#jactingchoices

[ao3feed-destiel]

Buried Ghosts and Bitter Truths

Read it on AO3 here!https://ift.tt/3dztKAv

by jactingchoices

“I can’t look at him ��� I can’t look at Jack because when I do, I don’t just see Cas. I see her.”

Sam looks a couple inches closer to walking out. Like a fog has cleared and the weight of expectation has been lifted off his shoulders. Like he’s given up.

His voice is as light as it is sharp, “A girl, Dean? You’re actually going to try and make this about a girl?”

Shame fills Dean’s lungs until his ears ring and he chokes on the weight of the words clawing their way up his throat. He’s going under, attempting to hold back a tsunami with a bucket while his little brother watches with an indifference more painful than his derision.

When he speaks, Dean pitches his voice low in an attempt to disguise the raw edge it has taken on, as if the name had been physically torn from him, entirely unbidden.

“Emma.”

Or

Between 13.04 The Big Empty and 13.05 Advanced Thanatology. Four thousand canon compliant words of Dean Winchester having a breakdown over his total inability to reconcile the fact that the half-human son of Satan himself is just a little boy who needs saving, with the fact that Dean couldn’t save, wasn’t enough to save, his own half-human daughter.

Words: 4137, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English

Fandoms: Supernatural

Rating: Teen And Up Audiences

Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings

Characters: Dean Winchester, Castiel (Supernatural), Sam Winchester, Jack Kline, Emma (Supernatural: Slice Girls)

Relationships: Castiel/Dean Winchester, Dean Winchester & Sam Winchester, Jack Kline & Dean Winchester, Castiel & Jack Kline & Dean Winchester & Sam Winchester, Emma (Supernatural: Slice Girls) & Dean Winchester

Additional Tags: Canon Temporary Character Death, this takes place while castiel is dead in s13, Dean Winchester Thinks Castiel is Dead, Dean Winchester is Sam Winchester's Parent, Dean Winchester is Jack Kline's Parent, John Winchester’s A+ parenting, emmanatural, Angst, Because Emma’s death DID actually affect dean, and yes he did internalise it, no this isn’t justifying his actions wrt jack, just me trying to shoehorn in depth to a plot line I hate, canon-typical suicidal ideation (dean is self sacrificial), destiel is in this but in an “i never told him” kinda way, no beta because this is all concept no execution, you me and the sad angst vibes only what’s quality control

Link: https://ift.tt/3dztKAv

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Just in case anyone's interested, Buried Ghosts and Bitter Truths by jactingchoices on AO3

while we’re here can we like. talk about how fucked it actually was that dean’s daughter was killed right in front of him for being half monster and therefore labeled by the narrative as irredeemably evil, and then seasons later we get Jack’s plot?

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“You should wear more jewellery, like you used to when we first met.” Castiel would have been breaking a comfortable silence, but they were currently in a coffee shop in the city centre of Austin, in the middle of a rather annoying vampire case, so he was instead only making a dent in the crowding din of caffeine-addicted morning commuters. Or: Castiel is REALLY committed to Dean wearing jewellery again. Almost as committed as he is to Dean. !!!fandom, !!fic, |site:archiveofourown, +fandom:supernatural, ::rating:general.audiences, character:castiel.(supernatural), character:castiel, character:dean.winchester, relationship:castiel/dean.winchester, ::category:m/m, \no.archive.warnings.apply, ~author:jactingchoices, ~ao3:mostly.canon.compliant.but.finale.denialist, ~ao3:canonverse, ~ao3:drabble, ~ao3:fluff, ~ao3:coffee.shop, ~ao3:super.short, ~ao3:engagement, ~ao3:engaged.castiel/dean.winchester, ~ao3:destiel.wedding.2021, ~ao3:one.shot, ~ao3:the.bickering.to.engagement.trope.is.a.personal.favourite, ~ao3:dean.winchester.should.wear.jewellery.again.actually.though.and.castiel.is.right.for.this, ~ao3:engagement.one.shot, ~ao3:short.and.sickly.sweet.like.cas’.fuckin.weird.honey.blueberry.macchiato click here for mkp's pinboard and more fic recs!

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“I can’t look at him – I can’t look at Jack because when I do, I don’t just see Cas. I see her.” Sam looks a couple inches closer to walking out. Like a fog has cleared and the weight of expectation has been lifted off his shoulders. Like he’s given up. His voice is as light as it is sharp, “A girl, Dean? You’re actually going to try and make this about a girl?” Shame fills Dean’s lungs until his ears ring and he chokes on the weight of the words clawing their way up his throat. He’s going under, attempting to hold back a tsunami with a bucket while his little brother watches with an indifference more painful than his derision. When he speaks, Dean pitches his voice low in an attempt to disguise the raw edge it has taken on, as if the name had been physically torn from him, entirely unbidden. “Emma.” Or Between 13.04 The Big Empty and 13.05 Advanced Thanatology. Four thousand canon compliant words of Dean Winchester having a breakdown over his total inability to reconcile the fact that the half-human son of Satan himself is just a little boy who needs saving, with the fact that Dean couldn’t save, wasn’t enough to save, his own half-human daughter. !!!fandom, !!fic, |site:archiveofourown, +fandom:supernatural, ::rating:teen.and.up.audiences, character:dean.winchester, character:castiel.(supernatural), character:sam.winchester, character:jack.kline, character:emma.(supernatural:.slice.girls), relationship:castiel/dean.winchester, relationship:dean.winchester.&.sam.winchester, relationship:jack.kline.&.dean.winchester, relationship:castiel.&.jack.kline.&.dean.winchester.&.sam.winchester, relationship:emma.(supernatural:.slice.girls).&.dean.winchester, \creator.chose.not.to.use.archive.warnings, ~author:jactingchoices, ~ao3:canon.temporary.character.death, ~ao3:this.takes.place.while.castiel.is.dead.in.s13, ~ao3:dean.winchester.thinks.castiel.is.dead, ~ao3:dean.winchester.is.sam.winchester's.parent, ~ao3:dean.winchester.is.jack.kline's.parent, ~ao3:john.winchester’s.a+.parenting, ~ao3:emmanatural, ~ao3:angst, ~ao3:because.emma’s.death.did.actually.affect.dean, ~ao3:and.yes.he.did.internalise.it, ~ao3:no.this.isn’t.justifying.his.actions.wrt.jack, ~ao3:just.me.try click here for mkp's pinboard and more fic recs!