#just dont ignore stats you should be fine

[sorryimananti-romantic]

Dyk what I hate about statistics? THE ADDITION. Also the multiplication. It would've been cool if it was like once or twice but I GOTTA DO IT 20 TIMES IF THERE ARE 20 NUMBERS??? WHY????? It would've been cool if we had calculators to do that too BUT CALCULATORS ARE NOT ALLOWED?!!

Like bro whyyyyyy. I've been trying to ignore stats for so long but I finished the rest of my syllabus and now that's the only one left :') I JUST DON'T LIKE SQUARING, ADDING AND SQUARE ROOTING NUMBERS 50 TIMES FOR ONE PROBLEM

bro i thought stats was child's play until my finals approached and i hadn't touched it throughout the semester and i realised it was child's play only IF YOU KNEW WHAT WAS GOING ON kjhdjkfghkjdfhg so i had a similar situation i was suddenly in my final exam without a clue about what was going on. idek what was so hard about it bc i don't really hate stats (i was just a lazy bum this happened like 6 years ago oops) but man i almost cried that day thankfully i got a little hint from the teacher and i actually thought i would fail and have to repeat stats.

i got an A+

i have no idea how that happened btw that's like number 1 in the Top 10 Mysteries of My Life.

[kateis-cakeis]

people are really so weird and so fatphobic huh

(and oops most of my commentary is in the tags XD)

[merlinmarvelandother-oneshots]

Sorry, I meant to send an ask yesterday, but I got carried away 😅

So what about ut, us, uf and ht (you can ignore the last one if you want to don't worry) and how they would be with a reader that hides the fact that they're physically hurt.

Maybe they went hiking with the skellie, and they tripped and pretended that it was only a little scratch when days later they see quite a big wound that's infected.

It's a bit gross, so it's okay if you don't do it, don't worry :)

Have a good day/night and be safe

-💀

UnderTale, UnderSwap, UnderFell, and HorrorTale skellies react to a reader hiding that they're injured

you had gotten in a little tussle with a fallen branch walking home. you were completely oblivious, and tripped right over it. it hurt to walk on, and you soon noticed it swelling. it wasn't... sprained, right? nah, of course not! you brushed it off, thinking that it would be just fine in a day or two.

but until then, you might want to put some ice on that.

and so you did. for three days, with no sign of improvement. you tried keeping it a secret, but then your s/o came home while you were putting ice on it, right on the couch beside the door, and...

UnderTale:

Sans:

-he walks into the house, immediately heading for the couch.

-"hey, y/n, i'm ho- you alright? what happened to you?"

-"oh! sans, hi, i didn't expect you home so early!" you wave frantically to draw his eyes away from your ankle.

-"yeah... work was slow, so i came home. whats going on? you're acting weird."

-"pshh, don't be silly, nothing's wrong! absolutely nothing!"

-he sighs.

-"my whole shtick back in the underground was that i can see peoples stats. your HPs lowered, you're acting really awkward about your leg, and you're trying to hide an ice pack from me. i know, i saw it when i walked in. so, im gonna ask you again. whats going on?"

-you sighed. he caught you, he always did.

-"i dont know what's up. I tripped a few days ago and my ankle just started swelling. I'm gonna give it a few more days before I see a doctor, just to see if it heals on its own."

-"alright then," really? that's it? not going to insist you see someone? well, that's great for you! "I'm going to grillby's. wanna come?"

-you nodded your head.

-"cmon, let's take a shortcut."

-he took you to the fucking ER.

Papyrus:

-you look up after hearing the door open and you heard a crash.

-he had gone grocery shopping, apparently, because his bags were sprawled on either side of him on the floor.

-his jaw was only half hinged, that's how bad you scared him.

-as in it dropped. almost fully.

-he suddenly runs to your side (re-hinging his jaw on the way) and kneels by your side.

-"HUMAN, what ever is the matter? is it serious? does it hurt? will it need stitches? should i take you to-"

-"Paps! i'm okay. i think it's just sprained, i'll be alright," you tries to reassure him.

-"SPRAINED? oh, HEAVENS no, i must take you to the doctor right away!"

-you sigh. "Papyrus, it isn't that big of a deal. i'm sure it'll be alright in a few days."

-"absolutely not! what if it's worse than you think? it could kill you!"

-he really thought a sprained ankle could kill you? he may be clueless about human injuries, but at least he cares!

-you don't have too much time to reply before he picks you up, puts you in the car, buckles you up (because heaven forbid something ELSE happen to you, ESPECIALLY under his watch) and brings you to the ER.

UnderFell:

Sans:

-he literally did not notice.

-he grumbles a quiet, "hey," before trotting upstairs into his room.

-it isn't until several days later when the pain has worsened and you cannot walk on it that he asks what the fuck is going on.

-you explained that you had tripped a few days ago, and it got swollen, and you thought that it would just go away, but it's been getting worse and worse since it happened.

-"fuckin' idiot," he groaned. "i'm dating a goddamn moron! alright, get in the car. i'm takin' you to a hospital."

-he's groaning the entire way.

Papyrus:

-as soon as he lays eyes on you, he sighs.

-"what did you do this time?"

-what the hell did he mean, 'this time'? he CANNOT be holding you accountable for that one time you got a concussion! that was HIS fault!

-"hey! you BETTER not be talking about-"

-"about the concussion," he cut you off. "yes, yes, i'm aware, you believe that incident to be my doing. however, i can GUARANTEE that this is not! now, tell me what happened. i expect a full explanation."

-you rolled you eyes and told him, feeling a little pissed off about his crossed arms and tapping foot, although you couldn't fully blame him. the whole situation WAS a little silly, now that you have to say it out loud.

-he scoffed when you finished talking. such a silly thing! why the HELL didn't you immediately see a doctor? swelling is NEVER normal!

-how did he, a skeleton monster who had gone most of his life without so much as seeing a human, know more about human anatomy than a fully grown human adult?

-and how did he, an esteemed member of the royal guard, end up in a relationship with such a fool?

-"get yourself looking decent. we are visiting the hospital to get you proper treatment."

-'looking decent', you looked fi-! no, you didn't, nevermind.

UnderSwap:

Sans:

-"hey, y/n, Alphys let out training early, so i'm back! what are you doing?"

-you scrambled to hide the ice pack and hike your pants back over your ankle. "oh, uh. . . nothing," you said sheepishly in reply, a fake grin appearing on your face.

-"oohhhh, no no no. i know that look. you're hiding something. best be honest now."

-damn him! how DARE he know you so well!

-"i think i did something to my ankle," you muttered.

-"hmm. . . let me see."

-he walked over and inspected your ankle for a few moments.

-"it looks sprained. when did this start?"

-"a few days ago. i tripped and it started swelling."

-he gave your ankle ankther quick look.

-"and why didn't you tell me?"

-"well, i thought it would go away at first. i was going to tell you, if it didn't. i was just going to wait a few days."

-"well, there's no need! i'm taking you to a doctor."

-he helped you stand and let you use him as something like a crutch, so you wouldn't have to put too much weight on your injured foot.

Papyrus:

-you look up to see him standing, eyebrows furrowed (you know what i mean sans does it in the main game) looking at you.

-"anything you want to tell me?"

-"ah, nothing. . . i'm just gonna go to a doctor if this doesn't start getting better."

-you knew the look he was giving you. he wanted to know what happened.

-"i tripped a few days ago and my ankle started swelling. nothing major. it's just a little sore."

-"mmm. i'm sure. you have five minutes, then i'm taking you to a doctor," he said as he laid on the couch beside you.

-"no, Paps, there's really no need-" you were interupted by snoring. but you knew that didn't mean you were off the hook. he would be awake in five minutes EXACTLY, whether you were ready to go or not.

HorrorTale:

Sans:

-he kinda just stands there for a few moments after he sees you with the ice pack.

-ice pack means something's wrong, because he doesn't see food around, but his skull injury makes figuring anything else out difficult.

-ice pack. . . on your ankle. . .

-it doesn't matter what's wrong. he just knows something is. so, he comforts you! in the only way he knows how!

-which is a BONE-CRUSHING hug.

-and because you're sitting, and he's standing over you, leaning down to hug you, it's a very awkward angle. leading to a lot of bones jabbing into uncomfortable places.

-you know you can't really do anything to get him off of you, so you just wait it out.

-"i'm alright, Sans. it isn't anything major. i'm about to go to a doctor!"

-he was going to tell you to anyway. you just got that part out of the way.

-his time in the underground under Undyne's rule made him very paranoid about the health of those he loves, so no matter how big the injury, you MUST see a doctor.

-it's not up for debate.

-he drives you because he doesn't want you to have to put any more strain on your ankle.

-(should he even have a drivers license? questionable...)

Papyrus:

-he has a puzzled look on his face.

-that. . . he suspected that wasn't a good sign.

-"y/n. . . i don't suppose you want to tell me what is going on?"

-"oh," you nervously laughed. "no biggie. just tripped a few days ago, it kinds hurts. if it doesn't feel better tomorrow i'm seeing a doctor."

-"hmm. i shall hold you to that."

-you laughed. you bet he would.

-spoiler alert, he did.

(a/n: sorry if this is totally inaccurate to having a sprained ankle, it just seemed like a good scenario, and i was too in the writing groove ((once i actually started)) to do much research)

[scarletts-nsfw]

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[oncamelliastreet]

ignore, i just have nowhere to put this rant and no one to tell it to and need to get it into space while i have a quick mental breakdown

i’m just so fucking stressed about precalc and i’m fucking fed up and i don’t know what to do. like i actually don’t think i can pass this class. precalc is like a combination of algebra and geometry, so it would be fine if it weren’t for the fact that my school had shit algebra and geometry classes that barely taught anyone anything. we don’t know the basics going into the class, and we were all hoping to get the old precalc teacher who is actually a really good teacher and could’ve helped us, but he stopped teaching it for some reason this year and hired a new guy who doesn’t understand that we really don’t know anything. like most of my grade failed this test, and he gave us a lecture on it and said that we cleary didn’t study enough and it’s unacceptable that we don’t know it because it’s prettt much review, but WE DIDN’T LEARN IT BEFORE HOW ARE WE SUPPOSED TO KNOW NOW. and i did all of the homework, i asked my sister for help every night and had her explain it to me, i studied for two hours the day before the test, and i still got a 50% (BAD). and my stupid fucking sister keeps texting me and asking me about when i’ll need help and what i don’t get and I DON’T EVEN KNOW. BECAUSE MY TEACHER DIDN’T EVEN GIVE THE TESTS BACK OR PUT THEM IN THE GRADEBOOK HE JUST SHOWER PEOPLE THEIR SCORES. and i don’t even think he’s gonna give them back, so i don’t know if i actually didn’t know anything or if the questions i didn’t get to because im a slow ass test taker came back to bite me in the ass and it lost a lot of points because he grades by partial credit and he can’t give partial credit to questions i didn’t even get to in time. the whole thing is just fucking fucked and i don’t know how to pass the class and there’s really no alternatives because i have to have four years of math and you can’t really go into stats without precalc and you can’t go into college algebra because college algebra is just algebra 2 and i took algebra 2 freshman year and i can’t take the same class twice. i’m just completely fucking fucked and my grades about to dip so bad and i’m not gonna be able to get it back up and i’m not even comfortable talking to my teacher about it because he’s such a fucking weirdo and he explains everything so fast which doesn’t work for me because i’m an extremely visual learner when it comes to math and i have to have things explained to me slowly and written down first or it takes me forever to get it and i never get his answers when other people ask questions in class because he gets super condescending and explains it to you like you’re a stupid person who should already know it except i am a stupid person who should probably know it but i never had it taught to me in the first place so i don’t know how the fuck i’m gonna start knowing it now and i’m just stressed as FUCK and i’m gonna tell my therapist about this tomorrow and she’s just gonna say “well have you tried asking for help” yes i fucking have it didn’t WORK i just don’t get it ill ask my sister for help and she looks at me like im a lost cause every time i dont know something and says that i should already know it and tells me to watch a video about it and it doesn’t FUCKING HELP and everyone is so FUCKING CONDESCENDINF BEVAUSE I KUSY DONT UNDERSTAND MATH AND IM CRTINF SO FUCKING HARD RIGHT NOW

[laprimera]

What's one critique you have about Pokémon in general?

Competitive Pokemon shouldn't be lambasted so hard and this is coming from an amateur that spams stat boosts. Its just another way to enjoy and play Pokemon. Like math it looks terrible until you get what you're doing, then it's real fun! I can get why it looks scary at first but it's more or less like any other game. It's strategy, predictability, and a little luck. I feel like I understand the Pokemon more just realizing how its stats, IVs, EVs and etc come into play.

And before someone moans about stall...., guys, there's strats to break stall. Haze. Roar. Toxic....all moves you should have on your team either way. Though no one knows the adrenalin rush that comes with watching a battle with 70+ turns finally come to a conclusion cause of some crazy strat pulled last minute.

And yes you can play with your favorites, not just Ubers.

And yes like any fandom you can just block and ignore the occasional toxic clown.

And yes you're perfectly fine if you use the Smogon sets or deviate. Thats where I start before making my own sets that work for me.

And yes I actually suck at the game. I dont actually do ladder. It just feels good to see your fave blorbo's team actually kick some butt.

[mycanyon]

Should I do this?

Imma just answer all of it at once now so bare with me.

1. Your stats:

Hight: 172cm (5.6ft)

Current Weight: 64,8kg (143lbs)

Highest Weight: something over 80kg (177lbs) if not even 84kg (185lbs)

Lowest Weight: Two years ago scratching on the 62kg (137lbs) but I have reached that weight just two or three days ago so I guess that makes it the lowest weight of now.

Goal Weight: 55kg (121lbs) final but I want to reach 50kg (110lbs) so I can start to reverse diet and settle at 55kg.

2. I do not like my height. Or... I am not bothered by it but if I could choose I would me smaller. I am over the average height for a woman in my country. Just today I saw a taller girl walk past me that had just bones as limps and she looked like a model but not like cutesy dutesy kawaii lil' daisy. Which would ALSO BE FINE but you can look like a cold hearted victoria secret model when you are small but looking cute when tall ist harder.

3. My favorite thinspo are pictures of me on my lowest weight two years ago. Maybe I should take some new pictures soon. Am on a fast right now. Will get to 60kg (132lbs) soon and maybe its not a bad idea to have thinspo pictures of yourelf.

4. My greates fear is people pressuring me into eating. Like... I live on my own, I'm a fun gal I'd say... I dont have to fear anything. But I do could scream when anyone makes it look like I am not eating normally no matter if I do or dont.

5. $elf H@rm I guess? I am actually doing really fine since I am on my adhd meds. Life somehow became manageble allthough I still have to get used to it and figure out how to study. All of my self destructing behaviours have disapeared accept for this one. I guess I just like how thin looks. I did grow up in the 2000s afterall. Maybe I am just wired to want it. (Ignoring the fact that my whole family struggles with their weight and I do seem to be the only one who is not overweight).

6. I binge... but not on purpose though! Whats that question?! My last binge was yesterday. I had reached my new LW two days ago after a fast and then I had broken the fast but I broke it with a lot of carbs and I guess I just thought I had fucked up and so I allowed myself a metabolism day but metabolism day turned into "why is food appearing everywhere?!" day and just like that I had probably eaten around 4-5k calories yesterday consisting of cake, chips, sandwich, a salad, instant noodles and cocolate bonbons.

7. Probably not. My mom is so up in her own mind. To her I probably look just like how I looked with 80kg (176lbs) . Because if I weight a lot I often wear baggy clothes that seem to hide my weight pretty good I guess. Or at least nobody has ever thought of me of something different then slim and athletic. But I do notice people taking note of my looks a bit more. I believe they are just fascinated by it. I do worry about my brother noticing though. He knows about my ed but not what I am doing when and I am pretty good at USING my ed to make it sound like I dont want this ed and how I "found ways to live with it" and how its the people making me insecure about eating instead of the food itself. I hope he buys it. In care u ever read it boy. Sorry... but then again... you are smart... you probably know and just let me be.

8.

ca. 10 min treadmill intervall running

3x 25kg chest press (always trying around 10-15)

3x 50kg Backstretch

3x 45kg Ab Machine

3x 50kg Legpress

3x 45kg Adduction-Abduction

3x 40kg Lat Pull Down

3x 2,5kg reverse Butterfly

I also try and train my wrists by using 4kg weights and then just circling my wrists.

Then I do at least 3 negative pull ups (while also trying an pulling me up at the beginning).

3x Hanging Leg Raises

3x 20x Russian Twists with a weight to just hold onto something

Stretch however I feel like stretching

10 min Treadmill (eighter running or a really steep slope)

9.

Yes but none of it was truly meant in a bad way and they probably didnt even realize it. It just stuck with me.

My childhood best friend tried to encourage his sister to do a front flip (on a trampoline) because she was nearly there but got frustrated. He said "Look! OP is also not the fittest and she can do it too!"

Once my elementary school teacher saw that I got out a toast with nutella from my lunch box and he said "Ouuu. Really, OP? Nutella?" (I just realized that it looks cruel written. I swear back then I liked this man and he totally meant it as a joke. He probably would have loved to eat it too.

I have always been picky with my food and my mom always used to say in front of friends and family and strangers "OP eats everything GMF with chemicals and a bunch of cheese." (because one food I knew I liked was a McD cheeseburger why I always wanted to eat them) as I grew older and more embarassed of that phrase I asked her not to say that anymore and she promised. The new slogan then went like "OP eats everything GMF with chemicals and a bunch of cheese but she doesnt want me to say that anymore." (what a cruel woman. Jokes on her because her habits in absolutely everything in life is actually worse than mine).

And one of my best friends in middle school projected her own insecurities onto me. She thought she was to heavy and needed to lose weight and because of her anxiety this was all she could think about and then she had to check out and compare the boddies of everyone around her. I guess she did that with mine too. And she wanted to be nice and even asked out third friend beforehand if this would be too much. But she came to me and voiced her concern of me gaining weight and not wanting me to realize that later and find it terrible.

10. Döner Kebap (my fellow berliners will know what I mean)

11. Perfect Body I think? The movie on youtube. It just presents this whole topic so bare. Its so hard to find content in that direction because of its riskyness. But I also love to watch documentaries or try to find content to read on wattpad. But I have whole list of 4n4 media saved and its not very small.

12. Normally like healthy normally or normally when I'm on my sh1t? Because... I cant remember the first thing. I start forgetting how I would "normally" eat as soon as I start restricting again. But I know that I always try to get my fruits and veggies in. But now normally... I eat a lot of "salad" consisting of only cucumber, cherry tomatoes and some dressing packages you would usually mix with water and oil put I just dump it in like that. If sweet then its mostly apples and bananas allthough I eliminated them again because of all the sugar and carbs (yes I know cucumbers are also basically just carbs). I always try to avoid sugar so I wont crave it.

13. Define healthy! Because a lot of people would call what I do "unhealthy". But my body really thanks me for being so picky of what I feed it.

14. My UGW is 50kg (110lbs) ... maybe 49kg (108lbs) just to set the 50 straight and have a prettier lbs number. With my current determination I expect to reach it after maybe one or two months... or less.

15. I'm a vegetarian. I think it has helped since the focus lays on more natural products. I made myself lactose intolerant which is why I dont eat much other animal products eighter or at least only if I have decided to pay the price hahaha. But yeah... becoming vegetarian has shrinked my nutritional value down but to a much healthier point.

16. My ed started when I was 12. But I have felt "too big" ever since I could think of. I think most of my life I have just thought that this was a problem only my future me could fix... and I guess then I became the future me.

17. Mainly 4noreks1a but mia has been an all time companion ever since I figured out how to make myselp puke. I am not sure if you can say that I have a b1nge ed since binges are kind of natural to exist as well when you have a restricting ed. Then there is orthorexia where you are overly focused on healthy food or how healthy it is when I got that right. Definetly a part of me. I have all of it but only part time. Is this what arfid describes? But besides that I and various therapists also think I am somewhere on the spectrum but it presents itself in a way more "managable" way. But I believe you can definetly see it in my eating habits and not only now but maybe even more prominent when I was a child. I was so picky that I got scared of some foods.

18. When I am really in the zone there is nothing to really stick out. But I do notice when I am walking past a heavy food spot in the city and I'll get all those exited feelings when smelling all of the different things. I love how good food tastes after you have ⭐️ved for a while. And it loses flavour the more you eat. It even becomes bland.

19. Does cake count? Because then its yesterday. The binge. But if we are really talking burgers, fries or pizza of some sort... it has been a while. I am also broke af. I cant afford to buy fast food. McD is not cheap anymore.

20. 4n4 for the results? M1a for the freedom but tbh... I hate pukig... its definetly not m1a. I like "eat what you want and add what you need" but it doesnt quite work with restriction. High Protein. Keto. Tbh i dont know. I like the diet that makes other people feel bad for eating a toast beside me.

21. I dont know, I am too broke for new clothes. But I do fit into a boys/children hoodie 158/164. Maybe even smaller. I do have tops size S and maybe I could get myself into an XS but I think it would be a squeeze. I do own a dress in size 32 or 34. I checked and was able to squeeze myself in with 66kg (145lbs) but I couldnt close the zipper. I bought my last pair of jeans when I was still heavier and I always bought a 42. This... is way too big now. I have already sown an elastic into onenof my favorite jeans and I constantly have to wear a belt (which I hate). I believe I am a 36 there now or close.

22. I gained because I was mentally sick. I had undiagnosed and untreated adhd. I was/am an alcoholic (nearly two year clean lol). I had financial issues due me moving out of a toxic shared apartment and then having to live on my own. To get my degree I went backt to school and it started right then and there. Two different offices told me that I was owning them (each) 3k because of my mom. I had reached my lowest weight, found myself agreeing to dinner invites to really delicious food. And I noticed I wasnt gaining too fast again. So I guess I let loose to give myself some sort of slack. But all of this is not now and I am in my prime time so this time... I will be better!

23. Not by showing me pretty people. It was just there and helped me find the name for the thoughts I had already on my mind.

24. I am very detatched from those names. Like... I will call things like that and thats it. But I cant actually pretent like 4n4 and/or M1a are actual people or voices in my head. Thinking about it though makes me think though. I dont believe anyone is TRULY "Pro" about it. And if you are its probabl because of some fetish. Because if you were "Pro" you would wish everyone would participate right? You believe that this is the right way. But most know that its a sick and ridiculous mind game that they just have come to obsess over.

25. Yes. First time trying to puke? Didnt work at all. Didnt work in a loooooong time. I just didnt get it. But then I got it and it was the most ecstatic feeling ever. I have had found THE deletion button!!! But I also had my first time lax... it was surprising to say the least. Didnt change much.

26. Not needing the number go down any further. Having some slack. Having a body I wont have to think about. Being light and people around me being able to pick me up without thinking.

27. I cave in easily. But only when I feel like I am looking obvious. I just dont want anyone to think I am weird with food. I dont want them to call me out. I am bad at lying!

28. I want that gap because others want it. I want it because a friend back in school (long time ago) wanted it and couldnt have it (the one who kindly pointed out that I had gained weight). And I think its not much of a topic for her anymore but I know myself that this wont leave you. And knowing her insecure mind I believe that just seing me in good shape (fittest in our group) can make her envy me. And I believe she would check my thigh gap. I should check if I dont already have it now... but I have lost my biker shorts. they would have been perfekt.

29. My definition of beauty is seriously so different from what I am doing to myself. As long as you can move healthily I dont even care what size you are. There are some people on the "bigger" side that I have always been jealous of. I mean when I was overweight I also always defined me as the "wrong kind of fat" because there were pretty fat people and not pretty fat people. I was the later. And then if you move with confidence even better. Then I am sold. Thats basically all there is to it. If we go completely superficial then yes, I would probably prefer a pimple free face, smooth skin, symetry and white teeth. "Ordinary Bodily Proportions". But I guess this is just what we as humans have to like because of our genes. It shows health and cleanliness. But I do live in a woke 21st century world so I dont need a pimple to be gone to be able to see your beauty. I like All kinds of colours in skin, hair and everything else. But I do have to admjt that I have a weakness for people that have a certain natural vibe to them. Like... they just not only look stereotypical good or anything. They dont have to match the beauty standard. But every once in like maybe three years, I will walk past a person outside which makes me think "Holy sh1t!" and when you ask me what it was that made me think that I wont be able to give you an answer.

30. Imma leave this one out. I think its boring.

[hajimesbestdefender]

i saw this essay while i was trying to find kmhn and i have so many thoughts..

if you want to read my thoughts i recommend reading them as you read the sections because thats how i wrote it

okay i'll go chapter by chapter (there are 5 chapters)

chapter 1: faqs

faq #1: the blatant homophobia towards the women youre trying to "protect" in this is very ironic to me. your point here is just plainly incorrect. how on earth does wlw ships further the ideology that women only want men for sex? and what is with the shaming women for not being virgins? there is nothing inherently wrong with having sex, having a sexual past, or anything of the sort. you sexualized these women. miu & sonia have done nothing wrong, and deserve the equal opportunity to be in a relationship and be loved.

faq #2: it *is* simply a matter of preference. there is nothing wrong w preferring makoto/byakuya, hajime/nagito, or kokichi/suichi. yes, those characters (kyoko, chiaki, and kaede) were written to be the protagonists respective love intrest. however, when has a fandom *not* shipped a character with someone who wasnt their love intrest? i can give several examples. it is not down to gender. people can see themselves represented through these relationships, they can hold the belief that those ships work better for the characters, or they can plain like the dynamic better. it does not matter.

faq #3: ...what? that makes no sense. the whole question doesnt make sense. im just not gunna adress it, but it is there.

faq #4: those crushes could be arguable. however, there was a slight hesitation from nagito when he said it, leading many people to believe that. i dont know enough about v3 to speak on that other part.

chapter 2: nagami

once again, it comes down to preference. you cannot controls someones preference. if they like naegami? fine! if they like naegiri? fine! it does not *matter*. at the end of the day, these two ships are perfectly resonable, and do no harm. therefore, both should equally be resepcted. the reason why naegami has more fics on ao3 because people prefer it more. simple as that.

also, this exact senario has happened before in another fandom. in the hp fandom, hinny (harry/ginny, his current wife) is less popular than drarry (draco/harry, his rival). and yk what? they have damn near the same dynamic as naegami. the simple thing is: people prefer the dynamic more. it is not misogynistic to prefer a dynamic. (i could go into a whole ass tangent on how similiar draco and byakuya are, but i digress)

chapter 3: komahina

i could ramble day in and day out abt this ship, but i dont feel like retyping all of it so ima just ss my original ramble to my friends in discord.

(apologies for going off track for a little, PLS IGNORE THE PFP 😭)

moving on, you mentioned nagito lied about having cancer. he didnt. he said he had stage 4 malignant lymphoma and front mental dementia. both of which were never implied to be lies.

"chiaki died for him and the rest of the class"

oh, do you mean in the real world, where she was brutality murdered so class 77 could become brainwashed, and how hajime was already too far gone at that point? or do you mean in the simulation, where they had zero chance of getting out without leaving chiaki behind because she was ai and apart of the system? or the time she had to be executed to save the rest of the group? thats not an act of romance, it was quite literally life or death. in 2 of those situations, it makes no logical sense for chiaki to live and have the rest of the group die. shes a team player, through and through.

chapter 4: saiouma

chapter 5: stats

it comes down to prefrence. there is no misogyny here. it is just people preferring one ship over the other. nothing more, nothing less. this is getting embarrassing atp.

also, as someone pointed out in the comments: kokichi & suichi just have a lot more screen time tg. kokichi made it to chapter 5 & kaede made it to chapter 1 so theres more content to work off.

chiriho: ...you missed their entire story arc!! not suprising you dont actually pay attention to stuff. ALSO!! the transmisogny!! and, to top it all off: youre a terf. whos fucking suprised. chiriho hid under the cover as a woman because they were afraid. thats it. they wanted to become stronger and braver. thats their arc. you red far too into it to come to the conclusions you came to. (using they/them on chiriho bcs i felt like it)

sonia: youre promoting purity culture. women do not need so save their virginity for anyone. nor does anyone. virginity is something given up when that person is ready. sonia was ready. so she gave it up. shouldnt that be a symbol of women empowerment? (note: i hate the concept of virginity as a whole, literally just have sex nobody gives a fuck.)

miu: "she doesnt deserve to be called a woman because of how preverted she acts." you wrote this whole essay as a callout for what you precieve as misogyny. however, throughout the entire damn thing you promoted misogynistic take after take. you basically just said in fujisaki's section that women shouldnt be pushed into a box, and yet,,, youre here telling women they cant be sexual beings? that they have to be pure, clean, and submit to men? miu didnt do anything wrong. she expressed herself in the way she saw fit, and YOURE mad that the way she did so didnt fit your standards? get the fuck out of here, weirdo.

final thoughts:

op has been continuously misogynistic, homophobic, and transphobic throughout this entire read. it is disgusting. now, this can be a blatant troll, but at the same time this is still perpetuating a very disgusting view on women and what they should be. as an afab, i'm disgusted. this is appaling. you disregard so many women writing this. queer women, women who didnt save themselves for marriage (because god forbid women do what they want to do.), or any woman that doesnt fit in your little box. you say youre against misogyny, but this is the most apparent example ive ever seen of a woman with internalized misogyny. if youre being serious? i truly hope you recieve the help you need, and do some interal work trying to combat this. writing 2,643 words worth of fictional parings you dont like when you can simply ignore it and walk outside is just sad. if youre a troll? fuck you.

(also, before you question that "writing 2,643..." line, i wouldve left it alone, but i happened to see it whilst on a 2 hour car ride to thanksgiving and i was bored as shit. sue me.)

EDIT: i came back to this because kendrick dropped euphoria and the hating he did in that song reminded me of my greatest hating moment: this post

[dreamweavers]

something unexpected and very interesting happened on my p2 the other day. this took up over two dozen tweets so i’m definitely putting it under a read more and can hopefully sum it up all in this post lmao. 

to start with, as someone who grew up playing tamagotchi connections, those are what I'm mostly used to. and while different, the tamagotchi plus systems run in basically the same way. so, using my knowledge of obtaining bad care tamas like gozarutchi and kurokotchi on the keitai, I decided to  apply that to the p2 since last time I tried to take bad care of a tama, I wound up getting the good care teen and eventually zuccitchi.

so this time I set out with a mission to take care of it the same way I took care of my keitais that turned into kurokotchi and gozarutchi.  only feed it when the hearts are half empty or more, clean up after it a little while after it poops, cure its sickness a few minutes after I see it & not immediately, and feed it snacks instead of playing games. heard ppl say feeding it snacks is bad so I hoped that would help.

I always keep my tamas by my side while watching TV and check up on them every so often, the tama plus series tamas beep when they poop or are sick so that makes it easy, but I don't think the p2 beeps when they're sick since the attention symbol doesn't light up? but anyway, I was checking up on it every so often and would've noticed if it was sick, and I had just fed it not too long ago. it called for discipline a few times and I ignored it. then it beeped, so I turned to take care of it and (this only being the 3rd gen I raised on a p2)

this was happening. the sickness icon was flashing, and none of the buttons were working when i pressed them. I took a video for like 30 seconds, and looked at my phone for a few seconds while I stopped the recording and then heard a loud beep. and I thought... Is that...? it couldn't be...

i was so confused! it weighed like 75lbs, not the max weight of 99 (at least that's what it is on the connections) and its hearts definitely weren't fully empty. I figured similar concepts would apply to taking poor care of tamas on here but? I guess not?

I'd consider myself pretty knowledgeable abt the tama plus and connections but that's very much not the case with the classics lmao. I usually say "they're easy to take care of, just don't ignore them for hours and hours on end" since that's my experience with the connections but uh? guess thats not the case with the classics lmao.

I wonder what was THE deciding factor? was it all the snacks? thats my guess?  It can't be ignoring discipline, bc I think some tamas are obtainable from using 0 discipline. I've seen other ppl say "why do they have snacks at all if they're bad for them" but I didn't think they could literally kill your tama as a toddler if u dont play a single game w them.

from what i remember of the v4.5 and when i first got the keitai, their stats came up on screen when i pressed a button. nothing came up when i pressed a button on the p2, and i knew pressing A+C would reset the tama, so i did that. when i did so, the tama’s age came up, and when i pressed and held A+C a new egg appeared. 

after thinking abt it some more, the verdict still partially stands: if you have a connection/plus series tama, it should be fine as long as you don't leave it for hours and hours. and for the classics, uh.. don't feed them snacks constantly?

later that evening after having an unrelated weird dream I realized what happened on the p2 is literally 99% of my tama dreams. I look away, then it's on the verge of death and nothing I can do can fix it. (my dreams are almost always connections tho or modified classic tamas)

i read up to see if 0 discipline had an effect and yeah, that and all the snacks and the fact that I didn't play any games to burn off the snacks probably did it. apparently you can still get hashitamatchi if tonmarutchi is at 50-75% discipline so I just disciplined my new tonmarutchi after reading that. it's genuinely hard for me to get the bad care tamas lmao it always takes me several tries on the keitai and, well, same can be said now for the p2 thanks to the fate of my third tama.

even hours later i was still having trouble believing that Actually happened earlier lmao. I have tonmarutchi again rn just like I did earlier today and everything feels the same, it's just remembering those beeps and the UFO that happened so abruptly.

[kkaebsongtypo]

[4:37pm] “Okay, moving on...” Your stats prof continued through the lesson, switching to a new slide in the presentation. The video call class had been going on for just over half an hour, and in all honesty, you had been struggling to pay attention for most of it. You tapped the end of your pen against your bottom lip as your eyes continued to drift to the smaller window in the top right corner where your boyfriend, Donghyuck, was. His brown hair framed his forehead perfectly after running his fingers through it, round framed glasses perched on his nose; he looked annoyingly good today. The way the corner of his lip quirked upwards at a light joke your professor made was the last straw for you; you picked up your phone and opened his contact to text him.

You need to stop looking so fine babe I’m trying to focus

You looked back up to look at Donghyuck as he looked down at his phone. A small smirk made its way onto his lips as he picked up his phone and began typing. He glanced up to look at you in the small window in the bottom row.

Aww, am I distracting you? Maybe you should try harder to keep your eyes on the lesson ;)

You fought the urge to roll your eyes, not wanting to risk your prof seeing and taking it the wrong way. Instead, you poked your tongue into your cheek and placed your phone back down onto the table. You saw Donghyuck chuckle slightly, and you shook your head, trying to ignore him. You tried your best to keep your attention on the presentation, but your eyes kept wandering over to your boyfriend. You took your bottom lip between your teeth in an attempt to help you focus on your professor.

As you took down notes, your phone lit up, a message from Donghyuck appearing on screen.

Don’t bite your lip like that

You raised your eyebrows and smirked slightly, picking up your phone to text him back. His eyes were trained on you, you knew that, but to everyone else he was merely just paying attention to the lesson. His stare was hard as he darted his tongue out to run over his lips quickly.

Oh, am I distracting you ?

Donghyuck scoffed at your expression; the teasing glint in your eyes as you bit your lip again.

Don’t test me, baby.

You furrowed your brows for a moment at your boyfriend’s message before shooting back a response.

lol okay what are you going to do? we’re in class dummy

Donghyuck smirked again and you watched as he typed away at his phone. You fiddled with your pen, waiting for the incoming message. Your eyes widened slightly when it appeared on your screen.

Aw did you really forget that i'm coming over after class? i can easily wait until then

Your lips parted slightly, your tongue between your teeth. Donghyuck laughed at your lack of response before sending another message.

See you in a bit baby, try to stay focused for the rest of the less

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(a/n: dont congregate pls stay safe and healthy everyone!!)

unus annus m.l

[spookypotato]

Wow I loved that ankle fic!! If you are still looking for fics I would really enjoy one where Sirius is caught skating before he’s been cleared, maybe with a couple of the other boys and he gets in loads of trouble, lol dw just ignore if it’s bad idea 😄

1. Thank you! I'm happy you liked it.

2. Oooh yess! I hope I can do this idea justice, because I like it a lot. That's such a Sirius thing!

3. Also I love requests. I have quite a hard time coming up with good ideas but I love to write, so thank you!

Characters by @lumosinlove 💙 Thank you for this universe!

Sirius has been on the ice once, since the 'accident'. It went about as good as watching a toddler take his first steps, but in the end he was able to skate slow laps without falling down. It was stupid. He did this for a living. He had been - not to brag, just stats - one of the best. And now he was sitting on the bench waiting for the team to clear out, so he could go through the pain of skating in a circle for half an hour.

After their practice was over, Sirius went back, to the lockerroom with the boys. He could at least help them theoretically. James asked, how he was doing, as he did each week sometime more than once. Sirius - as he did each week - answered with a: "too slow for my liking". James responsible-motherhen-instict was now, nowhere to be found, when he suggested going skating later that day once even the staff had cleared out.

"You want me to risk my recovery to skate properly now instead of in a few months? Are you crazy!?", is what Sirius should have said.

"So when and where are we meeting?", is what came out of his mouth in a whisper.

That's how after the 10 laps, he did with (almost) ease today, he told Loops, that he was going to stay and do some more streches.

"You can overdo it, you know?", Remus told him, "just be careful alright? I know you'd be devastated, if all of your progress was ruined. And I would be the one having to listen to you whine."

"Firstly, I dont whine. Ever." -thats a lie and both of them knew it- "and secondly, thank you so much for your concern about my well-being, but I'll be careful, mum", Sirius added theatrically annoyed.

"This is literally my job. To tell you to be careful, so that you can play next season."

"So you dont really care about my well-being then, Loops?", Sirius gasped dramatically.

"Dont overdo it. See you tomorrow, Cap."

"Bye, Re."

The rink was silent. It was just him.

Then he nearly fell over as James jumped on him from behind.

Correction, it was just him and James.

"So, you're feeling up to playing?", James asked, standing on his own now.

"Do you really think you can win a one on one against your Captain, Potty?", Sirius challenged.

"Yes. But also I was thinking we wait for the others to join first. They should be here in a second."

"You told the others? If anybody finds out we'll be in so much trouble.", Sirius was beginning to regret his decision.

"So you dont want to play with us?", Finn's voice came out of the tunnel.

"Betrayed by our own captain?!", Logan's voice followed.

The cubs and Kasey stood in front of them now.

"Did nobody of you think it was a bad idea to come?!", Sirius asked.

"Well, our captain thinks it's fine, apparently." "And we found out about it a minute ago that someone will be blocking the rink during goalie-practise times", Leo completed Finn's thoughts.

"So we thought we'd stay with Nut and see if you suck now.", Logan added.

And because Sirius was already excited to just play a little, he answered an "Oh, it's on, Tremzy!" from where he was lacing his skates a bit tighter to give his ankle at least some stability.

Kasey hadn't been much for the idea of his Captain playing again. He knew from his thighs, that disregarding Loops orders, would only lead to a longer break. But since he would have been at the rink because of his goalie-practise anyway, he decided he would stay. Just to keep an eye on them, of course.

Definitely not, because he was missing his captain as much as the rest of the team on the ice.

Once they were all on the ice, James let Sirius choose his Teammates in a three on three. It ended in Potts, Logan and Leo against him, Finn and Kasey.

They all got their sticks and let Sirius' team have the puck first. And so his first after-recovery-game began.

He knew they went easy on him and for the first time he was glad about that. It made the game easier. He got less competitive than usual and thus put less pressure on his recovered ankle.

They passed the puck easily between one another. It felt like he had never been gone. Skating had been so had the first time afterwards, but as soon as he held his stick, he felt like this was were he always belonged.

Sirius got it to Finn and he shot it back. Kasey acting as a player now skated through the middle. He got the puck from Sirius and went for the goal. It hadnt been a bad shot at all, but for Leo there was no fun in letting the puck go in on purpose, so he blocked it and shot it to Logan.

The game went back and forth a few times, Sirius always staying on his good side. He even scored twice. He felt good. It was the first time in a long the he felt truly happy, even.

"Sirius!", came a shout from the boards. It was Lupin. A Angry-Faced Lupin. A kind of Lupin he hadnt seen in a long time. So Sirius decided to better skate over quick but carefully. The others luckily got the hint to be quiet. Or the just wanted to eavesdrop who knows.

"Sirius.", Remus repeated. "I told you to not overdo it-twice, might I add- and you decided playing a game with the team would be a good idea? I'm checking you again and yes, that is absolutely necessary. What were you thinking? You could have undone all you worked for so hard. Not just the last few months but your entire life. You could have never been able to play, do you know that?"

"Yes", Remus was never usually this angry. But Sirius thought he also saw something else in his eyes. Something between relief and excitement, he guessed.

"I hope I scared you enough with that whole speech, for you to not do it again unless I tell you you can, okay?", Loops actually waited for an answer this time. He seemed a bit more relaxed now.

"Ouai, pardon"

"No need to say sorry to me, it would have been your- Well, I do have more work now- actually yeah, say sorry, but it's no problem. I'm honestly just really glad your not currently on the ice with another broken bone.", Remus told him warmly. "Still, dont tell Arthur any of this. All of you!", he shouted to the rest still standing there. " And I will look at your ankle again, if something happens it's better to know sooner than later. Will you wait in the in the medic room?"

"Thanks. Yeah, I'll just take off the skates first.", Sirius answered, while making his way dont to the locker rooms. It was- if he hadnt broken anything again, which it didnt feel like- totally worth it. For the first time in months he actually felt like all the work had made a difference.

"Potts", he heard Loops again, while walking through the tunnel, "Potter, I know this was your idea. Come here and explain yourself."

[voidendron]

Shenanigans™️ from last night's ops:

we ran SM DF and DP cause two of our buddies needed them for Oricon story. we started out with only five (one tank, three DPS, and I got to try solo healing them both for the first time - another friend joined us on DPS right before Grob'thock)

SO

In true Catz fashion, SM = meme run...

First add pull in DF resulted in the tank getting yeeted off the bridge. He started laughing, rezzed.... then IMMEDIATELY died again to one of the underwalker's AOEs

Nefra was pretty uneventful, but no one paid attention to the add so it came for me every time it spawned. I was running around like a dumbass to stay out of the AOE while also trying to stay in range of the tank

Grob was...well. Grob. One of the sorcs got fire the first time and she, while giggling, drops the fire right under me. But guess who got fire the next time? 😈 so we just kept trying to sabotage each other while laughing like dummies. At one point the DPS jugg ignored fire and promptly died cause they didnt move out of it and I couldn't heal them thru it

Draxus was chaos as he usually is, but surprisingly uneventful considering who we are alssksksk same went for Corruptor Zero - tho, there was an add that wouldn't get off me, so one of the sorcs goes "COME ON ME, YA BASTARD" *long pause* DPS jugg repeats it in ops chat and she groans, cause she realized what she said only after saying it, and had hoped no else caught it

Then Brontes.... ah, Brontes. so, a little note: we brought in a new raider we found in a flashpoint and have been teaching him the ropes and stuff. in true Catz fashion, when it comes to SM we just kinda explain as we go while dragging him thru the fights. Brontes actually went well, buuuut...... during the reaches, the sorc says to the new guy: "gotta run between them for the next mechanic"

new guy: "oh okay"

everyone else: "NO, DONT LISTEN TO HER" *laughter, while she starts cackling*

...surprisingly, there were no deaths on Brontes

All in all, DF went surpsingly well considering who we are alalsks

Then came DP...

Bestia was going well, but then the new guy started taking MASSIVE damage all of a sudden

Me: "NERDZ. NERDZ GET OUTTA THE YELLOW. NERDZ. DUDE YOU'RE IN AN AOE I CAN'T HEAL YOU"

"...huh?"

....and he promptly died. *sorc, heals, & tank laughter, including the one who died* I rez him, he backs out of the yellow...then promptly stands in another puddle. I started laughing and he stepped out after that and didn't die again during Bestia. Both juggs (the tank and a DPS) ended up dying after Besta hops down, new guy is actually the one to rez the tank since I'm still on CD for it, and it pretty much becomes "out-damage Bestia before she kills us first" the PT is running around like a madman thru all this cause one of the adds decided he's its new best friend and it doesn't give a shit about the actual tank (fortunately the PT has a hybrid experimental build he came up with himself, so he's got defensive stats to be not as squishy as pyrotechs usually are)

Tyrans.... heh, Tyrans is always fun with this group 😂 most of us, when we get simplification, our goal is to sabotage someone - usually heals or a turret class - by dropping it on their tile. Let's just say the arena looked like a total mess by the end, and Tyrans, the tank, and melee were on a secluded island tile with no way to get off of it. One of the sorcs actually pulled the PT off the tile because he had no way to get out of fire. SOMEHOW no deaths to Tyrans, tho I was struggling to keep people up by the end cause they were running out of places to go to get out of fire/Tyrans cleaves

Calphy was...interesting. First portal goes fine, but between healing I'm trying to arrange ops frames for the second portal phase (was gonna put the two sorcs + tank on left since self-heals, while taking the DPS jug and PT right with me)

...and then the DPS jugg rearranges frames into a single column just to be a shit 😂 so come phase 2, everyone's confused about which portal to go into. I run right with the PT-

everyone else goes left

cue my "oh fuck" as I realize there's only two of us on the right, and one of us doesn't do shit for damage

let's just say I'm really fuckin glad the PT did good damage + had that experimental build, or our side would've been fucked. I'm actually surprised we beat Calphy there

after that, cue me and the jugg fighting over ops frames. I rearranged them back how they should be, then they just threw everyone into random spots-

aaand because of how I have my 8m healing UI set up, the way they arranged it made it so I could no longer see one of the group members in the frames. AND since I keep friendly nameplates turned off, the person who go dragged off-screen was kinda fucked for the Drouks since I couldn't see their health nor click on them with everyone stacked so close

and ah- turned out it was the one fucking with frames who I couldn't see aksl;djlk so they died within seconds of pulling the Drouks and I couldn't help but start laughing because KARMA

I rearrange frames correctly again, they fuck em up again, so I revoke their LT privileges and one of our sorcs just busts out laughing "oh, that's COLD" (I gave em back LT partway thru Raptus, and they didn't mess with frames again after that akls;djlk)

ANYWAY

it was so much fun and my stomach hurt from laughing so much 😂

it's a wonder how we get through HMs when we wipe in SMs from being dumbasses (legit, we've wiped on SM and HM Bonethrasher so many times cause we've been laughing so hard), but goddamn is running with this group fun aklsd;jkld

[slumberinglabyrinth]

a while back i did a review of the prison chapter in por and it was totally overblown and whatever but i kinda wanna do that again for (what remains of) radiant dawn so i guess i will

I'll be doing them in batches since this got long. In this post: 3-5 through 3-9

3-5: it's been two years and i forget why we have to defend this castle

this was a pretty alright map. the reinforcements were annoying but that's because I generally don't actually turtle all that much on defend chapters and as a result I was Right There whenever and wherever they showed up. I tried to grab the energy drop off the boss but the dude ran away from Heather the moment I created an opening and I didn’t want to reset so :^/

I moved provoke off of shinon and onto Brom for this and its... probably way too strong? like it wasn't a 100% draw rate but there were several turns in a row where he was the only person being attacked which is. insane. and also super fun lmao. I think it's a shame that the hostility mechanics in fe aren't as well documented; on some level it ruins the magic, but in cases like this where you're actively influencing it i think it'd be useful to know to what degree you're actually influencing it

disarm + steal is also a really neat/fun idea that would be a great way to counteract how i apparently will never have any money for weapons while playing as the greilgallia party crew 😔 (not to be confused with the greilgallia polycule, which disbanded around twenty years earlier) but I can also never get disarm to proc and half the things that i was able to get unequipped were too heavy for Heather to actually steal 😔

all around a decent map to ease myself back into playing rd with. I certainly could have played better, but defend maps tend to be easier and I appreciated that here

3-6: dawn brigade returns and promptly sinks into a swamp

god this map sucked. it's really hard to pick where to start with it but while i get that lore dictates that they need to only be fighting laguz right here it was probably the wrong gameplay decision with everything else that was going on. I think maybe making tigers have ~4 less str across the board would have been a nice start since I kinda needed to either never get hit by them at all or to kill them first.

several chapters later I’m also realizing maybe i should have like. started to use bexp lol

fighting laguz is also really weird in terms of like... because they have boosted stats while transformed so you can either kill them while they're untransformed (which is fairly easy but since they don't attack, you have to kill them during player phase which means one per turn per unit), deal chip damage (or none at all) to burn down their gauge so you can actually kill them, or try to power through their boosted stats and hope you don’t die in the process.

Because I hadn't used bexp and almost all my units were super weak, I mostly had to rely on the eff against beasts knife that you can buy in the bargain shop this chapter and also volug, who had enough def (even with halfshift) to not die in one round. Honorable mentions go to noland (a fitting name for this map), jill (with canto!), and zihark, who were able to help pick off untransformed laguz, and to micaiah, who could deal magic damage and actually damage transformed laguz.

this was also the first dawn brigade map! i know lots of people people dont like their maps after act 1 and while i was trying to go into this one with an open mind... yeah, they totally got shafted by this map design. it's not really their fault but this map sucked hard. I know that they generally did one of each class variant (fire mage, wind mage, etc.) and not have duplicates but I think that the dawn brigade would have benefited from another mage of some kind if only so you could have someone who could deal with all these goddamned cats

also bk shows up but since he's not a bonus unit i didn't want to feed him kills so i didnt really use him. maybe that was a mistake. also why couldn't he like. warp someone that wasn't the furthest away from the action.

3-7: hey so we heard you liked the previous map

Zihark is there? fuck this i'm reverting to a previous save and unrecruiting him

3-6: i forgot to mention that this map was a swamp map and also had darkness

I know I've mentioned that the similar map in fe6 (desert+fog) was actually kinda alright but this one isnt that at all. Playing through it a second time helped because i knew where enemies were spawning, but it was still more annoying than fun.

Swamps commit the cardinal sin of forcing everyone that can't fly (in this case: everyone but jill) to suffer massive terrain penalties. Deserts at least let mages move a little bit further (which admittedly wouldn't help much here since it's only micaiah and laura), but here everyone friend and foe alike (except Jill) moves slowly and it makes gameplay just grind to a halt which is never, ever fun level design.

Also Fiona just. could not move beyond the starting island. she couldn't even wade a little bit into the swamp like i did with ed and leo to attack at range and get laguz to untransform. they let you deploy everyone but it genuinely felt like i wasn't handed the tools to succeed at this map. always a great goal to have when designing a game

I don't know how to improve this map. unrecruiting zihark (by flying him up to the northeast with jill and having him talk to mordy/lethe) wasn't particularly difficult (battle saves make it easy enough to scout out where they were, and it's not like i'd ever feel bad about 'cheating' on this map) but... would a greater field of view actually help? would making it not a swamp actually help? would giving you more allied units that'll throw themselves in the face of danger with no regard for their own lives actually help?

I don't know.

3-7: but for real this time

Back to ikequest!

this map is... literally the same map as the previous one, but with a different map objective. and larger. and backwards. and not at night.

it's still a swamp.

Luckily, it's a survive map, and the vast majority of the enemy force does not have the time to actually reach you if you hide up in the corner.

Which is exactly what i did.

Here's the list of the optional units (ike and ranulf are mandatory, which sucks because i don't like using twinks cat laguz and ike's plot promotion feels miles away) I deployed and why I deployed them

Haar: to fly out and recruit Jill

Gatrie: to be carried by Haar and specifically to bait the single thunder mage in Haar's way (and help Haar clean out that area so Jill can be safely recruited). I gave him corrosion two maps ago and it actually fully disarmed a guy on this map! 🎊

Brom: stand near where the swamp ends and draw the handful of enemies that actually make it all the way there away from ike and ranulf and ulki and jaffar (who are auto-recruits in this chapter).

This map is. so incredibly easy to both beat and complete the (meaningful) optional objectives on. I missed a conversation between Ike and Micaiah (which requires you to travel all the way across the map that i just finished saying takes forever to traverse and do it in 12 turns), but as long as you unrecruit Zihark on the previous map (he's.... right in the middle of the main force so good luck if you don't) you can probably do this map first try with no deaths even if you haven't trained haargatriebrom At All

I think that kinda underscores a problem that intsys had with rd which was... it feels like they didn't really have a lot of time to fine-tune stuff? like you're going from the hardest (or at least most unpleasant) map to the easiest one this side of the tutorial and it just. doesn't feel good? like there's going to be some inherent difficulty in balancing a difficulty curve when you're shifting from party to party but. this was bad. really bad.

Also a side observation but it does actually say who units can talk to in battle prep which is pretty useful thing to have! you need to shift the stat spreadsheet allllll the way over, but it's there!

i promptly forgot about it by the time 3-10 came around and was like "hey i should just. have ike run up to elincia, see if they'll talk, and then reset" though lol

3-8: Less-than-Lethal Lava Land

A fairly standard lava cave map. My only real comment here is that it was kinda nice how they made the spots where you'd take damage fairly obvious while still making them appear as natural parts of the terrain. I think it was the durandal map in 7 but its "if you're on these at the end of the turn you'll take damage" tiles looked super out of place while the armads map on the other hand wasn't super self-evident and i'm glad they improved

3-9: still cant use lucia >:(

Another party shift (this time to Elincia), and there was some good use of ledges in this chapter!

Most of your units couldn't use them but it created alternate paths for the ones that could (Calill and Devdan). Previous maps tended to use them more as holes in your defenses than needed to be plugged, but it created ways to progress (and ways for reinforcements to catch up) that are usually reserved for flying units, except now you're interacting with the map instead of ignoring it completely.

I think I've yet to meet someone who genuinely likes ledges as a map element, though I think this map really drives home that the sole (inherent) problem with them is the accuracy modifications (which, as this map also demonstrates when the stairs near the end become a chokepoint, are actually present with all elevation changes). While the +2 damage dealt while on the high ground is reasonable, +50 and especially -50 to hitrate are insane and completely unnecessary modifiers. They should be half that if you even choose to retain both.

Anyway.

the absolute lack of a (player-controlled) healer in Elincia's party was also........ interesting. Annoying, but interesting. Why must allied clerics choose death?1

[thewritingstar]

Gift Swap!!

So for the @kuroshironekoserver gift exchange, I got the lovely @diabl0o

now you asked for BakuDeku which ive never written before so i apologize in advanced but this was kinda fun to write their dynamic so i hope you enjoy this and if you dont i am sorry for the trash you are about to read. Anyways here ya go :) 

Pairing: BakuDeku

Word count: 2.5k

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The bell gave off its routine ringing and all students from every class made their way to the cafeteria for lunch. Chatter and laughter filled the hallways and Class 1-A was no exception. They had all finished up their English session with Present Mic and were packing up their bags and filing out the doors.

Deku fiddled with his notebook before huffing and pushing open the door, too many thoughts were running in his mind as the day had gone by. He was one to over think everything but this was on a whole new level.

“Deku!” Uraraka called and he turned around to find her wrapping her arm around his and started walking with him. “Are you nervous?” She asked, which in both of their defenses was an understatement and lackluster question in general.

“Yeah, I just hope it goes well.” His palms began to sweat as he wiped them on his pants and they took a seat at their usual table with Todoroki, Iida and Tsyu.

“I'm sure it will be amazing! Don’t worry!” Her usual bright smile should have made him feel better but it didn’t, not in the slightest.

“What's gonna go amazing?” Tsyu asked and all eyes were on the sweating green bean of a boy.

“Today you’re asking Bakugou out and hoping that he doesn’t reject you and ruin your life right?” The bluntness of Todorkoi was scolded by Uraraka and Tsyu quickly.

“You think he will ruin my life?” Deku pushed his face into the table and they all tried to cheer him up.

“No, no, of course not.” Uraraka shot a glare at the duo haired boy who shrugged and tried to reason.

“Nothing bad is going to happen.” Todoroki said to redeem himself.

“We are all here to support you no matter what!” Iida chimed in.

Deku was thankful to have such great friends and turned his head and found the blond at his own table yelling at Kirishima for something minor.

“He’s just so dreamy.” Deku panicked as he watched the blonds fists exploded as they connected with the table.

“Yeah he sure is.” Tsyu said with a short tone and Uraraka let out a giggle.

They all finished their lunch and helped him prepare his speech.

“Go get him tiger!” Uraraka cheered as the bell rang and they all headed to their next class which coincidentally had Bakugou and Deku working in a pair.

Deku let out a small wave as they parted to their respectful locker rooms. Inside his stomach began to twist knowing that in a few minutes, his confession would be made known.

In the locker room, all the boys were putting on their hero costumes and messing around. In the corner Deku went over his lines one more time but knew that a long speech probably wouldn’t go as planned. The bell rang and the boys walked to the center of the field, Deku never taking his eyes off of the guy who had his heart.

“For today's exercise we are going to do pair fighting. You and your partner will dispatch into the makeshift city or forest and anything you find a team, you battle them. Remember to try and keep them quick and simple, work on kill shots and heavy hitting moves. The team to take out the most pairs or has the best moves will get extra credit on their next exam. When the whistle blows make your way out and find a place, then when the bell chimes, your free to go.” Mr Aizawa spoke as he took a spot on the bench and stat down. The whistle came to his lips and her blew.

“To the fucking forest Deku.” Bakugou said. He was thankful that Bakugou referred to him mostly as Deku and nothing else. After three years and their last year at U.A, their relationship chemistry had softened and rivals wasn’t really what they were any more. More like acquaintances but Deku dreamed they would become more towards the end of graduation.  

“Yeah okay.” Deku responded and followed the blond. He kept his eye on his back as they walked for a few minutes, his mind escaping to all the outcomes of his confession.

“If we go out here, there's gonna be less chance for an ambush. We can make our way behind the buildings and to the city, plus the pond is where Frog legs and Half n Half are probably at.” Bakugou rambled but Deku couldn't be more unfocused.

Soon he collided with a hard surface which happens to be Bakugou's back.

“Are you paying attention Deku?” Bakugou spat, his red eyes beaming into the green of Dekus.

“Oh yeah forest, pond, city. Got it.” He repeated.

Bakugou furrowed his eyebrows but left it alone as the bell sounded.

“Lets go!” Bakugou yelled and they both took off running towards the pond.

As pace picked up Deku tried to find the perfect moment to tell him. He needed it to be just the two of them or else he might regret doing it in front of their classmates, he knew the gossip would be a landmine for the class, especially Mina.

The pair approached the edge of the pond and hide behind the rocks of the small waterfall. In the distance was Tsyu and Todoroki. They definitely had the advantage with the water and Deku then questioned why Bakugou would even want to put themselves in this position.

“Fuck that icyhot bastard.”

“Spite.” Deku whispered with realization. The only way to beat them is to catch them off guard.

However their plans were disrupted as a battle broke out between Todoroki, Tsyu, Hagakure and Sero.

Perfect. This was good enough for Deku. As the other teams dueled it out, it was time for the big reveal.

“Hey Bakugou.” He said quietly and the blond turned to him with his usual scowl.

“What?” He spat but it wasn’t harsh.

“I was wondering if you wanted to maybe study or get coffee sometime?” His breathing hitched as Bakugou raised a brow.

“Didn’t we fucking get shit yesterday?”

Deku’s eyes widened and he shook his hands before scuffling out a laugh.

“Well yeah but that was with all our friends...I was thinking just the two of us.” He continued. “Like a date.”

In that moment Bakugou's eyes enlarged and his lips tightened into a thin line. He looked like he was processing the request over and over again.

Deku waited for a response but then heard a crash in the water. The pair snapped their heads at the four of them and saw that Sero had been thrown by Froppy.

“Now!” Bakugou yelled as he ignored the question at hand and jumped onto the scene.

Deku followed in suit and caught the four on the surprise attack. Quickly they manage to take them down and head to the city. The question still loomed overhead and he felt a little bad that he corrupted his thoughts when they were in training.

More fights around the city came about and Bakugou blew up a car when Momo and Denki were announced the winners.

“Wow congrats you two!” Uraraka beamed and the rest of them filed in to complement the pair.

“Yeah dude you really need the boost.” Kirishima laughed and then received a punch from Denki.

Deku smiled at his friends but turned to see Bakugou stomping towards the locker room. He quickly left the group and caught up with him.

“Bakugou?” He asked hesitantly but he made no motion to stop.

“Not now.” He ended the conversation by walking in and only appearing for dinner but even then Deku didn’t have a chance to say anything more.

“So he said no?” Uraraka asked as she sat on Dekus bed.

Spinning in his swivel chair, Deku sighed. “Well he didn’t say no exactly but the mood definitely wasn’t pleasant. I just hope I didn’t ruin anything between us.

She was unsure of how to comfort him because Bakugou wasn’t the type to open up easily. “I can ask Kirishima-”

“No its fine, lets just leave it alone.”

Uraraka nodded before turning on an action movie starring All Might. She could tell he was putting on a brave face but teenage heartbreak was on the list of worst feelings in the world.

--- Two days had passed by since his confession or date invitation. Bakugou hadn’t responded to Deku and even Kirishima wasn’t told about what had happened. This was pure torture for Deku. He spends his days in class staring at the back of the blondes head, waiting for him to turn around and answer him, but it was no use.

And he had enough. After class had ended for the day, Deku caught Bakugou walking towards the locker room. Making sure that no one else was around, he locked the door trapping them both in.

“What the fuck are you doing?” Bakugou snapped as the door shut.

“I want my answer, it's been two days.” Deku said boldly but not leaving his space. The angered expression didn’t leave Bakugou's face as he stood silently.

Deku let out a huff before hugging his arms around his body. He tried not to let any tears gather in his eyes. He couldn’t cry in front of his crush, especially not at a time like this.

“Look Bakugou, if you didn’t want to go on a date all you had to say was no. It's okay.” Deku shrugged but even his eyes couldn’t hide his heartbreak. “I would have understood.”

“It wasn’t a no.”

Deku blinked. Not sure if he heard him correctly, looked around the room then focused on Bakugou. “Then why-”

“Because I'm a broken person!” He yelled as his fists sparked at his sides. “And don’t give me any bullshit about how im not and im a great guy cause its not gonna fucking work.”

“Bakugou, I-”

An explosion sent out from his palms and hit one of the lockers. At that moment neither of them cared. Bakugou was a mess. His mind was racing it almost hurt to think, he felt like Denki in that moment.

“I don’t fucking get it Izuku. Why on earth would you even want to be with someone like me? I was an asshole to you. Why don’t you run to icy hot, round cheeks or anyone else who is worth a damn?” He sighed and plopped onto one of the benches.

Deku stood wondering what to do. A small smile formed on his face as a fond memory came to him.

“When I was a kid I had a music box.”

“What the fuck?”

“Just listen please.” He said and Bakugou shrugged and let him continue. “This music box was my favorite thing, also the only non All Might thing I owned. It was supposed to play a little melody and when you opened the top, a small ballerina danced around.”

“Why are you telling me this?” He asked watching the boy ramble on.

“When my mom gave me it, the music skipped and cracked in certain places. It didn’t even sound quite right and even the girl would only turn a few times before standing still. But even after my mom asked if I wanted her to fix it or buy me a new one, I refused. Its shaky music and still ballerina was perfect in my eyes, no matter how broken or damaged it was.”

He remained silent as Deku took a seat next to him.

“Katsuki, I know that you weren’t the greatest friend in the past and sure you weren’t the easiest to get along with, but no matter how harsh you could be to the world, I always saw the golden light you beamed with. Sometimes even the best things are broken, but that doesn’t mean they are any less beautiful.”

The confession took Bakugou by surprise. It wasn’t a simple “hey I like you.” or “ You’re hot so we should date.” Instead it was more of a “I like you, even with your flaws.” A warm fuzzy feeling went into his chest and he hated it but craved it more.

“Alright fine!” He said.

“So you’ll go on a date with me?” Deku asked, his voice rising several octaves due to his excitement.

“Yeah, yeah i’ll go on one with you. Your ass better not be late.”

“Wouldn’t dream of it.” Deku replied before walking towards the door. He unlocked it and pushed on the handle before he was turned around and pressed against the door.

Soon his eyes met with crimson ones that were extremely close and he could feel their noses touching. His eyes closed as Bakugou leaned and pressed their lips together quick and fast.

“I like you too...Izuku.” Bakugou said as his eyes went to anywhere except for the blushing boy he just kissed.

“See you later Bakugou, have fun training.” Deku said as his heart pounded fast in his chest.

“Katsuki.” He heard as he pushed the door open.

As soon as the door shut, Deku raced to find Uraraka. He saw her walking with Todoroki and basically slammed her into the ground.

“HE SAID YES!” He cheered and then helped her up. His body was shaking from excitement and he was still on the high if the kiss.

“So you have a date?” She asked and he nodded quickly before racing off.

“Young love.” Todoroki said as they watched their friend run off to who knows where. --- A knock came from the other side of Dekus door. He called the person on the other side to just come in and the door opened to reveal a date ready Bakugou.

“You ready yet?” He asked and watched as Deku ran around trying to get all the last minute things together like his shoes and socks.

“Mm hmm. Oh crap! I forgot that Mina as my tie, I'll be right back!” He said but was already running out the door towards the girls dorms.

Bakugou didn’t have time to yell at him for running late so he just looked around his room. Of course everything was All Might themed and inside he was losing his mind at all the cool stuff. He turned to see something on his desk.

It was a small wooden box that had many scratches. On the back was a key to turn and since his curiosity got the best of him, he did. He then opened the top and realized that the small ballerina in front of him was the one he talked about during his confession. He was right when he said that she did not spin correctly and the song wasn’t as pleasant to listen too.

It mesmerized him. It was broken and damaged, yet he still liked it. He thought that maybe he wasn’t as bad as people said he was. Maybe he was that ballerina, always turning to the music but get stuck sometimes.

He set the box down as he heard footsteps coming closer. Deku appeared with his tie on and apologized for his lateness. Shrugging Bakugou passed him and pressed a kiss on his cheek.

“Thats alright, let go before a long fucking line shows.”

Izuku nodded and grabbed the handle of the door, he noticed that his music box was moved but didn’t say anything about it. He caught up with Katsuki and they held hands as they walked to the restaurant.

“Still beautiful.” Deku thought to himself.

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sooo I hope you liked it. 

[derekscorner]

Between KH2 and KH3, which game did you like more, both story and gameplay-wise?

Ah is this that KH2 vs 3 debate I hear is ongoing? Well if you’re in for a sit I can answer that.

Gameplay:

From this angle I quite bluntly find KH2 Final Mix more fun. I’m not going to argue what was arguably better or worse, gameplay preference is a matter of…well preference no matter how many wish to deny this fact.

Not that you do but I”m sure some lover or hater of one will see this and try to retort. o3ob

Anyway; I felt Kh2 final mix was more technical and “harder” if I had to describe the feeling. Like 3 KH2 is normally overly easy but when put on critical mode it’s technicalities shine.I had to learn tactics, I couldn’t spam X or △, and I learned uses for summons. Which I found ironic since the 2 summons are far more useful when you dont initiate their moves.

Like if I let Stitch wander the screen he’ll deflect projectiles and keep my MP full. Chicken Little is a great early Magnet substitute and Peter Pan+Tinker Bell gives you a Phoenix Down.This was an improvement to KH1 in which only Tinker Bell was a spell with decent combat use. 1′s other summons had more supplemental uses imo.

KH3′s summons were nearly win buttons I felt. Simba in particular, while damn spectacle, felt broken. I never bothered to learn them as I didn’t need them. Which I’m sure they have their own uses but I’m not really fond of many control schemes for them so I opt out of it.

In terms of the magic system I felt 2 and 3 were opposites. In KH3 magic is far too powerful, something many have noted. And while you dont ‘have’ to use it that’s not an excuse for a problem. You should choose not to use it not force yourself to ignore it for challenge.

KH2 on the opposite spectrum made magic nearly useless I felt. Many enemies didn’t stun nor have elemental damage. Fire’s AOE animation was good for early Critical game and Blizzard helps that first Hollow Bastion visit but many enemies shrug the base spells off later.In contrast, KH2′s Magnet and Thunder spells can be OP. Reflect in of itself is practically the only spell you’d ever need to use due to it’s nature.

So while many have long rants on either’s magic system I dont really think one trumps the other. each one is equally flawed with issues I dont see ever being addressed.

In terms of keyblade combat I preferred KH2′s because I felt like Sora was automated in 3. I spam X cause I’m a scrub at timing presses (DMC5 is helping me overcome that) and due to this I noticed real quick that Sora’s combos just felt really automated.

Like I’d press X for one hit and get three. In contrast, KH2′s combat is harder. Sora animates combos as fast as my lazy ass can spam X and I’m not floating around like a final fantasy god.

I’m not really sure how to put this feeling into words but I do feel Kh2 keyblades are funner or snappier to combo whereas in KH3 I’m playing a watered down FFXV with it’s hold/press X for combo string.

Both games are so similar outside this issue that I dont see no reason to list likes or dislikes. If anything, from here, KH3 had great quality of life changes. The menu system was easier on the eyes and I’d be a damned soul if I didn’t admit I like switching keyblades mid-combat.

I also really appreciate KH3 finally using Re:Coded’s keyblade ideas. It’s been there since that DS game yet no one every expanded on making keyblades unique since. It was a very foolish step backward to me.

I love that keyblades level up, I love that each one has a preference and the only way that could’ve been better is if they adapted Coded’s system entirely and gave each keyblade (or most) it’s own unique combo.

KH2 quite frankly just falls short in a hindsight perspective since keyblades were “stat sticks” and you only ever chose weaker ones for an ability. Which, back then, was a huge step up from KH1.

So KH3 wins in this area I also dont really hate on Kh2 for it since KH2 is a product of the era. This idea of keyblades growing with you didn’t happen till Re:Coded.

As for Shotlocks…I dont like them. I hated them in BBS and I hate them here. It’s not even a comparison to KH2 type of opinion. I hate Shotlocks, I never use shotlocks so I’m going to skip those.

I mean sure, KH2 had limits but the only limits I use are Knocksmash so I can’t exactly praise KH2′s half of that either.

And when it comes to Forms vs Transformations I think both have pros and cons the other lacks. For example, some Transformations are really cool, I love the hammer weapons or the dual pistols.

I also believe the staff transformation is what KH2′s wisdom form should’ve been in terms of how it does magic or basic attacks.

That said, I also really dislike many second forms keyblades have. I never evolve the pistols into the bazooka, I never turn the hammer into the drill, I have those second forms. It’s to the extent I prefer keyblades that have one form such as the staff.

I’m also not fond of the Kingdom Key’s 2nd form change. It’s a neat throwback and I love the outfit recolor but I dont find it fun to use.

Between the two games my favorite forms are Valor Form, Anti-Form, and the Staff Transformation. Odds are I wont use anything else unless I feel particularly bored.

I might use others more often if KH3 forced me to rely on them for tactics but as of right now it does not. This may change with 3 gets it’s Critical Mode DLC. Similar to how KH2FM forced me to rely on forms I hate like Wisdom or Final.

As a concept I will admit that I dislike transformations. I dont like the idea of keyblades becoming magical swiss army knives. KH3 pulled the idea off better than I expected but I dont like it all the same.

The only, and I mean only, thing I felt KH2 did better was tie forms to a meter. In KH3 the commands appear randomly (and often) and I dont gain consequences for using them.

In KH2 this was tied to your Drive Gauge. You had to plan what you used and this is an issue I felt KH3 had as a whole. Rather than shotlocks, I’d have preferred that Focus Gauge to be reserved for my summons and forms so that I could have better control of what I picked and to reduce how broken they are in-game.

The rest is miscellaneous opinions so I’ll rapid fire:

Gummi Ships: always hated them, BBS did Gummi Ships best. Point goes to KH3 here since I can at least skip most of it.

Minigames: I’ve never found a KH minigame fun. No one wins here

Worlds: KH3 wins this aspect too. World towns have actual people in them and when it uses original plots the worlds are quite good. I also appreciate the power to explore and soft platform again. It gives me a more immersive feeling than later titles ever have. (although I feel KH1 was still better than both here)(entirely because of how many small details/cameos/secrets a KH1 world had compared to sequels)

I dont really have a more technical opinion than that. I do however think Arendelle was a horrendous world and I hate to even be there. For a myriad of reasons….reasons that would be a rant post of it’s own.

Lil Chef: I never use the food. I dont care if it’s a good spot for ingredients. If I want to cook stuff I’ll do some irl or play FFXV.

Enemies: KH3 used nobodies more than KH2 did and I find that a damn crying shame. I also felt Unversed were underutilized. KH2 still takes the point here due to the combat points I mentioned above.

KH3 fodder is prettier and can be more elaborate but KH2 is funner to play and destroy them in so KH2.

The Disney Rides: I don’t use them, they break the game. I do like the choo choo though since it’s situational to specific battles. KH2 has nothing akin to these so there’s no comparison, I just wish the rides could be disabled or that they worked more like the train. (set to key fights)

KH2 vs KH3 Commands: Eh both aren’t that good. KH3 spams you commands to shift through and KH2 has so many for spectacles sake that the games get easy. There is no winner here, if anything KH2 should’ve restricted these like KH3 restricts the Train ride summon.

Final Fantasy: I dont like FF games but I consider the ones of Kh1 part of the main cast. Their alternate KH selves are important to me. The lack and fading of FF over the years is quite honestly something I dislike and 3′s total lack of them is inexcusable to me. KH2 takes this point since I got to at least meet Leon and crew again.

Then there’s the story.

Anyone that’s followed the blog or met me knows I strongly dislike the direction of KH’s story. It’s not a matter of things others debate, I do not like it. I hate it and I’m still teetering on quitting.

I wont even go into the points cause I’ve made a whole series of posts about my story gripes. I wont link them since this isn’t a shameless plug, I just want to iterate that my issues with the story has driven me to make 20+ tangents plus the older more angry rants.

Others liking it is fine I think, I get easily annoyed if someone tries to excuse something out of nostalgia or adoration, but generally anyone that likes it while admitting faults or agreeing to disagree is fine. (you do you folks)

If I had to rank them I feel KH2 is where a lot of issues started and I feel a lot of issues got worse after since the sequels tried to “fix” that mess. If left alone KH2 would’ve been a poorly written entry and a good stopping point for any disillusioned fan.

KH3 as a contrast tied up everything after 2 up til 3 itself. I do not consider the story good, the pacing is very jarring because it lacks a mid point, it’s weighed down by all the BS prior to it.

I do not feel attachment for the “trios” of the series, I find the repetition of them annoying. I find it a shame most have more dev time than the originals they’re cloned based on.

And I frankly dislike Xehanort as a villain. He’s not interesting, his motives seem to switch with several report entries and I dont eve get the satisfaction of ending him like I did Xemnas or Ansem.

I was entirely indifferent to the entirety of this game’s narrative as I played it. Something that worried my friend @blackosprey because I was so tired I could not even care enough to hate it.

I did fine the trios reunions well done. I dislike them for a list of reasons but they were coming back anyway, their fates sucked prior, so those were well done. I finally felt hype when the LW appeared (only to vanish, fuck you nomura) and in the final battle.

The ending was confusing to me. So many got a happy ending so I fail to see the logic of Sora vanishing. The Luxu reveal, which I found fucking hilarious, was the only sequel bait needed.To have Sora just up and die felt like a stupid decision and I’m sure many more found it insulting.

And when mentioning Luxu I dont mean it in a sarcastic fashion. I genuinely find him funnier in retrospect due to this retroactive change. Nearly every line or scene he’s said is now funny as hell because he’s this ancient troll. I consider it the first legitimately earned twist Nomura has made in ages.

Still, KH2′s writing and story isn’t great either. I could rant why, I have ranted why, but despite it’s flaws it was an “ending” to me.So if asked 2 or 3 I will pick 2. The writing in Kh2 is bad for lots of reasons but if I ignore the Ansem reports it’s no a story about Xehanort.

Ignoring one KH2 report let’s me live this simpler story of Sora and a scientist gone mad and the journey to stop him. It had a lot of stupid things or one of the worst “twists for twists sake” moments ever in the ‘two ansems’ reveal.

But still, I can play Kh2 and be in a KHverse where Xehanorts, Keyblade Wars, Ceremonies, timelines, sleeping worlds, data world abuse, and clones upon clones dont exist.

It’s not nostalgia so much as everything I came to dislike was post KH2. KH3 was all about these things I dont like. My favorite for key and nostalgic reasons is KH1, my pick of the question is Kh2.

KH3′s best assets that can’t be contested was it’s graphical evolution. I played KH3 three times back to back due to this, I came away from KH3 wishing KH1 or 2 looked like this. No game prior contests the look.

So all in all, as I reread this, it’s largely a mixed bag. Neither game is grand but I prefer KH2 because combat is more fun to me and it’s not tied down by a narrative and mythology I’ve come to hate.

I can play KH1, CoM, and KH2 and never be annoyed about something I loved going in a direction I hated.

[goddamnmuses-a]

Here’s what the like.. finished results of that make a muse meme thing should end up with.. using Diego:

Real name: Lucas Rodriguez Aka: Diego Dynamic. Class: Rockerboy. Stats: ( higher the number the better 5-7 = average.) Intelligence: 6 (Obviously.. How smart they are.) Reflexes:9 (Again kind of Obvious.. How fast they are at reacting.) Cool: 7 (How well they deal with pressure) Tech: 7 (How good they are at machines and stuff) Luck:3 (How lucky they are.. honestly kind of pointless when rping like we rp on here but hey ho.. It’s a dump stat xD) Attractiveness: 9 (How damn fine they are.. Also kind of pointless but i guess i’ll factor it in to a fc suggestion maybe.. probably not :P) Empathy: 7 (How human they are. With each augmentation to their body they slowly become less human and more machine but you don’t have to worry about that too much.) Body Type: 8 [Strong] (How strong they are.)

Augmentations: (The cybernetic augmentations they have. I’m rolling these as if they’re an npc.) Reinforced Knuckle Bones. Cyberarm with a submachine gun in it. Metal fangs.

Weapon: Guitar Assault Rifle. (Everyone and their mom has a weapon. Diego’s was just an assault rifle.. I added that it’s also his guitar for some flavour.)

Style: Jumpsuit. Mirrorshades. Neat and Short hair. (Also rolled like they’re an npc.. it’s your character they can have whatever style they want)

Ethnic Origin: South American -Spanish (obvious.) Family: Arcology Family. Living parents, they're Okay. Grew up in a Corporate Research Facility. Only Child. (For each of them I’ll do like an explination here on the actual characters thing.)

Personality: Arrogant, proud, aloof. (Again, it’s your character you can change most of this upcoming stuff) Person valued most: A Friend. Values: Love Opinions on people: Likes almost everyone. Most Valued possession: A recording.

Age: 28 Years Old (So cyberpunk has this like table where you can roll and see what happened to your character from 17 upwards so.. again.. all changeable if you dont like it)

Through the years:  17 - He had one night stands 18 - He was accused of being a coward which he dealt by saving anyone else involved in it. (His friend chickened out, he took blame) 19 - Nothing happened. 20 - He made an enemy (male) who was a booster gang member this lead to him losing a lover/friend which means Diego hates them and he’ll ignore them if he sees them again. They have a small corporation they can use against Diego. 21 - Made a friend (female) who is like a foster parent 22 - He had a love affair with problems,the problems being conflicting families. 23 - He made an enemy (female) which caused the loss of lover/friend/relative, the feelings mutual between them and if he runs into them he will ignore them, they only have themselves to throw at him.  24 - Nothing happened. 25 - Made an enemy (male) who is a corporate executive, Diego humiliated them and the hatred is mutual. If he sees them he will avoid them. They can throw a large corporation at Diego. 26 - Nothing happened. 27 - He had some one night stands. 28 - He had a happy love affair.

FC: (probably suggeted FC for you lot) Chay Suede

(Then i’ll throw some notes down here if i have any.. Also gonna @agentjadelance because she’s already liked the thing.)