#jake & john it's on fuckin SIGHT

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Let The Light in - Part 1

Chapter Summery - You have a discussion about your future patrolling with Tommy and meet your new patrol partner

Content - Mentions of canon typical violence, very brief mentions of suicide, recalling someone’s death, emotionally constipated reader<3, not proofread so probably spelling errors, shitty writing, use of ‘—‘ indicates timeskip, it’s either specified or not but use context clues to figure it idk, reader is not given any physical description and if I accidentally did please let me know I want to make my writing as including as possible, no use of yn but is called “hun” once.

Word Count - 2.6k

Jackson, the wonderful peaceful town, one that seems too good to be true. Nothing like your life for the past 20 years, filled with blood, havoc and destruction. A town you yourself have a hard time believing isn't a figment of your imagination, that maybe the knife wound you survived months ago really took you out and now your body’s rotting somewhere while your mind conjures a reality to help you find peace.

Or maybe you really did stumble upon Jackson a few months ago and you're lying in bed, covered in a warm feather duvet that the older women on your street had made you as a welcoming gift, only for a few weeks later for her to pass away in her bed. A death that is merciful and natural. Not one by getting ripped apart by infected, or shot through the skull by raiders, or even yourself. It was bizarre to see somebody live their full life, something not many achieve.

Yet that may be your fate, it's bold to assume that you will be able to spend the rest of your life here, whether you don't because you are exiled or it all comes crumbling down from raiders, infected, God knows what. But it's nice to think, not for too long though because your alarm is blaring in your fucking ear.

Yup this is definitely real

You rub your eyes and arch your back to stretch your spine out and groan, trying not to let the comfort of your pillow persuade you into spending the day in bed and leaving your duties unfulfilled. After sitting up and pushing the button on your alarm clock you start your morning tasks; brushing your hair and teeth, getting dressed and drinking a glass of water to remove the sticky feeling in your mouth that developed overnight.

You gather what you need for your patrol with Tommy, a man who welcomed you into this town (not before pointing a gun to your head first though) with a fair amount of kindness. More than you expected considering you were the one wandering their territory after specific warnings not to by the older couple you'd encountered several miles back.

Tying up your boots before slinging your backpack over your shoulder and stepping outside. The cold early morning summer air blankets you as you walk towards the gates to meet Tommy as you do twice a week, Tuesdays and Thursdays and your third patrol of the week you do with Jake on Saturday, despite your distaste for him which wouldn’t exist if he could pull his weight better instead of leaving you to do all of your heavy lifting; so you much prefer your patrols with Tommy, whom you see small-talking a guard while waiting for your arrival.

“Hey there thought you weren't coming.” He says with an unserious manner and a grin. “God I fuckin’ wish” You say deadpan, Tommy responding with a chuckle.

“Everything all good? I'm ready to head out.” You ask.

“Yup.” he states, handing you your rifle that you once regularly hauled around before being accepted into the community. “Thanks.” You say before being stopped by the sight of Dave, the man who primarily runs the stables bringing two horses to you.

“Hey guys.” The older man says to formally announce his presence, handing the respected leads to you. “Ah thanks bud you didn't have to bring ‘em for us” Says Tommy. “Well I was up, and if I wait around in this weather for too long my joints get stiff.” He says, shaking his head in discomfort.

“Oh? The old man got sore old man joints? Who woulda’ guessed?” Tommy says looking up at him and down playfully with a smile

“Oh fuck off you’re not too far behind me are ya, just wait till your kiddo starts crawlin’, your be looking just like me.” He smirks. “Oh tell me about it, Marias been counting the greys in my hair lately as a ‘calming activity’ she says it is before bed.”

“Oh trust me I know all about getting greys look at me” He laughs before continuing. “Well, I don't wanna keep you much longer, you still coming to the stables later hun?” He looks towards you.

“Uh-huh, sorry I wasn't there last night. I just got a bit caught up in some housework” You apologise.

“Don't worry about it, not tryna hound you were just wondering 'cause Ellie came around after dinner asking for Ya.”

Oh shit, you were supposed to meet her there. Fuck.

“Oh yeah- I- I'll tell her I'm sorry it completely slipped my mind”. You speak a bit mumbled while shuffling your feet in the small patches of weeds that you stand on.

With silence in the air after your sentence Dave walks away with a smile, leaving you and Tommy to mount your horses and head out.

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“Bit of a chilly morning today huh?” Tommy declares, breaking the silence that's held you between for the first few minutes since you stepped out of the gates.

“It is, can't say I’m complaining though. This summer's heat has been kicking my ass.” You laugh. “Thank God for the running water y'all got because I sure as hell don't miss being all gross and sweaty from the heat.”

Tommy lets out a light chuckle in response then stays silent, uncharacteristically so. You take a glance towards him, he's looking at his horse's hooves with a solemn look on his face, watching as it takes each step forward and leaves a print in the grass as he walks.

“What?” You say. Tommy brings his head toward you. “Are you planning on bringing me out here and dumping me or something?” You joke attempting to lighten the mood but he still stays silent before he takes a deep breath. “I recognize that you do a lot, I do I-” He communicates before clearly trying to get his words in order. “Marias have been swamped lately, between taking care of the baby and helping manage the community”. He takes another breath before continuing. “What I'm tryna’ say is I'm not gonna be on patrols for the next few weeks to help Maria around.”

Oh, That’s not what you were expecting.

Tommy looks at you while you continue to stare at him in surprise so he takes your lack of verbal response as a cue to continue.

“My brother Joel, y’know the one who stopped in for a bit with Ellie this winter?” He continues to stare back at you in hopes of a response, but you just give him a hum and look forward toward the end of the trail you're reaching. “We’ve been talking about a job for him to do now that he and Ellie are all settled in and we agreed that patrols would be best for… his type of skill set.” He says while ending his sentence with a pause.

“So I’m gonna be patrolling with him, is what you're saying?” You ask, looking towards him.

“Yeah-I uh am. I trust you, you're one of our best and I don't worry ‘bout ya out there. My brother can take care of himself but I like to know he's with someone he doesn't have to supervise.” Tommy admits. “Plus I hope he won't be as much of a dick to yuh, 'cause you're a girl y’know? No offence.” He stutters out, attempting to backtrack.

“Um, none taken. I get what you're saying” You say a bit awkwardly, staying mute for a moment while trying to formulate your next sentence. “So when, this Thursday?” You ask, staying professional. At the end of the day, this is a job and despite Tommy and Maria's insistence on getting comfortable here, you remain stubborn in your ways. It is not easy for you to forget the strenuous life you had been living, at least not yet, you'll still keep your guard high.

Tommy's face morphs into an amalgamation of confusion. “Is that all?” He asks.

“I don't think it's my place to complain about my coworkers, and what am I gonna say Tommy” You huff. “No don't help your wife and child keep, doing patrols with me and tell your brother to go fuck yourself?”

“Well I fucking hope not.” Tommy says with a glare, clearly offended by the sudden spike in your attitude. “You sure seem to have an issue though.”

To be fair, you did come across as a bit harsh. Tommy looks at you a moment longer, probably waiting for a continuation of your apology that wasn't coming. “Alright then.” He grunts and kicks the side of his horse faster, bringing the animal to trot and walking in front of you, keeping physical distance between the two of you.

You’re not sure if you should make a formal apology to Tommy or stay silent, Tommy’s a fairly confrontational man but you know you couldn't give the apology that's warranted even if you tried. So staying as silent as possible for the rest of your patrol it is.

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“Ellie?” You yell entering the stable, hay scrambling around your boots as you walk further looking for the girl.

“Back here!” You hear her voice yell from the back of the stable. You already know that she’s with her favourite horse Shimmer, despite her insistence that she doesn’t pick favourites her actions heavily contradict that.

“Shocker you're with your favourite.” You speak as you come into her view. “Shocker you didn't forget about me again.” She bites.

You raise your hands in surrender. “Fair enough I deserve that.” You admit. “I meant to apologise to you yesterday after my shift with Tommy but I felt a bit weird knocking on your now ya’know?”

“Why would you feel weird?” She inquires, to your surprise her demeanour wasn't accusatory, but confused.

“I'm going patrol with Joel tomorrow? I just figured meeting him for the first time whilst apologising to you wouldn't be the best impression when my life's gonna be in his hands tomorrow.” You answer.

“You’re going on patrol with Joel tomorrow?!” She exclaims. You’d been wrong about your assumption that she'd already known.

“Yeah we are.” You confess a bit awkwardly. “I figured he told you already.”

“No he hadn’t.” She says with a smirk. “I hope you two don’t kill each other.” Grinning even more with the added statement. Now you're the one to be confused, unsure of the meaning behind her sentence.

“You guys would just like, totally butt heads is all.” She clarifies with a smile still sitting on her face. “But no he didn't tell me, he doesn't tell me shit ever actually.”

“Oh… well do you think Shimmer needs any brushing?”

Ellie giggles at your obvious deflection from the conversation. “Sure I guess.” She says, not pressing you further on the matter. In all fairness you're not sure what else she could ask, that's about the extent of it all.

Just that you're going on patrol with Joel tomorrow.

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“Hi.” You say pulling your hand out, waiting for it to be shaken.

“Hey, I'm Joel.” He says pulling his own hand out of its pocket and shaking yours.

“I’d introduce myself but I'm sure Tommy told you and gave you the rundown.” You say with a bit of a nervous chuckle tailing it.

“Oh-uh yeah, he has.” He says “My Ellie told me a bit ‘bout you too, she says you showed her how to pick out the horse's hooves?” He asks a bit awkwardly, but you can't be upset when you yourself have yet to master the polite small talk that's needed in a community like Jackson.

“Um yeah I did. I help around the stables a bit, I like horses.” You say matter-of-factly. “Sometimes I help around with the dogs too, but that's usually just meal prepping for them.”

“Oh yeah. I've seen dogs that eat as good as those guys but I guess kibble ain't available huh.” He says, referencing their diet of fresh meat and produce.

“Yeah not really.” You quip.

You both look at eachother, standing parallel, both with hands back in your pockets. You rock back and forth on your feet before speaking again. “Well uh- are you ready to hit the road.” You say, clearing your throat near the end.

“Yeah for sure I’ll grab the horses for us.” He raises his hand and points with his thumb toward the stables.

“Okay.” You nod, watching him as he walks away.

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The ride to the power plant was silent, it didn't need much communication considering your jobs were fairly simple. The only mind Joel paid to you was the occasional glance he'd steal at you, probably from being uncomfortable and wary in your presence.

You ride side by side about a few thousand yards away from your destination, you embrace the ambiance and ride in comfortable silence while scanning your surroundings for any signs of trouble, while rounding the bended trail, you spot a pair of infected crouched over an object to your right.

“Joel.” You say just quiet enough for him to hear, more quiet than necessary. You’re sure that they wouldn’t be able to hear your call to Joel over their growling and the rustling of their frenzied movements still, you nod your head towards the sight of the infected as he takes a look.

“Stay here.” He grumbles while dismantling off his horse.

“No.” You get off your horse as well tying her next to the tree that Joel’s started a knot around for his horse. You see his glare at your face through your peripheral vision. “What?”

His mouth turns into a frown, his eyebrows collapse down towards the centre of his face. The line on his forehead becomes much more prominent while giving you a look to kill before walking away. You follow him towards the infected and pull your machete from its sheath and see that Joel has pulled his hatchet out of his.

With a brief moment of eye contact and understanding between each other you both bring your horses into a fast trot, drawing your weapons and preparing for the bloodshed. You ride toward the two and can't help but feel a rush of adrenaline, this is what you are good at, what you are equipped for. You were in your element, you felt alive.

As you reach the infected you take charge, movements fluid and precise you take down the infected. Joel stays behind and watches, silently as you execute the infected, him the other.

The moment of intensity quickly dies down as the two of you stay still with heaving chests before the silence is broken by Joel.

“Let’s go”

[pesterloglog]

Jade Harley, Dave Strider, Karkat Vantas

Candy, page 19

JADE: how cute do you guys think johns baby is going to be

JADE: like on a scale of 1-11???

DAVE: i dunno

DAVE: i still havent come to terms with the fact that johns gonna be a dad

JADE: you dont think hell be a good one?

DAVE: i didnt say that but ok since you asked

DAVE: i mean think about it if you were gonna rank us in order of maturity based on all the years weve known each other

DAVE: about where would you put john

KARKAT: BELOW ME BUT ABOVE YOU.

DAVE: yeah exactly

DAVE: now hes all married and pregnant and hes got a mustache

KARKAT: I’M STILL NOT OVER THE FUCKING MUSTACHE.

JADE: why not he looks so good!!

DAVE: yeah he looks disturbingly good

DAVE: i almost cant talk to him anymore it looks so good

JADE: ohhhhh?

DAVE: jesus jade dont fuckin read into it

DAVE: a bro can appreciate how attractive his bro has become and maybe get a little breathless at the sight of his chiseled jawline and manly facial hair without being gay about it

DAVE: ive just been thinking lately everytime i see him that hes

DAVE: ok dont make fun of me for saying this but its like

DAVE: johns a Man

DAVE: not a lowercase m man but a fully grown up legit fuckin Dude with a leather briefcase and a suit that he only wears on special occasions

KARKAT: PRETTY FUCKED UP.

DAVE: i know right

JADE: hmmmm...

JADE: well...

JADE: ive actually been thinking lately about how since rose and kanaya had a kid and jane and jake had a kid and john and roxy are gonna have a kid.......

JADE: what would you think if maybe...

JADE: ....we had kids???

KARKAT: WHAT

KARKAT: WHO? YOU AND DAVE?

JADE: no stupid all three of us!

DAVE: uhhh

JADE: what??

DAVE: uhhhhhhh

JADE: look i know there are “issues” to sort out in terms of um....... feasibility

JADE: but i think there are a lot of options to consider!

JADE: maybe someone can help us out

JADE: like.... someone we know?

JADE: or i dont know! what about adoption!

JADE: that could be cute! adopting a little grub!! aww...

JADE: or a human! whatever! im not picky

DAVE: uhhhhhhhhhhhhh

KARKAT: UHHHHHH IS FUCKING RIGHT.

KARKAT: JADE, DON’T YOU READ THE NEWSPAPERS?

KARKAT: THE NEW ADMINISTRATION IS CRACKING DOWN ON CERTAIN KINDS OF INTERSPECIES ADOPTION LAWS.

KARKAT: IF YOU’RE SO INTENT ON IT BEING “THE THREE OF US,” WE LITERALLY WILL NOT BE ABLE TO ADOPT A HUMAN CHILD BECAUSE THE HUMAN ADMINISTRATION IS AFRAID THAT I’D...

KARKAT: I DON’T KNOW.

KARKAT: TEAR INTO IT, AND FEAST ON ITS ORGANS.

KARKAT: AND IN THAT KIND OF POLITICAL CLIMATE? WELL, I’M NOT SURE IT’S A WORLD I WOULD WANT TO RAISE A TROLL CHILD IN RIGHT NOW.

DAVE: jokes on them ive never seen you tear into anything more complicated than a microwave dinner

KARKAT: I KNOW, RIGHT?

DAVE: i mean on the other hand if we adopt a kid young enough it would totally fit in the microwave

KARKAT: WHAT THE FUCK, DAVE. I’M NOT GONNA EAT OUR THEORETICAL BABY.

DAVE: yeah dude i know

DAVE: youre probably like closet dad of the fuckin year

DAVE: just waiting for his moment to shine

DAVE: i bet youd whine and complain about getting a kid til we actually brought junior home

DAVE: the moment you saw his chubby lil cheeks your face would light right up

JADE: oh... i can imagine the look on karkats face right now

JADE: heheh

DAVE: yeah you know exactly the one

DAVE: like how he looks when his hot pocket finishes cooking in the microwave

DAVE: which he understands is an instrument of food preparation

DAVE: and not some sort of grim infant warming device

KARKAT: WHY DID YOU HAVE TO BRING IT BACK TO THE MICROWAVE?

DAVE: oh

DAVE: cause i had more jokes to make about the subject

KARKAT: OF COURSE. GOD FORBID JADE AND I ARE NOT FORCED TO LISTEN TO EVERY LETTER OF YOUR MORBID INTERNAL DIALOGUE.

DAVE: whatever you love it

DAVE: anyway

DAVE: on the baby in the microwave front

KARKAT: GOD

DAVE: id be more worried about me being the one whod do the deed so to speak

DAVE: i mean its not like ive got a great demonstrative background in child rearing or anything

DAVE: considering all the places i got left as a kid i wouldnt be surprised if id just put our baby in the toaster by accident or something

DAVE: like if you tally up the amount of hours i spent locked in the fridge compared to the amount of hours i spent in the american school system learning how to be normal and do polynomials

DAVE: just sayin it looks dire

JADE: .....

KARKAT: ...

DAVE: yeah so anyway im gonna stick to hot pockets i think

JADE: dave

JADE: you really think youd make that bad a father?

JADE: even with me and karkat helping you?

DAVE: eh dont take this personally but im an evidence based hypothesis kinda guy and so far three way relationships in our friend group attempting parenthood...

DAVE: the record aint so lookin so good

DAVE: just saying

DAVE: a clown a fascist and a male sex icon walk into a bar sounds like the start of a bad but funny joke

DAVE: but when its the start of a family thats when it gets a bit less funny to me

DAVE: poor little dude gonna be fucked up

JADE: oh come on dave

JADE: tavros is a cute kid!

KARKAT: SURE, HE IS *NOW*.

DAVE: the moment cognitive function starts firing off in that kids head hes gonna be scarred for life

JADE: we dont KNOW that

DAVE: jade i know jakes like your bestie

DAVE: and also your grandfather

DAVE: and also kinda your grandson

DAVE: oh also your fucking dad i guess

DAVE: but his relationship is bad

JADE: hey... thats...

JADE: not NECESSARILY true...

KARKAT: YOU’RE RIGHT, IT’S NOT FUCKING TRUE.

KARKAT: DAVE’S JUST BEING GENTLE HERE TO SPARE YOUR FEELINGS.

KARKAT: HIS RELATIONSHIP IS NOT MERELY “BAD”

KARKAT: HIS RELATIONSHIP IS A FLAMING WRECK OF AN INTERSTELLAR WARSHIP HURTLING TOWARDS THE PLANET AT TERMINAL VELOCITY WITH THE ENTIRE CREW BRUTALLY SLAUGHTERED UPON REENTRY, SHOVED STRAIGHT DOWN THE CHAGRIN TUNNEL AND THEN IMMEDIATELY SHAT OUT THE OTHER SIDE, THUS FLOODING THE ENTIRE FUCKING NEIGHBORHOOD WHEN IT CLOGS UP THE LOAD GAPER.

JADE: ...its not like i dont know that

JADE: john never shuts up about it

JADE: i mean, he and jane used to be close back when we all first met but last time i talked to john he....

JADE: well, he accused her of “raping” jake

DAVE: oh shit

KARKAT: YOU DON’T FUCKING SAY.

JADE: its not like i dont worry about jake but come on!

JADE: were all adults

JADE: what am i supposed to do? show up at his window dressed like the blue fairy and whisk him away from his terrible life??

JADE: maybe that would work for a few days, but one thing i learned from dating around a lot in my youth is that no ones going to leave a bad relationship until its THEIR idea to leave

JADE: its...

JADE: ME???

DAVE: holy shit

KARKAT: WHAT IN THE EVER LIVING FUCK?

DAVE: uh

DAVE: good question

DAVE: idk but we should probably get her some help

KARKAT: HELP? FOR WHAT??

KARKAT: IT LOOKS LIKE HER INTERNAL ORGANS ARE OBLITERATED. SHE’S COVERED IN MORE BLOOD THAN I THOUGHT HUMANS EVEN HAD INSIDE THEM.

DAVE: well we cant just leave her in this fuckin hole man

DAVE: come on gimme a hand

KARKAT: JADE?

KARKAT: DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA WHAT’S GOING ON HERE??

KARKAT: WHAT SHOULD WE DO ABOUT THIS

DAVE: hey jade you hear us

DAVE: jade???

JADE: yes dave i heard you

JADE: i need to talk to jane

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The Diner 'Round The Corner

Cw: food/food description, violence mention, alcohol mention, age gap ( s/I is in early twenties, John is like 45, for the rest of the ages please read the description of my Military Goofballs Half Ocs).

->Only Mutuals Okay To Reblog

Summary: After coming back from Afghanistan the Alpha Commando goes to a Brand New 80s themes dinner and fall in love at first sight with the lovely waitress that take their order.

Taglist: @tex-treasures @samsbeckett

Ah, yes, hot summer days, who doesnt love them?.

The sun shines, the Sky is clear, and theres so much things to do with Friends! You can go to the beach, to the arcade, have a picnic. Or go to pretty diners!

Now, to say that the Alpha Commando team missed civilian life was an understatement, after being in Afghanistan for so long, it was nice to be back home and enjoy a calmer and safer life.

And one of the first things they decided to do, them being the ever close Group of friends, was to go to one of this dinners, it was called Four-Wheeled Dinner, which prided itself in its 80s Retro aesthetic and food served by Rollerskating Waiters and Waitresses.

As the men entered they could hear Suzzane's Vega "Tom's Dinner" playing in the background, quickly scooting to a booth with a Window to the outside.

I am sitting in the morning at the diner on the corner

I am waiting at the counter for the man to pour the coffee

And he fills it only halfway, and before I even argue

He is looking out the window at somebody coming in

Nova sighed looking at her co-worker, Jake, pour coffee on a mug, the place was crowded and both were going to get chewed out if he didnt hurry.

Shes about to say something when she turns her head to the outside of the dinner.

There were five men, military for sure, they all gave off those vibes-- You know 'em?-- Nova asked.

Jake shook his head and finished pouring the coffee-- sort of? My dads a friend of those guys, I didnt expect them to come back from Afghanistan so soon though..

--Huh, well, do you want to go take their order?

--No,they scare the living shit out of me-- Jake answered and handed the tray with food to her.

Nova rolled her eyes and started skating towards the table that ordered that coffee he took forever to pour.

--Man isnt it crazy to be back home? I mean we almost died back there in afghan...-- Said Thomas flipping through the menu.

--Right there with ya buddy, its unnerving how calm this ambience in, noise and all-- agreed Jason-- Man this Burgers look amazing, I think I might order myself one of those

--Agreed -- Added Duncan taking off his sunglasses and leaving them besides his phone-- What about you sarge, what are you getting?

--I honestly dont know, after eating out of a can for months having fast food is weird-- answered Seargeant John Morris-- those fries sure look good though

Jason Turned to his friend Lucas, and snorted-- Check out Lucas over here, Like a kid in fuckin' christmas

--Oh come on! You know how much I like the 80s-- Lucas snapped back.

Their bantering stopped when the sound of rollerblades stopping caught their attention.

--Hello! My name is Nova, May I take your order, gentlemen?

The Alpha Commando had to do a double take, infront of their table was a young woman, perhaps around early 20s, Brown hair in a bun. She was wearing a Pink 80s waitress outfit with a white apron, her green eyes seemed to shine as the various lights hit her face.

She was, without doubts, very,very beautiful, her smile was warm and cheerful, but slowly Turned into a confused look as the men before her did not answer her question.

--Oh yes sorry,sorry-- Lucas was the first one to talk, saving him and his Friends from looking weird as shit-- we couldnt quite hear you over the noise of the dinner.

That seemed enough to convince the young woman that in fact, the five of them were not weirdos, because there was quite a lot of noise.

--We'll get two burgers-- Said Jason-- the ones with Bacon and fried eggs, you up for some fries, macy?

Duncan nodded-- Sure, and could you bring us some beer?

Nova quickly scribbled down the order-- Sure, what else?

-- ill take a stake with fries and some soda-- John followed up.

--Can you add another Burger, fries, and beer for me?-- asked Lucas.

--Sure!, and you?-- the waitress asked Thomas, who jumped slightly on his Seat.

--Uh,just a club sandeich and soda--He answered.

Nova muttered the order under her breath, then she nodded again and her bright smile returned-- Okay, anything else I can do for you?

Duncan was going to answer "can you give me your number?" But quickly dismissed the idea, given his and his Friends prior behavior. The place was crowded and the last thing this poor overworked soul needed was his ass asking her for her number.

--the son of a friend of ours works here, you know a guy named Jake? Jake Smith?-- asked John.

--Yeah hes a friend of mine,why?

--Just say hi for us, its been a while since we saw him

Nova giggled remebering what Jake had told her about these guys-- Sure, well, be right back, gentlemen --And so she rollerskated away back to the kitchen.

The five of them let out a relieved sigh.

--Nice save, folken-- Macy complimented.

Lucas gave his friend an acknowledgement nodd-- how did you know Jake worked here?

--his dad mentioned it in one of the letters he sent me-- answered John.

Meanwhile in the kitchen, Nova was handing out the order she just took to jake-- the guys that freak you out send their regards

Jake looked a bit panicked, quickly grabbing the paper with the order-- please hand them the food

--Why do they freak you out so much?--the woman inquired.

--Cause they are military dudes! They are jacked as shit! Im scared ill mess up their order and get the crap beaten out of me!

--oh come on J! I think they are nice, anyway, I have more food to deliver, be right back-- She Answered and rolled away.

20 or so minutes later the food was ready and Nova quickly delivered it to the Alpha Commando.

--Okay, let me know if theres anything else I can help you with, enjoy your food

--We'll be just fine with this--John assured-- heres the money and a tip

As she counted the money and the tip her eyes went wide-- I,-- thank you for your generosity, its..well its nice, yknow with the dinner being packed up

--yeah, not to mention the Karens that come in an out-- Duncan added-- I worked in retail so I know your pain, kid

Nova laughed and nodded-- they are a nightmare arent they? Well, lovely to chat with you guys and sorry to cut the conversation short but you know-- she vaguely gestures at the sea of people in the dinner.

--Much work to be done-- Duncan quickly followed up.

--Exactly,thank you again for the tip and have a nice day!-- and so the waitress went away, leaving the men wanting to talk to her a bit more.

At the end of the day, Jake and Nova recounted the money they made, with most of the staff gone it was the two of them on the end of their shift, waiting for the night staff to arrive.

--And they tipped you how much?!-- Jake asked.

-- two hundred dollars--Nova answered-- this just gives me more evidence that they are nice

The man rolled his eyes-- Whatever, Well...guess we are getting a bonus Next week

--We sure Will, well im off to my home, see you tomorrow jake--she gave him a quick hug and now that she was in her usual every day wear (With the rollerskates still on) left to her home.

Three days later the Alpha commando had returned to the dinner, this time during the afternoon.

Nova was quite excited when she saw them pass the threshold of the dinners door, today was somewhat of a quiet day so she quickly went to their table to take their order.

--Gentlemen, nice to see you again-- She said with a smile.

Duncan was the first to answer, taking off his glasses and returning her smile-- with such a good service who wouldnt want to come back?-- he flirted.

The waitress' cheeks went Pink, almost matching her uniform-- thats very nice of you, so, what can I do for you on this lovely afternoon?

--Well, I havent eaten Apple pie in a while-- Said Jason-- so how about a slice of that and a latte

--add another applepie slice and some lavender lemonade-- Added Thomas.

--Uh-huh-- Nova mumbled-- what else?

--Well I want a capuccino and a cherry pie-- answered Duncan.

--ill get a strawberry lemonade and a chocolate cake-- Lucas followed up.

--And ill get just a black coffee-- John ordered.

The rest of the seargeant Friends looked at him.

--Just a black coffee?, really searge?-- Duncan said-- old age is getting to you huh.

--Shut the fuck up, macy-- Warned John.

--Thats okay, he gets a senior discount, hes playing it Smart-- the waitress added, hoping they would take it lightly.

Thomas was the first one to start laughing, then Lucas, Duncan and Jason, John was the last one to join in but not before answering back with a quip of his own.

--Well, if I get a senior discount im guessing that you get a "Kids eat free" pass, huh?

Nova processed the comment before letting out a cackle-- okay, I totally deserved that, nice one--The seargeant nodded in agreement with a smile-- okay, ill be right back with you guys' order

--Oh just before you go!-- Thomas said-- I hope this isnt too forward but would you like to sit with us for a while? You seem fun to hang out with

Nova smiled-- sure, my break is in ten minutes, once I bring your order ill go find a chair and sit with you, even join you in your afternoon snack if thats okay with y'all?

The men nodded-- dont worry, we dont mind-- answered Duncan.

And with that she rolled back to the kitchen.

After a bit she came back with the food plus a tray for herself.

On the right side of the booth were Jason and Lucas, on the left side,Thomas, John and Duncan.

Nova sat infront of the latter witt a soft -- Excuse me-- and Gently took her food out of the tray.

Once both of said trays were empty she carefully placed them on the floor

--What you get?-- Lucas was the first to ask.

--Hot coco and two croissants, Comfort food, im working the night shift today so ill need all the happiness I can get

--Thats rough...--Duncan said-- do you need someone to walk you home?

--If its not too much trouble, I dont like walking back home alone

--Whens your shift over?-- he asked again

--Uh, ten thirty pm,-- she answered.

Nodding, macy took a sip of his drink, and the conversation changed into something more casual.

The Alpha Commando soon found out that this girl was a Ray of sunshine,she was funny, charismatic, and overall just fun to be around.

As soon as her break ended, sadly, she had to work again, and she did, but not before saying goodbye with a big toothy smile.

The rest of her shift was Long and tiresome,she was ready to leave as soon as the clock struck ten thirty, but imagine her surprise when the five men showed up.

--You guys didnt need to-- Nova started.

--Nonesnese kid-- John interrupted-- the streets are dangerous, you never have enough backup

The woman giggled and nodded--You guys are too kind!

And so they started walking back to her home, with quiet in between chatter.

--and this bitch, came in and said her order was wrong because apparently we didnt know how to make a capuccino! Sometimes I wish I could roundkick a costumers ass

The first thing the five of them thought was "Who are we beating up" but since that wasnt very civil they refrained from saying it.

--That sounds awful, im sorry-- Said Thomas putting a hand on the womans shoulder.

--Thank you, it was...but we did get more gain tonight! Im gonna get a nice paycheck this week!

--well thats something good to take out of today-- Duncan teased with an amused smile.

-- heh, that it is, oh, here we are, thank you guys again for taking me home-- Nova gave them a quick hug to the five of them,she quickly entered the house, leaving the men stunned for a moment.

Admitedly, Lucas,Thomas and Duncan were the ones that were beaming with happiness from the hug, Jason had a smile on his face while John only let out a chuckle, the five of them parting ways to their respective houses, wondering if they should get lunch tomorrow at the Four-Wheeled Dinner.

[thy-lover]

Jason Voorhees - I still love you...

Jason meets his childhood best friend again, who he also still has a crush on....

Warnings: Smut, slightly angsty, fluff, depiction of alcohol and murder and mentions of self harm.

"We are going to camp crystal lake, dude, There's no discussion on that!" Jake yelled at his friend group who were currently fighting over where to take their summer vacation.

You walked in the living room with the beer they ordered for you to get. You passed one to Rachel who pathetically snatched it and told you to get the fuck out of her sight, just before you were going to pass on to Chad you froze upon hearing the words 'Camp Crystal Lake'.

"Hello? Earth to y/n, you were about to pass me that beer." He pointed at the beer held in your hands, that were trembling. You handed it to him but turned to Jake.

"um.... Jake I don't know if that's a good idea...." You said as your heart pumped fast.

"why? afraid of a little legend?" He smirked and helped himself to a bottle of beer.

you sat down on the side of the couch farthest away from them "No it's just, pretty much all the teens who decided to camp there gone missing, I just don't want us to see the same fate." The small girl looked down at her lap, they can't know, is all that ran threw her mind. The teens that sat on the same couch she was on went silent, what you said was true, they only shivered at the thought.

Jake laughed "oh c'mon y/n, that's all apart of the stupid legend of Jason Voorhees!" He laughed and the others shoulder Began to relax again. You shook gently, that name, the name that made your heart clench. The name that made you hurt inside.

"There is a legend around camp crystal lake, there was a kid who was drowned in the lake because the counselors killed him. When his mom came back, she was so mad she killed the counselors but got murdered herself. Due to this the vengeful spirit of the kid came back to life and kills anyone who comes on the camp!" He definitely scared his friends, but you just shook rocking back an forth. Y/n knew the real story.

the next day they forced you to go on the trip with them, but you didn't want to, camp crystal lake was supposed to be forgotten about in your mind.

You glanced down at your clothing "baby blue, his favorite color.." you smiled gently.

"huh?" Jake said not hearing you he turned to look at you "damn y/n, you look fuckin hot cant wait to get there." Jake gave you a disgusting smirk.

The moment you arrived at the camp you weren't sure what to do, the sign that said 'Camp Crystal Lake' was just how you remembered it, if you look past the paint that is slowing chipping away. All the sudden a suppressed flash back hit you.

- The young girls head was out of the car, waiting for that yellow 'Camp Crystal Lake' sign to appear, she grinned widely and hoped out of the car and running to her best friend "Jason! Jason!" Screamed an overly excited little girl who was around the age of six. "Y/n!!" The young boy who was around seven yelled back. They met in the middle and embraced each other in a tight hug, jumping up and down.

"Jason I missed you so–" she was cut of.

"y/n you forgot your bag!" The young girls mother screamed from the window if the car.

"hold on mommy, I'm talking to Jason!" The girl screamed back, a older woman came walking towards the two of you, her shoes picking a little bit if the forest floor up.

"y/n!? You've gotten taller since the last time we talked." The woman smiled as she embraced her son's bestfriend in her arms.

"it's only been 4 months Pammy." The young girl smiled up at her.

"Y/N! HERE! NOW! I HAVE TO GET TO WORK!" The screams of her mother calling from the car.

- flashback ends

You hoped out of the car walking past the old crystal lake sign and into the area where her friends are, Chad's in the middle of talking his jeans off, revealing his bare ass because he had no underwear. The moment this happened you turned away quickly.

"Join us y/n!" Jake yelled towards you but you shook your head an walked away. "I'll set up the fire, you guys can continue, well, doing whatever it is you're doing..." You said waving your hands in the air.

Jason's P.O.V

'y/n' Jason thought as he watched the woman in a blue dress, he knew you, and even as he watched the woman's frame go back into the suv he madly hoped you were her, you were 'y/n' , his savior, his protector, his crush.... Just then a flashback came back to his head.

-

"Hey assholes leave him alone now!" The girl yelled to Jason's bullies.

The boy who kicked Jason now stood facing you he smirked "yea and what the hell are you going to do about it monster lover!" He taunted the girl. 'monster lover, that's what they called her for being Jason's friend.'

Her smooth hands curled into a fist, "Your the monster here John!" The young girl yelled.

"oh shut up and go play with your dolls!" The bully yelled back at her and all the other kids around him laughed at her.

A flash of rage came over the girl who Jason had the biggest crush on, the girl picked up a small rock and hurdled it at the older boy who was bullying Jason, the stone hit right on the center of his forhead. He fell over and started crying like a baby. She took the chance and ran to Jason grabbing his arm and running away from the other kids.

She ran until she was far enough to be out of sight. And she hid behind a big tall tree, the tree they made a 'blood oath' at.

Jason panted sitting on the forest floor letting his back lean on the tree.

"thank you y/n, you saved me again." Jason beamed up at her. She smiled down at the sitting boy, Jason took a moment to admire her smile. Everything about her to him was perfect. Her pretty smile her big e/c eyes, he just loved her even though he was way to young to understand what love was he knew he felt something for her that was strong.

"anytime Jason, those guys a cowards. " She said grabbing his hands and holding him tightly. He blushed at her and she smiled at his cuteness.

"you are to cute jae." he blushed even harder but his gaze left her when he heard the counselors. they peaked there heads out from either side of the tree and seeing the counselors crouching down at the boy who was clutching his head.

"we sure got him didn't we Jason?" He nodded and chuckled.

-flash back ends

How could she have thought I was cute.

3rd person p.o.v

Y/n walked towards the suv and pulled out a bouquet of Lily's and sunflower. She looked down at the flowers and smiled sadly.

She closed the door and walked away from the group further in the woods. After walking for a little while she stumbled on the big oak tree, each day her and Jason would wrap there arms to the tree to see if they're arms grew. She chuckled at the memory.

She kneeled down to the roots of the tree and laid the flowers down, if you looked very closely at the bottom of the tree you can see two small smudges of blood overlapping each other and above it there are letters that are carved into it sloppily "Jason and y/n bff forever" she smiled again at it, this was apparently what her younger self considered a blood oath.

"Pamela Voorhees, it's been a while since I said that name aloud hasn't it?" Y/n chuckled. "I brought you Lily's Ms. Voorhees, I know they're your favorite." She said looking up at the sky which sh hopes is where Pamela is.

A loud cry broke out from her mouth "a-and I brought s-sunflowers J-ja-jason's favorite..." Jason the name of her crush, Jason the name of the boy she loved, Jason the name of the boy who drowned.

"I'm so so s-sorry I wasn't there f-for you jae, I could've tried to save you....if my mom hadn't taken me on that business trip then maybe I could've been here to protect y-you!" The cries from the woman became louder. "I'm sorry jae, it was all my fault that I left, maybe I could've save you.... I thought that maybe if I came just one more time I could finally forgive myself for leaving you... I could finally live with the fact that you're gone....I could finally love myself but I was wrong!" Y/n sniffled.

"goodbye Jason, I'll love you forever..." She leant her lips down and kisses the harsh etching that had Jason's name on it.

Y/n cried there a little longer before she heard scream. She picked her head up a little and sniffled, the girl got on her feet and ran towards the screams.

The moment y/n got back to the camp she saw nothing but blood everywhere and her 'friends' all dead, she stumbled on her feet backing away from the scene, she was about to scream but a large hand wrapped around her mouth and she was pressed against a strong chest.

Y/n fought the hold of the stranger not wanting to have the same fate as her acquaintances. That was until she saw a bloody knife raised to her, she immediately blacked out.

...

The next time y/n woke up she was in an old bed in one of the cabins. Her eyesight was dizzy but it finally focused and she looked around the room, the moment she realized where she was she put a hand over her mouth.

"Jason's bedroom..." The moment the words fell from her lips she screamed out a loud cry, maybe if she dies know she can finally be with Jason. The moment ended at that thought the door was swung open and a large man in a hockey mask looked around the room quickly, when his eyes landed on you he calmed and took a step closer.

You couldn't believe how tall he was, his head was basically touching the cabins roof, his large frame was covered in jeans and a jacket, his feet were in boots that looked like it didn't fit him.

He tried to take another step toward you but you backed up in fear "w-who are you?" You said weekly.

He only took another step closer "please don't kill me!" You cried out to the man who was already right at the bed side because of his long strides.

As you cried all he did was pick his hand up to your face and palm your tear stained cheek.

"please tell me who you are?" You asked trying to move his hand but failing. He took his hand off from your cheek and pointed towards the headboard that had the word "Jason V." Into the hard oak.

"Jason V?" You sniffled, he nodded eagerly ready for you to realize who he was.

"I'm sorry but I dont know who you are mr...please just let me go I won't tell anyone." He huffed then pulled out his machete, you shrieked and closed your eyes ready to die, but instead of the machete impaling your stomach, you heard carving near your ear.

You opened your eyes and realised he was scratching something in the headboard.

Once he finished he urged you to look at it, "V-Voor-hees? ... Jason Voorhees?" Your eyes widened in shock and he nodded eagerly.

"no...no Jason drowned to death, that's impossible!" You said unable to believe what he was saying, all he did was stiffen and shake his head signaling a no.

"Fine prove it!?" You yell, it was cruel for someone to mess with others mind.

He pulled his sleeve up revealing the name "y/n" carved on his wrists. A gasp slipped from your lips, you pulled your own sleeve up and on your wrist there was a scar that wrote "Jason".

You looked into his eyes seeing desperation and hurt, "is it.. is it really you?" You whispered.

Jason nodded grabbing a hold of your hand, you reluctantly held back feeling his rough large hands, the moment you held his had you felt a shock run from each other's finger tips. It was the same feeling you felt when you first held Jason's hand when you two were younger.

"it's really you!" Catching Jason by surprise you jumped up and hugged him tightly, it took him a while to get used to your touch but he returned the hug by picking you up and swinging you around in the air.

You laughed with a mixture of happy tears, this was the reunion that Jason only thought about in his dreams, but this was real and he knew it.

He set you down on the cabin floor gently.

"look at you Jason.." you smiled at him just then Jason felt his insecurities come back, 'did you not like him anymore.'

"all grown up into a big strong man, so handsome just as I remember you." He blushed at you, this what he remembers about you, you always knew what to say and you always boosted his confidence.

He looked down at you and his un beating heart stopped, this whole time he forgot to admire you. Your hair was a beautiful flowing h/c it was a little bit darker than he remembered it to be. Your body filled out into a very beautiful women. He subconsciously let his eyes fall to your breasts which definitely got larger, his eyes followed to the curves of your hips, your ass being hugged by the blue dress. he looked at your face to admire it. Beautiful e/c eyes, beautiful plump pink lips, your entire facial structure was amazing. Sometimes he wonders what you saw in him, your beauty couldn't compare to the entire world, and that was a fact. He felt something inside him warm up, as he looked at your body.

"we have a lot of talking to do." You dragged him to the kitchen and started up the questioning.

As you cleaned your childhood home starting from the kitchen, to its floors to the bathroom, to the bedrooms to the porch, he followed you everywhere writing answers down on the notebook you gave him. He wrote how hes still alive, he wrote why he kills, he wrote what really happened to him an he wrote everything you didn't know down.

When the questioning was all done you sat him down in the kitchen and cleaned him up, he was super dirty and then you urged him to the shower to get off all the dirt in crevasses you knew were to embarressing to clean yourself. You took his laundry and put it in the hamper for tomorrows laundry.

When you came back he had a fluffy towel wrapped around his waist, the towel was way to small for someone of his size.

"hey jae so I was wondering-" you looked up and your breath was caught in your throat.

There Jason was, your childhood crush standing in front of you with just a towel around his waist, his muscular arms were big, his thick and strong thighs were dripping with water and his muscular core was ripped.

You blushed hard and slowly walked backwards only to bump into the bathroom door closing it.

You immediately turned around and tried to open the door, your hands were shaking and sweating it didn't help that there was steam from the hot shower Jason took on the knob.

"well i- uh I was j-just go-going to uh-" Jason took a step forward and held you by the waist bring him close to you, his large hand wrapped around the door handle, once the door was opened you freed from his grip.

You internally screamed at yourself as you practically ran to your old spare bedroom.

As you walked in you slammed the door, but instead of hearing the door slam you just heard it creek. You turned around slowly and realized Jason was walking towards you.

Jason looked at your red face with worry 'is y/n sick? Is y/n hurt? Is y/n scared' he didn't understand why you were acting like this.

"j-jason hi um..." As he took a step forward you took a step back.

"s-sorry if yo-your looking f-for your c-clothes I um I put t-them in the h-hamper so I could w-wash them." Your face literally couldn't get redder like It was physically impossible.

You took a step back as he took another step closer. Not realizing you were at your bed it bent your knees and made you fall over, because of how low the bed was it made you think you were falling to the floor.

Out of instinct you reached out and grabbed the first thing you felt, you hit the bed with a shriek but proped yourself up you looked into your hand 'a towel?' you thought to yourself but looked up to see where you got it from.

There in front of you was Jason Voorhees, your childhood crush completely naked with his cock erect Infront of your face. Even Jason looked down at his own cock thinking 'oh was that the strange feeling I felt?' he seemed to not fully understand why this was inappropriate.

'oh my gosh he's big, oh my gosh he's big, oh my gosh he's big!' your mouth watered a bit, before you knew it you were on your heels running out your bedroom door "DINNERS READY!!" You yelled making your way to the kitchen.

You fixed the table with the homecook meals and Jason joined and helped you, you ate in silence but it was akward on your part.

You started to gather the dishes and wash them, Jason stood by you and dried the wet plates and bowls, the incident almost completely slipping your mind.

Just then you accidentally knocked a thick mug over with your elbow. You bent down to grab it but it rolled under the counter having you bend even more.

He turned around and looked down at you, because of what you were wearing which was just and oversized teacher. The shirt hiked up a bit, revealing the curvature of your ass and in the middle of your soft cheeks there was your pussy peaking out from Inbetween. Jason eyed the lips of your pussy talking in the way it glistened or how it naturally clenched whenever you made a move, out of pure curiosity Jason touched it......yep.

The moment his cold calloused finger touch the small opening of your vagina you let out a loud moan, that sounded like a pornstar moan.

The moment that noise hit Jason's ears something in him snapped, it fueled a feeling that made his already erect cock twitch. But the thing was he had no idea why he was feeling stuff in his groin, he's never had a use for it because he's dead. But all the sudden you came back and his cock has been aching ever since.

But the moment the sound hit his ears he compared It to the adrenaline he felt when his victims scream, only this time it was a moan, and he didn't have to kill to hear it.

You jolted up in embarresment, you thought he was just curious but that didn't stop your pussy from remembering the feeling. You ran to your old room abandoning the dishes in the soapy water, you bit your lip hoping this didn't ruin your little reunion with him.

Unbeknownst to you Jason was right behind your small frame with hunger in his eyes.

He threw you onto the bed and you shrieked.

"Jason im-im really so...Jason what are you doing?" You asked watching him take his long thick cock out of the confines of his pants. He took his shirt off along with his pants and stared down at you intensly.

You squeezed your legs closed tightly as he crawled to the bottom of your bed. He brought his two hands up and roughly pulled your legs apart, he looked down at your pussy and realized it was wetter than before. You moaned as the cold air hit your glistening lips.

A finger slid up and down your pussy not exactly entering just sliding, it was just what you needed to jolt up and grab a hold of his shoulder.

"Jason, what, what are you doing!?" You asked a little louder than needed so he got up with a whine thinking you were mad at him.

"no, no Jason its okay..but do you understand what your doing?" You ask gently.

He shook his head revealing a no.

"Jason I'm..I'm going to be really strait forward with this....when- well when you touch that female....part it's insinuating...that..well that you want to have sex..." You knew how Jason's mom always told Jason sex was bad and only good when there is commitment, when there's love or when there's marriage.

Jason grew stiff he remembered his mom telling him that, but he also remembered his mom telling him 'jason as long as you love, then everything is alright.'

Jason loved you, he's always loved you, he still loves you, he always will. You came back to him so you must love him to right?

He stepped forward he held his hand towards his heart and then held his hand to you.

"heart me?" You questioned.

He nodded eagerly "you heart me? ...........you love me?" Your eyes widened as he nodded once again being shy, the moment of silence filled his heart with rejection, making him back up.

Until you jumped on him "I love you too jae." You gently lifted his mask just enough to reveal his lips, slowly you brought yours to his. He wasn't sure why he was breathing so hard even though he didn't need to breath.

Finally he kissed back not sure what to do he just started doing what you were doing. So he moved his lips, a shock went down his spine something told him he needed more.

He grabbed your waist and picked you up so your height matched his, you wrapped your legs around his waist, your unclothed pussy rubbing against his jeans.

You moaned into the kiss before pulling away. You looked in his eyes and cupped his cheek, slowly but surely you took off his mask, smiling at the face of slight deformities.

He tried to shy away only for you to make him look at you "your still as handsome as I remember jae" he cracks a shy smile before kissing you again. You hop off of him and lead him towards the bed pushing him down on it. You crawled on top of him and slowly undid his belt and pulled off his jeans leaving his cock sprung out. He bit his lips as your mouth hovered over the tip, you lowered your mouth and gently sucked on his tip.

"Poor baby, had to suffer with this aching cock, I'll fix it baby just be a goo d boy and lay down." He did as told his cock twitching at the praise.

You sucked on the tip bringing your hand to message his balls. A loud moan came out of his mouth and he threw his head back, you smirked and took his fat cock deeper and deeper in your mouth, his mouns growing louder and his hip snapping into your mouth uncontrollably. You moaned at the sight of his strong heaving chest growing, this sent rumbles to come out of Jason's mouth. Soon he had a bright white stream flowing out of his tip. He looked down in pure ecstasy, and found you swallowing each drop of cum like you were starving. His erection grew once again as you stood up and took off the only thing you had on.

Jason looked at you with his cock upright again. Your tits bounced gently and your ass jiggled with your movements, you crawled on top of Jason hands planted on his chest.

"you were such a good boy Jason, your So good for me aren't you? My sweet boy." He let out a groan as he looked into your eyes "you tasted to good.." he thrust up at that only to be met with nothing he whimpered. "You deserve a reward for being so good don't you?" He nodded quickly.

You smiled "okay jae, just go along with this okay jason? I'll tell you when to move." You picked up his hard cock and lined it up with your entrance, as you slowly sat down on him you could feel him getting ready to move but he restrained himself due to your order.

Once you sat fully on him and adjusted to his size, you moaned "move jae." He did just that snapping his hips into your cunt harshly. Your moans were constant and your head collapsed to his shoulder. "Oh gosh Jason your so good, just like that please just like that." Each thrust was hitting further than just your g spot.

He groaned more and more knowing he was going to release himself.

"jae your fucking me so good I'm going to cum!!!" Just then your walls tightened around his cock and he made this animal like roar when you got tighter, he shot his load deep within you and he slowed his thrust down.

You collapsed atop him and he flung his strong arms around you holding you close to his heaving chest.

"want to know something jae?" He nodded "when me and you were kids I had the BIGGEST crush on you." His eyes widened and he looked at your sleepy face. You chuckled at him "but I didnt tell you cause I didnt think you liked me.... Guess I was wrong huh?" You smiled up at him, he only nodded, happy that your feelings were reciprocated.

"I'll see you tomorrow Jason....I still love you....."

[packhuntcr]

☼ - appearance headcanon

Ahhhhhhh Jakey-boi. My walking contradiction.

Dude simultaneously cannot give a single solitary fuck… and is shockingly vain. Like let’s take a look at this little shit:

Credit to @hollandvalleythotpatrol for the photos. What would I do without Banni? Maybe she’ll write him for me next.

Handsome motherfucker. There’s a lot going on there. Like dude is scarred as fuck, obviously. Chemical burns, rashes [Gulf war syndrome, anyone?], dirty as all get out. Actually, that’s pretty fuckin’ clean for Jacob. I still insist his jeans would stand up on their own. But… lots of evidence Jacob doesn’t care about his appearance. Buuutttttt also a good bit of time invested into it as well. His beard’s trimmed, kept fairly neat. No ZZ-Top knock offs here. I’m 80% sure that’s dirt on his neck, not stubble. The same transfers over to Jacob’s hair. Shaved close, no peachfuzz stubble rising on the sides. Plainly, Jacob kept the military habits up {once he decided to live rather than wait to die}. Speaking of haircuts: Jacob’s pushing those army regulations.  

“The hair on the top of the head must be neatly groomed and may not be trendy, spiky, or disheveled in appearance. The hair must be tapered and conform to the shape of the head, and the neckline must be tapered. Hair must not be allowed to fall over the ears or touch the collar (except that the taper at the neckline may extend past the collar).”

My Lieutenant Colonel at Fort Hood brother says he wouldn’t consider Jacob’s hair Army Regulation without a good trim [my brother’s also a hard ass and annoyed by me, so take that with a grain of salt and me hearing what I want to hear]. So Jacob’s gone a little rogue here. Neatly trimmed sides, maintaining the shape, but “too long on top”. Who can blame him? At 47 (presumably) he’s still got a nice, thick head of hair. Not a grey in sight. Buttt… if we look at his beard here:

It’s a bit patchier on this side, thinner where the scarring encroaches on the jaw. So it’s safe to assume that his scarred skin has been damaged to such a point that it doesn’t reliably grow hair. And let’s keep looking at that scarring. It extends up the temple and into the hairline.

This side:

–shows the same thing: scarring into the temple, a patch above the ear that looks to be a graze or more of that chemical burning. If the scars aren’t growing hair consistently, Jacob with a full head of hair is going to be patchy. And not receding hairline patchy, but inconsistent male pattern baldness patchy. Das es no bueno [ignore my bullshit German/Spanish hybrid. I’m tired and have to ramble to get this shit out onto the page].  Jacob’s vain–again once he decides to give a shit and participate in life. {and can you blame the handsome bastard. Even all scarred up he’s a looker] So he’s gonna cover this… or shave it off. But nooo not completely, Remember that full head of thick red hair? So does Jacob. He likes his red hair. He likes that he carries only a passing resemblance to their father. A father that was too uneducated and stubborn to realize that red is just a recessive gene and yes, Jacob is, in fact, Old Mad Seed’s child. But, Jacob enjoyed the fantasy that maybe he wasn’t. Maybe he wasn’t that sadistic old bastard’s git. So he likes the red hair the old man hates and keeps shaved close most of Jacob’s young life. He likes that he doesn’t quite fit in with the family. So he’s keeping the hair, even all these years later. Best of both worlds it is. Long on top where there’s minimal scarring, shaved away on the sides that would be patchy. Work what you got, boy. 

Moving on!

Jacob’s god-awful clothes. Jesus. You bet your ass there’s more than one hole ripped in the crotch of those poor jeans. The man’s like a walking stress-tester for denim. I swear to god--I’ve said this before and I’ll say it again-- those jeans are so grime-coated and interwoven with sweat and dirt that Jacob could step out of them and they’d remain upright as if he hadn’t. 

They’re ripped to fuck and then neatly patched. And it’ll just keep going. An endless cycle of clothing abuse until that article is so beat to hell and cobbled together that it’s but a ghost of the original. That’s pretty much his habit. Undoubtedly John purchased an abundance of clothes after they brought Jacob home like a puppy. And Jacob still has most of them: neatly folded, tags intact, tucked into a drawer somewhere in Saint Francis for when he needs them. He does this thing where he doesn’t keep more than two or three of each article of clothing. He also just doesn’t wear underwear because it’s a pain in the ass. Just enough clothing for a change, something to wear on the rare occasions he’s actually washing the other set or needs to be cleaned up quickly. As soon as something wears out beyond redemption, he grabs one single solitary replacement to throw into the rotation. 

Part of it’s practicality-- using something as long as he possibly can, keeping things ready for a future need somewhere down the road. The man loathes excess and waste. Another part is that apathy that overcame him for years when he’d lost what he saw as his only purpose and the army declared him unfit for service. Meh, Jacob wants only to be clothed and doesn’t much care what in as long as it’s practical. The exception being his BDU jacket. He’s got an attachment to that, to the purpose he held while wearing it and how his service shaped his identity. Everything else? Fuck it. Jacob Seed will wear pink with purple polkadots... as long as it’s functional and blends in with the environment.  

Another thing I’ve noticed is that Jacob’s got pretty shit posture, which I find surprising for a military man. The only exception is in two circumstances-

1. He’s on display. Think of him peacocking his way over to stand behind Joseph during the initial arrest. Dude is ramrod straight--also sexually, but we’re not going there today-- shoulders back, chin up, chest pushed out. Why? He’s got purpose. He’s there to protect, to intimidate, to lead his troops. So he’s going to present something worthy of that function, of the leadership.

The instant he’s out of sight? When he’s unwatched? Instant slope shoulders, watching the ground as he walks. Because there’s very little pride in himself, pride in Jacob Seed rather than The Soldier. 

Look at him here, in front of the Deputy and Pratt:

Neither one much matters to Jake. Pratt’s a human squeaky toy to the man. The deputy’s a tool. No need to parade. No need to intimidate. Why bother? He doesn’t have to prove he’s above these two. He knows he is. To him, pea-cocking in front of those two would be like showing off for a leaf-blower. So he’s relaxed, shoulders not quite rounded, but certainly no military bearing.

Compared to here:

See the difference? Guess what: he’s working again, giving his ‘Cull the weak’ speech. Fuck, sorry, how far I’m scrolled down on the page is giving me an eyeful of thigh-holster... wow. Thank you, UbiSoft

Alright back on topic.

But Jacob’s working. He’s serving a purpose. His purpose. So he gives enough of a fuck to scrape together his pride and stand upright, project the image that Joseph and the Project need from him. He sure as shit won’t do it for himself. 

Exception number 2. While holding a rifle. Which is really just more of the above. Blahblahblah purpose. Buuuttttt... there’s also a good bit of pride in that. Jacob grew up poor in the suburbs. Maybe there was an old family shotgun. Maybe. But, I very much doubt he ever had opportunity to use it [other than plans for Old Mad Seed the next time the bastard hit John]. Same goes for at the slave-labor foster family. If there’d been ready access to and familiarity with a weapon, you bet your ass Jacob would have shot the man rather than hit him with an axe handle. Sure as shit not getting hands on a weapon while in Juvie soooo the first time Jacob handles a firearm is in Basic.

And the kid’s shit with the fine arts. He’s absolutely dyslexic {More detail coming on that in the next HC post} and not inclined toward flowery things. But... he’s got math down. Understands geometry and physics quite easily. So understanding a sight picture is gonna come naturally. He’ll understand how to adjust that picture to compensate for drop, changes in elevation, weather, etc. So he’s already got the bones of a good shot. Pair that with shooting well is likely the first time this kid has heard any kind of praise? He’s gonna throw himself into it. 

Every chance he has, Jacob is out there throwing hot lead down the range. For hours at a time, days on end. Surely he has a few favored weapons, but, for the most part, he’s got a handle on anything you throw his way. Natural talent plus dedicated practice and Jacob’s a terrifyingly good shot. An amry Expert Marksman badge good shot. Which means hitting 36-40 stationary and pop-up targets of 40 during qualification testing in supported prone, unsupported prone, and foxhole positions. Jacob got 39. Under pressure. I haven’t played the game (motion sickness can’t handle FPS), but I’m told that he outstrips Grace Armstrong, who was an Olympic medalist, as a GFH in terms of accuracy. Which very well may just come down to years of experience and the ability to practice daily. So the point of that long ramble isssss: he’s proud of himself with a rifle. It’s the only time he’s standing upright even without observation and not directly related to his purpose within the Project. 

Everyone’s favorite Sasquatch for demonstration:

So the final thought I have, I’ve already touched on: Jacob’s gangling appearance. I’m just gonna link that here and then just run through the basics

Basically, Jacob is not meant to be a lean man. Look at the size of his hands compared to his forearms. Look that he’s basically a column from shoulder to hip. I mean, he was never going to be a Chris Evans Inverted Dorito, but dude should have a bit of tapering from shoulder to waist. He’s a man who had a good bit of bulk to him in his twenties and early thirties, a man who filled out the frame the genetic lottery threw his way (because John and Joseph don’t have the same shape as Jacob. They’re both built on lithe, tapering lines. It’s redhead, recessive gene, trial run Seed who only shares the blue eyes and a single freckle on the left nostril with John). Jacob is meant to be a big fucking boy. He’s made to carry broad shoulders and a powerful chest, strong arms. But look at him! He’s lanky, his bones are larger than the muscling on them. By the time we see him in Hope County, Jacob’s been out of the military since the mid- to late-nineties. In that time he’s experienced extreme muscle deterioration from damn near starving to death in the desert. Then he’s severely traumatized, obsessed with hoarding away food so he’s not eating what he should to gain back all that muscle lost. And he never will. That obsession with taking just enough, with keeping himself moving, but never indulging in excess. And bulking up requires excess. Maintaining that bulk requires excess. Jacob’s not the ‘I’ll pay you Tuesday for a hamburger today’ type. He’s budgeting for the looming nuclear winter, for increases in population with decreasing resources. So Jacob stays skinny. Fed. Functional. Certainly no wilting flower... but, comparatively, skinny.

Soooo yeah. I’m petering out on the manic HC fest. 

All photo credit to one Banni of @hollandvalleythotpatrol You’re a gem and I love you. The gif... I lost the original source. Someone not rushing to go to work can point me toward a source if they’re so inclined or it can wait until I get home and have time.

Next up are HCs on Jacob’s family and hobbies/quirks

[solarianradiance]

Jellyatinous Rose

Calliope: Welcome lovelies, to oUr little get together for an adventure throUgh the Use of a Role-Playing Game system called DUngeons & Dragons! Tonight we have a new player joining in oUr dUngeon delving, oUr lovely friend, Roxy.

Roxy: hey erebody, its ur gurl roxy!

Dave: hey rox

Rose: Welcome to the game Roxy, nice to see you came tonight~

Kanaya: Pleasure To Have You Dear Roxy!

Jade: nice to see you again!

John: glad you could make it tonight!

Roxy: tnx 4 the warm welcum gaiz, makes me feel good bout this venture here

Roxy: so, when do we start playin?

Calliope: Shortlym bUtt first, we shall introdUce oUr varioUs party members for the road ahead, so that we may give oUr newest addition a chance to Understand her new chUms? Jade, why dont we start with yoU?

Jade: ok!

Jade: im a level 5 chaotic good gnoll ranger called groche’a, and i was ousted from my tribe for not wanting to plunder tombs for bones because i was scared of waking the dead and having them get revenge on us... which they did! im the only survivor!

Roxy: wats a goll? Roxy: *gnoll

Jade: a gnoll is a dog person

Jade: like this!

Roxy: oh so ur a hyna furry basically then?

Jade: well no, im more like a malamute husky, i actually based my character off of bec and what jake told me about my scratched other self

Roxy: yeah, ur gilf self was pretty smokin for an old lady, so i can c y u chose her

Jade: ...what?

Calliope: Lets keep this train of introdUctions going, Dave YoU’re Up love!

Dave: im dave, and im a barbarian. im a level 4 chaotic good guy i guess, gettin my rage on with my magic shit talking sword and doin all kinds of awesome shit!

Roxy: u men like connan the barbarian?

Dave: no, not liek conan Dave: *like Dave: fuck

Roxy: wats ur backstory?

Dave: im a kickass barbarian, i showed up one day and started kicking ass, what more backstory do you need?

Roxy: that sunds lame

Dave: youre lame

Calliope: Moving on, John, how aboUt we introdUce yoUr character?

John: im Salamon of the Hearthlands, a level 4 neutral good halfling jester!

Roxy: wats a halflin?

John: they’re pretty much just hobbits but a bit more... “earthly” i think would be a good word to describe them? they’re sort more vice than virtue and do things like eat a lot of food, take whats not theirs and breed like rabbits.

Roxy: le gasp, ur a bunny boy! that sounds adorable!

John: heh, no, im not a bunny, but i guess i am bunny-like in that sense

Jade: you know, that would actually be a good fursona for you

John: eh, nah, its not really my thing, besides im more like a tiger

Jade: hahahaha! no you’re not!

John: in fact i think would be more like tigra from thundercats

Jade: i said no. you’re fucking. not.

John: uuuuh!!!

Roxy: calli!

Calliope: Yes Roxy, what is it?

Roxy: can u make jon into a bunny boy?

Calliope: I... can, bUt I need a good reason like a magical invocation or something like that, I cannot simply do as I wish with the players whenever I wish.

Calliope: Besides, the game has not started. Rose, why dont yoU go next?

Rose: 𝐼 𝒶𝓂 𝒶 𝒩𝑒𝓊𝓉𝓇𝒶𝓁 𝐸𝓋𝒾𝓁 𝒟𝓇𝑜𝓌 𝒩𝑒𝒸𝓇𝑜𝓂𝒶𝓃𝒸𝑒𝓇, 𝒞𝓎𝒶𝒾𝓃𝑒 𝑜𝒻 𝐻𝑜𝓊𝓈𝑒 𝒢𝓊𝓁’𝒢𝒶𝓃. 𝑀𝓎 𝑀𝑜𝓉𝒽𝑒𝓇, 𝓌𝒽𝑜 𝒹𝑒𝓈𝒾𝓇𝑒𝒹 𝒻𝑜𝓇 𝓂𝑒 𝓉𝑜 𝒷𝑒𝒸𝑜𝓂𝑒 𝒶 𝒫𝓇𝒾𝑒𝓈𝓉𝑒𝓈𝓈 𝓉𝑜 𝐿𝑜𝓁𝓉𝒽, 𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝒻𝑜𝓇 𝓉𝒽𝒾𝓈, 𝐼 𝓈𝓁𝒶𝓎𝑒𝒹 𝒽𝑒𝓇 𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝓊𝓈𝑒𝒹 𝓂𝓎 𝒩𝑒𝒸𝓇𝑜𝓂𝒶𝓃𝒸𝓎 𝓉𝑜 𝓇𝑒𝓈𝓊𝓇𝓇𝑒𝒸𝓉 𝒽𝑒𝓇 𝒶𝓈 𝓂𝓎 𝓅𝓊𝓅𝓅𝑒𝓉, 𝒷𝓊𝓉 𝒶𝓁𝒶𝓈, 𝓂𝓎 𝓅𝓁𝑜𝓉 𝓉𝑜 𝓉𝒶𝓀𝑒 𝒸𝑜𝓃𝓉𝓇𝑜𝓁 𝑜𝒻 𝓂𝓎 𝐻𝑜𝓊𝓈𝑒 𝓌𝒶𝓈 𝒻𝑜𝓊𝓃𝒹 𝑜𝓊𝓉 𝒶𝓈 𝐼 𝓂𝒶𝒹𝑒 𝒶 𝓂𝒾𝓈𝓉𝒶𝓀𝑒 𝒾𝓃 𝒸𝒶𝓈𝓉𝒾𝓃𝑔 𝓂𝓎 𝓈𝓅𝑒𝓁𝓁 𝒻𝑜𝓇 𝓀𝑒𝑒𝓅𝒾𝓃𝑔 𝒽𝑒𝓇 𝒻𝓇𝑜𝓂 𝓇𝑜𝓉𝓉𝒾𝓃𝑔 𝓉𝑜𝑜 𝓆𝓊𝒾𝒸𝓀𝓁𝓎, 𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝐼 𝒽𝒶𝓋𝑒 𝓈𝑒𝓃𝓈𝑒 𝒷𝑒𝑒𝓃 𝒾𝓃 𝑒𝓍𝒾𝓁𝑒 𝒻𝓇𝑜𝓂 𝓂𝓎 𝒽𝑜𝓂𝑒 𝑜𝒻 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝒟𝒶𝓇𝓀 𝐸𝓁𝒻 𝒞𝒾𝓉𝓎, 𝑀𝑒𝓃𝓏𝑜𝒷𝑒𝓇𝓇𝒶𝓃𝓏𝒶𝓃, 𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝓃𝑜𝓌 𝓅𝓁𝑜𝓉 𝓂𝓎 𝒾𝓃𝑒𝓋𝒾𝓉𝒶𝒷𝓁𝑒 𝓇𝑒𝓉𝓊𝓇𝓃 𝓉𝑜 𝓇𝑒𝒸𝓁𝒶𝒾𝓂 𝓂𝓎 𝒷𝒾𝓇𝓉𝒽𝓇𝒾𝑔𝒽𝓉 𝒶𝓈 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝓈𝓊𝓅𝓇𝑒𝓂𝑒 𝓇𝓊𝓁𝑒𝓇 𝑜𝒻 𝓂𝓎 𝐻𝑜𝓊𝓈𝑒, 𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝓅𝑜𝓈𝓈𝒾𝒷𝓁𝓎 𝒶𝓁𝓁 𝑜𝒻 𝒟𝓇𝑜𝓌𝒹𝑜𝓂~ 

Roxy: ur kinda given me the willies theres rosie

Rose: Hah! Thank you! I try to accentuate the nature of the Dark Elves as much as possible~ I am a Level 5 Necromancer by the way, just so we are clear.

Calliope: That was a nice sUrprise, always good to see dear ole Rose to give Us a performance and bring a little life throUgh characterization. Now, for oUr last member, Kanaya!

Kanaya: Salutations, I Am Mildred Of Baldurs Gate! A Neutral Good Human Cleric Of Lathander. I Am Level Three And I Am Looking Forward To Keeping You Out Of Trouble, As I Am The Primary Healer Of The Group. Though I Can Take A Swing With My Shredder Axe If I Wish, I Can Be More Than Helpful In Most Situations! 

Roxy: i dunno boit that but i think ill be hpy 2 have u round when the magical shit hits the fan! Roxy: *about

Calliope: Well, now that we have oUr standing party’s introdUctions oUt of the way, how aboUt we have Roxy introdUce Us to oUr newest member?!

Roxy: what bout u calli, whats ur character?

Calliope: I am the DUngeon Master, I recant the tale to the party based on the actions and decisions they make. Technically, I am all of the characters that are not part of the party! BUt I do have a rather sUltry lass that i have been meaning to play for a while. When my tenUre as DUngeon Master is Up, I shall pass the responsibility of rUnning the game onto others and break her oUt!

Roxy: rly? what is she? tell me!

Calliope: She isn’t finalized, but shes a YUan-Ti Magician, specifically an assistant. Haven’t qUite figUred oUt if shes a fUll-blood or a half-blood.

Roxy: a yankee?

Calliope: A YUan-Ti is more or less a snake person, mUch like myself I sUppose. I’ll admit shes a bit of a self-insert, bUt I made her for immersion for flarping. John helped me in crafting her!

Roxy: oh... he did now, did he?

John: yeah! it was actually pretty fun! learning about the lore of the snake people was kinda neat!

Calliope: Indeed! And in retUrn, helped John create another character to pair alongside with her! He is also a Magician, and she acts as his assistant!

Roxy: assistant huh? does that mean you can make his magic wand

Roxy: disappear?!~♥

John: whoa! roxy!

Calliope: Making a Magicians Magic Wand disappear is childs play.

John: uh calli, thats not what she mea-

Calliope: BUt making his wand spit magical glowing seed, now thats the magic~

Calliope: Mwah!~♥

Dave: whoa-ho, damn!

Rose: Ooo, how racey~

Kanaya: I Must Admit, That Got Quite Raunchy Awfully Quickly!

Jade: you can do that?!

John: ok! moving on! time for your introduction rox, before this turns into a smut campaign.

Roxy: how do u know that it wont turn into 1 when i do get my intro on? ;)

John: rox!

Roxy: relax! im jus teasin y Roxy: *u

Roxy: ok, my character is xerox gundalf the pink! shes a level 1 chotic good gun wizard!

John: gun wizard?! that actually sounds cool!

Jade: that actually sound cool, maybe ill roll one next campaign!

Dave: gotta admit, that does sound pretty bitchin rp as

Rose: Um, Roxy, as creative as that is, “Gun Wizard” isnt a valid class within the ruleset of DnD.

Roxy: wat? naaah, its fine! got xeroxs character shit filled out and everything! even drew her!

Roxy: c? kickass sex witch! put a spell on u make u her enchanted slav! put a magic bullet in ur butt and set her enemies on fire! abraka-sexbang!!

Rose: But we already have a Wizardess! Why don’t you be another class, a legal one such as a Rogue or a Thief?

Roxy: those dont sound legal 2 me sister, sides im a rogue in real life! i dont wanna play a rogue i wanna b a badass gun wizard! calli help me out here

Calliope: Mmmmm, well, while technically “GUn Wizards” are not what they are called, “GUn Mages” are in fact an actUal class! So I sUppose thats no significant issUe

Roxy: gasp YAYS!

Rose: Wait, “Gun Mage” is an actual class?

Calliope: Why yes, it is! QUite the interesting one too, might even roll a character to play as one myself at some point!

Rose: Well, anyways, as I said, we already have a Wizardess, which is myself. So how about you roll Up a Rogue? John can moonlight as one, but he isnt able to specialize as one. Here, lemme just get you started and roll you a character right now!

Roxy: uh, no, imma play a wizard!

Rose: We’ll make her Neutral Good, for maximum opportunity while still being approachable. Some good Dexterity for all of that lockpicking you’ll be doing.

Roxy: rose, water u doin?

Rose: Dump all the skill points into stealth, traps, and lockpicking!

Roxy: ross! Roxy:*rose

John: you know i could just spec into those skills myself, i was planning on doing it anyways!

Rose: We can make her pink, with some blue trimmings~

Roxy: stahp!

*Roxy latches onto Rose’s pen hand, preventing her from drawing further. The two devolve into a bit of a struggle*

Rose: Stop... getting... in the... way, Roxy!

Jade: you do know you can multi-class in this game, right? as in you both can have both.

Roxy: well i don.. wann play... fuckin rogue, i wan be... a wizard of bullets!

Rose: We need a Rogue to-*is bitten*-FUCK! ROXY!

Kanaya: What Is Happening?

*Roxy and Rose devolve to a mother/daughter/sister squabble between petty bitches who both want the same thing, but are unwilling to share, complete with hair pulling, bites, scratches, clothes ripping and an assortment of name calling.*

*Its a good ole fashioned cat fight yy’all!*

Jade: shouldnt someone stop this? like kanaya, isnt this your thing?

Kanaya: ...I... Want To, But I Think I Am Enjoying The Sight Of This Conflict? Should I Do So Anyways?

Dave: with them? nah man itll sort itself out eventually. just let em get tuckered out.

John: ... roll for initiative?

Calliope: Haa! Hahahaha!

[gaymusicchart]

GAY MUSIC CHART - 2018 week 35

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 Here is the recap for this week :

 OUT : Madblush – Homophobic (LW: 16 / WO: 4 / PEAK: 12)

OUT : Troye Sivan - Bloom (LW: 34 / WO: 16 / PEAK: 01 (x5))

OUT : Kim Petras - Heart to Break (LW: 37 / WO: 20 / PEAK: 02)

OUT : Jake Shears - "Big Bushy Mustache" (LW: 39 / WO: 1 / PEAK: 39)

OUT : はるな愛 Ai Haruna -「BONダンス」(LW: 40 / WO: 1 / PEAK: 40)

OUT : Big Freedia feat. Lizzo - "Karaoke" (LW: 41 / WO: 1 / PEAK: 41)

OUT : Hercules & Love Affair feat. Mashrou' Leila - Are You Still Certain (LW: 42 / WO: 3 / PEAK: 38)

OUT : The Aces - "Last One" (LW: 46 / WO: 2 / PEAK: 45)

OUT : Ryan Beatty - "Haircut" (LW: 47 / WO: 2 / PEAK: 47)

OUT : King Princess - "Holy" (LW: 48 / WO: 2 / PEAK: 44)

OUT : Ryan Beatty - "Powerslide" (LW: 49 / WO: 1 / PEAK: 49)

  01 (+ 4) : Years & Years - If You're Over Me (LW: 05 / WO: 15 / PEAK: 01 (x1))

UK - 2018 / from the album "Palo Santo"

 02 (=) : Troye Sivan feat. Ariana Grande - Dance To This (LW: 02 / WO: 10 / PEAK: 02)

Australia / USA – 2018 / from the album 2018 "Bloom"

 03 (+ 5) : Cher - "Gimme! Gimme! Gimme! (A Man After Midnight)" [Audio] (LW: 08 / WO: 2 / PEAK: 03)

USA - 2018 / from the album "Dancing Queen"

An ABBA revival, thanks to "Mama Mia 2".

 04 (- 3) : P!nk - "Secrets" (LW: 01 / WO: 4 / PEAK: 01 (x2))

USA - 2018 / from the album "Beautiful Trauma"

 05 (- 1) : Years & Years - All For You (PSEN Televisual Exclusive) (LW: 04 / WO: 7 / PEAK: 01 (x1))

UK - 2018 / from the album "Palo Santo"

 06 (=) : THE TRIPLETZ - "You Better Fucking Dance" (LW: 06 / WO: 4 / PEAK: 06)

Spain - 2018

"Better fuck with them boys

Better fuck with them girls

Better fuck with them both

Who fuckin cares?"

 07 (+ 3) : Sandro Cavazza, P3GI-13 - High With Somebody (LW: 10 / WO: 10 / PEAK: 07)

Sweden - 2018

A sweet song and a music video which shows bisexuality.

 08 (- 1) : Lizzo - Boys (LW: 07 / WO: 9 / PEAK: 01 (x2))

USA - 2018

 09 (+ 4) : Sam Bluer - "Body High" (LW: 13 / WO: 3 / PEAK: 09)

Australia - 2018

This is his debut music video. A revelation.

 10 (+ 10) : Peter Wilson & Sean Smith - "Verona" (LW: 20 / WO: 2 / PEAK: 10)

UK - 2018 / from the album "The Passion and The Flame"

This awesome cover of the 2017's Estonian Eurovision track from Koit Toome and Laura is produced by Matt Pop.

 11 (- 8) : Adore Delano - 27 Club (LW: 03 / WO: 8 / PEAK: 01 (x2))

USA - 2018 / from the album "Whatever"

 12 (+ 7) : Cheat Codes, Little Mix - Only You (LW: 19 / WO: 6 / PEAK: 12)

USA / UK - 2018

This music video shows a lesbian love at first sight between a mermaid and a woman.

 13 (+ 9) : Troye Sivan - "Animal" (LW: 22 / WO: 2 / PEAK: 13)

Australia - 2018 / from the album "Bloom"

 14 (- 5) : Not.Your.Regular.Boy. - Get Down Make Love (LW: 09 / WO: 10 / PEAK: 09)

The Netherlands - 2018

 15 (+ 3) : Tiago Braga - Ilusão (LW: 18 / WO: 14 / PEAK: 06)

Portugal - 2018

A story of infidelity.

 16 (NEW) : Calvin Harris, Sam Smith - "Promises" (Lyric Video) (LW: - / WO: 1 / PEAK: 16)

UK - 2018

 17 (NEW) : Kylie Minogue - "A Lifetime to Repair" (Lyric Video) (LW: - / WO: 1 / PEAK: 17)

Australia - 2018 / from the album "Golden"

 18 (- 6) : MNEK feat. Hailee Steinfeld - Colour (LW: 12 / WO: 8 / PEAK: 05)

UK - 2018

 19 (- 8) : LOBODA - "SuperSTAR" (LW: 11 / WO: 1 / PEAK: 19)

Ukraine - 2018

The music video is rated 18+ in Ukraine because of the two gay and the lesbian kisses.

 20 (NEW) : Man Meadow - "Play It Loud" (LW: - / WO: 1 / PEAK: 20)

Sweden - 2018

 21 (- 6) : Panic! At The Disco - Hey Look Ma, I Made It (LW: 15 / WO: 7 / PEAK: 07)

USA - 2018

Brendon Urie comes out as pansexual. The funny music and his puppet illustrates that fact.

 22 (+ 3) : Blair St. Clair - Call My Life (LW: 25 / WO: 8 / PEAK: 13)

USA - 2018 / from the album "Call My Life"

 23 (NEW) : Pabllo Vittar - "Problema Seu" (LW: - / WO: 1 / PEAK: 23)

Brazil - 2018

 24 (- 10) : Eureka O'Hara - The Big Girl (LW: 14 / WO: 7 / PEAK: 04)

USA - 2018

This is the first single of the drag queen who was runner up in RuPaul's Drag Race season 10.

 25 (NEW) : Madonna - MET Gala 2018 (LW: - / WO: 1 / PEAK: 25)

USA - 2018

Madonna performs 'Like A Prayer', 'Beautiful Game' and 'Hallelujah' at the 2018 MET Gala in New York.

 26 (+ 6) : Vini Uehara - "Perigo" (LW: 32 / WO: 3 / PEAK: 26)

Brazil - 2018 / from the album "Hear Me Now"

The fashion designer, Youtuber and singer comes out of the closet as gay with this music video.

��27 (NEW) : LP - "Girls Go Wild" (LW: - / WO: 1 / PEAK: 27)

USA - 2018

 28 (NEW) : Chris(tine and the Queens) - "5 dollars" (LW: - / WO: 1 / PEAK: 28)

France - 2018 / from the album "Chris"

 29 (- 1) : Blonde feat. Bryn Christopher - Me, Myself & I (LW: 28 / WO: 6 / PEAK: 27)

UK - 2018

 30 (- 13) : BeBe Zahara Benet - Jungle Kitty (LW: 17 / WO: 12 / PEAK: 07)

USA - 2018

 31 (- 1) : Years & Years - Palo Santo (Live - Vevo x Years & Years) (LW: 30 / WO: 8 / PEAK: 28)

UK - 2018 - from the album "Palo Santo"

 32 (- 6) : CARSON - "Good Love" (LW: 26 / WO: 3 / PEAK: 26)

USA - 2018

The debut music video of Carson Rammelt has been promoted on Billboard Pride's July 2018 Playlist.

 33 (- 2) : Mint Julep - The Promise ("Alex Strangelove" OST) (LW: 31 / WO: 6 / PEAK: 22)

USA - 2018

"Alex Strangelove" is a gay coming of age movie from Nexflix.

 34 (+ 4) : AB Soto - "No More 2 Say" (LW: 38 / WO: 2 / PEAK: 34)

USA - 2018 / from the album "Visibility, Part.1"

 35 (+ 1) : Nacha La Macha - Eres Cobarde (LW: 36 / WO: 6 / PEAK: 11)

Spain - 2018

 36 (- 15) : Smashby - "Someone" (LW: 21 / WO: 2 / PEAK: 21)

UK - 2018 / from the EP "Wild One"

 37 (- 4) : Bruno Gadiol, Gabriel Nandes - Seu Costume (LW: 33 / WO: 8 / PEAK: 17)

Brazil - 2018

The 20 years old singer has been revealed in The Voice Brasil in 2016. He comes out as gay with this music video.

 38 (+ 12) : Davi - "Tenho Você" (LW: 50 / WO: 3 / PEAK: 38)

Brazil - 2018

This is the first single in solo of the member of Banda Uó.

 39 (- 16) : Sharon Needles - "666" (LW: 23 / WO: 4 / PEAK: 17)

USA - 2018 / from the album "Battle Axe"

 40 (NEW) : LVRK - "Heart to Heart" (LW: - / WO: 1 / PEAK: 40)

Sweden - 2018

 41 (NEW) : Kiesza feat. Philippe Sly - "Phantom Of The Dance Floor" (LW: - / WO: 1 / PEAK: 41)

Canada - 2018

 42 (- 15) : Panic! At The Disco - Say Amen (Saturday Night) (LW: 27 / WO: 6 / PEAK: 18)

USA - 2018 / from the album "Pray For The Wicked"

 43 (NEW) : Seeb, Dagny - "Drink About" (LW: - / WO: 1 / PEAK: 43)

Norway - 2018

 44 (- 15) : Not.Your.Regular.Boy. - Crazyland (LW: 29 / WO: 18 / PEAK: 03)

The Netherlands - 2018

Revealed on X-Factor and the Voice, this is his debut single.

 45 (- 10) : Brandon Stansell - "For You" (LW: 35 / WO: 4 / PEAK: 22)

USA - 2018

A sweet love triangle story.

 46 (RE-ENTRY) : Steve Grand - Don't Let The Light In (LW: - / WO: 2 / PEAK: 36)

USA - 2018 / from the album "Not The End of Me"

The music video is a collection of his childhood and concerts footage.

 47 (- 23) : Monét X Change feat. Bob The Drag Queen - Soak It Up (LW: 24 / WO: 12 / PEAK: 08)

USA - 2018

The drag queen was voted Miss Congeniality of the 2018 edition of RuPaul's Drag Race.

 48 (- 5) : 星屑スキャット Hoshikuzu Scat - 「半蔵門シェリ」 "Hanzo Mon Chérie" (LW: 43 / WO: 2 / PEAK: 43)

Japan - 2017 / from the EP "Hanzo Mon Cherie"

We're in love with the first music video of this trio, composed with drag queens Mitz, Meili and Kazue!

 49 (- 5) : Renato - "Cruel Summer" (LW: 44 / WO: 4 / PEAK: 27)

Czech Republic - 2018

 50 (- 5) : FRANKIE x Scott Hoying feat. One Night - Ghost (LW: 45 / WO: 10 / PEAK: 14)

USA - 2018

The music video is an interesting queer remake of Grease.

  ALSO NEW THIS WEEK

 John Duff - "Girly"

USA - 2018

The singer plays Mariah Carey, Madonna, Britney Spears and Beyoncé. Drag queen Bianca Del Rio, Willam Belli and Mariah Balenciaga are also featuring in this music video.

 Josh Wood - "Radio (You and I)"

USA - 2018

 Alaska & Jeremy - "Aliens"

USA - 2018 / from the album "Amethyst Journey"

 Imagine Dragons - "Natural"

USA - 2018

 Cher - "SOS" (Audio)

USA - 2018

 Magnus Carlsson - "Slow Motion"

Sweden - 2018

 Kim Petras - "All The Time" (Audio)

Germany - 2018

 Thalles - "Just When We Were High"

Brazil - 2018 / from the album "Utopia"

 Ivri Lider עברי לידר - "The Prom / הנשף"

Israel - 2018

 ALVIN - "Oui, Papa"

France - 2018

After "Il a dit", this is the new music video of the French singer Alvin Point.

 Villagers - "Fool"

Ireland - 2018 / from the album "The Art of Pretending to Swim"

 HANDSOME - "No Cowards"

Australia - 2018 / from the EP "No Hat No Play"

 Union J feat. Ironik - "Dancing"

UK - 2018

 anaïs feat. Olly Alexander - "No control"

UK - 2018

 NORAZO (노라조) - "CIDER" (사이다)

South Korea - 2018

 Nigel Andrews - "Ik doe mijn eigen ding"

The Netherlands - 2018

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Laundry Pods, 7/?

The last time you got into the water, it was that day you couldn’t stop thinking about John. That train of thought got you absolutely nowhere, so in a couple days it was blissfully concealed between a layer of fresh interest in the mer...dude. 

Finally, you’ve decided to do some research. 

It took about a million years with Dirk torrenting whatever the fuck he was working on at the time, but you managed to connect your sand-crusty phone into the wifi and get some proper science shit going on. 

Jade would probably have some cool ideas, of course. And Jake would be overjoyed at the opportunity to talk about aliens. Rose, who’s coming back soon, would ask if you’re suddenly interested in writing alien porn. The thought’s occurred to you, but only as a lucrative venture. 

Obviously. 

I mean, who would write monster porn for fun?

Right?

Anyway, you’re dawdling, scrolling down page after page of google results. Nothing that’s not just obviously complete fiction at first glace shows up. It’s infuriating, to some degree. There are a few sites that speculate on merpeople and their “possible” physiology and like, comparisons to humans. It’s vaguely interesting. And according to the glimpses you’ve gotten, they don’t seem too far-off. 

But nothing. 

A couple reddits about mermaid sightings. A few threads that sound likely, but... eh. They just kinda focus on the tits, or they sound batshit insane. Like, also believe they can turn into a wolf, insane. 

Blinking, you realize briefly that maybe werewolves exist, too. 

Shit. 

After a bit of head shaking and shit-talking your own brain for idiocy of not realizing how fucking crazy it was in the first place that you found a goddamn fish man, you turn to wikipedia. 

Yeah, yeah, not the best source. But it’s the easiest place to go to that would have like, legends. And a few button presses after that, you’re looking at marine biology and water pressure and trying to figure out exactly how many hours and seconds it would take to train yourself to hold your breath underwater for a really goddamn long time. 

Time passes quickly when you’re doing this research. And eventually, you come up with a fuckin’ idea. 

It’s about ten in the evening, and you’re starving. 

About time to go downstairs and eat something. And then, you’re gonna try to make first goddamn contact with this hot mer-dude. 

And he’s definitely gonna hiss like a banshee at you. 

You’re thrilled at the prospect. 

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Homestuck Liveblogs #166

UPDATE 166: There Were Thousands of Words

Last time everyone had gathered at the platform where they’d enter the new universe...if they had one! Because despite things going better in this timeline, the game hasn’t been won yet, all the villains are still free and ready to cause trouble. It’s dialogue time, though, so let’s continue. There are five more conversations left for me to read.

At least Vriska is giving some time for everyone to relax for a moment and talk, instead of going straight to the strategy meeting. Maybe she has stopped playing just for a win...no, no way. But at least she’s giving time to just sit and talk.

TEREZI: 1 DON'T KNOW HOW 1 WOULD H4V3 L1V3D W1TH MYS3LF 1F 1 H4D... GON3 THROUGH W1TH 1T 

You don’t want to know. I think you’d be disgusted with yourself. Thank goodness John was around and trolls are very enduring, who knows how things would have gone if Terezi had bled to death before being able to give John instructions.

TEREZI: 1 GU3SS W3 STUCK TO OURS3LV3S MOSTLY  TEREZI: 4ND ROS3 4ND K4N4Y4 W3R3 4LL... YOU KNOW  TEREZI: SO TH4T L3FT TH3M 4ND TH31R CUT3 M4YOR S1D3K1CK TO...  TEREZI: SORT TH1NGS OUT 4MONGST 34CH OTH3R? W1THOUT 1NT3RF3R3NC3 FROM 4 BUNCH OF CR4ZY FUCK3D UP G1RLS  TEREZI: 1'M H4PPY FOR TH3M  TEREZI: 4ND... FOR M3 TOO  TEREZI: 1F YOU H4DN'T B33N 4ROUND, 1 H4V3 4 F33L1NG 1 WOULD H4V3 GOTT3N SUCK3D 1NTO SOM3 W31RD BULLSH1T W1TH BOTH OF TH3M 

Sounds accurate, and it aligns with a few messages I got pointing that out. They all have a point, yeah. I never expected Dave and Karkat would get as close as they did. Good for them!

Terezi feels strange that they’ll fight the bad guys without Vriska’s help, who I’m completely sure wouldn’t want to not take part of a good skirmish with the antagonists. I don’t know yet what she’s going to do, but I’m sure it’ll be important and significant. There’s no way she’d let it be any less than that. Terezi is also feeling pressured to the best Terezi ever, you know, since another version of her sacrificed herself so she’d be better in many ways. Hm. Well, at least now she has the support not only of John, but also of Vriska. With some luck this won’t go into a spiral of self-loathing like it happened to the other Terezi. Aranea’s absence will help with that, too, no speeches and cunning convincing at all in favor of throwing away the blindness.

Well that was a nice conversation! It’s nice to see Vriska being supportive. Then again, she’s Terezi’s moirail, that’s kind of the moirail’s duty. Still, Terezi needed to hear all that, so yeah, that’s good. Too bad that Vriska’s empathy doesn’t translate to other people, especially since right after such supportive words to Terezi Vriska proceeded to trash Tavrosprite and Jake. Next conversation is with Roxy, Dave and Rose.

Kanaya leaves, leaving Dave to talk with his family. With some luck it’ll have zero Freudian and oedipal slip-ups, but I’m not holding my breath here. Dave is not very good at keeping his mouth shut, hah! Especially when Roxy is very okay with being called mom, despite how weird Rose and Dave think it’d be.

Roxy and Dave are two people I didn’t know I wanted to see in a conversation. They both have the same propensity to weird sentences and strange metaphors, all thrown in fast-paced lines. It’s going to be like another language if they keep going, poor Rose is going to be sidelined so hard here.

DAVE: so  DAVE: you are my biological mother  ROXY: yes  DAVE: and roses  ROXY: yes  DAVE: and therefore bear at least partial and like biologically incidental responsibility for why we are both so fucked up  ROXY: yes  DAVE: but you yourself are a paradox clone  ROXY: um... i guess?  DAVE: which means  DAVE: you didnt even have bio parents  DAVE: you originated from yourself  ROXY: guess so!  DAVE: so you really dont have anyone to blame for who you are except weirdly and paradoxically yourself  ROXY: um.. y.. yes?  ROSE: Dave. 

Dave, you managed to make it all sound so weird and almost accusatory. The nice moment crashed and burned, and I don’t think anyone will be able to retrieve the black box of this airplane to see how exactly you screwed up so hard. He apologizers and reveals this way a way to try to find out about Dirk’s upbringing – and his self in the new human universe – but backtracks at the last moment.

DAVE: depends on if you want to keep sitting in this goddamn pan  ROXY: hmm i dunno  ROXY: maybe our asses are gettin too hot  DAVE: maybe you should speak for yourself  ROSE: DAVE!  DAVE: SHIT  ROXY: lol 

I knew it! It didn’t take not even five minutes before it happened!

They quickly find a few similarities between their lives, mostly about how lonely they were, only having people to talk with through the Internet. At least they’re having fun talking about their hobbies, and Dave sounds genuinely interested about knowing Roxy better. Soon it’s Dave’s turn to give answers. She’s hella impressed with how Rose and Dave reached god tier status. She’s also prone to asking about Dave’s love life. Hoh, too bad this Dave doesn’t remember saying Jane was hot.

DAVE: awesome thanks mom  DAVE: roxy i mean  ROSE: Dave, even I'm having less trouble referring to Roxy by her name consistently, and I was the one who grew up knowing her as my literal mother.  ROSE: What is going on with you? 

He wanted a mom, I guess. I mean, he grew with pretty much no female influence in his life, I can’t rule out that during quite some time Dave wanted to have a maternal figure in his life, and now there it is, and although Dave really doesn’t want to think of her as his mother, he still slips a lot about that. Well, there’s also that like I said Dave has a terrible brain-to-mouth filter. He’s going to call Roxy ‘mom’ a few hundred more times before he stops for good.

DAVE: see rose yall worrying about nothing as usual  DAVE: moms fine with it  DAVE: moxy  ROXY: snort  DAVE: i mean  DAVE: romy  DAVE: mommy  DAVE: wait fuck  DAVE: ok that one was fucked up  DAVE: lets make sure i never ever fucking say that again 

Rose’s going to have a field day with this conversation.

The conversation turns to what these kids would have done if they hadn’t, you know, brought the end of the world with a game and all that. Dave may have gone into paleontology, which is a profession I don’t think many would have imagined Dave would have. Then again, he has a hobby of collecting dead stuff, so there’s a precedent. Rose...hm, maybe she really would have gone for psychology, even though she says she’d have been satisfied with naming herself a psychologist without going through higher education. I can’t imagine what Roxy would have been if she had lived in a normal world. She’s a smart gal, I’m sure she’d have gotten far in anything she chose, most likely in a scientific profession.

I think Dave likes Vriska very much. There goes Vriska again, butting into other people’s conversations. I guess it’s forgivable, given that Rose was talking about her Sburb quest and Vriska is a Light player too. She’s the one most qualified to say something about it.

VRISKA: I don't have any opinion on whether you do it or not, Rose. That's your 8usiness.  VRISKA: 8ut my advice is, if you see your denizen, just make sure you kill her fast. 

Nevermind, her advice sucks. Talking with the denizen has been very useful for everyone who bothered to do it. Don’t fight your denizen unless it’s necessary for any Choice you need to make, Rose. And then...then this story takes a swerve to the very strange and unexpected.

...the heck? Are there going to be two Rose now? Huh. Well, guess your plan to use the sprites to resurrect anyone slain in the future has been summarily destroyed, Vriska, but this may be good! Rose is smart and now she has sprite knowledge and powers, and given that she was a Seer of Light, I think she may be able to gain some good information and intel. Rosesprite seems to be taking all this rather well, unlike alive Rose. The problem I see here is that this sprite has been prototyped only once. Hmmm...maybe resurrection through sprites isn’t off the table yet, although I really don’t think many would be okay with merging with Rose.

You know what I just realized? That everyone is panicking way too much about touching sprites that have been prototyped only once. It doesn’t seem to me like...those who are destined to be alive and well can be prototyped? I mean, everyone sentient who has been prototyped was dead or slated for death already. John once touched his once-prototyped sprite and nothing happened. Who knows...maybe that was just Hussie not having defined all rules yet.

At least Rosesprite is seeing the boon of newly-gained insight as a mystical guide, even if she’s still confused about this all. The actual alive Rose doesn’t like the new development, calling it stupid. I think it can be useful.

ROSE: I seriously have the DUMBEST arc anyone could conceivably imagine.  DAVE: rose we dont have fuckin "arcs" we are just human beings

I think everyone has arcs, whether they realize it or not. That’s life. It just happens.

So, next: Kanaya, Vriska and Karkat. Why do I have the feeling Kanaya is going to find herself in middle of a shouting match.

Vriska doesn’t understand why some people like to keep their love affairs out of the public sight. Hm, that depends on the person and on the couple. Not everyone is comfortable with showing a romantic relationship to the public, but it’s undeniable sooner or later it’s necessary to reveal it. Given Vriska’s personality, she’s not the type to keep her relationships in secret, so I guess this is a case of her own opinions dyeing her view of the world.

There we go, she’s saying exactly what I said about her personality! It’s so nice when I think I understand a character’s motivation and personality. I’ll just pat my back here and continue reading.

Vriska doesn’t want a relationship in any quadrant other than moirallegiance, at least for the moment. She’s fully committed to the battles to come, and romance would be distracting. Now that’s something I fully agree with. I’m remembering why I like Vriska. Guess Hussie’s growingly clumsy storytelling skills aren’t enough to make me dislike Vriska, as much as I feel compelled to. I’m not exactly a fan of hers anymore, but...she’s okay. That’s it.

The concept of siblings and parents are as unfamiliar and alien to trolls as the concept of ‘incestuous slurry’ and culling being a normal everyday thing is to humans. I like that Hussie touches onto the detail that both cultures differ and acknowledge it aloud, even though they both had enough time to get used to it all.

Karkaroni gets all wounded up about Vriska potentially discussing the plans for the group with Kanaya before the strategy meeting. Guess that there’s always time to tell Vriska when she’s doing something wrong! Not that Vriska would let it happen without rebuttal or any type. Step aside, Kanaya, this may get heated up.

Kanaya and Karkaroni are going to work together. Hm, could it be they’re going to retrieve the tadpole from the center of Jade’s planet?

...no, I don’t think Karkat and Vriska having kismesisitude would work at all. I don’t see any compatibility between them, and if this conversation here was Hussie attempting to set it up by trying to sell to the readers there’s a rivalry at progress here, well, he didn’t succeed at that. I’m not convinced at all. It feels...forced, unenthusiastic, nothing like other kismesisitudes I have seen in Homestuck.

At least Kanaya and Karkaroni may be rekindling their friendship. That’s nice!

Next! ARquius, Vriska, Terezi and Dave. I’m not sure how this’ll go, so let’s take a look. Oh god, this is a lot of red.

ARquius has zero bonding capacity with anyone who isn’t Dirk, apparently. No surprise there, given that Lil’Hal pretty much only got along with Dirk – barely – and Equius has no reason to care about any of the humans around here. Vriska loves that.

Since Gamzee is still locked in the fridge, Dave suggests letting him out to breathe, because being stuffed in that fridge for who knows how long must be getting tiring for him.

DAVE: i know hes complete trash but maybe we should just let him out  DAVE: whats the harm its not like he can cause much trouble  DAVE: we all way outnumber him and have way more powers and shit  TEREZI: UM...  VRISKA: No.

Hell no! Well, it’s pretty much a foregone conclusion that Gamzee is going to get away at some point, take the musical boxes and arrive to Caliborn’s side, because he’s essential for the creation of Lord English, but that doesn’t mean you should make it easier for him to get away! Not that Dave knows it, but still!

Well, no, Vriska has her own idea of how things are going to go. She knows Gamzee has a role in the new universe, so once it’s all created, she plans to just...leave Gamzee inside the fridge floating in the ocean or something, and let paradox space take him where he needs to be. Well I suppose...that’s okay...I doubt anyone would be happy about it, but then again, better to avoid a doomed timeline even after victory.

DAVE: so is johns hot mom awake yet?  ARQUIUSPRITE:                           No  DAVE: i mean  DAVE: not hot mom  DAVE: just mom  DAVE: damn  DAVE: did anyone hear that  TEREZI: Y3S  DAVE: shit 

Haha, here we go! Hey! Rose! Roxy! You have to hear this!

DAVE: how much longer til his hot moms awake  DAVE: mom  DAVE: i mean his  DAVE: not mine  DAVE: his mom not my hot mom  DAVE: my mom i mean  DAVE: fucking hell  DAVE: not my mom his  DAVE: johns hot mom  DAVE: JESUS 

No, really, you’re missing a riot over here!

ROSE: Is Dave saying inappropriate things about John's mother over there?  DAVE: no! 

A+ conversation. Thanks for this gem, Hussie, I owe you one. It has been a while since I enjoyed this much a normal conversation between Homestuck characters. It gets even better when Roxy delivers a passionate approval about Dave’s opinion regarding Jane’s attractiveness, and Terezi doesn’t waste time in letting John know about Dave’s opinion. This is fantastic!

Finally, the last one, it is John and Jake, having the one-on-one conversation they had agreed on. Hopefully John will repair some of the damage Vriska did not too long ago.

John, you’ll love everything the other you did in the alpha universe. Jake is willing to tell it all. These two are getting along rather well! Guess that’s because they’re kind of similar, not just on looks. John is more extroverted and carefree, but in the core he and Jake are more similar than they think.

John wants to meet Dad Crocker. Hm. I wonder how Dad Crocker is going to react to this kid who is, you know, his father in teen form. Guess that after being trapped in this universe and locked in a jail to interact with chess people via social network, this won’t be as strange as it’d be otherwise.

I’m glad to see John is doing everything Vriska didn’t do. Jake was still feeling rather unsure, but John is being supportive in ways Tavrosprite wasn’t. This is why John is the main character in this story, he has this way to support people and be helpful nobody else has. Look at this:

JOHN: i love the god tier pajamas, and yours are badass.  JOHN: you look like a super hero!  JAKE: Really???  JOHN: yes.  JOHN: well...  JOHN: maybe a plucky side kick, at LEAST.  JAKE: Heheheheh.  JOHN: side kicks are really under rated anyway.  JOHN: i think in some cases they might be the real stars.  JOHN: like, you know bat man?  JOHN: truth be told, i think he might just be some kind of gallivanting idiot.  JOHN: he's got all the money and skills in the world, and what does he do?  JOHN: he buys a fancy car to drive around in, then jumps out and starts punching crooks with his bare hands.  JOHN: then, when he gets horn swoggled by a wily clown with NO powers, and a LOT less money, who has to bail him out?  JOHN: his side kick of course.  JAKE: Yeah youre right!  JOHN: what is bat man even trying to prove? being all serious and "cool" looking.  JOHN: his side kick looks like he has a lot more fun, and smacks of confidence and self assurance, trotting around in his underpants.  JOHN: bat man probably doesn't even care much about stopping crime, it's more about walloping thugs and getting to feel cool.  JOHN: if he really cared about stopping bad guys, he'd probably use his fancy money to buy guns, and at LEAST show the criminals he's packing, to make them scared, if not surrender outright.  JOHN: i bet his side kick probably just has to wait for bat man to bungle things up with his stupid karate, and when he gets in trouble, the side kick just guns down all the crooks from a safe distance like a sensible person.  JAKE: Well i do love guns!!!  JAKE: ALSO fisticuffs.  JOHN: see? there you go.  JOHN: you're better than bat man already. 

 John is the best.

Karkaroni talks with the Mayor, and Tavrosprite shows allergy to cats, and that’s all. All conversations are finished! So now it’s time for the strategy meeting, so let’s get that on board. What’s the plan, commander Vriska? It starts with a reminder regarding the villains and their location. It’s nothing we didn’t know already, so for the purpose of keeping this particularly long update shorter than it’d be otherwise, I’ll just say that yeah, we all know there are many Jacks coming – and Dirk too.

Conveniently summarized here.

The plan is that they need to keep the Condesce busy and distracted, although I point Vriska’s way of doing that is by constant attacks. Jade will deal with Bec Noir and the Mendicant. Sounds good to me. Union Jack – neat name, by the way – will be fought by a group that includes Jane as a healer. That sounds good, too. Everyone else who isn’t fighting the others will deal with Jack Noir from the troll session...fine?

To keep Jane moving between the groups, Vriska decides setting portals and ways for her to come and go will be important. That sounds good too. Vriska isn���t doing half-badly with this meeting thing, honestly. She’s having sensible ideas and although her way of talking leaves a lot to be desired, the strategies themselves are good. Rosesprite will aid set up this network of instantaneous transport.

Now, combat roles! The Condesce will need to be fought by people capable of keeping her busy. Both Lalondes – which have a lot of reasons to want the Condesce dead, may I add – volunteer immediately, and John joins them. Kanaya, despite her lack of god tier powers, decides to join too. A chainsaw is a fearsome weapon, that may work. Before that Kanaya will have to do something for Vriska, though.

Jade will try to keep Bec Noir under control – not that she knows that yet – and Dave offers to fight Union Jack, saying that since everything was making lots of noise about him fighting and defeating Lord English, this is the closest thing he can do without fighting the real Lord English. Hm. Not confident yet, Dave?

VRISKA: For what it's worth, I never 8ought into the idea that you were supposed to 8e the one to kill English anyway. 

Wait, wait, let me guess: you’re going to take that honor to yourself, aren’t you? If I’m right...then you’re very easy to predict, Vriska, wow.

Terezi will join Dave in fighting Union Jack, and Dirk may join, too. Think it’s a good idea to get Dave and Dirk in the same team? Dave may get distracted. I think Dirk wouldn’t, but Dave is a completely different matter.

ARquisprite is a loose end right now.

ARQUIUSPRITE:                           Instead I would prefer to blaze my own trail, with my own hooves  ARQUIUSPRITE:   I always wanted to do something really important and heroic 

Wonder if he’d consider ‘being part of Lord English’ important enough. It’s not heroic, but it’s important for the preservation of the timeline.

Vriska, it’d be fantastic if you stopped being a slimy pile of condescension already. Thank you. Karkaroni, Jake and Tavrosprite will do what they need to do with the Jack from the troll session, even if it makes Karkat unhappy to be considered ‘one of the dregs’. No, I was wrong, Karkaroni will have to work with Kanaya in their mission. So Jake and Tavrosprite will have to do it by themselves? I’m not sure about this...not to insult Jake or anything, but one person against sixteen is kind of uneven.

Vriska, it’d also be fantastic if you stopped patting your back so hard. You’re going to shatter your spine if you say another paragraph of praises to yourself.

Karkaroni and Kanaya’s duty is pretty much what they had to do in the other timeline: go retrieve the tadpole! Yeah, thought so. I don’t think they had time to do that in the other timeline before things started to go awry, and I see nothing that could stop them from achieving it this time. Should be no problem!

John receives Earth in an 8-ball, and is told to give it to Jade later. Fixing that planet once the universe is created will be important. I’m still pretty amazed Earth could fit in a wallet.

So that’s the end of the strategy session. It was okay, I guess. My opinion of Vriska’s role in all this degraded more and more the longer this went by, honestly. I’m glad it’s over.

JOHN: vriska, what's YOUR part in all this, aside from making all these air tight plans?  JOHN: you've been making it sound like you won't be here when all this happens!  VRISKA: Of course I won't.  VRISKA: I'll 8e off doing something much more important than all this.  VRISKA: I'm traveling to the furthest ring to go kill Lord English. 

Well that was predictable. I’m not even going to feign a look of surprise here, because of course Vriska would claim for herself that fight. Augh. She’s going to take the ghost army, though, so at least she won’t be doing it all by herself.

Everyone forms their groups to start arranging their battle strategies, although Dave doesn’t like to do it without Dirk around to give input or agree about anything. There’s something disrespectful about it. Vriska gets tired of his moping and decides to bring Dirk already into the session. You could have done that long ago? Why wasn’t it done before? Really, I think...I don’t understand why not to bring him before. Dirk is brought into the platform, bouncing around, and that’s it!

And there we go! That’s the end of this update. Quite long, right? There was a lot of dialogue to read, that’s for sure. Thank you for reading this all!

Next update: next time

[kalicofox]

Babystuck Part 6

Betcha thought this’d never happen again! ^_^

Jade ends up making another trip back to the mainland, taking John with her this time, because;

"I'm not going to carry everything we need to take care of four babies for two months by myself!"

Jade ends up making another trip back to the mainland, taking John with her this time, because;

"I'm not going to carry everything we need to take care of four babies for two months by myself!"

You, wisely, hadn't pointed out that she could just stick everything in her sylladex before teleporting home.

So now, you and Rose and Jane were all back in the living room, John and Jade were off somewhere, and Roxy had a lap full of Dadbert that she was busy cooing over, tickling hands and feet and chubby baby cheeks. Judging from the peals of happy baby laughter, Dadbert approved.

"Is that some sort of mind control your useless human wigglers have?"

Oh yeah. And Karkat. He'd followed the four of you into the living room and was keeping half an eye on all of you even as he worked his way through a truly enormous plate of fried grubs.

"Oh yeah, it's horrible." You say, deadpan, "If you don't do whatever these mini-overlords demand, they do this thing that makes your head explode. It's fuckin' tragic; brains everywhere. Happens all the time."

"Riiiight." He's looking at Bro with a dubious expression, and you smirk.

"Totally true, dude."

"He's right." D agrees, leaning over the back of the couch to get a look at Baby Bro. "They've got this psychic scream, man, it's the worst fuckin' thing you could ever hear. Splits your head right open, and blam, brains all over the damn place. It's hell to clean up. Dirk told me what happened." he adds, glancing sidelong at you, and you grimace.

"Sorry man, I was kinda distracted."

He waves off your apology. "Nah, I get it. Jesus christ that's weird though, seein' him without his shades."

You nod, and D's wings flare, settle, then flare again slightly.

"Can I...?"

"Hold him? Yeah, sure man. Knock yourself out." You hold Bro out to D, who takes the baby awkwardly. You get to your feet, then take to the air so that you can really stretch, bending over backwards to loosen up.

Ahhh, sweet freedom. This is bliss.

"Girls are more susceptible than guys." You add, glancing at Karkat, "Something something hormones or whatever."

"Yeah, right." Karkat scoffs through a mouthful of grubs. "Like I'm going to believe that grubs can scream loud enough to explode heads."

"Aww man." You drawl, now fully upside down, "You got us. It's true. They can't scream that loud. But," you add, catching sight of Rose handing Momlonde over to Jake again, "you'd be fuckin' surprised dude."

Surprisingly, Momlonde actually stays quiet for a few moments. Just long enough for Jake to start to relax and for a smile to start stretching across his lips.

And then the whimpering starts.

Instantly Jake tenses up again, looking around wildly to see if anyone else is watching.  You glance away, not exactly not wanting to help him, but more wanting Karkat to get a damn good idea of what human infants are capable of.

"Hush now, you're fine, you're a good baby, yes you are," Jake's voice is half on the edge of panic, and you risk another glance over at him.

He's twisted her around so that her head is on his shoulder, and you wince when you realize exactly what's going to happen to his ear if he doesn't manage to get her calmed down soon.

"No, nooooooo," he moans quietly, "please hush, you're fine, it's fine, it's all lovely and flowers and roses. Rose'll be back soon, please don't start crying again!"

For a second it sounds like his babbling is working; Momlonde hiccups once, twice, settles a little, then screws up her face and wails.

Jake flinches, and you see his arms tighten a little around the baby, which is, you suppose, better than dropping her, but it's actually Karkat's response that you're more interested in.

Your interest is, as usual, rewarded.

This time it's rewarded by the plate being flung ceiling-ward by the startled troll; an action that results in a short lived rain of cooked grubs cascading down across you, Karkat and an unamused looking D, who'd sheltered Bro under one wing when he'd realized what was happening.

"You'd better get him out of here," you tell D, nodding at the baby in his arms, "they're networked or some bullshit, and I really don't wanna deal with two screaming brats."

D blinked, then glanced around and, presumably, noticed that every other teenager holding a baby was making fast tracks out of the room.

"Gotcha." He said, "Message me when it's safe to come back."

And he was gone, only a flicker of yellow-gold-orange feathers around the door to mark his passing.

That said and done, you turn your attention back to Karkat and snicker.

He's got his hands plastered to the sides of his head, covering his ears in a vain attempt to protect himself from the increasingly high-pitched screams up an unhappy baby.

You reach over and pry one hand away from his head, leaning close so that your mouth is next to his ear.

"Now do you believe me?" You ask, and get a vicious glare in response.

That's good enough for you, and you drift over to Jake, easily plucking the squalling infant Lalonde from his arms.

Judging from the grateful salute he tosses you before beating a hasty retreat, Jake is going to be trying to pay you back somehow. Maybe you'll be able to get him to teach you how to shoot. You had always thought that Jade's gun collection sounded kind of cool.

Unfortunately, the change in venue does nothing to quiet the screaming, and you sigh, wishing you still had that pair of noise canceling headphones you'd bought for yourself when you were twelve. Nothing for it; according to the great god google, sometimes the only thing that'll stop a baby screaming is screaming themselves to sleep. And right now you don't have anywhere that you can be sure she won't roll herself right off of, so you've gotta keep holding her.

Fuuuuuuuck.

 You get so caught up in rocking from one side to the other, and forward and back, and rubbing gentle strokes down her back and keeping up a steady stream of meaningless words that you forget that Karkat is still in the room until you glance up and spot him, watching you with a weird, unreadable look on his face.

You don't ask; he won't be able to hear you because he's still plugging his ears, but you tilt your head to the side anyway, trying to show him the question you want to ask.

Karkat shakes his head, tilts his lips up in a weird half smile and heads out of the room, leaving you standing there wondering what the hell just happened.

[lewiselder]

the prayer

my first post about the trainer happened around October. i wrote that entry on Wednesday, February 22nd. this particular event happened the next day. 

the next day. Thursday, February 23rd. 

I texted a couple people about it - Ian, Dana, Jake. i wasn’t sure what to do with it. i was legitimately worried if i posted about it right away that it might seem like i’m bullshitting. instead i’m taking it as a sign. from, uh, (god?) that making this, uh, (blog?) was a good idea. so thanks, guy who i’m about to roast in detail. 

SO, it was Thursday of last week. i had gotten off work a little early and went to the gym.

yeah...the same fucking gym lol

maybe there’s something to be said about Lifetime Fitnesseses. fitnesseses? fitnesseses. or maybe there’s something to be said about the kind of people who can afford a gym that is at least $70/month. probably the latter. 

but i dye grass. so i’m at the gym, in the beginning sets of squatting. from the corner of my eye i notice a dude near me who looks like he’s trying to get my attention. i do every gym go-ers favorite move - stop what i’m doing, take my sweaty headphones off, and turn to dr distracto. 

doctor distracto MD says to me in a syrupy voice, “Are you using this?” - referencing a bench near my squat rack. 

i say no. 

distracto, DDS then says, “hey man we met in the locker room yesterday.”

one armed handsome hero, “oh yeah, i remember...how’s it going?”

***FLASHBACK***

the night before i was getting my shit out of the locker before going home. a dad and his teenage son were using a locker next to me. i had seen them at the gym a few times before. i mostly recognized them because the teenage son always wore these old adidas crazy quick joints that Tim Duncan and John Wall wore in like 2013. 

^^^these ones. notice how i capitalize Tim Duncan and John Wall but not doctor distracto phd. also notice The Big Fundamental’s face here - not entirely dissimilar to mine whilst conversing with professor distractathon. 

any who. this dad ass dad (aka distracto - keep up) and his son ass son are next to me in the locker room. dad ass dad just kinda slides in my ear DMs with a quick, “i see you here a lot.” 

“yeah, i’m here too much” - my standard response to that comment, which gets a laugh like 65% of the time. 

dad ass dad goes on to introduce himself as will (i think). nice name there, will. he made a couple random comments about idk, the fucking gym or whatever, pretty small talk-y. then we part ways. 

***FLASH FORWARD***

so i’m at the squat rack in the middle of asking will (maybe it was bill?) how it was going after he mentioned we had met last night. then bill (phil?) hits me with what, in my life, is the conversational equivalent of an off ball screen you never see coming (but i kinda always see it coming)

phil (gill?) - gill goes: “so how long have you been dealin’ with that?” - sort of gesturing with his chin at my arm. 

me: “uh kinda a while lol i was born with it.” 

willbillphilgill aka distracto aka dad ass dad, in his slow, southern, lawn chair with a bud light voice goes: “Would you mind if i prayed with you?”

lol uh

i said something like - uh, well i don’t really pray...

dad ass dad kinda cuts me off there and goes: “i’ll lead it”

“okay” i say, interested as to what was about to happen. dad ass dad then clasps my right hand in a kind of like, white guy dap stance. 

so i’m standing there. hand in hand with some middle aged texan. in the middle of a lifetime fitness. at 4pm on a thursday. while his teenage son stands next to us. 

then this motherfucker really begins a prayer. it went something like this. 

Dear God. We ask that you heal Lewis here. May he be healed with all of your grace, mercy, and love. All this we ask of you, Lord. Thank you. Amen. 

qwertyuiopasdfghjklzxcvbnm

i quickly felt the holy spirit wash over my poor, withered husk of an arm. yes lord!

nah but i did get to smell his fucking meat breath. 

now mind you this is the day after i’ve started a blog to chronicle, oh i don’t know, THIS EXACT SHIT lol. so him and i release our caucasian clasp. i kinda laugh and say thanks. i don’t remember what he said but it wasn’t much. him and his son wander off, presumably to go reconvene with the other missionaries scouring the gym floor for lepers in need. 

ps - i wonder if this guy and the trainer would have a spirited argument about science vs religion? ROBOT ARM! NO - GOD ARM! NO, ROBOT ARM! NO...

-------------------------

so i stand there. shocked? angry? happy? i was definitely well aware that this was fucking perfect for the project i had just undertaken. so, if nothing else, this blog has already turned what would have been an otherwise unpleasant experience into a (prettygoddamnoffensive) silver lining. big ups to the six, three of which are me in different states of mania, of ya’ll that will read this. srsly. ty. 

so. yuh. the day after i write about that fucking god damn trainer, this happens lol. 

honestly, i was a lot less mad at this guy than i was at the trainer. i really don’t know why. maybe because this dude wasn’t as ready to slice me up, or maybe i was just in a better mood. obv not great that he sees my arm as a disease to an otherwise healthy young man, but.... 

ALSO - gotta address the handicapped elephant in the room which has to be - what exactly did this dude mean/think would happen when he said “heal.” like, is god boutta catch me asleep one day and i just wake up with like 2 regular arms lol??? 2 elbows and 10 fingers and all that bougie shit??? 

man then i’d be just like ya’ll. 

yuck. 

jk - i’ll take one order of elbow pls. 

but anyway. so another instance of austinites being boooooold as fuck. i’m starting to miss the “that ain’t my fucking problem” attitude of St. Louis *swoons* i think a lot of this shit is just more evidence of how dehumanized people with disabilities are. like, son, you wouldn’t go up to some dude with glasses and pray to god for his sight to be restored, would you? but for some reason, every fuckin texan with eyes and a pulse seems to think they have the moral obligation to put their fuckin brisket scoops (hands) on me and offer me their help, advice, and now prayer. 

also, if this is what dads are like, i’m really not missing out on shit. 

so. idk. i guess ball’s in your court @God 

ps if u read this far, i’ll buy you a taco

[thesoundofsimple]

It took me a while to compile these. Maybe I was busy, maybe I didn’t want the closure.  I’m not always so great with closure. I think it was more that i tried and failed to post this several times and it was starting to become too much work. Anyway, I’ve finished the series. This story has consumed me for the last two years. Hey, I’m not a fast reader ok - don’t you judge me. But it’s a nice thing to have something in your life like that for so long, what’s the rush. I’ve compiled a bunch of my fav moments from the book below along with some commentary on some of them. Where to begin... I read this series because of two people. Either in high school or early college my friend Matt insisted that I start reading the Gunslinger series. He was obsessed with it. I was not a king fan at the time and chalked his interest Up to the other weirdo fantasy books he would read about kings and queens and warriors and big bears and those fantasy books you would see in the bookstores with the girls with the big boobs and they are riding a wolf or something from other dimensions and such (you know the ones right?) Sometimes he’d plead with me anyway about how I was missing out. I ignored this but regardless, the seed was planted. As I was reading this, i realized how lucky i was to be able to just keep reading this series unencumbered by the wait for publication. I was never having to wait YEARS for the next book to come out, or wondering if it ever would come out. I kinda got the Netflix treatment on this, i could binge read. I had the sad realization that as obsessed as Matt was with the series, he only got through three. He died a few months before Wizard and Glass which i realize is a small tragedy in comparison to the whole "he died" part but its a tragedy nonetheless. I wish Matt could have been able to finish the series. That would have made him happy. He was a nice person and one of my best friends, I realize writing this, I miss him. The other person implicated here as getting me interested was my friend Amy. She'd been a big King fan since she was a kid. A little kid. A weird little kid according to her, reading fukin Pet Cemetery at age 11 and such. My own 11 year old would have to be committed to a mental institution if she read that book. Amy liked reading in general and I hadn't really been reading any books in a long time and I was embarrassed about that when it came to her so i tried to start reading a bit not to seem like a total degenerate. that kid had a way of making me do things that were good, things i should be doing - nice quality really. She had a way of picking out things for me that, well, I really liked. She was my taste-maker for a few years with stuff like this and I came to believe if she said i would like it, well it was a done deal because she was always right about what i'd like. That said, she was also a little self conscious sometimes about her interests. She'd go on a whole rant about something sorta esoteric and then suddenly become self aware and look embarrassed, say something like "yeah, your girl's a real weirdo, sorry" but I loved listening and learning about lots of stuff (great stuff) i just had been oblivious to. Roland and his friends were among Amy's favorite stories. So a few years later when we, well, didn't talk anymore, and I missed her... quite a lot, I started picking up some of the books she told me about. While Matt put the idea in my head to read these books, I know that the real reason i finally did was to have a tiny part of her around, a one way connection but a connection regardless (now who's the weirdo) And it was nice to be honest. I would have liked to have talked to her about these books, or just say Thankya for putting the idea in my head. 

It’s amazing to me how much the world changed for King from the first book to the last. Or since Matt left. Or since Amy left. Or shall I say, the world has moved on, if it do ya. That the first book was started before I was born and before the last, Harry Potter appeared in the world of Roland. This was an almost uncomprehendingly amazing story. I cant believe it came from one brain. its staggering to me really, truly staggering. Thank you Mr. King. August 1, 2018. 

—————————— My comments in bold You needn’t die happy when your day comes, but you must die satisfied"

“That smell of cooking meat wafting through the air was not pork.”

“sköldpadda tumbled to the red rug, bounced beneath one of the tables, and there (like a certain paper boat some of you may remember) passes out of this tale forever” Loved this reference to IT

“A man can’t pull himself up by his own bootstraps no matter how hard he tries” agreed. reflective of my continuing shift to the left of the political spectrum

“Roland nodded, which wasn’t good enough for Eddie. “Let me hear you say it.”“Hoggie.”“Hoagie.”“HOOG-gie.” Philly! “always tuned to the oldies on WCBS” my mom always had this on growing up. cousin brucie. 

“Anyone who doesn’t think the imagination can kill is a fool” it can. it can make your day or ruin your life

“He leaned forward through the fragrant pipe-smoke. “Son,” he said, “tell your tale. And don’tcha skip a goddam word.”” you knew he was going to believe, i loved this. 

“And she kept the secret. I was the only one she ever told.” Eddie, perhaps remembering that post-coital confidence in the dark of night, was smiling painful” keeping each other secrets... i know that painful smile while remembering

“John offered them a smile that augured well for his future as a dirty trickster: bemused on the surface, sly beneath. well, i just liked this

“Do any of us, except in our dreams, truly expect to be reunited with our hearts’ deepest loves, even when they leave us only for minutes, and on the most mundane of errands? No, not at all. Each time they go from our sight we in our secret hearts count them as dead. Having been given so much, we reason, how could we expect not to be brought as low as Lucifer for the staggering presumption of our love?” and sometimes, they leave, and indeed, are gone.  “and so will the world end, I think, a victim of love rather than hate. For love’s ever been the more destructive weapon, sure.” aye

“To a wide-eyed lad, the tacky tricks of the world’s most ham-fisted prestidigitator look like miracles. ”

“Steek-Tete in Thunder-clap, thinking just briefly of Mr. C. S. Lewis, and the wonderful wardrobe that took you to Narnia. They did not come out in Narnia.”

“What do you know about what it’s like to spend your whole life on the outside, to be the butt of the joke every time, to always be Carrie at the fuckin prom?”

“It was a simple and perfect bit of wordless communication, the sort people who love each other take for granted.”

“My grandfather had a proverb,” Pimli said. “‘You don’t worry about dropping the eggs until you’re almost home.’” “Was it Emily Dickinson who called hope the thing with feathers? I can’t remember” had a friend, she liked this one. 

“Because the only thing talent wants is to be used.””

“Yet he is content enough. The food is good, and although his sexual appetites have subsided quite a bit over the years, he’s not a bit averse to the odd bonk, just reminding himself”“very time that sim sex is really nothing but accessorized masturbation” I cant help but think this is my future. at least it will be accessorized!

If there’s any movie the Breakers never get enough of, it’s Star Wars.” was this a dig a starwars?  “Roland smiled. “A man who can’t bear to share his habits is a man who needs to quit them.���  “Yet still I love you and would serve you and even bring the magic again, if you would allow me, for that is how my heart was cast when I rose from the Prim”

“Even if the torture stops, I’ll die. And you’ll die too, for when love leaves the world, all hearts are still. Tell them of my love and tell them of my pain and tell them of my hope, which still lives.”

“Nerves, he thought, were for people who still hadn’t entirely made up their minds.”

“the rest of the tale will be short and brutal compared to all that’s gone before. Because when katet breaks the end always comes quickly.Say sorry” = king does this thing where he makes a statement like this and you start worrying and reading faster and faster “All is forgotten in the stone halls of the dead. These are the rooms of ruin where the spiders spin and the great circuits fall quiet, one by one”

“He used to tell me that never’s the word God listens for when he needs a laugh.”” “Hush,” he whispered, and she did. The hand caught in her hair pulled. She brought her face to his willingly and kissed his living lips one last time. “I . . . will . . . wait for you,” he said, forcing each word out with immense effort.”

“I probably know more about D-cups than D-lines, and I think that’s true of everyone here”  i take the D line home, D cups are more fun. 

“on order from Viking Motors (“The Boys with the Toys”) in Oxford himself.” i think i stopped into this store last fall

“It was also a stick shift, and she had never driven one of those.”

“Roland and Jake were now bracing their hands against the dusty metal dashboard, where a faded sticker proclaimed AMERICA! LOVE IT OR LEAVE! in red white and blue” was once in a bar in south boston and they have this big sign up that says this. i agreed at the time 15 years ago, now i realize it’s against everything i believe in

“You’re in one hell of a hurry, mister—like the white rabbit in Alice in Wonderland. What very important date are you almost too late for?”  I believe this is what is known as The Baader-Meinhof phenomenon

“Despite his sorrow, there were no tears yet; his eyes felt like hot stones in his head. Perhaps the tears would come later, when the truth of what had happened here had a chance to sink in a little”

“He knelt a moment longer with his hands clasped between his knees, thinking he had not understood the true power of sorrow, nor the pain of regret, until this moment.I cannot bear to let him go.”

“It’s what we call poetic license, Roland.”He nodded, showing unexpected (to her, at least) understanding. “Pretty lies,” he said” =pretty lies, i liked that

“If she had trimmed her bush, maybe she would have taken them off. If she’d known, getting up that morning“

“You wouldn’t dump me without at least . . .” She shrugged one shoulder. The gesture made her look very young. “Without at least saying goodbye?”

“The George Washington,” Marian Carver said. “Or just the GWB, if you’re a native.” i used to listen to the traffic reports as a kid and know all these abbreviations, GWB, BQE, LIE, etc

That man had some hard bark on him

“He opened it and slipped inside with no look back. That, he had found, was ever the easiest way.”

“There were photographs of Eddie and Jake in the folders that were simply too painful to look at. Memories were better.”  “nothing so glamorous, just a retreaded adman from upstate New York”

“Then she screamed. There were no words in it, nor could there have been. Our greatest moments of triumph are always inarticulate.”

“Because the body had a way of forgetting the worst things, she supposed, and without the body’s cooperation, all the brain had were memories like faded snapshots.”

“Good boys go to heaven, and all my friends be in t’other place, toastin marshmallows” 

“It felt strange to laugh, but it was a good feeling, like finding something of value long after you were sure it was lost forever.” this resonated with me

“Oy had decided to live. It was a small thing, but it was a good thing.” It was a good choice. it always is. no matter what. 

“not Sheemie, he’s gone into the clearing at the end of the path, say sorry” thought sheemie deserved a better more dramatic end. “After today she’d see him no more. And that was for the best. Still, she would have given anything in her life to have him make love to her again. You could stay at the apartment for a couple of days and rest up,” she said. “I’d stay with you.” And fuck thy brains out, do it please ya, she thought” sex with an ex? yes please. 

““Bet your bottom dollar,” Roland answered”“and was sorry immediately. He’d learned the phrase from Eddie, and saying it hurt.” has this happened to me, using a phases of a departed only to find is satisfying but satisfying at the same time? i think so...

“In the dark, such visions had a horrible persuasiveness, but luckily she was too tired for them to keep her awake long.”

““It hasn’t been a bad life,” Joe was saying. “Not the life I expected, not by any manner or means, but I got a theory—the folks who end up living the lives they expected are more often than not the ones who end up takin sleepin pills or sticking the barrel of a gun in their mouths and pullin the trigger.”

“Laughter, Susannah would reflect later, is like a hurricane: once it reaches a certain point, it becomes self-feeding, self-supporting. You laugh not because the jokes are funny but because your own condition is funny.”

“But what Roland and Susannah and Patrick heard in a major key, Mordred heard in a minor” i liked this. i have  this really really smart friend but he cant understand the difference between major and minor even when i played him some stuff in piano, hes like “i dont get it”

“Beneath a picture of Roland in profile, he had printed: BEATLES, not Beetles.” WOW i never NEVER realized this! im in IDIOT

“She wondered why everything had to be so damn hard, so damn”“riddle-de-dum) mysterious, and knew that was a question to  which she would never find a satisfactory answer . . . except it was the human condition, wasn’t it? The answers that mattered never came easily.” 

“where she’d learned the art of murder and fallen in love and been left bereaved?”

1. “More important than that, it was unworthy of how much he had come to love and respect her. It broke what remained of his heart to think of bidding her goodbye, but if it was what she wanted, what she needed, then he must do it. 

2. “No,” said he, and she saw he truly was not. She believed she had never seen such sadness and such loneliness on a human face. “Never” 3. “For a moment she thought he would make it easy on her, just agree and let her go. Then his anger—no, his despair—broke in a painful burst. “But you can’t be sure! ” 4. “She took him by the arm and pulled him down and put her lips on his. When she inhaled, she took in the breath of a thousand years and ten thousand miles. And yes, she tasted death.” 5. “He put his face in his hands. It occurred to him that if he had never loved them, he would never have felt so alone as this. Yet of all his many regrets, the re-opening of his heart was not among them, even now. She had brought grace to his life. It wasn’t a word that had occurred to him until she was gone.” this whole section where suzanne leaves roland was kinda hard for me to read, a little to close to home. even tho they were just friends, it was very familiar. 

“A hard rain made for queer bedfellows at the inn; had Roland never heard that saying?”

“Or what if he does know her, somewhere far back in his mind, yet still denies her as completely as Peter denied Jesus, because remembering is just too hurtful?”

“She tosses Roland’s revolver into this litter barrel. Doing it hurts her heart, but she never hesitates.” id never be able to do this. 

“His touch is electric, and she sees that he feels it, too. It occurs to her that he is going to kiss her again for the first time, and sleep with her again for the first time, and fall in love with her again for the first time. He may know those things because voices have told him, but she knows them for a far better reason: because those things have”“already happened. Ka is a wheel, Roland said, and now she knows it’s true. This was a sweet part of the book. Reminded me of a lyric “i get the joy of rediscovering you...”

“And will I tell you that these three lived happily ever after? I will not, for no one ever does. But there was happiness.”

“One taste of the old times sets all to rights”

“All right. I go. Long days and pleasant nights. May we meet in the clearing at the end of the path when all worlds end.” Thank you. 

[gaymusicchart]

GAY MUSIC CHART - 2018 week 33

 Welcome to the Gay Music Chart, the LGBTQA related music videos TOP 50 actuality and most request.

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 Here is the recap for this week :

 OUT : Aja feat. AVG JO - I Don't Wanna Brag (LW: 24 / WO: 3 / PEAK: 24)

OUT : Aquaria - Burn Rubber (Lyric Video) (LW: 46 / WO: 5 / PEAK: 17)

OUT : Jason Mraz - Have It All (LW: 31 / WO: 2 / PEAK: 31)

OUT : KC Ortiz feat. Big Dipper - "Let's Talk About PrEP" (LW: 37 / WO: 1 / PEAK: 37)

OUT : Hercules & Love Affair feat. Mashrou' Leila - Are You Still Certain (LW: 48 / WO: 2 / PEAK: 38)

OUT : Aretuza Lovi feat. IZA - "Movimento" (LW: 42 / WO: 1 / PEAK: 42)

OUT : HUSH - [ 對等關係 ] / [Peer Relationship] (LW: 45 / WO: 1 / PEAK: 45)

OUT : Davi - "Tenho Você" (LW: 46 / WO: 1 / PEAK: 46)

OUT : Merlot - Bad for You (LW: 49 / WO: 4 / PEAK: 10)

  01 (+ 8) : P!nk - "Secrets" (LW: 09 / WO: 2 / PEAK: 01 (x1))

USA - 2018 / from the album "Beautiful Trauma"

 02 (+ 1) : Years & Years - All For You (PSEN Televisual Exclusive) (LW: 03 / WO: 5 / PEAK: 01 (x1))

UK - 2018 / from the album "Palo Santo"

 03 (- 2) : Adore Delano - 27 Club (LW: 01 / WO: 6 / PEAK: 01 (x2))

USA - 2018 / from the album "Whatever"

 04 (- 2) : Lizzo - Boys (LW: 02 / WO: 7 / PEAK: 01 (x2))

USA - 2018

 05 (+ 3) : Eureka O'Hara - The Big Girl (LW: 08 / WO: 5 / PEAK: 04)

USA - 2018

This is the first single of the drag queen who was runner up in RuPaul's Drag Race season 10.

 06 (- 1) : Years & Years - If You're Over Me (LW: 05 / WO: 13 / PEAK: 02)

UK - 2018 / from the album "Palo Santo"

 07 (+ 4) : Sandro Cavazza, P3GI-13 - High With Somebody (LW: 11 / WO: 8 / PEAK: 07)

Sweden - 2018

A sweet song and a music video which shows bisexuality.

 08 (- 4) : Troye Sivan feat. Ariana Grande - Dance To This (LW: 04 / WO: 8 / PEAK: 03)

Australia / USA – 2018 / from the album 2018 "Bloom"

A music video is finally available.

 09 (+ 4) : Panic! At The Disco - Hey Look Ma, I Made It (LW: 13 / WO: 5 / PEAK: 07)

USA - 2018

Brendon Urie comes out as pansexual. The funny music and his puppet illustrates that fact.

 10 (=) : HOLLAND - I'm Not Afraid (LW: 10 / WO: 5 / PEAK: 03)

South Korea - 2018

Revealed by his first music video "Neverland", the out gay South Korean singer continues to represent LGBTQ issues in his new music video to change mentalities in his country. He hasn't be contacted by the big record label compagnies yet in the kpop industry, which means that the fight isn't over.

 11 (+ 12) : Nacha La Macha - Eres Cobarde (LW: 23 / WO: 4 / PEAK: 11)

Spain - 2018

 12 (+ 4) : Madblush – Homophobic (LW: 16 / WO: 3 / PEAK: 16)

Brazil - 2018 / from the EP "Cactus II"

The single has finally a music video.

 13 (- 6) : BeBe Zahara Benet - Jungle Kitty (LW: 07 / WO: 10 / PEAK: 07)

USA - 2018

 14 (+ 3) : MNEK feat. Hailee Steinfeld - Colour (LW: 17 / WO: 6 / PEAK: 05)

UK - 2018

 15 (- 3) : Not.Your.Regular.Boy. - Crazyland (LW: 12 / WO: 16 / PEAK: 03)

The Netherlands - 2018

Revealed on X-Factor and the Voice, this is his debut single.

 16 (- 2) : Troye Sivan - Bloom (LW: 14 / WO: 15 / PEAK: 01 (x5))

Australia - 2018

The Australian singer deleted a tweet where he said that the song was talking about bottoming. Now, he answer that it only talks about flowers. If the first explanation is real, the brilliant metaphore makes this song an enjoyable gay sex anthem.

 17 (+ 5) : Sharon Needles - "666" (LW: 22 / WO: 2 / PEAK: 17)

USA - 2018 / from the album "Battle Axe"

 18 (- 3) : Not.Your.Regular.Boy. - Get Down Make Love (LW: 15 / WO: 8 / PEAK: 15)

The Netherlands - 2018

 19 (+ 1) : Cheat Codes, Little Mix - Only You (LW: 20 / WO: 4 / PEAK: 19)

USA / UK - 2018

This music video shows a lesbian love at first sight between a mermaid and a woman.

 20 (+ 16) : Bruno Gadiol, Gabriel Nandes - Seu Costume (LW: 36 / WO: 6 / PEAK: 17)

Brazil - 2018

The 20 years old singer has been revealed in The Voice Brasil in 2016. He comes out as gay with this music video.

 21 (+ 26) : Monét X Change feat. Bob The Drag Queen - Soak It Up (LW: 47 / WO: 10 / PEAK: 08)

USA - 2018

The drag queen was voted Miss Congeniality of the 2018 edition of RuPaul's Drag Race.

 22 (+ 13) : Brandon Stansell - "For You" (LW: 35 / WO: 2 / PEAK: 22)

USA - 2018

A sweet love triangle story.

 23 (+ 5) : Blair St. Clair - Call My Life (LW: 28 / WO: 6 / PEAK: 13)

USA - 2018 / from the album "Call My Life"

 24 (NEW) : Sam Bluer - "Body High" (LW: - / WO: 1 / PEAK: 24)

Australia - 2018

This is his debut music video. A revelation.

 25 (+ 8) : Blair St. Clair - Now or Never (LW: 33 / WO: 19 / PEAK: 01 (x1))

USA - 2018

This is the first music video of the drag queen who was a contestant on the tenth season of RuPaul's Drag Race.

 26 (- 8) : Panic! At The Disco - Say Amen (Saturday Night) (LW: 18 / WO: 4 / PEAK: 18)

USA - 2018 / from the album "Pray For The Wicked"

 27 (+ 7) : Kim Petras - Heart to Break (LW: 34 / WO: 19 / PEAK: 02)

Germany - 2018

She will be on first part of Troye Sivan's Bloom Tour.

 28 (+ 12) : Years & Years - Palo Santo (Live - Vevo x Years & Years) (LW: 40 / WO: 6 / PEAK: 28)

UK - 2018 - from the album "Palo Santo"

 29 (+ 10) : Mint Julep - The Promise ("Alex Strangelove" OST) (LW: 39 / WO: 4 / PEAK: 22)

USA - 2018

"Alex Strangelove" is a gay coming of age movie from Nexflix.

 30 (+ 11) : Blonde feat. Bryn Christopher - Me, Myself & I (LW: 41 / WO: 4 / PEAK: 27)

UK - 2018

 31 (- 10) : Keiynan Lonsdale - Preach (LW: 21 / WO: 6 / PEAK: 19)

Australia - 2018

The singer and actor took on stage the award for Best Kiss at the MTV Movies and TV Awards 2018, for the movie "Love, Simon". Meanwhile, the movie is censored in India.

 32 (- 5) : Renato - "Cruel Summer" (LW: 27 / WO: 2 / PEAK: 27)

Czech Republic - 2018

 33 (- 4) : FRANKIE x Scott Hoying feat. One Night - Ghost (LW: 29 / WO: 8 / PEAK: 14)

USA - 2018

The music video is an interesting queer remake of Grease.

 34 (- 15) : Tiago Braga - Ilusão (LW: 19 / WO: 12 / PEAK: 06)

Portugal - 2018

A story of infidelity.

 35 (- 10) : Kodaline - Shed a Tear (LW: 25 / WO: 5 / PEAK: 12)

Ireland - 2018 / from the album "Politics of Living"

 36 (+ 14) : THE TRIPLETZ - "You Better Fucking Dance" (LW: 50 / WO: 2 / PEAK: 36)

Spain - 2018

"Better fuck with them boys

Better fuck with them girls

Better fuck with them both

Who fuckin cares?"

 37 (- 31) : Scott Free - Man Meat (LW: 06 / WO: 4 / PEAK: 06)

USA - 2018 / from the album "Zombie Bathhouse: A Rock Musical"

 38 (- 8) : Pussy Riot - Track About Good Cop (LW: 30 / WO: 3 / PEAK: 06)

Russia - 2018

The band's members, disguised as cops, invaded the stadium during the final of the FIFA World Cup 2018, in front of Putin, to claim more democracy.

 39 (- 7) : Oxygen - "All For You" (Audio) (LW: 32 / WO: 3 / PEAK: 32)

UK - 2018 / from the album "TBA"

 40 (RE-ENTRY) : GoodLuck - "I've Been Thinking About You" (LW: - / WO: 2 / PEAK: 26) South Africa - 2016

Incredible: it took two years for this music video with a gay storyline to be officially uploaded on YouTube and available outside South Africa.

 41 (+ 7) : Jinkx Monsoon feat. Fred Schneider - She Evil (LW: 48 / WO: 3 / PEAK: 39)

USA - 2018 / from the album "The Ginger Snapped"

 42 (+ 1) : Jill Shaw - "Game" (LW: 43 / WO: 2 / PEAK: 41)

Belgium - 2018

This song is about who you are and who you want to be. That's why we can see in the music video transwoman Maxime.

 43 (+ 1) : Ryan Amador - Loverboy (LW: 44 / WO: 13 / PEAK: 06)

USA - 2018

Such a romantic love song...

 44 (NEW) : King Princess - "Holy" (LW: - / WO: 1 / PEAK: 44)

USA - 2018 / from the EP "Make My Bed"

 45 (NEW) : The Aces - "Last One" (LW: - / WO: 1 / PEAK: 45)

USA - 2018 / from the album "When My Heart Felt Volcanic"

 46 (NEW) : Dana International - מי האיש ("Who's The Man?") (LW: - / WO: 1 / PEAK: 46)

Israel - 2018

A music video realized for the Gay pride of Jerusalem.

 47 (NEW) : The Internet - "La Di Da" (LW: - / WO: 1 / PEAK: 47)

USA - 2018 / from the album "Hive Mind"

 48 (NEW) : Ryan Beatty - "Haircut" (LW: - / WO: 1 / PEAK: 48)

USA - 2018

 49 (NEW) : CARSON - "Good Love" (LW: - / WO: 1 / PEAK: 49)

USA - 2018

The debut music video of Carson Rammelt has been promoted on Billboard Pride's July 2018 Playlist.

 50 (NEW) : Vini Uehara - "Perigo" (LW: - / WO: 1 / PEAK: 50)

Brazil - 2018 / from the album "Hear Me Now"

The fashion designer, Youtuber and singer comes out of the closet as gay with this music video.

   ALSO NEW THIS WEEK

 星屑スキャット Hoshikuzu Scat - 「半蔵門シェリ」 "Hanzo Mon Chérie"

Japan - 2017 / from the EP "Hanzo Mon Cherie"

We're in love with the first music video of this trio, composed with drag queens Mitz, Meili and Kazue!

 はるな愛 Ai Haruna -「BONダンス」

Japan - 2018 / from the EP「BONダンス」

Ai Haruna is a famous transgender TV personality and singer in Japan.

 清貴 Kiyotaka - "Feeling So Right"

Japan - 2017 / from the album 「あなたがいてくれたから "Because You Were There"」

The singer made is coming out as gay in 2015.

 東京ゲゲゲイ Tokyo Gegegay - 「BlackCat (short ver.)」

Japan - 2018 / from the album「黒猫ホテル "BlackCat Hotel」

MIKEY and his band has finally a new album and an official fan club.

 LOBODA - "SuperSTAR"

Ukraine - 2018

In this MV, a man is cheating his girlfriend with a guy on the beach. When she see that, she slaps him and then she kisses Loboda in return to revenge.

 Swanky Tunes & LP - "Day By Day"

Russia / USA - 2018

 Ryan Beatty - "Powerslide"

USA - 2018 / from the album "Boy in Jeans"

His debut album has been released.

 Big Freedia feat. Lizzo - "Karaoke"

USA - 2018 / from the EP "3rd Ward Bounce"

 AB Soto - "No More 2 Say"

USA - 2018 / from the album "Visibility, Part.1"

 Jake Shears - "Big Bushy Mustache"

USA - 2018 / from the album "Jake Shears"

His debut album has been released.

 Nikki Borodi - "Lezbionic"  

USA - 2018

 John Grant - "Love Is Magic"

USA - 2018 / from the album "Love is Magic"

 Domo Wilson - "Facts"

USA - 2018

 Tish Hyman - "Fake Smiles"

USA - 2018

The track is #1 in the Top 40 LGBT Urban Chart.

 Taylor Olson feat. DJ Brynn Taylor and Rhea Litre - "Damn"

USA - 2018

 Cher - "Gimme! Gimme! Gimme! (A Man After Midnight)" [Audio]

USA - 2018 / from the album "Dancing Queen"

An ABBA revival, thanks to "Mama Mia 2".

 Peter Wilson & Sean Smith - "Verona"

UK - 2018 / from the album "The Passion and The Flame"

This awesome cover of the 2017's Estonian Eurovision track from Koit Toome and Laura is produced by Matt Pop.

 Smashby - "Someone"

UK - 2018 / from the EP "Wild One"

 Matt Fishel - "I'm Totally Obsessed With Him"

UK - 2018 / from the album "M/F"

 Calum Scott - "What I Miss Most" (Lyric Video) (LW: 27 / WO: 17 / PEAK: 01 (x1))

UK - 2018 / from the album "Only Human"

There is finally a lyric video. A music video will probably come soon.

 QUEST - "Got Me Good" (Lyric Video)

Sweden - 2018

This is the first single of this new boyband, composed by members Alexander, 17 years old and gay, Oscar, 17 and gay, Isak, 16 and straight, and Marvin, 17 and straight.

 Troye Sivan - "Animal"

Australia - 2018 / from the album "Bloom"

 Bilal Hassani - "Djadja" (Aya Nakamura Cover)

France - 2018

The video was #25 on YouTube Trending France, but a lot of homophobes send him and his family horrible messages to in return.

 Alice Caymmi, Pabllo Vittar, Junior Fernandes - "Eu Te Avisei" (Junior Fernandes Remix)

Brazil - 2018

 Gray Pop - "Princesas"

Argentina - 2018

 Dani Umpi - "Lechiguana"

Uruguay - 2018 / from the album "Lechiguana"

 אליעד מלכי Eliad Malki -「לאמור To Say」

Israel - 2018

  See you next week and don’t forget to vote for your best LGBTQA music videos ! Here are the rules :

1 ) You can vote for many videos as you want under the videos on YouTube in the comment section. It could be recent or past music videos, which must provide at least one among the following conditions:

- the music video has LGBTQA related content, in the lyrics or the music video

- the artist is LGBTQA, an LGBTQA icon or eventually ally

- LGBTQA medias talked about it.

2 ) You can’t vote more than 3 songs of a same artist per week.

3 ) In case of an artist who receive votes mostly by a fan base, we will count only one song, in a limited time of 4 weeks of presence in the top.

4 ) You can vote with only one account.

5 ) If you make 5 votes or less, your first vote will represent 5 points, your second vote 4 points, etc… until your last vote and following 1 point. If you make 6 to 10 votes, your first vote will represent 10 points, your second vote 9 points, etc… If you make more than 10 votes, your first vote will represent 20 points, your second vote 19 points, etc…

6 ) People who make 1 to 5 votes form the amateur ranking, those who make 6 to 10 votes form the fan ranking, those who make more than 10 votes form the expert ranking. We form the jury ranking (but this one is for the moment suspended as experimentation). And we count now the ranking of minutes of views of our weekly playlist of the previous week. The Gay Music Chart is the addition of the five charts. In case of equality, the number of votes and the dates of votes will count.

7 ) The votes will close on Thursday, 8 PM, European time.