#jedibetrayed

[jedibetrayed]

angels    burn    brightly    still,    though    the    brightest    fall.

independent,    highly    -    selective,    headcanon    heavy    anakin    skywalker    of    lucasfilms    star    wars    series.    penned    by    ziggy.    established    2018(?),    reestablished    2023.    

[mutatiio]

what colour does your love feel like??

deep staining red. ripped out confessions, warm velvety whispers and a heart like an open wound. your love flows out like dripping blood, beautiful, flawed and twisted. it's gut wrenching, the type of painfully dramatic feeling that makes you clutch your chest, picturing dramatic monologues about love and loving and big screen over the top scenes of sobbing into your pillow until you fall asleep. it rips out of you, clawing it's way up your throat more so than tumbling out. sticky words that just need to be let out, feelings so big they don't fit inside you. your love isn't easy, it's a true bloody mess, dripping and staining everything it touches in a desperate attempt to be seen, to be felt, to be loved back. and you, you love so hard, so deeply, so much for someone who carries all that pain. atlas holding up the world, how are you? is your love still flowing? is your heart still open? still pumping and bleeding and dripping with blood and tears? still painting your beautiful pictures and writing your love letters in deeply personal red ink? because i see them, i read them, i love them and you, you, you, you. clench your chest, scream your love, cry it out. spill your words of loving, keep your heart beating, keep your love coming and paint the entire world red with it. make it in your image, keep going, it's okay. maybe one day the whole world can be red and loved and beautiful just like you.

tagged by: @misfittcd ( thank yoooooooou ) tagging: @rottingkiss / @debelltio / @alootus / @mayxthexforce ( jyl or johhar?? ) / @jeditrash / @jedibetray / @acharnemcnt

[regaldiplomat]

# regaldiplomat : an independent , mutually exclusive rp blog for padmé amidala naberrie of the star wars franchise . headcanon based & highly canon divergent . est . 2 january 2023 . penned by reed . rules beneath the cut . exclusive with @h1ghground & @jedibetrayed.

001. PORTRAYAL / ACTIVITY; Portrayals on this blog will vary! Any muse that has a book series will likely be book based rather than movie based. Muses are all completely up to my own interpretation and headcanons! This blog is also likely to be low activity as it is not my main blog, but I’m excited either way!

002. REPLIES; I’m usually good at replying, but sometimes ( most of the time ) I’m very slow and I’m very sorry about that. If I don’t reply for a while, you can totally feel free to let me know if you want me to reply and I’ll see what I can do!

003. SHIPS; I ship based on chemistry and am open to most things. Please don’t try to force any ships.

004. NSFW; Mun is of age, though I’m typically not comfortable with NSFW threads unless I’m writing with someone I feel comfortable with/have talked with out of character. Any NSFW threads or content will be tagged appropriately. Same goes for any triggering or mature content I may post. If there’s ANYTHING you need tagged that I am not currently tagging, please don’t hesitate to let me know!

005. EXCLUSIVITY / MAINS; I’m not really a fan of being exclusive to certain portrayals of characters. I really don’t like to limit my interactions in that way. That being said, do participate in mains. I really do love having a close connection with the people I write and create with.

006. ICONS; Any icons you see me using were made by me, so please don’t use or claim them as your own. PSD currently being used is an edited version of THIS ONE by venuscommissions! Icon border is the third border from THIS PACK by somresources!

007. FOLLOWING; Right off the bat, I’m just going to say, I might not be following back everyone who follows me. It’s nothing personal, I promise. I have previously had some not so great experiences in a few fandoms across the board, so I may be a bit hesitant to follow back any blogs within those fandoms. Again, it’s absolutely nothing personal and is for my own comfort, and I implore you to do the same! Also! I am duplicate friendly!

008. DRAMA; I do not and will not participate in drama of any kind. I’m old and tired and I’ve been around this neck of the woods far too long. I love some open communication and talking through our issues. Let’s all just be nice pls.

009. CONTACT; This isn’t a rule, but I have Discord and will give my user out to mutuals upon request! I’m also easily available through tumblr’s IM feature, and through my ask box. Please do understand that I can be a bit slow at replying to people at times. However, this isn’t because I don’t like you, or don’t want to talk to you! I’m just easily burnt out at times, and I don’t like to half ass plotting or conversation.

INTRODUCTION

Hi! My name is Reed, I am currently 25 years old and I reside in the CST timezone! I use she / her pronouns.Just a heads up, I am a particularly slow writer and likely won’t be posting many starter calls, so the best ways to interact with me will be plotting via IMs or discord, as well as sending memes! This blog is also 18+ and I will not be interacting with minors under any circumstances. Thank you for understanding! I am so looking forward to interacting with you all!

[negot1ator-arc]

#negot1ator — independent, private writing blog for general obi wan kenobi of the star wars series.  mastered by cat  ( they/them, twenty-six, eastern standard ). resurrected january 2nd, 2023. sideblog to @yellowbrckrd.  please read the guidelines on the main before interacting. exclusive with @regaldiplomat and @jedibetrayed

01. i've been writing obi wan for a very long time, long before my tumblr days. my interpretation of obi wan is largely based off of the clone wars: animated series (2008). this is where his main verse is set. obviously i still use ewan mcgregor as his primary face claim. my obi wan is also very headcanon based and particular to me. please respect this.

02. this blog is incredibly low activity. i'm in school and work full-time so roleplaying isn't exactly a priority. i'm also lazy, so don't expect stellar formatting or spectacular graphics/icons/so forth.

03. super selective with shipping but not entirely off the table. obi wan isn't terribly susceptible to attachments in his main verse given his dedication to the jedi code, but exceptions can and will obviously be made depending.

04. exclusive with ziggy's anakin and reed's padme. urls are tagged above for your convenience. this will not change.

05. no ooc drama, discourse, transphobia, homophobia, racism, sexism, or any -ism that targets or ostracizes others. any indications of this behavior will swiftly be met with a hard block.

other than that, my name is cat. i'm an nb, chaotic good leo from florida. i have a discord; feel free to request!

[deadlymarch]

* ROLEPLAY POSITIVITY / POST 01 !    happy  roleplay  positivity  week / month / day / idfk . while  i  am  not  aware  when  this  commenced  and  when  it  shall end  [  though  i  am  a  believer  it  should  never  end  ]   i  thought  i  would  toss  my  two  cents  into  the  mix . and  not  only  that ,  but  it  has  been  officially  three  months as  of  MARCH  27TH   that  i  have  had  this  account  !!  and  not  only  that ,  i  am  pretty  close  to  700  FOLLOWERS  !!  lots  of  excitement .  

anyways .  i’d  like  to  take  some  time  to  talk  about  some  amazing  people  in  my  life .  over  the  last  few  months ,  i  have  grown  immensely  close  to  a  specific  group  that  i  would  never  trade  for  the  world .  they  truly  mean  everything  to  me .  the  fact  that  i  get  to  meet  some  of  them  in  just  three  months  is  amazing  and  i  am  beyond  thankful .  this  is  in  NO  particular  order .  so  shut  up .  

@bloodofvader​ : renee .  you  are  literally  are  one  of  my  closest  friends  and  i  would  die  for  you .  your  friendship  means  everything  to  me .  our  bond  is  something  i  am  truly  blessed  for .  you  are  such  a  ray  of  sunshine .  you  are  so  talented .  your  characterization  is  astounding .  youre  astounding .  youre  always  there  for  me .  you  have  such  passion  and  it  transfers  into  your  writing .  i  am  beyond  proud  of  you  !!  i  mean ,  you  just  signed  up  for  your  last  college  class  !!  what  the  fuck  !!  im  so  proud  of  you  !!  you  are  such  an  incredible  young  woman  and  i  am  truly  thankful  for  you .  thank  you  for  being  you .  i  love  you .  

@forcedpower​ : lucy .  you  . . .  you  are  so  beyond  talented .  you  dont  give  yourself  enough  credit  for  your  creations  and  edits .  you  taught  me  so  much  about  photoshop  and  i  am  so  thankful  for  that .  hell ,  thats  how  we  became  friends  !! i  normally  am  never  comfortable  with  voice chatting / calling  others  when  i  havent  talked  to  them  long . . .  but  you  were  so  easy  to  talk  to  and  you  were  so  helpful  !!  i  know  you’ve  had  your  hardships  on  this  site . . . but  i  am  so  grateful  that  you  found  the  courage  to  come  back . you  are  one  of  my  closest  friends ,  lucy .  and  while  you  call   yourself  the  devil ,  you  are  nothing  but  an  angel  to  me .  thank  you  for  sharing  your  love  and  kindness  with  me .  thank  you  for  being  my  friend .  thank  you for  being  you .  snoot  snoot .  i  love  you .  

@forcebound : kat .  your  alias  suits  you .  starry .  because  you  light  up  the  sky  with  your  smile .  you  are  so  generous . . .  so  generous .  you  have  such  a  kind  heart .  you  are  so  patient .  talented .  so  fucking  talented .  god .  it  kills  me  that  we’re  33  hours  apart . . .  but  ya  know  what  ??  we’re  still  close  as  shit . . .  and  id  never  trade  that  for  anything .  im  so  proud  of  you  for  going  back  to  school  and  taking  that  first  step  towards  a  bright  future  that  i  know  youll reach .  reach  for  the  stars ,  huh ??  you  are  beautiful  and  kind  and  funny .  thank  you  for  being  you .  i  love  you .  

@hechose :  ray .  fuck  we  instantly  clicked .  literally  when  we  first  started  talking   u  kept  saying  hold  my  hand  and  i  literally  would  die  each  time  .  you  are  such  a  precious  soul . . . nd  lets  be  real ,  sheri  adopted  u  so  we’re  like  sisters Uh Oh .  you  have  such  an empowering  attitude . . .  you  want  to  make  change  in  this  world .  you  want  to  kick  ass  and  make  this  place  better  than  you  found  it .  like  a  fuckin girl  scout  man .  and  thats  inspiring .  you  are  so  fucking  funny . . .  and  really ??  you  read  the  shit  outta  that  fanfic .  i  support  you  10000000%  to  become  a  producer  for  films .  like  you  said ,  one  day  we’ll  be  each other’s  date  to  the  oscars .  you  are  absolutely  gorgeous .  thank  you  for  being  you .  i  love  you .  

@fawnbuns : cynthia .  you  stink .  calling  me  out  ya  Nasty .  im  kidding  omg  i  love  you .  you  literally  are  gorgeous ,  both  inside  and  out .  you  are  so  talented  !!  i  mean ,  bro  ??  you  capture  rey  so  well  .  it  makes  me  a  happy  camper .  you  have  such  a  kind  and  loving  spirit ,  babe .  even  tho  u  like  the  color  shit  brown .  probs  why  you  stink .  but  really . . .  i  love  you  so  much .  you  are  so  funny  with  ur  damn  jar  jar  binks  bullshit  and  jabba  the  slut .  even  though  you  can  drive  me  nuts  with  that ,  i  still  am  bawling  with  laughter .  you  have  such  a  captivating  personality .  you  just  light   up  a  room  the  minute  you  say  hi .  you  are  so  lovely  and  kind  and  awe inspiring .  thank  you  for  being  you .  i  love  you .  

@jedibetrayed / @horrcrshow : emma .  ok  literally . . . we  slept  on  such  an  amazing  friendship  for  so  long  and  honestly ?? thats  nasty .  shit  ok  so .  you  are  !!  so  cute .  you  are  such  a  generous  and  loving  person .  youre  so  funny .  and  damn ,  you  write  so  wonderfully .  your  ability  to  prose  the  shit  outta  things  is  so  cool . . . and  i  definitely  can  find  inspiration  from  your  work .  you  are  so  wonderful  and  are  always  there  for  your  friends .  its  amazing .  you  have  such  a  hopeful  personality  and  its  just . . .  wonderful .  god ,  youre  wonderful .  you  care  so  much  about  people  and  its  truly  inspiring ,  babe .  you  inspire  me .  god .  ok  thank  you  for  being  you .  i  love  you .  

@alderess : sunny .  youre  the  newest  in  the  group ,  but  honestly  ??  you  fit  right  in .  your  alias  fits  you  so  well . . . youre  literally  the  personification  of  sunshine .  you  care  so  much  about  people  and  you  are  so  kind and  its  . .  beautiful .  theres  not  enough  in  this  world .  and  not  only  that  ??  but  you  capture  leia  so  well !!  i  mean  damn  !!  and  your  writing  is  beautiful .  absolutely  beautiful .  just  like  you  !! and  an added  bonus  ??  you  like  theater .  i  mean , ,,  hello  ??  thats  amazing .  youre  amazing  !!  thank  you  for  being  you .  i  love  you .  

@chromedwill : leo .  man  you  are  generous  as  fuck .  how  can  you  be  letting  all  of  us  stay  at  ur  place  ??  ur  nuts .  i  love you .  and  im  so  proud  of  you  !! i  love  hearing  about  roller  derby  and  how  you  kick  absolute  ass !!  im  amazed  !!  and  im  so  ready  to  see  you  in  action  in  june  !!  thats  gonna  be  so  cool .  youre  so  cool .  and  youre  such  a  strong  person .  and  im  so , so , so  proud  of  you .  you  are  beautiful  and  funny  as  hell .  and  bitch  the  way  you  write  phasma  ??  amazing .  absolutely  amazing .  youre  amazing .  shit .  tbh   you  inspire  me  to  want  to  work  out  again  tbh ??  maybe  that  sounds  weird  but ,,,  the  way  you  kick  absolute  ass ??  its  inspiring  dude .  and  i  love  it .  thank  you  for  being  you .  i  love  you .  

this  is  quite  a  long  post .  and  tbh  ??  i  didnt  say  all  that  i  wanted  about  my  friends .  i  could  write  a  novel  each  about  them .  and  im  so  blessed  for  that .  im  so  blessed  for  them .  these  people  mean  so  much  to  me . . .  and  i  just  want  to  thank  them  for  not  giving  up  on  me .  for  always  being  there .  for  always  being  kind  and  loving .  im  truly ,  truly  blessed  for  them .  thank  you .  

[amidalc]

“These cravings of yours are getting out of hand…”

PREGNANCY STARTERS » ACCEPTING

@jedibetrayed​

                    “   WHAT   ???         YOU’RE   ONLY   TELLING   ME   THIS   NOW   ??? “           she places the pizza back in the carton,           leans back in her chair angelic features altering into an expression of absolute horror.         sola had always describes pregnancy as something beautiful,        one of the most blissful times of her life   ——   she had been glowing too when carrying with ryoo && pooja,         carrying herself with   A   DEMEANOUR   as if she had been walking on clouds…          as if everything was perfect.           it was only natural for padmé to expect to end up like her sister…           to experience pregnancy in a similar manner.

                                                         BOY   WAS   SHE   WRONG 

                       pregnancy was a nightmare most day,         there was   NO   OTHER   way to put it.          because of her petite size   &&   the fact that she wasn’t carrying one   ——   but two,          babies   ;;   her pregnancy was effecting her in every way   ——   physically   &&   emotionally.         she was in constant pain,         at least one part of her body would always ache,           every part of her had   SWELLED,          making her feel hideous   &&   her emotions…          

                       god the emotions,         one day she’d be in the most gleeful   &&   best of moods   (   like she had been yesterday   )   but then the next she would be in a foul mood   &&   anger triggered by every little thing,          or she’d be far more sensitive than she usually was   &&   burst into tears by the most harmless of comments   ——   AS   SHE   WAS   NOW. 

                       she was being ridiculous,         padmé even   KNEW   THIS   in the back of her mind yet she couldn’t help but to burst into tears pushing the box away.         it wasn’t anakin’s fault,          not in the slightest.        in fact had padmé seen herself now she would laughed at herself for being such an   EMOTIONAL   MESS   because of anakin’s harmless comment.          “   admit it,          you think   I’M   HIDEOUS   &&   shouldn’t eat anymore,         right   ???          i mean nothing fits.   “         she sniffed,         mouth wobbling   &&   tears continuously streaming down her face   &&   smudging her make up.         she takes a deep breath,       wiping her face.        

                       “   i’m sorry you’re engaged to the silliest   &&   most hideous woman alive,          ani.   “           she sniffed,        more tears trickle down her face as she looked away from his gaze.         “   ——   my feet were hurting all day when you were at first   &&   i was sad,           but i didn’t tell you,          because i didn’t want to disrupt you while you were working…          &&   i’m sorry,         you are wonderful   &&   i’m a mess,          &&   you deserve   A   PREGNANT   GIRLFRIENDLESS   VACATION.   “

[astracollectio]

SOCIAL MEDIA POSTS » SOKA && ANI’S MODERN ADVENTURES

@jedibetrayed

[chromedwill-blog]

            ❛ is this a GAME. ❜ very few ( none ) have the right amount of stupidity to step into her private quarters unrequested, much less try and paint her a fool. her blaster is tucked into her palm; it took a single shot to disprove the theory that an intruder had bypassed her security so what stands in front of her is an... an anomaly.      ( @jedibetrayed )

[jedibetrayed]

#    jedibetrayed    .        an    independent    ,    mutually    exclusive    rp    blog    for    anakin    skywalker    of    the    the    lucasfilms,    star    wars    franchise    .    highly    -    headcanon    based    .    est.    2018,    revamped    january    2023.    felled    by    ziggy.    exclusive    with   @negot1ator & @regaldiplomat.        rules    beneath    cut.    

01. my portrayal of anakin is based on . . . years writing the character, both on and off tumblr. i do not excuse his actions, i do not expect people to like him depending on timeline. however, i do believe that the series did him a disservice often times, and as such consider myself somewhat canon divergent and headcanon based.

this blog will be low activity.

02. i'm slow, i'm kinda lazy, and this is not my only blog. i write for fun and try to be as timely as possible, but i am married and work a full time job on top of trying to maintain a social life so i will not be on tumblr 24/7. i do not have the app and i likely will not in the future.

03. i am incredibly selective about shipping with anakin given his . . . entire personality.

04. it is unlikely to occur, but regardless, nsfw content will always be tagged as such. i do not often write it, and if i do it is only with writers that i am very friendly with outside of our characters. it will be tagged with a multitude of nsfw warnings.

05. due to discomfort on my end and my own relationships with writers, i do practice exclusives for characters important to anakin's life. i am exclusive to reed's padme, and cat's obi-wan.

06. all graphics on this blog are made by myself, with my own creations unless otherwise states.

008. DRAMA; I do not and will not participate in drama of any kind. I’m old and tired and I’ve been around this neck of the woods far too long. I love some open communication and talking through our issues. Let’s all just be nice pls.009. CONTACT; This isn’t a rule, but I have Discord and will give my user out to mutuals upon request! I’m also easily available through tumblr’s IM feature, and through my ask box. Please do understand that I can be a bit slow at replying to people at times. However, this isn’t because I don’t like you, or don’t want to talk to you! I’m just easily burnt out at times, and I don’t like to half ass plotting or conversation.

INTRODUCTION

hello! please do not feel intimidated by my rules, i am very nice i promise. my name is ziggy, i am 23 years old and i live in the CST timezone. i prefer to use she / they pronouns and i am a goofy, goofy goober once you get to know me. this blog is and always will be 18+ and i will not be interacting with minors in any way. thank you for reading my rules and hope u have a good day.

[amidalc]

💋 !!!! empire / sith au !!!!!!

SEND 💋 TO SMOOCH PAD » ACCEPTING 

@jedibetrayed 

                     ”   WHAT’S   WRONG,          ANI   ???   “          they’ve now left the gala,          together of course,          back to padmé’s apartment after an entire night having to hide the   TRUE   NATURE   of their relationship   (   which they   FAILED   at,          seeing as chancellor amidala was never seen out in public without lord vader by her side   ).          now they could relax,          now they could be padmé   &&   ani,          not chancellor amidala   &&   lord vader   ——   though even when alone,          anakin still had that look of   ANGUISH   etched upon his handsome face.          “   don’t shut me out   ——   tell me what’s wrong   ???   “          she asks,          cupping his cheeks,          leaning forwards to press   SOFT   KISSES   all over his face   ;;   eyelids,          cheeks,         nose,          chin,          forehead,          temple   &&   of course his lips.

                      it starts off with sweet chaste kisses,         softly presses repeatedly on his lips,         but it’s NOT ENOUGH —— he still looks strained, as if he needs more.          padmé moves,          seats her self upon his lap.         hands now slide up the sides of his face into his hair,          her fingers   GENTLY   tugging onto those fair locks as she knew he liked,          deepening their kiss.          she is now pressed against him,          her chest against his   &&   kisses him in an almost   DESPERATE   manner   ——   only stopping when needing to catch her breath,          only to find him   NOW   SMILING   AT   HER

[amidalc]

MY EDITS » PART THIRTY-SIX 

Empire Au ( requested by @jedibetrayed​ )

“  you  can't  love  someone  unless  you  love  yourself  first.  BULLSHIT.  i  have  never  loved  myself.  but  you,  oh  god,  i  loved  you  SO  MUCH  i  forgot  what  hating  myself  felt  like. “

[amidalc]

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@jedibetrayed 

kjhg ZIGGY YOU ARE AN ANGEL ??? ILYSM ??? LET ME TELL YOU THAT I AM IN AWE OF EVERY CHARACTER YOU WRITE, PARTICULARLY ANI BC I’M BIASED && THAT’S WHO I’VE WRITTEN WITH. HONESTLY I AM STILL SHOOKETH THAT SOMEONE AS AMAZING && TALENTED && BRILLIANT LIKE YOU WOULD WANNA WRITE WITH ME ??? && I LOVE YOU SO MUCH, && I LOVE OUR CUDDLY TOL X SMOL BABIES && EVERY THREAD && AU… EVEN THO WE HAVE LIKE 10000 AUS ??? ♥♥♥ YOU ARE THE LOML && ILYSM && I’M SO GRATEFUL YOU EXIST ???

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‘ i can give you your wings back & i can show you to fly once more, if you only believe in me. ’

GROWLING SUGGESTIONS » NOT ACCEPTING

@jedibetrayed​

                                                  SHE   CANNOT   LOOK   HIM   IN   THE   EYE   after he lets those words out. suspects that it was no easy task to show this side of himself,           to open up   &&   offer her comfort.          but she still cannot bear to look at him   ——   most says she cannot bear   TO   SO   MUCH   as speak to him   (   &&   oh shiraya,             how it made the former senator drown in both guilt   &&   despair   ).           she misses him,          misses his love,            his touch,             his embrace,            his smile   ——   ALL   OF   HIM   ——   but padmé’s not ready to let him in again,            not now.          wounds of the events on mustafar are far too fresh. 

                                                  doe-brown eyes   WELL   UP   with fresh tears   &&   she tilts her head,           long locks covering half of her angelic face like a dark curtain.             part of fears him,          is far too traumatised by the events on mustafar   ——   yet at the same time part of her   MISSES   HIM   more than anything.           anakin,           her ani.            she is shaking,             weeping quietly   ;;   wants to get up   &&   leave the room,           yet at the same time wants to run into his arms.          she doesn’t know what to do…           so padmé stays put.  

                                                  “   i…           i c-can’t,           my lord.   “           she says,           breaking her silence   (   not just now,          she hadn’t spoken to him for days   ),   still   UNABLE   to use his name.          soft hands clench onto the skirts of her silk gown as her heart hammers against her chest   ——   it’s too much,          too many emotions to deal with.           “   ——   what if you give me new wings,           ONLY   TO   TEAR   THEM   APART   AGAIN   ???   “