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esquitor · 14 hours
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some sl doodles that i have accrued. not-so-quick-draws. mainly for chasing demons soulmate au.
baek yoonho but he gets to keep some monster spandex when he transforms so he can stop destroying his shirts only
choi jongin with some shady tinted glasses
m... monitoring division sung jinwoo? pre+post glow-up
melee fighter park heejin from the webnovel as the good lord (chugong) intended
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marvelous-llama · 1 year
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EXO recs
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<<original book
most of the mentioned works is 18+ NSFW, MINORS DNI
pls don´t hesitate to hmu, if any of mentioned links doesn´t work or you have suggestions for more fics... thank you so much for all the love and comments
one shots
Happy New Year by @cxsmicmyeon
Sehun x fem!reader (wc - 5k) strangers to lovers, college AU - fluff, smut You're forced to go to your best friend's giant new year's eve party, only to hit it off with someone who equally doesn't want to be there.
Unrequired by @mybiasisexo
Sehun x fem!reader (wc - 9.7k) best friends to lovers, college AU - angst, fluff Being in love with your best friend is never easy, especially when you’re positive he doesn’t feel the same
Give Him a Show by @breakyeol
Sehun x fem!reader (wc - 4k) friends to lovers, college AU - angst, suggestive
chasing stars by @kyungseokie
Sehun x fem!reader [ft. Kim Jongin] (wc - 17k) soulmate AU - angst, fluff, romance, implied smut in a world of soulmates, everyone has different tokens for how they meet their person. you declare yourself an anomaly once you turn twenty-eight—with no odd hyperfixations, no unsolicited exclamations inked on your skin, and no changes in the palette of the world you see with your eyes; your best friend, Jongin, eventually steps into the same boat as you with regards to his lack of a known soulmate, so the two of you decide upon making good on your marriage-after-thirty pact—because loneliness is a bitch, because everyone else you know (who is easy on the eyes and on the heart) is already off the market, because what if you two not having a soulmate is it, you know?—and while the feeling of being the odd one out deserves all the expletives, maybe your destiny is meant to be called something even worse because the last thing you’re expecting is to meet your other half on your bachelorette trip to France.
And... Cut! by @itstheoneshot
Sehun x fem!reader (wc - 2.4k) actor AU - smut Being an actress has its perks, especially when you are cast as a lead role in a drama with an insanely hot co-star.
People You May Know by @j-pping
Sehun x fem!reader (wc - 8k) lovers to strangers, idol AU - angst, hurt/comfort, fluff You disappeared three years ago without telling a soul -- leaving Sehun alone and devastated in the wake of your decisions. For three years you keep your secrets: that an eagerly anticipated future came far too early and forced you to rearrange your life. But when you finally rebuild the shards your shattered soul and try to step back into a semblance of who you once were, your paths cross once again. And Sehun demands the truth. 
Forbidden by @itstheoneshot
Sehun x fem!reader (wc - 2.6k) friends to lovers, taboo relationship - angst(ish), fluff, smut, crack It’s the night of your mother’s wedding, you’re overwhelmed and anxious because you haven’t seen her in at least a year. You’re relieved though, on arrival as you see someone you know, but that relief doesn’t last for long.
Love Shot by @gamerwoo
Sehun x fem!reader (wc - 10.1k) soulmate AU, enemies to lovers, mafia/cop AU - angst, fluff(ish) The idea of soulmates was never something you worried about because you had bigger problems to concern yourself with. But when you find yourself in a life or death situation, forcing yourself to bond with the nearest person is the only way you can truly save yourself. Now, the idea of soulmates has become your biggest problem because you don’t know if you can unbond from the sarcastic, snarky man who’s just as secretive as your past that you want nothing to do with.
don´t delete the kisses by @kyungseokie
Sehun x fem!reader (wc - 5.6) best friends to lovers, fwb to lovers - angst, fluff, smut, romance what starts as a wayward attempt at getting petty revenge on your exes becomes something much more complicated between you and your best friend, and as it turns out, it has been happening for a while.
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Gucci Lane by @bvidzsoo
Sehun x f.reader high school!AU - angst, fluff, suggestive High school is supposed to be easy, right? Not when you are classmates with EXO. They are the typical bad boys, whipping girls off their feet with their looks. You hate bad boys ever since your step brother tricked you, you hate them with all your heart. One day Oh Sehun suddenly enters your life. You must babysit his younger sister, because he is an irresponsible bad boy. I guess there’s a thin line between love and hate...
My housemate's man by @shaalk
Sehun x fem!reader, Jongin x fem!reader cheating - angst, smut, fluff Sehun is cheating on his girlfriend with me, her housemate. He thinks we're just using each other's bodies, and so do I at first. But then my heart suddenly comes into play.
Ride or Die by @mint-yooxgi
Sehun x fem!reader friends to lovers - action, angst, fluff, mature
defying contract by @myeoning-call
Sehun x fem!reader contract marriage, chaebol!Sehun - angst, smut The very hard life of a chaebol in Korea. Oh Sehun hated the control his family had over him and how he had to have a certain profile for the public eye. The slightest mistake could mean stock crashing for his family business. He had to be a good boy. But what happens when he falls in love with someone he’s not supposed to? Was it an older married woman? A man? No one knew, but he sure was going to use your presence to his favour to create the perfect aura his family was seeking.
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peachesvanilla · 2 years
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He loves her too, but doesn't accept this. Soulmate au and angst + fluff things
characters: Baekhyun, reader
genre: soulmates au, professor! Baekhyun, student!reader, angst
warnings: none(?)
note: this drabble alone stressed the hell out of me.. it was so hard to write and i know it isn't up to the standard but show some love to it... and this has a full potential of having next part but i can't promise u when it will be.. hope you like it!
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The rules are clear. When two soulmates come together, after the first touch a red string tied around the pinky finger on both of their hands glows signifying the destiny between them. The shade of red which can be seen even far from the distance, can never be cut or breaks or disappears once it comes alive. 
Not everyone follows their predefined fate, and waits till they meet their soulmate to fall in love. The new term recently added to the dictionary is ‘hook-ups’, the thrill of having a rendezvous, going against the rules, breaking the soulmate bond and falling in love with someone else’s soulmate. I have witnessed these hook-ups— them feeling on top of the world, laughing at other people who follow designated paths, being pompous about how daring they are to break all the stereotype love only to end in heartbreak, getting wound up in cheating, depression and in the end hopelessness. 
There’s a reason why this red string exists. And I will never ever go against it. Even if it takes twenty more years to find him, I will wait. 
“There’s a package for you.” My mom says, peeping through the door. “Go and get it. Me and dad are late to our movie, dinner is on the table.” She waves a bye, her cheeks visibly pink and disappears in a second. Hurried footsteps resonating the silent house, muffled conversations, banging of cupboards, booming of laughter, keys rattling and the door being shut.
I shake my head at their tardiness. When will they be on time for once? They were nineteen when they met at a restaurant. In her own mother’s words, “it was inexplicable. Magical. And I felt on top of the world. It is my moment. Ours. When your time comes you will understand.” 
How can I steer away when I have a living example of a happy couple? 
I reread the comment on some theories I stumbled upon while surfing for my assignment.
Soulmates are cruel. Not everyone gets their happy ending. Fate is crueler than any politician or the serial killers.
He or she must be one of them, a group who instigate people against destiny. It has been going around and a lot of them fell for their trap and ended up nowhere. The other half is your other half for a reason, your imperfections are sufficed by his perfections, pure love which can never be found anywhere but with them, the one whom you can trust with all of your heart and never be scared of getting it broken, your plus one, knight in shining armor. 
I for one will never fall for the whole anti-soulmate campaign. 
“I really want to meet my soulmate,” I whisper-whine to my friend, Hyejin. “Even she found her man.” I point my pen to the silent girl sitting in the corner of the class who made all of my predictions wrong. She was the last one on my list knowing how introverted and barely she speaks. I heard her talk two times and that too only one word in the entire of two semesters. 
“Shut up. If the professor finds us,” she warns without moving her lips while maintaining a poker face. “He is going to drill us with questions.”
Our professor, Byun Baekhyun, the very person who made our life hell for the last three months. Entire span of his class every student will be on the edge of their seat in tension when or how he will pick us and ask questions. Sudden assignments with a one day deadline and tough papers. And this is only the tip of the iceberg. He favors the toppers and the rare smiles come out when the topper of our class, Jongin, is with him.
“He is busy.” I nudge her waist. “I want to meet my soulmate, Hyejin. It’s getting hard at nights—”
“You,” Mr.Byun’s voice slices through the silence, “third one in the last bench.” 
My heart drops to the floor, my hands turn cold and my mouth becomes dry. “Fuck.” I mumble under my breath. 
“What’s the gain of this antenna?” He points his marker to the presentation. 
I gulp, averting my eyes from the problem displayed and the professor. My mind blanks, erasing everything I know. What was the formula? Sweat trickles down my neck under his scrutiny, sharp eyes, frown on his forehead and set jaw. 
“We discussed it just now,” he strides to the last bench. He crosses his arms across his chest standing next to me. 
“That…” I trail off. I don’t know the answer, and him standing so close with those piercing eyes along with a deep frown on his forehead scares me. “I.. I don’t..”
Mr.Byun lets out a sigh in exasperation. He pulls the sleeve of his suit and checks his silver watch. “There’s an assignment due tonight.” He announces to the entire class of seventy students. “One minute delay and you’ll find a zero. I'm not going to accept any reasons so restrain yourselves from sending mails.”
I nod, his voice ringing in my ears. The time’s up, students are filling the corridor. Should I slowly slip away from him? But why isn’t he walking away? Doesn’t he exit the class on dot? Why today? 
Hyejin covertly escapes from the other side of the bench leaving me alone with the psycho. I inch to my right grabbing my belongings. If I just mingle with the other students he wouldn’t notice and that Jongin will be having millions of doubts which will lead to Baekhyun forgetting her. 
As if on cue Jongin is approaching Mr.Byun. I knew it! I sling my bag on my shoulder as I tiptoe when a hand grabs my bag pulling me back. 
“I’m not done.” 
My heart sinks to the floor at his words. What? What did I even do except for talking and that too not more than a minute. I don’t deserve the extra class he is going to take. I just want to go home. 
“Jongin, can you come to my cabin in fifteen minutes?” 
“Sure.” He warily eyes us before turning away and leaves the classroom. 
“I’m sorry.” I turn to him, and step back so his hand comes off my bag. His cold fingers brushes past my bare arm. A sparkle of red illuminates for a brief second and disappears. I blink at him. What just happened? 
Did I see it wrong? Was it a red insect or butterfly? Or is my obsession over red string making me see things? Did I go overboard already? 
Mr.Byun parts his lips and closes them again, staring at my arm. The color drains from his face, he cups his hand over his mouth in disbelief. We don’t talk or even make a squeak. 
How does this work? Are we soulmates? Is that how it displays? And for a second of visibility they made a huge fuss? There’s no way Mr.Byun can be my soulmate. Why would the grumpiest and most irritating human being on this planet be my soulmate? No chance. 
“I’m sorry for disturbing the class.” I interrupt his pure moment of shock. Why is he even that shook? If we were anything then it wouldn’t disappear. “I won’t do it again. I promise.”
I'm on my feet to flee away. I have been through so much already for today, all I need is my bed, my pillow and blanket. A moment of peace. 
“Wait.” His voice booms around the empty classroom. “Wait,” he rubs his temples and closes his eyes. “I-I need to check something.”
“Check what?” 
“Give me your hand.” He forwards his own palm. “It’ll be quick.”
“Why?” I clasp my hands together. “I don’t want to.” 
Why is he even thinking of checking it? This can’t be happening. The chances of him being something more to me other than professor is.. 
“Mr.Byun,” my voice shakes. Why did no one say this is a nerve-wracking moment? “I don’t think we have anything to check.” 
He doesn’t even meet my eyes. “I’m not excited about it.” He snaps. “For a fucking minute give me your hand.” 
His words scratch my heart, and the blood starts spilling from the scars. No one has talked to me that way till now. He doesn’t have any right to rule over me.
“I don’t want to.” I insist. He may have a say in the course but not in my personal life. And I can’t even imagine my life alongside his. Ever. “I have to go.”
My mind plagues with the possibilities, what if he is the one? It can’t be. My soulmate will be around my age won’t he? Mr.Byun is older than me, and he is my professor out of everything. Having a relationship with a professor sounds so wrong. Is this the cruel fate everyone’s talking about? 
A hand wraps around my left arm holding me firmly. I halt in my steps, coming out of the endless loop my mind has created. My heart pounds hard against my chest, his cold fingers intertwine mine and doesn’t let me shake him off. Should I turn around or not? It can’t be. He isn’t my other half. That’s for sure. But the sliver of chances makes me nauseous. 
The classroom is pin drop silent. What is it? Dying out of anxiety, pain and a little curiosity I gather the courage to face him. 
Red glows brighter between us. A thin thread wrapped around my finger ends with his pinky finger. I can’t breathe. This can’t be happening. This isn’t how it is supposed to be. 
“No…” he murmurs. “This can’t be.” His attention is fixated on our hands, “no. No. No!” 
I snap my head to him. The fear springs in my heart seeing the disgust on his face. “What…” 
He takes his hand away, he walks away shaking his head, and swivels around cupping his mouth. He doesn’t even look at me once, or try to make me understand. Isn’t that how soulmates should be? Taking care of the other one? 
The longer I stare at him walking to and forth my heart cracks little by little. He can’t accept that we are soulmates. I can understand it because it does sound ridiculous. But when he looks up at me finally, then I notice he is disgusted by me.
“A kid? A kid?!” He says. “I can’t do this.” He turns around once again, and this time he doesn’t walk back. 
Did he just reject me? How come everyone has a fairytale like first meet and he just left me stranded. Will he ever come back and accept me? Or do I have to live alone my entire life? 
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kaisooficrec · 5 months
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fic search n. 8 🔎
#037:
Haelofish: Hii I need help to find this fic. Only remember that they are at dinner/party. KS parents think that jongin is a bad influence, then JI steals a key from someone house and take KS there and have sx
#038:
Dudu: Hi! I need help with one fic. Baek and Soo are boyfriends and he dare Kyungsoo so give Kai a BJ while he's watching.
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Andi: Im trying to find a kaisoo fanfic. Its not new, Maybe 2018-2021. It was an ongoing,long.Fantasy genre, adventure. I dont really remember the plot, but there were other kingdoms, eyes colour was import
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hani: Hi, im looking for a fic where Kyungsoo is supervillain and Kai is the hero and Kyungsoo falls in love with him. Kyungsoo also had a tiger if that helps lol
#041:
rhy: do u guys know this fic where ksoo took in bear hybrid nini? and along the way nini got scared that kyungsoo will kick him out cause he hibernated?
#042:
Nabs: Hi, I’m looking for an old kaisoo fanfic where they’re strangers to lovers, only for one to find out that he’s schizophrenic and have been imagining the other, after witnessing an accident. Thank you!
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Oboni: And I need to find a fic where jongin is kyungsoo's teacher. Kyungsoo so freaking talented. Almost like Sherlock Holmes. But jongin is married with soojung. Kaisoo develop a guilty pleasure type rltn.
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Kim: i was looking for au where Jongin is the athlete, Kyungsoo fell down confessing his feelings to Jongin on the court, but Jongin just laughed and Kyungsoo got embarrassed and ran away before listening
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Garnets: Hi! I'm looking for a tweetfic / au (i believe i read it on twitter). They are both agent. They are exes. Ksoo will go to a difficult mission on airplane, kai insist to be his mission partner after their breakup, kai always flirts with other in the office. Ksoo saw that, but doesn't bothered bcs he know it's just a gimmick. He knows kai's real flirt. It's different there is a scene when ksoo cut his hais bald. Later in the office, jongin saw it and he got startled, gawking at soo's head. One time jongdae slapped soo's butt and jongin stared hard at the scene so after it is fixed that ji will be soo's mission partner, soo went to locker and ji followed him. They had a heated arguments at the locker. So why ji insisted on assisting soo on this mission? 1. It's a difficult mission on airplane, soo is scared of height. 2. Ji is the most skilled agent on air mission. 3. Ji hated to wait for days till soo came back from a mission, not knowing whether soo will come back alive or not
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Hani: Hii, i was wondering if someone could help me find a fic? I Read it a while ago and it was a fic with kaisoo veing royals, kyungsoo was a carrier and Jongin could read kyungsoo’s mind since they were soulmates or something. I don’t remember much else about it😅 there was this one scene where a baby was abandoned and kyungsoo being a carrier was super affected by it, and also it is slow burn and chaptered. Hope that helps a little thank youu
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Kimsoo: Hi, does anyone know a fic where Kyungsoo is a doctor in a kingdom and Jongin is a warlord in that kingdom, they like each other, then Jongin goes to war.
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galoresficrecs · 11 months
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[EXO] Jongin
LAST UPDATED ON: Dec 2nd, 2022
newly added ✦ || personal faves ✪ || ongoing ✑
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ratings:
not rated || general || teen and up || mature || explicit🔞
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❧ NOT HERE SHIPS ☙
jongin x baekhyun x sehun
❧ jongin x junmyeon ☙
✪ camera (shy) by curledupkitten [28,4k words] college!au, porn star!au || explicit🔞
❧ jongin x kyungsoo ☙
✪ All Gays Go to Heaven by at1stsoo [11,3k words] college!au, post-graduation, clubbing || explicit🔞
✪ Anything You Can Do by indigomini [13,6k words | 7 ch] office!au, rivals to lovers || explicit🔞
✪ Café Eau Laid by indigomini [8,1k words | 2 ch] a/b/o!au, café!au, college!au || explicit🔞
✪ Darling, It's Better Down Where It's Wetter (Take It From Me) by indigomini [19,6k words | 2 ch] mythology!au, merfolk!au || explicit🔞
✪ Demonic Domesticity and Other Signs of the Apocalypse by TRASHCAKE [12,7k words] apocalypse!au, supernatural || explicit🔞
✪ It Takes More Than Ten Tickles by at1stsoo [3,6k words] aliens!au, sci-fi || teen and up
✪ Pay Me Some Mind by indigomini [33,2k words | 15 ch] college!au || explicit🔞
❧ jongin x sehun ☙
✑ ✪ Get Cocky by MitchMatchedSocks [187,8k words | 38/? ch] college!au, fraternity!au, friends with benefits, sexual experimentation || explicit🔞
✪ Is That A Python in Your Pants or Are You Just Happy to See Me? by MitchMatchedSocks [39,1k words | 13 ch] hybrid!au, college!au || explicit🔞
✪ Mind If I Slither In? by MitchMatchedSocks [19,4k words] aliens!au, sci-fi, baseball!au || explicit🔞
❧ jongin x reader☙
99 and Marlowe by kpopfanfictrash [4,1k words] f!reader, soulmates!au, age gap || teen and up
[part of Exordia Academy] Anomaly by kpopfanfictrash [10,3k words] f!reader, 1980s!au, academy!au, powers!au || explicit🔞
[part of Welcome to the Exodus Mall] Freestyle by yehet-me-up [22,1k words] f!reader, 1990s!au, mall!au, set in seattle, co-workers to lovers || mature
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darkloversxcb · 1 year
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✧.* ᴛʜᴇ ʟᴏᴠᴇʀs
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The lovers are all unique with their own back stories, likes and dislikes and personalities. They each follow a specific trope. Please make sure to read their information carefully before deciding to pursue one of them.
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Christopher Bang a.k.a BangChan, The Predator
@bxnqchxn Enemies to Lovers trope Mafia!AU Poly Bisexual Highest kill count, prodigy, quiet, tortured, internalises more than speaks, intimidating aura Currently: online
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Kang Seulgi a.k.a Demoness, The Demon of Lust
@demonesseulgi Forbidden Love trope Demon!AU Poly Bisexual Seductress, one of the seven deadly sins, flirtatious, charming, addictive, loves the thrill of the forbidden Currently: offline
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Jeon Soyeon a.k.a Shadow, The Darkness
@wolf-sxyeon Soulmates trope Werewolf!AU Monogamous Straight A contradiction, sweet with a hint of darkness, kind, tempting, slightly morbid, fiercely loyal to who she loves Currently: offline
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Kim Jongin a.k.a Kai, The King
@yanjxngin Secret Identity trope Yandere!AU Monogamous Straight Obsessive, aggressive, adoring, dangerous, will do absolutely anything to get what he wants, will not hurt his object of affection Currently: offline
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cheshiretears · 2 years
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[Podfic] all signs point to a bumpy ride
 by jinxfabray | @ofstellardust​
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Fandom: EXO Rating: T Relationships: Byun Baekhyun/Kim Jongdae | Chen/Kim Minseok | Xiumin Additional Tags: Alternate Universe- Soulmates, Red String of Fate, Red thread au, Past Kim Minseok | Xiumin/Lu Han, Minor Kim Jongin | Kai/Lu Han, sehun/tao/yixing, Minor Kim Junmyeon | Suho/Park Chanyeol, those are the side ships for the most part, Fluff and Angst, Happy Ending, they drink alcohol and get drunk sometimes, Podfic, Podfic Length: 2.5-3 Hours, Audio Format: MP3
Summary: minseok wasn’t looking for a soulmate, but there are two threads on his finger and a whole mess ahead of him.
AO3 | Drive | Archive (2:49:08 min | 206.6 MB)
@kpop-podfic​
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inarichi · 2 years
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Bittersweet Grace
Pairing: Kaisoo
Genre: Romance, Fluff, Soulmates, Reincarnation
Rating: G
Length: Oneshot (1k w.)
Summary: Twenty-five times they’ve said their first hello.
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kpopfanfictrash · 7 years
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99 and Marlowe
Author: kpopfanfictrash
Pairing: You / Jongin
Genre: Soulmates!AU (kWritersNet May Prompt) + Angst 
Prompt: “You can’t eat solids, only liquids until Thursday.”
Rating: PG-13 
Word Count: 4,158
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*Marlowe578 has entered the chat room* [10:24 PM]
Marlowe578: hey 99, you there? [10:26 PM]
Marlowe578: just watched West World and thought it was complete crap [10:28 PM]
*99problemsBUTaSnitchaintone has entered the chat room* [10:28 PM]
99problemsBUTaSni…: I shouldn’t be surprised by this. I know you hate everything, but I let myself hope. [10:29 PM]
Marlowe578: I refuse to be lectured by a child. It was just so impractical… If the robots were that terrifying, why didn’t they just burn them or destroy them? [10:30 PM]
99problemsBUTaSni…: See, this is what’s wrong with you old folk. Thinking you know everything. Nothing is new. Tell me, Marlowe – have you ever seen a robot? [10:32 PM]
Marlowe578: I’ve seen Christopher Walken, that’s pretty damn close [10:33 PM]
99problemsBUTaSni…: lol [10:33 PM]
99problemsBUTaSni…: There was nothing you liked about it??? [10:34 PM]
Jongin sits back, almost smiling in the light of his computer screen. 99 is young, that much is obvious by her ellipses and hyperbole. Everything is new, fresh and intense with her. Maybe that’s why Jongin enjoys her company. He knows 99 is a she from a slip-up she made once, accidentally sending him her grocery list instead of a novel attachment. Jongin opened it and nearly choked – tampons and avocados being the first and second items on that list.
If he doubted 99 was a female before, he didn’t then. You were, of course apologetic. Sending cringe emojis and memes until Jongin finally typed STOP in all capitals. That did it – rarely did Jongin express emotion outside of bored amusement, so when he did people tended to listen.
These days though, if Jongin delves into anything deeper than antipathy it’s near impossible to escape.
Jongin sets his fingers against the keyboard.
Marlowe578: The special effects of West World were cool [10:36 PM)
99problemsBUTaSni…: Wow, hopeless [10:36 PM]
99problemsBUTaSni…: Is that all you wanted to say? Message me and shit on my favorite TV show? [10:37 PM]
Marlowe578: hey, you’ve shat on plenty of my favorite things in the past [10:38 PM]
99problemsBUTaSni…: Name one!!! [10:38 PM]
Marlowe578: Tesla, Schubert, Oscar Wilde, Proust… [10:39 PM]
99problemsBUTaSni…: I said one [10:40 PM]
99problemsBUTaSni…: Also, only pretentious people like Proust [10:41 PM]
Marlowe578: why hello, pot. Calling the kettle black. [10:41 PM]
99problemsBUTaSni…: hahaha Okay, I apologize. You gave me one suggestion that I love, so I thank you [10:42 PM]
Marlowe578: you’re welcome for your introduction to higher culture [10:43 PM]
Jongin sits back, tapping his fingers against his wooden desk he’s had since 1982. He met 99 on accident when he entered the wrong chat room. Jongin was rather disgruntled at finding himself knee-deep in some Young Adult vampire teen novel and didn’t fail to make his displeasure known. As soon as he did though, 99 appeared.
Jongin was called a snob, a nitwit and a newt amongst other things that night. Most of her insults left him gaping, staring open-mouthed at his screen. The creativity of 99 was astounding, as was the speed with which she typed. Her words flowed like water, the sudden barrage of insults made all the more impressive by her fault-free grammar. Jongin actually laughed, the first time in a long time such a thing had happened and that was the beginning of his and 99’s friendship.
Sometime after that Jongin ended up telling her about the movie his URL was based on. Only Lovers Left Alive, a vampire movie released a few years back which still gave Jongin chills every time he watched it. His URL was an ode to a side character, Christopher Marlowe. In the film Marlowe is a vampire who writes most of Shakespeare’s plays in the sixteenth century.
Marlowe578.
The Marlowe part comes from the movie, 578 being the year in which Jongin was born.
It’s not unheard of, living for multiple centuries. Fifteen centuries, though – Jongin sighs. He’s an anomaly. Maybe it’s why he relates so much to that vampire movie. 99 is typing, Jongin watches her ellipses blink as he stretches his arms overhead. The noise of the city drifts through his open window, the only sound helping him sleep at night.
Jongin can’t relax without the background noise, without distractions that don’t require actual participation. It’s why he continues to lose himself in his worlds – in fiction, science, anything that’s not real life. It was a long time ago Jongin stopped caring for the real world. The real world hasn’t really worked out all that well for him.
Soulmate. The concept is intriguing, if somewhat unrelatable to Jongin at the moment. The idea of one person you’re destined for, another human who completes you. In a world with 7.3 billion people though, what’s the chance you’ll find that person during your lifetime?
Jongin imagines those odds would be slim, if it weren’t for the freezing. The freezing is the point where people age until twenty-ish and then just… stop. Halting their decay until meeting their other half. Once they find them, their soulmate – they start to age again. Slowly. Together. Jongin has searched for this person for 1,439 years. Frozen with this face, this body until his soulmate is found.
It seems like a long time, if he stops to think about it. It’s at the point though, where the passage of time has dulled any fear or sadness Jongin feels about his existence.
The saddest part of eternity is having to spend it alone. His parents, sister, friends – they’re all gone. Jongin watched them meet their soulmates. Watched them grow old, have families and eventually die. With each death, he felt the uncertain chasm inside him widen.
99 is young still.
99problemsBUTaSni…: I watched Only Lovers Left Alive again [10:44 PM]
Jongin sits up to respond.
Marlowe578: It’s one of my favorite things to introduce others to a thing that they love [10:45 PM]
99problemsBUTaSni…: Is that what you do for a living? Professional hobby-finder? You might want to start with Trump. He seems bored, trolling Twitter and whatnot [10:46 PM]
Marlowe578: sigh. 99, I was trying to enjoy my evening. Now I’m over here thinking about a pumpkin tyrant [10:48 PM]
99problemsBUTaSni…: LOL sorry. So, did you leave the house today? [10:49 PM]
Jongin glares at his screen, hands falling off his keyboard. 99 knows his age, knows how antipathetic he is towards the world and seems to take certain pleasure in teasing him. Not in a mean way, 99 is never mean. She isn’t malicious even when she’s calling him a sniveling, cowardly nincompoop. She’ll say all this and apologize moments later saying she doesn’t know what came over her and really hopes you have a nice day.
99 enjoys pushing Jongin’s buttons. Loves finding his triggers and making him angry, happy, sad. Her pushing has led Jongin to do some rather stupid things over the past year. Bungee jumping, line dancing, going to the circus. All of which Jongin was instructed to report back following. That’s how long he’s been talking to 99 for now – just over a year.
Marlowe578: I left the house. Went to the park, stared at a few squirrels and wondered how it’s possible they haven’t evolved in over 1,000 years [10:51 PM]
99problemsBUTaSni…: But why would they need to? They’ve got us humans feeding them, extending their species [10:52 PM]
Marlowe578: true. The park was too sunny. I squinted at various children and ended up going home [10:53 PM]
99problemsBUTaSni…: It must be so strange to see you in person, since you’re an actual grandpa trapped in the body of a young adult. Does Hollywood know about you? [10:55 PM]
Marlowe578: we can’t all be a few years past our freeze date, still confident that the world will do right by us [10:56 PM]
99problemsBUTaSni…: : (  [10:56 PM]
99problemsBUTaSni…: She’s out there, Marlowe. I know she is. [10:57 PM]
Jongin shuts his eyes. Keeping them closed until there’s another ping from his computer.
99problemsBUTaSni…: If she never shows though, at least you’ll have me [10:58 PM]
99problemsBUTaSni…: an actual bundle of sunshine! [10:58 PM]
99problemsBUTaSni…: the queen of quips! [10:59 PM]
99problemsBUTaSni…: the gatherer of geniality! [10:59 PM]
99problemsBUTaSni…: the minister of magic! No, wait that’s different [11:00 PM]
Marlowe578: let me know when you’re done [11:00 PM]
Marlowe578: … jester of joviality [11:01 PM]
99problemsBUTaSni…: Omg a JOKE? A JOKE! THIS, FROM THE MONARCH OF MONOTONE [11:02 PM]
Marlowe578: I don’t want to admit I’m laughing, but I am [11:03 PM]
99problemsBUTaSni…: Good! Haha okay Marlowe, got to go – sleep is calling. Tell me the new thing you do tomorrow, k? [11:05 PM]
99problemsBUTaSni…: night! [11:05 PM]
Marlowe578: night [11:06 PM]
*99problemsBUTaSnitchaintone has exited the chat room* [11:07 PM]
Marlowe578: sweet dreams [11:09 PM]
Jongin stares blankly at the page. Quickly, he shuts his laptop.
His bedroom is dark and he rubs his eyes, staring out the window at the concrete beyond. 99 isn’t real, she’s just a fantasy. An online persona, a portion of human that’s not whole. They might be friends, they might be friendly – but definitely no more than that.
99 wouldn’t think of Jongin in that way, anyways. She’s still in that phase of her life where everything is new, everything is exciting. Where possibility lies around every corner and the idea of her soulmate is still somewhere far in the future. A hypothetical concept, rather than tangible.
Jongin stands, stripping his t-shirt to toss this in a corner. His pants quickly follow, leaving him naked but for his boxers. As Jongin collapses on his bed, he stares up at the ceiling. Planning methodically for what he’ll do tomorrow.
Breakfast, sure. Eggs or maybe toast. He’ll work from home since Jongin is a computer engineer, one who takes government projects when he feels like it – mainly whenever he’s bored. It’s not like Jongin needs the money at this point, it’s more that he doesn’t like being idle. Jongin made his fortune early on. It’s not too difficult to do, given enough time and real estate. Jongin just likes working, likes something to do with his time that’s not thinking about the one thing he doesn’t have.
Jongin falls asleep slowly, the hum of his computer mingling with the street outside. Drifting over in waves until softly, he’s pulled under.
Jongin’s computer pings first the next night.
*99problemsBUTaSnitchaintone has entered the chat room* [10:50 PM]
99problemsBUTaSni…: Marlowe, are you up? [10:51 PM]
*Marlowe578 has entered the chat room* [10:53 PM]
Marlowe578: good evening [10:54 PM]
99problemsBUTaSni…: Marlowe… sigh. Today was absolute shit. [10:55 PM]
Jongin blinks at his cursor. This is unusual. Normally it’s 99 who consoles him, not the other way around. Slowly, he lowers his hands.
Marlowe578: what happened? [10:56 PM]
99 starts to type, then stops. Jongin pictures her erasing. Lowering her head in frustration before typing again.
99problemsBUTaSni…: My boyfriend broke up with me. [10:59 PM]
Jongin falls back in his seat. Ah. There it is, the answer to the question he didn’t even know how to ask. 99 is taken – or she was. It appears she’s now single, very much so. Bending forward, Jongin types back.
Marlowe578: he’s an idiot [11:00 PM]
99problemsBUTaSni…: He’s actually very intelligent. He went to a prestigious university, scored highly in standardized testing. [11:02 PM]
Marlowe578: an intelligent, emotionally stunted idiot [11:04 PM]
99problemsBUTaSni…: haha [11:04 PM]
99problemsBUTaSni…: I guess I knew this was coming. We’ve been dating for over a year and … no fireworks. No spark, no buzz, no zap. Aren’t you supposed to feel a zap when you meet your soulmate? [11:06 PM]
Marlowe578: you make it sound like a bug spray [11:06 PM]
Jongin stares at the screen for a while longer before he types again.
Marlowe578: my sister said it felt like sunshine. She was in the shade, beneath a giant elm tree when her skin… she said it glowed. Glowed, when she met him. [11:08 PM]
99problemsBUTaSni…: You have a sister? [11:09 PM]
Marlowe578: *had [11:10 PM]
99problemsBUTaSni…: Oh, fuck. I’m sorry, I wasn’t thinking. This whole thing just … I’m sorry. My problems are unimportant, compared to that [11:13 PM]
A smile crosses Jongin’s lips.
Marlowe578: don’t be sorry. It’s not often I get to talk about her. She’s been gone a long time now [11:14 PM]
99problemsBUTaSni…: I’m still sorry [11:15 PM]
Marlowe578: stop. Tell me what happened [11:16 PM]
99problemsBUTaSni…: Well. He wasn’t my soulmate. I never felt that glow, I guess. But I still cared… He didn’t seem to think caring was enough [11:18 PM]
Jongin’s fingers curl into fists and he very slowly releases them. It’s infuriating anyone would hurt 99. She gives so much of herself – gives so easily and without judgement. Jongin wishes he could be like that. It’s not just the passage of time that’s made him this way – even when he was young, he was scared to be alive.
Scared of going outside his comfort zone, in case he was rejected. The idea of someone hurting 99 for being what Jongin never could be, makes him furious.
Marlowe578: he’s stupid if he thinks the love of soulmates is the only love that matters. All love is important, not just his [11:20 PM]
99problemsBUTaSni…: Believe it or not, you just made me feel better J [11:22 PM]
Marlowe578: good. [11:23 PM]
Jongin settles back to stare at his screen. He’s about to say more when she responds.
99problemsBUTaSni…: Do you ever get scared? Scared your soulmate has already come and gone and somehow you missed them [11:25 PM]
Jongin can’t quite breathe. Without realizing it, 99 has hit upon the exact fear which keeps him up at night. What if his soulmate has already happened? What if they were already born, in the middle of living when they met their end. Though their bodies freeze around twenty, humans are still susceptible to harm.
Death by gunshot, stabbing, drowning, hanging. Anything could have happened to his soulmate – sweeping them from his life before they even entered. Leaving Jongin to be faced with an endless existence until his body disintegrates into the sun. He’ll never know that connection, never find the peace he craves. Somewhat shakily, Jongin types.
Marlowe578: Every day, 99. Every day I’m scared. [11:28 PM]
99problemsBUTaSni…: Well. At least I’m not alone, then [11:29 PM]
Marlowe578: As long as I’m here, 99. You’ll never be alone [11:30 PM]
99problemsBUTaSni…: Same. [11:31 PM]
99problemsBUTaSni…: I’m going to go to sleep, Marlowe… I’m exhausted. [11:32 PM]
99problemsBUTaSni…: Thank you [11:32 PM]
99problemsBUTaSni…: For being here [11:32 PM]
Marlowe578: you’re welcome. [11:33 PM]
Marlowe578: goodnight [11:34 PM]
*99problemsBUTaSnitchaintone has exited the chat room* [11:35 PM]
The next day, Jongin leaves his apartment. Maybe it’s 99’s influence, maybe it’s something else entirely. For whatever the reason, he decides to eat lunch outside. There’s a deli 99 told him about he’s been meaning to try. The problem has always been that they’re only open at lunchtime and don’t deliver – so it means Jongin would be forced to go in person.
When he steps out on the sidewalk, he squints uneasily into the sun before catching himself. He should at least try to be present. Walking through the city is disorienting. It’s crowded and noisy, two things Jongin greatly dislikes. If it weren’t for background noise, he would have left long ago.
The hustle and bustle flows around him, easing Jongin into the tide of people. He allows himself to be carried, pulled along by this wave of humanity. The deli is a few blocks away and Jongin manages to arrive relatively unscathed. Unscathed but for one, rather unsettling incident which occurs when he’s nearing the building.
It’s one block away when he feels it. The day is sunny, so for a second Jongin thinks he’s stepped from the shade. Thinks his jacket is too heavy but then – the oddest sensation passes over him. A light tingling starting at the base of his neck before wrapping around his chest, wrapping around his torso. It spirals down his arms, caressing his fingertips as Jongin’s gaze snaps up.
There’s so many people though – too many to see through and Jongin stumbles, gaze darting every which way. Though he moves fast, pushed on by the bustling crowd, the tingling begins to fade away. Soon it’s nothing and outside the sandwich shop Jongin comes to a halt. It’s been so long. Hundreds and hundreds of years and now that the moment is here, Jongin can barely think.
After a few minutes of standing there wild-eyed, he becomes aware he’s garnering attention. Slowly Jongin ducks into the deli, head buzzing as he steps up to the counter. He ends up ordering the completely wrong sandwich. It’s impossible to think, given the situation. Impossible to sit here in this small shop and eat so Jongin ends up taking his sandwich with him. Walking dazedly back to his apartment as he struggles with the nausea in his body.
What if he just lost his soulmate for good?
No – straightening his shoulders, Jongin takes a deep breath. This is good, this is a good thing. Jongin’s soulmate exists. They exist, they’re here and they’re in this city. Excitement growing, Jongin slowly – for the first time in years – allows himself a bubble of hope.
Later that night, his computer pings.
*99problemsBUTaSnitchaintone has entered the chat room* [10:05PM]
99problemsBUTaSni…: Marlowe!!!!!!!! [10:06 PM]
*Marlowe578 has entered the chat room* [10:07 PM]
Marlowe578: your apartment had better be on fire [10:07 PM]
99problemsBUTaSni…: What, why? [10:08 PM]
Marlowe578: only a fire can warrant eight exclamation points [10:09 PM]
99problemsBUTaSni…: har-dee-har. If my apartment were on fire, why would I be chatting you about it? [10:10 PM]
99problemsBUTaSni…: Anyways, I digress. Marlowe, something weird happened today [10:11 PM]
Marlowe578: what happened? [10:12 PM]
99problemsBUTaSni…: Okay I’m going to sound crazy but… I think I passed my soulmate [10:13 PM]
Jongin can’t breathe. Can’t do anything but stare at the screen. His room is suddenly too small, too claustrophobic and for a solid minute he stares.
99problemsBUTaSni…: Marlowe? [10:14 PM]      
99problemsBUTaSni…: Okay, I’m just going to tell you anyways. I was going to get coffee and this amazing warmth came over me… this tingling. I was warm and I was tingling and before you even make a joke no, I didn’t need to pee [10:16PM]
Slowly, Jongin exhales. 99 was going to get coffee. 99 passed her soulmate on her way to get coffee. There’s no way it could have been Jongin, since Jongin didn’t even leave his apartment before lunch. Slowly, he lowers his fingers to type. Jongin’s head feels heavy, his thoughts numb and for some reason he’s disappointed.
Marlowe578: did you see his face? wow, 99 [10:17 PM]
99problemsBUTaSni…: Your enthusiasm astounds me. LOL no, I didn’t see his face. Just, you know – *the feeling* I think I’ll stake out the place tomorrow. See if he shows up [10:18 PM]
Marlowe578: you should do that [ 10:19 PM]
Jongin looks suddenly away from his screen. As he stares out the window he wonders why he’s feeling so upset by this. He hasn’t been upset by something in a long time and besides, he also encountered his soulmate today. Jongin also passed his soulmate and should feel excited by this. He should want to tell 99 all it, instead of worrying about the fact that 99 might very soon be leaving him.
Jongin turns back to his screen.
Marlowe578: 99, I’m tired. I’m going to sleep but we’ll talk tomorrow, ok? [10:21 PM]
99problemsBUTaSni…: Oh. Yeah, sorry! Sleep well [10:22 PM]
99problemsBUTaSni…: Marlowe, wait [10:23 PM]
*Marlowe578 has exited the chat room* [10:23 PM]
99problemsBUTaSni…: Marlowe…. what if you aren’t sure you want to meet your soulmate? [10:23 PM]
When Jongin wakes, he doesn’t let himself to think about his conversation with 99. Instead he showers, repeating his daily routine and quietly redirecting his thoughts every time they stray to 99. Today she’ll find her soulmate. Today she’ll leave him and Jongin will be alone. He might as well get used to that fact.
Around lunchtime, Jongin decides to walk towards the deli. If he’s going to be alone for the rest of his life, he might as well be alone with someone else. The thought makes him wince. This is depressing. His soulmate is a soulmate for a reason. They’re meant for him, he’s meant for them. The thought makes his stomach sink though, worry growing heavier with each step.
When Jongin enters the deli, he pulls the rim of his baseball cap lower. Staring at the other customers while trying to appear as though he’s not. He orders an iced coffee, taking a seat towards the back and watching people enter from the street. Nothing happens though, no pulse racing or no tingle and eventually Jongin opens his laptop.
The words of the café surround him as Jongin starts to relax.
“So, I told her that he was crazy. Four weeks is way too long to change a pillowcase.”
“No, love. You can’t eat solids, only liquids until Thursday.”
“When I get home, okay? We can talk about this when I get home.”
He’s on page 254 of his book, halfway through chapter 25 when he hears the bell ding.
Heat blazes up his neck.
Jongin looks up, startled to make eye contact with the loveliest pair of eyes he’s ever seen. Slowly, the door falls shut behind you. The heat from his neck wraps his body, burning Jongin from the inside out. This isn’t just a tingle. His sister was wrong – this is a blaze, an inferno, a moment that swallows him whole.
You appear similarly entranced, staring at him with such sincerity that for a moment, Jongin doesn’t know where to look. That’s when the door opens behind you, smacking you upside the head and making you stumble. Jongin shoots upwards, forgetting his laptop entirely as he rushes across the room.
He comes to a stop before you, one hand on your elbow to steady you. The blaze has faded to a dull heat, pulsing through his body as you take a step closer. “Hi,” Jongin breathes, staring at you.
“Hi,” you say.
Jongin smiles. Your voice is warm, full of laughter and he can’t help but grin. “I’m Jongin,” he says.
“Y/N,” you respond, glancing over his shoulder. “Are you in the habit of leaving your expensive electronics out in the open?”
Jongin nearly laughs, raising an eyebrow instead. “Not usually, no.” He turns towards his table, looking back over his shoulder to see you follow. “I, uh.” He glances down at the floor. “I don’t know what to say.”
“Me either,” you confess, taking a seat before him. “Jongin,” you repeat, nodding once. “I like it. You know it’s odd,” you say as you survey his face. His deep, brown eyes. Sharp jaw and cheekbones. Soft, full lips. “I felt it yesterday when you passed me.”
Jongin’s lips lift. “I felt it too,” he murmurs, oddly shy for some reason.
“I didn’t want to meet you,” you add, watching his eyes widen.
“Oh?” Jongin seems surprised by this. “Why not?”
“I was just in a relationship,” you say, picking a spot on your jeans. “My boyfriend broke up with me two days ago. He said we weren’t soulmates and were wasting each others’ time. There’s also, well.” Here you pause, flushing when you look downwards. “There’s this guy. We’ve been talking online for about a year, discussing vampires and whatnot and I really thought I wanted to meet him.”
Jongin can’t move.
The room fades to black, then back into view around him. He scans you slowly, taking in your voice, noting your mannerisms. He looks at you again, seeing the Harry Potter keychain dangling from your wallet. It’s shaped like a snitch. Heart beating strangely fast, Jongin wonders if this is a moment of brilliance or insanity.
It can’t be you.
Slowly, he leans forward. “Did you… happen to get coffee yesterday afternoon?” he asks, your brow crinkling in confusion.
“I – uh, yes?”
Taking off his hat, Jongin sets this on the table beside him. He feels as though he’s going to be sick, feels delirious because – oh, you’re smiling again. “I just want to say,” he says, his voice low. “That boyfriend of yours is an idiot.”
Across from him in your tiny red chair, you stop moving.
Gaze lifting from your lap to his face while your expression shifts from confusion to something else entirely. “I,” you start to say, then stop. Your hand drifts to your mouth as you stare across the table. “He’s actually very intelligent,” you whisper.
Jongin’s smile widens, reaching to take your hand in his. Where he touches, there’s light. Sparks, fire - zip, zap, zop.
“99?” he asks softly.
Nodding, you lower your other hand to his. “Marlowe?”
“Jongin.”
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danseurehonte · 4 years
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strings attached — kim jongin
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➳ published: 16.09.20 ➳ soulmate!au || genre: fluff || rated: t ➳ pairing: kim jongin x reader ➳ summary: An invisible red thread connects those who are destined to meet, regardless of the time, place, or circumstance. The thread may stretch or tangle, but it will never break. Something you learn when you meet your soulmate in the most strangest of ways. ➳ word count: 1k​
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You woke up, yawning as you stretched and rubbed your eyes, rolling out of bed as you slipped on your house slippers and waddled your way into the kitchen for some water. You wanted to have a day in, you’ve been working two jobs, commute often took a while, and you hadn’t flopped on the couch and binge watched Netflix all week. A day in sounded like the perfect thing to do – it sounded… right.
Until it didn’t.
About an hour later, you were getting dressed, tidying up your hair and double checking your battery pack and fan as you readied yourself for the humid air that would surely attack you the moment you stepped outside. You had this feeling, you weren’t sure what type of feeling, but you had this sudden urge to go and see a movie.
“What movie do you want to see?” Your friend, Yuri, asked as you met up outside of the theatre. Yuri was dressed to kill, as always, her hair and make-up on point while you had gone with subtle casual. “Or shall we see what’s on?”
“Let’s see what’s on.” You said, linking your arms and walking with a smile. There was a strange flutter in your stomach, a tugging in the back of your mind to look over towards the arcade area when you reached the ticketing machines. “What about this one?” Yuri groaned, going to the movies with you is like going to the movies with her boyfriend.
She pressed the screen, purchasing two tickets before rolling her eyes at you. “You can buy the food.” You smiled, happy because today you didn’t want to see some romance movie where the man and woman fell in love at first sight. It was too much for you and made you feel lonelier than you already are so you were happy that Yuri agreed to an action film.
Yuri had a soulmate, you didn’t. You were convinced you didn’t have one considering that you had lived and been in so many different places without meeting them, but despite all of that, Seoul had become your home fairly easily because it was where your soul wanted to be. Maybe a soulmate doesn’t have to be a person. You told yourself when you settled into your new home.
As you walked towards the food purchasing counter, you found yourself looking towards the boisterous laughter coming from the arcade area. A small group of men were walking out, one carrying a large teddy bear, and the others were laughing at him. “Looks like Jongin managed to find a date for tonight after all.” They laughed as the man carrying the bear blushed deeply. You were taken by him, unable to look away as they walked towards you. He wore a bucket hat, covering his eyes but his golden cheeks were painted a soft red as he laughed loudly with the group. You noticed that compared to his friends, his casual attire still managed to make him stick out in a crowd; a grey printed sweatshirt covered with a black vest, casual loose, black pants and a pair of Nike high tops, as well as a Gucci bag. He looked so out of place to you but he also looked like he fitted in completely.
“Hello?” Yuri waved her hand in front of your face and you realised you were trying to push your card into the wrong slot on the machine. “Is everything okay?” She asked, looking in the direction of the group and you nodded, ears heating up at being so captivated by the man carrying the large bear. “Do you know one of them?” She didn’t stop scrutinizing the group and you laughed, shaking your head.
“No, I just…” You trail off, grabbing your order number and stealing another glance at the group but your heart jumps into your mouth when you see him looking at you.
You have no idea what it meant. The way your heart raced and every fibre in your body wanting to run to him, made you feel silly because you don’t know him but you felt like you did – like you’ve known him for years. A familiar face, a familiar smile. It was like he was someone you had been looking for but never managed to find.
Yuri gasped, pushing you towards him and causing you to stumble. You caught yourself in time and turned to face her but she placed her hands on your shoulders and pushed you backwards towards him. “Yuri!” You hissed through gritted teeth, trying to counter her forceful pushing but to no avail. “Stop.”
“I’ve seen that look,” she looked over your shoulder and smiled, amused by whatever she saw behind you. “I’ve seen that look before because I’ve worn that look and I’m not the only one who noticed it.”
No. No. There was no way.
Yuri stopped pushing, forcing you to turn you around and when you saw the way he smiled, the way his whole face lit up, his eyes crinkled and teeth showing, you knew that you would give him your world. “His name’s Jongin.” His friend started, pushing him forward slightly and Jongin grunted before chuckling nervously, rubbing the back of his neck and tilting his head to the side.
The way he looked at you, his chocolate brown eyes pulling you in, made your heart race even faster than it already was. You give him your name and Jongin repeated it, smiling the whole time before he looked at Yuri and his friends. “What movie are you seeing?” You gave him the title of the movie and his smile brightened, if that was possible. “What a coincidence, so are we.”
You walked towards the cinema, one arm holding the large bear in a chokehold while your other hand rested by your side, fingers dancing and playing with Jongin’s as he carried your popcorn and walked beside you. If anyone was to look at the two hands itching to hold, they would see the red string tied around the index fingers, the thread barely centimetres apart as two soulmates began their journey together.
Like they have been waiting to do since she arrived.
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marvelous-llama · 1 year
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EXO recs
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<<original book
most of the mentioned works is 18+ NSFW, MINORS DNI
pls don´t hesitate to hmu, if any of mentioned links doesn´t work or you have suggestions for more fics... thank you so much for all the love and comments
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2000 Days by @taexual
Jongin x fem!reader (wc - 2.7k) soulmate AU, established relationship - fluff A chance encounter with your soulmate – and the drunken conversation that followed – lead to the beginning of the rest of your life, 2000 days later.
Confession by @minsugapie
Jongin x fem!reader (wc - 6.9k) soulmate AU - fluff, smut
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My housemate's man by @shaalk
Jongin x fem!reader, Sehun x fem!reader cheating - angst, smut, fluff Sehun is cheating on his girlfriend with me, her housemate. He thinks we're just using each other's bodies, and so do I at first. But then my heart suddenly comes into play.
D appointment & confessions by @eomayas
Jongin x fem!reader fwb to lovers - smut, fluff, angst
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peachesvanilla · 2 years
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Dinner
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characters: baekhyun, reader
genre: fluff, bff au
warnings: none
note: i'm practicing to get back into writing so this might not be up to the standards. and to the anon who requested soulmate au, its work in progress, please wait a little more.
The chatter in our table breaks with Baekhyun entering the restaurant. Dressed in a torn jeans, black hoodie and hoodie cap covering almost all of his forehead. His eyes are sunken, black circles and the swell of his cheeks isn’t that visible anymore. My mood sullens realizing he must be starving since our last meeting one month ago. Why is he always overworking himself?
He drags his feet to us, nudging his chin at Jongin in acknowledgement. He scans the two tables clubbed together, there’s an empty space beside Sehun and Jongin. Another one next to Areum. He taps Junmyeon’s shoulder, who is on my right eating his noodles. He glares, picking his bowl and sits next to Jongin. 
Baekhyun plops on the stool with a sigh. “What are you having?” He drops his head on the table, his words muffling. 
I bend towards him, “Jajangmyeon. What do you want to eat?” I grab his arm away from his face so that I can at least read his lips. “Baekhyun, eat something.” 
He sits up, the hoodie cap falls off his head as he steals my bowl and mixes the noodles once. He slurps it with vigor like he has been starved for years. What has he been doing all these days not eating? I prop my hand on the table, resting my chin on my palm watching him chew with the sauce staining on his cheek. 
I wipe it off with my thumb and lick it clean. “When was the last time you ate?” 
“Had ramyeon yesterday morning.” He looks up from the bowl as he empties it.
I comb his ruffled hair trying to make it look decent. “You need to have decent food, Baekhyun.” I chide, separating his hair strands with my fingers. He closes his eyes in comfort, nudging his head into my palm asking for more. 
Jongin clears his throat, “if yours is over, we-are-just-friends,” he rolls his eyes, “do you want to order?”
I drop my hand onto my lap before they can dig deep about Baekhyun and me. The person next to me grunts in annoyance. I slide my hand onto his thigh patting him, he spreads his legs making it easy for me. “I don’t want anything.”
Baekhyun studies the menu while all of our friends' attention is on me. Some of them are smug, a few narrowing their eyes and others exchanging money(Junmyeon and Sehun). “What?”
They shrug in reply and continue to stare. I roll my eyes, no matter how many times Baekhyun and I clarify to them that there’s nothing going on between us, they still stubbornly insist. In the end we gave up and just moved on. Why do we have to  explain when there’s nothing?
“I don’t know if I can have the entire portion, will you share it with me?” He points at a menu item, his black eyes looking at me in hope. 
I nod. He grins so wide, shining and almost blinding me. I want to ruffle his hair and coo how cute he is but hold back sensing hawk eyes prying on us. He gives his order and holds my hand under the table. 
Conversation goes on with everyone giving their life updates. Baekhyun hums, giving curt replies and cracking jokes at Junmyeon. Sehun is talking about the girl he met at his apartment when Baekhyun clears his throat. He drags my stool close to him that our thighs are touching, his scent infiltrating all of my senses and our arms brushing. I lean on his shoulder humming in response. 
He rests his cheek on my head, “what about you? Any major changes?”
“Yeah.” I answer sarcastically. “So many that I lost count.”
He chuckles, “anything can happen anytime.”
“Yeah so much can happen in twenty minutes before you arrive.” I pinch his waist making him wince. “You know everything, Baekhyun.”
“I do.” He hums. “So no boyfriend yet?”
“As single as one can ever be.” I sigh into his shoulder. “You?”
“Same.”
“Why did you lie to me? You said you were eating?”
He turns to me, “why? If I said no, would you have come over and cooked for me?”
I narrow my eyes at his cheeky smile. “Baekhyun—”
“I’m so sick of them!” Sehun throws his hands in the air while everyone agrees. “Get a room you two.”
“Happily.”
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kaisooficrec · 1 year
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Nini Planet Round 20 (Fantasia)
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The monthly Bottom Jongin fest is back with their 20th round and this time their theme is: Fantasy AU.
No Beauty without Terror
Genre: Royalty AU, Angels AU, PWP
Rating: NC-17
Length: 2,573 w
Summary: His whole life, Kyungsoo's never felt clean, devoid of impurities. Even as a child, a constant feeling of dirtiness was always present in the back of his mind. It's like his soul was stained at birth and this stain was so integral to his very being that it was impossible to get rid of it without damaging the material underneath.
(They say the youngest prince was born to an angel. Kyungsoo finds out the truth.)
A perfect sacrifice
Genre: Fantasy AU, Vampire
Rating: R
Length: 2,998 w
Warnings: Major Character Death
Summary: Jongin was rescued by a Vampire Lord when he was little. But he doesn't seem to remember anything about it.
Ride or Die
Genre: Fantasy AU, Mutual Pining
Rating: R
Length: 2,999 w
Warnings: Violence
Summary: Jongin is a carefree Pixie for him rules are just a friendly suggestion, Kyungsoo is a law abiding Golem who never breaks the rules. Kyungsoo has 100 problems and 99 of them are Jongin related. Kyungsoo just wants Jongin to behave, Jongin just wants Kyungsoo.
Between Fairies, Witches and Slimes
Genre: Fairy Jongin, Witch Kyungsoo, Established Relationship
Rating: NC-17
Length: 2,973 w
Summary: Sometimes being a nosey person can result in something good.
to be loved is to be made to remember
Genre: Romance, Soulmates, Reincarnation, Mermaid Jongin, Human Kyungsoo
Rating: PG-13
Length: 2,287 w
Summary: Like a shell that keeps the waters' memory in its body, Jongin is rebirth in the sea to remember. Kyungsoo seems bound to a fate to forget, again and again.
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galoresficrecs · 11 months
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[EXO] Junmyeon
LAST UPDATED ON: Dec 2nd, 2022
newly added ✦ || personal faves ✪ || ongoing ✑
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ratings:
not rated || general || teen and up || mature || explicit🔞
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❧ NOT HERE SHIPS ☙
junmyeon x chanyeol
junmyeon x jongin
junmyeon x jongdae x minseok
❧ junmyeon x sehun ☙
✪ and it's you by rsera [4,9k words] college!au || general
✪ and the rest is dust and stardust by curledupkitten [16,2k words] foster house!au, age gap || explicit🔞
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✪ Coming of Age by quebaek [8k words] space academy!au || explicit🔞
✪ Hand In Unlovable Hand by werstoffhof [16,9k words] age gap, accidental baby acquisition, established relationship || explicit🔞
✪ I. Do. Not. Love. Kim. Junmyeon. (pause for dramatic effect) by London9Calling [12,8k words] canon compliant || explicit🔞
✪ I'd Kiss You Even If You Were Dead by Anonymous [4,2k words] vampire!au || explicit🔞
✪ Kiss (It's the best thing you can do with your lips) by Changdeol [14,1k words] actors!au || not rated
✪ Leaving on a Jet Plane by London9Calling [7,1k words] magical realism || explicit🔞
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✪ Seho 4 (v)live by viverl [5,7k words] canon compliant, established relationship || teen and up
✪ Shared by krispy_kream [861 words] canon compliant, established relationship || teen and up
✪ shines around me like a million suns by London9Calling [3,9k words] sci-fi || explicit🔞
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✪ spice it up by cherrycoke [607 words] vampires!au || general
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✪ The Wind Won't Blow It All Away by London9Calling [11,7k words] mythology!au || explicit🔞
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❧ junmyeon x reader ☙
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kjmsupremacist · 4 years
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Silk Slippers, Shirts, and Strings (Taemin/Kai)
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Taemin and Jongin are members of rivaling dance companies. They usually don’t compete against each other because Jongin does ballet and Taemin is more into contemporary, but this year, they’re in the same category. They brush past each other backstage during rehearsals, and feel that something’s familiar…
“The world was made so that we could find each other in it.”
— Jeanette Winterson, from Lighthousekeeping
Part One   |   Part Two   Masterlist
Characters: Taemin, Kai; some cameos from SHINee and EXO members; Padding Friends cameos
Genre: Soulmates, reincarnation, red string of fate; fluff/drama with potentially some smut, angst with resolution
Pairing: Taemin/Kai
Warnings: some blood/violence
Rating: Mature
Length: 4.7k
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“someone will remember us
I say
even in another time.”
― Sappho
1/2 (Jongin)
Jongin tosses his empty coffee cup into the trash as he enters the building, giving himself a shake. He nods to a few classmates as he heads down the hall and up the stairs. Competition season is looming, and it’s worse for Jongin, who took many months off last year after a badly-sprained ankle. He still managed to stay in the world of dance by working as a teaching assistant for a few senior instructors at his studio, but it wasn’t the same.
As soon as he was cleared to dance, he threw himself right back into it. It was at the end of competition season, and the beginning of summer. The only problem was, he’d already fallen behind in his pointe training. He’d been dancing ballet and contemporary his whole life, but ballet was his home. With his ankle, however, there was no way to maintain the rigorous exercises while he healed. Over this year, he knows he can recover the time lost, but it’s too late for this season. So for the first time since he was very small, he’s going to be dancing contemporary at competitions.
He ducks into his practice studio, dropping his back and himself on the floor as the lights flicker on. He tugs off his sneakers and searches around in his bag for his contemporary half shoes. He’ll do his pointe training after rehearsing for his competition piece.
Really, it shouldn’t stress him out so much. He’s one of many dancers at their company, and he has every right not to get top marks next week. He was injured; he normally competes under the ballet category; there are plenty of other extremely talented dancers, many from his company. The thing is, Jongin is one of the rising stars. He’s meant for more than regional competitions and the standard ebb and flow of professional dance.
What’s worse, there’s an equally prestigious company in the same city that has an old rivalry with Jongin’s. Word is the people who owned them before the current owners had a dramatic falling out. No one really knows the whole story, but regardless, the competition between the two is fierce. They have a dancer around the same age as Jongin—fresh out of university, brimming with talent and drive—who is equally as promising. He dances contemporary and hip hop, but usually chooses the former for competitions. Most years, they catch glimpses of each other from afar. This year, they’ll be competing against one another, and Jongin has to win.
“Jonginnie-ssaem!” A tiny voice shakes him from his thoughts, and he tears his vacant gaze from the mirror to the doorway, where one of his kiddie ballet students from the spring is hovering.
“Wonjae-ah,” he replies, smiling. “Back from summer break?”
“I’ve been back for weeks!” the boy says, stepping into the room and letting the door swing shut behind him. “I was wondering where you were. So you’re all better?”
“More or less,” Jongin says, sticking his foot up in the air and rolling his ankle around and around in circles to prove it.
“So you won’t be teaching us anymore?” It’s not a question, really; Wonjae’s tone asks for confirmation.
“Not for a little while, at any rate,” Jongin tells him. “Jonginnie-ssaem has some big competitions coming up. But I’ll ask your teacher if I can drop in from time to time, whenever I’m free.”
“Okay.” Wonjae pouts, and then reaches out to give Jongin a hug around the shoulders. “We miss you.”
Jongin pats his arm, smiling. “I miss you guys, too.” He looks up at him, brow furrowed. “Shouldn’t you be in class?”
“We start at one,” Wonjae says, shaking his head. “So I should go.” He releases Jongin. “Good luck rehearsing.”
“Thank you.” Jongin waves, watching him as he trots back out the door.
Jongin puts on some background music and starts his warm-up, stretching long and deep, closing his eyes against the discomfort. He laughs a little to himself, remembering how in his classes when he was in high school and college, he and his friends would sit on each other to help get the most out of their stretching. The number of times Jongin’s life (or potential bloodline) had genuinely been in danger is too high to count.
It does make him a little lonely, though. He finishes stretching and stands, changing the music and setting his phone down so he can warm up. Though more career opportunities and acclaim came with age, so did solitude. He and his friends had scattered after they graduated, and only a couple of them had ended up at the same dance company. Even with that, he rarely sees them. Each person is engrossed in their own work. It’s not that they don’t care anymore. It’s just that it’s no longer convenient.
His warm up tracks end, and he takes a minute to get a drink and prepare himself for the first run-through of his choreography. He watches his movements carefully in the mirror as he begins, feeling sweat bead on his forehead. He follows the trajectory of his arm, focusing on not tucking his thumb the way he’s used to—try as he might, his ballet habits, though hard to form, are even harder to kill.
Ballet is cruel to your body in a way that no other form of dance can be. It tears up your feet, puts strain on every muscle and joint. It’s a selfish lover; it demands all of you and more; it’s strict and unforgiving. But if you find solace in it—if ballet manages to ensnare you with its beauty, you learn to love everything about it. Even the pain. And though it’s torture at times, Jongin adores it. There’s passion there he can’t find anywhere else. Though many people start with ballet and quickly move away from it, he kept at it from the beginning. Ballet is his first love, and even when he’s dancing in another style that he likes, he misses it.
“You’re pointing your toes.” Jongin snaps his eyes up, stumbling just a little, and sees a longtime friend and colleague in the doorway.
“Yah, Timoteo-hyung.” Jongin sighs good-naturedly, dropping his pose and going to stop the music. “You scared me.”
“Well, no one else was going to tell you.” Timoteo peels himself off the wall and saunters over. “Unless you meant to have your toes pointed the whole time?”
“What if I did?” Jongin grumbles in vain; obviously he didn’t, and Timoteo knows this. He smiles as Timoteo draws near, accepting his hug. “Hi,” he adds. “How are you?”
“I’m good.” Timoteo steps back from the hug but keeps his hands on Jongin’s forearms. “Are you gonna be okay, leaving your greatest love at home?”
Jongin rolls his eyes. “Don’t be dramatic. It’s not like I’m putting ballet away forever. It’s just this year, and all I’m doing is putting contemporary first for the first time in, like, over a decade.”
“That’s how it starts, you know,” Timoteo jokes, shaking a finger at him. “Though with you, I’m not sure.”
“What, you think contemporary isn’t for me?” Jongin pouts, feigning great offense.
“No, I think you’re a great contemporary dancer,” Timoteo says evenly. “Good enough to beat that Lee Taemin, if you keep your head on right.”
“What, then?”
Timoteo shrugs vaguely. “You were pointing your toes,” he repeats. Jongin nods, and they’re silent for a moment. “Well,” he says. “I should leave you be. Big week you have coming up.”
“Dress rehearsals in three days,” Jongin says, nodding again. Some regional competitions like to invite the dancers in a couple days in advance just so they know where to go and what to do on the big day. It helps with processing day-of, and also helps dancers focus on their work and their performance. It’s nice, but it also steals half a day from Jongin that he could really use practicing.
Timoteo’s gaze softens a little; he claps Jongin on the shoulder. “You’ll do just fine,” he says. “I won’t tell you to break a leg or whatever. You don’t need my well-wishes to win.”
“Thanks.” It’s odd, but touching. “Buy me a meal if I do.”
“What?” Timoteo laughs, already on his way out the door. “No,” he says over his shoulder. “You buy me a meal. To thank me for being a lovely, supportive hyung who always gives you the best advice. Bye!” He escapes before Jongin can retaliate.
It’s always been like this—Timoteo teasing him gently as he winds him down from his anxious spirals. Before Jongin met Timoteo, the competition world of dance always overwhelmed him a little, because he was convinced he had to be the best, even though he believed he wasn’t. He didn’t think he could have friends, always worried he may have to compete against them someday, always worried someone was out for him. And dance was like that—sometimes. But not always. Timoteo was Jongin’s not always.
Jongin remembers the day he and Timoteo became friends. He was young, only ten at the time; Timoteo had been eleven. Jongin had stayed late, and in his exhaustion, one of his ankles had given out—the very ankle, in fact, that Jongin had sprained so terribly last winter. Jongin thought he was going to have to hop his slow way down the stairs and to the front desk to get help, but Timoteo happened to pass his practice room as he was hobbling out. Jongin had glared fiercely at him, trying to get him to leave him alone, afraid of what he might do. But Timoteo had extended his hand.
“Stop it,” he said. “Come sit back down. I’ll get a nurse.”
“Yeah, right,” Jongin muttered, brushing his hand aside. “I’m fine.”
Timoteo sighed. “If you don’t trust me, then get on my back, and we’ll go see the nurse together.”
Jongin gave him a suspicious look. “What do you want?”
“To be friends?” Timoteo rolled his eyes, turning around and squatting. “C’mon, you need to get some ice on it.”
Against his better judgement at the time, Jongin saw no choice but to clamber onto his back. Luckily, that sprain had been light, and Jongin was on his feet in a few days time, good as new, with a new friend at his side. And even though Timoteo quit competition before they went away to college, he was still there for Jongin when he kept pushing; has been there all this time.
Jongin sighs, and gets back to rehearsing. He goes over his dance sequence again and again, concentrating hard on the minute details (and on not pointing his toes). By the time he’s finally satisfied, and starting on his pointe exercises, it’s early in the evening.
Though he’s been working with pointe again for months now, his ankle finally strong enough to bear that kind of weight in small doses, his feet are still getting used to it. As a result, it tears up the skin. Besides, it’s physically exhausting, especially after hours spent rehearsing. He can’t do it for long today—can’t risk injury due to fatigue. Still, in the albeit short time he steps about, he works up a new layer of sweat. He stops when the droplets cling to his eyelashes like tears and blur his vision.
He tugs the shoes off, shoving them to the side to air out before he stuffs them back in his bag, wincing as he looks over his tortured feet. There’s fresh blood, though it’s not as bad as it’s been. Still, it hurts, and it’s about to hurt more, because Jongin digs around in his bag blindly for a bottle of New Skin—every pointe dancer’s faithful companion and worst enemy. He grits his teeth, groaning in pain as he sprays the liquid bandage onto his open skin, gasping against the way it sears at his wounds. Cursory self-care complete, he collapses onto his back, limbs splayed, head narrowly missing the wall behind him. He’s worked so hard, his body heat leaves steam on the mirrors.
⌯⌯ ❧ ⌯⌯
Dress rehearsals come sooner than Jongin would like. At the same time, though, he’s pleased with his progress over the last couple of days, so at least he’s not hurting for practice time. Besides, he’s itching to see the venue.
It’s busy, though it’s nothing in comparison to how it will be the day of the competition. Dancers flit everywhere. Jongin is handed a name tag with a red lanyard—they’re being color-coordinated by age and category, it seems—and ushered down a long hallway. The aide gives his group a cursory tour as they go, pointing out water fountains and the medical station.
They finally reach the waiting rooms. Each door has a sign taped to it with a company name; Jongin ducks into his and sees a few younger dancers blobbing around inside. Some are figuring out their lockers; others are waiting for their instructor to come back and get them, stretching on the floor and chatting to pass the time. A few look up when he enters, blinking wide-eyed at him.
“Hi,” he says softly, awkward as ever, side-stepping around them to find a vacant locker.
The air around him feels a little cold. Maybe it’s his melancholy nostalgia—once, he was like these young dancers, surrounded by friends and heavily chaperoned. Even if he was competing in ballet, he wouldn’t have anybody close to him, but at least he’d have the kids he instructed to keep him company. Most of his friends stopped competing or moved away; those who still compete are in different categories. Yixing and Sehun compete, often as a unit, with hip-hop; Kyungsoo does tap with a few friends Jongin isn’t well-acquainted with. They’ll be in and out of this room too, but the categories are held at different times. It leaves him quite alone.
Once he’s put a few supplies in his locker, he escapes the room of children quickly. He finds himself following the signs to the stage. He emerges from a hallway near the front row, by the orchestra pit. He finds a door that leads backstage, and after worrying for a moment over whether it will trigger an alarm or not (and ultimately deciding that it won’t), he pushes it open.
He’s met with a flurry of movement. There’s dancers, instructors, staff members, and god knows who else dashing back and forth. Old friends reach for each other across the room; a harried-looking assistant holds a sparkly, expensive-looking prop high above her head as she tries to wade through the throng. Jongin skirts to the side, mostly intent on sketching out the layout in his head so he doesn’t stumble around in the dark later this week.
The middle area is less crowded; most people won’t be using it since they’ll only be entering and exiting the stage once. Jongin pads across it dutifully, anyway, keeping an eye out for uneven footing or stray nails—anything that could trip him up before his performance. His eyes are on the floor, and he doesn’t look up when the door leading to the other side of the stage opens.
Whoever opened it must not have been looking where he was going either, because their shoulders brush—unnecessarily, given the amount of space they have. Jongin looks up, surprised, and finds him staring into a face he’s only seen on a screen or for an instant across a large room.
Taemin is wearing an expression of shock that Jongin is sure matches his own. At least he’s caught off-guard, too, Jongin thinks. But as their eyes meet, an odd feeling of sorrow stirs in Jongin’s chest. He swears, just for a second, he smells the sharp tang of metal on metal. He’s hit with a strong sense of deja vu—Taemin’s eyes feel familiar, and not just from his past, distant encounters. His eyes are always hard then; he’s always performing. Now, they’re wide and unguarded, almost gentle.
Images flash through Jongin’s mind—a silk robe, traditional-style; hands on hands, maybe his own; a lone tree in a windy field; and eyes, Taemin’s eyes, filled with an emotion so heavy, Jongin doesn’t know how to give it a name.
They both blink, stepping away from each other almost unconsciously.
“You’re Kim Jongin.” Taemin’s voice is a little higher than Jongin expected it to be, melodic and sweet.
“Yes,” Jongin replies, reeling too hard to really process it. “And you—you’re Lee Taemin, aren’t you?”
“Yes.” Taemin nods quickly, the ghost of a bow.
They stare for a moment more, and then Jongin tears his gaze away, slipping out the door to the other side of the wings. Taemin doesn’t follow.
2/2 (Taemin)
“Taemin,” Sungwoon says nervously.
Taemin raises his head slowly. “Yes?” he asks. Sungwoon rarely gets nervous, so it must be something. “You sound anxious for someone who isn’t competing in a week.”
“I just—have you checked out the lineup for the competition?” He extends his phone, walking closer so Taemin can reach it from where he’s stretching on the floor.
“No, why should it matter?” Taemin takes the phone anyway, though he doesn’t look yet. “My own performance has nothing to do with who I’m competing against.”
“Kim Jongin,” Sungwoon blurts, and ooh, that is reason for excitement.
“Jongin, huh?” Taemin peers down at the screen, and sees that Sungwoon is, in fact, not lying. “What on earth is he doing in my category?”
“Remember how he hurt himself early on last year?” Sungwoon says, taking his phone back. “Apparently, his ankle still isn’t well enough for him to do ballet.”
“Why doesn’t he just take another season off to heal, then?” Taemin snorts. “I swear, it’s like all the ballet dancers want to kill themselves for their art.”
“Like you’re not the same way,” Sungwoon says, the usual edge of sarcasm working its way back into his voice. “You just don’t do it as viscerally or as beautifully.”
“If I wanted snide, unsolicited commentary, I would’ve asked Kibum-hyung to come in on his day off,” Taemin says, arching an eyebrow at his friend.
“Duly noted.” Sungwoon pockets his phone. “I just thought you should know who you’re up against.”
“And I appreciate it.” Taemin leans back, crossing one leg over the other to open up his hip flexor. “But it doesn’t change anything. I’m still going to compete as I’ve always competed, and I’m still going to win. Jongin-ssi is in unfamiliar territory—my territory. And he’s still hurt, and I bet that does nothing to help his mentality. He may move beyond the preliminary rounds, but he won’t get far.”
“Okay.” Sungwoon’s tone is politely neutral. “Text me when you’re done. Wonsik-hyung said he’d buy us a meal on account of him finally nailing that final move he’s been working on forever.”
“Ooh, will do. Jimin’s coming, too?”
“Obviously.” Taemin isn’t looking at him, but he can picture the eye-roll. The door clicks shut behind him without another word.
Taemin meets his own gaze in the mirror. Kim Jongin. He’d only seen him once or twice at various competitions. He’s seen pictures and videos, of course, but he’d never really studied him because his whole thing was ballet, which was no concern of Taemin’s. Now, though… It’s anticipation he’s feeling, he decides. He meant what he said to Sungwoon. It doesn’t matter who he’s competing against; he’ll perform as he always does: perfectly. Some little star who’s lost his way won’t change that.
It’s not that Taemin is full of himself—well, maybe a little. It’s just that he’s confident, and he knows what he needs to worry about and what he doesn’t. Sure, it’s nice to know Jongin will be in his category this year so he isn’t caught by surprise on the day of the competition, but it’s nothing to lose his mind about. He stands, stretching complete, and begins his warm up. His feet fall lightly on the floor, balanced and controlled, as he always is.
⌯⌯ ❧ ⌯⌯
“Ooh, you have real competition this year then,” Jimin says, stealing a piece of Taemin’s pork belly even though he can just get more from the dish in the center.
“That’s rude,” Wonsik points out, but he’s grinning.
“In the first few rounds, I mean,” Jimin amends. “That guy these last few years—what was his name, Ten?—he’s really good.”
“Listen,” Taemin says through a mouthful of rice. “The guy hasn’t done anything serious with contemporary in years. I think you’re all overreacting.”
“Kibum-hyung would say to take it seriously,” Sungwoon says.
“Well, he’s not here right now. I’m sure I’ll get the lecture from him soon enough.” Taemin shakes his bangs out of his eyes with a rueful grin.
Sure enough, Kibum finds his way into Taemin’s practice room the day before dress rehearsals. He’s just finished up a class, and watches Taemin as he finishes practicing from the door. Taemin turns to face him with his ending pose, bowing low in greeting as the music fades.
“How do I look, hyungie?” he asks cheekily as he straightens.
“Great,” Kibum says, rolling his eyes. “Do you have a minute?”
“I think I do whether I want to or not.” Taemin pads over to his items, nodding at Kibum to join him. He sits down and unscrews his water bottle, taking a long pull from it. “So?”
“Kim Jongin is competing in the same category as you this year,” Kibum begins, settling on the floor easily beside him.
“So I’ve heard,” Taemin replies.
“I just hope you’re taking him seriously,” Kibum says, and Taemin gives him an exasperated look. “Stop it.” Kibum points a finger at him. “I know you think it’s not a big deal because he’s a ballet dancer, but he’s not like your typical ballet dancer. A lot of them do ballet because it’s all they’ve ever really known, and they’re too timid or too set in their ways to branch out. Jongin-ssi does ballet because he has a genuine love for it. He’s very well-rounded, and incredibly talented in many other areas. I hope you’ll keep your wits about you.”
“Hyung,” Taemin says, feeling a little hurt. “It shouldn’t matter, right?”
“I just don’t want you to be flippant,” Kibum replies.
“I’m not a slacker!” Taemin defends, more than just a little hurt now. “You of all people should know that.”
Kibum’s eyes flash. “I’m not calling you a slacker,” he says, his voice cold and calm. “I’m just saying you tend to treat these regional competitions lightly just because you always make it past the first few rounds. Be careful that you don’t let your arrogance get the better of you.”
“What, are you saying you think I might lose to him?” Taemin shakes his head. “I’m not arrogant, hyung, I just don’t see the need to expend undue energy. It’s not that I expect to win. I just don’t see the point in fretting over things I can’t control.”
“That’s not what I’m telling you to do.” Kibum huffs out a laugh, shaking his head. “Just—don’t get cocky, okay?”
“Yeah, yeah.” Taemin stands, and helps pull Kibum to his feet.
“Alright, show me this damn dance,” Kibum says, and Taemin laughs. “If you do it perfectly, I pay for your dinner so you don’t have to cook.”
“Oh, deal!” Taemin scuttles over to start the music.
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Taemin heads to the venue in a bus provided by the company. Kibum and his modern dance class kids are with them; they all sit behind to two men, chatting and laughing. Taemin helps Kibum herd them off the bus and through the doors, where they receive name tags and lanyards. Kibum and the kids get a nice pretty shade of purple; Taemin gets a deep red.
Once he’s dropped a few things off in the waiting room, Taemin does his usual scan of the stage. They held a competition here last year, though it was for later rounds, but it’s been a while, and Taemin always likes to check out the terrain. He starts on stage left, checking for sharp corners, peering out onto the stage briefly to see. It’s been scrubbed clean, one clear “x” of tape marking the exact center.
Taemin turns away, going to cross to the other side through the little back room. He keeps his eyes on the floor, watching for pitfalls as he opens the door. He realizes too late there’s another pair of feet coming his way, and he brushes the shoulder of the person they belong to, and looks up, opening his mouth to say sorry.
The words freeze in his throat. He’s never met Kim Jongin before, but he knows what he looks like—tanned skin, pretty eyes, and a jawline that could kill. Jongin blinks back, clearly just as surprised and thrown off as Taemin is. Their eyes meet, and Taemin’s mind suddenly provides him with flashes of what feel like memories—a man dressed in hanbok, waving in the distance; a lone tree in a wind-blown field; the clash of metal and the reek of blood; and Taemin’s own hand, outstretched before him, shaking and mangled, with a clean, silky red string tied neatly to his pinky, stretching off into the distance.
They’ve taken a couple of stumbling steps backwards from each other. There’s a keen familiarity to Jongin that Taemin doesn’t understand. His eyes are filled with curiosity. Confusion swirls through Taemin.
“You’re Kim Jongin,” Taemin says unnecessarily.
“Yes,” Jongin replies, sounding a little preoccupied. “And you—you’re Lee Taemin, aren’t you?”
“Yes.” Taemin doesn’t know what else to say; he inclines his head in greeting.
There’s a moment of stillness, and then Jongin turns away, slipping out the door without another word. Taemin unfreezes, but he doesn’t follow.
He finishes his scan of the stage still lost in thought. What was that? He wonders to himself as he meanders back down to the main floor. It was almost like I knew him. But that’s ridiculous! Where did all of that even come from?
Kibum finds him waiting in the lobby, kids in tow, about a half an hour later, and he’s still musing. “What’s got you so quiet?” Kibum asks as they lead the kids back out to the parking lot.
“Nothing,” Taemin says slowly. He doesn’t know how to begin to explain it. “I ran into Jongin-ssi backstage.”
“Oh?” Kibum raises his eyebrows. “And?”
“And nothing,” he replies, brushing him off. “We introduced ourselves, that was all.”
“Was it… a civil exchange?” Kibum asks, worry clouding his tone.
“Yes, eomma,” Taemin says, earning himself a slap on the arm. “We said hi, that’s all.”
That night, Taemin’s dreams are strange. Jongin is there, though he looks a little different. He’s younger; his black hair is long, and he wears simple robes. Taemin finds himself next to him under that lone tree. He holds Jongin’s hands in his; he’s trying to tell him something important, but he can’t hear his own voice. He’s ripped from scene to scene—first in a small house, at the dinner table; next, on a boat, surrounded by strangers, and finally, the same image of his bloodied hand, reaching up as he lies gasping in the dirt, a red string attached to his pinky finger. His other hand trembles as he strains to lift his sword. It hurts him everywhere to do it, but he doesn’t stop. He slices upward, and severs the string. It dissipates into nothing.
The last thing he sees before he wakes is unforgiving, glaring sunlight. He closes his eyes, breathing out a sigh of relief. The shrill ringing of swords clashing fills his ears, mixed with violent screams. It doesn’t matter, though. What’s done is done.
Taemin wakes shaken and confused. He doesn’t feel rested, though according to his sleep tracker, he’s been out for almost nine hours. He lurches unsteadily to the bathroom, splashing some cold water on his face. He looks up at his reflection, turning his head side to side. For a moment, he doesn’t even recognize himself. What’s happening to me? he thinks. Am I going insane?
The vivid imagery of the dream fades throughout the day, but the feeling of desperate longing clings like static. It’s two days before the competition, and his performance has never looked worse. But worries over his form pale to his turmoil.
“What’s gotten into you?” Wonsik asks, half concern, half derision.
Taemin shakes his head. What’s gotten into me? It’s a great question. He doesn’t know how to respond.
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saudade — kim jongin
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➳ published: 04.05.20 ➳ soulmate!au || reincarnation!au || genre: angst || rated: t ➳ pairing: kim jongin x reader ➳ summary: Being invited to a cousin’s wedding isn’t unusual, even if she hasn’t seen her in a few years. What is unusual is who her groom seems to be. ➳ warnings: aaaaannnnnngggggsssssssstttttttttttt, btw there is no second part to this so please don’t ask YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED ➳ word count: 1.5k  ➳ author’s note: this is written in third person, it is still reader insert but I am not using the typical y/n because this is written for a certain dear of mine who prefers oc style, in a way of saying thank you for all she does for me.
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The music begins to play, like it has a thousand times before, her feet move on their own because they know where they need to go and she feels the tears beginning to fall silently without control. The slightest breeze caresses her cheeks, cooling the hot tears and attempting to dry the ones that fall; this is the happiest moment of her life, every moment had brought her here so, of course, a tear will be shed.
His hair shines a soft, chocolate brown as the sun blesses them with a beautiful day. There isn’t a cloud in the sky and it’s almost like the heavens themselves have given their blessings for the union, allowed them to share another lifetime together. When he turns, skin a shimmering gold as a smile spreads across his lips, she feels the air in her lungs leave her in one shaky breath. He feels the same way, seeing her dressed in white and walking down the aisle in time with the music – he couldn’t think of a sight that he’d compare to her beauty.
The mountains with a snow blanket, the ocean bathed in the silver moonlight or even the sunrise peeking in through the curtains, couldn’t compare to the beauty that she is in this moment.
When she stands in front of him, Jongin holds her hands so delicately in his own, tears welling up in his shining brown eyes while hers fall silently. This is a moment that they have shared over many lifetimes, a love that has blossomed and blazed through every moment in time and to share it again, whether knowingly or not, is like finding home once more.
The vows are shared, the words almost written on their hearts and memorised like their names. A kiss on the lips is followed by them pressing their foreheads together, their little bubble drowning out the noise that tries and penetrates their happiness. He couldn’t imagine living in a world where loving her wasn’t an option, she couldn’t imagine doing this with anyone but Jongin and for a moment, as short as it may have been – they were at peace.
A peace that was ended too quickly when the alarm blared and evaporated the dream into a wisp of smoke. Jongin groans, stretching his arms out while she rolls over and buries her nose into the pillow, refusing to wake up. The alarm refuses to stop, repeating over and over and over until it’s turned off; Jongin opens his eyes, blinking away the sleep, the dream still dancing in the back of his mind, and she rubs a hand over her face, yawning before rolling out of bed and fighting the urge to crawl back into the warmth.
The sun shines, another day to start so beautifully over this long weekend, but with the dream hanging on the fringe of reality; the emotions still stirring up everything that each life has once felt so fully before Jongin looks at the body still in the bed and sighs. She looks into the mirror, a clenching in her heart beginning to replace the happiness that she woke up feeling; another day to get through, another day to pretend that every second she sees him isn’t completely ripping her heart out and shattering it into a thousand pieces.
Where did they go wrong?
They are two souls who have lived a thousand lifetimes together become star-crossed lovers, forced to dream and feel everything that once had before having to live with the fact that this time – fate had a different path for them. A punishment maybe, a lesson to learn as they wake up every morning, knowing they are so close but so far away and Jongin wonders when the pain will end. She knows there is nothing to stop this, this constant longing to be held by him once more, to have his scent envelop her when he pulls her close and kisses her crown like he’s done many times before. Life is often cruel and even though they found each other, like they have done more times than they can recall, things are different this time – he’s engaged to her cousin.
She had heard the news, never thinking anything of it because how was she meant to know it was him, her Jongin. When he saw her name on the guest list, Jongin never fathomed that his love, his soulmate, was going to be attending his wedding to someone else.
She hears her name being called, recognising the voice as if it was her own. Jongin walks into the kitchen, silence surrounding them as they are the only two there and her heart begins to race; her fight or flight reflex kicking in because she knows what will happen if she remains here too long. “Please,” his voice breaks as he reaches for her, fingers igniting fire where they touch and burning her alive. “Don’t go.”
“Jongin,” hearing his name fall off his lips, the plea for him to stop before it’s too late. “We can’t do this.”
“Why not?” He presses, her resistance failing when his fingers intertwine with hers. “Why can’t it be you tomorrow?”
Tears begin to fall, the need to be comforted by him overwhelming her as Jongin gently encourages her into his arms. “You know why,” she buries her face into his chest, inhaling deeply to try and remember it. “It’s too late.”
“It’s not too late.”
“Where would we go? What would we do?” She fights back, tears already falling as she looks up and sees his own eyes brimming with tears. “It’s your wedding tomorrow, you’re marrying her.” She didn’t mean for it to sound so jealous but it fell off her tongue, lathered in venom. “How would it look if you broke everything off, only for us to be together?”
“I don’t care.”
She pushes away then, frustrated at him, at herself, and at this entire situation. “Well, I do!” She tries not to shout the house down. “This isn’t some random, this is my cousin – she deserves happiness, too.”
“It’s always been us.” Jongin reaches for her again, “I belong to you, I always have.”
“Then, why are you marrying her?”
He sighs, running a hand through his hair and giving her a pleading look, one that begs her to understand. “You know that it all came flooding back the moment you got out of the car. Seeing you, smiling as the sun hit your face and causing you to radiate brighter than a hundred sun, it was like I had finally woken up from a dream.”
“And that’s why we can’t, Jongin. They won’t understand.”
“They don’t need to understand. What could they know about love that has found each other throughout the ages? Who are they to tell us that we can’t be happy, that we can’t be together?” He grits his teeth, angry that she doesn’t want this as badly as he does. “We’ve found each other again, why won’t you let us be happy?”
“Because doing so would break her heart!” She raises her voice, realising her mistake when she hears movement coming down the hall. Not wanting to have to explain what had happened, she makes her exit, a cowardly one without a second glance at Jongin – not sure where she was running to, only knowing it’s away from him.
 A dream that seems so blissful and pure soon becomes her living nightmare as she waits for the music to start. This time, it isn’t her walking down the aisle. This time, it isn’t her that Jongin smiles at when he sees her. This time, it isn’t her who he promises to hold and cherish until his dying breath.
No, this time, she has to watch. She has to force a smile as she watches the man she’s been with since the beginning of time, promise himself to another. She has to clap even as her heart remains shattered and dying on the ground. Instead of being the one who he now calls his wife – she is just a bystander, looking in through the window at the happiness that was once hers.
“I’m happy for you,” the words feel like gravel as they push their way out of her mouth. Jongin doesn’t look convinced but he doesn’t say a word as she hugs her cousin; the newlywed couple are about to get into their car, to drive off to begin their new life. “I wish you both a long and loving life together.”
Her eyes meet Jongin’s, the connection pulling them together as they embrace for the last time. There’s too much left unsaid, too much that he wishes he could do to change their fate but she’s made her choice and with the wedding finished and another on his arm – she isn’t going to take that back any time soon.
Or, at all.
“I love you,” he whispers, low enough that nobody but her hears it and that’s the final nail in the coffin for her heart. “I will find you in the next life, I will never let you go.”
“You say that every time,” she mutters back, squeezing one last time before pulling away. “Maybe we will, maybe we won’t.” Once, she had been so certain, absolutely positive that Jongin was made for her and she him but now – she’s not so sure. “We won’t ever know.”
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