#just sharing cause maybe its the (undiagnosed) autism but I always seem to notice these things til years later

[wonder-and-wildflowers]

Kisses are so odd to me because when I was little my squish and I would do them and it was mostly chill (I remember being kinda grossed out but okay enough to do it again if asked. Never felt the need to initiate though).

But then when other people tried to kiss me I literally, ans I cannot stress this enough, actively dropped everything to physically ran away. Like full on sprint down a hallways and scalled pool-side walls. I was so serious about it being nasty.

And then a few years passed and my next squish wanted me to be her first kiss. I dodged that shit for like 6 months before she just gave it to someone else. I still think I would've been mostly chill with it, had she asked before having told me she felt romantic and sexual attraction with. Which promptly fucked up our dynamic.

Then one of my friends a year or so later was kissing peoples foreheads and asked if she could kiss mine and I was like "sure." Cause ya know, just on the forehead. No biggie.

Promptly regretted saying yes. Hated it. Perfectly innocent on both our parts but genuinely found it revolting. 0/10 never want to expirience that again.