#just musings

[jingooism]

lee dongsik’s fear of the passage of time is something so poetic. he’s lived forty plus years saddled with the weight of unbearable grief and false accusations, trying and failing to cope with both in his everyday life. time has gone by incredibly fast for him and he’s lost so many on the way and then BOOM. han joowon with his cutting words and justice seeking tendencies.

and were they at odds from day one? yes. did joowon relentlessly accuse him like the rest of the people in manyang? of course he did. but, he can forgive him for it because dongsik knows he did it all in the name of finding the true killer.

time passed like it always does in manyang and they bring everyone to justice at each other’s side, and those cold cuffs are slapped on dongsik’s wrists. and weirdly, he feels freer for it. the year in prison is quick, unsurprisingly no calls from han joowon. dongsik knew him well enough to figure that would happen. the man’s need to self flagellate over honest mistakes is one that never goes away. that doesn’t stop dongsik from asking through the grapevine about him, though. he keeps in touch with jaeyi and jihwa religiously, and jihoon always visits him on his free days. they all let him know how joowon is doing.

i’d like to think that joowon, like he normally would, goes through a harsh period of self isolation after dongsik goes to prison, only to be dragged back to manyang by the only people he can really call friends. he thinks about dongsik every day too, asks after him, hopes he’s doing okay. he’ll never call him, because in his head he’s convinced he’ll have nothing dongsik would want to hear.

even after the canon end of the show, joowon isn’t entirely sure how to navigate their relationship. and i think by this point, dongsik just absolutely aches to see joowon, but doesn’t want to impose. the pining of post-show goes absolutely crazy, i’m convinced. and there comes a point, maybe months later maybe a year later, where dongsik just cannot take it anymore.

it’s probably at one of their weekly dinners or maybe on a walk around manyang at sunset and he just looks to his side, where joowon has made himself a constant presence. he notices the small changes in his features, even from the first day they’ve met. maybe the hair that’s longer, maybe the way his eyes are softer now, and dongsik just can’t not spill his guts to his beloved inspector. because he’s aging, time has already wrapped around both of them, and while they now grow together instead of apart, they’ve still wasted so much time.

and so under a golden sun, i like to think dongsik would gently take joowon’s hand in his own (inwardly cheering at the lack of hesitation on joowon’s part to wrap his fingers around dongsik’s) and say something that’s just so simply beautiful. maybe it’s not even an ‘i love you’, maybe it’s something different that holds those words just below the surface.

[ruinscollector]

"Fugue" is one of my favorite episodes for a lot of reasons, with it the show seems to settle in what makes it so good.

But, also, Peter looked so good in it, so handsome, 😌

I was gonna screenshot a different scene, but I stopped here and had to save this one too... like, look at him!

[theshadowrealmitself]

I would not do time loops correctly, I don’t think it would matter how many times I went through a loop, it would always weigh on me that any loop could be the one that I would have to deal with the consequences for, especially since people never know why they’re stuck in a loop in the beginning

I’d be that character that doesn’t do the same things every day, but I’d only change small stuff, like what I eat for lunch, never acknowledging that time is looping, just living my life as much as possible

Up until the other person who’s stuck in the loop notices for the first time that I’m also stuck when they barely notice the tiny detail of me sitting in a different spot because I never make a fuss and corners me like “why wouldn’t you say something???”

Because?? Obviously?? What if I do make an embarrassing fuss about being stuck in a time loop?? And everyone sees it?? And then the time loop breaks and everyone remembers that??? Hell no. My anxiety would never stand for that. I’d rather let the loop consume me.

[lazuli-starlight]

You'd think ADHD and Autism would cancel each other out, but no. They are like two young children who constantly fight, scream and bicker, which is exhausting. But sometimes these two children team up to cause bigger trouble than each of them could individually (hello anxiety and sensory issues). And on some occasions, they team up and create some incredible thing like amazing creativity or deep intensive learning of a subject or skill. But there is very much no way to make that last one happen on purpose, or choosing how it's applied. And its *so frustrating*

But, I do highly appreciate the unique perspective having AuDHD gives me. I may miss things that are obvious to most, but I pick up on things that most people miss. I get to view and experience the world in a way a lot of people don't. And I think thats really cool, actually.

[softness-and-shattering]

https://dieworkwear.com/2020/08/01/on-emotional-durability/

There was a post I shared recently, talking about how things are made to be interacted with violently, like you have to slam a fridge door or car door to close it properly. This piece about style has a similar sort of idea, about taking time to learn how to use objects - like a fountain pen - how that's an acquired skill that invests you in the object, which makes you care about it much more than if it was just another Bic pen or just another party dress you're gonna wear once and throw away.

Just some really interesting ideas about design and sustainability and like. How we interact with our things the world around us our possessions.

I recently got some white Ikea bins and I have plans to paint them. I don't think I've ever done that before. But why should be they be white just because they came that way, when I can personalise them, and then they'll make me happy because hey I did that I made them pretty I stead of just there.

I'm finding that when I mend clothing, I'm so much more attached than before. When it was just a thing I bought, not something I put effort and attention and care and work into. That's not just mass produced identical to hundreds like it anyone. That becomes *mine*. And on a shitty day it's it's reminder that I have taste and skill and efficacy when I don't feel that way at all.

[howlsofbloodhounds]

need to re read the something new comics again when I have the energy because I’m thinking about Chara and their reactions after sans accepted the deal, during their first genocide together.

they smile a lot, even when sans is breaking down or in a great deal of distress, it always seems more like satisfied or proud smile than sadistic or gleeful.

they didn’t even seem particularly gleeful or happy when sans broke down after killing papyrus the first time, more like calm and almost indifferent, but not exactly out of cruelty. almost as if papyrus wasn’t just killed, they seem to almost immediately overlook him to focus on reassuring and comforting sans.

[nanathebunny]

joining this fandom has gotten me creating so much stuff, like i cant remember the last time i drew this much in such a long period (i usually have spurts that last like two weeks before i stop for wtvr reason) and its the first time in YEARS since i manage to start and finish this many fics (or any writing as a matter of fact), all that while having so much fun !!!!

i love these vampires i love creating stuff for myself and my own fun, not my stupid creative job and capitalism

[strawbubbysugar]

For the frankenfate au im imagining that like.

The vibes around csd y/n and the y/ngineer are like.

Twins separated by universe if that makes sense??

Fraternal twins born at the exact same moment down to the MICROSECOND in their respective universes

Edit: forgot to tag @pillowspace (didn’t forget just got shy IM OVER IT NOW TAGGING U)

[gatomontanyes]

Might be silly, but reason why I really enjoy Reverse 1999 and Arknights are the good casts and the thought they put into them.

AK has good and cool portrayal of people in STEM but especially Geoscientists and Engineers, plus a thriving Volcanologist with disability (Eyjafjalla).

As for R1999 (afaik) a good portrayal of someone with autism (37 clearly), diverse cultural background of the characters, playable medieval knight armor, and the research they put into designing each character.

[more-things-in-heaven-hell]

//might focus more on my radioapple verse from here on out and my own lore take with this character .

[darkangel1791]

Having Louis find Claudia and bring her to Lestat, begging him to do something so she won't die, making Louis the main character in that decision, is a paradigm shift from the book.

Louis found Claudia when he was starving and fed on her. Lestat decides to bring her back to their home and make her a vampire. Louis feels responsible because he was only her murderer, without Lestat she would be dead. He owes it to her to make her happy.

The discourse the show decision has brought is so interesting and different. She still has good reason to hate them both, but they are different reasons.

And Book!Claudia, being stuck as a 5 year old makes it easier for to Lestat and Louis to come to the realization themselves what a terrible thing they have done to her. Lestat knew that he shouldn't, but did he really realize what he was doing to her? Louis can't tell us directly, but I think not.

There is so much less she can do in a 5 year old body.

Show!Claudia has good reason for her rage (and let me say that I would never want a 5 year old actress to play Claudia!) But she is 14. She can leave. She can get around on her own. She can even do a reasonably good job of aging herself up with clothes and hairstyles. But she's in the midst of puberty! And she is presented as if she still has those hormones raging! Who would want to be 14 forever? So close to womanhood but knowing you'll never be there. And, unlike the books, these vampire are sexually active in the mortal way. So she has passions that can't be fufilled. Then she accidentally kills her first boyfriend. And Lestat makes her watch as he burns her second. I think those two things have to happen in the show to really tip her over into the idea that she needs to kill Lestat.

Both stories get to the same place, but in very different ways.

[theshadowrealmitself]

Person who can speak to animals but nobody believes them because they only speak to them, not control them

[beautifulterriblequeen]

so which came first, is the Frozen Sea is always frozen so they put the Starscraper above it, or did the Starscraper being built freeze the Frozen Sea?

did the Celestials change the entire pattern of the seas just to have this place? is that the cost? or do they consider it a benefit? do they consider it at all? or are they too busy being Starry about things? is the Ocean literally and figuratively beneath them?

if the Starscraper comes down, will it crack the ice or just melt it?

[hailuchiha]

so, i haven't had time to write anything new, but i've been considering making an ao3

[justpostsyeet]

If middle earth history was written by some orcs, It would be Rings of Power and i mean it in the nicest way possible.

[abovethemists]

You know, it’s funny how I always see Tik toks or Instagram reels by younger millennials and Gen z full of nostalgia for days gone by like “POV it’s Halloween in the 2000s” and then it’s a bunch of stuff that is just basic American elementary school stuff. Plastic pumpkins and paper cups for school parties are still very much a thing, not unique to the early 2000s, you’re just in a different place in your life now. I have a second grader. His winter holiday party is no different than the ones I had in elementary school in the late 90s. It’s like when I was in high school and was suddenly like “wow they don’t show commercials for kid toys anymore. I used to see those all the time. That’s sad” and then realized it was because I no longer watched Nickelodeon and the Disney channel 24/7 and if I turned to those channels the ads for Barbie and sugary breakfast cereals were very much alive and well. Growing up is kind of sad at times, but childhood still exists and if you have kids (or nieces/nephews, friends kids etc) you will get to experience the magic again!