#julien baker x singer!reader
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outofmydepthatapublicbeach · 8 months ago
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Maybe like a fic where you and Julien like agreed to keep it casual but like both of you want it to mean more
jj chats: hi love!!! this one took me a while and i apoligize!! i just couldn't think of a good way to write it but i think i figured it out!!
warnings: RPF, use of y/n, reader is a musician/famous, kissing, pet names
feedback is encouraged and i'd love to get some just please be kind!!!
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You’re sitting around Lucy’s round dinner table, plates dirty but yet to be cleaned up. The table is filled with friends, clockwise it goes: Lucy, Naomi, you, Katie, Jo, Phoebe, and Julien. Across you was Julien, who was sipping on her lemonade. Your eyes couldn’t help but linger on her, even when she wasn’t speaking. You knew it was wrong, she wasn’t yours, you weren’t hers. But your heart was confused, and you always did want what you couldn’t have.
The conversation around you was lively, you could distinctly hear Phoebe’s howls over a joke Katie told. But you honestly couldn’t be bothered to listen. Your mind replays a moment you and Julien shared earlier in the day.
It had been early, the clock read 6:00 A.M. as you turned to the left side of the bed. Face to face with the woman who kept your heart pumping. You smiled at her as she lifted a hand to your face. You felt sparks fly as her gentle fingers brushed over your cheek. “Good morning darling,” she spoke, hand moving across your waist, pulling your body into hers.
“‘Morning Jules,” you yawned. “How’d you sleep?”
She smiled lazily, rubbing circles onto your hips “Good, especially since you were here.”
Her comment struck you wrong, reminded you that this was all a charade, that it meant nothing to her (or so you thought) “Don’t.”
Julien furrowed her brow, “Don’t what?”
You started to pull from her “Jules c’mon! Don’t say stuff like that!”
“What do you mean?”
You sighed frustratedly, “Like couplely stuff!” You threw your hands in the air, then fell back down to the bed with a slap, “We’re not together, you make that abundantly clear when we’re with our friends!” Julien’s face dropped at that, your words hurt for a reason you didn’t know yet.
“(Y/N) wait!” Julien went to grab your arms as you slid out of bed.
“Julien, please don’t. Just let me leave. It's nice until morning right?” You sigh, tired of this constant pain of never being feeling like you were enough.
You began to get up to collect your things and leave while Julien did nothing to stop you. You walked to where your jacket sat on the back of a chair, and pulled on your Converse. You located your phone and key. You were ready to walk out the door until you heard your name.
You turned around to spot Julien making her way to you. “Wait, just a minute, please?” Her eyes pleading. You gave in, just standing in her presence waiting for her to do something- do anything. You had spent months waiting for her to do something, something to convince you that these feelings you held for her were okay, that maybe they could be reciprocated.
Julien simply stood, staring into your eyes, as if taking in every engravement in your irises, surely she had to have seen the way your pupils dilated around her? How your cheeks flushed at the mention of her name. She leaned in, hand on your cheek and pulled you in for a kiss. It left you breathless and when you pulled away you immediately left.
Your mind was warped with questions.
Your mind was full of questions, memories of Julien’s hands on you, the way her lips felt-
You finally came back to reality after you felt Phoebe kicking your leg under the table. “Earth to (Y/N)?”
You shook your head, turning to face the platinum blond “Hmm?”
“Thought we lost you there for a few minutes,” Phoebe playful punched your shoulder. As you glanced around the table you realized everyone was staring at you. Your cheeks flushed as you grabbed your drink, sticking the straw in your mouth and chewing slightly. You noticed Julien staring at you, her eyebrow turned upwards.
“What were you thinking about babe?” Katie asked, smiling at you.
You started to reply, “Nothing-”
Until you were cut off by Phoebe again, “OMG!!! Or who were you thinking about!”
With that, your eyes widened and you furiously shook your head, “Nobody! I was just zoning out!”
Lucy chimed in, “Honey, we all see the way you’ve been glowing recently!! Did you find someone?”
Jo interjected, “You have to tell us who's the lucky lady!”
“There’s no lucky lady! I just zoned out!” You looked across the table, unimpressed looks were on everyone’s faces, except Julien's. She stared at you again, like she had in the morning. Only this time it seemed like she wasn’t trying to read it, more like she was understanding you. You could tell when her brows unfurrowed and she tilted her head at you.
“Whatever you say,” Phoebe sighed. Then leaning towards you she whispered “I will find this person.” then she plastered the sweetest smile on her face.
You jokingly rolled your eyes at her before saying “Whatever you say Pheebs!” Once the normal conversation started up again you stood up, grabbed your plate, and walked around the table into the kitchen. You stood at the sink, rinsing the plates off with hot water.
You heard footsteps approach you from behind and say a plate placed on the counter next to the sink. You recognized the hand immediately and in an instant, you turned around, face to face with Julien. It seemed today that her thing was to stare at you in silence because for a minute no words were exchanged between the two of you.
Finally, after minutes of hesitation, you spoke, “Julien-”
“(Y/N)-” Julien had had the same idea as you. She motioned for you to continue speaking so speak is what you did.
“Julien, I don’t think I can keep doing this with you.”
The tattooed woman had not expected that from you, her face contorted into a look that you could only describe as horror as she frantically asked “What? Why? What-what do you mean?”
You sighed, “I can’t keep sneaking around with you, I can’t keep pretending that I don’t-” You trailed off, nervous to tell her how you truly felt.
“‘-That you don’t?” Julien asked, wanting to hear your full truth.
Finally, you mustered up the courage to just say it. “That I don’t have feelings for you. Because I do.”
Julien continued to look at you, the gears in her head racing a mile a minute.
You began to step away, ready to leave her standing in the kitchen when she grabbed your arm, pulled you close to her, and simply smiled before saying. “I feel the exact same way.”
“You do?”
“Mhm, I don’t want to keep it casual with you anymore. I want you, fully.” As Julien looked into your eyes now it almost seemed that her words conveyed that. Like she did see you fully see you truly.
And suddenly it was like you two were the only two in the whole world as you started to lean in towards her. The act was like muscle memory, your head tilted left, hers right. It was engraved into your brain. The only difference was that this time you were not blocked off by my tinted car windows, or a hotel door. The only thing that separated you from the outside world was a wall with a fairly large door cut out in it.
As your lips connected it felt different this time, the experience no longer felt foreign, it felt like home. Her lips were warm and velvety, and even though you had tasted them a thousand times, this kiss was different in a million ways. It was filled with vigor, passion, and a newfound sense of hope- like this was something that would stick, not something that would simply fade away.
Until you remembered the world was just a few steps away when a large gasp brought you to your senses. Julien and you turned around, face to face with Phoebe and Jo, who held huge grins on their faces.
As yours and Julien’s cheeks flushed Phoebe giggled and joked “Told you I’d find out who you were thinking of (Y/N)!” She and Jo ran back into the dining room, no doubt telling the whole room what they had just seen.
You turned to Julien and signed, “You think we can make a run for it?”
Julien's hands rubbed up and down your arms, soothing you. She leaned in for a quick peck and replied, “Not a chance.”
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brandogenius · 9 months ago
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POMS MASTERLIST!
[Julien Baker]
Navigate to home!
HEADCANONS:
�� Cosy days with julien
➵ Julien x Streamer reader
➵ Attending the grammys with julien
➵ Julien x Singer reader
➵ Julien x masc grumpy reader
➵ more julien x masc reader
➵ julien x anxious reader
➵ julien x controversial younger gf!
➵ julien x rockstar! reader
➵ julien x wrestler! reader
➵ julien x teacher ! reader
➵ julien x goth / grunge ! reader
➵ julien x reader - friends to lovers
➵ julien x reader - first fight
➵ julien x short reader
➵ more julien x controversially young gf
➵ julien x reader “first I love you”
➵ julien and reader reconciling after a break
➵ julien helping reader through a depressive episode
➵ julien x reader - first time endearments
➵ julien & readers younger sibling
➵ julien x reader - birthday surprise
➵ julien x famous fashion designer
➵ julien x IT girl reader
➵ julien x masc non binary reader
➵ julien x more masc grumpy reader!
➵ julien x reader - accidental marriage
➵ julien x reader - summer sundays
➵ julien x famous author reader
➵ julien x rockstar girlfriend reader
➵ julien x taller reader
➵ julien x famous film director
➵ julien x reader - secret relationship
➵ julien x singer!reader - hard launching
➵ julien x reader - valentine’s day
➵ julien x reader - wedding
➵ julien x reader - comforting them after college
➵ julien x masc reader in a band
➵ julien x lucy x reader - poly
➵ julien x masc grumpy boxer gf
➵ julien x hotheaded!reader
➵ julien x masc reader - meeting jbs parents
➵ julien x soft! gf reader
➵ julien x masc grumpy reader hcs lore
➵ julien x photographer reader
➵ more julien x femme reader
➵ more julien x teacher reader
ONE SHOTS:
➵ julien x reader - come lay down with me
➵ julien x reader - newly wedded wife
➵ julien x reader - a failed chance
FICS:
➵ julien x reader - stranded TEASER
➵ julien x reader - ex to lovers
PROMPTS:
➵ julien x masc grumpy reader at a party
➵ julien x reader “I love you doesn’t begin to express what I feel for you.”
➵ julien x masc grumpy reader - christmas tree problems
➵ julien x reader - chocolate cake
➵ julien x masc grumpy reader
➵ julien x masc grumpy reader - gotta be prepared
BLURBS:
➵ julien x reader - comforting you after unsupportive parents
➵ julien x reader - coffee shop au talk
➵ julien x reader - break up and make up
➵ julien x masc grumpy reader
➵ julien x reader - sleepless nights
➵ julien x dom masc grumpy reader
➵ julien x masc grumpy reader- the aftermath of a concert
➵ julien x gym rat masc reader
➵ julien x masc grumpy reader - NO PICKLES
➵ julien x masc grumpy reader - first time crying
➵ julien x masc grumpy reader - a bit about readers background
➵ julien x masc grumpy reader - burned dinner
➵ julien & younger!artist - comforting them through an exam
➵ julien x masc grumpy reader
➵ julien x femme reader - how they tell each other ily
➵ julien x masc grumpy reader - aquarium
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honeys-hotties · 10 months ago
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I love your writing omg, I was wondering if you could do like some head cannons about jb dating a singer as big as Taylor swift (and with music similar to hers), maybe even when shes doing a tour like the eras tour
yes yes yes i love this!!! i've been a swiftie forever this is so fun! this is kind of short but i wanted to get something out for you tonight!! xoxo
okay so julien has been a fan for YEARS and thinks you're basically the most incredible singer ever
i'm writing these thinking jb and you got together in like late 2022 early 2023? so she def watched you go through all of the shit with management and watched everyone turn on you and it broke her heart
you had worked with phoebe in the past and knew of lucy and julien but had never met them UNTIL an event you were all at
you guys went to the afterparty together and julien confessed she was such a huge fan of yours
you guys were friends for a while but were hiding feelings and it literally took someone else pointing it out for you to realize
you're both so insanely proud and supportive of each other's careers
awards show dates<3
matches her tie to your dress/outfit!
one million percent writing songs for each other
after everything that you went through she is so SO protective of you
she is as excited as you are for the eras tour and is so in awe of you as she watches the entire world lose its damn mind over you
just so incredibly in awe of you at all times, she is absolutely enamored
she helps you rehearse and choose the setlist for the tour, and helps you choose all of the surprise songs
surprising her with the outfits and her just absolutely losing her damn mind
keeping the vigilante shit choreo a secret from her until the very first performance and poor jb, her eyes are bugging out of her head she can't keep her eyes of you
def gets a little possessive as a joke, like, "babeeee only i get to see you like this"
maybe you do a little one on one show for her to make up for it...
is just obsessed with you and your stage presence
sometimes she can't believe how many people your music affects and she is so incredibly in awe of you and the impact you've had on people across the world
she comes to as many shows as she can and there are SO many videos of her watching you like you hung the moon
munagenius teases her constantly about you, saying she has to share her girlfriend with the rest of the world too
they all love you SO much and you guys are all constantly hyping each other up and promoting each other's music
going to her shows but trying to be discreet
SO many paparazzi photos of you two just being incredibly in love, holding hands, going on walks, all of it
you include her in all of the hints and easter eggs for re releases (rep tv when????) and she loves helping you troll your fans
she has so much respect for everything you've been through and everything you sacrifice to make music
helps you write songs and come up with music
always looking at you with the biggest heart eyes, she tells you all the time she can't believe you chose her and you tell her that YOU'RE the lucky one
lots of affirmations and reassurance
she's just so amazing and in love and now i want to be a taylor level singer with jb as my gf<3
i hope you liked this babe!! let me know if you have any more requests!! love you all with my whole heart
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avocifera · 9 months ago
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hi! im the anon from the last ask! i love your ideas as well omg
- i feel like if julien got gf allegations, rockstar!reader could also have done something really drastic like covering “break up with your gf cuz im bored” by ariana grande and posting a thirst trap as well
- also yes!!! reader is for sure closer to lucy and phoebe, so i think they always encourage julien to talk to them but julien is also so shy about it bc reader has this cool aura on them
- to add: “bad idea” by ariana grande is so rockstar!reader releasing after breaking up, and having a very sexy performance at the grammys and julien doesn’t know about it (like vigilante shit performance at the eras tour)
- and when they are already together julien gets a reader tattoo
hi anon !! i >>loved<< your last ask sm and thanks 😭 i’ve been delulu for years now so glad i’m creative sometimes lol! but anyways let’s get onto this ask now !!
- i can a hundred percent see reader going a little crazy when they hear the rumors abt julien having a girlfriend, maybe on some gossip accs or whatever? and i see them calling lucy like “ain’t no way that’s true right?” and posting a cover/song link of “break up with your gf” on insta like the next moment
- the thirst trap post? would happen no doubt! actually i remembered a post that a member from the kpop group wjsn made after people said she posted a lot about her body?? idk i feel like reader would post something with the same vibes as dawon (she’s in the photo i included for context, it’s not saying that reader looks like that or anything, just same vibes of the pic!!)
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- onto reader being closer to phoebe and lucy, i love to think that they would sometimes tease julien for being so shy whenever reader is around and when reader gets to know about that, they go protective mode like “hey!! stop teasing julien, leave her be 😠😠”
- ok i really love this idea of reader performing bad idea??? maybe something like twice did with “cry for me” when they performed an already released song and then boom! new song very powerful and sexy one! so i can definitely feel reader using that opportunity to show the song for the first time and also making julien go ALL red and nervous because “oh my god that’s like the sexiest person i’ve ever laid eyes on 🤯”
- tattoos? yes please bring them all! so, in my mind reader and julien definitely got a tattoo together and maybe it was like a song lyrics/symbol/something that only they know the meaning behind but can also see julien surprising reader with a tattoo on the only space left on her arm and idk i can see the tattoo being reader’s naked silhouette or some art that kinda tells their story !!
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bitethehnd · 8 months ago
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Hii, love your writting! ❤️❤️ Can i request one where JB and reader are seen kissing at a party and fans freak out on social media and the next day they look at the posts together?
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₊˚⊹ ʚɞ style !
pairing : julien baker x fem!reader
synopsis : after a fun night out celebrating the boys’ new album, you and julien wake up to madness
cw : really nothing, just fluff and an accidental hard launch. some sexual innuendos, actress!reader because i said so, femme!reader, phoebe being a menace
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you were a fairly well-known actress, julien was a fairly well-known singer. the two of you should have probably known to be more cautious if you didn't want your business showcased all over enews, but neither of you were thinking about that. the boys had just released their album 'the record' last night at midnight. it had done very well on the charts so far, and there was nowhere to go but up from there. you were insanely proud of the women you loved and all of you were celebrating their achievement.
muna had joined you and the boys at the bar you were at. the four of you all sprouted grins as you stood up to greet them. you pulled jo's girlfriend, kelli, in for a long hug.
"hi, baby," kelli said into the hug. you smiled brightly and kissed her cheek.
"thank you for coming, kells. i know it means the world to them that you're all here," you said sweetly as you pulled away.
"are you kidding me? jo wouldn't shut up about seeing them all week." you and kelli started to giggle loudly. jo and julien turned around in amusement at the sound.
"and what are you ladies laughing about?" jo asked sarcastically and raised one eyebrow. julien walked up to you and wrapped one arm around your waist securely, a giddy smile on her face. it made you practically beam to see her so happy.
"i was just telling kelli my elaborate plan to steal her away from you. you better watch out, jo," you winked at the curly-haired woman with a smug smile. jo fake gasped and pulled kelli away from you. the four of you all started to laugh loudly your antics.
"who's ready to party?!" phoebe suddenly yelled over the loud music. you all started hollering and made your way to the bar top. some ordered drinks, but you and julien opted for soda instead. she was sober and you had decided when you two got serious that you wouldn't drink around her. she insisted that it was fine and it didn't bother her in the slightest, but you stuck with your decision. you were sober in spirit for her.
as the drinks were downed, all of you made your way to the dance floor. you cheered in delight as a rihanna song came on, pulling julien to dance with you.
"babyyy," julien whined, "you know i can't dance."
"anyone can dance, jules. now c'mon, just follow my lead," you said and placed her hands on your hips. you guided her movements, instructing her to move her hips in sync with yours. you put your arms around her neck as your bodies got closer together.
julien leaned up and burrowed her head in the crook of your neck, sucking marks onto the delicate skin. you giggled softly at her actions, moving your torso right up against hers. at that point, you two were practically grinding on each other. you could feel the outline of her abs through her button up shirt, and she was right at eye level with your cleavage that was probably spilling out of your top.
neither of you were thinking about anything other than each other, so you failed to see the woman that was recording you sitting at the bar.
after about ten minutes of dancing, you pulled julien's face away from your neck and told her you needed a drink. she, of course, followed you to the bar and ordered a cherry coke for you.
the bartender filled up the glass for you and slid it across the bar. you took a long sip from the straw as julien watched you. she took the drink from your hands and did the same. you sat down on a stool, and she moved to stand in between your legs. you placed the drink down and wrapped your arms around her neck, her pulling you by the waist to get you closer.
"have i told you how proud i am of you?" you asked her as you played with her hair. she let out a soft chuckle.
"have i told you how beautiful you are?" she countered with a smug smile. you laughed loudly and slapped her on the shoulder.
you leaned in to give her a sweet kiss. she immediately responded, kissing you back passionately and gliding her tongue along your bottom lip. you gave her access, letting her tongue into your mouth. you two made out for a few minutes before phoebe came into sight and wolf whistled loudly. you laughed and julien just flipped her off. that night was perfect.
˚₊‧꒰ა ♡ ໒꒱ ‧₊˚
the next morning, you and julien woke up to phoebe banging on the guest room door. the two of you and lucy decided to stay in the blonde’s apartment, which in hindsight was a bad idea. phoebe stayed up all hours of the night doing god knows what and woke the two of you up so early.
“phoebe! cut it out!” julien whined and rolled over, shoving her head under a pillow. the door practically busted open and phoebe came running in.
“guys, oh my god. you have to see this,” the older woman said and almost threw her phone at you.
you sighed and took her phone from her hands, the blonde bouncing on her feet anxiously. what could have made her so worked up? you didn’t know.
phoebe’s phone was opened to twitter. the tweets on her homepage were filled with videos and pictures of you and julien from last night. your eyes practically bulged out of your head as you scrolled.
“oh my god, julien, get up,” you said with a hardy laugh. the dirty blonde rolled over and glanced over your shoulder at the phone. her jaw was slack and she had a horrified look on her face. phoebe came and sat next to you on the bed as the three of you saw the leaked photos.
“this is…” julien trialed off and tilted her head.
“kinda funny…” you said monotonously before looking over at your lover and bursting out laughing. phoebe joined you in the giggles as julien looked at you guys like you grew three heads.
“guys! it’s not funny!” julien tried to reason, but she herself was starting to crack up.
“it’s funny. like, really funny,” you let out through your laughter. it sucked that someone had invaded your privacy, but the two of you were making out in the middle of a bar, so really it was your fault.
“it’s julien’s fault for practically fucking you in public,” phoebe shrugged.
“i was not!” julien exclaimed dramatically and hit phoebe with a pillow. the blonde fake gasped and hit her back. you were stuck in the middle of their childish fighting, trying to get out of the way of the flying objects.
“can you guys shut the fuck up! some of us would like to sleep!” lucy suddenly yelled from her bed down the hall.
“sorry, luce!” you yelled back.
“alright, get the fuck out, bridgers,” julien said and pointed a finger at the blonde.
“fine, baker,” she sassily responded before taking her phone and walking out of the door.
you and julien looked at each other as she shut the door, soft smiles on your faces. you hugged julien and gave her a kiss on the forehead, she cuddled into your chest.
“do you think we should tell people we’ve been together for two years?” julien asked jokingly as she looked up at you. it was surprising that you guys managed to keep your relationship a secret for so long.
“do you think we should tell people we’re engaged?” you joked back as you two fell into laughter again.
the rest of the morning was spent scrolling on social media to see people’s reactions. most were surprised and overjoyed, and some said they knew all along. which was obviously a sham because the two of you were ‘just friends’ to the public until now.
the tiktok edits made you blush and people’s shocked tweets made the two of you smile. after a while, you two decided to post an instagram story to your profile. the picture was the two of your hands laced together. julien’s unique tattoos made it obvious it was her, but the real surprise came from the diamond ring proudly placed on your ring finger. let’s just say twitter had another field day after that.
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outofmydepthatapublicbeach · 8 months ago
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to fall in deeper - Julien Baker x lacy!reader
jj chats: this has been one of the longest things ive written on this account and i am very proud of it!!! i hope this lives up to any expectations!!! also i recommend reading the first part before reading this it is linked here!
word count: almost 2000!!!
warnings: RPF, use of y/n, reader is a musician/famous, julien is kinda mean, someone passes out (not the reader, the boys or muna), reader calls julien 'jay'.
inspired by the request: i lovvved your love Julien fic based on lacy SO much!!! you’re crazy talented <3 would you consider writing more parts of it? 🎀🩷 like maybe how julien falls more and more in love and maybe an eventual angry love confession from julien, and their first date/kiss?
feedback is encouraged and i'd love to get some just please be kind!!!
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When MUNA went on tour, they asked their dear friends to perform as openers. It was on billboards and spread across social media: “Boygenius and (Y/N): openers for The Greatest Band in the World”. All parties were ebullient, another few months of music, laughter, and fun. Everyone except Julien Baker, Julien wasn’t pleased when she found out you were the other opener. She despised the feeling she got in her gut when your name was mentioned, she couldn’t decide what it meant. She was torn between it being contempt or admiration. She didn’t like not knowing, she didn’t like the fact she couldn’t figure you out, let alone figure out her own feelings for you. 
So far the tour had been faring well. There were huge crowds showing up every night, all screaming out the lyrics to their favorite MUNA hits. Everything was going well, until August 6th, a Friday night. It was exceptionally hot and it was starting to take a toll on the musicians. However  they were all pushing through, they had loud fans backstage that gave them some relief from the heat and could basically get away with no shirt on stage. So far, the night was going well, besides the heat. Lucy and Julien sat in front of a large fan, while Phoebe and you stood in front of another one. MUNA was performing on stage, while you all waited until the last song, “Silk Chiffon” . It was always a nice surprise to the fans when you four came bobbing up on stage singing along, dancing with one another. 
Phoebe sighed, turning towards you “Want to go back with me to get some water?”
Your eyes darted to the right, where your water bottle stood proud and tall, still about half full. “No Pheobs I’m okay! I’ll walk with you though!” 
“Oh no dude you’re good,” The platinum blond turned to Lucy and proposed the same question.
“Yeah my water ran out like 5 minutes ago,” Lucy hopped up from her seat, moving towards an already upright Phoebe who was wiping her forehead with the back of her hand, sweat droplets rolling off. “Be right back guys!” 
Before they turned the corner you checked the time and yelled to the singers “I think there's only two more songs till Silk Chiffon so hurry!” Lucy and Phoebe nodded to you and continued their walk to wherever they were storing the water bottles. Out of the corner of your eye you spotted Julien rolling her eyes.
You turned your body to hers, you ignored her obvious irritation towards you and smiling you asked, “You good Julien? I got some water if you need it!”
“Yeah I’m fine. Thanks.” The tattooed woman replied, curtly. 
“Ohhhkay,” you said, confused by her tone. You thought for a minute going back over the day to see if you did anything that would warrant that reaction. You couldn’t find anything, but you did remember how Julien really hadn’t ever been that cordial to you, not since that night outside the restaurant where she found you crying. In a moment of panic you asked the woman sitting 5 feet from you, “Did I do something?”
Julien turned towards you, obviously dumbstruck by your question. She hesitated before responding, you could practically see the wheels turning behind her eyes, “No, you didn’t do anything.”
Quickly you replied, desperate to figure out where you went wrong. “You act weird around me.”
You could see a flash of panic move over Julien;s face before it was replaced with a look of annoyance. “How do I act weird around you?” Julien asked as if it was the most absurd sentence you could have chosen to have said. 
“You don’t talk to me ever, you avoid me, you don’t reply to my texts in the groupchat. Yesterday on stage you avoided me every chance you got. I get that we aren’t really close but do you have to pretend like I’m not even there? Like I don’t even matter?” Your voice started to strain towards the end of your dialogue, you could feel your eyes start to water.
“I-I don’t-” 
Julien was cut off by a very energetic Phoebe who came skipping backstage.  “We’re on stage in like a minute guys! Grab your mics!” 
You quickly got up, blinking back your tears as you approached a table, grabbing a mic. You settled your breathing as Lucy came up to you. “You okay?” She asked, voice laced with worry.
“Mhm! I’m fine! I think the heat is just getting to me!” You replied, your voice steady. You’re honestly surprised at how fast you pulled yourself together.
MUNA was on stage finishing up their second to last song for the night when Katie yelled into her microphone, “Thank you all for such a gorgeous night! We have one last song! Can you all welcome our guests to the stage please?” The crowd begins to go crazy. 
One by one the 4 of you run out on stage as the band starts playing “Silk Chiffon”. Your eyes scan over the crowd, everyone is having an amazing time, they all look tired, but in a euphoric concert driven tiredness. Until you spot one girl near the front of the barricade. She looks as if she's about to pass out, and the people around her don’t seem to notice. You brush it off, but decide to keep an eye on her just in case something happens.
As the band starts to play the music fills your body, heating your veins with electricity. You move the mic to your mouth as you sing background for Katie. This was always one of your favorite parts of the show, the harmony between all of your voices, the feeling of being alive and showing it through music. Phoebe rushes up to you and grabs your wrist, twirling you around and smiling wide at you. She leans in and gives you a kiss on your cheek before your bodies find natural sync, dancing together. Everything always gets too chaotic when the 7 of you are all on stage. AS your eyes move from  Phoebes to the rest of the talent on stage you spot Julien glaring at you, your cheeks redden and you can’t distinguish whether it's from the heat or the shorter woman's dangerous stare.
Suddenly you remember that girl in the audience and when you look back to her place, you see her almost going limp, merely held up by the sweating bodies around her. Immediately your mind moves fast, remembering your highschool first aid lessons on heat stroke. Your brain quickly runs down her obvious symptoms and realizes it could be severe dehydration or worse, heat stroke. You quickly let go of Phoebe's arm and run backstage to grab a water bottle and someone to help you. 
Phoebe is confused, her eyes follow you backstage until she sees you grab a bottle of water. Too caught up in the moment she thinks you need a drink. She assumes nothing is wrong and then goes over to Jo to dance with her. The others don't realize your absence, too caught up in the song. Except Julien.
Julien was keeping a close eye on you when you were on stage, she saw every time you glanced at that specific spot in the barricade. Though she didn’t follow you, not until you suddenly appeared on the lawn in front of the stage with a medical professional and a security guard. 
You run to the dehydrated woman and then help her get to a cooler spot, and give her small sips of water to hydrate her. You couldn’t care less about the concert at that point, too concentrated on making sure this person was alright. 
Julien’s stomach started to churn, once again you were proving to her that you were perfect. There wasn’t anything Julien could flaw you on at this point. You stopped singing in the middle of a concert to go and take care of someone in need. How could she avoid her true feelings now? 
The song came to a close, and the bands lined up, wrapping their arms around each other's waists and bowing. Naomi, Jo and Katie blew kisses to the crowd and then they all walked offstage, a concert well performed. 
As Phoebe looked backstage she didn’t see you. She turned to the group and asked, “Did anyone see where (Y/N) went?” 
It came as a surprise to everyone when Julien answered, “They went to help someone in the audience, I saw them with medical.” 
Everyone nodded, Jo hoped the person was okay. Katie and Naomi went to ask someone about what had happened. It wasn’t soon after that you showed up.
Walking back to where you had just appeared from, Naomi and Katie both asked you “What happened?”
You told them that “Some girl in the barricade got really dehydrated and passed out, but she’s alright now!” 
A sigh of relief was heard from all 6 people, relieved that everyone was okay. Small chit chat was made until Jo spoke up “Okay I don’t know about you guys but it is hot as hell out here and I am going somewhere with air conditioning!”
“Finally someone said it!”
“Thank god I was starting to think I’d melt,”
Naomi, Katie, Lucy, and Phoebe dispersed after Jo, all talking about some record they’d listened to recently or where to get takeout from.
Julien stayed behind, and just as you were about to follow after the others she caught your arm. You turned towards her, “What’s up Jay?” The nickname leaves your lips in a second before you could think to not say it. 
Julien looked at you strangely and let go of your arm, not really realizing she had grabbed it in the first place. Another round of butterflies flew through her body as you looked at her questioningly.. “That was super cool what you did for that girl. Leaving mid song I mean.” 
You sighed, you were starting to get frustrated with her antics. Did she loathe you? Were you two friends? It seemed every other minute her feelings towards you changed. It was confusing the hell out of you. “Thanks.” You clipped, starting to walk away.
“That’s it?” Julien asked from behind you.
As you turned back around you noticed she stood as if trying to make her 5 foot frame seem taller, not that it was working. “What?”
“‘Thanks.’ That’s all you're gonna say? Normally you're much more chatty,” Julien laughed.
“I don’t know what you want from me Julien.” 
Julien pauses, looking at you with questions written all over her face.
“When I talk to you, you get snippy and you’re mean. When I don’t talk to you, you want me to talk more. I don’t get what your deal is with me?” You whisper-yelled, afraid someone from the crew would see your argument.
“I-” Julien stuttered, not being able to come up with anything to say.
Finally done with the back and forth banter that has been hurting your feelings ever since you met Julien you declared, “If you don’t want to be my friend just say it.”
Julien looked at you, eyes wide. You watched her as the gears turned in her head, trying to come up with what to say. You gave her a chance to explain herself, you set a mental timer of 30 seconds, if she didn’t say anything then you would go away. 
Those 30 seconds flew by without a peep from Julien, your eyes teared up as you spoke, “Fine, I’ll see you later I guess.” Turning around you went to your tour bus, wondering what you did to get Julien to dislike you so.
The only thing going through Julien’s mind was how she screwed up, bad.
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outofmydepthatapublicbeach · 9 months ago
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hiii can u write julien x reader where julien has a crush on reader? like maybe reader is maybe a singer at the grammys and catches juliens eye
pls pls and thank u
jj chats: hiii!! i love this idea so so much and i am so happy i got to write it!!! i decided to do some headcannons and a bit of a blurb! but its mostly tailored to this specific scenario so if anyone wants a more general julien with a crush headcannons i can totally write that! just lmk!! also tysm for the request dear ilysm <333
warnings: RPF, no use of y/n, julien is very awkward!!!
feedback is encouraged and i'd love to get some just please be kind!!!
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So lets say that Julien is aware of who you are, she knows your music, but never knew your face. She was crazy excited about you performing at the grammys.
She’s at the table when your name gets announced along with the 2 tracks you are playing and she immediately recognizes them.
She gets all giddy because she’s never seen you before and is excited for your set.
You play a mash up of two ballads where your vocals are incredible, your standing center stage. (I’m kind of picturing it to look like Olivia Rodgrigo’s set at the grammys)
Whatever outfit you’re wearing is a beautiful mix of emerald green and gold. Your dress/suit/whatever you are wearing has a very flowy vibe to it.
Anyway Julien sees you as the spotlight shines on you and her heart stops. You were more beautiful than she had ever thought. 
Then you open your mouth to sing and it's like a kaleidoscope of butterflies was released in her stomach.
Phoebe notices her awestruck state and whispers to Lucy.
Yk they made a plan to make sure you met that night.
When your performance ends you smile towards the crowd of brilliant musicians, lyricists and producers. The room erupts in cheers and applause, your head gets a little light as you take everything in. Everything that you’ve worked for has come to this, and you’ve finally made it, singing in a room full of all your biggest idols.
When the stage darkens, a crew member meets you and takes you back to a dressing room, helping you get back into your original grammy outfit. As you walk back to your seat you spot a woman with platinum blond hair in a white suit standing near your table, seemingly waiting for someone.
As you approach her you get a better look at who she was. Exclaiming “Phoebe!! I’m so glad to see you!” You pull her into a hug.
Pulling away, Phoebe replies “Hey dude! It’s been so long!”
“Way too long! Oh congrats on you and the boys wins tonight! I’m so happy for y’all!” You smile, then noticing the other two that make up Boygenius approach, Lucy Dacus and Julien Baker. Lucy introduces herself and Julien, Julien stands squashed between Lucy and Phoebe. She smiles at you shyly, a light pink flushes her face. 
“Your performance was out of this world, I don’t think I’ve ever heard you sing like that! Isn’t that right Julien?” Phoebe asks, nudging her bandmate with her elbow.
Julien sputters a little bit before replying “Your voice is so pretty.” Once the words leave her mouth her eyes widen a bit, as if she can’t believe she just said that. Phoebe and Lucy share a look before Phoebe moves to squeeze your upper arm.
“Me and Luce are gonna go mingle, have fun kids,” She turns away from you but you can almost swear you saw her wink at Julien before walking away. 
“I don’t think I’ve never formally introduced myself, I’m-”
“I know you,” Julien cuts you off, horror fills her face at her ill choice of words, “I mean I don’t know-know you, but I know of you! I like you! Fuck I mean I like your music, its really good! And your voice is amazing. It's so pretty! I’m rambling aren’t I?” The tattooed woman sighs, her face flushing again, this time a much brighter red.
“Yes, yes you are. But it's okay Julien, it's cute.” You giggle, reaching towards your purse to pull out your phone, pulling up messages. “Can I have your number, I’d love to talk to you longer but I gotta go visit someone before we have to be back in out seats. Maybe we could get coffee sometime and talk?” You hand the phone to Julien, gently placing it in her open palms.
“Really?” she waits for you to nod before putting her number in, hands shaking as she types.  “Thank you! And best of luck to you tonight! Hopefully I’ll see you around.” Julien says. You smile and grab Julien’s hand, squeezing it lightly. Once you let go she's off towards her table again. 
I could totally see Julien being so nervous around you that she types in her number wrong. So wehn you get home and call her and some random 39 year old guy from Alabama replies you are taken a little off guard.
But it's all fixed when you text Phoebe explaining the situation. 
Phoebe def made fun of Julien for that all the time now.
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brandogenius · 10 months ago
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hiiiii! could you write julien x reader where basically is ex to lovers? 😭 like maybe reader is also on the public eye and the fans reactions to it? it could be a headcanon or a blurb, whatever it’s better for you!
thank u !!! pls !!!
this is such a cute request i have so many ideas for this one!
‼️RPF‼️
(NOT PROOFRED)
MINI FIC? - julien x reader - ex to lovers.
Request: “could you write julien x reader where basically is ex to lovers? 😭 like maybe reader is also on the public eye and the fans reactions to it?”
Word count: 1,749
(please let me know if you would like a part two! this was quite fun to write! )
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everyone knew of you and juliens past. five years ago in 2018 the two of you were a pair. boygenius was starting to blow up and you were by juliens side ever since. julien wasn’t shy in letting everyone know that you were her girlfriend. dedicating some songs to you and posting photo dumps that include you in some of her instagram posts.
you weren’t as known as much as julien in the music scene. a small indie and pop writer. you had accumulated your own small handful of fans. majority of them boygenius fans, there in support to hype up their favourite musicians girlfriend.
you were seen on tour with the boys. promoting the release of their debut ep ‘boygenius’ you were just as excited as the trio. you couldn’t have been more prouder of your girlfriend.
until something changed. 2020 had come around and fans had noticed the lack in content with the both of you. you stopped appearing in juliens photo dumps. you unfollowed julien on twitter. julien took your tag off her posts. it was a devastating time for the fans. it didn’t take many people long to figure out what this all meant.
of course you have a handful of fans who respected what was going on. choosing to mind their own business and support both of you separately. however, with every bunch of food and respectful fans, you had the ones who didn’t understand what boundaries meant. screaming in your comments section or directly going as far as @ julien on twitter asking what happened between the two of you.
both of you have been keeping quiet about it until an interview was published, julien was promoting the upcoming release for her album when the interviewer dropped a question over the computer screen.
“i’m sure the fans are dying to know what happened between you and your girlfriend- or should i say ex at this point?” julien sat in front of the computer, an eyebrow raised as she watched the interviewer stare back at the musician. julien never in the slightest could imagine what audacity the interviewer had in that moment to ask that.
“well you see-“ julien fiddled with her headphones, readjusting them onto her head. she could see the interviewer sat there notebook in hand with pen firmly placed on the paper, ready to write down what she had to say.
“- there’s nothing i want to say on this matter. you’re interviewing me for my album right? why don’t we ask questions in relation to music, rather than my personal and private business”
the interviewer, taken a back quickly spluttered as quiet apology and composted themselves. going back to pre selected questions to ask in relation to music.
the question left julien in a sour mood for the rest of the day. the interview was quickly published. julien didn’t really want to check it out. having some small hope that the interviewer would be kind enough to edit it and take out that part but unfortunately not.
she knew it would stir up another wave of questions and panic amongst both fandoms. even if you were staying on the low side for now, keeping out of the public eye, she couldn’t help but feel a bit guilty - feeling a bit bad for dragging you back into this mess of chaos that occurred just only weeks ago.
you ok the other hand were a bit more composed. less hot headed julien. you simply ignored everything to do with the shorter musician. what happened- simple happened. it’s in the past you can’t change it anymore. you just need to go ahead and think of the future.
you continued to post on social media, posting tiktoks and tweeting. working on promoting your newest song virtually on home. most of the fans had moved on. coming to terms with the fact the two of you will most likely never interact again.
2020-2023 passes as quickly. both of you are doing your own thing. you are topping the charts with your album and singles. fans have definitely moved on but always remember. new fans are introduced to you and learn the basics. your past with boygenius member julien baker. the time you won your first award. your first world tour.
it’s the first few months of 2023. february is welcomed with longer days and a spree of award shows. your schedule was booked and busy for this month. you had a lot of interviews to attend in relation to your record you dropped in January. it was one of your proudest works to date. working hard on the album since your last one released in 2021. this was filled with songs you’ve written over the years that didn’t make it. lyric sheets that were shoved into your folder, uncovered and refurbished with better lyrics, tweaked and changed to suit your aesthetic.
one of your tracks - track 7 was one that got the most attention. 3M on youtube, billboard no1 charts. it was a bit odd since it wasn’t even your title track. fans heard it and went wild. theorising over the poetic lyrics.
it was an old song. one you wrote about julien. one about heartbreak and the feeling of yearning. you didn’t name anyone but somehow fans chose to believe it was about the boygenius member and they were right.
today was the billboard music awards. all different kinds of celebrities made their way through the red carpet. photographers and paparazzi shouting and wanting to get their direction
the boys came first. julien walking alongside lucy and phoebe. the boys stood in front of the backdrop, posing for photos. the blinding white light filling juliens vision. the sound of various amount of clicks were just enough to distract her from her own rambling thoughts for a quick moment. you were going to preform the newest song at the awards tonight. it would’ve been the first time the two of you seen each other since 2020.
a small nudge to the side by lucy had julien shaken out of her thoughts. the trio walking off to another background for another round of photoshoots.
not so long after. fans tuned into watching the livestream. you made your way onto the red carpet. fans instantly made a realisation. without knowing, you and julien were matching outfits. julien with a black and white suit. you walked into the photo zone with a black and white dress.
posing for the photos seemed weird. fans taking to twitter to discuss and theorise what the connection was. was it a coincidence? was it on purpose? you finish up with the interviews and photo zone and quickly head into the venue.
you took your seat at the table, you seemed to be the only one there so far so you didn’t seem phased. glancing up you raise your eyebrows in surprise seeing a familiar head oh platinum hair
just your luck that the all too familiar trio is sitting at the same table as you. you smiled as phoebe took a seat beside you. lucy and julien across from you.
fans would be in the building too. mainly up in the higher sections. you wouldn’t be surprised if you see all the fan pages posting about this later on. you knew you had to act professional and calm.
you jumped slightly as a hand tapped your arm. phone stared at you with a mix of concern and amusement. “huh?” “i asked how have you been?”
“oh- pretty good you know” you shrugged, a small smile playing on your lip. “making music and stuff” you took out your phone to distract yourself from the burning gaze of juliens eyes on you. like a second nature you can just tell. you chose to ignore it for now.
the billboards ran pretty smoothly. you won two awards and quickly went backstage to get ready for your performance. you felt a hand wrap around your wrist as you turned back.
“can we talk?” you turned around to stare at the smaller girl in front of you. julien stood there looking at you with a frown on her face. you glanced at the stage with a small sigh “you know i have to go on stage soon- can it wait?” you really didn’t want to talk to her- not when you’re about to preform a song.. essentially about her.
“after? please” juliens words were quiet. hesitent almost. you sighed to yourself, taking interest in the wall behind julien as you nodded. “fine - yeah. after” julien let go off your hand as she nodded. standing back as she ducked her head to walk away.
preforming for the first time in a while was a bit weird. you were so used to preforming on a web camera or pre recorded for saturday night shows, preforming to a crowd of a good couple thousand people was a bit nerve racking.
your eyes found juliens as you searched the crowd. locking eye contact you didn’t dare break it neither did julien. watching the shorter musician give a thumbs up and a positive smile made you feel calm. it made you feel more better you were able to preform the song without any worries.
finishing the song you took a deep breath and quickly thanked everyone before walking off the stage. you needed a minute to yourself to calm down before returning to the table. you sat in the backstage area, clutching a bottle of water in your shaky hands as you scrolled through social media.
“that was pretty epic” you looked up at the familiar voice. a small smile spreading across your face as you looked up. julien sat down across from you, fiddling with her rings anxiously. “you think so?” you chuckled.
“it was awesome! it’s your new song right? congrats on number one” julien leaned back in the chair. in the moment it felt right. it felt like how it used to. like nothing has changed since then.
“what did you want to talk about?” you tilted your head, being the first to break the conversation to the one both were too anxious to start.
fans broke twitter that very night. during the interval, videos spread across twitter like wildfire. you and julien walking back out onto the floor, hand in hand with smiles across your faces.
new theories started to arise. what happened? is that why julien left the table? what did you talk about?
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outofmydepthatapublicbeach · 9 months ago
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stargazing- Julien Baker x fem!reader
summary: You and Julien go on a stargazing date at a dark site.
jj chats: this is a little short!! and i kinda ranted a bit about light pollution but its bc it is so important for people to know!!! i hope y'all like this!!!
word count: only like 600ish
warnings: RPF, kisses, cuddling, no use of y/n, pet names used (honey, babe).
feedback is encouraged and i'd love to get some just please be kind!!!
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The cool autumn hair chilled your exposed skin, goosebumps rising. The blanket underneath you was soft as you stared up into the clear night sky. You had talked about wanting to go stargazing for a while and well, Julien being Julien, she searched the internet for the closest dark site. She wanted to give you the best experience she could, and that required the spot with the least amount of light pollution. The car ride was a little longer than you’d expected, but it was all worth it.
You were wrapped in Juliens arms, bundled in sweater over sweater. She held you tight, as if afraid to let you go. You sigh, “It’s so beautiful up here.”
Julien hummed, gliding her hands up and down your sides. “I told you it would be worth it.”
“I know, I know,” you laughed, turning your head to the side to face her, “thank you for this Jules, you are so thoughtful.” If there was any light besides the moon and stars, you'd have been able to see how red Julien’s face flushed. Comparable to the color of strawberries, or raspberries, or even cherries. But then again, you couldn’t see. But trust that Julien felt it. 
Even though you couldn’t see her face, you could tell when she got flustered by your compliment by the way she shoved her face into your neck. Her lips found a home on your neck, giving you one kiss. However innocent and gentle it was, it still sent shivers down your spine. 
The kiss turned into a smile as Julien started to speak, “I wish more of the world was like this.” 
“Like what?” you asked, then questioned again giggling “like total darkness?”
“No! Not like that! Just more…”
“More?” 
Julien sighs, “I can’t remember the word.”
“Starry?”
“No not that."
You think for a second, “Just you and me?” 
“Well that isn’t what I was thinking of but yeah it fits,” Julien kisses your cheek. You two continue to sit in silence for a solid minute. Two heartbeats separated from the whole world, just you and her- “pure! That's the word! More pure!” Julien exclaims.
You hum, “Pure?” 
Julien answers your questions, “I mean how sad is it that we had to look up a place to go stargazing because where we live the sky is too polluted? Imagine if the whole world looked like this, how beautiful it would be.”
“I know honey, it's scary how bad it's gotten,” you murmur, bringing your hand to her thigh, rubbing soothing circles. “Let’s enjoy the stars while we’re here huh? When we get home maybe we could look into it more and see what we can do.”
Julien agrees, turning your head to the side and kissing you deeply. And even though neither of you can see it, you both smile at each other, holding your hands together. You continue to lay in each other's arms, not wanting to be anywhere but here. And when it gets late you gather the blanket and walk back to the car, using a red tinted flashlight to guide your way. 
You walk hand in hand, the red tint makes Julien look even prettier than normal, so naturally you tell her, “You look so hot right now babe.”
Julien turns to you, her eyes wide. Even after being together for a few months, your love of complimenting your girlfriend is still growing on her. She smiles at you, tucking a strand of hair behind her ear. You bring your interlocked hands up to your mouth, giving hers a kiss. 
Julien is thanking God for that red flashlight, otherwise you’d be able to see just how much she blushed due to your praise.
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brandogenius · 9 months ago
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Julien & reader in a secret relationship but being walked in on by the boys while kissing ?? 👀👀👀
‼️RPF‼️
HC - julien x reader - secret relationship
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- it might’ve been because you were scared or nervous to be public about it
- you’re not out to anyone maybe except julien. it’s not that you don’t trust the boys but more nervous
- you have fear people might know and spread it over the internet. you just wanted to keep that part of yourself a secret
- secret kisses in the toilets
- “baby we need to be quiet” “i know baby girl now come here”
- always booking hotel rooms together with two single beds but you end up pushing them together to create a big double
- quickly letting go or separating when someone walks in the room
- holding hands under the table or behind your backs
- a scenario where you two haven’t seen each other in a while so there was a make out session in the bedroom
- lucy walking in like “hey did i leave my glasses-“ and met with the sight of the two of you. julien on top of you kissing, hands in your hair while yours are roaming her body.
- quickly shoving jb off and lucy’s like “i’ll look for them another time” and you’re just freaking out “oh no oh no-“
- “baby- lucy’s not gonna do anything “ “i know but she knows!”
- quickly putting on your shirt and running out the door, jb calling after you
- “what happened with them?” phoebe asking but lucy’s like “don’t worry about it”
- jb catching you just before you get in the car “baby come back inside - it’s fine i promise you”
- after A LOT of convincing you walk back in. hand in hand with julien. both boys sitting there kinda worried but relaxed when seeing both of you come back in
- asking for your permission first before telling the boys about you two
- “i’m happy for you two” both boys congratulating you. happy and supportive
- “see? i told you they wouldn’t say shit”
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outofmydepthatapublicbeach · 8 months ago
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the confession- Julien Baker x lacy!reader
jj chats: y'all it is finally here. i would like to personally thank who ever first requested the jb x lacy!reader storyline!!! it has been so much fun to write these past few weeks. i think they'll be one more part after this, but maybe more if requested.
i love this couple so much so if you want certain scenarios with them please dm me or lmk!!!
part 1: linked
part 2: linked
part 3: linked
word count: around 2200 words i believe
warnings: RPF, use of y/n, pet names (princess), lots of cursing!!, argument,
feedback is encouraged and i'd love to get some just please be kind!!!
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You stormed into your tour bus, smashing the door behind you. You thanked God that no one was on your bus because you knew as soon as the door closed that you wouldn’t be able to stop yourself from crying. You were so confused and frustrated. 
Why did Julien hate you so much? 
Why did she never want to talk to you? 
Why couldn’t you just get along?
The truth was that ever since the first time you met Julien Baker, you were enthralled by her. Her presence commanded respect, her songs were soul-crushing in the best way possible, and it didn’t help that she was gorgeous. You wanted to be her friend(or more than her friend) so bad you must have done something wrong, something to irk her when you first met. Because why else would she continue to hate you so?
Julien was addicting, as much as you knew she didn’t like you, as much as she made it alarmingly clear, you kept going back to her, trying to win her over, trying to make her laugh. As you paced around your trailer your heart started to ache, and a feeling of unease overcame your senses. You tried to put a name to this feeling, yet all you could think of was how you felt like an out-of-tune guitar sounded. 
You rushed over to your sink, turned on the faucet, and collected a palm full of freezing water, then threw it all over your face. The cold rush felt like little daggers impaling your skin a dozen times over, but it was just what you needed. Something to direct you back to your senses, something that, momentarily: made you forget about the woman you were beguiled with. It also helped grant you a moment of respite from the scorching heat of the day.
You stood in front of the sink for a few minutes, trying to collect yourself before leaving the trailer to meet up with the others for your annual after-concert dinner. That was until you heard a series of rapid knocks at your door. Your head quickly turned in its direction, eyes widening. You took in a deep breath before grabbing a towel and wiping off your face in one clean swoop. You approached the door, hand resting on the knob before pulling it toward you.
If someone had asked who was standing there facing you, you wouldn’t have been able to tell them. Even though your mind chanted her name over and over again, as if you were being hypnotized by her indubitable beauty, you were not able to speak her name.
“(Y/N), we need to talk.” She spoke. It was then you noticed her button-up had been unbuttoned a little more since the last time you saw her. Her cheeks were redder, her knuckles white as they were made into tight fists. Even her hair was a little messier. None of this made it easier for you to speak, yet you managed to get 2 words out.
“Please leave,” the words came sprawling out your mouth before you even had a chance to think, and your arms reacted before your brain could tell them to stay still. You slammed the door in her face. Standing there still, you leaned your head against the door, trying to regain your composure.
On the other side, you heard Julien groan before calling out “Just open the door, we need to talk!”
On instinct you opened the door again, Julien’s face was red, flushed with anger. Before you even had a chance to think she stepped into your trailer, closing the door behind her. She started to pace around, not looking at you.
“What the hell Julien?” You asked, crossing your arms in front of your chest.
Julien turned around to face you, her eyes piercing into yours. “What do you mean ‘what the hell?’” 
“You stormed into my tour bus? I have every right to be pissed!”
Julien scoffed, then mumbled something you could barely hear.
“What was that?” You asked, voice laced with angst.
“I said, you are such a hypocrite!” Julien was fuming, “You call me out for acting weird around you when you act weird around me too!” 
You were taken aback by her sentence, you shot out a quick “What the hell are you talking about?”
Julien took a step towards you, “Do you think I don’t notice how all the damn time you are just a bundle of sunshine,” she threw her hands in the air, “How perfect you try to act around me?” 
“Julien-”
“No! Let me finish! You offer me help, you never say a bad thing about anyone around me, you’re so fucking nice it's driving me insane!”
“Have you ever thought that maybe I am a naturally nice fucking person? That I’m not acting a part around you?”
Julien scoffed, “Nobody is that perfect (Y/N).”
“I never said I was!” You countered back.
Julien moved her fingers towards her temple, massaging the skin on the bridge of her nose. “Ugh God don’t lie!”
“Why are you making me out to be the bad guy here?” You asked head tilted to the side.
“I am not, you're digging yourself your own little perfect ditch,” Julien smirked, proud of herself for her comment.
Groaning you said, “God why won’t you stop it with that?”
Again with a smirk: “What, something bothering the perfect little princess?”
“Julien maybe if you opened your goddamn eyes you’d see you fucked up your logic is right now.” You took a step away, hand flying to grab the countertop.
“My logic is perfectly fine, princess,”
“Stop calling me that!” You yelled.
Julien huffed out, “Stop being so perfect!”
“I am not perfect!” You snarled.
Julien was frustrated, “You are infuriating, you know that?”
The laugh that left your lips was one of confusion and anger, its message clear.  “Why are you so mad? You seemed fine ignoring me a couple of hours ago!”
“Why am I mad? Why am I mad?” Julien breathed out, if this were a cartoon you would have seen smoke pouring out her ears.
You looked at her disgruntled, “Yes Julien! Why are you mad? I have been nothing but kind to you, and yet you hate me!”
“I don’t hate you.” Julien snapped
A scoff left your lips and then “Then what is it?”
“I love you!” All of a sudden the world went quiet. Julien's face whitened, your grasp on the counter wavered and you felt your stomach sink. 
“What?” You asked for the comparison from your voice but 10 seconds ago varied so much to the volume it was at now. 
Julien looked at you, her eyes wide. She opened her mouth to speak but nothing came out. 
You could feel the anger you held dissipate when you took in Julien’s deflated form. You started to reach out to her, “Julien-” She cut you off by walking towards your trailer door, ready to leave. Instead of letting her walk away, you ran after her, grabbing her wrist and pulling her away from the door. 
Julien looked into your eyes, her own filling with tears. You had no clue what was going through her mind at that moment but you could tell she was extremely upset. “(Y/N) I didn’t mean to make you uncomfortable,” 
Quickly your hand moved into her hand, squeezing lightly. “Shhh, you didn’t. I swear, it’s just-” You stopped talking, feeling anxious when you looked into Julien’s eyes, her gaze was potent. 
Julien tilted her head confused at your sudden stop “Just?”
You looked at her, and swallowed the lump in your throat. In a hushed tone, you asked “Why did you say that?”
Julien looked between your eyes and then pulled you to a couch, sitting you both down. She sighed before saying “Because it’s the truth.” Her features held a fear, fear that you would reject her.
“You love… me?” Your question came out in a whisper. You were desperate for the answer.
Julien laughed a bit as if your question was funny. “Yes, I do.”
“Why?” You asked, straightening your back. Your brain worked overtime, trying to come up with a reason as to why she would say this to you, you couldn’t believe these words were anything but a fabrication meant to cause you more heartbreak.
Julien scoffed at your question, “Why? Are you kidding me?”
You shook your head.
Julien looked at you, confused “Because you’re you! You’re kind and you’re funny, and you just like saved a random girl's life tonight because you could!-”
“I didn’t save her life she was just a little dehydra-”
Julien moved her index finger out to your face, resting it on your lips. Immediately you shut up. She continued “You are infuriating, and I can’t stop thinking about you. I know I’ve been shitty recently, but I- I don’t have a good excuse. The best I could come up with was that I was scared of falling for you. I mean- God- look at you! You’re perfect! And I’m me!-”
“-Julien-” you started to speak but were cut off again by the tattooed woman in front of you. 
“-And I thought there was no way someone like you could ever love someone like me. So I tried to push my feelings down and I ended up hurting you in the process and I am so sorry. So I completely understand if you hate me and want me to leave. I just- I guess I just wanted to tell you that I- that I- that I love you.” Julien stuttered, her nerves getting the better of her. “I should probably just leave now, again I am so sor-”
“Julien if you say sorry one more time!” Cutting her off she looked at you with shock, terrified of your response. She had just laid her heart out to you on a platter. Now it was your decision to keep it safe and treat it like a prize, or throw it away like a piece of junk. “Julien, if you would just stop talking for one minute, please. I need to say something.” 
Julien nodded at you, you had almost forgotten her hand was in yours, the feeling felt so right, so familiar. “Do you not think you infuriate me as well? Why do you think I keep coming back to you? I want you. I feel like I need you to breathe.” You let every thought in your head out and watched as Julien’s face morphed from scared to confused. “It pains me to hear you say you feel like I could never love you. Please stop saying that, it-it hurts.” You paused again, waiting for an indication of what was going through Julien’s head. She looked at you, eyes wide like a deer caught in the middle of the road. Again, you found your voice and added “Because I do. I do love you. Possibly even more than you love me.”
Julien’s eyes finally had a look of relief on them, her shoulders slumped a bit as she lowered her head, a tear falling down her cheek. She took a deep breath before looking up at you, a smile growing on her face as she said, “I don’t think that is possible.”
Cocking your head you stared at her blankly, uttering a “What?” 
Julien’s demeanor changed from crying to cocky as she said“There's no way you could love me more than I love you.” Julien said with a smirk.
You could feel your heart swell, you felt like you were high on adrenaline, just beyond confused yet excited at how the night had led to this. You and Julien, sitting together, hands interlocked and faces just inches from each other. “Really? Because I can prove it.” You smirked back, your body felt electric like you could do anything.
“I’d like to see that.” Julien giggled, squeezing your hand.
“I bet you would, Jay.” you smiled
You heard a sharp inhale from Julien after you spoke her nickname, and in an instant Julien's demeanor changed, and like magnets her lips connected with yours. Your hands moved to grasp Julien’s cheek and upper arm, feeling her warm skin beneath your fingers. You could feel her soft lips intertwined with yours, brushing past each other. And when you pulled away you rested your foreheads together, catching your breath. 
“Thank you,” you heard Julien whisper, her breath fanning against your lips.
Bewildered, you pull away from Julien, looking at her confusedly, “Huh? What for?” 
“For proving that you are perfect,” Julien’s face wrinkles up as she smiles wide. She’s glowing and you think to yourself, if anyone is perfect…it's Julien.
“Awww Jay, stop!” you playfully frown at her, however, your face turns as red as a strawberry at Julien’s blatant compliment.
Julien shakes her head at you before muttering out 5 infuriating words “Never in a million years,” She pauses and then smirks again, “Princess.” You scoff and roll your eyes at her as she pulls you into her again. Hands running up and down your arms.
As you ease into her touch you can only think of how this
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outofmydepthatapublicbeach · 8 months ago
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julien and masc reader soft morning cuddles?
i imagine it would be rainy and cold outside so they would just rather hold each other rather than leave the warm comfort of their bed <3
jj chats: ugh in love this this request.
warnings: RPF, pet names!!!
feedback is encouraged and i'd love to get some just please be kind!!!
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i feel like reader would wake up first
and reader would def just like watch julien sleep, and lightly glide over her exposed arms
they would like gather a fluffy blanket and toss it over both them and julien since its cold.
as julien would stir awake she'd like nuzzle into reader chest
like grab at their hoodie
reader is all heart eyes
As Julien fully awakens she turns to you and wispers "good morning baby". you feel her stretch out her legs under the covers and she shrinks back into you. her arms wrapping around your waist even tighter.
I imagine you guys have some place to be and your all like "hey sweetheart lets get up," and julien's all like "no no- stay here for a few minutes".
you reply with a "fine, only for a few minutes".
y'all end up falling back asleep but what we you supposed to do!!! it was so cold out and your body heat was so comfy. plus julien in your arms is like when a cat comes and sits in your lap, you'd be a literal monster to try and move it.
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outofmydepthatapublicbeach · 8 months ago
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when she realizes shes in love - Julien Baker x lacy!reader
jj chats: i originally planned for the confession to be here too, but i wanted to switch it up so here is part 3!!!! also i recommend reading the first part before reading this it is linked here! the second part is linked here!
word count: around 1300 i think
warnings: RPF, use of y/n, reader is a musician/famous, julien is a little oblivious!!!, phoebe and lucy make more of an apperance, use of the word bitch in reference to how julien's been acting towards reader
inspired by the request: i lovvved your love Julien fic based on lacy SO much!!! you’re crazy talented <3 would you consider writing more parts of it? 🎀🩷 like maybe how julien falls more and more in love and maybe an eventual angry love confession from julien, and their first date/kiss?
feedback is encouraged and i'd love to get some just please be kind!!!
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Julien watched as you strutted towards the rest of your friends. Her eyes were glazed over, a complete phase of confusion was throwing her off. She thought you walking away from her would be a relief, but it set off the opposite reaction. Julien felt like a deflated balloon, and she didn’t understand why. She thought that she hated you, so why was she so saddened by your dismissal? Her stomach started to churn as her palms got sweaty. She needed to get out of the heat. She started walking towards Phoebe, Lucy, and hers' tour bus. All she needed was a cold glass of water and she’d feel better, right?
As Julien rushed to her bus she spotted yours just a little in the distance. You got your one bus as you were a solo artist, she’d seen glimpses of the inside and was always in awe of your ability to keep it clean. Her's was a mess. Opening the door and walking up onto the bus she spotted Lucy and Phoebe sitting on the small couch, Phoebe held an ice pack to her head as Lucy was fanning herself with a magazine.
“Hey, Julien!” Lucy grinned.
“What took you so long out there dude?” Phoebe laughed, lifting the ice pack to get a better look at her bandmate.
Julien stuttered for a moment, trying to come up with a logical excuse “Just finishing something up," she lied straight through her teeth. Lucy and Phoebe shared a look as Julien turned to the cooler to grab a bottle of water.
“(Y/N) just came stomping over to their trailer just a minute ago.” Lucy sighed.
“Yeah they slammed the door so hard we could feel it all the way over here,” Phoebe noted. Both of them waited for Julien's response, eyebrows raised.
Julien paused at the mention of your name, but mostly at your reaction. She was scared she made you upset. Which was weird because she thought she didn’t care about how you felt.
“That got anything to do with you coming here later than normal?” Lucy asked, head turning to the side.
Julien shook her head, replying with a quick “Nope!” She opened the water bottle and took a swig from it, hopping the quick movement of her head would hide the ever-so-slight blush was was quickly creeping up on her face.
Bluntly, Phoebe asked, “Why don’t you like them?”
Julien’s cheeks reddened, “What?”
“(Y/N), why don’t you like them?” Phebe asked again, raising her eyebrows in the ‘I know you're hiding something’ way.
Julien’s eyebrows shot up as she stuttered out “I do like them! No- wait, not like that, like friends. We’re friends.”
Lucy and Phoebe shared a look before Lucy spoke up. “Julien, you know we love you, but you’ve been kinda a bitch to them since we left for the tour.”
Phoebe dropped the ice pack, “Yeah you're off and on with them, kinda like a little kid with a crush.” The comment wasn’t supposed to mean anything, but as Lucy and Phoebe watched Julien's reaction, the flush of her cheeks, and the fidgeting of her hands, they knew it hit something.
“Wait, Julien-”
“I don’t have a crush on them.” Julien stammered, drinking more from her water bottle.
The bus went silent for a moment before Lucy spoke up, “Be honest with us Julien, how do you feel about them?”
Julien stood in thought for a moment, contemplating what to say. It was an impossible question. The first words that came to her mind were a plethora of adjectives: annoying, beautiful, electrifying, smart, passionate, ethereal, kind. But what came out of Julien's mouth was something much more poetic and something that surprised Julien, even as she spoke.
“(Y/N)'s good, they care about people in a way I’ll never understand. They see good in other people, appreciate the small things, help someone in need, and hold doors open for other people. They care more about my opinion of them than anything, even though they needn’t. For a while I thought I hated them, I think that I mistook the butterflies in my stomach for spiders and mistook the cause of my sweaty palms. I still don’t know how I feel about them, but I- I don't know. Honestly."
Lucy and Phoebe exchanged yet another look, Phoebe throwing a smirk in Lucy’s direction as Julien looked off into space. Julien stood still, still deep in thought as she made a heart-racing realization: this whole time she’s been in love with you. She just didn’t know it, well, maybe she had an inkling at first.
When you had first met you had a warm smile on your face and you had pulled Julien into a hug. You had a look in your eye as if you were wise beyond your years but didn’t brag about it. As you had your arms wrapped around the tattooed woman, she was overwhelmed with the aura that surrounded you. It felt safe, clear, and as if she belonged there. But when Julien absorbed that, she took it in and was scared. Scared that she might fall for you. So instead she pushed it down.
Pretending that smile was worthless, your wisdom meant nothing, and that the hug was suffocating.
But then you kept proving her wrong. She saw you cry, it made her remember and caused her to accept that you weren’t an emotionless robot but a human. She watched as you made your friends laugh with jokes and how you’d remember small details, it made her realize you cared. She saw when you did good things for the sake of doing something good you could have turned a blind eye and walked the opposite way. She watched as you did the right thing and realized you were not the monster she made you out to be. These realizations took turns melting her heart, cracking at the ice.
Tonight they had made it through. Love flooded through Julien’s body and her heartbeat chanted your name only.
It was a sick conclusion to a story you played the innocent. You were corrupted by the dark cloud Julien forced over your head. Julien started to feel sick. She’d been cruel to you for far too long, and tonight was your breaking point. Her flesh felt like it was boiling with rage, she was furious with herself for not realizing sooner.
Suddenly she remembered she wasn’t the only one in the room, “Julien? You okay dude?” Phoebe spoke up.
Julien nodded, “Yeah just realized something, thas’ all.” Julien muttered, southern accent peaking through a bit.
“That you’re in love with (Y/N)?”
Julien’s head shot up, and she stuttered out a quick “What?” Had it been the obvious?
Lucy patted Phoebe's leg, taking over the conversation “It’s been obvious for weeks, this whole ‘I hate you so much! But when you do something nice with or for someone else I’m like your biggest fan!’ It’s kind of exhausting to watch, especially since it hasn’t clicked for either of you yet.”
Julien looked confused, “What do you mean ‘it hasn’t clicked for either of us yet’?”
“You're both in love with each other!” Phoebe chimed in, smiling happily.
Julien’s look of pure dumbfoundedness prompted Lucy to explain a little more. “First off, you both stare at each other when you think no one is looking. (Y/N) always asks me about you, they bring over your favorite foods. I mean one time I told them about a band you liked and I saw them listening to all of their records for like a week straight.”
“And you are blushing like a madman right now,” Phoebe chimed in, “not so slick now, huh Baker?” She sent a wink in Julien's direction.
Julien’s mind started to race, thinking back to all of your interactions over the past few months, how you acted towards her, how she acted towards you. And suddenly, it was all clicking into place.
“I’m in love with (Y/N),” It was like a weight lifted off her chest at the admittance of those words. The whole world slowed and she started to picture a future where you weren’t just someone who was ‘just there’ but someone who was in every snapshot.
But just like that the butterflies turned into a mothball.
“I’m in love with (Y/N).” the realization of that hit hard like a car had crashed into Julien’s chest at a million miles per hour. She had been cruel, so harsh. She’d ignored you and was snippy with you. How could she have gotten too mixed up with her feelings to confuse love with red-hot annoyance?
But Julien only had one question on her mind: How could you ever forgive her?
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outofmydepthatapublicbeach · 8 months ago
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hiiii idk if u have requests open but could you write julien x reader where reader is related to phoebe or lucy and julien is reader’s secret admirer so reader gets poems, and gifts, and candy whatever and later on she discovers that julien is her admirer?
thx and pls
jj chats: this idea was so so cute!! i might expand on it a little later but here is what i have for y'all right now!!
warnings: RPF, julien is very awkward!!!
feedback is encouraged and i'd love to get some just please be kind!!!
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Let's say in this one you’re Lucy’s younger sister (by like 2 years), and you joined the boys on tour or something.
You had been introduced to everyone, but Julien had definitely caught your eye. But because of how you were Lucy’s sister you thought you had no shot with her.
Then one morning you woke up to see a beautiful bouquet of flowers, all your favorite kinds mixed together in a pretty display.
There was no note so you assumed it had been Lucy’s gift.
When you came back later that night there was a hand-braided bracelet laying on the counter of your trailer and a note that read 
“Your beauty is beyond compare
Sometimes life just isn’t fair
If I could give you my heart I swear
We wouldn’t be a lame affair.”
The poem was sweet you through, but you couldn’t sleep that night, you kept trying to figure out who it came from. 
As another week went by you got more notes, more flowers, more small intricate little gifts. 
But as more gifts came, your desire to know who sent them rose.
One day you decided to park yourself outside of your trailer, outside of view from people unless they were really looking. But you still had eyes trained on the door.
After the numerous notes signed “your secret admirer” you knew you needed to meet this person.
As you watched the door it took a few hours before something happened.
Out of the corner of your eye you saw the bright pink hue of tulips being brought to your door but no other than Julien.
She walked into your trailer, was in there for less than a minute and left, the flowers staying behind.
Immediately you jumped up and ran inside to see and low and behold, there was a little notecard laying there waiting for you. 
“Your eyes sparkle like the brightest star
I cherish you like my favorite guitar
The way my heart beats around you is bizarre
It leaves me an irresistible scar.”
Quickly you ran out, card still in hand. You searched the lot for any sign of Julien, but ultimately couldn’t find her. You went backstage, where the boys were getting ready and spotted Julien almost right away, she was getting ready to sit down for makeup.
You walked up to her, she could see you in the mirror.
Her eyes widened and her cheeks reddened especially when she said what you held in your hand.
As you approached her you sighed, “Can I talk to you for a minute Julien?”
She quickly nodded, getting up and following you to another abandoned room. Once the door was shut she tried to act nonchalant, crossing her arms over her chest before calling out, “So what’s up?”
“It’s you.”
“What?” Julien choked out.
“You’re my secret admirer!” To that Julien nodded quickly, throwing you a weak smile. You could tell by her attitude that she was nervous you didn’t reciprocate her feelings. 
Quickly you pulled her in, hugging her tightly. She wrapped her arms around you, settling into the hug, giving you a kiss on the cheek.
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outofmydepthatapublicbeach · 9 months ago
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hiii idk if u have your requests open but could you write julien x reader based on lacy by olivia rodrigo?
like maybe julien is so jealous of reader but actually wants her (like enemies to lovers kinda thing)
jj chats: i am so sorry it took me a couple days to get to this!!! ive been very busy with school! i loved this request and i hope i did it justice!!! love you anon!! <33
warnings: RPF, use of y/n, reader is a musician/famous, reader cries
feedback is encouraged and i'd love to get some just please be kind!!!
Julien wouldn’t say she hated you, no she wouldn’t go that far. But when anyone would ask about you she’d scoff and change the subject right away. Anything to cover up the butterflies that flourished in her belly at the sound of your name.
“Aren't you the sweetest thing on this side of Hell?”
She would say your music was bland, in reality, she thought the lyrics were thought-provoking and better than anything she’d ever written. The public commented on how she didn’t follow you back on social media. She didn’t follow you because she didn't like that burning sensation she got in her heart when she saw your posts with your friends. She especially hated the photos of you and that girl, arms wrapped around each other, smiling at the camera like the happiest people alive.
“I linger all the time, watchin', hidden in plain sight”
You were close with Lucy, you two being long-time friends, which meant that Julien had to endure your presence. At get-togethers she sits away from you, observing your interactions with her friends. She’d feel a burn when you laughed at their jokes.
“I see you everywhere, the sweetest torture one could bear”
Eventually, the two of you would have to talk to one another. When left alone in a room one time, you walked up to her, smiling wide. It was a smile Julien had seen plastered on magazine covers, a smile people fawned over. Julien completely understood why, even when she didn't want to.
“I hear you and Lucy are close, I’m sorry I haven’t introduced myself before, I’m (Y/N).”
Julien looked at you in awe. How was it, not a hair was out of place? That your outfit wasn’t covered in wrinkles or dog hair? How was it fair someone could look so gorgeous, be so perfect? Julien plastered a fake smile on her face, not reaching a hand out to shake as she knew hers were very clammy due to her nerves, “I’m Julien.” Her tone was bored like she couldn't wait to get away from you.
“I feel your compliments like bullets on skin”
Julien was excited to hear that Lucy planned a dinner to celebrate their Grammy wins, she thought that maybe it would be nice to be the one being celebrated. Until she heard your name mentioned. She knew the night would be difficult, she still couldn’t figure you out, couldn’t understand you. 
At dinner that night, everyone gave a toast to the boys. Compliments were spewed every which way. When you stood to speak, you locked eyes with Julien, giving her your award-winning smile. 
You began to congratulate the boys, your speech was lengthy as you talked a bit about Lucy and Phoebe. All Julien could focus on was your lips and then the words directed towards her, “I haven’t known Julien long but I can tell she is a dedicated musician, an amazing friend, and is very very pretty.” Your words dug daggers into her skin, but it was a pain she loved.
“I care, I care, I care, like ribbons in your hair, my stomach's all in knots”
After the main course at dinner, you had excused yourself, a phone call was what you said. You ran out of the restaurant, dealing with whatever call you got alone. Julien hesitated a few minutes but ultimately excused herself as well after you did not return right away. She felt an overwhelming desire to make sure you were okay. It scared the hell out of her. Your friends gave each other knowing looks.
You made it outside, and looked around, spotting you on a bench, head in your hands. She cautiously approached you, her stomach tied. Once she was close she asked, “Are you okay?” 
You looked up, startled, and as if by instinct you smiled at Julien, using the backs of your hands to wipe off your tears. “Yeah-” your voice broke, “yeah Julien I’m alright! Thanks for-” another break, “for checking on me.” 
You weren’t fine, and Julien knew. She walked towards you, then sat next to you. You faced her, trying to keep your composure before the dam blew and you started to sob. To Julien’s surprise, you immediately reached out, grabbing her jacket and crying into her shoulder. 
“People are people, but it's like you're made of angel dust”
She tried to get away but instead found herself wrapping her arms around you carefully. Scared of your fragile state, scared in a moment you'd be gone and out of her reach, scared she’d hold you too tight and crush you into dust.
“Lacy, oh, Lacy, I just loathe you lately”
The moment passed, and Julien bore witness to you regaining your composure at a rapid speed. In the seconds you went from sobbing to smiling, ready to rejoin your friends she wanted you to cry again, if anything just to hold you for a little bit longer. In that moment she abhorred you. How could you go from a mess to perfect? Why couldn’t you stay sad like the rest of us for a minute more? Why couldn’t she be like you? 
“And I despise my jealous eyes and how hard they fell for you”
Julien stayed behind and watched as you walked back towards the restaurant, but before you reached the doors, an elderly couple was also approaching. Julien gazed as you jogged to get to the door before they reached it, and then you opened the door for them, smiling as they walked in. Julien felt her heart swell, and that's when she knew she was in for it.
“I despise my rotten mind and how much it worships you”
 You turned to Julien, waving her to follow you. In an instant Julien was up. Her legs worked double time to catch up to you as you held the door open for the both of you, you reached your hand out, waiting for her. 
As Julien made it to the door you grabbed her wrist, she twisted her head in order to face you properly. “Thank you for sitting with me Julien, I really appreciated it,” you smiled, squeezing her arm. You pulled her inside the heated restaurant, “let’s get back to our friends, they must have thought we’d run off together.”
You laughed. Julien laughed. 
Julien followed you back to the table, sitting back down in her seat. She soon realized what she just did and scolded herself for listening to you so obediently. She was so confused at all the feeling coursing through her, so angry at herself for letting her fall so hard and so fast. Her nails dug into the palms of her hands until she looked up and locked eyes with you. You smiled at her as you always did, and when her fingers loosened and her heartbeat boomed she realized that maybe jealousy wasn’t quite what she was feeling anymore. This feeling happened to start with the infamous letter L.
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brandogenius · 9 months ago
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Stranded. (small teaser)
‼️RPF‼️
Julien x singer! Reader - enemies to lovers
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(based on one of my requests! 🤭🤭🤭)
Description: after missing your flight to toronto for your next tour stop. you’re stranded in a random city with nothing but $20, a guitar, a suitcase full of clothes and a small tattooed guitarist who seems to not like you very much.
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“know where you’re going?”
“of course i fucking know where i’m going” you huffed, one hand on the suitcase, the other hand gripping the phone, google maps displayed on the screen.
“doesn’t seem like it.” you snap your head to glare at the other person beside you. she’s staring at the sky, cigarette between her lips. leaned up against the wall, suitcase settled beside her with the guitar case propped up on the ground.
“have you nothing better to do than complain?” you tilted your head, squinting as the rain splashed down aggressively on your head. one hand over your eyes. the tattooed woman shrugged her shoulders. “s’kinda fun watching you just give out” she gave a nod towards the phone in your hand “stop getting distracted princess. we have places to be”
“we have places to be” you mocked in a high pitched tone as you rolled your eyes “and whose fault is it that we’re in this situation?”
“hey, don’t blame me! blame the taxi cab”
“ oh yeah. i’ll blame the taxi driver who was late bringing us to the airport because you lost your goddamn phone in the hotel room” you waved your arms in the air as your voice got louder
“how could i leave my phone there? it had all my documents, my lyrics and bank details on it!” julien snapped back.
“we missed the fucking flight, julien! a flight to goddamn canada! we’re in california” you sighed loudly, getting more annoyed.
“there isn’t any more flights this week, due to this stupid fucking storm. we’re stranded here and we have a show in two days” you wiped the rain off the phone screen, zooming in to look at the nearest location to a hotel.
“it’s fine-“ julien leaned off the wall. grabbing her suitcase and guitar. “get a cheap hotel for the night, rent a car and drive over to toronto, simple. we’ll make it there in no time”
“that’s easy for you to say” you scoffed, walking ahead of her, following the map.
“it’s true. what’s the worst that can happen?”
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