#jasmine hendriks

[onydung]

I regret meeting you

Arthur x Any!Reader /OC!Karsa Hendriks

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I regret fucking meeting you, 

I regret getting drunk that day you laid your eyes at me for the first time. 

I regret punching your stupid face and accepting your caring hands 

I regret agreeing coming to your jasmine scented room 

I regret crying on your shoulders 

I regret sharing my cigars and smiling afterwards

I regret kissing you underneath the lamplight shere nobody can see us sin but the moon 

I regret shouting at you, I regret punching you again 

I regret trying calling you to that night in Eden, 

The night they took you away from me, 

The night a bullet with my name pierced through your heart, 

The night you die in my arms along with a piece of me I never knew I needed 

I regret meeting you, my love,

 but I would sooner meet you again once I take this last bullet, to see you again

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NOTE : This is just a stupid poem that I think Arthur would have written for Karsa in my JustATouchAU died. You can insert anyone there cause its not very specific. Its repetitive and not very good but its not very good but i just want to post something of my wife

[zapachkobiety]

Jasmine Hendriks

[chrancecriber]

Antenne Vorarlberg Chillout Lounge (July 30, 2023)

23:59 Paratone - Time After Time 23:53 Alex H - Seeking Agapism 23:42 Monkey Safari - Hi Life (Cheeky Bold Cover) 23:37 Ambala Feat. Laid Back - Walk With The Dreamers 23:26 Cell - Above The Clouds (Live Version) 23:23 Avian Grays & Azteck - Endlessly 23:19 Monolink - Swallow 23:16 Sans Souci - Take My Breath Away (Original Mix) 23:14 Feder & Ofenbach Feat. Dawty Music - Call Me Papi 23:08 Amirali - My Way 23:05 Pretty Pink Feat. Mark V - Don't Dance 23:02 Nora Van Elken - Heaven Is A Place On Earth 22:58 Sia - Alive 22:50 True & Berger - Imprint Of Pleasure 22:46 Enui - Adieu (Arielle Lb Remix) 22:42 Tania Zygar, Sofia Zlatko, Vijay - Wildest Dreams (Extended Mix) 22:38 Blank & Jones Feat. Kyle Pearce - All Of Me 22:33 Simple Minds - Mandela Day 22:28 Thomas Lemmer & Andreas Bach - Embracing Love 22:24 Above & Beyond Feat. Zoe Johnston - Treasure 22:19 Jasmon - Sanpo Suru 22:15 Lstn - Undecided 22:13 Carstn, Jason Walker - Could You Love Me (Munich Monstrs Remix) 22:06 Sans Souci - Seaside (Extended Mix) 22:01 Schiller - Der Goldene Engel 21:58 Mellowdy - Rise Up 21:53 Chromatics - Lady 21:50 Lucas Estrada & Henri Purnell & Neimy - In My Fantasy 21:47 Edx - Neptune 21:43 Levitation Feat. Cathy Battistessa - More Than Ever People 2015 21:41 Viva La Panda, Finding Molly - Chances 21:35 Max Denoise Feat Claire Willis - Bring To Me Life (Original Mix) 21:32 Yves V X Bashkar - Halfway (Feat. Twan Ray) 21:30 Rita Ora - You Only Love Me 21:24 Nova June - More 21:17 Bay Area - Dolphin Rider (Pianodreamsession) 21:11 Rìfìs Du Sol - On My Knees (Oliver Schories Remix) 21:07 Rihanna Feat. Mikky Ekko - Stay 21:03 Shallour & Riah - Lie 21:00 Bernward Koch - Lonely Dream (Solo Piano) 20:57 Faithless - Insomnia 20:48 Dino Lenny Feat. Artbat - Sand In Your Shoes 20:43 Sans Souci - Venice 20:37 Hendrik T. - Espiral 20:30 Valeron - Jamal 20:25 Lustral - Everytime 20:22 Schiller & Peter Heppner - Leben... I Feel You 20:15 Rodg - Heights 20:08 Chaim Feat. Meital De Razon - Love Rehab 20:05 Kungs Feat. Jhart - Dopamine 19:57 Julian Wassermann - People 19:52 Sunlounger & Zara - Lost (Chillout) 19:48 Monoir, Eneli - 3 To 1 19:43 Schiller & Tricia Mcteague - Guardian Angel 19:41 Hamlet - Der Mückenschwarm 19:37 Nihoni - After Sun 19:34 Trinix - Soweto 19:30 Alphawezen - Gai Soleil 19:24 Beyhude - Akasha 19:19 Jasmine Thompson - Adore (Teemid Remix) 19:13 Armen Miran - Nani Jan 19:08 Anrey - Lost Lands (Extended Mix) 19:02 Aim - Cold Water Music 18:57 New Age Kings - Illusion (Instrumental Remix) 18:53 Undressd - Forever Young 18:48 Spooky - The River (Ambient) 18:45 Nora En Pure - All I Need 18:42 Dize Feat. Aurii - Wenn Ich Nicht Mehr Weiss 18:38 Schiller X Ro Nova X Tricia Mcteague - Illuminate 18:34 Robin Schulz - Moonlit Sky (With The Void Pacific Choir) 18:30 Chicane Feat. Bryan Adams - Don't Give Up 18:26 Trentemoller - Miss You 18:21 Two Lanes - Pièces Froides: Ii. Danses De Travers 18:17 Derrick - Love Away 18:14 Armin Van Buuren Feat. Jake Reese - Need You Now 18:09 Pete Tong & Tale Of Us Feat. Jules Buckley - Time 18:03 Jose Padilla - Bosaxi (Touched Mix) 18:00 Nore En Pure - In Your Eyes 17:58 Digital Camel - Shine Bright 17:52 M.i.k.e., York, Asheni - Across The Ocean (R.i.b. With Soty & Seven24 Remix) 17:49 Kidsø - Finja 17:45 Nora En Pure - Dry Sobbing 17:38 Soukie & Windish - Oak & Whiskey (Canson Remix) 17:36 Alok & James Arthur - Work With My Love 17:33 Purple Disco Machine - Hypnotized 17:29 Sono - Twist In My Sobriety (Sans Souci Remix Edit) 17:25 Jan Blomqvist & Bloom Twins - High On Beat (Sofi Tukker Remix) 17:22 Light Of Aidan Feat. Note For A Child - Loving You 17:18 Eelke Kleijn Feat. Josha Daniel - Oscillations 17:15 Sam Feldt Feat. Lateshift - The Riddle 17:10 The Swan And The Lake - Port D'andratx (Part 2 - Rain) 17:07 The Hitmen - Turn Off The Lights 17:01 Consolidation Feat. Moguai - Ode To Joy 16:56 Stefano Saletti & Piccola Banda Ikona - Tagama 16:53 Kryder & Natalie Shay - Rapture 16:48 Schiller Feat. Jael - Tired (Live) 16:42 Schwarz & Funk - Savannah Sunset 16:39 Hypnosis - Pulstar 16:31 Kygo - Freeze 16:27 Faberge - Close Your Eyes 16:22 Eelke Kleijn - Woodstock 16:17 L' Art Mystique - Le Jardin Secret (Original Mix) 16:12 Valante - Rissa 16:09 Arty Feat. Cimo Fränkel - Daydreams (Sultan Shepard Echoes) 16:04 The Alan Parsons Project - Lucifer 16:02 Trinix & Ian Urbina - Bad Things 16:00 George Geccoo Feat. Maik Pinto - Dolce Vita 15:52 Ost & Kjex - Queen Of Europe Feat. Anne Lise Frokedal (Solomun Remix) 15:49 Minelli, Filatov & Karas Remi - Rampampam 15:42 Hraach - After Dark 15:34 Hansi Lang - Perfect Day (Smacs & Patrick Kong Remix) 15:31 Karsten Kiessling Feat. Helin - Fight Like A Lion 15:27 Armin Van Buuren Feat. Angel Taylor - Make It Right (Trinix Remix) 15:23 Blank & Jones With Coralie Clement - Days Go By 15:20 Tom Novy & Dan Le Blonde - Let's Dance (Tom Novy Remix) 15:17 Sam Feldt, Lucas & Steve Ft. Wulf - Summer On You 15:14 Iossa, Ken Holland - The Seed Feat. Iossa (Original Mix) 15:11 Duboss - Losing My Religion 15:08 Bedouin Soundclash - Brutal Hearts (Flicflac ) 15:04 P. Lion - Happy Children (Special Remastered ) 15:01 Glockenbach - Dirty Dancing 14:57 Liberdade - Otra Vida 14:53 Viva La Panda & Finding Molly - Bring It On (La La La) 14:51 Cyrillic Feat. Lara - Zero Gravitation 14:48 Jubel Feat. Neimy - Dancing In The Moonlight 14:44 Loud Luxury - Cold Feet 14:42 Alok & Timmy Trumpet - Underwater Love (La Vision Remix) 14:37 Diamans - Perception 14:33 Laniia - Fireflies 14:29 Ancient Astronauts - Until The Stars Go Out 14:21 Timboletti - Dhunche 14:17 Julian Wassermann - Painfully 14:14 Moya Brennan - Ancient Town 14:11 Milk & Sugar Feat. John Paul Young - Love Is In The Air 14:08 Wave Wave Feat. Lena Sue - Repeating 14:04 Massive Attack - Three 14:01 Chris Avedon - The Letter 13:58 Mousse T. - Boyfriend (Alle Farben Remix) 13:54 Alphawezen - Electricity Drive 13:52 Chaël Feat Kaii - Don't Speak 13:49 Kygo & Tina Turner - What's Love Got To Do With It 13:42 Tom Novy Feat. Amadeas - Dancing In The Sun Feat. Amadeas (Tapesh & Dayne S Remix) 13:39 Vievie - Blue Island 13:32 Faithless - Crazy English Summer (Brothers On High Remix) 13:23 Christopher Von Deylen - Heaven Can Wait 13:17 Rìfìs Du Sol - Next To Me 13:13 Chris Coco - Before Sunset (Original Mix) 13:09 Sum Wave - Beach Memories 13:07 Topic, Robin Schulz, Nico Santos, Paul Van Dyk - In Your Arms (For An Angel) 13:02 Evadez - Caught In The Crowd (Original Mix) 12:57 Blank & Jones - Sunshines Better (Feat. Mick Roach) 12:54 Gamper & Dadoni - Gimme! Gimme! Gimme! 12:50 Eelke Kleijn - Mojo's Tale 12:44 Röyksopp Feat. Susanne Sundførd - Oh, Lover 12:40 Lstn - Thoughts 12:35 Yonderboi - Sinking Slowly 12:30 Kid Massive, Yuji Ono, Dtale - Pray (Wolf Krew Remix) 12:24 Agoria - Up All Night 12:23 Sons Of Maria - A Kiss Like This 12:19 Winona Oak & Robin Schulz - Oxygen 12:13 Lullaby Lounge - Chill De La Mer (Blank Guitar Cafe Relax Mix) 12:10 Gestört Aber Geil & Anna Grey - Thank You 12:07 Hallmann - Always Be 12:01 Channel 2 Feat. Tanya - Soulout 11:59 Reece Lemonius, Munich Monstrs - Miss You 11:56 Younotus Feat. Chris Gelbuda - When I Think About You 11:52 First Aid Kit - My Silver Lining 11:45 Blond:ish Feat. Shawni - Wizard Of Love 11:43 Felix Jaehn, Cheat Codes Feat. Bow Anderson - I Just Wanna 11:35 Audiofly Feat. Fiora - 6 Degrees 11:32 Alle Farben & Fools Garden - Lemon Tree 11:27 Thomas Newman - Any Other Name 11:25 R3hab & Marnik - Candyman 11:21 Nto (Fr) Feat. Sofiane Pamart - Invisible (Piano Version) 11:17 Ivan Jack - The Dock Of The Bay 11:13 Sons Of Maria - Elevate 11:06 Firtz Kalkbrenner - Golden (Fideles Remix) 10:57 Underworld - 8 Ball 10:50 David Hohme - Fear Less (Hraach Remix) 10:45 Monolink - Harlem River 10:39 Benny Royal, Dani Hageman - Tigereye 10:33 Hakan Kayis, Furkan Sarikas, Cinar Gedizlioglu - A Night In Alacati (Original Mix) 10:31 Lost Frequencies, Zonderling & Kelvin Jones - Love To Go 10:24 Prodoxo - Bailanduna 10:17 Nora En Pure - Oblivion (Extended Mix) 10:13 Kate The Cat - I Was Made For Lovin You 10:06 Edx - Conundrum 10:03 Daniel Steidtmann - Pigeon Lake 09:58 Frank Borell - Epic Dreams (Fifty Shades Of Dreams Mix) 09:53 Schiller - Free The Dragon 09:49 Tinlicker Feat. Nathan Nicholson - Be Here And Now 09:46 Lost Frequencies & Aloe Blacc - Truth Never Lies 09:43 Dj Antoine Feat. Craig Smart - Good Vibes (Good Feeling) (Dj Antoine Vs Mad Mark 2k19 Mix) 09:41 Gibbs & Code X - Close To Your Heart 09:33 Gerrit Van Der Meer - Solaris 09:31 Ofenbach & Ella Henderson - Hurricane 09:28 Valerie Dore - The Night (Zyx Edit Remastered 2021) 09:23 Redondo, Bolier Feat. She Keeps Bees - Every Single Piece (Original Mix) 09:20 Stepha Schweiger - When I Was A Bird 09:16 Danny Avila - End Of The Night 09:12 Tonenation - Hijo De La Luna 09:09 L'imperatrice - Peur Des Filles (Montmartre Remix) 09:05 Jazzamor - Lovin' You 09:03 R3hab X Lukas Graham - Most People 09:00 Blank & Jones Feat. Zoe Durrant - Erase Rewind 08:53 Rene, Alex Hook - Right Now (Matvey Emerson Remix) 08:49 Bolier & Leandro Da Silva - Floripa (Extended) 08:46 Nora En Pure - Stop Wasting Time 08:42 Blank & Jones - Wyb (Deeper) 08:40 Dj Antoine & Flip Capella Feat. Evelyn - Dark Love 08:37 Blank & Jones Feat. Mick Roach - Magnolia 08:34 Regard & Raye - Secrets 08:30 Passenger 10 - Voices In Her Head 08:27 Omi - Cheerleader 08:24 Robin Schulz & David Guetta - On Repeat 08:18 Shakedown - At Night (Afterlife Remix) 08:15 Fritz Kalkbrenner - Void 08:12 Alan Walker X Hans Zimmer - Time (Alan Walker Remix) 08:10 Alok Feat. Alida - Love Again 08:06 The Alan Parsons Projekt - Eye In The Sky 08:04 Lost Frequencies & Elley Duhé - Back To You 07:59 Fous De La Mer - Luces 07:55 Klingande Feat. Daylight - Losing U 07:52 Tomas Skyldeberg - Outside The Window 07:48 Mike Candys & Jack Holiday - La Serenissima 07:42 Faro - Dreaming In Orange 07:39 Kamrad - Feel Alive 07:36 Moby - Lift Me Up 07:32 The Ocean Piano - Piano Mi Camino (Blue Wave Mix) 07:28 Dvine - Unknown Reality 07:22 Relaxraum - Endless Horizons 07:17 Christopher Von Deylen - Infinity 07:10 Armen Miran Feat. Jivan Gasp - Lost Memories 07:05 Nora En Pure - Diving With Whales (Daniel Portman Radio Mix) 07:01 Blank & Jones Feat. Zoe Durrant - Adios Ayer 06:58 Majestic & Boney M. - Rasputin 06:54 Redlounge Orchestra - Reserver 06:49 Thomas Lemmer & Andreas Bach - Deep Ocean 06:46 Melokind - Tiefgang 06:40 Massive Attack - Spying Glass 06:37 Vievie - Sea Roses 06:32 Gary B - Love Rain Down 06:29 Mike Candys & Jack Holiday - The Riddle Anthem Rework 06:26 Alok, Zeeba And Iro - Ocean 06:21 Dario G - Voices 06:18 Edx - Ecletric (Mixed) 06:17 Christopher Von Deylen - Arco Iris 06:14 Alan Walker - Faded 06:07 Nora En Pure - Thermal (Extended Mix) 06:04 Blank & Jones Feat. Jan Loechel - Beautiful Life 06:00 Blondee & Marc Werner Feat. Fabienne Rothe - Wonderful Days 05:56 Fritz Kalkbrenner - Kings & Queens 05:53 Vamero & Lizot - Bleeding Love 05:49 Consoul Trainin - Take Me To Infinity 05:44 Three Drives On A Vinyl - Greece 2000 (Sebastian Davidson & Melosense Remix) 05:36 After Sunrise - Deep Breath (Extended Mix) 05:29 Atb - No Fate 05:25 Lucy Neville - Shameless 05:21 Patrick Baker - Call Me Up (Original Mix) 05:17 Sound Nomaden - The Morning After 05:15 Famba Feat. Brando & Mkla - Games We Play 05:10 Alejandro De Pinedo - Cancer 05:07 Edx Feat. Jess Ball - Take Me Home 05:03 Nora En Pure - Enchantment 04:58 Sonic Adventure Project - Waters In Motion 04:55 Filatov & Karas - Au Au 04:51 Milkwish - From The Earth To The Moon 04:46 Jakatta - So Lonely (Blu Mar Ten Mix) 04:43 Dj Antoine & Dead-line - Shout 04:35 A Forest Mighty Black - Rebirth 04:29 Deep Dive Corp. & Setsuna - Transatlantic 04:26 Armin Van Buuren & Garibay - Phone Down 04:20 Funkstar De Luxe - Sun Is Shining 04:17 Mike Candys & Séb Mont - What's On Your Mind 04:15 Dj Antoine Feat. Ablai - My Corazon (Dj Antoine Vs Mad Mark 2k21 Mix) 04:08 Kruder & Dorfmeister - Black Baby 04:01 Monolink - Don't Hold Back 03:57 Schiller - Summer In Berlin 03:52 Vargo - The Moment 03:46 Airstream - Your Tears (Del Mar Mix) 03:43 Fedde Le Grand Feat. Vince Freeman - Devils 03:37 Chris Zippel Feat. Tusnelda - Blade 03:34 Thrdl!fe & Sleepwalkrs - Outta My Head 03:29 Naomi - Anybody Here? 03:25 Kidsø - Fir 03:22 Carstn & Ten Tonne Skeleton - Safety Dance 03:15 Troels Hammer - Trans/ For/ Mation 03:10 Jean-michel Jarre - Oxygene, Pt. 4 03:05 Nora En Pure - Trailblazer (Club Mix) 02:59 Jon Hopkins - Private Universe 02:56 Audien - Blue 02:52 Gesaffelstein & The Weeknd - Lost In The Fire 02:47 Boozoo Bajou - Caminoux 02:43 Schiller - Midnight In Shiraz 02:40 Alle Farben & Flynn - I Need To Know 02:34 Schiller Feat. Sarah Brightman - The Smile 02:30 Tinlicker Feat. Hero Baldwin - Rebirth 02:26 Agron - Love My Soul 02:23 Moby - My Only Love 02:19 Swedish House Mafia & The Weeknd - Moth To A Flame 02:14 La Vita - Smooth Like Silk 02:07 Armen Miran & Hraach - Gravitation 02:03 Jean-michel Jarre - Equinoxe, Pt. 5 01:57 Fc Kahuna - Hayling 01:54 Together Alone - Ain't Nobody 01:47 Monolink & Zigan Aldi - Fidale (I Feel) Vocal Version 01:42 Marc Puig - To Start Anew 01:39 Backstreet Boys - Chances (Instrumental) 01:33 Anrey - We Are The Mirrors (Extended Mix) 01:27 Noraj Cue - Story At The Campfire 01:24 Tiësto - The Motto 01:19 Daniele Mastracci Feat. Allegra - Something Great 01:16 Munich Monstrs - Shine 01:10 Colyn - Lightyears 01:05 Ilo - Soleil D'hiver 01:01 Hein Klein & Cheyenne - Every Breath You Take 00:57 Arden - Open 00:50 Armen Miran - Precious Story 00:48 Le Shuuk Feat. Xilions - Goodbye 00:45 Max Johann & Layrz - Tell It To My Heart 00:38 Tapesh And Dayne S - How I Do (Original Mix) 00:32 Joachim Pastor & Signum - Something You Need (Extended Mix) 00:29 Alina Baraz & Galimatias - Fantasy (Felix Jaehn Remix) 00:26 Mahmut Orhan - Schhh (Feat. Irina Rimes) 00:24 Kamrad - I Believe 00:18 Kölsch - Left Eye Left 00:16 R3hab, Timmy Trumpet, W&W - Distant Memory 00:13 Shapov & Avian Grays Feat. Kifi - Light Up The World 00:08 Placebo - Running Up That Hill 00:04 Robin Schulz & Alle Farben & Israel Kamakawiwo'ole - Somewhere Over The Rainbow / What A Wonderful World 00:01 Topic Feat. Nico Santos - Home (Alle Farben Remix)

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Jasmine Hendriks

[equalv]

German tv shows with lgbt* characters

I think it can be quite hard to find queer german tv shows, so I thought I‘d compile a list with the ones that I have watched so far.

✪  = queerness is centered in this show

A-Z

1899 (2022) (mlm) | Netflix | international 

Ángel (Miguel Bernardeau) 

Ramiro (José Pimentão)

Krester (Lucas Lynggaard Tønnesen)

All you need (2021-) (mlm) | ZDF | ✪

Vince (Benito Bause)

Robbie (Frédéric Brossier)

Levo (Arash Marandi)

Tom (Mads Hjulmand)

Andreas (Tom Keune)

Barbaren (2020-) (mlm) | Netflix

Marbod (Murathan Muslu)

Flavus (Daniel Donsky)

Beat (2018) (mlm) | Prime Video

Beat (Jannis Niewöhner) 

Becoming Charlie (2022-) (trans, mlm, wlw) | ZDF | ✪

Charlie (Lea Drinde)

Ronja (Sira-Anna Faal)

Mirko (Antonije Stankovic)

Blutige Anfänger (2020-) (mlm) | ZDF, YT

Michael Kelting (Werner Daehn)

Dr. Claas Steinebach (Martin Bretschneider)

Bruno Pérez (Martin Peñaloza Cecconi)

Phillip Schneider (Eric Cordes)

Charité (2017-) (wlw, mlm) | Netflix

Schwester Therese (Klara Deutschmann)

Otto Marquardt (Jannik Schümann)

Martin Schelling (Jacob Matschenz)

Dark (2017-2020) (wlw, mlm, trans) | Netflix

Peter Doppler (Stephan Kampwirth)

Bennie Wöller (Anton Rubtsov)

Doris Tiedemann (Tamar Pelzig/Luise Heyer)

Agnes Nielsen (Helena Pieske/Antje Trauer)

Deutschland 83/86/89 (2015-2020) (wlw, mlm) | Prime Video

Alex Edel (Ludwig Trepte)

Prof. Tobias Tischbier (Alexander Beyer)

Lenora Rauch (Maria Schrader)

Rose Seithathi (Florence Kasumba)

Dogs of Berlin (2018) (mlm) | Netflix

Erol Birkan (Fahri Yardim)

Guido Mack (Sebastian Achilles)

Dr. Klein (2014-2019) (mlm) | Netflix

Patrick Keller (Leander Lichti)

Kaan Gül (Karim Günes)

DRUCK (2018-) (wlw, mlm, trans) | YT | ✪

Fatou Jallow (Sira-Anna Faal)

Matteo Florenzi (Michelangelo Fortuzzi)

Zoe Machwitz (Madeleine Wagenitz)

Kieu My Vu (Nhung Hong)

Isi Inci (Eren M. Güvercin)

David Schreibner (Lukas von Horbatschewsky)

Yara Aimsakul (Elena Plyphalin Siepe)

Hans Brecht (Florian Appelius)

Eldorado KaDeWe – Jetzt ist unsere Zeit (2021-) (wlw) | ARD

Heidi Kron (Valerie Stoll)

Fritzi Jandorf (Lia von Blarer)

How to Sell Drugs Online (Fast) (2019-) (wlw) | Netflix

Fritzi (Leonie Wesselow)

Gerda (Luna Baptiste Schaller)

Kitz (2021) (mlm) | Netflix

Kosh Ziervogel (Zoran Pingel)

Hans Gassner (Ben Felipe)

Ku‘damm 56/59/63 (2016-2021) (mlm) | ZDF

Wolfgang von Boost (August Wittgenstein)

Hans Liebknecht (Andreas Pietschmann)

Der Kroatien Krimi/Split Homicide (2016-) (wlw) | ARD

Stascha Novak (Jasmin Gerat)

Loving Her (2021) (wlw) | ZDF | ✪

Hanna (Banafshe Hourmazdi)

Holly (Bineta Hansen)

Franzi (Lena Klenke)

Lara (Emma Drogunova)

Josephine (Karin Hanczewski)

Anouk (Larissa Sirah Herden)

Sarah (Soma Pysall)

Mord mit Aussicht (2018-2022) (wlw) | Netflix

Bärbel Schmied (Meike Droste)

Neumatt (2021-) (mlm) - Switzerland | Netflix

Michi Wyss (Julian Koechlin)

Joel Bachmann (Benito Bause)

Polizeiruf 110 (1971-) (queer/gnc) | ARD

Frankfurt/Świecko

Vincent Ross (Andre Kaczmarczyk)

SOKO Leipzig (2001-) (mlm) | ZDF

Moritz Brenner ( Johannes Hendrik Langer )

Tatort (1970-) (mlm, wlw) | ARD

Berlin

Robert Karow (Mark Waschke)

Hamburg

Julia Grosz (Franziska Weisz)

Saarbrücken

Esther Baumann (Brigitte Urhausen)

Wien

Meret Schande (Christina Scherrer)

Vorstadtweiber (2015-) (mlm) – Austria

Georg Schneider (Jürgen Maurer)

Joachim Schnitzler (Phillip Hochmair)

WIR (2021-) (wlw) | ZDF

Annika Baer (Eva Maria Jost)

Helena Kwiatkowski (Katharina Nesytowa)

Wendland (2023-) (wlw) | ZDF

Kira Engelmann (Paula Kalenberg)

Birthe (?)

Queer Eye Germany (2022) (mlm, nblm, trans) | Netflix

Avi Jakobs

Leni Bolt

Ayan Yuruk

Jan-Henrik Scheper-Stutke

Aljosha Muttardi

Notes: I may have forgotten to add some characters, because for most of the shows it has been some time since I last watched them. Please let me know if you want me to add a character or even show:)

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Jasmine Hendriks😘

[onydung]

Just a Touch : Too Fucking Close

Arthur x M!Reader/OC!Karsa Hendriks

CW : NSFW🚨 , Internalized Homophobia, Harsh Language, Violence (a bit) 

Synopsis : Trying to avoid his new closest friend, Arthur found himself even more closer to him tending to his bullet wounds from protecting him in a gang riot 

Note : Apologize in advance if this is insensitive or anything 🙏. I abandoned this one for a while cause I lost my brainrot for these babies but I found it after rolling in bed.

Masterlist | Moodboard | First | Second

GRAMMER NOT GOOD, PLEASE DON'T EAT ME

The smell of sanitized alcohol stings Arthur's nose. He's been sitting on a creaking chair for god knows how long with beaded sweat running down his forehead and back. 

Curse the wounded man in front of him, why does he have to be at his fucking club when a riot started? Why does he have to join the fight he wasn't even a part of? Why does he have to bother him all the time? Why did he have to be so...close?

The truth is Arthur has been avoiding Karsa for a couple of days now. He found himself a comfortable place in the man's company more than he ever felt then with his brothers after the war. He couldn’t help but think of him even when he went to work, finding himself smiling and longing for the moon to come faster so he could once again relax in the foggy jasmine room. 

However a great shame rise within him. A shame was instilled in him by his father when he showed him a drawing of the pretty horse running through the vast  field under the colorful rainbow. It made itself known in the knots in his stomach, the shivers down his back and the the loud vicious shouting in his head. It becomes unbearable to ignore the longer his mind spirals out of control with no one to comfort him except the glistening bottle of alcohol. 

Two days of silence was enough for Karsa to worry for him and seek him out to the place he worked, Eden's Club. Karsa have heard of the place, particularly from his coworkers and artist friends but the noise wasn't his cup of tea. As luck would have it the day he decided to visit was also the day a small rival gang decided to play big shot and ambush the club.

The small gang has no mercy, blinders and party goers alike were subject to the attack, Karsa was no exception. Thankfully Karsa was once a fighter and was able to take down some of them. As he was about to dispose of one of them his eyes caught the glint of a gun pointed at Arthur's back and like clockwork his body moved in between him and the death sentence.

It was only when the riot ended that Arthur realized Karsa's body was lying on the ground, he panicked, but he managed to transport him back to his apartment after a doctor confirmed his safety. He hasn't woken up though and the thought of Karsa dying seems more painful then what ever shame was piercing his chest before.

The rustle of the sheets pulls Arthur out of his daydream  greeted by a half seated Karsa looking worried at him.

"You look like shit! Are you alright?" his hand extend to Arthur whipping the bead of sweat falling from his creased forehead but instead perceiving it as a friendly gesture, Arthur's chest burned hotter then it should be

"WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU THINK YOU'RE DOING!!!" his hoarse voice echoes in Karsa's small apartment. "YOU ALMOST GOT YOURSELF FUCKING KILLED!!! WHY WERE YOU AT MY CLUB??"

The booming shouts pierce to Karsa's head, "Ouch what the hell? Is that a way to speak to a waking patient?"

"ANSWER THE QUESTION!! What were you doing there? You got a date there huh?"

"What? No!! Lower your voice down the neighbors are going to kill me more then this bullet"

With a puff "Why were you at my club Karsa?"

"You were avoiding me, I just wanted to know if you're okay" Arthur’s eyes widens and avoids Karsa's as he feels the deep guilt suffocating him once again.

Silence fell upon them. Arthur’s head spinning trying to find a way to explain his feelings. Men don’t fucking talk about their feelings with one another except this man looking at him was one that heard almost all of his sensitive feelings.

"Did I do something?" Karsa tries to make contact with him again, trying to establish eye contact 

Arthur didn't need to say anything, it was clear to Karsa that the man in front of him was uncomfortable with the question. Interpreting it as hatred towards him. 

"I'm sorry I got too close last time, i just thought ..." Arthur snapped his head at him finally making eye contact but like a deer in headlights clearly still in thought 

Karsa  stands up as the blanket keeping his wound hidden slips away from his body exposing his bandaged torso. His figure towers over Arthur, "I understand Arthur, thank you for nursing me back to health, if there isn't anything else you need from me I think you should leave"

"What?" his face snapped once again, as he feel his lungs collapsing hearing those words

"You don't have to tend to me anymore, I can take care of myself" He tries to move to the night stand only for his scar to sting once more "ahh"

"What the bloody hell are you doing you shithead?" Arthur's cursing filled with nothing but worried and as he cradle the injured man, which the man slapped his hand in rejection 

"Why did you even save me, if you hate me Arthur?" Karsa cradled himself, not wanting to look at his savior

"Hate?? I don't hate you? "

"If you were mad at me for being too close you can tell me but you ignored me for more then two days? And it doesn't look like you were any busier than any couple of days, so why? I know you're avoiding me "

Rage starts to build inside him, all these emotions staking brick by brick inside him is starting to make him irritated, he would have already wreck the entire apartment. if not for his tired eyes and Karsa's limping body, reminding him of  he was always the one that needed his help.

Breathing in the comforting smell of an oil lamp, the stinging smell sanitizing alcohol and the familiar smell of tobacco and jasmine, it somehow cools his nerves. He stepped forward and carefully cradled the injured man from the back to lead him back to his bed, sitting him down from the edge.

Face to face but sight not met, they sit in silence for a while not wanting to face each other or escaping their own head.

"I’m ashamed" Arthur was the first to break the silence, with his hands clutching on itself for dear life into a fist

"Ashamed that I relied on you too much on the shit in my head. Me brother always told me to shut the door on it and here I am every other night telling you all my monsters"

Karsa's hands reach out to him, untangling his fingers and re-tangling them with his. His thumbs rubbed the burnt spot from the cigar a couple of days ago like it just burned today. His head moved forward meeting Arthur's forehead this time neither of them backed away as they matched their breathing with each other.

"sorry, but when you call your feelings monsters its kinda funny"

'oh fuck off" instead of blowing up like usual, Arthur sinks his forehead further leaning on to the man.

"Your tired more then usual.. the bar fight really wore you out?"

"You were too fucking close to dying" Arthur tightens his grip on Karsa's hands "It fucking scared me, if I slept even a second and woken up to you dead I don't think I can take it"

With a chuckle Karsa responded, "That's an intense feeling for a just a friend"

Arthur's body tensed, his grip further tightened. The feeling of suffocating comes back into his lungs. It's a feeling he's accustomed to in the battlefield but there is no war, only a man and somehow worse. On the other hand Karsa cursed himself for even mentioning it, always saying the wrong thing. 

"Arthur" Karsa paused, thinking if he could try again it might break the mended bonds but his desire is stronger than his sense. "Do you trust me?"

Arthur could only respond with a low hum, he trusts him.

Forehead slipping away from the other as Karsa’s thick lips pressed against Arthur’s cold cheek. It feels like walking in a tight rope pumped up by adrenaline but afraid of the fall. Karsa's movement was light and slow trying to balance with him. 

A jolt was the only reaction Arthur gave, he didn't move and Karsa took it as a sign to continue, kissing the tense man's ear lobes then further down to his sweet neck. Arthur  sighs, holding his voice fearing if he gave in to his touch he'd lose all sense of control but it felt too good to pull away.

His hands untangled from Arthur’s, cupping his cheeks, holding his head up gently, meeting his cool colored eyes with his own warm dark ones. Without a word they stay in the safety of  Karsa’s apartment with only the light from the oil lamp as lumination. Syncing their breathing,calming their nerves. Under Karsa’s touch he relaxed his tense shoulder, the need for the man’s comforting hums overtaking his shame like the tide finally receded and the knots in his stomach untangled.

Their noses touched, feeling the cool air and appreciating each other's features.  Arthur’s eyes soften something he takes as a chance to finally do what he’s been dreaming of doing from the very first time they met. As their lips met their heart stopped a beat, Arthur’s rough stubble graze Karsa’s clean shaven chin. Arthur’s chest burned with desire, wanting more to touch. His own hand slithers to Karsa’s injured  torso, rubbing it gently. He deepens the kiss making his mustache rubbed on the dark haired man's nose which he will soon find amusing.

“Achooo! Shit!” Karsa’s sneeze broke their kiss and started Arthur’s familiar booming laughter, much missed from the past two days he was gone “Do you even wash your own mustache?”

“How fookin dare you, I clean them everytime I take a shower. Your just got a sensitive nose” 

“Then I guess we should stop this huh?” in turn with the teasing, he stood up pretending to walk out before Arthur stood up facing him

“Maybe we should eh? You kiss like a virgin” 

His warm eyes stared at the man, “I am a virgin and I was the one who started the kissing thing since your too scared”. Karsa pushed Arthur to his back on the bed and proceed to climb on top of him continuing their kiss that had been rudely interrupted by his own nose.

All the nerves finally left them leaving them with complete and utter desire for each other. Appreciating every freckles, scars, bumps, skin, bones and flesh. Their hands roam each others bodies like a the coil of mating snake in the wild, untamed ; a hand on a chest, a hand on the hair, lips on neck, lips on lips, a knee on groin. 

Soon they starts to grind against each other clinging to any sort of friction to satisfy each other. Grunts and moans exchanged through sloppy kisses as their tongue dance with each other. Releasing themselves of their cloth prison they pump each other’s members with a need, with want. Up and down continuously warming each other to the brink until they release their lust as it stain the cotton duvet.

Heavy breathing echoes in the room with laughter and smiles. The scary waves and booming shouts are seas away from where they are now. Karsa envelopes his arms around Arthurs lanky figure giving security. Arthurs wasn’t used to be the one that’s close to the chest but he’s accepting anything Karsa has to offer. 

Peppers of kisses run through the freckled ones shoulders. “So how was that for  a virgin?” 

Arthur chuckled, “Not the best, i prefer to hire women down at bar for a better hand job” 

“Awh what the fook! I thought you liked me” a pout was felt on his neck

Arthur turns his head just a bit go give the younger man a kiss on the forehead. “I do, that's why I’m excusing your horrendous job” They laughed and try to one up each other till Arthur felt a warm sensation down his back. 

“Shit! I think I opened my wound Art” 

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Just a Touch : Rough Night Soldier?

Arthur x M!Reader/OC!Karsa Hendriks

Summery : Arthur is in a daze after disposing a 'rat' in Tommy's request and ended up in front of his friends apartment.

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this is my first time uploading my fanfic and my grammer isn't great so please don't eat me alive thank you

'Rough night soldier?'

The comforting smell of burnt wood, tobacco and jasmine waken Arthur's tired eyes. Unbeknownst to him, his body took itself to the front steps of a familiar friend's apartment and now he's sitting on his sofa with a hand covered in blood, not his ofcourse.

"Aye" he couldn't bring himself to look anywhere but his shaking bloody hands. Another job to take care off, another body to dispose and another maddening night.

A warm towel envelopes his hands, scrubbing it off the remains of his victim. A victim to his viciousness with a beating pulse and a life, but of course anyone who dares cross the Shelby's will face the consequences. Even if their only sin is to breath at their direction.

'Heads up, let me clean your face!'

He does as he's told, like always, from his father, his comander and now his brother.

It's for the good of the family, sacrifices have to be made, they will all reap the reward in the end. But every time he follows orders, why is he in a deeper pit then the rest? It's so dark

'Hello *snap* *snap* Art!! Don't daydream too much or a spirit will possessyour body'

A small chuckle escape his thin dry lips. His friend sometimes have the same superstition as his aunt. How interesting that two people from each end of the earth would have the same believes.

"Don't worry mate, I'm already the devil yeah? No spirits will possess me" He laughs as the other scoffs

'Should have known the only way for you to wake up is to make fun of me' as a revenge the man infront of him scrub his face harder and a white shirt is thrown onto his lap as his companion plops onto the space besides him. Watching him.

'Thats the last good shirt I have this week before laundry day. You better not come here dirty again!'

This is their new routine now. Arthur would come to his friend's house either drunk, high, in a trance or all three at once and his companion would take care of him until the song bird calls for his return.

He would feel guilty about using his kindness like this but it doesn't seem like the other man mind. So he assumes he's welcome anyways.

When Arthur finish putting on the shirt, a loud cough followed by a puff of heavy dark smoke emits from his companions mouth.

'SHIT!!'

Another laugh comes from Arthur this time with a booming sound,

"HAHAHA Your really bad with cigars eh?"

'SHUT THE FUCK UP YOU PRICK, this shit is strong'

Arthur's snatch the fat cigar from his friends fingers and takes a long hard suck as the heavy smoke travels his lungs, coating it with tar. He puffs out slowly but surely, the kiss of death.

"This shit! Is for real men. Not like yours small ones"

'Whatever Art' he snatches back the cigar he lit and tries to do the same but failing at the last second and was mocked again with the chuckle of the moustached men as they countine to share the cigar between eachother.

Nights like these would make him forget what he was doing just 5 hours ago. It's certainly no Tokyo but it does the trick and usually leave no side effects. Just two best friends together in a smoke filled room, alone.

"Do you think I'll ever be normal?"

'There aints such thing as normal Art. Just work with what you have and try to move forward'

"But what if I'm tired? What if I don't want to move forward? I can't shut the door like Tommy tells me to!"

'Then you fix the hinge, oil it up and air out the smoke once in awhile. It's not like a door is just for closing'

With that comment, finally every thread in Arthur's body snapped. Another booming laugh emerge, what a stupid thing to say. Tears and sobs accompany his laughter he couldn't stop himself its almost hysterical. The dam is broken and everything is on fire.

'Uh..Art.. the Cigar?"

The last light of the cigar finally went out, burning Arthur's finger in the process but the man was too caught up in tears to react as his companion hold his burnt fingers and rubs it with his own. Arthur laughed and cried for a long time that night and through it, his friend didn't say a word while calming the wound. And for that, Arthur never felt more thankful.

Notes : YEEHAW!! I hoped you all understand my incoherent writing. I wrote this as I was waiting for my lecturer to come for assistances. I have not sleep and I crave Arthur. YEEHEE!!! 🍉🍉🍉

Also I have no idea the differences of the different smokes, just pulling it out of my ass.

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Botanical illustrations by Hendrik van Reede tot Drakestein (1637?-1691).

Coloured line engravings.

1) Mango (Mangifera indica) 1683

2) Indian Copal (Vateria indica) 1683

3) Niepa Bark Tree (Quassia indica) 1686

4) Connarus pinnatus Lam (1686)

5) Cittwodi, Hawar or Manchingi (Dolichandrone falcata Seem.) 1686

6) Guatteria sempervirens DC (1685)

7) Mangrove Tree (Rhizophora mucronata Lam) 1686

8) Arabian Jasmine (Jasminum sambac) 1686

9) China Rose or Shoe Flower (Hibiscus rosa-sinensis) 1686

10) Lannea coromandelica (1683)

Images and text information courtesy Wellcome Collection. CC BY