#just rough. wonder how much ppl call me a loser & a bad person behind my back. i am the problem headmate after all | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

windupaidoneus · 3 months ago

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anyway my wrist hurts its a sign i need to stop exteriorising the illness & start perhaps sleeping more please please please. doesnt feel like i deserve it considering how evil my brain is amking me feel rn but any reassurance im not a horrible person would be appreciated & barring that telling me honestly that i suck also would be 👍 ya hooooo

#why my left wrist. i do fuckall w that thing. is that the problem. perhaps? i mean i walked the dogs i suppose #there was a big fucking spider in the hallway glad it wasnt in the flat i wouldve cried. admittedly no lights are on #but yea im acting in ways i personally dont find appropriate but i need to exteriorise or ill no doubt do worse.#i just dont have very many outlets sadly. if i still did sports... if only...#mostly i sit & stew in my own thoughts concocting ways in which surely ppl are planning my downfall. not good!#downfall from what? um. the remaining mental stability i have. whcih isnt much so if anyone is plotting that pls cease thanks #just rough. wonder how much ppl call me a loser & a bad person behind my back. i am the problem headmate after all #wyrm or stablehand should front again theyre actually likable & stuff but anyway

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