#izzy posting non jontim??

[lizard-queen-izzy]

Oh hey! If I post art now I can devastate you with my TimSasha angst!

'forgive me not, forget me not'

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There's something so devastating to me about them. Did you know they died just a little over a year apart? Sasha was July 29th, 2016. While Tim was August 7th, 2017. Barely a week over a year apart.

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(Also, by pure coincidence in my designs for them, they both die with almost completely grown out blonde.)

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[lizard-queen-izzy]

It's after midnight, you know what that means? Sad TMA Thoughts With Izzy! Today's unlucky subject is actually not one of our usual subjects. Tonight's subject is Agnes Montague!

Agnes was born to bring on the apocalypse. Born to be nothing more than a harbinger of doom and destruction. Literally the human embodiment of The Desolation. That is so much pressure to have on you from the jump. She was never able to be a normal kid, never able to know her mother. She was raised in a cult, where she was the messiah. The fire was all she knew and all she was, and there was no room for anything else. She was to bring about the end of days.

And then she met a boy in a coffee shop, and everything froze. This was someone who had nothing to do with The Cult of the Lightless Flame. Someone who knew nothing about her, her abilities, her 'destiny'. He just wanted to get to know Agnes, the girl under all of that. He took her on dates, he kept agreeing to go on more, and while they were unconventional and probably not what he initially expected or had in mind, he never turned her away.

He never saw her as something to fear. A literal personification of a fear, finding someone who didn't fear her? How could she not fall for him? Do I think she was in love? Maybe, maybe not. But I do think it showed her love was possible. Even for someone like her. And that hope is what led to her choice to die.

Her own cult didn't know her. They held her at a distance because she was The Chosen One. Even those charged with her care, those closest to her, only knew the idealized version of her they crafted in their minds.

"I saw the sun. So much..power and fire and rage inside of her. Enough to burn the world and leave it nothing but dessert."

"But to look at her. It was too much for most." Arthur Nolan describes her as something powerful but too much to look at or get close to. Even when Gertrude asks: "What was Agnes like?" All he can respond with is: "I..I don't know. I guess that's the thing about being the 'Chosen One'. At the end of it. It was just the.. point. of someone else's story." A man who knew her her entire life, and he never knew her.

"But if she ceased, not in culmination of fire, but a cold and quiet death. Perhaps her spark would return to The Lightless Flame, and she could try again. So we hanged her, as she requested. All because of that most insidious of emotions. Hope." Agnes chose to be hanged rather than attempt a ritual and fail. Rather than find out if she could or couldn't live up to the one thing she was born for. She chose to die on her terms how she wanted. Jack Barnabas showed her there was more to life than what she had, and the Cult showed her she would never have that. So she made her choice.

It feels intentional we never get Agnes's point of view. We never get a long lost statement, or a Gertrude tape with her. We only ever see her as others do, incomplete. And yet her tragedy is still so apparent.

"..that's the thing about being the 'Chosen One'. At the end of it. It was just the.. point. of someone else's story." In never getting Agnes's point of view, she remains just a point in other people's stories. In life and in death, she was a conduit. Other people used her for their own gain, with little care for her herself. Except Jack Barnabas. He wanted her, not what she could do for him, just her. And in that want, he gave her hope. And the will to go.