#ive got art brainworms rn

[eloscore]

[wtftaylr]

hello benny new vegas, prepare to be Dressed Up

i love @effielovesapples body hc for Benny, it's been living in my mind rent free since i saw it SJDJH -- and much like benny new vegas i like taking things that arent mine, /j (sorry if u dont wanna be tagged!!)

[thesunwillart]

Oh shit!! If you’ve watched TLOVM recently… would you be up for drawing a Scanlan maybe? Or a Vax?

had to do bird boy!!

[starboybutler]

thinking about how oliver never wore his glasses at saltburn. he was just fuckin blind the whole time 😭

[pumaskulls]

"Every little thing you do I see

Doesn't feel quite like your relief

I find it hard to sit this still

You've left another hole to fill

I hear you well and I won't pretend

That every other word held ill intent"

[goddslayerr]

smth i should mention is that i use ashton as a means to vent out my frustrations w colonization and. well. the Entire state of isr*el, especially when it comes to the celestial dragons + world gov bc it hits a lil too close to home </3

[vind3miat0r]

reasons why i should be nominated no. 1 Avior and Porter fan :3

Avior

im literally his husband guys trust

people have literally come to me to ask abt his storyline

i have a good portion of his audios memorized

listened to his playlist the most :3

what kind of normal person makes a literal timeline from memory

i have my name as "aviors trans husband" in multiple discord servers

not to mention im literally Starlight

poetry from when the yearning got to me

last but not least, first thing in my description on yt

Porter

i was there when he was introduced‼️ been a fan since day one‼️

I LITERALLY HAVE HIS FIRST AUDIO MEMORIZED IM DEADASS RN IVE LISTENED TO IT THAT MANY TIMES

i wrote about him six consecutive times and have a series devoted to him + Treasure (+their friends)

who made a makeshift playlist because he doesnt have a playlist yet? ME‼️

i have actual brainworms abt him and Treasure they will not leave my brain im deadass :despair: (its genuinely becoming a problem)

edits of Porter and Treasure that i made

i think these speak for themself....

these also speak for themselves....

my tumblr bio

the amazing Jessie Milogreer, creator of the redacted blinkies, made me a Porter blinkie to match my profile :D (i have all of them saved too!!)

art from when the brainrot got to me (fun fact about the first one! i actually drew that the day that Blake's EA was originally supposed to come out. who got moved up in the lineup and his EA dropped later that night?? Porter. i manifested him. youre welcome /j /lh)

i loooove the complexity of his character actually and how he can be a bitch and then be a stone cold killer and then be the sweetest softest man imaginable and all the while hes grappling with himself still trying to find out who he is despite putting up a facade of having it all figured out and MMMMGHSKFHS I LOVE HIMMMM

bonus; nominating myself for the fanfiction category 👍

probably my favorite fic ive written for the fandom is i wanna be yours, wanna be mine. it was purely self-indulgent and i was riding a music high while writing it, and i honestly think its my best work to date :3

uhh yeah thats abt it 👍

thank you for coming to my ted talk 🫡

(@plaqying)

[pomribs]

i dont know if the brainworms have ever been this strong. i keep feeding them and they just keep growing stronger. hannibal, more specifically will graham, more specifically s1 will graham, is genuinely so all consuming its started leaking into my dreams and everything is a hannibal reference and omg will me is so me help??? i actually cannot stop thinking about him like u do not KNOW HIM LIKE I DO. ive been ghosting people a lot more recently because the only thing that doesnt drain me physically and mentally after 5 minutes is my fixation. ive dropped all hobbies except watch hannibal, draw hannibal, sit and think about hannibal. i get bored of music unless its from my hannibal playlist. i quote it 20 times a day. i turn every conversation into soemthing hannibal related. i failed my art exam bc i wasnt allowed make anymore pieces on religion or cannibalism so i got bored and just decided not to do it. all day every day no exaggeration idek how to express its all i think about. im hashtag cringefailing SO hard rn

this post is literally actually nothing i just wanted to ramble ill delete in a few hrs LOL sorryyyy for being meaningless on ur dash forgive me

[furymint]

2024 Creator Reflection

FFXIV.

1. Playing with each others' fingers

it was nice to write wwi again... id planned for a complete conversion of nol and eli's story into this verse, but other hyperfixations got in the way and i forgot all my research for it (thankfully I have lots of notes). i liked how both of them are ridiculous here, and how nolanel is able to show both reason and disorder under an incompetent system.

2. Frightened

i think this was the strongest nol/eli writing this year. i had a lot of fun working out the correct verbs and balance during the fight. challenging nol w magic and garleans was also satisfying. i didnt get to participate much in nutley's extraordinary Tower rp plot, so im glad i could write this little bit of nol during endwalker. his silly convo w eli abt crushes is also set during that time.

3. Possessive Hand-Holding

This one is cute. I like culture shocking nol and eli with each other's communities, but i usually do that w nobility or penury, not making nolanel walk into a cruising district HGTHGTHHU 

FFXVI.

1. For Now I Am Winter

i have two more to write, but this is 200 words each (plus a couple bonus longer ones) of teredios in winter. i got to write some wwi au which kind of made me rly happy. i started to get used to the tiny frame as i continued throughout the month, and it rly enabled me to explore some ideas whether or not they fit in such a limit or not. i ended up liking each response in its own way, but i think 4. tinsel, 10 icicle, and 16. candles are my favs. i also need to give a big thank you to my friends for absolutely exploding my emails w comments. you make me so happy 😭😭😭

2. the waves now loose

tall ship brain rot finally indulged in.. it was fun to be back on the water after so long. getting to write invulnerable, young, spiteful dion after coming from my tired post-game dion was also great fun. it took me about 4 months to finish it and it began w this bullet point i cooked up while brainstorming lavendre's 2023 secret santa/No murmur against Fate.

even if this is canon-compliant tedi (the sanbreque navy is REAL OK🤡), i liked getting to establish some more of terence's refusal to accept the wider financial responsibility of knighthood bc that will be big in The Light I Hear ch3. talking abt the violence and tragedy of the ship is what i did best tho i think.

'terence writings words on dion's back w his finger' is a very old concept i had in my pocket for nol/eli which never had the right time. this fic has the longest and most explicit smut ive ever written (which isnt a lot lbr) and i think it finally kicked that bug out of my brain that liked writing it. which is also to say, idk how to reflect on it bc i feel neutral towards it rn. i have a lot of brainworms i need to wake up in 2025 to feel passionate again.

im not gonna put too much detail into this before i make myself upset. i didn't really meet any of my goals from last year. i did a lot of tellier research and made some astounding developments on that end, but not much else. i want to write more no matter what. i can feel the rust on myself every time i try to write, and when i look at my older writing and its beauty i get paralyzed by how i can no longer produce something like it right now.

i had a lot of good times last year too, though, and miku expo was probably the best day of my life. i also got to see kikuo, masashi hamauzu, nothing but thieves, and ffviir2 orchestra. we went to new york and i met karo and anew! i went to tellier's apmnt and found new poems! i made wyvern tails and gave a few out. i played a lot of disney dreamlight and made some decor im rly happy with. i plotted jillian's xmas gift for a while and she really liked it. i enjoyed the new dragon age game a lot. i bought some books im super thrilled to have. i got the sculpture arts aerith statue.

i need to build my stupid pc no matter what. i need to take care of myself. i need to let myself write instead of fearing my inability. im going to finish my degree next year. im scared about 2025, but it'll also be the year me and jillian get to see hachi. i really hope we can see hitorie at miku symphony.

thank you everyone for being my friend

past reflections:  2017 | 2018 | 2019 | 2020 | 2021 | 2022 | 2023

[newttxt]

thanks for my life today (toxic/doomed retainer yaoi that showed up in the Kanjuro tags (where ive been living lately)) ur art rocks in general, but I've got Kanjuro brain worms rn so wanted to thank u for that specific delicious food 🤌✨ have a rad day!!

oh??? yes yes i’m happy to help! but also… if i may ask… 👀 what are your kanjuro brainworms about?

[ragingtwilight]

Tell me about your ocs or just characters u enjoy 👀

i tried to answer an ask or two about my ocs like a year ago and got too intimidated to post/answer bc all i had was a wall of text HAHAHA i think for ocs i would need like, questions and not just the prompt to talk abt them

rn im obsessed with cotl charas tho weee!!!! blorbos from my shows..... both ocs and in-game charas for it teehee, im always nuts for the lamb and narinder but the other bishops (mainly leshy rn) have been rotting my brain too

im actually workin on a fic w him and lamb (and nar lol) bc brainworms, i have some headcanons of the womy boy ive been drawing but my art is slow af so text is way faster HAHA

i like to imagine a majority of the green hes covered in is leaves and they can rustle like a cats fur in patches when irritated, or he can shake his whole set like a rattlesnake rattle

i also like to think you can see his heartbeat in the veins of the leaves, and when hes flustered, angry, having the blood rush to his head, etc- his leaves turn colour like autumn! i havent seen that drawn before and im super hyped to show off my concept doodle bc i actually animated it lol

if i go too into depth i will literally explode but ty for the ask yippee!!!!