#just me talking to myself dont worry | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

npd-goro-akechi · 1 month ago

Text

had their outfits from that one danganronpa and brand collab stuck in my head. had to draw them

58 notes · View notes

daisybell-on-a-carousel · 1 month ago

Text

Still very wild to me when people try to gotcha Jason with the whole "if you can kill other people for being evil why can't they kill you" when jason is like. One of the most passively suicidal characters I've ever seen. What if man

#augh i dont want to cw this because im just talking about The Character and i feel bad when i do it for characters but i probably should #suicide mention #ask to tag #while im here i do absolutely believe hes been suicidal since jaybin times. maybe even before just in different ways. but like #going into that building with shelia? yeah #now. i DONT think he was aware of it and if youd ask him hed say no fully believing thats the truth #but like if a ghost jaybin had some introspection time i think he'd maybe eventually be like yeah #his outcomes to him were have a loving parent or die and hes a very big fan of ultimatums like that.#but he doesn't fully see it like that as jaybin because oh hes a hero and saving others when no one else can is what heros do :)#ramble. ivee been feeling it lately yknow how it is #ive once saw a post saying jason was planning to die after the joker was dead in utrh and yeagh i can see that #he puts A BOMB in his HELMET #suicidal characters in the context of hero stories are so fascinating to me. the self sacrifice.#the not caring about your own safety as long as you save someone else. the pushing yourself #the way itd be so easy to make it look like they just fell in battle. to be considered a hero in the end #anyway ive been glancing at suicidal jason todd fics. how bad is it that im still getting mad about characterization #because theyre not killing him right #AND ANOTHER THING. since im here and i try to avoid making posts about The Character like this so might as welk get it all out #think about suicidal jaybin as well as the fact 80s bruce very much considered suicidal people/people attempting like #weak and lazy? yells at them? i think thats about it. Very Much. je seems to straight up just hate them #again very much feel free to ask me to tag this one ^-^'#and i hope no one thinks im being callous here im very worried about that. i just its a very important part of his character to think about #and its fun to explore as someone who is passively suicidal myself #jason todd analysis #anyway no one look at me i am in my corner just rotating him #WAIT to clarify i dont think jaybin fully realized Just becauceof the heros sacrifice thing. i made it sound like that i believe #anyway. if you read him as suicidal since jaybin times and go to ditf with that lens like i did. well. the post death victim blaming..

73 notes · View notes

littlelightfish · 6 months ago

Text

I will scream at every non-romantic post I see about these guys. Writers be not afraid. I will love their non-romance fics. I'll blow up your coment section all alone if I have to. I will find you. Artists be not afraid. I will reach tag limit on your artpiece. If I see it at least. And if I don't, I will eventually. Or I'll try. Or @me so I won't fail you.

#i love them #i'd love to talk about them #if you want to talk about them just spawn in my direct messages #i have 0 problem dont be shy #i have done way too much research and headcanons about this 3 guys..#seriously. if you're an artist (draw or write) who thinks that if you post about this 3 guys you will get 0 notes dont worry #you will get mine screaming crying throwing up because i just love this guys. they're not the fandom favorites but they're mine and yours.#trust me #i will not fail.#so yes. come into my dm's whenever you want to ramble about them! i have 0 time to make anything but im more than happy to share!#i NEED so desesperately some non-romantic holm/mickbell fics... but I can't write them... so if I can inspire someone ill be happy #if there's some fic out there non-romantic/sexual about them please send me the link because i need to consume it.#this fandom is no safe for sex-repulsed individuals like myself. nor it is for people who doesnt want to read romance. like me. im doomed.#mickbell tomas #holm kranom #holm #mickbell #sorry for this but i need to talk about them. im very normal i swear #seriously be not afraid to dm me just throwing all your headcanoms or some scene you have in mind about them #im very normal about them and surely so are you. right?#dungeon meshi #dunmeshi #chilchuck #chilchuck tims #delicious in dungeon #im here supporting my fellow non-romance people #[we're 3 but it doesnt matter]

71 notes · View notes

manchesterau · 3 days ago

Text

im back here again

#*#just finished trying to live my truth so that's where i am tonight if you were wondering #dont worry dan i also have zero baby videos of myself and it took me talking to one of my moms old friends to even find baby photos

21 notes · View notes

deoidesign · 6 months ago

Text

.

#ok finally making a post about meds #I've not ever tried taking medication before. I was sorta raised with that classic 'dont rely on meds you have to learn to manage without'#I mean I was also raised with the idea that therapy is stupid unless you have 'real' trauma. and also like idk.#can't stay home from school unless your temp is over 100 or you're throwing up. etc. very suck it up mindset #so I was just really nervous to start. also of course worried about losing myself or whatever I know that's a silly fear but #it's also a common fear for a reason!!! anyways #so I finally was like 'I need to do something' when I realized I was so anxious I couldnt even get myself to go outside alone #like I just don't want to do ANYTHING alone to a detrimental effect. and it was butting into my ability to do my work...#for various reasons. but then ALSO adhd has been a constant issue with my work as well!#it is SO hard to write and draw on a weekly pace like I am without being able to focus #my whole life I've had these terrible nightmares constantly and I've always woken up constantly in the night #sleep has always been terrible so I've always dreaded going to bed.. ESPECIALLy because it didnt even make me less tired #it was more something that I just did because I had to.#but going to bed was always terrible. there have been times I was too scared to go to sleep for weeks on end...#I've been mitigating this for years of course. and recently I've been taking melatonin which has been helping too.#but I've also always struggled to get up. because I've always been EXTREMELY exhausted #but also anxious of what the day might bring... idk.#anyways it has all hit a point that I was like okay. I am doing as many coping mechanisms as I can. the psych said they were good too #but... it just has never been enough. it's never been enough to make me not tired it's never been enough to make me not scared #so I finally talked to the doc about it. and she was like youve def got smth wrong basically. which yah I know.. but yknow #anyways so I started taking wellbutrin. and I am so frustrated now. because it's WORKING #that constant looming sense of dread is gone. I'm excited to get up. I'm excited to go to bed BECAUSE I'm excited to get up #I feel like for years I've been holding on to the idea that I have to get up because I have to put something good out into the world #and I've been clinging to knowing that if nothing else. I am able to help other people feel better.#but now for the first time in my life I'm like. free of it. I didnt even know it was possible... and I'm so sad how much I've lost out on #and so frustrated how my whole life I've been told to put up with it and push through it. and treated like a failure for it being too much.#and just. It has only been 2 weeks. but the lack of anxiety is SO noticeable I'm so...#I'll never miss it. the adhd is still pretty present but like whatever. I can manage that better.#and I'm just crying because of all this combined.#I just. I hope I get to finally be the best I can be now. for myself but also for you guys!

44 notes · View notes

sophiethewitch1 · 2 months ago

Text

chapter 8 literally has like 3-4 more paragraphs what am i doing... im sitting at my desk rereading this thing and just staring staring staring like. geniunely have slammed my desk a couple times like a little baby throwing a tantrum <3 <3

#AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH #sophie speaks #series:www #im getting it done before my birthday #which is in 6 days #im fucking GETTING IT DONE #or im gonna start hitting myself again #not in like an on purpose way btw its just gonna happen the autism demands it #thats probably not still reassuring dont worry guys i have. drugs. perscription ones #thats also not reassuring #anyway #every now and then i remember my life is so unlike the average persons and ive talked about something i definitely shouldnt have #but also isnt it like soooooooooooooooo annoying to have to constantly censor urself #like this is just my daily life its really not that huge a deal...#what was i talking about #right this is making me tear my hair out #biting biting biting i can get it i can do it i can i can i can #god i hate mental blocks its like a maze of them inside my brain and they pop up constantly #i will continue to torture myself gang i am GETTING IT DONE

26 notes · View notes

harbingersecho · 1 year ago

Text

they get a vacation (debatable if they deserve it) and go to a club. nightmare blunt rotation btw

#red vs blue #rvb #locus #sharkface #sam ortez #felix #isaac gates #temple #mine #*23 #cw eyestrain #[on a bus starving and nauseous on 2 hours of sleep blasting runaway train on repeat to drown out the ppl talking swedish] save me locus #imagined locus in a spa + the mercs getting drinks to prevent myself from going joker mode. and i survived.#locus looks like he's contemplating suicide but um. dont worry thats just his party face #also in my head sharky is straight edge. like maybe he didn't use to be but he def is now and it's only partially bc of all the painkillers

80 notes · View notes

nuppu-nuppu · 1 year ago

Text

Ignore if you don’t want to read about me being stupid once again

#pls dont read if you cant handle venting and whining #once again i am here to say that i am the loneliest person alive and i feel like i can’t grasp the basic consept of friendship and do it lol #like idk how to be friends #i feel like i will forever be sad and lonely #and i know everyone will say you can talk to me and i know that but i’ve just been by myself for so long that i don’t remember how to have #actual conversations with people i feel like i am disconnected from reality #i feel like i am an extremely unlikeable person and that’s why i was all alone in highschool and idk i am oversharing on the internet again #because it’s the only place i kind of feel safe doing it #pls take care of yourselves first before comfoting me or anything im sorry i sound very pathetic #how do i start living again #how does one live anyway #im just in my head all the time #this was supposed to be hot girl summer but it’s once again summertime sadness #im so stupid!!!#im so anxious and depressed that i dont know what to do with myself #im so sorry for oversharing i have a therapist dont worry im kind of taking care of myself #but the eternal loneliness just wont let me go #idk how to be a person anymore #i’m just sad #thinking of going to a church and pretend to be a believer so i could have a community again lol

175 notes · View notes

princehoneytea · 1 year ago

Text

sorry no art in a hot second... ive been really burnt out for a long time now and its been miserable, ive been looking for a normie job for ages so that i can make art something i do for myself again and i havent had much luck but.

i have good news now.

#YIPPEEEEEE #cant wait to see how this effects my relationship with my art #freelancing is hard. im excited to be creative for myself again #prince talks #ideally id want to work in the cartoon industry but its looking rough right now and im already having a hard enough time #but its never too late to try to achieve your dreams #so im just putting it on the backburner for now #have to take care of myself instead of being so worried about 'wasting my life' or whatever because its just making me miserable #LIFE HAS VALUE NO MATTER WHAT DAMMIT #oh btw i will still be taking comms i just wont be making it like.#my only source of income #bc that SUCKED.#i love doing comms. dont love how unstable it is

78 notes · View notes

sapphicsnzs · 8 months ago

Text

sometimes this kink makes me feel so guilty and i wish i didn’t have it

#snz blog #snz kink #snzblr #like i dont wanna talk about myself being sick cause im scared im gonna get judged #i try to be so careful about getting other people sick and i test every time i get sick but i just feel guilty #i don’t even know the point of this i just feel guilty and bad that i have this kink sometimes #i don’t know what this post even is probsvh my sleep deprived brain being dumb #i’m just worried people are judging me and coming to conclusions that i’m careless with other peoples health snd i swear im not #that’s it lol my brain is working overtime

28 notes · View notes

mysicklove · 1 year ago

Text

hey my friends, my lovers, my little bastards, i am going to be taking a little break! gonna be gone until bout maybe couple days before kinktober...maybe 29th of september or around that time. today will be my last day on here for awhile, so just wanted to let u guys know before i disappear for a bit lol.

alsoo i will be queing my kinktober masterlist like 3 times, so if you see that posted randomly, dont be suprised lol.

and to my mutuals, ill prob not be on discord. i associate discord with tumblr, and i wanna have a break from it all. sooooooooo....ill see you around!

#🔪 - mello talks too much #nothing bad happened dont worry #just #i got alot of shit i need to priorize and im focusing it instead on tumblr #which is not good LOL #19 credits....plus work #i gotta start paying attention to my studies.#also my parents bought me a car a couple days ago bc they were proud of what i am doing with myself #which i am sooooooooooooo greatful for #but it made me realize how im basically lying to them bc i aint doin shit other than write for kinktober #so #thats not good #i need to earn my car!!!#nd not be addicted tot his app #so yes #gotta maintain my 4.0 and also start volunteering at hospitals #and work

72 notes · View notes

madame-mongoose · 10 months ago

Text

I wish mental health services were more easily accessible and certain mental illnesses weren't still demonized in the field

#still pursuing a bpd diagnosis #but a lot of the specialists im seeing online are all like #have you been victimized abused or manipulated by someone with bpd?#and im like :(#ough im not ready to have ANOTHER heavily stigmatized mental illness #but despite that i still do hope i get diagnosed #i think it would explain a lot #and really help me work through my issues #before it gets to that tipping point #it already has come close multiple times just this year alone #i just... idk #i want to be better i want to get better #i dont want to hurt people anymore. i dont want to hurt myself anymore #it sucjs it really does #sorry for vent posting again #i just dont have anywhere else to go #and i dont feel comfortable talking to people about this stuff usually #everyone tells me i can talk to them but.. idk. its hard to do that. so many things can go wrong. i dont like talking about myself #i like for people to have a certain image of me. prefer people not to worry themselves over me #it brings bad feelings and associations sometimes #which if i have bpd can be thhe cause of that i suppose. just makes me feel insecure? ig? guilty? makes me feel like a bad person #when people try to get me to take care of myself. even if its a good thing #idk im just rambling #nobody take this in a bad way or feel discouraged in fact dont pay any mind to this #im just spitballing #will probably delete later #monnie rambles

47 notes · View notes

oneroomjestershow · 17 days ago

Note

Haii, how are u doing? :>

#saw this ithink it fits #hope you are doing good anon #ah wait i forgot people don't understand the letters #it says first semester in uni vs final semester something like that language its beautiful #no actually im doing good it's a miracle how some hours of going out. comfy talking. touching grass and eating a burrito #can change my whole perception of reality but im back to self isolation so the soul might rust #but dont worry don't worry we will make it we will make it i think maybe #kind of a vent in the tags? i dont know dont read this in bad mindset idk man i need to be in the forest #silly squeaking time #i feel like my life its going to end but its okk it happens you knowww it's just the fear of change #it's strange how i can feel things and understand them like it's outside of myself why can't i just feel one way i mean it keeps me alive #so its fine wait i think i might delete this later #justr to clarifyu i doont play league don't play it #im scared im not going to make it bc it's difficult to concentrate when i feel im going to die and the world its going to explode JKASHDJAK #WE STAY SILLY WE STAY SILLY WE STAY SILLY #if life lets me i will get therapy after this #i don like thinking about how i feel i start to asdfhgdshdfsdhgdgfsd

9 notes · View notes

gemharvest · 2 months ago

Text

anyone else feeling the burning desire to crawl out of their own skin today ?

#ramblings #formatted in a jokey way but i am feeling A Way rn. not great but ill survive #think my brain is in conflict over wanting to catch up on art or just do fuckall today. >_<#so it comes out as. i am Feeling and i need to burst open to let it out Hi people who havent heard me talk like this b4 im normal i swear #DONT WORRY ABOUT ME !!!!!!! once i can redirect myself into art ill be fine im juust struggling to start rn

7 notes · View notes

nomairuins · 3 months ago

Text

i like overthink everything now it makes me feel so dumb. i used 2 be able to just talk 2 ppl but nowadays every single thing im like Is that actually going to make them hate me. Yes probably. and then i just dont respond which makes ppl hate me. this is how it is

#ive been overthinking 1 light and casual mildly funny response to something but im worried itll come off as disrespectful and dismissive And #make me seem stupid and uncaring all at the same time. and also be seen as insulting. but like idt itd be insulting right like. im not #saying what it is so ig for all you guys know im like I mean if i say All your shit suck ball and i hateit kys. <- thats not the thing i was #going to say #like it doesnt matter now the window for response is closed now but i feel stupid bc i shouldve just said it it was light and casual. im so #bad at keeping convos gojng im convinced im not going to survive. In like a light and casual way like in a He will not make it through the #winter joke way. dw. im not going to do anything bc i had One failed interaction. if i was going to do anythjng itd be bc of the 8000000 #other failed interactions. But im not. anyways. it just makes me feel so useless 😭 like i want to respond i want to talk to ppl so bad but #i feel like i mess things up Irreparably every time i speak OR i take too LONG overthinking my response and then i just cant respond bc its #been too long and then its been 3 years and the only messages ive ever sent r my intro message and 1 message 2 years ago that nobody #responded to at all. or the conversation stopped immediately after. and like i used to be better at this i was lkke. talkative in a couple #muts servers like. i talked 2 ppl daily in those servers and i had fun and like. I was an important part of the group and i felt like it #but i just feel like such an outsider for Everything and its literally my fault bc i cant just like. Talk. The explosion. bc im always like #im gonna try im gonna do it this time im gonna get it back im going to finally be Good connor and im going to fix it all and make a Good #solid friend group and ill find HEALTHY LOVE and i wont selfsabotage and ill move out and have a job and ill balance it well and ill start #all my hobbies and ill have a great routine and be so loveable and on top of it and not stressed and content and happy and roll with the #punches and then theres a single hiccup and im like Well fuckinf whatever im going to be an unemployed hermit forever and im going to die b4 #im 25 anyways so Who cares and also im digging a little hole for myself. and its like. AUGHH ik i just have to persevere and overcome but #even saying that feels so stupid its not fucking hard its Talking to ppl. like. i literally if ive ever said a word to you i had to think #avt it and strategize how to respond right even for like. like. it makes it sound like its not genuine it is #like for example i want to say hey i love your art! but then i freak out and im like thats not normal thats like a rly generic comment they #hear that all the time theyll thjnk im being polite and my brains like hrmmm rewrite Your art changed my life. It shaped me. Ill never be #the same. Nad im like ok too far overcorrected go back and the sentence generator is like Your art has colors 💯 like. GOD. WHY IS IT SO #difficult. and then usually i either just dont say anythinf and feel awful abt it 4ever OR i send it on anon and then i spend like 15 #minutes ibsessively slightly tweaking the apelling and capitalization and punctuation to make sure it doesnt seem like its me just in case #it Is the worst possible thing to say but then i see the response and itll be like AWWW TYSM :] THIS MEANS A LOT or whathaveyou and i feel #stupid bc i couldve just Told them this to their face and it wouldve been a good positive interaction we had. but instead i had 2 hide and #tyoe entirely differently so they couldnt sniff me from my typing style. and it soesnt even feel like the thanks is actually 4 me bc i #tweaked the message sm. and it still makes me happy that the oersons hapoy but its like. that couldve been a nice mutual interaction #like not that i need a personal ty i compliment ppl when i Want to compliment ppl and when its genuine yk. i dont do it so i get mutualpoint

8 notes · View notes

scopophobia-polaris · 2 months ago

Note

first female loz director and the gerudo seem to be written fine enough? wow... there ain't no way I thought we were in the worst timeline after totk

Yeah got through the main quest with the gerudo, it wasn't painful! It wasn't even bad! Still got them outfits but for the most part it was like oh cool!

I would say a lot of that oh cool is from the fact they didn't do a lot to even fuck it up to begin with, I'm gonna be real with yall this game is NOT worth $60USD

Edit: lemme say one thing, you know when people were being like damn totk story wasn't dark or mature at all why was this compared to Majora's mask again? And then all the zeldatwt people came out and said zelda is just a kid series domt expect good writing uH

This one feels like a kid's game. That ain't to say it's terrible I would say, hell I'm not far in it if I get something crazy that's like OH FUCK I'll reblog this post and say something but uh.....game for babies I'm gonna be shocked if anyone struggles with any puzzles cuz you CAN CHEESE THEM EASY ITS 🫢🤭

EDIT EDIT: I SWEAR IM NOT EVEN TRYING TO BE A DOWNER..... @ezlo-x HAS BEEN THERE THE WHOLE TIME IVE BEEN PLAYING....THEY KNOW I HAVENT BEEN A PARTY POOPER.....

#its......seems quick #the sidequests are very boring tbh #like this game should of been 45-50 max not 60 #its cute i like it so far but oh my god the optimization and game design could of been way better #and after botw/totk like....how do i put this #its like nintendo heard hey we need a LITTLE bit of rail roading and then #😬#basically...example #for a main quest i have to go to 2 places to get people #i went to the 2nd place first and it......didnt update the side quest even though she should of gone to the meeting place #thTs apart of the quest but no i had to go to the 1st guy no matter what #and its like.....hey botw not totk would do that #most GAMES in general now wouldnt do something like that #also yall gonna hate the fact there is no organization or favorites tool for the echoes #game is fun so far but uH #i got through the first dungeon FAST FAST like this is not a return to form #minish cap dungeons i dont think were that fast and theyre simple #also anyone that says this dorsnt have mechanics from the wilds games yes it does #tri has an ability thats JUST ultra hand #oh and its not good in this game #yall gonna fucking hate it #unless somehow a pirated version doesnt allow you to rotate the fucking item or move it in a way that goes behind me #without me locking off and then back on again after repostioning myself #im worried its a feature and not an anti piracy measure #me and GC are gonna finish this up this week but dang i havent even done the whole first part of the main quest #if i had this on the switch i could see how fast i could play through the game WHILE talking to people and having fun and exploring #also oh my god the zora side quest very cute but when eveeyone knows how the game goes ill make one complaint in the tags one day #funny thing its not story....ITS GAMEPLAY #yhe story in the game is fine and i say that cuz its....very simple #HELL A LOT OF NPCS DONT GOT NAMES THAT ARE VISIBLE

14 notes · View notes