#just me talking about my history with sona

[angellic-critique]

Reminder that this is the level of drag 'representation' angel dust gives :/

This is bottom of the barrel feminization towards drag performing arts :/

And since helluva boss fans are only do passive as to read everything at surface level only here is the Spitting definition of drag queens/kings

At no point is it intrinsically all about just sexual performance or sexual drive, it can be a factor or a small portion but it is not just a large generalization as much as people are trying to make drag performing seem to be.

Drag is an art form. It is a statement. It is a person of beauty and the love and appreciation of fashion and expression!

Angel Dust is the complete opposite of sex workers or drag performers at all! If AD is supposed to resemble the theme of abuse in industry [something she already failed to portray with fizzerolli] and the toll that sex workers and addicts within the industry for that matter, we have no clue how he will act in Hazbin but the sneak peek of him in leather gives me no hope if the implication is that he will purely be centered around valentinos abuse. Considering someone on the team ship's and actively adores the ship that is Angel x Valentino

How can you claim to support sex workers while actively seeing them as purely fetishism gay yaoi bait THAT YOU ACTIVELY MERCHANDISE AS """SEXY""":/

There is nothing to angel dust besides the appeal of a feminine man being sexually abused.

[snepfeathers]

I'm glad people have been enjoying Nyx, she's such a fun and affirming character for me to draw

[spamtoon]

(Out of nowhere, you are approached by a familiar lightbulb-headed Cog.)

Ah, it's you, cat. Thinking you're oh-so-slick. Muttering and whispering under those raggedy whiskers of yours... Thinking I am unable to hear it all...

Well, you've simply underestimated my fantastic hearing. You probably want to know the reason why I'm here, taking a 'break' from my incredibly important scientific breakthroughs? It's quite simple, really!

(She gets close, and squints her eyes.)

I know what you are.

Farewell, now!

(She then leaves the way she came from.)

(Spam giggles immensely, covering her face... it always seems like she's giggling, isn't she? This lasts... at least thirty seconds. Longer than usual.)

And I know what I am too, Sparky! You broke through something, that's for sure. Really, broke through...

(She looks down, continuing to laugh nervously.)

You know, I find it odd you Havent tried to bulb blast me into the stratosphere by now. I mean knowing how you acted with Frostbite. Is there something peculiar about me that you perhaps can't quite track? Something about me that you... don't know what I am?

I know, I know, I'm talking to nobody again. But you were there when I had a moment today with the one the only Frostbite The Bravecog. You may be remaining. Lurking in the shadows. Knowing about these thoughts that I'm thinking.

(The giggling resumes, lasting far shorter this time.)

Your brother's a piece of fucking barp, by the way

(She braces for impact for a few seconds, wincing while smiling, before comically looking around to realize nobody's there. She sighs.)

Wow, okay maybe toony superhero show logic doesn't apply in this situation. Cool.

WAIT I JUST FUCKING REALIZED WHAT SHE MEANT but like. Dude if she meant that then what's the point I mean the whole ahh sellbot department barping knows unless you're Really low on the ladder. Heheh... maybe she did mean what I thought she meant.

Oh i'm so fucking screwed. What kind of bitch gets filament fever

[genderqueerdykes]

it’s unbelievably comforting to know that you’re therian/otherkin as a younger person who’s identified that way for years as well. people like you are ones i look up to for being my most authentic self and you remind me that it’s not a phase and i’m ALLOWED to be who and what i am ^_^

aww thank you! and hey of course, that's why i try to talk about it so often. i've identified as nonhuman since i was a child, but i've been a part of the online nonhuman community since 2010. i first joined the furry community as someone who genuinely identified as their sona, then the otherkin/therian/etc. communities when someone i followed on here came out as a dragon otherkin.

over the years we've realized a few nonhuman identities. we're not all one person so some of these will only apply to some, but we state that we collectively identify as a wolf, coyote, dog, & horse therian, and we have a lot of elf and dragon otherkin in our system, as well as other identities that are less common but important to the individuals who have them! many of us are undead, some are angels and demons.

i instantly became very involved in the community! i became staff on many different forums over the years and tried to help out when and where i could. i was very active under a lot of different usernames due to our DID, but i've tried to interact with others and help people understand that identifying as nonhuman isn't a bad, scary, or dangerous thing. it's not a problem. it's just how that person experiences their life and how they see themselves!

you're not doing anything wrong by identifying as a nonhuman. this belief is held across many cultures, all throughout human history. it's been well documented and recorded over the course of human history on every continent we've lived on and it's not going away any time soon. we are meant to be in nature. we are meant to be around other animals. humans ARE a species of animal- we are not above the animal kingdom, we are a part of it. it's only natural to relate to other animals.

you're perfectly fine being your authentic nonhuman self! i'm glad i can help you feel more comfortable in that. you are genuinely not harming anyone, that is a them problem if they have any issues with it. you are just being yourself! :) take care, stay safe, feel free to stop by again!

[fledermaus-art]

Alfred Alfer discussion

so, I watched an analysis of Alfred's Playhouse recently, followed by a few episodes of the content in question, and since then, it's been sort of lingering in my mind like a dark cloud and I really wanted to get my thoughts out into text.

Apparently, there's been a bunch of hype on platforms like tiktok about Alfred, which can be understood for several different reasons, most notable of which (as I've seen according to YouTube comments) being that it brings comfort to the disturbed and traumatized. This is for good reason. It IS a vent series, and it does not hold any punches. Knowing the context and history in which this series is derived is extremely important for this reason. It almost directly documents the descent of a very young creator and their unfortunate downfall through sexual trauma, self harm, and eventual falling in with the wrong (fascist) crowd. Knowing this, it unsettles me deeply that people are making sonas based off of this series.

Don't get me wrong, I'm not here to gatekeep anyone and tell you what you can or can't do. I think the art style is very appealing in a certain way, and it has value that can perhaps be replicated into a different context that doesn't disrespect the creator's trauma, or can be detached entirely. I don't know. I don't plan on trying. Just something that seems less disrespectful.

Because, in my opinion, that's a core issue here. Though I do NOT agree with the creator's poor choices and do not agree with their ideology, I also do not think that it's fair to treat a traumatic piece as if it's a happy-hearted fandom. It just feels disingenuous and downplays the purpose of the piece as a whole. It is not fully fiction. It is trauma masked by animation, whether there are moments played up for laughs or not.

Idk. It's been on my mind a lot since I watched the series. I needed to talk about it somewhere.

[kynimdraws]

INFO POST

Name: Kylee (they/them). 30+

A totally normal Korean American mostly known for my drawings, specifically my Pokemon nuzlocke comics. But I will talk about other things on occasion because I do have periods of being fixated on certain topics. I also am a doctor!

Interests: Pokemon, League of Legends (everything except the game lmao), Fire Emblem, Advance Wars, Animal Crossing, Mother series, Korean history/culture, character design

General FYIs: 

General inquiries/commission work/etc should be sent thru kynimdraws [at] gmail [dot] com! Tumblr messaging/asks/etc is not 100% reliable

I will not follow NSFW accounts but I am fine talking/interacting with them. There may be suggestive shitposting but I like keeping my content on the SFW side

I am VERY picky about who I follow/interact with online. Fandom content in particular is a minefield for me aka I have many things I dislike and don’t want to see, even if it might be a popular thing in media that I otherwise enjoy. Therefore, I will unfollow/block/mute liberally. There are times I accidentally block a blog bc I mistake them for bots. So if you got hit with that, just send me an ask or email me

I am very open about what I like and dislike, and none of those things are a direct attack on your sensibilities. I have never gone out of my way to directly send hate or whatever have you if I end up seeing shit I don’t like. My complaints in my little online space ain't a personal attack on you.

My ask/submission box/DMs  are open for criticisms if you have any issues you want to resolve in private. No one is perfect and I may have done ignorant shit that needs to be pointed out. I have deleted or edited posts in the past if people tell me what I did wrong. PS I get that some of my stuff may upset you, but try to act civil when pointing shit out please.

I try to tag all my things whenever I can. Again, send me a message if anything bothers you. I am all for good debate but if you send me excessive hate or threats bc I have different opinions about matters that are trivial, I will block/delete them.

If you wish to use any of my hcs, please credit me. And if you are comfortable with it, send me the works so I can check them out! Or @ me if that is easier.

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FIRE EMBLEM FYI: Specifically for 3Houses/3Hopes because I need a separate one for this franchise specificially given how many crazy things I got due to being involved in this fanbase via my fanworks:

DO NOT try to convince me to like or tolerate Byleth/student ships, ESPECIALLY the ones with the lords (aka CIaude, Dimitri, EdeIgard). I already summarized why I don’t like FE3H Byleth ships with student chars here. While the spinoff game FEW3H has now removed that teacher/student problematic situation, the fandom keeps putting the FE3H elements into the FEW3H fanworks (i.e. remembering Byleth from “another life” trope)...so no thanks!! DO NOT SHOW ME IT!!!

As for the Byleth ships with faculty members, my response is here so don’t try to bait me about that topic either thanks.

I do not care whom you ingame S-support. 3Houses limits the dating-sim part of the game to that character, so I cannot care less about how you play the game. The main issue I have is when people treat Byleth the “character” as a legit ship material when I personally think they are a cool character ruined by fans who are too obsessed with badly executed self insert otome tropes bc they self-project super hard onto them. Just to be clear, any FE3H or FEW3H OC/Canon >>>>>>Byleth ships personally. Even Byleth-sonas that remove the teacher/student aspects are better than canon FE3H!Byleth

Please don't drag FE VA statements as some sort of “gotcha” on my opinions like this post here. IDC what other people prefer with ship shit, that’s their problem and not mine. I am not gonna bother them about it. So don’t bother ME about it.

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Links to check out:

Myths of Unova + Episode Grey (Pkmn White/White2 Comic)

Tales of Sinnoh (Pkmn Diamond Comic)

Art Site (Portfolio)

Twitter 

Instagram 

[zoppa682]

ALTERHUMAN COMMUNITY!

PLEASE.

HELP.

Okay, so as of lately, my sense of self as an alterhuman has been all over the place. I already am confidently a polytherian with 5 theriotypes, but every function in my human vessel is telling me there is much more to me than just a therian when it comes to alterhumanity.

First off, the biggest thing here: How do I tell if I am either otherhearted or conceptkin for a concept, in this case, being the concept of dreams. I have a lifelong history of recounting every detail of dreams I've had since childhood, and they remain clear as day even today. Almost every environment I visit in my dreams feel like another home to me, but more than that, almost like I belong there. No matter how scary a dream is, even a nightmare, I build an extremely deep fondness for it, sometimes even feeling comforted by it. In fact, I've found the creepier or more sad the setting in a dream is, the more comforting and safe it feels to me. Is this a thing many others experience, or is this something more?

Secondly, I am unsure about being a fictionkin. While I am leaning far more towards no, and I personally do not belive I have any other past lives regardless, I want to know how one may find out they are a fictionkin aside from past lives. I've had a few characters that seem completely random, sometimes from media I don't even engage much in, who I am drawn to for some odd reason, and I'm talking like REALLY drawn to them. A perfect example of a character I did kinsider for a short time, one from a fandom I WAS very active in, was Jade Harley from Homestuck. I relate to her more than any other character I've ever related to, to the point where I basically see her as me in many ways. Jadekat (the ship) is my partner and I, my best friend sees pictures of Jade and says it's me, and I have even named an in-progress theriotype sona after Jade. Is this just a strong relation to a character, maybe otherhearted, or something more?

Finally, I cannot find much information on physical therians, except for when they use the label transspecies. How might one know they are a physical therian if they do not desire to alter their physical vessel? For me, I address my hands and feet as paws, and my teeth as fangs, but I don't think that's quite being a physical therian. I also don't see many animalistic features in my physical vessel, therefor I do not see it as an animal, but my internal sense of self, me, the animals I am, are such a huge part of me that I do not identify as human on almost any level at all. Excluding my physical vessel, I do not identify as human. At all. I AM NOT A HUMAN IN ANY OTHER WAY. I AM AN ANIMAL.

So yea, if anyone has read this far, thank you very much, it means a lot. If you have any answers to my questions, it'd be easiest for me to read your comments if you wouldn't mind leaving the answers there.

Have an amazing day/night, and never forget what you are. <3

[snicker-dooodless]

Just saw that you were a Billy Kid enjoyer too. Pleased to meet you. I am also screaming at the lack of Billy Kid fics on AO3, but I'm also not a writer, though I do have a thousand ideas of what could be done with him, and here on tumblr there's someone taking asks about Billy angst ideas stories, he doesn't post them on AO3 but maybe one day he will, though he's currently a bit occupied with school so we shall not rush him. I legit ate up and finished chapter 4 in literally one day, had wednesday off so I took the time to take a hundred pictures of it, then spent an hour looking through the history of my album because I took another hundred pictures on top of those so I had to go fish up my Billy pictures and lore of him, and currently I am legit indecisive to see if I should try to pull for Caesar to maybe get more Billy content (did you know her robot hand is actually a spare of Billy's? I legit cried when learning of it, you need to have her and then she suddently shows up at the Ballet Twins and tells you this and I'm like where are the freaking screenshots of it people I want to see it but well I can't so I had to take people's words for it) or wait for maybe Lighter (maybe other Billy content since he is Billy's successor as Champion and he is interested in having a rematch with him) and/or my queen Miyabi. Still I hope that one day we get even more Billy content, it felt really weird but also really neat to see him without the rest of the Cunning Hares, wish he had a bit more interactions with the rest of the Sons outside of Caesar and Lighter but oh well I'll take what I can. If you wanna talk about Billy feel free to flood my ask box about him and we'll talk about him, I also don't mind hearing about your headcanons about him either. ^^

Yippee! Another person to ramble on about Billy too! I’m collecting you people like pokemon cards oh my lord

But yes!!! I did know about Ceasar’s hand thing! I also have a BUNCH of screenshots with some bit of Billy kid lore lol

I kinda pulled Ceasar for this exact reason to get Billy’s lore lol (also I just like imagining how she and my sona would interact since ya know, she’s technically Billy’s older sister and she’s also interested in romance stuff so I just like to think lol)

Also I’m gonna pull for lighter when he becomes an option too lol. Probably not gonna use him on my team, I like my team as it is already (Billy, Ceasar, and Qingyi) but I neeeed the drama and lore and relationship between those two so bad!!!!

I’m also hoping that we get an agent story with him since they keep on dropping bits of lore for him here and there so I’m pretty sure they are soon. Hopefully! Cross your fingers! He just has SO much story that we don’t know about yet! In his agent description it says he has memory loss????

He has so much secrets! Why isn’t game theory on this man yet???

Some of my headcanons for him is that he’s MUCG stronger than he looks. First of all he’s one of the Sons of Colydons champions along with lighter, so clearly he’s pretty tough. But I like to think that he’s hiding all his toughness behind his goofiness. Not to say his goofiness is fake! But in one of his trust events where you go into hollow zero with him, bandits threaten him and he just plays it off, joking along, acting stupid. But then the bandits threaten eous/the proxy, and Billy suddenly gets SUPER threatening. It made me giggle and kick my feet and blush lol.

Anyway- sorry for the rambling lol!

[unorcadox]

UNORCADOX

howdy, i'm mabel! it's the 3 year anniversary of unorcadox today, so i've prepared a decent bit of surprises. (and yes that means i started this blog in 2020, which is terrifying to think about.) i'll go into those new things under the cut, but first... check out the carrd linked in the header text of this post :3c

sooo soo so so so where on earth do i begin. uhh honestly let me just break down the new stuff first since i can talk about that more easily.

THE NEW LOOK! ok so like truth be told, i've been a faceless blog on purpose up until now. it wasn't until this summer where i actually liked how i looked or had any solid sense of my own aesthetic or what i wanted to look like. it also made it easier to protect against dysphoria and transphobes in the same breath, as no one could ever comment on any aspect of my appearance, or even the mere suggestion i even had one to begin with! but that all changes now, i'm going to actually have a presence on this blog, as it is MY blog and tbh i'm tired of being so faceless on here. that's why i've been doing more asks and non-edit posts recently, and those will increase in frequency. check out the carrd for more info, my sona's ref, and art credits for assets on here <3

mondays -> MUSIC MONDAYS! so it might come as a shock i'm actually a musician in addition to making stuff on here! i've promoted my music a couple of times by now, but nothing all that substantial. sooo, considering that, i'm going to be replacing monday oc posts with a music post! just a link to a song on my bandcamp and a little description about it. i don't really care if these perform particularly well, but i want to give people a chance to actually hear it without having to deep dive through my entire internet history to get it. i also will be releasing more soon-- whether via compilations of older work or new stuff altogether :3

MORE IN THE FUTURE! i have a couple other ideas up my sleeve, we'll see how they pan out but i wanna keep trying new possibilities on here. i think at this point i've proven my consistency, and it's about time i let myself have a little fun and explore my options. these will be announced individually but probably added here over time as this is the new pinned post lol.

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ok so anyways, i do wanna have the mandatory sappy segment because of course i do. i want to say a couple of things but i'll split them into bullet points again bc yeah i do that.

this year has been really good for me and the blog, in most ways it's been the straight up best year of my life uncontested. not everything has gone perfectly, i had other plans that fell through, but hey that's just how life goes huh. at one point, i was easily projected to hit 20k by the end of the year, and now i'll be happy if i hit 17k lol. tumblr has not been that kind to my blog's growth this year and it's making me consider other options in the future, but everything's so scary rn i don't wanna commit to anything.

as for the blog itself, i've kinda been in a weird spot with it for a while. i've been scraping by on here intermittently for the entire year on and off, and i might have some ways to help keep me on top of the ball during the next year, but i also do wonder how long i can really keep doing this, and how long people will still like weirdcore and my work in particular. i've been considering branching out in terms of my presentation, or format, or style, but i feel incredibly weird about doing so.

in my personal life, this is the year i finally started transitioning and seeking treatment for my most pressing issues. i've finally started dating the love of my life, my best friend of 10 years, and despite some interpersonal turmoil all around me, i think i'm finally finding safe ground and knowing what i wanna do next. i don't really talk about it on here because i'm very private about it, but i've been kinda slowly becoming like a Real Adult Person this year. i didn't really have much of a chance to prior and i still am struggling a lot, but hey i know what i want now!

it's really silly to say but this blog still means a lot to me! it's seen me through the craziest times in my entire life, it's brought me so much perspective and knowledge and opportunities i wouldn't've had otherwise. i wake up every day and go on here and never stop feeling starstruck that people chose to follow me. i know tumblr success means nothing but to me it's the only community i've ever actually belonged to, so thank you all.

ok so like i really just don't have much else to say anymore, so i think i'll end it there! thank you all again, i can't wait for year 4 as it's going to definitely be a crazy one lol. let's hope it's a good one too!

[blu3--g0d]

✰TWSTSONA SHEET✰

Time has come for me to show here my twisted wonderland Sona!

More down if you're curious!

Let's start by addressing the elephant in the room:

This is my self insert of course. So the story goes as you would've pretty much expected.

Isekai student got into another world and yada yada.

Here I'll make a general rundown of interesting things about 'em!

✶⊶⊷⊶⊷❍ ❍⊶⊷⊶⊷✶

Who is G?

G is definitely human. Got introduced by Crowley as the 'boy' that ran away before the ceremony. G is, of course, not the real name of this "boy", but he doesn't really mind so he rolls with it. He remembers little to nothing about the cause of this random teleportation into Twisted Wonderland, he only remembers that he hit something and blanked out for a while before hearing Grim trying to steal his clothes. He remembers his full name (G is just the initial), remembers where he came from, but he doesn't remember how old he is, almost if he just stopped aging once he got into Twisted Wonderland.

Why the Diasomnia jacket?

He actually always stayed at the Ramshackle and for a while he actually had to wear the (oversized) uniform of that dorm. He didn't like it but hey, he can't do much about it.

After all the events of books 1 and 2, a character started to approach G more and that character was Lilia Vanrouge. G was kinda skeptical about this random dude hanging over him and following him all around the campus, but eventually he just gave up and started to become closer to Lilia.

Between the events of book 3 Lilia confessed that the reason that he was following G was because he believes that it's a "signal from the stars". He said that he dreamed about holding out his hand into the void in front of him and someone grabbed it and he was definitely sure that it was G. (Compared to the opening scene of the game.)

That's when Lilia started to drag G into Diasomnia, introducing him to everyone there and evening lending him the typical green Diasomnia gilet and since at that point G was getting attacked by this strange dude, he just accepted to become a non official member of the dorm.

Facts!🔍

Not really a fact but a statement. G's favourite colour is blue.

He seems to have some correlation with water as an element but he's still magicless so no one really cares.

Love language? Violence. Not the best way to show it but doesn't know how his emotions work.

Like Lilia, he cuts and dyes his own hair.

Actually pretty decent in PE.

After Lilia, Trein is the other father figure he has in school. He never told him that because he would never but one time he called him "dad" in front of the class.

He doesn't actually stay in one class or grade like the others. He decides what lessons to follow based on his level in that subject or based on who there's in that class. (Ex. He follows the 3° grade lessons both because of Lilia and because he's good in history, while he follows lower grades for subjects like alchemy or mathematics because he knows he sucks in those.)

He can play various instruments if you ask him. Mostly the trumpet and the guitar, but he can sing too. The only instrument that cannot play that confidently is the piano.

If you ask him for his age he just zones out and says "I don't know..." Before staring into the void for a couple of seconds.

He's very agile and can dance but never told anyone. The only ones that know are Jamil and Floyd because G dances with them.

G can cook. And clean. Often he would find something to clean to have an excuse to stay at home.

He absolutely HATES if you talk to him if he has his headphones on. NEVER do that. If he wants to talk to you, he will take his headphones off himself.

For a couple of weeks he even worked at the Mostro Lounge.

He can understand Spanish, Italian and English (duh) but can only speak two of those languages. Never going to tell which ones :)

He can and WILL fight if threatened.

He is black cat coded.

He uses nicknames like Floyd and Rook. Only not as often as those two.

Relationships! 🤝🏻

🦇 Lilia Vanrouge 🦇

There is no doubt that Lilia is the person with whom G is most familiar. In no time their relationship grew quickly giving Lilia ANOTHER CHILD.

Their relationship is the purest form of Platonism that you could imagine. Definitely found family.

G already had some issues home with his parents and family at home and now sees everyone in Diasomnia as his new family. Sometimes you can catch him calling Lilia "dad".

Most important, Lilia knows a secret that G always keeps hidden. And sees G being biologically a girl. G always asks Lilia if it's ok for him and Lilia just replies with "I always wanted a daughter!" (Even if G is actually Agender, he uses all pronouns so he doesn't really care if Lilia calls him "his daughter". On the contrary. He BAWLS HIS EYES OUT.)

Also! Lilia dragged G into the Pop music club since he caught him singing to himself or casually tuning in Lilia's bass. Lilia did this without knowing that G actually has 6+ years of music education on his back (he was in a music based highschool before getting isekaied into twisted wonderland.) so that sees that poor dude to deal with the chaotic rehearsals that the band does. He had to basically coordinate and tune everyone there. He's not an official member of the club since he's one of the two founders of a new magicless art club so he's technically already in a club, but hey, if his father wants him there... Who's he to deny it?

Ah yeah. G often cooks for everyone in Diasomnia if Lilia offers himself to make dinner.

Old art of father and son together :3 (G changed hairstyles after three months of his stay in twisted wonderland.)

🍩 Ruggie Bucchi 🍩

Now. Here we enter a very chaotic duo.

Everything started after the events of book 1.

First meeting (just a stare) : after stepping on Leona's tail in book 1.

Ruggie saw G when he was walking away. After stepping on Leona's tail, G just kinda avoids the whole Savanaclaw, he just doesn't like Leona's attitude. That until the events of book 2. They have their first "chat" when Ruggie stole Grim's lunch, but nothing much. Ruggie just saw G as trouble and G at that point hated the whole Pack mentality of the Savanaclaw dorm.

Their first interaction ever was during Leona's overbolt when he threw Ruggie away. G at that point disliked Ruggie but his hatred towards Leona was bigger than that so he helped Ruggie.

Convos:

🌊: HEY THAT'S FUCKING UNFAIR!

🍩: Uh-?

🌊: THIS DUDE MIGHT BE A TOTAL DOUCHEBAG BUT THAT'S TOO MUCH.

🍩: Ah here. It seemed strange.

[G came out very strongly at the start of this adventure. I mean, can you blame him? He got yeeted away from his home to get into a new world full of furries and idk queers. So he was, rightfully so, a bit pissed at everyone.]

[this convo happened during the overbolt too.]

🍩: why are you doing this...? Ur trying too hard.

🌊: I said that you're an asshole, that's true. But you don't deserve this. Just because he's unhappy with his life, he shouldn't put all his anger on you.

🍩: . . . Zaaaamn....

🍩: wa- wait- you're... You're helping me because... Just because-?

🌊: bro stop talking before I make you.

🍩: zaaaaaAAAAAAAAAAaa- *COUGHS HIS LIFE OUT*

🌊: you're literally DYING. STOP THAT. I won't have your lifeless body in my arms!

🍩: g- uh?? Th- then stop that-! It's weird.

🌊: you're lucky that I have a moral that I follow, if not you'll be Cat litter now.

🍩: . . . I'll shut up-

🌊: thank you so much, very much appreciated fella.

🍩: . . . . It's Ruggie

🌊: G.

🍩: G-? Just that? Nothing else??

🌊: YOU'RE FUCKING DYING. DO YOU THINK IT'S THE TIME TO DO NAMESHAMING?!

🍩: Nam- oooh you're the fun one... All the effort was put into your humor and not into your name, I see...

🌊:

🌊: Imma let go now.

🍩: I WAS JOKIN-

Overall, Ruggie started to look after G more and that got worse after G helped Ruggie after he fell of his broom while being an idiot.

The first that realised that something was off was Leona and told Ruggie whom entered a long ass state of denial that eventually got EVEN WORSE that during winter break he kinda fucked up (In his opinion) and just avoided G for a whole month untill G HAD to solve the situation. Then they got close again, just messing around and having fun. Until, on Ruggie's birthday, things got way more serious and now you can say that they're in a queer platonic relationship. Ruggie calls G his boyfriend and G doesn't really mind.

There you go. Gruggie summary ig.

🦈 Floyd Leech 🦈

To make it very easy and short, Floyd basically adopted G. As in, Floyd didn't give any chance to G to escape him. After book 3 he got extremely curious about this random blue haired boy and a specific hyena boy SO he just went for it and started to annoy G.

And after some work, now they're besties :3

Floyd and G now go around the school to literally TERRIFY THE WHOLE SCHOOL. They have fun skipping class, unless it's history of magic, then G will definitely not skip.

🍎 Epel Felmier 🍎

Random, I know, but the way they met is literally G climbing up a window from a room where Epel was singing due to Vil request. And that's how they met!!

Epel was extremely skeptical about G at first because he thought that he was interested in him just for his look, which he hates. But after a while he realised that it wasn't the case and G is just random sometimes.

They started to bond way more after G confessed to Epel that he was a girl in hope to make him realise that there are no "girl activities" or vice versa. Epel started to respect G way more after that. Now they're besties and G has the typical bigger sibling attitude towards Epel, even if against his will. :3

G loves teasing everyone. Friends and not.

♠️ Deuce spade ♠️

They have known each other since the start of the year. Overall, Deuce is like Epel. There's mutual respect and Deuce is one of the few people that G doesn't insult because he could probably believe it. G cares a lot about Deuce and Deuce looks after G a lot.

Sometimes Deuce looks like a puppy to G.

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If you're reading this, hi!

Lemme know what you think.😺

Bye for now 🌊

[schtroumpf-a-lunettes]

8, 10, 13? :3c

Thanks for da ask ^_^

8. Now for the platonic side, what are your favorite friendships?

I'm not too sure... I like approaching canon less on an individualised ship or friendship basis and more of like... a zoomed out view of overall cohesion/sociology of the village or individual smurfs (focusing more on the individual smurfs themselves as opposed to the dynamics that exist between them and other smurfs). If that makes sense. I like the idea of Smurfette & Vanity friendship. I love the one-sided friendship that Sassette extends to Gargamel so much too it gets to me...

The thing about the smurfs (and a big cushy comfortable appeal of it) is that there's just a general sense of camaraderie among everyone which is really sweet and nice. They have a lot of good will amongst each other so they'd all consider themselves friends with everyone else, so I like thinking of them in those equalised bonds kind of sense and don't focus on the unique nature of different bonds a whole lot. Like obviously there are kind of established duos like Handy and Hefty and stuff like that but yeah. And obviously there isn't a sense of automatic "camaraderie" ALL of the time... obviously there's hostility and disagreements and fights sometimes. But the status quo is always skewered towards friendliness. And some smurfs are obviously less popular than others (lol) but you get what I mean... there's still (supposed to be) some sense of friendship extended nonetheless.

So yeah not much of a substantial answer more just me talking about my specific approach. not to say that I don't think about the nature of some of the specific friendships sometimes of course! But off the top of my head I can't automatically pinpoint favourite friendships.

10. If you were a smurf, what do you think your name would be?

HAHA okay so back in my DeviantART days I did make a smurfsona called Bookbinder Smurf/Bookbinderette (the latter formation SMH AAA but I was like. 14. okay guys. Also the whole -ette thing was so extremely common back then). I am well and truly not much of a self-insert person it's just not a concept I really do or one that appeals to me much, though I support my self-insert-ing friends 100% in their endeavours and love seeing the stuff they come up with. BUT. Making sonas was just so commonplace/"expected" back in the deviantart era so I was influenced by that at the time. And also, there were a bunch of people who made sonas to selfship with Brainy which I personally was not interested in doing, so I thought it would be a nice change of pace to have a sona who isn't shipped with Brainy but is just like. his assistant or whatever. dbsdhsdjds aaaaaa. The name "Bookbinder Smurf" is because they would like... help take care of Brainy's books because it's extremely common for his books to incur damage in the show. So this sona would like help "fix up" the books and protect them and stuff (even though I have no actual bookbinding skills irl LOL). And I thought it was a bit funny/interesting to have Brainy the self-appointed assistant have a self-appointed assistant of his own. He'd like the veneer of Officiality that would give him for sure.

(An IRL friend of mine like lightheartedly bullied me about Bookbinder Smurf omgggg and this was like. years and years later when I'd forgotten about the sona and then my friend found it and just. omg)

As for the present day, I really got no idea! It's just something I haven't really thought about at all. My place in relation to canon remains, as is often the case, comfortably outside of it! XD All power to self-inserters though again like I said. I really love seeing the stuff a lot of my friends come up with. But yeah it's just not my general personal approach, really.

13. What are your lore/worldbuilding headcanons?

Yesss this is something I really enjoy, looking at the smurfs as a Species, a Society, their history and how did they get here etc etc! So, I published an incomplete draft of a fic a while back, The Law of Murphy, which I still intend to return to and improve/finish when I can, that starts getting into some of this stuff. But it's important to note that I was very much inspired by other content/fics that exist out there. Well, I have one specific fic in mind - the one called "Brainy's Glasses" which does its own worldbuilding/explanations about smurfs and their history which really inspired me, but I still kind of sought to adjust to something different for my own thoughts/ideas.

One idea proposed by the fic Brainy's Glasses (for anyone reading this, if you're not aware, this fic was NOT written by me lol but I love it) which I thought was really cool was the notion that Baby Smurf's magical abilities are actually the default state for all smurf babies to exist in... The idea is, there was a time where baby smurfs would just... land in the forest at random; there was no designated village for them to land in - so the new baby smurfs would need to fend for themselves and would mostly grow up solitary, so they would have a lot of magic when being a vulnerable baby in order to protect themselves from danger, and then that magic would fade as they got older as they learned new/different skills in order to protect themselves and survive.

(The fic had an explanation for why this didn't happen for all the smurfs in the village to not have had that magic growing up btw, it all tied together neatly enough. And also gave a backstory for Brainy's poor eyesight too - hence the fic title "Brainy's Glasses"! I recommend anyone reading this to check out that fic if they're curious enough, it's a good read ^_^)

Now, there are pros and cons to a headcanon like that - if you use it outside of the context of that specific fic, then like... you'd still have to "explain" why e.g. all of the smurfs didn't have Baby's abilities when they were young, since they don't seem to have (if you want to be canon compliant). And it also detracts from the notion that Baby is Special(TM). And I like to believe that Baby just happens to be a really really Special Guy for any number of possible reasons. So it's a fun headcanon to consider but yeah I don't necessarily "adopt" it for the canon itself.

But let's look at another headcanon that "Brainy's Glasses" story gifted me with - the notion that smurfs, back in a time when they were mainly solitary creatures that grew up fending for themselves, generally just had the name "Smurf" because if they weren't in contact/communication with other smurfs, there was no real need to distinguish.

I took that notion and modified it for the story draft of The Law of Murphy. So here are some possible headcanons/ideas about smurf society/history that I (began/want to) explore in that fic:

Smurfs used to live collectively in a village historically, just like in the "present day" of the show canon. But they were a lot more "closed off" from the outside world and insular back then, and more suspicious/"hostile" to outsiders/places outside the village compared to the "present day" canon.

Every single smurf used to uniformly be called "Smurf". No modifiers. Everyone would be treated interchangeably - they still recognise each other to like, be individual beings, but that individuality simply isn't deemed important to them or matter a whole lot. Everyone's just called "Smurf" because that's all they really like, need to get by with. Also, everyone dresses identically - no outfit modifiers. Uniformity. Except for the village leader who does wear a different colour akin to present-day canon.

Over time, modifiers to names would get very slowly introduced... but it still wouldn't be a smurf's official name. So instead of "hey, Smurf, come help me with this" it might become "hey, happy Smurf, come help me with this" (where "happy" does not denote a name or an expected default/standard state of being, but rather, merely the present state of being - a smurf who just happens to be cheerful and be in a good mood at that present moment). This would kind of be necessary, because if everyone is called Smurf, if you were to only say "Hey Smurf, can you help me with this?" every smurf in hearing distance may think you were talking about them. If you instead say "Hey, Smurf in a particularly good mood, can you help me with this?" or "Hey, Smurf holding a hammer right now, can you help me with this?" then only that specific smurf knows to respond.

This would evolve into a kind of pseudo-name... like... "happy Smurf" might become a smurf's default point of reference if they are in a good mood often enough to get referred to in that way. Still not an official name, they still might get referred to in different ways, or as just "Smurf" but nonetheless.

This would just keep becoming more commonplace until official names become the norm, like in the cartoon

All of this is inspired by comics lore and how things kinda work(ed) in the comics, with the comics having been in a later transition stage to having regular names, but still seemingly in an "earlier" stage compared to 80s cartoon lore in terms of their approach to names vs "basic way to distinguish one smurf from another, but not necessarily an official Name per se" (language obviously place a role here too I think, just the structure of French in the comics vs English in the 80s cartoon)

Same thing with outfits. Everyone (except Papa) dressed the same in the beginning of the smurf comics, but that changed over time. (Even Brainy didn't have his iconic glasses at first). So yeah, this was me taking inspiration from smurf comics and applying it to like headcanons for smurf history for the show.

Additional worldbuilding/lore headcanons/thoughts:

I've spoken about this before on this blog, but: Smurfs used to have absolutely no concept of gender whatsoever. When they had some interaction with humans, the humans assumed the smurfs were all male and gendered them with he/him accordingly etc. Smurfs, still without any concept of gender, weren't even aware of how they were being perceived/gendered, having a concept they didn't have applied to them by outsiders, so they couldn't exactly "correct" the humans if they never realised the misconception in the first place.

They accept (and adopt) he/him pronouns as default (and from their perspective, genderless) as influenced by the humans. So when they interact with other humans in future, they will readily use he/him, but both parties having a different understanding - smurfs still have no concept of what gender is despite use of the pronouns, while humans' assumption that they have a concept of gender and are all male is reinforced by the smurfs' use of he/him pronouns among themselves.

Over time, smurfs and smurf society comes to be slightly more influenced by outsider humans, and learns about (and adopts) the human concept of gender. Because they have all been using he/him for so long at this point, and the humans have been gendering them all as male for so long, they simply naturalise/"assume" the notion that they are all male. (I know pronouns are not gendered and not necessarily a marker of gender - anyone of any gender can use any pronoun - but the correlation of "he/him" with "male" is a driving force behind the naturalisation of "maleness" in smurf society, because of human influence/perception).

By the time of the 80s cartoon shows' generation, human concepts of gender have been very naturalised/adopted.

Smurfs used to use smurflanguage a lot more heavily. This is influenced (somewhat) by comic canon and such too - smurfs can talk in a way that's not understood by humans (they just conveniently don't most of the time because the human readers of the comic/watchers of the show need to be able to understand them lol). So I'm gonna assume in the Past when there was less influence from humans their language was a lot more heavy on the use of "smurf"! And they lost it quite a bit over time.

There's more that I like to think about, and am still trying to figure out, but I did write quite a lot already, so... :3.

[hattiestgal]

I want to ask about plurality and system stuff, but I don't have a specific question in mind aside from like, how your syscovery went, and I'm not sure how personal of a question that is, so... I dunno, just infodump about something else if you're not comfortable talking about that. I'm just generally curious to hear about what things are like for other systems.

I believe you're asking about how I figured out I was a system? If so, it starts off a little intense, but I'd love to share!

So- it was a good few months back now, but I figured it out when my girlfriend was visiting... at the time, my brain was also gearing itself for a complete uprooting of the self due to me suddenly not quite clicking with Riley (my now headmate) as a sona anymore. You can actually see some posts about it from around that time where I was absolutely distressing.

Anyhow, this eventually turned into thoughts of possibly being a system- composed of (at the time) Riley, and another person, which I had puzzled out to be Jack (Another now headmate of mine) at the time. This turned out to be kind of true, not too soon after Jack properly spoke through me, and was around to see my girlfriend off when I was feeling emotionally unstable. Not too soon after that, Riley (who didn't realize they were a separate self from me) got left to their own devices for a bit, and immediately got pumped about the whole idea (and being VERY energetic at my aufiences and friends, ehehe). Violette popped up not too soon after, and well- the rest is history so far!

To elaborate on the proper catalyst that had started the rift between Riley and I, it turns out I had simply just drawn them in some situations they felt uncomfortable being depicted in, and was finally starting to give me some pushback. We've talked things out since then, though, and we are on very happy terms now... if their regualar teasing and otherwise friendly banter is anything to go off of, ehehe

[ch-go-crazy-yall]

Intro Post - Rover / Weatherstrip

⭐️ Since, someone, no one in particular of course, wished for this, here's an intro post for my Side Blog. I post art sometimes, but I'll mostly reblog it, or reblog random stuff.

⭐️ The user name for this blog is stupid because I thought it would be a temporary filament for a small countryhumans hyperfixation. No. I was wrong and I’m too attached to the original name “@ch-go-crazy” to ever let go of it, or rebrand… much from the original. The nickname of being “That WHO and America artist” is because I draw those to ch interpretations a lot. Just because I can.

⭐️ My main is: @polarized-here If you want to be mutuals, just follow me on there or ask 👍 I don’t mind having ch mutuals, I just can’t follow you on this blog. 👍

⭐️ I use the monikers - Rover, Weatherstrip, WHO, etc., some call me Polar or Tori; I don't care. I'm 17, Autistic, Pansexual, and Genderfluid. I use all prns (He/She/They/it/xir) etc etc. use the pronouns you use for yourself, use the obnoxious joke pronouns, use all pronouns or use none. I don’t care. It doesn’t really matter much. I still get tripped up on some pronouns, so it doesn’t really matter to me. Like a lot of things.

⭐️ This is a countryhumans/countryballs/country-personification sideblog I've made after getting sucked back into this fandom 😔😔😔 Because of school, I have a really bad US history hyperfixation, and now a Hyperfixation on ch USA. Despite this, and the 10 books I currently have on US history, I plan to pursue aeronautical engineering, or Astrophysics, idk, whichever I fall into or have more fun in, I guess. I've been in the trenches of this fandom in the early days of 2018-2020, before the hyperfixation came back in November of last year, and I have since been stuck in here for a year, no amount of insults will do anything—just block my faggot ass. I promise nothing bad will happen for you using the resources given to you <3

⭐️ I may talk about my distaste of this fandom and its choices, but that doesn’t mean I want to hear you saying shit about particular people <3 Thxs <3

Tags and stuffs are under the cut <3

Tags I use: Just a note, I'm not organized at all, and may forget to tag something because I posted it to the wrong blog, sorry, it will happen again </3

#chgc's art - my art tag

#chgc posting: going insane a day later - Tag for when I reblog my art a day later, just so it doesn't get buried like, from all the reblogs

#chgc speaks - speaking tag,

#chgc's rambles - also paired with my speaking / nonsense tag, but I plan to use it to talk about HCs I might have

#Not ch - gen tag for noncountryhumans / country personification dings,,,,

#silly stuff :3 - cute or enjoyable things I like, usually paired with "not ch"

#Serious stuff - gen tag for more serious things. Can be things that aren't "sad or triggering" just information that's important / serious.

#sillies between mooties :3 - tag for general interactions between me and my mutuals. usually paired w/ "silly stuffs :3"

#chgc's pinned posts - as the name suggests, stuff for when it is/used to be pinned for whatever.

#chgc’s queued up - for the rare time I feel the need to queue shit up. I usually don't do it.

⭐️ If you’re reading this, you’re cool ig. Here’s the link to the playlist I made for Countryhumans America. 🙏

⭐️ Okay. That’s all. Idk. Rue the day I’m ever brief on something, Thxs. Bye.

⭐️ Oh Yeagh and forgot to say but my sona is a bee

Just a sillay guy. A little older sketch but ehh mostly the same now

[mi-rae07]

Choi San : Guns And Diamonds (Part 1/3)

Pairing : Choi San (Ateez) and named character (Jung Sona)

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A/n: This story ends on a...meh sort of note, so I will write one more part to this if people actually end up reading this (lol). 

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San walked hastily into the garden area of the mansion, the party music blasting behind him as he breathed heavily, tears brimming his eyes as the sight of his wife in another man's arms ran repeatedly through his mind. Sona ran behind san, trying not to trip over her own dress or heels. She needed to explain her side, somehow. She finally found san crouched on the ground, small sniffles ringing around the place as she ran up to him and said breathlessly

Sona : San! Honey, I'm...I swear, I'm sorry. What you saw, that was just...a-a moment, it meant nothing to me-

San : stop talking.

Sona : no you need to listen, you have to, for our sake. I have only ever loved you, san. I don't ever need another man when I have you-

Sona cut herself off as san stood straight, scoffing at her words as he wiped his tear stained cheeks with shaky hands and whispered

San : such lies.

Sona : I'm saying the truth, please!

San : THEN TELL ME WHY WERE YOU KISSING HIM JUNG SONA!

Sona flinched, lowering her gaze as she said

Sona : He-he said if I didn't, he would do something-

San : and what the fuck would that be?

Sona : tell the world about our son.

San let out a shaky breath, looking away as he ran his hand through his hair. Sona held his hands in hers as she said, desperation lacing her tone

Sona : san. Please, you have to know I would never cheat on you, and our family. I could never.

San : how am I...how am I supposed to trust you, sona.

Sona frowned at that, feeling her heart tear apart at her husband's words. She had only done all that thinking san would understand and do something about it when she told him about the rival. But now it turns out, he didn't even believe her.

Sona : 13 years, san. 13 years and you still think I am capable of doing something like this?

San : because that's what I saw, sona! I saw the way you were in his arms. You looked like...like you were actually enjoying it-

Sona : BECAUSE I HAD TO! OTHERWISE HE WOULD KILL MY SON, CHOI SAN! HOW DO YOU THINK I FEEL RIGHT NOW?

San : god.

Sona : why do you think we ever even had to do this in the first place, huh? It's because you're a fucking mafia! If you weren't, our son would never have had to live in such solitude and I wouldn't have had to feel like some sort of slut!

San : so this is my fault now? You agreed to all of this sona.

Sona : yeah, unfortunately.

San stared at sona, speechless. He had just seen his wife in his rival's arms a few minutes ago, kissing him as if her life depended on it. And he had thought what every person would, which caused him to run out of the building where the party was happening at, feeling like throwing up. And then sona had ran behind him, pleading him to listen as san screamed internally in frustration and anger.

He didn't know what to feel anymore, whether or not to trust sona or think that he was one at fault here.

Sona shook her head as she said

Sona : get in the car, san, I wanna go home.

Sona walked away from him towards their car a few meters away from them, trying to hold in her tears. She felt disgusted with herself, and she had thought san would understand that. But it seems not, she should have known that.

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Sona opened the door to their house, taking her heels off as she threw it away before walking up to their son's bedroom upstairs. She couldn't look at san, not without doing something wrong. She slowly opened the door to se-hun's room, smiling as she saw her son sitting in his bed, reading a book. Of course he was reading a book about spaceships and it's history, all while being only 9 years old.

Sona : sehun-ie?

Sehun : eomma!

Sehun abandoned the book and ran to his mother, jumping into her arms as he squealed in happiness. He had always been a mommy's boy, but maybe that was because san spent so less time with his son, sehun barely even knew him. Sona chuckled and lifted her son up, twirling him as she ran her hand along his smooth black hair, just as his father's was.

Sehun : eomma, you took so long.

Sona : eomma is sorry baby. I'll try to come faster next time, hmm?

Sehun : okay! You smell so nice though. You wouldn't mind if I steal one of your perfumes do you?

Sona smiled at how innocent and pure her son was, always making sure to do the right things. This was why she wanted to hide sehun's identity, she couldn't let san's world corrupt their child, not when he was only 9.

Sona : normal thieves don't ask before stealing bun-bun.

Sehun : well, I'm not a thief so there's that.

Sona : you are a thief, though?

Sehun pulled back, staring at his mother with a confused frown. Sona booped his nose and whispered cheekily

Sona : the thief who stole my heart.

Sehun groaned as sona laughed from the hits she was receiving from her son as he said

Sehun : such bad pick-up lines, eomma.

Sona : ay, come on now! We both know your mother is the best at those.

Sehun : I'll let you have it because you're my mother, no other reason.

Sona giggled and kissed sehun on the cheeks before saying

Sona : shall I sleep with you today?

Sehun eyed sona's dress and said

Sehun : with this dress?

Sona : mhmm, it's quite comfortable, you know.

Sehun : what about your make-up then, you should remove it and then sleep-

Sona : aish don't be such a grandpa, get in the bed now. I'm going to turn off the lights.

Sehun smiled and jumped from his mother's arms, plopping down on his bed as he said

Sehun : you're being very unhealthy, eomma.

Sona chuckled as she turned off the lights and said

Sona : I know bun.

Sona soon got on the bed, sehun rushing to get in between his mother's arms as he inhaled deeply. Sona smiled and ran her hands along his hair, whispering to him

Sona : you're my biggest diamond, hun-ah. I love you so much.

Sehun : that's quite a big compliment considering you own an entire chain of jewellery shops.

Sona giggled as sehun smiled and said

Sehun : I love you more than my spaceships, eomma.

Sona : wah, my life is now complete.

Sehun : not yet, you have to live a long life for me, eomma. Only then can I grow up fast and shower you with all my money and provide you with the amount of happiness that you've always given me.

Sona pressed her lips together as she felt tears fill her eyes, being grateful that the lights were off so sehun couldn't see her. He'd burn the reason of her tears if he found out, in that way he was like his father.

Sona : eomma will.

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Se-hun opened his eyes, his eyes falling on the digital clock in his bedside table, 3am. He slowly turned to look behind, his mother's face still visible to him because of the moonlight as she sighed in deep sleep. Sehun knew his mother was a deep sleeper, so even if got up, she wouldn't really know. And so sehun slowly removed her arms off him, standing up from his bed as he wore his slippers quietly.

He was only 9, but he knew it when his mom was crying. She tried to be silent, and she was, but she hadn't realized the small water droplets falling on sehun's shoulders or her change in breathing pattern. Sehun had always been very attentive. And he could only guess who caused his mother's tears.

Sehun climbed down the steps, walking into the living room as his father's back came into his view. San was still sitting in the sofa, staring into nothingness as tears continued streaming down his eyes even after hours. He felt terrible, absolutely terrible. But as soon as he recognized his son's footsteps, he wiped his tears and composed himself, turning around to face his son with confused eyes.

San : sehun-ah?

Sehun : were you the reason eomma cried?

San felt his heart drop at those words, sona never cried in front of people. And for her to have cried in front of her son.

San : she…cried?

Sehun : yes she did, appa. Do you happen to know why?

San : sehun-ah.

Sehun : I don't wanna know why, I know it's not my business. But I also don't want to see my mother sad. And if you're the problem, then you must know how to fix it as well. So then please, appa, fix it. I don't wish to see my eomma cry another time.

San clenched his hands on the sofa, feeling half ashamed of himself now. He had hurt sona to the point their son had to come down at 3am and ask him to fix it. What was he doing as a husband and as a father then?

San : sehun-ah, appa…appa is sorry. For…for not being a better father to you. I wanna try, I do-

Sehun : you don't have to, I know you have other important things.

San : son-

Sehun : you don't have to be a better father to me, appa, just be a better husband for eomma. That's all I want from you. The other things that I wanted from you have already changed, I don't really have much hope when it comes to these cases anymore.

San felt his heart tear apart, now understanding why his father had always been right. Of course he was right, san could never be a good father or a good husband to anyone. All he was good for was killing people and bringing them pain.

Sehun : you should sleep now, appa, it's not healthy for you to stay awake the entire night. Goodnight.

Sehun turned and walked away from san, his small footsteps finally fading away as he shut his bedroom door behind him. As soon as san heard that, he let his tears fall, small sobs escaping his mouth as he fell on the floor. He shut his eyes, muffling his mouth with his hands as his sobs just continued growing louder. He wanted to be better, he so desperately did. But no matter whatever he did, it never seemed to work.

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6 years ago :

San entered his son's room with a spaceship toy in his hand, placing it next to sehun's cradle with bandaged hands. He had noticed how his son was always more interested in toys that related to space, rather than cars or guns as san had been when he was younger. And he was going to make sure sehun got every thing he wanted, even if san had to die for it.

San looked at the clock, realizing it was 3am. This was what, the 1000nth time san visited his son after he was long asleep. Ever since sehun was born, san would always come up to his bedroom at night, gazing at his son for god knows how long before returning to his wife's arms. There were days when sehun would wake up screaming and crying when he was a toddler, san turning off the baby monitor in order to not wake sona up before rushing to his son to cradle him. Nothing had given him the happiness sehun's sleeping figure gave him later.

He was his son after all, the most precious thing in his life apart from sona. When san first took this fragile being into his hands, he had promised the little being the entire world, to give him everything his own father never gave san. Everything san had done, he had done for sona and sehun. And there was nothing he wouldn't do either.

San took the 3 year old sehun in his arms, the baby nuzzling into san with a small gurgle. San smiled at his son, eyes filled with love and adoration for the person he and his wife had created. San patted his son's back softly before kissing his forehead as he whispered softly

San : my prince.

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Sona groaned as she opened her eyes, looking around as she realized that the blinds had opened slightly, letting sunlight fall right onto her face, and sehun's. sona put her hands over her son's face, blocking the sunlight as she clicked on a button that properly closed the blinds. She was about to get up from the bed when she heard sehun's voice

Sehun : the sun is actually quite good for us, you know.

Sona : you're awake?

Sehun : since two minutes.

Sona smiled as sehun sat up, rubbing his eyes as he said

Sehun : good morning, eomma.

Sona : morning bun-bun. Shall we go down for breakfast?

Sehun : ooh, it already smells nice from here.

Sona chuckled and nodded before getting up from the bed, opening the door and stepping out as sehun followed her. The both of them soon walked towards the kitchen, their eyes widening as they noticed san making pancakes with a very concentrated face.

Sehun : appa?

San turned around, smiling as he noticed his wife and son

San : morning! I made pancakes, sit down.

Sehun sighed and plopped down onto the kitchen dining table, yawning. Sona walked up to san as she said lowly

Sona : where are the maids, san?

San : I gave them a day off.

Sona : and your work?

San : I took a day off as well.

Sona blinked her eyes, confusion lacing it. San never took days off work, he basically couldn't and sona usually understood that. San nodded towards the kitchen table as he said

San : go sit, I'll bring the plates.

Sona let out a breath and sat down next to her son, smiling at sehun as san put the pancakes into the plates and placed it in front of them before saying

San : I've never cooked before, let's hope they're at least…eatable.

Sehun had a bite of the pancake, frowning as he started biting on it. Sona had some too, trying not to let out emotions. San looked at them excitedly as he asked

San : how is it?

Sehun : appa, you don't add salt to pancakes, you know.

The excitement vanished from san's eyes, his heart dropping.

San : so it's…bad then?

Sona : it's alright for a first time, I suppose.

Except that wasn't what san understood from sona's face. The pancakes just weren't good. San sighed and snatched both the plates from them, making sehun let out a noise of annoyance

Sehun : appa, what-

San : let's eat breakfast from outside then, your appa just can't cook apparently.

Sona stared as san threw the pancakes into the bin, his 3 hours of hardwork going down the drain. Sona saw the way san's eyes were droopy, sadness clearly visible in them.

Sehun : it wasn't so bad you had to actually throw them away like that.

San : I don't wanna force you both to eat something that isn't good. I'll just order something from outside, what do you want!

Sona sighed, as san picked up his phone, sehun jumping in to tell his father what he wanted.

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2 days later :

San drove his car towards their house, looking at sona who had her head rested against the passenger seat's window. She was still distant to him even after everything he tried doing. Cooking breakfasts, taking sehun and her to an amusement park san had rented, skiing, shopping, whatever he had done, sona still seemed distant. She would only sleep in sehun's room and would only talk to san about important matters. Sehun was the same as well, he still refused to talk much to his dad, except for the practical things.

San : sona-ya.

Sona : mhmm?

San : about the party a few days ago-

Sona : I don't wish to talk about it anymore, san.

San : but unless we do that, you're going to continue being so far away from me sona.

Sona : it doesn't make much difference though, does it? You still go to work before I wake up and come back after I'm asleep. We barely see each other so what does it matter if I'm distant or not.

San : but I've changed my work timings-

Sona : for what, a few days? You're going to go back to normal after a week or so san, or just watch.

San gripped the steering wheel hard as he said

San : I still need you, sona. You're still my wife, and I still love you.

Sona : those are all still just words, san. You don't really make it seem like I'm your wife.

San : so do you want us to just live like this then?

Sona : lot of married couples live this way, it doesn't really make a difference.

San : except I don't want to be like those people! We're supposed to be different, sona. I married you because I loved you and you agreed to it because you loved me. I want us to be an actual family with sehun, I don't want to pretend.

Sona : don't you still get it, san? There's no time to even pretend, none. You're not ever home, san.

San : I am now, aren't I? and I try to take the both of you to places, but you still don't seem satisfied, neither does sehun-

Sona : because you're taking us to deserted places! Places you've rented where there are no other people. Do you know? Sehun hasn't seen one single person apart from his tutor and the both of us in so fucking long, san! It's like he's…he's alone in this world. I can only do so much for him. Soon he's going to start asking why.

San bit his lips, feeling utterly helpless.

San : I'll…I'll find some way out for the both of you.

Sona scoffed as she said

Sona : no you won't. we're gonna continue living like this until all three of us crumble away, that's all that's going to happen.

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Sona entered their house, san following after her as he closed the main door behind them. Sona climbed up the stairs to go to sehun's room, leaving san alone. He had just taken off his shoes when he heard sona scream out

Sona : SEHUN! WHERE ARE YOU?

San's eyes widened as he ran up the stairs, bumping right into sona who was breathing heavily. She looked up at san with scared eyes as she said

Sona : san! San, my baby, where…where is he?

San's ears caught the small sounds coming from away, the sound of small sniffles.

San : no.

San ran to his office room, his heart beating hard against his chest as he realized that his office room had been open. He had forgotten to lock it when he left, and his files, sehun-

San paused on his tracks as sona ran further inside the room, finding her son crying against the large desk, papers and files scattered around him as he wailed. San stood right at the center of the room, watching as sona kneeled down and hugged her son who cried against his mother's chest. Sona looked at the papers around her, the gruesome pictures of the rivals san had killed and other files coming into her view. Putting that together with sehun who was crying his heart out against sona's chest, she knew he had finally found out.

Sona : god, no.

Sona felt sehun lift his head from her chest, his sobs now turning into angry sniffles as he looked at his father who was just staring at the papers blankly. Sona tried holding sehun's hand, half knowing what was going to happen next

Sona : sehun, no-

Sona cut herself off as sehun stood up, walking towards his father as he asked

Sehun : you're…a gangster?

San closed his eyes, feeling his head spin. There was nothing he could do anymore, it was too late.

Sehun : even when you were a terrible father, I thought you'd be a good human being, at least. But this? Everything we have, every single toy you've bought me, it's by the money you gained by killing people, murdering them mercilessly. And you keep pictures of them like it's some sort of…trophy.

San couldn't bring himself to defend him by saying he killed only the bad people who hurt the good ones, or that he had kept his photos for any cases in the future. He knew he didn't deserve to be defended, he was indeed a bad man.

Sehun turned to his mother as he asked, tears falling down his eyes

Sehun : eomma, how could you bring yourself to love this monster?

San pressed his lips together, trying his best not to break down crying. Sona shook her head at sehun as she whispered

Sona : sehun-

Sehun : we have to leave. Being with this man is going to kill us, either he will or one of his rivals will.

Sona felt tears brim her eyes as sehun scoffed and looked at his father

Sehun : how am I supposed to tell anyone you're my father? I myself feel ashamed of you, imagine other people then. My entire life, I kept thinking why I wasn't allowed to go out, or have any human friends. I thought it was because you were scared for me, and I found some comfort in that. But no, it's because you're afraid someone would kill me just the way you killed their son.

Sona : sehun, stop.

Sehun : I hate you, with every fiber of my being, I hate you and I wish I had never gotten a father like you. You not only bring pain to me, but also to my mother. And for that, I will hate you my entire life.

San looked at his son with tear filled eyes, his entire face red as his body practically trembled.

Sehun : because of you, neither my mother nor I can have a happy life. Because of you, we're cursed.

Sehun took off the silver ring he had always worn in his left index finger, the ring that san had given him when he turned five. The ring he had never taken off since then, always a reminder of his father. San had a matching one as well, in his left index finger. All of them knew how much that ring meant to san, and sehun taking off his, would scar san.

Sona : no, no no sehun-

Sona cut herself off with a gasp as sehun threw the ring at san, making a tear fall from san's eye as sehun said

Sehun : I am not your son anymore.

Sehun walked away from the room, tears streaming down his cheeks as he ran to his bedroom. San fell on the ground, clutching his heart as sobs escaped his throat. Sona whimpered and moved closer towards san, holding his trembling hand in hers as she said

Sona : san-ah, baby please, sehun-

San : go to him.

Sona : what? No, you-

San : go to sehun, sona. He needs you now.

Sona : but you need me more.

San : it doesn't matter, I shouldn't matter. Sehun is more important, just go to him. I'll be fine.

Sona : that is not true.

San : please, go.

Sona gave san one last look before rushing out of the room, leaving san there alone on the ground. San searched for the ring sehun had thrown off with shaky hands, his blurry vision making it hard. But he finally grasped it as san held it close to his chest, sobbing in pain as he felt the edge of the ring bruise his palm from the force. But san could care less about the pain, it was nothing compared to what he was feeling right now anyway.

He had just lost his son.

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[polarized-here]

I wanna hear more about Sora and Tori (they both look very huggable and I LOVE their designs :3)

Waugh!!!! SANKU!!! (I also forgot to say SANKU earlier with the comment over Astor’s hair since I was debating how I wanted to answer that ask but!!!! SANKU for both those comments!!!)

Funny you say these two, because they’re both Old DND characters I’m reusing. Tori for an MHA dnd campaign, and sora was some other older ones. Their lore is changed just for this story :)

Tori is quite easy to answer—they’re the adoptive sibling to Blitzen, whom you’ve probably seen before on my blog! She’s an Oc I made for Bagel’s world that I’ve never talked about much! But yeah, they’re so silly!!! To me!!! So… back to Tori they don’t have much lore other then the fact that they’re the worrier sibling, they have plenty of passions, and is quite popular! They just love being the center of attention as long as their friends get some of it too!

Taking numerous classes focusing on flight dynamics and applying those theories and principles to their own flight, (whenever they can, again; due to heavy governmental regulations over powers. But also, it’s a small city, so it’s not really much of a problem compared to a more densely populated town!) they’re thinking about definitely being a hero, with plenty of people constantly telling them to pursue that, but they want to keep themselves open. Not susceptible to only being one thing. Since they’re so well known, they feel as if people only really have ‘one’ set perception of them—something that’s an incomplete reflection of them. Their complexities, etc etc etc.

but enough of that!

Sora! My very first ‘OC’ really, probably more of an old sona I had since I exclusively played a specific character archetype in DnD & race since I’m broke. But they were a blue Dragonborn (with a tail because I’m nice) grave domain cleric that I really liked and drew a lot :)

They are more concerned with medical pursuits, and trying to find a definitive answer as to why people themselves gained these powers, where did it start? Was it truely divine intervention and prayer? Because even atheistic individuals have been given powers. No loss to it. Was it a rogue set or pair of genes? Was it accidental exposure to not so safe stuff? At such a global scale. It’s difficult to pinpoint why. So they also take classes in studying religion.

Because of their interest in medicine. They really like traditional medicine, more necromancy themed religions, and history of herbs, etc etc etc, basically they like medicine and herbs along with orthodox medicine practices—while naturally being mindful to only mix ones properly.

Sora is quite susceptible to suspicious thoughts of others—and while means well, can jump to irrational conclusions after too much deductive reasoning. So a running gag is that they often suspect Beel, Felix, and Anzu being correlated in some way to the new vigilante.

They chose the three worst people for that, of course. They do mean well, but they’re also that meme yk… so it’s okay :,)

[kexyyxx]

INTRODUCTION

Edit: I don't know how shy Tumblr users are, but you can spam like/comment/share if you like my stuff, I don't mind it at all!!<3

Anyway, intro time :D

● Who even ARE you?

My name is Kexy, but you can call me Kex or Cookie (I'll elaborate on the Cookie name later xD).

I'm an 18 year old, self taught digital and traditional artist who does art in her (incredibly) limited free time.

● Why exactly 'Kex'? (=Cookie)

I'm not going to really explain the grammatical history behind it, but in my language, this word can be viewed as a tongue twister, and it roughly translates to 'Cookie'. :D

● Are you going to post regularly?

That depends. I'm graduating in 2025 (I'm a senior), and in my country, we need to do a closing exam from lots of subjects. So, I need to study a lot for that, therefore, I might not be able to post too much.

● What kind of art/content will you post exactly?

My 'hyperfixation' is currently Sonic the Hedgehog, and if we dwell more into it, then it's Movie Sonic. I will also post stuff about my Sonic OCs and my Sonic sona/persona.

But, for fillers, I might post old art or non-sth-related stuff.

● Pronouns/Sexuality/Religion?

She/her ; Asexual ; Christian<3

● Do you do comissions?

Unfortunately, I have NEVER done comissions, so I have absolutely no experience in them yet. Also, with my limited time, it would be really hard for me to do them. So, I will definitely try to do comissions in the future, just not now. (Except if somebody is feeling extremely generous, we can talk about it in private👀)

● What Sonic ships can we expect here?

I'm a big sucker for Sonamy, so that will take my site's 80% space. But I've recently also started to favor Shadouge, and there is a possibility that I might make one or two Silvaze posts (and other ships lol, you'll see).

● What's on your YouTube channel?

I try to post animated vines and funny videos regarding Movie Sonic/StH, and I'd also do tweening animation memes (to heal my inner child who couldn't animate at all at the time XD).

● I might have seen your art from somewhere/your artstyle seems familiar to me...

That's entirely possible! I've had 1 youtube channel, and 2 tiktok profiles where I kinda 'blew up'. But, I've abandoned all of them due to personal reasons.

● What do you draw with/on?

I usually draw on my phone and tablet with my fingers. The tablet's name is Lenovo Tab M11. I use IbisPaint as a drawing program on both.

● Can we expect art which might not be safe for all viewers? (directed at blood/body horror/gore)

I don't think I have a gorey artstyle, I typically see myself more like as the happy-sunshine-smiles artist, but I love to do angsty art if my skills let me. I will try to put a Trigger Warning whenever I post something like this.

● Any information we can find about your persona?

I made some tags like #kexy or #kexyandstar, so you can search that if you wanna see some info about that :)

That's "all", and thank you if you

read through this!

Have a red panda for compensation!❤️❤️