#junk journal july 2024

[naturedways]

ive been doing junk journal july this month! started a bit sooner because im not always up for collages every day! been painting a lot lately, but here are they thus far!

[junkjounral]

July 24, 2024

There's a gaping hole inside of me and I can't stop spilling out

[cloudy-caspirations]

Monday • July 15, 2024

Been clearing out my notebooks and folders to see what I can reuse for next semester. Luckily, after tearing out my old lab notes, I have enough paper left to reuse my notebooks again next semester. Here are photos of my physics lab notes and a lightly annotated printout from last semester’s philosophy course.

Other things I’ve done today include:

Morning jog with my dog before it got too hot

45 mins on the elliptical (why did nobody warn me it was so hard 😭)

Made 2 jugs of tea (one cold brew earl grey and one agua de Jamaica)

Started a new page in my junk journal

[hospitalterrorizer]

diary290

7/5-6/24

friday - saturday

it is done!!!!!!!!!!!

i will probably do a proper post for it tomorrow, some time, like in the noon (not that it will get any people to listen really)

but here's the linxx!

and then here's the cover art!

#so funny (if you want to see what's going on, you should probably open it up in a separate tab and look at it zoomed in to see all the junk going on)

i'm glad i did the watermarks on the pics at the bottom there, it makes it kind of look uncomfortable, or like seedy i suppose, which helps a lot w/ what the cover is aiming for.

i think basically it's as good as i could have gotten it, the cover. i do like it, i feel like maybe i could do it better, if i planned it out more, maybe it looks like a mess to anyone else, it's kind of one intentionally but i mean, maybe in a bad way it's one too.

also, on bandcamp i wrote a big-ish thing about the album as it was made, here it is:

likely in progress since october of 2022, certainly in progress since november of 2022, finally complete in july 2024. these are songs about nothing especially. this album has seen: two apartments, one move, two jobs, a cockroach infestation, a mass shooting at the neighboring school of our last apartment, my girlfriend surviving the shooting because she was in a different building and he wanted to kill teachers because he did not get a job, the most traveling i've done in my life, myriad illnesses, various canker sores, working out through being sick, not recovering sooner because i had to work out because it would upset me to not complete the ritual as i normally do, the worst sore throat of my life, an ear infection, the starting of a public diary, the maintenance of a public diary, ants on the windowsill, ants in the flour, long standing friendships growing longer, shedding of irritability, regrowth of the irritability, self disgust of varying levels and varying causes, scrubbing the floor naked, bruising my knees at the melt banana show and bruising my knees doing kneeling squats and bruising my knees doing other things, the uneasy orbit of a sleep schedule (an asteroid almost, in capture, then, crashing), several remasterings, 2 computers, an apartment that's a single room, an apartment of multiple rooms cheaply constructed, inflation, grocery store packages changing graphic design, rotten fruit, eaten fruit, my girlfriend's mother loving then hating then loving us, rabbits in grass, rabbits on concrete, bird corpses and living birds and horses in a field for the rodeo and the bulls kept across from them moaning of a captivity under moonlight, the construction and completion of the las vegas sphere (orb of prosperity), numerous nightmares about being murdered, denver colorado, kyoto, tokyo, takeshita-dori street, all the green, a place where sad old gay men convened and sang karaoke remembering their youth in old mecha anime theme songs, a fashion magazine photographer speaking in english to me (stumbling in a beautiful way) "i hope to see you again one day", arizona and the asu campus, a strange fall fair where a woman told me to hold two pumpkins to my chest so it'd be like i had breasts (she seemed supportive), the strange trump-loving foodtruck that served elote that my gf liked, my most recent live performance with thomas since 2018, my girlfriend learning korean, completion of multiple books, falling in love with foucault as i did when i first read him in college, meeting people for the first time, meeting some for the second, sleeping on a bed in chicago, loving chicago, people staring at me in public, children staring at me, wondering if children hate me because at my root there is something wrong with me and everyone except me can tell, being published in various online journals, the coming first publication of my work in print, in a journal people hold in their hands of flesh, nothing special, everything special, stretches of relative silence, all the meaningless stuff, all the stuff i don't want to tell you because i like it too much. i already gave you too much, most likely. you will not have a sense of any of this as you listen to the record. i put it here, i don't know why. this album is 32 songs, 47-ish minutes long. you can click a button on a web site to listen to it, and you will hear it. 

credits

released July 5, 2024

Girlfriend - let me live, took me places, bought me food, let me cook, let me clean. m.b. ghul + clout jesus - voiceover/narration on track 1. please read his story here:

thomas / me and my kidney - let me use his microphone and audio interface to record extra vocals on panic! at the costco and au naturale. please listen to his music here:

georges bataille - wrote the sentence which i lifted for the album title (letter to kojeve where he begins talking about unemployed negativity) thomas hardy - wrote tess of the d'urbervilles which i quote on the final song. neighbors - let me scream and didn't ever complain or call the police. hospital terrorizer - i screamed and i wrote the songs and i made the cover and stuff.

but since i am on my blog i guess i can get into more detail about the record, and i also feel like anyone who reads this / has been reading this, you have actually seen what it's been like, the hostility of the little bit of writing i did for the album isn't really pointed back here, it's not necessarily a pose it's just like, i dunno, as a thing to make, there's so much time and effort, and most of that's invisible, that's not being said in a self pitying way, it's more about how that's the case for so much music, which makes it interesting, i think.

anyway, there's one song here called 'i didn't think before i started a diary' which isn't really about this diary, i wrote that song prior to even starting this, it's about something weird you can see w/ people who do have diaries on the internet, where some people like, years after they're done being updated, things like that, or even just posts / miniature diaristic stuff, of archiving all that, when really this is more about the practice/act than an archive to reach into history with. it was also inspired by a piece of poetry by a friend though i don't know if i could even find it. it's written from the perspective of someone wanting to archive a person, and i kept thinking about that from the other side. that's really the only song i have so much to say on i think, because the others are either a little more personal or a little more obvious, there's lots of political things, the song hell baby works off of a reference to hideshi hino's hell baby, the manga where a deformed baby is thrown into a dump and she is revived by flaming ghosts and wanders back to her family and then is shunned once again. it's really tragic.

anyway i know i said i'd have more pictures from yesterday to post but i've been busy all day with trying to get everything like ready enough, some songs feel a little odd still but that just seems like how they are, it's only 2 that feel a little odd and idk, if i really hate them eventually i will just remaster them and release them together or something but they sound good to me, i think i'm caught off guard by them because there's a newness about them, because i worked on one up to the last bit here, and another was the product of an error related to a crash where the .wav came out normal but the mp3 came out strange sounding i think, so i had to go back and re export. either way both sound good/cool just unexpected to me, and i am someone who had expectations that were precise about those songs, specific things about what frequencies were blasting when and how stuff sat, and then that's just new now.

tomorrow i have to make like... 3 posts inside the internet world, to make people maybe look at my album, and then it will be entirely/totally out of my hands, it will truly be over then, that's like the advertising period i get, lol, one day.

anyway i am super super tired right now, so i will sleep,

byebye!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[ear-worthy]

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[internetcompanynews]

NCA cracks digitalstress DDoS-for-hire operation - Journal Global Online - BLOGGER https://www.merchant-business.com/nca-cracks-digitalstress-ddos-for-hire-operation/?feed_id=139833&_unique_id=669eb6cdadbc4 The UK’s National Crime Agency (NCA) has infiltrated and disrupted digitalstress.su, an underground criminal marketplace that hired infrastructure out to conduct distributed denial of service (DDoS) attacks and is thought to have been responsible for tens of thousands of cyber attacks around the world.Working alongside the Police Service of Northern Ireland (PSNI), which arrested one of the site’s suspected controllers earlier in July 2024, the NCA said it had been able to fully take over the website and disable its functionality.Digitalstress.su was registered on the USSR web domain – which was largely superseded by .ru after the dissolution of the Soviet Union but is still operable and administered from Russia.Many cyber criminal operations continue to use it under the impression it provides cover from law enforcement, which is not the case.It now redirects to a mirror website containing a splash page warning users their data has been collected by law enforcement.The NCA said its activity – which forms part of an ongoing global campaign called Operation PowerOff – had shown such domains are vulnerable, and can be easily exploited to stop criminal activity and identify those behind it.It said it had already covertly and overtly accessed a number of communications platforms being used to discuss launching DDoS attacks, adding that it has collected data on users that it will be using in law enforcement actions in the future, while information on those located outside the UK has been passed to the relevant authorities.Digital Products Entry-level cyber crimeDeputy director Paul Foster, head of the NCA’s National Cyber Crime Unit, said: “Booter services are an attractive entry-level cyber crime, allowing individuals with little technical ability to commit cyber offences with ease.“Anyone using these services while our mirror site was in place has now made themselves known to law enforcement agencies around the world,” he said.“Although traditional site takedowns and arrests are key elements of law enforcement’s response to this threat, we are at the forefront of developing innovative tools and techniques which can be used as part of a sustained programme of activity to disrupt and undermine cyber criminal services and protect people in the UK,” added Foster.“Our operations continue to demonstrate that criminals online can have no assurance of anonymity or impunity,” he said.PSNI detective chief inspector Paul Woods added: “This is an excellent example of collaborative working.“We will continue to work tirelessly alongside our law enforcement partners to disrupt the activities of those who use cyber technology to cause damage, whether locally or globally,” he said.“Today’s welcome announcement should send a clear message to all cyber criminals that whatever your motive or means, you are not beyond identification and investigation.”DDoS-for-hire – also known as booter – services enable users to order up attacks against target websites and infrastructure at the drop of a hat. In such attacks, the targeted infrastructure is bombarded by junk internet traffic until it’s overwhelmed and the service is disrupted.DDoS attacks are relatively simple forms of cyber attack designed to cause noise and disruption, and as such are favoured by less experienced hackers, trolls and hacktivists, although some financially motivated cyber criminals have been known to tie them to extortion attempts, demanding money not to attack a service.In general, such attacks are not considered very difficult to deal with and rarely cause significant, lasting damage. However, given their potential to cause harm to businesses, public services and critical national infrastructure, they are illegal under the Computer Misuse Act (CMA) of 1990. http://109.70.148.72/~merchant29/6network/wp-content/uploads/2024/07/pexels-photo-3624339.jpeg

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[naturedways]

still doing junk journal july!! I'd love to share some more

day 8 (and 13 a bit) weren't making me feel very inspired, but they were opportunities to work against my perfectionism! just getting something down, even if i don't love it 😊 maybe future me will appreciate them more, who knows!!

[junkjounral]

July 10, 2024

Cogito ergo sum. I think therefore I am.