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Devastating things about the earth girl series that you don't realize on the first read through or until after you read the companion novels:

Marack never once got to meet Jarra in person

The first time Riak ever sees his granddaughter is at his wife's honour ceremony and he can't even tell her that he's her grandfather

The first time Dragon ever talks to Jarra is when he's telling her about her parents' death (while dealing with his own grief about his cousin and cousin-in-law)

Riak loses his son and his daughter-in-law, and then immediately afterwards gets caught on the solar arrays during the carrington event and has to crash land solar 5

Riak finds out that his 17 year old granddaughter had gotten hurt rescuing him!

Jaxon has to deal with the fact that because of him, his parents never got to meet their youngest daughter, and Jarra will never know what it's like to have parents

The only reason Riak was the CO of the earth solar arrays was that he was holding the position for his son. He was about to retire! And then in the same year he lost his son, almost died, and then suddenly had to be the commanding officer of Alien Contact Programme

Drago gets to befriend Jarra, but he can't even tell his best friend that he met her

Riak went for a rejuvenation cycle and came back to find out that one of his closest friends had let his youngest grandchild go through a medical procedure that had a not insignificant chance of killing her. In the same year that he'd already lost his son.

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Jarra and Jaxon and Gemelle

i love when sibling characters are fucked up from the same event but in opposite ways

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for drago, the hardest part about the alien contact programme isn't keeping the aliens a secret from everyone

the hardest part is not being able to tell jaxon that he got to meet jarra

hey jaxon, did you know jarra has her pilot's license? you should've seen the way her face lit up when she sat in my fighter for the first time

hey jaxon, did you know she has your laugh? the one you've always been so self-conscious about. it lights up her whole face and it's the most beautiful thing i've ever seen.

hey jaxon, do you know how smart she is? all those famous historians gathered together, so self-important, so arrogant, so sure in their expertise. and yet, out of all of them, your baby sister was the one that came up with the idea of evacuating the citizens of earth to Ark.

hey jaxon. she's so, so very lonely. she grew up feeling abandoned and unloved and the anger is eating her up inside. and no matter how many times i tell her, she doesn't think the clan could ever want her. she won't believe how desperately we've been yearning for her all these years. hey jaxon, i know you still blame yourself for that, but i need you to forget about that when you meet her, okay? jaxon, you have to show her that she's one of us, and if she can find it in her heart to forgive us, we promise to never let her go again.

....hey jaxon. i met your baby sister, and she's everything we ever dreamed she'd be.

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Jarra, in the main Earth Girl trilogy: I hate my parents for abandoning me at birth, I don't need them in my life, there's no way the Tell clan wants me to join them, they'll take any chance they can get to be rid of me

Jaxon in the Drago series: I will stand in this transit hub for days on end, sleeping only when my body physically forces me to, just on the off chance that Jarra comes through on a school trip and I can find her and bring her home, because everyone in our clan is being eaten alive by guilt at the thought of one of our own growing up alone and unloved. i've never seen her before, but i know that i'll recognize her when i see her.

Gemelle in the Drago series: I will try over and over and over and over again, year after year after year, to hack into the Hospital Earth master genealogy computer to try and find Jarra's new identity and where she lives so we can bring her back home to us

Drago in the Drago series: we have to fix the earth solar arrays because if Earth goes power dark during a solar storm, jarra's going to suffer. what if she's in europe and she has to deal with blizzards and snow without any heating? what if she's in australia and she has to deal with the blistering heat without any air conditioning? i need to learn about more kinds of earth foods and earth culture so that i can know how jarra's living for when i meet her one day. i need to watch all these vids so i can know how she's being treated by hospital earth. hospital earth is my mortal enemy for how they've torn my family apart, one day i'll make them pay. jarra's on the same planet as me right now. jarra might be watching the same news channel as me right now. i can't believe some bigoted norm is sabotaging the earth solar arrays to make the citizens of earth suffer, my baby cousin doesn't deserve this

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Thinking about the first time jarra and jaxon get to spend some quality time together and jarra just spends the whole time infodumping about history

She stops at one point, a little self conscious after all the time her friends from next step had rolled their eyes and told her that no one cared

But jaxon just keeps looking at her, waiting for her to continue. He's hanging on her every word and asking questions that make it clear he's actually listening to her

Gemelle walks in on them at one point, and can't help standing to the side and watching them for a bit, feeling fondness squeeze her heart

Jarra makes a joke that startles a laugh out of jaxon, and she looks inordinately proud of herself at the achievement

Gemelle has to wipe away her tears. She hadn't realized before this just how much she had missed her big brother. Not the guilt-ridden, self-hating shell of the past 18 years, but the bright, exuberant, friendly little boy of her childhood. Gemelle hopes that with Jarra in their lives now, she can bring that boy back to them.

The one dark spot on her joy is that her parents never got to see this - all three of their children together and happy. She comforts herself that at least grandfather riak gets to have this comfort. After everything he's lost in his life, he deserves it.

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It’s been over two years since I made this post, and… yeah. Still thinking about it. Let’s go through some lyrics, [and who I imagine saying them] shall we?

Fate has been cruel and order unkind

This one works for both Jaxon and Jarra imo, since they both have a bit of a thing about fate, but the next line cements it as Jaxon for me.

How can I have sent you away?

Yeah.

The blame was my own, the punishment, yours

The harmony’s silent today

The obvious guilt here just screams Jaxon to me. The line about the harmony doesn’t fit so well outside of the MLP context, but you could think of it as the harmony between him and the rest of the Tell clan, in particular Gemelle, and referring to their disapproving silence (which also reminds me of how Bitter Medicine feels like a Jaxon song to me, but that’s a post for another day)

But into the stillness I’ll bring you a song

And I will your company keep

‘Till your tired eyes and my lullabies

Have carried you softly to sleep

Okay so this bit doesn’t read as Jaxon to me. As a stretch, it could be him fantasizing about bringing Jarra home, but I don’t think that really works, mostly because I’m not sure Jaxon believes Jarra would ever want to be around him. This section actually feels like Drago to me. Specifically, the way he helps Jaxon, keeps him from depriving himself of sleep and beating himself over the head with guilt.

Once did a pony who shone like the sun

Look out on her kingdom and sigh

She smiled and said “Surely, there is no pony

So lovely and so well beloved as I”

So this line… at first it kinda seems like Jaxon and his belief in his own superiority [prior to Jarra’s birth], and that does sort of work with the next lines, but I also think it fits Gemelle, with her confidence in her own skill possibly leading to Jaxon feeling inferior to her and needing to seek out admiration from prejudiced people.

So great was her reign and so brilliant her glory

That long was the shadow she cast

Which fell dark upon the young sister she loved

And grew only darker as days and nights passed

Again, this feels like it could be Jaxon, with the sister being Jarra, or Gemelle, with the sister being Jaxon. Either way, it leads to Jarra becoming separated from them and them losing hope as they continue to not find her.

Lullay moon princess, goodnight sister mine

Rest now in moonlight’s embrace

This one feels like Jaxon, Gemelle, their parents… basically anyone in the Tell clan who knows about Jarra wishing her well.

Bear up my lullaby, winds of the earth

Through cloud and through sky and through space

This is essentially the same as the last section, I just felt it deserved a space of its own because it’s really heartbreaking. The acknowledgment of the distance between them is… yeah.

Carry the peace and the coolness of night

And carry my sorrow in kind

Sorrow fits for any member of the Tell clan, sorrow as a code word for guilt fits Jaxon specifically.

Luna, you’re loved so much more than you know

This is so plainly the entire Tell clan singing to Jarra, but I also thinks it works as Jarra singing to her younger self.

Forgive me for being so blind

Jaxon, as usual (not that he fees he deserves forgiveness, but…) and also Gemelle, with her guilt for not jumping through the portal with Jarra.

Soon did that pony take notice that others

Did not give her sister her due

Gemelle and Jaxon realizing how much Hospital Earth sucks and how prejudiced people are

And neither had she loved her as she deserved

Jaxon.

She watched as her sister’s unhappiness grew

This could be interpreted as about Jarra, but I think it works better as Gemelle speaking about Jaxon; she actually was there to see him struggling, and she didn’t do anything about it, which fits the connotation at ‘watched’ better imo.

But such is the way of the limelight, it sweetly

Takes hold of the mind of its host

And that foolish pony did nothing to stop

The destruction of one who had needed her most

Jaxon recriminating himself for essentially abandoning Jarra due to being selfish, or Gemelle doing the same to herself for not being able to help Jarra or Jaxon more.

[As a side note: there’s another song based on this one, Luna’s Soliloquy, which is a response to Lullaby for a Princess. In that song, Luna/Nightmare Moon instead sings “And that selfish pony did nothing to stop / The destruction of I who had needed her most”

I think that Jaxon would be more likely to call himself selfish than foolish, and Gemelle the other way round.]

Lullay moon princess, goodnight sister mine

Rest now, in moonlight’s embrace

Bear up my lullaby, winds of the earth

Through cloud and through sky and through space

Carry the peace and the coolness of night

And carry my sorrow in kind

Luna, you’re loved so much more than you know

May troubles be far from your mind

And forgive me for being so blind

This is just the same as the section above, I’m not going to bother repeating myself.

The years now before us

Fearful and unknown

I never imagined

I’d face them on my own

This feels like after Jarra turned 14 from the Tell clan’s perspective.

May these thousand winters

Swiftly pass, I pray

I love you, I miss you

All these miles away

This, on the other hand, is before Jarra turns 14.

May all your dreams be sweet tonight

Safe upon your bed of moonlight

And know not of sadness, pain, or care

More of the Tell clan’s good wishes for Jarra.

And when I dream I’ll fly away and meet you there

Jaxon and his deserting tendencies

Sleep

Sleep

Sleep

And Jaxon and his sleep-deprivation

So yeah, I think Lullaby for a Princess is a very Earth Girl song. If anyone made it to the end, I hope you enjoyed, and let me know if you want me to discuss a variant of this song (Luna’s Soliloquy or Luna’s Reply) or any other songs (Bitter Medicine by the crane wives hint hint)

Lullaby for a Princess (and related songs) as Jarra/Jaxon/Gemelle/other Tell clan members singing to each other is something I cannot get out of my head. I'm pretty sure I'm coming up on a year of thinking about this, and if I could only draw (or complete things) I would make an animatic.

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in a way, i think that jarra not contacting her clan at the age of 14 might actually have helped save jaxon's clan membership

At 14, jarra would still have been very young, immature, and incredibly angry at everyone. Chances are pretty high that she might've demanded he be discarded by the clan, and clan council would have had no choice but to comply with her demands, given that jaxon had legally renounced his defense that he was below the legal and moral age of responsibility at the time jarra was born.

It would have led to this weirdly poetic situation where jarra would have nade a decision in the heat of her anger that she would grow to regret once she was older and realized that she had inflicted the same pain on jaxon that he had inflicted on her. At that point, would clan council have been able to welcome him back into the clan? Would jaxon already have disappeared as a colonist in kappa sector, leaving them with no way to contact him?

The fact that jarra didn't contact her clan until she was legally 18 by earth laws (17 by beta sector and military laws) means that she had those crucial few extra years to mature and learn to see things from other people's pov. By the time she actually met jaxon in person, she'd made friends with norms and seen that they weren't all awful people. She'd also gotten to know drago and seen how he treated her. And seeing jarra's imteraction with jaxon during her presentation/betrothal ceremony, it's very clear she no longer had any anger towards him

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Fucked up to think that playdon and jaxon are the same age

Who let this 30 year old be in charge of a class of 18 year olds? I'm 28 and if anyone gave me that kind of responsibility i think i'd cry

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i'm reading hera 2781 and wow, it's painful seeing the open hostility between drago and jaxon 😢 since i've already read zeta sector 2788 i know that they eventually make up, but jeez, this is getting difficult to read

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hestia 2781 is absolutely devastating

it's kind of cathartic but also so so painful to see just how desperately jarra's clan wanted her, how hard they fought to get her back, and how they KEPT fighting

and jarra doesn't know ANY of it.

also, i'm slowly starting to hate dragon. he's so fucking self-centered, the only reason he's so upset at jaxon is because he's being personally affected by jaxon's little temper tantrum at the age of thirteen

this poor man has been tearing himself apart from guilt for almost two decades now, he almost threw away his military career trying desperately to atone for a mistake he made as a child, he pushed away everyone who loved him, and all dragon can care about is himself.

i so badly want to see some jaxon, gemelle, and jarra bonding moments.

can you imagine how many more times jaxon's guilt was multiplied after his parents died, knowing that his baby sister never got to meet them? ouch

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So what if, when Jarra is 14, someone calls her a corward for not contacting her parents. IK in canon she doesn't but here she does it out of spite. Because Jarra is the queen of spite in some ways. Just fourteen year old Jarra being suspoius of these people who actually want to talk to her? And maybe doing somthing about the abusive science teacher or somthing. IDK just Tiny!Jarra getting to spend time with her famly and messing up all the plot bc i have no idea where this would end up going.

I love that, and she absolutely would do it out of spite lmaooo.

Just her talking about how she doesn’t understand why any of the other kids would contact their parents because they were the ones that dumped you after all, and one of her classmates calls her out on it, telling her to get off her high horse and stop being so arrogant, because the real reason Jarra isn’t contacting her parents is out of fear.

And Jarra, who doesn’t let anyone call her a coward, goes against her better judgement and decides to contact her parents.

And just like in canon, she finds out they’re military, and of course she’s still hurt, and she still wishes she weren’t abandoned, but she starts coming to terms with their decision, she realizes that the choice had been a difficult one for them as well.

Things start off rough for them, because Jarra is suspicious, and not only that she also sees what Issette is going through, with a dad who doesn’t want anything to do with her, and a mom who’s always promising to come visit her and then changing her mind. So Jarra keeps her distance for a while, and her parents understand. They don’t push her to be more affectionate or open.

Jarra tries not to get her hopes up when they promise they’ll come visit her, because she knows just how easily they can change their mind.

But they never do. They try their damnedest to show up for their regular visits with her, and whenever something comes up at work that means they can’t make it, they make sure to explain clearly why they aren’t coming, and reschedule their meeting.

They send her mails regularly, getting to know her and her life. And Jaxon is a young recruit at this point and doesn’t have the kind of freedom his parents do, but he makes sure to keep in contact with his baby sister, because there’s no way he’s going to let this chance slip past him. He sends her mails whenever he can, and he spends all his shore leave on Earth, getting to know Jarra and taking her to amusement parks, buying her presents, exploring zoos, listening to her archaeology rants. (Sometimes he brings Drago with him, who imprints on Jarra and becomes a second big brother).

Jarra is wary of him at first because she knows he was a big reason she had been abandoned, but she comes to adore her big brother to the ends of the Earth.

Over the years, every member of the Tell Clan comes to visit her at least once, even Dragon, and she comes to know her family, comes to be friends with her cousins, comes to look up to her big sister Gemelle. Hardly a week passes without at least one member of the Tell Clan showing up at her Next Step.

Cathan is a little bitter about it, but the rest of her friends are so so happy for Jarra, and it doesn’t hurt that her family is always so polite and respectful of them, and are just genuinely cool people. It even convinces Maeth to contact her clan.

At 16, Jarra is presented to her Clan in a private ceremony, with only Candace and her friends from Next Step there to watch.

And at 17, Jaxon is the first one that Jarra tells about her plan to infiltrate an Asgard history course.

At first Jaxon is worried about her motivations, but she tells him it’s nothing to be worried about. She just wants to see what Norms are really like. All her life, she’s despised them, because of the way they talk about Handicapped people and the way they abandon their babies and the jokes they make. But after getting to know her own family and seeing what genuinely good people they are, she wants to see for herself if other Norms are as bad as she always thought, or not.

Jaxon is a little apprehensive, warning her that Norms have a lot of built-in prejudice against the Handicapped, and she’ll encounter a lot of difficulties, but she insists that she wants to do this. She wants to go onto that course, she wants them to know that she’s Handicapped, and she wants to show them that she’s just as good as they are, and that there’s nothing wrong with handicapped people.

Despite his reservations, Jaxon supports her fully, because he can never say no to his baby sister.

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I just had a thought. When do you think Genral Torrek found out about Jarra. The book says he was absent for a few years and he didn't know her exact birth day. Just imagine him asking for his wifes honor child and finding out that she is lost (imagine him talking to Jaxon)

Okay but I’ve actually been thinking about this so fucking much, nonny.

There are a lot of things I don’t like about the way Hospital Earth treats its wards. I understand that they want to protect the children, and I understand the rule about not letting parents contact their kids if they give up their parental rights, but why the FUCK is it that only the child’s biological parents are allowed to move to Earth with the baby?

Why don’t they let an extended family member move to Earth instead? Like, I’m sure that would drastically reduce the number of Handicapped babies becoming wards of Hospital Earth! Like, even disregarding Beta sector with their complex clan structures, I’m sure there are decent people in the other sectors who are horrified when they find out their grandchild or their nephew or niece have been abandoned by their parents.

Even Jarra’s parents said that they had wanted to send someone to Earth to be with her when they couldn’t, when they were away on assignment. If the Hospital Earth had been just a little more flexible with their rules, that would have meant at least one less child growing up as an orphan, bitter and angry.

Imagine how cute it would have been if Jarra had been raised by her grandpa Riak!!!

And God, his reaction when he finds out Jarra’s lost, it kills me.

Like, this man has lost both his husband and his wife, and he’s been grieving for years now, and he goes home, expecting that at least he’ll have his wife’s honor child to love and dote on and watch grow into the amazing woman he knows she’ll be.

Only to find out that she’s GONE. Abandoned by her clan, alone on a different planet, and he might NEVER get to meet her? Imagine how hurt he’d be!

And imagine Jaxon, who’s always been the apple of his grandfather’s eye, being so afraid that his grandpa will hate him now. Because it’s been a couple of years now since his baby sister was lost to him and the enormity of what he’s done has had time to settle in, and he hates what he’s done to not only his parents, but to his sister and his grandfather, to his entire clan. A son of Tellon Blaze broke Fidelis, and he doesn’t understand why no one else hates him like they should.

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G: All that. But then afterwords maybe they have dinner together and Jaxon just freezes, because that is his father's face, just a little paler and a whole more more childish (and then Jarra glares and asks if he has a problem with apes). Also achelogists intmindating the tell clan cause Jarra might be joining their family but she is already part of the dig site fam and they know what family can do to hadicaped kids (many of them have gone through it themselves in some way or another)

G: (getting very tired of my character limit). I also wonder about the culture class, like Jarra most parental figure was payed to spend two hours a week with her and nine other kids and family is so important to betan culture (I wonder if it would read like an adoption or just not makes sense. Also trying to write Jarra's voice is hard which is why I just have all the ideas and nowhere to go :(. I did love the people shutting down Devon, it was glorious. What did you think of Jarra's cure?

Oh, poor Jaxon. Can you just imagine him going home that night and just sobbing. He tells his parents how he thinks he met baby Jarra, and she was just how he’d imagined she’d be.

The archeologists trying to intimidate the Tell clan would be hilarious, and I honestly think it would have the opposite of the intended effect lmao. From what we’ve seen of the Tell clan, they all care fiercely about Jarra and her well-being, and I think it would reassure them, to think that Jarra has so many people who would stand up for her. It would make them proud of their daughter. 

It’s really interesting to me to think how Jarra’s relationship would be with her family. I like to think that the Tell Clan would hold Candace in very very high regards. Because she looked after their lost daughter when they couldn’t, and it’s obvious to everyone that she genuinely does care about Jarra. I like to think of them unofficially adopting Candace into the Clan as well.

As for writing Jarra’s voice, I agree, it is extremely difficult to get it right. She has such a lovely and complex personality. Another thing I’ve personally found difficult is deciding what perspective to write from. The book is written in first person, but I usually prefer to write in third person limited (and occasionally third person omniscient). Can’t decide whether I want to write in my usual style, or make my fic first person to fit with the tone of the series. I feel like that really does change the tone of the story, and even the voice of the characters.

My opinion on Jarra’s cure is mixed, though overall positive. Like, I do love this series to death, but you do have to admit that there’s a bit of cure culture going on here - there’s only one disability in this entire series, and by the end, the main character is cured of it. On the other hand though, it does send some important messages about how the world treats people with disabilities, and how the lives of disabled people could be so much easier if we made a society that was easier for them to live in instead of actively making things harder for disabled people. This is shown in how they realize that the planet first teams have inadvertently been choosing only planets that were incompatible with Handicapped people’s immune systems. Thanks to the Adonis Knights and the Beta sector clans, the rules to planet first were changed to allow for planets with a higher frequency of solar storms but that Handicapped people could travel to, and this immediately improved their lives immensely. Jarra herself may have been miraculously cured, but she’s the exception. There’s no magical cure to “fix” all Handicapped people - they’ll always be disabled, and that’s okay, because they can still have the stars. They don’t need to be “fixed”.

And further, on a purely personal note, I love that now Jarra can now go to her clan hall and see her history, her roots. I love that she can spend time with her family and find where she belongs and help excavate the ruins of Fortuna.

And I love that she’s now literally Raven’s “glowing girl.”

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G: I really don't like Fian, the more I read his parts the more meh I get about him. (Somtimes he talks about keeping Jarra under control and I just don't like that? idk exaclty why but it rubs me wrong). I also really wish we had more archeolgy trolling the millitary, just that is always the best. Raven and the laser cutter is a highlight moment for me. Archelogists are the best and I love them all so much. What if Jarra had dug Jaxon out on the fringe once?

God, that’s a mood. I tried so hard to like him. It took me reading the entire series three times before I could admit to myself that I just didn’t like him. And as soon as I was able to say that, I realized just how much I loved the Raven/Jarra ship.

There are a lot of things about the way he acts that piss me off, but I think the ones that annoy me the worst are:

When he finds out Jarra’s handicapped, the literal first words out of his mouth are “What will my family say when they find out I’m twoing with an ape?” and I find that really telling. Like, there are hundreds of Military that are about to die, Jarra literally just told him she’d had a mental breakdown because her parents had just died, and that’s what he’s worried about?

At the beginning of Earth Flight, the newzies break the news that Jarra’s going to join the Tell Clan, and Jarra mentions that Fian should tell his parents. And we find out that Fian’s been putting off telling his parents for weeks, as if he’s ashamed of the fact his girlfriend is Betan??? He’s really obvious all throughout Earth Star about how much he dislikes the fact that she’s Betan.

In Earth Flight, when Jarra shows up at Zulu base after nearly being killed by a maniac with planet first weapons, and she’s tired and her uniform is singed and she’s still starving because she hasn’t eaten in a day, and the first words out of Fian’s mouth are him berating her because “we’ve been worrying about you so much and you’ve been sightseeing?” and i’m like...bitch, can you not SEE the state she’s in???? maybe try asking her first what happened to make her late. she’s been looking forward to this presentation ceremony for weeks now, waiting for the moment she’d finally have a family. do you honestly think she’d voluntarily be late showing up to it????

Okay sorry, rant over. I just get really heated over this. But anyways yeah, the archeologists are amazing and I seriously love them. Any time Rono is there, you know things are gonna be entertaining lmao. I loved everyone’s conversations with each other during the Carrington Event in the first book. The jokes were hilarious, and it was interesting seeing Dig Site Command being so casual.

One of my favourite parts was when Dig Site Command asks if there are any other foundation courses stuck at the dig site aside from Achilles 1, and Rono calls in like “This is Cassandra 2″ and before he can even say anything Dig Site Command cuts him off like “You can’t fool me Rono, we know full well you aren’t a Foundation course.”

I love that all the archeologists are like a super tight-knit family! Off-world archeologists are, like, basically the only norms that are completely unfazed by the Handicapped and look at them as normal humans. I love how absolutely furious the Eden Dig Site teams were in Earth Star when that bigoted scientist insulted Jarra on live television. 

And as for Jarra digging out Jaxon on a dig site, I feel like it would be an interesting thought.

I know military training teams work on the fringe dig sites occasionally, but I feel like Jarra would have been too young to have been tag-leading for one of Jaxon’s teams since there’s such a big age difference between them, but I can see her maybe being there with her school history club and watching from the sidelines. They wouldn’t have seen each other’s faces because they’d both be in impact suits, and Jarra wouldn’t recognize Jaxon’s name because she doesn’t know she has a brother at that point. But just the thought of it happening is really compelling, the fact that they could have been so close, and still were unable to meet. 

Just imagine if Jaxon, after being dug out, is relatively uninjured and is looking around at the team that had saved him, and he sees a really tiny figure in an impact suit standing on the clearway, and he’s surprised. They can’t be more than 10 or 11. Then he looks down at the name that’s displayed on the front of the suit, and it says “Jarra” and he stops breathing. He knows that hospital Earth uses the same database as the Military does to name their wards, so logically it’s far more likely for this to be someone completely different, but this little Jarra is the same age as his baby sister, and it tears at the scab on his heart, because he’s had years now to regret his selfishness, and he wishes desperately that she really was his Jarra, so he could tell her just how loved she is, so he could tell her how many people miss her.

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i know basically no one is gonna read this, but i’ve been rereading Earth Flight (Earth Girl #3) recently, and i have just so many jaxon and jarra feels, so have some REALLY SAD HEADCANONS:

jaxon growing and maturing, slowly coming to realize just what a horrible thing he’d done to not only jarra, but his whole family by forcing his parents to abandon her to be a ward of Hospital Earth

jaxon wondering why no one else in the Tell clan despises him the way they ought to when he’s the reason that a daughter of Tellon Blaze is growing up thinking she’s unwanted and unloved, when it couldn’t be farther from the truth

every year on jarra’s birthday, jaxon, gemelle, and their parents all buy her birthday presents, hoping against hope that one day they’ll be able to give them to her

jaxon impatiently counting down to jarra’s fourteenth birthday, when she’ll be able to request information about her parents, and praying that she’ll accept so that he can tell her how much he regrets his selfishness, and so that he can start making up for a childhood of neglect

jarra’s 14th birthday comes and goes, and jaxon’s last little hope is crushed to bits and pieces. he wakes up every morning hoping that maybe, just maybe, today is the day everything changes

by the time jarra is 17, Jaxon has given up, has learned to live with a gaping whole in his chest where his baby sister should have been. but then, clan council get news of jarra’s honor ceremony, and the confusion of why it’s happening now, a full year earlier than it should have (because no one knows that hospital earth counts age from the first year day), is drowned out by fierce and overwhelming relief that maybe, just maybe, he’s getting a second chance

he watches the vid of the honour ceremony countless times, and every time he hates himself more, because it’s his first time ever seeing his baby sister, but everything about her is achingly familiar, from the stubborn set of her jaw, to the intelligent spark in her eyes. she’s one of their own, and she’s been alone for all these years, and it’s all his fault.

then their parents talk to her on the phone, and he hears they’re going to visit her on earth, and he’s going to find a way to go with them, even if it kills him

but then his parents die, and under all the grief and hurt, is another sharp pang of guilt, another sin to add to his growing collection - because now jarra will never meet their parents, will never be hugged by them, will never laugh with them or kiss them.

he exchanges a few impersonal messages with her after that, and it absolutely kills him, the awkwardness between them. he’d been waiting for this day for almost two decades but now the time has come, he can’t bring himself to say the words that have been eating him up alive all these years

then comes the carrington event. solar 5 crashes in the ruins of new york, and suddenly all anyone can talk about is the archaeologists that dug them out. the whole of the Tell clan is abuzz with excitement and concern, talking about the tag leader of Asgard 6. there’s a thrum of pride, because even growing up so far from home, she still perfectly embodied everything it was to be a daughter of tellon blaze

jaxon argues with his commanding officer for days to be able to attend jarra’s ceremony when she receives the Earth Star, but in the end, neither he nor Gemelle can make it. so he watches from the base with everyone else, silently cursing the fate that constantly keeps him from his baby sister. and then they award her the Artemis, and he suddenly he can’t stop crying.

with every passing incident, he gets more and more frantic to get to her. she comes so close to death so many times in less than a year, and every morning he wakes up dreading the possibility that he might lose her too, like he lost his parents, before he even has the chance to meet her.

in the end, the first time he comes face to face with the baby sister he’s been yearning to meet all these years is at her presentation ceremony. he can’t get any words around the lump in his throat, and she doesn’t say anything either. he wonders if maybe she despises him. he wouldn’t blame her if she did.

he presents her to clan council, and the whole time, he’s thinking that it should have been his parents, doing this. it should have been his parents presenting their baby daughter, but because of one selfish little boy, that opportunity had been stolen from them.

he can’t get the words past the lump in his throat. he’s going to ruin the presentation ceremony and everyone’s going to hate him and he’s going to lose jarra forever.

but then she takes his hand, whispers the words that finally, after all these years, set him free.

jaxon presents her to clan council and they welcome her into the Tell clan kindred. and not everything is perfect, they still have so much to talk about, so much to apologize for. but they have their whole lives ahead of them, and he has faith that they’ll find their way to happiness.

[skygemspeaks]

So in earth girl it was said that military families usually have couple of kids with an age difference of year or two. So what if Marrak (Jarra’s father) have a sibling. So Jarra have an uncle or an aunt and therefore more cousins. Maybe one of that cousins was honor child of Jarra’s second grandfather. So they knew that they have “honor sibling” on the earth and are determined to find Jarra. Therefore they choose either history or medicine course. TBC

Continuation to “honor sibling” Jarra made herself found in more spectacular way. What if that cousin chose history and completed Pre-history course in the earth and then they apply to Asgard university to study xenoarcheology and get in one group with Jarra. So Jarra have a family member near who share her passion of history and can teach her family history

Okay okay I am SO sorry for taking so long to reply to this but I just want you to know I’ve been thinking about it nonstop since you sent it.

I dunno I just never really realized that Jarra’s other grandfather should have an honour child too, given he died at the same time his wife did and was also a Betan. (This also makes me think that Jarra’s parents are also going to have honour children - it’s never been mentioned whether Gemelle or Jaxon have significant others but Jarra’s already betrothed and even though she’s probably not planning on having kids any time soon, it’s possible that she could have one of her parents’ honour kids???)

But anyways that idea for an au is actually really cute! I really love the relationship between Jarra and Drago in ES and EF, and I really wish we could have seen more between her and Jaxon, or if we could have gotten to meet Gemelle at all. It would be really nice to see more of the Tell clan, especially ones that are closer in age to Jarra, and the whole honor sibling dynamic is really interesting too!

I’m sure that Riak loved all of his grandchildren equally, but I’m sure he would have a special soft spot for the two honor children of his husband and wife.

Jarra’s honor sibling probably grew up pretty bitter though, and maybe angry at Jaxon? Because honor siblings tend to have a very special bond, and I’m sure they must have felt cheated that they never got to meet their sister.

Another possibly is also what if Caius was the other honor child? Like, he’s the only other Tell clan member whose name we know outside of Jarra’s family and Drago and Dragon.

He had a pretty important role in organizing Jarra’s presentation ceremony, so if he was the other honor child, imagine how thrilled he would be about the ceremony! About the chance to finally meet Jarra!!! I bet after the events of ES, Jarra spent some time getting to know her relatives (it was mentioned that she had visited her mother’s clan hall too, the Ray Clan, and participated in the betrothal of a distant cousin, so obviously she must have spent even more time with the Tell Clan), so I can just see her having an emotional conversation with Caius during that time.

(Also on a slightly related note, if he was the honor child, this would mean his full name would be Caius Tell Galad. Since we know that male children take on their father’s surname and Marack’s surname was Galad).