#just like that one twenty one pilots song fr

[wayward-sherlock]

guys i smelled something that gave me a flashback to the beginning of my byler era 😭😭idk what it is or i would capture it forever

[clancysjumpsuit]

i’m such a slut for paladin strait

[elliespeach]

no chances | ellie williams

˗ˏˋ"scared yet?" ´ˎ˗

pairing: ellie x afab reader synopsis: you and ellie are on rival volleyball teams and your dangerously competitive nature gets the better of the two of you. warnings: 18+, foul language, sexual descriptions, men (the coaches), eventual smut (ellie n reader) i changed the rules a bit, ik liberos have rules tehy gotta follow but to hell w that for the plot author note: the name comes from the twenty one pilots song!! i lowkey had sm fun writing this, i watched womens volleyball as i did and yall....volleyball ellie has my heart fr. this is gonna be a series n im excited to see where it goes wordcount: 2k ishhh

ellie pressed her feet flat to the floor, eyes locked on the other side of the net. she was behind her usual middle blocker, her arms raised up to align themselves with her stomach, her hands interlocked and her thumbs pressed together. she waited patiently, the sweat dripping off of her eyebrow and down to the gym floor. 

she sized up the team in front of her, ellie’s team played them often as they were rival colleges, especially for women's volleyball. her eyes scanned the team, the coach called a player in from the back row, the girl placed herself on the bench with a solemn look expression. that’s when ellie saw you emerge from the far side of that same bench, once previously blocked by standing bodies. she sighed heavily and muttered “fuck.” to herself as she watched you approach your coach. a pep in your step, and ellie rolled her eyes. you took the place of the previous girl in the back row, grinning ear to ear.

ellie was hoping you weren’t playing today, the amount of times you two had gone against each other was uncountable. both of you being exceptional liberos caused a rivalry of it’s own between the two of you to manifest over months. she couldn’t stand you and it was because you were just as good and just as passionate as she was but she refused to admit it, even to herself. despite your fierce competitive nature with ellie turning sour, you thought it was funny to taunt her. her expression would change in a heartbeat, and you knew it got to her before she composed herself. but you’d be lying if you said she didn’t get to you either because she most definitely did. 

you caught ellie’s eye and waved teasingly to her, mouthing a slow and pronounced, “good luck.” and ellie darted her eyes away, not wanting to be distracted by you. she shook her head from the thought of you and heard the familiar smack of the serve from your team. the ball went up and over the net flawlessly. her team kept the ball up, passing it back over with ease and ellie glanced at you while you stared down the ball with focused eyes. your setter mistakenly hit the ball at an angle which sent you diving to the floor to keep it up, shooting it straight back into the air and the outside hitter sent it back to ellies team. 

it went on like this for a while, sending the ball bouncing between the two sides of the court. the score quickly became nearly tied at twenty-two points. for a quick second, ellie caught you staring at her and her head cocked to the side, feeling her competitive nature step forward. “scared?” she mouthed tauntingly, a fake pout splayed across her face. focusing back to her team, ellie turned with the surge of confidence flowing through her, the ball came directly to her from the setter and she took her opportunity. from the back row, ellie jumped straight up, her hand connected with the ball with a hard slap, sending it flying right at you as if on purpose. she had distracted you well enough, you fumbled, the ball bounces off your hands and to the floor.

her teammates shouted in triumph, giving her several highfives and she looked back at you through the white net as they cheered, “sorry.” she mouthed again, her shoulders coming up to shrug dramatically. your face turned into a snarl, determined to do the same back to her. ellie’s team served next, shooting the ball up and over the net and it somehow went directly to you. you set the ball to your outside hitter beside you, and ellie heard you shout “back! back! back!” indicating to return the ball to you. with this ellie lowered herself, readying for a strong spike towards her head, she didn’t know much about you but she knew you didn’t miss. 

as you jumped up, your arm swung back furiously but as your hand came in contact with the ball, you hit it lightly, barely tipping it over the edge of the net. ellie’s team was caught off-guard, missing the ball and letting it fall to the floor. ellie bit her bottom lip in frustration, resetting her stance and glaring at you up and down. your uniform was form-fitting, of course your black shirt standing out among your teammates making it all the more easy for her. you didn’t meet ellie’s gaze once while your team celebrated their small victory and that upset her more than if you had.

there had been times during previous games that you two had gotten in arguments across the court, resulting in sitting out for the rest of the game. “you did that on purpose!” ellie would shout, her finger pointed directly at you accusingly, stepping towards the net. “only because you did it first!” you would scream back, your teammate holding you back from approaching the net while ellie egged you on, shouting obscenities that you so kindly returned to her.

 it was always childish arguments like this, and your teammates could feel the tension building on the court as the game went on, everyone was competitive but you and ellie took it to another level that made people uncomfortable. “pretentious bit–” ellie’s coach would approach her, cutting her off in fear of being disqualified. “oh, i'm pretentious?” you would bypass your team, walking up to the net furious. “you’re a fuc–” your team pulled you back and kept you quiet for the same reasons. 

nearing the end of the game, ellie was sweating hard, her auburn hair sticking to her forehead from the hot gym. she watched as you readied yourself, your arms moving up swiftly and you flicked your head to the side to remove the hair that was plaguing your face. she was staring for a little too long, stuck in some kind of haze, her ears rang and her vision went fuzzy. her teammates moved in a blur around her as the ball landed on her side of the court and she snapped her head, regaining her focus quickly, moving her hands to set the ball. it fell short and ellie threw herself forward on her stomach to reach it. she managed to bounce it but not anywhere near where she had to, her teammate fell short to get it and it fell to the ground. 

ellie cursed under her breath, bringing herself to her feet. she earned a look from her teammate beside her and she shrugged, annoyed. a dangerous look plastered on her face she scanned through the net for the black shirt. she spotted you fist-bumping the girl next to you and as if you felt ellie’s eyes on you, your head turned caughting her gaze. you smirked, a confident gaze settling over your eyes that ellie could see from afar. her tongue pressed against her cheek, trying to keep her cool like her coach instructed her to do. but as you two stared into each other you mouthed a steady, “scared yet?” a dumb look on your face as you mocked her. 

ellie bubbled over, her hands balled at her fists and she stormed up to the net. her cheeks were on fire and her chest felt extraordinarily heavy. her coach was on his feet, but he couldn’t reach ellie in time before she opened her mouth. “you know what? fuck you!” she shouted, making sure you heard her. 

you did, loud and clear. you practically fought your teammates to get to the net, only a few feet separating the two of you. your chest was heaving between the anger that filled you and the game you’ve been playing. ellie’s white libero shirt piercing your eyes compared to her team's mutual black shirts. “i didn’t do anything you didn’t fuckin’ do!” you yelled back with such aggression that it made your voice hoarse. 

you watched as ellie’s coach grabbed her arm but she didn’t break eye contact with you, her hateful stare intensifying. her coach dragged her away and you turned, your heart beating even faster than before. “you’re out of the game, williams!” her coach tells her sternly, ellie tried to rebut but he told her to sit on the bench. she groaned, rolling her eyes and sitting down with a huff. 

you watched as this happened a small smile crept onto your lips as she sat down, ellie never looking in your direction. your head turns to your coach who is approaching you. “you too, go!” the coach says with conviction, pointing his finger to the bench on your side of the court. your smile disappeared within an instant. 

“i didn’t say anything!” you try to defend yourself, but your coach just shakes his head and repeats for you to leave as well. you throw yourself onto the seat, not daring to look at ellie for the rest of the game, and ellie avoids your gaze too.

the game didn't last much longer, within thirty minutes everyone was loaded on the buses to head back to their campuses. as ellie’s team waited for a few more people to show up on the bus, she sat in her seat to go home, wanting to desperately just forget this whole day so far despite her team ending up winning – just without her. the panging feeling of her bladder became too strong to ignore anymore and the bus ride back was over an hour. as her team celebrated from the seats, she snuck by and off the bus back into the building where they had just played. 

she practically ran down the hallways to the nearest bathroom, pushing the door open and going straight to relieve herself. she heard someone in the stall beside her, it didn’t bother her until she was washing her hands and you came out of the stall. you stared at her in the mirror while approaching the sink next to her, remaining quiet.

you were wearing a large gray hoodie, similar to one that ellie has tucked in her closet somewhere. your hoodie came down below your shorts, hiding them. ellie felt strange seeing you this way, your usual hard exterior being present in your uniform. but looking at you now, all comfortable and sleepy, ellie felt a pang in her chest and before she could stop herself her mouth opened. 

“sorry ‘bout that.” she spoke calmly, even though her stomach was turning over inside of her. you glanced at her, her usual black shirt replaced with a gray windbreaker and black sweatpants though her hair remained in the same half up half down style, her demeanor felt different but with your team losing, especially since you couldn’t even do anything, you were still angry. 

“sure,” was all you said in response, turning back to the sink to finish washing your hands. ellies expression hardened, her arms crossing over her chest. 

“really? you can’t just accept my apology?” her voice raised in defense, pivoting her body towards you. 

“i don’t wanna,” you said, keeping your gaze on your hands in the sink, over washing your hands by a mile. 

ellie shoved your shoulder, not hard but enough to make you look at her. “fuck you, dude!” 

you shoved her back, your face growing hot because of her yet again. “no, fuck you, dude!” you mocked, your patience going thin and your heartbeat rising in your chest, heaving you pointed a finger in her face, continuing your rant. “you’re too fucking competitive.” 

ellie scoffs and reaches up to grab your hand, lowering it down between you two. her breathing was getting aggressive with her anger, she moved her face closer to yours, not letting go of you. “me? have you met you!” she all but shouted in your face. you noticed just how close she was to you, breathing heavy and a daring look in her eyes. butterflies erupted in your stomach instantly, feeling so much anger towards the girl in front of you it felt overwhelming but this time you felt it between your legs. ellie could see your chest pounding up and down with force and in a weak moment she glanced at your lips. 

when her eyes darted back to yours she found them bouncing between her eyes and parted lips. without thinking she quickly let go of your hands and brought them up to your face, pulling you into a deep, messy kiss. 

the kiss intensified as your hands found her hair in a frenzy and you both exhaled through your noses loudly. ellies hands left your face, wrapping around your back to pull you against her. your body smashed into hers as she parted your lips with her tongue, slipping it in roughly. for a reason unbeknownst to you, you rolled your body on hers and ellie grunted into your mouth, though it sounded like she was stifling a moan. 

she pushed your back to the wall, her tongue still flicking around your mouth furiously. her hands roamed your body, slipping beneath your sweatshirt. her warm hands planted themselves firmly around your figure as your fingers still danced in her hair. ellie bit your bottom lip softly, resulting in a moan escaping from your mouth and she gripped down on your skin. 

the sound of the traditional goodbye honks from the buses separated the two of you fast. you looked to ellie with an unreadable expression who forced her eyes to be anywhere but on you. the realization slowly hit you and you jump past her. ellie turns her body, watching you run out of the bathroom and into the hallway. it only came to her then that the buses were leaving and she cursed before running after you. 

you exited the main doors, throwing them open and not bothering to hold them for ellie who smashed through them only a few seconds after you. ellie came up beside you, panting from all the exertion and watched as the buses turned onto the street, leaving the both of you alone. “all my stuff is in my seat, fuck!” ellie remarked, her voice rising ever so slightly. 

you sigh beside her, your tone filled with anger, “me fucking too.”

part two

[thepunkmuppet]

just listened to the twenty one pilots cancer cover. it’s a really good cover that does something very different with the song, i like it.

but motherfucker are you actually kidding me in NO universe is it better than the original be fucking fr right now like HELLO???? 💀

[gayautisticraccoon]

Nine people you'd like to get to know better

Thanks for tagging me @fr-wiwiw ! My first time getting tagged in something like this :3

3 Ships

1. Gahan because i haven't been able to think about anyhing else ever since i watched the show last October

2. Ineffable Husbands, they hold a special place in my heart

3. Taekook, I'm usually not one to ship real people but man, the edits I've seen are just too cute

First Ship

Probably JohnLock but not 100% sure. That's the first one that pops into my head

Last Song

Ode to Sleep - Twenty One Pilots

Currently Reading

Not really reading anything at the moment tbh, work has been keeping me busy so if i read it's usually short Gahan One Shots if at all.

Last Movie

Smile - Really decent horror movie, I enjoyed it a lot more than expected!

Currently Craving

Honestly? Aleays craving sushi and boba, those are two things i could always go for.

Tagging anyone who wants to participate honestly :3

[unknownarmageddon]

Geddon you can’t say that and not share the playlist /lh

Oh god you’ve opened the flood gates with this one /j/j

OKAY so! Before I get really into this I was stress that these are songs I image Cross LISTENS to. These aren’t supposed to be representative of his character or anything like that. I just think he’d like these songs and also some just have his vibe and that’s it. So it’s not that strict or anything. But! anyway

In no particular order whatsoever here is my Cross playlist (with links and also some commentary because I am ill)

The good ones are at the end I apologize lmao

Achilles Come Down - Gang Of Youths

Can’t explain it but it just radiates something he’d listen to. Especially if he’s having a Day

All 4 Nothing (I’m So In Love) - Lauv

After Dark - Mr. Kitty

Animals - Maroon 4 (Living in Fiction cover)

Arcade - Duncan Laurence

Mentioning this now but I definitely see him listening to slower, more heavy music most of the time. Like I feel like he’d listen to music to Feel something usually, while Killer would listen to music to forget feeling things y’know

Arms Tonite - Mother Mother

I’ve ALWAYS seen him listening to mother mother religiously and I really need to add more of their songs to this playlist

Baby Annihilation - Fall Out Boy

He’d listen to it and it’d strike something in him (he just like me fr)

Bad Liar - Imagine Dragons

Idk I feel like he’d listen to imagine dragons

bedroom community - glass beach

Before You Go - Lewis Capaldi

Beggin’ - Måneskin

Also definitely see him liking maneskin

Believer - Imagine Dragons

Bohemian Rhapsody - Queen

Bones - Imagine Dragons

Boy Bi - Mad Tsai

Do I need to explain (he’d hear it and be like omg me fr)

Call Me What You Like - Lovejoy

I’ve said this a lot about other bands but I DEFINITELY see him liking lovejoy

Carry On My Wayward Son - Kansas

Counting Stars - OneRepublic

Maybe?? Rethinking this one a bit now but I think he’d like it in some contexts

Cradles - Sub Urban

This one may be a bit more Dust than Cross BUT that could mean that Dust showed it to him and he liked it or something idk

Crawling - LINKIN PARK

Sorta the same situation as cradles actually. Also I feel like Cross would blast heavy metal through earbuds while externally maintaining and entirely straight face FJFHF /hj Also I just see him liking linkin park

Crush - Ethal Cain

Cupid’s Chokehold / Breakfast In America - Gym Class Heroes

Maybe???

Devil Town - Cavetown

Cavetown. (This one especially)

Discord - The Living Tombstone

LISTEN. Listen I know it’s a mlp song. I think??? But idk I just think he would BAHA

Everything Is Temporary (Sticks And Stones) - Cavetown

Faint - LINKIN PARK

Fake Out - Fall Out Boy

This one is extremely Cross to me like I think he’d learn to play it on his guitar or something idk LMAO

Flu Game - Fall Out Boy

Maybe it’s cause I’m unwell about fob but fall out boy seems very Cross to me

Fireflies - Owl City

I think he would go through a phase where he’s obsessed with owl city for like a month then lose most interest later (not me projecting from personal experience for no reason BAHA)

For You - Cavetown

Relistening to this for the sake of this post and yeah. Yeah he would

Friction - Imagine Dragons

Eh??

Get Used To It - Ricky Montgomery

glass beach - glass beach

golden hour - JVKE

Definitely see him really liking this one

Guilty - Cavetown

Heartbreak Feels So Good - Fall Out Boy

Heavydirtysoul - twenty one pilots

Hold Me Like A Grudge - Fall Out Boy

I like to think he and Killer would like this one together :]

I Will Wait - Mumford and Sons

Another one I’m not too sure on but I could still somewhat see him liking

Internet Ruined Me - Wilbur Soot

It’s Alright - Mother Mother

It’s Called: Freefall - Rainbow Kitten Surprised

Same situation as Achilles come down basically

The Kintsugi Kid (Ten Years) - Fall Out Boy

Level Of Concern - twenty one pilots

Love From The Other Side - Fall Out Boy

Loved - Fein

Mary On A Cross - Ghost

I feel like he’d get too caught up in appreciating it for its emotion rather than realizing the connotations fhfhfh

Meet Me At Our Spot - THE ANXIETY, WILLOW, and Tyler Cole

This is another very Kross song to me. Like he and Killer love this song in my mind forever

Moral Of The Story - Ashe

My Alcoholic Friends - The Dresden Dolls

To me I like to think Killer showed him this song and Cross was like “hell yeah this slaps” or something idk fhfhf

Not Easy - X Ambassadors, Elle King, and Wiz Khalifa

Oh Ana - Mother Mother

Oh Yeah, You Gonna Cry? - Lovejoy

Didn’t mention this earlier but I feel like Killer showed him lovejoy cause lovejoy is also very Killer to me

One Day - Lovejoy

Most Cross lovejoy one on here imo I think

Parents - Yungblood

Thinking about it now this one is DEFINITELY more Killer than Cross but. In some contexts I can see Killer either showing it to Cross or Cross just listening to it y’know

Papercut - LINKIN PARK

Perfume - Lovejoy

Pork Soda - Glass Animals

Renegades - X Ambassadors

Riptide - Vance Joy

Not sure what it is about this one but to me Cross would definitely listen to this one like

Rocket Man (I Think It’s Going To Be A Long Long Time) - Elton John

Rockstar - BoyWithUke

Runaway - AURORA

Save Tonight - Eagle-Eye Cherry

Sex Sells - Lovejoy

Shadow of the Day - LINKIN PARK

Should I Stay Or Should I Go - The Clash

So Much (For) Stardust - Fall Out Boy

Space Ghost Coast To Coast - Glass Animals

Still Into You - Paramore

Sunroof - Nicky Youre and Dazy

Can see this one in the context of like. More upbeat aus or situations or whatever y’know

SUPERMODEL - Måneskin

Sweater Weather - The Neighborhood

Another VERY cross song to me

Tangerine - Glass Animals

Taunt - Lovejoy

Tear In My Heart - Twenty One Pilots

The lyrics for this one are a bit more Killer but. Like I said this is a song I think he’d listen to so. I’d say they both would

Teeth - 5 Seconds Of Summer

Toes - Glass Animals

West Coast Tragedy - Mitch Jones, Ouse, Kala, and Judge & Jury

West Coast - Imagine Dragons

Unrelated to the song but I did NOT put those two next to each other on purpose lmao

Wolf In Sheep’s Clothing - NateWantsToBattle (I think this one’s a cover?)

Not too sure about this one but I can see it so it’s here

yoshi’s island - glass beach

You’ll Understand When You’re Older - Lovejoy

Alien Blues - Vundabar

Idk there’s something about this one that gives me Cross but like. In a high school AU??? Idk there’s just some indescribable vibe here I correlate with Cross

Fall In Love With A Girl - Cavetown

Maggot Belly - awfultune

Someone suggested this one to me for Cross once and they were so right he would

The Weeping Song (2010 remastered version) - Nick Cave and The Bad Seeds

The Joker - Steve Miller Band

This one reminds me of Killer and I’m just gonna say Cross listens to it for that reason. Also cause I just think he’d like it and would

Smells Like Teen Spirit - Nirvana

THIS ONE. This one man this one I can so see Cross liking

No Children - The Mountain Goats

Weeping

Good Grief - Bastille

In Bloom - Nirvana

Cross would like Nirvana no discussion

I Love Rock N’ Roll - Joan Jett & The Blackhearts

I can see him liking older rock (if that wasn’t obvious by the songs up until now LMAO /lh)

Verbatim - Mother Mother

Hayloft II - Mother Mother

Hayloft 1 too. Most stereotypical song for a character playlist I know but I just think he would

Body - Mother Mother

Forgotten Souls - Mother Mother

Sick Of The Silence - Mother Mother

Stay Behind - Mother Mother

The Knack - Mother Mother

Life - Mother Mother

Infinitesimal - Mother Mother

Bit by Bit - Mother Mother

Psycho Killer - The Talking Heads

Crazy - Gnarls Barkley

Francis Forever - Mitski

THIS ONE okay this is another that screams Cross to me

You Give Love A Bad Name - Bon Jovi

Daylight - David Kushner

Portrait of a Blank Slate - Lovejoy

Consequences - Lovejoy

Their whole new album is very Cross actually

Scum - Lovejoy

It’s Golden Hour Somewhere - Lovejoy

Humans - KLOUD

Rolling in the Deep - Adele

The only adele song he likes /hj (I hardly know any other adele songs)

Grrrls - AViVA

Stressed Out - Twenty One Pilots

Eat Your Young - Hozier

Wish I Knew You - The Revivalists

Creep - Radiohead

Something In The Way - Nirvana

Starman (2012 Remaster) - David Bowie

Okay that’s it!! The links should be to the songs, and there aren’t links for every song cause there was no way in hell I was doing that. Also the links they are there are very sparse cause good lord I was getting tired BAHA

But yeah!! here’s my silly little skeleton playlist cackles

[murdrdocs]

hey pookie any song/show recs 4 me perchance?? am trying to broaden my music taste and also have nothing to watch currently (its semester break for me and ur girl is bored af 😞)

oooo lately i have been broadening my music taste and listening to deftones and the garden albums in full. i listened to diamond eyes (deftones) in full the other night and found a new favorite song. anyway here's a long list.

from the garden i like their popular songs a lot, my favorites (in no particular order) are:

california here we go

thy mission (obsessed w this one)

clay

this could build us a home

:)

call this # now

from deftones i really like:

you've seen the butcher

risk

976-evil

beauty school

(the popular songs ik)

i also really like djos music. his first album is a staple for a hot summer night when you're in your bedroom. my favorites from twenty twenty are:

bnbg

just along for the ride

mortal projections

the guitar riffs in twenty twenty are actually orgasmic they rlly made me appreciate joe as an artist when i first heard them.

twenty one pilots just came out with a new song that i loveeee. it's called overcompensate.

im a big the 1975 fan. their first album (the 1975) is one of my all time favorite albums. i really like the deluxe songs on there. my favorites from that album are:

the 1975

settle down

talk!

undo

haunt//bed

fallingforyou

me

that album is kinda ... melancholy but perfecttt for late nights.

also from the 1975 i would recommend somebody else. one of their more popular songs for a reason.

im a big wallows fan too. my favorite work of theirs is spring EP. from there it's only right is my absolute favorite song. wish me luck is also one of my favorite wallows songs.

songs in general that i really like are:

southern nights by glenn miller [country vibes]

resonance by home [chill, instrumental vibes]

how cold love is by fonataines d.c (also that entire album is so fucking good i love the irish) [70s punk feel]

us by movement (inspired many of my fics) [chill vibes as well]

in ár gCroíthe go deo by fontaines d.c [same band so also punk]

stevie doesn't wonder by hotel ugly [very chill vibes]

reasons by earth, wind, and fire [a peter quill special]

venus fly by grimes [hyperpop is the genre i think? idk i cant describe it its just so well done]

closer by nine inch nails [freaky goth sex in a song]

okay thats all for songs i think thats a lot my b.

shows i would recommend are:

community (comedy sitcom w 20 min episodes)

peacemaker (dc superhero show but soooo good omg)

ted lasso (my absolute favorite show the character development and the relationships actually makes me want to live and create shows)

the bear (i've only seen s1 but s1 ep 7 actually hooked me sb)

teen wolf (its a classic for a reason. you should watch it only for season 3b fr. but u have to watch in order)

daredevil (season 3 ... SEASON 3 !!! so so so good matt i love you the writing is so good the fight choreo is so good the color grading is extraordinary the themes in it are insane i love this show sm)

okay this is a long list hopefully it helps!

[just-lndifference]

I'm convinced this year is just a dream or simulation or something because generally what the fuck is happening.

someone I looked up to for 5 years that I originally named myself after turned out to be an abuser and wrote the most chat gbt ass ""apology"" and only cares that shubble was brave enough to speak out. (SUPPORT VICTIMS)

taylor swift announced her 5th album in 5 years (not including re records) WHILE WINNING A GRAMMY. and then being the amazing woman she is became the first person in history to win aoty 4 times.

twenty one pilots not only announced a new album, but is open with the lore and released a single that is one of the best songs they've ever made. when clancy drops this whole fandom is cooked.

this is the first time I've genuinely been terrified because of an election. if trump wins I genuinely don't think I'll be safe in this country because of project 2025. I'm a bisexual nonbinary person, I will never have a chance to get gender affirming health care and will lose the right to get married. and that's just the stuff that will happen to me! I can't imagine how scared people that are in more affected groups then me feel if I'm this scared. I know he's a horrible option but if your seeing this and old enough to vote in america PLEASE vote for biden. independents just don't have a chance, yes he funds a genocide but trump will too, and hell do much worse things. as a minor I'm literally begging y'all to think of everyone who isn't old enough to vote yet.

erm this is very unserious compared to the last part of my rant but I like lana del rey now!! 😭 obviously not her as a person (free palestine) but her music. and this is a major unseen development I've aggressively trashed lana and her fans since midnights came out bc of snow on the beach (turns out that it's just a really shit song 🙏). idk shout out to the person who made me feel obligated to listen to born to die (album)

also my henry danger hyperfixation from when I was 10 just decided to resurface?? like yes I had it for like 4 years BUT WHY IS IT BACK HELLO??? idk but ray is like super hot now that I'm older and I really want to date his goofy ass 😭😭 I remember not liking him much for some reason but like.. he's just a silly little guy.. babygirl if you will.. just a little rat boy..

I accidentally convinced 2 people to read the forest fic (neither were clikkies and I just met one of them). I don't think anything more needs to be said I made 2 full grown adults cry over a band they've never listened too 😭🙏

on that note joshler is big on twitter again but it's widely accepted?? idk what happened there but a good chunk of the art on my tl is clancy x torchbearer and I honestly don't mind.

jason kelce retired. in my family it's a thing to hate the eagles but holy shit I cried so much. the edits literally fucking destroyed me. I had no idea how much of an amazing person he was until taylor started dating travis and I wish I had more time to be a fan of this wonderful man while he was still on the field. he's so goofy and always made me laugh, I genuinely love the guy now.

the chiefs once again won the superbowl, I was honestly terrified the whole time and cried a few times that was the most stressful game of my life. I'm so fr I tried to get a rep tv announcement date from the disney plus commercial, taylor immediately being shown when the game came back on with a chiefs jacket that magically appeared out of nowhere that had a number that wasn't a player I lost my shit 💀

I could go on for hours, and it's only March. genuinely so much shit has happened and I'm not ready for more.

[prince-steele]

💿 and 👽 for the ask game!

💿 Which non main album song (including covers, demos and unreleased songs) do you think is most underrated?

I absolutely LOVE the cover of Jar of Hearts they did wbw, as I feel like Tyler absolutely kills it with the vocals!!!!! twenty one pilots did so much for synth emos and no one knows it........ I love the new arrangement they chose for it, the way he adds this level of frantic desperation and sadness to it, where the original is much more of a slow, building agony. tøp's synth-y sound hits that specific niche of both being extremely upbeat and fun but betraying a perceivable sorrow in the homies eyes..... they're just like me fr.

ALSO (controversial opinion) I love when Tyler uses autotune/vocoders as a stylistic choice, because not only does tht reflect it's original intent as a tool, but his voice has a really unique quality to it that sounds absolutely ethereal when run through a vocoder!!! like I know he can hit those notes without one, which is why the tone sounds SO pure and good and it makes me nuts!!! GO LISTEN TO IT OK!!! I also think that Going Down is a masterpiece and highly slept on, and I think that Tyler's story about being inspired by pachibel's canon is extremely sweet bc I ALSO started my music journey by hearing canon on an old shitty yamaha piano and thinking it was the most beautiful song I ever heard and NEEDING to play it. (See also, Por ti Volaré/Time to Say Goodbye - another song that inspired me highly as a musician and it kinda breaks my brain that Tyler made a song inspired by it AND it was the first one Josh heard tht he made tht lead them to becoming a band together.... oughh...) 👽 Favourite Josh moment? I like when he sets Tyler up for a joke and just commits to the bit forever and ever (many examples of this)...... But I also really like when he accidentally ordered the biggest, weirdest pizza in existence and paid like $100 for it.

[Ask Game]

[squishlamb]

hi i made a huntlow playlist!! 💚💛 i might be updating this from time to time

genres: pop, indie pop, kpop

i am very insane about them & spent SO LONG curating this playlist. so here's my long ass breakdown of the songs cuz huge brainrot:

PART 1: the lone wolf (oh wait, feelings?)

MARINA – Oh No!

"Don't do love, don't do friends; I'm only after success. Don't need a relationship; I'll never soften my grip."

Hunter at the start of it all, the Golden Guard™️ who's knows what he wants: making a change for the better aka recruiting kids for the emperor's coven!

but ACTUALLY, he's slipping. sorta losing it and he kinda knows it: "If I fail, I'll fall apart... cause I feel like I'm the worst so I always act like I'm the best."

flor – heart

any sport in a storm!!!!

our boy makes friends! he learns teamwork and sportsmanship! he really does have heart and is letting his heart hold true <3 such a feel good song

"Don't wanna waste love, don't wanna hurt you" yeah that's about captain willow

ALSO the mention of wolves, OF COURSE: "And for so long, I've lived my life listening to the wolves looking for scraps to tear from me 'til I lose control. Can't take my heart no matter how your teeth sink and pull. Won't lose my heart"

Wallows – Scrawny

"Hate feeling like I'm not in control... I've been sleeping with the light on. I tend to freak myself out."

here we have the skrunkly going THROUGH it. like, about everything in life. he is so conflicted

"Will you come a little closer now and see that I'm a scrawny motherfucker with a cool hairstyle?" yea he had a cool hairstyle fr

i also take this as he wanted to be closer w/ Willow + the other kids but he had to keep up that confident/independent golden guard front as a defense mechanism yk? And he rly believed he was nothing more than a Scrawny Mf With A Cool Hairstyle

twenty one pilots – Tear in My Heart

the 안녕하세요 (hello) at the beginning aww lol

"Sometimes you gotta bleed to know that you're alive and have a soul."

hunter questioning his grimwalker origins but at the same time his new hexside friends ARE his real living friends. his feelings and new friendships are proof that he's alive, and it's all thanks to Willow so he is especially drawn to her

leo. – despair

my guy realizing he feels Particularly different w/ Willow lmao. REAL different. confusing feelings. what's a hug??? affection???? wh??A???

"It's not romantic, I swear. It might be closer to despair." real

joan – nervous

really just another cute pining song i wanted to add in lol. but also it's Hunter becoming more aware of his feelings. not really denying it anymore; he KNOWS he gets nervous around Willow

“It’s not like me to bite my tongue and hold back” Hunter is well-spoken af BUT NOT ANYMORE LOL

The Happy Fits – So Alright, Cool, Whatever

"After you leave, I'll be so alright, it's true. It's not like I've got something grand to say to you."

Hunter's sloww acceptance of his feelings. he WANTS TO BE W WILLOW! YASSS

But also "I've got an effervescent glow if you'd show me all the dark parts of your mind." foreshadowing to FTF of course >:3

Will Joseph Cook ft. chloe moriondo – Be Around Me

ok finally we have some Hunter AND Willow POV. this song's like after they've been texting A LOT and they're so used to regularly talking with each other <3

also the iconic "OMG did you call me baby?" part is so huntlow, especially the "Cool" followed by the nervous chuckle omg. That’s what I call loser boy pining and girlboss flirting. But it's nothing too serious... YET.

The Cars – Just What I Needed

gotta put some 80s in here. I'm thinking this is them spending more casual time together in the human realm!

"I don't mind you hangin' out and talkin' in your sleep." After seeing Willow sleep in TTH, I hc that she sleeptalks lol

Blossoms – Oh No (I Think I'm In Love)

Wrapping up this first part of the playlist aka Hunter’s (generally) one-sided crush. Started with an Oh No and ending with another kind of Oh No.

"You and me, we're different as people... You've got blue skies in your head." Hunter def put Willow on a pedestal and saw her as this huge inspirational sunshine

"Home is where I'll be when you're standing beside me." Hunter finally feels at home with someone else--Willow!! (+ living with the rest of the hexsquad ofc)

PART 2: smitten

Troye Sivan, Jay Som – Trouble

it's giving a simultaneous hunter and willow POV. though i also take it as willow slowly falling for him :3

"Accidental lover, what'd you do with all my common sense? You came in undercover..." (any sport in a storm moment!!!!)

"I'm tired of livin' like I'm dyin' but now I can't find the silver linin' like before" Hunter fr

"I'm not one to need saving, but I guess I'll give it a try" Both of them fr

Jayme Dee – Tip Toes

Oh my god this song was in all the edits in 2014 or whatever lol

WILLOW POV! WILLOW POV!

“Boy, you came like a hurricane, knocked me down like a tidal wave. Didn’t see you comin’ so quick; look at you boy movin’ so slick” Literally Willow’s first impression of Hunter was this kid ZOOOOOMING

Mentions flying a lot = flyer derby duhhhh

Also tip toes cuz yeah HEIGHT DIFFERENCE slay

Carly Rae Jepsen – Sweetie

"I ran into you like a crash of thunder." Willow POV. anything thunder/lightning/electricity means Hunter and this is true

"You're not as lonely as you think you are... Anything you want boy, I can make it happen. We could fall in love and I could be your sweetie." Willow being the absolute girlboss she is while also reassuring Hunter

SEVENTEEN – Adore U (Eng trans)

First kpop song let’s go. One of the cutest songs to ever exist LIKE??? "So what I mean is, I want to know all of you" / "I adore you, enough to get dizzy, adore you!"

“You’re so pretty it’s selfish but your personality is so humble” Hunter @ Willow

“You can lean right here. You can cover your pain with me. Tell me your feelings.” BOTH

“Baby, you are my angel” First song that mentions angels, which is a big theme moving forward in the playlist! since they helped each other with their respective near-death experiences jgkldfjsg (ACTUAL DEATH for hunter)

BTS ft. Halsey – Boy With Luv (Eng trans)

So much fluff. 100% Hunter in the human realm, totally smitten and totally in love and he LOVES the feeling!!!!!

"Your every picture I wanna have under my pillow." Yesss all the polaroids hello!!!!

"...now I became a hero" Hunter's so mf giddy from Willow he's growing from his traumatic golden guard days and he really does love who he's becoming!!!

Ariana Grande, Mac Miller – The Way

Really sweet song I’m dying from the sugar at this point

FLOWERS. “I’m thinking ‘bout her every second, every hour. Do my singing in the shower like do she love me, do she love me not?”

“Be your lover, your friend, you’ll find it all in me. Stay by your side, I’ll never leave you … I got a bad boy, I must admit it.” yaaaassss hunter the "bad" boy lmaoooo

The Cab – Her Love Is My Religion

Ok HEAR ME OUT we all know Belos is some crazy puritan whom Hunter grew up to value. but now that he knows Belos is fucking insane, Hunter is finding faith in his loved ones instead which INCLUDES WILLOW BROOOOO

Sorta angel references!

Leanna Firestone - Smitten

“You snored and it was the most beautiful sound that I’d ever heard” Hunter @ Willow lmao

“You’re insecure about your crooked teeth but can I just say this, I’m kinda glad that you never got braces cuz I like your smile just the way it is” Willow @ Hunter HHHNNNNNGGGG

“I don’t know what I did or how I did it, but I did something right” Hunter fr

beabadoobee – Dance with Me

Everything so far has been high energy crushing but I imagine they had very chill cozy reflective moments too

IMAGINE WILLOW ASKING HUNTER TO DANCE AAAAWWWWWWWWWW THE CUTES

They’re just happy and forgetting about their troubles

Also a transition to slowwww it down into the next part

Part 3: losing and trusting

Ariana Grande – raindrops (an angel cried)

THE ANGST BEGINS…

"The day you left me, an angel cried." yeah remember how Hunter DIED in Willow's arms? yeah,

WILLOW IS THE ANGEL HERE OK

Melanie Martinez – Cry Baby

"Your heart's too big for your body, it's why it won't fit inside."

Willow ANGST time. Imagine seeing your close friend die in your arms and feeling like you're not allowed to cry cuz you're the strong one??

This opens up all the wounds of being bullied and she’s reminded of being a crybaby, losing her friends (esp Amity), and just feeling SO much. But she’s not ACTUALLY letting herself cry now. Especially after this bitch ass BOSCHA taunts Willow; Willow doesn’t want Boscha to have that power of truly hurting her

“You’ll just let them drown” Willow @ her past, bullies

“I just let them drown” Willow @ her own feelings and ultimately herself in her vines

Carly Rae Jepsen – Making the Most Of The Night

"Baby, I'm speeding and red lights, I'll run. What I got, you need it and I'll run to your side when your heart is bleeding... I know you've had a rough time but here I come to hijack you; I'll love you while making the most of the night"

Ok wtf this is literally Hunter when Willow was in her vines. Speedy boy

The only thing that doesn’t match is when Carly sings about “no more tears” but other than that this song is so huntlow

MUNA – I Know A Place

“I know a place we can go where everyone gonna lay down their weapon… Just give me trust and watch what’ll happen / Don’t you be afraid of love and affection”

In the playlist timeline, this would be Hunter reassuring Willow to trust him (and Gus) but it also works the other way around in general!!

Like this is so Willow @ Hunter: “It’s like you’re carrying all the weight of your past. I can feel the bruises, yellow, dark blue, and black. But baby, they’re bruises, only your body trying to keep you intact”

Vacation Manor – Thoughts in Progress

"Well, you can hold back the truth while never tellin' a lie. And I won't ever know the person that you're keepin' inside 'til you trust me with your thoughts in progress."

Hunter @ Willow !!! SOBBING

The “wasting our time” has a lil negative mood to it but honestly it DOES make sense considering Gus was suffocating in Willow’s vines LMAO

Maisie Peters – Take Care Of Yourself

THIS is the song that started this whole playlist

"The world won't fall if you're not holding it up... And you try, and you try, and you're trying but the burden is heavy and overgrown." WILLOW !!!????

"I hate how you talk to yourself. It's not weak if you need to be held. So cut off a little slack and roll all your cavalry back; my love, take care of yourself." 100% HUNTER @ WILLOW DURING FTF. am sobbing

Then the second verse is totally willow @ hunter: "You don't get a medal for the last one awake so rest your eyes and give your baggage to me." bro these two im gonna die

flor – restless soul

another sweet song of reassurance and self-care that totally works both ways within huntlow ;-; I take it as more Hunter POV just cuz of FTF.

"Come and lay down your restless soul. ...you're wearing out."

It also sounds uplifting and happy, so we're shifting from the heavier tunes!

Part 4: falling

Harry Styles – Golden

did i put this in because it's "golden"? yeah,

Willow POV, actually allowing herself to fall in love in a scary, vulnerable way. love is not just a lighthearted cute flirting, this shit is pretty serious!!

BUT Y’KNOW IT ALSO works the other way around. I'm so stuck on Willow POV just cuz the lyrics are "You're so golden" hahah

BTS Jimin – Serendipity (Eng trans)

one of my fav songs ever; so beautiful

continues on the theme of vulnerability in love, but also revolves around destiny. considering caleb x evelyn, huntlow is definitely references that fated universe stuff.

This song also has a theme of flowers and duh WILLOW

“Let me love you” Hunter really reaching out to Willow here this is WHAT HE WAS COMMUNICATING TO HER *muffled screaming*

Ariana Grande – pov

A continuation of that dreamy, romantic, vulnerable love vibe.

Huntlow both gotta work on their respective self-perceptions. but they totally love each other. their relationship emphasizes learning to trust and love YOURSELF outside of your strong persona and THAT…! YES!!!

"How you touch my soul from the outside? Permeate my ego and my pride" Willow @ Hunter

"I wanna love me the way that you love me, for all of my pretty and all of my ugly too. I’d love to see me from your point of view.”

Troye Sivan – Angel Baby

another romantic BANGER while also continuing the dreamy mood. Specifically emphasizes angels and living.

“I’ll tell you how I almost died while you’re bringing me back to life.” works both ways.

“I just wanna live in this moment forever cuz I’m afraid that living couldn’t get any better.” ok Hunter WANTING TO LIVE.!! I’M SO NORMAL

Ariana Grande – Intro

“I’ll give you all I have and nothing less, I promise.”

THE ULTIMATE DREAMY song. From Angel Baby to this, they’re talking about the heavens or ascending or some shit and THIS IS WHERE I think of Huntlow holding pinkies (PROMISING THEY MEAN A LOT TO EACH OTHER!!) at the end of FTF & ready to keep moving forward

“I want you with me on this road to the sky, we’ll be shining every night. I promise you, just me and you. Oh, I promise you.”

Part 5: fight for love

The Cab – Angel With A Shotgun

HUNTER IS THE ANGEL HERE

“Fighting ‘til the war’s won, I don’t care if heaven won’t take me back. I’ll throw away my faith babe, just to keep you safe.”

Hunter again throwing out Belos' puritan bs and fighting for his loved ones

If Belos does some shit to Willow I think Hunter will go into Avatar state lol. Either way Belos is gonna get his ASS BEATEN

The Script – Superheroes

“She’s got lions in her heart, a fire in her soul. He’s got a beast in his belly that’s so hard to control. Cuz they’ve taken too much hits, taking blow by blow. Now light a match, stand back, watch them explode.”

NO CUZ THESE TWO IN FULL COMBO COMBAT

Willow has already proven to the ones who hurt her that she is more than her weaknesses PLUS now embraces her emotions, but Hunter hasn’t totallyyy confronted Belos so when he WHOOPS BELOS’ ASS IT’S GONNA BE SO GOOD AND HEARTFUL—(I’m really on about this aren’t I)

Linking back to Song #2 (flor – heart)! Embracing your emotions rather than hating them!

A nice, feel-good, inspirational song to wrap up the war stuff. Also, they are still learning and will always be, they’re not suddenly emotional gurus saved by romantic love

This song was my shit in 2016 omg

Part 6: ease

NIKI – Plot Twist

Cute song, transitioning to the happy ending (I fucking hope so).

This section is them having the time to relax and pause and reflect on their relationship! Hunter was a plot twist in Willow’s life alright. But also the other way around ajkflsjgkla ilove them

“Who could’ve imagined… you?”

JVKE – this is what falling in love feels like

I think about Hunter ABSO FUCKIN LUTELY JOVIAL after everything is ok and he’s just!!! Wow! The sun! I love my gf!!! I’m happy!! eee!!!!!!!!!!

push baby – Wishing We Were More Than Friends

hunter again :3 more reflecting back

“I even told your friends the perfect phrase but they just laughed in my face” imagine hunter talking to like. Luz or gus about how to tell Willow he likes her but he’s just so CRINGE and they’re dying

“I’d sit and wait ‘til you came online, wasting hours of time, it’s fine.” Totally bro

NCT DREAM – Walk With You (Eng translation)

They’re talking about the snow crunch and it’s winter THEREFORE HUNTLOW

Everything’s settled on the Boiling Isles and the two are meeting up for a date!! Dawwww

Lostboycrow, AVIV – Strawberry Sunscreen

Happyyyyy ass song. Huntlow being happy together UGH!

“She’ll paint a cabinet from the 60s and find diamonds when she’s thrifting” Idk this gives me Willow vibes :)

Deniece Williams – Let’s Hear It For The Boy

Basically Hunter’s a loser but Willow loves him soso much LOL

Rex Orange County ft. Benny Sings – Loving Is Easy

Dreamy ass romantic song

“I was all on my own, almost glad to be alone until love came in on time” Hunter fr

Taylor Swift – Daylight

Oh my god y’all this is Hunter wanting to live part 4893248

“There are so many lines that I’ve crossed unforgiven” / “I wounded the good and I trusted the wicked” Golden Guard days??

“Threw out our cloaks and our daggers because it’s morning now, it’s brighter now” Golden Guard days OVER!!

“I once believed love would be black and white but it’s golden” YALL.???!!!

OK AND. THE OUTRO… “I wanna be defined by the things that I love. Not the things I hate. Not the things that I’m afraid of, I’m afraid of… Not the things that haunt me in the middle of the night. I, I just think that you are what you love.”

MY BOY IS HEALING!!!! AHHHHH AND WHO DOES HUNTER LOVE???? ..........

The 1975 – I’m In Love With You

"It's simple and it goes like this," HE LOVES WILLOW GOD DAMN ITTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT

AND SHE'S IN LOVE WITH HIM TOO BYE

THAT’S ALL OK TIME TO CRY!!

I also have a raeda playlist and a lumity playlist!!! Idk if I'll do writeups for them cuz this one took SO long but we'll see ;)

[stfulia]

It's time to let it go.

But do you remember when we first met? It was our friend's Christmas house party. You heard about me already because some of my friends have talked to you about me since we're both fans of a music band. Our first words were a fight about which was the best album of Twenty One Pilots. We got along really really well from the start and soon we started talking a lot and flirting. I was a bit drunk and because of it I was more extroverted than usual. I remember shouting "STOP FLIRTING WITH MEEEEE" to you because I thought it was funny. Now I think about it and I get too embarrassed. In that party we were discussing about music we liked and you judged the songs I liked, to which I replied "ok then, what are your "superior" and "better" songs you listen to?" You replied "I listen to music from the 60s" as if you were kind of special or something. So when the party was over and I was at home, I texted you, asking you to send me your playlist with those "better songs" than the ones I listened to. You sent me a playlist full of love songs called "I like someone". At first I laughed because How can a guy listen to those kind of stuff? I was, honestly, absolutely amazed and surprised. I was the kind of girl who didn't understand boys and highly believed they didn't have feelings (Now I know they're not like that). I added some more love songs to that playlist because I'm a huge fan of romantic stuff, from songs to stories.

We started talking a lot, all the time, we had very flirty conversations, where you flirted with me saying that we should kiss and that you wanted me. As a girl with huge trust issues, I didn't like the way you flirted with me and not being able myself to know if it's a joke, it's genuine, it's just the way you talk with people or what the hell. So what i did, was to tell a friend of mine "A" to talk to you and see if you talked like that to everyone or you actually liked me because I wanted to know and also I kinda liked you a bit... Well, "A" talked to you and you were exactly the same as with me. I was a bit disappointed, but okay, I wanted to be friends with you anyway so I continued talking to you. When you asked me my phone number with the excuse that "you didn't like talking with people by Instagram", to later find out that was a lie and you just wanted my phone number. You added me to contacts as "Girlfriend Basically" and I knew that. I was really confused because I didn't know for sure if you liked me or not. (I don't get anything fr). You asked me to hangout with my friend "A" and our friend "N", the one who made the house party that one day.

We met and we went to the centre of the city to eat lunch and chill out all together. "N" and "A" were all the time shipping us and leaving us alone, and you even flirted with me too. I was confused as fuck, everyone and everything was telling me "HE LIKES YOOUU" but I'm either too dumb or too insecure to believe it. We also were going to have dinner together. While we were waiting for the bus, I went to a place to sit and you came with me. "A" and "N" were whispering secretly something. You and I were there, sitting together watching cat memes. we even took a picture together. When we arrived to our town where we were going to have dinner, "A" and I had a conversation alone. "A" told me "he likes you dumb mf" and I was like "that's literally not possibly true". After some more friendly insults, he told me "when I talked with him, I asked if he was interested in you and told me that he was indeed. Also when you were seeing meme cats, I were talking with "N" and he told me he likes you". I was absolutely astonished. How on Earth a guy gets to like ME? ME? I was the first to think men are stupid, they wouldn't like me and that my biggest flex was that I was very powerful knowing how to be, AND liking to be all by my own. I didn't want or need a relationship, I didn't want to fall, I didn't search for anything, but that day, my world went down. I was so surprised that I still remember how I didn't talk to you until I assumed what "A" told me.

We started hanging out a lot "N", "A", you and I because of Christmas holidays. We saw each other practically every day. even on New Year's Eve. The first of January, just after the bell rings (I live in Spain), we went to a party of some other friend of ours. Remember how we were looking at each other all the time? or when a girl who's a bit flirty with everyone started talking to you and you were looking at me and trying to avoid her? When we sang shouting some songs we both liked? We even sang love songs, looking at each other and dancing. When it was time to return home very very early am, we first went to your house. You invited us inside and invited me to your room, since we had a inside joke about your room because HOW CAN YOU HAVE A SOFA IN YOUR ROOM?. (I was a surprised okay? let me be). I was wandering around your room and you sat me down in your sofa with your arm around my shoulder to try to kiss me. It was SO sudden that I didn't know what to do. When you noticed that, you stopped and said sorry. I'm so sorry about that tho, it was very awkward buy at least we laughed about it as if nothing happened. When I arrived home, once more, I texted you saying sorry. I told you about my problems with intimacy, my trust issues and that I was a bit afraid of everything and specifically THIS. I've never been in a relationship and I have never expected that to happen. You told me it was okay and that you would let me have my space and asked me how you could help me. I really wanted to get over my intimacy issues and truly try to have a healthy and nice relationship. Everything and everyone was in favour of me opening to you and try something with you.

Something I still don't understand is when it was "N"s birthday and all our and your friends were there. You barely spoke to me, you barely made me notice your existence. You didn't talk to me, and when I tried (because I'm shy and I'm not the best starting conversions) you kinda avoided me. Which made me believe you didn't like people knowing you and I were in a situationship...

ANYWAY, "A" told me to hangout us alone because with them around it was much more difficult for me to open up, so we did. You arrived late because you were in another place before, so I scolded you. We went to buy some DELICIOUS boba tea and then you showed me cinnamon rolls which were DELICIOUS. They were so warm, it was SOOOO sweet, I loved it. Also, when we were eating together the cinnamon roll, we crossed paths with some friends of mine, to which I haven't told anything about you and I. We went to walk but we were stopped by some religious and Christian people who gave us a long story about how we should believe on God and everything. Remember how after that you tried to make us he alone again? You made me look at something in a shop and then my friends disappeared. But well, what can we do?. I needed to go back home so you went back with me. During the walk, it was a rainy day so you went to buy some chewy gums. You were tired since you had gone to somewhere else before and you wanted to sit. I told you to sit in a covered place, so we found a bus stop. We had a very interesting conversation and then we finally kissed. You joked me around about how I'm so embarrassed to kiss somebody. Because I DO get embarrassed. When I went home I was all happy. I remembered how you told me you "flirted with everyone" but, in case we dated, you would stop and only flirt with your homies in a "non homo way" (lmfao, u gay af).

We hang out a few times more alone after that. You told me that when you do want a person, you chase them. It's true, you were chasing me a lot. We went to a bridge near my house where, usually, there's no people. You didn't know that place and made me know you loved it. Maybe it was because you were being too fast in the kissing way, that I felt a bit uncomfortable, but we had a lot of fun and I was very happy. One day, you invited me over to your place and we watched some movies. We kissed, we cooked a brownie and that day, we started dating. I was the one to ask for it because you didn't want to do it and I was going crazy, I just wanted you to "be mine" and not flirt with others (except your homies, I don't mind that).

While dating, we saw each other every weekend. I started to relax myself and enjoy and be chill with you, I mean, I started to get more comfortable to give you my love and try to give some kind of affection. I really did. We were comfortable and chill. The only thing is that between weekends we didn't talk that much and you started to not ask me to hangout, which I really don't mind because I can be the one to ask for it, buy progressively, it started to feel like I was the one putting all the effort in this. I felt sick with flu one weekend, so we couldn't meet. You felt sick the next weekend so we couldn't meet again. I asked him how you were because I worried, of course, but it just seemed as if you didn't want to talk, and okay, I understand, I give you space. Also, "N", who knows you more than me told me that sometimes you do stuff who nobody knows what you're doing and that you were busy with studies. And man, okay, I get it, I understand it and I respect your space, eventhough I would have liked you to tell me about it from the start, but okay okay. It's okay...

One day we got to see each other, but with some more other friends. We were dating right? You acted like we didn't. You made me think you were embarrassed of me or something. I wanted to discuss that in person but then a whole week passed and we haven't spoke a word. I was worried about you. "What if you just stopped liking me?" "if he stopped liking you he would have told you" repeatedly sounded in my mind, so I did what I had to: ask you directly.

"Hey, we haven't spoken lately. You stopped asking me to hangout and I get that you're busy but you could at least texted me one single message just for me to know you still Alive. Also, if you stopped liking me, tell me, it's okay"

Remember that you replied "I'm so sorry for disappearing. I'm too busy with studies and so. We could stay as friends because "I can't hangout with you" and "you deserve someone who really can hangout with you". Also, we can date after all my exams because meanwhile I'll be too stressed out for it. I swear I won't be seeing anyone else"?

You broke me. Well, not exactly, you made me want to hit you with the most rigid rock ever existed on Earth. I was mad. I wasn't mad, but I was mad. "N" insisted that you weren't a bad person and that you just needed your time. "N" told me it was highly possible that you just were wondering if you liked me as a girlfriend or as friends. That made me wonder "why wouldn't you tell me from the start?" "you had to ghost me and just when I texted you, tell me something that was a lie?"

Time passed, I was confused, I was very very confused. You talked with "N" and told him you were sorry and that you'd talk with me about everything that happened and made things clear. You haven't done it yet, actually, you weren't sorry.

I heard from others that you're currently hanging out with your school friends, mostly everyday. Wasn't that you didn't have time for me to hangout with me? I heard from others that you're currently seeing someone other girl. Wasn't that you PROMISED you wouldn't do that?

I know the whole truth, and I know you don't know that I know. I know you just stopped liking me because you compared our relationship with one of your friends, which I absolutely disagree. Why would you compare relationships? they're all unique and special in their way, but it's okay.

The only thing I need to ask is "Why didn't you tell me de truth? Why did you have me waiting like a stupid? why did you promise things you won't do? Why did you say you're sorry if you haven't apologized yet? Why do you SAY some things and then DO others things?"

Maybe they're a lot of questions, but I don't understand anything.

...

Remember when you told me you won't hurt me emotionally when I told you I had emotional issues?

Because it seems like you don't

But I do, I remember everything.

I lost hope that you'll ever apologize to me or take responsibility for everything you did to me.

...

At least I hope I meant something to you,

I hope I was not just a silly little girl to who you made her think he was not going to hurt her

I hope someday you'll realise what you've done

I hope someday you'll understand that what you did was not really okay

I hope at least that you cared and loved me at some point

Just like I did to you...

...

...

Now I know that I deserve better, I really know I don't need you and that I'm better off all alone than needing someone like you, who promises things that won't do. Now I know that actions speak louder than words. Now I know it's not my fault, and maybe it's not even your fault, but the way you dealt with things shattered my soul.

But I wonder if you remember everything happened like I do...

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Sorry if this was too emotional, I just needed to tell everything I felt. English is not my first language so there may be grammatical mistakes D:, but I hope it's understandable.

Plus, dw guys. I got over him :P

love and take care of yourselves<3

[pilotstreets]

anthony padilla singing a line from stressed out in the new smoshcast ep.... he's just like me fr. we both love smosh and he mentioned a twenty one pilots song, and i have mentioned a million twenty one pilots song once as well

[theragingthespian]

arcane [spotify]

live like legends - ruelle

where do you run - the score

runaway kids - harbour

good to be alive - pvris

what’s wrong - half alive

it’ll all work out - phoebe bridgers

die for you - valorant, grabbitz

first thing to go - hayley williams

chlorine - twenty one pilots

i see you - missio

arsonist's lullabye- hozier

bad guy - billie eilish

july - sir chloe

lost my mind - finneas

jekyll & hide - bishop briggs

monsters - seafret

life goes on - oliver tree

darling - halsey

halley’s comet - billie eilish

love and truth - mother mother

death of me - saint phnx

leave it alone - hayley williams

favorite crime - olivia rodrigo

goodbye, my danish sweetheart - mitski

conspiracy of silence - the swoons

in the embers - sleeping at last 

write-ups for why each song, under read more

live like legends - ruelle

I actually really like this one, and I think it fits for every character so I wanted it as an opening

where do you run - the score

nice little found family song from pov of Vander

runaway kids - harbour

super happy song for the team, it’s a little too happy but I wanted it to be a noticeable decline from how when they were kids talking about life being to short and hating the town and how they could be reckless, to then knowing that they died because of all that and how quickly it all went down

good to be alive - pvris

this songs for Vi. I wanted this to be about how bitter she is about the state of things. How she’s always looking for a fight. This is for more when she’s a child and there’s just a lot of anger about what her life is like in the underground

what’s wrong - half alive

i wanted a song for jayce more at the beginning, where him and viktor are both so optimistic about what this can do. “It’s not qutie done, but it’s time to fix what’s wrong,” but the beginning really foreshadows how it goes with “started with the right intentions but left them on the shelf,” becuase intially that just refers to going behind the academy’s back to do this, but eventually it’s so much more serious

it’ll all work out - phoebe bridgers

for when Vi decides to turn herself in. I think a lot of it is because she clearly feels like she’s failed powder (”she had eyes so blue like the weather, when she needed me I wasn’t around”) and that she has to be the one to take the fall to protect her for it. And I think it also foreshadows how she is gonna fail her again once she’s in prison because she won’t be there for her

die for you - valorant, grabbitz

Vander when he’s fighting to save them right before he dies, to the point where he even uses shimmer to do it. I think this mindset got picked up by Vi too

first thing to go - hayley williams

this is a song from vis perspective, after having lost her father figure, and not even having powder or knowing what happened to her. Mostly for her in prison, she’s scared to lose powder. “Why do memories glow the way real moments don’t? My altar is full of loves delusions” “I’m scared to lose what’s left and I should forget but I love what’s left” showing that even once she starts to hear things negative about powder she still is rooting for her no matter what

chlorine - twenty one pilots

This is one of the more filler songs, but I wanted kind of an underground sounding song that touches on people struggling with shimmer. And some of the lyrics vaguely fit especially for vi

i see you - missio

I wanted one cute song for jayce and viktor. They fr both stopped the other from KOing themselves before so I think this applies 

arsonist's lullabye- hozier

so this is mostly a silco song and then jinx. The lyrics apply to him, but I also think it shows how he connects so well to jinx and how he raised her. Also I think it’s clever that he’s her father figure, she’s an arsonist ykty, and even how he “keeps her on a leash” in the way he tells her not to tame her demons but to leash them

bad guy - billie eilish

jinx wants a fun song, this is really to introduce jinx from how we knew her as powder

july - sir chloe

i wanted this to be a song where different lyrics correspond to different people, mostly revolving around Vi’s experiences. “If I did it could u be the only one who understood? If I say sorry would you tell me I did everything I could?” Is how jinx tells vi that she’s changed and vi keeps assuring her that it’s okay, and that she did what she had to. but you also have soldier girl drama going on at the same time, so we switch to “you’re prettier than anything I’ve seen in my whole life” yet later its ‘you said goodbye” from soldier girl. “Evil secret you’re the precious thing I hide” is like how vi is still trying to protect jinx but keeps it secret from soldier girl. And the lyric “I’d be foolish if I trusted you after everything you’ve done” really applies to all of them

lost my mind - finneas

this for mostly jayce, mostly how he’s with Mel but he still be thinking about vik. Also mentions Mel with “there was a different face beside me but i sent her away because you’re not here’ for how he left her when vik got sick

jekyll & hide - bishop briggs

so I think normally using references like this is a little cringy but for this song I think the reference just parallels the jinx versus powder thing, and since this is from the perspective of jinx it would make sense that it’s a little off and weird

monsters - seafret

vik to jayce when he start going a lil off the deep end

life goes on - oliver tree

I wanted a jinx and ekko song where ekko is kind of like “I lost you and you’re bad now but I have to move on” because ultimately ekko is one of the only ones that really moves on to make something better with all the crappy stuff that happened to him. Also their fight scene is just so sick

darling - halsey

parallel to good to be alive when she says “only you have shown me how to love being alive.” This is a love song between vi and caitlyn, how vi “never had a stable home.” I also think this fits because vi kind of only had caitlyn as something good since she became an adult

halley’s comet - billie eilish

caitlyn to vi

love and truth - mother mother

jinx with her lil unhinged self and voices in the background. Reminds me of how she becomes obsessed with thinking people lied to her

death of me - saint phnx

vik when he’s at this point knowing he’s gonna die and he’s using shimmer and trying to stay alive. “Poison in my veins” “I’m a dreamer I’m a man, doing whatever I can to make the bad things go away”

leave it alone - hayley williams

I wanted a song that kind of shows an inside look at why vi leaves caitlyn. Another parallel to vi’s other songs “cause now that I want to live everyone around me is dying.” This song for me shows that she can’t let go of powder, no matter what, and she can’t risk Caityln getting hurt or distracting her from that. “The truths a killer but I can’t leave it alone” and “you don’t remember my name some days or that we are related” towards powder (the name thing need to be taken reverse because powder/jinx, and then that powder sometimes insists she’s no longer vi’s sister)

favorite crime - olivia rodrigo

this is for when vi leaves caitlyn, because she really did go out of her normal life and the rules mostly for herself but for Vi too. I don’t want it to seem like it’s too toxic, just that caitlyn feels left behind and even says “I’d do it all again” (also don’t take this one too seriously, caitlyn had her own motivations aside from vi but I still think it fits)

goodbye, my danish sweetheart - mitski

very clearly jinx, she just wack tbh not much else needs to be said

conspiracy of silence - the swoons

this is kind of vik and jayces finale song for this playlist. Jayce to viktor: are you sick to the bone? Because you reap what you sow. Viktor: will you fight for your life or take a fools paradise? ... I think it is just mostly about how the council is cooked and looking at whether or not they’ll make a deal with silco “will you weapon your skin, feed the monster within, or put up a fight”

in the embers - sleeping at last 

hopefully a good finale song. Partially choses because “in the embers” is the title lolol and I see this as play8ing while the council building is being blown up. But it also just fits with this narrative of living and dying and the legacy you leave behind

a playlist made by my sister

[nightmarexcross]

Headcannon that they both like Punk Rock music? Like Fall Out Boy and Twenty One Pilots? (On the topic of music, " So Right " from Roadside Romeo really sets the romantic vibe and Ive been trying to get it out of my head when I think of Crossmare. )

Punk Rock Music? I LOVE THAT HC!

You said Fall Out Boy and my mind sang "Thanks fr th Mmrs" because it's my favourite song. I just imagine the boys singing that and it's like "Oh my god. I love them more"

I went to youtube to listen to "So Right" and I think you're right. It's really romantic.

Just imagine, they listening to that as they dance in the moonlight.

—Mod Error

[danceworshipper]

MC Playlist

I was tagged in this a few days ago by @son-of-aurlius-piscius, saw it, got excited, and then promptly forgot about it until now. I have far too many mcs but I did all of them anyway and also chose 10 songs for each of them because something is wrong with me :D

Gracie Chiva

- "Demons" by Imagine Dragons

- "Centuries" by Fall Out Boy

- "you should see me in a crown" by Billie Eilish

- "Lion" by Saint Mesa

- "Silhouette" by Aquilo

- "(Fuck a) Silver Lining" by Panic! at the Disco

- "Teeth" by 5 Seconds of Summer

- "We Own the Night" by Matthew Morrison

- "Circus" by Britney Spears

- "Midnight City" by M83

Tessa Chiva

- "Mad World" covered by Jasmine Thompson

- "World Burn" by Taylor Louderman (Mean Girls Broadway)

- "(Drop Dead) Beautiful" by Britney Spears ft. Sabi

- "Thnks Fr Th Mmrs" by Fall Out Boy

- "Friends" by Chase Atlantic

- "Love Etc." by Pet Shop Boys

- "Control" by Halsey

- "Darkness Keeps Chasing Me" by Grace VanderWaal

- "#thatPOWER" by will.i.am ft. Justin Bieber [whom I despise]

- "Used To This" by Camila Cabello

Sarah Etsysa

- "Hostage" by Billie Eilish

- "Shameless" by Camila Cabello

- "Gravity" by Sara Bareilles

- "Stay Frosty Royal Milk Tea" by Fall Out Boy

- "Stick Stickly" by Attack Attack!

- "Bump" by Lu Brown ft. Trish

- "Holy" by Zolita

- "Delirious (Boneless)" by Steve Aoki, Chris Lake, and Tujamo

- "Drop Dead Cynical" by Amaranthe

- "Lights Down Low" by Max

Oliver Adams

- "Bang It Out" by Breath Carolina

- "Automatic" by ZHU x AlunaGeorge

- "Disturbia" by Rihanna

- "I Found" by Amber Run

- "Evacuate the Dancefloor" by Cascada

- "Your Love" by David Guetta & Showtek

- "Moves Like Jagger" by Maroon 5 ft. Christina Aguilera

- "Dance Dance" by Fall Out Boy

- "In the End" by Black Veil Brides

- "Me Too" by Meghan Trainor

Liam Disteel

- "I Lived" by OneRepublic

- "Fireflies" by Owl City

- "Don't Wanna Go Home" by Jason Derulo

- "I Found My Soul At Marvingate" by Mono Mind (Sofa Tunes Remix)

- "Death Valley" by Fall Out Boy

- "ocean eyes" by Billie Eilish

- "Uncover" by Zara Larsson

- "The Good, the Bad and the Dirty" by Panic! at the Disco

- "White Winter Hymnal" covered by Pentatonix

- "Something To Dance For" by Zendaya

Sabrina "Quinn" Mercurenius

- "Boulevard of Broken Dreams" by Green Day

- "The Kids Aren't Alright" by Fall Out Boy

- "Give Your Heart a Break" by Demi Lovato

- "Crying in the Club" by Camila Cabello

- "Radioactive" by Imagine Dragons

- "Rock Prelude" by David Garrett

- "In My Mind" by Dynoro & Gigi D'Agostino

- "Act My Age" by One Direction

- "Stressed Out" by twenty one pilots

- "Replay" by Zendaya

Oleander Loris

- "Tomboy" by Destiny Rogers

- "Lose Control" by Meduza, Becky Hill, and Goodboys

- "27" by Fall Out Boy

- "Secrets" by Tiesto & KSHMR

- "I'm Gonna Show You Crazy" by Bebe Rexha

- "Illusion" by Ross Lynch

- "Sledgehammer" by Fifth Harmony

- "LA Devotee" by Panic! at the Disco

- "Shut Up and Drive" by Rihanna

- "She Wolf (Falling to Pieces)" by David Guetta ft. Sia

Kestra Fernera

- "She Knows" by Ne-Yo ft. Juicy J

- "Blow" by Ke$ha

- "Saturday Night" by Panic! at the Disco

- "Greenlight" by Pitbull (TJR Radio Mix)

- "Where Have You Been" by Rihanna

- "Beyond My Reach" by Andy Black

- "Ding Dong the Witch is Dead" by Alex Swings Oscar Sings!

- "Turn Around (5,4,3,2,1)" by Flo Rida

- "Party Favors" by Tinashe

- "I Don't Care" by Fall Out Boy

Dorian Lenards

- "My Oh My" by Camila Cabello ft. DaBaby

- "Novocaine" by Fall Out Boy

- "Sweet Dreams" by Eurythmics

- "Runnin'" by Adam Lambert

- "Heathens" by twenty one pilots

- "Face Down" by The Red Jumpsuit Aparatus

- "I'm a Wanted Man" by Royal Deluxe

- "In the Night" by The Weeknd

- "React" by The Pussycat Dolls

- "Satan's Li'l Lamb" by Sam Harris

Sebastien Parr

- "King" by Years & Years

- "Ending" by Isak Danielson

- "Toxic" covered by Kurt Hugo Scheider and Casey Breves

- "Head Over Heels" covered by Digital Daggers

- "Till I Find You" by Austin Mahone

- "My Songs Know What You Did In the Dark (Light Em Up)" by Fall Out Boy

- "There For You" by Martin Garrix & Troye Sivan

- "Chains" by Nick Jonas

- "Over the Rainbow" by Todrick Hall

- "I Have Questions" by Camila Cabello

Ida Sommer

- "Experience" by Ludovico Einaudi

- "Memory" redone by PianoPrinceOfAnime

- "Headfirst Slide Into Cooperstown On A Bad Bet" by Fall Out Boy

- "Adagio For Strings" by Samuel Barber

- "On the Loose" by Niall Horan

- "Piano Man" by Mamamoo

- "Magic To Do" New Broadway Cast Recording (Pippin)

- "Pound the Alarm" by Nicki Minaj

- "Liar" by Camila Cabello

- "Paralyzed" by NF

Did I really give them all Fall Out Boy? Yes, yes I did. Some of the songs in the lists have significance, others I just think they'd enjoy

Tagging @nostalgiaslithersin @hphm-rhia @hphm-brooke @hphmbetty if y'all'd like to!

[lucajayms]

it was the summer of 2001, and Joe meets Patrick and he's like "yo, I know about music." then Patrick's like "yo I know more about music!" "that's impossible. so you wanna start a band?" and Patrick's like, "yeah that's cool." and then, he's like "yo this is a book store not a music store." and then they met at Patrick's house. so Patrick's wearing shorts, socks, and a hat. Patrick is playing drums for some fuckin' reason and then Pete's there for some reason. and they start playing music together and they're like "oh, let's play some covers from some other bands." it was like Green Day, and fuckin' Misfits, and fuckin' Ramones. Pete said to Joe, "yo, that's dope, but we need a fuckin' drummer." because Patrick's playing drums and he's a singer. Patrick's like "yo, I got a soul voice," and they're like "wait how do you have a soul voice?" and he's like "yo, watch this: YEEEEEEeeeeeeEEEEEEeeeeeeeeEEEeeeeeeAAAAAAAAaaaaAAaahhh!" and they're like, "oh my god, that sounds like soul!" so they put it in a song, and it was like, "WHERE IS YOUR BOY TONIIIIIIIiiiiiIIIIIIIIIiiiIIIIIIIGHT?!" and they're like "yo that's fuckin perfect, this is Fall Out Boy." and they made records like Evening Out With Your Ex-Girlfriend. Evening Out With Your Ex-Girlfriend, everybody loves it. "it's called Evening Out With Your Girlfriend." with your ex-girlfriend. it's called evening out with your Ex-girlfriend. it's called eating out your girlfriend, and it's real and it doesn't matter. and Pete talked to Patrick and Joe and he's like "you what the fuuuuuuuuuuuuuck. yo, this is gonna be fuckin' doooooooooope!" so they made a record and it was called Take this to Your Grave. they made it without a drummer, and they had like 3—4 drummers come in. The four drummers they had come in were like Josh Freese, Neil Pert, the dude from Toto, the fourth one was like the guy from Papa Roach or something, and they're like "you, we need Andy Hurley. Andy Hurley. Take This to Your Grave. Fuckin' record it." and he did, and he killed it, and he was like "bigidalililililillillilila, PSHHH!" killin' the skin, tapping the skins, tapping the rim, playin' the shit, killing these bitches, rapping it out. you're getting a fucking tattoo right now?! what the fuck is going on?! We should get signed to Fueled By Ramen, 'cause thee guys know what the fuck is going on. and they were like "yo, if you can make our scene any bigger than it is, which is not fuckin' hard, we will sign you guys." and Pete was like "yo, we got this record that's fuckin' dooooooope, dude, it's called Take This to Your Grave, it's called From Under the Cork Tree it's gonna be fucking huge." and then Patrick's like "I gotta keep it real, I gotta keep it artistic, these are three songs that are gonna make the album and it's called-BURP-Thnks Fr th Mmrs, 20 Dollar Nose Bleed, and Sugar, Were Goin' Down. and they made this record that was fuckin' dope, and it fucking hit on the charts like one two three, three two one, three four five six seven eight nine ten. ten to one. From Under the Cork Tree sold like four million records. ten million records. fifteen million records. and Brendon Urie had nothing to do with the entire record. and Patrick was like "that's gooooOOOOoooooOOOOOOOOd." Pete was like, "yo, fuck you I can do whatever I want." and Joe was like, "yeah it's cool man whatever I don't give a shit." and then Andy was like "eh, cool." and Pete was like "Make up is fuckin' great for a guy. because it makes a guy look beautiful, which a lot of times, a guy is not beautiful. and I wanna change that. I wanna make sure everyone thinks that guys are beautiful." I'm good so far yeah. yeah I do. SHUT THE FUCK. oh fuck, alright alright. Pete was like "oh my god, I'm so embarrassed about this dick pic." and then I saw the dick pic and was like "ah it's not bad." it's not a bad dick. let's be real. we made Rollins Stones one issue before Fall Out Boy. and Fall Out Boy made the issue right after us and they were so pissed they were like "yo, fuck you guys!" they're like "yo! Panic! has the fuckin' cover for Rolling Stones, yo, fuck these dudes, we're gonna fucking go miles above. we're gonna hit every fuckin' continent there is known to man." but they didn't because they missed a second of time. apparently they were like "oh shit, we got every continent." and they didn't actually hit it. dude, and Pete was like, "WHAT THE FUCK?! 'oh you didn't fuckin' make the continent' it's like FUCK YOU!" so From Under the Cork Tree happens, we fuckin' have three-four years of awesomeness. like, people are coming in themselves 'cause it's so big. Alright so Fall Out Boy was like-- so Patrick's like "yo, we are going to name these records from under the Cork tree and from Innity-- from infinity on high." Pete was like "yo folie à deux means the theatric of two." "The madness of two." oh sorry I'm sorry. follow boy was like "yo we got to take a break." Meaning Pete was like "yo we got to take a break bro." and Patrick's like "I need time for my music. UHUhUhUHuhUUUh." and joes like "yo I need time to find the fucking art dude I got to find some fucking me-- metal" and andys like "i'm just gonna play with some fucking metal bands." and they're like "all right this breaks been like three years long two years long three years long 3 1/2? we gotta fucking come back man we gotta come back strong." you took my beer away what the fuck? "no you poured it all over yourself." "yeah you poured it on yourself man here." "we got to make this shit legit it's gonna be fucking dope it's going to go fucking sky high. we're going to make a fucking record that sails the skies. we're going to call this record save rock 'n' roll." so they made alone together light 'em up alone together Phoenix. and everybody's like "what the fuck? you're working with this guy who fuckin' recorded Avril Lavigne and P!nk." is this pu-- what the fuck is this on my shirt, did I puke on myself? oh god. Pete was like "yo were gonna end up on a tour with Panic! At The Disco and twenty pilots. and that's all and that's all that matters. and that's just how the fuckin' story goes."Show less