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Put a deposit on a car and have multiple options for jobs some things r goin right finally
#just gotta choose what I want to do#it’s so interesting#idk if I should choose the options that fall into my lap and like. see what vibes#or I should go along with an actual plan#both seem p good rn
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Elden Ring: Shadow of the Erdtree (2024)
#elden ring#starscourge radahn#miquella the unalloyed#malenia blade of miquella#shadow of the erdtree#i just think depending on how you look at it caelid is very funny. malenia going to war to get her twin the man he wants ijbol#the lore is still ass though bc what is that. like what were they thinking. i choose to believe by consort it isnt romantic bc like what...#i gotta make it clear this is not a ship post. the lore is so ass its transcended into being funny this is a funny silly haha post.#i do not support whatever the hell is going on there with what miyazaki and grrm were cooking
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You've never done that when I got close to you before. Why? None of your business. Tell me, or you can't leave.
KISEKI: DEAR TO ME Ep. 10
#kiseki: dear to me#kisekiedit#kdtm#kiseki dear to me#ai di x chen yi#chen yi x ai di#nat chen#chen bowen#louis chiang#chiang tien#jiang dian#uservid#userspring#userrain#pdribs#userspicy#userjjessi#*cajedit#*gif#every time i color this scene i get stronger. anyway there were so many expressions i just couldnt leave out. the deep breath ai di takes#steeling himself before admitting it. & the way chen yi absorbs it the way he blinks away & his mouth opens before focusing on ai di again#thinking about it. thinking about four years of attacks ai di had to withstand. understanding the way he is now but hating how its happened#and also the guilt hes gotta feel from that! & yet thats overcome in this moment by a need to not let ai di put a wall between them#which is what ai di keeps trying to do. he admits a vulnerable thing and then deflects FOUR TIMES in this scene. first when sleeping#& choking chen yi when woken(& avoiding when questioned abt it). second by dropping his guard & worrying when he finds chen yi injured#& twice more shown in this set. he has to shake it off he has to put his wall back up but his instincts are strongest & chen yi SEES them.#you can see the way ai di wants to relax into that hug. the way he just wants to BREATHE but instead uses those breaths to defend himself#he chooses to flirt hoping it'll make chen yi back off. hoping he'll stop asking him to be vulnerable. but chen yi knows his tricks now.#and hes not going to let ai di continue believing he doesnt CARE about him. its poetic the way he gives him a taste of his own medicine#like it's *strategic*. he watches and learns. he knows his own influence over ai di he knows that HE is ai di's weakness. it's..chef's kiss
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I fully believe we haven't seen mk truly lose it on anyone yet--no not even when he fought azure or the curse--mk has always had control over what he's doing outside of accidental fumbles when hes first learning how to use his powers and I'd say he's almost more deadly when he's angry because so far being mad hasn't made him crazy or wild or out of control so far as I've observed being mad has only made him more focused
#knox rambles#monkie kid#lego monkie kid#mk monkie kid#IM JUST THINKING#angry mk? actually i think he knows exactly what hes doing he actively chooses to do what he does when hes mad#catch him upset or depressed then thats different#but mk angry? im convinced he could unleash his full power on someone and that flower in the ground next to them will remain untouched#who knows s 5 could prove me wrong but mk has some WILD control over himself when hes descructive on purpose it is pointed and controled#okay anyway i gotta hydrate GO HYDRATE#RHY I KNOW YOUVE SAID SOMETHING LIKE THIS BEFORE I JUST WANTED TO ADD THE FOCUS THING#SOMETHUNG ABOUT MKS ANGER MAKING HIM SHARPER
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one of my favorite parts of speculating ahead of the Veilguard is the number of people talking themselves around and around in the loop of "Illario is extremely suspicious and the most obvious choice for who betrayed Lucanis → However, Illario seems like he genuinely cares for Lucanis and seemed sincerely distraught in The Wake → I know in my heart it must be Illario: there is no one else with means and motive → If Illario did it, I understand why given how Caterina has treated him and them, and he has arguably earned a bit of a villain era → The situation is ultimately caused by Caterina and Crow politics and, again, Caterina → I don't want it to be Illario because I want he and Lucanis to have a good relationship given all they've suffered together → However, there is already an existing bitterness between them because of the succession question and in Illario generally because he's seen as lesser → Illario is the most obvious choice"
#so many of us are like it's gotta be Illario I don't want it to be Illario it makes sense it's Illario#It's like... it's a tragic situation because no matter what—even if it is Illario—the root cause is Caterina and she's already dead.#Speaking for myself. *I* keep doing this loop bc even if it was Illario it's hard with what we know so far for me to hold it against him?#Yes he had different choices. Obviously he could have done anything else. But like it isn't just ambition and spite.#Assuming it is him [points at the loop] it feels like a situation fostered by the way Caterina raised and hurt them both.#What methods do you feel you have when the only thing you know is knives and murder?#How else to feel when the cousin you love like a brother eventually convinces himself he doesn't hate the grandmother who ruined you both?#She is only “Caterina” in your mouths and you are “cousin” in his but he is choosing her over you and how else is there to feel?#After all: she's sharpened all your emotions into knives. They're only ever knives.#ANYWAY that got away from me there for a second#I think that's why we're doing this loop. It's gotta be Illario but it being Illario resolves little. It's not a complete catharsis.#It's really the facts of their lives. It's really what Caterina did to them. It's really the yawning pit at the center of House Dellamorte.#Illario Dellamorte#Lucanis Dellamorte#Caterina Dellamorte#Dragon Age: The Veilguard#Dragon Age The Veilguard#Dragon Age#DATV things#DATV spoilers#Veilguard spoilers
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thinking about how hawk joined miyagi do instead of eagle fang in s4 after the two dojos split again just because he's in love with demetri demetri asked him to
#'you're choosing eagle fang over your best friend'#fuck no he's not!!!#i want to unpack their s4 basement scene so bad rn#like the fact that eli chooses miyagi do because he doesn't have to be this asshole anymore#he can be himself and he can have karate#he can redefine himself#and demetri will love him no matter what#other than the whole identity thing#he really did just join miyagi do to be with demetri and to do the tournament together#and i think that's really cute#like we saw literally no other reason for hawk to choose miyagi do there was never a connection there#he said well my boyfriends over here so i guess i gotta be here too#hawks season 4 arch is something very near and dear to me#the fact that he wins the all valley as 'eli moskowitz'#he wins when he finally finds balance and confidence in who he actually is#instead of thr asshole he thought he needed to be#eli moskowitz#demetri alexopoulos#hawkmetri#elimetri#binary boyfriends#ck#ck s4#cobra kai
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There’s something so important about Gillion - who never heals himself, who rushes into danger, who hides his wounds- facing death and realizing he isn’t unafraid as he was raised to be. He uses his magic on himself to help with the exhaustion, to keep his life intact. And still he tries to comfort Jay and Chip while he’s coherent, being realistic about his chances but refusing to make it painful. Wanting their possible last moments to be light, to be about seemingly inconsequential things, small favorites that still mean the world to him purely because they’re Chip and Jay’s favorites. And then when all is said and done, he makes a raccoon for Jay. He talks about raspberries for Chip. He uses his last saved up arcane energy to try desperately to stay awake, and it works, and it saves him in the final hour.
It’s just. There’s something about how he hasn’t had a chance to rest since the Feywild, really, truly rest. How this whole time he’s been down on himself and taking extreme risks. And now, at what might be the end of it all, he realizes he doesn’t want to die. He wants to live. And not to be able to save others, not to fulfill his destiny, not out of obligation to anyone else - but purely for himself. For all the little things. And though it’s not quite healing in the literal term, his nearly final act was spent trying to save himself - and it worked.
#tw again for tags I’ll say and let me know if I gotta tag any more#but the past 30 episodes have been gillion tidestrider gets the shit beat out of him by the narrative#gillion tidestrider faces passive suicidality and faces old trauma and fresh new trauma#he goes through a shift of his foundation as a person he loses his sister the whole filipe thing and then this Curse#and he goes through with a mindset of ‘these problems exist because I do’ with some heavy implications behind that#it’s been getting easier and easier to choose his own destiny and break from expectations but it’s still not easy#but facing real death. slow and creeping and painful. he realizes he wants to live#not live because destiny demands it but because his friends do. because he does. because he wants to know more and share more of himself#I just. there’s something about all of it yknow#jrwi riptide 98#jrwi 98#jrwi#jrwi riptide#gillion tidestrider#z speaks#at what point should I start tagging spoilers like. 100 maybe?
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im just gonna be honest gang obviously its gonna be easy for you to say youre in love with a character and theyre an angel when anytime they do something you don't like you brush it off as out of character
#bad writing is still canon unfortunately#the place where i absolutely draw the line is gallavich being verse don't fucking piss me off @shameless writers#unfortunately your fav characters did do and say those bad things..... and to ignore that is too fundamentally misunderstand their character#how can you love a person when you choose to be blind to who they are </3#this isn't directed toward anybody y'all are just being very dramatic lately and really i think we should remember that tv shows aren't real#i can recognize when someone is caused by bad writing but i still have to accept that it's a real thing that happened#like. do i find shameless entertaining? YES! is it well written? FUCK NO#it's actually fundamentally a bad show in many ways. but that's WHY i enjoy discussing it#it's why my hyperfixation hasn't died down. because theres just SO MUCH to pick apart and interpret and discuss!#it's actually so bad at times i blocked it out of my memory!#but if i believe something isn't canon or *shouldn't be canon* (HUGE difference between those 2 things)#then i should explain why i think that. and i also need to accept that others disagree#but if you say everything you don't like is just ooc bad writing and therefore not real to canon then#....lol what are you even doing here#like. we should be rallying against the writers for being actively racist homophobic transphobic fatphobic ableist etc#yet we're sitting here with our thumbs up our asses fighting about which character fanclub is the most oppressed#WHO CARESSSSS JOHN WELLS DOESN'T CARE ABOUT US IT TRULY ISN'T WORTH WASTING YOUR BREATH OVER#i just want to read about 2 toxic kinky boys kissing idk#let me say this tho! hardcore fiona stans you gotta be the most out of touch people on planet earth!#okay goodnight everypony#wall of text in the tags#a.txt
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[It was a windfall, air knocked out of my lungs, plunge into the abyss. I am nothing.
Pray tell, what have you learned? What have you found? What knowledge have you gained?
Stars, stars, stars. They are the gems of the sky.
Pray tell, the price of which you may pay? To what extent shall you let go? To what extent shall you pursue Life?
Gems, gems, gems. I am but a shard of what once was whole.
Pray tell, what have you learned? What have you found? To what extent shall you let go? To what extent
are you willing
to sacrifice
to be whole
again?
Crabs, crabs, crabs. This is inevitable, for I am never whole without them.
Are
you
yourself?
To be myself is to be whole, to be whole is to be with them. To be with them is to be myself.
Pray tell, should your memories be forgotten
who will you
forget
?
Myself.
.
.
.
]
[You doze off, you dreamt you were talking to someone.]
[You can't remember anything else.]
[You heard the door open, Siffrin walks in the store. The book opens, time to get back to the first page, researcher.]
#ariawrites#isat#isat au#isat spoilers#idk what im doing i just had this idea while doing my chores and i know it in my heart that i gotta write this and post#is this spoilers??? i think so?????? maaaayybbeee??????? ill tag it spoilers just in case#this is my odile loops au with new loop+ i need a proper name for that one... and this Is set during the new loop+#am laying out ideas i want to happen and i like to play around with the: after several loops. odile starts to forget too#but instead of how siffrin would forget the others. odile chooses to forget herself#also like yeowch... dozing off while standing she must rlly be tired! ig thats what a timeloop does to ya#also yea instead of stage actually am changing it to book cuz well-- odile. and books!#of gems and pages au#ogap au
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taliesin and laura remain truly so fantastic at making characters who… don’t necessarily have something extremely and inherently in common but do have experiences that were caused by similar sources and that lead them to have quite different opinions/ideas about things but in ways that are typically very reconcilable? which is a lot of qualifiers but it’s a through line of vex/percy with nobility, jester & cad with loneliness (and also god stuff but in a different post maybe someday i’ll talk about how actually their god stuff is intensely related to their different experiences of loneliness), and now imogen & ashton with being left behind.
like vex was this character who technically had a claim to nobility due to her blood but at the same time was burdened because of that same claim. and percy who was born into and raised by nobility but that nobility ended up making his family the targets of a massacre. and then vex who lets down her walls and Do I Look Like I Come From Money? and percy giving her the title grand mistress of the grey hunt because it has nothing to do with blood, or his love for her, or anything aside from the fact that it’s something she can prove herself worthy of simply by virtue of who she Is, not who someone makes her. and percy and vex’s conversation about forgiveness and it’s necessity for growth as probably two of the characters most inclined to hold grudges.
and caduceus clay who gets left behind with nothing but his Belief while his family goes off into the world. and jester lavorre who gets shut inside with no company except her Belief as her mother protects her from the world. and they both get the burden of loneliness and the understanding of love’s nonmalicious imperfection. and caduceus having a panic attack on a ship and jester telling him that the world is a lot bigger than his cemetery and that means he has to break out of his comfort zone to find his path. and caduceus telling jester that he doesn’t think she gets as much credit as she ought to and she deserves more pastries. and jester thanking caduceus for showing her how cool it is to actually heal people and caduceus asking if she wants to use his shield while he doesn’t need it.
and ashton who was left broken and dying on the ground and was given inescapable pain as their means of survival. and imogen who was left behind by the only person who could provide true understanding of the pain she’d one day come to feel. and ashton who’s a barbarian, who wields their rage casually and unapologetically and who sees the Shittiness of the world but is unrelenting in his version of optimism. and imogen who is weighed down by pessimism she doesn’t Want to have but hasn’t cracked how to undo and who doesn’t admit her anger until it comes up again and again and again and carries it like a burden or like guilt, who we only see really Grasp and feel Confidence about her anger being something good in front of others when she has those conversations with ashton. and like. ashton who looks at imogen and sees a superhero. imogen venturing through ashton’s mind and holding his bleeding and exhausted head and saying i’m sorry. i’m sorry. and imogen who looks at ashton and sees someone special. and fucking “we got him killed.” and “no, we didn’t. don’t you dare. […] we are not what fucking killed that man. […] we are his eventual victory. we are his fucking revenge.” and “i’ll be his revenge.” and “i have no fucking doubt.”
and in general rp wise they both tend to make some of my favourite characters (also typically the ones i find most frustrating) because they both tend to make flaws that are easy to hate and they make those flaws very central to their characters but i think that’s also what makes their character interactions so deeply compelling because so frequently it’s like. yes yes these two characters have like. a helix of things they have in common but also things they deeply disagree on but they’re going to spider-man point at the things that are the same and they’re going to honour their differences while doing so. and it’s just. i always enjoy it so much and i was psyched when i heard about an imogen and ashton side pit stop in last nights episode and i was not let down when i watched the episode today.
#also gotta emphatically say that i Do Not Mean their characters understand each other better than others or completely#i just think those two consistently have characters that have opinions that would perhaps naturally be the most at odds but then#they always craft these dynamics that like. web together pieces of sameness so that their characters end up having deeply#meaningful relationships with one another.#but like. ashton and imogen really do Not get each other in a lot of ways. cad and jester were very opposite in a lot of ways#percy and vex i think probably had the most in common but also like . they had and have vast differences .#idk this probably is worth a longer post that lingers in my brain about how relationships between characters whether romantic or not#are actually Much more compelling and rewarding when characters Don’t just click and have perfect matching experiences#because. to have to Choose to want to understand someone and what they’ve experiences and why they differ from you#if actually a much stronger act of love than searching for your reflection in everyone you meet.#someday i’ll string together that post but. until then. tal and laura my beloveds. storytelling duo truly#cr3#cr2#jester lavorre#imogen temult#vex’ahlia#caduceus clay#ashton greymoore#percy de rolo#cr1#critical role#cr spoilers#no molly and jester input here because i haven’t watched early m9 in a Long time but. i’m sure there’s similar scenes in there.#honestly even like. jesters Earnestness with her still manipulative trickery vs. mollys much more . not necessarily Cruelness but just. idk#there’s something there with the way that when they meet jester is all in for the tarot cards for the experience that they both get out#of her choosing to believe what molly says vs molly going in to get something out of jester? yk.#but they’re still bestie icons. jester still tears a man in half in the hopes of saving molly. molly still died trying to help get her back.#anyway. beloveds#laura bailey#taliesin jaffe
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I just want to write fanfic. But. I’m in one of those phases!!!! Where I can’t. Because Of Cringe
#like sure I could theoretically write whatever and choose not to post I. guess#and one of them I probably won’t post but#it’s that feeling of like#I cannot reread the docs without feeling afraid and immediately backing out!!!!#which behfjcnggtt sux bc i have more wips at the same time now than i usually ever do#like a week or two ago I kept having more spontaneous ideas#i was jotting down and getting started#but like I’ve said if I don’t chase ideas IMMEDIATELY#I lose steam :’( I get scared or lose track of where I was going#I gotta go FULL STEAM AHEAD as long as I can#it’s very like. 0 to 100 to 0 to 100 to 0 to 100 forever lol#bro I want to be free!!!#its okay I just have to indulge in other people’s works until I reset again. 🫡#��what if strangers on the internet disapprove of my antics’ WHO is even looking. we r in da shadows mwah
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The fucking subtle strings* in in loml just gut me
*apparently they're fakety fake fake who knew
#I know the production credits don't list it but there's gotta be a bass or double bass in this right???#It's too deep to be a cello but I've picked it up since the first listen when it came out#it sounds too rich to be electronic but what do I know#and I'm annoyed it's not listed on the credits#because it's so beautifully haunting and I adore it so much#goooooooood i'd love a full orchestra version of this#have i mentioned that the cello is my favourite instrument so I just want it in everything lol#much like the rest of TTPD I am going to choose to believe what I want about it and ignore reality lmao
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I will not take any Chiron slander
That centaur is blameless and tired.
The only criticism i agree with on him is the fact that he really shouldn't have made Percy tell Nico Bianca fucking died
#wolffox speaks#percy jackson and the olympians#pjo Chiron#Chiron pjo#pjo#'He's making child soldiers!' The gods fault. The fuck do you want him to do? Go against them? He literally is only alive cus he's needed#'He's raising them to die!' The monsters AND the gods fault. He's actively training them so they can live just a little longer#'Percy and Annabeth are his favorites!' Kay. It's from Percy's pov of course we're gonna see him interact with the main characters a lot!#“But new rome—” Yall realize Chiron is operating on money from a STRAWBERRY business. You think he's gonna be able to build a city from THA#And another one I saw:#“He's letting children work at an infirmary” You mean the Apollo kids? The kids that can literally heal people magically?#Like what do you want him to do? Yes its fucked up that kids have to fight but what choice do they have?#Refusing a quest from a god seems like a shit idea and if they didnt fight in the war EVERYONE dies#it's a shitty situation but you gotta choose the lesser of the evils to survive
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idk how to say this right but i feel like people going through aaron bushnell's reddit comment history to try and figure out how Morally Pure™ he was and therefore if you're allowed to support his actions or not are. missing the point. in a lot of ways
#and i do mean this in both directions bc I've seen. so many posts along these lines already#and it's like. whether he was in the acab subreddit or made lizard people jokes kind of pales in comparison to#Actively Being Part Of The Murder Machine and that was the entire point#if you're looking for his moral values i feel like it's weird to try and find secret truths buried in his comment history#rather than going off of him Choosing To Die In The Number One Worst Way To Help Stop To Genocide#why is The Most Final Thing You Can Do somehow less meaningful than a couple reddit comments#and in the other direction it's like. i gotta be real with you his opinions on fatphobia do not mean shit nor fuck to me#and that's coming from someone who mods on an anti fatphobia blog like. it does not seem remotely relevant#he died to draw eyes to Palestine and when people go looking for moral purity out of him like this it just feels like they're#just. trying their hardest not to look where he asked.#what is the point of bringing these things up?#like. ok he made some shitty jokes. well now he's dead so it's not like he can go anywhere with it. what is your ultimate goal#do you want to bring awareness to something or do you just want people to stop talking about him because of what his death meant#idk#origibberish
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#periodical life updates#eurgh. hiiii im so tired just got home from the family gathering thing im. exhausted hkjfh. and i still gotta draw the eca#still gonna be quiet for a while sorry gang <3 anyway lets not talk about any of that hdkjf ARTFIGHT THEME REVEAL!!#you'll never guess which team jace ''kellystar321'' starlight is choosing for seafoam vs stardust hfjkh#*gestures at my oc list* but also. what if i dont CARE anymore hfjkhf obviously i want to draw for people! its my favorite part! but like.#GODDD i dont care about my ocs anymore!! :') ive always been more of a fandom guy i dont... /want/ art of my ocs?#like yeah obviously agent my beloved! alexandria my beloved! eca has a whole daily blog! but my actual interest in them is sooo low.#there's so many people on artfight who LOVE their ocs like their children. their ocs are their blorbos!! but my ocs are like nothing to me?#i like fandom characters :'0 i would not be as excited to see art of my characters as someone else would be who actually likes their ocs!!#people should focus more on drawing art for people who CARE about their ocs. because if /I/ don't care about my oc and /YOU/ don't care#about my ocs then WHOS FLYING THE PLANE HJFSD no but theres ZERO ENJOYMENT coming out of it you get me? it doesnt make sense to draw for me#BUT ALSO. for silly ''i dont like seeing them all greyed out/hidden :('' reasons i dont want to archive them and hide them from everyone#/BUT ALSO./ i DON'T WANT ART OF THEM. ATTACK SOMEONE ELSE PLEASE. SOMEONE WHO CARES ABOUT THEIR CHARACTERS hfjkfh urgh.#like hey sorry i dont? care enough about the guys i made up? can you draw reader or kim k!tsuragi instead? thank you. hdjhfg;;;#also ive been. so tired :'> how much will i even be able to do this year? every year i gain more targets to attack because i keep meeting-#new friends all the time. i have some people from lgbt club im attacking this year! my stickmin friends. avm friends. my hell gang hkhg#my hlvrai friends and my longtime mutuals and MY BUREAU OF BALANCE GANG... not to mention revenges from last year :'>#its a lot. and im so tired;;; so. im not sure. i'd still like to join for my 8th year of artfight but damb. i dunno. :'> <3#okay thats all GOTTA DRAW AN ECA GOODBYE I LOVE YOU!!
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Most funniest thing ever btw is a person who likes alhaitham and kaveh and has alhaitham as his pfp and kaveh in his banner yet is a raging Zionist
#do you see what I mean now when I call hoyo fans dumbasses ? just the way they beg for rep but when u tell them sumeru is heavily influence#influenced by Islam btw and the characters would be Muslim just as mondstadt characters are Christian#they pull up the erm achually!!! but when it’s natlan it’s oh ! if you want to rep a culture you gotta do it right 🥺#disrespectfully Stfu and die ✋😞#dora daily#no and the way they say oh it’s fantasy they’re literally worshipping nahida oh wow ! I didn’t know that ! like a church is something not#alluding to Christianity but oh they worship venti#then it’s the natlan mauvika pyro archon is represented by a Māori person#awesome ! but you do realise it’s fiction and that the game has never and will never be a history book never has been since mondstadt and#never will be#yet you guys are so outwardly racist outwardly Islamophobic#the real issue is that you pick and choose the minority you worship#hoyo has issues but I’ve never seen a group of more horrible people than it is the hoyo fandom with their picking and choosing#and it’s always the yaoi fetishisers dumbass disrespectful haikaveh shippers appropriating everything cause cute ! two men kissing or#whatever the fuck. men period are disgusting I thought we established this#but go on you dumbass colonisers and colonise and appropriate everything too lmao imagine having an alhaitham pfp and being a Zionist go ky#- kys cause tumblr sucks and made me stop mid word 🤨#😇😇😇😇
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