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vad-hander · 3 years ago

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Pairing: Johnny (NCT) x reader x Jinyoung (GOT7)

Genre: Series | Smut | Angst | Fluff

Warnings: abuse, depression, toxic friendship, established relationships (?), mentions of self harm, messed up everything (you’ll get it as you read it), cheating, best friends to enemies, lovers to strangers

Words: 8k

Jinyoung walked precisely behind you, sighing heavily when you pressed the elevator button.

“So you had fun today? Feeling better?”

“I did… have fun, though I wish the night ended differently.” you looked at him quickly but Jinyoung was staring at the number plate mindlessly.

“It always seemed to me so weird or impressive, I don’t know which one, when I think how you can freely kiss someone or even sleep with them, like you are just doing it boldly. I would have so many concerns and everything, it just makes me think how really different we are.”

“Are you trying to insult me?”

“I don’t know. Just…” he moved his eyes at you and you got caught up in them. “Go in.” he said making you snap back and realise the elevator is here.

“If your thinking bad of me just say it.”

“I don’t.”

“I’m not jumping just at anyone. He’s actually nice and he might be my boyfriend when the time comes, who knows?” you tried to not seem upset in front of Jinyoung.

“You’re right, but if he was someone else you probably would’ve been somewhere else right now.”

“Are you…” you didn’t know if he was going this way or was just concerned about your mental stability and all in all safety “are you not okay with me having sex with whoever it is…?” you just blubbered it out since it was sitting right at the tip of your tongue. You were just hoping he’d say yes and then you’ll just be convinced he loves you. The door of the elevator opened and he just walked out of it, leaving you without an answer.

“Which way?”

“Oh, here.” you walked with him now, getting in front of your door.

“Sleep tight, then…?” he asked unsure.

“Can you come in? I feel dizzy. You’re probably right, I drank too much.” your fingers grabbed onto his wrist as if he’d run away.

“So…”

“Sona is sleeping, I don’t think she’ll wake up any time soon if you’re saying she’s drunk.”

“Okay… just for 5 minutes.” you nodded in reply and opened the door to walk in.

“So what you think? I think it’s better than my old one.”

“It’s pretty here.” his eyes ran around when he walked forward.

“I should give you coffee.”

“It’s fine.” he protested quickly, catching up with you and holding onto your shoulder when you tried to get to the coffee machine.

“Jinyoung…”

“What?”

“Please take the dress off me.” he chuckled taken aback and looked at your serious face.

“Not funny, Y/n.”

“I’m not trying to be funny. I’m just loaded with cocktails.”

“And…?” he asked and took a step back which you found funny.

“Don’t you ever just look at me and think fuck everything? Don’t you ever want us to be together again?

“Y/n just go to bed.”

“Not answering automatically means you want me.”

“If I’ll say yes, I have thought of it maybe once, it’ll give you hope and saying no will get you upset. There’s no right answer.”

“Don’t do something right once.”

“Well I did it once, when I decided to go out with Johnny, now I’m just not ever trying it again.”

“So does that mean you’re just hiding your true feelings?”

“No, it doesn’t necessarily mean it.”

“Let’s be honest? I want you, I always want you. I miss you, I love you so much. Nothing ever changed for me. I don’t know how it works, I never was in love for real before and maybe it’s just the way I am, but I can’t fall asleep without you. Sometimes I feel like someone hit me with a rock right Into my chest and I can’t breathe because I realise I don’t have you next to me. I really want to tell you sometimes please forget everything and come back, but I know you can’t be like that. I’m… I just don’t know. You’re the only reason I’m still breathing. You’re the only reason I’m still going outside even if I’m scared to. I love you, Jinyoung.“

“God, Y/n.”

“Can you at least hug me?” he nodded quickly and took a step back to you, but you were quicker, closing the space between you two. Your arms wrapped around his waist, tucking your face into his chest. “I promise, I will stop with this, I just need a little more time.”

“It’s okay.” he whispered quietly and caressed your hair.

“I want you so badly too. Even now.” you pulled back a little and felt your mind being completely blurred. “Can’t we have sex? Just this once? I won’t tell anyone, I really need it. Jinyoung, please? Didn’t you tell me I can come to you with everything, you promised to help me with everything. I’m soaked just from a single thought of you fucking me. I swear to God it’s hard to even stand straight, Jinyoung, I’m not lying. See, I’m shivering from how much I’m turned on.” you forced his eyes to run down your arms. Somehow you convinced your own self he’ll give in and you were practically waiting for him to drug you on the couch behind him.

“Even if I wanted to do it badly, you know I wouldn’t.”

“Break up with her.” you blabbered quickly.

“Y/n.” he said strictly but it made you want him even more.

“I know you won’t cheat even if you’d be wasted. I have a better plan, we can masturbate looking at each other, it’s not cheating but it’s something. You can blame me for everything later.”

“Please, just let me make sure you’re in bed and leave.”

“Let’s go to bed.” you held onto his wrist fiercely and dragged him to your room. It was almost empty and unpretty yet, but he probably wasn’t able to see anything in the dark. You lowered yourself on the bed quickly and Jinyoung sat next to your laying body.

“Are you going to sleep in this?”

“No.” you shook your head quickly and raised your hands towards the buttons. Jinyoung stared at your fingers or maybe at your chest, you couldn’t know for sure, but when you undid two more buttons, the next one leading to your bellybutton, Jinyoung’s fist laid atop of yours.

“Want to help me?” you asked innocently knowing damn well he’s not. “Don’t act like you never liked my body.”

“I didn’t even say anything.”

“You can just get me off with your fingers. It’s not even anything serious, it’s just fingers. Jinyoung, please, we’ll never speak again if you’ll reject me. I’m embarrassing myself too much right now.”

“So what?” he spoke louder than before.

“So what if we never speak again?”

“No, so what do you want. Want me to finger you, sleep with you, whatever, it doesn’t matter. What’s next? You won’t stop after once, you’ll just want it all the time. You’ll want me to leave Sona, get back with you, or even better. You’ll start sabotaging me to sleep with you and what’s next? If you went home with that guy you’d be moaning his name now and wouldn’t even think of me, but because he rejected you you’re trying very boldly to make me fuck you. It won’t happen.”

“Jinyoung.” you gulped. “Just say it.” you pushed his hand off you and sat up, holding onto two pieces of the dress to keep it together.

“Say what?”

“That you hate the thought of me, that you’ll never want me. That all of it is just out of pity. You called me a whore already so just throw it all at me.”

“It’s not even what I’m saying.”

“Add up to all this that I never understand you and please leave.”

“What are you saying? What is all this?”

“Just go, Sona is waiting.” you wiped tears off your cheeks.

“Y/n, please, don’t make me feel terrible.”

“No, Jinyoung. You don’t understand that I can’t be your friend. It’s impossible, I just can’t take it. It’s the end, bye, have a great life, please send me a wedding invitation when you’ll have one. Go.”

“I don’t want to lose you when I just found you.”

“Jinyoung, but I can’t. Can’t you see that I can’t?” you broke down again and hid your face in your palms.

“Oh, please, Y/n, I love you so-so much too, you’re taking all of my mind and heart, but just no.” you felt Jinyoung pull you in to hug.

“Why?”

“I just can’t do all of it once again, I want to keep on the low, keep it quiet and simple with Sona.”

“You’re just saying I’m too much?”

“No, I’m not saying you’re too much.”

“But you just can’t take me.”

“I have a girlfriend.”

“I’m so tired.” you felt heavy and he allowed for you to lie down on the bed, lowering his body with you. “Can you stay until I fall asleep?”

“What if I’ll fall asleep too? Sona’s in the car.”

“If you love me so-so much, can you at least kiss me goodbye?” he shook his head a strict no.

“I meant like a friend.” you closed your eyes hopelessly and let go of him. You thought he’ll leave immediately but he didn’t move at all. You opened your eyes and noticed him looking at you. You could practically feel how somewhere in parallel universe he smashed his lips against yours, but here he was sitting and looking at you. “What you’re sleeping in?”

“This.” you ran with your hand under the duvet, getting a simple pair of pants and a shirt.

“Want to change into them?” he asked and you suddenly realised you were laying in front of him in a half-undone dress. He didn’t even take a single glimpse at you and it made you feel humiliated.

“I want to take shower first. You can go, I’m fine.” you forced a smile and expected him to leave.

“I’ll wait for you, okay?”

“If you want to…?” you said confused and he moved himself away, allowing for you to stand up.

You got out of the shower in less than 10 minutes seeing Jinyoung in the same position as before. He seemed to be sitting there like that this whole time. You walked back to bed planning to get into it when you felt Jinyoung’s cold fingers on yours. It wasn’t even cold in your room, you couldn’t understand why he was freezing.

“You want the truth?” you gulped and froze. Whatever he was about to say would probably bring you more pain than before. “I was obsessing over you, not sleeping at all or actually, I slept in your bed for a week maybe because I was hoping you’d come home at one point. Then I came once and the code wasn’t matching, I knocked on the door but someone else lived there now. I was furious, I couldn’t believe I missed out on you just like that. I couldn’t believe you moved away like this. Everything was just adding up and I was just furious and heartbroken. How could we brake up like this? I thought to my self all the time. I just couldn’t believe it and felt like we’ll meet anytime. I just believed you were my one and only. I lived like this for what feels like forever. When this semester came, we got a new intern, it was Sona, I couldn’t even remember her name at first because I was only focused on you, I couldn’t even notice she was flirting with me because I’d replay in my brain constantly the way you talked with me. When my birthday came I realised I’m living it wrong, you’re not going to pop out of nowhere on the street, I pushed you to the back of my brain and suddenly realised there’s life. Sona asked me out and I agreed because I finally wanted to move on, then I just realised I should ask her to date. You know what’s funny? When I bumped into you, it’s been not even a month since we began dating. When I gave up, you actually popped out of nowhere, when I tried to live without you, you are in front of me asking for love. But I just can’t, I really can’t. Because of Sona, because maybe it was Gods plan after all? He broke us off and the both of us took it hard, I was allowed to move on and met you afterwards maybe just like a sign that look, you were never meant to be together? You’re fine without her too. She’s here and you’re okay just like that.” you felt him pull your hand closer to his face and he laid it against his cheek. You squeezed your eyes to not cry loudly. “But now I just know nothing. I might be wrong, you might be wrong. I don’t know if we should find it out ourselves or keep on living the life we’re living right now. Y/n, I really don’t know. I just don’t want to do anything bad towards you, towards Sona too, it would be just wrong, you know it, right?”

“I know, Jinyoung, I’m so sorry. For everything I said today and wanted you to do. I’m wrong and I know I’m making it all hard for you. I’m so sorry, I really am.” he didn’t reply leaving the room quiet.

“I really need to go, it’s super late, my first lecture is at 10.” he stood up and let go of you completely. “No need to walk me out, I’ll just close the door. Good night.”

“Good night.” you whispered back and sat on the bed only when you heard him lock the door.

from: Jinyoung

“did you pick the cartoon we’re watching today?”

You looked at your phone confused not expecting at all to receive any texts from Jinyoung. Since the night of embarrassment you felt like he left for good and neither of you tried to reach out and you took it as a silent goodbye.

The only texts you were getting these days were from Junwon and seeing Jinyoung’s name on the screen made you feel uneasy once again.

to: Jinyoung

“you still want to go…?”

from: Jinyoung

“I thought we agreed on it”

to: Jinyoung

“are you sure?”

from: Jinyoung

“what do you mean? why would I be not sure?”

to: Jinyoung

“never mind”

“no, I didn’t pick but I’ll”

from: Jinyoung

“just let me know what time”

to: Jinyoung

“k”

“What’s up? You look quite burdened.” Junwon’s fingers moved your hair off your bare shoulder, placing his lips against it.

“Just a message I didn’t expect.” you chuckled and pushed back to lay. Junwon’s hand laid around your shoulder and he explicitly stared into your phone.

“Cartoons?” he asked sarcastically and pressed his face against your ear. Having only slept with him three times you noticed his habit of getting affectionate after sex, and even though you kind of liked it, the rest of the time the both of you were barely a couple and the fact that you didn’t really like him that way wasn’t adding up to that.

“Want to go?”

“Watch the cartoon?”

“Yeah.” you turned to look at him.

“Okay.” he moved in and you could feel his other hand snake down your waist.

“Wait, I have to look up the time.”

“Do it after.” Junwon’s hand pulled your phone from yours, leaning over you more to put it onto the bedside table and drag you under him.

“Hello.” you smiled brightly at Jinyoung.

“Y/n, hi! It’s nice seeing you again.” Sona looked at you moving her eyes down onto your fingers that were intertwined with Junwon’s. “And who’s that?” she smiled cheekily and your eyes moved to Jinyoung who stared at you confused. You wanted to hug him at first but then thought that it might be the wrong idea.

“That’s Junwon, he’s a friend of mine.” you told her quietly. “Junwon, that’s Jinyoung and Sona, you saw them at the club where we met.” you smiled and pointed at them with your intertwined hands.

“Hi, hi.” he smiled politely and you regretted the idea of this double date. You thought seeing Jinyoung one on one would be awkward but this all was as awkward too.

You sat next to Jinyoung with the idea of him maybe willing to talk during the cartoon in your head. Taking quick glances at him every now and then, you took in how he sat calmly being consumed into the cartoon completely, founding it adorable how his eyes were running over the screen. Jinyoung turned his head and caught you staring, turning to look at you too. You tried to pretend you didn’t see it but his body moved closer and you had to turn back to see him.

“What?” you moved your head like you didn’t expect to catch his attention.

“So you’re dating him now…?” he whispered lowly and moved his shoulder closer to yours, accidentally touching Junwon’s fingers that were laying on your shoulder with his and moved back immediately. You wanted to reply but Jinyoung looked so distant you killed the idea of doing so.

Your eyes still tried to catch a glimpse of him and Sona, seeing her leaning in to lay against his shoulder.

“Anyone’s hungry or is it just me?” Sona laughed walking into the hall. “It was such a great idea of yours, Y/n, to watch a cartoon. Are you doing this often? This is really refreshing.” you smiled back at her.

“Thank you, I’m glad you enjoyed it.” you turned your eyes to look at Junwon that stared into his phone now. “Did you like it?”

“Yeah, that was fun.” he smiled and kissed your temple leaving you startled. This probably needed to be discussed, you probably should talk with him about your relationship.

“So no one’s hungry?” Sona said cutely to Jinyoung and you had to look away awkwardly. Junwon’s eyes met yours holding in a giggle he hid in your hair.

“I’m kind of hungry, but we really have to leave you, I’m sorry.”

“Huh, we are?” you looked up at Junwon confused.

“Yeah.” he nodded and you didn’t know if you felt thankful for that decision or disappointed because you would have to leave Jinyoung’s side.

“You wanted to leave, right?” Junwon asked you when the both of you walked into his apartment with bags of take out. His dog ran up to the door barking excitedly.

“Hi baby.” you sounded too high pitched and thought of Sona immediately. “I don’t know actually, but maybe I’m glad we did.” you smiled at him and stood back up with the puppy in your arms. “I’m surprised you could sense that.”

“I’m observing.” he smirked and leaned in to kiss the top of his dogs head.

“Very sweet of you.”

The both of you walked into the living room, placing yourselves onto the floor next to the couch. Junwon’s apartment looked spacious and modern, you only been here once before, but you loved everything about this place. It didn’t look anything like Jinyoung’s, you just couldn’t throw the thought out of your brain.

Junwon felt like a friend that you knew for years. Spending time with Junwon felt like you were with Johnny but maybe even better. You missed Johnny, you needed him in your life and it pained you to even have the thought of wanting him after everything. Sometimes you wondered what he was up to but it only lasted for a minute, before you’d get to the part where he probably hurts you.

Maybe, just maybe, you thought to yourself before you went to bed in those past couple of weeks that what you needed was not Johnny, what you needed was someone who could listen to you and understand you. What happened and what was now happening between you and Junwon was something that was meant to happen between you and Johnny. You couldn’t help but wonder what was wrong with him or you, or just the whole situation that you couldn’t take him in so lightly the way you did with Junwon.

“You know, I actually wanted to tell you something” Junwon’s hand pulled your face back from his lips when you felt like kissing away the thoughts of Johnny from your brain after your dinner.

“What is it?” you smiled and licked your lips.

“I really have to be straight up with this probably.”

“What? Are you sick or something?” you asked him confused, you’d rather hear that than a love confession.

“Jesus, no.” he chuckled and looked weirdly at you. “It’s about you and me.” you closed your eyes in fear and anticipation. “You’re really fun, I’m glad I met you, and those couple of weeks they were just wonderful… I love your company, I love hanging out with you, I love the sex and I can’t believe how beautiful you are.” you opened your eyes quickly to look at him. “It’s just that I don’t love you like you probably want me to and I just had to let you know, before you get your hopes up too high.”

“What?” you chuckled not believing your ears.

“I’m sorry if I hurt you, I just had to be honest. I should’ve said this earlier, I wasn’t looking for a girlfriend but you were just undeniable. My ex just chose New York over me and I’m honestly just not ready to try something with…” you stopped him mid sentence by raising your palm up.

“You don’t what? Please say it once again.”

“I don’t love you like that. I love your company, but not… you know.”

“And you think I’m in love with you?” you bit onto your lip trying to hide your smile.

“I can’t be sure but you act kind of like it?” he looked at you very confused and you just couldn’t hold back but giggle.

“Oh my god, Junwon, I really thought there for a second you wanted to confess your love to me.” you kept on laughing holding on to his shoulder.

“What? Why you’re laughing?” he asked confused and you had to put in all of your strength to stop laughing.

“I don’t know how to not sound mean while saying it, but I don’t love you either. I love same things about you, but I don’t love you like a boyfriend or whatever.”

“Somehow you make me want to feel offended.” he chuckled and silence fell over the room. “Wait… so does this mean we can continue everything as it is…?”

“Only if you’re sure you won’t fall in love with me. I kind of don’t want to deal with those problems.” you smiled widely.

“I’ll try my best, promise to do the same.”

“Oh, on that, you don’t have to worry about it.”

“Why?” he stared at you and you looked over the room. “You love Jinyoung, right?”

“What made you think so?”

“How you stare at him, how you don’t really like Sona and just everything mixed together really screams you’re in love.”

“Annoyingly observing you are.”

“But I’m the one who gets to sleep with you, why?” he took the wine glass off the table, taking a sip.

“It’s a very long story.”

“I love long stories.” he pulled you in for a kiss.

“But should I take your affectionate behaviour as a sign of you falling in love with me?” you tried to joke around to change the subject.

“I’m not a teenager, we’re not teenagers. We can be responsible fuck buddies, I don’t need to push you away every time you’d like to kiss me. We can be affectionate to a crazy point, what matters is that the both of us know what all of this actually means.”

“Mmmh, Junwon, the way you think it’s just so… stop or I’ll fall in love.” you whispered into his lips, caressing his chest slowly. His hands pulled you onto his lap and now you could freely rock your hips against his.

“Honestly, I don’t think I’ll be able to do it once more today, it happened too many times for just 12 hours.”

“Looks like a picked the wrong guy if he can’t keep up with me. I thought we were on the same page.” Junwon rested his head against the couch hopelessly.

“Your eyes kind of look like turned to the side commas.”

“What?” he laughed.

“When you look in specific directions, they really do.”

“Shut up.” his fingers pulled your face in.

from: Jinyoung

“hi”

“we haven’t talked in a while”

to: Jinyoung

“oh, hi” you texted startled. Your last message in this conversation was dated from three months ago.

from: Jinyoung

“It’s Sona’s birthday this weekend. She wants you to come.”

“With your boyfriend.”

“I don’t know if the two of you are still together but I thought I should still ask you to come even though we don’t really speak.”

to: Jinyoung.

“it’s fine (:”

“We’ll come if you’re not against it”

“should we bring a gift or something?”

from: Jinyoung

“why would I be against it!”

“it’s up to you, I don’t really know.”

to: Jinyoung

“Will you send me the address or…?”

from: Jinyoung

“Sure.”

“I’ll be very glad to see you.”

to: Jinyoung

“cool”

You dialled the number, dropping your head back onto the pillow.

“Mmh?” Junwon murmured into the phone.

“You’re not sleeping yet?”

“I’m at work.”

“At this hour?”

“Yeah, the codes won’t write themselves.”

“Okay you nerd, when will you be free?” you mumbled into the phone.

“What happened?”

“Come over.”

“After midnight.” he said after a long pause, probably checking what time it was.

“Okay, I’ll wait for you.”

“Okay.” you could feel him hang up.

“Wait, wait.”

“Yeah?”

“I might fall asleep, come in yourself.”

“Okay, I will.”

“Thank you, bye.”

“Bye-bye.”

“Ugh, damn.” you could hear him hit his foot on the tripod you left next to bed. “Hi, are you sleeping?” he whispered slowly, propping his body on your bed.

“No.” you mumbled still half asleep, moving your body to lay against his.

“What happened, why you wanted me to come?”

“Maybe I just missed you.” you tried your best to get back to life and open your eyes.

“Very not true.” he leaned in and left a kiss on your forehead.

“I just wanted to release stress, but it kind of went away itself. Maybe you can just stay the night.” you sighed heavily.

“You hate when I just stay to sleep.”

“No, who said that?” you cackled and moved your head up, finally being able to move your body. “You’re my boyfriend, aren’t you?” you smirked unstoppably.

“I said it once,” he exclaimed on the last word “Because my younger sister is annoying, you will never let me live off it?”

“No.” you giggled and hugged his waist. The room fell quiet.

“I’ll take a shower then.”

“No, wait.”

“Huh?”

“Are you free this Friday?”

“Yeah, in the evening.” he nodded.

“Will you be my boyfriend for the night?”

“What’s up?”

“Jinyoung said Sona invited me and my boyfriend to her birthday this Friday.”

“Okay… why you agreed?”

“Because he added ‘I don’t know if you two are still together’. He thinks I can’t date someone? Or does he think no one will date me? We’ll go there and shove our happy ever after right into his arrogant face.” you felt yourself getting worked up.

“I love how he gets you excited in just a second.”

“Oh, you, shut up.” you slapped his shoulder.

“Why should I agree?”

“I’ll try to ignore the fact your sister thinks we date.”

“Swear?” he asked serious making you laugh.

“Pinky swear.”

“No way.” Junwon said amazed.

“That’s pretty insane for a grown up birthday party.” you chuckled.

“Don’t you call her a child?” he chuckled at you.

“Dude, she’s 26 now.” you took a quick glance at him, walking towards the big mansion in front of you. You guessed this gigantic house was rented, balloons and all the lights made the place looked like there was a fancy party going on. You sighed and felt Junwon’s palm against yours.

“Whatever it is, we’re here to have fun, right?” you looked at him again and he squeezed your hand reassuring.

“Right.”

“Don’t be nervous over Jinyoung. You’re doing great without him and we’re here to shove our happy ever after into his face, remember?” you giggled and shook your head agreeing.

“I love you.” you laughed mindlessly.

“Huh?” Junwon’s grimace made you laugh even harder.

“I mean like a human, Jesus.” you rolled your eyes, trying to punch him in his shoulder. His hand caught yours mid action, pulling you in quickly to kiss. “What, what are you doing?” you tried to pull back because kissing was not something that was in your routine now.

“Y/n, hi!” Sona sang behind you, sounding like she still walked towards you and you realised what he was doing. “Oh, Jinyoungie, look at these lovebirds, they just arrived and already are glued to each other.” she giggled and you thought it’s time to say hi maybe since it seemed like they stood next to you now, but Junwon moved his hand to your cheek and kissed you more. “That’s what I meant, when I asked you to kiss me when they’ll bring out the cake.” Sona giggled awkwardly and you tapped Junwon’s shoulder so he’ll move back.

“I’m sorry, he’s just very annoying…” you giggled and looked at Sona. Junwon moved his hand to lay over your shoulder.

“Hi.” he said politely, shaking Jinyoung’s hand.

“Happy Birthday, Sona.” you said excitedly and she jumped clapping her hands, suddenly pulling you in for a hug. Your eyes met Jinyoung’s in action and you froze in Sona’s arms.

“I’m glad you came, the more guests the better. We’re going to have so much fun tonight.” she giggled into your ear. You felt Junwon pull you back and caress your side. “I rented this house for my sleep over themed party.”

“Oh, Jinyoung didn’t say anything about the theme.” even saying his name made you feel like you had little weights on your tongue.

“It’s fine, you don’t have to worry, we have pyjamas for everyone at the entrance, let’s go, it’s going to be so much fun.”

“Yeah, let’s go.” you chuckled too, letting Sona pull you with her.

You couldn’t hold back a chuckle when Jinyoung protested politely over putting the pyjamas she had prepared, only making you accept the pj’s ever so excitingly.

“Ya, Junwon, you actually look cool in these!” you chuckled turning to see him.

“It’s fine on you too.”

“Thanks.” you stretched out a smile.

“Jinyoung probably won’t wear the pj’s.” you said it not knowing exactly what you wanted to hear from him in reply.

“If he loves her, he’ll give in.” Junwon said mindlessly and extend his hand to get the bag with your clothes. He put both of them into their designated place with your names written under. His hand pulled you out of the room and your eyes immediately met Jinyoung. He stood there in his own clothes looking as handsome as ever. This was something you could never understand. You loved being with Junwon, you found him attractive and pretty, but Jinyoung just standing there not even looking your way made you feel breathless and insane.

“You think they fought?” you asked when Junwon pulled you towards the other side of the house.

“I don’t know. Let’s see what drinks they serve.”

“Should I find Sona?”

“No, she’s not even half close to being your friend.” he furrowed his eyebrows not understanding.

“But it would be just nice of me to do so, isn’t it?”

“No, you’re just trying to get your nose into their business, aren’t you?” you moved your eyes to the floor. “I’m right, so just let me distract you from your favourite Jinyoungie.”

“He’s not my favourite.”

“Sure.” he chuckled to himself.

“What are we going to do?”

“Drink first, then we’ll see what this sleepover party have in store.”

“Okay.” you nodded and walked calmly next to him.

“Everybody!” you heard Sona’s loud voice turning towards her to see her standing on the stool. “It’s time to play some sleepover classics, so everyone please gather in the living room that is on the right in 5 minutes.”

“We’re not going.” you cackled and turned back to Junwon.

“We are.”

“Why?” you furrowed your eyebrows and pulled him to sit back down when he began standing up.

“Cause I’m tired of sitting in this corner. You’re fun and all that but if we’re at a party, we might as well enjoy ourselves, right.” you couldn’t hold back your smile with the way he said it. “Are you standing up or what?”

“Will you carry me there?” you extended your arms towards him and made a childish face expression.

“No.” he laughed.

“But please?” you tried to act cuter but he ignored you completely, pulling you up to stand. You stood up and when his fingers pulled you to walk you stood there not moving, making him startled. Junwon turned around and looked at you confused while you were coming up with a plan in your head.

He walked around you and you thought he’ll push you from behind, when his hands squeezed your waist and raised you from the floor. “Wait, it hurts.” you giggled uncontrollably. He crossed the room quickly, allowing for you to stand back on your feet when he entered the living room Sona talked about. “Junwon, seriously.” you giggled loudly, hugging his waist in some sort of appreciation.

“Anything for my girlfriend, right?” he chuckled sarcastically and you kissed him slowly.

“I don’t want to play that, I’ll just watch.”

“Jinyoung, you already refused to wear the pj’s I prepared for you! Can you at least do something for me? It’s my birthday!” you heard Sona shout at him and pulled back immediately.

“Sona, I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to upset you.” his hand caressed her cheek. It caught your eye he was kind of drunk but tried to act like he wasn’t. “It’s your birthday, let’s not fight.” she nodded in reply quickly. Her hands wrapped around his neck and he kissed her quickly. “You know these things are not for me.” she looked at him with probably all of the cuteness she had in store. “Just this once, okay?”

“Yay.” she jumped excitedly again and pulled him to the centre of the room. “Everyone who wants to play, please sit down. We have a couple of games prepared for the night, but we’ll start with a classic. Seven minutes in heaven yall, please sit down in a circle!” she announced as if it was a big deal.

“We should probably sit in front of each other to get a chance to be picked by each other?” You suggested when Sona’s hand grabbed your elbow.

“You two are sitting next to us.” she giggled and practically forced you to sit. The circle formed so quickly you didn’t have the time to force Junwon to sit somewhere else.

“If you’re going to kiss someone there, I’ll kill you.” you giggled but still tried to make your voice sound like you are threatening him.

“Same goes to you, loser.” he kissed your temple and looked at Sona.

“Okay, simple rules, in case you don’t remember. You spin the bottle, whoever the bottle stops on goes with you for 7 minutes to another room. No phones, lights are off. You can do whatever comes to your mind, but please remember, we’ll come for you in 7 minutes.” she giggled. “You can’t disclose what went on in that room nor can you stay for any longer.”

She sat back down and gulped. “I almost said as a party owner I’ll spin the bottle first, but I’m already taken so I probably shouldn’t.” she giggled and turned to take a glance at Jinyoung who pursed his lips.

“Nah, Sona, you still can spin the bottle, it’s not necessary you do sexual things in that room, it’s your birthday, just start the game.” Junwon spoke up and you opened your eyes wider than before, turning your head to look at him confused. “My Y/n, is next to me too, so if I’ll get to spin the bottle I’ll probably have to go there with someone else too. Just spin it.” he said and made a weird movement with his hand.

“What?” you giggled and moved your face closer to his.

“I just said what I thought.” he chuckled

“Okay.” you nodded turning your attention back to Sona, who was placing the bottle in the middle now. She made a weird scream before spinning it and closed her face with her palms. You internally were hoping for her to do bad things, but you knew everything you wanted was wrong. The bottle stopped and you raised your eyes to see it land on one of her girlfriends. You sighed disappointed making Junwon giggle on your side. “It’s going to be boring 7 minutes.” you sighed.

“Probably because you’re thirty and not thirteen.” Junwon said rhetorically.

“Excuse me? You’re even older. It’s just that probably it would’ve been fun if I at least knew those people. Or if Sona went there with a guy. At least we could’ve felt excitement.”

“Cheating makes you excited?” Jinyoung’s low voice ran through your body in a second. “Interesting.” he made a low giggle. You pulled yourself together and turned to face him.

“I didn’t mean your girlfriend. Just in general.” you said annoyed.

“Okay.”

“I’m sure she loves you so don’t worry.”

“I’m not worried. She doesn’t make me worry all the time.”

“Okay…” you nodded “I didn’t ask though.”

“Right, it’s because you only ask things when it’s in your favour.”

“Are you trying to fight with me because you’re drunk and brave all of a sudden?” you blinked multiple times.

“Whatever.” he turned away from you and left you disappointed and upset. This didn’t look like the conversation you planned in your head.

“He fought with Sona, forced to do something he didn’t want to, I guess he’s just upset.”

“Why are you on his side?”

“I’m just trying to make you feel better.” Junwon’s hand pulled you in to lay your head against his shoulder. You kissed the spot where his jaw met his ear and closed your eyes. “I’m trying to come up with a mathematical way of spinning the bottle so it’ll stop on either of us.” he said in a minute making you smile.

“How’s it going?”

“Pretty shitty.” you giggled and closed your eyes back.

“I’m not giving up and trying to come up with ways to make this game fun for both of us.”

“But do you think… you’ll kiss someone there or more…?” you asked suddenly and raised your head.

“I know no one, so I don’t know. You?”

“Me too.” it suddenly hit you “I mean, are you discussing with your girlfriend who you’d kiss?!”

“Oh, sh… no.” it looked like it struck him suddenly. “I’m just kidding, you asked the question.” you sighed and just hoped Jinyoung didn’t try to listen to your conversation. “Sona’s back.” Junwon whispered quickly.

Everyone got excited and Sona sat back down giggling, laying her hand atop of Jinyoung’s knee. “It’s nothing.” she smiled at him and got back to the game.

Her friend spun the bottle and went away with a guy, the guy spun the bottle next and it stopped in front of the girl Sona went in the room with. You couldn’t hold back the boredom and began chatting with Junwon about everything and anything, trying to keep it quiet but failing miserably every time he made a joke.

“Hey, lovebirds, it’s on you.” Sona tapped your shoulder and the both of you realised every person in that circle was staring at you two.

“Huh?”

“Junwon, it’s on you.” Sona spoke again and your eyes landed on the bottle that directly pointed at him. You turned your head to look at him and pouted. You now genuinely wondered if he’d kiss the girl that was about to go in the room with him.

“Have a great time.” you smirked being startled by him kissing the top of your head when he stood up.

When you tried to fish your phone out of your pocket Sona pulled in to you.

“This is nerve racking, right?”

“No, why?” you looked at her confused.

“Wow, you trust your boyfriend so much.” she said amazed and you felt genuinely confused.

“Do you not trust yours?”

“No, no. I do, I thought maybe because you don’t know anyone you’d feel worried, I’m glad you don’t. All these people are my friends so I’m very calm if Jinyoung will be picked.”

“Cool.” you smiled and tried to end the conversation there.

“You two look very cute together, I’m glad you’re happy. Jinyoung said you had a very hard time and that he was worried, I’m just glad you’re doing great.”

“Oh, he did? What else did he say?”

“Oh, no, don’t be worried, he didn’t say anything in particular, I wouldn’t want him to disclose your secrets. Don’t worry.”

“Okay.” you nodded and turned away.

“Hi.” you felt Junwon’s palm on your shoulder in a minute.

“Hey.” you tried to see signs on his face but he looked casual.

“You have to spin the bottle!” the girl he went with exclaimed.

“Oh right.” he sighed. “Let’s change the rules.”

“How?” Sona asked confused.

“I’ll spin the bottle, but twice. Once for a boy and once for a girl, it’s boring to go there twice like that. The ones that’ll be picked will go there.”

“Oh, okay.” she nodded.

“This sounds like so much fun.” someone said and Junwon spun it pleased. You watched the bottle spin and get slower and even more slower when it stopped in front of you.

“Is this your mathematical way to get us there together?” you squeezed your eyes and he chuckled.

“I’m not sure, let’s see.” he spun the bottle once again. You didn’t realise you were squeezing his palm harshly until he laid his other hand atop. “Hey, what’s up?”

“I’m hating you for picking me.” you said annoyed when the bottle slowed down a little too far to stop on him.

“I’m sorry.” he chuckled and you sighed hopelessly, closing your eyes when the bottle almost stopped at a random guy you didn’t even know the name of. “Or maybe I’m not.”

“Oh my god!” Sona exclaimed and you opened your eyes confused. “Jinyoung, Y/n - leave.” she said quickly.

“Did you do it on purpose?” you wanted to kill Junwon very badly.

“How would I? It’s a given I guess.” Junwon patted your back. “Won’t you kiss me? Don’t forget I’m your boyfriend.”

“I’ll kill you when I’m back.” you slapped his hand away.

Walking up to the small closet, that Sona referred to as a room, you three were quiet as ever. You sat on the floor in the corner, watching Sona lock the door behind Jinyoung.

“Time start! I’ll come back in 7 minutes!” she giggled and walked away.

You could see nothing in this darkness, only hearing Jinyoung’s heavy breathing.

“Something happened?” you asked when silence began choking you.

“What? No.”

“You’re good then, right? You seem upset.”

“I’m fine.” he said shortly.

“Okay, why did you get drunk like that then?”

“Am I not allowed to drink?” he asked pretentiously.

“It just doesn’t seem like you.”

“People change.”

“Maybe you’re right, you wouldn’t speak to me like that if you were the same.” you concluded and stopped talking.

“Looks like I can finally ask you the question you asked me before.”

“What question?” you said confused.

“How did it feel when you realised you don’t love me anymore? Refreshing?” he said sarcastically and you couldn’t understand what this all was about. He spoke like he blamed you for something. You wanted to talk back at him, maybe fight but then realised he was just doing exactly the same you did to him. He probably just tried to make you understand how you made him feel. You snapped back to reality and felt yourself get upset. You felt a single tear pave the way for all those others, making them stream down your face.

“Didn’t I disappear and let you live your life the way you wanted to? Why would you invite me here? Why would you talk to me like this? Why would you make me realise all over again how much I love you?” you wiped the tears off your face, standing up. “I’ll just knock on the door so they’ll let us out earlier.”

“Wait.” Jinyoung held onto your wrist, forcing for you to sit down again. The space was too small and even though you tried to sit back you still kind of sat on his legs. “What about Junwon? Why you said this?”

“Why you care?”

“Just tell me, isn’t this room created for this.”

“No.”

“Why?”

“You just want to hear that I still love you.” Jinyoung moved his hand from your wrist to your waist, his other hand landed onto your cheek.

“You do?”

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beautifully-tuan · 5 years ago

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Jinyoung x school teacher!Reader fluff Warnings: school bullying

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(i hope this is what you wanted, anon 💙)

When you met Jinyoung, your first thought was that he looked way too young to be Haerin's dad. He’s the one who showed up at your very first parents-teacher meeting, and to say you were surprised was an understatement. He then introduced himself as Haerin's uncle, and your second thought was that he must love her a lot. Jinyoung is obviously a busy man, since he always arrives late to fetch his niece whenever he has too. His sister (Haerin's mom) is even busier, so much that he must take care of the little girl more often than he should.

Him always being late only results in you staying in the classroom with Haerin until he arrives, to which he apologizes by giving you a ride home every time. That's why you're neither surprised nor worried when it's almost 5 pm this afternoon and he still hasn't showed up. You're in the middle of hanging out with her in the empty classroom when she leaves to go to the bathroom. A few minutes pass and, when she doesn't come back, you start to worry and decide to go looking for her.

Midway through the hallway, you hear noises from outside the school building and immediately go see what's happening. Once in the yard, you find Haerin, ambushed by two older male kids throwing scrunched up pieces of paper at the poor little girl. She was probably trying to run from them and ended up here, encircled and backed against a wall.

⁃ "Take this, you weirdo!" ⁃ "Right between the eyes, good job!" ⁃ "Are you gonna cry? Are you gonna call your mommy?"

You cleared your throat, interrupting their obnoxious laughter and wicked actions.

- "Can I know what's going on here?"

Taken off guard, the boys exchange a look before one of them answers:

- "We’re just playing."

- "Well, she doesn't look like she wants to play with you."

- "We weren't doing anything wrong, we were just-"

- "I saw what you were doing, don’t take me for a fool” you say, rolling your eyes. "Seriously? Attacking a harmless girl like this? What did she even do to you?"

The boys don't say anything, instead looking at each other, then at Haerin, then back at you.

- "Ohhh, I see" you say with an amused smile. "It makes you guys feel strong and cool and badass. It makes you feel like you're grown up men who can do whatever they want. Am I right?"

The boys start to look uncomfortable, almost bashful now. The other, smaller one of them takes a step forward and says:

- "That's none of your business. Leave us alone, we were having fun before you came."

You raise a brow and put one hand on your hip.

- "For your information, I teach here, young boy. I could snap my fingers like this and you'd both be expelled from this school."

The boys look terrified now, as they should be. It's a quite big school, not everyone knows each other, plus you were only assigned to fourth grade, Haerin's class. It's no surprise that they don't know who you are.

- " But I'm not gonna do that because you're just two young idiots who have a lot to learn from going to school, right? Now have some decency and apologize to the girl."

All of them, including Haerin, open their eyes wide. The boys hesitate for a good five seconds before you repeat, more firmly this time:

- "Apologize. To. The. Girl."

They mumble a quick "sorry", head hanging low.

- "Now leave, before I change my mind and inform the headmaster."

It doesn't take longer for them to run out the school like mad men, and you watch them go, shaking your head. How does this kind of thing even happen in primary school? You turn to a very shocked Haerin and crouch down in front of her.

- "You okay?"

She nods and croaks a weak "Thank you".

- "Who were they, hm? Why do you think they did that to you?"

- "I don't know" she says, looking down. "Just some fifth graders. They think I'm weird."

- "And why would they think that?"

- "... Maybe it's because I don't talk a lot. And because I'm always on my own. They say I look like a stray dog and they don't like me."

- "Well you know what? Let them think whatever they want. Are you a stray dog, Haerin?"

She slowly shakes her head.

- "No you're not, and you know it. Next time people say that to you, don't let them. Fight back. Don't let them make you feel like you're less than an amazing, smart and talented girl. Okay?"

You put out your fist for her to bump, and she does with the brightest smile.

- "Oh" you say, turning to the parking lot. "Look who's here."

Jinyoung waves at the two of you while he gets out of the car.

- "Sorry for being late. I'll drop you at your place, as usual?"

- "No problem, thanks. Just give me a second, I left my bag in the classroom."

You head back into the building and Jinyoung watches you intently. When he met you for the first time, you were nothing but Haerin's arts teacher. After talking to you more often, he found out you were a very fun, smart and kind-hearted person, and he’s been a bit interested in you ever since then. He never really knew if he liked you or not, but after seeing what you just did, he was sure.

He had just arrived on the parking lot when he saw Haerin being chased by those two boys who were evidently bullying her. He was about to get out and give them a piece of his mind, but you stepped in just in time. He watched as you handled the situation perfectly, without even raising your voice, and made the boys apologize. He watched as you cheered up his niece and made her smile, while you gave her a smile of your own that Jinyoung instantly found irresistible. At that very moment, he knew he liked you, and he knew he had to make his move.

- “She’s really nice huh, your teacher?” he asks Haerin as he takes her schoolbag and putting it on his shoulder.

- “She is.”

She looks up at her uncle, whom is to busy staring at you through the windows. She follows his stare, and easily puts on and one together. She grins playfully and smacks Jinyoung on the arm.

- “You’re in love with her, aren’t you?”

- “What?” he exclaims, startled. “No, what are you saying.”

Haerin pouts and crosses her arms on her chest. Jinyoung flashes her a teasing smile before adding:

- “I just want to get to know her better, that’s all.”

The little girl smiles again, not hiding her happiness at the thought of his favourite uncle and his favourite teacher being a couple.

- “Here I am” you sing-song, meeting them at the car, swinging your bag over your shoulder.

- “Umm… I was thinking” Jinyoung says, his nerves apparent.

You would be lying if you said you didn’t find Jinyoung cute, and you could tell he was interested in you, no matter how hard he tries to hide it. Every time he would give you a ride home, he would always hesitate before saying goodbye, as if he wanted to say something but couldn’t bring himself to. You never insisted, not wanting to pressure him, but now you have a clear idea of what he’s going to say to you.

- “I was thinking maybe instead of going home right away, we could get some ice cream first?”

That’s exactly what you wanted to hear. With a wide, beaming smile, you answer:

- “Ice cream sounds like a great idea.”