#jamessunderlandkin

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I keep trying to make a home for myself in kin servers but apparently when you're James Sunderland everyone makes you a joke or a punching bag :( Like they're not being mean AT me specifically but like, come on guys I'm right here could you not make fun of my core ID?

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Jacket HotllineMiami, James Sunderland, and now Father Gascoigne from Bloodborne... Can I catch a break? More importantly can the women in my ilfe PLEASE catch a break????? I hate the Kinmonality of Dead Wife/Girlfriend just let me be happy with women I love universe, just once please!! (Also To The Girlfriend, and Mary, and Viola, I still love all of you dearly, I hope each and every one of you is doing well)

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I don't know how to express my guilt. I drove into the water, why am I here again? Can I really not atone after death? I don't know what to do anymore. I don't think I can search for Mary here... I'm supposed to be dead, not walking. I know what I did was wrong. I know the blood on my hands and my guilt intimately. But why am I here? I'm sorry, Mary. - James Sunderland (fictive, #quix❤️)

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Hey it's James Sunderland.I know I fucked up, very, very badly, but it still hurts when people paint me as completely evil. I regret what I did, but you didn't have to watch her suffer, watch her deteriorate. I didn't know what else to do, at the time it seemed so cruel to let doctors keep dragging things out. Sometimes your best judgement is still very bad. Also, Mary if you see this I hope you can forgive me, I still love you, I hope you're suffering less in this life (pls Tag murder cw)

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this body just feels so wrong, you know? I'm too short. too.. curved, in the hips and chest especially. this isnt how i should look. And the jacket i got to help with all this is honestly kinda long on me (god knows ill keep wearing it) -james sunderland

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I'm James Sunderland and for some reason I'm really comforted by all of the monsters I encountered in Silent Hill? Especially Pyramid Head for some reason??? Why am I like this??? Regardless, if any Silent Hill Monsters (Even ones not from SH2) see this, I love you, you're great, have a nice day

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I don't miss Mary. I miss the domestic stability of marriage. But now in this life, I had another woman abuse me and.. Can we stop acting like women are never abusive? For fuck sake. But I don't have to worry about either of them now. But they'll always be there in the back of my mind. Right next to all the problems they caused. -(James Sunderland)

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Mary emotionally abused me towards the end of her life. I wanted to make her happy but because she was dying she wanted us to be buried together. How do people expect me to feel guilt over this? I tried to make her happy but she was ruining me. For gods' sake. I got her this porcelain bird, she threw it at the wall near me and I remember that scar I got from it. Being a teensy tiny canon diversion... (-James Sunderland)

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Just cause I regret what I did, doesn’t mean I’m sorry. He was going to hurt Alyssa. - James

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I was a trans man in my James Sunderland canon and TBH I'm always scared I'll never find anyone I cared about from that canon. After all, what Mary out there would remember being by my side as I transitioned?

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I'm James Sunderland and *Shouts into a Megaphone* I MISS AND LOVE MY WIFE, EVEN THOUGH I DEFINITELY DIDN'T DESERVE SOMEONE AS PERFECT AS HER. But seriously Mary was sweet and wonderful and I never understand how an eccentric dumbass like me ended up with her

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james sunderland here. mary, im so sorry. i just. i couldnt watch you suffer like that anymore. i wish i could be with you again in this life, but you probably despise me for what i did. im sorry i never got take you back to silent hill. i miss you.

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im james sunderland and i kinda want to find my mary but im not sure i could face her again. i did kill her after all.

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I kin with a character that is loved by a lot of anti otherkin people and I'm scared of being harassed for it (that character is James from Silent Hill 2)