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m made a sea creature pintrste board owah i love fishies and shargs and underwater creatures and everythung wooaoahhoaow ayayayayy
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Shota x kidnapper send post
#shota x kidnapper but the shota falls in love with his kidnapper because they treat him better than his family#shota x kidnapper but the kidnapper feels bad for keeping shota so he tries to let him go home but the shota won't fuckin leave#shota x kidnapper but *BANG* *BANG* *BANG* *BANG* *BANG*#...one more and im done i swear#shota x kidnapper but the kidnapper trains shota to be the perfect little pet#jjust the most obedient little pet ever and he greets kidnapper at the door all excited...askin to be picked up & hugging& kissing kidnapper#pet shota but the shota is a kemonomimi to begin with... ilove shotas with animal features...cute...#op is a proshipper#proshippers please interact#sh0t4#sh0tacon#sh0ta#sh0tac0n#đ§žđŻ#proshipper safe#proship#comship#darkship
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NO CAUSE i figured i could make one as well because the recent person was very very real for thhat you are honestly one of the reasons i open tumblr in the morning, i go straight to your blog if i dont find your art on my feed and scroll through ,, i absolutely love SMG8 HGHKG jjust very shy to say that i adore yyour art and OC and everything ........ i absolutely adore traditional art, and the way you capture the SMG4 universe in your style is literally EVERYTHING to meeeeee i litsrally wouldn't have it any other way im so happy and HONORED we're MMUTUALS ?? i love when you draw SMG3 i love when you draw SMG4 i love when you DRAW in general and i love seeing your posts ..... hhouououou what else what else .......... uhhh take care of yourself !! stretch or drink some water sometimes^^c (<- hypocrite/hj) wouldn't want one of my FAVORITEST artists ever to have The Horrors.... -đïž
Quite literally, this made me tear up STOPPP. I'm so so happy too hear ALL OF THIS LIKE. HELLO I DONT EVEN KNOW WHAT TOO SAY. I didn't expect too get so much love when I started doodling silly SMG4 stuff, mainly because I wasn't too active on here before. But seeing so many people enjoy my art and wanting too see more of it warms my heart so much. ESPECIALLY WHEN ITS OF MY OC, since I always put so much love into them no matter what
AND YOUđ«”đ«”đ«”đ«” ARE AN AMAZING ARTIST TOO I LOVE YOUR STUFF SO SO MUCH And I'm glad we're mutuals, your reblogs always make me smile AGHHH HUGS YOU TIGHTLY AHAHAH
Me rn/pos
#AGHHH SOBBING RN SOBS SOBS/POS#IM SO GLAD YOU LIKE MY ART SM AAAGHRGRGGSGSFABD#I LOVE DRAWING SMG4 IM GLAD PEOPEL LIKE IT#YOURE SO SO NICE SWSBQGAGAGAA#AND IM SO GLAD PEOPLE LIKE SMG8 AAAAG#CRYINGGG/POS#answers from storm!
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I feel like I should jjust give up on all my "good" qualities and stop trying to be a "good person" and fighting sgainst all my bad qualities. I. I start to feel like there's nothing good coming of it for me, and not enough good for anyone else to actually keep bothering with me.
I feel like the positive things I get told the most is that I'm nice, and that I'm beautiful.
But. Apparently I'm not enough of either for people to... stick around.
I don't know. Even now I don't know what to write. Cuz it might might people unhappy. But.
Maybe I'll try to let what I feel out, for just this once;
I do my fucking hardest, successfully too most of the time, to make people happy, to help them, to make them feel comfortable around me. Cuz all my life no ones ever done that for me. In school people gave no two shits about me, unless it was to make fun of me or get their homework done easier. FOR 9 DAMNED YEARS. Then I switched schools. I guess I had friends. Friends that, as soon as they were not forced to be in the same classroom as me either cut contact or essentially bullied me online. Since then I haven't made friends in person. My own mom has been there for me. As in. Provided for food, entertainment and ignoring my existence otherwise. I got hugged by her for the first time I can remember when I tried offing myself and telling her that I thought I wasn't worth anything and she didn't love me. She graced herself to hug me long enough so I stopped crying and then pushed me away and went back to watching TV alone telling me to go cuz SHE NEEDS A MOMENT. My dad is just inept. Nice. Trying his best. I guess. I used to see him once every 2 weeks, and we talked like 2 hours maybe, where he left me completely to myself otherwise. The person I had contact and an actual "friendship" with the longest eventually started using that friendship and manipulating and breaking apart my entire friend group to just fucking use me as his damned sex toy whenever he felt like it. And I didn't realize for what? 8 or more damned years. That friend group is now so splintered and fucked that I don't even know what the fuck to do about it. Do I still want them? Do they still want me? Pretty sure they don't enjoy me around anymore tbh. Newest friends I made are from therapy or from tumblr, and it's like 5 people in total, 1 if which I haven't talked to in 2 months as I assume she doesn't give a shit about me anymore, at least not that I could tell. And I still really really damned like her but I wish I fucking didn't cuz it's fucking tearing me apart. I suppose I got used to her being there for me and when she wasn't when I was at 2 of my absolute lowest points my mind just broke or something idk. 2 of them I met in therapy and one of them is nice but doesn't have time, which is okay but also annoying to be honest, but it's not her fault I suppose, and the other ignores me whenever she can. The newest 2 ppls I met are nice but I feel like they either are scared of me, I guess at this point rightfully so or don't actually care.
I keep saying that I'm not super likeable when you stick around me for too long and everyone always tells me they don't think so but somehow the only people that seem to have sticked around for years either did cuz they had no choice or in one case because they didn't actually like me and just enjoyed my body.
So. My honest feelings, no one actually cares about making me happy. I want to be treated the way I try my hardest to treat everyone else. I. I'm tired of having and making friends. I can't bear it. I can't bear being alone either. I have been for too long. I. I want this to end, not my life, just this this this dambed conflict of everything. I feel such conflicting things. I'm trying my hardest to make things right for everyone. And I feel like I am not getting enough back to even keep me going until 30.
Love is conditional. And I don't think I am capable of meeting these conditions. Besides all my hatred for how I'm being treated. I still only blame one person. Myself. For just not being good enough.
I wasn't wanted in this world. I was conceived on accident. And I feel that in the way my mother treats me.
But I hoped that maybe someone else doesn't.
Maybe I'll be able to hold on long enough until I can find someone that does want me. Maybe.
I hold so much hope. For such a hopeless person. Such a hopeless world. I wish I could give up.
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having blorbos is like. a wildly differfent experience with each one huh. im just staring at sara with big autism eyes but i am ripping shin's guts out with my bare hands. vyncnent sol goes in the microwave and i just watch him thru the little microwave window and make screeching noises in my brain and with akane kurhski im just like pointing at her wildly from very far away and waving my hands around and thencrying and then jumping off a cliff. i am making tea for luna zeroescape and having a nice chat with her (not crying ! im not crying) but i am going to squish chip jerwee's face and then hug him and then immeaditly push him out a window goodbye forvevr . phi eoro escape i jjust cheer enthusiastically whenevr she appears i n my brain
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I saw what happened earlier with Dream tormenting you and I can't stand not comforting you, so thought I'd say hi.
One thing to remember is that Dream is just trying to get a reaction from you. The best thing to do is ignore him, however hard that may be - trust me, I learnt that the hard way back in school. If Dream keeps inciting a reaction, he'll keep going and it'll only get worse. Please, Tommy, try to ignore any messages he sends, no matter what he might say. Put your comm on silent and place it screen-down. Think of it this way: if Dream is sending messages to you here, then he can't mess with you in person because he can't do both at once!
I'd love to give you a hug, but I know physical contact sometimes freaks you out - so maybe just imagine it instead, if you want. We anons are always here to support you through this! <3333
yeah i know he fuckin loves trying to get a reaction usually i just tellhim to fuck off adn shit and try not to let him get to me. buthe knows me so fuckign well sometimes it jjust happens anyway like he broughtup that fuckin exile shit adn i just. idont even know what tosay about thta noweveryone knows how fucking weak iwas that i let thathappen twice adn. sorry i probably shouldnt just dump that allout here. youre right though ill keep tryign to ignore him hes just an annoyign green bitch who wants my attention so i wont fuckin give it to him. and thankyou dont worry i am hugging Shroud right now and he is very fuzzy adn soft
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ULYANON HAS BEEN SUMMONED
Mahou Shoujo is honestly the soul of my existence. . .
Pichi Pichi Pitch and Shugo Chara RULED my early childhood. THAT WAS MY SHIT WHEN I WAS LIKE 8 YEARS OLD
Young me scrolling on YT and finding those was the best thing EVER.
I COULD GO ON AND ON ABOUT MAGICAL GIRLS TBH. . .
Cardcaptor Sakura and Precure basically shaped me into who I am tbh. Like younger me was cooking with making magical girl designs tbhh. LIKE I SAID, MAGICAL GIRLS ARE THE SOUL OF MY EXISTENCE
*hugs you in princess tutu mention*
Just princess tutu. . .it's everything. TRYING NOT TO MAKE THIS TOO LONG SINCE I HAVE A WORD LIMIT
I COULD TALK ALL DAY ABOUT SHUGO CHARA AND TOKYO MEW MEW HONESTLY THOSE WERE HUGE AND I MEAN HUGE PARTS OF MY CHILDHOOD(As well as precure oh lord my parents know all about my magical girl obsession), SO GLAD TO FIND ANOTHER SHUGO CHARA FAN AS WELL AS JUST MAGICAL GIRLS BECAUSE WHERE I LIVE IS WACK AND NO ONE LIKES FUN. . .
COULD TALK ALL DAY ABOUT SHUGO CHARA SORRY THAT I KEEP COMING BACK TO IT
UHHHH SUGAR SUGAR RUNE IS ALSO REALLY GOOD
ALSO MADOKA MAGICA????? I WATCHED THAT SHIT 4 TIMES OVER ITS A MASTER PIECE AND MY WHOLE FAMILY LOVE IT EXCEPT MY YOUNGER SISTER WHO CRIED IN THE FIRST 5 MINUTES. . .
GOSH TALKING ABOUT MAGICAL GIRLS IS JJUST ALKVNDGFDKG
-Ulysses loving anon
HOLY FUCK THE ULYANON HAS APPEARED
NO THOSE SHOWS WERE STRAIGHT UP PEAK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! like pichi pichi pitch was straight up the epitome of every mahou shoujo trope ever lol.........
me when i didn't know how to pirate and just . searched it on youtube
MAGICAL GIRLS REALLY DO JUST STICK W SOMEONE WITH THE REST OF THEIR LIFE. GENUINELY LIFE CHANGING IF YOU WERE EVER EXPOSED TO THEM AS A CHILD we stay strong mahou shoujo fans
PRINCESS TUTU REALLY IS EVERYTHING... I LOVE SWAN LAKE SOOO MUCH RAHHHH I REALLY NEED TO WATCH THE MOST POPULAR ONES BC THEY LOOK RIGHT UP MY ALLEYYY WAHHH
HELP NOOOOOOOOOO.... TCH... EVERYONE AROUND YOU JUST ALL DON'T HAVE TASTES I FEAR......... UNAPPRECIATIVE OF MAGICAL GIRLS.... TCH. PATHETIC....
shugo chara really needs more appreciation its crazy how underappreciated it is. come on. its peak
OHHH I THINK I'VE SEEN SUGAR SUGAR RUNE IN THE BACK OF MY OTHER MAGICAL GIRL MANGA AS ADVERTISEMENTS... LOL
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1st half: jinpei has an enormous comphet. here's an essay and at least a thousand jokes about it
2nd half: i would commit atrocities if elzemekia asked me to
final stretch:
UCHUU WA SHINPI DE BOOGIE WOOGIE BOKU NO KOKORO MO BOOGIE WOOGIE
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mazera's so fucked up he's not even staying to witness jinpei fumbling a protag speech
you can imagine my reaction to this next conflict actually-
it was this
they keep being like "ooooo are we killing rantoooo? are we not killing ranto? who knows! tehee!" and it's. it's just with ranto
a lot of people kicked a ball really hard and it worked
wait a few minutes and you won't be joking anymore, alma
i think this is this is the only time jinpei gets all serious in a genuine manner- besides that weird moment in the komamom ep and when they were gonna face raimu but neither of those moments paid off? i think jinpei's really effective when used seriously, taking into account this scene made me genuinely REALLY, REALLY sad and it's the only time they do this with his character lmao
I AM MATAROU'S BIGGEST SUPPORTER!!! I WAS THERE TO SAY KITAAAAAAA WHEN HE WASN'T ABLE TO!!!! I LOVE YOU MATAROU TAMADA YOU'RE THE NAEGI KINNIE TO END ALL NAEGI KINNIES!!!! đ„đ„đ„đ„đ„đ„đ„đ„đ„đ„đ„đ„đ„đ„
this answers the question. cats really can be heroes. at the cost of their boyfriends i guess this is foreshadowing, in a sense
LOOK AT HIM. JJUST. JUST LOOK AT HIM
matching pfps for you and your boyfriend who's abOUT TO DIE
... though nayu doesn't really seem that impressed
this happened to me before. with asougi. again. why am i mentioning him this much-
there's at least one person out there who really likes this ship. it isn't my favorite jinpei ship but i want you to know you have superior taste and i'm just really stubborn đ«Ą
not feeling really funky fresh right now
i mean. if jinpei doesn't stop hugging matarou, he can't really leave. and what is he gonna do? take jinpei with them?
Going Through It, Truly
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#can a cat be queercoded?#enma built a prison chamber so hard that it survived The Apocalypse Basically. sasuga enma#the jinpei comphet thing is taking over. today i had a dream where someone agreed with me and i got happy. why am i like this#let's sing together!#aru hi ojiki wa iimashita. omae wa sora kara kita ko dato. en ni madoromu karasu sae. omae wa itan to azawarau#JIBAKU no marionetto KOMARI hateta piero kiri ni kakurete iru kyupid. FUKI areru yuki wa HARU NO hi ni kogasarete sen no aki ni somerareru#nagare nagarete mekuru meku hoshi ten ni mitsuketa nanatsu no kumo wo. otte hanasaku kondeki no yoru towa ni yurameku nami ni mazerare#mata mo kieyuku boku wa kagerou ima da mihatenu hoshi monogatari#uchuu wa shinpi de boogie-woogie boku no kokoro mo boogie woogie uchuu wa shinpi de boogie woogie boku no kokoro mo boogie-woogie-#UCHUU WA SHINPI DE BOOGIE-WOOGIE BOKU NO KOKORO MO BOOGIE-WOOGIE. UCHUU WA SHINPI DE BOOGIE-WOOGIE
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baby-2nd year tsumu being scrawny and malnutritioned thoughwith a slight squishiness adn then Now that hes bgetter despite still being fucked up hes a t a healthy weightand hes just soo so .hes so.plush. like a real life bear not gay kind of bear respec tto them though but he isnt one ofhte m. and he jjust .juest.!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!The most wonderful hugs onearth .'#2nd ybest madara hjas first place in the hug giver competition. oh god holdihn him wouldbe so good no mattet what age he is though I wish I cdould just hug him i feel sad Im going tocry.and ehs sow arm hes so warm hes like a heater like a natural heaterand its just .Itjsuts
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RaĂșl & Gerry hugging at RaĂșlâs birthday party in 3x01 for anon
#controlzedit#netflixedit#tvedit#raĂșl x gerry#control z#gerry x raĂșl#tv shows#raĂșlgerryedit#gerryraĂșledit#my edits#raul x gerry#my gifs#gerry x raul#mine#requests#okay so i kinda assumed you jjust wanted the hugs when gerry arrived#but i can also post the one right before he left#love these two's friendship#i wish we'd gotten more of them in s3
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Blue, rumor has it that Master Orfeu actually hates being bitten and heâs planning a really horrible punishment for you, Haru, and Bonnie.
âŠThe house falls silent for a moment. Blue and Haru stare at you with big, terrified eyes. Blue hugs Bonnie tight, as Haru falls to his knees, forehead on the floor.
âNO! n-n-n-noâŠ.â Blue starts, protecting Bonnie âIt⊠it did it! It! Just B-b-blue!â
Blue looks desperate, then something clicks and it kneels, in front of Haru.
âHh-haru o-o-only did⊠Once, p-pplease! B-b-bonnie i-i-innocent! Blue did it! Blue will take, take t-t-their p-p-punishment p-p-pleaseâŠâ
âBbâbluâŠâ Haru whimpers, very softly, grabbing at Blueâs sleeve, shaking their head slowly. Blue canât take punishment for three. A really bad one, even!
âN-no, Itâs⊠Itâs n-n-not fair⊠Y-y-you never⊠J-jjust o-once. Blue d-d-does it all the time! B-b-blue s-s-should be, be t-the only oneâŠâ
âŠBlue barely realizes he is crying, grinding its teeth together.
âIt⊠It⊠W-w-will loose themâŠâ it sobs ââŠO-o-ne for⊠for e-e-ach b-b-bite mm-m-maybe? T-t-thatâsâŠâ
Blue almost screams, covering its head, scaring Haru even more, as he trembles on the floor, chewing his nails and wondering if having the teeth pulled out hurts worse than the nails. He guesses it does.
âT-t-t-t-twelve⊠M-m-more t-t-than Blue had, had e-e-ver lostâŠâ Blue canât. Canât breathe âT-t-thirteen⊠F-f-for y-y-your biteâŠ.Hnng⊠W-w-why B-b-b-bonnie? S-s-sheâŠ.. innocent⊠sheâŠ. She deserves b-b-better than BlueâŠâ
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me, shaking: would you consider doing number 24 from that experimenter anti prompt list? if you want to? thank you your writing is so good i cry
woah woah woah omg!!! yes ofc, also right back at you, bee!!! heck and i chose the ego on the receiving end since it wasnât stated here, i hope thatâs okay!! thank you so much!!
tw: super SUPER creepy anti, dehumanization, and a lil stockholm syndrome
24: Why didnât you tell me this was happening? We need to get this treated right away.
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Everything hurts. His head. His bones. Every place on his skin that Anti touches. Maybe heâs just being over sensitive again.
âLie back for me,â Anti says, watching the subject as he sits, shaking, all curled into himself. He can never get a good look at them when they do this, why do they always do this? Hasnât he taught them better?
Chaseâs nails dig into his arms as he sinks into himself more. His head hangs low, tears dripping from his burning eyes and landing on the same hospital gown heâs worn since three days ago. He hasnât had the energy to change into the new ones heâs been brought. Rats have to be clean, afterall.
The subject whimpers as a hand is wrapped around his throat, gently guiding him down onto the table. Its still curled into itself, shaking and softly crying against the cold metal it lays on. Why is it crying? He hasnât been hurt today, whatâs the matter?
âYou know how youâre supposed to lay, donât fight me today. I only need a few more notes- just be good! Iâll turn the heat back on if youâre good.â
âMph- p- prom-mise?â the subject croaks. His voice is torn, as if heâd been crying, or screaming, or both.
âPromise! Now splay yourself out.â
It takes him a moment, shivering and trembling as he works his bones out to be straight. He whines and whines, keeping his eyes closed as they continue to pour tears down his face, dripping down through his hair and onto the cold metal beneath him.
Antiâs eyebrows furrow and he tilts his head, running his hands all over the subjectâs body. Itâs skin is warm and flushed, and it seems to be breathing through its mouth. Its lungs are wheezing and groaning, troubled and aching as it tries to breathe. How long has it been like this?
âOh- oh poor puppy, is this why you were hugging yourself again? I knew I trained you out of that... I knew I did, I knew I did..â
Chase sighs, heavy but quiet as a blanket is placed over him a few moments after. Its cold against his bones, but he clings to it nonetheless, just as he clings to the warm hands that run through his hair and down his face and wipe his tears and- oh god, he needs to be sick more often, doesnât he?
âWhy didnât you tell me this was happening?â Anti says, removing one of Chaseâs arms from the blanket to stick an IV inside his vein. âWe need to get this treated right away- i- is anyone else sick?? Tell me now. Now!â
âN- no!â Chase yells, sobbing as the once gentle hand now grips a clump of his hair. âJ- jjust me! Just me...!â
âYou should have told me, I could have taken care of this.. you. I could have taken care of you.â
Right. This subject responds well to affection. Oh yes! This subject needs attention. Maybe this is why itâs so sick! The poor puppy just needs to be pet.
âPoor thing, poor thing...â Anti says, petting the subjectâs hair. âChase, my Chase, my poor Chase. Iâll get you better. Youâll be better.â
It leans into his hand, sighing again as his fingers rake through every lock. âIf youâre good, Iâll let you have another blanket, okay? Does that sound nice?â
âYes, yes..â Chase whispers, letting himself melt into the warmth of his captor. âG- good, Iâll be.... Iâll be good....â
#TY FOR THIS!#i hope this wasnt too creepy#i kinda creeped myself out writing this#but i guess thats the point??#to be uncomfortable??#anyway#tw dehumanization#tw stockholm syndrome#tw creepy#tw disturbing#its a fic#antisepticeye#chase brody#not my anti#writing requests#experimenter anti au
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âTell me whatâs wrongâ
Pairing: Dr. Ramsey/MC (Sondra Valentine)
Just wanted to write something angsty/hurt&comfort. Some swearing, drinking, tears but still a happy ending, I promise.
About: Itâs been a few days since Sondra last saw Dr. Ramsey. Finally after various attempts she gets a text. And here she is standing in front of the door of his flat. Whatâs waiting her behind it?
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âWhat am I doing here?â Her heart was pounding. âI can leave nowâ. She could feel shivers running down her spine. âBut what if he needs me? And what if I need him tooâŠjeez Sondra put yourself together!â She took a deep breath and knocked on the door. Nothing. âDo it againâ. She knocked one more time. Still nothing. âWhere is he?â She leaned closer to hear at least something behind the door. Still Nothing. âIt canât be a joke, can it? - she shook her head in frustration, - No, thatâs not like him at all. Something must be upâ. She started to get nervous. The trouble was that the visit wasnât spontaneous. Dr. Valentine had been trying to reach out to him since the day he left Edenbrook. She called, texted, then called again but there was no response. All her attempts were pointless. But then today just a few hours ago she received a message. âI hate textingâ. It was so much like him that she even cracked a smile. He told her that if she wanted to talk she could come to his flat and do that in person. And here she was, knocking at his door and probably irritating other neighbours. She was genuinely worried about him and wanted to make sure he was all right. But at first she had to open this door. So she started banging. âDr. Ramsey! Dr. RamâŠEthan! Are you okay? Itâs me, open up!â She leaned once again. NothâŠwait! Finally she could hear some steps. Then suddenly there was a loud sound like something heavy fell on the floor and apparently was now broken. âWhatâs going on? Ethan!â She was ready to bang on the door once again when it cracked open. Her heart missed a beat.
He looked like death. Messy hair, glassy eyes, stubble that was turning into a beard. It was obvious he hadnât got much sleep lately. The bags under his eyes were so dark that it seemed like someone had punched him in the face. She also noticed how pale he was and it made her worry even more. She couldnât recognise him now. Everything was seriously wrong. âI appâŠpologize ffor the waitâ, - his voice was husky, speech heavily slurred and he smelled strongly of scotch. âWhat have you done to yourself? Youâre mess!â She was definitely out of words at this point. Dr. Ramsey chuckled and murmured something in response. He was gripping the door handle tightly trying to keep at least some balance. Suddenly he tried to stand up straight but instead almost fell backwards. Fortunately Sondra was fast enough to catch him. âNice refâŠlexes rrookieâ. She put his arm on her shoulder and grabbed him by the waist. âIâŠI need to sâŠsit downâ , - he moaned. âThen lean on me, big guy. Yes, like that, easy, baby steps, we donât want you to fall againâ. They were slowly moving towards the living room. Ramsey was quite heavy. It was definitely not what she had expected from her visit. He kept muttering something but for Sondra it was just some gibberish she couldnât understand. She noticed a broken vase on the floor. Dr.Ramsey probably knocked it over while he was trying to get to the front door.
A few moments later they finally reached their destination. Sondra helped him sit on the couch and looked around. Everything was surprisingly clean and in place. But there was an intruder - a bottle of scotch that was standing on the glass table near the couch. Sondra didnât mind drinking. Especially with such stressful work and tight schedule it was sometimes necessary to have a drink or two and relax. However now Ramsey wasnât relaxing. He was destroying himself. A quiet groan catched her attention. She came closer and kneeled before him. He was sitting with his face buried in his hands. âEthanâŠhey, look at me, - she gently touched his fingers. They were trembling slightly, - tell me whatâs wrongâ. He slowly lifted his head and looked at her. âI..Iâm..completelyâŠ.brokenâŠrroookie, - his eyes were red and swollen. He let out a heavy sigh - Iâm a faulty piece of garbage yeahâŠrightâŠthatâŠthatâs who I rreally amâ. Sondra wanted to say something to object but Ethan just continued. âIâŠI wanted to be a good doctor. My life was happy and people whoâŠwho I cared soâŠso much about were theâŠthere too. And then I jjust fucked evrything up. I let them all down. DdâŠDolores, my sweet girl. IâŠI am soâŠso ssorry I couldnât ssave you andâŠand NaveenâŠmy friendâŠIâveâŠIâve never told you how muchâŠIâŠI love yâŠyou oh god I am sorryâ. Now his whole body was shaking and tears began to flow down his cheeks. It was a torture for Sondra to see him like that. She couldnât even imagine how much pain he kept inside. She stood up and hurried to the kitchen. There she filled a glass with water and came back to Ethan whose sobs became even louder. She sat on the couch and hugged him tightly by the shoulders to make him feel her support. âHey, hey, hey listen to me, do not, you hear me, do not blame yourself for any of that. We tried to save Dolores but it was her decision and she made a choice. Look at me, you saved her child! Now little Ethan will live happily because of you! And Naveen, I know how much he means to you. But we did all we could, we searched every damn organ in his body. And, hey, I know, I know that you wanted to keep him in the hospital but again he made his choice. He wanted to enjoy his last days at home and we canât change that. Come on Ethan, stop torturing yourself at least for me, I canât bear seeing you like that. I care for you so damn much and, and fuck I love you Ethan Ramsey!â
They sat like this for a while. Sondra was gently rubbing Ethanâs back while he was trying to get himself together. His sobs stopped and his body wasnât shaking anymore but he was still quite drunk and Sondra didnïżœïżœïżœt know if his emotional state was stable enough to begin a somewhat normal conversation. She looked at the glass table and remembered about the water she had forgotten to give Ethan. Sondra carefully kissed his ear. âI brought you some water, please drink it for your own goodâ - her whisper was light and tender, she didnât want to make him nervous again. Ethan opened his eyes and looked at the table. It seemed like he was still a little out of place. Sondra reached for the glass and gave it to him making sure he wouldnât drop it. Then she put the glass back and turned to Ramsey. âHow are you feeling?â Their eyes met and she could finally recognize her old Ethan. He blinked twice getting control over his exhausted body then ran a hand through his messy hair. âHonestly? Like shit, - he coughed, - but Iâm glad thatâŠthat youâre here withâŠmeâ. He looked at his watch and yawned. âIâŠI guess I should get some ssleep, my eyes keep closingâ, - he yawned again. âThen letâs get you to bedâ.
Sondra stood up and then gently pulled Ethan by the hand to help him get up too. Once he was upright his dizziness came back and Valentine once again had to grip him tightly not to let him fall. She walked Ethan to his bed and then helped him change his clothes as he couldnât even unbutton his shirt on his own. Afterwards she went to the kitchen and poured another glass of water and also discovered some pills to reduce Ethanâs headache in the morning. She put everything on the nightstand and was ready to go when Dr. Ramsey grabbed her hand. He was already half asleep but there was still something he wanted to tell her about and it couldnât wait any longer. âHey, Sondra, Iâm sorry I havenât called earlier. I know about the trial and believe me, believe me I wantedâŠwanted to testify but Harper was adamant. She forbid me doing so saying that I have feelings for you and my testimony wouldnât be honest. I felt so guilty that I couldnât save you from the trial cause youâre oneâŠone of those people I give a damn about. So I locked myself up in my own flat and began drinking to forget the feelings. But it never works, does it? I thought you didnât want to see me but when you texted me IâŠI couldnt say noâ. Sondra leaned closer to Ethan, who by now was trying desperately not to fall asleep. âI want you to be there. Even if you canât testify I want to see your face in the crowd. I need you there more than anybody elseâ. Ethanâs eyes opened wide and a little smile appeared on his lips. He pulled her closer and gave her a gentle kiss. âI promise Iâll be there for youâ. Sondra smiled. âNow get some sleep already. I have to go home now but Iâll be looking forward to seeing you tomorrowâ. With that she turned off the lights and headed out of the room. Then she took her bag and left Ethanâs apartment feeling happy that she managed to make him feel better.
The flat was quiet and peaceful. Finally Ethan was lying in his bed and not on the couch where he would usually fall asleep after drinking too much. He couldnât believe how this woman managed to free him from all his dark thoughts that had been bothering him for so long. But he was grateful. He wanted to be with her so badly. And now he was ready to take that risk. âI love you too rookieâ, - his eyes finally closed and he dropped off to sleep.
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No plz dont be sorry, it isn't your fault..we should be the one saying thank you, so thank you for protecting us*gently hugs pepper*
OOH, ITâS JJUST YOU. TTHANK GOD.Â
[Pepper hugs her back, purring softly.]
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when/why did you become a swiftie, what's a fave memory that you have and what's something that you're looking forward to?
ummm became a fan in 2007 and jjust fell in love w shouldve said no and i remember her doing promo for fearless soon after and falling in love w her personality on ellen in 2008/9!!! my one-on-one w t is def my fave memory, specifically our first hug !!! i go to london in 2 weeks and im reallllly looking fwd to seeing my friend who lives there!
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Throwback Thursday for the character ask: Yuma Tsukumo eyyy!
Oh while weâre at it, do Sonic too plz!
Okie-dokie!
Yuma Tsukumo
general opinion: fall in a hole and die | donât like them | eh | theyâre fine I guess | like them! | love them | actual love of my life  â Heâs so fucking precious and he needs to be protected at all goddamn costs
hotness level: get away from me | meh | neutral | theoretically hot but not my type | pretty hot | gorgeous! | 10/10 would bang â Heâs adorable, and a precious child, i would give him many hugs. tbh the only way iâd find him hot is if we were talking about Watermelon-chanâs adult Yuma in which case *insert all the ok sign emojis here* noice (also their adult Alit oh my GOD)
hogwarts house: gryffindor | slytherin | ravenclaw | hufflepuff â i donât always have the best judgement when it comes to House Sorting, but personally I get strong Gryffindor/Hufflepuff vibes from Yuma.
best quality: EVERYTHING??? Heâs sweet and kind and forgiving and throughtful and loyal and asdfghjklkfdbsajfu worst quality: being able to do nothing as al his friends died in front of his eyes umm. I suppose his stubborn streak at the beginning of the series was probably his worst quality, seeing as it nearly got him defeated andAstral killed a few times >>;ship them with: so many people, oh my god. Alit is the very tippy top of the list, but others include Vector, Ryoga, Astral, Kotori, Rio, just to name a few.brotp them with: All of the above, plus basically every other character in Zexal. Heâs sweet and friendly and everyone canât help but love him including meneeds to stay away from: Faker, Don Thousand, Heartland, Black Mist, pretty much every non-redeemed villainmisc. thoughts: god i really wanted that goddamn âYuma is also part of Don Thousandâ rumor that started going around after we got that humanesque DonK form to be true. How interesting would that have been?
Sonic the Hedgehog
general opinion: fall in a hole and die | donât like them | eh | theyâre fine I guess | like them! | love them | actual love of my life  â MY SON
hotness level: get away from me | meh | neutral | theoretically hot but not my type | pretty hot | gorgeous! | 10/10 would bang â people make hot human versions of Sonic, ok? I really like those but just those.Â
hogwarts house: gryffindor | slytherin | ravenclaw | hufflepuff â this one iâm pretty confident about
best quality: HIS SNARK, I LOVE IT. Also his sense of justice is real neato tooworst quality: umm iâd say his ego, which leads to overconfidence. I mean i adore him but those probably arenât that great a quality.ship them with: listen iâll stand by you in aro-hog hell. i will die on that hill but i get that 99% of the fandom ship him with someone.brotp them with: Knuckles, Amy, Shadow, Tails, Silver. The literal Bro Manic and sis Sonia. Sally Acorn and Bunnie Rabbot. Also Mighty and Jet. listen jjust alot of peopleneeds to stay away from: i couldnât explain the plot of Sonic 06 even if you paid me but I know enough to know Mephiles needs to stay the fuck away from my goddamn sonmisc. thoughts: as much as i love my boy sometimes i look at him and am reminded of my self insert oc phase where i made a sonic oc named Skye the Hedgehog and every time i remind myself of it i want to kermit
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