#just reminiscing today

[tiraam]

I think another sad thing about this Liam Payne situation is, that things will never change.

Yes, it was most likely drugs and alcohol what made the end situation what it was in the end. But mocking and bullying online is often one of the triggers for people turning to substances in the first place. Now, I was never a Directioner so I don’t know his full situation, what led him to the end result, but even I’ve seen quite a few videos on TikTok of people making fun of him only a few weeks back. I never interacted with them so they disappeared from my fyp quite quickly, but I can only imagine how many videos there really were. Even if he never saw them, he would’ve still been aware of them. And I can’t imagine it being a nice feeling.

No matter the rumors and situations surrounding him, he was still a father to a young boy who will now grow up without him. He was still a friend, a son, a brother, a bandmate and a person who mattered to a lot of people from a very young age.

People are shocked now but what bothers me is that, once it wears off, a lot of them will go back to making fun of people and bullying online. As this is what gets them views and attention.

I often feel like a lot of people lose their integrity once they start posting content. As them all they are consumed with is the thought of more views and for some reason, hate really brings in the viewers. And what their content actually does to real people outside of social media is out of their minds.

So while I wish this is what finally makes people wake up, I know it won’t.

It is a vicious cycle.

[chellyfishing]

honestly so wild to me how often people will tell me i’m so smart or so kind and empathetic or that i’ve faced such terrible hardships right up until i say something they don’t want to hear, then i just don’t know what i’m talking about (especially when it’s literally about why i and people like me end up in those kinds of situations to begin with)

[rickybaby]

Daniel Ricciardo sets the fastest lap record around the Marina Bay street circuit

[kastillia]

[autistic-danieljackson]

The other problem with tv shows now is that they’re either so incredibly dull or they try to cram so much into every season because they they’re so scared of cancellation and there’s no in between

[lifemod17]

I love seeing the enthusiastic "I was at that show!" followed by a short story of someone reliving what an incredible time they had tags written in my reblogs. It makes me happy <3

[marblerose-rue]

got asked to draw two of my old wc rp ocs :-) left is cicadahop, right is scallopstar

[sunforgrace]

cas girlism reign eternal because we were cas baited to thee bitter end. where’s the angel forever and ever. we won because he is alive and heaven is his house but they kept that gay angel from our screens in a manner most foul

[scarlettfevor]

How it feels to watch minecraft diaries as a 21 year old woman

[sainz100]

idk how to explain it, but I feel this small bubble of hope. as if some good news is right around the corner 🫧🌅 not yet, but maybe soon, I'll always feel that hope that the next chapter will be better than the last

[icewindandboringhorror]

There's always a slight yearning in the back of my mind wishing I had been born in the right place, time, family situation, income level, etc. to have just lived in one single house for my entire life. Imagine being born in a place that still suits you, even through all of your personal evolutions and etc. The idea of deep familiarity with an area because you've lived and explored it for 40+ years, being encased in a web of memories and connections. Being able to clean out your old childhood bedroom and find personal artifacts, to dig in the yard and remember. I know those lives can still be plenty imperfect, but there's just something so seemingly solid and stable and Grounding about it that I sometimes wish I could have.. (At least from my outside perspective as someone who's moved around a bit geographically and even within the same area, never lives in the same house/ apartment /etc. for more than a few years usually.) Like... having a place that is printed upon, fully your own, rather than chronically a visitor, every thought of a space always tempered with the notion that one day soon you'll have to pack it all up again, etc. There's something peaceful about the permanence.

[todayisafridaynight]

Do you mind dumping all of your thoughts on ebina for us?

i dont even know where to begin on ebina he just sucks major horse cock and i cant be swayed on this but ill put it under the cut for everyones sake. this is rambly as hell too idc i refuse to spend any more time thinking about ebina more than i already do

like what is his purpose. like i KNOW his purpose but it sucks- him being a Plot Twist baby is the dumbest shit in the world and they dont even ATTEMPT to do anything meaningful with it i do not care what anyone says

why even HAVE HIM be related to ichiban if he never even interacts with ichi in a meaningful way, esp when ichi's whole theme is family-- WHEN THE GAME IS LITERALLY ABOUT ICHI MEETING HIS MOM (or it was until they decided they didnt care about akane in the plot anymore)

like we mentioned it before here but if you have to have ebina related to a yakuza from the past for his ol Bring Down The Yakuza gig then why not make him an orphan from kazama's orphanage ???? literally nothing wouldve changed except it would've made more sense with how much kiryu deals with him instead of ichi. it wouldve been a great way to round things off with kiryu's saga too, what with having to confront the consequences of kazama's actions directly and finally and officially burst that fanatic bubble of his (i dont wanna HEAR nothing about gaiden that's not enough for me im GREEDY). theres something in here too about kiryu and daigo but i cant articulate it... i just know that wouldve been better too .... something something kiryu brought daigo into this life and now that he sees kazama 'bring' ebina into this life hes projecting ... idk ..

the game def didnt seem to give a fuck that ebina was arakawa's son considering they fucking revealed it in a bland-ass in-game cutscene FROM DAIGO OF ALL PEOPLE daigo respectfully why the fuck do you know this

i dont know how many people watch my streams but i was so obnoxious about ebina's villain monologue before his fight because its just ...... it just SCREAMS Hey You Guys Remember Aoki Right. fucking Masumi Arakawa Had Two Sons: One Who Loved Him And One Who Hated Him LITERALLY SHUT UP AND DIE I HATE YOU MASATO ARAKAWA WAS RIGHT THERE AND HE DID IT BETTER THAN YOU fucking stealing his bleach japan shit too. you might be able to steal bleach japan and piss me off about it the entire time because fucking everyone and their grandmother besides zhao seems to have forgotten fucking bleach japan but you can NOT steal Number One Hater Son from masato arakawa GET AWAY FROM HER 🗣️🗣️🗣️ 'why did masumi arakawa have to get himself killed' BECAUSE HIS NUMBER ONE HATER SON HAD HIM KILLED BECAUSE HE WAS A BETTER HATER THAN YOU SHUT UP

another thing that pissed me off to no end was the sawashiro shit fuckin Oh He Kept Him Alive Because He Wanted Him To Stop Him SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP I HATE YOU . i really wouldve preferred if they just killed sawashiro like old man why are you here- WE DIDNT EVEN GET TO SEE YOUR EYE GET GOUGED but im getting off topic. NOTHING bout what we've seen from ebina could convince me he Wanted To Be Stopped like absolutely nothing i dont want to hear this bullshit excuse. it is MERELY just reminding me of ichi being like 'i wish i couldve been there to stop you' @ aoki and its making me pissed

like im the only person who cares this intensely because im the only person who likes aoki enough like this and im trying NOT to mention him so much and just focus on ebina but its just so annoying... like its impossible NOT to see the parallels, especially when the game is practically bashing it into my brain every three seconds. like if we're talking aoki/masato-adjacent antags then i like eiji so its not the fact that HE IS aoki adjacent that pisses me off its just that he has no agency OUTSIDE of being a ghost of him. like there's nothing interesting about him in the slightest and he's barely even on screen why are you forcing me to give a fuck about this twat. if anything the one aoki thing i wish they did mirror onto him was dying at the end i do not care about this man

[sallymew4]

found this cool magazine while i was out. looked into it a little bit and found out it was from a vintage series, with this specific issue originally being printed in October of 1977 !! the publish date is also at the top right corner, but its a little hard to see with the glare lol

https://postmarkedfromthestars.com/products/ufo-magazine-oct-1977-kidnapped-by-space-aliens?variant=43066407977202 heres a site that shows a few pages inside, but its totally sold out of copies

[merlinoutofcontext]

I love reigniting Merlin Fandom Lore

[kijagf]

so many people have laughed at me (not unkindly) when I told them that I got a cd player. how is this unusual dawg

[soullessjack]

very random sentimental post but since it’s supernatural day and whatever I figured it was owed or something. its 3am so this may not be very well said also.

cw brief mention of suicide/suicidal ideation

supernatural is not a show that can be cased as objectively good or objectively bad. it has high rises and concrete-crack falls as a result. It’s a show. I don’t have to elaborate on that, you guys know what I’m saying. but when it’s good, it’s good, and sometimes it’s so good that it can unfortunately impact your life in a positive way forever, which is what I wanna talk about here m. I began watching spn in 2014 when I was ten years old. my brother used to watch it and suggested it to me when I was like 8-9 since we both shared an interest in scary things. my parents had recently divorced and I was recently experiencing the first and biggest uprooting of my life as I knew it (as an autistic person I am not very good with changes — unless I’m made aware of them and given time to adjust on every level, which was not the case for the divorce).

I was in a new house, a new neighborhood and in public school for the first time ever (formerly cyber schooled until 4th grade). I was maladjusting to say the least, and needed something to escape into. that one show my brother suggested to me happened to be it, and it worked. spn kept me grounded. I watched it on the bus, after school, after me and my sister were tucked into bed, etc. It was my everything. i didn’t realize it until recently that it had become a special interest. and i was never fully suicidal, but I had ideations or at least considerations of it in the vaguest sense that my 10yo brain had of it. but watching sam and dean struggle through the absolute worst and to hear dean say they’d always keep fighting, that was something I could live for. knowing that they could brave situations m far worse than my situation, even fictional, meant the world to me.

It gave me hope that I could get through it. alongside that, I was raised Christian and always questioned the logic of it all (autism jumpscare). while not exactly traumatized by religion or raised strictly with it, I still have a complicated relationship with it to this day (and a special interest in theology now so yay me). basically, spn helped me realize that I was agnostic. the way its main heroes were so deeply flawed enough to become villains and still come back, the (imo) unique perspective in which angels were corrupt and demons could be good guys, all of that allowed me to see past the rigid binary Christianity often perpetuates and discover such a rich and interesting perspective for a story. Moral grayness is not something that’s very well defined in media as of late I feel, but I’ll stop there before I start somewhere else.

overall it’s just been a series that’s been there. it’s a special interest. It’s opened up my life in so many little ways. my other interests, my favorite music, and a handful of my own original stories and characters are deeply inspired by it. I’ve met so many friends and even a partner through it. I started it when I was 10, in 2014. I’m 19 now and the year is 2023. I’ll be turning 20 in February. it’ll have been almost a decade of having supernatural in my life, for better and for worse, and for all its high rises and concrete cracking falls, I’m glad to have it. As I’m glad to have everything that it wound up giving me.

thanks supernatural for ruining my life 🫶🫶