go and i dont have much to go on but being in the psychology course shit happens when you have limited information and you gotta pin point what makes a person a person and how do they cope with things to grow further into life. many of my assignments involve limited info so honestly, not that hard.

but it is something that ive noticed, the way karkat is different as he grows which possibly means the whole veil thing happens later later on in his life and we havent yet seen that small growth become patience and not whining every time he doesnt get what he wants. but growth is common and it mostly likely happens to everyone, so its not like wow this is a surprise and a plot twist, more of something that i just wanna write for the sake of writing it. i hope that makes sense? i dont exactly know where im going with this. i just mean that im basically going to analyse karkat a tiny bit so idk how to otherwise explain it but you’ll get where im going with this as i type more lmao.

anyways, so karkat literally said “pretend i dont think highly of my friend’s talents” as if he’s visibly trying to force himself from all emotions and bash on those who do (reference: “stop being sensitive, its repugnant” or whatever tf he said while TA replied with “hypocrite”) i take that as a key word. so honestly, while that was the smallest thing ive gotten from this session, its the thing im most curious about actually and i actually havent mentioned lol. because what ive learned in psych, which this is just common knowledge but i did an assignment on it so like?? could be useful?? is that people who hold off their emotions tend to hold off others as well, so there is no chance of mirroring each other. in other words, if someone is happy and starts to laugh and goof around with another, the emotions will mirror that other person subconsciously. like an addictive laugh. theres also another way to show mirroring, which is to mimic another person's actions, allowing another to establish a sense of empathy and thus begin to understand another person's emotions. in this case, im using TA and karkat as example. people who suppress emotions tend to see emotions as a bad sign and if somebody else portrayed any sign of it as well, they’ll basically say “gross what are you doing” because theyre so used to concealing it away, that they dont want others to think theyre into the whole mushy shit. so they pretend to hate it, pretend to not even be slightly affected by general sensitivity..

which basically means karkat is a softie, and even if he’s a prick right now, meeee thinks john, from earlier convos, is growing on him because john himself knows how emotions work and while i dont think troll culture does know much about it, considering the BLOOD AND CARNAGE thing, he is in fact growing and even if thats obvious, and you all know it, i am new to homestuck and am trying to see that for myself. its noticeable to some degree. he may always still be a jerk, but i am waiting to see how he slowly starts to accept things around him and to finally show what hes hiding inside. even if its just going up by a few percentages, i see its there and im hoping VERY HOPING he has the biggest character growth!

in other words, why else do i think this?? well nobody who watches romcoms can be that fucking aggressive. you need some sap in you to like it.

on that note, ill probably analyze alternia’s system and rules in another post later throughout these next few sessions because i feel it needs to be talked about and the way everything just.. is so different and doesnt seem right, you know?

thats it for now goodnight

#homestuck #homestuck liveblog #hs81 #hs81 end #tfw you get so into the analysis simple shit doesnt come to mind like tagging or putting a title

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lrcanscams-blog · 5 years

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BOOBOO STEWART? No, that’s actually LORCAN SCAMANDER from the NEXT GENERATION ERA. You know, the child of ROLF SCAMANDER and LUNA LOVEGOOD-SCAMANDER? Only 21 years old, this GRYFFINDOR alumni works as a MAGIZZOLOGIST and is sided with THE ORDER OF THE PHOENIX. HE identifies as CIS MALE and is a MUGGLEBORN who is known to be HOT-HEADED, WORKAHOLIC, and RECKLESS but also, COURAGEOUS, OPEN-MINDED, and EMPATHETIC. — &&. ( TORI, EST, SHE/HER/HERS, 24. )

Aes: reading on rainy days, tall grass blowing in a sea breeze, the smell of old books that haven’t been opened in years, colored ink, detailed lists and notes, baring your teeth to protect others, your friends holding you back from a fight, humming to yourself as you browse through the stacks at the library, sunny sunday breakfasts while your parents tease each other.

TW: Body horror, abandonment and fear of, bullying, and bigotry.

Headcanons

01. Lorcan is older than Lysander by four minutes and holds this over his sibling's head constantly. While being practically the same age, Lorcan still feels like the need to play into the whole “protective older brother” role. This protectiveness carried over into their time at Hogwarts and if anyone said a bad word about Lysander or their family, Lorcan’s wand would be at the ready. He was easy to anger in that regard, didn’t want anyone feeling like they could get away with being a bully (this carried over with his friends as well). He would stick up for anyone, regardless of house or blood status or any other factors. He’s not entirely sure where he got this trait from, certainly not his mother, but Lorcan likes to think that hearing stories about her time at Hogwarts rubbed off on him. He’s never cared about the enemies he might make or the people who would hate him just because he didn’t like anyone being looked down on.

02. He’s very much like his mother in the sense that he’s very open-minded. Not just when it comes to people, but when it comes to learning. Lorcan loved school and loved learning about different potions and spells and creatures. He loved spending time in the library figuring out why certain ingredients had a certain effect. However, Lorcan also enjoyed the study of magical creatures, just like his parents. He would follow his parents into the study of Magizoologist, including traveling to different parts of the world to study creatures. [INJURY//BODY HORROR TW] This, unfortunately, has caused Lorcan to lose his left thumb and pointer finger, along with his right middle finger. [END TW] He’s been told to be more careful, but his best work (in his opinion) has come from taking risks.

03. Following along his great-grandfather, Lorcan is working on a book about magical creatures. It’s still in the very early stages, he’s still gathering research and working alongside his parents. So far, it’s a lot more work than Lorcan was expecting it to be. But he’s been pulling late nights working on research and analyzing data. This has led his social life to being tossed to the side. He’s trying to get better about not locking himself away, but...his work and research is very important to him.

Character Inspo

Steve Rogers (Marvel) + Alison Argent (Teen Wolf) + Jim Kirk (Star Trek) + Finn (Star Wars) + Cosima Niehaus (Orphan Black) + Ninth Doctor (Doctor Who) + The Winchester bros (Supernatural)

[Warnings for: abandonment, bigotry, body horror]

Pre-Hogwarts

Lorcan and his sibling were born on August 29, 2008 to muggles Sophia and Umar Baker.

What he does know, is that they were just teenagers when they had him and Lysander.

And the two teenagers tried to take care of these twins.

Lorcan remembers the house being chaotic at times. And at five years old, he overheard his parents arguing over whether they could continue to take care of them.

And even now, he still has that small fear of people abandoning him.

So, in 2013, at five years old Lysander and himself were dropped off at an orphanage, despite both of his parents being very much alive.

Lorcan soon found his voice, standing up for Lysander and himself when the other children would make comments about their appearances or how they acted.

(Most of this included Lorcan using the names small children call each other, but dammit Lysander was all he had.)

And then, just two years later, a couple came in and soon enough, Lorcan and Lysander took on the last name Scamander.

The house was filled...with so much more joy and happiness and love than Lorcan had seen in his entire life.

His new parents read to them and sang them songs and told him about grand adventures that Lorcan wasn’t sure if real or made-up at the time.

He was kissed and hugged and told “Good job!” when he was able to control his magic or created an artwork with his small hands.

They taught him about Hogwarts and the school they would be attending soon.

(And Lorcan did his best not to cry, to put on a strong face for Lysander.)

They told him to be brave, to be kind, to work hard. And Lorcan was ready to do all of those things.

Hogwarts

The hat took a minute to decide where exactly the elder twin would go before finally declaring “GRYFFINDOR!” and was only slightly disappointed to not be in his mother’s house.

(whether Lysander also ended up in Ravenclaw is up to that player, for now im going to write this as if they are in the same house. This can be edited!)

Having his sibling beside him, gave him some comfort in this very different world.

Bullying/Bigotry TW

He learned, through other students and some teachers, and even some from Luna herself, the stories of his mother and her friends during her time here.

He learned about the bullying she and so many other students faced.

And soon, Lorcan learned about the bullying first hand.

For being muggleborn, for how they looked, for who his parents were.

This would be enough to drive Lorcan to be...a bit of a wild card. To stand up for the Scamanders. For the other students who got laughed at or called names.

And to stand up for himself, of course.

He hated the names they gave him and glances in the hallways between classes.

END TW

This would land him in trouble, getting points docked off his house more than once, but Lorcan wasn’t about to just sit back and do nothing.

For the most part, Lorcan was a fantastic student. He loved learning about this world that he wasn’t born into, all the history and the spells and potions and, of course, the magical creatures.

He worked very hard on his OWLs to get into multiple NEWT-level classes (Potions, Charms, Herbology, DADA and Care of Magical Creatures).

He wasn’t a very social student, but had a few close friends (Connection wanted) that he would regularly spend time with.

In his 5th year, 2024, he became a Prefect.

While he enjoyed being at Hogwarts and everything that came along with it, he truly loved nothing more than being around his parents. He loved listening to them talk about magical creatures and showing him what they’ve discovered and written about.

Post-Hogwarts/Pre-Clash

After Hogwarts, Lorcan wasn’t entirely sure what he wanted to do.

He did like the idea of the “traditional” jobs that his classmates were going into.

So, he followed his parents around for a bit in their travels and joined them in studying different creatures

And he realized he loved being around magical creatures and studying them.

Has so many notebooks dedicated to notes on them

They’re organized of course.

With his parents discovering new creatures, Lorcan decided to try to write a book about them.

He’s still doing a lot of research (a lot) and still sometimes travels to the places where the creatures are native.

Big lover of languages too!!

Really is throwing himself into his research and working on the book.

(I’m sure his parents would tell him to take a break, but then he ends up going to sleep at like two in the morning)

When going to other places to do research about the creatures, Lorcan doesn’t really like following the safety guidelines.

He just does his own thing, because he thinks that’s how he gets the best information.

[INJURY/BODY HORROR TW]

Because of this, Lorcan has lost a few fingers to magical creatures. He’s missing his thumb and pointer finger on his left hand and his middle finger on his right.

This makes things like writing and typing a bit more difficult.

He gets very frustrated at himself for not moving fast enough, which is why he spends so many hours dedicated to the research/writing.

[END TW]

Still very protective of his family and loved ones.

Hearing about the 2nd Wizarding War makes him so angry and despises those who look down on others.

The Clash

The Clash was terrifying.

Suddenly his parents were just gone.

Leaving him and Lysander behind.

It honestly stressed him out a lot (he’s still pretty stressed about it tbh)

When he found out that other people came back from the past...he immediately went to find his mother and father.

Only, they weren’t his mother and father. They were so young.

Younger than him.

He’s trying to focus back on his work, his research and his book.

But now he finds himself reading books on time traveling to see if there’s a fix

And the death eaters are back. Which is worrying.

Personality

Can be quick to anger when someone insults his family or people he cares about

Or even if he just sees someone bullying someone else, Lorcan has to step in.

His dedication to his work and things he cares about can cause him to be reckless

Sometimes doesn’t always think before he acts when he gets worked up or passionate about something

Even when it comes to the magical creatures, he can make bad decisions, but Lorcan has always thrown himself into whatever he’s doing or passionate about

Is very empathetic, almost too empathetic.

He cares so much about other people that when he sees that they’re hurting, he hurts too

Is very good at making people feel valid and comforted.

Just like his parents, he’s quite open-minded

Especially when it comes to different theories and people’s experiences

Understands he doesn’t know everything and welcomes other people talking about what they know/believe/experienced

Not so much when it comes to death eaters/blood purists/etc

#❛ ✎ My mind wants wings ✎ ❜ –– Intro #quantum intro #❛ ✎ thunder in his heart ✎ ❜ –– headcanon #❛ ✎ for my part i know nothing any certainty ✎ ❜ –– char dev #(( here's the intro! i'll work on a stats page soon! ))#(( i'll also work on updating his navi page. life has been uhhhhh Not Great ))

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this is highkey like a month late (i mean wbk im a chronic scatterbrain procrastinator) and she’s thicccc but without further ado. my skam s4 thoughts.

I first just want to say a couple things: im not a muslim woc so my thoughts on s4 don’t hold as much value as those of a muslim, woc, or a muslim woc. I also don’t know to what degree sana’s representation was true to real life. I made an effort to look for posts from muslim woc on sana’s season but to no real avail, especially given it’s been two years since skam ended and a lot of blogs have deactivated, changed urls, or posts have become buried :( [if you know of any good posts regarding sana’s season please lmk!]. from what I can recall in 2017, there were mixed opinions on s4 with most being upset (or at least disappointed) with the ultimate execution of sana’s storyline and I agree w that. while s4 means so much to me and has a really special place in my heart, I do 100% acknowledge its flaws. ok!!!!!! lets get into it😤

ep1 -as much as I wished isak stayed in kollektivet I’m glad he and even had a rlly sweet happy time this entire season. also evak making their friends move all their furniture while they whisper romantic shit to each other and makeout? peak comedy -you fuckin wish!!! -sana is the one to say “of course you should tell noora about william”.. she Knew and still takes the fall for it :( -this opening clip is such a jarring shift into sana’s pov!! e.g. while easy to overlook in previous seasons, sana’s exclusion from the girls is glaringly obvious once we’re looking through her eyes -adding onto that! sana is the friend who notices everyone else- she’s so observant, which hurts even more when you notice her friends don’t do the same (except mayhaps chris- in my heart of hearts I know chris is also the friend who notices and goes unnoticed, but unfortunately we don’t get enough of her and sana’s relationship this season to fully see that) -yousef and the balloon squad’s entrance.... ICONIC! also I cant believe for 2 seasons they presented those dickbag nissen 97s as the be all end all of hot amazing boys when the bakka third years were RIGHT THERE like,, the penetrators vs. balloon squad + even? no contest ma’am -also! it’s so interesting that we literally had no idea sana had a brother, or that yousef etc existed until now? it’s as if she has a whole private world at home, separate from her friends and nissen (and I think a theme of this season is those two worlds merging) -im obsessed w the yousana train scene but yousef being the only one who notices sana standing off to the side? ;-; -fy faen is such a stunning clip oh my god. when sana leaves to pray? possibly my favourite skam scene ever. it’s exquisite. -sana is so cute and awkward squeezing thru the crowd shsdhgfhshdf I LOVE her love her -the last shot on yousef and noora... oh my GOD oh my god bc like. being that friend who never ever tells your real feelings or your crushes or is vulnerable with your friends?? and then having to listen to them talk about how good your crush would be with someone else (especially one of ur friends) while ur sitting there silently dying inside? and you don’t say anything since you can’t be vulnerable with your friends and u don’t think u stand a chance anyways so. (in the words of s3 noora. I think sana struck a nerve with the emotional unavailability! abbey r u ok) -this episode is a masterpiece and did such a phenomenal job of both introducing us to sana’s perspective while also touching on a multitude of her struggles AND establishing the themes of the season. plus the cinematography, editing, soundtrack and aesthetic...... o baby. (case in point I deadass just rewatched it after writing this)

ep2 -every shot of sana praying is beautiful (and beautifully edited!!) -sana’s room is usually messy... not smart enough to fully analyze this but I’m sure it means something -an interesting contrast of what’s expected of her vs. of elias- I can’t speak for muslim families, but I know even in non-muslim families girls are always held to suchhh a higher standard (source: I have 2 brothers rip) -”if you find immaturity charming” hilarious bc sana actually does in fact find immaturity charming -what’s interesting is how noora comes across in sana’s POV- kinda obnoxious, kinda ignorant, seemingly perfect (compared to how noora is portrayed in eva’s season, for example) -even is one of those ppl who uses the bill gates argument on why dropping out of school makes u richer sdfhfsjskfjfsd -sana staring down the pepsi max squad. fuck em up. -vilde adding magnus to the groupchat jfkjsjfdjfsfsdkj -isak missing eskild :’) sidenote I fucking live for isak and sana’s chats this season. they’re literally my lifeblood like....

ep3 -the kiss me scene god I go FERAL -“you need to pull it towards you, not push it away. okay?” yall mind if i SCREAM!! YOUSEF!!!!!!!!!! -there rlly is something about seeing sana, who in everyone else’s POV comes off as cold and harsh and stoic, just absolutely meltinggg when she talks w yousef like she doesn’t stop smiling she’s so sweet!!!! ah🥰 and yousef is 100% that guy who ppl tell “your gf is so intimidating and ruthless bro” and he’s like are y’all talking about sana??????? my baby?? my fuckin cinnamon apple????? -yousef’s lil smile watching sana peel carrots. 911 it’s me again -vilde and sana’s relationship has a really interesting dynamic bc like.. vilde says ignorant shit to sana while also genuinely looking up to her. and sana is probably the harshest to vilde within the group but it’s because she actually values their friendship a lot -IM HURT BECAUSE YOU NEVER REPLIED TO MY MEME -sana pulling 2yr old receipts off the top of her head to defend vilde. god I stan -sana doin research taking notes..... shameful she isn’t canonically a virgo (honestly her and isak both but like-) -she’s so soft and smiley w her mamma awh... “of course he likes you, who doesn’t like you?” her mamma only knows the real, gentle, beautiful loving sana oh im CRY -even is so kind and loving and thoughtful yall mind if i....... -”you can’t escape the internet girl” foreshadowing mayhaps?

ep4 -david and ulrikke together are fucking hilarious -noora’s “you’re lucky you don’t have to think about this stuff, heartbreak and that” :/ it’s not just vilde who says ignorant things to sana! -that being said sana and noora are cute asf in the exper5 scene.. dorky noora rise (omg josefine and her yogurt in the bloopers too sjhfkjdf) -I HANDLE BALLS BETTER THAN YOU -the yousana scene is sooo gorgeous whew...... -I always cry a lil bit (ok a lot) when yousef brings up even. and sana knew too. even sweetie ily :( -sana talking about her religion is beautiful. it’s so lovely to learn about how she thinks and sees the world. -yousef’s smile watching sana leave like ur kidding right....... -“flawless since 99″ is so cringey. it’s so cringeyyy -sana uses “smh” I knew we were soulmates

ep5 -eavesdropping on ur parent/brother’s argument is peak sibling culture -when ur always paranoid but ur always right..... -sana’s green jumpsuit sign me up babey -I really really really love elias and sana’s conversation -u dont even realize how tiny sana is until she’s standing next to isak and even -not finding out why yousef avoided the fight and why he kissed noora will haunt me forever (could we not have expanded more on that instead of noorhelm.......) -the parallel of sana washing isak’s blood off her hands vs. her washing her hands during maghrib in episode 1. gotta sit down. -vilde gossiping to the pepsimax girls stings SO bad it’s just such a betrayal?:( -“the other girls seem cool, especially noora! she’s so pretty!” ok much to unpack here but: sana again comparing herself to noora (who she sees as /perfect/)... sana being written off despite putting so much effort and passion into the russ bus while noora, who has done literally nothing and at best is indifferent to russ, is the one they like the most. disgusteng -love will tear us apart.. bitch..... -sana abt to cry god I can’t -if sana is anything like me (I mean I think she is but jkjjkhsdfhfsd). looking stupid is the absolute worst so like, her sending out emails abt being bus boss when she was actually being lied to? being played? and her being “paranoid” about sara being shady, but deciding hey maybe im just being crazy? except she wasn’t she was right and she Knew!! and she’s probably thinking how dumb it was for her to get her hopes up, everything always ends badly anyways and no one actually likes her :((((((( -dont rlly know what my feelings are on the fight. im not against it bc isak does have a temper but his apparent motive always seemed weak to me?? and god I feel so bad for even

ep6 -forgot about sana getting bullied in middle school yall mind if I sob?? -sana lying and getting defensive bc it’s hard to be vulnerable, or because she hates looking stupid? or both?:( -isak looking up dandelions in his textbook just bc even put one behind his ear. I HATE this man -sana’s dad asking if she had a bad day aw :( -all the boys (and sana) wearing black but yousef wearing white.... what does it mean.............. -the carrots are back goddammit -radio station playing during this scene: “if I have to choose between the just non-muslim and the unjust muslim, without any doubt I would choose the non-muslim who is just” -ISAK’S NOSE SFFJDFJFSDKJSDF -sana’s text about chris I’m going to bawl my eyes out. “yeah! looking forward (to going to nissen) but a bit worried. don’t know anyone else starting there.” (J: new friends?) “yes, at least one of them. I have german with her (chris) and she’s very cool!” -the contrast of how blunt sana came off when we’re first introduced to her vs. how she was really just excited to make a new friend bc she was scared no one would like her :( especially knowing her past with bullying and how nervous she was to start at nissen? chris baby I LOVE YOU thank u ;-; -also sana keeping 2yr old conversations on her phone... same -sana is honestly too smart and scheming and overthinking for her own good. she has these elaborate plans that more-or-less always get ruined by her being more kind than she gives herself credit for (e.g. wanting to protect vilde in s1, clearing isak’s name in s4) -everyone in skam texts back so fast smh -chris calling sana “sonic”...... a moment please -I cannot watch the sana/evak apartment scene without thinking of the bloopers and losing it lmfaoooo.. “this is where we live. just come in” -ik it’s based off fanart but there is little I hate more than their matching outfits -“remember you’re both geniuses!” 🥺even -once again isak studying is uhhhh me - “you’re a good person” yall i love isak i really do. he puts his foot in his mouth pretty often and doesn’t have a great brain-to-mouth filter and he can be awkward and rambly and blunt and unsure of what to say in emotional situations but also? he’s so genuine. it’s just his honest thoughts and he says it bc he cares about sana and knows she needs to hear it!! -ᶠᵃᵉⁿ ᵉᵛᵉⁿ -sana’s inner turmoil.. thank u iman for inventing acting (ik I haven’t mentioned it much yet but god iman is SUCH a phenomenal actor I owe her my life) -LETS GO BITCHES

ep7 -sana crying silently in her room breaks my fucking heart (IMAN!!!!) -idk how I feel about the instagram plot but sana watching as her plan falls into place and then storming up to sara... pretty bada$$ -“it’s creepy it was published but it’s more creepy we have a bus boss who talks shit about everyone” THANK YOU vilde -i love s4 isak thanks -sana and jamilla’s chat aw :~) -how awkward do yall think the walk to the bench was lmfao -what sana tells isak is SO powerful and I love it a lot -isak does actually make a good point- the other girls are like that too. -unfortunately I have been in situations isak describes, where you want to learn more about your friend’s culture or religion because you care about them and you’re genuinely interested, but you don’t know what questions are okay to ask and you don’t want to sound rude or ignorant, so you ultimately end up asking no questions at all. but I hate that the responsibility is put on sana to constantly educate people bc I cannot imagine how exhausting that must be [[[ok so. I know there are VERY mixed opinions on the bench scene but here’s my dumbass two cents. 1- I genuinely think isak was trying to make sana feel better by attempting to relate to her and pass on advice that really helped him. however, I don’t think isak realized what sana eventually told him- that her experience wearing the hijab is a lot different than isak’s experience as a gay man. do I agree with everything isak said? nooo. do I understand why he said it? yeah. 2- it was not isak’s place to tell sana norwegians aren’t racist, or not to look for racism in questions. I think there’s some truth to ppl often just being ignorant, and he does add that there are probably a lot of racist people in Norway, but yeah. not great. 3- in conclusion I think while isak shared some meaningful advice w sana, he put his foot in his mouth too and said some stupid shit. im not trying to defend that. I will add, though: a. we actually do see some growth on isak’s part. when he and even are yelled at on the street, that’s the moment it clicks for him that oh shit, this is what sana was talking about. this is what she has to experience? and that’s why he texts noora, “in the speech for sana, you have to include how insanely strong she is. I don’t think many people understand how much bullshit she has to take” and b. isak’s (bad) advice of “not looking for the racism in things” is ultimately contrasted by yousef (a moc who lived most of his life as a muslim) suggesting instead to show people what islam really is. and that’s so much more meaningful. I think the root of a lot of the issues isak brought up- i.e. ignorance- is a general lack of education, representation, or effort by non-muslim people to seek out information themselves. so sana leading by example and showing what it means to her to be muslim is so much more powerful.]]] -𝒃𝒂𝒎! -BEST BUDS 🥺

ep8 -haper du har plass weaving in and out of this episode until the chorus finally breaks when the los losers van shows up...... miss julie 😭 -oh my god the pictures. im a fucking MESS bc they’re not only significant to the scene and to sana but also like,, as part of our goodbye to the girls?? -the balloon squad and even :( while the timeline of them reconciling within just this week is kinda wack, seeing even back with his friends looking so happy makes my heart uwu so i’ll allow it just this once -eva’s message to vilde about her and magnus being able to trust each other w/o reading their texts... growth or irony -chris is such a phenomenal friend (and this is why I wanted more of her in s4!!) -sana’s phonecall to the girls breaks my fucking heart bc like. right off the bat she’s finally being vulnerable with them?? telling them about her fears and insecurities and struggles? typing this im gonna start crying lol but god I love her so much. she’s so brave and she put all that on the line bc all she really cares about are her friends, she loves them SO much even if (she thinks) they don’t love her back -lowkey sobbed so hard during the haper du har plass clip I almost threw up and it gave me a headache :) -anyways this is one of my favourite skam clips and god just. the moment you hear the girls calling for sana??? I LOSE it. when sana just starts BEAMING omg🤧 the girls love sana and support her and if you fuck with sana you fuck with us!!!!!! god. cannot articulate how dear to my heart this scene is. -haper du har plass feels like the end of the episode and the party clip is kinda just tacked on but I love how happy everyone is!! they’re all drinking champagne (who taught isak how to hold things) and dancing and smilingggg 💛 -yousana rise!!!!!!!! -ok don’t get me wrong I hate william for crashing the party but their entrance slow-mo kinda slaps.... also sana popping up in between noorhelm SENDS me

ep9 -this is the point in the season where the amount of time dedicated to noorhelm is beyond beyond beyond significantly damaging to the story. this is sana’s last episode!! instead of having them makeout in front of william’s car for 20 minutes mayhaps we could’ve had a conversation between the girls and sana, or with her brother (if they had continued the elias alcoholism plotline rip), or maybe even with jamilla or her mamma? like I don’t care at ALL about noora or william. give me anything else. ple a s e -what makes skam scenes so brilliant is their quiet moments!! julie let the scene breathe. not everything needs a tacky song playing over top. -I’ve said this abt like twenty clips now but MAGHRIB. oh my GOD. an absolute masterpiece and definitely tied for my all time favourite skam clip. can’t rlly put into words how stunning it is. & I love sana and yousef’s conversation so much. -“of course I brought food! my name is yousef!” mr. acar you’re the only man I trust

ep10 -as much as my heart yearns for 10 sana episodes I think splitting up the last episode of skam into individual POV clips for different characters was brilliant and such a poignant way to say goodbye :( -okay don’t think about what sana could’ve written in her texts to everyone or ur heart will go sicko mode -I won’t write anything abt this ep since I’ve already written too much but like.. (elias should’ve gotten a clip instead of william. pchris can stay because his clip was funny but he’s on thin fuckin ice) -kjaere sana was such a beautiful way to say goodbye to skam. so yeah. bye skam. i miss you.

overall ➔I’m not really sure why (possibly a lethal combination of my undying love for sana bakkoush, how much I relate to her, this but my ass was crying EVERY single episode of season 4...... F ➔I’m obsessed with s4′s aesthetic. imo the best editing, soundtrack and cinematography of any season!!!! julie is so talented at making each season feel distinct- to me, sana’s season is cool, vibrant colours (aka the late-night sunset aesthetic- gabie i hear u laughing shut up), crisp electronic/pop music and rap, ethereal city nights..... also sana has the best style of any skam character it had to be said ➔sana’s growth! seeing her open up and be honest and vulnerable with the girls during that phone call. sana sending all of her friends literally the sweetest messages of how much they mean to her and how much she values their relationship. sana being the (MUCH) bigger person and making amends with sara, ingrid etc. I love her so much :’((( ➔I’ve thought a lot about what I would change in season 4 and honestly? im a mf scatterbrain and have no real, structured ideas. my biggest issue is too much noora. dream s4 would be william staying in london and noora being happy on her own (but not rly on her own bc she has the girls and kollektivet!). as :/ as I am about the noora/yousef plotline, I’m not really sure what I’d do to replace the yousana conflict in ep5. maybe involving elias, or the balloon squad and even? related to that- in lieu of all the noora/noorhelm screentime, I would so much rather have a follow-up plot to elias’s drinking problem bc it was kinda just dropped? at the very least, the william clip should’ve been elias’s. I also would've killed for more one-on-one scenes with chris (even vilde or eva!), jamilla, even, members of the balloon squad... there are so many interesting stories that could’ve been explored instead of going down the noorhelm rabbithole again. furthermore, I feel like the social media plot was a bit... weak? again I’ve tried thinking of what I would’ve done instead (while also keeping the haper du har plass clip, y’all can pry that one from my cold dead hands) to little avail. what especially threw me about this plotline is that sana did this in s2 to jamilla, fucked up, and it bit her in the ass. I know that she gets irrational when angry but from a storytelling perspective, it seems repetitive. just.. I feel like there could’ve been a more powerful plot in which sana follows the same character arc. another thing I would’ve loved to see is beyond the los losers van, an apology from the girls to sana. or even just a conversation where they tell her “hey sana, we’re sorry for not paying attention and we’re sorry for being thoughtless/ignorant.” an apology from vilde about things she’s said in the past would’ve been <3. even a gesture! the girls order pizza again but this time it’s halal, or they make an effort to learn about sana’s religion and culture. I know it’s implied through the letter they write for sana, but a final standalone scene would’ve been so nice. ➔i’ve noticed soo many remakes do this thing where they like.. water down shitty behaviour of their characters. which like- sure. I would love for everyone to be kind and thoughtful and not as horrible as they could be but also... I think that’s the point of skam? to show that people fuck up, but that doesn’t define them as a person. no one is perfect and no one can be thoughtful and considerate and kind all the time. and often these ‘problematic’ actions are integral to the story- e.g. elias saying stupid comments to isak (related to isak’s internalized homophobia and fear of coming out to his friends), the girl squad being ignorant about what sana can eat, etc. so..... your remake is not better because it erased every horrible action every character has done. (nuance.. where r u.........) ➔despite its flaws, I will say- the good moments of season 4? ineffable. I think we sometimes forget that julie literally wrote, directed, and I believe (?) assisted w editing and soundtrack too. i cant imagine doing all that under so much pressure, trying to bring so many storylines to a conclusion whilst simultaneously creating a goodbye-season to a show she put her life into the past two years. I’m so fucking appreciative of her. and you know what? all in all julie wrote some pretty damn beautiful episodes and scenes, and you can tell she loves this show just as much as we do. ➔and honestly this is maybe one reason I’m more wary of watching remake s4′s, bc like.. this season meant SO much bc it was the last season of skam. we knew it was the last season. the final episode is more or less a love letter, a goodbye to the show. whereas w some remakes (do i have to say whomst) its like.. that love isnt there. it’s just another season. yknow? in conclusion I miss skam so much :(

ok whew if ur reading this ur a champion but also why did you just read 5k of me rambling about how much I love sana bakkoush??

#not one coherent or intelligent thing is said in the entirety of this post but enjoy #skam #blabbey #clownfest 2019

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peachyrm · 6 years

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i feel like a lot of ppl on this site see a callout post for BTS, look at all of the problematic things they did in the past, and immediately ‘cancel’ them or see that as a valid reason to finally hate them or kpop in general, without considering the context of the situations or how the kpop industry works.

im definitely not here to defend the things they said or did, because it WAS gross. but those things are also from 3-5 years ago, have apologized for or had no control over whether it happened or not.

this post serves as a ‘clearing their name’ type of post, and will actually take a look into the problematic things theyve done and how they dealt with it, along with all the positive things they have done in the past few years. it will be pretty lengthy and will have lots of sources/screenshots. before i get into this though, i want to say that no one is obligated to like BTS, or forgive them for what they/their label did. you reserve the right to feel the way you feel, however that may be. that being said, this post is for people who never saw the apologies, who vaguely know who BTS are and saw only bad things about them, who want to get into BTS but aren’t sure if they’re extremely problematic, and more.

starting off, i want to explain the context behind the links of this post. i would link the original, but op has deleted it. so, obviously, yes bts did do all of the above. but like i said before, it was 3-5 (now, technically 6) years ago. when BTS debuted in 2013, they were all 21 or under. 15-16 year old Jungkook being the youngest, and Seokjin being the oldest at 21. they were merely teenagers and on top of this, had no or very little control of their self image. the hairstyles & photoshoots, the boys had no control over. bighit and bts’ stylists are in charge of these things. if you want someone to be angry at, be angry at bighit, bts’ label company. this includes RM’s hairstyle back in the ‘No More Dream’ era / early debut days, Suga’s dreads, and any other hairstyle, clothing, or photoshoot that caused controversy. (in case anyone, who isn’t familiar with kpop, is confused; kpop label companies usually control everything their idols do. from what they wear, to what their songs are about, to if they’re even allowed to date. it’s a very disgusting industry that has a history of abuse, but that’s an entirely different subject i could get into.)

here is an article where BigHit apologizes for the antisemitism + the ‘bombing’ shirt Jimin wore, and they explicitly state that “the band members were ‘in no way responsible’ for the controversy.” which further proves my point that the boys had no control over what they wore/how they looked.

here is a thread about RM’s racist behavior in the past, and admitting + apologizing for what he did, including how he has changed certain lyrics of songs because they could be seen as (or were) misogynist. to this day, RM hates and regrets how his hair looked at the time.

in case anyone doesn’t want to read the entire thread, RM says this: “As I went through the year 2016 I came to think about that. My words or behaviors, regardless of my intentions, could cause troubles or hurt others feelings. In the process, I thought I need to hold responsibility for that and I need to think about such things. What I said or did would not be undone. I thought so. Then I learned how to admit myself. [...] Anyways, to become a better person, I need to hold responsibility for what I do. I need to change my mindset. I need to change my way of thinking if it’s wrong. I learned I need to hear from many people. I mean, I came to think like that. Now when I do something, I think, ‘how would people feel about my act?’”

again, this is not excuses for what they did, but rather how/why it happened or how they had no choice in the matter & what they had to say about it afterwards. BTS are living, growing people who have acknowledged their mistakes and apologized. in RM’s speech at the U.N. he says this: “Maybe I made a mistake yesterday, but yesterday’s me is still me. I am who I am today, with all my faults. Tomorrow I might be a tiny bit wiser, and that’s me, too. These faults and mistakes are what I am, making up the brightest stars in the constellation of my life. I have come to love myself for who I was, who I am, and who I hope to become.”

since the apology part of this post is mostly over, i wanted to talk about the good things that bts has done in the past few years. things like their continuous support of the LGBT community, the powerful messages in their music, the bending of the ‘typical kpop style’, etc.

over the years and as their popularity grew, BTS have actually managed to seemingly take more control over what they stand for and how they present themselves and their music. since around 2017, BTS have made a very impactful social stance with their string of albums & their concept: “Love Yourself”. for people who don’t know, this concept consists of three albums over the course of 2016-2018 and are in order as follows: LOVE YOURSELF 承 'Her', LOVE YOURSELF 轉 'Tear' LOVE YOURSELF 結 'Answer'

the summarized version of the stories are love at first sight, the failing/one-sided-ness of said love, and then learning how to love and accept yourself before you are fully able to love others. along with this concept came the partnership with the anti-violence campaign, UNICEF, who work to protect young people from all over the world. the entire album concept consistently promotes self-love and acceptance, something that is not very explored in kpop or even western pop music in general. while some of the songs in “LY: Her” use female pronouns, almost all the rest of them across all the albums use gender neutral or no pronouns. this was done intentionally by RM (who writes/produces a majority of their songs), as he believes “feelings/love transcend genders, cultures, and barriers between people.” the title song of “LY: Her”, “DNA”, (as stated in the screenshot) further expresses this idea with the lyrics: “None of this is a coincidence Because we’re the two who found our destiny - I only focus on you You steer me a little harder The DNA of the genesis wants you This is inevitable, I love us We are the only true lovers”

and in “Serendipity”, as well:

“The universe has moved for us Without missing a single thing Our happiness was meant to be Cuz you love me, and I love you”

while, obviously, there is one ‘her’ pronoun in the song, most of it expresses what RM says. and bighit being bighit, im sure they had some say in how the lyrics were presented, esp since it was the title song. what i’m trying to say is that i truly believe BTS are doing their best to support the lgbt community, even with the tight restrictions that their label and the kpop genre puts on them. being on the topic of LGBT+ and support of the community, here is suga pretty much saying he’s bi. + and of course, his iconic lyrics in “Cypher Pt.3″

here is the bisexual flag colors in j-hope’s music video for his song “Daydream”.

RM saying he liked “Same Love” twice as much after reading about the lyrics, and Suga outright saying “Nothing is wrong. Everyone is equal.” in the first screenshot.

Jungkook’s love and support for troye sivan + Jimin wearing jeans with lyrics of troye sivan’s “Youth” on them

bts defying gender norms over and over and over.

fondness & friendship with/of multiple lgbt artists

RM referencing the film “Moonlight” in the song “4 O’Clock”

RM wrote the lyrics for GLAM’s song “XXO”, that say “Are you a boy? Girl? I don’t care, passion is the key”

Jungkook and Jimin covering the song “We Don’t Talk Anymore” and not changing the pronouns.

an excerpt from RM’s speech at the U.N. ; “Tell me your story. I want to hear your voice, and I want to hear your conviction. No matter who you are, where you’re from, your skin color, gender identity: speak yourself.” + full transcript here.

and these are just things i can think of off the top of my head. as for their political stance and social messages in their music, & talking about other things considered taboo in kpop (such as mental health/illness), here you go:

suga talking about (his) mental health and struggles in various songs on his mixtape.

their ENTIRE “IDOL” music video is basically a response to how people stereotype them/the kpop genre & have said that they are “too westernized”. the song includes a “traditional African-Korean sound”, the boys wearing hanboks/traditional korean clothing, on top of lots of korean history references & symbolism, and how they take pride in what they do. here is a really good video analyzing & explaining the mv. heres 3 more posts explaining why it sounds/looks the way it does, and how BTS did it intentionally. in case nobody has seen/heard the song, here is the first verse: “You can call me artist (artist) You can call me idol (idol) No matter what you call me I don’t care I’m proud of it”

the song “Epiphany” on “LY: Answer”, is (as you can imagine) a song about having an epiphany about loving yourself. the lyrics are pretty self-explanatory. the chorus: “I’m the one I should love in this world Shining me, precious soul of mine I finally realized so I love me Not so perfect but so beautiful I’m the one I should love”

RM talking about his mental health/depression in “Forever Rain” on his mixtape “mono.” + as well as in “Reflection.” the outro of the song which i wanted to add, is just a repeated “I wish I could love myself.”

the lyrics to the song “I’m Fine” on LY: Answer express being able to love yourself without relying on somebody to fix you or make you happier, because only you can complete yourself.

the outro to the album, “Answer: Love Myself” concludes the Love Yourself album series, and has extremely beautiful lyrics. the full translation here, if anyone wants to read all of them. it’s about, as im sure you can guess, loving yourself even with all your flaws and mistakes & striving to be a better person each day.

SO TLDR; BTS absolutely have made mistakes, like every person does, but have apologized and learned from those mistakes. they have moved on, and have done more good in this world than bad. they have grown over the past 6 years and continue to grow every single day. as a young gay fan, their message and their presence means a lot to me. that fact that they’re so popular and use that power to spread kindness & self-acceptance (no matter Who you are), is really important especially in today’s society. doubly to youth who, themselves, struggle with mental illness and family issues, school/education, and any typical problem young people face in their lives. i have struggled with self-hate, suicidal thoughts, anxiety, trauma, the whole ordeal. their songs have helped me heal, even if only a little. and they give me another reason to keep going everyday. even if you don’t like their music or the boys themselves, there is no denying the positive impact they’ve made on millions of people, adults and children alike. BTS are absolutely not perfect, but they acknowledge this and do their best to BE the best they can be.

#bts #kpop #jeon jungkook #kim taehyung #park jimin #kim namjoon #jung hoseok #min yoongi #kim seokjin #bts v #bts rm #bts suga #bts jhope #bts jin #mine

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ASTROLOGY READING - Jackson Wang 28.03.94

NAME : JACKSON WANG

SEX : M

BIRTHPLACE : Kowloon Tong, Hong Kong

MARCH 28, 1994.

NOTE - I only analyzed up until Mars, the reason for this is because planets after Saturn are all the same for people born in the same generation as him. (These planets take longer to pass from sign to sign because their orbit around the sun is much longer.) I’ll do his planets of Jupiter and Saturn in a separate post !

Sun in Aries - Jackson’s energy will shine through because of his sun in aries placement. Like… this man is bursting with energy once you get to know him.

His ability to socialize and interact also stems from this placement. He’s remarkably outgoing and is basically the life of the party. His fun, charming nature all comes from his sun (+venus which also falls into the same sign). He really tries to make everyone happy in the group through all odds.

Aries can also be known for being competitive and angry some of the time. They also display an exuberance of confidence… which if that doesn’t scream “Jackson” to you, I don’t know what will.

Because he is a fire sign, he’s very independent and though i cannot stress this enough - he simply wants everyone to be happy and enjoy life to the fullest. He also gets bored easily! This is why you constantly may see him doing something, he never seems to settle down and r e l a x. He overworks himself at times to the point of exhaustion, where he has collapsed on stage. Jackson, take a break, god damn.

Moon in Libra - An interesting aspect we have here is that his moon and sun are opposing signs. In many ways this balances out, but the downfall to this is that because Aries and Libra are such people-pleasers, they kind of tend to forget about their own well being. He truly really wants to make people’s days despite what he himself may be going through. He is a fighter however, and anything thrown in his path, he believe he will get through. An optimist at that.

He also strongly believes in equality and justice for all! Hence why we constantly see him being in support of socialist issues, for example, LGBT issues. The fact he had to do a gay kiss for a scene and didn’t see the big deal of it - why people were making such a fuss over a topic.

He merely sees people for who they are, at his core he is a true believer of equality. I feel like in a different life, he would’ve been an activist if not an artist. He really voices his opinion out.

He really is a sunshine who wants to comfort everyone and let them know they’re doing great.

Mercury in Pisces - Very sentimental in the way he talks about things he’s passionate about. Often times you can see this placement of his shine through in his instagram captions about people/things that mean dearly to him.

His emotions really get the best of him when writing lyrics as well. They just really shine through. He wants a message to be sent across to everyone when writing these lines, to have his emotions known. (Though take note that a normal mercury in pisces w a feminine sign will act indecisive with their words, but because he is an aries sun, and libra moon, he’s already very direct, so it cancels the indecisive part of the pisces side in mercury)

Also not to mention, musicians are known to have mercury in water/earth signs (or signs that are known to have wisdom), as their emotions and messages are more notable through writing.

As for Jackson because both his sun and moon are masculine signs, he finds it very hard to express his feelings when you put him on the spot. He’s known to be such an upbeat, hilarious person so when someone asks him to be sentimental for a second, he has to take a couple moments to respond back and in a way “shut off” that side of him.

Because of this placement, if one of his members feels down, he will very much likely handle the situation calmly and softly. Careful of every word he picks out to say to them, as he knows they’re probably going through a difficult time. It pains him to see his members sad.

Venus in Aries - A reaaaaaaaallllllyyy passionate feisty lover. When he falls in love, he likely falls hard. He wants a lover who’s similar to him in a way -- adventurous, determined, and confident. However, at the same time, he’s closed off to love. If any of you recall him saying the one time he fell in love, the girl broke his heart by running off with some other guy (correct me if I’m wrong please, got7 aren’t in my top 3 so ^^)

A relationship with him will oftentimes feel childlike, like a first love almost. His relationships are in a bubble of fun and spontaneity. He enjoys his freedom and if his partner keeps him on a leash, he will likely end the relationship. This placement also explains his hella flirty side like goddamn boi keep it down.

However, venus doesn’t necessarily have to mean your love to others. It can definitely display the love for yourself! (which Jackson makes us very aware of how full of himself he is).

He’s clearly very confident, and shows a lot of love for himself, which could result into why he thinks he doesn’t need a relationship. (other than the fact that lol he doesn’t have time and he’s too busy). He believes it’s fine to be content with you and yourself only. We all don’t need someone in our lives, and that’s ok!

Not only that, but along with this placement, he is very grateful and appreciative for all that he’s been given.

Mars in Pisces -

I actually have this placement, so this would be easier for me to explain. Mars in Pisces signifies that when angered or upset, Jackson is probably not as aggressive and straight forward as he usually appears. The usual way we see him “upset” when the other members is when he’s joking around, and he acts like he is, but of course we all know he isn’t actually upset. Rather I feel like when he really feels angry, he’s the type to bottle it up, or react passive-aggressively.

If any of you recall, a long time ago, he commented on a markson account/post on instagram saying “Please stop.” -- which was out of nowhere. He didn’t say why, rather before he’s mentioned you could ship him with any member of got7 and he couldn’t care less. So why the sudden comment? Lots of people say that it was b/c he didn’t want to be tagged in it - which is understandable. But note he didn’t say “Please stop [reason]” or “Can you stop tagging me,” rather a cryptic passive-aggressive “please stop.”

Additionally, on his instagram posts of his raps, if you squint hard enough, he’s angry over something, but it comes across so passive-aggressive.

He’s likely indecisive, and doesn’t know what he wants to gain out of life, as a lot of people who hold this placement usually don’t have a set plan or final destination. Rather, he lets life take him in for a ride whether he’s prepared or not.

-fin-

hi guys this is my FIRST kpop reading that im going to be posting, so of course by all means it will not be my best reading!! if you have any comments on my reading don’t hesitate to msg me on my main acc @kookaiinee

let me know who you guys think i should do next! it could be a person or a ship. (: (excluding bts as plenty of blogs already cover them)

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legion1993 · 6 years

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You Are My Alpha...

A/N: this is for the Alphabet of Genre’s Challenge brought to us by @trunk-full-of-ideas. This is gonna be another bumpy ride so buckle in its gonna get wild!

Pairing: ALPHA!Jensen x OMEGA!Reader

Letter: S

Word: ‘Safeword’

Summery: Jensen ackles is your celeb crush... he is a bachelor and a hottie but you being a functionable OMEGA never thought you would ever find an ALPHA worthy of your affection. till you set foot in this convention and everything changes...

*~THE SONGs USED IN THIS STORY ARE HALLELUJAH BY PENTATONIX & MAD WORLD by GARY JULES~*

Masterlist

Being a writer meant everything to you, you always had a passion for speaking as much truth in your stories as you did in reality. You went to conventions year after year to vlog, you wrote reviews and always managed to pick up several collectables and more souveniers every time.

This time upon entering the convention you spilled your bag all over the ground… thank god it hadn’t gotten super super busy in there yet, but something else happened. The heat in your core lit up in 2 seconds of a set of strong hands handing you your camera.

Jensen: “are you okay miss?”

You reached up looking as you did, your eyes meeting his as both of you just stood there starring at eachother… your brain was processing, your brain was screaming at you, your mind analyzing the fact there was an ALPHA right in front of you, there was your alpha right in front of you.

Jensen: “OMEGA.”

You could only pant, your heat wasn’t due for another 3 weeks… but it sure as hell came early…

Y/N: “ALPHA.”

At that moment you absent mindedly stuck your camera in your bag not bothering to take your eyes off of him. Neither of you realized that 2 other alpha’s had come up behind him… but you guys could hear their conversation.

Jared: “OMG Jay found his OMEGA…”

Misha: “from the scent of it they are heavily shocked right now…”

Jared: “ya but now they are stuck in Jay’s rut and her heat.”

Misha: “so what do we do, the panel is about to start…”

Jared: “from the looks of it she is apart of the press… her bag split open, she will need a new one but more importantly we need to get them out of public eye before anything bad occurs…”

Jared and Misha approached both you and Jensen but a low snarl ripped from Jensen’s throat when they got too close…

Jensen: “back off guys, this is my omega…”

Jared: “the public is gonna start rolling in soon, why don’t we move to a back room and we can talk about this..”

Jensen let out a low growl and you whimpered, upon realizing that you were scared he pulled out his wallet and handed some money for a new bag to the nearest shop he could find… handing the new bag and your broken one with your stuff still in it to Jared you clung tight to Jensen as you guys made your way to the back room… the door was shut as Jensen pulled you to sit on his lap on the couch…

Jensen: “Omega…”

He says as he breathe deeply moving your hair away from your neck making you moan.

Jared: “dude you can have sex, mark her, claim her or do whatever you what when the panel is done…”

Jensen growled at Jared making you quiver in fear, Jensen then went back to nuzzling his face deep in your hair…

Jared: “so does this omega have a name?”

You nodded and smiled lightly making the lightest moan ever…

Y/N: “Y/N… my name is Y/N…”

You said with a shrill gasp of air as Jensen was now fluttering kisses across your neck…

Jensen: “is there a way that I won’t have to part with my sweet omega for the panel.”

At that moment there was a knock at the door, Richard came through the door and gasped at the sight of Jensen kissing your neck and your shrill moans of pleasure. Jared took Richard aside and watched Richard’s exprssions turn all over the place…

Richard: “okay what the hell is happening over there?”

Jared: “Jensen found his Omega… they have been like that for an hour and a half now…”

Richard: “so there is a really good chance that they will be smashing after the panel…”

Jared nodded and sighed…

Jared: “as long as he knows what he is getting into…”

Richard: “I have an idea but its gonna take some time which I think I can buy… but you need to get them out of honeymoon central now…”

Jared and Richard walked back into the other room and Jared let out a growl that made Jensen snap his head towards Jared…

Jared: “that’s not your omega yet… she hasn’t been claimed and the scent of her heat his driving me wild…”

Misha catching on to what was happening joined in…

Misha: “same for me Jensen… so what will it be fight us for one omega or pull your head out of your ass and wing it like normal…”

Jensen moved the hair away from your shoulder and slid down your tank top strap and bit into your neck marking you. You squirmed a little but then let the bliss and passion sweep over you, it lasted 5 minutes it stung and your eyes shut on their own, your body shivering as Jensen pulled away from you.

Jared: “what the hell just happened…”

Misha: “OMG…”

Richard: “Jensen claimed her…”

Jensen and you look at the surrounding faces confused as fuck…

Jensen: “what are you guys starring at?”

Jared: “you did it dude…”

Jensen: “did what im a little fuzzy…”

You felt your neck and pulled it back feeling something sticky…

Y/N: “I think you claimed me…”

Jensen: “someone explain please… we don’t remember anything…”

Y/N: “I remember my bag falling apart, I remember dropping my camera… then nothing…”

Jensen: “I remember picking up this camera and then nothing…”

Misha: “I believe that was when you both realized that you belonged to eachother…”

Jensen looks at you as you do him making a smile appear on your face… Jensen wraps his arms around your waist…

Jensen: “ok so how long till the panel?”

Richard: “like 5 minutes but I have a plan if you don’t want to be apart from your claimed Omega…”

Jensen kissed your cheek as he turned his attention to Richard…

Jensen: “I really don’t how bout you my sweet Omega?”

Y/N: “I never want to leave your side my handsome Alpha…”

Richard: “ok so here’s the plan Jensen you will enter the panel last only cause ill introduce you and Y/N at the same time… and don’t worry if anything goes wrong well let’s just say no one will be too thrilled about it…”

Jensen: “ill make sure im ready to go up with my beautiful Y/N, but first we need to clean up the blood…”

Y/N: “is there a towel or a wipe or something…”

Misha: “there is a bathroom down the hall but I don’t…”

Jensen looked at you for a moment as if telling you that you were allowed to go and get cleaned up… you smiled lightly getting off his lap and starting for the door…

Jensen: “ill wait by the door for you to come back to me…”

Y/N: “you wont have to wait too long…”

Jensen only smiled his green eyes starring at you with a golden tint shimmering cross them, you scampered off to the washroom where you removed your tank top to make it easier to clean all the blood off…

You grabbed your phone to take a photo of your mark… you couldn’t believe it, neither would anyone else… you were gonna text this to the one person who might actually care enough to keep you happy…

You sent the photo and waited 2 seconds before your phone started ringing…

Y/N: “yes Y/F/N…”

Y/F/N: “what the hell girl… I don’t even hear from you for a week and all of the sudden you decide it’s a good time to text me a photo of your claimed mark…”

You sighed looking at the mark as you cleaned off all the blood…

Y/N: “hey I’m sorry okay but I knew the photo would raise one particular question in your mind and I didn’t want to text you the answer to it cause I wanted you to hear it from my lips…”

Y/F/N: “okay spill who claimed you… seriously tell me he is hot?”

You breathed in deeply as your fingers slid over your mark…

Y/N: “its Jensen…”

You could hear Y/F/N screaming at the top of her lungs…

Y/F/N: “DO YOU MEAN JENSEN FUCKING ACKLES???”

You knew you had to answer almost immediately…

Y/N: “the one and only…”

Y/F/N: “well I guess that is ok… but wait the panel isn’t it…”

Y/N: “just be ready to watch it live girl… its gonna be one hell of a show…”

Y/F/N: “don’t worry I’ll be watching every moment of it… I’ll even record it so you can finish your expose for the review… I do have one random question tho, what the hell are you wearing for an outfit?”

You could only smile knowing that she was just looking out for yout wellbeing, well that and the status of your wardrobe…

Y/N: “my fuschia tank top and short jean shorts…”

Y/F/N: “good so at least you looked hot for that first meeting… so how was it…”

You could only smile more as you threw the paper towels in the garbage and dried off your shoulder…

Y/N: “I promise ill update you on everything when I make it back home… hopefully it will be with Jensen but that’s just so you can meet the man responsible for my happiness… oh and just be mindful that I won’t be able to text you back during the duration of the panel.”

You said as you put your tank top back on…

Y/F/N: “I know just be mindful of what you are doing?”

You sighed knowing that she was right…

Y/N: “I know just be prepared for a possible hometown visit very very soon…”

Y/F/N: “I always look forward to you coming home… love you…”

Y/n: “love you too girl…”

You hung up the phone and once more running your fingers over the scar, your heat settling down enough that you were comfortable. There was a peace over you, your fingers tracing the bite mark, your thoughts drifting to Jensen’s face burying in your hair as you sat in his lap.

That was the moment when you walked out of the bathroom without a care in the world, you walked into the room where the guys were waiting for you. Jensen upon seeing you came over to you and spun you around to hold onto you from behind as the guys talked about what the schedule was gonna be like…

Richard: “so now that most of us are on the same page but Y/N I need you to stay as close to Jensen as possible… when we bring you both out you will be singing with Jensen… you will sit beside Jensen, Jay will also explain this to the world… you will introduce yourself to the world… if anything goes wrong we pull you and Jay out of there… I will also be up there but for the first little bit its you, Jay, Jared and Misha. Do you have any questions or anything so far?”

You shoke your head leaning into Jensen’s embrace, the feeling of his lips on your neck just left you in a state of happiness…

Y/N: “what exactly goes on during the time im up there, like will I be asked questions too??? I mean technically I am apart of the press, I usually sit with the press, so this is gonna be something very new to me…”

Richard: “well actually Jay weren’t you supposed to perform for the fans?”

Jensen: “ya during the intermission…”

Rich: “Y/N, can you sing?.?”

You nod your head as Jensen nuzzles his face once more into your neck…

Jensen: “she smiles, kisses beautifully, takes photos like a badass, writes like a expert journalist and she can sing… im officially deeply in love…”

You smiled and that’s all you could do as Jensen talked about what song you guys would do… and then you took 1 glance at Jensen and nuzzled your cheek against his… you suddenly placed your trust in a guy who turned out to be your alpha the same one that turned out to claim you, the one that who im sure after the panel would make sweet passionate love to you…

Jay: “actually I want to change the song for the performance…”

Richard: “Jensen its your floor whats your plan?”

Jay: “well, I want to do something to dedicate what I have found with Y/N I want to do something to express how we feel right now… how bout a karaoke version of Hallelujah? Do you know it Y/N?”

You nod and hold his arms tight to your waist…

Y/N: “I know that song all too well…”

You and Jensen then turned to face eachother for a quick vocal warmer… you and him choose a part of the song…

Y/N: “and its not some cry that you hear at night, its not somebody who’s seen the light, it’s a cold and it’s a broken hallelujah.”

Jensen joined in while you held the note…

Jensen & Y/N: “Hallelujah, Hallelujah, Hallelujah, Hallelujah…”

You were starring at him your voices blending as you held the note your face beaming with bliss, your body shivering, your mind struggling to corner your thoughts… Jensen’s hands on your own…

Jared: “that was almost mesmerizing… like almost…”

Richard: “haunting… it was like a haunted melody… one that…”

Misha: “might touch a lot of lives today…”

You smiled hugging yourself into Jensen, feeling his arms tighten around you… you continued to hum the tune of Hallelujah, as you guys waited for the cue to enter the panel… you guys could all hear Richard on stage telling everyone the schedule…

Richard: “so everyone shall we bring them out… you know who im talking about… but today one of our guys has a newly found secret… you guys know them as J2M but I know them as the funniest mostly well controlled bunch of guys I have ever had the pleasure of working with… Jensen, Jared and Misha…”

The crowd was in a uproar as Jared and Misha went up first with Jensen following closely behind with you on his side holding hands you guys entered the stage to which most of the fans did little gasps of shock… you clung to Jensen’s arm feeling the crowd starring at you, your press badge still attached to your body, Jared and Misha surrounding you and Jensen as you all went to sit down…

Jared: “hows everyone doing today?”

The crowd cheered once more and your body relaxed under Jensen’s touch to your thigh…

Jared: “as you all im sure are wondering what is happening here we will jump straight into some questions…”

First person to step up to the plate was one of the press people…

Press guy 1: “Jensen who is the lovely young lady your with?”

Jensen only tightened his grip on your thigh knowing that you were claimed no one else could take you from him so he moved his hand from your thigh to your shoulder…

Jensen: “this is Y/N she is my omega…”

Press guy 1: “but she is apart of the press so why is she up there with you?”

Jensen: “cause I claimed her…”

The room started whispering and gasps filled the air, leading everyone to a moral of snarls filling the room…

Press guy 1: “well that puts a spin on things, how long ago did you do this?”

Jensen: “1 hour ago…”

You were feeling several hundred eyes on you at that moment you were scared of everything. Jensen then pulled you up to sit you on his lap, yielding to the fact that you were scared. He cuddled you close…

Press guy 1: “so your serious about this then?”

Jensen: “yes I am, we are very serious and very very happy…”

That press guy jumped off the stage and the next person came up to play..

Fan 1: “Jared how does Jensen claiming this omega make you feel?”

Jared: “I feel nothing but the happiest for my best friend… he deserves to be happy…”

Fan 1: “Jensen you mentioned you claimed her an hour ago but you haven’t mentioned what made you guys realize eachother existed…”

You decided to speak after nodding slightly at Jensen…

Y/N: “we realized eachother existed when my book bag broke and my camera fell right in front of Jensen… he was kind enough to hand me my camera and right then that first glance we knew…”

Jensen: “it didn’t take long for me to feel bad about her bag there was a little shop near by and they witnessed the whole ordeal… so I took it upon myself to buy her a new bag, and then we were backstage just before the panel I claimed her cause of all the commotion in the room… thanks Rich, Jare and Mish for that btw… but we are very happy…”

The fan goes back down as someone else moves up to the mantle… this continues on for an hour and a half… multiple people asking different questions, making comments, smiling at you guys, asking you and Jensen to kiss and so on and so forth. But it wasn’t long before Rich goes to his mic and smiles at the crowd…

Richard: “hey everyone here is our intermission… where we have a special performance lined up for you all… this performance takes a new spin on a beloved song, well at least a well known song, this is gonna be done by 2 of our lovely panelists…”

You stood backstage with Jensen trying to figure out who was starting but then you thought about how it starts with the version done by pentatonix…

Jensen: “so im starting then what happens…”

Y/N: “then we wing it…”

Jensen: “I hope we can do this… I really hope we can rock the house…”

You nod nuzzling into him humming your first note, he joins you as you guys do a little rehearsal Jensen starts…

Jensen: “hallelujah, Hallelujah…”

Y/N: “Hallelujah, Hallelujah…”

Jensen and you harmonized it at that moment…

Jensen & Y/N: “Hallelujah, hallelujah..”

That’s when you guys stopped cause you heard Richard finish his speal…

Richard: “so now that ive finished talking lets bring them out… here to perform a cover of Hallelujah here is Jensen and Y/N…”

The crowd cheered, the crowd went wild as the accompany music started… Jensen leaned down and planted a soft kiss on your lips before letting go of you and walking on stage starting the song…

Jensen: “I’ve heard there was a secret cord. That David played and it pleased the Lord, but you don’t really care for music do ya?”

That was when you stepped up on stage walking out you started to sing…

Y/N: “Well it goes like this the fourth the fifth the minor fall the major lift. The baffled king composing Hallelujah…”

Jensen & Y/N: “hallelujah, hallelujah, hallelujah, hallelujah…”

The crowd was swaying and you stepped up again to start the next verse…

Y/N: “well your faith was strong but you needed proof, you saw her bathing on the roof. Her beauty in the moonlight over threw ya…”

Jensen joined in at that moment… neither of you noticing that Richard and Jared had joined you guys with mics on stage… but all of you took notice of how cold the room got…

Jensen & Y/N: “she tied you to the kitchen chair, she broke your throne and she cut your hair and from your lips, she drew the Hallelujah…”

Jensen, Y/N, Jared & Richard: “Hallelujah, Hallelujah, Hallelujah, Hallelujah…”

Jared: “well baby I’ve been here before I’ve seen this room and ive walked this floor. I used to live alone before I knew ya…”

Richard: “and ive seen your flag on the marble arch, and love is not a vict’ry march. It’s a cold and it’s a broken Hallelujah…”

Jensen, Y/N, Jared & Richard: “Hallelujah, Hallelujah, Hallelujah, Hallelujah…”

That’s when you stepped ahead of the guys for your all versed solo…

Y/N: “maybe theres a God above, but all ive ever learned from love, was how to shoot somebody who outdrew ya…”

You took a breath and continued…

Y/N: “and its not a cry that you hear at night, its not somebody who’s seen the light, it’s a cold and it’s a broken hallelujah…”

You took a breath as the guys started the hallelujahs…

Jensen: “Hallelujah, Hallelujah…”

Jensen & Jared: “Hallelujah, Hallelujah…”

Jensen, Jared, & Richard: “Hallelujah, Hallelujah, Hallelujah, Hallelujah…”

You joined in at that moment…

Jensen, Y/N, Jared, & Richard: “Hallelujah, hallelujah, hallelujah, hallelujah…”

The crowd started clapping, cheering and chanting your names, they wanted an encore… but you looked at Jensen who smiled nodding at the band who started the beat…

Jensen: “all around me are familiar faces, worn out places worn out faces bright and early for their daily races, going nowhere, going nowhere…”

Y/N: “their tears are filling up their glasses no expression, no expression. Hide my head I want to drown my sorrow no tomorrow, no tomorrow…”

Jensen: “and I find it kinda funny, I find it kinda sad the dreams in which im dying are the best I’ve ever had…”

Y/N: “I find it hard to tell you, I find it hard to take when people run in circles it’s a very very…”

Jensen joined you then..

Jensen & Y/N: “Mad world… Mad world…”

You were about to start the second verse when a set of glowing eyes in the crowd startled you, you ran off stage… you hid in the corner, crouching down you took a few really deep breaths leaning towards your panic attack setting in… Jensen’s voice was no sooner to be heard than you started crying…

Jensen: “Y/N… Guys over here…”

Jensen was kneeling in front of you immediately, you wrapped your arms around him, your entire body shivering with fear…

Jensen: “its ok Y/N… baby its ok… im right here…”

Jared: “is she ok?”

Jensen: “that’s fear im smelling it strongly off her… how long can we delay the panel…”

Richard: “we can cancel the rest of the panel if need be but we shouldn’t disappoint the fans…”

Jensen holds your shivering body as you both get off the floor…

Jensen: “no you guys go back to the panel and finish the second half without us… meet us back at the hotel… we will get cliff to drive us back… call when you guys are leaving…”

Jensen cups your cheeks in his hands, making you restless… you looked at him through the tears lingering in your eyes…

Jensen: “baby can you tell me what happened to make you so scared like this…”

All you could do was nod at first till you found your voice again…

Y/N: “eyes… red eyes… glowing red eyes… they haunt me…”

Jensen: “what red eyes? Who do they belong too?”

Y/n: “him… he is here… he came for me…”

Jensen tensed at your words, his eyes going darker and darker with the angrier he got…

Jared: “we took a look around from the entrance of the stage there aren’t any red eyes out there in the crowd now… but ya maybe head back to the hotel… jay just let us know if your at ours or hers…”

Jensen nodded at them as he turned his attention back to you…

Jensen: “which hotel is all your stuff at?”

Y/N: “same one you guys are at but on a different floor…”

Jensen: “well this makes things easier…”

Y/N: “alpha, carry me, I don’t trust my own movements…”

Jensen heeded your words, knowing how scared you were he could feel every single emotion you were feeling right then… but he scooped you into his arms just as Cliff came round the corner with your things as well as Jensen’s.

Cliff: “Jensen, Y/N where to?”

Jensen: “the hotel and bring the car around… we need to get there as soon as possible…”

Cliff: “May I inquire as to what happened?”

Jensen: “something scared my sweet Omega… I don’t want anything bad to happen, so we need to get back to the hotel asap…”

Jensen held his forehead against your cheek, placing a kiss to your cheek… as he then followed Cliff to the black SUV that always was driven… you guys got to the SUV and Jensen slid you in first as you waited the 2 seconds it was for him to join you… He pulled you as close to him as he could your hands shaking in his own, your eyes blank but a deep shade of gold, a scent of fear around you, a scared look in your facials…

Jensen: “babe what room are you?”

You looked up at Jensen at that moment…

Y/N: “513… but I don’t know why he would come here, I left that place a long time ago… I have been a self functioning omega for a long time, why would he come here… it doesn’t make sense… why does my past always come back to haunt me…”

Jensen: “shhh its ok babe its ok… we will talk more about this when we get to the hotel… Cliff how much longer…”

Cliff: “we are almost there… ill follow you guys to the room with the bags…”

You just clung tightly to Jensen knowing that everything would make more sense to him, once back at the hotel there was a small crowd but with Jensen carrying you, they made a wide birth with all of the bodyguards and officers around it wasn’t long before you guys were through the doors and heading to the elevators…

Once in the elevator Jensen leaned down and kissed your forehead…

Jensen: “babe wheres your room card?”

You reach up with your hand and pull it out of your bra… Jensen smiles taking it from you, his eyes lightening up by several shades as he catches a slight glimpse of your hard nipple… you began blushing knowing that your next stop would be the bed… Jensen slid the card through the door and it opened… you guys entered cliff followed, he then placed the bags on the bed and he smiled at us…

Cliff: “Jensen ill be right outside if you guys need anything…”

Jensen: “just let us know if and when you hear from Jared and Misha…”

Cliff: “will do sir…”

Cliff left the room that was when Jensen set you back on your feet, you went to the sink and splashed some cold water on your face… drying it off with a towel you turned to see that Jensen had removed his sweater… you smiled and went to the room service menu…

Jensen: “what happened back there…”

You froze at his question, you knew it was coming, you just didn’t realize how long it was gonna be before it came out…

You went to sit on the bed and motioned for him to join you…

Y/N: “better get comfy cause this is gonna be a tough nut to swallow…”

Jensen laid himself on his side and just rested his head in your lap as he motioned for you to continue…

Y/N: “it began when I first presented as an omega… I have 1 older mainly aggressive brother and 1 overly possessive father… my mom died shortly after I was born… so when I presented as an omega, their alphaic asses went into deep ruts, I wasn’t barely a day old as an omega when they tried to rape me… they didn’t get very far well my father didn’t, my brother however was the one to penetrate me, but he wasn’t able to knot me before I shot him… my father was still knocked unconscious when I finished packing my shit and taking his keys and making the fire that lit my house on fire look like an accident… I guess my father wasn’t as unconscious as I thought but I have long since ditched that specific car… I stole his car and 3 days later ended up in New York where I moved in with a pen pal I had and so ya ever since then ive changed my name my hair everything... but the question is not how he found me, its why he is coming after me now, why now its been 10 years since the incident… but that’s not why it scares me… it’s the fact that he survived… and he is a full fledge werewolf alpha now… not just a human alpha… his anger and rage has turned him into a full werewolf… that’s why im so frightened that’s why im scared that’s why when I saw the red eyes during the song I ran off stage and ran into the corner…”

By this point Jensen’s eyes were black with anger but his body was calm, he was just looking up at you, he was just watching your expressions as you began to cry he flipped over to cradle you against his chest… he was just holding you against him, he didn’t care that your tears were soaking his shirt, he didn’t care about much else the only thing on his mind was making sure you were ok, he was holding onto you when your phone started ringing with your best Friends tone…

You reached away from Jensen for a moment grabbing the phone you answer it…

Y/F/N: “girl, I saw the clip so that’s what you meant by it was gonnna be a hell of a show… but why did you run off stage…”

You looked at Jensen who only proceeded to pet your hair as you laid your head in his lap…

Y/N: “its him he survived…”

You could hear the breathing of Y/F/N get really heavy…

Y/F/N: “how is he alive… from what you told me…”

Y/N: “that’s what I thought but apparently he made it out of the house and he is here in Vancouver… I need you to keep the apartment on lockdown till I can get back ok… put into action plan ALPHA…”

Y/F/N: “done, how long?”

Y/N: “soon… ill talk to Jensen and see what we can do… ill let you know… just for now don’t leave the apartment ill let you know soon… I love you…”

Y/F/N: “I love you too…”

You hung up the phone and Jensen checked his…

Jensen: “Jared and Misha are on their way I told them where we are… they are bringing food… sounds like you and your friend had prepared for something like this…”

You nod as you feel his lips press against your forehead…

Jensen: “we can go swimming if you want later… I mean if you want or we can stay in here and find a way to entertain ourselves…”

Jensen says as he leans over again to press a kiss to your lips… you got up off him and knelt on the bed in front of Jensen who was scanning your body over… his lips were instantly on yours again, his hands roaming your sides a light moan escaped your lips between kisses as his hands lifted your shirt over your head…

Jensen: “before we go any further, we should have a Safeword…”

You looked at him helping him out of his shirt…

Y/N: “screw safewords… knot me Jay I’m not going anywhere…”

Jensen: “but the guys are gonna be here shortly… then again we can do this and at least get some fun out of the way before they get here… plus im sure cliff will knock before he lets them in…”

Jensen says as he pins you to the bed, and starts fondling your breasts, he then unhooks your bra only to hook his lips over your hard nipple. You let your head sink back into the pillow as a loud moan escapes your lips. Jensen pulls off your nipple letting a smile graze his lips as his eyes darken.

Jensen: “someone likes that…”

He then slides his hand down your side and into the waist line of your shorts, your juices pooling your pussy dripping wet, Jensen’s finger grazed your clit and your back arched, your hands clenching the bed, your legs wrapping round Jensen firmly…

Y/N: “I want this, I want you…”

Jensen: “do you not care who witnesses us?”

Y/N: “all I care about is us here and now…”

Jensen moved a piece of hair from your face, you were really sure this was what your life would be like… you would have Jensen by your side forever, you were gonna have a fabulous life… one that ensures your heart is his forever and he wont ever leave you…

Jensen: “mind releasing me sweetheart while I get rid of the rest of our clothing…”

Y/N: “as you wish…”

You released him so he could undo his jeans and remove them along with his boxers as he sunk down to remove your shorts and panties… your core dripping wet as he finished sliding off your panties and took a good whif…

Jensen: “ill have to sample what you have done down there omega…”

Jensen’s eyes went completely black as he moved his face close to your core, you squirmed as he moved his hand to your stomach as if to hold you to the bed…

Jensen: “stay still baby…”

Y/N: “yes sir…”

You said in almost a moan… your eyes shutting on their own, as you suddenly felt his tongue flick over your clit you let out a scream, one of pleasure… Jensen got the idea and moved his tongue faster against your heat, you reached 2 orgasms in a matter of 5 minutes before he slid up your body to kiss your lips… as he pulled back he lined himself up to your entrance.

Jensen: “you ready for me baby?”

Y/N: “yes alpha…”

Jensen no sooner took in your reply that he slid his length in your slick heat… he did that and there was no slowing down, he pounded you into the bed the pillows and heavy blankets were off the bed the sheets were drapped over your bodies, Jensen’s idea of modesty, the shuttering of your body, the curling of your toes, you orgasmed another 5 times before minorly acknowledging the door opening with a shrill moan your nails digging into Jensen’s back making him thrust quicker…

Jared and Misha walked in only to witness the scene before them… you and Jensen getting it on in the bed… you felt no remorse you felt no shame no guilt… no nothing… you only felt the length of your alpha growing with each thrust… Jared and Misha tried to distract themselves from the scene… Jensen had pulled the sheet over your forms… his frame making it like being in a tent…

Jensen: “hold on baby my knot is coming…”

Jared and misha upon hearing that took it upon themselves to lay out the food… Jensen’s thrusts became a lot harder and faster making you orgasm another 7 times before his own shaking orgasm came with the knot… he placed you both covered beneath the covers as you guys laid spooning on the bed… Jensen had not pulled out yet, he was still unloading…

You guys looked up to see Jared and Misha whose expressions told you guys exactly how long they had been there…

Jared: “well are you guys alright now…”

Jensen: “we are perfectly fine right now aren’t we my sweet omega…”

Jensen says as he leans down to rest his face in your hair…

Y/N: “perfectly fine my handsome alpha…”

Jensen: “Y/N told me about the guy with the red eyes that she saw… to paraphrase what she told me its her asshole father who thinks she belongs to him and no one else… she burned her house down knowing her dead brother and her unconscious father were inside, apparently daddy dearest isn’t dead he is alive, Y/N here tho has a backup plan for her current home but that’s in new York, her best friend is there on lockdown right now…”

Jared: “wait your saying that person with the red eyes she saw is her father?”

You nod knowing you would have to speak sooner or later..

Y/N: “the very same douchebag that tried to rape me… would have succeeded too if I hadn’t knocked him unconscious… it was my brother who almost knotted me… or at least he would have if I hadn’t shot him…”

Jensen: “which is why I just knotted her so no alpha will dare touch her again… and once we deal with her asshole father I intend to knot her until we are pregnant and then once we can confirm that we will live happily ever after…”

Y/n: “what would be the best plan of action I mean he isn’t just gonna give up now that he has found me… he knows also probably where I am… whats his plan…”

Jared: “is there anything we can do?”

Misha: “we will help in any way we can…”

Jensen just smiled as his arm draped over your waist he snuggled closer to you making you swoon… Jared and Misha dished out 2 plates of food and wrapped them up placing them in the fridge as they watched you fall asleep…

Jensen: “how did the rest of the panel go…”

Jared: “good except one person asked what happened to you guys and we simply said Y/N wasn’t feeling well so you took her to rest…”

Jensen: “anything odd happen?”

Misha: “that same pair of red eyes that Y/N saw, we saw it too…”

Jensen: “what happened after wards…”

Jared: “by the time the guards were able to go find them, they were long gone…”

Jensen: “damnit… I want him found and caught or my darling wont be safe from harm…”

Jared: “Jay she is your omega now, isn’t she already safe from harm…”

Jensen: “I mean like you know from her father… we find him we kill him… if he hurts her we play judge jury and executioner… he is a full werewolf tho so pretty much like the show… silver, chopping of heads the entire ordeal…”

Misha: “I can see if Cliff has some silver…”

Jared: “we will help in any way we can… it will be just like the show… 2 brothers and their guardian angel… or just the 3 hotties who are trying to save one of their omega!”

Jensen: “Saving People…”

Jared: “hunting things…”

But before misha could finish the motto the door was kicked down, with a cloud of dubri flying everywhere Jensen covered you with his form as a loud growl rang through the air… you woke instantly…

Jensen: “babe your shivering….”

Y/N: “Jay its him…”

You and Jensen looked out from the covers to see Jared unconscious, Misha groaning in pain and a large wolf in the doorway…

Fredrick: “Y/N ive come for you… you left me to die and now you go and let another alpha knot you, your gonna regret ever messing with me…”

You cowered in terror as Jensen held under the bed a red alert which would alert the hotel to lockdown… you both laid in wait as he stood blocking any and all hope of exit…

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