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YOON KEEHO (윤 기호) - LOVE FOREST (female reader x Keeho) 🔞

⚠️ WARNING: THIS CONTENT CONTAINS SMUT SCENES AND FOUL LANGUAGE! 🔞 🔞

A/N: This is my first time to write a fanfiction for Keeho of P1harmony and I am currently stanning them and he became my ultimate bias.

I wrote this one-shot fanfiction while I am at work and I became bored because there aren't so many tasks to do at work so I suddenly had the guts to start thinking a scenario for him and wrote this one-shot fanfiction. So, I hope you will like my first one-shot fanfiction for Keeho my beloved readers! :)

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Y/N is hanging out with her friend named Jinri in their apartment.

"So, what are you going to do during the vacation?" Jinri asked.

"I don't know. I wanted to spend time with my family in the province too but since they will be having a business trip in the US, I won't be able to spend time with them. I think I will be just here alone and have some "me" time," Y/N said.

"I have an idea," Jinri said.

"What is that?" Y/N asked.

"Download and try our app," Jinri said which made Y/N surprised.

"Jinri, I told you many times I don't want to try the app of the company where we are working, okay?" Y/N said.

"Why not? Also, it doesn't mean if you will hire to be your private escort it means there will be sex involved at all times and private escorts can just accompany you and will just hang out with you," Jinri said which made Y/N sigh.

"Fine! I'll try the app. Did you also try using the app?" Y/N asked.

"Yup! Many times already and one of them became my friend," Jinri said as she smiled.

"Oh Really? But sorry to ask you this, by any chance did you have sex with that guy?" Y/N asked.

"Nope! To be honest, sometimes we hang out with our other friends. Also, he is really a good and funny guy," Jinri said.

"Do you like him?" Y/N asked.

"Nope! To be honest, he is not my type. I think that guy might be your type," Jinri said.

"Why do you think so?" Y/N asked.

"I don't know. I just feel it when you see him in person," Jinri said as she winked at her which made Y/N chuckle.

"Anyways, I will download the app now and check out the available man that can accompany me for the vacation this week," Y/N said.

"Okay! But do you also have a plan to have sex with the guy that you will choose?" Jinri asked which made Y/N gulp.

"I don't know. It depends on the situation," Y/N said, which made Jinri slightly laugh.

"Oh okay! I understand, Y/N," Jinri said. At that time, while Jinri is doing something in her room, Y/N downloaded the Private Escort for Hire app and made an account. As she checked out each man's profiles nothing piqued her interest because some of them just wanted to have sex and nothing else. Then there was a man who suddenly piqued her interest because he wanted to hang out with other people like they are close friends but...

"Why does it have to be that expensive if I will just hire him as my private escort and hang out with him for a week?" Y/N said loudly and sighed, then Jinri heard it.

"Why? Can you show me who was the guy you are referring to?" Jinri asked, then Y/N showed his profile and Jinri slightly smiled.

"He is cute though! He might have reasons why his service is expensive," Jinri said.

"I think so. I bet this guy named Keeho has a lot of clients and I think he is a high-class private escort," Y/N said.

"You really want to hire him?" Jinri asked.

"Yes! I want to hire him badly but his service is so expensive," Y/N said which made Jinri laugh.

"I am not gonna lie, but you sound so desperate," Jinri said which made Y/N sigh.

"I just think I will really have fun with him for a week when I meet him and talk to him. I think I'll just check out other men," Y/N said.

"Okay! I hope you will be able to find the guy that can accompany you on this week's vacation," Jinri said.

"I hope so!" Y/N said as she sighed. After an hour of checking out the other men's profiles, she just couldn't stop looking at Keeho's profile and Jinri noticed it and smirked.

NEXT DAY...

While Jinri is going to the cafe to buy some drinks for them, she suddenly decides to call someone before she goes back to the apartment.

THEIR CONVERSATION:

Jinri: Keeho!

Keeho: Oh! Hey, Jinri! Why did you call?

Jinri: Well, I told you a lot about my friend who is living with me in the apartment, right?

Keeho: Yes! Why? 

Jinri: To be honest, she started to check out the app and she suddenly found your profile.

Keeho: Okay? Then what happened?

Jinri: She wanted to hire you so badly because she thinks she will have fun with you.

Keeho: Really? But why didn't she hire me?

Jinri: Your service is so expensive dude!

Keeho: *laughs* I see! Can you send me a photo of her?

Jinri: Sure! I'll send you later because I am going back to our apartment.

Keeho: Okay! Take care going back to your apartment.

Jinri: Thanks! Bye!

END OF CONVERSATION.

After they had a conversation, Jinri went back to the apartment.

"Why did you take so long?" Y/N asked.

"Sorry! I just met my other friend in the cafe' and we talked for a minute," Jinri said.

"Oh! I see," Y/N said.

"So, did you already hire somebody?" Jinri asked.

"Nope! I think I just really want to hire Keeho but I don't have a budget. I think I will just really stay here alone on our vacation," Y/N said as she sighed.

"I think that won't happen," Jinri said.

"I just really hope so," Y/N said as she sighed.

"My friend seems to be really interested in Keeho. I should send a photo of her to him that might change Keeho's mind to make it free for her," Jinri thought. At that time, Jinri sent a photo of her to Keeho and when Keeho saw her photo, he got attracted to her already.

"She's beautiful! I really hope that we will get along with each other when I am with her," Keeho thought and he decided to call Jinri this time. As for Jinri, she went to her room so Y/N won't hear their conversation.

THEIR CONVERSATION...

Jinri: Why did you call?

Keeho: I am making my service free for beautiful ladies like her.

Jinri: OMG! Really? You will do that for her?

Keeho: Yes! By the way, how many days?

Jinri: Is it okay that you will be with her for one week? Because we have a vacation for one week and she will be alone here in the apartment.

Keeho: For one week? Sure! I'll make her happy and be comfortable with me.

Jinri: Wow! It seems you really are interested in Y/N.

Keeho: Yes! I get interested in Y/N. That's why I am doing this for her and I promise I will make her happy.

Jinri: Okay! I will trust you, Keeho.

Keeho: No worries, okay? She will be safe with me for one week.

Jinri: Okay! Thanks, Keeho! 

Keeho: No problem! I have to go now because I will meet my friends. Bye!

Jinri: Okay! Bye!

END OF CONVERSATION.

After Jinri had a conversation with Keeho...

"I am so happy that Keeho will be with Y/N on her vacation! This will be an interesting week for her," Jinri thought and smiled.

FAST FORWARD...

It was already the day when Y/N and Jinri will be having a vacation.

"I am going to leave you now, okay?" Jinri said.

"No worries! I will make my "me" time enjoyable," Y/N said.

"Okay! You said so. Also, take care of yourself. Just chat or call me, okay?" Jinri said.

"Okay! Take care and enjoy your vacation with your family!" Y/N said as she smiled.

"Thanks! I have to go, bye!" Jinri said as she waved goodbye and left Y/N in their apartment. After Jinri left their apartment, she decided to clean the house and it took an hour for her to clean it then while she is resting in the living room, suddenly someone pressed the doorbell, and as she checked the door camera, she recognized the face of the guy and she was shocked that it was Keeho. 

"OMG! Is this real? Keeho is here?" Y/N thought and just opened the door. Keeho is smiling brightly which made Y/N blush madly.

"You are Keeho, right? Y/N asked.

"Yes! I guess your name is Y/N, right?" Keeho asked.

"Y-yes! How did you know my name and my house? Also, you were the guy in the private escort-for-hire app, right?" Y/N said.

"Yup! To be honest, I know your friend named Jinri," Keeho said.

"Really? But she is not here today because she went to visit her parents in the province for vacation," Y/N said, which made Keeho chuckle.

"To be honest, I am not here for Jinri. I am here for you that's why I came here," Keeho said which shocked Y/N.

"What do you mean?" Y/N asked, then Keeho smiled and his face went closer to her which made Y/N get nervous.

"While Jinri is away, I will be your private escort," Keeho said as he smiled which made Y/N surprised.

Wait! I didn't hire you to be my private escort!" Y/N said.

"I know. But Jinri hired me for you," Keeho said.

"What? But why?" Y/N asked.

"She told me that you were interested in hiring me as your private escort but you said that it was expensive to hire me. So, that time, I asked Jinri for a picture of you and when I saw your picture I found you beautiful and I told Jinri that I give free service to beautiful girls like you," Keeho said.

"Are you serious?" Y/N asked.

"Yes! But if you don't want to do it. I won't force you. I promise," Keeho said.

"Okay! I guess that's why you have bags with you because you will live here for a week, right?" Y/N said.

"Yup! But if you want to go somewhere else, I can pay the expenses since it's free for you," Keeho said as he smiled and winked at Y/N, which made Y/N blush.

"I will think about it since it will be boring if we will just hang out here," Y/N said.

"But I know good places like beaches and resorts," Keeho said.

"I think that would be expensive if we go to a beach resort. I think it's better if we can just go to a place that is kinda hidden," Y/N said, which made Keeho surprised.

"Hidden? Like there's a house in the forest or woods? You want to go there?" Keeho asked, which made Y/N slightly laugh.

"I think so? But I think that's impossible," Y/N said.

"You seemed to be adventurous, huh? To be honest, I have a friend who owns a house in the forest and don't worry it's not totally isolated, the house has a garden and it has grown vegetables and fruits. The house can be rented too. “You want to go there?" Keeho asked.

"Are you sure? Can we really go there?" Y/N asked.

"Yes! I can call my friend now and will tell him that we will rent it for a week," Keeho said.

"Okay! But we can just go there tomorrow since I want to rest for today because I just finished cleaning our apartment," Y/N said.

"Okay! I'll just call him now, okay?" Keeho said.

"Sure! I'll just take a bath and you can place your bags first in the master's bedroom," Y/N said.

"Okay! Thanks!" Keeho said. When Y/N left him, Keeho called his friend named Intak.

THEIR CONVERSATION:

Intak: Hey, Keeho! Why did you call?

Keeho: I just wanted to tell you that I wanted to rent the house that's in the forest for a week.

Intak: For a week? Aren't you going to be bored if you rent it for a week?

Keeho: Bro, I have someone with me.

Intak: oh! Is that a girl?

Keeho: Yup!

Intak: You should also introduce me to her.

Keeho: Sure! No problem! To be honest, I was hired by her for a week.

Intak: Really? For a week?

Keeho: Yup! She wanted to go places that are hidden and I suddenly thought of the house that you have.

Intak: oh! Have fun with your trip with her, bro!

Keeho: Thanks! But we will occupy it tomorrow.

Intak: Sure no problem! Also no worries, the house is cleaned every day by our caretaker.

Keeho: Okay! I have to go now and place my bags in the room.

Intak: Okay! Bye!

Keeho: Bye, bro!

After Keeho had a conversation with his friend named Intak, he placed his bags in the bedroom and changed clothes. As for Y/N, after she took a bath and changed her clothes, she went to the living room and decided to watch TV. Then when Keeho went to the living room he was wearing a white sleeveless shirt...

"Oh! Wow! He's really muscular and sexy! I bet many girls already booked him as their private escort," Y/N thought and blushed madly, then Keeho noticed that she couldn't stop looking at him and he decided to sit closer to her which made Y/N surprised and gulped because Keeho's face very close again to her that can make them kiss if Y/N will make move little forward to him.

"You know it's rude to stare at a person for a long time, right baby?" Keeho asked as he winked and smirked at her.

"Sorry! But I won't deny that you look so hot right now," Y/N said as she couldn't look at him this time and continued to blush madly which made Keeho slightly laugh.

"I know I am hot," Keeho said as he smirked.

"You're so cocky!" Y/N said, which made Keeho laugh.

"Why? But you said that I am hot so I just accepted your compliment. So, what do you want to do today? Are we just going to stare at each other all day?" Keeho asked.

"We won't definitely do that, of course! Since we are just going to be here all day, we can just watch movies and order some food delivery," Y/N said.

"That would be fun, I think. I'll be the one who will pay for our food," Keeho said.

"Nope! I have an idea, you can pay for the food for lunch and our snacks then I will pay for the dinner that would be more fair," Y/N said.

"I insist. I will pay for all of it, okay? This will be my free service for you, are we clear, baby?" Keeho asked.

"Do you really have to call me baby?" Y/N asked as she blushed which made Keeho slightly laugh.

"Yes! Why? Don't you like it?" Keeho asked.

"I think I am just not used to being called like that," Y/N said.

"Oh! I see. But what If I just wanted to call you baby instead of your name?" Keeho said as he smirked, then Y/N sighed and rolled her eyes which made Keeho laugh.

"Fine! To be honest, you were the first one to call me baby," Y/N said, which made Keeho surprised.

"Really? What about your ex-boyfriend?" Keeho asked.

"I didn't have a boyfriend before until now," Y/N said.

"That's impossible! You are beautiful!" Keeho said, which made Y/N blush.

"Thanks for the compliment, Keeho. But I am telling the truth I didn't have a boyfriend before," Y/N said.

"But why? I bet many guys asked you to be their girlfriend, right?" Keeho asked.

"To be honest, there were guys who asked me out but unfortunately I don't like them. I know I may sound rude or whatever you want to think about me but the ones that I like don't like me or sometimes I was just friend-zoned," Y/N said which made Keeho surprised.

"I respect you, Y/N. I think those guys were just blind because I think you will be a great partner," Keeho said as he smiled at her which made Y/N blush madly.

"Thanks! Even though we just met today and yet you are now telling me that to me," Y/N said as she smiled back.

"To be honest, I wanna..." Keeho hadn't finished his sentence because someone was calling Y/N and it was Jinri.

"Sorry! I had to take this call," Y/N said.

"It's okay! Since she is your friend and you should update her that I am already here," Keeho said.

"Okay! While waiting for me you can order our food and choose some movies for us," Y/N said.

"Sure! No problem!" Keeho said.

THEIR CONVERSATION:

Y/N: Jinri! Are you already in your parent's house?

Jinri: Yup! I am now here in my bedroom and just finished organizing my stuff here. So, I guess you are now with Keeho, right?

Y/N: Yup! You didn't tell me that you are Keeho's friend.

Jinri: I didn't tell you because I wanted to surprise you and I bet you were really surprised that Keeho suddenly appeared today.

Y/N: I know and he told me that it's free.

Jinri: Yup! You know I won't be surprised when I will go back to our place that you are not a virgin anymore *laughs*

Y/N: Shut up, Jinri!

Jinri: What? I know you are drooling right now, girl!

Y/N: Fine! Whatever! Anyways, I have to tell you that we will go somewhere tomorrow.

Jinri: Oh! You really want to have him all by yourself, huh?

Y/N: Can you just stop teasing me?

Jinri: Fine! I will stop. But where are you two going tomorrow?

Y/N: We will go to a rented house that is in the forest that has a beautiful garden in it.

Jinri: Wow! That will be a peaceful and healing vacation for the two of you, huh?

Y/N: Yup! I think I will be enjoying my vacation with him. But thanks, you talked to Keeho.

Jinri: No problem! Also, you should thank him because it's free for you and I think he is interested in you and he might be your boyfriend this week.

Y/N: Let's see! Anyways, today we won't go anywhere and we will just hang out here.

Jinri: Oh! Okay! Have fun and enjoy your week with him, girl!

Y/N: Thanks! Bye and take care!

Jinri: Take care too, girl! Bye!

END OF CONVERSATION

After Y/N had a conversation with Jinri she went back to the living room.

"So, did you tell her that we will go somewhere tomorrow?" Keeho asked.

"Yup!" Y/N said as she smiled.

"That's great to hear! Anyways, I don't know what kind of movie you want to watch but I just chose a romantic movie," Keeho said.

"Romantic movies are okay for me. By the way, what were you going to tell me a while ago before Jinri called?" Y/N asked.

"I already forgot the words to tell you. Anyways, let's just watch the movie while waiting for the food, okay baby," Keeho asked.

"Sure! No problem!" Y/N said as she smiled. But as they watched the movie, Y/N suddenly screamed and went closer to Keeho.

"Keeho! I thought this was only a romantic movie, but this is also a thriller movie and, to be honest, I hate horror and thriller movies," Y/N said as she pouted which made Keeho laugh at her and he decided to pause the movie.

"I am so sorry, Y/N. To be honest, I didn't know this would be a thriller movie too," Keeho said.

"I think you did this on purpose, huh?" Y/N said, which made Keeho smirked.

"What kind of purpose, baby?" Keeho asked as he leaned closer to her face which made Y/N blush.

"I don't know! Anyways, we can just continue watching the movie," Y/N said which made Keeho laugh and at that time, their food arrived and while they are continuing to watch the movie, Y/N was startled again by a scary scene and suddenly the glass of water that is on the table was spilled on Keeho's shorts.

Shit! I am so sorry, Keeho!" Y/N said as she tried to help him wipe the spilled water off him but...

"Y/N, It's okay! I'll wipe it off. You don't want someone to be turned on, right baby?" Keeho said as he smirked.

"What do you mean?" Y/N asked, then Keeho slightly laughed at her question.

"You're so innocent, baby! Take your hands off me or do you want us to get dirty on my first day with you today?" Keeho asked as he looked at Y/N which made Y/N surprised.

"Oh shit! I just understand what you meant, right now!" Y/N said as she quickly took her hands off his shorts and Keeho slightly laughed.

"I'll just change, okay? By the way, I won't deny it felt so good when you touched me like that," Keeho said as he winked which made Y/N blush madly and shivered from her spine.

"Keeho, just change your shorts now, okay? We still have to finish the movie," Y/N said.

"Okay! Okay! I'll be right back," Keeho said and went to the room. While Keeho is changing...

"Gosh! His bluntness has a huge effect on me!" Y/N thought.

When Keeho came back, they decided to finish the movie and they played some games too. but there is one time, Keeho fell over her which made Y/N surprised and blushed madly. As for Keeho, he stared at her for a second. He decided to kiss her passionately and Y/N responded to it but when things were about to heat up to the next level, Keeho stopped which made Y/N slightly disappointed and Keeho noticed her reaction and smirked.

"It seems someone wanted to go further, huh?" Keeho asked which made Y/N blush madly.

"Shut up, Keeho! Just get off me and I might be suffocated," Y/N said which made Keeho chuckle.

"Okay! Sorry!" Keeho said as he got off from her.

"We can go further when you are ready, okay?" Keeho said and Y/N just nodded and they smiled at each other. At that time, it was already evening, and after they had dinner...

"Keeho, thanks for today! I really enjoyed it even though we just hang out here in the house," Y/N said

"No problem! Also, I guess I stole your first kiss earlier, right?" Keeho asked, which made them laugh.

"Yup! But I won't complain though," Y/N said which made Keeho slightly smirked.

"I have an idea, you want to sleep beside me tonight? I promise I won't do anything to you. Unless you want something to happen tonight," Keeho said as he winked at her which made Y/N blush and slightly laughed.

"Okay! I'll sleep beside you but no sex," Y/N said.

"Okay! let's go to sleep now because we will go tomorrow to the rented house," Keeho said. 

"Okay! I am quite excited for tomorrow because I know it will be peaceful and it will be a healing vacation for us," Y/N said as she smiled.

"Yup! It will be! Good night, baby!" Keeho said as he kissed her lips quickly which made Y/N blush.

"Good night, hottie Keeho!" Y/N said, which made Keeho surprised.

"You called me hottie, huh? Don't get me turned on tonight because I might not control myself. Anyways, just kidding. Let's sleep now!" Keeho said which made Y/N slightly laugh then Keeho hugged her close to him as they went to sleep.

NEXT DAY...

Y/N and Keeho went to the house that they rented and as they arrived, Intak was there to welcome them.

"Bro! I am glad you visited again," Intak said.

"Yeah! It's been a while since I visited this house. By the way, this is Y/N she will be with me in this house for a week," Keeho said.

"Hi, Y/N! I am Intak, Keeho's friend. Nice to meet you!" Intak said as he smiled.

"Nice to meet you too, Intak!" Y/N said as she smiled back and they shook hands,

"Damn! Keeho's friend is also handsome and hot like him," Y/N thought. As they held hands longer, Keeho suddenly interfered and...

"Bro, I think you can help us load some of our stuff, right?" Keeho asked.

"Of course! I'll help you then after that, I'll go now because I will meet my other friends today," Intak said.

"Okay! Great! As for you, baby. You can just go inside already and rest first. We will load our stuff," Keeho said as he smiled which made Intak slightly laugh at the way Keeho called Y/N.

"I will help the two of you," Y/N said.

"Y/N, you don't need to help us, okay?" Intak said as he suddenly placed his hand on her shoulder and smiled at her but Keeho was not amused and he decided to take off his hand from Y/N.

"Intak is right. You should go in first and rest," Keeho said, which made Y/N sigh.

"Okay! Fine! Thanks, guys!" Y/N said as she smiled at them.

"No problem baby!" Keeho said as he smiled back. When Y/N was already inside the house...

"Someone's jealous," Intak said when he was about to get their stuff and Keeho chuckled.

"Bro, I know she's beautiful but she will be mine, okay?" Keeho said.

"She will be yours? But you were only just hired for her to be a private escort, right?" Intak asked.

"Oh shit! He was right!" Keeho thought.

"I know but I might let go of the label of being just a private escort for her this week," Keeho said which made Intak surprised.

"Wait! You mean you will resign as a private escort?" Intak asked.

"Yes! I am willing to resign and besides I already have a business. To be honest, when her friend showed a picture of her I was attracted to her already. That's why I decided to be his private escort and I will make her my girlfriend and I will be her first boyfriend," Keeho said.

"What? first boyfriend? Are you serious? She hasn't had a boyfriend before? But she's beautiful!" Intak said.

"I know bro! Anyways, let's stop talking and load our stuff," Keeho said, then Intak nodded. After they loaded their stuff...

"Thanks for helping us, bro! I will contact you when we are leaving," Keeho said.

"Sure no problem! As for you Y/N, I hope you enjoy the environment of this house," Intak said as he smiled.

"I think I will love it since it's peaceful here," Y/N said as she smiled back.

"That's great to hear! I really have to go now. Bye, guys! Have fun!" Intak said as he waved goodbye to them and left them.

As they went inside the house...

"You like it?" Keeho asked.

"Yes! I really like it! You know, you and Intak are handsome," Y/N said as she blushed madly which made Keeho chuckle.

"Can you not include his name when you talk today?" Keeho asked, which made Y/N surprised.

"Why? I am just being honest with you," Y/N said.

"I know. But I just want you to think just the two of us, okay baby?" Keeho said as he back hugged her and placed his head on her shoulder which made Y/N giddy.

"What if I don't want to follow you and keep saying Intak's name, what are you going to do?" Y/N asked which made Keeho chuckle.

"Don't test me, baby! I don't want to punish you if we are going to do it for the first time," Keeho said as he whispered in her ear, which made Y/N shiver from her spine.

"I just really hope that he is my real boyfriend," Y/N thought.

"Fine! I won't say his name anymore," Y/N said.

"Good girl! So, are you good at cooking?" Keeho asked.

"Not at all. I just know how to fry some food and make some pasta dishes, that's all. What about you?" Y/N said.

"That's okay! Don't worry we will help each other cook and besides we bought some ready-to-cook food," Keeho said as he winked at her.

"I am relieved we bought those kinds of food," Y/N said and both of them laughed.

"Let's cook for lunch then we can go around here since I know you want to roam around the garden too and pick some vegetables or fruits there," Keeho said.

"Is it okay if we will pick vegetables or fruits in their garden?" Y/N asked.

"Yup! It's free. That's why many guests came here because of the peaceful environment and they can pick vegetables and fruits in the garden," Keeho said.

"That's great! Let's start cooking now so that we can already go outside," Y/N said which made Keeho slightly laugh, and decided to go to the kitchen and started cooking their food for lunch. After they cooked their food, they decided to go to the garden and at that time, Keeho handed her a basket so that when they picked a vegetable or fruit they could place it on the basket.

They enjoyed picking some vegetables and fruits and after they picked them, they silently looked at the beautiful scenery of the mountains with the bright sun.

I am really happy that I had a chance to go to this kind of place and that is because of you, Keeho," Y/N said as she smiled which made Keeho smile back and caressed her face.

"I am glad you really like it and I wanted to tell you that..." Keeho was cut-off again because someone was calling Y/N again which made Keeho sigh but Y/N decided not to answer first and...

"Just continue. I want to hear what you want to say. I'll call her back later," Y/N said as she smiled.

"Okay! I will resign as a private escort instead I wanted to be your first boyfriend, Y/N," Keeho said as he smiled at her brightly which made Y/N shocked.

"Are you serious? You will resign as a private escort? Why?" Y/N asked.

"Y/N, I am serious about my feelings for you. I already had love at first sight and also, don't worry I already have a business that I can handle," Keeho said.

"OMG! Am I dreaming? Finally, the guy that I liked, liked me back and he already loves me," Y/N thought and she didn't hesitate to kiss Keeho on the lips and wrapped her hands around his neck. As for Keeho, he was surprised at first but he decided to pull her close to him and deepened the kiss. After a few minutes of kissing, they stopped and looked at each other's eyes.

"Does it mean you are accepting me as your first boyfriend?" Keeho asked.

"Yes! I am accepting you as my boyfriend. I don't care if this was fast, I just knew that I am also attracted to you when I also saw your picture in the app and that's the reason why I was interested in hiring you as my private escort," Y/N said as she smiled at him. Then Keeho smiled back and kissed her lips quickly.

"I love you, baby!" Keeho said.

"I love you too, Keeho!" Y/N said as they hugged each other. But suddenly someone ruined their moment because Jinri is calling Y/N and...

"Such bad timing ruined our moment," Y/N said, which made Keeho laugh.

'It's okay baby! Just answer the call first. I bet she is curious what we are doing right now," Keeho said.

“Okay! wait for a while, okay?" Y/N said, then Keeho nodded.

THEIR CONVERSATION:

Jinri: Y/N! I have called you a few times already.

Y/N: Why? Also, I am with Keeho. We are now in the rented house and we just finished picking some vegetables and fruits here.

Jinri: Wow! It seems you are now having fun with him, huh?

Y/N: Yes! Also, I will tell you that he is already my boyfriend.

Jinri: OMG! Congrats! I am so happy that you finally have a boyfriend. I trust and I know Keeho will make you happy and won't hurt you.

Y/N: I can feel his sincerity when he just confessed his feelings to me.

Jinri: I am so happy for you girl! Anyways, I am sorry if I was interrupting your moment with him.

Y/N: It's alright! To be honest, when you were calling me, I let him continue what he wanted to say and he confessed to me at that time.

Jinri: Oh okay! I have to go now! Enjoy your vacation with Keeho!

Y/N: Thanks, Jinri! Bye, take care!

Jinri: Take care too, girl!

END OF CONVERSATION

After Y/N had a conversation with Jinri, she went back to Keeho and...

"So, I guess you already told her that I am already your boyfriend, right?" Keeho said.

"Of course! Also, she's happy because she knows that you won't hurt me," Y/N said as she smiled.

"That's great to hear! Let's go back and have some lunch already," Keeho said as he smiled back, then Y/N nodded and both of them went back to the house and started to have lunch.

"So, what do you want to do after we have lunch?" Keeho asked.

"I don't know! Do you have that in mind?" Y/N asked.

"Me neither. I don't know what we should do. Unless you want to do it right now, baby?" Keeho said as he smirked which made Y/N blush madly.

"It's too early for that, Keeho!" Y/N said, which made Keeho laugh.

"Okay! Okay! I am sorry baby! We can just watch some movies or variety shows if you want and we can just cuddle on the bed while we watch. Is that okay with you?" Keeho asked.

"Yup! As long as I am with you," Y/N said which made Keeho blush this time.

"Me too, baby! Let's go! We can bring some snacks too," Keeho said, then Y/N nodded and they brought some snacks and went to the room.

"I guess you won't need to sleep later in the next room, right?" Keeho asked which made Y/N gulp.

"Y-yes! I will definitely sleep beside you tonight," Y/N said.

"That's good! But why do you sound hesitant? You already slept beside me last night, right?" Keeho asked.

"I know. But I think tonight will be not just cuddling at all," Y/N said as she couldn't look at him which made Keeho slightly laugh but smirked at the same time.

"So, you were thinking that, huh? Y/N, if you were still not ready, I'll respect that, okay? But if you are ready, try to seduce me," Keeho said as he winked at her which made Y/N surprised.

"You know, you are very blunt!" Y/N said, which made Keeho laugh.

"You don't like it? I think that can be the best way because I think if you will just tell me there's no fun with that," Keeho said which made Y/N scoff.

"Do I really have to do that?" Y/N asked which made Keeho smirked.

"Yes! It seems you really have a plan to do it, huh?" Keeho asked which made Y/N blush madly but she rolled her eyes on him and Keeho laughed at her.

"I don't know what you are talking about, Keeho!" Y/N said.

"You're in denial baby! But anyways, that's what you should do, okay?" Keeho said as he winked at her.

"Fine! Whatever you say!" Y/N said, which made Keeho just laugh at her.

"It's so fun to tease you, baby!" Keeho said as he kissed her lips which made Y/N surprised at his action.

"Just stop it!" Y/N said, which made Keeho just laugh again at her.

"Okay! I'll stop. Let's just watch and rest now, okay?" Keeho said then Y/N nodded.

Throughout the day they only hung out in the house and enjoyed each other's company. As time went by, it was already evening, and after they had dinner...

"Y/N, I'll wash the dishes," Keeho said.

"Nope! You did so much for today," Y/N said.

"I know but I just want you to relax for today, okay? You can wait for me in the living room," Keeho said.

"Okay! I'll wait for you," Y/N said as she smiled and left Keeho. As she sat on the sofa...

"Shit! How should I seduce him? I didn't have experience seducing someone. I know that I am already ready for him," Y/N thought and she sighed but suddenly she remembered something and she suddenly went to the room. As time goes by, Keeho finishes washing the dishes and as he goes to the living room, Y/N is nowhere to be seen.

"I thought she would wait for me here. Anyways, I think she just went to the room," Keeho said to himself and as he went inside the room, he was shocked because...

"Y/N! I mean, baby? You really are prepared, huh? You are so hot with that red lingerie," Keeho said as he looked at her from head to toe and bit his lip, and walked closer to her which made Y/N blush madly.

"T-thanks, Keeho! But to be honest, I wasn't confident with my body at all," Y/N said as she couldn't look at him. 

"Y/N, you are beautiful and hot, you should know that. Perhaps, you want me to prove it to you?" Keeho asked as he stared at her with lust and love in his eyes.

"Y-yes! Also, I am really ready for you," Y/N said, then after Y/N's response he suddenly pushed her onto the bed and hovered above her which made Y/N quite surprised and Keeho smirked at her reaction.

“Can’t wait to make you moan and scream my name, baby,” Keeho said and he removed his shirt and Y/N gulped at the sight of him.

“Shit! He’s so sexy!” Y/N thought. Then her thoughts were cut-off when Keeho kissed her lips passionately and Y/N just responded to it.

 As for Keeho, his hands went to her clothed breasts and slightly squeezed them which made Y/N moan into his action, and with that, Keeho slipped his tongue to her and explored her cavern. While they were still making out, Keeho’s hands went behind her and unclasped her bra and they suddenly stopped. Then he removed her bra which made Y/N shy, and covered her breasts but Keeho held her hands above her head.

“Don’t be shy, baby! You are fucking hot!” Keeho said, which made Y/N blush madly at his compliment. Then Keeho kissed her neck as he licked and sucked it that became a hickey which made Y/N moan his name softly.

“You are now mine baby! Remember that, okay?” Keeho said, then Y/N just nodded which made Keeho smirk and his lips went to her breasts as he sucked them delicately, bit them, and licked between her breasts and he also slightly squeezed her breast that made Y/N moaned his name softly and arched her back as she felt the pleasure.

“So responsive, baby. I like that,” Keeho said. After Keeho gave attention to her breasts, he kissed every inch of her and he suddenly stopped and decided to remove her underwear which made Y/N surprised and suddenly closed her legs and Keeho just spread her legs wide.

“Fuck! You’re so wet already for me and yet, you don’t want me to taste you?” Keeho said.

“Ummm… I am just really shy to be that exposed,” Y/N said as she can’t look at him and then, Keeho made her look at him by lifting her chin.

“Baby, remember you are beautiful, okay?” Keeho said as he kissed her lips which made Y/N smile. Then Keeho went between her legs and Y/N blushed madly at the sight of him.

“Shit! He’s just so fucking hot!” Y/N thought. Then her thoughts were cut-off when Keeho started to lick her pussy which made Y/N moan his name and arched her back, then Keeho smirked at her reaction and decided to lick her pussy at a fast pace.

“Fuck! Keeho! That’s so good!” Y/N said as she gripped the bed sheets. Then Keeho suddenly pulled her legs closer to his face and decided not only to lick but also to suck her pussy harshly which made a slurping sound. As for Y/N, she couldn’t stop moaning his name and slightly pushed his head more onto her pussy. As Keeho continues to eat her out wildly.

“Shit! Keeho I am going to cum!” Y/N said.

“Cum for me. I want to taste you,” Keeho said. As soon as Keeho said it, Y/N cums hard, and then, Keeho sucked all of her juices and after that, he stood up, he wiped the corner of his lips, and stared at her which made Y/N gulp.

“So delicious baby!” Keeho said as he smirked and he removed his pants together with his boxer shorts which made Y/N surprised.

“Oh shit! He’s big! How will that fit me?” Y/N thought as she gulped then Keeho smirked at her reaction.

“This will fit you, baby, don’t worry,” Keeho said which made Y/N blush madly at his statement and at that time when Keeho was about to get a condom…

“Keeho, I am on a pill,” Y/N said which made Keeho slightly surprised.

“Are you sure, baby?” Keeho asked.

“Yes! I’ve been taking birth control pills,” Y/N said.

“But would it be okay for you if I will cum inside you or not?” Keeho asked.

“It’s okay if you will cum inside me,” Y/N said as she smiled.

“Fuck! That will be hot, baby!” Keeho said as he smirked. Then he hovered above her again.

“Baby, if it’s painful just tell me okay?” Keeho asked.

“Don’t worry, I’ll tell you,” Y/N said.

“I love you Y/N!” Keeho said.

“I love you too, Keeho!” Y/N said. As Keeho inserted his cock into her core inch by inch, Y/N yelped which made Keeho suddenly stop.

“Baby, is that painful?” Keeho said with worry in his voice.

“Yes, but don’t worry I think I can bear it,” Y/N said.

“Okay! I’ll let you adjust first,” Keeho said but then he suddenly kissed her lips passionately and her neck to distract her from the pain. After a few seconds…

“Keeho, you can move,” Y/N said.

“Okay, baby! Ready for a wild ride with me,” Keeho said as he smirked. Y/N didn’t have time to process what he said because Keeho thrust his cock to her at a fast pace already which made her moan his name loudly and gripped his biceps.

“Fuck! You are so tight and feel so good, baby!” Keeho said as he leaned onto her and whispered at her, and licked her earlobe which made Y/N moan again.

“Keeho, more please!” Y/N said.

“I will give you more than that, baby!” Keeho said as he suddenly put her legs on his shoulders and thrust his cock to her harder which made Y/N scream his name and gripped the bed sheets.

“Fuck! Yes! Right there, Keeho!” Y/N said.

“Damn, baby! So loud for me!” Keeho said as he bit his lips. Then he decided to put her legs down and hugged her body close to him and thrust his cock into her deeper which made Y/N moan his name like a mantra and her hands rake Keeho’s broad back that will surely have red marks until the next day.

“Fuck! Feel so good going deep to you baby!” Keeho said as he also sucked again her neck which made Y/N just moan. As Keeho continued to thrust his cock into her at a stable pace…

“I am going to cum!” Y/N said.

“Cum with me, baby!” Keeho said. After a few thrusts, both of them cum, and Y/N moaned as she felt his cum shooting deep inside her. Then Keeho pulled away from her and lay beside her.

“So, how was it, baby?” Keeho asked.

“It was a mind-blowing one,” Y/N said as she blushed madly and Keeho smirked.

“Really? Are you up for one more round?” Keeho asked.

“Nope! I am already tired from screaming your name,” Y/N said, which made Keeho laugh.

“Okay! To be honest, I like the way you moan and scream my name, Y/N,” Keeho said as he winked at her, then Y/N slightly slapped his bicep which made Keeho laugh.

“What? Did I say something bad?” Keeho asked.

“I just don’t get used to hearing those kinds of words, I guess,” Y/N said.

“You’ll get used to it baby,” Keeho said as he kissed her lips quickly.

“Let’s sleep. Good night and I love you, Keeho!” Y/N said.

“Good night and I love you too much, Y/N,” Keeho said as he hugged her close to him as they slept.

NEXT DAY...

Keeho is the first one to wake up and as he looked at Y/N, she was still sleeping peacefully so he decided to kiss her lips quickly which made Y/N woke up and...

"Good morning, baby!" Keeho said.

"Good morning, Keeho! We should eat breakfast now so that we can do whatever we want for today again," Y/N said as she smiled.

"Breakfast can wait baby! You want to shower with me?" Keeho asked. which made Y/N gulp.

"Are we also going to do something?" Y/N asked which made Keeho smirked.

"By any chance, you want to do it in the shower?" Keeho asked which made Y/N cover her face because she got giddy and Keeho laughed at her.

"Baby, just tell me if you want or not. Besides, we already regained our energy," Keeho said as he winked at her.

"Oh gosh! How can I refuse that if you are just hot and sexy?" Y/N said.

"Damn! My baby really can't resist me, huh? Because of that, I think I won't make you walk during our stay here," Keeho said as he carried Y/N in a bridal style which made Y/N get shy and went to the bathroom.

"Why be shy all of a sudden, baby? I already saw it all," Keeho said. Then Keeho suddenly licked her lips to ask for entrance and Y/N opened her mouth and let his tongue slip in which made Keeho explore her cavern. Then while she was being French kissed, Keeho's hands went to her breast and squeezed it making Y/N moan into the kiss. Then Keeho kissed her neck as he licked, bit, and sucked again a certain spot that became another hickey. Then Keeho's lips went to her breast and he sucked and bit her nipples making Y/N moan his name again and push his head more. Keeho smirked at her action and decided to suck it harshly, which made Y/N moan loudly. As he stopped giving attention to her breast he smirked again as he saw that he made a hickey on her breast and when Y/N also saw it, she was surprised.

“Shit! He already made many love bites on me!” Y/N thought.

“Those marks mean you are already mine. Are we clear about that, Y/N?” Keeho asked.

“Yes, Keeho! I am already yours,” Y/N said as she blushed.

“That’s my good girl!” Keeho said as he smirked, then he left wet kisses on every inch of her body which made Y/N shiver because of his actions. But when he reached her inner thighs he slightly bit it, Y/N moaned softly.

“You are always so sensitive, baby,” Keeho said. But Y/N became conscious again and covered her private area and Keeho shoved her hands away.

“Baby, I already told you that you are perfect. No need to be insecure, okay?” Keeho said then Y/N nodded and smiled slightly. Then Keeho held her hand and they went to the shower. As they went inside the shower, Y/N opened the shower and when they had already gotten wet, Keeho decided to kiss her passionately again. Then while they were kissing, one of his hands went to her core and inserted one finger into her, and pumped it faster. Keeho decided to stop kissing her and looked at her and smirked at the sight of her being in a moaning mess.

"Shit! you are taking my fingers well, baby!" Keeho said. Then he decided to add another finger which made Y/N grip his biceps and moaned his name loudly.

"That's right, babe. Moan my name loudly!" Keeho said as he continued to pump his fingers to her core but without a warning, she cum on his fingers. Then Keeho suddenly stopped and spread her legs which made Y/N gulp at the sight of him being between her legs again. Then Keeho smirked again at her reaction so he decided to start licking and sucking her core which made Y/N moan loudly again and she held onto Keeho's hair.

"Fuck! You are so good at this, Keeho! More!" Y/N said Then Keeho suddenly sucked her core harshly which made Y/N almost scream his name.

“Fuck, yes! Like that!” Y/N said. As Keeho continued to eat her out wildly…

“Keeho! I am going to cum!” Y/N said.

"Cum for me, I want to taste you again, baby," Keeho said. When Y/N heard his words, she cum, and Keeho sucked all of her juices that made a slurping sound in the bathroom. But when Keeho was finished and stood up, he held her waist because Y/N's legs got weak because of the intense orgasm she had earlier.

“How did that feel, babe?” Keeho asked, then Y/N smirked.

“That was fucking awesome, Keeho,” Y/N said.

“We are not done yet, baby!” Keeho said as he kissed her lips with hunger and Y/N suddenly jumped onto him and wrapped her legs around him. While they were kissing, without a warning Keeho inserted his cock into her which made Y/N moan into the heated kiss. As Keeho started to thrust his cock into Y/N at a fast pace, they decided to stop kissing and Y/N leaned her head on Keeho’s shoulder.

“Shit! More Keeho!” Y/N said loudly which made Keeho smirk.

“I’ll give that to you baby! You feel so fucking good!” Keeho said as he whispered at her and slightly bit it. As Keeho thrust his cock to her core harder and deeper, Y/N couldn’t stop moaning and screaming his name.

“Fuck! Right there, Keeho! Don’t stop!” Y/N said as her hands raked again Keeho’s back.

“Feel so good deeper to you baby!” Keeho said. But as he continued to thrust his cock at a stable pace…

“Keeho! I am going to cum,” Y/N said.

“Fuck! Cum with me, baby!” Keeho said as he also continued to groan with pleasure. But after a few thrusts, both of them cum. At that time, Keeho put her down but because Y/N’s legs became weak, he decided to help her stand up and continued to wash their bodies. After they washed their bodies, Keeho carried her to the bedroom.

“Can you walk?’ Keeho asked.

“I don’t think so, I think you can just bring some food here in our bed, and let’s have some breakfast in bed,” Y/N said which made Keeho slightly laugh.

“Okay, baby! I am sorry If I went hard on you,” Keeho said.

“Keeho, I won’t deny that I enjoyed it and also, you don’t need to say sorry,” Y/N said as she smiled and kissed his lips which made Keeho smile back at her.

“Okay! Just get some rest and I will make some breakfast for us,” Keeho said, then Y/N nodded. After a few minutes of making breakfast for them, he went back to the bed and set up the table for them. Then while they were having breakfast…

“Thank you so much for this, Keeho!” Y/N said.

"No problem, baby! I am glad no one is here that can disturb us, especially hearing the way you scream and moan my name last night and a while ago," Keeho said.

"I know, right! Also, it's just our second day of stay here but many things happened already just on our first day yesterday," Y/N said.

"But did you like it?" Keeho asked.

"Of course! Also, I know we will have more memorable moments here," Y/N said as she smiled.

"I am happy to hear that and also, I am glad that you became my girlfriend. I love you, Y/N!" Keeho said as he hugged and kissed Y/N's lips.

"I love you so much, Keeho!" Y/N said as she smiled brightly at him. They continued to make memorable moments in the house for a week. After they had a romantic vacation, Keeho resigned to be a private escort and handled his clothing line business with Intak. As for Y/N, she decided to live with Keeho and also help him with the business and they had a loving relationship.

끝 THE END

THANK YOU FOR READING MY FIRST P1HARMONY'S KEEHO ONE-SHOT FANFIC! :)

고마워요 여러분! (Thanks, Everyone!)

[rosiebyrnjun]

letters and white roses - 4. Surprise entrance

9/25/23 (Day Two)

Jinri sat quietly in her seat doodling on her notebook while waiting for the lesson to begin. Her best friend sitting beside her, engrossed in something that played on her phone.

Just then the door to the classroom opened and in walked Dean Jang along with a tall and really gorgeous guy, which for some odd reason she feels has seen before, but can’t quite remember where.

Dean Jang then cleared her throat before speaking, "Everyone, please listen up"

Jinri put her pen down and looked up to see what Dean Jang had to say. "Alright now that I have all of your attention, I want to introduce you all to Park Jisung, he will be attending Decelis Academy from now onward, please make sure you all make him feel welcome.”

Jinri watched as Dean Jang talked to Jisung quietly before signaling him towards where she and Wonyoung are. She also watched as he nervously looked around while walking, and then their eyes met. And Jinri knew who he was.

She quickly turned away and looked at Wonyoung who was still looking down at her phone typing a text to who seemed to be Sunghoon. “Wonyoung!” She softly called for her friends name.

Wonyoung looked up in confusion and looked at her friend in the eye. “Yeah?” Wonyoung replied quietly.

Jinri signaled with her eyes for her to look forward at the guy that was sitting down in front of them. Wonyoung tilted her head to the side, and then looked back at Jinri.

“Isn’t he… you know, park boy?” Wonyoung asked as quietly as she could.

Jinri nodded, glancing back at the boy sitting in front of them. And that’s when she noticed his hair, it was a beautiful navy blue color. And it suited him really well.

And then they heard Heeseung, talking to Jisung. And at the sound of Jisung’s voice, Jinri’s mouth dropped. His voice was just a pretty as him, a deep, but soothing and soft voice. A voice so pretty, so pretty that it sounded melodic.

“His voice is so… so, so pretty, how can one be so perfect,” Jinri whispered to Wonyoung in disbelief.

Wonyoung giggled softly at her friends antics. And then leaned forward to tap on Heeseung’s shoulder. “Introduce us your new friend,” Wonyoung smirked as she nudged Jinri’s shoulder.

Heeseung raised an eyebrow in confusion as to why Wonyoung was requesting that. But regardless, Heeseung still told Jisung to meet his two friends.

When Jisung turned around, Jinri’s eyes went wide for a split second and then looked away in nervousness.

𐬹 ۫ ۪ ° ও 🫧  !!

Jisung watched as her eyes went wide for a second and then as she looked away as if trying to avoid him. And at the action, his face fell a little, but regardless he smiled at the other girl.

“Jisung, this is Wonyoung and Jinri,” Heeseung introduced both girls and signaled to who’s who.

Wonyoung being the only one engaging in conversation said, “Sorry about Jinri, she’s a little shy”

Wonyoung then tapped Jinri’s shoulder and she looked up from the book she was doodling on. “Don’t be rude, say hi,” Wonyoung said and pointed at Jisung.

But before she could say ‘hi’ they were interrupted by the teacher, “Quiet down back there, we’re starting the lesson, Heeseung could you please show Jisung where we are in the text book?”

And both boys turned around to begin the lesson. They began the lesson and not even ten minutes in, Heeseung’s phone was going off nonstop.

And Jisung being the curios person he was he peaked when Heeseung looked down at his phone. And in the texts he saw a picture of Jinri, along with a heart. And his heart sank.

And then Heeseung turned around to look behind Jisung, where Jinri was sitting. And he was also able to see him smirk at her, and that made his stomach churn and twist.

He really has no chance. And it seems like she doesn’t like him.

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authors note — New part y’all!! Anyway next part is something I’ve been looking forward to writing ever since the beginning. So I will maybe have it out before Saturday, or on Saturday😋

©rosiebyrnjun

[jinnnri]

despite of everything — in some point;

i think it's getting better.

i can sing again in the kitchen while cooking or while washing the dirty plates.

dancing while taking a bath or in my bedroom.

listening to some music 'til i fall asleep.

watching some movies while eating snacks.

to feel the sun and rain, to feel being alive again.

writing what i can't express is my thing,

a therapy indeed.

n. letters for jo/jinri

[married-2-the-music]

Tell Me What To Do; A Letter To Jonghyun

If you’ve ever stumbled across one of my posts before, you’ll probably know me as a (maybe somewhat harsh) reviewer, who will always take the chance to rhapsodize about harmonizing and complain about Dynamite. But that’s not what this is; I did write a review about JH’s work but this is different; I want to start off not with my “credentials” but with a story. I’ve been a casual k-pop fan since early 2019 through BLACKPINK and a deeper fan since March of the year after, when I discovered Red Velvet.

In late November of 2020, during lockdown, I lost one of the people I loved most in the world. I was still a teenager (barely younger than he was when he debuted in SHINee), and I felt alone and isolated in that grief. Just three weeks later, on December 18th, three years ago now, I was scrolling on social media when I came across posts memorializing Jonghyun. I had heard his name mentioned, through Yeri of Red Velvet, but had never taken the time to really listen, and I finally did.

It gives me no joy to say that I discovered that he had made a plan; his last album, Poet | Artist was released just a month after he chose to leave the world, a final gift to the fans who had watched him grow up for both so long and not nearly long enough. When I looked closer, I saw people mourning, people celebrating, and most of all, people remembering. The k-pop world had just lost two more idols to suicide, Sulli (Choi Jinri, of f(x)), and Hara (Goo Hara, of KARA), and the messages surrounding mental health had never been stronger. It was this that finally got through to me, like a lightbulb going off, and I went, “Shit. I think I have depression.”

Now, I’m not going to credit him with saving my life because I have no idea what would’ve happened, but to this day, it’s Jonghyun’s voice that sings “tell me what to do” on the 6:45 alarm reminding me to take my anti-depressants. To this day, it’s his music that I turn to when I need comfort. In his memory, I try to continue what he did for me. I take December 18th as a day to be just a little bit of a better person—a better sister, a better daughter, and a better friend both to others and to myself—as much as I possibly can.

Jonghyun’s discography is only five albums, less than three hours long. The mere fact of this makes me sad. I wish I could tell a story with a happier ending, one that I finish by saying that he’s still here, still on his 27th collection of wonderful stories, still teasing the hell out of the band members who loved him more than anything, still being a dork who brightens everyone’s day with the same humor that made me laugh for the first time in a month the first time I came across it.

But, no matter how good of a writer I think I am, I can’t do that. All I can do is what all of us can do, which is remember who he was, respect the art he created, and continue the great advocacy he started. In this, I’m trying to do all three.

I can’t really put into words the feelings I have about this. Writing it has reminded me how grateful I am, not only that I found Jonghyun and his story, not only that I became a Shawol, but that I became a k-pop fan in general. After finding SHINee, I became a fan of Gfriend, Girls Generation, Seventeen, (G)I-DLE, Stray Kids, Sunmi, and, of course, Dreamcatcher, whose music is now a part of me too.

I know that I’ve probably made this way more about me than it should’ve been, but I’d like to end by saying this: I know that k-pop (and being a fan of it) are seen as something to mock, something only done by insecure, screeching teenage girls with too much free time on their hands who are obsessed with random men they’ve never met. And maybe that is who I was in 2019.

But to me now, and so many other people I know, it is stories like mine that are the real reason why we choose to dedicate so much of our precious free time to something that so many people deem childish. I’m a linguistics major, and I can tell you firsthand that music is one of very few things that can break a language barrier and reach people across the world. Had Jonghyun’s not reached me, I don’t know where I’d be. But I wouldn’t be here, and I definitely wouldn’t be a linguistics major. As he wrote in his book, “Even though we can’t communicate using the same language, we use music instead.”

Jonghyun broke boundaries in k-pop, with his openness, his self-producing, his prolific writing, his advocacy, and, of course, his incredible kindness. Both our community and the world as a whole were very lucky to have him for as long as we did, which still wasn’t nearly long enough. He changed the lives of so many people—he changed mine, without me even knowing the word “K-pop” at the time he passed away—and overall, he made the world just a little easier for everybody else, no matter how hard it was for himself. Whenever I have my bad days, I listen to his music; I ask him to tell me what to do. And I make myself a promise: that whatever I do, I will never make the decision that he did.

Whether he’s out there and whether he’s listening or not, I’d just like to say thank you, Jonghyun, for changing my life. You did so, so, well, and, in an odd way, I’m incredibly proud of you and all you managed to accomplish despite the kind of pain you went through. I hope that, even though we never got the chance to meet, you would be proud of me too.

And thank you, for taking the time to read this. I hope that whoever you are and whatever Jonghyun means to you, you find a little comfort in the fact that you are not alone in it. However you want to grieve (or not grieve) is valid. If you’ve never heard of our wonderful singer before, take this as a sign to take ten minutes to learn something about a truly beautiful human.

And if you have, take this as a reminder to take your medication, get some sleep, and check in with your friends. Though Jonghyun thought that what he did was the only way out, he was wrong, because I’ve been there. I’m still there, sometimes. But take this as reassurance that it’ll get better. It might not be better tomorrow and it might not be better for a while. But it will get better.

Happy holidays, folks. Take care of yourselves out there. Tschüss and Fröhliche Weihnachten!

[kurapike]

how my phone autocorrect writes some of my fave idols names

kibum: kibbutz

jongdae: jungle / chen: chen

chungha: Chunga / chanmi: change

hyoyeon: hyphen

yuri: yuri

luna: luna / sunyoung: surround

baekhyun: background

xiumin: xiii / minseok: mission

sunny: sunny / soonkyu: soon

taeyeon: taken

tiffany: tiffany

ahin: again

sulli: sulli / jinri: jinri

wendy: wendy / seungwan: sentían

jongin: join / kai: kai

junmyeon: junction / suho: sumo

rosé: rose / chaeyoung: changing / roseanne: roseanne

lisa: lisa / lalisa: lavish

[skz-iris]

relationships in skz

ie. iris’s relationship with each of her bandmates

CHAN - 2ris

Chan and Iris have known each other the longest out of anyone in the group, having trained for 7 years and 4 years respectively, and this is reflected in their friendship. They are the most affectionate with one another out of anyone in the group and arguably spend the most time together. Nothing is off limits to them, and they are quite literally inseparable. When spotted on camera with one another, they are frequently connected with one another. Hip pats as they pass, shoulder kisses, and back hugs are the most common between them. Their friendship mostly comprises of being there for one another and doing their best to help each other. Both, however, are workaholics and tend to forget what sleep is. More than once other members or friends walked into the recording studio to find the both of them passed out on a small couch or even a too-small armchair. They also unintentionally and intentionally write certain songs about each other.

MINHO - minris

Iris is not generally playful or snarky, but Minho seems to be the best at getting Iris playful and teasing out anyone in the group and any of Iris’s friends. While they do genuinely care about each other, with Minho essentially being her best friend within the group, they interact the most through blatant teasing and playful banter. Additionally, despite being their only female member, she is not excluded from his butt-tapping, though originally he kept it to taping/squeezing her hip. Even though they were both previously the main dancers, Iris will still revert to his leadership when it comes to the group choreography and has always respected his position as DANCERACHA's leader.

CHANGBIN - binris

Changbin, hilariously, was originally absolutely terrified of Iris upon originally meeting her. They were introduced to one another through Chan, who was incredibly entertained by Iris being confused about why Changbin seemed to avoid her. Only when they ran into each other at a convenience store late at night and Iris paid for his snacks did he start to loosen up around her. Since then, they’ve been good friends, with Changbin often being one of the more demanding members of Iris’s affection. Changbin can always count on Iris coming to the gym with him, and she can always count on him for cuddles and musical input.

HYUNJIN - jinris

Iris’s #1 model. Iris loves taking photos of her friends and pretty much anything she thinks is pretty, but most of all she adores taking photos of Hyunjin. He's also the cause behind the fandom nickname of "Auntie Iris" because of a time when Hyunjin equated her to the "fun aunt" trope. Hyunjin is also the most common offender of sleeping in Iris’s bed, between both dorms and now has a habit of crashing her apartment. While they were trainees Iris was quick to take him under wing when it became clear to her that Chan wanted the dancer on their team. He resisted at first, spouting a massive fight between the two that the members still bring up today, which was resolved when it became clear to Hyunjin that Iris wasn't belittling him or believing herself superior to him like he thought, she just actually cared about his wellbeing.

JISUNG - jiri/hanri

Jisung and Iris’s friendship is a strange one, that confuses practically everyone who meets them. Both had crushes on each other at different times while being trainees and yet they act like siblings. Both would probably kill JYP if the other asked. Many new STAYs incorrectly think that they’re secretly dating, and more than once they’ve been asked if they are. Iris fake-gagging is usually a good enough answer. Iris, while attentive to all the members, is exceptionally so with Jisung, often standing next to him during interviews and is always an arm or less away from him in case he needs it. While all of 3RACHA helped on her solo album, Jisung was the person she sought the most input from, being the only member that was graced with the full album before it was released, something he still holds over the others' heads.

FELIX - irix/lixri

While Iris would tell you that she doesn’t have a favourite, she would tell you that Felix is best to spend downtime with. The duo act like siblings, with Felix more than once stating that Iris is like an older sister to him. The two of them end up rooming together on tour quite a bit and are subject to many ‘soft moment’ compilations from stays. Iris literally never turns down Felix’s physical affection and he’s easily the person that she naps on the most so it's a win-win. Iris doesn't tend to be very talkative on camera, but she's often in the background of the guys antics, more often than not napping on Felix. Felix is also one of the most frequent visitors to her apartment, though that is due to being invited over for baking nights.

SEUNGMIN - siri/imin

The two "quiet and normal" members of Stray Kids, who both have the capacity to be the loudest when they feel like. Frequently just sitting in the background and observing compared to other members. Iris never shies away from reminding Seungmin how great he is and how much she loves him, and will never not be supporting his vocals. Despite being older than Chan, she has never been on the receiving end of his "old" jokes, leading others (especially STAY) to tease him for having a soft spot for the oldest. That doesn't mean he won't tease her for every other thing, which she takes in stride knowing that at the end of the day, they are still close friends.

JEONGIN - jeongri

Iris has a lot of children at this point, but Jeongin is the only member of Stray Kids who seems to qualify as one of Iris's children. He's on the receiving end of her "affectionate nagging" (making sure he's eating, if he's cold, has he drank enough water) and the member that Iris is the most protective over. All it takes is a text or call from him and she'll be by his side. On the flip side, Jeongin absolutely adores the eldest and seems to have developed the habit of mothering the eldest, to Iris and the other's amusement.

[p0pprince]

ɴᴀᴍᴇ: daniel   hwan.    [   hwan jaewon      /       korean name   ]   ꜱᴛᴀɢᴇ ɴᴀᴍᴇ:  DΔWN. ɢᴇɴᴅᴇʀ: cis-male. ᴅᴀᴛᴇ ᴏꜰ ʙɪʀᴛʜ:  december   18th. ᴩʟᴀᴄᴇ ᴏꜰ ʙɪʀᴛʜ:  queens     ,      new-york. ᴩᴀʀᴇɴᴛꜱ: park   jinri  [  mother      ,      deceased   ]    ,    hwan daesung  [    father  ,  deceased   ]     ,    park    sooyoung  [ an    aunt     who’s     raised    him    since    the     age    of    two     years     old          ,          alive   ]   ꜱɪʙʟɪɴɢꜱ  :  only    child.

ʜᴇɪɢʜᴛ: 6′1 ( 185  cm ) ᴡᴇɪɢʜᴛ: 148 lbs. ʙᴜɪʟᴅ: slender     /     toned  [    workouts    regularly     ] ʜᴀɪʀ ᴄᴏʟᴏʀ: dark     brown. ᴇyᴇ ᴄᴏʟᴏʀ: light    brown. ᴠᴏɪᴄᴇ-ᴄʟᴀɪᴍ:  the     weeknd.

ᴇᴅᴜᴄᴀᴛɪᴏɴ: the     juilliard     school. ꜱᴄʜᴏᴏʟ/ ᴍᴀᴊᴏʀ/ᴀʀᴇᴀ ᴏꜰ ꜱᴛᴜᴅy:     majored     in    dance       ,        new    york    city     ballet      [  where    daniel’s     ballet    career     took     off  ] . ᴄᴜʀʀᴇɴᴛ ᴏᴄᴄᴜᴩᴀᴛɪᴏɴ:  musician [      international    popstar        ,        labeled     ‘    the     prince     of     pop     ‘      by     the     world   ]   ᴩʀᴇᴠɪᴏᴜꜱ ᴊᴏʙꜱ:  professional     ballet     dancer. ᴍᴀʀɪᴛᴀʟ ꜱᴛᴀᴛᴜꜱ: verse    dependent. ᴏʀɪᴇɴᴛᴀᴛɪᴏɴ:    bisexual. [    open     ]

discovered    𝖆𝖈𝖈𝖎𝖉���𝖓𝖙𝖆𝖑𝖑𝖞     in     a    karaoke     bar        ,       a    video     of     him    singing     a    near     identical    rendition     of    rock     with     you.         the    voices    were     so    similar     to    that     of    the     late    and     great     michael     jackson         ,        the    video      soon    went    viral     and     attracted     many     music    labels    to    found     out    the    name    behind     the     unknown    face.          the     Internet     soon     figured    out    that     the     possible    protege    to    the    idol    was     an    up    and     coming     ballet    artist    who    occasionally    dabbled    his    hand     in    songwriting.  

 the     clips     were    only     30     seconds        ,         but    viewers    demanded    full     length    durations     of     his    songs.          the     entertainment     industry    knew    they     found     a    gem    in     daniel    ;     he    could    dance         ,          sing         ,        and write     his      own      music.           the      real      question     was      could      he      win      an      audience      over  ?   daniel      was     a     natural      ;      he     had     the      look       ,     the      charm        ,        the      way      he      articulated      his     words      to     make      even     the     cruelest     of     people      to      feel     flustered.           daniel     won     grammys         ,           topped      the      billboard      charts         ,         wherever      you      went     in      the      world     ,        you      could      hear      or      see     his     music. 

with     all      the      new      found     success     and     fame        ,         daniel     strived     to      remain     humble     within     the     depths     of     hollywood ; kind to all who's worked with him , takes the time to take photos with fans , and you can even see him taking the subway occasionally in new york.         outside      of     the      public      eye          ,           you     can      find      daniel     reading        ,        at     art      museums     and     galleries. he also dabbles in some cooking every now and then when there is free time in his schedule.

[blessyouhawkeye]

iu was gay as hell for writing peach about sulli but also if i had iu's talent i too would use it to write a song about sulli's beautiful smile and how much i wanted to marry her

[loverosierosie]

thinking about completely revamping jinri cause she’s boring me

[rosiebyrnjun]

Profiles (2)

LETTERS AND WHITE ROSES - PJS, SMAU

park jisung (02) ; first year sociology student. Would be in the same year as Chenle, but unfortunately is also part of the “wait listed” gang. A bunch of girls get the hots for him the second they see him. But he’s too quiet and shy to notice anyone. But while ignoring girls, he somehow ended up infatuated with a certain short haired girl.

mark lee (99) ; fourth year literature student, he is well known amongst the student body for being a really hard worker, and helping those around him. He tutored almost all of the boys and became friends with them during his tutoring sessions.

huang renjun (00) ; third year graphic design student. He’s well liked around campus, everyone knows him and adores him. Very artistic and is usually always in the art gallery working on a new art project. Short temper and is always scolding someone for something, even for something really petty.

lee jeno (00) ; third year criminal justice student, and the only guy that Jinri is close to out of the whole friend group. He is also the first to suspect that Jinri and Jisung have something for each other. Very patient and kind, everyone loves him.

lee donghyuck (00) ; fourth year philosophy student and also very cocky. If confidence was a person, Haechan would be it. Has scammed some poor college students by cat fishing as a sugar daddy. Gaslights people, but somehow very well liked, he’s just a really nice person when he isn’t scamming or gaslighting someone.

na jaemin (00) ; fourth year biomedical student, he’s an absolute sweetheart. He loves helping people, and always looks out for his friends. Very playful and also teases his friends a lot. Always calls his friends sexy, and you would think he’s into guys by the way he flirts with them.

zhong chenle (01) ; third year accounting student, he’s crazy rich. Haechan once asked him to be his sugar daddy? He obviously said no, but that moment became a funny moment in their friendship. He’s really sweet, but also brutally honest. Will shut down anyone’s delusions, and will always judge you if you do something stupid.

master list — profiles (1)

authors note - I wrote this during my photography class, so I’m sorry if this doesn’t look good, I was very rushed. Also I am currently in the process of writing the first part of the story. If the descriptions doesn’t match the members, please imagine them as described, after all this is FICTION.

©rosiebyrnjun

[kqbluemoon-moved]

  BREAK !

SUMMARY :: In which Jinri needs a break CHARACTERS :: Kang Jinri , Kim Hongjoong WORDS :: 1.2K WARNINGS :: none ( i’m pretty sure pls let me know if i missed something ! )

Jinri let out a frustrated sigh pushing herself away from the small desk. The girl rubbed a hand over her face, trying hard to wake herself up at the ungodly hour of night it was. It was late and all of the buttons and soundwaves were beginning to blur together right before Jinri’s eyes and no matter how much she wanted to finish the current song she was working, she knew that it was completely unrealistic that it would even happen.

The girl shook her head slightly, trying to wake herself up just a tiny bit, reaching forward to press the save button ( she had one too many slip ups for this to become second nature to her ) before she got up from her chair, stretching for the first time in hours.

Water. That was the only thing on her mind, her throat dry and scratchy from the hours she had been sitting working on the music. She picked up the long forgotten water bottle that was teetering on the edge of the desk before walking out of the room and making her way down the hallway.

The hallways at KQ were quiet, not a single sound could be heard from any of the studios, though that was understandable since most of the people in those rooms didn’t push themselves to stay up to ungodly hours just to finish one song. She sighed as she made her way over to the water fountain, filling the bottle up quickly and turning on her heel to go back to her very uncomfortable chair, with the hope that she could finish the song she was working on.

Jinri hummed under her breath, the small melody she had started filling her head when she noticed a light coming from the door right next to her. Hongjoong. Of course Hongjoong was still in his studio this late at night. She had been sharing a wall with the boy ever since they had each gotten their own studios, she knew that he stayed in the studio far too late ( not that she could really talk, though ).

She let out a sigh, shaking her head since she knew there was no way she could talk herself out of bugging the boy. Her feet moved practically on their own, bringing her over to the door, knocking on the door without so much as a second thought. Jinri paused, tucking her blonde hair behind her ears as she waited for the boy to respond.

Seconds passed before Jinri huffed, pushing open the door only to find Hongjoong sitting with his back turned to the door, headphones on top of his muffed up blue hair. The boy didn’t even move when Jinri slammed the door open, too engrossed in the now song he was creating to notice the girl crossing the room to poke him on the shoulder.

The boy jumped with just a small poke, turning to look at the intruder with a hand over his heart. His eyes fell on Jinri’s frame, letting out a sigh of relief at the sight of the girl.

“God, Jinri! You scared the shit out of me!” he sighed, sounding almost out of breath as he pulled the headphones off his head, music blaring out of them so loud that Jinri could almost make out every word.

“Maybe if you didn’t listen to your music at full volume you would have heard me knock on the door.”

He made a face, mumbling a high pitched version of her words as he turned back to his computer, pausing the loud music coming out of his head phones. He turned back to look at Jinri, looking at her with questioning eyes as he waited for a explanation as to why she was wondering into his studio so late at night.

Hongjoong raised an eyebrow, looking the girl up and down. “Is that my sweatshirt?”

Jinri looked down at the clothing in question. The light pink, oversized sweatshirt hung on her small frame, looking even bigger than it had looked on Hongjoong when he wore it. She remembered the night a few months ago where she had been sitting in this very studio and Hongjoong had passed her his sweatshirt without so much as a word. Jinri almost forgot that it was Hongjoong’s with the amount of times she had worn it in her freezing studio.

She looked back up at the boy, who still had a questioning look in his eyes. “No?”

“Sure,” he responded, rolling his eyes and turning back towards his computer. “So, what actually brings you here?”

Jinri just shrugged. “Can’t stand the thought of locking myself in my studio again.”

Hongjoong just hummed in response, nodding his head toward the lone chair in the corner of his studio and Jinri knew that he was inviting her to stay. She plodded over to the chair, rolling right next to Hongjoong’s own before she dropped into it, pulling her feet close to her chest.

“You wanna watch Avatar?” the boy asked quietly as Jinri watched him save his files shut off the music program he was working on. He turned and looked at the girl when she didn’t answer, his head tilted slightly as he waited for a response.

“Sure,” she nodded.

Without a word, Hongjoong pulled up the show and turned it on. The two sat in silence watching the cartoon flash before them. In most cases, Jinri thought, it would have been awkward, to be honest Jinri wasn’t sure she could sit silently with Jangmi for this long. This silence, however, wasn’t anywhere near awkward, just two people enjoying the silence together.

Jinri didn’t know when her and Hongjoong’s relationship took a turn. She vividly remembered first meeting the boy, both of them very new to the company and bright, young Hongjoong was far too perfect and hardworking for Jinri’s liking. Though, if Jinri thought about it, she’s pretty sure Hongjoong hasn’t changed too much and maybe, just maybe Jinri was the one that had grown up just a bit. 

Jinri and Hongjoong weren’t friends, at least that's what Jinri kept telling herself. Sure, they slept together, though that was just a way to keep their needs in check with all of their hectic schedules. Sleeping together meant nothing, she could sleep with someone she barely knew if she really wanted to, but there was still some sort of change between her and Hongjoong and she couldn't place her finger on in. Somewhere along the line something changed a bit and Jinri found it harder and harder to keep saying that they weren’t friends.

A small snore came from beside her, bringing her out of her thoughts. Hongjoong snored lightly beside her, his head back against his chair as the show played lightly in the background. Jinri found herself smiling just a bit, of course Hongjoong would fall asleep, the boy could fall asleep anywhere if given the chance. She was glad that the boy was finally getting some sleep, everyone knew he needed it, and she felt her heart flutter knowing that Hongjoong would be just as happy to see her get some rest.

[rkxeve]

under the mistletoe **

@rkjinwook || christmas day

it’s very late by the time they’ve finished eating dinner, socializing, and opening all the presents under the tree in the living room. jinri finally sits on the couch next to jinwook, a small glass of white wine in one hand while the other holds his in the small space just between their legs. she sips at her drink, feeling the sweet kick as she swallows and turning to look at her boyfriend. 

it isn’t their first christmas together, but it’s the first they’ve spent at her family’s place. he hadn’t met them by christmastime last year, as they had only been dating for almost five months when the holiday finally rolled around. it’s also been a very long few days -- a long few weeks, really, as their evaluation took place over the last couple of days, meaning that they didn’t have quite as long as usual to prepare for it. with several performances for everyone to learn, things have been hectic all month -- it feels like this moment is the first time in a long time that they’ve been able to slow down and just be together. 

jinri leans forward and sets her glass down on the coffee table before settling back into position, pulling her legs up onto the open couch beside her as she rests her head on jinwook’s shoulder. she pays attention to their hands, moving her fingers experimentally and watching his respond, hearing his breaths, steady and rhythmic, next to her head as she slips her eyes closed and sighs again, squeezing his hand again. “i love christmas,” she says into the silence between them. 

as the pause continues, she smiles to herself at the thoughts running through her head, of potential future christmases. of more specially-themed performances like the ones yesterday, of finally being old and successful enough as an idol to be public about her relationship and able to settle down at least a little bit. bringing herself out of her daydreams, she sighs contentedly again, shifting so that she’s more comfortable on jinwook’s shoulder. “i love christmas,” she repeats, “but i have to admit that i’m pretty jazzed that it’s finally over.”

[powerpuffs]

｡:゜☆｡ ･ﾟﾟ･｡. JINRI’S FINGERS TWIDDLED with the fabric of the jacket, lips pursed as she diverted her eyes away from the pretty pink clothing and back up to her companion. She knew she shouldn’t get it, it was impractical... but it was too pretty and too pink to let go. “Come on... don’t look at me like that... I know this is like... nine-hundred thousand won but... you have to let me get this one, please??”

[glriznet]

— GIRLS NET or GIRLS.COM have been promoting since 2018, they posses extreme talents and are all powerful and strong idols, though some have more powerful strengths, so here are the girls respective positions within the unit.

!! — ♡ — positions below! ->

— one. JINRI

Jinri is a very well respected vocalist, she is able to control her voice extremely well and knows many techniques to enhance her abilities, she has taken the main vocalist position the this unit.

— two. BARAM

Baram easily takes a leader position, and as she has proved her visuals are no joke but she isn’t the Offical visual, she is the center. Her extreme vocals impress many and she has also taken a well deserved lead vocalist position.

— three. DOYUN

Doyun has extreme dance skills, she’s sharp and pristine while still managing to have a very mesmerizing and milky style of dance, she takes a position as the groups Main dancer, she also takes the place of vocalist and sub-rapper.

— four. EVIE

Evie is easily one of the industry’s top rappers, she has a pretty singing voice and a fierce rap voice which many love, she writes all of her own raps for not only Lunaire but for Girls.com, she takes the place as Main rapper.

— five. EUNBI

Eunbi is yet again another talented rapper, she writes some of her raps, and with the help of Evie she writes almost all of her raps for Girls.com, she takes place as the lead rapper and a vocalist.

— six. MIGYUNG

Migyung has taken the spot as the groups visual, she is known in both Eunoia and Girls.com for having extreme visuals and a very pure and kind look to her. Migyung also has shown extremely beautiful vocals, she has the ability to hit many high and low notes, has shown her technique and insane vocal range, sos he also takes place as the main vocalist.

[sooibian]

Twist of Fate

image credits: @/exoxoxoid (twitter)

Pairing: Criminal Psychologist Kyungsoo x Crime Reporter OC (Miss Jung) ft. Minseok, Jongin

Description: Much against your wishes, you are back in your hometown to write about the murders of two young women - your only ticket out is the criminal psychologist who has been assisting Superintendent Kim Minseok with offender profiling.

Inspired by: Sharp Objects, The Fall and this moodboard by @is-that-baekhyuns-shirt​ 

Tags/Warnings: Serial killer AU - angst, grief, loss, murders, descriptions of anxiety, reactive and attentive immobility, asphyxiation, indicative of humiliation, explicit and graphic situations. Please do not read onward if any of this triggers or upsets you!!!!

Word count: +3.7k

A/N: ...i need to stop watching crime dramas. 

@leewalberg​ @his-mochi-cheeks​ @changshapatrol​ 

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When you left Cheongsong, you’d left for good. Or so you’d thought.

Ten years later what brought you back was not your family, for you had none left, but the murders of two young women that had left the quaint little town, surrounded by hills artistically contoured by apple orchards, shaken and distraught.

Everyone knew each other in Cheongsong which should have made Superintendent Kim Minseok’s job easier, but he was caught in an ugly snare of emotions which seemed to have clouded his critical thinking faculties. These were people he knew closely, people he’d grown up with. For him, pointing fingers at any of them meant carving permanent cracks in relationships that were stronger than most familial ties.

“Off the record, then”, you shoved your scratchpad back into your purse, turned off the recorder with a click and looked at Minseok square in the eyes, only to find the amiable, portly, catlike footballer you went to school with hidden in their farthest, darkest depths - reduced to a mere whimsy. The memories of the man who sat before you, now seemed abysmally distorted by the colossal burden of the unknown.

“It never is.” He chuckled darkly, took a measured sip of his bourbon and rolled it around his tongue before swallowing. “Never thought I’d see you here again.”

“That makes two of us. Write about killings in your hometown...it makes an impact because it’s personal, my boss says. We’re to...exploit the fact that nobody substantial is covering this.” You recited, eyes trained on the sliver of grime on the coaster.

Minseok clicked his tongue in disapproval and enquired, “Where have you been staying?” 

“A guest house by the Country Club.”

“So, not the Mansion”, he remarked callously.

Wounds that had barely healed came undone at the mention of your family home. Your throat tightened and you felt as if you had been shanked with a broken bottle in the stomach. The ill fated house reeked of misfortune, grief and loss. Its inhabitants had fallen one by one like lined up dominoes. This curse had forced you out to start a new life in Seoul.

“It’s still quite well kept, you know.” Minseok stated matter-of-factly.

Taking a deep swig of your bourbon, you explained earnestly as the burn of the liquid blazed down your throat, “Minseok, I want nothing more than to get out of here. So, please, give me something. A nugget.” 

“I don’t want to be quoted on this. Or misquoted. This is all new to me as well. Two bodies in three months? Can you imagine?” Overcome with emotion, he ran a hand through his hair and squeezed his eyes shut.

You put a comforting hand on his and offered in a voice laced with empathy, “Listen, from where I stand, all you need is a new line of inquiry and linking these two murders would give you one. I’ve seen the pictures.” 

You swiped through images of two dark haired women on your phone - Park Soojin and Seo Jinri. Both of them were in their late twenties. They lay in their own beds as if soundly asleep, modesty protected only by sheer white blankets, crimson tinted lips parted ever so slightly, freshly painted nails shining in dim lighting. And roses. There were a couple of red roses placed by their side as if in condolence. The blood curdling strangulation marks around their necks made them look like dreadfully divine paintings. 

“They could be sisters”, you observed with moist eyes, voice hushed to a whisper.

Contemplating on the images with pursed lips, Minseok responded with a tight nod and waved a 50,000 bill in the waitress’ general direction.

“Where’d you find these?” He asked in a threateningly calm voice, averting his eyes from your apparently disagreeable gaze.

“You know that’s confidential”, you replied, half-shrugging, nonchalant.

“I’ll drop you home”, he muttered, and shoved his wallet in the back pocket of his jeans. 

With a defeated sigh you grabbed your purse and phone and proceeded to follow Minseok out of the only bar in Cheongsong, “No, it’s fine. I could use a walk.”

Suddenly, he turned around, searched your eyes for a fleeting second before admitting begrudgingly, “Kim Jongin. He’s the prime suspect in the first case. The murder of Park Soojin.”  

Your legs froze. “What?! Why?”

You knew Kim Jongin, like you knew everyone else in this town. His family owned one of the biggest apple orchards in Cheongsong but Kim Jongin never manifested that in his behaviour. He was known to be friendly, kind, sensitive. Almost too sensitive some would say.

“That’s it. That’s your nugget. Here.” He handed you a business card bearing the name ‘Dr. Doh Kyungsoo’. “He’s been informally assisting with offender profiling. He’ll talk to you. Seems like he’ll talk to anyone, really. Now get in the car, it’s freezing out here.” 

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“Dr. Doh, thank you for taking the time to meet with me.”

Dr. Doh Kyungsoo’s home office was a detached unit with a separate entrance, distanced from his main residence. It was exactly the way you’d imagined a psychologist’s office to be - light coloured walls, comfortable chairs, soft pillows, insipid artwork. Neat and clean, fostering a sense of comfort for visitors. 

The Doh family had moved into Cheongsong shortly after you’d left for Seoul. Coming from old money in search of some peace and quiet, they invested in agricultural distribution, Cheongyang Pepper farms and assumed one of the more significant estates to live in while their only son, Doh Kyungsoo, was sent abroad to pursue higher education.   

“Please, call me Kyungsoo.” He took your hand in his, gave it a good, firm shake and gestured you to take the chair opposite his.

“I think ‘Dr. Doh’ should be fine”, you stated plainly and he acknowledged with a curt nod.

“What brings you here?” Asked Kyungsoo, holding your gaze, hands folded in his lap as he leaned back into his chair with a soft sigh. 

Grimacing, you waved your recorder at him, “They say you’re my ticket out of this godforsaken place.”

Minseok had helped you set up the meeting so you thought it proper to waive cumbersome introductions and niceties and Kyungsoo seemed very much in sync with your line of thought. 

He smiled, “I’m merely a bystander, Miss Jung, with slightly more informed opinions, maybe.”

“Informed opinions are what I’m here for, Dr. Doh.” You smiled back, “Superintendent Kim Minseok doesn’t seem to like you very much.”

“He’s a man shackled by bureaucracy and I’m a constant reminder of his team’s staggering incompetence, If I were him, I wouldn’t like me very much either.”

“Do you think there’s a link between the two murders?” 

He nods. “I’m fairly certain there is.” 

“But the police won’t look into it? Why is that?”

“Nobody likes a serial, Miss Jung. Besides, there’s no way the team could cope with the increased workload of linked inquiries. There are over a hundred statements, documents, officers’ reports waiting to be read and actioned. And the case of Park Soojin is a peculiar one.”

“Kim Jongin’s girlfriend? How so?”

“She was the ex-wife of a member of the parliament. This case does absolutely no favours to his image so he needs it solved immediately.” 

The word solved was treated to air quotes.

“So, they’ve ruled him out as a suspect?”

“His alibi checks out. They suspect Kim Jongin.”

“Why? Just because Kim Jongin fled immediately after her body was found? How did the police react to that?”

“Because Jongin fled, his brother was asked to provide DNA which turned out to be a familial match to the DNA gathered at the crime scene. But that does not necessarily mean it’s the killer’s DNA. Miss Park was in a relationship with him. There’s no surprise his semen was found in her esophagus.”

“Do you rule him out as a suspect then?”

“I prefer to reserve my comment.”

“Why do you think he fled?”

“Grief drives us to do irrational things, Miss Jung. Maybe he just needed a breather from everything that was going on here. Can’t say for sure.”

“You’re certain the perpetrator is male?”

“Yes, I am. The perpetrator is male and an athletic one at that. Probably in his late twenties or early thirties. While the strangulation marks may be different, the pathologists reports suggest petechial haemorrhage in both cases which means he strangled and released and then strangled again, over and over. He’s either a sadist, or his hand lacks strength. You try it, grab my wrist.”

He extended his arm towards you and you politely declined. So he wrapped his right hand over his left wrist and held firmly for a few moments. 

“Forty seconds. It’s amazing how quickly the hand tires!” He exclaimed as if awestruck. It was the maximum emotion the inscrutable Dr. Doh had displayed during the course of this interview.

“Victims of strangulation are known to make a mess of themselves. They defecate and / or urinate..”

“That is correct. The bodies were both found posed and clean. Which means he spent hours after, washing them and cleaning the sheets, even. There could be a religious angle to this. Washing away their sins...maybe his own, considering he probably gets into the bath with them.”

He pushed a cup of long gone cold tea towards you, but you shook your head. As a crime reporter, you thought you’d seen it all but the possibility of this being the work of a serial killer was a first for you. Also the fact that it was happening in the place you grew up in was starting to gnaw at you a little more aggressively than you’d liked. 

“I’m not going to lie, Dr. Doh, this gives me pause for concern. Do you think there is a sexual angle to these killings? As far as I know, the victims have shown no signs of any such abuse.”

Kyungsoo sipped on his tea and worried at his lower lip briefly before responding. “I believe he’s the kind to take pictures, momentos from the scene. They sustain him between killings.”

“And the roses? There were..”

“Three next to Park Soojin’s corpse and two next to Seo Jinri’s.”

“Does it indicate -”

“- a countdown? Perhaps.” He studied your face intently and offered you tea again. This time you complied and then proceeded with the interview.

“There was no sign of forced entry in either cases. The police think the perpetrator was known to the victims.”

“Maybe. Maybe not. You see, Miss Jung, the problem is that these cases were treated as self solvers from the get go and that’s where it all went wrong.”

His smile at the end of that sentence was one of finality, somehow indicative that you’d overstayed your welcome. To be able to milk him for all he was worth, you were going to let him loose for the time being.

Clicking your recorder off, you tilted your head to the side, smiled politely, “Well, thank you for your time, Dr. Doh.”

“It’s been a pleasure.” 

While he was walking you to the front door, you couldn’t help but ask, “Dr. Doh, if I may, were the victims known to each other? Were they friends? Acquaintances?”

“That’s for the police to investigate. They were both in their late twenties, highly qualified -  one was a solicitor the other a botanist, both tan with double eyelids, a little over 5 feet”, He took a step closer to you, instinctively you took an uncomfortable step back but found yourself trapped between him and the front door. His burgundy turtleneck smelt like warm, sweet gingerbread mixed with the contrastive redolence of something woody. He put his hand on the clip that held your hair in a bun, an elusive smile dancing on his lips as he allowed your hair to freely ripple down to your waist. “...and they both had dark, waist length hair”, he whispered into your ear, sending a frisson of fear down your spine.

You looked at him like a deer caught in the headlights as he slowly retracted. Eyes locked with yours and face contorted in a fierce frown, he concluded grimly, “You fit his profile.”

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Unable to sleep well that night, you went for an early morning run the next day and took a detour to Minseok’s residence. After discussing your findings with him, he offered you a close protection officer who’d moonlight to provide you security just until they’d made an arrest. Which meant you’d have one uniformed officer standing guard outside your guest house all day. You knew that they wouldn’t have done this for you if your family name wasn’t Jung.

“Kim Jongin’s back in town.” Relief seemed to have smoothened the lines on Minseok’s forehead and there was a boost of confidence in his voice when he broke the news to you.

“Are you planning to take him in?” you asked, sipping on coffee in Minseok’s kitchen while he made you some eggs.

He looked victorious and his brows shot up to his hairline as he explained animatedly, “We have enough evidence to put him on trial. I’ll get the warrant in two days.” 

“Hand to your heart, do you think he did it?”

“Yah, I’d never be able to make an arrest like that. If you promise not to quote me, I will say that -” 

He peered at you questioningly and you eased him with a reassuring nod, “Go on.”

“This looks like the work of an outsider.”

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Later that evening, you found Jongin seated alone at a table in the bar. Beaten, as if overcome with exhaustion he was crouched over a glass of scotch, a silent tear sliding down his cheek. You sat next to him and ordered him another drink.

“I killed her.” He stated simply, eyes trained on the empty glass in front of him. To see a man whose taste buds didn’t even agree with coffee back in the day downing hard liquor effortlessly, broke your heart.

“What?” you enquired, sparing no effort to lay the edge off of your voice.

“That evening, we’d had a huge argument. She- she’d been wanting to move out of here for the longest time and I never agreed. It was as if she knew!” Burying his face in his hands, he broke into full blown sobs. It was a while before he composed himself and spoke again, “Here, you have your story. Following a trivial spat, a small town chaebol kills his girlfriend.”

Shaking your head furiously in disagreement, you held him tightly by his shoulders, “This is your chance, Jongin. Speak your truth. Tell them that you didn’t do it. They’ll need to hear it from you!”

Jongin looked you in the eyes, his own brimming with tears, “I was twelve when my puppy died and I couldn’t seem to get over it. My mother gave me this book which said the only way men can get over grief is by showing indifference, I tried that with Soojin.”

Brows furrowed, you asked, “And?”

“It worked for an hour.” He chuckled darkly, “I loved her and I always will. At this point I just don’t care. I should’ve listened to her. Maybe I even deserve this. I see the way people look at me, I- I feel written off, ostracized. A goddamn parliamentarian wants me in. My truth won’t survive their might.” 

Letting out an exasperated sigh, you started to talk him out of potential suicide, “Jongin -” 

But he raised his forefinger to silence you. Trembling, he asked, “I just find myself wondering, can you die from a broken heart?”

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Kim Jongin had turned himself in.

Acquiescent to the slow wheels of justice, moderately satisfied with the first draft of your article, and concerned about your safety, your boss agreed to call you back to the Seoul office, at least until there were further developments in the case.

During the course of your stay in Cheongsong, you drove past the little street leading up to the Mansion several times but not once did you glance in its direction. Before your flight the next morning, you decided to pay the house a little visit to say a final goodbye. The first snow had laid a fleecy white blanket on the ceramic roof that gleamed from the light of the astral light of the night sky. You were flooded with memories of chasing butterflies in spring, climbing the only mango tree in town which still stood proud in your backyard, the stories of monsters and ghosts your parents would read to you in the blanket forts you’d build together… blissfully unaware that in a not so far future this was all your life would entail - monsters and ghosts.

The great oakwood front door turned on its hinges and a familiar aroma of caramel apple hotteok invited you in. They say every house has a peculiar smell and yours smelt of caramel apple hotteok, even after all this time. Your lips curled upward at the strangeness of your sentiments. The demons you tried so hard to escape all your life seemed like bad dreams and what was left of this place within you was just the good. The pure, unadulterated joy that was once your childhood. 

You proceeded to the kitchen to fetch yourself a cup of hot water, and that’s when you heard a knock on the front door. You ignored it at first thinking it was just the wind but the knock came again. Louder, this time. You left the kitchen to answer the door.

“Dr. Doh!” you exclaimed, utterly surprised to see him here at this hour.

“Miss Jung”, he smiled sheepishly, “I went by the guest house but the guard said you were at the Mansion. I just wanted to say goodbye, I’m leaving for Gyeonggi in the a.m.”

“Oh, yes, of course. Uh - I’m sorry, please, come in.” 

He followed you to the kitchen and said apologetically, “I hope I’m not imposing.”

“No, not at all! Never quite realised just how massive this house actually is - It was starting to eat me up. Gyeonggi, you say?”

“Oh, it’s a cursed life as an independent consultant, Miss Jung. I’m mostly living out of a suitcase..”

“I wish I could say differently. So your presence here was requested by Minseok’s team?” You asked as he took a seat at the kitchen table.

“No, I arrived just about a month before the first murder. My parents passed in a car crash three years ago. So I decided to sell the estate and the pepper farms.” He explained, taking a seat at the kitchen table.

“Would you like some tea? I brought some tea bags with me. I don’t know which tea it is, though.” You offered, mindlessly pouring hot water into two cups. 

“Sure” , he nodded.

“So did you?”

“What?”

“Manage to sell everything? And I’m sorry - uh about your parents.” 

You didn’t feel sorry. What you felt was an inexplicable weight in your chest rendering you breathless. Your heart started pounding erratically and your mind clouded over with a sense of impending doom as you went about the mundane task of making tea. 

“You seem a little out of it, Miss Jung. Is something bothering you?” He got off his chair and guided you to yours as your legs threatened to give away.

You sipped on some warm tea to steady yourself and said to Kyungsoo, “Oh, no it’s … It’s just this house. Maybe you were right, Dr. Doh. This isn’t a good time. I’m sorry but I might have to ask you to leave.”

Kyungsoo didn’t react. At all. He stood still, eyes fixed on your trembling frame.

“Park Soojin wasn’t his first kill”, he whispered.

“What?” you asked feebly, still trying to get a hold of yourself.

Kyungsoo sauntered over to the kitchen counter and brought you a glass of water. “Pay attention, Miss Jung. Park Soojin wasn’t his first kill. He was sloppy with the first one and it was only by a stroke of luck that he managed to get away. So he planned better with Soojin. Got even better with Jinri.”

Startled, you looked him in the eyes and he gave you a smile that raised goosebumps on your skin. 

Unperturbed Kyungsoo continued, pacing leisurely in the kitchen, a spine-chilling hint of exhilaration in his voice. “His criminal sophistication indicates that he understands criminology and knows police work. Unfortunately, Miss Jung,”, his voice dropped and you suddenly felt shackled to your seat. Squirming, but unable to make any big movement like reaching out for something that was heavy or sharp or both, “The tragedy is that he’s always believed he’s inferior to these women. But -” 

Kyungsoo levelled his face with yours and grinned with a glimmer of victory in his eyes, “for every tragedy, there is a happy ending.”

It took all you could muster to hold it together and dash for your purse to retrieve your cell phone. But you didn’t find it in there. 

“Is this what you’re looking for?” asked Kyungsoo, teasing as he pulled your phone from the inside pocket of his overcoat and handed it to you. 

You tried to turn it on to no avail. Voice as steady as could be, you said to him, “Please, please just leave!”

He took two easy steps towards you and you found yourself encased between his body and the wall. “Well then you shouldn’t have let me in! Tell me something, how could the close protection officer have given me your whereabouts if you dismissed him immediately after Jongin’s arrest? Haven’t you learnt since you were a little girl - always keep your guard up. Think before you speak. Did you think you were invincible?”

He took your hand in his and guided you back to the kitchen table. Eyes brimming tears, body trembling, and mind overcome with dread you followed him as if he were the pied piper. The familiar scent of gingerbread wafted up your nostrils making you nauseous.

As soon as you took a seat at the table, he put on his gloves, and lay a bottle of red nail polish and a red rose before you.

“Just think about how you can be with them again, Miss Jung. And don’t worry...I’ll be gentle.”

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A/N: YES! you’re absolutely right! i just wanted to write turtleneck murderer Soo -_-

[blessyouhawkeye]

happy birthday jinri. i miss you and your smile every day, peach. #ourpeachsulliday