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Let The Light in - Part 1

Chapter Summery - You have a discussion about your future patrolling with Tommy and meet your new patrol partner

Content - Mentions of canon typical violence, very brief mentions of suicide, recalling someone’s death, emotionally constipated reader<3, not proofread so probably spelling errors, shitty writing, use of ‘—‘ indicates timeskip, it’s either specified or not but use context clues to figure it idk, reader is not given any physical description and if I accidentally did please let me know I want to make my writing as including as possible, no use of yn but is called “hun” once.

Word Count - 2.6k

Jackson, the wonderful peaceful town, one that seems too good to be true. Nothing like your life for the past 20 years, filled with blood, havoc and destruction. A town you yourself have a hard time believing isn't a figment of your imagination, that maybe the knife wound you survived months ago really took you out and now your body’s rotting somewhere while your mind conjures a reality to help you find peace.

Or maybe you really did stumble upon Jackson a few months ago and you're lying in bed, covered in a warm feather duvet that the older women on your street had made you as a welcoming gift, only for a few weeks later for her to pass away in her bed. A death that is merciful and natural. Not one by getting ripped apart by infected, or shot through the skull by raiders, or even yourself. It was bizarre to see somebody live their full life, something not many achieve.

Yet that may be your fate, it's bold to assume that you will be able to spend the rest of your life here, whether you don't because you are exiled or it all comes crumbling down from raiders, infected, God knows what. But it's nice to think, not for too long though because your alarm is blaring in your fucking ear.

Yup this is definitely real

You rub your eyes and arch your back to stretch your spine out and groan, trying not to let the comfort of your pillow persuade you into spending the day in bed and leaving your duties unfulfilled. After sitting up and pushing the button on your alarm clock you start your morning tasks; brushing your hair and teeth, getting dressed and drinking a glass of water to remove the sticky feeling in your mouth that developed overnight.

You gather what you need for your patrol with Tommy, a man who welcomed you into this town (not before pointing a gun to your head first though) with a fair amount of kindness. More than you expected considering you were the one wandering their territory after specific warnings not to by the older couple you'd encountered several miles back.

Tying up your boots before slinging your backpack over your shoulder and stepping outside. The cold early morning summer air blankets you as you walk towards the gates to meet Tommy as you do twice a week, Tuesdays and Thursdays and your third patrol of the week you do with Jake on Saturday, despite your distaste for him which wouldn’t exist if he could pull his weight better instead of leaving you to do all of your heavy lifting; so you much prefer your patrols with Tommy, whom you see small-talking a guard while waiting for your arrival.

“Hey there thought you weren't coming.” He says with an unserious manner and a grin. “God I fuckin’ wish” You say deadpan, Tommy responding with a chuckle.

“Everything all good? I'm ready to head out.” You ask.

“Yup.” he states, handing you your rifle that you once regularly hauled around before being accepted into the community. “Thanks.” You say before being stopped by the sight of Dave, the man who primarily runs the stables bringing two horses to you.

“Hey guys.” The older man says to formally announce his presence, handing the respected leads to you. “Ah thanks bud you didn't have to bring ‘em for us” Says Tommy. “Well I was up, and if I wait around in this weather for too long my joints get stiff.” He says, shaking his head in discomfort.

“Oh? The old man got sore old man joints? Who woulda’ guessed?” Tommy says looking up at him and down playfully with a smile

“Oh fuck off you’re not too far behind me are ya, just wait till your kiddo starts crawlin’, your be looking just like me.” He smirks. “Oh tell me about it, Marias been counting the greys in my hair lately as a ‘calming activity’ she says it is before bed.”

“Oh trust me I know all about getting greys look at me” He laughs before continuing. “Well, I don't wanna keep you much longer, you still coming to the stables later hun?” He looks towards you.

“Uh-huh, sorry I wasn't there last night. I just got a bit caught up in some housework” You apologise.

“Don't worry about it, not tryna hound you were just wondering 'cause Ellie came around after dinner asking for Ya.”

Oh shit, you were supposed to meet her there. Fuck.

“Oh yeah- I- I'll tell her I'm sorry it completely slipped my mind”. You speak a bit mumbled while shuffling your feet in the small patches of weeds that you stand on.

With silence in the air after your sentence Dave walks away with a smile, leaving you and Tommy to mount your horses and head out.

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“Bit of a chilly morning today huh?” Tommy declares, breaking the silence that's held you between for the first few minutes since you stepped out of the gates.

“It is, can't say I’m complaining though. This summer's heat has been kicking my ass.” You laugh. “Thank God for the running water y'all got because I sure as hell don't miss being all gross and sweaty from the heat.”

Tommy lets out a light chuckle in response then stays silent, uncharacteristically so. You take a glance towards him, he's looking at his horse's hooves with a solemn look on his face, watching as it takes each step forward and leaves a print in the grass as he walks.

“What?” You say. Tommy brings his head toward you. “Are you planning on bringing me out here and dumping me or something?” You joke attempting to lighten the mood but he still stays silent before he takes a deep breath. “I recognize that you do a lot, I do I-” He communicates before clearly trying to get his words in order. “Marias have been swamped lately, between taking care of the baby and helping manage the community”. He takes another breath before continuing. “What I'm tryna’ say is I'm not gonna be on patrols for the next few weeks to help Maria around.”

Oh, That’s not what you were expecting.

Tommy looks at you while you continue to stare at him in surprise so he takes your lack of verbal response as a cue to continue.

“My brother Joel, y’know the one who stopped in for a bit with Ellie this winter?” He continues to stare back at you in hopes of a response, but you just give him a hum and look forward toward the end of the trail you're reaching. “We’ve been talking about a job for him to do now that he and Ellie are all settled in and we agreed that patrols would be best for… his type of skill set.” He says while ending his sentence with a pause.

“So I’m gonna be patrolling with him, is what you're saying?” You ask, looking towards him.

“Yeah-I uh am. I trust you, you're one of our best and I don't worry ‘bout ya out there. My brother can take care of himself but I like to know he's with someone he doesn't have to supervise.” Tommy admits. “Plus I hope he won't be as much of a dick to yuh, 'cause you're a girl y’know? No offence.” He stutters out, attempting to backtrack.

“Um, none taken. I get what you're saying” You say a bit awkwardly, staying mute for a moment while trying to formulate your next sentence. “So when, this Thursday?” You ask, staying professional. At the end of the day, this is a job and despite Tommy and Maria's insistence on getting comfortable here, you remain stubborn in your ways. It is not easy for you to forget the strenuous life you had been living, at least not yet, you'll still keep your guard high.

Tommy's face morphs into an amalgamation of confusion. “Is that all?” He asks.

“I don't think it's my place to complain about my coworkers, and what am I gonna say Tommy” You huff. “No don't help your wife and child keep, doing patrols with me and tell your brother to go fuck yourself?”

“Well I fucking hope not.” Tommy says with a glare, clearly offended by the sudden spike in your attitude. “You sure seem to have an issue though.”

To be fair, you did come across as a bit harsh. Tommy looks at you a moment longer, probably waiting for a continuation of your apology that wasn't coming. “Alright then.” He grunts and kicks the side of his horse faster, bringing the animal to trot and walking in front of you, keeping physical distance between the two of you.

You’re not sure if you should make a formal apology to Tommy or stay silent, Tommy’s a fairly confrontational man but you know you couldn't give the apology that's warranted even if you tried. So staying as silent as possible for the rest of your patrol it is.

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“Ellie?” You yell entering the stable, hay scrambling around your boots as you walk further looking for the girl.

“Back here!” You hear her voice yell from the back of the stable. You already know that she’s with her favourite horse Shimmer, despite her insistence that she doesn’t pick favourites her actions heavily contradict that.

“Shocker you're with your favourite.” You speak as you come into her view. “Shocker you didn't forget about me again.” She bites.

You raise your hands in surrender. “Fair enough I deserve that.” You admit. “I meant to apologise to you yesterday after my shift with Tommy but I felt a bit weird knocking on your now ya’know?”

“Why would you feel weird?” She inquires, to your surprise her demeanour wasn't accusatory, but confused.

“I'm going patrol with Joel tomorrow? I just figured meeting him for the first time whilst apologising to you wouldn't be the best impression when my life's gonna be in his hands tomorrow.” You answer.

“You’re going on patrol with Joel tomorrow?!” She exclaims. You’d been wrong about your assumption that she'd already known.

“Yeah we are.” You confess a bit awkwardly. “I figured he told you already.”

“No he hadn’t.” She says with a smirk. “I hope you two don’t kill each other.” Grinning even more with the added statement. Now you're the one to be confused, unsure of the meaning behind her sentence.

“You guys would just like, totally butt heads is all.” She clarifies with a smile still sitting on her face. “But no he didn't tell me, he doesn't tell me shit ever actually.”

“Oh… well do you think Shimmer needs any brushing?”

Ellie giggles at your obvious deflection from the conversation. “Sure I guess.” She says, not pressing you further on the matter. In all fairness you're not sure what else she could ask, that's about the extent of it all.

Just that you're going on patrol with Joel tomorrow.

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“Hi.” You say pulling your hand out, waiting for it to be shaken.

“Hey, I'm Joel.” He says pulling his own hand out of its pocket and shaking yours.

“I’d introduce myself but I'm sure Tommy told you and gave you the rundown.” You say with a bit of a nervous chuckle tailing it.

“Oh-uh yeah, he has.” He says “My Ellie told me a bit ‘bout you too, she says you showed her how to pick out the horse's hooves?” He asks a bit awkwardly, but you can't be upset when you yourself have yet to master the polite small talk that's needed in a community like Jackson.

“Um yeah I did. I help around the stables a bit, I like horses.” You say matter-of-factly. “Sometimes I help around with the dogs too, but that's usually just meal prepping for them.”

“Oh yeah. I've seen dogs that eat as good as those guys but I guess kibble ain't available huh.” He says, referencing their diet of fresh meat and produce.

“Yeah not really.” You quip.

You both look at eachother, standing parallel, both with hands back in your pockets. You rock back and forth on your feet before speaking again. “Well uh- are you ready to hit the road.” You say, clearing your throat near the end.

“Yeah for sure I’ll grab the horses for us.” He raises his hand and points with his thumb toward the stables.

“Okay.” You nod, watching him as he walks away.

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The ride to the power plant was silent, it didn't need much communication considering your jobs were fairly simple. The only mind Joel paid to you was the occasional glance he'd steal at you, probably from being uncomfortable and wary in your presence.

You ride side by side about a few thousand yards away from your destination, you embrace the ambiance and ride in comfortable silence while scanning your surroundings for any signs of trouble, while rounding the bended trail, you spot a pair of infected crouched over an object to your right.

“Joel.” You say just quiet enough for him to hear, more quiet than necessary. You’re sure that they wouldn’t be able to hear your call to Joel over their growling and the rustling of their frenzied movements still, you nod your head towards the sight of the infected as he takes a look.

“Stay here.” He grumbles while dismantling off his horse.

“No.” You get off your horse as well tying her next to the tree that Joel’s started a knot around for his horse. You see his glare at your face through your peripheral vision. “What?”

His mouth turns into a frown, his eyebrows collapse down towards the centre of his face. The line on his forehead becomes much more prominent while giving you a look to kill before walking away. You follow him towards the infected and pull your machete from its sheath and see that Joel has pulled his hatchet out of his.

With a brief moment of eye contact and understanding between each other you both bring your horses into a fast trot, drawing your weapons and preparing for the bloodshed. You ride toward the two and can't help but feel a rush of adrenaline, this is what you are good at, what you are equipped for. You were in your element, you felt alive.

As you reach the infected you take charge, movements fluid and precise you take down the infected. Joel stays behind and watches, silently as you execute the infected, him the other.

The moment of intensity quickly dies down as the two of you stay still with heaving chests before the silence is broken by Joel.

“Let’s go”

[keep-the-wolves-close]

Movin’ Mountains

Chapter 12: Sinners and Saints

* Pairing: Kayce Dutton x OFC Stella Daniels

* Rating: M

* Warnings: language, talks of shooting people, otherwise pretty tame

* Word count: 3,033ish

I would love to give credits to @dameronscopilot and @deanscroissant and @lexixstewart for being sounding boards for me during this whole process, giving outsider insight, being cheerleaders, and allowing me to screech at them about things that have happened during the writing process. I seriously couldn't have gotten this far without y'all.

Author's note: I don’t know why, but there’s something about this chapter that I love. Rip’s first line of dialogue to Stella cracks me up every time I read it lol. What’s your favorite from the chapter? I hope everyone is enjoying so far! I hope you love this chapter as well!

Stella breathed a sigh of relief, pushing Abigail into a gallop toward the new barn they’d finished a few weeks back. The sun blared over the mountains in front of her. She could see Jake, Ethan, Ryan and what looked to be Walker scurrying around the front in a frenzied state.

Her scarred brow pulled as she frowned in question at his presence. John and Rip stood near the entrance to the barn. Off to the side, she could see the vet’s trailer parked in front of the entrance. That meant Teeter and Colby had made it back to the ranch without any further incident.

Kayce joined the pack outside with Tank. The sight of him draped a blanket of soft warmth over her. Steady and unwavering. She was home. The sound of Abigail’s hooves beating against the ground caused everyone to snap their heads in her direction. A mix of looks that ranged from pissed to worried greeted her. She braced herself for the scolding she was about to catch from them.

She slowed Abigail down as she got closer. Kayce beat everyone to her and helped her down from her saddle. He instantly began checking her over for any sign of injury in silence. Their eyes locked and all the noise from their audience faded away. He brought his hand up to her face, wiping at a sooty smudge along her cheek.

He leaned in and dropped a quick peck against her lips. While it was a small gesture, it was packed with gratitude that she was okay, but disappointment that she’d taken off by her hot-headed self. She smiled bashfully up at him as he handed her reins to her.

Ryan grabbed at her arms when Kayce let her go. “Oh my god where the fuck have you been? We thought you were hurt, or worse!”

“I sent a message to the fucks that did that to our people.” She swung her arm toward the barn, where she assumed Colby and Teeter were still being fixed up. She could feel the hot glares from John and Rip on her. Stella realized she’d just kicked a hornets nest. A wave of doubt overtook her, the gravity of her impulsivity hitting her.

She stood tall, refusing to let their stares cause her to falter. She strutted forward into the barn, keeping her gait confident.

The dramatic flurry of activity that followed made her roll her eyes. Ryan demanded answers from her, Kayce hovered, John and Rip brought up the rear – it felt like the world was closing in. Shoving the feeling aside, she stepped into the barn to break down Abigail. She’d worked hard today after not putting in much work for more than half the summer. She removed Abigail’s bridle gently, and the mare let the bit drop out of her mouth. Stella hung it carefully next to her stall. Several sets of footsteps came up behind her.

“Walker!” Rip’s voice echoed down the hall. “Finish untacking Abigail for Stella.”

She glowered at the pissed off foreman just over the roan’s withers.

Rip growled back at her, “don’t you fuckin’ look at me like that. C’mere,” he waved her over to where John, Ryan, Kayce, and himself stood.

Walker slipped in between her and her mare with a pitying look. He’d caught the same anger just this morning. So he already knew what she was in for. Walker knew Stella could be a bit spontaneous, but this was new to him.

Stella passed the gaze back at him, and maneuvered around him and her mare. She let out a deep sigh, glancing at Kayce for reassurance. This was only the second time she’d faced all of them head on at once. Just like in the first situation, she could clearly identify the anger coursing through her boyfriend.

Kayce stood next to his father, his eyes fixed on Stella. The fire in her burned so fiercely, it made him question if he could keep up with this new version of her. Yet, watching her now, the depth of his love for her caught him off guard. It felt like a punch to the gut when he realized he would marry this woman in a heartbeat. Kayce clenched his jaw, torn between pride and frustration.

He frowned while fighting the need to tear into her about acting alone and wanting to allow her the opportunity to explain herself first. He knew he would have done the same thing and couldn’t help but feel slightly hypocritical.

Her boots scuffed along the pavement of the aisle, fatigue setting in. Everything hurt. Her skin felt like it was on fire. The sound of her feet and the soft clinking of her saddle were the only things heard in the barn hall. Shoving her hands in her hoodie pocket, she muttered tiredly, “what Rip?”

He looked her over. Dark circles under her eyes from being up all night. Rage and adrenaline were the only things keeping her upright. He could see, hell they all could, that something changed in her; seemingly overnight.

It was dark, and heavy. Something he’d seen in himself many times before, and watching it manifest in Stella like a thunder head cloud bothered him. He knew he had to help her get a handle on it quickly before she spiraled out of control. He would need Kayce and Ryan’s help to do it.

He took a steadying breath, trying to remind himself that if it were him on the other side of this conversation, he wouldn’t respond well to a verbal attack. “What did you do?” He kept his tone soft. He wasn’t entirely sure he was ready for her answer.

“I already told you. I left a message of our own.”

Rip crossed his arms, his stare drilling into her. Her vague answer didn’t sit right with him. “What kind of message, Stella?”

She hesitated briefly, crossing her arms and leaning a shoulder against the entryway, mirroring Kayce’s posture. Thinking over the events of the night, did she do enough to leave a message? Or did she just look stupid doing it? She met Rip’s gaze, and the anger bubbled up in her chest again. Her voice came out cold and deadly, daring anyone to question her. “I made sure Wade Morrow knows exactly who he’s messing with.”

Ryan stepped forward, his voice cutting through her. “You what?”

Glaring at her brother, her fists balled under her arms. “I made sure that dusty, old fuck, Wade Morrow knows he messed with the right ones on the wrong day today. He hurt our people,” she jabbed her finger into her chest. “On our side of the fence,” her eyes flitted to the barn where Colby and Teeter were being worked on, “and he most certainly knows better.” She pinned John with a look, speaking volumes about the brand she knew Wade carried.

Kayce's feet shuffled as he stood up straight, his voice quiet but no less tense. “Stella, tell us what you did. Stop dancin’ around it.”

John knew that if they kept pushing her like they were, the conversation wasn’t going to yield the results they wanted it to. He swallowed roughly, nervous about what Stella might have actually done. He fought back and forth with the feeling of pride and frustration. She was doing exactly what he wanted her to, but not going about it the way he would have preferred. “What exactly happened? I need to know so we know what kind of mess we have to clean up.” He proceeded to scold her gently, “this is why we don’t go off half-cocked. If you’re not careful, that fire you’ve got right now? Will burn outta control.”

A hush fell over the small group as they all waited for her to defend herself. She wasn’t exactly sure where the bravado was coming from, but she wasn’t going to stop the ball from rolling now. “You wanna know what I did, John? I didn’t waste time getting to Wade’s.” She looked at her brother, “which coming here for one of y’all and then doubling back would have taken too long.”

Ryan rolled his eyes at her.

She focused back on their boss. “When I got there, I happened to witness Roarke Morris finishing up a conversation with your old pal. He was instructing Wade to hit us where it hurts, to force us to retaliate. Inevitably giving Market Equities legal grounds to take ranch land from right out underneath our feet.” She scrutinized the small group, her shrug casual, almost dismissive.

John prompted her softly to continue, “and then?”

“I waited until ugly ass yoga boy left, and singed our brand into Wade’s front fuckin’ lawn.”

Rip’s eyes narrowed. “You did what now?”

Stella’s fingers twitched, and for a split second, she considered sugarcoating her answer. But there was no room for hesitation now. “I burned the ranch’s brand into his grass. Big and bold so he can’t forget. He tried to intimidate me. I shot off a round or two at him and told him next time I wouldn’t miss.” Her voice was steady, but her stomach churned, waiting for their reactions.

The fire in her eyes was the same one that had pulled Kayce in years ago, but now it burned hotter, wilder. He couldn't decide if he wanted to kiss her or shake her. Maybe both. The thought of losing her caused his voice to catch, “you could have gotten killed,” Kayce warned, knowing just the kind of man Wade Morrow was.

“I had it handled, Kayce.”

“You don’t just handle people like Wade, Stella.” Rip put his sunglasses on his hat and pinched the bridge of his nose. “What were you thinking? I know you’re smarter than that.”

“I was thinking,” she balled her fists at her sides. “I’m sick and tired of every other week there being a different threat because of greedy bastards like Dan, Malcolm, and now Market Equities wanting their slice of this place. Them thinkin’ they can walk all over us and we’ll just belly up to them, is over.”

Rip silently assessed the information being laid out. “We gotta be smart about retaliation. Every move, calculated. Controlled. When you race off without a word to anyone, how can we do that if we’re worried about saving your ass at the same time!” He squinted in thought. “Why didn’t you say anything sooner?”

“I wasn’t sure how much input I could give. Lesson learned. So I’m doing it now.” She pushed herself off the wall, her voice rising with her agitation. She’d been feeling a lot more protective over everyone lately. Seeing her brother get shot, and Colby and Teeter hurt, something inside her snapped.

Her violent thoughts took her back. She’d never shied away from a fight before, but she typically would try to figure out the most non-lethal way to come to a resolution. When Colby told her it was Wade that did this, she’d made her mind up. These people weren’t getting away with this. Not anymore.

“We need to remind these motherfuckers who we are.” She paused to think if she was pushing too hard and too far. She shoved the thought aside. “Back in the day, not a single person would have messed with us like this.” She pushed up her glasses. “We can’t afford to be subtle or soft anymore, John. Not when they’re circling like great white sharks in a blood filled sea while we try to play the game diplomatically.”

Kayce clenched his hands into fists, stepping closer to Stella. While he understood her point, and agreed with the ones she made, seeing Stella going on the attack to his dad made the hair on his neck stand up.

The last time she did that, she ended up being branded. She’d asked for it intentionally, but it still didn’t calm his nerves. He knew his father better than anyone here. When someone got in John Dutton’s face, they weren’t standing for much longer. “Stella,” he started, knowing he needed to stop her trail of self-destruction.

Stella's hand flew up to stop him. “No, Kayce. I’m not finished yet.”

Her sharp voice made him pause. Kayce’s chest tightened, torn between pride at her resolve and fear of where this reckless streak might lead her — or them. She was fire incarnate, and he couldn’t decide if he wanted to stoke it or snuff it out before it consumed them both.

“We need to be the sharks in the water. Not the other way around. Because one day they’ll wipe us all out while we’re trying to “gentle parent” our way out of the situation.” Stella crossed her arms, huffing. “You’re lucky I stopped myself from doing what I originally planned.” She cleared her throat. “I didn’t because I know what this ranch means, and how far we’re willing to go to protect it.”

John held out his hand creating a cease fire. “What was your plan?”

The ghost of that unholy grin crept across her face. It shot a wave of uncertainty up the spines of the men before her. “I was gonna shoot them where they stood. Put their bodies on Market Equities’ doorstep as a warning.” She pulled down her hoodie. “I’ll do it every time. And the next time I won’t stop myself.” She hoped they took her words as a promise, not a threat.

The silence that fell over the group was deafening. John studied the woman he’d watched grow up. The points she brought up were all very good ones. His chest swelled with pride at her improvement in making an argument and keeping it solid. Also with her use of the small sliver of self control she had left.

It wasn’t completely out of the ordinary for her to be a little feral. Dare he say it, unhinged. Stella always had the tiniest flame that flickered just beneath the surface. In his opinion, it was one of the reasons Kayce was drawn to her back when they were kids. With his youngest, it was like Kayce had been raised by wolves, more often than not. So it made sense to John that Kayce and Stella were the same person, just in different bodies.

John thought carefully about his next words. He wasn’t worried about her not listening, or throwing a fit. He didn’t want to be responsible for giving her the grounds to spiral further. He could plainly see that Stella was evolving. Becoming just a bit more ruthless. He wanted to make sure they all guided it in the right direction.

His lips pursed and he pointed at her. He watched as her shoulders squared, ready for him to rip into her. “You’re right. Wade knows better than to pull a stunt like that, but so do you.”

Stella’s heart pounded in her chest. She hadn’t expected an agreement. She had been prepared for an even larger argument to ensue with her aggressiveness. Her anger wavered for a moment, face softening, feeling like a kid again finally being told by an adult they’re proud of you.

John’s look hardened, but his eyes softened at her. “That piece of shit is a bully and a coward, but he ain't stupid. His job ain't riding tourists by buffalo. Today,” he motioned at the ground, “is what he was hired to do. You’re right, Stella, we can't be soft anymore.”

Rip took up the conversation, giving her a second to come back from her shock. “What do you want us to do, sir?”

“We can’t call the sheriff,” Stella mentioned.

John shoved his hands in his jacket pockets. “No, they've already thought about that and already have a reason or an excuse or an alibi.”

“We’ve gotta do something, John,” Stella grumbled.

“I have more reason than anyone to go after that piece of shit,” he fixed his gaze on Rip and Stella. “You two be smart about this.” He pleaded with his eyes at Stella. “You figure out a plan that works, and you take that trash to the fսcking train station.”

Rip and Stella nodded and accepted the job simultaneously. “Yes, sir.”

Stella looked at her brother and Kayce. “I'd be hard pressed to believe y’all ain’t in.”

Ryan shared a glance with Kayce and responded. “We’re in. All of us are.”

Stella tensed at the implications of her brother’s words. “Now hold on a minute. We gotta talk to the others because if they’re all in, they’ll need a brand. And the brand ain’t for everyone. Defending our own or not.”

“She’s right.” John intervened. “If we’re gonna do this, we gotta do it right. Not half-assed. Not alone either.” He glanced at Stella. “It’s time we push back.”

Kayce smiled internally when his father silently but strongly defended his girlfriend. He thought just maybe they could steer her in the right direction and make this work. He watched Stella and realized, if she was riding into battle, he’d follow right beside her. Relief blanketed him knowing she’d have him in her corner. Knowing that he and Stella were one hell of a team gave him a sense of peace.

“Alright,” Rip tapped Stella on the elbow. “Let’s get this show on the road,” and the group started to walk off, but John’s voice stopped them.

“Hey.” They spun to face him like soldiers awaiting orders. He looked at the men of the group that surrounded Stella in a protective circle, his tone authoritative. “You three work with her on this and iron out the details. Don’t do it angry. Run it past me before you make a move,” he gave Stella a pointed look, then looked at Rip. “That son of a bitch has something that belongs to me and I want it back. Make sure this doesn’t come back on us.”

“Yessir.”

“Oh and Stella?”

Stella’s feet halted and she looked at him over her shoulder. She could see Ryan in the way John looked at her, and she softened.

“Control it,” John said, his tone sharp but not unkind. “Or it’ll control you.” Stella nodded, the words cutting through her anger like a cold wind. She understood the warning — she just wasn’t sure if she could heed it.

[pesterloglog]

Jade Harley, Dave Strider, Karkat Vantas

Candy, page 19

JADE: how cute do you guys think johns baby is going to be

JADE: like on a scale of 1-11???

DAVE: i dunno

DAVE: i still havent come to terms with the fact that johns gonna be a dad

JADE: you dont think hell be a good one?

DAVE: i didnt say that but ok since you asked

DAVE: i mean think about it if you were gonna rank us in order of maturity based on all the years weve known each other

DAVE: about where would you put john

KARKAT: BELOW ME BUT ABOVE YOU.

DAVE: yeah exactly

DAVE: now hes all married and pregnant and hes got a mustache

KARKAT: I’M STILL NOT OVER THE FUCKING MUSTACHE.

JADE: why not he looks so good!!

DAVE: yeah he looks disturbingly good

DAVE: i almost cant talk to him anymore it looks so good

JADE: ohhhhh?

DAVE: jesus jade dont fuckin read into it

DAVE: a bro can appreciate how attractive his bro has become and maybe get a little breathless at the sight of his chiseled jawline and manly facial hair without being gay about it

DAVE: ive just been thinking lately everytime i see him that hes

DAVE: ok dont make fun of me for saying this but its like

DAVE: johns a Man

DAVE: not a lowercase m man but a fully grown up legit fuckin Dude with a leather briefcase and a suit that he only wears on special occasions

KARKAT: PRETTY FUCKED UP.

DAVE: i know right

JADE: hmmmm...

JADE: well...

JADE: ive actually been thinking lately about how since rose and kanaya had a kid and jane and jake had a kid and john and roxy are gonna have a kid.......

JADE: what would you think if maybe...

JADE: ....we had kids???

KARKAT: WHAT

KARKAT: WHO? YOU AND DAVE?

JADE: no stupid all three of us!

DAVE: uhhh

JADE: what??

DAVE: uhhhhhhh

JADE: look i know there are “issues” to sort out in terms of um....... feasibility

JADE: but i think there are a lot of options to consider!

JADE: maybe someone can help us out

JADE: like.... someone we know?

JADE: or i dont know! what about adoption!

JADE: that could be cute! adopting a little grub!! aww...

JADE: or a human! whatever! im not picky

DAVE: uhhhhhhhhhhhhh

KARKAT: UHHHHHH IS FUCKING RIGHT.

KARKAT: JADE, DON’T YOU READ THE NEWSPAPERS?

KARKAT: THE NEW ADMINISTRATION IS CRACKING DOWN ON CERTAIN KINDS OF INTERSPECIES ADOPTION LAWS.

KARKAT: IF YOU’RE SO INTENT ON IT BEING “THE THREE OF US,” WE LITERALLY WILL NOT BE ABLE TO ADOPT A HUMAN CHILD BECAUSE THE HUMAN ADMINISTRATION IS AFRAID THAT I’D...

KARKAT: I DON’T KNOW.

KARKAT: TEAR INTO IT, AND FEAST ON ITS ORGANS.

KARKAT: AND IN THAT KIND OF POLITICAL CLIMATE? WELL, I’M NOT SURE IT’S A WORLD I WOULD WANT TO RAISE A TROLL CHILD IN RIGHT NOW.

DAVE: jokes on them ive never seen you tear into anything more complicated than a microwave dinner

KARKAT: I KNOW, RIGHT?

DAVE: i mean on the other hand if we adopt a kid young enough it would totally fit in the microwave

KARKAT: WHAT THE FUCK, DAVE. I’M NOT GONNA EAT OUR THEORETICAL BABY.

DAVE: yeah dude i know

DAVE: youre probably like closet dad of the fuckin year

DAVE: just waiting for his moment to shine

DAVE: i bet youd whine and complain about getting a kid til we actually brought junior home

DAVE: the moment you saw his chubby lil cheeks your face would light right up

JADE: oh... i can imagine the look on karkats face right now

JADE: heheh

DAVE: yeah you know exactly the one

DAVE: like how he looks when his hot pocket finishes cooking in the microwave

DAVE: which he understands is an instrument of food preparation

DAVE: and not some sort of grim infant warming device

KARKAT: WHY DID YOU HAVE TO BRING IT BACK TO THE MICROWAVE?

DAVE: oh

DAVE: cause i had more jokes to make about the subject

KARKAT: OF COURSE. GOD FORBID JADE AND I ARE NOT FORCED TO LISTEN TO EVERY LETTER OF YOUR MORBID INTERNAL DIALOGUE.

DAVE: whatever you love it

DAVE: anyway

DAVE: on the baby in the microwave front

KARKAT: GOD

DAVE: id be more worried about me being the one whod do the deed so to speak

DAVE: i mean its not like ive got a great demonstrative background in child rearing or anything

DAVE: considering all the places i got left as a kid i wouldnt be surprised if id just put our baby in the toaster by accident or something

DAVE: like if you tally up the amount of hours i spent locked in the fridge compared to the amount of hours i spent in the american school system learning how to be normal and do polynomials

DAVE: just sayin it looks dire

JADE: .....

KARKAT: ...

DAVE: yeah so anyway im gonna stick to hot pockets i think

JADE: dave

JADE: you really think youd make that bad a father?

JADE: even with me and karkat helping you?

DAVE: eh dont take this personally but im an evidence based hypothesis kinda guy and so far three way relationships in our friend group attempting parenthood...

DAVE: the record aint so lookin so good

DAVE: just saying

DAVE: a clown a fascist and a male sex icon walk into a bar sounds like the start of a bad but funny joke

DAVE: but when its the start of a family thats when it gets a bit less funny to me

DAVE: poor little dude gonna be fucked up

JADE: oh come on dave

JADE: tavros is a cute kid!

KARKAT: SURE, HE IS *NOW*.

DAVE: the moment cognitive function starts firing off in that kids head hes gonna be scarred for life

JADE: we dont KNOW that

DAVE: jade i know jakes like your bestie

DAVE: and also your grandfather

DAVE: and also kinda your grandson

DAVE: oh also your fucking dad i guess

DAVE: but his relationship is bad

JADE: hey... thats...

JADE: not NECESSARILY true...

KARKAT: YOU’RE RIGHT, IT’S NOT FUCKING TRUE.

KARKAT: DAVE’S JUST BEING GENTLE HERE TO SPARE YOUR FEELINGS.

KARKAT: HIS RELATIONSHIP IS NOT MERELY “BAD”

KARKAT: HIS RELATIONSHIP IS A FLAMING WRECK OF AN INTERSTELLAR WARSHIP HURTLING TOWARDS THE PLANET AT TERMINAL VELOCITY WITH THE ENTIRE CREW BRUTALLY SLAUGHTERED UPON REENTRY, SHOVED STRAIGHT DOWN THE CHAGRIN TUNNEL AND THEN IMMEDIATELY SHAT OUT THE OTHER SIDE, THUS FLOODING THE ENTIRE FUCKING NEIGHBORHOOD WHEN IT CLOGS UP THE LOAD GAPER.

JADE: ...its not like i dont know that

JADE: john never shuts up about it

JADE: i mean, he and jane used to be close back when we all first met but last time i talked to john he....

JADE: well, he accused her of “raping” jake

DAVE: oh shit

KARKAT: YOU DON’T FUCKING SAY.

JADE: its not like i dont worry about jake but come on!

JADE: were all adults

JADE: what am i supposed to do? show up at his window dressed like the blue fairy and whisk him away from his terrible life??

JADE: maybe that would work for a few days, but one thing i learned from dating around a lot in my youth is that no ones going to leave a bad relationship until its THEIR idea to leave

JADE: its...

JADE: ME???

DAVE: holy shit

KARKAT: WHAT IN THE EVER LIVING FUCK?

DAVE: uh

DAVE: good question

DAVE: idk but we should probably get her some help

KARKAT: HELP? FOR WHAT??

KARKAT: IT LOOKS LIKE HER INTERNAL ORGANS ARE OBLITERATED. SHE’S COVERED IN MORE BLOOD THAN I THOUGHT HUMANS EVEN HAD INSIDE THEM.

DAVE: well we cant just leave her in this fuckin hole man

DAVE: come on gimme a hand

KARKAT: JADE?

KARKAT: DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA WHAT’S GOING ON HERE??

KARKAT: WHAT SHOULD WE DO ABOUT THIS

DAVE: hey jade you hear us

DAVE: jade???

JADE: yes dave i heard you

JADE: i need to talk to jane

[taylorftparamore]

150 days of taylor swift (inspired by)

day seven: target speak now commercial

[voidselfshipp]

The Diner 'Round The Corner

Cw: food/food description, violence mention, alcohol mention, age gap ( s/I is in early twenties, John is like 45, for the rest of the ages please read the description of my Military Goofballs Half Ocs).

->Only Mutuals Okay To Reblog

Summary: After coming back from Afghanistan the Alpha Commando goes to a Brand New 80s themes dinner and fall in love at first sight with the lovely waitress that take their order.

Taglist: @tex-treasures @samsbeckett

Ah, yes, hot summer days, who doesnt love them?.

The sun shines, the Sky is clear, and theres so much things to do with Friends! You can go to the beach, to the arcade, have a picnic. Or go to pretty diners!

Now, to say that the Alpha Commando team missed civilian life was an understatement, after being in Afghanistan for so long, it was nice to be back home and enjoy a calmer and safer life.

And one of the first things they decided to do, them being the ever close Group of friends, was to go to one of this dinners, it was called Four-Wheeled Dinner, which prided itself in its 80s Retro aesthetic and food served by Rollerskating Waiters and Waitresses.

As the men entered they could hear Suzzane's Vega "Tom's Dinner" playing in the background, quickly scooting to a booth with a Window to the outside.

I am sitting in the morning at the diner on the corner

I am waiting at the counter for the man to pour the coffee

And he fills it only halfway, and before I even argue

He is looking out the window at somebody coming in

Nova sighed looking at her co-worker, Jake, pour coffee on a mug, the place was crowded and both were going to get chewed out if he didnt hurry.

Shes about to say something when she turns her head to the outside of the dinner.

There were five men, military for sure, they all gave off those vibes-- You know 'em?-- Nova asked.

Jake shook his head and finished pouring the coffee-- sort of? My dads a friend of those guys, I didnt expect them to come back from Afghanistan so soon though..

--Huh, well, do you want to go take their order?

--No,they scare the living shit out of me-- Jake answered and handed the tray with food to her.

Nova rolled her eyes and started skating towards the table that ordered that coffee he took forever to pour.

--Man isnt it crazy to be back home? I mean we almost died back there in afghan...-- Said Thomas flipping through the menu.

--Right there with ya buddy, its unnerving how calm this ambience in, noise and all-- agreed Jason-- Man this Burgers look amazing, I think I might order myself one of those

--Agreed -- Added Duncan taking off his sunglasses and leaving them besides his phone-- What about you sarge, what are you getting?

--I honestly dont know, after eating out of a can for months having fast food is weird-- answered Seargeant John Morris-- those fries sure look good though

Jason Turned to his friend Lucas, and snorted-- Check out Lucas over here, Like a kid in fuckin' christmas

--Oh come on! You know how much I like the 80s-- Lucas snapped back.

Their bantering stopped when the sound of rollerblades stopping caught their attention.

--Hello! My name is Nova, May I take your order, gentlemen?

The Alpha Commando had to do a double take, infront of their table was a young woman, perhaps around early 20s, Brown hair in a bun. She was wearing a Pink 80s waitress outfit with a white apron, her green eyes seemed to shine as the various lights hit her face.

She was, without doubts, very,very beautiful, her smile was warm and cheerful, but slowly Turned into a confused look as the men before her did not answer her question.

--Oh yes sorry,sorry-- Lucas was the first one to talk, saving him and his Friends from looking weird as shit-- we couldnt quite hear you over the noise of the dinner.

That seemed enough to convince the young woman that in fact, the five of them were not weirdos, because there was quite a lot of noise.

--We'll get two burgers-- Said Jason-- the ones with Bacon and fried eggs, you up for some fries, macy?

Duncan nodded-- Sure, and could you bring us some beer?

Nova quickly scribbled down the order-- Sure, what else?

-- ill take a stake with fries and some soda-- John followed up.

--Can you add another Burger, fries, and beer for me?-- asked Lucas.

--Sure!, and you?-- the waitress asked Thomas, who jumped slightly on his Seat.

--Uh,just a club sandeich and soda--He answered.

Nova muttered the order under her breath, then she nodded again and her bright smile returned-- Okay, anything else I can do for you?

Duncan was going to answer "can you give me your number?" But quickly dismissed the idea, given his and his Friends prior behavior. The place was crowded and the last thing this poor overworked soul needed was his ass asking her for her number.

--the son of a friend of ours works here, you know a guy named Jake? Jake Smith?-- asked John.

--Yeah hes a friend of mine,why?

--Just say hi for us, its been a while since we saw him

Nova giggled remebering what Jake had told her about these guys-- Sure, well, be right back, gentlemen --And so she rollerskated away back to the kitchen.

The five of them let out a relieved sigh.

--Nice save, folken-- Macy complimented.

Lucas gave his friend an acknowledgement nodd-- how did you know Jake worked here?

--his dad mentioned it in one of the letters he sent me-- answered John.

Meanwhile in the kitchen, Nova was handing out the order she just took to jake-- the guys that freak you out send their regards

Jake looked a bit panicked, quickly grabbing the paper with the order-- please hand them the food

--Why do they freak you out so much?--the woman inquired.

--Cause they are military dudes! They are jacked as shit! Im scared ill mess up their order and get the crap beaten out of me!

--oh come on J! I think they are nice, anyway, I have more food to deliver, be right back-- She Answered and rolled away.

20 or so minutes later the food was ready and Nova quickly delivered it to the Alpha Commando.

--Okay, let me know if theres anything else I can help you with, enjoy your food

--We'll be just fine with this--John assured-- heres the money and a tip

As she counted the money and the tip her eyes went wide-- I,-- thank you for your generosity, its..well its nice, yknow with the dinner being packed up

--yeah, not to mention the Karens that come in an out-- Duncan added-- I worked in retail so I know your pain, kid

Nova laughed and nodded-- they are a nightmare arent they? Well, lovely to chat with you guys and sorry to cut the conversation short but you know-- she vaguely gestures at the sea of people in the dinner.

--Much work to be done-- Duncan quickly followed up.

--Exactly,thank you again for the tip and have a nice day!-- and so the waitress went away, leaving the men wanting to talk to her a bit more.

At the end of the day, Jake and Nova recounted the money they made, with most of the staff gone it was the two of them on the end of their shift, waiting for the night staff to arrive.

--And they tipped you how much?!-- Jake asked.

-- two hundred dollars--Nova answered-- this just gives me more evidence that they are nice

The man rolled his eyes-- Whatever, Well...guess we are getting a bonus Next week

--We sure Will, well im off to my home, see you tomorrow jake--she gave him a quick hug and now that she was in her usual every day wear (With the rollerskates still on) left to her home.

Three days later the Alpha commando had returned to the dinner, this time during the afternoon.

Nova was quite excited when she saw them pass the threshold of the dinners door, today was somewhat of a quiet day so she quickly went to their table to take their order.

--Gentlemen, nice to see you again-- She said with a smile.

Duncan was the first to answer, taking off his glasses and returning her smile-- with such a good service who wouldnt want to come back?-- he flirted.

The waitress' cheeks went Pink, almost matching her uniform-- thats very nice of you, so, what can I do for you on this lovely afternoon?

--Well, I havent eaten Apple pie in a while-- Said Jason-- so how about a slice of that and a latte

--add another applepie slice and some lavender lemonade-- Added Thomas.

--Uh-huh-- Nova mumbled-- what else?

--Well I want a capuccino and a cherry pie-- answered Duncan.

--ill get a strawberry lemonade and a chocolate cake-- Lucas followed up.

--And ill get just a black coffee-- John ordered.

The rest of the seargeant Friends looked at him.

--Just a black coffee?, really searge?-- Duncan said-- old age is getting to you huh.

--Shut the fuck up, macy-- Warned John.

--Thats okay, he gets a senior discount, hes playing it Smart-- the waitress added, hoping they would take it lightly.

Thomas was the first one to start laughing, then Lucas, Duncan and Jason, John was the last one to join in but not before answering back with a quip of his own.

--Well, if I get a senior discount im guessing that you get a "Kids eat free" pass, huh?

Nova processed the comment before letting out a cackle-- okay, I totally deserved that, nice one--The seargeant nodded in agreement with a smile-- okay, ill be right back with you guys' order

--Oh just before you go!-- Thomas said-- I hope this isnt too forward but would you like to sit with us for a while? You seem fun to hang out with

Nova smiled-- sure, my break is in ten minutes, once I bring your order ill go find a chair and sit with you, even join you in your afternoon snack if thats okay with y'all?

The men nodded-- dont worry, we dont mind-- answered Duncan.

And with that she rolled back to the kitchen.

After a bit she came back with the food plus a tray for herself.

On the right side of the booth were Jason and Lucas, on the left side,Thomas, John and Duncan.

Nova sat infront of the latter witt a soft -- Excuse me-- and Gently took her food out of the tray.

Once both of said trays were empty she carefully placed them on the floor

--What you get?-- Lucas was the first to ask.

--Hot coco and two croissants, Comfort food, im working the night shift today so ill need all the happiness I can get

--Thats rough...--Duncan said-- do you need someone to walk you home?

--If its not too much trouble, I dont like walking back home alone

--Whens your shift over?-- he asked again

--Uh, ten thirty pm,-- she answered.

Nodding, macy took a sip of his drink, and the conversation changed into something more casual.

The Alpha Commando soon found out that this girl was a Ray of sunshine,she was funny, charismatic, and overall just fun to be around.

As soon as her break ended, sadly, she had to work again, and she did, but not before saying goodbye with a big toothy smile.

The rest of her shift was Long and tiresome,she was ready to leave as soon as the clock struck ten thirty, but imagine her surprise when the five men showed up.

--You guys didnt need to-- Nova started.

--Nonesnese kid-- John interrupted-- the streets are dangerous, you never have enough backup

The woman giggled and nodded--You guys are too kind!

And so they started walking back to her home, with quiet in between chatter.

--and this bitch, came in and said her order was wrong because apparently we didnt know how to make a capuccino! Sometimes I wish I could roundkick a costumers ass

The first thing the five of them thought was "Who are we beating up" but since that wasnt very civil they refrained from saying it.

--That sounds awful, im sorry-- Said Thomas putting a hand on the womans shoulder.

--Thank you, it was...but we did get more gain tonight! Im gonna get a nice paycheck this week!

--well thats something good to take out of today-- Duncan teased with an amused smile.

-- heh, that it is, oh, here we are, thank you guys again for taking me home-- Nova gave them a quick hug to the five of them,she quickly entered the house, leaving the men stunned for a moment.

Admitedly, Lucas,Thomas and Duncan were the ones that were beaming with happiness from the hug, Jason had a smile on his face while John only let out a chuckle, the five of them parting ways to their respective houses, wondering if they should get lunch tomorrow at the Four-Wheeled Dinner.

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☼ - appearance headcanon

Ahhhhhhh Jakey-boi. My walking contradiction.

Dude simultaneously cannot give a single solitary fuck… and is shockingly vain. Like let’s take a look at this little shit:

Credit to @hollandvalleythotpatrol for the photos. What would I do without Banni? Maybe she’ll write him for me next.

Handsome motherfucker. There’s a lot going on there. Like dude is scarred as fuck, obviously. Chemical burns, rashes [Gulf war syndrome, anyone?], dirty as all get out. Actually, that’s pretty fuckin’ clean for Jacob. I still insist his jeans would stand up on their own. But… lots of evidence Jacob doesn’t care about his appearance. Buuutttttt also a good bit of time invested into it as well. His beard’s trimmed, kept fairly neat. No ZZ-Top knock offs here. I’m 80% sure that’s dirt on his neck, not stubble. The same transfers over to Jacob’s hair. Shaved close, no peachfuzz stubble rising on the sides. Plainly, Jacob kept the military habits up {once he decided to live rather than wait to die}. Speaking of haircuts: Jacob’s pushing those army regulations.  

“The hair on the top of the head must be neatly groomed and may not be trendy, spiky, or disheveled in appearance. The hair must be tapered and conform to the shape of the head, and the neckline must be tapered. Hair must not be allowed to fall over the ears or touch the collar (except that the taper at the neckline may extend past the collar).”

My Lieutenant Colonel at Fort Hood brother says he wouldn’t consider Jacob’s hair Army Regulation without a good trim [my brother’s also a hard ass and annoyed by me, so take that with a grain of salt and me hearing what I want to hear]. So Jacob’s gone a little rogue here. Neatly trimmed sides, maintaining the shape, but “too long on top”. Who can blame him? At 47 (presumably) he’s still got a nice, thick head of hair. Not a grey in sight. Buttt… if we look at his beard here:

It’s a bit patchier on this side, thinner where the scarring encroaches on the jaw. So it’s safe to assume that his scarred skin has been damaged to such a point that it doesn’t reliably grow hair. And let’s keep looking at that scarring. It extends up the temple and into the hairline.

This side:

–shows the same thing: scarring into the temple, a patch above the ear that looks to be a graze or more of that chemical burning. If the scars aren’t growing hair consistently, Jacob with a full head of hair is going to be patchy. And not receding hairline patchy, but inconsistent male pattern baldness patchy. Das es no bueno [ignore my bullshit German/Spanish hybrid. I’m tired and have to ramble to get this shit out onto the page].  Jacob’s vain–again once he decides to give a shit and participate in life. {and can you blame the handsome bastard. Even all scarred up he’s a looker] So he’s gonna cover this… or shave it off. But nooo not completely, Remember that full head of thick red hair? So does Jacob. He likes his red hair. He likes that he carries only a passing resemblance to their father. A father that was too uneducated and stubborn to realize that red is just a recessive gene and yes, Jacob is, in fact, Old Mad Seed’s child. But, Jacob enjoyed the fantasy that maybe he wasn’t. Maybe he wasn’t that sadistic old bastard’s git. So he likes the red hair the old man hates and keeps shaved close most of Jacob’s young life. He likes that he doesn’t quite fit in with the family. So he’s keeping the hair, even all these years later. Best of both worlds it is. Long on top where there’s minimal scarring, shaved away on the sides that would be patchy. Work what you got, boy. 

Moving on!

Jacob’s god-awful clothes. Jesus. You bet your ass there’s more than one hole ripped in the crotch of those poor jeans. The man’s like a walking stress-tester for denim. I swear to god--I’ve said this before and I’ll say it again-- those jeans are so grime-coated and interwoven with sweat and dirt that Jacob could step out of them and they’d remain upright as if he hadn’t. 

They’re ripped to fuck and then neatly patched. And it’ll just keep going. An endless cycle of clothing abuse until that article is so beat to hell and cobbled together that it’s but a ghost of the original. That’s pretty much his habit. Undoubtedly John purchased an abundance of clothes after they brought Jacob home like a puppy. And Jacob still has most of them: neatly folded, tags intact, tucked into a drawer somewhere in Saint Francis for when he needs them. He does this thing where he doesn’t keep more than two or three of each article of clothing. He also just doesn’t wear underwear because it’s a pain in the ass. Just enough clothing for a change, something to wear on the rare occasions he’s actually washing the other set or needs to be cleaned up quickly. As soon as something wears out beyond redemption, he grabs one single solitary replacement to throw into the rotation. 

Part of it’s practicality-- using something as long as he possibly can, keeping things ready for a future need somewhere down the road. The man loathes excess and waste. Another part is that apathy that overcame him for years when he’d lost what he saw as his only purpose and the army declared him unfit for service. Meh, Jacob wants only to be clothed and doesn’t much care what in as long as it’s practical. The exception being his BDU jacket. He’s got an attachment to that, to the purpose he held while wearing it and how his service shaped his identity. Everything else? Fuck it. Jacob Seed will wear pink with purple polkadots... as long as it’s functional and blends in with the environment.  

Another thing I’ve noticed is that Jacob’s got pretty shit posture, which I find surprising for a military man. The only exception is in two circumstances-

1. He’s on display. Think of him peacocking his way over to stand behind Joseph during the initial arrest. Dude is ramrod straight--also sexually, but we’re not going there today-- shoulders back, chin up, chest pushed out. Why? He’s got purpose. He’s there to protect, to intimidate, to lead his troops. So he’s going to present something worthy of that function, of the leadership.

The instant he’s out of sight? When he’s unwatched? Instant slope shoulders, watching the ground as he walks. Because there’s very little pride in himself, pride in Jacob Seed rather than The Soldier. 

Look at him here, in front of the Deputy and Pratt:

Neither one much matters to Jake. Pratt’s a human squeaky toy to the man. The deputy’s a tool. No need to parade. No need to intimidate. Why bother? He doesn’t have to prove he’s above these two. He knows he is. To him, pea-cocking in front of those two would be like showing off for a leaf-blower. So he’s relaxed, shoulders not quite rounded, but certainly no military bearing.

Compared to here:

See the difference? Guess what: he’s working again, giving his ‘Cull the weak’ speech. Fuck, sorry, how far I’m scrolled down on the page is giving me an eyeful of thigh-holster... wow. Thank you, UbiSoft

Alright back on topic.

But Jacob’s working. He’s serving a purpose. His purpose. So he gives enough of a fuck to scrape together his pride and stand upright, project the image that Joseph and the Project need from him. He sure as shit won’t do it for himself. 

Exception number 2. While holding a rifle. Which is really just more of the above. Blahblahblah purpose. Buuuttttt... there’s also a good bit of pride in that. Jacob grew up poor in the suburbs. Maybe there was an old family shotgun. Maybe. But, I very much doubt he ever had opportunity to use it [other than plans for Old Mad Seed the next time the bastard hit John]. Same goes for at the slave-labor foster family. If there’d been ready access to and familiarity with a weapon, you bet your ass Jacob would have shot the man rather than hit him with an axe handle. Sure as shit not getting hands on a weapon while in Juvie soooo the first time Jacob handles a firearm is in Basic.

And the kid’s shit with the fine arts. He’s absolutely dyslexic {More detail coming on that in the next HC post} and not inclined toward flowery things. But... he’s got math down. Understands geometry and physics quite easily. So understanding a sight picture is gonna come naturally. He’ll understand how to adjust that picture to compensate for drop, changes in elevation, weather, etc. So he’s already got the bones of a good shot. Pair that with shooting well is likely the first time this kid has heard any kind of praise? He’s gonna throw himself into it. 

Every chance he has, Jacob is out there throwing hot lead down the range. For hours at a time, days on end. Surely he has a few favored weapons, but, for the most part, he’s got a handle on anything you throw his way. Natural talent plus dedicated practice and Jacob’s a terrifyingly good shot. An amry Expert Marksman badge good shot. Which means hitting 36-40 stationary and pop-up targets of 40 during qualification testing in supported prone, unsupported prone, and foxhole positions. Jacob got 39. Under pressure. I haven’t played the game (motion sickness can’t handle FPS), but I’m told that he outstrips Grace Armstrong, who was an Olympic medalist, as a GFH in terms of accuracy. Which very well may just come down to years of experience and the ability to practice daily. So the point of that long ramble isssss: he’s proud of himself with a rifle. It’s the only time he’s standing upright even without observation and not directly related to his purpose within the Project. 

Everyone’s favorite Sasquatch for demonstration:

So the final thought I have, I’ve already touched on: Jacob’s gangling appearance. I’m just gonna link that here and then just run through the basics

Basically, Jacob is not meant to be a lean man. Look at the size of his hands compared to his forearms. Look that he’s basically a column from shoulder to hip. I mean, he was never going to be a Chris Evans Inverted Dorito, but dude should have a bit of tapering from shoulder to waist. He’s a man who had a good bit of bulk to him in his twenties and early thirties, a man who filled out the frame the genetic lottery threw his way (because John and Joseph don’t have the same shape as Jacob. They’re both built on lithe, tapering lines. It’s redhead, recessive gene, trial run Seed who only shares the blue eyes and a single freckle on the left nostril with John). Jacob is meant to be a big fucking boy. He’s made to carry broad shoulders and a powerful chest, strong arms. But look at him! He’s lanky, his bones are larger than the muscling on them. By the time we see him in Hope County, Jacob’s been out of the military since the mid- to late-nineties. In that time he’s experienced extreme muscle deterioration from damn near starving to death in the desert. Then he’s severely traumatized, obsessed with hoarding away food so he’s not eating what he should to gain back all that muscle lost. And he never will. That obsession with taking just enough, with keeping himself moving, but never indulging in excess. And bulking up requires excess. Maintaining that bulk requires excess. Jacob’s not the ‘I’ll pay you Tuesday for a hamburger today’ type. He’s budgeting for the looming nuclear winter, for increases in population with decreasing resources. So Jacob stays skinny. Fed. Functional. Certainly no wilting flower... but, comparatively, skinny.

Soooo yeah. I’m petering out on the manic HC fest. 

All photo credit to one Banni of @hollandvalleythotpatrol You’re a gem and I love you. The gif... I lost the original source. Someone not rushing to go to work can point me toward a source if they’re so inclined or it can wait until I get home and have time.

Next up are HCs on Jacob’s family and hobbies/quirks

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Jellyatinous Rose

Calliope: Welcome lovelies, to oUr little get together for an adventure throUgh the Use of a Role-Playing Game system called DUngeons & Dragons! Tonight we have a new player joining in oUr dUngeon delving, oUr lovely friend, Roxy.

Roxy: hey erebody, its ur gurl roxy!

Dave: hey rox

Rose: Welcome to the game Roxy, nice to see you came tonight~

Kanaya: Pleasure To Have You Dear Roxy!

Jade: nice to see you again!

John: glad you could make it tonight!

Roxy: tnx 4 the warm welcum gaiz, makes me feel good bout this venture here

Roxy: so, when do we start playin?

Calliope: Shortlym bUtt first, we shall introdUce oUr varioUs party members for the road ahead, so that we may give oUr newest addition a chance to Understand her new chUms? Jade, why dont we start with yoU?

Jade: ok!

Jade: im a level 5 chaotic good gnoll ranger called groche’a, and i was ousted from my tribe for not wanting to plunder tombs for bones because i was scared of waking the dead and having them get revenge on us... which they did! im the only survivor!

Roxy: wats a goll? Roxy: *gnoll

Jade: a gnoll is a dog person

Jade: like this!

Roxy: oh so ur a hyna furry basically then?

Jade: well no, im more like a malamute husky, i actually based my character off of bec and what jake told me about my scratched other self

Roxy: yeah, ur gilf self was pretty smokin for an old lady, so i can c y u chose her

Jade: ...what?

Calliope: Lets keep this train of introdUctions going, Dave YoU’re Up love!

Dave: im dave, and im a barbarian. im a level 4 chaotic good guy i guess, gettin my rage on with my magic shit talking sword and doin all kinds of awesome shit!

Roxy: u men like connan the barbarian?

Dave: no, not liek conan Dave: *like Dave: fuck

Roxy: wats ur backstory?

Dave: im a kickass barbarian, i showed up one day and started kicking ass, what more backstory do you need?

Roxy: that sunds lame

Dave: youre lame

Calliope: Moving on, John, how aboUt we introdUce yoUr character?

John: im Salamon of the Hearthlands, a level 4 neutral good halfling jester!

Roxy: wats a halflin?

John: they’re pretty much just hobbits but a bit more... “earthly” i think would be a good word to describe them? they’re sort more vice than virtue and do things like eat a lot of food, take whats not theirs and breed like rabbits.

Roxy: le gasp, ur a bunny boy! that sounds adorable!

John: heh, no, im not a bunny, but i guess i am bunny-like in that sense

Jade: you know, that would actually be a good fursona for you

John: eh, nah, its not really my thing, besides im more like a tiger

Jade: hahahaha! no you’re not!

John: in fact i think would be more like tigra from thundercats

Jade: i said no. you’re fucking. not.

John: uuuuh!!!

Roxy: calli!

Calliope: Yes Roxy, what is it?

Roxy: can u make jon into a bunny boy?

Calliope: I... can, bUt I need a good reason like a magical invocation or something like that, I cannot simply do as I wish with the players whenever I wish.

Calliope: Besides, the game has not started. Rose, why dont yoU go next?

Rose: 𝐼 𝒶𝓂 𝒶 𝒩𝑒𝓊𝓉𝓇𝒶𝓁 𝐸𝓋𝒾𝓁 𝒟𝓇𝑜𝓌 𝒩𝑒𝒸𝓇𝑜𝓂𝒶𝓃𝒸𝑒𝓇, 𝒞𝓎𝒶𝒾𝓃𝑒 𝑜𝒻 𝐻𝑜𝓊𝓈𝑒 𝒢𝓊𝓁’𝒢𝒶𝓃. 𝑀𝓎 𝑀𝑜𝓉𝒽𝑒𝓇, 𝓌𝒽𝑜 𝒹𝑒𝓈𝒾𝓇𝑒𝒹 𝒻𝑜𝓇 𝓂𝑒 𝓉𝑜 𝒷𝑒𝒸𝑜𝓂𝑒 𝒶 𝒫𝓇𝒾𝑒𝓈𝓉𝑒𝓈𝓈 𝓉𝑜 𝐿𝑜𝓁𝓉𝒽, 𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝒻𝑜𝓇 𝓉𝒽𝒾𝓈, 𝐼 𝓈𝓁𝒶𝓎𝑒𝒹 𝒽𝑒𝓇 𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝓊𝓈𝑒𝒹 𝓂𝓎 𝒩𝑒𝒸𝓇𝑜𝓂𝒶𝓃𝒸𝓎 𝓉𝑜 𝓇𝑒𝓈𝓊𝓇𝓇𝑒𝒸𝓉 𝒽𝑒𝓇 𝒶𝓈 𝓂𝓎 𝓅𝓊𝓅𝓅𝑒𝓉, 𝒷𝓊𝓉 𝒶𝓁𝒶𝓈, 𝓂𝓎 𝓅𝓁𝑜𝓉 𝓉𝑜 𝓉𝒶𝓀𝑒 𝒸𝑜𝓃𝓉𝓇𝑜𝓁 𝑜𝒻 𝓂𝓎 𝐻𝑜𝓊𝓈𝑒 𝓌𝒶𝓈 𝒻𝑜𝓊𝓃𝒹 𝑜𝓊𝓉 𝒶𝓈 𝐼 𝓂𝒶𝒹𝑒 𝒶 𝓂𝒾𝓈𝓉𝒶𝓀𝑒 𝒾𝓃 𝒸𝒶𝓈𝓉𝒾𝓃𝑔 𝓂𝓎 𝓈𝓅𝑒𝓁𝓁 𝒻𝑜𝓇 𝓀𝑒𝑒𝓅𝒾𝓃𝑔 𝒽𝑒𝓇 𝒻𝓇𝑜𝓂 𝓇𝑜𝓉𝓉𝒾𝓃𝑔 𝓉𝑜𝑜 𝓆𝓊𝒾𝒸𝓀𝓁𝓎, 𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝐼 𝒽𝒶𝓋𝑒 𝓈𝑒𝓃𝓈𝑒 𝒷𝑒𝑒𝓃 𝒾𝓃 𝑒𝓍𝒾𝓁𝑒 𝒻𝓇𝑜𝓂 𝓂𝓎 𝒽𝑜𝓂𝑒 𝑜𝒻 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝒟𝒶𝓇𝓀 𝐸𝓁𝒻 𝒞𝒾𝓉𝓎, 𝑀𝑒𝓃𝓏𝑜𝒷𝑒𝓇𝓇𝒶𝓃𝓏𝒶𝓃, 𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝓃𝑜𝓌 𝓅𝓁𝑜𝓉 𝓂𝓎 𝒾𝓃𝑒𝓋𝒾𝓉𝒶𝒷𝓁𝑒 𝓇𝑒𝓉𝓊𝓇𝓃 𝓉𝑜 𝓇𝑒𝒸𝓁𝒶𝒾𝓂 𝓂𝓎 𝒷𝒾𝓇𝓉𝒽𝓇𝒾𝑔𝒽𝓉 𝒶𝓈 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝓈𝓊𝓅𝓇𝑒𝓂𝑒 𝓇𝓊𝓁𝑒𝓇 𝑜𝒻 𝓂𝓎 𝐻𝑜𝓊𝓈𝑒, 𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝓅𝑜𝓈𝓈𝒾𝒷𝓁𝓎 𝒶𝓁𝓁 𝑜𝒻 𝒟𝓇𝑜𝓌𝒹𝑜𝓂~ 

Roxy: ur kinda given me the willies theres rosie

Rose: Hah! Thank you! I try to accentuate the nature of the Dark Elves as much as possible~ I am a Level 5 Necromancer by the way, just so we are clear.

Calliope: That was a nice sUrprise, always good to see dear ole Rose to give Us a performance and bring a little life throUgh characterization. Now, for oUr last member, Kanaya!

Kanaya: Salutations, I Am Mildred Of Baldurs Gate! A Neutral Good Human Cleric Of Lathander. I Am Level Three And I Am Looking Forward To Keeping You Out Of Trouble, As I Am The Primary Healer Of The Group. Though I Can Take A Swing With My Shredder Axe If I Wish, I Can Be More Than Helpful In Most Situations! 

Roxy: i dunno boit that but i think ill be hpy 2 have u round when the magical shit hits the fan! Roxy: *about

Calliope: Well, now that we have oUr standing party’s introdUctions oUt of the way, how aboUt we have Roxy introdUce Us to oUr newest member?!

Roxy: what bout u calli, whats ur character?

Calliope: I am the DUngeon Master, I recant the tale to the party based on the actions and decisions they make. Technically, I am all of the characters that are not part of the party! BUt I do have a rather sUltry lass that i have been meaning to play for a while. When my tenUre as DUngeon Master is Up, I shall pass the responsibility of rUnning the game onto others and break her oUt!

Roxy: rly? what is she? tell me!

Calliope: She isn’t finalized, but shes a YUan-Ti Magician, specifically an assistant. Haven’t qUite figUred oUt if shes a fUll-blood or a half-blood.

Roxy: a yankee?

Calliope: A YUan-Ti is more or less a snake person, mUch like myself I sUppose. I’ll admit shes a bit of a self-insert, bUt I made her for immersion for flarping. John helped me in crafting her!

Roxy: oh... he did now, did he?

John: yeah! it was actually pretty fun! learning about the lore of the snake people was kinda neat!

Calliope: Indeed! And in retUrn, helped John create another character to pair alongside with her! He is also a Magician, and she acts as his assistant!

Roxy: assistant huh? does that mean you can make his magic wand

Roxy: disappear?!~♥

John: whoa! roxy!

Calliope: Making a Magicians Magic Wand disappear is childs play.

John: uh calli, thats not what she mea-

Calliope: BUt making his wand spit magical glowing seed, now thats the magic~

Calliope: Mwah!~♥

Dave: whoa-ho, damn!

Rose: Ooo, how racey~

Kanaya: I Must Admit, That Got Quite Raunchy Awfully Quickly!

Jade: you can do that?!

John: ok! moving on! time for your introduction rox, before this turns into a smut campaign.

Roxy: how do u know that it wont turn into 1 when i do get my intro on? ;)

John: rox!

Roxy: relax! im jus teasin y Roxy: *u

Roxy: ok, my character is xerox gundalf the pink! shes a level 1 chotic good gun wizard!

John: gun wizard?! that actually sounds cool!

Jade: that actually sound cool, maybe ill roll one next campaign!

Dave: gotta admit, that does sound pretty bitchin rp as

Rose: Um, Roxy, as creative as that is, “Gun Wizard” isnt a valid class within the ruleset of DnD.

Roxy: wat? naaah, its fine! got xeroxs character shit filled out and everything! even drew her!

Roxy: c? kickass sex witch! put a spell on u make u her enchanted slav! put a magic bullet in ur butt and set her enemies on fire! abraka-sexbang!!

Rose: But we already have a Wizardess! Why don’t you be another class, a legal one such as a Rogue or a Thief?

Roxy: those dont sound legal 2 me sister, sides im a rogue in real life! i dont wanna play a rogue i wanna b a badass gun wizard! calli help me out here

Calliope: Mmmmm, well, while technically “GUn Wizards” are not what they are called, “GUn Mages” are in fact an actUal class! So I sUppose thats no significant issUe

Roxy: gasp YAYS!

Rose: Wait, “Gun Mage” is an actual class?

Calliope: Why yes, it is! QUite the interesting one too, might even roll a character to play as one myself at some point!

Rose: Well, anyways, as I said, we already have a Wizardess, which is myself. So how about you roll Up a Rogue? John can moonlight as one, but he isnt able to specialize as one. Here, lemme just get you started and roll you a character right now!

Roxy: uh, no, imma play a wizard!

Rose: We’ll make her Neutral Good, for maximum opportunity while still being approachable. Some good Dexterity for all of that lockpicking you’ll be doing.

Roxy: rose, water u doin?

Rose: Dump all the skill points into stealth, traps, and lockpicking!

Roxy: ross! Roxy:*rose

John: you know i could just spec into those skills myself, i was planning on doing it anyways!

Rose: We can make her pink, with some blue trimmings~

Roxy: stahp!

*Roxy latches onto Rose’s pen hand, preventing her from drawing further. The two devolve into a bit of a struggle*

Rose: Stop... getting... in the... way, Roxy!

Jade: you do know you can multi-class in this game, right? as in you both can have both.

Roxy: well i don.. wann play... fuckin rogue, i wan be... a wizard of bullets!

Rose: We need a Rogue to-*is bitten*-FUCK! ROXY!

Kanaya: What Is Happening?

*Roxy and Rose devolve to a mother/daughter/sister squabble between petty bitches who both want the same thing, but are unwilling to share, complete with hair pulling, bites, scratches, clothes ripping and an assortment of name calling.*

*Its a good ole fashioned cat fight yy’all!*

Jade: shouldnt someone stop this? like kanaya, isnt this your thing?

Kanaya: ...I... Want To, But I Think I Am Enjoying The Sight Of This Conflict? Should I Do So Anyways?

Dave: with them? nah man itll sort itself out eventually. just let em get tuckered out.

John: ... roll for initiative?

Calliope: Haa! Hahahaha!

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GAY MUSIC CHART - 2018 week 35

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 Here is the recap for this week :

 OUT : Madblush – Homophobic (LW: 16 / WO: 4 / PEAK: 12)

OUT : Troye Sivan - Bloom (LW: 34 / WO: 16 / PEAK: 01 (x5))

OUT : Kim Petras - Heart to Break (LW: 37 / WO: 20 / PEAK: 02)

OUT : Jake Shears - "Big Bushy Mustache" (LW: 39 / WO: 1 / PEAK: 39)

OUT : はるな愛 Ai Haruna -「BONダンス」(LW: 40 / WO: 1 / PEAK: 40)

OUT : Big Freedia feat. Lizzo - "Karaoke" (LW: 41 / WO: 1 / PEAK: 41)

OUT : Hercules & Love Affair feat. Mashrou' Leila - Are You Still Certain (LW: 42 / WO: 3 / PEAK: 38)

OUT : The Aces - "Last One" (LW: 46 / WO: 2 / PEAK: 45)

OUT : Ryan Beatty - "Haircut" (LW: 47 / WO: 2 / PEAK: 47)

OUT : King Princess - "Holy" (LW: 48 / WO: 2 / PEAK: 44)

OUT : Ryan Beatty - "Powerslide" (LW: 49 / WO: 1 / PEAK: 49)

  01 (+ 4) : Years & Years - If You're Over Me (LW: 05 / WO: 15 / PEAK: 01 (x1))

UK - 2018 / from the album "Palo Santo"

 02 (=) : Troye Sivan feat. Ariana Grande - Dance To This (LW: 02 / WO: 10 / PEAK: 02)

Australia / USA – 2018 / from the album 2018 "Bloom"

 03 (+ 5) : Cher - "Gimme! Gimme! Gimme! (A Man After Midnight)" [Audio] (LW: 08 / WO: 2 / PEAK: 03)

USA - 2018 / from the album "Dancing Queen"

An ABBA revival, thanks to "Mama Mia 2".

 04 (- 3) : P!nk - "Secrets" (LW: 01 / WO: 4 / PEAK: 01 (x2))

USA - 2018 / from the album "Beautiful Trauma"

 05 (- 1) : Years & Years - All For You (PSEN Televisual Exclusive) (LW: 04 / WO: 7 / PEAK: 01 (x1))

UK - 2018 / from the album "Palo Santo"

 06 (=) : THE TRIPLETZ - "You Better Fucking Dance" (LW: 06 / WO: 4 / PEAK: 06)

Spain - 2018

"Better fuck with them boys

Better fuck with them girls

Better fuck with them both

Who fuckin cares?"

 07 (+ 3) : Sandro Cavazza, P3GI-13 - High With Somebody (LW: 10 / WO: 10 / PEAK: 07)

Sweden - 2018

A sweet song and a music video which shows bisexuality.

 08 (- 1) : Lizzo - Boys (LW: 07 / WO: 9 / PEAK: 01 (x2))

USA - 2018

 09 (+ 4) : Sam Bluer - "Body High" (LW: 13 / WO: 3 / PEAK: 09)

Australia - 2018

This is his debut music video. A revelation.

 10 (+ 10) : Peter Wilson & Sean Smith - "Verona" (LW: 20 / WO: 2 / PEAK: 10)

UK - 2018 / from the album "The Passion and The Flame"

This awesome cover of the 2017's Estonian Eurovision track from Koit Toome and Laura is produced by Matt Pop.

 11 (- 8) : Adore Delano - 27 Club (LW: 03 / WO: 8 / PEAK: 01 (x2))

USA - 2018 / from the album "Whatever"

 12 (+ 7) : Cheat Codes, Little Mix - Only You (LW: 19 / WO: 6 / PEAK: 12)

USA / UK - 2018

This music video shows a lesbian love at first sight between a mermaid and a woman.

 13 (+ 9) : Troye Sivan - "Animal" (LW: 22 / WO: 2 / PEAK: 13)

Australia - 2018 / from the album "Bloom"

 14 (- 5) : Not.Your.Regular.Boy. - Get Down Make Love (LW: 09 / WO: 10 / PEAK: 09)

The Netherlands - 2018

 15 (+ 3) : Tiago Braga - Ilusão (LW: 18 / WO: 14 / PEAK: 06)

Portugal - 2018

A story of infidelity.

 16 (NEW) : Calvin Harris, Sam Smith - "Promises" (Lyric Video) (LW: - / WO: 1 / PEAK: 16)

UK - 2018

 17 (NEW) : Kylie Minogue - "A Lifetime to Repair" (Lyric Video) (LW: - / WO: 1 / PEAK: 17)

Australia - 2018 / from the album "Golden"

 18 (- 6) : MNEK feat. Hailee Steinfeld - Colour (LW: 12 / WO: 8 / PEAK: 05)

UK - 2018

 19 (- 8) : LOBODA - "SuperSTAR" (LW: 11 / WO: 1 / PEAK: 19)

Ukraine - 2018

The music video is rated 18+ in Ukraine because of the two gay and the lesbian kisses.

 20 (NEW) : Man Meadow - "Play It Loud" (LW: - / WO: 1 / PEAK: 20)

Sweden - 2018

 21 (- 6) : Panic! At The Disco - Hey Look Ma, I Made It (LW: 15 / WO: 7 / PEAK: 07)

USA - 2018

Brendon Urie comes out as pansexual. The funny music and his puppet illustrates that fact.

 22 (+ 3) : Blair St. Clair - Call My Life (LW: 25 / WO: 8 / PEAK: 13)

USA - 2018 / from the album "Call My Life"

 23 (NEW) : Pabllo Vittar - "Problema Seu" (LW: - / WO: 1 / PEAK: 23)

Brazil - 2018

 24 (- 10) : Eureka O'Hara - The Big Girl (LW: 14 / WO: 7 / PEAK: 04)

USA - 2018

This is the first single of the drag queen who was runner up in RuPaul's Drag Race season 10.

 25 (NEW) : Madonna - MET Gala 2018 (LW: - / WO: 1 / PEAK: 25)

USA - 2018

Madonna performs 'Like A Prayer', 'Beautiful Game' and 'Hallelujah' at the 2018 MET Gala in New York.

 26 (+ 6) : Vini Uehara - "Perigo" (LW: 32 / WO: 3 / PEAK: 26)

Brazil - 2018 / from the album "Hear Me Now"

The fashion designer, Youtuber and singer comes out of the closet as gay with this music video.

 27 (NEW) : LP - "Girls Go Wild" (LW: - / WO: 1 / PEAK: 27)

USA - 2018

 28 (NEW) : Chris(tine and the Queens) - "5 dollars" (LW: - / WO: 1 / PEAK: 28)

France - 2018 / from the album "Chris"

 29 (- 1) : Blonde feat. Bryn Christopher - Me, Myself & I (LW: 28 / WO: 6 / PEAK: 27)

UK - 2018

 30 (- 13) : BeBe Zahara Benet - Jungle Kitty (LW: 17 / WO: 12 / PEAK: 07)

USA - 2018

 31 (- 1) : Years & Years - Palo Santo (Live - Vevo x Years & Years) (LW: 30 / WO: 8 / PEAK: 28)

UK - 2018 - from the album "Palo Santo"

 32 (- 6) : CARSON - "Good Love" (LW: 26 / WO: 3 / PEAK: 26)

USA - 2018

The debut music video of Carson Rammelt has been promoted on Billboard Pride's July 2018 Playlist.

 33 (- 2) : Mint Julep - The Promise ("Alex Strangelove" OST) (LW: 31 / WO: 6 / PEAK: 22)

USA - 2018

"Alex Strangelove" is a gay coming of age movie from Nexflix.

 34 (+ 4) : AB Soto - "No More 2 Say" (LW: 38 / WO: 2 / PEAK: 34)

USA - 2018 / from the album "Visibility, Part.1"

 35 (+ 1) : Nacha La Macha - Eres Cobarde (LW: 36 / WO: 6 / PEAK: 11)

Spain - 2018

 36 (- 15) : Smashby - "Someone" (LW: 21 / WO: 2 / PEAK: 21)

UK - 2018 / from the EP "Wild One"

 37 (- 4) : Bruno Gadiol, Gabriel Nandes - Seu Costume (LW: 33 / WO: 8 / PEAK: 17)

Brazil - 2018

The 20 years old singer has been revealed in The Voice Brasil in 2016. He comes out as gay with this music video.

 38 (+ 12) : Davi - "Tenho Você" (LW: 50 / WO: 3 / PEAK: 38)

Brazil - 2018

This is the first single in solo of the member of Banda Uó.

 39 (- 16) : Sharon Needles - "666" (LW: 23 / WO: 4 / PEAK: 17)

USA - 2018 / from the album "Battle Axe"

 40 (NEW) : LVRK - "Heart to Heart" (LW: - / WO: 1 / PEAK: 40)

Sweden - 2018

 41 (NEW) : Kiesza feat. Philippe Sly - "Phantom Of The Dance Floor" (LW: - / WO: 1 / PEAK: 41)

Canada - 2018

 42 (- 15) : Panic! At The Disco - Say Amen (Saturday Night) (LW: 27 / WO: 6 / PEAK: 18)

USA - 2018 / from the album "Pray For The Wicked"

 43 (NEW) : Seeb, Dagny - "Drink About" (LW: - / WO: 1 / PEAK: 43)

Norway - 2018

 44 (- 15) : Not.Your.Regular.Boy. - Crazyland (LW: 29 / WO: 18 / PEAK: 03)

The Netherlands - 2018

Revealed on X-Factor and the Voice, this is his debut single.

 45 (- 10) : Brandon Stansell - "For You" (LW: 35 / WO: 4 / PEAK: 22)

USA - 2018

A sweet love triangle story.

 46 (RE-ENTRY) : Steve Grand - Don't Let The Light In (LW: - / WO: 2 / PEAK: 36)

USA - 2018 / from the album "Not The End of Me"

The music video is a collection of his childhood and concerts footage.

 47 (- 23) : Monét X Change feat. Bob The Drag Queen - Soak It Up (LW: 24 / WO: 12 / PEAK: 08)

USA - 2018

The drag queen was voted Miss Congeniality of the 2018 edition of RuPaul's Drag Race.

 48 (- 5) : 星屑スキャット Hoshikuzu Scat - 「半蔵門シェリ」 "Hanzo Mon Chérie" (LW: 43 / WO: 2 / PEAK: 43)

Japan - 2017 / from the EP "Hanzo Mon Cherie"

We're in love with the first music video of this trio, composed with drag queens Mitz, Meili and Kazue!

 49 (- 5) : Renato - "Cruel Summer" (LW: 44 / WO: 4 / PEAK: 27)

Czech Republic - 2018

 50 (- 5) : FRANKIE x Scott Hoying feat. One Night - Ghost (LW: 45 / WO: 10 / PEAK: 14)

USA - 2018

The music video is an interesting queer remake of Grease.

  ALSO NEW THIS WEEK

 John Duff - "Girly"

USA - 2018

The singer plays Mariah Carey, Madonna, Britney Spears and Beyoncé. Drag queen Bianca Del Rio, Willam Belli and Mariah Balenciaga are also featuring in this music video.

 Josh Wood - "Radio (You and I)"

USA - 2018

 Alaska & Jeremy - "Aliens"

USA - 2018 / from the album "Amethyst Journey"

 Imagine Dragons - "Natural"

USA - 2018

 Cher - "SOS" (Audio)

USA - 2018

 Magnus Carlsson - "Slow Motion"

Sweden - 2018

 Kim Petras - "All The Time" (Audio)

Germany - 2018

 Thalles - "Just When We Were High"

Brazil - 2018 / from the album "Utopia"

 Ivri Lider עברי לידר - "The Prom / הנשף"

Israel - 2018

 ALVIN - "Oui, Papa"

France - 2018

After "Il a dit", this is the new music video of the French singer Alvin Point.

 Villagers - "Fool"

Ireland - 2018 / from the album "The Art of Pretending to Swim"

 HANDSOME - "No Cowards"

Australia - 2018 / from the EP "No Hat No Play"

 Union J feat. Ironik - "Dancing"

UK - 2018

 anaïs feat. Olly Alexander - "No control"

UK - 2018

 NORAZO (노라조) - "CIDER" (사이다)

South Korea - 2018

 Nigel Andrews - "Ik doe mijn eigen ding"

The Netherlands - 2018

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7 ) The votes will close on Thursday, 8 PM, European time.

[royalrastafariannaynays]

Laundry Pods, 7/?

The last time you got into the water, it was that day you couldn’t stop thinking about John. That train of thought got you absolutely nowhere, so in a couple days it was blissfully concealed between a layer of fresh interest in the mer...dude. 

Finally, you’ve decided to do some research. 

It took about a million years with Dirk torrenting whatever the fuck he was working on at the time, but you managed to connect your sand-crusty phone into the wifi and get some proper science shit going on. 

Jade would probably have some cool ideas, of course. And Jake would be overjoyed at the opportunity to talk about aliens. Rose, who’s coming back soon, would ask if you’re suddenly interested in writing alien porn. The thought’s occurred to you, but only as a lucrative venture. 

Obviously. 

I mean, who would write monster porn for fun?

Right?

Anyway, you’re dawdling, scrolling down page after page of google results. Nothing that’s not just obviously complete fiction at first glace shows up. It’s infuriating, to some degree. There are a few sites that speculate on merpeople and their “possible” physiology and like, comparisons to humans. It’s vaguely interesting. And according to the glimpses you’ve gotten, they don’t seem too far-off. 

But nothing. 

A couple reddits about mermaid sightings. A few threads that sound likely, but... eh. They just kinda focus on the tits, or they sound batshit insane. Like, also believe they can turn into a wolf, insane. 

Blinking, you realize briefly that maybe werewolves exist, too. 

Shit. 

After a bit of head shaking and shit-talking your own brain for idiocy of not realizing how fucking crazy it was in the first place that you found a goddamn fish man, you turn to wikipedia. 

Yeah, yeah, not the best source. But it’s the easiest place to go to that would have like, legends. And a few button presses after that, you’re looking at marine biology and water pressure and trying to figure out exactly how many hours and seconds it would take to train yourself to hold your breath underwater for a really goddamn long time. 

Time passes quickly when you’re doing this research. And eventually, you come up with a fuckin’ idea. 

It’s about ten in the evening, and you’re starving. 

About time to go downstairs and eat something. And then, you’re gonna try to make first goddamn contact with this hot mer-dude. 

And he’s definitely gonna hiss like a banshee at you. 

You’re thrilled at the prospect. 

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[kalicofox]

Babystuck Part 6

Betcha thought this’d never happen again! ^_^

Jade ends up making another trip back to the mainland, taking John with her this time, because;

"I'm not going to carry everything we need to take care of four babies for two months by myself!"

Jade ends up making another trip back to the mainland, taking John with her this time, because;

"I'm not going to carry everything we need to take care of four babies for two months by myself!"

You, wisely, hadn't pointed out that she could just stick everything in her sylladex before teleporting home.

So now, you and Rose and Jane were all back in the living room, John and Jade were off somewhere, and Roxy had a lap full of Dadbert that she was busy cooing over, tickling hands and feet and chubby baby cheeks. Judging from the peals of happy baby laughter, Dadbert approved.

"Is that some sort of mind control your useless human wigglers have?"

Oh yeah. And Karkat. He'd followed the four of you into the living room and was keeping half an eye on all of you even as he worked his way through a truly enormous plate of fried grubs.

"Oh yeah, it's horrible." You say, deadpan, "If you don't do whatever these mini-overlords demand, they do this thing that makes your head explode. It's fuckin' tragic; brains everywhere. Happens all the time."

"Riiiight." He's looking at Bro with a dubious expression, and you smirk.

"Totally true, dude."

"He's right." D agrees, leaning over the back of the couch to get a look at Baby Bro. "They've got this psychic scream, man, it's the worst fuckin' thing you could ever hear. Splits your head right open, and blam, brains all over the damn place. It's hell to clean up. Dirk told me what happened." he adds, glancing sidelong at you, and you grimace.

"Sorry man, I was kinda distracted."

He waves off your apology. "Nah, I get it. Jesus christ that's weird though, seein' him without his shades."

You nod, and D's wings flare, settle, then flare again slightly.

"Can I...?"

"Hold him? Yeah, sure man. Knock yourself out." You hold Bro out to D, who takes the baby awkwardly. You get to your feet, then take to the air so that you can really stretch, bending over backwards to loosen up.

Ahhh, sweet freedom. This is bliss.

"Girls are more susceptible than guys." You add, glancing at Karkat, "Something something hormones or whatever."

"Yeah, right." Karkat scoffs through a mouthful of grubs. "Like I'm going to believe that grubs can scream loud enough to explode heads."

"Aww man." You drawl, now fully upside down, "You got us. It's true. They can't scream that loud. But," you add, catching sight of Rose handing Momlonde over to Jake again, "you'd be fuckin' surprised dude."

Surprisingly, Momlonde actually stays quiet for a few moments. Just long enough for Jake to start to relax and for a smile to start stretching across his lips.

And then the whimpering starts.

Instantly Jake tenses up again, looking around wildly to see if anyone else is watching.  You glance away, not exactly not wanting to help him, but more wanting Karkat to get a damn good idea of what human infants are capable of.

"Hush now, you're fine, you're a good baby, yes you are," Jake's voice is half on the edge of panic, and you risk another glance over at him.

He's twisted her around so that her head is on his shoulder, and you wince when you realize exactly what's going to happen to his ear if he doesn't manage to get her calmed down soon.

"No, nooooooo," he moans quietly, "please hush, you're fine, it's fine, it's all lovely and flowers and roses. Rose'll be back soon, please don't start crying again!"

For a second it sounds like his babbling is working; Momlonde hiccups once, twice, settles a little, then screws up her face and wails.

Jake flinches, and you see his arms tighten a little around the baby, which is, you suppose, better than dropping her, but it's actually Karkat's response that you're more interested in.

Your interest is, as usual, rewarded.

This time it's rewarded by the plate being flung ceiling-ward by the startled troll; an action that results in a short lived rain of cooked grubs cascading down across you, Karkat and an unamused looking D, who'd sheltered Bro under one wing when he'd realized what was happening.

"You'd better get him out of here," you tell D, nodding at the baby in his arms, "they're networked or some bullshit, and I really don't wanna deal with two screaming brats."

D blinked, then glanced around and, presumably, noticed that every other teenager holding a baby was making fast tracks out of the room.

"Gotcha." He said, "Message me when it's safe to come back."

And he was gone, only a flicker of yellow-gold-orange feathers around the door to mark his passing.

That said and done, you turn your attention back to Karkat and snicker.

He's got his hands plastered to the sides of his head, covering his ears in a vain attempt to protect himself from the increasingly high-pitched screams up an unhappy baby.

You reach over and pry one hand away from his head, leaning close so that your mouth is next to his ear.

"Now do you believe me?" You ask, and get a vicious glare in response.

That's good enough for you, and you drift over to Jake, easily plucking the squalling infant Lalonde from his arms.

Judging from the grateful salute he tosses you before beating a hasty retreat, Jake is going to be trying to pay you back somehow. Maybe you'll be able to get him to teach you how to shoot. You had always thought that Jade's gun collection sounded kind of cool.

Unfortunately, the change in venue does nothing to quiet the screaming, and you sigh, wishing you still had that pair of noise canceling headphones you'd bought for yourself when you were twelve. Nothing for it; according to the great god google, sometimes the only thing that'll stop a baby screaming is screaming themselves to sleep. And right now you don't have anywhere that you can be sure she won't roll herself right off of, so you've gotta keep holding her.

Fuuuuuuuck.

 You get so caught up in rocking from one side to the other, and forward and back, and rubbing gentle strokes down her back and keeping up a steady stream of meaningless words that you forget that Karkat is still in the room until you glance up and spot him, watching you with a weird, unreadable look on his face.

You don't ask; he won't be able to hear you because he's still plugging his ears, but you tilt your head to the side anyway, trying to show him the question you want to ask.

Karkat shakes his head, tilts his lips up in a weird half smile and heads out of the room, leaving you standing there wondering what the hell just happened.

[lewiselder]

the prayer

my first post about the trainer happened around October. i wrote that entry on Wednesday, February 22nd. this particular event happened the next day. 

the next day. Thursday, February 23rd. 

I texted a couple people about it - Ian, Dana, Jake. i wasn’t sure what to do with it. i was legitimately worried if i posted about it right away that it might seem like i’m bullshitting. instead i’m taking it as a sign. from, uh, (god?) that making this, uh, (blog?) was a good idea. so thanks, guy who i’m about to roast in detail. 

SO, it was Thursday of last week. i had gotten off work a little early and went to the gym.

yeah...the same fucking gym lol

maybe there’s something to be said about Lifetime Fitnesseses. fitnesseses? fitnesseses. or maybe there’s something to be said about the kind of people who can afford a gym that is at least $70/month. probably the latter. 

but i dye grass. so i’m at the gym, in the beginning sets of squatting. from the corner of my eye i notice a dude near me who looks like he’s trying to get my attention. i do every gym go-ers favorite move - stop what i’m doing, take my sweaty headphones off, and turn to dr distracto. 

doctor distracto MD says to me in a syrupy voice, “Are you using this?” - referencing a bench near my squat rack. 

i say no. 

distracto, DDS then says, “hey man we met in the locker room yesterday.”

one armed handsome hero, “oh yeah, i remember...how’s it going?”

***FLASHBACK***

the night before i was getting my shit out of the locker before going home. a dad and his teenage son were using a locker next to me. i had seen them at the gym a few times before. i mostly recognized them because the teenage son always wore these old adidas crazy quick joints that Tim Duncan and John Wall wore in like 2013. 

^^^these ones. notice how i capitalize Tim Duncan and John Wall but not doctor distracto phd. also notice The Big Fundamental’s face here - not entirely dissimilar to mine whilst conversing with professor distractathon. 

any who. this dad ass dad (aka distracto - keep up) and his son ass son are next to me in the locker room. dad ass dad just kinda slides in my ear DMs with a quick, “i see you here a lot.” 

“yeah, i’m here too much” - my standard response to that comment, which gets a laugh like 65% of the time. 

dad ass dad goes on to introduce himself as will (i think). nice name there, will. he made a couple random comments about idk, the fucking gym or whatever, pretty small talk-y. then we part ways. 

***FLASH FORWARD***

so i’m at the squat rack in the middle of asking will (maybe it was bill?) how it was going after he mentioned we had met last night. then bill (phil?) hits me with what, in my life, is the conversational equivalent of an off ball screen you never see coming (but i kinda always see it coming)

phil (gill?) - gill goes: “so how long have you been dealin’ with that?” - sort of gesturing with his chin at my arm. 

me: “uh kinda a while lol i was born with it.” 

willbillphilgill aka distracto aka dad ass dad, in his slow, southern, lawn chair with a bud light voice goes: “Would you mind if i prayed with you?”

lol uh

i said something like - uh, well i don’t really pray...

dad ass dad kinda cuts me off there and goes: “i’ll lead it”

“okay” i say, interested as to what was about to happen. dad ass dad then clasps my right hand in a kind of like, white guy dap stance. 

so i’m standing there. hand in hand with some middle aged texan. in the middle of a lifetime fitness. at 4pm on a thursday. while his teenage son stands next to us. 

then this motherfucker really begins a prayer. it went something like this. 

Dear God. We ask that you heal Lewis here. May he be healed with all of your grace, mercy, and love. All this we ask of you, Lord. Thank you. Amen. 

qwertyuiopasdfghjklzxcvbnm

i quickly felt the holy spirit wash over my poor, withered husk of an arm. yes lord!

nah but i did get to smell his fucking meat breath. 

now mind you this is the day after i’ve started a blog to chronicle, oh i don’t know, THIS EXACT SHIT lol. so him and i release our caucasian clasp. i kinda laugh and say thanks. i don’t remember what he said but it wasn’t much. him and his son wander off, presumably to go reconvene with the other missionaries scouring the gym floor for lepers in need. 

ps - i wonder if this guy and the trainer would have a spirited argument about science vs religion? ROBOT ARM! NO - GOD ARM! NO, ROBOT ARM! NO...

-------------------------

so i stand there. shocked? angry? happy? i was definitely well aware that this was fucking perfect for the project i had just undertaken. so, if nothing else, this blog has already turned what would have been an otherwise unpleasant experience into a (prettygoddamnoffensive) silver lining. big ups to the six, three of which are me in different states of mania, of ya’ll that will read this. srsly. ty. 

so. yuh. the day after i write about that fucking god damn trainer, this happens lol. 

honestly, i was a lot less mad at this guy than i was at the trainer. i really don’t know why. maybe because this dude wasn’t as ready to slice me up, or maybe i was just in a better mood. obv not great that he sees my arm as a disease to an otherwise healthy young man, but.... 

ALSO - gotta address the handicapped elephant in the room which has to be - what exactly did this dude mean/think would happen when he said “heal.” like, is god boutta catch me asleep one day and i just wake up with like 2 regular arms lol??? 2 elbows and 10 fingers and all that bougie shit??? 

man then i’d be just like ya’ll. 

yuck. 

jk - i’ll take one order of elbow pls. 

but anyway. so another instance of austinites being boooooold as fuck. i’m starting to miss the “that ain’t my fucking problem” attitude of St. Louis *swoons* i think a lot of this shit is just more evidence of how dehumanized people with disabilities are. like, son, you wouldn’t go up to some dude with glasses and pray to god for his sight to be restored, would you? but for some reason, every fuckin texan with eyes and a pulse seems to think they have the moral obligation to put their fuckin brisket scoops (hands) on me and offer me their help, advice, and now prayer. 

also, if this is what dads are like, i’m really not missing out on shit. 

so. idk. i guess ball’s in your court @God 

ps if u read this far, i’ll buy you a taco

[thesoundofsimple]

It took me a while to compile these. Maybe I was busy, maybe I didn’t want the closure.  I’m not always so great with closure. I think it was more that i tried and failed to post this several times and it was starting to become too much work. Anyway, I’ve finished the series. This story has consumed me for the last two years. Hey, I’m not a fast reader ok - don’t you judge me. But it’s a nice thing to have something in your life like that for so long, what’s the rush. I’ve compiled a bunch of my fav moments from the book below along with some commentary on some of them. Where to begin... I read this series because of two people. Either in high school or early college my friend Matt insisted that I start reading the Gunslinger series. He was obsessed with it. I was not a king fan at the time and chalked his interest Up to the other weirdo fantasy books he would read about kings and queens and warriors and big bears and those fantasy books you would see in the bookstores with the girls with the big boobs and they are riding a wolf or something from other dimensions and such (you know the ones right?) Sometimes he’d plead with me anyway about how I was missing out. I ignored this but regardless, the seed was planted. As I was reading this, i realized how lucky i was to be able to just keep reading this series unencumbered by the wait for publication. I was never having to wait YEARS for the next book to come out, or wondering if it ever would come out. I kinda got the Netflix treatment on this, i could binge read. I had the sad realization that as obsessed as Matt was with the series, he only got through three. He died a few months before Wizard and Glass which i realize is a small tragedy in comparison to the whole "he died" part but its a tragedy nonetheless. I wish Matt could have been able to finish the series. That would have made him happy. He was a nice person and one of my best friends, I realize writing this, I miss him. The other person implicated here as getting me interested was my friend Amy. She'd been a big King fan since she was a kid. A little kid. A weird little kid according to her, reading fukin Pet Cemetery at age 11 and such. My own 11 year old would have to be committed to a mental institution if she read that book. Amy liked reading in general and I hadn't really been reading any books in a long time and I was embarrassed about that when it came to her so i tried to start reading a bit not to seem like a total degenerate. that kid had a way of making me do things that were good, things i should be doing - nice quality really. She had a way of picking out things for me that, well, I really liked. She was my taste-maker for a few years with stuff like this and I came to believe if she said i would like it, well it was a done deal because she was always right about what i'd like. That said, she was also a little self conscious sometimes about her interests. She'd go on a whole rant about something sorta esoteric and then suddenly become self aware and look embarrassed, say something like "yeah, your girl's a real weirdo, sorry" but I loved listening and learning about lots of stuff (great stuff) i just had been oblivious to. Roland and his friends were among Amy's favorite stories. So a few years later when we, well, didn't talk anymore, and I missed her... quite a lot, I started picking up some of the books she told me about. While Matt put the idea in my head to read these books, I know that the real reason i finally did was to have a tiny part of her around, a one way connection but a connection regardless (now who's the weirdo) And it was nice to be honest. I would have liked to have talked to her about these books, or just say Thankya for putting the idea in my head. 

It’s amazing to me how much the world changed for King from the first book to the last. Or since Matt left. Or since Amy left. Or shall I say, the world has moved on, if it do ya. That the first book was started before I was born and before the last, Harry Potter appeared in the world of Roland. This was an almost uncomprehendingly amazing story. I cant believe it came from one brain. its staggering to me really, truly staggering. Thank you Mr. King. August 1, 2018. 

—————————— My comments in bold You needn’t die happy when your day comes, but you must die satisfied"

“That smell of cooking meat wafting through the air was not pork.”

“sköldpadda tumbled to the red rug, bounced beneath one of the tables, and there (like a certain paper boat some of you may remember) passes out of this tale forever” Loved this reference to IT

“A man can’t pull himself up by his own bootstraps no matter how hard he tries” agreed. reflective of my continuing shift to the left of the political spectrum

“Roland nodded, which wasn’t good enough for Eddie. “Let me hear you say it.”“Hoggie.”“Hoagie.”“HOOG-gie.” Philly! “always tuned to the oldies on WCBS” my mom always had this on growing up. cousin brucie. 

“Anyone who doesn’t think the imagination can kill is a fool” it can. it can make your day or ruin your life

“He leaned forward through the fragrant pipe-smoke. “Son,” he said, “tell your tale. And don’tcha skip a goddam word.”” you knew he was going to believe, i loved this. 

“And she kept the secret. I was the only one she ever told.” Eddie, perhaps remembering that post-coital confidence in the dark of night, was smiling painful” keeping each other secrets... i know that painful smile while remembering

“John offered them a smile that augured well for his future as a dirty trickster: bemused on the surface, sly beneath. well, i just liked this

“Do any of us, except in our dreams, truly expect to be reunited with our hearts’ deepest loves, even when they leave us only for minutes, and on the most mundane of errands? No, not at all. Each time they go from our sight we in our secret hearts count them as dead. Having been given so much, we reason, how could we expect not to be brought as low as Lucifer for the staggering presumption of our love?” and sometimes, they leave, and indeed, are gone.  “and so will the world end, I think, a victim of love rather than hate. For love’s ever been the more destructive weapon, sure.” aye

“To a wide-eyed lad, the tacky tricks of the world’s most ham-fisted prestidigitator look like miracles. ”

“Steek-Tete in Thunder-clap, thinking just briefly of Mr. C. S. Lewis, and the wonderful wardrobe that took you to Narnia. They did not come out in Narnia.”

“What do you know about what it’s like to spend your whole life on the outside, to be the butt of the joke every time, to always be Carrie at the fuckin prom?”

“It was a simple and perfect bit of wordless communication, the sort people who love each other take for granted.”

“My grandfather had a proverb,” Pimli said. “‘You don’t worry about dropping the eggs until you’re almost home.’” “Was it Emily Dickinson who called hope the thing with feathers? I can’t remember” had a friend, she liked this one. 

“Because the only thing talent wants is to be used.””

“Yet he is content enough. The food is good, and although his sexual appetites have subsided quite a bit over the years, he’s not a bit averse to the odd bonk, just reminding himself”“very time that sim sex is really nothing but accessorized masturbation” I cant help but think this is my future. at least it will be accessorized!

If there’s any movie the Breakers never get enough of, it’s Star Wars.” was this a dig a starwars?  “Roland smiled. “A man who can’t bear to share his habits is a man who needs to quit them.”  “Yet still I love you and would serve you and even bring the magic again, if you would allow me, for that is how my heart was cast when I rose from the Prim”

“Even if the torture stops, I’ll die. And you’ll die too, for when love leaves the world, all hearts are still. Tell them of my love and tell them of my pain and tell them of my hope, which still lives.”

“Nerves, he thought, were for people who still hadn’t entirely made up their minds.”

“the rest of the tale will be short and brutal compared to all that’s gone before. Because when katet breaks the end always comes quickly.Say sorry” = king does this thing where he makes a statement like this and you start worrying and reading faster and faster “All is forgotten in the stone halls of the dead. These are the rooms of ruin where the spiders spin and the great circuits fall quiet, one by one”

“He used to tell me that never’s the word God listens for when he needs a laugh.”” “Hush,” he whispered, and she did. The hand caught in her hair pulled. She brought her face to his willingly and kissed his living lips one last time. “I . . . will . . . wait for you,” he said, forcing each word out with immense effort.”

“I probably know more about D-cups than D-lines, and I think that’s true of everyone here”  i take the D line home, D cups are more fun. 

“on order from Viking Motors (“The Boys with the Toys”) in Oxford himself.” i think i stopped into this store last fall

“It was also a stick shift, and she had never driven one of those.”

“Roland and Jake were now bracing their hands against the dusty metal dashboard, where a faded sticker proclaimed AMERICA! LOVE IT OR LEAVE! in red white and blue” was once in a bar in south boston and they have this big sign up that says this. i agreed at the time 15 years ago, now i realize it’s against everything i believe in

“You’re in one hell of a hurry, mister—like the white rabbit in Alice in Wonderland. What very important date are you almost too late for?”  I believe this is what is known as The Baader-Meinhof phenomenon

“Despite his sorrow, there were no tears yet; his eyes felt like hot stones in his head. Perhaps the tears would come later, when the truth of what had happened here had a chance to sink in a little”

“He knelt a moment longer with his hands clasped between his knees, thinking he had not understood the true power of sorrow, nor the pain of regret, until this moment.I cannot bear to let him go.”

“It’s what we call poetic license, Roland.”He nodded, showing unexpected (to her, at least) understanding. “Pretty lies,” he said” =pretty lies, i liked that

“If she had trimmed her bush, maybe she would have taken them off. If she’d known, getting up that morning“

“You wouldn’t dump me without at least . . .” She shrugged one shoulder. The gesture made her look very young. “Without at least saying goodbye?”

“The George Washington,” Marian Carver said. “Or just the GWB, if you’re a native.” i used to listen to the traffic reports as a kid and know all these abbreviations, GWB, BQE, LIE, etc

That man had some hard bark on him

“He opened it and slipped inside with no look back. That, he had found, was ever the easiest way.”

“There were photographs of Eddie and Jake in the folders that were simply too painful to look at. Memories were better.”  “nothing so glamorous, just a retreaded adman from upstate New York”

“Then she screamed. There were no words in it, nor could there have been. Our greatest moments of triumph are always inarticulate.”

“Because the body had a way of forgetting the worst things, she supposed, and without the body’s cooperation, all the brain had were memories like faded snapshots.”

“Good boys go to heaven, and all my friends be in t’other place, toastin marshmallows” 

“It felt strange to laugh, but it was a good feeling, like finding something of value long after you were sure it was lost forever.” this resonated with me

“Oy had decided to live. It was a small thing, but it was a good thing.” It was a good choice. it always is. no matter what. 

“not Sheemie, he’s gone into the clearing at the end of the path, say sorry” thought sheemie deserved a better more dramatic end. “After today she’d see him no more. And that was for the best. Still, she would have given anything in her life to have him make love to her again. You could stay at the apartment for a couple of days and rest up,” she said. “I’d stay with you.” And fuck thy brains out, do it please ya, she thought” sex with an ex? yes please. 

““Bet your bottom dollar,” Roland answered”“and was sorry immediately. He’d learned the phrase from Eddie, and saying it hurt.” has this happened to me, using a phases of a departed only to find is satisfying but satisfying at the same time? i think so...

“In the dark, such visions had a horrible persuasiveness, but luckily she was too tired for them to keep her awake long.”

““It hasn’t been a bad life,” Joe was saying. “Not the life I expected, not by any manner or means, but I got a theory—the folks who end up living the lives they expected are more often than not the ones who end up takin sleepin pills or sticking the barrel of a gun in their mouths and pullin the trigger.”

“Laughter, Susannah would reflect later, is like a hurricane: once it reaches a certain point, it becomes self-feeding, self-supporting. You laugh not because the jokes are funny but because your own condition is funny.”

“But what Roland and Susannah and Patrick heard in a major key, Mordred heard in a minor” i liked this. i have  this really really smart friend but he cant understand the difference between major and minor even when i played him some stuff in piano, hes like “i dont get it”

“Beneath a picture of Roland in profile, he had printed: BEATLES, not Beetles.” WOW i never NEVER realized this! im in IDIOT

“She wondered why everything had to be so damn hard, so damn”“riddle-de-dum) mysterious, and knew that was a question to  which she would never find a satisfactory answer . . . except it was the human condition, wasn’t it? The answers that mattered never came easily.” 

“where she’d learned the art of murder and fallen in love and been left bereaved?”

1. “More important than that, it was unworthy of how much he had come to love and respect her. It broke what remained of his heart to think of bidding her goodbye, but if it was what she wanted, what she needed, then he must do it. 

2. “No,” said he, and she saw he truly was not. She believed she had never seen such sadness and such loneliness on a human face. “Never” 3. “For a moment she thought he would make it easy on her, just agree and let her go. Then his anger—no, his despair—broke in a painful burst. “But you can’t be sure! ” 4. “She took him by the arm and pulled him down and put her lips on his. When she inhaled, she took in the breath of a thousand years and ten thousand miles. And yes, she tasted death.” 5. “He put his face in his hands. It occurred to him that if he had never loved them, he would never have felt so alone as this. Yet of all his many regrets, the re-opening of his heart was not among them, even now. She had brought grace to his life. It wasn’t a word that had occurred to him until she was gone.” this whole section where suzanne leaves roland was kinda hard for me to read, a little to close to home. even tho they were just friends, it was very familiar. 

“A hard rain made for queer bedfellows at the inn; had Roland never heard that saying?”

“Or what if he does know her, somewhere far back in his mind, yet still denies her as completely as Peter denied Jesus, because remembering is just too hurtful?”

“She tosses Roland’s revolver into this litter barrel. Doing it hurts her heart, but she never hesitates.” id never be able to do this. 

“His touch is electric, and she sees that he feels it, too. It occurs to her that he is going to kiss her again for the first time, and sleep with her again for the first time, and fall in love with her again for the first time. He may know those things because voices have told him, but she knows them for a far better reason: because those things have”“already happened. Ka is a wheel, Roland said, and now she knows it’s true. This was a sweet part of the book. Reminded me of a lyric “i get the joy of rediscovering you...”

“And will I tell you that these three lived happily ever after? I will not, for no one ever does. But there was happiness.”

“One taste of the old times sets all to rights”

“All right. I go. Long days and pleasant nights. May we meet in the clearing at the end of the path when all worlds end.” Thank you. 

[gaymusicchart]

GAY MUSIC CHART - 2018 week 33

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 Here is the recap for this week :

 OUT : Aja feat. AVG JO - I Don't Wanna Brag (LW: 24 / WO: 3 / PEAK: 24)

OUT : Aquaria - Burn Rubber (Lyric Video) (LW: 46 / WO: 5 / PEAK: 17)

OUT : Jason Mraz - Have It All (LW: 31 / WO: 2 / PEAK: 31)

OUT : KC Ortiz feat. Big Dipper - "Let's Talk About PrEP" (LW: 37 / WO: 1 / PEAK: 37)

OUT : Hercules & Love Affair feat. Mashrou' Leila - Are You Still Certain (LW: 48 / WO: 2 / PEAK: 38)

OUT : Aretuza Lovi feat. IZA - "Movimento" (LW: 42 / WO: 1 / PEAK: 42)

OUT : HUSH - [ 對等關係 ] / [Peer Relationship] (LW: 45 / WO: 1 / PEAK: 45)

OUT : Davi - "Tenho Você" (LW: 46 / WO: 1 / PEAK: 46)

OUT : Merlot - Bad for You (LW: 49 / WO: 4 / PEAK: 10)

  01 (+ 8) : P!nk - "Secrets" (LW: 09 / WO: 2 / PEAK: 01 (x1))

USA - 2018 / from the album "Beautiful Trauma"

 02 (+ 1) : Years & Years - All For You (PSEN Televisual Exclusive) (LW: 03 / WO: 5 / PEAK: 01 (x1))

UK - 2018 / from the album "Palo Santo"

 03 (- 2) : Adore Delano - 27 Club (LW: 01 / WO: 6 / PEAK: 01 (x2))

USA - 2018 / from the album "Whatever"

 04 (- 2) : Lizzo - Boys (LW: 02 / WO: 7 / PEAK: 01 (x2))

USA - 2018

 05 (+ 3) : Eureka O'Hara - The Big Girl (LW: 08 / WO: 5 / PEAK: 04)

USA - 2018

This is the first single of the drag queen who was runner up in RuPaul's Drag Race season 10.

 06 (- 1) : Years & Years - If You're Over Me (LW: 05 / WO: 13 / PEAK: 02)

UK - 2018 / from the album "Palo Santo"

 07 (+ 4) : Sandro Cavazza, P3GI-13 - High With Somebody (LW: 11 / WO: 8 / PEAK: 07)

Sweden - 2018

A sweet song and a music video which shows bisexuality.

 08 (- 4) : Troye Sivan feat. Ariana Grande - Dance To This (LW: 04 / WO: 8 / PEAK: 03)

Australia / USA – 2018 / from the album 2018 "Bloom"

A music video is finally available.

 09 (+ 4) : Panic! At The Disco - Hey Look Ma, I Made It (LW: 13 / WO: 5 / PEAK: 07)

USA - 2018

Brendon Urie comes out as pansexual. The funny music and his puppet illustrates that fact.

 10 (=) : HOLLAND - I'm Not Afraid (LW: 10 / WO: 5 / PEAK: 03)

South Korea - 2018

Revealed by his first music video "Neverland", the out gay South Korean singer continues to represent LGBTQ issues in his new music video to change mentalities in his country. He hasn't be contacted by the big record label compagnies yet in the kpop industry, which means that the fight isn't over.

 11 (+ 12) : Nacha La Macha - Eres Cobarde (LW: 23 / WO: 4 / PEAK: 11)

Spain - 2018

 12 (+ 4) : Madblush – Homophobic (LW: 16 / WO: 3 / PEAK: 16)

Brazil - 2018 / from the EP "Cactus II"

The single has finally a music video.

 13 (- 6) : BeBe Zahara Benet - Jungle Kitty (LW: 07 / WO: 10 / PEAK: 07)

USA - 2018

 14 (+ 3) : MNEK feat. Hailee Steinfeld - Colour (LW: 17 / WO: 6 / PEAK: 05)

UK - 2018

 15 (- 3) : Not.Your.Regular.Boy. - Crazyland (LW: 12 / WO: 16 / PEAK: 03)

The Netherlands - 2018

Revealed on X-Factor and the Voice, this is his debut single.

 16 (- 2) : Troye Sivan - Bloom (LW: 14 / WO: 15 / PEAK: 01 (x5))

Australia - 2018

The Australian singer deleted a tweet where he said that the song was talking about bottoming. Now, he answer that it only talks about flowers. If the first explanation is real, the brilliant metaphore makes this song an enjoyable gay sex anthem.

 17 (+ 5) : Sharon Needles - "666" (LW: 22 / WO: 2 / PEAK: 17)

USA - 2018 / from the album "Battle Axe"

 18 (- 3) : Not.Your.Regular.Boy. - Get Down Make Love (LW: 15 / WO: 8 / PEAK: 15)

The Netherlands - 2018

 19 (+ 1) : Cheat Codes, Little Mix - Only You (LW: 20 / WO: 4 / PEAK: 19)

USA / UK - 2018

This music video shows a lesbian love at first sight between a mermaid and a woman.

 20 (+ 16) : Bruno Gadiol, Gabriel Nandes - Seu Costume (LW: 36 / WO: 6 / PEAK: 17)

Brazil - 2018

The 20 years old singer has been revealed in The Voice Brasil in 2016. He comes out as gay with this music video.

 21 (+ 26) : Monét X Change feat. Bob The Drag Queen - Soak It Up (LW: 47 / WO: 10 / PEAK: 08)

USA - 2018

The drag queen was voted Miss Congeniality of the 2018 edition of RuPaul's Drag Race.

 22 (+ 13) : Brandon Stansell - "For You" (LW: 35 / WO: 2 / PEAK: 22)

USA - 2018

A sweet love triangle story.

 23 (+ 5) : Blair St. Clair - Call My Life (LW: 28 / WO: 6 / PEAK: 13)

USA - 2018 / from the album "Call My Life"

 24 (NEW) : Sam Bluer - "Body High" (LW: - / WO: 1 / PEAK: 24)

Australia - 2018

This is his debut music video. A revelation.

 25 (+ 8) : Blair St. Clair - Now or Never (LW: 33 / WO: 19 / PEAK: 01 (x1))

USA - 2018

This is the first music video of the drag queen who was a contestant on the tenth season of RuPaul's Drag Race.

 26 (- 8) : Panic! At The Disco - Say Amen (Saturday Night) (LW: 18 / WO: 4 / PEAK: 18)

USA - 2018 / from the album "Pray For The Wicked"

 27 (+ 7) : Kim Petras - Heart to Break (LW: 34 / WO: 19 / PEAK: 02)

Germany - 2018

She will be on first part of Troye Sivan's Bloom Tour.

 28 (+ 12) : Years & Years - Palo Santo (Live - Vevo x Years & Years) (LW: 40 / WO: 6 / PEAK: 28)

UK - 2018 - from the album "Palo Santo"

 29 (+ 10) : Mint Julep - The Promise ("Alex Strangelove" OST) (LW: 39 / WO: 4 / PEAK: 22)

USA - 2018

"Alex Strangelove" is a gay coming of age movie from Nexflix.

 30 (+ 11) : Blonde feat. Bryn Christopher - Me, Myself & I (LW: 41 / WO: 4 / PEAK: 27)

UK - 2018

 31 (- 10) : Keiynan Lonsdale - Preach (LW: 21 / WO: 6 / PEAK: 19)

Australia - 2018

The singer and actor took on stage the award for Best Kiss at the MTV Movies and TV Awards 2018, for the movie "Love, Simon". Meanwhile, the movie is censored in India.

 32 (- 5) : Renato - "Cruel Summer" (LW: 27 / WO: 2 / PEAK: 27)

Czech Republic - 2018

 33 (- 4) : FRANKIE x Scott Hoying feat. One Night - Ghost (LW: 29 / WO: 8 / PEAK: 14)

USA - 2018

The music video is an interesting queer remake of Grease.

 34 (- 15) : Tiago Braga - Ilusão (LW: 19 / WO: 12 / PEAK: 06)

Portugal - 2018

A story of infidelity.

 35 (- 10) : Kodaline - Shed a Tear (LW: 25 / WO: 5 / PEAK: 12)

Ireland - 2018 / from the album "Politics of Living"

 36 (+ 14) : THE TRIPLETZ - "You Better Fucking Dance" (LW: 50 / WO: 2 / PEAK: 36)

Spain - 2018

"Better fuck with them boys

Better fuck with them girls

Better fuck with them both

Who fuckin cares?"

 37 (- 31) : Scott Free - Man Meat (LW: 06 / WO: 4 / PEAK: 06)

USA - 2018 / from the album "Zombie Bathhouse: A Rock Musical"

 38 (- 8) : Pussy Riot - Track About Good Cop (LW: 30 / WO: 3 / PEAK: 06)

Russia - 2018

The band's members, disguised as cops, invaded the stadium during the final of the FIFA World Cup 2018, in front of Putin, to claim more democracy.

 39 (- 7) : Oxygen - "All For You" (Audio) (LW: 32 / WO: 3 / PEAK: 32)

UK - 2018 / from the album "TBA"

 40 (RE-ENTRY) : GoodLuck - "I've Been Thinking About You" (LW: - / WO: 2 / PEAK: 26) South Africa - 2016

Incredible: it took two years for this music video with a gay storyline to be officially uploaded on YouTube and available outside South Africa.

 41 (+ 7) : Jinkx Monsoon feat. Fred Schneider - She Evil (LW: 48 / WO: 3 / PEAK: 39)

USA - 2018 / from the album "The Ginger Snapped"

 42 (+ 1) : Jill Shaw - "Game" (LW: 43 / WO: 2 / PEAK: 41)

Belgium - 2018

This song is about who you are and who you want to be. That's why we can see in the music video transwoman Maxime.

 43 (+ 1) : Ryan Amador - Loverboy (LW: 44 / WO: 13 / PEAK: 06)

USA - 2018

Such a romantic love song...

 44 (NEW) : King Princess - "Holy" (LW: - / WO: 1 / PEAK: 44)

USA - 2018 / from the EP "Make My Bed"

 45 (NEW) : The Aces - "Last One" (LW: - / WO: 1 / PEAK: 45)

USA - 2018 / from the album "When My Heart Felt Volcanic"

 46 (NEW) : Dana International - מי האיש ("Who's The Man?") (LW: - / WO: 1 / PEAK: 46)

Israel - 2018

A music video realized for the Gay pride of Jerusalem.

 47 (NEW) : The Internet - "La Di Da" (LW: - / WO: 1 / PEAK: 47)

USA - 2018 / from the album "Hive Mind"

 48 (NEW) : Ryan Beatty - "Haircut" (LW: - / WO: 1 / PEAK: 48)

USA - 2018

 49 (NEW) : CARSON - "Good Love" (LW: - / WO: 1 / PEAK: 49)

USA - 2018

The debut music video of Carson Rammelt has been promoted on Billboard Pride's July 2018 Playlist.

 50 (NEW) : Vini Uehara - "Perigo" (LW: - / WO: 1 / PEAK: 50)

Brazil - 2018 / from the album "Hear Me Now"

The fashion designer, Youtuber and singer comes out of the closet as gay with this music video.

   ALSO NEW THIS WEEK

 星屑スキャット Hoshikuzu Scat - 「半蔵門シェリ」 "Hanzo Mon Chérie"

Japan - 2017 / from the EP "Hanzo Mon Cherie"

We're in love with the first music video of this trio, composed with drag queens Mitz, Meili and Kazue!

 はるな愛 Ai Haruna -「BONダンス」

Japan - 2018 / from the EP「BONダンス」

Ai Haruna is a famous transgender TV personality and singer in Japan.

 清貴 Kiyotaka - "Feeling So Right"

Japan - 2017 / from the album 「あなたがいてくれたから "Because You Were There"」

The singer made is coming out as gay in 2015.

 東京ゲゲゲイ Tokyo Gegegay - 「BlackCat (short ver.)」

Japan - 2018 / from the album「黒猫ホテル "BlackCat Hotel」

MIKEY and his band has finally a new album and an official fan club.

 LOBODA - "SuperSTAR"

Ukraine - 2018

In this MV, a man is cheating his girlfriend with a guy on the beach. When she see that, she slaps him and then she kisses Loboda in return to revenge.

 Swanky Tunes & LP - "Day By Day"

Russia / USA - 2018

 Ryan Beatty - "Powerslide"

USA - 2018 / from the album "Boy in Jeans"

His debut album has been released.

 Big Freedia feat. Lizzo - "Karaoke"

USA - 2018 / from the EP "3rd Ward Bounce"

 AB Soto - "No More 2 Say"

USA - 2018 / from the album "Visibility, Part.1"

 Jake Shears - "Big Bushy Mustache"

USA - 2018 / from the album "Jake Shears"

His debut album has been released.

 Nikki Borodi - "Lezbionic"  

USA - 2018

 John Grant - "Love Is Magic"

USA - 2018 / from the album "Love is Magic"

 Domo Wilson - "Facts"

USA - 2018

 Tish Hyman - "Fake Smiles"

USA - 2018

The track is #1 in the Top 40 LGBT Urban Chart.

 Taylor Olson feat. DJ Brynn Taylor and Rhea Litre - "Damn"

USA - 2018

 Cher - "Gimme! Gimme! Gimme! (A Man After Midnight)" [Audio]

USA - 2018 / from the album "Dancing Queen"

An ABBA revival, thanks to "Mama Mia 2".

 Peter Wilson & Sean Smith - "Verona"

UK - 2018 / from the album "The Passion and The Flame"

This awesome cover of the 2017's Estonian Eurovision track from Koit Toome and Laura is produced by Matt Pop.

 Smashby - "Someone"

UK - 2018 / from the EP "Wild One"

 Matt Fishel - "I'm Totally Obsessed With Him"

UK - 2018 / from the album "M/F"

 Calum Scott - "What I Miss Most" (Lyric Video) (LW: 27 / WO: 17 / PEAK: 01 (x1))

UK - 2018 / from the album "Only Human"

There is finally a lyric video. A music video will probably come soon.

 QUEST - "Got Me Good" (Lyric Video)

Sweden - 2018

This is the first single of this new boyband, composed by members Alexander, 17 years old and gay, Oscar, 17 and gay, Isak, 16 and straight, and Marvin, 17 and straight.

 Troye Sivan - "Animal"

Australia - 2018 / from the album "Bloom"

 Bilal Hassani - "Djadja" (Aya Nakamura Cover)

France - 2018

The video was #25 on YouTube Trending France, but a lot of homophobes send him and his family horrible messages to in return.

 Alice Caymmi, Pabllo Vittar, Junior Fernandes - "Eu Te Avisei" (Junior Fernandes Remix)

Brazil - 2018

 Gray Pop - "Princesas"

Argentina - 2018

 Dani Umpi - "Lechiguana"

Uruguay - 2018 / from the album "Lechiguana"

 אליעד מלכי Eliad Malki -「לאמור To Say」

Israel - 2018

  See you next week and don’t forget to vote for your best LGBTQA music videos ! Here are the rules :

1 ) You can vote for many videos as you want under the videos on YouTube in the comment section. It could be recent or past music videos, which must provide at least one among the following conditions:

- the music video has LGBTQA related content, in the lyrics or the music video

- the artist is LGBTQA, an LGBTQA icon or eventually ally

- LGBTQA medias talked about it.

2 ) You can’t vote more than 3 songs of a same artist per week.

3 ) In case of an artist who receive votes mostly by a fan base, we will count only one song, in a limited time of 4 weeks of presence in the top.

4 ) You can vote with only one account.

5 ) If you make 5 votes or less, your first vote will represent 5 points, your second vote 4 points, etc… until your last vote and following 1 point. If you make 6 to 10 votes, your first vote will represent 10 points, your second vote 9 points, etc… If you make more than 10 votes, your first vote will represent 20 points, your second vote 19 points, etc…

6 ) People who make 1 to 5 votes form the amateur ranking, those who make 6 to 10 votes form the fan ranking, those who make more than 10 votes form the expert ranking. We form the jury ranking (but this one is for the moment suspended as experimentation). And we count now the ranking of minutes of views of our weekly playlist of the previous week. The Gay Music Chart is the addition of the five charts. In case of equality, the number of votes and the dates of votes will count.

7 ) The votes will close on Thursday, 8 PM, European time.